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a year and a day
Everyone knows that if you want to make a deal, you go to Eddie Munson.
Desperate to be rid of Jason once and for all, Chrissy makes a deal with the local demon. The consequences areâŠnot what she expected. A story of friendship, love, and paying oneâs debts.
Chapters: 3/13 Rating: Teen and Up Audiences Relationship: Chrissy Cunningham/Eddie Munson Tags: Alternate Universe - No Upside Down, Alternate Universe - Supernatural Elements, Demon Deals, POV Chrissy Cunningham, Friendship, Slow Burn, Friends to Lovers, Romance, Found Family, Roommates, Domestic Fluff, 1990s, Caretaking, Pining
Chapter Three: August
Eddie looks tired the morning of the move. She knows it stormed for a good few hours in the middle of the night, because the thunder and lightning had woken her up, rattling the house.Â
Chrissy had gone to find Eddie at that pointâshe hadnât been frightened, but sheâd known heâd already be awake and she wouldnât be able to sleep until the worst of the storm passed.Â
âGot you too?â heâd asked when sheâd knocked lightly on the doorframe. âCome on, get in.âÂ
Sheâd taken the spot next to him on the bed and heâd read Fellowship aloud until the storm was distant enough for them both to sleep. But even accounting for those lost hours last night, he looks too tired, Chrissy thinks as she watches him check all of the closets, cupboards, and drawers for strays.Â
She puts her hand on his arm when he sticks his head inside the oven and rattles around like heâs going to find the entrance to Narnia tucked away somewhere inside.Â
âEddie.â
âWhat?â
âYouâve got everything. Itâs alright.â
He remains stiff under her touch for another moment, then sighs and pulls himself out and upright, if a little slouched.
Eddie looks grim as he glances around the kitchen, the living room. Even the pegs on the wall are gone now, and it all seems very bare.Â
Her hand moves to his back, and he radiates heat against her palm. She doesnât know if her touch is as comforting to him as his is to her, given that sheâs at least a handful of degrees cooler, but she hopes itâs at least a little helpful.
âAre you sad?â she asks softly, and he shrugs jerkily, then looks down at her with a half-smile.Â
âI dunno. Maybe?â
She rubs a small circle on his shoulderblade and he slumps a little more, sighing.Â
âIt shouldnât bug me; itâs not like Wayneâs still here. But this was our place, at least since my dad dumped me here.âÂ
âHe dumped you?â Chrissy echoes, before cringing a little. Not the most tactful reaction.
âEh. I was, what, five? Six? Old man finally got wise to what I am when I sneezed and set his shorts on fire.â
âHe didnât know?â Chrissy asks, surprised.
âNope,â he says, popping the p. âMustâve come from my momâs side, and sheâd died a couple of years earlier. Surprised us both.â
âOh,â she says, soft.Â
Eddie shrugs under her touch. âItâs alright. He left me with Wayne, which was probably my best case scenario for not turning out a complete shithead.â
A very tender spot under her breastbone makes itself known when she lets herself imagine itâa frightened little boy whoâd already lost his mother, losing the only other parent heâd known for reasons entirely out of his control.
Sheâs never met Wayne Munson, but she feels a sudden, fierce gratitude for the man Eddie loves so much, whoâd kept him safe when his own father wouldnât.Â
âYouâre only a little bit of a shithead,â she says instead of saying any of those things that hurt, and Eddie lets out a startled laugh, wrapping his arm around her neck in a headlock.Â
âTakes one to know one, Cunningham.â
âI had a great teacher,â she says, wiggling out from his hold, only to shriek when he scoops her up with one arm like a football. He takes off for the front door, cackling like a madman. âEddie!â
They leave the home in Forest Hills echoing with laughter.
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the silent realization i havenât been touched by anyone i wasnât related to in years
#i used to be such a touchy person#i used to lay on my friends and share beds and sit close to them#but i havenât let anyone do that since i was 15#something something about how i feel my touch corrodes#i tried to get a friends attention today and i tapped them on the arm#and they ignored me and moved away from me#which i know itâs not that they did it on purpose they probably just donât like being touched#but idk. it made me miss when i wasnât afraid to be physically close to people#i hugged my parents when i left for college#but soon iâll move out for good#what happens then? how many years will i go where my skin contacts no one else?#i think iâm going insane tbh#i havenât talked to anyone irl for four days#since my roommate is gone and everyone i know is his friend#i got used to 2-3 people knocking on my door every night lmao#no oneâs knocked since he left#textpost#vent
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tag vent
#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas#and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when#we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates#just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night#ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me#ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but#she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening#he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by#people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again#i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends#and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer#than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they#helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that#they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient#im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk#tag vent#vent in tags
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pairing: early seasons!spencer reid x sunshine!fem!reader genre: fluff, roommate au warnings: reader is a pretty girl (YOU ARE A PRETTY GIRL !!!!!!) and she wears dresses !! feelings of inadequacy (aka, itâs so hard to find good guys now âčïžâčïžâčïž) sheâs also taking her masterâs degree at Georgetown a/n: i love roommate reader so much guys !!! give me a million requests for them; i will write it âŒïžđ«¶ wc: 936 part 1 | you are on part 2! | part 3
âDate?â Spencer asks despite his knowing, watching as you wrap a cardigan over your shoulders and fix the bracelet on your wrist.
Heâs not in denial about how pretty you are. He remembers it, even back when the two of you were younger. Everyone loved youâ following you around the playground and doing whatever you ask of them. Youâre the sun, he accepted on a hot summerâs day, drowsy from the heatwave while you ate a bright orange popsicle beside him. Youâre the sun and Iâm one of the planets you allow to be near you.Â
Heâs not entirely surprised either when he sees you again, as beautiful as he remembered, surrounded by people of all genders with starstruck gazes, all enchanted by your brilliant smile and embellished words. Heâs not surprised either when you receive so many propositions of romance. A little jealous, maybe, because sometimes he wishes that you would share an ounce of your sparkle with him.Â
âYeah,â you respond with a soft smile, fixing your shoes. âGoing out for dinner. Iâll be home a little late, so donât wait up, okay?â
âOkay,â he agrees, fiddling with the ends of his hair. âYouâll call me, right? If you need anything.â
Your smile widens and you nod. âOf course I will. Thanks, Walter, youâre the best.â
His cheeks glow warm at his middle name and he clears her throat. âGood night.â
âGood night!â
Then youâre gone. He doesnât hear the way you return back to the apartment hours later but earlier than anticipated, or the way you dump your bags at the doorway instead of putting them away in your room as you usually do. He doesnât notice the way the shower runs longer than usual, or the opening and shutting of the freezer door or the clanging of metal spoons. He wishes he did.
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âI give up.â You grip the phone against your ear tighter, your gaze dark with frustration. âHah, youâre on to talk! Youâre getting married in November! Yeah, well, it doesnât help. I hear enough of that from everyone. Bye.â
Spencer flinches at the harshness of your tone. Heâs even more concerned at your initial words. Youâre giving up on something? Youâve never given up on anything. Thatâs one of your biggest charms; you know exactly what you want and youâll do anything to get it. Giving up is simply not in your vocabulary. Except for now, he supposes.Â
âI am soâ so sick of this,â You huff, slumping onto the couch beside him, hugging a Tuxedo Sam plush toy that he bought you for your birthday a few years ago. âThis is so stupid.â
âWhatâs stupid?â Spencer asks cautiously, placing his book down and turning to you.
âPaget is getting married in November,â you say, half happy but half sullen.Â
He nods, perplexed. He knows all about the wedding, especially since youâve come home after shopping for dresses and decided to get his opinions on all of them. âYouâve been looking forward to it since the beginning of the year.â
âI know,â you insist, frowning. âAnd I am excited! But lately sheâs been pressing me to bring someone as a plus one and when I said that Iâd invite one of my friends in my class, she insisted that this is a brilliant time to invite a boyfriend. And she keeps sending me off on blind dates lately and Iâm just ugh!â
Spencer pats your shoulder in an effort to be sympathetic. âThey havenât been going well?â
âThey suck,â You grumble. âRude, stupid, inconsiderateâ the list goes on and I am sick and tired of being treated like an idiot on every date I go on.â
âI see.â
âI know what I want,â you continue, squeezing the plush toy in your lap. âI see it all the time. With my friends and the people I care about. I know how I want to be loved; I know how I deserve to be loved. I just donât understand why itâs so difficult to find someone who would love me the way I deserve to be. And I see all these people falling in love and getting married and having these wonderful relationships, I canât help but wonder if I did something to be so unlikeable.â
âYouâre not unlikeable,â Spencer says immediately, frowning. How can you say something like that? âYouâre the most likable person I know. Thereâs just a lot that youâre not willing to put up with, things that a lot of men do that you donât want to put up with, and they canât understand that.â
He relishes the way you smile, smaller than your usual ones, before leaning your head onto his shoulder. His heart leaps into his throat at the contact, taking in the sweet smell of your perfume. He doesnât understand how someone could ever dislike youâ you and your brilliant smiles and your sweet disposition.Â
âThereâs an old Buddhist saying,â he begins slowly, watching as you take to drawing circles against the back of his palm, âthat the act of bringing you and your soulmate together was 500 years in the making. So youâll find someone. Or maybe youâve already met them.â
âYouâre lovely,â you murmur, drawing a heart then a series of squiggles onto his hand.Â
His cheeks glow hot. âI could say the same for you.â
He thinks of the letters heâs written for you but never sent, all stored neatly in a box. Thereâs one envelope that sticks out from the restâ your favourite colour with a heart wax seal. He decides against giving it to you for the thousandth time.
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Yandere JJK - Yuta Okkotsu
When you leave for a month long mission without telling your close friend and maybe crush, Yuuta. You come back and heâs cracked.Â
Itâd been two months since you left on a mission, only now being able to return back to Japan. When you arrived home to your shared apartment, you had expected a warm welcome from your kind and courteous friend, Yuuta. You imagined heâd tell you, âWelcome home,â ask how your trip was, and offer to make dinner like he usually did on days he felt adventurous enough to cook. The two of you lived pretty harmoniously together, both being capable sorcerers with similar demeanors and all.
What you didnât expect was to be shoved against the wall of the flatâs narrow hallway kabedon style, body pressed flush against your roommateâs, who had a look on his face like he hadnât been sleeping for weeks and just found out the cure to his insomnia was something ridiculously simple, bordering on relief and hysteria.Â
âWhere. Have you been.â He practically growled, your heart beating at an odd pace since he was barely an inch away from your face.
âUhnn, on a mission. But great news-Iâm back home and wonât be working for a bit, aha?â You broke eye contact, unable to withstand the cold intensity of his dark eyes.Â
âAnd you left without telling me? Without telling anyone?âÂ
âWell, to be fair it was a secret mission! It wasnât to be disclosed and even then I knew itâd only make you worry and youâd probably end up trying to tag along somehow. I didnât want to distract you from your work, Yu.â
Your explanation didnât do much to help calm his nerves. You could tell he was obviously worked up, he was breathing hard, his arms were shaking, and his newfound grip on your shoulders was soul crushing. You knew your friend was strong, but the fact that you couldnât move at all from your position was impressive.Â
âSo you just up and left? Thatâs not fair,â His languid voice spoke with quiet rage. He was never one to raise his voice, not even now. âYou donât get to decide that. What if you had died? What if something happened and nobody from home knew anything about it? Would you be okay with leaving everyone behind? Leaving me?âÂ
âNoâŠI meanâŠI wouldnât want that. I mean hey, Iâm here! Weâre good now, right? Iâm fine! Weâre fine.â You said this last part with no confidence, ââŠAre we?â
Yuuta took a step back, staring at the wall next to you because he couldnât stand to look at you. âNo. Weâre not.âÂ
He let you go, moving to turn back to his room. You grabbed his shoulder. âHey-wait! I know youâre upset. I would be too. But please, donât ignore me. I was so lonely on my own, now that Iâm back IâŠwell, is it too selfish to say I want you by my side? I missed you a lot.â Your abandonment issues were about to be the death of you.
âYou trampled on my feelings, completely disregarding how Iâd feel, and now you want pity?â
You deflated. âNo. Just. I just want you. Iâm sorry for hurting you, Yuta. I didnât mean it, really.â
A minute of silence passed you both. You felt like you were about to cry. You sniffled. âI really am sorry.âÂ
He stared at the ground, muttering a soft curse before looking back at you, slowly opening his arms. He sighed. âI can never stay mad at you. I missed you too. Câmere.âÂ
And you nearly leapt into his arms, hugging him tightly. His scowl broke, turning into an ever so slight smile.Â
Coming home wasnât such a bad idea after all.Â
You thought the two of you were cool and were about to offer to order take-out when he threw you over his shoulder, went to his room, and threw you on the bed, locking the door promptly behind him.Â
âUhhhh, Yuuta?â You asked. âWatcha doing?â
He chuckled darkly. âYou confessed to me before your mission, right? And then you bolted before I could even respond. Well, Iâve had a lot of time to think about how I should reply in the past months you were gone. And this is my response.â
Your face grew red. How could you have forgotten about that?Â
He crawled on the bed after you, leering over you like a tiger would its prey.Â
âI love you. More than anything in the world. And when I noticed you left and had no idea when youâd be back, or if youâd come back at all? I thought Iâd go crazy. It took everything in me to not kill the elites that ordered you on the mission and drag you back home myself.â He had you caged between his arms again, voice dropping to something thick and heavy at his next words, âI decided that when you came back, if you ever came back, I wouldnât let you go anymore. I want you by my side forever. And even then foreverâs no where near enough.â
âQuite the romantic, are you big guy?â
He smirked at that. âIâve had enough time to study up on the type of guys you like.â You shivered when you felt his lips glide across your neck, a rough hand slowly sneaking up your stomach, beneath your clothes.Â
âYouâre mine tonight. And forever.â
Tonight was going to be a loooooooong night.Â
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.đ„ Ę Ë LET YOUR HEART BE LIGHT â LEVI ACKERMAN
summary . . . your childhood best friend, eren, invites you to his christmas eve party, but your ex is going to be there. in order to get back at him, levi tags along as your fake boyfriend
contents . . . sfw, fake dating, f!reader, age gap (levi early 30s, reader early 20s), past unhealthy relationships, pining, fluff, humor, miscommunication, light angst, insecure and shy reader, zeke jaeger :/, not so friends to lovers, bff hange, she/they prns for hange â 12.3k
notes . . . my bday gift for my beloved that i have been speeding through the past couple of days, so pls ignore any errors. i adore him so dearly and he means so much to me. it's a little bit cheesy, and may be a little be rushed for christmas, but i hope you enjoy nonetheless. merry christmas everyone i love u all so so much <33
âAre you even listening to me, Hange?â you asked, sighing as you leaned your head back on the sofa, taking a long sip of your wine. The alcohol washed over you, soothed the tension that was wrought within your body as the warmth began buzzing through you.
Hange poked their head up from the simmering pot, a cloud of steam wafting up under the lid. With the combination of vegetables and spices, you were pretty sure that she was making stew for dinner â and far too much for just two of you, by the looks of it.
âSorry,â Hange said, sheepish, glasses falling down her nose. âIâm almost done, I promise.âÂ
You frowned, but waved your hand, letting them return to the kitchen. Hange hummed a tune, their delightful mood such a contrast to the horrific news youâd received earlier in the day.Â
Briefly, your mind wandered off into the misery youâd let yourself wallow in, but Hange came around the corner quickly, stilling your anger. There were two bowls in their hands, and they gave one to you, letting it warm your own palms, the smell deliciously comforting.Â
âSo whatâs this about your ex?â Hange asked, interested, their voice expressive, attentive, as usual. âYou got invited to his party?â
The scalding spoonful of soup slid down your throat, as you prepared yourself to start the conversation from the beginning. Hange was a horrible multitasker, though she denied it, and your entire half-hour of rambling had gone in one ear, and out the other.Â
Though, just as you were about to speak, you were interrupted once more by a knocking at the front door. You glanced over to the source of the noise, then back to your roommate, eyebrows raised. âAre you expecting company?âÂ
Hange laughed a little; it was such a carefree sound, and one that always seemed to be spilling from their lips. âOh, itâs just Levi. I told him I was making a lot of stew, so he could come over for dinner.âÂ
Of course â Who else would be banging at your door at this hour?
You sighed, the sound leaving you in something akin to a small whisper, your expression falling in disappointment.Â
Levi Ackerman lived on the floor below you, in an apartment youâd never been to, living a life you knew almost nothing about. It had been two years since youâd met, when he helped Hange move into your shared apartment, and yet, he was still an enigma after all that time.Â
What you did know was that Levi was a few years older than Hange, many more years older than you, and he always seemed to be around. He was quiet, for the most part, but he had a sarcastic sense of humor that only a few people seemed to understand. Him and Hange were comfortable joking with each other; your roommate never got offended by his comments, ones that wouldâve been scandalizing to some others.Â
For a while, their comfort with one another had led you to believe they were dating. Youâd asked Hange about it one day at dinner, a fleeting comment, as you stuck a fork into your dish.Â
âSo how long have you and Levi been together?â youâd said.
Hange had shot water out of their nose, fell back in their chair, cackling so hard that tears sprang to their eyes. Youâd only stared back like an idiot, poked at your food, until Hange sobered, and apologized for embarrassing you.Â
âOh, itâs not like that,â Hange explained, sipping on their soda, still smiling like youâd told the funniest joke imaginable. âLevi and I are just close friends. My partner lives a few hours away, going back to school. Heâll be moving back home in a year.âÂ
Youâd supposed it made sense, looking back. Their embraces were often stiff on Leviâs end, his affection coming on minimally. Hange was a much more touchy person, so perhaps, thatâs where youâd crafted the image of them in a relationship.Â
Which was a silly one, now that you could see your error in hindsight.
âAnd Levi?â youâd asked shortly after, curious about the man youâd knownâand still knewâso little about.
âOh, Leviâs not with anyone,â Hange had hummed, rolling their eyes like this was a point of contention. âHe doesnât really date.âÂ
âWhy?â
âHe doesnât like to.âÂ
âOh.âÂ
Thatâd been that, of course.
 You hadnât asked any other questions, but in the months that followed, your mind had whirled, piecing together an image of Levi Ackerman that made the most sense to you.Â
He was handsome; startlingly so. Beautiful to the point that you averted your gaze when he glanced at you, your cheeks heating, palms sweaty. A thirty-something, intelligent, quiet man with his act together. He drew women to him easily, took them back home. . . perhaps a different one every night. Maybe he kept them around for a bit, until he got bored of them.
Heâd never romance them, and theyâd never expect that from him. If he called them back, which he did rarely, it was never because he liked them. It was because he wanted something from them, nothing more.Â
At least, thatâs what you thought Levi Ackerman was like, in the times he was outside of the four walls of your apartment. Perhaps your stiffness towards him continued to stem from that caricature youâd created.Â
You sighed, bringing yourself back to the present as Hange let Levi in through the door, his shoes loud against the hardwood.
Really, it was hard not to form biased opinions when Levi offered up so little about himself.Â
When you did talk with him, which was frequently, the conversations always centered around you. He had asked you many times about school when youâd been finishing up your degree; Levi asked you about your job when youâd first started.Â
Of course, he never offered anything up about his job, which you knew must have been quite nice, nor about his family, which you figured must have been quite complicated.Â
And, as always, you were forced to wipe your hands on your pants, the sweat turning your palms clammy, as you scolded yourself for the fact that Levi Ackerman still made you nervous.Â
Leviâs eyes flitted across the room as he walked in, the navy blue irises cool when they met your own. He didnât smile, but he made some sort of acknowledgement of your existence, before Hange had dragged him into the kitchen and filled up a bowl of soup for him.Â
Moments later, he was on one of the chairs before you, the bottle of wine in the middle of your odd little circle. Unconsciously, you had sucked in a breath, looking away, as Levi prodded at his bowl like he was afraid of the contents.Â
âWell, itâs not going to jump out and eat you,â Hange rolled her eyes, snickering, at Leviâs bored expression. âJust try it, Levi.âÂ
âIt smells different. What the hell did you do to it?â Levi let the spoonful fall back into the bowl, the broth dripping off the edge of the silverware. âIâm not participating in any kinds of experiments, Hange, if thatâs what this is.âÂ
âOh, be grateful.â Hange huffed, crossing their arms over their chest. âI followed a recipe. If you donât want it, Iâll take it down the hall to Erwin.âÂ
When Levi said nothing for another moment, Hange made a move to steal the bowl out of his hands.
Quickly, he guided it away.
âNo, no. Iâll eat it. Your cooking may be horrendous, but it certainly saves me time.â
Hange smiled, satisfied, reading between Leviâs cool remark, sensing a thank you in there somewhere.Â
It had been hard, at first, to talk to Levi, and understanding him was a skill that youâd found you could only develop with time. He had a dry sense of humor, said very little with a smile, and could certainly be mean when he wanted to be. His words were often blunt, and even when he was joking, it was hard to tell.Â
Once, when youâd first met, Levi had hurt your feelings. Youâd tried not to let it show, but Hange had known, as always, and had squeezed your shoulder, reassuring.Â
âLeviâs just like that sometimes, but heâs a good person. Just give him a chance. I think youâll find youâre a lot more similar than you think.â
Similar was a bit far-fetched, but you supposed youâd grown to appreciate Leviâs sense of humor. Perhaps you even found him funny at times, laughed at his jokes. He was kind when he wanted to be, even if his communication was a one-way street. There was a distance between you, but a part of you wanted to keep it that way.Â
Levi ate a spoonful of the soup, swirling it around in his mouth before swallowing. His gaze trailed to the ceiling, thoughtful, before muttering some sort of praise. âSurprisingly better than the last stew you made, Hange,â he said, and Hange was pleased, a smile widening across her face. âI assume your roommate had nothing to do with it, did she?âÂ
You made a face at him, not sure if he was insulting you, or trying to suggest that you couldâve improved Hangeâs cooking. Either way, you returned his dry tone, swirling your spoon around in the bowl. âWell, if I did, it certainly wasnât to please your fussy tastes.âÂ
Levi almost cracked a smile at that, but snorted instead, leaning back in the cushion of his chair.Â
For some reason, Leviâs movement seemed to trigger Hangeâs memory, and they flung their spoon out of the bowl, splashing soup on the coffee table, as they pointed it at you.
âWait, finish your story!â Hange cut off Leviâs sentence, and he frowned, but said nothing, getting comfortable on the couch.Â
Today, he was wearing a gray cable-knit sweater, and a beautiful silver watch that likely cost an entire months worth of your salary. His hair had been mussed a bit from the cold, cheeks tinged red.Â
Levi must have come from outside, youâd realized, not just downstairs. Another mystery that you would never uncover â how Levi spent his weekends, besides the time he spent in your apartment.
Distracted, you looked back down at your hands, hating the way that Levi pinned you with his gaze. He was far too attentive, his eyes too intense; even if you had been as confident as you liked to believe, as self-assured, youâd never been able to hold eye-contact with the dark-haired man for very long.Â
âOh, that,â you said, huffing, recalling the news that had been delivered to you earlier that evening. Not so bad, really; you were making a big deal out of something so small. But the casual remark, via a text message from your high school best-friend, had been enough to sour your mood for the rest of the afternoon. âWell, Eren is having a party on Christmas Eve. All of our high school friends will be back home for the holidays, so Iâll actually get to see them for once.âÂ
Hange smiled, their eyes lighting up, but the confusion in her expression shone through knitted eyebrows. âWell, thatâs great!â they said, as Levi sat quietly, slurping on his soup like heâd been raised in some penthouse apartment, a view shining over the city. You could imagine him with a nanny that had been specifically hired to teach him manners. A playful version of Levi as a child was near impossible to envision â you saw him only sitting calmly, politely, hands crossed over his lap. âWhy do you seem so upset?âÂ
You looked away, chewing the inside of your mouth, your stomach turning. It was the last thing you wanted to think about, the way your two desires were at odds. How desperately you wanted to see all your old friends, the ones that were spread all over. None of you had been all together since you were in high school.Â
Yet, the other part of you considered calling Eren and canceling on him, telling him you wanted to spend it with your family instead, that youâd just have to catch up with them next time.Â
Who knew when that would be.
âZekeâs coming,â you sighed, rubbing your arm. âItâs only been a year. I donât want to see him again.âÂ
Hangeâs eyes widened. Slowly, she leaned back, nodding, as understanding flicked through her face. âI see.âÂ
âExactly,â you swallowed the last bit of soup, letting the warmth comfort you, wash over you in waves. Perhaps, it would cleanse some of the anxiety that sat riddled in your chest. âNow you seeâŠâÂ
âWell, sure I meanââÂ
âWho the hell is Zeke?â Levi interrupted, drawing your attention back to him, his back straight, despite being relaxed in the chair. Everything about him was so put together. Even the socks he wore even seemed expensive, his shoes by the door freshly shined. âAn ex-boyfriend?â
âEx-boyfriend seems too kind of a word for Zeke Jaeger,â you spat, letting his name drip from your mouth with every ounce of hatred you could muster. âHeâs a plague upon my life. Iâd do anything not to see him again.âÂ
Levi set the bowl down, curiosity piqued. âI donât see why your friend invited him if heâs so horrible.âÂ
âZeke is Erenâs brother,â Hange offered.
âHalf-brother,â you corrected, tucking your knees into your chest to rest your chin against them. âDonât give him that much credit. Erenâs an idiot, but even he doesnât deserve to be related to someone as awful as Zeke.âÂ
Hange laughed, though you didnât find it to be as hilarious as they did. Your scowl deepened.
âAnyway, Erenâs throwing it at his parentâs house since theyâll be out for the night â Zeke invited himself. With his new girlfriend, Iâm sure.â Your rolled your eyes, tucking your cheek against the couch cushion. âSheâll be better than me, of course. Probably prettier.â
Levi studied you for a moment, reading the hurt that you tried to veil on your face. Usually, you werenât so open with him. You didnât like being vulnerable, and especially not with Levi, who seemed to view any emotion as a weakness. âI see the issue.âÂ
You huffed, a sound of agreement, and played with the loose thread on the sofa. âYeah, well, it was stupid of me to date my best friendâs brother anyway. When has that ever worked out?âÂ
Hange reached across the coffee table to squeeze your hand, sympathetic. âHey. Donât do that. Whatâs done is done. Besides, what are the odds heâll actually show up?â
âUh, pretty fucking high if heâs staying with his dad for Christmas,â you scowled, rubbing your eye, makeup smeared on the side of it when you drew away.
Hangeâs lips pulled together, flattening into a thin line. âWellâŠâ Dark brown eyes flitted between you and Levi, who was looking at your roommate with something less than amusement. âYou could always take Levi as your date.âÂ
âYou canât be serious,â Levi said, his tone flat, lips drawing into a thin line.Â
âWhat? Thatâs⊠No,â you laughed awkwardly, growing hot, nervous. Suddenly, you were worried that your panicked stutter made it seem like this had been your plan all along. To get Levi to come as your date â which was ridiculous, really, but perhaps not so farfetched with the way he regarded you. âI canât do that.âÂ
âWhy? Itâd be a big old fuck you to Zeke Jaeger. Levi is far better looking than him.â Hange gestured to Levi, as if you werenât already painfully aware of how beautiful their best friend was. âHeâs better in almost every way, actually. Not that the bar is very high.âÂ
âWhat the hell does that mean?â Levi asked, poking Hange on the side of the head. âAlmost every way?âÂ
âZekeâs pretty tall.â
Levi rolled his eyes, dismissive. âLike that matters.âÂ
âIt does!âÂ
You stopped them before they could bicker any further. Hange seemed to make it their mission to always rile Levi up â not that it was very difficult, but it always brought an amused smile to her lips.Â
âHangeâs right, though. The bar is not so high.â You shrugged, curling in on yourself again â just another reminder of how much of a mistake youâd made. How desperate you must have been to have fallen for Zeke Jaeger. Even Eren had warned you about him. âItâs a stupid idea, though. No one would believe it. Least of all, Zeke.âÂ
âWhy not?â Levi said. âYou think Iâd be a bad boyfriend. Think I canât play that role well?âÂ
âThatâs notââ you began, but let the words fall away, sniffing back the self-deprecating sentiment. It wasnât that you needed him to seem like a good boyfriend. Levi was unapproachable, cold, reserved, regardless of who he was with⊠Even his best friend. It would take very little from him to sell the performance. A small smile, a hand around your waist. Perhaps a kiss on the forehead for good measure.Â
It wasnât that, really.Â
It was more that Zeke would know, immediately. Would see you together, and laugh to himself, because someone like Levi would never want someone like you. A statement as painfully clear as the color of the sky.Â
You didnât want to admit that to either of them, though. So, instead, you narrowed your eyes, challenging Levi, perhaps, even, daring him to retract his statement. âWell⊠can you?âÂ
âWhich are you asking?â Levi drummed his fingers against his thigh, pale and slender, his nails clean, neatly trimmed. Distracting, almost. âIf I can put on a performance, or if I can be a good partner?âÂ
You shrugged.Â
Leviâs eyes narrowed further, thoughtful.Â
âIâll go with you,â he finally said, after a near minute of silence, in which you werenât sure what to say. Hange watched beside you, painfully entertained. âIâd like to see how truly awful this boyfriend of yours is.âÂ
âDonât say boyfriend,â you made a face, âand heâs pretty damn awful.âÂ
The next few days, youâd mapped out something of a plan with Levi â though, there was little between you that you needed to figure out. It wasnât as if you were strangers. Levi had known vaguely that youâd had a boyfriend up until last Christmas, had known that you were still close with your group of friends from high school.Â
He knew quite a bit about you, something you only just now realized. Levi often said little, but he was observant, picked things up easily. He seemed to know you better than you thought, and it wouldnât be difficult to convince everyone of your closeness.
With that knowledge, you calmed, realizing that, maybe, it wouldnât be so difficult to spin your relationship into a romantic one.Â
The story followed: Levi had been there for you after Zeke had broken up with you. Youâd been friends for a while. He had asked you on a date shortly after. Simple â no outlandish lie.Â
Still, a part of you contemplated telling Zeke youâd been fucking Levi while you were still together. He probably wouldnât believe it anyway, but you wanted to see even a hint of frustration on his usually dull expression.
On your way back to your hometown, Levi insisted on driving his car, one that was a few years old, but still had that new smell, every single inch of it outrageously clean, each crack in the cushions vacuumed. There was hardly anything in the vehicle; a pair of sunglasses in the center console, some spare cash next to it.Â
Heâd picked you up with two coffees, which now rested, empty, in the cupholders.Â
The two of you spent the ride mostly in silence, listening to a Christmas playlist that Levi had awkwardly switched to, as if heâd been embarrassed of whatever heâd been playing before. One hand held the wheel, the other resting against the console, tapping on the leather between you.Â
You stared, the movement of his fingers distracting. For the second time, you were staring at his slender hands, the veins dark under his skin. How nice they were, like something out of a painting.
God, when did you start noticing that?Â
âThank you for the coffee,â you said, realizing your manners all too late, embarrassed you hadnât said it earlier. âHow did you know what I liked?âÂ
Levi glanced over, slowing down as the light turned red. For a moment, he hesitated; contemplated. Pink tongue flicked over his bottom lip as the car idled. âHange told me.âÂ
âOh.âÂ
Levi shrugged. âWell, youâre welcome anyway.âÂ
The light turned green. Silence settled between you once again.Â
You twitched uncomfortably, wondering how much you should say â or shouldnât say. There werenât many times you had been together, just the two of you, without Hange somewhere near.Â
Levi didnât seem to be in a talkative mood, but then again, he couldâve just been focused on driving. He was gracious enough to take on that responsibility, and you didnât want to be distracting, even if the near silence was driving you mad. On the other hand, there wasnât much you wanted to say. Every time you thought of something, a conversation to strike up, it died just as quickly on your lips.Â
Eventually, Levi seemed to grow tired of the awkwardness between you, how stiff you appeared to be. His eyes darted towards you once again, studying you from the corner of his eye. âIf you want people to believe that weâre dating, youâre going to have to stop acting like that.âÂ
You blinked at him, shifting in your seat. âLike what?âÂ
âLikeâŠâ Levi shrugged. âLike Iâm holding you at gunpoint.â
A laugh bubbled out of you. âWhat does that mean?â
He gave you a blank expression, certainly calling you an idiot with nothing more than a gaze. âIt means you make it blatantly obvious you donât want to be around me. I know you dislike me, but maybeâŠâ Levi shook his head, dark hair falling into his eyes. âAt least try to pretend otherwise.âÂ
Your stomach twisted up as Levi worked his jaw, frustrated, undeniably. For some unknown reason, it made you feel ashamed, even more shy around him than youâd been before. Levi was probably used to women who knew what they wanted. Who could meet his eyes without feeling a sense of shyness creep up their spine. Who could do a lot of things that you couldnât, and could match his wit and sarcasm without feeling the rush of dread that youâd offended him.Â
âI donât dislike you, Levi,â you said, huffing. âI just â donât think we get along well.âÂ
âThatâs news to me,â he said, tapping the gearshift. The music turned down two notches from where he punched the button on the wheel. âHange says weâre quite compatible.âÂ
âWhat?â you laughed loudly, ignoring the race of your heart, the furl of anxiety in your chest. âDonât listen to anything they say â Hange wants to set me up with everyone. Youâre hardly the best option.âÂ
Levi, for once, quirked his lips in something near a smile. âFunny. I thought the same thing.âÂ
You scoffed, warm again, crossing your arms over your chest. It was infuriating, really, how you felt around him. Surely you werenât the only one â Levi radiated confidence and authority, entirely. Youâd never seen him interact with many others, but surely they averted their gazes, cheeks warm, stumbling over words. Surely, you couldnât be the only one who seemed to feel so small under the breadth of his presence.Â
Another song played before he spoke again, tapping his fingers against the wheel. Familiarity sprung up around you as the landscape began to change, the scenery transforming into one youâd grown up in.
âWhy did you date Zeke, anyway?â Levi asked, this time, not bothering to look at you. He stared straight ahead, passing a slower car, the blinker tapping wildly against the dashboard.Â
You shrugged, scratching your wrist as you looked out the window. How you loathed this topic of conversation. It didnât matter why youâd dated that man â only that you had, and you regretted it.Â
You found yourself telling Levi anyway. âHe was funny,â you said, quietly, watching the clouds pass above in the sky, dark and gloomy. âHe was charming. He liked to read and so did I.âÂ
Levi hummed, but it was dismissive, an acknowledgement of pity and nothing more. Deep down, he was probably laughing, amused at your idiocy. âThatâs it?âÂ
âI know itâs stupid⊠I was stupid,â you said, defensive, curling your hands into fists. âHe was my first boyfriend, and I was naive. I wanted to be loved, and Zeke told me he loved me.â You felt the wash of angry tears come back upon you, and you flushed them away, sniffing. âI just didnât know heâd told two other women the same thing at the same time.â
Leviâs eyes flashed, surprised, as they darted back towards you. âJesus,â he muttered, fist turning white as it clutched the wheel. âYou were right. What a fucking asshole.âÂ
You smiled a bit, shaking your head. For all accounts, Levi could be an asshole in his own way; a comment you decided to keep to yourself.Â
âYeah, well, whatâs done is done. I donât give a shit about Zeke Jaeger. He can rot in hell for all I care.â You wiped your face, yawning as the sun began itâs descent in the sky. âIâve given up on finding love anyway. I just donât want Zeke to have the satisfaction of knowing it was his fault.â A sigh left you. âBesides, that was probably the point. Our relationship was likely just a way to test some philosophy heâd come up with â nothing matters, least of all love.â You rolled your eyes. âHeâs like that.âÂ
Levi didnât say anything, but you could see him thinking, his eyebrows tied closely together. âBut, you know thatâs not true, donât you?â he said, his tone flat, as usual. âYou canât possibly think that you donât deserve to be loved.âÂ
You smiled. âOf course,â you said, nodding. âIâm just better off without it.âÂ
Levi took a breath, looked over once more, and then let the conversation die.Â
You hoped it sounded much more convincing to Leviâs ears than your own.
While you were visiting, over the next couple of days, you were staying at Pieckâs apartment. She was two years older, but had been in some of your university courses, and youâd met back in college. Youâd found out you were from the same city, and had bonded instantly, having lived such a similar life, in the same place, without even realizing it.Â
The three of you had grabbed a quick dinner, and when you got back late, Pieck gave you a little tour of her small apartment, showing Levi more than anything, since youâd visited her twice before.Â
âHereâs the other bedroom,â Pieck said, flipping the switch on. It was a room filled with soft pink decor, the comforter lacy and white. âMy roommate is visiting family, so youâre welcome to sleep in here; she doesnât mind. Iâve cleaned the sheets and everything.âÂ
Levi thanked her, and Pieck smiled sleepily, walking back to her own bedroom with a wave.Â
You watched as Levi set his bag down, tugged off his thick jacket. He hung it, gently, on the back of the desk chair, unhooking his watch to set it down beside the coat. His wrist looked so bare that way. Nothing to cover it up, exposing the even softer skin where the accessory usually rested.Â
You looked away. âIs everything okay?â you asked, by way of making your exit, eyes flicking around the room.Â
Levi glanced up, unfolding a pair of clean clothes from his bag, almost like heâd forgotten you were standing there. âShould something be wrong?â he asked in return, placing a pair of flannel pajama pants next to the gray t-shirt.Â
For some reason, the image caused your heart to swell, the sight of something so normal within Leviâs grasp. The organ that continuously betrayed you sped up, beating harder.
