#small rant(?) or just ramble..

[azems-familiar]

you know what? like, no, actually, i don't want to see endless reblogs of gifs of people punching nazis with trite comments underneath like "likes charge reblogs cast" or "here's some positive cleansing energy for your blog". actually i want to know what concrete steps you're going to take to support the vulnerable people in your life, because personally, just a hot take here, but i actually believe that it's more important to care for people and act out of love and compassion than it is to act out of hatred and idolize violence. not that anyone would care about this. i swear it's all just some fantasy where people are so excited they finally get to be violent because they actually only care about getting to be the oppressors and have their turn as the boot on someone's neck.

they've been doing this to jews for over a year now, after all.

[holocene-sims]

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september 25, 2021 6:50 p.m. myshuno restaurant

[nots0nu]

Posted very sad (aka lazy) traditional art like. two days ago..have this to make up for that well I work on animations..

[supercorp-land]

It physically pains me to watch the “office overflowing with flowers” scene. like what in the gay shenanigans simpest simp was that?

Sighhh

[risetherivermoon]

i think about the oak twins a lot..especially considering the whole twins ending the world together thing, i just think that its such an interesting concept and i love to play with that, twins and siblings in media are so fun

the fact they're considered "the same person twice" constantly, and the way that they put each other over themselves and others, the codependency and different ways they mirror and reflect each other in different ways...the fact that sparrow was able to argue with henry as lark in such a convincing way that no one suspected it could've been the other twin, how lark is convincing enough as sparrow that it takes noticing the tattoos for sparrows own son to realize he was talking to lark instead-

they're both the lord of chaos, we rarely get a scene where the other twin isn't at least present in the room, and if we do its because they've been forcibly separated from each other- they share initiatives, they're together when we see them in Neverwinter, the school dance, and Papa John's, they share a wife-

like they're so different in ways but also the same, and they know each other as well as they know themselves, and when there was no one else there for either twin they still had each other, they both now how fucked up and shitty they are, yet they stick together and work as one, they both take the blame constantly for each others actions, like how sparrow talks about how he released the doodler as well, even though that was lark, and lark takes responsibility for code purple as well,

i just love them a lot and they're such interesting characters with a cool ass dynamic,

[iamespecter]

I feel like the reason why I'm usually not a fan of my own works and constantly needing to improve is because I naturally thrive off of messy, chaotic scribbly lines in my paintings but there's an annoyingly irritating paint bug in my head that insists that I need to "clean it up" to make my art look more "presentable".

Despite the cozy vibes, the dynamic light and atmosphere of the first painting, I prefer the methods I used for the second one. Yet I go for the first one's process, as it is the most effective way to render.

Truth be told, I don't like how smooth and clean these final products are, and every time, it feels like an obligation I have to maintain, and it is because I use this methods most while doing commissions. But the question is; how would I stop when it's been my method to use for years?

[chewysgummies]

I like how Meeple is classified to be a controller, but I'm planning on playing as them as a sniper

[shirleyjacksonism]

"student life" this "student life" that. girl I haven't been to a club in a year. haven't spoken to another student for longer than 10 minutes since the beginning of uni. haven't made plans with ABSOLUTELY ANYONE. everyone seems to get on well with each other and hang out together and everything and I have only spoken to 3 of my classmates in total. I'm living in my childhood home with my mom. thank you but I think I'll skip this "student life"

[jemmo]

that final scene in this ep of utsukushii kare. it feels like someone just ripped out my gut, slashed it open and trampled over the bloody remains. i want to sob. I want to out loud, fat tears, shaking my body sob. but all im stuck on is hira’s brokenly confused face, kiyoi on top of him grabbing onto his clothes and crying, an absolute tornado of emotion the likes of which he’s never shown, all to hira, all because of hira, and yet hira sits there and it’s like the storm covers him but he’s inside this impenetrable building and not a single drop of rain hits him. he knows it’s raining, he can hear it battering down on the roof, but it’s just rain. he doesn’t understand the full extent, doesn’t know the wind is ripping down trees and lightening is cracking the sky in two. and because he’s inside, he doesn’t need to know, doesn’t care to know, doesn’t want to know. hira will happily stay inside, in his bubble, in his constructed world, and he will be alone, and he will suffer, but that’s alright bc he’s not out there.

