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[youjide444]

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My one Acolyte Fear

Having seen the trailer and knowing the blurb... I'm a little baffled by the way the trailer is crafted. We're told it's a bit of a mystery show. The trailer has people wondering 'who is killing Jedi? Why?'

And then the rest of the trailer is like : here she is. She's killing Jedi. Why? She's a Sith.

I hope... I hope there's be more to it than that. Because right now I'm only left to think this is a show in which I'll see run after a bad guy I already know about. No greater mystery advertised.

[galactic-rhea]

Hi, the way you draw Baby Anakin in your raised-by-sith AU makes my heart hurt because he is so small and dirty and pure. Thank you for this food.

baby anakin is the cutest sithling that has ever existed

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[lilolilyr]

~ Lilo's 2024 Star Wars recs ~ (another Ao3 year in review)

This is specifically the star wars edition of my reader year in review, the rest & more info can be found here!

Descriptions/summaries by me, click the links for the ones from the authors.

The Good Sith by sonnyrain - Obi-Wan Kenobi and all of the Vod'e time travel and end up on a Sith planet. Obi-Wan, now 'Aranar', turns to the dark side, swearing to protect his men no matter the cost. Over a million words, lots of plot and character developments, fix-everything, still ongoing as of mid last year but you can read the first part(s) on their own.

I love this fic a ridiculous amount, I read several parts at least twice, and I'm thinking about it constantly. Like, when I think up my plotless little fluff piece fix everything bedtime stories I think up to fall asleep (and sometimes when something's good have to forego sleep to write down immediately because I know I won't remember fuckall come morning), I think of the versions of the characters from that 'verse just as often as I think of canon star wars characters or ones from any other fics. It fits into my headcanon 'verse really well because I always work with multiverse settings, and I love the kid characters especially little Sithling Aurek and his twin Soul.

Knives and Spices by argentee, mikaiyawa and others: A whole group of humans from earth is kidnapped into the Star Wars world, and separate fics follow separate characters. One becomes Mandalorian, one a pop star, yet another befriends some pirates and travels to lands we've never seen in canon. 280k, ratings and warnings vary, series still ongoing, parts can be read separately

I love and adore all kinds of self insert stories but this one is just extra levels of amazing - it's basically humans are space orcs meets Star Wars, and humans are all a bit force sensitive - the ending of the series summary describes it perfectly: "how much trouble can a few humans cause? All of it. All the trouble." and I love it all to bits!

Like a Tree by the River by @bairnsidhe - at Galidraan, Komari has a vision of the canon future and decides that she'd rather leave the Jedi behind than be a part of that massacre. Somehow, this ends with her and Dooku being adopted by mandalorians, and her in turn kind of adopting teenaged Obi-Wan at Melida/Daan? 20k T

Idk, this isn't even such a long one and I mean all of BairnSidhe's works I've read are great but somehow specifically this one with Dooku being the 'a bit old' ad and Komari therefore the bu'ad of a random coruscanti Mandalorian just stuck with me and I sometimes randomly think of Dooku being all confused and have to smile xD the plot&writing is also really good!

How a Romance Novel Saved the Galaxy by @arianaderalte: The mandos get their hands on a novel that describes a romance between mandalorians and jedi, and just how perfect jedi really are as partners for mandalorians... This changes things when both groups interact irl. 200k, rated T, Violence

This series has Everything. Jedi, Mandalorians, action, relationships, all kinds of queerness, and excerpts from a romance novel about the ancient Sith wars. Honestly, this fic just couldn't be better! I binge-read through it in one go even though I should have done a million other things at the time and I didn't regret it one bit xD

All the Amavikka stories: the slaves on Tatooine have a separate secret culture with language, myths and names, and Anakin, coming from this culture, reacts to Palpatine being his newest slave master

I think this idea of Tatooine slave culture and of Anakin's characterization is so interesting and I love reading it, from long Double Agent Vader by @fialleril, which I think is the original fic creating the Ekkreth lore, over the ongoing series Biting His Own Tale by @adragonsfriend, to the short story I can't find anymore about depur erecting a tower, a song-fic to Babylon by Dirt Poor Robin and the reason for my obsession with that band - please, if anyone has a link, send it my way! - and all other fics, I love this trope so much!