It was endearing, really, to see such a mundane side of Levi. He always lived in that enigmatic shroud, some sort of ever-present being that you couldnât quite understand.Â
You smiled softly. âNo. Just wanted to make sure. Goodnight, Levi.âÂ
He said something back, but you were already halfway down the hall, slinging your own bag to Pieckâs room. She was on her side, scrolling through her phone, dark hair splayed across the pillow like a halo. Though, the moment you entered, her attention doubled, eyes crinkling as she grinned.Â
âDonât look at me like that,â you said, frowning, as you followed the same routine as Levi, slinging your bag down to pick out a fresh pair of pajamas.Â
âYou didnât tell me he looked like that,â Pieck muttered, the sound of her voice always tired, no matter how much sleep she got. âZeke is going to hate him.âÂ
That, at least, had a sense of relief pooling inside you, a laugh spilling out. âI sure hope so.âÂ
She set her phone on the nightstand, laying flat on her back as you continued through your routine. Her introduction to Levi had been brief, but already, she seemed to like him well enough.Â
Maybe theyâd end up together, you thought dimly. Pieck had been single for a while, and youâd always thought she was much more charming than you, much prettier. Perhaps Levi would like her.
The idea put a sour taste in your mouth.
When you returned, face scrubbed, teeth clean, Pieck was nearly asleep, the lamp on her side of the bed the only source of light in the room. She glanced up at you sleepily, batting her eyes before you climbed next to her.Â
âI canât believe you,â she said softly, already half-asleep. âHow can you stand it?â
âWhat did I do?âÂ
For a moment, Pieck stared at you like she didnât know who you were. A yawn left you, even as you tried to hide it.Â
âIs there something wrong with him? Is that the reason?âÂ
You crinkled your eyebrows together. âLevi?â A million different things ran through your head, but Pieck seemed to want an honest one. âI meanâŠâ Was there, really? Were your speculations and assumptions enough to pass judgement on Levi Ackerman? Or were you just too intimidated by him to admit that he was much nicer than you thought. âWell, you met him, didnât you?âÂ
She blinked, then laughed, slapping you with the pillow. âYouâre so ridiculous. Why arenât you together then? I mean, actually together?â Pieck hummed, tapping her hand against the pillow, before she tucked it back under her head. âYouâve got hearts in your eyes when you stare at him.â
âWhat?â you said, bursting into a fit of giggles. Youâd thought it was a joke, but Pieck didnât smile, didnât even force a laugh alongside you. âI donât â Iâm not.âÂ
âI mean, he clearly likes you quite a bit,â she continued, smiling, âif he came all this way. He listens to you, practically hangs off your every word.â A pause. âWish someone would look at me like that,â Pieck sighed.
You rolled your eyes. âLeviâs just like that. Heâs a good listener.â Although, when it left your lips, the last few words came out slower, more uncertainly. Was he really like that? You could think of plenty of times where heâd blatantly ignored people he didnât like, left a conversation with a snide comment if he didnât agree with the subject.
Pieck didnât seem to believe you, a smile tugging on her lips. âRight. A good listener like you, huh? Listening until you donât care anymore.â She didnât give you a chance to respond, your indignant protests enough. âItâs funny. You get so flustered you get when he teases you. I just,â she hesitated, tucking a hand under her cheek. âWell, I just didnât expect that from you â you werenât like that with Zeke.âÂ
Again, your cheeks grew hot, your entire body warm. Already, you wanted to kick the covers off, sweat pooling at the backs of your knees. âIâm â No. Itâs not. . . Pieck, itâs not.â You buried your face in the pillow, frustrated, hating the grin that curled onto her lips. âLook, I know what youâre thinking, and itâs not like that. Heâs just â â You shook your head, words evading you. âI mean, youâve seen him.â
Pieck laughed, the sound soft, raspy from exhaustion. âIâm only teasing you,â she whispered, her smile almost wistful. âI know what you mean. Heâs older, heâs handsome. He probably knows what he wants.â Then her face grew serious, eyebrows drawing together. âBut, I also think youâre not letting yourself admit that youâre attracted to him.âÂ
âPieck,â you huffed, feeling that itch at the back of your skull, under your skin, that you couldnât quite scratch. âIâm not. Half of the time, Iâm not even sure if I enjoy his company.âÂ
She stared at you for a moment longer, unamused, before rolling back onto her side, facing away from you. âWhatever,â she mumbled, a dismissal, like she truly thought every word that left your lips was a denial. âI think youâre just scared after what happened with Zeke. I think you know Levi is exactly what youâve always wanted, and you donât think he could possibly like you.âÂ
You started to protest, maneuvering onto your elbows, but Pieck hushed you, flicked the lamp out.Â
âNight,â she said, signifying the end of the conversation. âJust⊠think on it.âÂ
An indignant groan escaped you, as Pieck shut her eyes, her breathing evening out not a moment later. Youâd always been jealous of how easily she could fall asleep, while you continued to lie awake in bed, left with nothing but your own thoughts.Â
Which were certainly not, and would never be, plagued by Levi Ackerman.
Unsurprisingly, Levi had been the first one awake, sitting in the kitchen as he scrolled through his phone, a pair of wired-rimmed reading glasses perched at the edge of his nose. He was already dressed, looking unsurprisingly perfect, while your hair was disheveled, pajamas still on, eyes sleepy.Â
Youâd stared at him awkwardly, embarrassed by your appearance, and ignored his brief greeting before you slinked back into Pieckâs room, putting yourself together rapidly. You refused to speak to him until you were ready to leave.
Pieck was spending the rest of the weekend with her father, so you and Levi were left to your own devices for the day. You decided to take him around the town, showing him all the places you used to frequent. It was nostalgic, showcasing your city to a man whoâd never been here, wouldnât know the depth of your memories, those that were tied to a smell, a scene, a sound.Â
Levi was, to your surprise, quite interested in the places that youâd been around as a child. As usual, he asked many questions, digging into your past without offering anything in return. And, as usual, you let him, all too excited to reminisce about the grade school where youâd met Eren Jaeger, the restaurant youâd always gone to with Sasha.Â
It warmed you, how caring he could be â something youâd always known, but perhaps, hadnât really paid attention to until Pieck pointed it out. Levi did seem to take everything you said to heart, store it in some memory bank with your name labeled right on it. He remembered things you hadnât even known youâd told him, but must have, at some point.Â
When it neared noon, you took him to a coffee shop that you used to study at, right around the corner from your old school. It was still the same as it had been back then, like nothing had changed at all.Â
âItâs nice that you have such fond memories,â he said, and there was a small smile on his lips as the two of you entered the cafe, the smell overtaking you almost immediately.Â
You laughed, shrugging. âItâs better in hindsight.â Thereâd been times when all you wanted to do was leave. Now, you couldnât help but miss it.Â
Levi ordered your coffees, and though youâd protested, trying to push your card in his direction, he paid for the both of them, and waited at the end of the bar while you saved a table. Once again, heâd gotten your coffee order correct, but now that you were able to read the side of his cup, you noticed it wasnât coffee at all, but actually tea â Earl Grey, steaming, far to hot to drink when he took the lid off.Â
âAre you not a coffee drinker?â you asked, and for some reason, Levi seemed surprised by the question, his eyes flashing.Â
âNot really,â he admitted, his hands folded around the paper cup. âSometimes, if I donât get much sleep the night before, butââ Levi shrugged. âIt makes my hands shake, which does nothing but irritate me.âÂ
You smiled, letting the words sink in. Levi didnât seem like the type of person to dislike coffee, but he sipped at his tea slowly, huffing as you blinked back at him.Â
âWhatâs the matter?â he asked. âItâs not a crime to dislike something, is it?â
âNo,â you said, looking back down at your drink, antsy. His mouth was drawn flat, unamused as always⊠This time, though, you couldnât help but admire the curve of his cupidâs bow, the plushness of his lower lip, which was such a contrast to the color of his pale cheeks. âIt just surprised me, is all. You never tell me anything about yourself.âÂ
Leviâs eyebrows rose to his hairline. âWell, youâve didnât ask. You never do.âÂ
You opened your mouth, then shut it, thinking through all the conversations youâve had, all the questions youâve answered, but never returned. âUsually a conversation is two-sided,â you supplied, leaning forward, accusatory. âI share things about myself, and the other person does so in return.â
Leviâs lips lifted up, nearly a smile. âIâm not really the type of person to spill my heart out unprovoked.â He took a long sip of the tea, glancing out the window at the snowy sidewalk. âIf you really cared, you would ask. I wonât bother anyone with useless anecdotes about my life.â
You watched the movement of his hands as he set the cup down, fiddled with the lid beside it. âSo thatâs all?â you asked, unamused. âAll this time, Iâve thought you were some great mystery, and you were just waiting for me to return your questions?â
Levi snorted, though there was a hint of humor in his gaze, flashing from the Christmas lights that were strung around the shop. âDonât blame me â Iâve always been honest with you,â he supplied, matching your posture. âMaybe youâre just a poor conversationalist, and youâve made assumptions about me that arenât true.â Though his tone was clipped, there was still a sense of disappointment in his words.Â
You let his words sink in, opening your mouth, then shutting it, silencing your protests.
Levi sighed, spinning the conversation towards your evening, rehashing the plan for any questions that might arise. Though you nodded, engaged, your mind was still on his confession, the words gnawing at you.Â
It was true, you realized with disappointment. Levi had never avoided any questions youâd asked him outright, had always given you a small smile, before carefully answering. You had, really, been avoiding him â perhaps, for no reason at all.Â
That evening, you arrived at the party just a few minutes after six, when Eren had told you to arrive. Many of your friends were already there, the street lined with cars that you didnât recognize.Â
Unsurprisingly, Eren was the one to answer the door, throwing it open and pulling you into a hug before you even had time to react. Your name left his lips in an excited exclamation, and you breathed in the familiarity of him, a deep-rooted nostalgia at the sight of someone youâd known for so long.Â
âItâs so good to see you,â Eren said, even though it had only been a few months since youâd last gotten together, not years, like it might have felt.Â
His hair was longer than when it had been when you last saw him, and heâd bulked up a bit, but otherwise, hadnât changed. That was a comfort in itself, just like the smell of Carla and Grisha Jaegerâs house, the furniture that had been the same since you were an adolescent.Â
Eren guided you through the door before glancing over your shoulder, noticing Levi for the first time. His eyes widened, green eyes electric as your name left his lips, aghast.
âYou didnât tell me you were bringing someone!â Erenâs posture straightened, and suddenly, he was on his best behavior, trying hard to impress the man that youâd brought with you.Â
Levi gave him a once-over, glanced over to you, and then stuck out his hand politely. âLevi Ackerman,â he said, shaking it. âYou must be Erenââ
But Erenâs attention was already caught by another part of the conversation. He shook his Leviâs quickly, not bothering to answer the greeting, before saying, âAckerman? Maybe a long-shot, but do you know my girlfriend, Mikasa?âÂ
Surprise flashed in Leviâs irises as he followed Eren inside, nodding. âActually, sheâs my cousin.âÂ
At the same time, across the room, a familiar voice shouted Leviâs name, running over to throw her arms around him. Mikasaâs body rammed against Leviâs shorter frame, and despite his strength, he let out a small puff of air, shocked, as she crashed into him.Â
âLevi, what are you doing here?â Mikasa said, smiling softly, before releasing him, returning to her normal, calm self. âI had no idea you knewââ A pause, as she flicked her eyes between you, puzzling the pieces together. Her palms covered her mouth, but a sharp squeak emitted from her throat, excitement. âYou two are together?âÂ
You hadnât even gotten the chance to greet her, but Mikasa held you close, her perfume so familiar, hair soft against your cheek.
âWhat a crazy coincidence â I had no idea⊠Well, of course, it makes sense. Youâre so perfect for each other. I canât believe I didnât think of introducing you earlier.â Mikasa rambled on, uncharacteristically, and even Eren seemed surprised as he darted his gaze between you. âHow did you meet?â she said.
Levi sighed, perpetually put-out, and followed Mikasa to one of the couches.Â
You sat with him, but stayed silent for the most part, enjoying watching them interact, smiling at the sight of him so comfortable. Levi spun the story of how youâd âended up together,â and you offered a few nods here and there, too distracted by the revelation of their relation.Â
Ackerman was a common enough name that you hadnât even thought about it, but the more you looked at them together, the more you could see their similarities. Their quiet, but confident demeanors, intellect, and grey eyes. Even the way they spoke was a bit similar. You felt like such an idiot, and when there was a break in the conversation, you said as much.Â
For once, though, Levi didnât take it as an opportunity to tease you for your foolishness. âTruthfully,â he said, squeezing your hand gently, âI shouldâve realized. I knew Mikasa had moved here recently, but I hadnât been to see her, and I hadnât met her boyfriend.âÂ
Only later did you remember how nice his hand felt in your own â those cool, pale fingers wrapped around your hand, as if he hadnât even had to think about it. How youâd accepted them so easily, feeling warm, calm, his fingertips against your knuckles so natural.
Mikasa and Levi seemed happy to catch up, so for the next couple of hours, you made the rounds, visiting with your old friends and the people they were now seeing. Historia and Ymir, the only high school sweethearts left in your group, had even managed to show up, even though they lived the greatest distance away from home. It had been a surprise, and youâd nearly cried when you saw them, leaping away from the table, interrupting your conversation with Jean, to get to them.Â
Later, you found Levi in the kitchen, a drink in his hands, as he took in the silence away from everyone.Â
âEverything okay?â you asked, smiling, your entire face bright as you shuffled through the cooler for your own drink. âI didnât mean to leave you alone, Iâm sorry.âÂ
âDonât be sorry,â he said, tipping the bottle back to his lips before setting it on the counter. âI managed to meet almost everyone anyway. They seemed pretty pleased you have a boyfriend now.â His expression was completely serious, and though his face always was, it sent another round of laughter through you, the beer youâd already drank settling in.Â
âI hope you gave them a good impression.â You took the spot at the counter beside him, ignoring the softness of his eyes, the way they melted as he stared at you.Â
Had that always happened, or were you just imagining itâŠÂ
No, it was definitely the beer.Â
âMaybe a bad impression would be best,â Levi disagreed, running his fingers across the counter, beside the spot where you rested your hip. âThat would make it easier for them to accept our break-up later on.âÂ
âOf course,â you teased, though the mention of the âbreakupâ that wouldnât take place at all made disappointment seep into your core. Perhaps, over the course of just a few days, youâd come to enjoy Leviâs company.Â
Or, maybe, you just decided to accept that youâd always enjoyed it.Â
âI wonât do that, though,â he concluded. âNot when you look so happy.âÂ
You didnât get the chance to contemplate that before Mikasa stuck her head through the kitchen door, calling out to get your attention. âHey.â There was a frown on her face, and she nodded back towards the front door, pointing behind herself. âZekeâs here. Just so you know.âÂ
You sucked in a breath, nodding, and Mikasa smiled sympathetically before going back to Eren.
For some reason, you were even less prepared to face Zeke than you thought youâd be.
âOkay?â Levi asked quietly. HIs eyebrows tugged up, towards one another, concerned.Â
You forced a smile, and stepped away from his embrace. âIâm fine,â you said, nodding, but you werenât able to meet Leviâs eyes, too enraptured by the panic that had begun to claw at you. âLetâs go, better to just rip the band-aid off.âÂ
âIâll be out in a second.âÂ
Although you didnât want to walk out alone, you left Levi, heading back to the living room, where at least youâd have the protection of your vast group of friends. You considered grabbing another beer â you needed more than just one to get through the evening, but before you could protest, Sasha had whisked you away, pulling you into some ridiculous, made-up game with Jean and Connie.Â
For a while, you were able to avoid Zeke, until heâd caught you in pursuit of another drink, your laughter dying the moment your voice was called out in a tone you had never wanted to hear again.
âI didnât think youâd actually show up.âÂ
You shifted, spinning around, nails digging into your palm, your jaw clenched. The sight of Zeke standing there sent a wave of nausea over you, doubly so, when you saw the woman standing next to him.Â
She wasnât the same one that you remembered with him before, the reason heâd split up with you an entire year ago. No, this one was much taller, her hair smooth and dark as it cascaded down her back. She was wearing a pair of brown, round glasses, and she was beautiful.Â
âI came to see Eren,â you said, eyes flitting between Zeke and his new girlfriend. She seemed just his type. Pretty, intelligent, a sense of style to match. Anything and everything heâd claimed that you were not. âI was certainly hoping to avoid you.âÂ
âYet, here we are,â Zeke smiled. He looked the same, exactly the same, as if time has done nothing but turn him into a worse version of himself. His eyes were a little more dull, another wrinkle around the corners, but that was the extent of it all. âThis is my girlfriend, Cassandra.âÂ
Cassandra greeted you politely, spoke in a way that was much more smooth than your own voice, her back straight. Instantly, you wondered how anyone like her could fall for someone like Zeke. Yet, you supposed you had done just that, which only proved your stupidity.
Zeke attempted to make small talk, and you smiled, awkwardly, uncomfortably, as your hands began to shake at your sides. It must have been obvious, what you were to Zeke, and you felt horrible for making Cassandra endure the formalities.Â
âHow have you been?â Zeke asked, placing an arm around Cassandraâs shoulder to tuck her into his side. You watched the movement with disgust. âSeems like much hasnât changed about you, has it?âÂ
It was low, in a way that only you and Zeke could understand â and your face was burning, hot, as you looked around the room for anyone to free you from the conversation. âIâm fine,â you said, wrapping your arms around yourself, close to telling Zeke to kindly fuck off for the rest of the evening. âActually-â
âThere you are,â an arm wrapped around your own waist, a hand on your side. Calm, instantly raining down upon you. âI was wondering where youâd gone.âÂ
Levi kissed you on the temple, and for a moment, your brain short-circuited, questions rising up as you glanced over at him, mouth parted in surprise. But Levi wasnât looking at you, too busy fixing Zeke with a bored expression, eyes flitting over him in judgement.
âYou must be Zeke,â he said, and perhaps it was just your imagination, but you felt him squeeze your hip once, as if comforting you. âIâve heard a lot about you.âÂ
Zeke cracked a smile. âGood things, I hope.âÂ
âTerrible, actually.âÂ
That only seemed to heighten Zekeâs amusement, and he laughed, loudly. âYou must be the new boyfriend.âÂ
Levi glanced down at Zekeâs outstretched palm. âI am,â he said, but made no move to shake Zekeâs hand, ignoring the formalities. Instead, he guided you away from the couple.Â
For a moment, you blinked, staring out at the space where your friends were congregating, unbeknownst to the interaction in the kitchen. Then, you were relaxing into Leviâs side, the smell of his cologne lingering on his sweater, soothing you.
âIâm sorry, Levi,â you mumbled, shaking your head. âI couldâve avoided him. You didnât have to kiss me.âÂ
Levi rolled his eyes. âThat? That was nothing.â He came around to face you, eyes scanning you for any sign of sadness. âAre you okay?âÂ
His consideration shot warmth through every vein of your body, igniting your skin. A smile spread across your lips, and you felt dizzy with it, hating it all at the same time. âIâm okay,â you said, leaning closer, if only to remain within the space of Levi Ackerman. âI just canât believe him. Showing up like that, andââÂ
âDonât give him the fucking time of day.â Levi shook his head, for once, his seriousness not bleeding into sarcasm. âJust enjoy your time with your friends.âÂ
You locked eyes with him, watched as his features turned tender, the cool blue of his irises lightening under his thick lashes. Swallowing, you nodded, looking away, and resumed your place close to Levi, remembering you were supposed to be selling the relationship, not making people question it.Â
Levi squeezed your shoulder, and you went back to talking with Mikasa and Eren, even though you were distracted by the other pair of eyes that watched you from across the room.
Zekeâs gaze was all that you could feel, even though all of your friends did their best to maintain your attention, remind you that Zeke might have been there, but it didnât matter â not when there were so many others that cared about you.Â
It didnât do much to soothe you, but your tried your best to relax, studying Levi as he spoke, the movement of his sharp jaw, the soft hair that rested over his forehead. He was wearing a soft, burgundy button-up, the sleeves tighter around his wrists, one that complemented his complexion nicely. It nearly matched your own red dress, this one a brighter shade, but still, close enough to seem as if you had planned it.Â
As the evening went on, the tension drained out of you, and you began to feel more comfortable under Leviâs arm.
Fleetingly, you wondered if this was what Levi was really like in a relationship. Attentive, caring, sweet. Softer towards you only, a secret smile tugging at the corners of his mouth, even if he didnât let it show.Â
The thought sent a spiral of longing through you that you ignored, and you sighed, hating that you were constantly on edge. If not from Zeke, than from the way Levi was holding you close, his fingers grazing, caressing your sides.Â
âBy the way, Levi, happy birthday,â Mikasa said, a giggly mess after a few beers. âI almost forgot!âÂ
You made a face at Levi, your expression tied up together. âBirthday?â you asked, frowning.Â
He waved you off, mumbling a thanks to Mikasa, before she walked off to find another drink, one Eren insisted she didnât need.Â
âLevi?â you said again, grabbing his pale wrist, your hand gripping the watch tightly. âItâs your birthday?âÂ
âTomorrow.â Levi cringed, looking over your shoulder, like that was the last thing he wanted to discuss.
âWhy didnât you tell me?âÂ
A horrible emotion washed over you, one that was both guilt and melancholy. Levi knew your birthday. Hange had invited him when theyâd made you a birthday dinner, and Levi had brought you some flowers, a gift card to your favorite store.
Youâd never even bothered to ask when his birthday was. Hadnât even thought about it.Â
âI donât really celebrate,â he shrugged, running his tongue over his cheek.Â
âIâm sorry â I shouldâve ââÂ
âDonât.â Levi brushed your hair out of your face, shaking his head. The touch soothed you, his fingers so gentle on your temple. âItâs really okay. People are usually too busy with Christmas, and I donât care much about it anyway.âÂ
You opened your mouth to protest, Levi shook his head again, smiling. âDonât apologize. Mikasa is the only one who knows, really. Hange knows itâs in December, but I donât like making a big deal of it.â He sighed, pinching his temple, before looking back at you. "I promise. It doesn't matter."
Still, you couldn't help but feel horrible for not realizing, for dragging him out of town for you, when it was his birthday. âIâm sorry,â you said again, heart clenching.
Levi rolled his eyes, defensive, and moved along, tugging you forward, clearly not wanting to discuss the matter any further.Â
It ate at you for the rest of the evening, though, nearly distracting you from the fact that your ex-boyfriend was there at all.Â
You stuck with Levi for the rest of the night, but eventually, needed to use the bathroom, hoping to get back downstairs as soon as possible. Though, your plan was undermined when you opened the door, the other side revealing Zeke, leaning against the wall. His eyes raked over your body, a mix of anger and hunger as you left the bathroom, waving your hands to dry them completely.Â
âZeke,â you said, ignoring the hammering in your heart, the way that your panic had spiked the moment you saw him. âWhat the fuck do you want?âÂ
He laughed, though it was without humor, as he pushed away from the wall, coming towards you. You felt small under his dark gaze, the way he pinned you, so much more cruelly than Levi did. âI canât tell if youâre actually serious, or if youâre fucking with me,â Zeke said, and it took you a moment to figure out what he was referring to, his eyes hard and narrowed under the thick lenses of his glasses. âDo you really think I believe you? Believe this act that you have going on with your boyfriend?âÂ
You blinked back at him, momentarily at a loss for words, before you forced a laugh from your chest, spitting at him cruelly. âGod, Zeke,â you said, shaking your head. âAre you so paranoid that you think I would go to that extent? I stopped caring about you a long time ago, and Iâve moved on.â You tried to push past him, blood rushing through your body; all you could think about was getting back downstairs to Levi.Â
âRight,â Zeke didnât let you get far, grabbing your wrist and jerking hard. He forced you back into the wall, your shoulder hitting it with a thump. âI know youâre still not over me. You havenât been, and weâd both be better off if you could admit that to yourself.âÂ
You glared, prying his grip off, even if he wouldnât let go. âLeave me alone, Zeke. Iâve never regretted anything as much as I regret you.âÂ
âPlease,â he scoffed, rolling his eyes, grazing them all over your face. Zeke had never been a good listener, had never seen eye to to eye with you, but he sure pretended to. âYou wanted me for years. You loved me.âÂ
âMaybe at some point. Not anymore.â you said through gritted teeth, tugging again, desperate almost. But Zeke didnât let you free, his grip harder, bruising your skin. âZeke. Get off of me. I donât want to talk to you.âÂ
That subtle remark served to do nothing but make him angrier. His features contorted, shoving you backwards so you were pressed against him, his knees brushing your thighs.
A flash of fear went through you, and though you didnât want to seem like a coward, didnât want to scream for anyone in the house to help you, you considered it. Zeke towered over you, his breath fanning over your cheeks, thumbs grazing your jaw. âIâm not an idiot,â he said, smiling, that same saccharine grin heâd given you when you were together. âI know that man downstairs isnât really in love with you.âÂ
âWhat makes your so sure that youâre right about that?âÂ
That seemed the question he had been dying to answer all evening.
âOh, itâs easy to spot, really. Just look at you,â Zeke said. âYou were nothing without me, and youâre nothing still.â He laughed, loud and cruel, finally stepping away, giving you an escape route. âNo one wanted you before, and no one wants you now⊠Especially not now that Iâve ruined you.â He shrugged, tucking his hands into his pockets, a dismissal. âAnd it was so easy to do.â Â
Tears sprang to your eyes; breaths left you, stuttered exhales that were more than forced. âI hate you.âÂ
âWhy?â Zeke asked, curious. âI did you a favor.â
You stared at him, wondering how he could possibly believe himself to be so benevolent, to have saved you from some existence that would have been miserable, without the divine lesson heâd bestowed upon you. Though, it wasnât long before you realized that he was taunting you, trying his best to make an embarrassment of you, laughing at the way the tears had flooded your eyes so easily.
You rushed down the stairs, holding back your sobs.
As your feet touched the bottom step, you collided with another body, turning the corner, too off-kilter to recognize who it was. âSorry,â you said, the word coming out soft, weak. âIâm sorry, I have toââ
âHey.â Leviâs soothing voice washed over you, his hands on your shoulders snapping you out of your distress. At first, he hadnât realized that you were crying, the tears hidden by the palms that covered your eyes. Gently, Levi pried them away, taking your wrists in his hands, staring at you with a severe expression. âHey, whatâs wrong? Why are you crying?âÂ
âIâm fine. Iâm fine,â you said, wiping at your face furiously; Levi was unconvinced. âI just⊠ran into Zeke upstairs, that's all.âÂ
That soured his mood immediately, expression turning cold, a glare overtaking it as he understood. âFucking asshole,â Levi ground out, teeth clenching together. âWhat did he say to you?â
âLevi, I said Iâm fine.â But your glossy eyes revealed the opposite, the tears leaking from the corners of them only exacerbating the fact that Zeke had said something cruel. âLeave it alone.â
âDid he hurt you?â Navy eyes flicked all over your face, narrowing in concern. âWhat did he say, love?â It slipped from his lips, without thinking.
You stared back at him, frozen, hesitant. That sort of softness was one youâd never heard from Levi before, had never seen him so furious, yet so worried. It seemed every emotion that he had tucked away was bleeding onto his face, and you leaned into his touch, let him examine your wrists. A red ring was around it from Zekeâs heavy hand.Â
âIâm okay,â you promised, barely a whisper, taking your wrists back to hide them by your sides. Your lip quivered, and you looked away from Levi's concern as new wave of tears rushed over you, warming your body with despair. âHe just doesnât believe that weâre together. Said that youâd never love someone like me, anyway. That Zeke ruined me.â You shrugged, rubbing your elbows. âThe usual.âÂ
Levi clenched his fists, pushing past you. âFuck.â
You could see the anger spelled out all over his expression, as he began his ascent up the stairs, feet heavy, infuriated.Â
You clutched at his sleeve. âLevi, stop. Just let it go.âÂ
âIâm not going to let him fucking talk to you like that!â he said, and it was, nearly, the most emotion youâd ever seen out of Levi, his hands practically shaking at his sides. âHe canât just â â
Levi grit his teeth, then shook you off, taking long strides to get to Zeke, who was leaving the bathroom just as you arrived. Although the smarter part of your brain nudged at you to stop Levi, you couldnât help but let him play out his anger, wanting to see the look on Zekeâs face when he approached him.Â
The loud steps against the stairs gathered your ex-boyfriend's attention, and Zeke smiled, looking down at Levi from under his glasses, amused. Though, he didnât get a chance to say a word before Levi had tugged him by the shirt, forced him against the wall, his gaze hard, almost scary.
Leviâs strength was almost surprising, had you not already known, but Zeke hadnât. He glanced at Levi, then you, wide-eyed, before recovering smoothly. âSent your guard dog after me, did you?â he asked you, a dull expression on his face.Â
âDonât talk to her.â Levi snapped Zekeâs head back against the wall, forcing the taller man to look at him. âYou may think youâre better than you are, but I donât. Youâre a piece of shit, and you never deserved her.â Levi said, eyes pinched, the words calm, even more serious than if heâd been shouting them. "Just stay the hell away."
âReally?â Zeke said, a smile curving onto his lips. âOr what?âÂ
Levi stared for a minute longer, contemplative, and you sucked in a breath, wiping your eyes. You hardly registered the movement of Mikasa, who had rushed up the stairs, wrapping you up in her arms, whispering something to you that you didn't comprehend.Â
Before either of you could react, Levi had swung, hit Zeke square in the nose, blood trickling down not a moment later. When the blond man tried to react, swinging aimlessly, Levi ducked, and grabbed at Zeke's arm, forcing a knee into his stomach.Â
Zeke coughed and keeled, muttering a silent, âshit,â and a few other expletives, but not making any moves to swing again.
After he released him, Levi flexed his hand, looking over his shoulder to see you staring at him, Mikasa holding you tightly. He exhaled, sniffed back his anger, and turned.
âLeviââ you started, but he said nothing, pushing past you, his fingers running through his hair as he made his way down the stairs.Â
Mikasa whispered something else to you, but you wiggled out of her arms, ignoring her, as you followed after Levi. Your tears had dried, but they had, nonetheless, been obvious to everyone, who seemed to know exactly what had been going on when you walked downstairs.Â
Still, you didnât meet any of their eyes, frowning, as you pushed open the door. You ignored the fact that it was below freezing outside, and you were in nothing but a jacket, when you found Levi, drawn to him light a magnet.Â
Flurries of snow rained down, dusting the top of Leviâs head, like little crystals against his dark hair. It was much quieter, away from the chatter, and the music, the night calm and serene, wrapping you in a blanket of comfort.Â
âLevi?â you said, approaching him quietly, shivering in the brisk air. It had snowed much more than you'd thought in the past few hours, coating the ground, painting a scene so perfect for Christmas Eve. Crystals of ice hung off the edge of the railing, the wind whipping the flurries around in a swirl.Â
Levi glanced over his shoulder, but said nothing for a moment, his breath coming out in a cold puff of air. Slowly, you came up beside him, watched as his cheeks began to tinge red from the wintery air, his hair brushing across his forehead from the wind.Â
âIâm sorry,â he said, blinking at the scene in front of him, as he leaned against the icy railing of the balcony. âThat was a stupid thing to do. I embarrassed you in front of all of your friends.â
You paused, before a small laugh erupted from you. âEmbarrassed?â you smiled, pulling on his forearm to guide his attention back to you. âLevi, no one cares. Truthfully, Iâm grateful,â you admitted, retracting your hand, swallowing. âI never wouldâve had the courage to do it myself.âÂ
Leviâs eyes flashed, and he glanced over at you, conflicted. Christmas lights shimmered against the snow, dulled only by the darkness that lingered above you.
âRegardless,â he muttered, fixated on the wave of red and green. His lashes were coated in droplets of white, and your voice caught in your throat. Heâd never looked so beautiful. âThat was immature. Iâm not â Weâre not even really together.â
You laughed, the sound light and airy. âWell, surely Zeke believes us now. I think youâve done enough to sell it, havenât you?âÂ
Levi sighed, dropping his gaze to the railing, his shoulders falling. âI suppose.â
Still, there was tension between you, and your stiff joke did little to diffuse it. You ran your hands up and down your own arms, feeling the goosebumps beneath them, trying to force your attention away from how cold you were.
âZeke deserved it,â you said, quietly, shaking your head, eyebrows knit together. "You shouldn't feel bad."
âI know,â whispered back, just another exhaled of the wind. Levi didnât move, didnât bother to look at you, despite the fact that you were desperate to read any twitch of his expression, to get him to reveal what he was thinking.Â
Finally, after far too long, he glanced over, raked his eyes across your figure, the frozen posture that your body had turned to, the confusion all over your face. He frowned, dismissive. âWe should go inside. Youâre freezing.â
âIâm okay.âÂ
âNoââ
âLevi,â you said once more, halting him, a frowning permeating your lips. âWhy did you do it?âÂ
His face twitched. âZeke? I told you, he has no right toââ
âNo, no. Not that,â you waved him off, crossing your arms to hold them tightly to his chest. âI mean... Well, I suppose that too, but why did you come? Why would you choose to spend your birthday here, with me, of all places? Why do you even pretend to like me at all?âÂ
Levi stared back, slowly blinking, his eyes wide, startled. Then, he started laughing, and for the first time, it was genuine. The sound left him deeply, amused, by your question.
And though, you didnât understand, had no idea what was so funny about the sentiment, you couldnât help but feel the warmth of his humor all the way down to your toes, the sound a battle against the brisk cold that slapped against you.Â
âYou think I donât like you?â Levi asked, shaking his head, laughs subsiding to a small smile.Â
âWell,â you said, defensive, sniffing. âYeah. Iâve always thought that.âÂ
âAnd? What do you think now?âÂ
You remembered the small smiles you had shared, secrets almost. The way he talked with all of your friends, made an effort to see the beauty in the home youâd grown up in. The way he listened to you, took in your words and remembered them for later.Â
You shrugged, though it was half-hearted. âI donât know.âÂ
Silence fell between you, before Levi had cupped your jaw, tracing the softness of your cheeks, the hollow beneath the bone. His eyes held a sadness you didnât understand, before he had looked past you, to the house next door, the one beyond that, and the one beyond that.Â
âHange said you had no idea. I thought Iâd been fairly obvious about it, all this time, but maybe Iâm oblivious myself.âÂ
âLevi,â you began, frustrated, confused by the way he touched you so gently, the way his sarcasm had subsided, and nothing remained but the gentleness between you. âI donâtââ
âIâm in love with you.âÂ
A pause.
Another.
Slowly, your jaw fell slack. Your eyes grew wide, and you swallowed, as the sentence repeated over and over in your mind, until you could make sense of it.Â
Levi stepped away, clenching his jaw as he turned you, only his side profile visible. âI have been for quite a while. Hange was the one who pointed it out, and I realizedâŠâ He sighed. âWell, I realized they were right. I love you, and I thought that, maybe, if I pretended to be your boyfriend, youâd see Iâm not as bad as you think. I didnât care about spending my birthday at home because I want to be around you â I want to be around you, as often as I can. Perhaps, I'm a complete fool for that, but...â He trailed off, and though his eyes had hardened, not revealing any of the misery he felt, you could see it.Â
âLeviâŠâÂ
âI just hope you know that whatever Zeke has planted in your mind, it isnât true,â Levi spat, clenching his teeth. âYouâre not unloveable. God, you were so easy to fall in love with, and I had no idea, that all this time, youâve been thinking otherwise.â He sniffed, caught between sorrow and fury. âI would never have told you how I felt, but it doesnât matter, anyway. As long as you know that what he says isn't true.âÂ
You were still whirling from the confession, but Levi had already begun to walk off, trudging off into the house.
âLevi, wait,â you said, grasping at his arm before he could go back inside, get too far away from you. Your head was spinning, and you couldnât think, couldnât hear anything besides the words Iâm in love with you.
And though he was frustrated, and a culmination of many other things, Levi did as you said, because he loved you; because he loved you, and he listened to you, and you had a hold over him.Â
Levi stopped, looking back at you, breathing deeply, waiting.
âIââ you began, but the words died there, because Levi looked so pretty with snowflakes on his lashes, and you thought of all the questions youâd never ask, and the fact that all this time, youâd wanted Levi⊠even if youâd been to scared to admit it.Â
You kissed him.