it’s like he’s gotten used to the internalized problems he faces, and they stick with him, almost a comfort to him now, in that he’ll see them when they’re not there. the external things that make him worried and anxious now, they’re less so, but hira still is that high school kid, getting picked on for his stutter, that faded into the background. he’s stuck there, and he’s never grown past it, and there’s almost a security in not growing, not changing, even if the thing you’re stuck as is worry and anxiety and invisibility and self doubt and constant internal doubt and criticism and lack of confidence. at least he’s used to it. at least there isn’t anything new to challenge him. and it shows, bc whenever he is challenged, in the sense that something that doesn’t fit he’s established world and role happens, he puts himself down and apologizes, like it’s a practiced, default reaction. that’s how he got through before, it’s how he learned to get through. but now, in the place he finds himself, in the situation and relationship he’s in, this is not a place for that reaction. the people he’s around, kiyoi, he doesn’t need hira to put himself down. he doesn’t need apologies. he wants understanding. and hira just resolutely refused that, said that he not only doesn’t understand hira, but that he doesn’t want to, and he’s not going to attempt to. and I don’t think he could have said anything more heartbreaking to kiyoi. all he has ever wanted was for someone to see him and understand him and love him for it. hira gives him love, unendingly and uncritically. he’s love is irrespective of anything kiyoi does or says or feels. it’s love of an idea, of a theory, of a concept in a pretty shell. it’s not love of the human inside, it can’t be, bc he just said he doesn’t want to understand that person, and without that there can’t be love. you can’t love something you can’t see or comprehend, that there’s a person kiyoi that isn’t the god kiyoi there is in his universe.

and the thing is, I think hira could’ve understood kiyoi, back when he saw a side of kiyoi that no one else did and still showed him love. I think down the line he could’ve gotten to know that person more and liked him, but the thing is, it’s different bc of kiyoi’s feelings. bc kiyoi’s feelings contradict so much what hira believes about himself that he can’t understand him. it’s easier to not know kiyoi that way and stick to his established universe, rather than understand kiyoi fully, bc in that he has to reevaluate everything, about himself and his place in the world and kiyoi’s place too. that is not an easy task. and it’s not that hira wouldn’t, I don’t think. I think there is a feasible future where hira recognizes that choice he can make and chooses kiyoi, chooses to challenge himself out of love for kiyoi and a want to understand him, and maybe even a want to understand and love himself. but bc he doesn’t recognize that as a choice he can make, he can’t do it. and I think that’s what hira needs to face, which I think is more than kiyoi and his feelings and care for hira can manage to accomplish. hira’s mental dissonance is gonna be a work in progress, it’s just a matter or him realizing it and getting to a point of actually working on it. the only thing is, in the meantime, can kiyoi be patient with hira, and the hurt he makes him feel? should he? bc when hira outright refuses to understand, when it feels that rigid and definite, when there’s no feasible future where he will understand, what’s the point? that’s the heartbreak. that hira is constantly worrying about forever, but he just denied a forever with kiyoi. and the problem is him, just not for the reasons he thinks he is. he needs to realize there is no forever with kiyoi the god, bc gods don’t last forever, they’re ephemeral, they’re fleeting. there can be a forever with kiyoi though, the man, the person, the human being, he just needs to step outside, into the storm, and let it soak him. bc when he gets to stand with kiyoi in the rain, he’ll see it’s worth it.

[sugarsweetvirgo]

Eve: Bottling up negative emotions is bad for your health, so you shouldn't do it.

Seto: I know, that's why I bottle up all my emotions, both positive and negative, so it cancels out.

Eve: Th-that's not how that works-

Actually, the two are pretty open with each other.