I think Ekkreth Skywalker was one of the first trope rabbit holes I stumbled into when I got really into Star Wars longfics in the middle of 2024, and I'm always excited to see references to it in fics mainly about other characters as well, like Breaking Chains by @jehanneargentee, and I went back to (re)reading fics about the trope on purpose several times as well :)

The last fic leads neatly into the next trope I really loved this year, Time Travel stories, more specifically Obi-Wan Kenobi time travelling and meeting mandalorians :D

I don't really have more specific stories for this one, I read so so so many of them that they just blur together in my mind. I marked a couple with the Ao3 rec function so I assume I liked those especially much, but going through them now I still don't really remember much, but I do recognize a couple fic author names as authors I read many good fics from, Ariel_Sojourner AppoApples @batshieroglyphics @roosjem LeeTheHobbit @triscribe cjwritesfanficnow @laurabwrites y'all's are awesome! Everyone, go check out all their fics!

I do also read and enjoy stories where people other than Obi-Wan travel through time, one that really stuck with me is In Good Time by morwen_of_gondor, about the Mandalorian trainers Kal Skirata and Walon Vau time travelling back to their time on Kamino.

All the fluffy h/c, fix-it, everyone lives, no order 66 Clone Wars fics! Pro-jedi, pro-clones, anti-sith (which sometimes includes Anakin, sometimes not), usually focusing on the 212th.

I never watched the series and it's been ages since I watched Attack of the Clones, but somehow, probably on the time travel -> Obi-Wan fics -> General Kenobi pipeline, I ended up reading a loooot of clone wars (fix it) fic, specifically lots and lots of Codywan!

You know that lovely feeling of getting into a new fandom without having any preconceived notions or otps or anything, so you can read All The Fic without any ships or bashing squicking you out? Yeah, that was me in Star Wars several months ago, cursed be the Codywan that got to me xD I can barely read time travel fics anymore without mourning the existence of the Vod'e because changing the past usually means they won't be created (unless they're the ones time travelling of course. Love those fics) and where I used to read just about anyone x Obi-Wan (and also anyone x anybody else lmao), I'm not pretty exclusively into Codywan... That being said, there's a reason for that, and that's the amount of amazing fics for that ship that I came across!

Again, I don't have specific fics that I remember because I just read so many one after the other... I guess I'll have to re-read them all. Which is great actually because me not remembering them much means I can reread them basically for the first time! I did mark some as rec but looking through them now I think they're not mainly recced for the codywan... My shippy bookmark tag might give a better overview.

Another ship I got into was clone troopers Waxer x Boil, I like the thought of the Vod'e being a society of to outsiders identical looking but to each other separate people who only see their immediate batchmates as siblings (which would also psychologically make a lot more sense), and these two are just super cute.

One of the first Waxer/Boil fics I read is also Codywan and it's one of these clones&Obi-Wan time travel fics I like so much :D The 212th Attack Battalion's Guide to Saving the Galaxy by Accident by @antigrav-vector and @quarra, it also has some Dooku/Sifo-Dyas which is another ship I really like.

Another one I still want to continue reading is RCAU: Open Skies mainly by @cacodaemonia, what I've seen of it so far is great and the story is So Long (almost 900k, a honestly daunting wordcount and probably what made me procrastinate continuing it, but also Awesome because So Much Fic), it's cute and shippy and no order 66 but also has plot and interesting characters and ocs and I just love it <3

Also similar but less ship centric, I absolutely love all the fics where Fox gets to kill Palpatine. Just, best trope ever. The Corrie Guard deserves a little Sith Murder. As a treat.

Jaster Mereel and his haat'ade (True Mandalorians), there are a bunch of really good ones where they rescue Obi-Wan and the Young from Melidaan, but also in general all the Jaster fics are great!