Your lips pressed against his, and though he was caught off-guard, eyes wide, he fell into it instantly, arms coming around your back to hold you close. Levi kissed you with a passion that Zeke never had, grabbing at your body like a lifeline, desperate and adoring.
Levi tasted of peppermint, smelled like tea, and felt like a home you hadnât known since youâd been back here. Something clicked into place, your mind shifting, and your hands fisted in the back of his coat, holding onto him tight.Â
âYou love me?â you asked in a small voice, eyes glossy from a sort of happiness you hadnât felt in years.Â
Levi smiled down at you, his expression bright, the corners of his eyes crinkling. He traced your jaw, kissed your forehead, your nose, your cheeks. âI love you.â Another lingering kiss on your lips. âIâd spend all of my life showing you, if youâd let me; getting rid of all those lies Zeke planted in your head." Levi inhaled, rested his head against your own gently.Â
âI thought you didnât like to date,"Â you said, closing your eyes.
He huffed out a laugh. âI donât.âÂ
âAre there other women?âÂ
âWhat?â Levi shook his head, amused, when you finally pried your eyes back open. You wondered if youâd ever seen him so happy; if youâd ever seen him happy at all. If, maybe, you could keep him happy forever. âNo, Iâm â Is that what youâve thought of me all this time?âÂ
Embarrassed, you dipped your head to his shoulder, warming yourself up in his embrace. He took that as yes for an answer.Â
âIâm not interested in dating, and I really havenât been with many people before, contrary to what you believe,â he teased, running his fingers along your spine. âCertainly, not since I met you. Does that answer suffice?âÂ
You ran your hands against his chest, kissing his collarbone, his neck, then along his jaw, letting every ounce of your affection seep into it. âI donât want you to see anyone else,â you admitted, looking at him from under your lashes, remembering exactly what Zeke had done to you, at exactly the same time that he did.Â
âI wonât, my love,â Levi swore, kissing you once more, sweet and wonderful in the snowy Christmas Eve.Â
"And, maybe," you began shyly, playing with the buttons of his deep maroon shirt. "We can start fresh tomorrow. I don't know enough about you, Levi Ackerman," you said, frowning, a wrinkle forming between your eye. "But I'd like to."
Levi relaxed, shifting into a version of himself that so few would ever get to see, sweet and caring, with eyes so soft. He smiled. "I can't think of a better way to spend my birthday."
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Enemies 2 Friends to Something More
Summary: When a girl in his class corrects him, Ford decides that he will go through any lengths to one her up like she seems to do so often to him. Tw: Slight NSFW [Would anyone even read NSFW work of him?]
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Ford had never been corrected before, because he's never been wrong. So, when he was sitting in class one day and had gone to answer a question, only for a h/c haired girl to correct him. Ford wasn't necessarily mad, more so confused, because he thought he was right. Though, when he went back and checked his numbers, he realized the girl was right. That was fine. Sometimes people were wrong and he's at college to learn, so maybe it's good that there's someone with the same level as intelligence as him.
But then... It happened again. It was a little more embarrassing for it to happen again, but he tried not to think to much about it. That was UNTIL it happened for a third time. That time he was annoyed.
He looked back at you as you smirked down at him. You took joy in his embarrassment, that's what he believed, and it bugged him to his very core. He had to get you back. He wasn't sure how, but he would.
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Ford stayed up late last night, having finally crafted the perfect question that he knew would stump you. Instead of bringing it up in class, he wanted to talk to you personally, because the question was made for you, no one else.
So, after class, Ford made sure to call you back, having learned your name from his roommate, Fiddleford.
"Y/n!"
You looked back at the sound of your name to; Only to be surprised when seeing it was Stanford Pines.
"Stanford?"
"Call me Ford."
You sigh, looking him up and down. "Okay, F-o-r-d," You stretch out the letters of his name. "What is it you want?"
"Can I not talk to a fellow classmate?"
"Oh, Ford, don't be silly. I know you want something. I see how angry you get when you get something wrong. You clearly want something from me."
He holds his ands up in surrender. "You caught me. I actually... wanted to discuss a-" He tsks. "theory- Question if you will. If you're willing to occupy my company."
"I do like intelligent conversation and you're the most intelligent guy here, so I guess I can give you some time."
He smirks, happy that the trap had been set.
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He pulls out multiple papers, putting them on the table, before looking up at you. You looked at him confused why he would have so many papers.
He goes on and on about the theory of life and what the purpose of all living things are. While you were confused on the topic, since he wasn't asking for your opinion, you were amazed by his passion on the topic. It seemed he wanted to prove something to you- Prove that he was a genius.
It wasn't like you didn't know that. Everyone that knew Ford or interacted with him knew he was genius, so you were confused why he felt the need to prove it to you.
You thought he was kind of cute. Going on and on. You kind of wanted to fuck him. Your face turned a light pink when the thought entered your mind.
"What do you think?"
"What?" You were caught off guard, since your mind was occupied.
"About life."
"I- uh, never really think about that stuff?"
"You have no opinions about it?"
"Uh, I mean, you've said every thought that I have." You lean in, a stupid smile overtaking your face.
"Yeah?" Ford's face turned a light pink when having your face close to his. He could almost kiss you... Almost... He wanted to- I mean, he admired how intelligent you were, and he felt you were one of the only people he could have a real conversation with without dumbing himself down. He would have kissed you if a book wasn't slammed down at the end of the table, causing Ford to glare at the person, Fiddleford.
"Sorry, am I interrupting something?"
You sit back in your seat and smile, "No. Uh, no. I was going to go anyway. I'm sure my roommate is waiting for me." You turn to Ford, "I'll see you... later?"
"Yeah. I'll see you."
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Ford stared at his ceiling, his alarm clock the only light in the room. He couldn't keep his mind off of you. He wished he had kissed you or something. It would have been the perfect moment. So, why didn't he?
He could feel his body heat up as his thoughts got more intense. He pulled one of his pillows out from under him, before slamming it against his face, hoping to rid himself of the thoughts. God, how was he supposed to see you again knowing what he felt?
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wonder who iâm looking for
luke hughes x ex!reader
summary: you donât go to parties anymore but luke still looks
warnings: angst, implications of sex, mention of losing in frozen four, underage drinking, drinking in general, probably more angst
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The house reeked of cheap beer. For most of the occupants of the house being taken in the NHL Draft, money wasnât too much of a hardship, especially with the scholarships and everything else they were entitled to as student athletes, but it was still cheap beer. Luke knew everyone here, almost everyone. He wasnât too familiar with the freshman kids that had came in after he left. He knew some names just through passing and if they were top prospects.
It felt like yesterday he was living in this house with his friends. Now, most of the friends were scattered across the country. Dylan in Tampa, Mackie in Charlotte, sometimes he got to bounce to Sunrise. Luke was leaving for New Jersey. Training camp was going to start and he was no longer on the University of Michigan hockey team. Mark and Ethan still lived in the house, but now the empty rooms were taken by other people. It was part of the life though, Luke had known he wasnât going to be at Michigan forever.
The party drowned on around him. Cheap beer in his hands, Lukeâs eyes scanned the room. He didnât know who he was looking for. You wouldnât be there. Why was he still looking?
Luke lived in the dorms his freshman year, as did most. But, because he was a student athlete, he still got invites to parties and events. He didnât exactly need parties but it was a right of passage, partying in college. But he didnât even meet you at a party. Those party conversations and meetings came later.
Instead, Luke had met you in one of the buildings he had class in. He walked out of class with Mark when you approached, immediately talking to them. âYour bag,â you handed the bag to Mark. âThank you. Sorry about that, but I needed it for practice.â
Luke was confused. Who were you? âOh, right, this is Luke, my teammate,â Mark introduced. â(Y/N),â you stuck your hand out, âIâm the unfortunate person stuck with Mark on our project in Intro to Business.â Luke shook your hand. âHe left his bag in my car last night when I drove him to his dorm because of the rain.â
âAnd (Y/N) happily and graciously brought me the bag because she has class a building over.â
âI should get going, have fun with practice. See you in study group Mark!â And then you were gone. âAre you and her?â Luke finally asked when they got to Yost. âNope, sheâs all yours bud.â
Luke didnât see you again until Mark yanked you to the group at the football tailgate three weeks later. You were dressed in Michigan colors with an M temporary tattoo on your cheek. â(Y/N)! You remember Luke right?â Mark handed you a cup, presumably alcohol since you were mostly underaged and couldnât openly drink. âHi Luke.â
From there, it was meetings at the library, Luke happened to always just be free to attend study session with you and Mark and your other classmates. Then it was text messages and Snapchat picture exchanges from classes when class was boring. Then after the first hockey game of the season, you finally appeared at the party.
The freshmen players werenât drunk, they were mainly stuck on designated driver duty and bouncer duty. The upperclassmen house was full of students when you arrived. Luke didnât see you for the first hour or so but he had to admit, he was looking for you. You finally appeared on the back porch of the house, where Luke was. Your roommate was off drinking and you needed out of the stuffy house. âLuke! You didnât text back after the game so I didnât know if you would be here,â you hung off his shoulders in a hug. âAre you drinking tonight?â he asked, an arm snaking around your waist. âYes, my friend is DD!â
Luke smiled. That was the first night you kissed him. Luke wasnât too proud of it. He felt like you were drunk and you shouldnât have kissed him. But you wanted to kiss him. Itâs why you continued to kiss him the next time you saw him and every time after that. By winter break, you were officially dating.
During the summer in between your freshman and sophomore year, Luke and you were long distance. You were living back with your family for the summer and he was busy with his family and hockey. But when the two of you got back to campus, you were immediately with Luke.
He was living with the boys and you were in an off campus apartment but most of the time you were with him. The excuse for you always being at the house was not just for Luke but also for studying with Ethan and Mark. Mark had taken credit for being the reason you and Luke were together.
At every party, Luke didnât have to look for you. You were always next to him. Talking to friends and drinking cheap beer or poorly mixed jungle juice. Everything was perfect and good. You were always with him. Most of the times, parties ended late and you slept over with Luke, when sleeping was an option. Most of the time, the two of you were getting hot and heavy behind the locked door of his bedroom.
As sophomore year dragged on, it became more and more apparent to Luke that after the season ended, he would be leaving for New Jersey. Everyone knew it. Well everyone but you. You heard whispers about it but Luke never confirmed it. When the team made it to the Frozen Four, you couldnât attend the game in Tampa and Luke simply kissed you goodbye and said he would see you soon. But he wouldnât. He already had bags sent to New Jersey and had his extra sticks packed up. All his teammates knew and you didnât. It wouldnât make sense until a week after the Frozen Four as to why Luke had been only hanging out at your apartment, he didnât want you to know he was packing.
The watch party of the game ended sourly when the boys lost. You texted Luke, telling him you loved him and when he got back you would come over to help cheer him up. Only Luke didnât come back. He was in New Jersey days later, only telling you when you called crying and angry. Luke had never told you. It was the end of your relationship.
You hated hockey. You hated Michigan. You hated New Jersey. You hate Luke Hughes. Your transfer paperwork went in quickly and your apartment was empty at the end of the semester. You were no longer attending the University of Michigan and it was all because of a boy.
Why hadnât Luke just told you he was leaving?
Luke had no idea you left. It was almost ironic, him not telling you he was leaving and you not telling him that you transferred schools. Every time he asked Mark or Ethan about you, they dodged his questions. They didnât want him to know he had caused you so much trouble that you left.
When he finally returned this year, he looked everywhere for you. At the football games, with faces he vaguely recognized, he even debated looking at Markâs laptop to try and see the class roster, knowing you should be in the same classes. He finally broke and asked the day of the party.
âShe left didnât she?â
âTransferred to OSU after sophomore year,â Ethan admitted. âSheâs doing okay if it makes you feel better,â Mark started. Mark was going to continue on but Luke didnât want to hear it. âNo, it doesnât make me feel better.â
At the party, Luke sat on the couch. All his former teammates and all his friends around him. Cheap beer in his hand. An impending plane ticket to New Jersey for training camp already on his phone. The knowledge that you wouldnât be at the party, or any party for that matter. All this and more, and yet he still looked for you.
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malpractice | s. es
med student!eunseok x reader | 5.6k words
everyone stay healthy our future doctors are roleplaying as physicians to fuck their roommatesâŠthis was my first roleplaying fic so anon i hope itâs to your liking!
contains: roleplaying, NO dubcon, no protection is used
eunseok and you both agreed it was a one time thing. a quick hookup, fueled by lack of human interaction and alcohol.Â
the night had started normal. you shared a small break from long shadow shifts at the hospital with some of your favorite classmates. your friend group of future professionals did what anyone in your age group would do. the club was packed and the mood was high. drinks were passed around and rounds of shots were bought en masse. it was a mistake you didnât know you were making, getting so wasted in the presence of eunseok.Â
when the shots started to sting a little less the two of you started getting touchy. his hand was on the small of your back and your arm gripped his bicep. by the time the shots tasted like water you and eunseok were dry humping in a dark corner of the club.Â
the music made your ribcage shake and the darkness of the club made you heady. your view of eunseok came in snatches, only visible when the lights of the club would shine on him periodically. his eyes were hooded and his movements were clumsy like yours, driven by lust but slowed by the alcohol. bodies on the dance floor bumped into the two of you, causing kisses meant for lips to land on cheeks and making you stumble into his arms. eunseok switched with you, caging you between him and a n exposed brick wall that felt rough against your back. when he looked down at you, a brief moment of sobriety hit you both. the moment of clarity was gone the second eunseok started rubbing his thumb on your bottom lip.
âletâs go back to the apartment.â eunseok said.
you nodded and followed behind him, sending a text to your friend that you and eunseok were calling it a night.
as soon as the door of your shared apartment was closed you were on top of eachother. no more moments of clarity, not even a second to think about how you two would change the dynamic of your relationship forever. instead you fucked your roommate that you told yourself youâd never fuck on couch in your communal space. you rode him until your thighs burned, then you let him return the favor by making him do all the work. you were drooling into the armrest of the couch by the time he was finished with you, only knowing his name and the feeling of his hands pressed against your body.Â
you didnât realize the gravity of the situation until you woke up the next morning. eunseok slept on the floor next to the couch with a pillow from his bed tucked underneath his head. in any other situation you wouldâve teased him for sleeping on the ground, but then you remembered why. events of the night hit you the same time the hangover migraine hit, nearly knocking the breath out of you. you snuck from the couch and around eunseokâs body to close yourself in your bedroom.
since then, you had avoided eunseok completely. you didnât sit on the couch anymore to watch television. you stay in your room now, finding ways to entertain yourself when eunseok is home. the only time you left your bed was when you heard eunseok leave the apartment or go into his room. avoiding eachother had become an unspoken acknowledgment, both of you falling into a schedule that left the communal spaces empty in shifts. your usual conversations devolved into short pleasantries. tension was like a thick fog in your apartment. both of you stayed away from the other to try and grant space.Â
you knew sex with eunseok was a one time thing. so why was it that you couldnât escape him? the memories of your night haunted you dreamscape, infiltrating the one place you had reprieve from the stress of being in eunseokâs proximity.Â
the dreams started the night after. your subconscious filled in gaps your drunk mind had forgotten or glossed over. you felt eunseokâs hot breath on your neck in your sleep and his hand ghost over your neck. when you felt the experimental squeeze on your windpipe you woke up with a breathless gasp. you were drenched in sweat, looking around your room as if eunseok was in there with you.
everything only got worse after the first dream. they would start innocent, like studying with eunseok or the normal dream of you in class. the beginning would always lure you in, giving you a false sense of security. but no matter how normal or mundane the dream was it would always have eunseok in it and it would always end the same way. sometimes it would be eunseok taking you from behind on your shared couch, smacking your ass until you swore you could feel the pain in real life. sometimes it would be you on your knees, looking up to eunseokâs bobbing adamâs apple as his hand in your hair tightened. no matter what, you would always jolt yourself awake when your conscious mind realized what was happening.Â
tonight was different. everything had come to a boiling point, you were dressed in your scrubs walking down the quiet ward to greet your patient. when you opened the door to the hospital room it was eunseok was on the hospital bed, whimpering about pain. you were trying to be the best nurse you knew you could be, asking him where it hurt and what his symptoms were. it was no use, the way eunseok pulled at your scrubs made that clear. you had known by now that your dreams never ended with something as simple as a diagnosis. this dream instead ended with you riding eunseok on his hospital bed while he groped every part of your body.
you no longer shot up from the bed gasping for air. when the nonsensical ridiculous dreams kept coming, you were forced to deal with it quietly. now you let your eyes open quickly to stare at whatever was in front of you as you came to. your throat was always dry now, and you had to blink to bring moisture back to your eyes.Â
you blinked repeatedly trying to adjust to the darkness in your room. everything felt uncomfortable. your body was drenched in sweat, down the line of your back and underneath the covers stuffed between your legs. your clothes stuck to your sweaty body, and you could feel your underwear press to your folds each time you moved.
your clock told you it was time to go to bed, in any other case you wouldâve turned around in bed and dealt with it in the morning. but the water bottle next to your bed was empty, and you needed to go to the bathroom. you considered your option, smacking your lips to try and wet your throat. when your throat still felt dry and scratchy you stretched carefully before getting up from your bed.
you nearly stumbled out of your bedroom rubbing your eyes. you didnât want to wake yourself up too much, knowing you might struggle trying to fall asleep later. you are still out of it, making a wobbly line for the fridge. your mind was so busy thinking about your dreams that you didnât notice eunseok sitting at the table. he took notes diligently, pausing his movements to watch you over his circular frames. you visibly tensed when you finally noticed his presence. eunseok froze the same way for a moment before going back to writing in his journal.Â
you freeze in place and eunseok does the same. he waits for you to say something first, evident in the way he clears his throat.
âyouâre up late.â you say.
your attempt to sound casual fails. your tone is awkward, stating the obvious as you shift on your feet. eunseok laughs quietly as he highlights something in his medical book.
âcase study,â eunseok doesnât look up from his notes. âtaking longer than i thought.â he says.
he looks at his watch again before looking back at you. if you look at eunseok for too long, you start to remember details you tried to forget. it takes everything in you to turn away silently while making a beeline to your bedroom.
âwhat are you doing awake?â eunseok asked.
the question was rushed, falling from his lips before you could shut him out again. when you turn around you see eunseok no longer looks at his books. his highlighter and pen rest in the binding of his journal as he looks at you.
âbad dream.â you said sheepishly.Â
you could see eunseokâs head tilt as he thought about something. he tapped on his book nervously, looking at you over the rim of his glasses. you stood there in between the space of your room and the kitchen foolishly, waiting for eunseok to say what was on his mind. he cleared his throat, looking to you directly.
âthe walls are thin, ya know.â he said. âespecially when iâm in here doing work late at night.â
that was all you needed to hear before quickly turning on your heel to walk into your room. the heat made your face feel like it was on fire when you reached for the doorknob of your bedroom.
âwait.â eunseok said behind you.Â
when you looked at him you saw that he had gotten up from the table quickly. he looked to the seat on the other side of the table, the one you havenât sat at in so long.Â
âcan we just talk? please?â eunseok said.
when you sat down, you found out that eunseok had heard everything. he tried taking a neutral approach, trying to save you from some of the shame. but it was unavoidable as eunseok told you heâs been hearing everything. you were nearly crying when eunseok reached an awkward hand out to pat on your shoulder. eunseok told you sincerely you didnât have to be embarrassed, but shame still made your head hang low. eunseok didnât stop rubbing your shoulder, but you didnât spare a glance towards him. it wasnât until he stopped rubbing your shoulder and cleared his throat, opening his mouth over and over again as he tried to gather what to say.
âi want to help you.â he says.
you lift your head to look at eunseok with narrowed eyes. shock has left you and was replaced with anger fueled by embarrassment. the fact that eunseok seemed to only want to throw salt on the wound made the hair rise on your neck.
ânot funny eunseok.â you say.
your arms are crossed protectively as you get ready to stand up from the table. eunseok reaches towards you, a hand asking you to stop.
âiâm serious.â eunseok lets his hand rest on the table as he gathers his thoughts. âi was thinking. maybe if we did it under the guise of something else it could ease the tension.â he says.
when you realize what eunseok is hinting at you canât stop your eyebrows from furrowing. your shocked expression mirrors eunseok, like he is also surprised he came up with such a thing.
âyou mean like roleplaying?â when eunseok nods you keep talking. âlike we fuck but youâre my doctor?â
âif you donât like it. we can stop and pretend it never happened.â eunseok assures you.
you consider all your options. you think about yelling at eunseok for assuming youâd be so easy to say yes to something so ridiculous. but you also think about the dreams youâve had, how you hhavenât stopped thinking about eunseok since that night. if this backfired, youâll move out and never be seen by eunseok again. you still feel a pit in your stomach at the possibility of it being awkward. you look at your roommate in his seat at the table, twiddling his thumbs as he waits for you. youâre no better, picking at your hands underneath the table.
âi feel like afterâŠâ you clear your throat and force yourself to maintain eye contact with eunseok even though your face feels like itâs on fire. âafter we should have a very long conversation about what happened that night after the club.â you say matter-of-factly.
eunseokâs eyes light up and he nods his head vigorously as you stand up from the table.
âi agree completely.â he says.
eunseok still sits at the table looking up at you when you rock back and forth on your heels. every attempt you make trying to seem confident in this situation seems to fall flat. you wish you couldâve slipped into the act, a non-assuming patient that sweetly asks where to go for the examination. instead you clear your throat awkwardly and look around the space of the common area.
âmy room or yours?â you ask shyly.
eunseok stands up from the table quickly, pushing in his chair slowly before walking over to you. you can see he has trouble too by the way he gestures to his room. you two are silent, you only nod before heading to eunseokâs room. you can hear him push in your chair and clothes his books, turning off the light in the common area and following behind you. before you made it through the threshold of his door, eunseok grabs your hand and holds it gently. he turns on the lamp that sits on his desk, and clears off his neatly folded pajamas that sat on his made bed with one hand.Â
you stood next to eunseokâs bed and he stood beside you, your hand still in his. it was daunting, being in eunseokâs room knowing what you came in here to do. all the other times you had been in his room was to quickly look for something or peer in to ask if he wanted to order takeout. but now you were in eunseokâs room looking down at his sheets, anxiously waiting for what was going to come next.
eunseok turns to you, smile on his face as he speaks.
âshould i put on my lab coat?â
with a serious voice but a smile on his face eunseok helps ease some of the tension. you laugh and shake your head, playfully hitting eunseok in his shoulder.Â
eunseok squeezed your hand one last time before letting it go. you felt him come behind you, placing both of his hands gently on your elbows.
âyou can lay down.â eunseok said gently.
you silently nodded your head, realizing it had started. you could feel the atmosphere change as eunseok guided you slowly to crawl on his bed. one of his hands moved to the back of your head to help you lay on the pillows gently. he was handling you slowly and carefully like glass, the complete opposite of how he held you the first time.Â
eunseok stayed by your side, holding your hand as he looked down at you. you found yourself avoiding his gaze at all costs, suddenly becoming hyperaware of everything about yourself. how you were laying, how you looked from eunseokâs perspective, how tight you were holding onto his hand. you tugged on his hand to bring him down to you in an effort to level the playing field.Â
when he was crouched beside the bed next to you, eunseok took in all of your features. his hand that was holding yours let go to run a slow finger on your jawline, resting on your forehead like he was checking your temperature. you held gently to his tricep, needing something to hold for comfort.
âare you comfortable?â eunseok asked.
you shake your head still anxiously picking at the sheets underneath your fingertips.
âi think. i think you need to take a closer look.â you whisper.
eunseok smiles, his hand that was on your forehead reaching down to pinch your cheek.
eunseok crawls onto the bed, slotting himself between your partially spread legs. he rests on his haunches, rubbing soothing hands up and down your calves. you focus on the tiny sound your nails make against the fabric of eunseokâs bedsheets. you can feel his eyes on you and youâre too anxious to focus your eyes in the dimly lit room to look back at him.
eunseok recognizes too much about you, the way you nervously pick at everything around you and the way you bite your lip when youâre stressed. he wants to help you, he wants to get rid of the tension that weighs down on your shoulders each time he passes by you. so eunseok does what any good doctor would do and begins his examination.
âwhen did the dreams start?â eunseok asks.
heâs serious, his hands reach down to your ankles to push them up the bed, forcing you to bend your legs at the knee. you try to think hard, focusing everything to get into the character of his patient. put youâre shy, too shy to look at anything but your bent knee. eunseokâs hand that comes to rest on top of your knee forces you to open your mouth.
âsince that night weâi went to the club.â you stammered.Â
âi see.â eunseok hums sympathetically, hand working down your knee towards your thigh, stopping where the bottom of your night shorts begin. âand what happened when you went to the club?â eunseok asks.
you clear your throat, heels digging into the mattress.
âi wont judge you.â eunseok places a chaste kiss on your knee. âwhat happened when you went to the club?â he asks again.
eunseok starts messing with the bottom of your shorts, going underneath the fabric to rub on your skin. his hands are soft, wedging. between your ass and the bed until you are in the palm of his hand. you squeeze your eyes shut and open them to look at the ceiling. your hand that isnât picking at the sheets in underneath your night shirt, hand over your stomach to self-soothe.
âi had sex.â you say quietly.
eunseok hums in acknowledgment before reaching his other hand into your shorts. this hand rubs on the top of your thigh, reaching all the way up until he hits your waistband. eunseok is so close to touching you where you have been needing him the most. anticipation makes you dizzy to the point that you barely hear him.
âso the dreams started that night?â eunseok asks.
you nod your head, the words are caught in your throat when you feel eunseok bend his hand to cup your heat.
âthey started that night.â you bring your hips closer to eunseokâs hand when he presses his hand against your heat. âthey happen every night now.â you say.
âi see.â eunseok looks up from between your legs to try and see your face. all he can see is your head pressed into the pillows as you pinch his bedsheets between your two fingers. eunseok presses his hand against you a little more until your back arches slightly off the bed. âand what do you dream about?â he asks.
eunseok hears you hesitate for a second. you let your knees come together, almost locking eunseokâs hands in place while simultaneously keeping him away. he doesnât want to pry, he doesnât want to pry your legs apart to give himself better access. he waits for you to get comfortable again until you part your legs again. heâs even gentler than before, taking his hand away from your heat to hold your hand that rests on your stomach. you squeeze his hand and eunseok can hear you let out a breath. you put your hand on top of eunseokâs to slowly drag both of your hands underneath your waistband. his hand underneath your ass lifts your bottom half up slightly so he can grab at your thighs.
âmy roommate.â your voice is airy, barely above a whisper as you answer eunseokâs question.
âwhat about your roommate?â eunseok asks.
he kneads your thighs and your sides, trying to coax anything he can out of you. eunseok wants to hear about your dreams, to see if theyâre the same as his. he kisses your knee, working his way down your leg just to go right back up. from resting on his haunches eunseok can see your face clearly. he can tell his ministrations on you are relaxing, your legs wobble but they donât close in on eachother. when eunseok grips a untouched part of your body he can see your chest raise abruptly.Â
âi dream about having sex again.â when eunseok grabs the flesh at the apex of your thighs you grab a fistful of his sheets. âwith him.â eunseok hums and grabs the same place. âall the time.â you ramble.
eunseok pulls both of his hands from your shorts and rubs your legs. he does it slow, trying to get you to stop looking at the ceiling to look at him. you prop yourself up on your elbows, looking at eunseok between your legs. his hands go to your waistband, hands curling underneath the elastic as he looks to you for approval.
âiâm going to take these off.â you lift your hips and eunseok begins pulling them down. âfor the next part of the examination.â he says
you nod, lifting your feet off the bed when your shorts are pulled to your ankles. eunseok tosses your shorts over the bed somewhere in his room. itâs not important when youâre laid bare for eunseok.Â
heâs slow at first, hands on the underside of your leg rubbing all the way down to your heat until he works his way back up to your knee again. itâs cruel, torturous almost as you squirm on his bed. you can feel all of eunseokâs fingers as he rubs your hot skin, and you can feel goosebumps prickle along your skin as anticipation builds over you.
the next time eunseok works both of his hands to your heat one of his hands splays across your stomach to hold you down softly. his other hand finds its way to your core, rubbing his fingers up and down your folds. itâs only more teasing, forcing yourself to listen to the wet sound of you on his fingertips. eunseok sweetly kisses your knee again, looking into your eyes as he does it. you bit your lip, and you fail again at maintaining eye contact when eunseok puts his finger inside of you.
you arch slightly into his hand, any attempt to go higher is stopped by eunseokâs hand on your stomach.
âtry not to move during the examination.â eunseok says it playfully while he watches you squirm.Â
you stop trying to swivel your hips into eunseokâs finger to follow his orders.
âokay.â you pout.
eunseok almost takes pity on you seeing how badly you want to move. he gives you another finger as consolation, and lets you scoot your ass lower on the bed to fuck yourself on his fingers. his hand on your stomach had to go to your knee to try and keep your legs apart.
âdo you dream about this?â eunseok asks.
he bends his fingers as if heâs beckoning to you. your hand goes to your knee to put it over eunseokâs hand.
âyes.â you say breathlessly, nodding against the pillows.
you can see eunseokâs smirk even in his dimly lit room, and how his shirt starts jumping as he speeds his fingers up. you try to close your legs around his fingers, but his hand on your knee stops you.
âjust like this?â eunseok asks.
âjust like that.â you whine.
you can hear eunseokâs light laugh as he watches you get high off of him. itâs not long before you are digging your heels into the mattress and your body starts feeling hot all over. eunseok notices, he sees the way you reach behind you to press against the headboard. eunseok keeps giving it to you, moving to sit on the bed between your legs. his hand on your knee goes to your clit and starts doing revolutions.
âeunseok.â you whimper.Â
eunseok looks up from your cunt to focus on your face. your eyes are wet and your legs twitch. eunseok almost bends down to kiss you, but he remembers who heâs supposed to be for you right now. so he remains stoic, lifting an eyebrow as he continues to pump his fingers into you.
âhmm?â
âiâm close.â
as soon as you utter the words, eunseok withdraws his fingers. your back is still arched off the bed and your body quickly comes down from the high that was building up. you prop yourself up on your elbows again, to see eunseok with his fingers in his mouth. he brings his hand that was rubbing revolutions on your clit to your lips, his wet hand beside your stomach as he holds himself up. you hesitate for a second before opening your mouth, letting eunseok put his fingers on your tongue.
âyou taste so sweet.â eunseok looks at your bare stomach from your uplifted shirt. he puts his hand on your stomach while you continue sucking on his fingers. âso healthy.â eunseok says.
you nod and hollow your cheeks around his fingers. eunseok takes his out of your mouth and trails down your chin before desperately grabbing your clothed chest. your hand goes to his tricep, trying to encourage him to keep touching you that way. eunseok lifts up your shirt to expose more of your stomach before bending down to kiss your soft skin.
âi think i found the cure.â eunseok says between kisses. âfor your problem.â
eunseok starts sucking harshly on your stomach, pulling away each time to admire his work. he blows cold air on each bruise and kisses it gently as if heâs welcoming it. you stopped trying to prop yourself on your elbows, you fully sink your body into the pillows and the mattress underneath you.
âand whatâs that?â you ask breathlessly.
eunseok pulls away from your stomach, looking up at you from between your legs. his smile is wicked and you already know what heâs going to say.Â
âas a professional in the medical field, i just think you need to get fucked again.â eunseok puts his fingers back inside of you, earning a moan. âdonât you agree?â he asks.
âi agree.â
eunseok takes his hands away from your body and lifts his shirt over his head with a single hand. you do the same but fumble with the end of your shirt, pulling it off your head in a rush. while eunseok works on his belt you take off your bra and then help him pull off his jeans the rest of the way. all of your clothes are thrown somewhere random in eunseokâs room, immediately once they are out of sight they are out of mind. you only care about eunseokâs dick that bobs in the space of his room and his hands that go back to your body.
he walks on his knees to slot himself in between your legs again, lowering his body until his dick rests on your stomach. it is hard and heavy against your body, you can feel and see the leaking precum come from his tip.Â
âwho should it be?â eunseok grabs your ankles and puts them on either side of his head. âshould i call someone?â eunseok asks playfully.
he revels in the way you pathetically shake your head and how your hand reaches between your legs to grab his dick. you desperately guide him to your entrance and wiggle down the bed so youâre closer to him.
âplease help me.â you are desperate, already arching off the bed when eunseok slaps your folds with his dick. âi need it.â you whimper.
eunseok splays his hand across your stomach again, and he uses his other hand to guide himself into your cunt.
âwho am i to deny a patient?â eunseok says, letting his tip poke at your entrance.
when eunseok slowly sinks in, both of you are silent. you could hear the clock ticking in eunseokâs room as both of your mouths opened in silent euphoria. a week felt like a century, and being sober made you feel everything. the way your walls relaxed as eunseok slowly pushed himself all the way in, the feeling of his hips kissing yours. you almost think youâre becoming drunk off him when he pulls out slowly just to go right back in even slower. eunseok kisses your calf and wraps his hand around your legs to keep them in place.
âi dreamt about this too.â eunseok murmurs.
he watches your chest move in tandem with his thrusts, how you hold one of your breasts in your hand. he wishes he had another hand, to give the other side of your chest attention too. eunseok instead grabs your stomach, enjoying the sight of your skin peaking through the gaps in his fingers.
âfeel better yet?â eunseok asks from above you.Â
he knows he should be nicer, but from his point of view he canât stop himself from becoming cocky. he sees the furrow in your eyebrows and the way you bite you lip trying so hard to be quiet while you take all of him. eunseok teases you by drawing his hips back and thrusting into you, making you put your hand on the headboard again to steady yourself. you can open your eyes only for a second before closing them.Â
âcome closer.â you whine.Â
when you pull at eunseokâs hand on your stomach he obeys immediately. he leans forward until the backs of your knees are on his shoulders. even from the stretch you still preen your neck to kiss eunseok. your soft lips push against his and your tongue goes into his mouth with fervor. you suck on his bottom lip and eunseok lets you. the same way he admired the marks on your stomach you admire looking at his swollen and glossy lips. eunseok presses his sweaty forehead against yours and stays there, trying to see all of the faces you make for him.
you run your hands through his hair and eunseok wonders if you can see the blush across his face in this dark room. heâs focused on hitting you as deep as he can, with slow thrusts that cause you to pause and whine in his face. eunseok brings his body closer to you, letting one of your legs fall from his shoulder so he can press his chest against yours.
âfaster please.â you whisper against eunseokâs lips.
he nods and brings his hips back to thrust into you at a faster pace. one of your hands holds eunseokâs thatâs planted in the mattress and the other holds your thigh close to your body. eunseok is able to pick up the speed fast, and heâs unrelenting even when your breathing starts to becoming hurried and your body starts squirming underneath him.
âwhere do you want it?â eunseok grunts.Â
he canât bring himself to be cocky anymore. he has to focus all of his energy in his hips and waiting fro your instruction on where he can cum.
your ankle digs into his back and you lift your hips to give him a new angle.Â
âinside.â you laugh against eunseokâs lips at how ridiculous you sound. âthatâs how i get cured, right?â you ask.
eunseok is the one reduced to nods now. he nods against your forehead before bringing you in for a sloppy kiss. his tongue runs across your lips before ever going into your mouth, and he presses his tongue against yours to taste you. his hips rut against yours, the sound of your skin slapping against eachother fills the room. eunseok moans into your mouth and you do the same, digging your ankle deeper into his back as he hits that same spot deep inside of you again and again.
âfuck.â eunseok pulls away from your lips. he can feel himself twitching around you, and he can feel your walls close around his dick to milk him. he continues to thrust into you slower and harder now, determined to give you every last drop. âtake it.â he groans.
âgive it to me.â you whimper underneath him.Â
your back arches as far as you can into eunseokâs chest as your legs stiffen. your hips move on their own accord, matching eunseokâs stuttering hips. you two continue to get higher and higher of eachother, until eunseok lets your other leg fall from your shoulder to pull you close. he lifts your body from the bed and pulls you onto his lap, fucking up into you as you helplessly wrap your arms around him to stabilize yourself. you are a moaning mess now, no amount of pressure you apply to your lips could keep you from holding back. eunseok is the same, grunting and moaning into your ear as his hand grips your shoulder.
he keeps you in his lap for awhile, letting his softening dick twitch inside of you while your walls still pulse. when he guides you back to the bed heâs gentle, laying his body on top of yours to still be close to you.
eunseok pulls out of you and falls on the bed next to you. the both of you look at the ceiling, coming down from your shared high. itâs eunseok who turns first to kiss your cheek, but youâre the one that grabs his hand to bring him closer to you. you can feel yourself drifting off to sleep, maybe the best sleep youâve had in weeks. eunseok doesnât try to keep you awake to talk, instead he pulls you close and lets his slowing heartbeat lull you to sleep.