[pain-is-too-tired]

percy and annabeth should've moved to Alaska send tweet

Other than the whole out of the gods focus thing, I honestly don't see them having a reason they'd want to?

Its too far from anything familiar. I don't see Percy wanting to be too far from his mom and Estelle(i mean, California is already pretty far. Of course he can use Mrs.O'Leary, but still. Long distances still effect her.)

And, why he definitely wants to stop getting drag into things by the gods, camp half blood still holds importance to him. I'd think he'd want to at least stay somewhat in the loop with other demigods and there if something really bad happens.

We see in Tlo that New York/Manhattan is pretty special to him to. Of course he's going to school on California for New Rome, but I see him moving back to New York after. I mean the guy literally shoved Michael out of the way than got actually angry seeing Manhattan put to sleep. I actually don't think it's talked about how Percy's loyalty also kinda includes Manhattan. Like that's his home. Where he was raised, where Camp is close by. He feels comfortable in Manhattan. I just don't see him really wanting to move. I mean, again yeah New Rome exists. But i think that mainly would be the exception because of the safety of it being for demigods and legacies. Even then I see him feeling wierd there considering what we do know about how they are with elite and old money family that lives there.

Alaska is also more dangerous because of it being out of relm of the gods. Percy wants a peaceful life, I don't think he'd want to risk living where he knows monster can still get to them and be more comfortable doing so. Especially if they plan to start a family at some point.

Its fun thought, but definitely don't think it work out well ^^'

[tigers1o1]

Hot take but i don’t feel like rich people who are “bored” should get blue-collar jobs. Like- go find a fucking hobby. People need those hours to survive, they shouldn’t have to fight some old guy that has nothing better to do for it

[quadrantadvisor]

I'm trying so hard not to be a hater but the more I learn about other ttrpgs the more the way that people talk about dnd annoys me

[barrel-of-bones-and-brain-worms]

Why do people follow me? I'm grateful for everyone who has followed me and all, but like why? I'm curious to know why but I'm not gonna pressure any answers out of anyone

[colourfulmes]

Me yapping about my OCS moment ‼️

I think,,, there’s something great about making original characters and making worlds or doing stuff like that,,,

I’ve been doing this stuff as a kid and it had brought me such immense comfort and pleasure to create these characters and pretend they exist in their own world doing god knows what

Kinda kind of crazy to realise that some of my first OCS are nearing their 10th anniversary the closer 2025 and 2026 comes, and it’s also the fact I’ve still clung into these characters I’ve had since I was a kid

Of course their cringey asses have changed but I genuinely love them nonetheless

I’ve been drawing a lot of Tarabell/C lately, from a self insert that I could escape reality from to becoming a symbol of empowerment for myself is kind of wild

Especially when I originally made her OC world as a form of escapism, something I could drag my friends into and imagine anything to their hearts desire. In a way it is still kind of like that but very much different DHDHDHS

My OCS share reflections of a lot of influences in my life and my experiences

Tarabell’s world, the MixScape is this fantasy getaway of all these characters exploring a land full of history and culture, in which any character from any fandom can exist in their wild ass fantasy AU

Isabelle’s backstory and her entire world is dark as hell because at the time my own life felt pretty shitty and I wanted someone to relate ((then she became my comfort OC DGDGSH))

Marks dystopian future kind of represents the possible future of what the world might look like, that’s a whole ramble onto itself tbh

And I have so much more but just thinking about the things I make, I kinda put my heart and soul into it, sharing it to some friends who like my work and it makes me really happy,,,even if I talk about it all the time and I am SURE they are sick of me for that SHDHSHSH

Really tempted to do the “despite everything, it’s still you” with maybe one of my now 10 year old OCS or even with myself and my art journey,,,

Idk,,, I just needed to get that off my chest -3-

[hahawasabi]

Chat i have a confession. The reason why I draw so much art of my sona is because I have been into EddsWorld for the past few days, and the reason why I don't post it is because people might come with pitchforks at me all because god forbid I dare have the urge to ship my oc/ a different character with a character in the show