While I'm very anti guns irl I just love the fictional Mandalorian culture xD with their cool armor and their codex and the language (per my last count I know 90 words of Mando'a just from fic reading osmosis, send me an ask if you want a list lmao), the vibrant culture created by it being a creed, not one species... and Jaster is just my favorite Mando'ad ever, maybe because he doesn't have much canon attached so fanon just went wild? xD there are also a bunch of jedi shippy fics with him and Dooku sometimes in ot3 with Sifo-Dyas, or him and Jon Antilles like the wonderful 100k wip trade your heart for bones to know by @blackkatmagic, and I think there was one with time travelling adult Obi-Wan as well - edit: yes several, by @roosjem @cjwritesfanficnow @batshieroglyphics <3

Skywalker Family Values by Ariel_Sojourner: Sith-son Luke and senator daughter Leia end up in the same summer camp, it ends in a destruction of the speciist camp, a rebellious theatre performance and the reintroduction of their parents... Aka the parent trap/ Doppelte Lottchen AU that is still somehow perfectly in tune with the Star Wars world! 55k, T for violence.

Can't forget the fic that actually got me into Star Wars! At least I'm pretty sure this is the one? I think there was a tumblr post talking about crackfic ideas for a parent trap AU, and I went looking and found this one, which is actually 100% serious and such a good read. I actually made my mom read it as well xD Das Doppelte Lottchen (German original parent trap book from 1949) was one of our favs for her to read to me when I was a kid, and my mom is always looking for new reading material and as I'm mainly reading fanfic, I'm always happy to find fic she'll also like.

And, because I turn everything into a tag meme, maybe some of you also want to show your appreciation for the writers who got us through the last year - everyone who sees this, feel free to make your own post (if it's just Star wars fic I guess you can reblog-add to this one, but otherwise seriously make your own post)! and remember to leave your authors some comments especially if they can't be @-ed on tumblr :) tagging all the authors already tagged above and everyone else who sees this!

here's my 2024 rec list for other fandoms

more of my fic recs • my writing • my Star Wars • Star Wars fic recs

[aberrantcreature]

Sithling ✨

This is a redo of a drawing I did literally hours ago cause I hated it but I LIKE THIS ONE NOW

[1cassis]

The french names of many of Dungeon Meshi's characters are difficult on the tongue and on paper, straight up unreadable. I can't say these names out loud: "Kabrew", "Shrauw", "Sithle"... "ew" should have an accent somewhere, and w's are very rare, often pronounced like "v" or ignored. "Au" makes the "o" sound, unheard of in front of that consonant, and "thle" is typically English, no one would know what sound that's supposed to make. it's a pain!

[timetodiverge]

Sun, Wolf, Wren [Canon-Continuation/Ahsoka x Sabine x Shin Fanfic/E]

Chapter 6: Day Six Everyone needs a good cry every now and then- even sithlings. (Diving into the ShinSoka/SunWolf part of this polycule.)

For @sapphicahsokatanoweek Day 6: “Outcast” (rarepairs/“I am no Jedi”)

[armoralor]

Deliciously Sacrilegious

Pairing: Ahsoka Tano / Sabine Wren / Shin Hati Warnings/Tags: Implied Master/Padawan Relationship(s), Age Difference, Power Dynamics, Threesome, Oral Sex, Nipple Play, Oral Fixation, Sexual Inexperience, Orgasm Control, Masturbation, Kink Negotiation, Praise Kink, Trans Shin Hati Summary: Set during the Ahsoka show (post Fall of the Empire, during the New Republic). Ahsoka has a few things to teach Shin about making Sabine come. AO3 Link: HERE

Sabine sits in Ahsoka’s lap naked, thighs spread open with knees hooked over top of Ahsoka’s. 

Ahsoka has a hand between Sabine’s legs, spreading her glistening pussy lips to reveal a swollen clit and dripping core. Teasing, but not directly touching where Sabine wants it most, Ahsoka holds her open for Shin to see. 

Eyes burning, Shin kneels obediently in front of them both, watching every move with rapt attention. Shin isn’t allowed to touch just yet, needing permission first, but is vibrating with the need to sink her teeth into something.

Tracing a finger lightly along the seam of Sabine’s pussy, Ahsoka taps the throbbing clit once. 

“You’re going to suck here, sealing your mouth then rubbing it back and forth with your tongue.” Ahsoka says sweetly, ignoring the way Sabine writhes on her lap. “Once her thighs start to shake, I want you to pull back and slide down here.”