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Chasing Cars | ch 8.5 (jjk)
âsummary: when your brother goes to study on a semester abroad, your life collides with his best friend Jeon Jungkook, who's coincidentally your roommate. Will you survive the collision, or will you crumble into dust?
âpairings: brother's best friend!Jungkook x younger sister!female reader
ârating: 18+ (minors DNI, this chapter contains mature content)
âgenre: forbidden love?au, college!au, slice of life!au, smut, angst (as usual a lot of it), fluff
âwarnings: peach, curses, luxury, alcohol, jungkook's family, they are so gone for each other my dude, explicit content: hickeys, dom!Jungkook, big dick!Jungkook, jerking off, oral sex (male receiving), exhibitionism (sort of but not really), protected sex, marking, ass slapping, praising, clit play
âword count: 6.7k
âa/n: tried writing smut in jk's pov, i hope you guys liked it <3 also this is supposed to be a drabble but it's literally a full chapter HAHA hope it doesn't disappoint :')
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If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol
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Jungkook has been happy. Ever since you got to New York yesterday, heâs been happy. Itâs a feeling heâs not accustomed to when it comes to the city he grew up in, yet one heâs finding to love far more than he ever imagined he would.
Maybe itâs you, and the dress you got yesterday. To say that you stole the breath from his lungs when you stepped out of the changing room would be an understatement. The second he saw you, he felt like all the stars had aligned in his night sky, with you as the centerpiece. It felt like you were the center to his universe, and frankly, itâs a feeling he wants to get used to.Â
If he wasnât sure about you before yesterday, he sure as hell is now. No matter what Taehyung says, what anyone says, he knows he wants to be with you.
He canât wait for you to charm his brother, too. Heâs not stupid enough to believe youâll charm his parents as well - they are extremely classist, and they hate everything that Jungkook likes. You could be the goddess of a religion and they would still hate you. But Junghyun⊠Jungkook hopes Junghyun will love you.
Something aches in Jungkookâs chest, because he should have warned you about his parents. Should have told you, and anxiety stabs him in the gut. He glances at you, and you look just as anxious as him, which he reckons is comforting somehow.
Heâs not alone for this engagement party. Not when youâre here, even though maybe he was a dick not to tell you anything.
âSmile, peach,â he forces out as he nudges you with an elbow.
You glance at him, your light makeup accentuating your features in a way that makes him gulp as your gazes connect.
âYou smile,â you throw back at him, and he finds he canât resist.
He smiles, laughing lowly. âDo you want something to drink?â
He reckons it could help. Both you and him, chasing away the lingering anxiety.
You look down at yourself, wincing. âIâm afraid Iâll ruin the dress.â
Youâre adorable. Downright adorable, and he holds in a laugh as he looks at you, heart fluttering in his chest. âSo youâre just going to stand still the whole evening because youâre afraid to ruin your clothes?â
A muscle feathers on your jaw as you roll your eyes. âPrecisely.â
âLoosen up, peach,â Jungkook teases.
He hopes you know that he wants you to be comfortable more than anything. That he wants you to prove everyone wrong, to prove that you belong to his strange, ridiculous world. And maybe thatâs why he invited you here: to prove himself, too, that you can handle being in his life, with no secrets between you. Because he knows you deserve it, heâs just afraid his world will chew you out.
You donât deserve that.
âYou know what?â you let out. âSure, Iâll take a drink.â
Jungkook sighs in relief, and he grabs glasses for you and him from a passing waitress, and you drink while talking about the skyline, which he has to admit is not half as beautiful as you.
Not that he would ever tell you.
Youâre almost finished with your drinks when Jungkook glances at the door, noticing his parents walking in. Everything stops, and he feels like someone is clutching his heart, a second away from crushing it in their hold. His mother notices him, and he stiffens even more, preparing for the inevitable fight.
âAre you okay?â you ask, resting a hand on his arm.
Jungkook startles, and he pulls at his piercings, nodding curtly. âAll good.â
âIs thatâŠâ you trail off.
âYep.â
âWhat should I do?â you ask, tugging on his arm.
Jungkook finally looks at you, and he wonders if you can hear the loud beats of his heart. Hell, he thinks he even has trouble breathing, and he gulps before saying, âJust be yourself.â
Because youâre perfect just the way you are, and he wouldnât want you to change, ever.
You offer him a small smile, and his gaze drops to it. It warms something in his chest, soothes him like a lullaby, and he finds heâs finally able to breathe. Heâd thank you for it, for your presence here, but his mother is upon you, and he readies himself to face her.
âJungkook,â she says, voice just as grating as it always is.
âMother.â
âGlad to see you came around and decided to come.â
He doesnât reply right away. Instead, he wraps an arm around your shoulders, pulling you just a little closer. Your presence is steadying, and he knows that, for the first time in his life, he wonât fail in this fight against his mother.
âI wanted to introduce Y/n to the family,â he says.
His mother looks at you, and he hates the way she cocks an eyebrow in judgment.
âI donât think we know each other,â she says, contempt dripping from her tone.
Jungkook wants to intervene, but youâre ready. You reply, âI donât think so.â You bow your head, much more polite than Jungkook has even seen you, before adding, âItâs a pleasure to meet you.â
Jungkookâs father, whoâs been standing next to his wife the whole time, pats his wifeâs hand before leaving, like he doesnât even think youâre worthy of his attention.
Itâs nothing new - Jungkook knows he is not even worthy of his fatherâs attention.
âLikewise,â his mother replies to you. She scans you up and down, noting the dress Jungkook got for you, and then her gaze stops on your heels. âNice shoes.â
Now, Jungkook is done. You donât deserve his motherâs contempt, not when youâre the best thing thatâs ever happened to him.
âMother,â he intervenes.
âYou thought dressing her up in a nice dress would make us forget that sheâs not from our class?â
Jungkook hates her. Heâs always hated her, felt like an outcast in his own family, but the insult makes it starker, truer, like the hate he holds for his mother is a law of the universe.
âExcuse me?â you let out, surprising Jungkook.
Surprising his mother, too, as she glances at you, eyes slightly widened. âAt least sheâs got a tongue on her.â
Because obviously thatâs something his mother respects, in her own twisted way.Â
âAnd Iâll ask you to make a fucking effort for once,â Jungkook spits in his motherâs face.
She frowns. âDo not curse, boy. It doesnât suit you.â
Jungkook sees red, and he laughs dryly. His mother clenches her jaw, and he wonders if he should tell her just how shitty of a person she is. Instead, he holds her gaze, refusing to back down from the fight like he would have if you werenât here.
It lasts for longer than he expected, his mother not once blinking. But then she looks away, and Jungkook almost screams victoriously as she looks at you again.
âWhere do you come from?â she asks.
Jungkook listens to your answer, still reeling from the victory against his mother.
âWhat do your parents do for a living?â
Heâs surprised that his mother is trying. That sheâs actually talking to you, and he thinks maybe you actually impressed her more than he imagined you would. Which, heâd thank his stars for it, because he really wants you in his life.
âMy mother is a nurse,â you reply. âAnd I do not know my father.â
Jungkookâs mother blinks once before looking at him again. âJunghyun will be happy you came.â
She turns on her heels and walks away, and Jungkook looks at her back. He waits until sheâs out of earshot and out of sight before glancing at you, his heart skipping a beat in his chest by your calm beauty.
âI apologize for this,â he says, and his arm drops from your shoulders.
âI think Iâm starting to get why you wanted me to come with you,â you say, meeting his gaze.
He sighs in defeat. âI honestly didnât think she would be flat-out rude like that.â He downs whatâs left of his champagne, hating that there aren't more than a few sips in his glass. He puts it away on the tray of a server as she walks past, before saying, âI promise we can go home as soon as Junghyun shows up and sees that I came.â
Because he wants Junghyun to see you. Wants his brother to like you, to approve of you, because his parents never would.
But at least Junghyun can.
âWe can stay longer too,â you reassure him. âI can handle the aristocracy.â
Jungkook canât help his laugh, especially not when you look at him with that mischievous twinkle in your eyes. âThe aristocracy?â
You nod wisely. âYeah. Because obviously weâre not from the same class.â
Heâs falling in love with you. Inevitably, irreversibly falling in love with you, and heâll forever be thankful for meeting you.
âFuck, peach.â
And just like that, you fall back in your usual playful banter, and Jungkook forgets all about his unease. It helps that you drink more, the alcohol numbing his senses slightly, and Jungkook introduces you to some of his cousins, those that he knows arenât as judgy as his parents. Though thereâs a language barrier, Jungkook translates for you, and heâs decently buzzed by the time Jungyun shows up, his fiancĂ©e on his arm.
Jungyun grins at the sight of Jungkook, immediately making his way towards where Jungkook is standing with you. Jungkook prepares to make the introductions, his heartbeat picking up in his chest as he canât help the anxiety from flooding back in.
âYou didnât tell me you were coming,â Jungyun says as he stops in front of you, pulling Jungkook into a tight embrace.
Jungkook grins. âI thought itâd be a good surprise.â
âIt sure is,â Junghyun agrees, pulling away. He glances at you, offering you a welcoming smile. âAnd you are?â
âMy girlfriend,â Jungkook says before you can say your name. Heâs proud to say it too, like youâre the best thing heâs done in his entire life. And though right now itâs false, and youâre not really his girlfriend, he really does believe youâre the best thing thatâs ever happened to him. âFrom college.â
âNice to meet you,â Junghyun says.
Jungkook is happy after that. Laughing lightly, smiling wide, and he loves how more comfortable you seem now. Because Junghyun and Nara, his fiancĂ©e, are welcoming, much nicer than his parents were earlier, and you enjoy their company until they excuse themselves to go greet the other guests in the room.Â
Jungkook smiles at you. âDo you want me to go grab a refill for you?â
You nod, gaze shining. âYes, please.â
Jungkook obliges, walking away to do so. He has to go to the refreshment table, so it takes him almost a minute before heâs walking back towards you. He notices his mother with you, and his grip tightens on the champagne flutes heâs holding, so much so he thinks they might shatter in his hands. The second you catch sight of him you walk away from his mother, and the tears pooling in your gaze are enough to make him want to go up to his mother and punch some sense into her.Â
âWhat did she tell you?â he asks in the gentlest voice he can summon.
âNothing,â you say, and he knows it for the lie it is as you blink some tears away.
âIâm really sorry,â he apologizes. âSheâsâŠâ
âItâs whatever,â you interrupt before he could finish his sentence. âI just want to spend time with you.â
After that, Jungkook finds he canât leave your side. And so he stays with you, enjoys his time with you, too, because thereâs nothing else heâd rather do right now. Later, after his brother does a speech, he suggests to go eat something, mostly because heâs starving and the entrĂ©es they are serving here would never be enough, but also because he wants intimacy with you, a moment just for you two to erase everything his mother said to you.
He knows she likely told you something shitty, because you seem uncomfortable, like itâs troubling your thoughts. He doesnât want to mention it right now, though, not when youâre still at the engagement party.
You accept Jungkookâs suggestion to head to a restaurant nearby, and Jungkook looks at you. Truly looks at you - youâre an angel overlooking the city, in that blue dress he got you.
He feels small in your presence, and itâs a humbling experience.
âThen wait for me here,â he says and, unable to help himself, he leans closer to press a kiss on your forehead.
The look on your face is entirely worth it, making his heart beat just a little louder in his chest, and he walks over to his father and brother with his heart feeling full and warm, a feeling heâs not too accustomed with, but a feeling he definitely wishes to get used to.
Junghyun notices him first, and his eyes slide to you over Jungkookâs shoulder as Jungkook stops in front of his brother.
âWeâre leaving,â Jungkook says, not wanting to beat around the bush when youâre waiting for him.
His brother cocks an eyebrow, chuckling. âNot her crowd?â
Jungkook widens his gaze. âWhat?â
Junghyun sighs, looking almost apologetic, and he leans closer to speak directly in Jungkookâs ear, low enough for only him to hear.
âListen, Jungkook, you know she shouldnât be here,â Junghyun says. âSheâs not from our social circle, the parents still want you to marry Gabrielle, and they will literally drag Y/n to hell if that means you break up with her.â He pauses, and Jungkook feels his heart sinking in his chest, all the warmth gone and replaced with winter cold. âSheâs clearly just in it for the money anyway.â
Jungkook clenches his jaw, not knowing what to answer. Not expecting Junghyun to say something like that at all, but then again, Junghyun is his motherâs son. Jungkook should have expected it. And he wants to say you didnât even know anything about the money before yesterday, so he clearly knows youâre not in for the money, but heâs silenced.
Especially when he knows youâre not in at all anyway. Youâre just a fake girlfriend he invited so that this party wouldnât be so excruciating. Yet his heart sinks all the same as he realizes it, like the Titanic headed for the bottom of the ocean.Â
âAnyways,â Junghyun adds. âHave fun while it lasts.â
He pulls away, enough to look Jungkook in the eye, though Jungkook canât find the strength to hold his brotherâs gaze. Junghyun scoffs condescendingly, and then heâs walking away, their father in tow.
Jungkook hasnât spoken to his father in years now. Ever since he decided to study at that college almost four years ago, instead of attending Harvard like Junghyun. It still hurts to be ignored by him, part of Jungkook still begging for his fatherâs attention despite never really having it, and Jungkook feels his nails digging into his palms as he clenches his fists.
He watches Junghyun leaving, their father leaving, while his heart bleeds. Does Junghyun know how much Jungkook wanted his approval?Â
He was stupid enough to believe heâd get it. Hell, heâd thought youâd charm Junghyun easily, yet it seems he was wrong.Â
Of course he was. Heâs always fucking wrong anyway, isnât he?Â
Itâs hard to think about something else after that. To escape the prison thatâs been built around his mind, and when he finds himself alone in the elevator with you, he does the only thing he thinks could help.
He kisses you stupid, kisses you dumb, craving to remind himself that youâre real. That youâre here with him, that what his family believes doesnât matter. And it doesnât. Not when youâre with him. Not when he apologizes for his family again, and you tell him that youâre happy to be here with him. It undoes him, and he decides to let it go.Â
To let his family go, to focus on you. Youâre the center of his universe, after all.
And so, for the rest of the evening, Jungkook decides to show you how much he appreciates that you came with him to this stupid engagement party. He forces himself to smile and laugh, and after the first fifteen minutes, it comes naturally to him, like it always does when heâs with you.
He thinks, the evening can only get better from there on. And it does - the club you find yourself in later is electrifying, buzzing with an energy Jungkook loves, and he drinks with you, dances with you, kisses you like you really are his girlfriend.
Like Taehyung doesnât exist, like itâs just you and him. And for a very selfish moment, Jungkook wishes it could be that simple.
âFuck, JK,â you whisper when you pull away from said kiss, breathing raggedly.
âWhat?â Jungkook lets out.
âKissing you like this, where anyone can seeâŠâ you trail off, glancing at the crowd. Jungkook waits for you to finish, his blood slowly heating up in his veins. âItâs turning me on.â
Heâll go insane. As a matter of fact, he thinks heâs gone insane a long time ago. But right now he wants you so bad he almost wants to fuck in the bathroom of the club, which he reckons would be disgusting.
You deserve much better than that.
âPeach,â he says, voice low and husky. He feels his dick twitching in his pants, his arousal suddenly so intense he needs to make you his. âThen Iâll bring you here more often. Iâll show everyone that youâre mine, mmh?â
He doesnât know how he makes it to his childhood home, later. Doesnât know how he manages to keep his hands off you the whole way from the club to the condominium, except for holding your hand. Heâs relieved he can steal a languid kiss on your lips when you ride the elevator, and heâs about to explode by the time you walk into the condo.
He wants you. So damn bad, yet when you say you have to take a shower, Jungkook agrees. If only so that he can calm down, because he knows heâll bust the second you start fucking if he doesnât calm down first.
You head to his room, and Jungkook watches you as you watch the city skyline. Youâre beautiful, so beautiful he wonders how heâll be able to survive if he canât make you his.
âDo you want to take a shower with me?â you ask as heâs helping you out of your coat.
His mind empties out, and it turns him on even more. âWant me to wash your hair?â he teases, flicking your nose.
You scrunch up your nose as you instinctively move your face back, and he canât help but smile at the sight.
âYes,â you say, smirking mischievously. âMaybe if youâre nice Iâll wash your back.â
He narrows his gaze. âIâm always nice.â And then he walks to the walk-in wardrobe, putting your coat away and then taking his off.
âAre you?â you ask as he walks back into his bedroom.
He canât help himself. He bends down, picking you up bridal style, and he chuckles as you yelp. âAlways,â he says, pecking your cheek as you wrap your arms around his neck.
âYou scared the shit out of me,â you grumble as Jungkook carries you to the bathroom, setting you down on the counter.
âIâd say Iâm sorry but Iâm not even a little bit sorry,â he teases, and he steals a quick kiss on your lips.
He walks away, heading towards the shower so that he can turn it on. He feels your eyes on the back of his head as he does so, and he glances back, smiling softly. His heart flutters as you smile back, and it takes everything in him to focus on the task at hand.
âHow hot do you want the shower to be?â he asks.
You smirk, and it nearly undoes him entirely. âWhat kind of hot are you talking about?â
He laughs, rolling his eyes. âWater temperature, dummy.â
âDoesnât matter,â you say, shrugging your shoulders. âJust put it how you like it.â
He nods, and he adjusts the settings until all the shower heads are on, steam soon wafting out of the shower. He then walks back to you, toying with his piercings. He watches as you spread your legs for him, and itâs so sinful he thinks he wonât be able to make it through the shower.
Jungkook manages to wrap his arms around your middle, and he pauses as you rest your forehead on his shoulder.
âWhat are you doing?â you ask in a murmur.
He wonders if you can hear the beats of his heart in his chest as he picks you up, and then puts you on the floor.
âGotta get you out of your dress, mmh?â He lightly brushes his fingers on your arms as you hold his gaze, your pupils blown wide. âTurn around, peach.â
You obey, and Jungkook starts to unzip your dress, admiring every inch of skin revealed. Once heâs done, he pushes the dress off your shoulders, holding on to it just long enough to press a soft kiss on the back of your shoulder, and then he lets go. The dress falls, pooling around your ankles, and Jungkook feels so much for you he wonders how heâll make it out alive.
âYou know,â he breathes. He eyes your perked nipples in the mirror in front of you, and he wraps his arms around you, pinching the sensitive buds. âEvery time I see you, you get more beautiful.â
âJKâŠâ you breathe out.
âItâs true,â he insists. He turns you around, his eyes getting lost in yours. âThereâs something about youâŠâ
That makes me insane, is what he was going to say. But you pull him down into a soft kiss, one that means so much more than words ever could. At least to Jungkook, and he holds your waist as you kiss, his heart soaring in his chest.
âPeachâŠâ he sighs.
He watches you as your eyes flutter open, stark emotion swirling in their depths.
âI think youâre supposed to undress too,â you whisper.
He chuckles, and he forces himself to take a step back. âWanna help?â
You gulp, yet donât answer as you raise your hands between the both of you so that you can unbutton his shirt. Jungkook watches you as you do so, his eyes never once shying away from your pretty features. When youâre done, you push his shirt off and rest your hands flat on his chest, right above his racing pulse.
Jungkook takes over then, taking off his pants, and they fall to the floor to meet your dress and his shirt.Â
âIâm so going to take my time with you tonight,â he breathes.
He cups your cheek, thumb swiping at your skin, and you lean your head into his palm.
âYeah?â you let out.
He tilts your head back with a finger to kiss you softly. It grows hungrier, needier, yet he pulls away. âDefinitely.â His hands slowly go down your body, stopping at the hem of your panties. âCan I take this off?â
You nod. Without an ounce of hesitation Jungkook drops to his knees. He hits the floor hard, and heâd wince if he wasnât entranced by you. Instead, he slowly takes off your underwear, trying his best to ignore how your pussy is already glistening for him.
The second he straightens, Jungkook takes off his underwear too, and he sighs in relief as his dick is freed. You eye the precum leaking from his slit, and Jungkook wonders if you can see how heâs shaking from the restraint of not taking you right now.
âShit, Jungkook,â you breathe.
âI know,â he lets out. âIâm fucking hard for you.â He chuckles and grabs your face to force you to meet his gaze again. âFrom the mess I saw in your panties, I know youâre already soaked for me too.â He pecks your lips, and then your forehead. âBut shower first, right?â
He wants you to say fuck it, to touch him right now. When you kiss him, he thinks youâll succumb to the desire too, and he sucks on your bottom lip, teasing it with his teeth.
âShower first,â you agree the second you pull away.
Jungkook hides his disappointment behind a smirk and a wink, and then he walks over to the shower, stepping in as you follow him. He closes the glass door behind you, waiting for a second as you turn to look at him.
âWhat?â you ask.
He doesnât know. He doesnât know what is going on, just that heâs drunk on you and itâs the best feeling heâs ever experienced before.
âNothing,â he replies. âPass me the soap?â
You nod, and then the shower passes in a blur of him washing you and you washing him. Jungkook canât really produce any coherent thoughts, especially not as you say, âNow that youâre cleanâŠâ You smirk, and Jungkook knows heâs about to crash into his lust for you when you add, âMaybe I can actually take care of you?â
You really make him insane. Indeed, the second you drop to your knees, Jungkook goes insane, feral, so much so he thinks heâd be your slave if you asked.
âYeah?â he lets out. âYou want to suck me?â
He carefully redirects the shower heads away from your face, and then you jerk him off, once, and he reckons he might be in love with you. You swirl your tongue around his tip, the sight sinfully hot, and then you suck on it lightly.
âFuckâŠâ he breathes out, and then he leans a hand on the wall for support he knows heâll clearly need. âDonât be shy.â
You smirk before dragging your tongue on the side of his dick, from base to top, never once breaking eye contact. Especially not as you wrap your lips around him, hollowing your cheeks as you take most of him in. Your mouth is hot and wet, and Jungkook moans softly as he hits the back of your throat, cursing underneath his breath.
Your mouth is heaven. Your mouth is ecstasy in its purest form, and Jungkook is swimming in bliss when you suck harder, your eyes fluttering shut as you start bobbing your head on him, jerking him off at the same time. He instinctively holds your head, yet he lets you take the lead as you start moaning around him, the vibrations sending lightning strikes to his balls.
He clenches his jaw around his next curse, his head throwing back as you tease his frenulum with your tongue. His breathing is ragged, and he realizes heâs about to come the second you take him all the way in again, and he feels your throat closing around him.
âPeach,â he moans, quickly pulling out of your mouth so that he doesnât come.
You lick his slit, and his balls tighten. âThat feels good?â
He nods. âWay too much.â He chuckles breathlessly, then adds, âIâm going to fall in love with your mouth if you keep sucking me like that.â
He wants to pull you away, but youâre back on his dick and he feels his climax lingering nearby, though it doesnât hit yet. His dick is rock hard, and it only gets worse when you tentatively tease his balls with one hand. He moans, not caring that the sound might be weird. All he wants is your pussy on him, now.
âPeach,â he lets out, a whiny sound heâd be embarrassed for with anyone other than you. âStop. I want to fuck you now.â
You pull away, offering him an innocent look that is far too sinful for him, especially as you keep jerking him off quickly. âYou donât think youâd be able to go for round two?â
Youâre a brat, and he fucking loves that about you. He chuckles, slightly shaking his head. âNot when I drank. And I really just want to make you feel good too.â
He pulls you up to your feet and, unable to resist, he pushes you against the wall as he ravishes a languid kiss on your lips. You moan as he pushes his tongue in your mouth, and a second later, he feels your fingers wrapping around his shaft as you jerk him off again.
He hisses, pulling away from the kiss, and then glances outside of the shower at his discarded pants. âI have condoms in there,â he says before meeting your gaze again. âBut you deserve better than to be fucked in a shower, mmh?â
He means it. He wants to take you in his childhood bed, to feel your pussy wrap around his dick where the whole city lies at your feet. And even though some twisted part of him wants people to see, when youâre in his room a few moments later, he asks, âDo you want me to close the curtains?â
âYou think people can see us?â you let out, glancing at the windows.
âMaybe if theyâre looking up here,â he says, shrugging his shoulders. âItâs never bothered me, but Iâve never been with anyone in this bed, soâŠâ
Your gaze widens in surprise, and itâs a comically cute expression on your features. âYouâve never fucked here?â
He realizes the confession too late, and he scratches the back of his neck, his cheeks burning. âIâve never brought a girl here at all.â
You let out a laugh. âIâm sorry what?âÂ
All he can do is wink at you, eyes going down your frame. They stop on your perked nipples, sitting so prettily on your chest he wants to touch them, to have them in his mouth again.Â
âYouâre the first girl whoâs ever come here,â he says. âThe first Iâll fuck in this bed.â Lust clouds his thoughts again, heating up his blood and making his dick twitch. âAnd maybe I do want the city to see me fucking you. I want them to see how beautiful you are when you come.â
A few steps towards you is enough for him to kiss you again, savagely, his desire for you getting the best of him. He pushes you back towards the bed, up until you fall, looking up at him.Â
âIâll be right back.â
He goes to retrieve the condom from his wallet, and he makes sure itâs safe to use on the way back. A moment later heâs putting it on his dick, eyes trailing to you when heâs done. He steps closer to you, kneeling between your thighs as you spread your legs wide open for him. Your pussy shines from your arousal, and he has half a thought that he wants to taste you again, though he needs you on him before.
âAlready?â he teases you as he strokes himself slowly, mindlessly, at the sight of your spread thighs. âI thought youâd need a little bit of foreplay before.â
âTrust me,â you let out. âIâm already wet enough for you to rearrange my guts.â
He knows. He can see it, and itâs so hot he might burst into flame right then and there.Â
He moves closer to you, rubbing his dick on your folds to collect your juices. âYou are.â He aims for your clit, smirking as your mouth falls open, your eyelids fluttering shut. âSo you want me to fuck you? To rearrange your guts?â
âJungkookâŠâ
The sound of his name in that breathy tone of yours almost makes him come on the spot.
He pushes his tip in, stopping himself there. âTell me what you want, peach.â
âI want you,â you say in a whiny whisper.
âWhere?â he asks, and he pulls out to rub on your clit again.
You reach for his dick, and Jungkook grabs your hand, pinning your wrist over your head. âBe nice, mmh?âhe says in your ear, and then he straightens again.
âI want you inside of me, Jungkook.â
âYeah?â He pushes in, stopping with just the tip in again. Even then you still feel heavenly, and he knows the sex tonight will be amazing. âLike this?â
âFuck, stop teasing,â you grumble.
Jungkook laughs, but he too is done with the teasing, needing you more than he needs oxygen. He slams home, pushing all the way in until he feels his balls hitting your ass. You moan, and he wants to give you time to adjust, wants to be gentle with you, yet heâs possessed by lust. Indeed, he grabs your waist, and he starts pounding into you almost right away, establishing a wild rhythm of skin slapping against skin.
Your walls clench around him, the friction so good on his dick he imagines just how good it would be without the condom on.Â
He bends down slightly, aiming for a better angle, and you moan loudly, indicating that heâs reached his goal. You say his name, and this time he bends down all the way, leaning on an elbow. He holds your shoulders in place so that his thrusts donât push you back on the bed, and then heâs jackhammering into you again, his bed starting to bang into the wall.
Youâre a whiny moaning mess underneath him, and when your nails dig into the skin of his back, Jungkook grunts. His pace doesnât falter, not when he thinks heâs in nirvana, and though sweat is clinging to his forehead, he never stops.
âShit, peach,â he curses, and then he pulls out. He wants to see your ass, to feel the way that his pelvis hits it whenever he pushes in, and so he spins you around, and you let out a surprised sound as he repositions himself over you.
His dick rests between your ass cheeks for a fraction of a second before he pulls away enough to align it with your entrance, and then heâs pushing in again. He doesnât move right away, instead massaging your ass, loving the way it feels in his hands.
You have the best ass heâs ever seen. He slaps it, admiring the way the skin tinges with red, and you push your hips back into him, seeking friction.
âYou want some control, mmh?â he asks, and he pulls back to give you some, watching as you start fucking yourself on him, his dick going in and out of you in a relentless race, coming out covered with your juices each time. He hits your cervix, and you roll your hips. Itâs almost enough to make him come again, but he holds it in, not wanting this to end already.
âYouâre so big,â you let out. âSo deep.â
He curses. âAnd you take me so well, peach.â He slaps your ass again, massaging the sting away. âLike your pussy was made for me.â
âIt was.â
Damn right it was. Youâre his - no matter what happens, you have to be his in the end.
He thrusts once, so hard the bed slides on the floor, and you rock forward, though he holds you in place.
âGood girl,â he says in a low, husky voice, and then he goes back to pounding into you as you clutch the sheets.Â
This time, heâs determined to make you come, and he leans on one hand, wrapping his free hand under you, blindly searching for your clit. He knows he found it the second you moan unabashedly loudly, and he rubs on it in quick circles as he keeps fucking you, your pussy growing impossibly tight. A few snaps of his hips later and youâre coming around him, your walls pulsing on his dick so devilishly good he lets out a moan.
You, on the other hand, have been moaning since you started coming, and it just keeps on coming as your back arches into him, your legs twitching. He milks it out of you, slowing down to help you ride the wave, and when you finally calm down, he stops, pressing a feathersoft kiss on the side of your face.
âYou came hard.â
âHoly fuck,â you curse.
He chuckles. âOne day, I want to feel you come on my dick without a condom on.â
The mental image that it gives him unleashes him completely, and he rams into you, chasing his own high. It almost hits when he feels you coming again, yet for some reason, he canât climax, his orgasm evading him. He pulls out then, flipping you on your back, and then heâs kissing you, pushing back into you.
He establishes a slower, deeper rhythm, his lips never leaving yours. Your hands get lost in his hair, and you pull on the strands just enough to hurt a little. He loves it more than heâd admit it, the pain setting his nerves alight with desire, and his balls tighten, a sign that heâs finally nearing his high.
You wrap your legs around his waist, and he hits deeper then, the drag of you on his dick so completely perfect he knows heâll finally be able to come.
More than that, he knows heâll never be able to fuck anyone else again.
âIâll fall in love with your pussy,â he whispers against your lips.
He means more. He means you, in your entirety, but heâs not stupid enough to say it, not when it would probably scare you away.
He rests his forehead against yours, and your grip on him tightens.
âJKâŠâ
âPeach,â he echoes. He kisses you again, all the while fucking you slow. Once he pulls away from the kiss, he straightens, going back to kneeling between your legs. âNow be nice and let me come, mmh?â
You smirk, your blown wide pupils finding his. âCome for me.â
Fuck.
âOn it.â
Heâs close. Heâs so fucking close all he can do is pound his hips into yours, watching you as you moan, your nails digging in his thighs. He nears his high like the crescendo of a song, and then he explodes, his motions growing sloppy as his dick twitches and twitches. He releases his load in the condom the second he pushes deep inside of you and he stills there, cursing and grunting as he comes.
He doesnât move for a while, just enjoying the feeling of your pussy around him, and then he pulls out, lying next to you. Youâre visibly fucked out, and heâs proud of himself for it - he hopes no oneâs ever fucked you like he fucks you.
His hand rests on your stomach, and you slowly regain your breath. Jungkook feels the need to clean himself - the feeling of his dick swimming in his cum growing uncomfortable - and so he kisses the side of your face, going to the bathroom. He quickly cleans up, needing to be back with you as soon as he can. He walks back to the bedroom with a wet washcloth, and he lets you clean yourself as he looks outside, admiring the way the rain on the windows distort the lights of the city.
You go to the bathroom, and Jungkook settles in bed as he waits for you to come back.Â
âCome here,â he says as he opens his arms for you to come cuddle.
You do so, pushing one leg between his as you wrap an arm around his waist. He feels content, perfectly so, his heart so full and warm in his chest he feels like maybe heâs born again. Maybe he didnât live before you, and you blew life into his lungs, into his heart and soul.
Heâs falling hard. So hard, and though he should be scared, he finds he isnât, not when heâs falling for you.
Thereâs nothing scary about falling in love with you.
Read chapter eight here!
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soooo how did you guys like it?? jk is so in love with her, help :')
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HBCU CONFESSIONS.
Part Four
One entire month.
Valencia wanted nothing to do with Erik. He had come to terms with that after many failed attempts at trying to talk to her. She blocked him, she hadnât been active on the blog in weeks since her last message, and every time he would see her around campus or in the dorms, she would turn a blind eye or walk in the opposite direction. She even stopped studying in the library to avoid him. And the thing is, she didnât look sad, hurt, or angry. She walked around campus with a pep in her step and she smiled brightly.
Moving on wasnât hard for her apparently. Erik can respect that. He fucked up, even if he hadnât intended to. He didnât plan on rekindling anything with Jeanette. EVER. At D9 parties, itâs a routine to get a sexy dance from a SOROR, but Erik didnât expect to be the chosen one. She hopped up in his arms and locked her legs around him in a vice grip. His brothers circled him and cheered him on. Erik dropped her and she went in for a kiss. Valencia was gone within two seconds.
She hadnât seen the part where Erik laid into Jeanetteâs ass about that. Everyone thought it was hilarious. He was pissed. The dancing, he could have told her no, which he knows he fucked up on, but that kiss was unexpected and DEFINITELY not what he wanted. He apologized many times, tried speaking to her in person, and even asked her roommate, Brielle, to relay a message to her. Her socials were private and she didnât accept outside messages from people she didnât follow.
He wasnât going to invade her personal space and corner her. She wanted to be left alone, heâll give her that. No more texts, no more blog messages, no more trying to talk to her in person. He wished her well although he still really liked her. He really wanted another shot. But it would take a lot of work because Valencia would not let up. Erik respected that. He loved it actually. Maybe he needed the wake up call. Heâs so used to things being easy. Nothing challenged him. But this? She wouldnât budge.
After an exhausting class, Erik decided to make a stop at Andreaâs office and get some insight from his friend. On his way there, James was leaving her office. He was in the middle of fixing his tie and looking really sneaky. Erik snorted and shook his head. It was obvious what they were doing in there. James turned towards Erikâs direction and he smiled. They dabbed and bro hugged.
âYou lookinâ stressed, my nigga. Whatâs good?â James questions with a chuckle.
âLady trouble,â Erik replied with a monotone voice.
âYou? Lady trouble? Since when?â
âSince now, fool.â
James didnât believe that for a second.
âNot Mr. Suave himself. Listen,â James clapped Erik on the shoulder, âWhoever it is, sheâll come around, bruh.â
âI can never take you serious, Yoââ Erik shakes his head with a smirk, âDrea still in there? Should I giver her some time or?â
Erik jokingly pointed to the door causing James to crack up.
âKnock first.â
James backed away, saluting Erik before making his way down the hall.
âCome in!â
Erik twisted the knob and peeked his head around the door cautiously.
âIs it safe to enter, or do you still need some time?â
âErik!â
He laughed before opening the door further. Andrea was in the middle of fluffing her voluminous hair into a ponytail. She cut her eyes at Erik and gave him a look. He sauntered over to her desk, pulled out the chair, and proceeded to take a seat while cuffing the crotch of his slim fit slacks.
âWhat can I do for you, best friend?â
Andrea folded her hands on her desk, tapping into her professor energy.
âI figured I could come to you for some advice. Before we get into that though,â Erik sat back in his seat, folded his arms across his sturdy chest, and arched a brow, âI see things are moving along with you and Jay.â
âThey are,â Andrea cleared her throat, âRather nicely actuallyâŠâ
âAnd all that worrying was for nothing. I told you it would work out, girl.â
âThank you for being so supportive!â Andrea replied with an overzealous tone, âEnough about me. Whatâs going on?â
ââŠValencia.â
Andrea sat up straighter. A smile slowly crept up her face.
âI know that you know that I KNOW,â Erik pointed his finger like Denzel, âwho my crush is.â
Andrea chuckles, âOf course I know. Donât I use the blog too? I saw what she sent weeks agoâŠâ
Erik propped his elbows up on her desk.
âTell me I fucked up.â Erik said.
âYou fucked up. And Jeanette is a fucking nuisance.â
Erik exhaled, âThe car wash is tomorrow afternoon. Sheâs gonna be thereââ
âThen tell that ho to leave you alone, Erik! You know itâs harder for me to get buck because I work here and I can lose my job, but she needs a reality check. I meanâŠdid you want to get back with her?ââ
âHell nah. I wasnât expecting all of that. Iâm interested in Valencia. I wanna make it right so we can continue getting to know each other.â
Andrea raised both of her brows and grabbed her drink tumbler, sipping her tea. Erik gave her a strange look.
âAnd yet you allowed that girl to throw herself all over you in front of her.â
âI didnât allowâokay, okayâŠI should have been more proactive in stopping her. I see that now. What should I do?â
Erik was desperate. If nothing else worked, he would leave her be for good this time. He was tired of the mental turmoil. One second he wants to leave her be, next second heâs trying to figure out how to win her back. This shit was driving him crazy. He had this on top of school to worry about.