Ahsoka’s finger moves again, dipping down to rest against Sabine’s soaked entrance, but not yet breaching. “You’re going to clean this up, then we’ll see what you’re allowed to do next.”

Shin nods, only half listening as she watches Sabine’s cunt clench around nothing. The urge to bite mark claim is almost too much, but her training with the Jedi appears to be paying off. Taking a steadying breath, Shin sits back on her heels and waits .

Ahsoka hooks her chin over Sabine’s shoulder, resting against the Mandalorian’s collarbone while considering the Sithling sitting between their legs. “You will stop if I say stop… and you will not bite hard enough to draw blood.”

Both younger women huff at the second part, but Ahsoka pins them with a look that means she’s serious. “Not this time . We’re learning and setting boundaries here, no broken skin.”

Sabine opens her mouth, but a light slap to her pussy has it closing again. Swallowing her words, Sabine bites back a moan as Ahsoka passes over her clit one more time before settling her hands on Sabine’s waist.

Ahsoka lets them both stew in anticipation for a moment, their desperate panting the only noise filling the small cabin room.

“You may start-” the words are barely formed, but Shin is already surging forward, licking at Sabine like a woman starved.

Shin may not have prior experience eating pussy, but her intensity, passion, and willingness to learn makes up for any shortcomings. The movement of her tongue is awkward at first, confidence not quite there but the potential is undeniable. 

The flat of Shin’s tongue rolls against Sabine’s twitching clit, working to find a rhythm that satisfies. It might not be perfect, but the sloppy sounds of Shin’s mouth on her sopping pussy has Sabine throwing her head back. The Mandalorian attempts to hump her hips forward, but Ahsoka’s grip is iron clad. 

“Does that feel nice, Padawan?” Ahsoka coos in her ear, thumbs rubbing soothing circles into her lower abdomen. 

“So- so good.” Sabine chokes out, another hash suck from Shin sending a bolt of pleasure up her spine.

Shin preens under the praise, humming around Sabine’s clit and earning herself another moan. Ahsoka loosens her grip on one hip, reaching down to lightly brush through Shin’s hair. Tucking a sweaty blonde strand behind her ear, Ahsoka offers the women on her knees a kind smile. “Yes, she is good.”

Flushing under the additional praise and attention, Shin tries to refocus her efforts on Sabine, settling on a steady flick of her tongue that quickly has the other women bucking desperately.

The hand in Shin’s hair pulls lightly, drawing her away from Sabine’s pussy. The little Mandalorian looks wrecked, chest heaving with unspilt tears in her eyes. Shin licks her lips, already wanting more .

Sabine whines at the loss of Shin’s tongue, the orgasm that had been building slipping away against her will. Sabine can feel Ahsoka smiling, not even needing to see her smug face. 

“Now I want you to put that tongue to use a little lower. Sabine’s made a bit of a mess, why don’t you help her?” Ahsoka says in mock innocence, as if she weren’t referring to her padawan’s dripping cunt, spread out on display for all to see.

“I can help- please.” Shin responds instantly, eyes tracing the slick puffy lips waiting for her. She can help; she wants to make Sabine feel good and show Ahsoka she is good. At least a little.

“I knew I could count on you. Why don’t you lick her clean and open her up on your tongue? Then we can go back to her clit and think about putting something bigger in there.” Ahsoka says, ignoring the pout and groan Sabine aims at her.

Shin wastes no time diving back in, tongue spearing Sabine open to dip inside. The taste is new to her, alkaline and salty, but now it’s something to crave. Shin wants to taste Sabine in every way, savour every part of her into eternity. 

The thighs around Shin’s head are shaking, breathy moans reaching her ears despite the insulation. Risking a glance up, Shin sees the hand that had been in her hair has moved north, now kneading at one of Sabine’s breasts.

Rolling a nipple piercing between her thumb and forefinger, Ahsoka splashes pleasure pain onto the growing inferno burning within Sabine. Ahsoka continues to worry at Sabine’s piercing, giving Shin a knowing smile as their eyes meet. 

The look in Ahsoka’s eye has Shin circling her own hips inadvertently, hard clit begging for attention of its own. Trying to ignore her own simmering need, Shin closes her eyes and picks up the speed of her tongue, fucking into Sabine with renewed vigour.

Sabine arches her back, the ecstasy constricting all of her muscles. She’s so close, and more than ready to reach the end. Ahsoka must sense her growing desperation, because the grip on her breast disappears to tilt Shin’s chin up instead.

“Look how good you’ve done, can you feel how close Sabine is? I want to embrace that feeling, but don’t get lost in it.” Ahsoka says quietly, holding on to Shin’s face a moment longer. “I want you to go back to licking her clit, but now you can touch.”

Shin swallows audibly, pupils widening further. Nodding in Ahsoka’s grasp, Shin doesn’t think she could find the words to convey how much she likes that idea, even if her voice was working.

“You may use your fingers, but no more than two.” Ahsoka adds, giving Shin’s head a little shake to keep her focused. “Yes?”

Shin nods her agreement, hoping her expression reveals her sincerity. Ahsoka must like what she sees, because she lets go and gently thumbs at Shin’s lower lip. “Good girl.”

Shin lets out a whine of her own, tongue darting out to lick Ahsoka’s thumb wantonly. An eyebrow arches as a smile splits Ahsoka’s face, “We will unpack that later.” 

Shin should be embarrassed but nods again, desperately wanting to continue. Shaking her head in amusement, Ahsoka’s hand pulls away once more, returning to Sabine’s hip.

“Go ahead- make her cum.” Ahsoka says finally, sucking at Sabine’s neck as Shin finally gets what she wants. 

Sabine screams as Shin’s hot mouth returns, assaulting her spit slicked clit like a woman possessed. Shaking from the multiple rounds of edging finally catching up on her, Sabine can’t control the way she spasms as two fingers curl into her with vulgar ease. 

Shin groans at the tight heat sucking her fingers in, release already dripping down to the palm of her hand. Rubbing at Sabine’s clit hard with the flat of her tongue, Shin hooks her fingers violently, knocking against the spongy spot hiding within Sabine’s cunt.

Sabine howls, abdomen tightening in threat of release. Shin looks up at Ahsoka, happy to see the Torgruta nodding at her encouragingly. It’s the only sign Shin needs, sucking harder at Sabine’s throbbing clit as liquid begins to gush from the pussy milking her fingers.

Unable to stop the orgasm crashing into her with the force of a freighter, Sabine finally gives in, letting the pleasure blot out all of her senses. 

Shin fucks her through it all, licking at the release squirting out of her in awe. Sabine rides out the aftershocks, not realizing she’s crying until Ahsoka is rubbing the tears away. Words fail her, but Ahsoka’s gentle caress is enough to keep her grounded.

Over-sensitivity finally winning over, Sabine whines at the tongue still pressing kitten licks to her clit. The pressure is gone immediately, and although it’s what her body wanted, Sabine mourns the loss.

“Very good Shin,” Ahsoka says with pride, smiling openly. “I think it’s time you come too.”

Shin gasps, the thought of her own pleasure being taken into consideration foreign. Blinking up at Ahsoka in surprise, the blonde tilts her head in confusion, unsure how to obey the command.

Something dark passes over Ahsoka’s face, a sad type of understanding that is immediately buried. Releasing the feelings into the Force, Ahsoka starts again.

“If you want, that is. Do you want to come, Shin? You’re allowed to.” Ahsoka says gently, still rubbing soothing circles into Sabine’s overheated flesh. Shin watches the tenderness with a heavy heart, wanting, but not knowing how to get there. 

Nodding, somewhat uncertain, Shin shuffles slightly closer on her knees to rest her head on Sabine’s thigh. Humming in contentment and fighting exhaustion, Sabine’s hand is released from its hold behind her back to reach out for Shin instead. Petting through the disheveled blonde hair, Sabine offers a sleepy smile, “I want to watch you come.”

Shin shivers at the words, fire that had diminished reginiting in her belly. Clit hardening again, Shin sucks at Sabine’s inner thigh, unsure of what to do with her own hands. But Ahsoka is there to take the reins, lifting the burden off of her.