âYouâre known to be that guy, right? And youâre such a romantic, right? Romanticize her. Do it for everyone to see. Be your most vulnerable self. Show her that you will do anything to get her back.â
Erik drummed his fingers against her desk and twisted his thick lips in deep thought.
ââŠAll Iâm saying is, sheâs a really nice girl. Sheâs such a sweetie pie. She didnât deserve that mess. Do whatever you gotta do, Daka, seriously. I like you with her,â Andrea smiles, âI want this to actually work.â
Erik bowed his head and smiled. Even that knowledge made him feel like complete shit. Even after she told him how sheâd been mistreated in past relationships. Andrea was right, he needed to go all out with his approach to this.
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Itâs an abnormally hot day, the sun beating down on all those melanated bodies in the parking lot. Erik makes his way over to his group, shirtless and wearing athletic shorts that showed off his muscular legs. He wore Adidas slides on his feet, polarized aviator sunglasses, and purple paint streaks beneath his eyes like a proud Que Dog. Three Omega branded scars were on his right bicep.
His chest and toned stomach with skin golden brown made the gold chain hanging around his neck pop. Throwing up the hooks in greeting, his Bruhz handed him a bucket full of sudsy water and a sponge. Today was the yearly charity carwash. They hosted the event at a local lot in Houston and booked a DJ, grilled food, and offered pouch drinks. All sororities and fraternities from TSU banned together. The turnout was always big, and cars were already lining up.
"Where the hell is Isaiah?" Erik protests.
A fellow Omega, Travis, shrugged his shoulders.
"He already in hot water with the shit that happened last weekend. He keep this shit up, he's getting cut."
Erik slaps hands with all his boys, even men from other fraternaties, grinning excitedly to be at the function. Just then, Isaiah came strolling over wearing nothing but purple basketball shorts, his Nike slides on his feet with a gold fanny pack with his letters on it hanging loosely across his chest. He had a crisp line-up and all like he'd just gotten out of the barber chair.
Erik inclines his head, pulling his sunglasses off and approaching the neophyte, "You're late, Static. Get your narrow ass over there and help those cars."
Erik shoved the soapy bucket and sponge in his hands.
"Chill, Poet, I had to grab some supporters," Isaiah tilts his head and jerks his thumb behind him, a group of pretty women in a neon green Jeep Wrangler waving over at them from their open window. They honked their horn and shook their titties at them.
"Hi, Poet! you lookin' real good!" One of the girls shouted.
Erik couldn't help that he was good-looking. He's a tall man with caramel skin that was a shade darker due to the southern heat. His athletic shorts hung low off of his hips and gave anybody that looked hard enough a preview of what was beneath. He was a walking thirst-trapper.
"See? they want you, Poet," Isaiah slapped his chest with the back of his hand, "I'm lookin' out for you."
Erik put his shades back on and walked away, Isaiah throwing his hands up.
Andrea and her line sisters were wearing fitted tanktops with their soro colors and letters on it. They had black biker shorts on and different types of black sandals. The Zetas wore their soro t-shirts and little denim shorts. Majority of the ladies were mostly covered up but when the AKAs arrived, it was a scene straight from ATL. Bikini tops and booty shorts. Andrea shared a look with her sisters and rolled her eyes. It was known for the AKAs to pop out and do the most, which made them the popular ones. Jeanette wore a pink bikini with her bundles in a ponytail covered with an AKA trucker hat.
Erik locked eyes with her through his sunglasses and Jeanette blew a kiss at him. Ignoring her, Erik jumps in to help, motioning for the next car to pull up. A middle-aged black woman with her toddler in the backset gave Erik heart eyes out of the window of her Honda Odyssey. Erik gave her a smirk, sponge and bucket in his hands.
"How much to clean my whip, handsome?"
"Twenty dollars, ma'am."
"Here you go..."
The lady boldly slipped the twenty in Erik's waistband. He shakes his head, Ignoring the laughter from everybody who caught that. He placed the money in a collection bucket before cleaning her car off.
"Get it extra clean for me baby!" She shouted with a wide smile.
While Erik cleaned, a Zeta walked over offering free water and the option to park and grab some cookout food or a mixed drink pouch. Erik grabbed the hose when he was finished and the woman rolled up her windows so he could rinse it down. When he was done, his shorts were soaked. He knew that it was only a matter of time before his big boy made an appearance. The woman drove off and Erik motioned for the next car. Erik spotted Isaiah running game so he whistled, Isaiah turning in his direction.
"Static, you better get to work boy! making your brothers look bad! us Nupe's are known for being clean!" A Kappa brother teased.
"Nah, G, we ain't letting a dirty dawg show us up! Poet! you better get yah boy in line! making ya'll look worse than he already did!"
Erik shot a pointed look at Isaiah. Isaiah walked over and got back to work, motioning for an all-black, 2019 Ford Focus to pull forward. Meanwhile, Erik took a water break and after drinking it all down, he used the hose on mist to spray his body. He could feel eyes on him and when he looked up, Jeanette was eye-fucking him while sucking on a Bomb Pop, the cherry lime of the popsicle dripping to her chest from her sloppy slurping. She made her way over and Erik shot a glance at Andrea.
"This is the first time in weeks that I've been this close to you," Jeanette licked her popsicle, "You avoiding me again?"
Erik threw a towel over his shoulder and shut his eyes before opening them to stare down at Jeanette.
"You're not still upset about that kiss are you?"
"I am. Because you don't know when to chill the fuck out." Erik argued.
He walked around her and Jeanette marched right after him. He waved his hand for a car to pull forward and they rolled their window down. The driver handed Erik some money and he placed it in his pocket before cleaning the car off.
"You act like what we had wasn't real! you said so yourself that we could make it work again. Or did you forget?!"
Erik agressively scrubbed the car, his annoyance towards Jeanette growing, "I never said that shit to you. You wasn't thinking about none of that with that nigga dick in your mouth." Erik quipped.
Jeanette and the driver had to look at Erik in disbelief that he even said that. Jeanette was so shocked that she dropped her popsicle. Erik continued cleaning the car like he didnât just say what he said.
âFuck you! I wasnât going to wait around, Erik! Donât act like you werenât doing whatever it was you were doing!â
âI wasnât though,â Erik glanced back at her over his sweaty shoulder, âLook, Iâm not doing this with you. Why donât you pitch in and help.â
Jeanette was fuming. She stomped away, grabbing the water hose out of a soroâs hand, turning it on the highest pressure before spraying Erik in his back. He flinched and dropped the bucket and sponge. He turned to her with rage. That was painful, especially since he hadnât expected it.
âTHE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM, GIRL!â
Erik really wanted to call her a bitch but he had to bite his tongue. She laughed right alongside her AKA sisters. Others snickered and laughed as well, not fully comprehending that Erik was seriously angry.
âWhat? You deserved it, Erik!â Jeanette yelled.
Erik grabbed an extra hose and sprayed the car down. He shook his head and flared his nostrils, heart thumping in his chest. When he finished, he walked over to Andrea and the other Deltas. She met him halfway and he turned for her to examine his back. The water hoses were attached to a fire hydrant. She could see that the middle of his back was bright red and irritated. James strolled over to look as well.
âYou good, E?â James questioned.
âJeanette is doing too fucking much. Look at her.â
Three pairs of eyes fell on Jeanette twerking on the hood of some guys car. It worked, because he gave her fifty dollars instead of twenty.
âIâll be aight. She just needs to stay far the fuck away from me.â Erik spoke angrily.
âIâm here if you need me,â Andrea said.
Erik walked away and picked up his sponge and bucket. After refilling the bucket, he made his way back over. He kept cutting his eyes at Jeanette. He wanted his lick back for that. So much for ignoring her. Taking the bucket, while her back was turned, Erik dumped it over her head. She screeched and flailed her arms.
âOH MY GOD!!!! MY HAIR!!!!!â
Jeanette snatched her hat off and rubbed soap from her face. She turned a rageful gaze towards Erik and he laughed in her face. Laughter echoed across the lot.
âYou started it!â
âAwww! Now youâre mad!â
âGet her ass, Poet!â
She pushed Erik and stormed past him to grab a towel. He made a crybaby motion with his hands as if he were rubbing his eyes. Some of her AKA sisters rushed to her aid and they didnât hesitate to shoot Erik dirty looks. Thatâll teach her ass not to fuck with him again. Erik refilled his bucket with a smirk on his face as he watched Jeanette drying her weave. She noticed and gave him the finger. Erik returned the gesture.
Some time went by, everyone working hard and raising money. The next car, Isaiah motioned to pull in and when they did, he recognized them and spoke their name. Erik heard and his head whipped in that direction so fast he could have twisted his neck. His once sour mood was no replaced with anticipation.
âValencia, whatâs up girl?â
Valencia was sitting in the passenger side of Brielleâs white 2019 Nissan Altima. Skai and Cindy were in the backseat. Brielle was wearing a yellow tube dress and her braids down and flipped to the side. She accessorized with octagon-shaped silver hoops and Y2K shades with butterflies.
âHello,â She gave him a wave before passing him a twenty, âThis is my donation.â
Brielle, Skai, and Cindy handed over their money.
âYou ladies wanna stick around for some good vibes? Just pull in after Iâm done.â Isaiah said.
âWill do. It looks lit out here,â Brielle looked around with a smile.
Isaiah couldnât stop staring at Valencia. She glanced up at him with a straight face.
âArenât you gonna clean the car?â She questioned.
âYeah but Iâm tryna see whatâs upââ
âSTATIC!â
All four ladies and Isaiah followed their gaze towards the source of the shouting. Erik walked over with his usual gait. He paused in front of Isaiah and pointed to the car behind them.
âGet yoâ ass back there and clean that Jeep pulling in.â Erik ordered.
Isaiah kissed his teeth but before he walked away, he grabbed Valenciaâs hand that was dangling out of the car window, kissing it before giving it an affectionate squeeze. She jerked her hand away, staring at him with her nose turned up.
âI love it when you play hard to get, girl!â
Erik put the sponge in the bucket and placed his hand on the hood of the car, leaning in towards the open window to peek inside. He still had his shades on, so Valencia was staring at her reflection through the lenses. She looked visibly tense, toying with her hair and jerking her leg.
âHowâs everything, ladies?â
âThey all said âgoodâ in unison, all except for Valencia. Erik caught Brielle trying to be discreet with bumping Valencia with her arm. Valencia shifted in her seat.
ââŠIâm doing great, you?â
This was the most sheâd said to him in a month. He parted his lips but no words came out. Erik furrowed his brows and cleared his throat.
âIâm good. Been busyâŠâ
He tapped the hood of the car. If only she were alone.
ââŠAre you gonna clean us off?â Brielle asked.
The awkward tension between them was palpable.
âYeah, I gotchu, arms in and roll up the windows tight.â
They did as they were told, Valencia and Erik staring each other down. He went to work sudsing up the sponge and then he started with the back of the car first. He then moved onto the hood of the car, taking his time to get every spot. He walked around to the drivers side to clean the front and back doors and windows, and then he made his way around to the passenger side. Erik scrubbed the back down, then he was right at Valenciaâs window again.
She focused her eyes forward while he cleaned but when he made it to the front window, Erik watched as her eyes scanned his body. He titled his head towards her, licked his lips, and flashed her a grin. She quickly averted her gaze to her lap and Brielleâs eyebrows disappeared behind her curly ginger bag. Skai and Cindy were giggling in the backseat. Erik retrieved the hose and started spraying the car down. He stood at the front of the car again, smirking at her through the window.
Erik walked over to Valenciaâs side when he finished and Brielle eagerly rolled the window down. Valencia shot her a look and then she turned her attention to Erik who was leaning into the window. Valencia inhaled slowly and then exhaled a shaky breath. Removing his sunglasses, Erik kept his gaze pointed at Valencia. Now, she had no other choice but to look him directly in the eyes.
ââŠGot you ladies all cleaned up. Why donât yaâll stick around for a while? Grab some food, dance a littleâŠâ
He was really asking Valencia.
âOh, we will. Right V?â Skai said.
âWeâre not going anywhere,â Brielle replied, fighting the urge to laugh.
Erik waited anxiously for her to speak.
ââŠsure. Weâll hang out for a little while.â Valencia said.
âBet. Say lessâŠâ
Erik stood at his full height, his lower half in her face. He slowly backed away and Brielle pulled off.
ââââââ
Theyâd just finished the last few cars and by then the lot was filled with people having a good time. Erik slipped on a cropped golden yellow muscle tee that had Omega Psi Phi printed on the front in purple letters and the fraternity logo in the center. He sipped from a Blue Raspberry drink pouch that had some Hipnotic in it. He took pictures with his bruhâs and other fraternity buddies as well as the ladies
Valencia was leaning against the side of Brielleâs car, drinking a watermelon mixed drink. Erik kept looking over at her, wanting to approach her badly. Jeanette hadnât bothered him since the hose incident and he was grateful. They were too busy putting on a performance, doing an AKA stroll to entertain people. Like clock work, Isaiah approached Valencia to talk to her and Erik noticed that he had one too many drinks. He kept grabbing Valenciaâs arm and Erik could tell that she wasnât asking for any of that attention.
Erik jogged over and yoked Isaiah up by the collar of his T-shirt. Valencia looked up at Erik with wide eyes. Others started paying attention as well.
âThe fuck you doinâ, Static?â Erik barked out.
âWe were just talking, right, Valencia?â
Isaiah looked at her expectantly. She cut her eyes at him to Erik and then Valencia shoves him out of her way before storming off. Erik let go of Isaiah and pushed him back, causing him to stumble.
âYo, what the fuck is your problem, Erik?!â Isaiah questioned with frustration.
âYou donât know what no means, nigga? And how much have you been drinking?â
âI only had two drinks, relax. You got a thing for Valencia or something? Every time I try and talk to her, here you come cock-blocking.â Isaiah fired back.
A few Bruhz came over to see what was going on.
âAll good?â
âItâs cool. Poet canât stand it when it ainât all about him, thatâs all,â Isaiah jokes.
Erik cut his eyes at Isaiah, one of their brothers clapping him on the shoulder to calm him down. He tried to get Erik riled up with some barking and goofing around and Erik gave in. The party continued and then the sky turned a deep orange. Erik could see Valencia walking towards a trash can to throw away her plate. It was now or never. Erik walked over towards her with his hands in his pockets and before she could walk away, he took a hold of her hand and she looked up at him.
âValencia, can we talk? Please?â
âNo, Erikââ
âIâm sorry, okay? Look,â Erik let go of her hand, âI know that I fucked up. I should have stopped her from jumping on me like that. The kissâyou ran away so fast you didnât see how pissed I was that she kissed me. I donât want herâŠI wasnât planning on rekindling anything with JeanetteâŠâ
Valencia looked down at her feet. She kicked at the ground with her arms folded. She finally looked up at him, her eyes searching his. He wanted to kiss her. He wanted to wrap his arms around her and feel those lips again. She looked so damn sexy in that dress.
âListen, I was wondering if you wanted to come thru at Poetry Live tonight? Iâm gonna recite some new shit andâŠIâd really like to see you there. Will you think about it?â
Erik tilted his head down at her. She pondered, her cafe noir eyes looking heavenward. Valencia exhaled, staring up at Erik through her lashes. He waited with bated breath. She parted her full lips to speak.
âIâll be there.â
Erik cracked a dimpled smile. Valencia gave him a small smile and then a quick once-over before walking away. Erik made it back to his group and he spotted Valencia and her friends leaving. It was definitely a step into the right direction. Erik was happy about that. Andrea made her way over to him with a knowing smile.
âI saw that, Daka. So, is she coming?â
âSheâll be there. Iâm a lilâ nervous. Not gonna lie.â
Andrea laughed, âyou got this!â
âI just wanna make it right. I want us to get back to how things were, you know? I was just getting to know her in so many waysâŠâ
Erik cut his eyes at Andrea and she stared at him with her mouth agape.
âI BET,â Andrea rolls her eyes.
After another hour, they started to shut things down and it took them another hour to make sure everything was cleaned up before heading out. Erik was exhausted with no time to get rest since he had to get ready for tonight. He made it back to his RA dorm with a sweaty body and tired limbs. Dropping his gym bag onto the floor, he grabbed his towel, rag, soap, and a fresh pair of briefs with a pair of basketball shorts.
In the showers, he cleaned himself off good, thinking about the night to come. Valencia was going to be there, and he hoped that she would give him a second chance. After rinsing off the second round of soap, Erik pat dried his skin and before he exited the shower, he slipped on his briefs and shorts. Towel over his shoulder, he exited the bathroom and made his way down the hall to his room which was a short distance away.
Back inside, he shut his door and turned on some music to get ready to. He took off his shorts and opened his closet to grab an outfit he planned to wear.
Ping.
Erik paused.
That sound could only be from one thing. He took long strides to his lap top on his desk and pulled out the chair. He touched the mouse pad to wake his lap top screen up and then he went straight for Tumblr. There, he clicked on his message thread and his eyes scanned back and forth, reading the words.
ebonygoddess1990s: I know itâs been a while. Iâve gone an entire month not speaking to him. Today I spoke to him for the first time and it reminded me of what happened at that D9 party. He asked me to come to Poetry Live tonight and Iâm a little nervous. A part of me wants to forgive him, but the other part of me has trust issues. What should I do?
Erik for the first time didnât know what to say. He didnât feel right messaging her. He could simply persuade her into forgiving him, but then that would be manipulation. He slowly closed his laptop and stood up from his seat at the desk.
He was going to make it right as authentically as possible.
ââââ
âHow do I look?â
âGirlâŠyou look damn good.â
Brielle snapped her fingers while Valencia did a turn. She was all dressed up herself in a denim dress with platform chunky brown heels and her big, curly ginger hair styled in two Afro puffs.
âHeâs gonna love it.â Brielle said.
ââŠthis isnât for him, itâs for me.â
Brielle rolls her eyes at the ceiling, âRight. Sure.â
They grab their bags and then head out of the dorm room. Skai was going to drive tonight. Cindy and her were waiting in the car. They left the dorms and headed towards the parking lot. There, they spotted Skai and she was talking to Dior. Valenciaâs footsteps slowed down and she instantly grew defensive. Brielle looked at her with an equally angry expression.
âLet me go, Iâll see you thereâŠâ
Dior looked at Valencia.
âBrielle,â She touched her arm, âValenciaââ
Valencia smacked her hand away. Hard. Dior raised up on her and Brielle leaped between them.
âLetâs get going! Right, Val?â Brielle pleaded.
Brielle looked over at Skai for help. Skai walked towards them and grabbed Dior by the arm.
âYeah, let me go before I drag this bitch all over the parking lot!â Valencia shouted after Dior.
Dior yanked her arm out of Skaiâs grip.
âAwww still mad your crush doesnât want you?â
âDior!â Skai yelled, âChill out!â
Dior put her hands up, âIâm chill. Sheâs the one that put her fucking hands on me.â
âI should have been put my hands on you!!!!â Valencia screamed.
âTHEN WHATâS GOOD?!â Dior screamed back.
âJust go, Dior,â Skai moved her towards her car.
âIâm going. Just as long as she stays over there.â
Dior backed away to her car with a big grin on her face. There was a girl in passenger seat, laughing at the entire thing. Dior got in her car and drove off. Valencia took meditating breaths while Brielle tried to calm her down.
âShe pulled up to my car to talk, Valencia. I wasnât trying to start trouble,â Skai spoke to her defense.
Brielle ignored Skai. She loved her friend but if she was going to keep being friends with Skai knowing that she didnât like Valencia and was probably talking shit about her, she had to cut her off too. They all got back into the car, Cindy rubbing Valenciaâs shoulder.
She just wanted to have a good night. Megan Thee Stallion Cognac Queen came one and Valencia started rapping the lyrics. She wasnât going to let that dumb bitch ruin her night.
Her makeup looked good, her outfit is sexy, she felt the hottest sheâs ever felt. She felt great. She rolled her window down and as the air whipped across her face, she couldnât get Erik off of her mind. Valencia couldnât help but smile to herself. He looked extra scrumptious today. The effort he took into winning her back made her feel good. She wanted him to know that she could easily forget about him and move on.
Erik still tried. This man could have any woman on campus, hell, even his crazy ex girlfriend, and yet he didnât want her or anyone else but Valencia. She couldnât control the butterflies. Itâs been a month too long. She could only hope that tonight would go right.
âWeâre here.â
It was a huge turnout. Brielle parked and they all stepped out. From the outside looking in, Poetry Live was packed like sardines.
âPlease tell me Russ saved a table for us,â Cindy said.
âI hope so, because I am not standing.â Brielle said.
They were carded at the door and when they were in the clear, all four of them walked inside. Cindy took the lead, searching the crowded room until she pointed towards a round table with a great view of the stage. They squeezed through people dancing and having a good time with drinks in their hands. Cindy wrapped her arms around her boyfriendâs shoulders and went in for a kiss. Valencia sat her bag on the table and looked around. As she scanned the room, her eyes fell on Erik, sitting at a table with Andrea, James, and a few of their friends.
Valenciaâs eyes scanned his body from head to toe. He had a fresh retwist and he was dressed nice with a layered gold chains hanging from his neck and black diamond earrings in his ears. He didnât have his glasses on tonight, so Valencia could see his onyx eyes more clearly beneath the lights. She shifted in her seat and fiddled with the strap of her bag when he finally looked over at her. They locked eyes and then a slow smirk crept up his lips. She felt hot all over. He waved to her and Valencia returned the gesture. He checked her out from across the room and with an appreciative nod, he mouthed âyou look amazingâ.
Valencia blushes and mouthed âthank youâ in response. She reluctantly pulled her gaze away and released a shaky breath. He always makes her so flustered.
âEveryone looks so nice tonight like itâs a special occasion!â Brielle said with a sonorous tone.
âI know! We need drinks!â Cindy declared ecstatically.
âI second that,â Valencia fanned herself.
Their waiter returned and they put their orders in. Valencia looked around the room again and in a booth seat, Jeanette and Dior sat surrounded by their AKA sisters. They were dancing and causing a scene since they needed to be the center of attention at all times.
âSKEE-WEE!!! SKEE-WEE!!!!â
A few Zetas threw up kitty hand signs, Deltas threw up triangles, Sigmas threw up three fingers with their thumb and ring finger down.
Their drinks came and Valencia automatically took sips of her Long Island Iced Tea. She couldnât stop herself from looking over at Erikâs table again and he was stomping around like a proud Que with his Bruhz Valencia giggled at Erikâs mug. He settled back in his seat and took a sip of his drink.
After some time, the lights in the room went dim and a spot light hit the stage. It was a spotlight with a purple hue. Valencia was nursing her second drink, taking careful sips so she wouldnât get drunk too fast. She was too busy turning up with her friends to notice that Erik himself took the stage. He walked up to the mic apprehensively, grabbing the pole with one hand while adjusting the mic with his other. The sound of the mic caused everyone to turn their attention towards him.
Valencia looked at him and her smile disappeared from her face and in its place was a nervous look. Erikâs presence on that stage commanded the room to silence. The only sound being that of Usher Dot Com instrumental. Valencia scanned the room, and then her eyes looked towards the stage again.
âHelloâŠhelloâŠhello. Iâm sure most of you know me but Iâm gonna introduce myself anyway. My name is Erik. My friends call me E, Dakaâthatâs short for my middle name, NâJadaka, and Poet. Uhm,â he placed his hands in his pockets, âItâs been years since Iâve been on this stage. Tonight I have some new shit,â Erik chuckles nervously, taking one hand out of his pocket to run over his locs, âThis is for you, Valencia.â
Valenciaâs eyes went round like saucers. Her eyebrows shot up as she looked around the table at her friends, all of which were staring back at her with big goofy smiles. One by one, they each pulled a rose from beneath the table and handed it to her. Valencia clutched her chest, the roses placed in front of her on the table rendering her speechless. Others stood from their tables and walked over, handing her red roses painted with glitter.
âWâWhat?â She accepted another rose, âI canât believeâŠâ
After the last person, Andrea, handed her a rose. Valencia had a full bouquet in her hand. She wanted to cry. This was the most beautiful thing a guy has ever done for her. And it wasnât over. She looked up at Erik with glossy eyes. He smirked at her and gave her a wink.
ValenciaâŠ
I'm sorry for what I've done
I'm sorry for who I've been
Sorry for where its gone
So sorry to lose a friend
Iâm sorry I kiss your plump lips in my sleep
So sorry I canât get you off my mind
As I lose myself and find myself
Iâm sorry if I wonder do I ever cross your mind
So hypnotizingâŠ
Your soft voice and bashfully beautiful gaze
Iâm sorry weâre apart
Iâm not sorry Iâm falling for you though
Forgive me if I canât help that I want you
Forgive meâŠ
If I stumble and fall.
Too clumsyâŠand my words do not form as I wish
So let me kiss you and let my lips paint for you
All that I feel in my heart.
Let my hands touch againâŠand my mouth againâŠ
Erik paused. The suspense of his words blanketing the room. Valencia drew her bottom lip into her mouth. She could neverâŠwould never forget how his mouth felt on her pussy. Saying that on stage in front of everyoneâŠ
Every rose I gave to you
I hope brings a smile to you face
Inside each rose is a piece of my soul
So Valencia
I want your trust more than anything
Baby girl
It was a bad decision
And now I want you here
So please take me back
'Cause I need you right now
Vulnerable words from your PoetâŠ
Erik backed away from the mic, and instead of snaps, everyone clapped. There was a standing ovation. Erik exited the stage and walked over to Valencia. She stood up and tears rolled down her cheeks. She opened her arms and Erik pulled her in for a tight hug. He pulled away and Valencia surprised with a kiss to the cheek. It didnât matter if it was the lips or the cheek, he was happy as hell.
âThis is so muchâErik, thank you,â Valencia blotched her eyes dry.
âAnything to put a smile on your face again,â Erik said.
ââââ
Valencia returned to her dorm room with a smile and her bouquet of roses pressed against her chest tightly. That was the sweetest most sincere thing any guy has ever done for her. She liked Erik even more. Brielle decided to stay with Skai for the night and Valencia was grateful because she needed to process this alone. The fact that her friends even knew what was going to happen all this time and they didnât give her a hint amazed her.
Valencia sat on her bed to take off her shoes. As she did, she looked at the selfies she took with Erik before she left. Her phone vibrated and she noticed it was a text from Erik. She unblocked him on the ride over. Valencia read his text and she instantly smiled.
Erik: care for a night swim?
Valencia knew that he would be texting her. He whispered to her that he planned to send her a text with a surprise later. So, he wanted to go swimming? Valencia smiled at her phone as she texted a reply.
Valencia: absolutely âșïž
Erik: Cool. Iâll meet you there. Bring a change of clothes đ
Valencia shot up from bed and headed towards her closet. She opened a drawer that stored all of her bikinis and found an orange one. A pink body con, a thong, sandals, and a few pieces of jewelry went into a bag. She quickly undressed and put the bikini on with Erikâs hoodie on top. She slipped on a pair of slides and grabbed her bag, phone, and keys. She made her way over to the pool and when she got there, Erik was nowhere to be found. She shot him a quick text message outside of the entrance to the pool.
Valencia: Where are you?
Erik: One second
The door opened and Erik was dressed in a pair of blue swim shorts that hugged his thighs. He was shirtless and still rocking the gold chains. His locs were in his face, almost long enough to cover his eyes. He opened the door further and Valencia slipped inside. The luminescent swimming pool looked calm and lonesome. The blue hue created the same glow around them. The tiny ripples created a specular reflection across their bodies as they dress closer.
Placing her bag down, Valencia took off the hoodie and sat it on a bench. She stepped out of her slides and walked over towards Erik. His eyes roamed her body, and then he licked his lips. Valencia sat down on the edge of the pool and Erik joined her. Their feet slipped into the water and it felt warm. She turned to look at him before timidly avoiding his gaze to stare down at the water. Erik didnât take his eyes off of her.
âThat was beautiful, Erik.â Her voice echoed as she spoke.
âThank you. It wasnât my best butâŠIt was definitely my most vulnerable.â Erik said.
âWell, I thought it was heartfelt and sweet. How the hell did you get everyone to go along with it?â
Erik laughs, âThe car wash? I pretty much went around and asked every one if they wanted to participate. The roses were planted there beneath the tables.â
âVery clever,â Valencia giggles.
âI knew you werenât gonna let me off the hook that easily, and for thatâŠI thank you.â
Valencia looked up at him through her lashes.
ââŠIâm happy we can start off where we left off.â Erik said.
âMe tooâŠI did miss youâŠI justâŠ.I have major trust issues.â
Erik shrugged, âI get it. You ainât gotta explain that to me.â
Valencia tucked her chin and smiled.
âThe water looks good,â Valencia stood up, âIâm getting in. Are you coming?â
âYeah.â
She stepped into the pool from the ladder and backstroked towards the deep end. Erik swam over towards her, water splashing on Valencia. She giggled, splashing Erik back even though it wasnât intentional that he got water in her face. Back and forth they played water tag.
âOkay! Stop!â Valencia shielded her face, âTruce!â
âYou givinâ up that easily, girl?â Erik teases.
âYes, I am. Youâre stronger.â Valencia said.
âAm I?â
Erik swam over and picked Valencia up. She squealed before Erik tossed her playfully, Valencia going under. She reappeared, smoothing her braids from her face. Erik laughed at her attempt to glare at him. It was cute. They circled each other, staring each other down. Valencia broke the eye contact first. Erik inched closer. They paddled their arms and propelled their legs to stay afloat. Erik looked so delicious. Valencia couldnât help but to reach up and smooth his locs back from his eyes.
ââŠYouâre so handsome,â Valencia shyly looked at him.
âAnd youâre so beautiful.â Erik replied.
The sound of his voice bouncing off of the walls shot straight to her pussy.
âI want to kiss youâŠâ Erik whispered.
Valencia turned away from Erik. He watched her go under, swimming away from him. Erik followed and took in a breath before going beneath the water. He swam, following her until she turned his way, still under water. She broke the surface and Erik was right there, centimeters away from her face. They stared into each otherâs eyes and then Valenciaâs back hit the edge of the pool. Erik trapped her there. Water dripped from his hair and made his lashes look wet and curled.
ââŠCan I kiss you?â
Valencia looked from his lips to his eyes. She slowly nodded her head and Erik closed the space between them, his lips crashing into hers desperately. He yearned for her lips. Erik grunted against her lips. Valencia opened up and Erik swiped his tongue across her teeth. Valencia draped her arms over his shoulders and Erik gripped the edge of the pool harder. His chest and crotch were pressed snuggly against Valenciaâs body.
Their heads swiveled from left to right, tongues dancing, their lips moved together in a sloppy manner. It was hot, sexy, steamy, and passionate all at the same time. Valencia wrapped her thighs around Erik and he took that opportunity to pick her up. They moved towards the center of the pool and after sucking each otherâs faces off for minutes, Erik came up for air. That didnât stop him from kissing her. His lips were on her neck now.
âMmmm,â Valencia moaned.
His lips kissed the tops of her breasts and between them. He looked her in the eyes while doing it. She knew what he wanted. Valencia slowly grabs one of Erikâs large hands and guides it to her bikini strings. He didnât take his eyes off of hers as his fingers pulled, the top falling from her chest. Erikâs eyes dropped down to admire them. B-cup, perky, with perfect nipples and areolas. Deep brown and tasty.
âDamn, baby,â Erik whispered, âFucking beautifulâŠâ
His lips were on hers again and then he broke the kiss, lifting her up more so that her breasts were in his face practically. Staring up at her, Erik wrapped his thick lips around her left nipple and started sucking. That sensation was a tickle that went straight to her pussy. Her clit jumped, her inner thighs gripped him tighter, and her breathing became uneven.
Erik took his time sucking each nipple. They were so stiff and begging for attention. The sensation of his warm mouth and soft lips did that. She couldnât watch him doing it anymore, it was too much. She instead moaned towards the ceiling with her eyes shut. Now, his tongue flicked her nipples. Valencia looked down with her beautiful mouth parted, tiny breaths of pleasure from between her lips. She loved that he took attention to her breasts. Her ex would suck a nipple for only ten seconds. Isaiah didnât even care to do it.
Another box checked off her list.
âErikâŠâ
He lightly nibbled with his teeth on the tips of her nipples. She gripped his shoulders tightly. He dragged his tongue and lips all over her areolas like a starved man. Valencia couldnât take it anymore. She tried to move her chest away from Erikâs mouth but he wouldnât stop. Her body tensed up and she started to panic. What the hell was happening?
âUnhâŠErikâŠuhâuhâuhhhhhââ
Her body trembles, as if the water ran cold. He pressed his face between her breasts and exhaled. Did she just experience an orgasm from nipple play? A wetness that didnât come from the water made her pussy hot and sticky. Erik looked up at her with a smirk and Valencia couldnât help but giggle.
âThat was intense and out of my control.â she spoke breathlessly.
âDidnât I tell you I can be your first of many things, beautiful?â
âYes,â Valencia bites her lip. âGetting freaky in a pool is definitely something Iâve never done.â
âHmm,â Erik brought her down so that they were face to face, âGetting your pussy ate pool side sounds amazing right now, donât you think?â
Erikâs hand came down to sit between Valenciaâs legs. He cupped her pussy in his hand over her bikini bottoms and slowly rubbed up and down. His thick digits applied pressure to her clit and he could feel her piercing. Valencia closed her eyes and parted her lips.
âNahâŠlook at meâŠâ
She took her time opening her eyes. When she did, she was staring into Erikâs eyes.
âI still have those pantiesâŠâ
She shuddered. Yes, her used thong from a month ago.
âThey still smell amazing by the way.â
A sly smirk painted his thick lips. She looked away. She couldnât believe this man still had them! That was the nastiest thing and she loved it.
ââŠwhat do you do with them?â Valencia asked with a small voice.
âWellâŠI sit them on my face and I justâŠbeat my dick whenever I think about youâŠâ
Her face grew hot and she shifted in his embrace but Erik made sure she didnât move. His hand rubbing up and down felt so good. Valencia started circling her hips while his hand rubbed. He chuckled at her and that Que tongue teased her.
âI guess you can say Iâm obsessed. I need a new pair to add to my collectionâŠâ
âWhat else are you obsessed withâŠsexually?â
Valencia had to chew on her bottom lip to control the tremors. He started rubbing her clit in a circle with his finger tips.
âI have fetishes and kinksâŠbondageâŠvoyeurismâŠexhibitionismâŠtoe-suckingâŠthatâs just to name a few.â
Valencia is familiar with BDSM but sheâd never experienced any of it. He has a foot fetish and thatâs something she always found interesting. Sheâs very ticklish, so she hoped Erik wouldnât do that to her. She wouldnât be able to handle it.
âHow about you?â
Valencia blinked away from him, âUhmâŠwell I do have some kinks for some thingsâIâve never triedâitâs not as hot as yours though.â
Erik cocked his head. They floated towards the edge of the pool again and Erik sat her down. He stood between her legs and looked up at her eagerly.
âYou can still tell me,â Erik said with a reassuring voice.
ââŠokayâŠI consider myself to be a size queen.â
Erik lifted a single brow.
âDo you know what that meansââ
âI do. You prefer big dicks. Bigger than average dicks.â
It was the way he said that. Valencia couldnât look him in the eye after that. Erik laughs.
âSexual partners with bigger dicksâŠcoming from you, thatâsâŠnot what I expected.â
âWhat did you expect then?â
âDD/LG. Sex talkâŠyou know size queens take dick, right?â
Erik emphasized dick strongly.
âI know,â Valencia looked away shyly.
âAight,â Erik smiled playfully at her, âWhat else?â
ââŠI feel like I have an oral fixationâŠâ
âMe too. I definitely do,â Erik chuckled.
He reached up to stroke between her legs. She shut her thighs and trapped his hand there.
âSpread your legs, ValenciaâŠâ
She did as she was told.
âBring your feet up and open widerâŠâ
She leaned back and carefully brought her legs up one-by-one. Her pussy was sitting phat between her legs from that position. Erik got closer, taking his thick fingers to push her panties to the side. What he saw blew his mind. Her wetness had a slimy consistency to it that connected to her bikini bottom. She was ready for some dick and his mouth. He used his thumb to peel back her outer lip and the more he did, the more it leaked.
âFuckâŠyou should see thisâŠyouâre so fucking wet, girlâŠâ
Valencia scooted her hips towards the edge and Erik used his tongue to swipe between her outer lips. Valencia placed a hand on the back of his head. He was slurping and sucking at the same time. Anything to get all of that tasty stuff in his mouth. He flicked his tongue up between her folds and the sensation caused her clit to ache in the best way.