“I want you to take the wet hand you were using to finger Sabine and bring it down to your own clit, okay?” Ahsoka says, her warm presence filling the empty space left behind by fear. Happy to have something to do again, Shin brings the hand that had been inside of Sabine to rub at her own body. “Good girl, I want you to cup your hand and use that to get off. Do you think you can do that for me?”

Letting out a noise of acceptance, Shin grinds into her fist. Spreading Sabine’s release on herself feels deliciously sacrilegious, and Shin can’t help but moan as Sabine tightens her grip in her hair. 

“Mesh’la .” Sabine whispers, captivated by the sight of Shin chasing her own pleasure. 

Shin doesn’t know what the word means, but can feel the intense desire dripping off the word. Rolling her hips faster, Shin gathers her own beading release into her slicked hand, the squelch echoing in the small room. 

“So good for us.” Ahsoka coos, her hand finding its way back to Shin face. Lips spreading eagerly, Shin greedily accepts two of Ahsoka’s fingers, sucking hard as they press down on her tongue. Closing her eyes to focus on the glide of her clit, Shin feels the beginning of an orgasm creeping in. 

Shin can feel the way Sabine is staring at her, even with her eyes closed. Even with half the galaxy standing between them, Shin could recognize the feeling of Sabine looking her way. The hand in her hair tightens, and it’s the sound of Sabine’s breath hitching that sends Shin over the edge.

Spilling out on the floor and splashing her own belly, Shin groans quietly around Ahsoka’s fingers. Her ecstasy is enough to make the room shake, the air growing heavy with the passion burning through Shin. It almost consumes her, but the two sets of hands grounding Shin help pull her back.

Distantly, Shin knows something is being said to her. There is likely a lot being said, and she should probably be listening, but the soft haze settling in is too tempting to not embrace. Leaning into the light, Shin knows she’s safe.

[osidius-el-enfatico]

Do you think sithle and delgar from dungeon meshi ever held each other? Ever kissed each other, gently, and then passionately? Explored each other’s bodies, huddled the bottom of the dungeon?

[youjide444]

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Ffevi and Lyde have this very chilly and awkward relationship wherein every time they run into one another (<like twice a year) Lyde tries to make it end as quickly as possible because she views Ffevi as just another self-interested Sithling with psychic powers in place of a brain, and her presence within her family as a deeply personal insult directed at her specifically. meanwhile Ffevi's earnestly trying to be sociable but her naturally abrasive personality and deeply-ingrained racism is overshadowing the fact that she's blinking at Lyde in morse code trying to get her to reveal where her grandad keeps his sleep meds so she can poison him

[enkisstories]

Planet Batuu, back in the present. The afternoon following Jin’s birth.

The backyard with the serene meditation spot once belonged to wealthy Batuu resident. Only the family had fled at the first sight of First Order spaceships, so now their former home serves as the residence of General Sonderan, whom the First Order has installed as Batuu’s new Governor.

Gavin: "Shouldn't we start training with swords, Sir Connor? With wooden staffs, at the very least? I mean, you're this close to getting your laser sword thingie..."

Connor: "Lightsaber. We are close to getting our lightsabers."

Gavin: "W... we? You mean we both get one? I mean, I don't care! Just being curious here."

Connor: "I need my training dummy properly equipped, so, yes. You'll find that those weapons are near weightless. You have to judge where the blade actually is - or feel it in the force. That's why training with traditional fencing weapons wouldn't help much."

Connor: "Let's continue to focus on building agility, precision and fortitude."

Gavin: "But if you can feel the beam, then it becomes a blade to you for all practical purposes. Therefore, training with a sword would benefit you."

Connor: "Shit. You're right. Why didn't Lord Kylo tell me?"

Gavin: "Let me think about that for a moment... Why would the dark overlord, who makes his apprentices fight each other to weed out the unworthy, divulge a potentially game-changing secret to one of his little sithlings? My, that's a tough one!"

Connor: "I'm his favorite!"

Gavin: "Con'... That only means he'd weep at your passing and maybe demolish a vendor shop or two."

[kenobster]

For ao3 wrapped: 17 & 18!

From AO3 Wrapped [Writers' Edition]

Thank you very much friendo!

#17. Your favorite character to write this year?

Hate to be a cliche of myself, but definitely Anakin! I really never expected to enjoy his POV as much as I have. In fact, at the time of starting the fic, I really wanted to write in Obi-Wan's POV! But I decided that Anakin's POV would be the easiest in the situation because Anakin is the one with the most room to grow in that story (meaning both in the post-Miraj/Hardeen way and the pre-Sithling sort of way lmao). After reading a lot of Husborth's fic at the time, I also kinda wanted to play with a style that was driven by memories of past trauma. Not in flashbacks but in trivial references that were constantly being caused by whatever setting he found himself in. Like, sort of a constant struggle to separate the horrors of the past from the horrors of the present. (Which, sidenote, also happens to be why I chose present tense - present tense is definitely what I'm most comfortable in, but it was a very deliberate choice in this fic. :D) And Anakin's past (re Tatooine, Miraj, and Hardeen plus him being so angry about the injustices of it all worked for that better than Obi-Wan's would have).

What came as the biggest shock (and joy) of writing in his POV was how unreliable it was. I knew that would be the case to some extent but not to the extent it was, purely because he normally has a strong grasp of what's real and what's not (most humans do lol). However, Anakin is unreliable in a way that kind of expanded how I think about the term "unreliable narrator." It's really interesting the way he sort of twists some truths to berate the shit out of himself while twisting other truths to make himself look better. As a character, he's both arrogant/reckless and insecure/self-loathing, which is a total contradiction. So, in his POV, when he twists truth to justify those two contradictory traits, the lies he tells himself become contradictory too. For example, in 5PE, he has had (at least) one mild-to-moderate concussion, the symptoms of which he at first exagerates in order to cope with the guilt for what he feels he caused to happen to Obi-Wan in chapter 7. But when he realizes how bad Obi-Wan's own cognitive symptoms are, Anakin's truth-twisting transforms from the "I need to get away with this" guilt into the self-loathing guilt... and he starts to deny that he suffered concussion at all... as a way of inflicting punishment/hatred upon himself (because, without a concussion, he can say he had "no excuse" to act the way he did).

Anyway those lies are only two amongst many in 5PE, of course. And all of these contradictory lies all delicately balanced by his refusal to think about any of them too hard. Like, if he were to pause for a second and consider everything, his mind would probably rip itself to shreds—no wonder he doesn't like to meditate. It's a clusterfuck in there. XD So yeah, it's fascinating how he is just layers upon layers of contradictions and how much he casually hates himself (but lies to himself about hating himself). I'm very much enjoying Anakin just constantly gaslighting himself and trainwrecking his own life. Super fun.

#18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

Boy, I mean, if we're being fully honest, I had the hardest time writing Mace Windu. I love Mace Windu so much and desperately wanted to do his scene in 5PE justice. At the time, I'd noticed that fandom often tends to use him as the stereotypically strict & lawfully good Jedi, and I definitely see that facet in his personality... but really Mace Windu's capacity to forgive, empathize, and show compassion is boundless. And so much more intense than people seem to give him credit for. He's harsh because he knows the world will be harsher; he's harsh because he cares and wants the young ones to be ready; he's harsh because someone has to raise the concerns that no one is considering; he's harsh because he's fighting for a world that he wants more than anything to be gentle. That's always been my favorite thing about Mace Windu. But when I went to write in his POV, I realized I only understood his character in relation to other characters. I didn't really know what made him tick. In order to understand him better, I actually read the entire book Shatterpoint by Matthew Stover, which I highkey recommend. I originally was only gonna read a few chapters to get the hang of his POV, but then that book was so damn intense and well written that I couldn't help but finish it. My breath was absolutely blown away.