âYesâŠmmmâŠErik, that feels so goodâŠI missed your mouthâŠâ
That was music to his ears. She could hear him smacking his lips and the sound of his wet tongue.
âDaddyâŠyesâŠplease donât stopâŠmake me cumâŠâ
Pushing her thighs back, Erik did just that. He didnât stop. He sucked that bejeweled clit into his mouth and sucked to his heartâs desire and it tugged on Valenciaâs heartstrings. She had his locs in her fist. Her wet braids fell over her face. Her naked chest thrust forward. It was the most erotic thing.
âOh my gosh!â
Her body spasmed and Erik dipped his tongue into her entrance so he could catch it all. Every drop needed to be on his tongue. Valencia pushed his head away and sat up. Erik shook his locs from his eyes and licked her sticky sweetness from his lips.
âWe need to take this shit to my room nowâŠI canât do what I wanna do to you hereâŠâ
Valencia knew she was in trouble. He gave her this look and she just knew.
ââââ
They entered the Omega Psi Phi house and Erik shut the door softly. Hand in hand, they crept up the stairs and when they both made it to the top landing, Erik led Valencia down the hall to his right. Majority of the house was still out for the evening. His room door was the most decorated out of the ones at the end of this hall. He took out his keys from his hoodie pocket and opened his door. Valencia slipped inside first and then Erik came in right behind her before shutting his door and locking it again. The room was cloaked in darkness with a little light from the streetlights outside peeking through the blinds. Erik took her bag from her and she could see his silhouette moving towards a desk.
He flicked on a lamp and adjusted the lighting so that it was dim. A yellow ambiance filled one corner of the room and the area where the bed resided was 80% dark. Valencia thought it was the perfect glow for what was about to go down. Erik proceeded to take his laptop out of his book bag and Valencia made herself comfortable on his bed. It was neatly made and fluffy. Some music played and Valencia figured it was to muffle the noises they were about to make but one thing about her, if it feels good, she canât keep quiet.
Erik took off his hoodie and T-shirt. He stood in front of her with a bare chest and shorts on. They took a quick rinse after swimming. Valencia removed Erikâs hoodie from her body and her panties. She kicked off her slides and went to shield her body with her legs. Erik walked up to her on his bed and while his eyes looked down at her, he slowly peeled his shorts off. Valencia watched his movements with a steady gaze.
She could see that he was well groomed down there. When his dick bobbed out, she went still with speechlessness. It was thick, long, and veiny with heavy balls to match. Shaft the color of hickory and the tip reminded her of cinnamon. Something you would see in a porno. Sheâd never seen a dick this big in person. Thatâs all she had to compare it to. Valencia didnât even want to venture a guess as to how big he is. Tonight was going to be the night where she explored her size queen fantasies.
âYouâre so bigâŠâ
Valencia wrapped her small hand around him. Her fingers barely touched. She didnât want to look scared, but she was. She replaced her shocked expression with a flirty smile. Erik reached down and caressed her chin. She knew what he wanted. She wished sheâd practiced for this. She wanted to impress this man badly with skills she didnât possess. Sure, she could give head, but would he enjoy it?
âValencia.â
She was knocked out of her daze. Sitting up on her knees, she leaned forward while gently stroking him. Valencia would dart her eyes up at him timidly while his fat dick was in her face. So much dick.
Donât chicken out, she thought.
âGo on, donât act all shy, get a taste.â
Valencia let go of his shaft to push her braids back over her shoulders. Erik helped her by taking her braids into his fist loosely.
âThank you,â She took him into her grasp again.
Fear flashed before her eyes and Erik used his thumb to stroke her chin again.
âCâmon, donât be scared. Not with lips like thatâŠâ
She giggled nervously. Valencia leaned in and flicked her tongue along the tip of his dick like she was testing the waters. Erikâs grunt made her kiss his tip with her juicy lips.
âStop teasing me and suck this dick.â
Valencia opened her mouth and Erik tugged on her braids so she could look up at him. She shut her eyes while sucking his wide tip into her mouth. That action alone made her jaws sore.
âOpen your eyes, Valencia,â Erik tugged on her hair, âWhat I say?â
He was starting to show his dominance more and more. Valencia blinked up at him, the view from her position a sight for sore eyes. That body and that face with that big dick in her hand was all too much. She sank her lips deeper, and Erik exhaled a longing breath.
âYou got a tight ass throat, maâŠâ
Valencia popped her lips off.
âIâm sorryââ
âNothing to apologize about, baby. Put that mouth back on daddyâs dick.â
She did as she was told.
âThere you go, put some more in thereâŠâ
She squeezed her thumb and breathed through her nose. A technique sheâd learned about but never really used. She wasnât a throat goat but sheâd never had to challenge herself until she met Erik.
âGood girlâŠmmm.â
She added more spit to her sucking. There was no way she was going to fit all of him in her mouth. Valencia stroked him like she was grinding pepper with one hand while she sucked whatever she could.
âLook at you, all that being scared and you sucking it just like I like itâŠnice and slowâŠlots of spitâŠsuch a nasty girl.â
Erik licked his lips at her and his eyes were low. He kept making these grunting noises in his throat. She loved it so much.
âThose lipsâŠfeel so good on my dick, babyâŠâ
Erik did something she wasnât prepared for. He thrust his hips forward a little and more of his dick sank down her throat. Valencia gagged and her body jerked away from the feeling. Spit was hanging from her mouth and she looked up at him with wet eyes.
âDid I tell you to stop sucking?â
âNâno,â Valencia sniffled.
Erik tapped her lips with his dick.
âOpen your mouth.â
Panic set in. She opened up and Erik had a hand on the back of her head and one on her throat. He started fucking her mouth slow. Valencia placed a hand on his thigh to try and control him. A knock suddenly came to Erikâs door and not once did he stop.
âPoet! Me and the rest of the guys were going out for drinks. You wanna roll out, dog?â
âNah! Iâm good. Iâll see yaâll tomorrow!â
Erik bites down on his bottom lip when her lips popped off. He rubbed his dick along her lips, dribbling her lips with his tip before whispering for her to open the fuck up.
âAight! Weâll catch up!â
When the coast was clear, Erik groaned.
âWhen I cum donât you come up off this dick, you hear me?â
âMhm,â Valencia couldnât use her mouth at the moment to reply. Only sounds.
She sucked and sucked and her jaws ached but she was determined to make him cum. She was doing so well and Erik was loving it so much. He started moaning and saying her name. She felt in control. With a deep inhale, she took a chance and relaxed the back of her throat, twitching it around his tip.
âShit, here it comesââ
Valencia sat still with Erikâs dick between her jaws. She could feel him throbbing with his release. He came in her mouth and it was thick and warm. She swallowed quickly, careful not to choke. It was a lot. She wasnât surprised, with a dick that big and balls that heavy, it was expected. She came up for air and wiped her mouth off with the back of her hand. Erik twirled one of her nipples while bending over to kiss her lips. Tongue and all.
âYou did so good, baby.â Erik whispered against her lips.
âYou liked it? I wanted to make it good for you.â
âYou made me cum didnât you? I was tryna hold back but I couldnât control it. I wonder what that pussy gonna do to meâŠâ
âThe same,â Valencia boldly replied.
âYeah? That pussy gonâ make this dick bust too?â
âMhm,â She jerked him while chewing on her bottom lip and staring him in his eyes with all the strength she could muster.
âYou better hope I donât bust in youâŠâ
Erik tongues Valencia down again. His words fluttered in her mind. She was on birh control but sheâd never let a guy do it. Isaiah drunkenly told her that he wanted to cream pie her, but he was wearing a condom. Erik planned to fuck her raw.
âCome sit on my face.â
Erik climbed into his bed and propped his pillows up. When he was settled, Valencia threw her leg over him and Erik popped her on that bubble booty with a hard slap.
âTurn the other wayâŠjust like thatâŠâ
She turned her back towards his face while her ass and pussy sat inches away from his mouth.
âArch that back, girl.â Erik commanded with another smack to her ass.
Valencia did as she was told and Erik spread her cheeks . He didnât waste time tongue-fucking her wet hole and slurping up her clit. Valencia clawed the sheets and started grinding her pussy along the length of Erikâs tongue. He spit on her pussy and sucked it back up over and over. Her eyes crossed like she was losing consciousness.
âOOH!, Erik, fuck, Iâm gonna cum already!â
Erik whacked her across the ass through her release. He was showing a roughness with her that overwhelmed her. Valencia didnât have time to recover when Erik sat up and positioned her on her back. He loomed over her and his lips pressed firmly against hers. She could feel his thick fingers between her thighs, stroking her pussy before slowly sinking two fingers deep.
âUhââ
âI gotta make sure I open you up for this dick, girl,â Erik whispered.
His fingers pumped in and out of her. He was knuckle deep and torturing her spot. Valencia turned her face away and Erik attacked her neck. The obscene noises her pussy made was similar to squelching. She felt that from head to toe. Erikâs continuous nasty talk in her ear with a husky voice had her whimpering.
âThis my pussy, Valencia?â
âYeah.â
âI canât wait to fuck youâŠâ
She felt a flutter in her belly from his words. His anxiousness let her know that she was going to take it all over his bed.
âIma be in that pussy every way I canâŠyouâre so prettyâŠyou have the best pussy, babygirlâŠMy dick is so hardâŠâ
She could feel his stiffness on her inner thigh. Rigidly tapping her.
âIâve been waiting for this shitâŠâ
âDaddyââ
âYou wanna cum? That pussy cumming again?â
âYesââ
âTell me whatchu wantâŠopen your mouth and tell me. All that shy shit is over witâ you know what time it is.â
ââŠcan I cum, please, daddy?â
She clawed his back. The more he continued to finger-fuck her, the harder it became to hold it in. She felt a sensation and she was afraid she was going to urinate. It was so intense, Valencia couldnât fight it.
âErik, Erik, Erik!â
âGimme that shit.â
A stream of liquid similar to a fountain stained the sheets. It was too powerful and the more he fingered, the more she did it. Sheâd never ever squirted before.
âOh my gosh,â Valencia tried to catch her breath, âI squirtedâŠIâm sorry, I made a mess.â
She shielded her face with her hands in embarrassment. Erik moved her hands away and showed her his messy fingers before sucking on them.
âYou can squirt, you can cream, I want all of that shit. Donât ever be embarrassed about what this body can do. Iâm so crazy about youâŠâ
Erik pecked her lips and she could taste herself. He sat up on his knees and spread her thighs. Valencia hitched her breath when he started spanking her pussy with the tip of his dick.
ââŠA fat puss and a fat dickâŠyou know what time it is, right?â
Valencia nodded her head with a pout of her lips.
âIâll go nice and steady, okay?â
Erik kissed her inner left thigh before he gripped the base of his dick in one hand, gliding it between her folds before the wide tip of his thick pipe sat at her entrance eagerly. She watched as his chest moved up and down and his eyes focused on his movements. His eyes drifted up her body to rest on her face.
âItâs gonna feel so goodâŠyouâll be begging me not to stopâŠâ
She brought both of her arms up and her hands squeezed the pillow beneath her head. She tried to steady her breathing, but when Erik finally thrust forward, she lost her cool.
âShit,â she squeezed her eyes shut, âItâs too muchâŠâ
The tip popped in and instantly she clenched him. Erik groaned. The snugness around his tip felt so fucking food. He needed more.
âIma give you moreâŠfuck, Valencia, pussy tight as fuckâŠâ
He had his hands on the back of her thighs and both of them watched as he fed her pussy more fat dick.
âIâm tryna behave but all I wanna do is dig yoâ shit out.â
He gave her this look that told her âIâm ready to go berserkâ he would stop to give her a second to adjust and then more filled her up. She threw her head back and moaned. Erik had half of his dick in there.
âLook at me, talk to meâŠâ
He withdrew his hips and Valenciaâs eyes grew wide and her mouth dropped open.
âTell me where Iâm atâŠâ
âYouâre in my pussyyyyyyy!â
Tears rolled down into her hairline. The sensation was so intense. She couldnât even describe how wet she was. She felt so full.
âIâm finnaâ go harder. You ready?â
Valencia had panick in her eyes. Erik kissed his teeth. He was impatient and with her good pussy wrapped around his dick she better get ready.
âBe a big girl and take itâŠown it and take it, ma.â
ââŠokay.â
Erik dropped that dick off in her all the way now and Valencia cried out. He leaned over her body causing her hips to lift from the bed. He put his fist into the mattress and the momentum of his thrusting went faster and faster. She didnât know what to do.
âYes,â Erik whispered, âIâm in this pussy now. hmmâŠâ
âUnhââ
It felt so intense and so amazing. Erik sat up so he could look her in the eyes. He drew his bottom lip into his mouth and delivered sharp thrusts while staring her down. She was completely ruined and all he did was fuck her and look at her.
âI câcâcanât hold itââ
âFUUCKââ
Her orgasm rocked through her body. Erik slipped out and she exhaled a shaky breath.
âLookâŠâ
She sat up on her elbows. His dick was coated in cum and brick hard. Erik looked at her through his locs, a teasing smirk on his face. He was on her again, not even telling her how he wanted her. Instead, he positioned her with her face down and ass up. He fixed her arch, adjusted her legs, and then with two large hands on her ass cheeks, he pointed his tip at her opening and bam! He was back in like he never left.
âKeep that arch. What the fuck did I say?â
âOkay!â Valencia bowed her back, âDo I need to do it more?â
Erik didnât respond with words, he fixed her himself and then spanked her ass.
âOuch,â it stung so hard, âdaddy that hurts..â
He kissed her cheeks and she whimpered.
âIt wouldnât hurt so much if you listen to what I say. Stay just like that.â
Erikâs dick went in and out. Each time it would go in, her pussy would queef. So much creamy mess. She felt it in her lower belly, it created intense pressure to the bottom of her pussy, her body quaked out of her control. So many different sensations hitting her at once.
âMhm, you look so good right nowâŠâ
Valencia looked back at Erik.
âItâs sâsâso deepâŠ.â Valencia stuttered.
âI know, baby, but youâre doing so well, pretty girlâŠnow daddy gotta bust it open some moreâŠâ
With just his hips, Erik showed her a good time. When he wanted to play back shots, he didnât want you running and pushing him away. Her ass ricocheted off his hips and all she could do was grip the sheets and moan so loud it bounced off of the walls. She couldnât do anything about the intense sensations.
âDADDY! OH MY GOD! ITS SO BIG! ITS SO BIG, DADDY! OH MY GOSH! ERIK! ERIK! ERIK!â
âDonât push me away,â Erik locked her wrist behind her back as he barked out his command, âFUCK!â
He slowed down and Valencia tried to catch her breath. She didnât want him to slow down. She wanted more dick. How was it possible to want more when she couldnât even take it in this position?
âThere you goâŠthere you go. You fucking me back? Oh, so now you ainât scared of this dick?â
Valencia threw it back on him and Erik stood there watching her with unblinking eyes and his mouth hanging open.
âDidnât I tell you I would have you on this dick? Didnât I fuckinâ tell you that?â Erik slapped her ass, âYou showing out, girl. Fat pussy takinâ it like a real size queen.â
She looked back at him and licked her lips.
âCan you beat it up, daddy?â
Valencia was talking her shit. Erik pounded her pussy out.
âUHHHH SHIT!â She yelled.
Valencia sat up and Erik placed a hand around her neck from the front.
âRight there! Please donât stop!â She begged.
Pound after pound. Her body seized up.
âYou ainât gotta tell me, baby, I feel that pussyâŠdonât hold back, give me what I want, wet up this fuckinâ dick!â
âYES!â
Erik slipped out and Valencia fell flat against the bed. She rolled over and stared up at Erik before reaching her arms out. He chuckled, picking her up and then she wrapped her legs around him snuggly.
âYou want me to fuck you in the air?â
She nodded her head and bashfully smiled at him.
âIâve always wanted to be picked up during sex. I wanna see how it feelsâŠâ
âIâll give you whatever you want.â
Erik lined himself up and dropped her down on his dick. He palmed her ass and forced her down on his big dick, bouncing her up and down at a leisurely pace so she could feel it from the tip to the balls. Erik dipped his hips and Valencia had her arms wrapped around his neck.
âUh! Uh! Uh! Uh!â Thatâs all she could do. Moan and live in the moment.
Erik pressed his forehead against hers. She took in a sharp breath.
âIâm so close, this pussy gonâ make me cum so hard, fuck, gahdamn, shit, this wet pussyâŠtight, wet, gushy pussyââ
âIâM CUMMING FOR YOU!â Valencia declared.
âCum on this fucking dick!â
Valencia came so damn hard. It was an out of body experience. She clung to Erik tightly and he sat on the bed and bounced her in his lap. Her words ran through his mind.
âDaddy! I wanna have your baby!â
âValenciaââ
Erikâs balls tightened and his shaft throbbed and twitched the same time her walls clenched him.
âIma fucking nutâFUCKââ
He lifted her off of his dick and she was on her knees fast, sucking him clean. Erik sat back on his elbows and his body twitched. Spurt after spurt of his thick cum covered her lips and dripped onto her breasts. She jerked him while sucking on his tip.
âUnh, mmm, huhhhh, uhhhhh, fuckkkkâŠ.â
He was too sensitive. He grabbed his dick from her and sat up. Valencia licked her lips and tried to clean herself off. She peeked up at him and gave him a small smile followed by a giggle.
âI canât believe I said that.â
She laughed it off, trying her best to conceal her embarrassment. She was so caught up in the moment. She covered her face and Erik moved her hands away. He helped her to her feet and sat her in his lap.
âForget I said that.â She looked down into her lap, âThat was amazingâŠâ
Erik tilted her head up and stared into her eyes.
âI donât want to forget it. And you need to stop feeling so ashamed. Shit, I almost gave you that baby.â
They both laughed. Valencia pressed her face into Erikâs neck.
ââŠyou might experience a lot of emotions. Itâs intenseâŠâ
âIâm so happy I got to experience it with you.â
Erik kissed Valencia on the forehead.
âMe too, baby girl. And I want more moments with you.â
Erik pulled the sheets back and he laid back against his pillow with Valencia snuggled close to him.
âYou wore a nigga outâŠâ
Valencia giggled.
âI could go for round twoâŠâ
âââ
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omfggg I just finished reading truth be told and it was so amazing and good and wonderful and wow wow wow you're so talented!!! can you please please consider writing a part 2 where r and Mel slowly start dating and Mel starts bringing them back around her family and introducing them to the Abbott crew and everyone is like đđ and then Mel asks them to marry her and everyone is Mel's family is like FINALLY.
truth be lived
pairing: melissa schemmenti x gn!reader
summary: part two of truth be told, based on request above | 9.6k
includes: useless lesbian disease, fluff, more fluff bc the last part didn't have enough
warnings: they/them pronouns used for r, slight insecurity, kissing/making out
translation: peluche (italian - teddy bear)
italics are flashbacks
note: god this took me so long iâm sorry. my brain is an evil being. but N E ways how shocked are we that this is way fucking longer than part one? we arenât? thatâs what i thought. swear my dumbass can't make it easy on myself, but i just really wanted to grow the relationship and not just throw it out there yk?? excuses excuses, i know
Itâs almost worse than when Barbara made her go a month without caffeine. Scratch that. Itâs fifty times worse. Itâs been a week that Melissa has gone without getting to see you. The week that will finally come to a close once the clock strikes seven and you show up at her door.
Saturdays, as of late, the two of you spent nearly three hours in a coffee shop, talking endlessly until your macchiatos went cold. Catching up on over a decade apart was slowly patching the dam that gave out all those years ago. A month of this gravitated to getting lunch together during the week, sitting together on a bench in the halfway point between your jobs. A couple more weeks, and you started going to the bar on Fridays to get your whiskey sours to celebrate the end of a hard week.
It was over stealing a cherry from your drink that Melissa got brave enough to ask you what had been on her mind since she saw you again. She knew it had to be her move, after all that had happened before.
âNext Friday night, you busy?â Melissa asks as she picks the stem off.
Your tongue ghosts over your lips, ânot at all. And for you, Iâm always free.â
âWould you wanna go out? With me?â An exhale rattles her chest, âLike a- like a date?â
Scanning her face, all you can see is sincerity in her question, and not a touch of restraint. The corners of your lips fly up, creases around your eyes deepening as you take in the sight of a nervous, but hopeful, Melissa. What you wouldnât give to cradle those flushed, pink cheeks and kiss her right now.
âI would love to go on a date with you,â you answer, âname the time and place, and Iâm there.â
A grin thatâs equally dorky as yours appears on Melissa's face, her smile prevalent in her voice, âyou worry about nothing. Iâll pick you up.â
Green eyes flick from the Tucci mug in front of her to the clock over the door. Only eleven hours and forty minutes, not that sheâs counting. A sigh passes her lips at her own desperation. She went nearly a decade without you, half a week shouldnât be this hard. By God, though, it is.
By lunch, it feels like another week passed her by. A sense of freedom fills Melissa, finally able to dig her phone out of the bottom drawer of her desk where she previously jailed it, too tempted to check for texts from you or send her own. For added proof of her restraint, she doesnât allow herself to look at the screen until she sits at the table next to Barb.
The moment leather pants meet the hard plastic chair, her phone is ripped from her pocket, glasses perched on her nose. Glossy lips stretch into a smile immediately.
Peluche: any idea how to make 6.5 hours into 0?
Peluche: asking for a friend
Tell your âfriendâ if I knew, I would have done it.
The little smirk on her face does not go unnoticed by the others in the room, though none are brave enough to ask about it. Jacob eyes his roommate from across the room. Heâs seen the weight on her shoulders fly off within the last few weeks, the oven door hasnât slammed once, she didnât even make fun of his new kombucha. Early excuses to retire to her bedroom were becoming more frequent, and after a very brave snooping session, Jacob heard tiny bits of a phone call. Breathy giggles coming from his roommate made him step away, an act to save not only his room, but also his life.
The little grin that would appear on her face, before she scurried upstairs, was the same one that she wears at this very moment. It takes the willpower of a thousand Avaâs in a hookah bar to not jump up and down at the thought that Melissa may be seeing someone again, someone clearly better for her. With all of his self-control, held together with sheer desperation, he glances at Barbara. Godâs number one soldier is smiling to herself, giving a little nod as she feels his gaze on her. Confirmation.
Thereâs a certain pep in her step the rest of the day. Not one eye roll as Janine breathlessly recounted her walk back from the deli, no pinching the bridge of her nose when a student asked a question sheâd answered seven times already today, not even one occurrence of biting her tongue to save herself an elbow from Barbara. Blissfully happy Melissa is almost more terrifying than angry Melissa, her stiff walk replaced with a certain bounce that didnât diminish.
âAlright, little eagles, it is go-time! Move it, move it! If youâre not out the door in ten seconds, youâre spending the night with the Abbott ghosts!â The kids all run past Melissa in a flock of giggles as she mentally counts each one, making sure everyone is accounted for before locking up her room. Giddiness grows in her chest, T-minus four hours, and she finds herself just as motivated as the children to run out the doors. Uncharacteristically, she tries to avoid Barbara on her way out, trying to get home as fast as humanly possible, knowing she would be in a frenzied overdrive once she starts getting ready to see you.
âMelissa!â She cringes as she hears her name at the end of the hall, stalling her in her place. Turning on her heel, the redhead faces the floor to hide the pained expression she wears, before looking back up. âGirl, where are you going in such a hurry? Youâre moving like the devil is on your heels.â
âThe devil couldnât catch me if he tried,â Melissa snorts, âand Iâm just tryna get home, I got plans tonight.â
Barbara raises a brow, âplans, you say? With whom?â
âNo one,â she replies, but the sly grin and pink cheeks give her away.
The kindergarten teacher hums, âwell, you have fun with no one. I expect a debrief Monday morning, maybe Saturday if you find some free time.â Pink cheeks go as red as Melissaâs hair at the insinuation, only managing a little huff and nod as a response before slinking off to her car.
ââœâ
Melissa had given you only one direction for tonight, being that you should dress warm. As much as she knew the limited information would bother you, she hoped you trusted her enough to go along with it, and you did without question, but not without a half-second of hesitation. She could already picture the game of eenie-meenie you would likely play when you went to pick out a sweater or sweatshirt.
And she would be right. With an hour left before Melissa was to arrive, you stood half-naked in front of the closet on your fifth round of the game in trying to choose what to wear. Though every time you reject an option, youâd manage to find a potential reason to go with it, and the cycle keeps going. Deciding to let fate take its chance, you throw an arm over your eyes and blindly swing the other to randomly grab something to wear, at this point you donât even care if itâs the matching Bluey sweatshirt you share with your nephew.
Fate is on your side it seems, the blind reach procuring a loose fitting, dark grey sweater, one youâd owned over half your life. One that Melissa had stolen many times before, that you had to steal back from her. Without a second thought, you put a longsleeve on before the sweater, just in case it finds a way to pass ownership.
Similarly to last week, you find yourself tense and jittery, waiting on the edge of your seat for the text that tells you that youâll be able to see her again. Bosco nudges at your hands to be pet, clearly noticing your nerves, attempting to snuggle them away. Heâs an expert, your shaky hands stilling as you scratch gently around his neck, dodging his wet nose before it meets your eye. Utterly in the zone petting the spaniel, your phone pinging pulls you from your trance.
pretty girl: Ready when you are.
iâll be right down, just a sec
pretty girl: Take your time hon.
You, in fact, do not take your time, but what Melissa doesnât see, she canât possibly know. Panting at the bottom of the stairs, you take a spare few seconds to catch your breath before walking towards the only car in the lot with its lights on. Leaning against it was Melissa, picking at her nails with pursed lips, a tell-tale sign of her nerves. The closer you get, the more clearly you can see her. Her bright pink hoodie is clearer now, contrasting against a pair of leather pants that almost rip the air from your lungs.
The words leave your lips before you can really stop them, âyouâre beautiful.â
Bright eyes look up from the pavement, wide with surprise from your seemingly sudden appearance in front of her. Heat spreads from down her face to her chest at the compliment, feeling every bit of it from head to toe, reveling in the warmth of your attention. Itâs been years since youâve looked at her like this, much less spoken.
âYou-â she breathes, âyouâre wow.â A second wave hits her when she sees what youâre wearing, that fucking sweater. Sheâd stolen it more times than she can count, straight from the closet or even directly off of your body, and now it was within arms reach again.
âShouldâve asked first, wearing your sweater and all,â you say lightheartedly, hoping that it will calm the nerves between you both.
âI guess I can let it slide this time,â Melissa chuckles, looking down bashfully. âYou ready to get going?â
All you manage is a nod, far too excited to be in her presence to get anymore words out. Ever the gentlewoman, Melissa slides in front of you to open your door, closing it once youâve slid into your seat. You knew better than to ask where you were going, the redhead already told you three times that she wasnât spoiling anything for you.
The entirety of the twenty minute drive, it takes a god-like amount of effort to keep from staring at Melissaâs hand on the gear shift. Shimmering rings just beg to be fiddled with, hand asking to be held, but you refrain from crossing the line. The late time keeps the road relatively empty, though Philly streets are never silent, a cacophony of horns and yelling seems to linger regardless of the sunâs presence.
The car pulls into a lot of a building, only a small deli on the first level, the rest appears to be utterly vacant. Slowly, you turn to face Melissa, looking at her with pure confusion and a need for an answer.
She peeks over, sensing your gaze on her. Putting the car in park she simply says, âjust trust me.â
âI do,â you reply without hesitation.
It takes very little persuading for you to begin following Melissa, in through the deli where she greeted the man at the front desk. From the little Italian you still remember from being around her family, you pick up something about a door and the two of you being allowed to do something. All the fishing for translation in your mind halts when a hand goes to the small of your back, guiding you to the back of the shop towards the stairs. At the top floor, Melissa reaches around you to put the code into the door, opening the roof access. Three thick blankets stacked on top of one another, with a cooler holding them down, greet you when you turn after watching the redhead prop the door open with a brick.
A sort of wonder takes over, just following her movements as she sits on the blankets, patting the spot next to her. Taking residence next to her, you scoot closer without even an attempt of subtlety. Glossy lips curve into a smile at your action, Melissa immediately trying to hide it by reaching into the orange cooler.
From the cooler, she pulls out a shaker and a bottle of whiskey, peeking at you with a mischievous look in her eye. Without breaking eye contact, she lifts out simple syrup and lemon juice. Simultaneously, both your noses scrunch, leaning into each other slightly as you snicker, feeling juvenile in the excitement of it all.Â
Despite taking the time to garnish both your drinks with maraschinos, you pretend to not notice the sly reaches to pull them out of your drink. As far as youâre concerned, she can have whatever she wants if you get to hear that quiet, satisfied giggle.
Reaching into the cooler again, Melissa pulls out a small radio, checking her watch as she fiddles with the dials. After a few moments, you hear what sounds like the opening credits of a movie. Knocking her knee with your own to get your attention, she points to a screen a little ways away, a small drive-in theater that you didnât even know was in the city. Squinting a little to see the title from the distance, you see that itâs Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid, one of her fatherâs favorites. The thought alone makes you smile, heâd gotten you both into westerns once you were âold enough to appreciate them,â meaning when you were well into your twenties.
It takes little time for the two of you to end up pressed against each other, everything packed away and forgotten off to the side. The two of you stay quiet as you listen to the movie, both mouthing lines you remember. Your eyes long to look at her, so you look down to grab your drink, shifting your eyes to look at Melissa.
Once you do, all you can do is watch her, her hands, her eyes, her lips, how content she is written on her face. Itâs hard to take your eyes off her, it always has been, but right now it feels more difficult than ever. Yellow street lights barely illuminate her, everything you can see is because of the sheer closeness of your bodies. The warmth radiating off of her is grounding, the chill around you nonexistent.
Feeling your attention on her quickly has Melissa turning towards you. Sheâs met with a nose brushing against hers, both of your eyes widening at the newfound closeness. Neither of you even attempt to move away, completely engrossed in each otherâs gaze; the closest you two had been in a decade, here and now.
âCan I-â She doesnât get a chance to finish her sentence.
âPlease.â
Lips rush to press against yours, moving quickly, but so carefully that you canât help the whine that crawls out of your throat. It takes even less time for your hands to slide up to her face, holding her close as her own hands wander to hold your sides. Needy fingers weave into her hair, tugging lightly at soft copper. Melissa groans into your mouth, tongue swiping against your lips, being met with instant entry and a cross between a sigh and moan.
Any remaining gloss that wasnât sticking to the plastic cups was spread across your lips, giving you a taste of cherry and lemon, whiskey shared between you. The feeling of her tongue is intoxicating, and all you can manage is to haul her closer, wanting her entirely against you. Catching on, Melissa pushes further into you, leaning you down onto the blankets. The change in position seems to bring a moment of pause to both of you, parting for a moment to catch your breaths.
Slowly, you open your eyes, meeting jade eyes with blown out pupils. Detangling your hands from her hair, you bring them back to hold her face. Stroking your thumb over her cheek, her eyes flutter shut as a deep breath leaves her chest. You gently pass over her cheekbone, following the slope to her lips, kiss-swollen and lovely. Brushing against her lips, you see her eyes open again, watching your attention on her skin. You can practically feel the nerves radiating off of her.
Tugging her down gently, you press a soft kiss to her lips, easy and slow. A silent reassurance that you werenât going anywhere, that you want this just as much as she does.
The entire drive back to your building, Melissa keeps her hand in yours, enjoying the feeling of your grip tightening around hers every now and then. Uncharacteristically, she drives the speed limit through the streets, wanting to prolong her time with you as much as she can. Pulling into the lot, she lifts your hand to press a kiss to it before hopping out, rounding the car to open your door.
âWhat a charmer,â you joke, voice bubbly and light from pure adoration for the woman. Humming, Melissaâs fingers tangle with yours as she walks you to the door. Leaning against the cold brick of the building, you pull her in closer, wanting her in your orbit a little longer.
Her thumb glides over your knuckles, âthank you, for tonight.â
âThank you. Next time, though, Iâm planning everything,â an easy smile crosses your face as you fiddle with her rings. You watch a barely suppressed excitement cross her features, feeling your heart swell at the sight.
Subconsciously, you both lean into each other, no words spoken between you. Your eyes flick to her licks, catching her attention. With a barely there touch, Melissa presses a kiss to your lips, lingering as you just barely keen into her. As she pulls away, she forces herself to take a step back, knowing if she stays close that sheâll never leave.
âCanât wait,â she says, a smile on her lips that never fades when sheâs around you.
âText me when you get home?â You have to keep a hand on the wall behind to keep you in place, too drawn to Melissa for your own good.
She chuckles, taking a step back, âitâs a five minute drive.â
âJust text me, please,â your head drops to the side, looking at her through your lashes.
The only you get is a little nod, reveling in her little smirk as she turns away. Your eyes stay on her, intent on seeing her safely to her car, but she seems to have other ideas. Before she even reaches the fence, Melissa turns on her heel and quickly walks back up to you. Without so much as a warning, she holds your face in her hands and plants one more solid kiss to your lips.
When she pulls away she sees your brows raised and a dumbfounded look on your face, it leaves her with a little spark of pride in her chest. Her thumb passes over your lip before she steps back, slowly walking backwards, âIâll text you.â
ââœâ
The trudging of Jacob coming upstairs shakes Melissa from her last minute indecisiveness about her choice of shirt, registering her open door, throwing the green shirt over her bra-clad form. Quick feet land her in front of her vanity, plopping in the seat to seem busy instead of fretful. Silent prayers that he leaves her alone go unanswered, peeking in as she unscrews the wand of her mascara.
âWhatâre you up to tonight?â Jacob asks, practically hopping up to her.
She purposely avoids looking at him, ânoneya.â
âOooh, come on Mel-Mel! Spill!â
âStop calling me that,â she lets out shortly, carefully blinking on mascara. âIâm just going out, thatâs all.â Melissa promised herself the second you came back into her life, she wouldnât refer to you as just a friend. Not until you told her thatâs all you want from her, she couldnât blame you for that choice after all of her own.
You are beginning to run out of things to fill the time until Melissa arrives. The kitchen was wiped down and swept, the living room vacuumed, shit, you even wiped down the blinds. A nagging part of your mind keeps ringing that maybe you should change the blanket over the back of the couch, but the others donât match the pillows and that will only make your skin crawl more.
A slammed door in the hall makes you startle out of the near catatonic state youâre in, eyes glazed over as they stare unfocused at the coffee table. Your eyes jump to the clock, the little hand getting closer and closer to the seven, only twenty minutes until sheâs here. You let out a deep breath before it hits you, only twenty minutes.
Nearly crashing to the floor as your socks glide on the carpet, you rip the top drawer of your dresser open, brain rushing to figure out if the fluffy socks are a bad look or not. Eyes clenching, you sigh at the immaturity of your own thoughts, feeling like a middle schooler trying to get their crush to like them. Itâs all frivolous, really. But, God, you want her to like you.
With five minutes left to wait, you find yourself sitting on the couch, staring at the dark TV screen as your leg bounces hard enough to cause a six-point magnitude earthquake.
Unbeknownst to you, Melissa has been sitting in the lot of your building for ten minutes, working up the courage to walk in. If she didnât get here early, she is sure she wouldâve been late walking inside. Melissa stretches out her hand from the tight clenched fists they had been, crescents in her palm from her pink acrylics. She has to reread her text about a million times before sending it.
Just pulled in.
Peluche: iâll be right down, give me 30 seconds
Creaking of a heavy metal door takes Melissa out of her thoughts where she stands on the steps, turning to see your head just barely popping out of the door. Neither of you can help the little grins that come to your face, both of your attempts to hide them being useless against the other. Wordlessly, you wave her in, and Melissa is quick to obey. Itâs quiet as you both climb the stairs, until you arrive at your front door.
The moment you press one number on the keypad, Bosco is barking up a storm on the other side of the door. When the door opens, he is just as quick to start jumping on Melissa, clearly remembering his friend that he hasnât seen in almost three months.
âBobo, dude,â you almost whine, trying to tug him away despite his excited hopping, âalright, enough. Bed, now, little freak.â
When you turn back to Melissa, her face is pink from laughter, the lines around her eyes deeper from the smile on her face. Slipping her jacket off her arms, she asks, âis he like that with everyone?â
âNo, not everyone,â you answer, stepping forward to grab her jacket from her to hang up, âheâs usually only that excited when I get home or when my neighbor stops by, but he never jumps on him since the manâs like eight thousand years old.â
Melissa tries to ignore the shivers up her spine, âprobably just remembers me, or Iâm just that special.â
âTwo things can be true at once,â you say sincerely, taking the bottle of wine with you as you search for the corkscrew. âIâve only got stemless glasses, that okay?â
âBlasphemous,â she jokes, leaning against the counter, resting her weight on her elbows.
Lightheartedly, you roll your eyes, pouring her glass first. Melissaâs eyes light up as you swirl the wine in the glass before handing it to her, something she does before she starts any glass. Itâs a pointless little thing she has done since Nonna began allowing her a small cup of wine at dinner when she was fifteen, she never thought you would remember something so miniscule.
It takes less than two minutes of sitting on the couch for Melissa to realize that she had made the biggest mistake telling you that she didnât care what you watched tonight, that you had full reign of choosing. The Conjuring pops up on the screen, the ominous tree makes her groan. Dropping her chin to her shoulder, she stares at you. The pursing of your lips and strict avoidance of her eyes makes the stare turn to a glare.
âYouâre fucking kidding,â she says with a facetious anger, âyouâre fucking with me.â
Turning slowly, you put on a failing face of innocence, âI have no idea what youâre talking about.â
âBullshit,â Melissa laughs through her words, âyouâre trying to get me to walk outta here.â
âNo! You said I could pick whatever I want,â you gesture towards the TV.
Melissa heads tilts down, but her eyes stay on you, lips turning up, âyou tryna get me all scared like a cliche little movie date? Real sly.â
âSo what if I am?â Your expression is playful, but thereâs something in your voice that makes Melissa feel warm.
A deep breath leaves her lungs, âif this jump scares me, Iâm hitting you with a pillow.â
âThankfully, I have several,â you mumble, a sated smile on your lips as you press play.Â
Two glasses of wine later, you find yourself relaxed into the arm of the couch, while Melissa sits curled into a ball, fully leaned into the back of the couch. For someone so confident and brave, it has always humored you that she was so easily scared of horror films. She nearly suffocated you when she came over one night all those years ago, Candyman left you with the redhead clinging to you like a baby koala.
A pitchy squeak pulls you from the reminiscing you canât seem to escape, eyes scanning the screen, seeing the exorcism scene, before looking towards Melissa. With her hands over your eyes, you can see her mouth moving, quiet mutters of God dammit and mother fucker leaving glossy lips. Itâs impossible to suppress the little chuckle that bubbles in your throat, and squinted green eyes stare you down.
âShut up,â Melissa mumbles, looking at you rather than back at the movie.
âI didnât say anything,â you canât even say it with a straight face, âyouâre the one that said I could pick the movie.â
Melissa throws the pillow in her lap at you with a weak arm, âyou know I donât like this scary shit. Iâll never get to sleep tonight.â
âIâll put Fox and the Hound on after,â you offer. Olive eyes give you an unimpressed look, but the corners of her lips turn up before she gives a little nod in silent thanks.
Her eyes donât leave you as your attention falls back on the screen, watching as you become fully engrossed in the happenings she refuses to acknowledge. Melissaâs mind churns over your earlier statement, how you mightâve just chosen this for her to get closer to you, and she wishes she could say your not-so-subtle plan wasnât working. Yet, here she is, thinking that if you were holding her, this would feel like a Pixar film.
Slowly, as if you were the spooked one, she slowly shifts closer. After scanning for discomfort that she doesnât find, Melissa leans closer, praying youâll catch on.
âGet over here,â you mumble through a huffed laugh, shifting to rest your back against the arm, putting a leg down on the floor to open up space. Not wasting a second, Melissa lays down on top of you, tucking into you enough that only one eye is able to see the TV, but only if she strains to look up.
It takes zero time for your fingers to find the ends of her hair, the feeling only making Melissa settle in further. Your free hand gets a hold of the remote, turning off the movie before itâs even ended. While youâre looking for the cartoon, Melissa fishes her phone from her back pocket, not bothering to move as she checks her messages.
Jacob: sooo am i leaving the porchlight on or are u coming back in the morning
Put the light on, please.
Jacob: am i allowed to ask questions????
The redhead feels your laugh more than she hears it, peeking up she sees your smirking face. You tuck a piece of hair behind her ear, âyouâre right, heâs nosy.â
âTold you. If we were at my place right now, weâd be getting interviewed until next week,â Melissa grumbles. Your only answer is a hum, attention moving to the annoying task of typing out the name of the movie.
You just did.
Your chest rumbles with silent laughter at her response, only holding her tighter when her phone drops on the table and her nose bumps against your neck. The meandering fingers that twirl loose curls around them are a constant distraction for Melissa, the voices of Copper and Tod not even reaching her ears as she settles into a comfort sheâs been longing for for years. Nothing will ever quite match the feeling of your lips pressing to her temple.
ââœâ
Melissa Schemmenti is picky. Name a topic, sheâs got a steadfast opinion on it. The Seahawks? Wanna-be Eagles. Mashed potatoes? Better when a little lumpy. Sleeping? Her bed is the only place she can feel rested. Sheâd grown all too used to sleeping in her own bed alone, it feels foreign to wake up with someone beside her.Well, her opinion may have changed on that last one.
Curled under a thin blanket, Melissa wakes slowly as the little rays of sun work their way under the curtains. Attempting to stretch her legs, she tries to turn on her back, but is met with resistance. Her movement makes the arm around her tighten, a head nudging into her shoulder blades. Her fingers run up and down the expanse of your arm, quietly asking for you to loosen up. With newfound freedom, she turns to face you, meeting half open eyes and a dopey grin. Tucking yourself into her, you press a lingering kiss to the junction of her neck, mumbling into warm skin.
âWhat was that, baby?â Melissa rasps out.
âPhone went off,â you grumble a little louder, shuffling closer to her.
Blindly, the redhead reaches around for her phone. Huffing, she forces her eyes open enough to catch face unlock, but they immediately bulge out of her head.
Jacob: hey u coming home tonight?
Jacob: mel mel?
Jacob: barbs said u were fine but can u just answer
Jacob: melissa?
Melissa flies up, your arm dropping limply beside her. A high pitched whine climbs out of your throat as you sit up, leaning against her side with your head on her shoulder. Glancing at her screen, your eyes go as wide as hers.
âIf you need to call him, go for it,â you say quietly.
She sighs, âI donât like lying to him. Iâm justâŠâ
âI know,â you reach to hold her hand, âjust do whatever feels right for now. Weâll figure everything out later.â
Melissa only gives a nod in response, clearly still in her head. Giving her space, you press a kiss to her shoulder before climbing out of bed. Green eyes follow as you walk out of the room, nearly stumbling into the door as you go. She gives herself another moment to watch you by the coffeemaker before glancing back down at her phone.
Once youâve taste tested the coffee you made for Melissa, you carefully walk back into your room, trying to not spill a single drop. Glancing up from the mugs, you see that Melissaâs eyes are scrunched, clearly hating the conversation that was happening, but accepting the consequences. Opening one eye and seeing you, she presses a finger to her lips as she puts the call on speaker.
â-ad me worried! You couldâve been dead in a ditch, or worse! Iâm happy that youâre happy and having a good time, but you need to be safe! Wait- that sounded weird, I meant physically safe. But that kinda safe too!â Her roommateâs, well warranted, rant continues, leaving you both struggling to breathe from the laughter you try to hide.
Melissa takes a deep breath to compose herself, âJacob, again, Iâm sorry. Wasnât looking at my phone, but Iâll be better about it.â
âCross your heart!â The sixth grade teacher was clearly not playing games.
Despite him not being able to see her, Melissa actually draws an X on her chest, âcross my heart.â
Laughing inwardly, you leave Melissa to speak with Jacob as you pad around the room, grabbing your clothes for the day. You feel eyes on you as you move, chest warming under her affection. Peeking over your shoulder as you go down the hall to the bathroom, you send her a wink that makes her grin.
When she finally hangs up with Jacob, Melissa flops back onto the bed, mulling things over in her mind. Telling her friends about you couldnât be so bad, could it? Starting slow could help, but that means starting at home, and Jacobâs mouth is far too big to keep anything to himself. Telling Barbara will be easy, she already knows about you, just not current events.
She knows that Barbara will love you, that you will love Barbara. Deep down she knows the two of you would be two peas in a pod, and the thought of that alone makes Melissa want to throw caution to the wind. As much as she hates to admit it, acceptance of you from Jacob is something that weighs on her. Heâll probably be obsessed with you, and you donât even have to say how much you want to meet him, she already knows. It could be so easy.
The spiral in her mind comes to a halt when she hears the bathroom door open. Suddenly feeling full of energy, a giddiness in her bones, she jumps out of bed to find you. Finding you in front of the microwave, reheating your coffee, she wraps her arms around your waist. The light squeeze you receive makes you smile, turning in her grasp to face her, arms encircling her neck.
âHey, you,â you say, fingers twirling her hair.
âHey, yourself,â she doesnât even try to hide the lovesick look on her face, âIâve got a proposition for ya.â
You snort, âyouâre propositioning me?â
âDonât even,â a hand playfully pinches your side, âitâs a serious question.â The little grin on your face drops, and Melissa can feel your hands freeze where they play with her curls. âNot super serious⊠just wondering if youâd wanna meet them? Barb, Jacob, maybe the others?
âYou want that?â She nods immediately. âAre you sure?â She nods again. âThen, okay.â
âOkay?â
âOkay.â
ââœâ
How on Earth was she ever nervous about this? Seriously, how?
Janine had invited most of Abbott to her shoebox of an apartment for an end of year party, cleverly inviting Melissa and Barbara over early to get them in a cleaning mood. Everyone else wasnât supposed to arrive for another half hour, you included. Melissa asked you to come later, hoping that there was less of a chance youâd be grilled if you arrived when the party was more full.
Forty sardines with masterâs degrees fill the apartment, and Melissa is still finding little things around the place that need to be dusted and wiped down, but her momentum entirely ends when her phone buzzes in her pocket. Nearly dropping the vase in her hands, she fishes her phone out.
Peluche: i think iâm here
Peluche: the bouncer?? wonât let me in
An amused sigh passes her lips as she swerves through the sea of bodies to get to the front door, seeing Mr. Johnson with his arm barring the door.
âMr. J, let them in,â Melissa laughs out, patting the manâs shoulder. He turns to look at her with scrutinizing eyes, but lowers his arm to allow space for you.
An arm wraps itself around your waist, immediately pulling you into her space, filling your senses with honey and the distinct smell of foundation on her skin. Guiding you carefully, trying to keep anyone from getting too close to you, she brings you over to where Barbara is fussing over a bookshelf. With a tap on the shoulder, the kindergarten teacher turns to Melissa before brown eyes land on you. You donât think youâve ever seen someone so excited to see you in your entire life, and you donât even know this woman.
âBy the good lordâs graces,â she gasps at her own outburst, thrusting out her hand for you. âIâm sorry dear, it is lovely to meet you. Iâm Barbara.â
Shaking her hand, you reply, âlovely to meet you, too. Iâm-â
âOh, I know exac-â
âBarb!â Melissa cuts in, pinching the bridge of her nose. Your hand rubs her arm, trying to keep her from blowing a gasket, even if youâre fighting giggles next to her. Her attention falls back on you, all annoyance fading, âyou want a drink?â
You nod, feeling her already beginning to tug you away. Rushing your words, you speak to Barbara, âit was nice meeting you!â
âYou too, sweetheart. Iâll see you at brunch next week, Iâm sure,â Barbara chuckles warmly. Accepting that this was the closest thing sheâll get to an introduction with Melissa.
Staying behind you with hands on your hips to guide you, Melissa leads you towards the kitchen. Everything feels like itâs underwater, with her hands on you, protective and, dare you say, possessive. For someone who had been nervous for days about you meeting everyone, she sure had no care in the world now. Quietly, next to your ear, you hear her counting down from five. Just as she hits one, a squeal pierces your eardrums.
âOh my gosh. Oh. My. Gosh!â The voice is immediately recognizable to the one that had been lecturing the redhead over the phone in your bedroom only a few weeks ago. âHi, hi, Iâm Jacob, I work with Melissa at Abbott.â
âAlso lecture her, from what I heard,â you joke, making Jacob pause.
Without a chance to blink, Jacob jumps up and down, âso youâre where sheâs been lately!â Both you and Melissa wince and the sheer volume of it, but recover quickly when he calms, suddenly quiet and scanning you over, âyou better be careful, not for her sake, but yours.â
Thereâs no malice in his words, itâs a pure warning. From the look on his face, itâs entirely about what heâll do if she gets hurt, not what Melissa would do to you. From behind you, the redheadâs brows scrunch, mostly out of confusion, ready to tell Jacob off for talking to you like that. She feels guilty, sheâs the one who messed everything up before, she deserves the questioning of her worthiness.
You take Jacobâs words in stride, âIâm counting on you to set me straight then, if I ever dare to step out of line.â
Jacobâs entire demeanor goes back to normal at your words, looking at Melissa excitedly, âI like them.â
âYeah, me too. You ainât special,â she chuckles, hand on your hip tightening, pulling you imperceptibly closer.
Within an hour, most of the partygoers are on the dancefloor, the two of you included. Cups with rum and whatever chaser Janine had left were teetering on spilling, holding your weight against her is all that keeps you from teetering as well. Sea Barbara stays happily to herself with her cardboard cutout dance partner, content to slow dance to the fast paced music. Singing and cheering around you feels far away as your drunken attention refuses to stray from Melissa, her attention staying on you.
Itâs increasingly more difficult to not kiss you when youâre this close, but with warm bodies against her at every side, itâs less than ideal. If it were, it would just be the two of you. Sheâs so close to just asking if you want to get out of here, but sheâs interrupted just as she ducks to speak in your ear.
âMelissa! Barbara! Youâre supposed to be cleaning!â Janine yells, hands on her hips. You can feel Melissa groan more than you can hear it, loud music almost deafening you in the small apartment. Barbara tries to shoo the shorter woman away, but her drunk state doesnât hold the same level of authority that it typically does.
âJanine, itâs a party. Weâre partying,â Melissa says dismissively. Not once does her hand leave your waist, keeping you from being jostled by other people.
Her speaking up has Janineâs attention back on her, who quickly recognizes your presence. Brown eyes go from your face, to the hands on you, and back to Melissaâs face. Realization and excitement washes over her face, and the chattering that comes from her is hardly heard or understood from the bass boosts and liquor. Flapping hands keep moving as you try your best to gather her words, but sheâs running off excitedly before you can even introduce yourself. You watch Janine bounce towards a lanky man, pointing in your direction, clearly telling him that Melissa brought someone.
Chuckling to yourself, you look back to Melissa, whose eyes are already one you. The universe seems to be both with and against her, because just as she tries to speak, the lights go out and the music stops. Warm hands pull you closer in surprise, and you canât even be upset about your almost empty cup dropping to the floor. Murmurs around you get louder as everyone sits in equal confusion, but Melissa feels her opportunity.
Feeling lips brush your ear, heat rises to your cheeks, âwanna get out of here?â
âGod, yes,â you say, shifting your hand from her arm to her hand, interlocking your fingers. Pulling you with her, she quickly gets to Barbara to let her know youâre both leaving, sneakily passing your phone to text Gerald while she gets her friend some water.
By the end of the night, neither of you could even find the energy to change out of your clothes after walking home. Melissaâs apartment being closer was a blessing, you didnât even register that this was the first time youâve been there. Neither did Melissa.
Brushing her teeth next to you in the mirror, pulling back sheets on the other side of the bed, becoming your personal pillow the moment you lay on the mattress. It just felt right.
ââœâ
Bobbing your head along to Deftones, you mentally map out the drawing youâre supposed to be starting. The measurements they gave you make no sense, especially with the materials they requested. Itâs like theyâre asking for the building to concave on itself, not to house people. Youâd pressed about giving them a consultation, see the inner workings of the old medical office yourself, but they rejected it âfor time,â which really means money. Little do they know theyâre going to end up costing themselves more.
The song switches from Shove It to Mascara as knocking raps against your door, but they go completely unnoticed to you. So does the voice trying to get your attention without having to tap your shoulder, knowing it sends ten feet in the air in surprise.
âBoss⊠Boss⊠Boss!â Terrence gets no response for the third time before looking to the woman on his left, âyouâll have to go get âem, I guess. Lunatic keeps the volume to ear bleeding levels so they donât have to listen to us, I swear.â
Melissa chuckles, âwell, thank you anyways, hon. I got it from here.â Moving into the room, she shuts the door behind her, leaning against it to watch you for just a moment.
What she first notices is your button up, or lack thereof, disregarded on a chair on the other side of the room. Selfishly, she lets herself look you up and down, savoring bare arms and the hard look on your face. Melissa finds herself frozen, mind racing with images of you, subconsciously biting her lip as her eyes rake over you. Only pulled out of her mind by a groan that leaves your lips, she wills herself to get closer to you.
With your back still to her, youâre unable to see her slow movements as she tries to sneak up on you. Hands trail up your sides, clutching slightly when she feels you jump at the sudden touch. Turning in her arms, your bewildered expression dies when you meet green eyes, crinkled around the edges in amusement. Catching your breath, you wrap your arms around her neck.
âYou scared the shit out of me,â you say softly, âbut this is a pleasant surprise.â
âMissed you. Iâve barely seen you all week,â her arms tighten around your waist.
You press your lips together, trying to hide the giddy feeling in your chest thatâs spreading, âIâm sorry, theyâve got me practically chained to the desk until this draft is drawn up. Fuckers think itâs easy turning procedure suites into apartments, itâs not.â
âNot your fault, sweetheart,â her lips press to your cheek as she tugs you in, missing holding you, being held by you. âI have dinner with my family tomorrow night, though, so I wonât be around. Just wanted to get my time in with you before I go into withdrawals.â
You laugh at her words, âWithdrawal? Little melodramatic, donât you think?â
âMe? Never,â she tries to keep a serious face, but her smile overtakes as she watches you roll your eyes lightheartedly.
A finger twirls a copper strand around, voice weary, âtell everyone I said hi?â
âWellâŠâ Melissaâs face drops a little, knowing she hasnât told her family that youâre back in her life. Her eyes scan your face, seeing the smallest hint of sadness, and hurries to correct it. âYou can tell them yourself, if you want.â
The twirling stops, âyou mean that? Because you canât offer that if you donât mean it.â
âI mean it, I promise,â her hands sit more firmly on you now, âthey miss you, they just never mention it. But they do. Especially John Anthony. And Kristin Marie, but sheâll never admit that, even to herself.â
The only answer she received is a strong kiss pressing to her lip, her eyes immediately fluttering shut at the contact. The hand in her hair tightens as your entire body pushes into her, groaning at the feeling of her on you mixing with the emotions of it all. How easily she asked you to come with her, to see her family, to be by her side for real this time. It feels too early to say what you want to at this moment, so you just kiss her harder.
Melissa spent half the day and the entire drive to the house telling you that no, her parents donât hate you, and that yes, they will be incredibly excited to see you again. She kept the knowledge of your attendance secret, not wanting to be slammed with questions, but mostly because she wanted to see the look on her motherâs face when she saw her favorite not-her-child from all those years ago.
âAre you sure you want me to go? I donât want to if you only offered because you felt like you had to. If Iâm impos-â
âYouâre not imposing,â she almost whispers as she cradles your face, âI want you there. It hasnât felt the same since you stopped coming.â
Pressing kissing to your knuckles every now and then, Melissa manages to take some of the anxiety off your shoulders. Turning onto the familiar street, you immediately sit up straighter in your seat, checking your outfit and fiddling with everything, desperate to pick off lint that isnât even there. Melissa lets it go, knowing thereâs no stopping this. Part of her feels guilty, knowing sheâs the reason that you felt they could hate you, that they wouldnât be happy to see you. All she ever told them was you had a mutual falling out, never that it was her fault, especially not that it was yours.
Pulling up in front of the house, Melissaâs fingers tighten around yours. Looking up at her, you see the silent question in her eyes, giving her a nod that tells her youâre fine. To prove yourself, you hop out of the car to jog to her side, opening the door for her with a grin. Shaking her head with a half-hidden smile on her lips, she takes your offered hand and pulls you into her, walking with you to the door.
No knocking required, Melissa steps in first, only letting go of your hand for a brief moment to shrug off your jackets before her hand is back in yours. Chattering in the kitchen leads you to where everyone stands or sits, sipping on beers and white wine. Clearing her throat, Melissa gets the attention of the room. Silence fills the previously loud air.
âYooooo!â You hear someone yell, a voice that you recognize all too well. Without a momentâs notice, youâre immediately tackled, hand being ripped from Melissaâs. You hug the person back, still trying to figure out exactly who it is, but the exaggerated leaning side-to-side gives you everything. Little John Anthony isnât so little anymore, not that he ever really was.
Feeling another body against you, one arm reaches behind to give some level of contact as acknowledgement. Slowly people let go of you while others come in, and all you can feel is glad that everything is so busy, no one will see the happy tears forming in your eyes. Annetteâs noodle arms let go of you, moving as she feels a tap on her back. When she moves, Melissaâs mother stands before you.
âFinally,â she says, cradling your face in her soft hands, âI knew youâd be back.â Patting your cheek, she finally moves out of the way for others to get a hold of you. Melissa can barely see you most of the night, but the warmth in her chest grows every time she sees you talking with someone new, hugging someone else as you talk. Kristin Marie hides her excitement well, but not well enough, though you let her get away with hugging you tightly without saying anything about it.
By dinner time, everyoneâs been reacquainted with your presence, and Melissa can finally get her hands on you again. Scooching her chair closer, she mumbles in your ear while the conversation carries around the table.
âTold you, nothing to worry about,â her hand squeezes your thigh reassuringly.
âI missed them,â you say, running your fingers up and down her arm, âI missed this.â
Family dinner ends the way it always does, with everyone talking in the living room, sipping coffee or the remainder of their drinks. You take your place next to Melissa on the couch, leaning your head on her shoulder as she talks to Toni about something you canât remember. You havenât felt this at peace in so long, you missed your family. Annette and Vinny fighting, music playing from the TV, chattering around you in a mix of Italian and English, itâs comforting.
Looking up from your perch on her shoulder, you keep your eyes on Melissa. Watching her hands move as she speaks, how happy she looks, how beautiful she is. Turning slightly to put her glass on the table, she catches your gaze, the corners of her lips going up as she catches the lovesick look on your face. Fully knowing sheâs being watched, fully feeling the warmth in her cheeks, she leans in to press a soft kiss to your lips. Careful to not linger long, she pulls away and goes back to her conversation with her sister.
No more hiding.
ââœâ
âAm I buying groceries for two people or three this week?â You ask as you walk into the kitchen, fidgeting with the pen in your hand,
âMmm⊠Jacob mentioned maybe stopping by tomorrow night, so probably three,â Melissa answers, looking through the pantry, âand we need potatoes, I forgot to write that down.â
âRed ones?â You joke, coming up behind her to press your lips to the junction of her neck. Leaning her head back onto your shoulder, she lets you continue your path up her neck to her jaw, nipping at her ear. âI gotta get going before they close,â Melissa whines at the loss of contact, âIâll be quick, might not even pay.â
She chuckles warmly, scrunching her nose, âright, sure you wonât, goodie-two-shoes.â
Pulling away, you jot down russets and give her another kiss, this one to her lips. âI love you,â you mumble as you part, âsee you in a bit.â
The moment the front door shuts, the once cozy and nonchalant Melissa is replaced by a frenzied and excited one. Flying around the house, she begins to put her plan in place. Tealights are placed everywhere, the lighter checked for fuel, the small box from under her socks now buried in her pocket, she just had to open the bottle of Angelâs Envy. It took an embarrassing number of different liquor stores to find, but that was months ago, and this is now.
Melissa lights the last candle just as she hears your car door slam shut, then the trunk. Staying out of direct view, she watches you come in the door, looking at your feet as you walk. Youâre in your own little world, completely walking through to the kitchen, dropping the bags off. Making your way into the living room, you almost drop the bouquet in your hands.
Candles all around the room, music playing softly from the record player, Melissa wearing your sweater. Your jaw drops, eyes wide as you stare at the redhead, utterly bewildered. She takes the chance to step a little closer, watery smile stretching across her face as you shakily hold out red chrysanthemums. Taking them carefully, she sets them on the table, grabbing your hand to pull you with her. Soft eyes watch her every movement, letting her move you around until youâre where she wants you.
âI love you,â Melissa says quietly, shifting from the couch to the floor, âIâve loved you since the day I met you, and I havenât stopped once. Even when I didnât know, I loved you. When I wouldnât listen to my own brain, I loved you. When I thought I couldnât, I loved you.â
âMelâŠâ Your voice comes out cracked, a wobbly lip stuck between smiling and sobbing.
âLet me finish, baby,â she says softly, stroking the hand she holds in her own, âyou are everything to me, and it took me too long to figure that out. But now, Iâm not taking a single thing for granted, not you, never you.â Melissa reaches into her back pocket, pulling out a small, emerald box, âI wish I couldâve had you my whole life, but all I can ask you for is the rest of it.â
Tears spill down your cheeks at her words, fingers clinging to her hand like a life source. You so badly want to reach out, cup her face, and kiss her, her words playing the strings of your heart, but you refrain. Too much restraint goes into not pouncing on her the second she pulled out the ring box, your lips practically begging to be on hers already. You canât help the frown on your face when Melissaâs hand leaves you, properly holding the ring to present it to you.
âWill you marry me?â The smile on her lips only grows as she asks, knowing what youâll say just based on the look you give her.
What she doesnât account for was that all your restraint would break, and sheâs knocked to the floor as you pepper her face with kisses, lips smacking against her skin. Moving from her forehead, to her cheeks, and finally, to her lips. All love, all want, all devotion, all you.
âYes, yes,â you answer quickly, lips barely parting from hers, âGod, I love you. I love you so much.â
Chuckling at your overexcited babbling, she manages to sit you both up, keeping you in her lap. A warm hand pulls your left hand from her face, sliding the ring on without taking her eyes off of you. Your hand immediately goes back to her face, pulling her into your kiss once more.
Morning back pain be damned, neither of you leave the floor of the living room the rest of the night. Waking up with your heart beating under her ear is all the consolation she needs, your newly ringed hand in hers.
At the next family dinner, all the cousins take one peek at your hand, eyes widening. Melissa and you both brace for shouting and to be lifted in the air by one of her brothers, but you were wrong. Maria Christina groans as she passes a twenty over to Seamus, who was getting handed money by at least four other people. He peeks up to see a very shocked you and Melissa.
âWhat? We all saw it coming, I just picked the right week. Ma said tomorrow.â
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Rite of Passage
summary: steve takes care of you after a date gone horribly wrong (roommate!steve harrington x fem!reader)
wc: 2.0k
cw: results of the date which is not described, but understood to be sexual assault, Please use your discretion (marked in the tags so it can be filtered), steve stays platonic, he is the comfort in the hurt/comfort, reader takes a bath, semi-graphic description of injuries, angst but fluff in how steve cares so much for reader. PLEASE let me know if I'm missing anything
a/n: this is not for the faint of heart. it has been in the vault since 2022 just as a kind of a coping thing. it's one of the stories i revisit and literally just cry rereading, but maybe it can be helpful to others. this is just one way one can react to this sort of incident. everyone's own reactions are valid, and i love you.
It could happen to anyone. Almost every girl experiences it, some sick rite of passage to prove that you are a woman. To remind you that you are still inferior, second class, an object to be used. Then these women share their stories so nonchalantly, in passing, and in response to their friendsâ stories. Some donât share at all. Some bottle it up and smile through the pain anyway, now nothing behind her once vibrant eyes.
But you never really thought it would happen to you. Not that you were invincible or immune or reckless; itâs just not something that anyone can fully comprehend. Youâd been told to smile more. Youâd been objectified or ignored. You thought that put you on the list already.
You thought he was a sweet guy. You wished you listened to Steve. You had laughed at his suggestion to âat least bring him back to the apartment.â You were so embarrassed at the thought of making out with some guy while Steve hid in the other room. And you didnât want your date to know that you lived with another guy. But all that seemed so insignificant now.
You had to walk home. Your teeth chattered in the drizzling rain, your gait slightly wider than usual. You crossed your arms and bit down on your lip hard, a desperate attempt at a distraction. Not a single car passed you on your trek home. The darkness consumed you. The silence betrayed you. With your phone now dead, making it to your apartment was the only hope filling your heart. You prayed that Steve hadnât waited up for you. You just wanted to be alone.
You fiddled with your keys as you approached the locked door. You didnât realize how much your hands were shaking. You struggled for a few more moments, begging for the strength to get inside without crying, when the door opened for you.
âY/N! Iâve been calling you for like an hour! Where have you been?â Steve guided you inside. He attempted to take your jacket from you, but you jerked his hand off of you.
âDonât! Donât touch me.â Your voice quivered at the end of your sentence.
Steve lifted his hands and closed the door behind the both of you. âSorry, I didnât â I â youâre soaked, hon. Didâdid you walk here?â
You nodded. You felt overwhelmed, anger rising to cover your tracks. âCan you just fucking cool it with the questions? My phone died. I walked here. Iâm wet 'cause itâs raining. Justâjust leave me alone.â
You shoved him out of your way with your shoulder and stormed to your room. You had never acted this way toward him, toward anyone. People knew you to be kind, gentle, and sometimes blunt, but never rude or aggressive. But you felt that part breaking right in front of your eyes. You were confused. You couldnât comprehend what was happening, that this was happening.
You plugged in your phone. You paced around your room for your phone to light up again. When your phone turned back on, you checked for his number. He had already blocked you.
Your lungs boiled. Your body vibrated with rage. The impulse to scream grew stronger and stronger by the second. So, you did. A guttural, soul-clutching scream escaped your throat. Tears stained your cheeks. You felt your destruction in your hands, transferring the havoc condemned to you to your room. You threw your books, kicked your chair, and flipped your mattress, bawling and yelling through it all. You punched your pillow over and over until hands gathered you in their arms. You fought the arms, but the hold was tight.
âHey, itâs me. Itâs Steve. Relax. Iâve got you. Youâre ok. Youâre safe. Youâre safe. Iâve got you.â
You sank into his touch and wept. Destruction left your body and devolved into devastation. Your body suddenly so heavy, you slumped to your knees, Steve following right behind you and still holding you close.
You couldnât be sure how long you stayed on the floor of your bedroom. But Steve held you with the same force he did from the very start. He wasnât going anywhere. You cried until you lost your energy, tears still streaking your face. You couldnât even hold yourself up anymore. You were glad that you had Steve to lean on.
âHow can I help?â Steve asked. You didnât respond. You couldnât process such an open-ended question. It seemed that Steve understood that. âWater is supposed to help relax people. What if I fill up the tub for you? You can rest in there, and Iâll grab some clothes for you. How does that sound?â
You nodded, not yet able to find your voice. Steve gently lifted you up, and the two of you walked to the bathroom.
You sat on the closed toilet as Steve crouched by the tub, testing the water with his hand. When the tub filled, he stood up and headed toward the door. âIâll leave your clothes by the door, ok?â
He opened the door, and your stomach flipped. âSteve?â
âYeah?â
âPlease, I donâCan you stay?â
Steveâs cheeks turned a light shade of pink. He closed the door behind him and nodded. âUh, yeah, ok.â
The two of you sat in silence. You didnât ask for him not to look. You didnât start to change. You didnât move, a haze falling over you. The weight of horror and defeat pulled you down.
âY/N?â
Your eyes snapped up to Steveâs. âSorry. Iâm just tired.â
âDo youâwould you like some help?â Steveâs voice shook as if you were made of glass and one misstep would shatter you.
All you could do was nod. You shuffled out of your jacket as Steve untied your shoes and removed your socks, still damp from the rain. He rose to his knees to meet you at eye level. He patted your arm, and you lifted them halfway into the air, as much as you could muster. Steve carefully pulled your shirt over your head, officially crossing a line the two of you never even toed.
And what Steve saw broke his heart. Blue and green bruises in the shape of fingertips wrapped around your neck. More, less cohesive shapes scattered across your chest down to the top of your hip bones where the waistband of your pants sat.
âOh my god,â he whispered. He sat in observation, conflict brewing within him. The more he looked, the angrier he got. His shame screamed for him to look away, to salvage the friendship you both have and remain a âgentlemanâ. But the true friend in him wanted to document every bruise on your body, to share the knowledge in your pain, and to lighten the load in any way possible. This part fueled him to continue.
âStand up for me, please.â
You paused. Your heart began to pound, and you found it harder and harder to breathe. You started to feel dizzy.
Steve took your face in his hands and had you look at him. âBreathe. Youâre ok. Breathe with me. InâŠand out.â You matched the rhythm that Steve set and took deep breaths. You collected yourself under Steveâs gaze, but you were still a little overwhelmed.
âIâm here for you, ok? Whatever you need just say it. Need me to turn around, I will. Need me to leave? I can. But I think you need to get cleaned up, ok? You think you can do that? What do you need from me?â
You thought for a moment. Your brain felt jumbled, like crossed wires scrambling messages. Steve sat at your knees patiently while you considered what you wanted.
âLetâsâletâs just get it over with,â you sighed, a dry laugh forced from your diaphragm.
You stood up with what strength you had left, resolving to lean your body weight on Steveâs shoulders as he kneeled beneath you.
He wasted no time in unbuttoning your pants, desperate to not make a scene of it. He glided your pants to your ankles, and you stepped out of them while using Steve to balance. He stood up and guided you into the water. As you stepped in, the dried blood between your thighs sucked the air out of Steveâs lungs. Now he felt dizzy. Now he felt rage. He could only have guessed, but now he was certain. His eyes stung as he blinked back tears.
âIâIâll be right back,â he said, turning away from you.
âWhere are you going?â
âIâm gonna grab those clothes for you. Iâll be right back. I promise.â He tore out of the bathroom, his tears now falling freely. He was gonna kill him. He was gonna kill that man if it was the last thing he did. He paced the halls debating on grabbing his bat. His blood boiled. Steve didnât know what to do. He stormed into your room but was quickly reminded of the destruction that already took place. His temper cooled back down. You were his priority. You needed his attention. You needed him. He took a deep breath and collected all of your favorite cozy clothes.
He wiped his tears before knocking. A weak âcome inâ responded. Steve opened the door. You had already begun draining the tub as you reached for your towel from your seated position. Steve grabbed the towel and pulled you up to your feet. He wrapped you up and did what he could to dry you. Then he helped you into your sweats and socks before guiding you to his room.
âWhat are we doing?â you asked.
âWell, your bed is kind of indisposed at the moment,â Steve chuckled. âSo, you can sleep here for now, ok? Iâll be on the couch if you need me.â The truth was he planned on cleaning your room and putting it back together. He knew it was late, but a fresh start in the morning was sure to allow things to move forward a little easier, right?
âYou donât have to. I can sleep on the couch; itâs fine.â
âPlease, I insist.â
âItâs your bed.â
âWell, then, at least stay with me. I want you comfortable. I want you to get some sleep tonight.â
âAre you sure?â
âOnly if you are.â
âI think Iâd like that, actually.â You tried to smile, but you were much too tired.
âCome on, then.â Steve smiled. He held your hand as he led you to his bed. He pulled the covers back, and you slipped in, Steve following close behind.
The room was dark and silent, two things that again began to trouble you. You stared up at the ceiling, trying to keep your composure. Steve, too, stared up at his ceiling fan, all too conscious of the space between the two of you, hoping you were comfortable, or at least relaxed enough to fall asleep.
âYou were right,â you whispered, your lip beginning to quiver.
Steveâs ears perked up. âHuh? What do you mean?â He turned his body to face you, his arm propping up his head.
âYou knew he was bad news. I should have listened.â
âNo, no. No. You couldnât have known. I didnât know. You did nothing wrong. Okay? Look at me. You did nothing wrong.â
You nodded in the dark, the silence continuing to settle around you. You wanted to believe him; you really did. But fragments of memories struck your nerves, all too vivid and all so wrong to be truly convinced.
âWhy did this happen to me, Steve?â Your voice broke. Steve pulled you into his chest as you cried for the second time this evening. He stroked your hair as he held you close, failing to keep his own tears at bay.
âIâve got you, sweet girl. Iâve got you. Iâm gonna keep you safe from now on, you got that? You can count on me.â
âThank you,â you whispered.
The room eventually grew quiet and still, the only sounds the heavy breaths leaving both of you. Steve kept his promise, holding you in his arms and keeping you safe the entire night.