I also really struggled with Obi-Wan's character. In 5PE, Anakin's POV is so self-centered that trying to see anything outside of him is like trying to see through some kind of thick honey. So he's really hard to like... understand. I spend hours trying to dig my way out of Anakin's POV in order to figure out what Obi-Wan's thinking and going through lmfao, and I've had to ask a lot of help. In Every Shadow, he was also frustrating because while Anakin's POV is there and in your face and all-encompassing, Obi-Wan's POV is very featherlight and it kinda dances around you no matter what you try to do. Every Shadow was originally meant to be a very flashback-driven fic. I realized within one chapter of Obi-Wan's POV that the man was refusing to have a flashback, and that, between the two of us, he was the more stubborn one... and that his evasive strategies knew no limits... and that I would never be clever enough to catch him in an actual flashback lmfao. So I gave up on that altogether and had to rework the entire story I'd planned in order to get where I needed to go lmao. In other words, this bitch is s l i p p e r y. Both to characters IN the fanfic, and to ME, the FANFIC AUTHOR. I can't get a fucking grip on him. And he knows it. Makes my life hell lmao, I love him. Luckily @kcrabb88 has kindly betaread a lot Obi-Wan scenes I've struggled with lmao, and I appreciate her dearly. Her Obi-Wan is perfect, and I highkey recommend her fic.

[weirdo-from-bonesborough]

fuckin,,, words from wookieepedia's list of slang that i think someone could name themself. some of these are real-world words btw.

Ada

Dewback

Scratch

Druk

Felek

Shiraya

Aiwha

Hijack

Mopak

Azzameen

Karabast

Naboo

Shabla

Kitling

Felinx

Alwari

Crik

Blinker

Ronto

Fatigue

Sharpie

Meteor

Rollie

Bobaize

Sagrona

Chrome

Haja

Entropy

Rodus

Braze

Fas

Sabre

Rodian

Brix

Crimson

Ama

Gruff

Enster

Fergal

Kessel

Aruetii

Bongo

Dime

Shassa

Impie

Rodie

Rust

Sands

Greenie

Reg

Filswik

Di'kut

Akk

Deece

Ronin

Echelon

Mistryl

Jactna

Grease

Alderaan

Jango

Fierfek

Celestial

Shee

Ajax

Firebrand

Elrood

Rake

Dosh

Gravel

Arcan

Shinie

Jet

Cosmic

Shock

Harpy

Onderon

Triton

Puul

Firework

Aurra

Giju

Jinda

Convor

Goggle

Allana

Shiny

Veermok

Sithling

Anchorite

Kanabar

Cade

Pelikki

Gnat

Sabacc

Sith

Flandon

Kath

Jogan

Reb

Glitch

Krill

Apostate

Skip

Corellian

Puck

Asteroid

Lepi

Flatch

Haarkan

Klick

Glio

Quacta

Vatstu

Pretzel

Malachor

Skul

Civvie

Jaxxon

Flutie

Astral

Solar

Kreetle

Imp

Permes

Ecliptic

Carbon

Krozit

Growzer

Flyboy

Geos

Bith

Pazaak

Utinni

Vector

Bajilion

Barve

Splash

Catnot

Fofo

Tairn

Popper

Murishani

Sprinkle

Gate

Pateesa

Kitty

Scurrier

Krayt

Bandit

Atron

Krinnan

Chakta

Starshine

Kal

Madclaw

Clanker

Bonnet

Andos

Stormie

Garvan

Frizz

Codger

Mandie

Tooka

Osik

Chorus

Bantha

Loth

Zoomie

Mesh'la

Surik

Garthol

Noxious

Sullorian

Chalarak

Yazbo

Ensign

Frotz

Xendor

Blast

Nova

Quinella

Rhyscate

Chirps

Mos

Yaa-yaah

Swoopie

Nerko

Lullaby

Nest

Tabaga

Mynock

Woosh

Blade

Vrelt

Gartal

Dejarik

Yunax

Tarrek

Chaos

Node

Gaggle

Myra

Tinnie

Javis

Blurrg

Rancor

Decor

Walker

Nebbie

Toaster

Piston

Boffin

Nekouda

Warren

Nocka

Check

Toz

Neddle

Murra

Lekku

Bombad

Galatic

Gozgo

Edge

Vair

Womp

Neep

Path

Gallisport

Void

Caraya

Neimie

Chikra

Negatron

Verre

Tibanna

Gander

What if I give myself a Star Wars slang word as a name. It can’t be any weirder than Bones.

[kthingz]

シスル

[1cassis]

Thistle

Sissel

Sithle

Cecil..

I'd love if his name was Cecil as much as Thistle. It's a cute name for him.