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"i'll be there for you" universe masterlist
pairing: bestfriend!roommate!steve harrington x fem!reader
word count: 1.2k words
warnings: explicit language
summary: in which you join steve during his family video shift and help him study for a test
author's note:Â nothing much to say about this one. short and sweet<33
general note: everything in this universe/series can be read as standalone oneshots but to understand the full âloreâ it would prob be best to read the other stuff too<333
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Winter 1986
âCan I have some help?â
You looked up from your notebook to see a guy standing a few feet in front of you with a small frown on his face. Your head shake in response to his question was immediate. âOh, no, I donât work here.â
His frown seemed to only deepen. âBut, youâre sitting behind the counter.â
âYeah, that probably makes things confusing, but I donât work here,â You responded with a small laugh. You took a brief look at Steve, who was stocking tapes in one of the aisles. âIâm just here to help a friend and make sure he doesnât fail out of his first ever college classes. Big English test tomorrow. The first one of the semester, actually.â
The guy rolled his eyes at your unnecessarily long explanation and then walked off, and your attention turned back to your notebook and you continued writing notes, or more so rewriting notes, for Steve.Â
When he finished stocking shelves, he walked over to you, leaning on the counter and looking down at what you were doing. You ripped out the pages you had been working on for the past hour and slid them over to him. âOkay, I have compiled all of the shit that youâll need to know for the test tomorrow on these two pages, front and back. Enjoy.âÂ
Steve gave you a small smile. âYou didnât have to do that.âÂ
âI know, but it was actually pretty easy since youâre taking the class with the same Professor I had last semester; I mainly just redid the notes that I had for that first test. And it only took me like an hour.â
âThanks, but shouldnât you be worrying more about your test tomorrow?â
You shrugged. âI just have to give a presentation on the rise of radio for my communications class, and Iâve been preparing for the last couple days. Iâll be fine.â
Steve nodded at that and started looking at the notes you gave to him. You moved from behind the counter and went over to the comedy section and started to look through the shelves.
âOh, also, can I get a vest and a nametag? Everyone already thinks I work here, anyway.âÂ
âNo,â Steve responded almost immediately, which made you laugh. After a second, he walked over to you, papers still in hand. âSurprisingly, I actually remember most of this stuff.âÂ
You smiled at that. âGlad to know youâve been paying attention in class.â You then showed him the movie you had just pulled off of the shelf. âThoughts on this for tonight?â
Steve looked at the title for a second before answering. âThe person that returned it yesterday said it was shit.â
âOkay, so thatâs a no,â You said as you put the tape back in its spot. âAnyway, though, it's good that you remember a lot of stuff already, so when I quiz you on everything later, itâll be fast.â
He shook his head. âYouâre being way too nice to me right now.âÂ
âYou told me that you actually wanted to care about your classes and do well in them, so of course Iâm gonna help you do that.âÂ
You couldâve gone further into that conversation that you two had a few days before the beginning of the semester, but you didnât feel the need to fully repeat it aloud right then. Steve had talked to you about wanting to figure out his life, finding what he wanted to do long-term that wasnât Family Video related, and maybe going to school part-time and taking a few classes would help with that. It wasnât about his parents, it wasnât really even about you. It was about him and you admired that, and you also wanted to help him figure everything out. Maybe it could help you figure out all of your shit too.Â
âAlso, if you dropped out after this semester it would actually be devastating to know that our first time ever going to the same school only lasted four and a half months.â
Steve laughed a bit. âIâm not gonna drop out.â
âAnd Iâm completely holding you to that.âÂ
You went back to searching for a movie for later, and after what felt like forever you settled on something that sounded good enough.Â
Things became pretty quiet for the rest of the night, so you were able to quiz Steve on the notes a couple times, and then you focused on the reading you had to do for the Film and TV history class that he suggested you two take together. Your collective eleven oâclock on Tuesdays and Thursdays mainly consisted of you two playing tic-tac-toe with one another in the margins of Steveâs notebook or writing stupid notes back and forth, and still paying some attention to the lectures that were actually pretty interesting. Aside from Steve being in the class, you really enjoyed it for the most part.Â
âThis article was actually pretty good,â You said. The clock finally hit eleven and Steve went over to the front door to turn the Open sign to Closed. âI think youâll like it.âÂ
âWhatâs it about again?â
âSilent films,â You answered as you started putting all of your stuff in your bag. You then picked up the movie you grabbed earlier and went over to one of the computers, looking up the name of it and changing it from in stock to checked out. âSince I know how to do this, I think I definitely deserve a vest and nametag.âÂ
âI would say thatâs true, but you only do that for yourself, not for any customers,â He responded with a laugh.
âIn a way, I am a customer.â
âPaying customers.âÂ
âI use the âbest friend of an employeeâ discount, which is a hundred percent off,â You said, smiling at him, and then smiling even more when he rolled his eyes at you.Â
âWhat movie did you end up choosing, anyway?â
You held up the tape in your hand, Weird Science. âNow Iâm thinking that I shouldâve chosen a silent film to honor our history class.âÂ
âIâm really glad you didnât,â Steve responded before stepping out from behind the counter. You slung your bag over your shoulder and followed him to the front.Â
âOnce you read the article, youâll wish that I picked one of Buster Keatonâs greatest hits,â You said as you flicked off the lights before you two walked out the door.Â
Steve locked it and then looked at you. âI truly doubt that.âÂ
You only overdramatically sighed and shook your head at him in response as you got in his car, tossing your bag into the backseat. You fiddled with the radio for pretty much the entirety of the fifteen minute drive to the apartment, and you held back your laughter at Steveâs playful groans in frustration at your antics.Â
When you two stepped into the small space that was your shared home, you changed into your pajamas for the night before settling on the couch, and you quizzed Steve one more time for his test. And then he made you run through your presentation for your class tomorrow because he felt bad about you only helping him study.Â
The time was nearing midnight when Steve warmed up some of the leftover pizza from the night before as you started the movie. You two fell asleep barely thirty minutes in, your head on his shoulder and a blanket draped over both of your legs that were stretched out on the coffee table.
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summary: xavier is tired of you avoiding him
genre: angst
days, itâs been days since youâve last talked to xavier. itâs not that youâre in a fight, or you hate him or something. but youâve just been so caught up in this case youâre working on, that you couldnât find the time to talk to him.
the only people youâve been talking to are the dead. youâve had this ability since you were a kid, youâve made connections with them, and theyâve been helping you with this case.
your brain couldnât focus on anything other than that, you needed to find out who the monster was. you needed to find out why this monster is killing innocent people. you needed to know everything
and here you were in your room, working on the case, pictures of dead bodies, evidence and papers scattered all around the room. your friend avery, a girl who had died at birth, and also a close friend of yours, was sat there as well, helping you collect your thoughts.
a knock on the door was heard, you turned to see none other than xavier entering the room. your roommate wasnât around, and avery left when she heard the knock, so it was just you and him
âheyâ he said, looking around the room as he saw the stuff, âstill working on the case, huh?â
âuh, yeah.â you said, âavery helped as wellâ
âmhmâŠso um, do you wanna maybe pause this for a second and go on a walk with me?â
âwhat? of course not!â you said in a rather rude tone
âwhat?â he said, a little hurt by the tone
âiâm busyâ you said as you kept organizing your work
âare you serious right now?â he furrowed his eyebrows, âyouâyou havenât talked to me in almost a weekâŠcome on y/n are you seriously gonna reject me just because of some case that you have nothing to do with?â
you continued doing your work, not responding
âwow. you reallyâdo you even care?!â he snapped
âabout whatâ you said
âaboutâabout me! aboutâŠus, do you even care about that?! you really live in your own world. the cops have this handled and you just wanna include yourself for no reason. iâm trying, iâm really trying to wait for you, and be patient. but you donât seem to give two fucks if iâm even here or not! iâm not doing this anymore, iâm done.â he said, and you froze
you froze as you heard his footsteps fading, you froze as you realized a hole in your heart was forming, you froze when the case you were working on was not a care in your mind anymore, you froze when you realizedâŠhe left you. he left you and you were the reason.
xavier really was patient with you, at first, you would talk to him often, then you started talking to him at the end of the day, then youâd talk to him every other day, and thenâyou wouldnât talk to him at all.
itâs funny how you donât realize how important someone is, until theyâre gone.
for the very first time, you felt alone.
like actually alone, youâd usually have avery, or another friend with you, but most of the time, you had xavier, and now he wasnât coming back.
you felt tears brimming in the corners of your eyes, you had never cried before, let alone over a boy
but he was special.
you got up and ran after him, only he was now probably back in his room.
but nonetheless, you ran to his room, and knocked on his door repeatedly until he opened it
âjesus im comingây/n?â he said, going quiet
you went inside his room, and once he got a good look at you, he knew
âoh my god are you crying?â he said as he gently grabbed your face, wiping your tears
âiâm sorryâ you cried out, and he was quick to hug you, âiâm sorry i was just focused on the case andââ
âhey, hey itâs okay.â he said as he stroked your hair
you looked up at him, and soon your lips collided.
once you let go, you were quick to speak
âyou were right. iâm dropping the case, the cops have it handled and i shouldâve justââ
ânoâ he said
âwhat?â
âiâm not telling you to drop the case, baby. i love that youâre working on it and trying to keep everyone safe. but we work on it, together. i cant have you getting hurtâ he said as he gently rubbed your cheek with his thumb
âreally?â
âof courseâ he smiled
you might act tough on the outside, but on the inside, you truly loved him.
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Growing Pains
Lucifer x Reader
Content warning: fluff, trust building, slow burn, building communication skills, self improvement, fast proofread (please excuse the errors)
Summary: Lucifer's attempt to bond with you, a newer resident of the hotel, spectacularly backfires. Unable to avoid Lucifer, with an impending sinister catalyst, necessitate a resolution forcing you to work through your avoidance tendencies.
Author Notes: This one shot is on the longer side. Let me know if you think I should have made it 2 chapters or if it works as it is. I also wanted to apologize for the day delay! Yesterday did not go as I had planned.
Word Count: 6183
Thank you for all the love and support you choose to give!
Charlie and Vaggie were sitting and talking in the hotel lobby not too far off from you. Vaggieâs one arm, the one you could see, casually draped over the back of the couch. Her thumb stretched from its resting position, lightly caressing her partner as they talked. A minute affection Charlie didnât seem to notice in her exuberant excitement. One you couldnât help but focus on, completely ignoring the book you were looking over. You forced your attention back to the book momentarily before Charlie started laughing. The sound ripped your gaze from the pages back over to the loving couple. Charlieâs hand now on Vaggieâs arm.Â
It made the skin on your arm prickle with goosebumps.
âMy, my, my, werenât you ever taught itâs rude to stare?â The accusation startled you from your fixation and you tilted your head to see Lucifer propped from beside you. One eyebrow skyrocketed nearly to his hairline while the over exaggerated smile on his lips seemed to pull painfully tight on his lips as he attempted to playfully exclaim, âItâs almost like youâre plotting something!â
His quip stung, intentionally or not. You had noticed since arriving his method of interacting with other sinners was usually to tease them about sinner-like things; violence, cannibalism, plotting against other people, their drug use. His favorite against you was that you were plotting a scheme, usually against Charlie. Everyone had been slightly wary of you upon your arrival. Charlie had sworn up and down that it would change. That since you always seemed so aloof and standoffish it was just unnerving for some people in the hotel. Including her dad who was trying, in his own way, to connect with all the sinners when he was around. He had a couple thousand years of prejudice to work through but, he was trying!
She had taken to coaching you at every interaction you had with her. Even Vaggie had jumped on board with her encouragement. If one of them said hello and asked how your day was, a simple âfineâ wouldnât suffice. It didnât encourage bonding! No, you had to elaborate. Tell them what you did that day. Did you learn anything new? What books are you reading? Share with them things about yourself! Ask how their day was. Reference something they previously told you. Have an actual conversation.
 As well intended as they were, it was exhausting. Having gone from almost solitary living for the last century or two -between working in a job where you were almost completely unbothered while living with a single roommate whom you could go days without speaking to- this was a complete 180 and utterly tiring. You didnât uproot your life to make friends. You had come here to work on redeeming yourself. Get into heaven if it was possible. Which Charlie repeatedly told you included being friendlier, kind, thoughtful, and most importantly selfless. Even if you didnât necessarily care about everything other people had to say, it was important to still allow them space to be themselves without judgment and make sure they felt heard. That is what would help get you into heaven!
You had noticed as time wore on, begrudgingly so, the tactics she had you practicing had been working. Several of the newer residents had loosened up around you and started conversing with you on a somewhat regular basis. During some of the group exercises where Charlie would tell people to pair up, they had come up to you and suggested you work together. It was just a skill you had let wither that you needed to redevelop. A plant you needed to relocate from shade to sun.Â
Whatever analogy you needed to tell yourself you did to prevent yourself from giving up. You came here for redemption after all which meant something needed to change and maybe that was part of it. You wouldnât have been cast to hell if you had gotten things right.
So as Lucifer loitered beside you, you tried to keep in mind you needed to be better and that this was his way of connecting like Charlie had said. Regardless of how it stung hearing it time and time again. This was just practice. More draining practice. âIâm not plotting anything sir.â you said, closing the book in your hands before setting it down to make sure he knew he had your attention. Now what though?Â
You wracked your mind for what to say next. Charlie said to be honest with people. How do you explain to him why exactly you were staring? That you had started craving physical touch again since coming here. That after having gone years without brushing against anything other than the books you worked with, that having Charlie clasp your hands when she was excited or Angel throwing an completely unwarranted arm over your shoulders when he wanted to use you as a prop for his dramatics, those simple actions had suddenly rekindled your human, well sinner, desire for contact. How pathetic would that make you look? How weak? Then to have been caught fixated on them, desperate to live vicariously momentarily.
âI was justâŠâ you drawled. The idea of telling the truth set your face ablaze in embarrassment. You couldnât bring yourself to say the truth. You looked over at the couple settling on your answer. â...admiring their relationship.âÂ
He openly laughed, playing along with his original story, âMmmmhm. If you say so~~.â
A combination of frustration and disappointment washed over you. Completely incinerating any trace of the embarrassment you have felt over the real reason why you had been staring. Hearing him happily hum as he sauntered over to Charlie not believing an ounce of what you said regardless of your lack of ill will towards the princess. If he was only joking, why was it the same barb over and over? Why were you the one he continuously chose to make that specific joke with? It really didnât feel like a joke anymore.Â
You looked down at your book trying and failing to speedily process your emotions. You heaved yourself up turning to leave. Not wanting to exist in other peopleâs presence anymore. Too emotionally taxed.
Wrapped up in your own feelings and thoughts you missed Lucifer glancing back at you. You missed the jarred skip of his step as he caught sight of the haggard expression during your momentary unmasking. You missed the fact he stopped walking all together as you slipped from the room.
You quickly found shelter in the sanctity of your room. Recharging the rest of the evening cocooned in the fuzziest blankets you had, that you made sure always smelled of orange and cinnamon, buried in the book you had just gotten. As the evening slipped into night though, you slipped from your room and made your way down the hall needing a small break from the confines of your quarters before heading to sleep. Because despite your exhaustion, you enjoyed a little fresh air before bed.
Living on the second to top floor had its downsides; like being closer to Alastorâs studio or hiking up the seemingly endless number of stairs. You personally felt it had more perks though. One of the best upsides being a small balcony with a cafe styled table and chairs. Later in the evening when a good number of the residents had either retired to their room for the evening or were still out partying, there was a blissful window of time where there was little risk of running into some else. So you would make your way to the balcony and sit looking out over the city.
Disconnected but present.
You pulled one of the chairs next to the railing so the back of the seat was at a 90 degree angle to the railing. Plopping yourself down, you perched yourself in the seat with both feet up. One arm rested on the railing so as you leaned forward, your belly pressing into your legs, your chin and cheek resting on your arm rather than the cool metal. A few adjustments here and there quickly remedied any qualms your body had with the positioning and finally you were nestled in. The final signal of settling a small decompressing huff.
The usual sights and sounds greeted you. Your eyes scanning for any changes or immediate drama to observe from your box seat above the masses. Angel Dust and Husk walking away from the hotel caught your eye. Angel talking with his whole body as Husk just shook his head in amusement. Angel suddenly buckled over laughing before reaching out to place a hand on Huskâs shoulder to steady himself.
The skin on your shoulder prickled and you involuntarily shiver. You look away from them too little too late. The ache for contact instantaneously tearing at you from the inside. The arm wrapped around yourself tightened in a futile attempt to ease the ache, already knowing from experience it wouldnât work. You buried your face in your arms contemplating just going back to your room to lose yourself in the book that had occupied your warring mind earlier.
A click sounded from behind you making your head shoot up to see a bashful appearing Lucifer holding the door open. He gave a lopsided grin, gingerly pointing to the second seat, âDo you⊠mind if I join you?âÂ
You blinked a couple of times, staring at him. Immediately wary of his presence. The lingering silence dragged on, making him shuffle anxiously before you gave permission with a curt nod. You directed your attention back out towards the city despite being hyper aware of him.
A quivering laugh slipped from his lips as he stepped out a little too close for your liking, admittedly the size of the balcony was intended to be intimate, and closed the door behind him as he sat down in the seat across from you. He immediately stretched out, slipping his legs through the railings, putting one elbow on the table between the two of you. âNot a bad view from up here. If you ignore most of the gun shots and âfuck youâsâ it can be pretty enjoyable.â He shot a sideways glance over to feel out your reaction at his attempted small talk.
âYeah it is.â
 The city sounds echoed between the two of you. Distant conversations filling the void that the two beings right there were unable, or unwilling, to fill. He nervously laughed, his fingers drumming on the table. You looked over to him this time. Seeing his eyes flittering from object to object unable to choose 1 thing to look at.
Quickly, his drumming fingers started to grate against your already worn nerves and tired mind. Unable to bare whatever this was any further, you attempted to excuse yourself as you started to stand. âItâs late. Iâm heading to-â
âNo! Wait! Wait!â he sat up from his faux relaxed pose holding out both hands. âJust⊠hold on.â he breathed out yet another quivering laugh, the panic shining brightly in his eyes as you bore into him with yours.Â
He took a deep breath. He looked away, mentally giving himself a small pep talk before he looked back. âI wanted to talk. About earlier.â
âIâm tiredâŠ.â you admit as you stood there looking down at him. His nervous grin and hopeful eyes making your resolve to run buckle. âWhat about earlier?â you ask, easing back into your seat placing both hands of your clasped on the table.
âThank you.â he said before beginning to explain. âWhen you were leaving the lobby,â he specified, making a circle motion with one of his hands, âyou looked, well, upset.â
âI looked upset.â you repeated.
He slowly nodded. His next words said slowly and carefully, âI was⊠wondering if it was something I did? Or said?â he paused before further clarifying, âI wanted you to tell me why.â
You scoffed. Perhaps it was the unroofing of a metaphorical wound his joke had made. Perhaps because you were tired. It could have also been a combination or something completely unrelated. Regardless, you were unable to hold back the venomous sarcasm that slipped from you, âWell I canât imagine why.â Luciferâs eyes widened, the reaction only egging you on. âItâs like constantly being judged for something you didnât and wouldnât do isnât upsetting.â
Lucifer stared blankly, âWhat?âÂ
âOh youâre plotting against Charlie I see?â your voice lowered in a pathetic attempt to mimic the king. âHow many times did you think youâd get away with making the same joke before I realized you clearly meant it? That youâre genuinely suspicious Iâm out to hurt Charlie?â
âI didnât-â
âHow many times do I have to tell you Iâm not out to get her? I like Charlie! Sheâs kind! Sheâs thoughtful! Yeah sheâs irritatingly persistent but, she needs to be.â
You had started to dig your nails into your own clasped hands in your flurry of emotions unable to reign them in. You took a breath, realizing you needed to step away from this conversation. You stood up just as Lucifer found his voice. âI never meant for it to be an accusation. It was meant to be a joke.â You felt your emotions spike again, your jaw clenching, as he continued, âI saw you staring at them an-â
âBecause Iâm TOUCH STARVED!â the words were out of your mouth before you could consider what you were saying, âI saw them giving one another affection and was just so envious! I just stared! I didnât mean to, I-â You glanced up to him to find a look of confusion, twisting with what you interpreted as disgust, on Luciferâs face that made your train of thought grind to a halt to reevaluate why his expression was so. Your mind finally processing your admission. âI justâŠâ A hand slowly lifted to lightly cover your mouth, your eyes widening.
âWhat now?â he asked, the confusion deepening in the expression of his face. A raised eyebrow. A lopsided frown. The slight tilt of his head.
Your face started burning, chest tightening. It instantly became hard to breathe. Panic. You were panicking at the vulnerability you had just bared. Anger melded with embarrassment in the midst of your anxiety. You bristled, launching into an unneeded defense. âYou know what, I donât need to fucking explain myself to you.â You turned, throwing the door to the balcony open, practically running back to your room. Anything he might have said behind you drowned out by your panicked thoughts.
A sleepless night followed. Unable to calm your mind, it ran in circles in your head; justification of your outburst, realizing you completely blew it all out of proportion, getting angry that you had allowed such a vulnerability to air so freely, fear of what Lucifer might do with the information or who he might tell, embarrassment at being so weak, anger at the conversation having happened, before feeling defensive again to repeating the looping train of thought. As the dayâs light started to breach the veil of night, only then did you finally slip into unconsciousness utterly spent.Â
The next few days were spent dodging Lucifer which was relatively easy since you were simultaneously also attempting to fix your wrecked sleep schedule. When you were going to sessions though, you did your best to preemptively vacate any areas when you heard Lucifer approaching or avoided areas you knew he would be in. The change in behavior had mostly been easy to truthfully explain to Charlie as well when you boiled down the scenario into the simplest of terms. You had gotten upset about something and had ended up not sleeping well. While she of course wanted to know the whole situation to help you navigate it in any way she could, she was respectful, admittedly a little pouty, when you said it was something you werenât ready to talk about. Not having to lie to her made you feel a little better since you missed quite a few of her group exercises.Â
While many of the residents didnât care or hadnât found the change to be too out of place, when paired with your explanation, it didnât slip the careful eye of Alastor. The first day it had seemed to catch his attention but, by the second day he had taken a keen interest in your antics. When you would try to slip out before Lucifer would come into a room, he would stop you to talk about your participation in the session. Once he told you Charlie wanted to speak with you and then took you into a room where Lucifer and Charlie were talking, only for him to have misheard Charlieâs request. While he framed his actions as innocent and well intended, you had never seen the grin on Alastorâs face as wide as it was. It was unnerving.Â
By the fourth day, you werenât just paranoid about running into Lucifer. Alastorâs newest hobby had seemed to become tormenting you and his questions and conversations had become probing. Feeling out cracks in your story. At one point he had even told you he was all ears for any issues you might have with other residents or guests.Â
Having lived through his rise to power, you knew there was no good to come from exposing yourself to such a machiavellian individual. You wouldnât put it past him to worm a deal out of anyone, even as lowly you. An expendable pawn was still a piece to play and he was one to look at the bigger picture.Â
At that point, you garnered enough gumption to face Lucifer. You couldnât risk getting caught under Alastorâs thumb and the idea of him knowing you were touch starved and how that could be held against you igniting a spike of anxiety. You knew Lucifer and Alastor were not on good terms but, the idea of word getting to Alastor was distressing. You loathed the idea of facing Lucifer but you needed to ensure your blunder remained under wraps. This was for self preservation at this point.
Towards the end of the day, you sequestered yourself to your room to prepare; plan key points you wanted to discuss, how you wanted to phrase things, etc. You knew you couldn't lose your head again, considering how the prior incend had led to the current circumstances. After an hour or so though, you felt ready.Â
You made your way to the top floor, taking extra precautions to avoid running into Alastor potentially heading to his studio. Once certain Alastor was not loitering about or following you, you made your way down the hallway towards Lucifer's room. You focused on your breathing as you trekked the hall. Attempting to quell your anxiety and slow your racing heart, to no avail. By the time you reached his door, your pulse was thrumming in your ears and you were certain he would be able to hear it too.
You stood before his door paralyzed. Both hands clenched at your side. Unable to stop the tremble that plagued them. Your eyes locked onto the perfect white presetine door as if trying to bore holes through it. Your breathing uneven. All the words you had practiced having evaporated from your head as you made your way there.
This was a mistake.
You pivot. Hurriedly, retreating.
Halfway back towards the stairs your eyes register Alastor's studio door and the terror that drove you to the point resurface. You halted. Your hands flew to your head in a silent temper tantrum as your mind raced to determine what would be the lesser evil. A sense of urgency gnawing at you considering you were standing dead center in the hallway of a barren floor.
What was worse; not knowing if Lucifer might reveal what you had said, accidentally or intentionally, with everyone including Alastor potentially finding out or turning around and confronting Lucifer?
The first concern was all just a possibility though wasn't it? There was no guarantee that it would happen. Talking to Lucifer wouldn't guarantee that he wouldn't spill your secret either. You let out a soft, maniacal sounding laugh as you took a step forward only to stop again. A possibility that would weigh on you for weeks to months leading to you lurking around the hotel, as you had been, haunting the place. Harrowed by the uncertainty at every turn.
"FFFUuuuucccckkk..." you groaned softly. Your palms sliding down your forehead pressing into your eyes. You needed to confront Lucifer. The realization making your stomach churn. You couldn't continue dodging him and you couldn't outrun the fear. You turned resting your back against the wall, your hands on your knees as you bent over mentally recollecting yourself. You went through what you had gone over before in your room. Reminding yourself of the key points.Â
You sighed and brought your palms to your eyes again. Slowly breathed out. Pulling your hands from your eyes, you launched off the wall propelling you back towards Lucifer's room. The momentum only lasting a few steps before freezing again.Â
"Heeeey, as entertaining as this pantomiming is, and it's a great performance, I would appreciate getting access to my room sometime tonight."
Your face blanched as a shiver slipped down your spine. You slowly turned to see Lucifer standing behind you. Both hands perched on the apple of his cane and a practiced smile on his lips. One eyebrow raised, almost lost beneath the rim of his hat, as he watched you tentatively turn towards him.
Instantly you straightened yourself and stepped aside. "Good evening." your voice was dry and hoarse.Â
"Yup. Good evening." he chirped back, unmoving. Your eyes were locked onto a spot on the floor, your mind utterly blank. As the seconds drew on, his smile tensed as he nervously waited for you to do...something? His fingers drummed on his cane. "Well... if the performance is over I'll be heading to my room. Have a good night!" He looked away awkwardly and started on his way.
A quick glance at his back got the gears in your brain working. What were you doing? He was right there. You were screwing it up. "Wait...wait! LuciferâŠ" It was soft, but loud enough for him to hear. He slowed and turned looking back.Â
"I..." Your eyes meeting made you want to run. The idea of having this conversation replusing you. You pushed off the wall and walked over towards him, fighting the urge to flee. "Are you free? I-...I would like to apologize and talk. About the other day?" Your face felt flushed.
Lucifer shuffled and gently smiled which was unnerving. It was a smile you had only ever seen reserved for Charlie and Vaggie. "Don't you think it's rather late? It would be a little unproductive if we had a repeat of last time."
The comment struck a nerve considering it was earlier in the day than when he had approached you. It must have shown on your face as his smile dropped paired with your response. "That's fine. We can talk tomorrow."
"Unless, you're not tired?" he asked, putting his nervous smile back on and laughing anxiously, "We could have a cup of tea this time. Chamomile perhaps?"
You hesitated but, then nodded. "That would be nice."
He nodded, as he started towards his room onto the spin around. "Ah! You're comfortable talking in my room right? I wouldn't want to make an assumption! We could certainly talk on the balcony again if you prefer!"Â
"Uh, somewhere private is preferred so your room is fine." You respond bluntly, his nervous energy deflating. He nodded once more, his grip on his cane as tight as a vice.Â
The two of you made your way to his room; him leading with you trailing after. His room was surprisingly clean though you couldn't help but notice a small work area over to the left of the door with two piles of perhaps 50 or so rubber ducks. He had noticed your gaze and eagerly redirected you over towards the windows where he had a little cushioned bench seat perched below. As you settled into the seat, Lucifer got two tea cups ready with a snap of his fingers.
He carried them over to you with practiced care and gingerly handed one off to you before he sat down as well. You took the cup, admiring the beautiful and intricate abstract design on it, before lightly blowing on it and taking a sip.Â
"Sooooo..." he drawled, having quickly taken a sip from his cup as well, "before you start, there is something I wanted to bring up if that's alright." Your eyes flick to his, his expression a mask utilizing his usual smile. You nod, making sure he saw before he proceeded,"I need you to explain to me what you meant by 'touch staved'."
You gawked at him. You hadnât heard what you thought you just heard. âWhat?â
Lucifer blinked before looking a little frantic and blurting out, âI know what it means! Of course I know what it means. Iâm the king of hell. Iâm not so wildly out of touch that I donât!â he laughed looking out the window before taking a sip of his tea, âIâve also heard it can mean different things to different people. So I want to know what it means. To you! I want to know what it means to you.â
He finally looked back to you taking another sip of his tea, already halfway through his small porcelain cup. Meanwhile, you felt like you were short circuiting sitting across from him. Not only had you spent the last few days fretting and dodging the angel, worrying that he would tell people what you said, but now he was asking you to spell it out for him. Was heâŠ.messing with you? You studied him before he gave you a toothy grin coyly purred out, âSo?â
It didnât seem like he was messing with you. Something like this was more Angel Dustâs style of teasing. You mimic Lucifer by taking a sip of your tea for a slight delay. You carefully set the teacup down on the windowsill next to you and place your hands in your lap. âI need you to promise me youâll never tell anyone.â
âAnd why would I do that?â He asked. He was messing with you now though you were in no mood for it.
You narrowed your eyes at him and stated as matter of factly as you could despite wanting to spit venom defensively, âIâm not untouchable like you. Weâre in HELL. Anything and everything can be used against you by the wrong people. I canât end up having someone use anything I say here against me.âÂ
His facade softened and his smile dropped into a frown. He brought the teacup up to his lips and muttered something into the chamomile. âNo one is untouchableâŠâ
You heard him say something but, hadn't been able to make it out so you remained quiet.
âI promise to never tell another soul.â he finally sighed.
âOn Charlieâs life?â you asked, knowing he could still share what was said as there was no magic binding him. You needed to know just how serious he was though and Charlie was usually a good indicator. His eyes flashed red and they narrowed at you. You held firm, keeping eye contact and straightening your spine.
âOn my life. No reason to bring Charlie into this.â he leaned back, his eyes fading back to their normal golden hue.
You hesitated to accept but relented with a nod. Knowing you had to accept the compromise he offered but, you did feel satisfied that he wouldnât share what was said. You started thinking about where to begin. As you contemplated, you felt your face heat in embarrassment. He watched, patiently biding his time as he lightly tapped the rim of his teacup with a claw topping it off with more tea.
âFor meâŠâ you looked him, locking eyes. The embarrassment clawing through you. The intensity making you panic. Your eyes darted away. Finding a spot on the floor to stare at again so you could think with even a fraction more clarity. âFor me it means I⊠I âŠmissâŠtouch.â
You glanced up to him, to see the sight raise of an eyebrow. Your mind started churning with worst case scenarios and suddenly your face burned hotter. You looked away again.
âNot sexual!â The words spit out, not wanting any uncomfortable undertones to the conversation. âItâs just⊠simple touch. Like hugging. Lightly having someone put their hand on my shoulder. Even just bumping into people. Any sort of skin contact makes me want more and afterwards thatâs all I want. It takes days for that to calm down and since being here⊠thatâs usually around the time something else happens. Itâs a never ending cycle.â
He listened, his face remaining neutral as you spoke and he remained silent for a beat after you finished. You rubbed your arm. Between talking about the topic and your nerves, there was a compulsion to do something with your hands. He broke the silence, âThe other day when we had ourâŠfalling out, you had been watching Charlie and Vaggie because you saw them touching one another? That is why you mentioned being envious?â
You nodded, closing your eyes as you took a breath in an attempt to calm yourself.
He smiled. His fingers rubbing the edge of his teacup as he gazed into it. He knew those feelings all too well. âThatâŠmakes sense.â You open your eyes to look at him, noticing the look on his face. He noticed your movement and looked up to you, giving a lopsided smile.
Lilith had been absent for 7 years.
Your eyes widened at the possibility and dared to pose the question, âYou too?â
Lucifer stiffened a moment, took a breath and nodded. âYes. Even I have those days.â
He took a sip of his tea and looked out the window. You picked yours back up and mimicked his action.
âIâm sorryâŠâ you said after a few minutes of what you felt was relatively comfortable silence. âI shouldnât have yelled at you the other day. It wasnât fair. I was tired and already feelingâŠexposed? HmmâŠsensitive is probably a better wordâŠâ
âRegardless, I knew I was tired. I should have asked to shelve the conversation once I realized it wasnât something I couldnât handle right then and there. Iâm also sorry for not actually hearing you out once you started since I didnât ask to stop. Iâd like to try discussing it again if youâre willing.â
You spoke while looking out the window. Seeing him shift his attention to you from your peripherals you keep your eyes trained to elsewhere. After you finished, you turned slightly to look at him from the corner of your eye.
The conversation that followed supplied far better results than the last. He clarified how all of his barbs had been an attempt to be playful since he didnât know you well but, understood how hearing it over and over had manifested as a passive aggressive accusation on your end. You apologized for having taken it that way and not properly addressed the issue before it started to fester as anger. The compromising being he wouldl stop trying to interact with you in that way with the caveat being if he slipped up or tried something new that you didnât appreciate, you would address it before resentment could build.
At the end, the both of you sat on the bench sipping the last of your tea looking out at the city. At some point, Lucifer had opened one of the windows. A light caress of warm wind slipped in scattering goosebumps up your arms despite it not being cold and you brought a hand up to rub them, hoping they rescinded quickly.
Luciferâs eyes slid to the motion. âSo how long has it been since you had, I guess, consistent contact with someone?âÂ
You blinked, thinking about it. âA couple decades.â
âDecades?â he gasped out. He realized just how loud he had been and he coughed with a smile to cover up his reaction. âI mean. Decades. Thatâs⊠awhile.â
âYeah, wellâŠâ uncertain on if he was genuinely surprised at the length of time or found it underwhelming and was being sarcastic, you werenât entirely sure what to make of his reaction. âMost sinners donât bother with libraries. The hellborn who do, donât want to interact with a sinner and avoided me, opting for one of the other hellborns working. So I got left alone most of the time.â
You shrugged your shoulders and turned your attention back out the window. Thinking about it now, it hadnât bothered you then. You suppose you might have just been ignoring that downside though. It had always been easy to check yourself out emotionally and just get through what needed to be done. Not contemplating what you wanted or what could be. Only focused on what was.
âHasâŠâ you start and then stop, wondering if you should ask. You glance over to him seeing he hadnât redirected his attention to you. âHow long has it been for you?â
âConsistently?â he asked as he pondered the question he had posed to you. âA decade? Maybe a little longer. Lilith and IâŠâ his eyes roamed down to his ring. âWe had more downs than ups well before she left but I still got some affection in between when we had a good stretch.
A sad tone had seeped into his voice. He gently rubbed the ring with his middle finger, a sense of melancholy filling the room. You watched. Never having had an extended relationship with someone before, you couldn't pretend to imagine the feelings that lingered. You took a breath and then scooted over on the bench seat pulling him from his thoughts. You extended an open hand to him. He stared. He hesitated before slowly reaching out, his decision wavering for a split second before he placed his hand in yours.Â
You gently took hold of his hand and looked back out the window. He was far warmer than you had expected him to be. His skin soft. You sighed softly feeling far less unsettled by the sensation than you had thought, regardless of how intimate the action could be seen. It was mindless for you as your thumb began to lightly caress the back of his hand. Lucifer fidgeted next to you, though he didnât retract his hand.
You werenât sure how long the two of you sat there. The sounds of the city echoing off the walls of his room with hellâs consistent warm breeze enveloping the two of you in wave after wave. Each of you basking in the warmth of the other, no matter how little it was. It wasnât until you noticed Lucifer starting to nod off that you smiled and squeezed his hand.
His eyes fluttered open to find you looking at him with a bemused smile. The softest you had looked at him to date. âYouâre tired.âÂ
âIâm not.â he mumbled, a well timed yawn slipping from his lips. You raised a brow with his response being a âtskâ noise.
You slowly, reluctantly, pull your hand from his before pushing yourself to a stand. A stretch had a few of your joints popping. âWould be an awful idea to fall asleep like that.âÂ
He stood next to you with a noncommittal hum. As you reached for your cup and saucer, a snap of his fingers dispensed of both his and yours. You nod at him before you look over towards the door and then back to him. âThank you.â
âDonât mention it. That kind of magic is thoughtless to me.â he said, misinterpreting your meaning.
âI meant for talking things over and spending your evening with me.âÂ
He burbled out a laugh. âOh well donât mention that either. Literally. Donât mention this to anyone. I have a reputation to uphold. King of hell and all.â he grinned at you with his characteristic saccharine smile.
âAn exchange of secrets then?â You asked, entertaining a little bit of his playfulness.Â
âAh, still worried about me spilling the beans?â he asked, walking you to the door. âAn exchange then. I wonât share yours if you donât share mine.â
âDeal.â The response was quick and sharp. He opened the door and you stepped through the threshold, pausing and turning around. âThank you again. I⊠enjoyed this. Most of this anyway.â
âMy pleasure.â his hand did several circle motions as he performed a mock half bow.Â
You rolled your eyes at his dramatics. âGoodnight Lucifer.â you say beginning to head off before you add, âLet me know if you would like to do something like this again. A tea time or something. Iâll make sure to keep it drama free.â
He grinned leaning against his door frame. âIâd enjoy that.â
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