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[start i.d.: nine colored sketch drawings of various dimension 20 characters. the first is fig playing her bass, her hair shaggy in her eyes. the second is gorgug and fabian slouched on a couch, looking away from each other but forming a hand heart together. the next four are individuals of baron, markus st. vincent, adaine, and pib. the seventh is kristen and tracker spooning. the eighth is fig and ayda standing so close their noses touch. the last is of sofia with la gran gata around her shoulders. end i.d.]
a bunch of doodle requests from twitter. hi
#ur invited to make reqs here just no promises i’ll get to them#sorry for the very brief id but it is honestly equivalent to the visual quality of these so eh#fantasy high#dimension 20#fhsy#ok now to tag characters HHH#fig faeth#gorgug thistlespring#fabian seacaster#baron from the baronies#markus st vincent#adaine abernant#pib neverafter#kristen applebees#tracker o'shaughnessey#ayda aguefort#sofia lee#my art#digital art#simply for. sorting purposes
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actually so evil how much of hal's internal world gets obliterated with the rewriting of his relationships with jessica and martin.
#hal jordan#empyrean posting#ok going in the tags because im not actually v confident in my understanding of his character. i read all of his 80s/90s stuff but forgot#90% of it but ANYWAY.#so much of him just does not make sense with how geoff johns characterises him and his relationships with his parents particularly the#parallax stuff simply because of how much his relationship with the guardians and their apathy/'betrayal' is influenced by hal's original#relationship with his dad. like at its heart it's pretty much the same dynamic in how hal blindly trusts and sort of idolises the guardians#despite their repeated infractions in hope of... something in return just as he had with his father and the abuse he suffered at martin's#hands. that's what makes his anger at the guardians make sense when it does show itself because the relationship parallel didn't stop there.#as with martin hal gets nothing for his devotion. he gets nothing for doing everything that's asked of him and more and it ends the same way#too: with a man in the sky burning like a newborn star. and you lose so much of that nuance and intrigue behind that if you just make#jessica the 'bad one' because!!! you cheapen it!!!!#the whole idea of hal is that he has his father's face but his mother's scars#(to me). in the sense that they both reacted to martin the same way with that cognisance of who he was as a man yet inability to pull away#because... love. both the love they had for him and the conviction that he did or could love them too. and jessica arguably did eventually#but also she didnt did she? because she held onto that notion of love till the very end. the few scraps she had she ballooned outwards until#they became the whole. but hal didnt have even that and he spent his whole life chasing it & running away from wanting it at the same time#like i think there's something so interesting to the fact that he had to be convinced that flying was what he wanted to do. how much of that#was touched by his father? the fear that he was already too much like him than he could bear to be? he already had his face now he had his#dreams and longing for the sky. how much more could he have before he began repeating the cycle?#and at the end he even had his father's death. burning in the clouds. like there's so much there and that's not even touching on how it#impacts his relationships with other heroes. not just in the sense of why did kyle clark and diana get to keep their close yet complex#relationships with their moms when hal had to lose his (although yeah why did they) but also just how he lets himself come across to them.#because it's on purpose right? that he lets them think his reflection of his father is born out of unadulterated love for a man worthy of it#? he has his father's job he wears his father's jacket he smiles his father's smile. what else are they supposed to think.#and isnt that interesting!!! that this man who is so committed to being good & just can lie so casually to people he thinks of as friends!!!#can you see how that might be his mother through and through!!! in how she might have glossed over the abuse to other people and herself!!!#can you see how in spite of it all he might want to be perceived as his father that paragon of masculinity and resent that he is not!!!#do you understand how everything he loves has been poisoned!!! im thinking of that scene where he tells bruce about watching martin die &#wouldnt it have been so much more interesting through this lens. how he is both revealing & obfuscating at once. i hate the change sm
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What would Bucky major in in this AU, you may ask? Whatever allows for writing baseball narratives articles that long-suffering editor Buck has to take gardening shears to and throwing a tennis ball against the wall of the pretty transfer student next door
#i don't actually know if they're next door to each other but for the purposes of this post they are#shoshi's au problem#motaverse#sort of#i will simply start posting about this au (college newspaper) with no preamble#shoshi.txt
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kanej being abt like. waking up (metaphorically.) one day and realizing . oh. this person that has become such a staple in my life. i kind of want them 2 remain in it. and trying 2 navigate how that will look while so much is changing around and within them........ wah. ur honor they r simply
#hate that i was made 2 care abt them....... slash silly#them not having the same sense of humor. some of kaz's fav moments of being alive just them Hanging Out .#inej not being able 2 bear seeing him without his pride. kaz thinking up a dozen ways 2 keep her close but knowing the only way to stay In#Her Life was to... not do that. inej's hashtag aim hashtag purpose is her True Love she will not be kept from it 🖤🖤#six of crows#uuugh w her knives ..... they way they work in tandem communicate without speaking simply so Accustomed to each other.................#two ppl who r Disillusioned w the idea of romance (there had been no boys 2 bring her flowers only men w stacks of kruge and purses full of#coin. kaz not even considering having any sort of emotional/otherwise close in nonphysical ways relationship w imogen)#get tricked into Knowing another person. Trusting them even
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Typed out and deleted such a big rant. @ the anons at the end of the day idc. They can do what they want and hopefully dt patches as many relationships as they want
#this is abt tmmy btw#i cant really have a lot of empathy for a white boy millionaire who thinks his edgy jokes are funny#at 20 i was working 2 jobs to support my fam while juggling uni so forgive me if his immaturity rubs me the wrong way#they can sort out their shit behind the scenes and do whatever they want but so many of these ccs simply#completely lost their appeal to me after everything#the fake activism and the complete spineless behavior just aint it#to be deleted#o77#t.ommy tag#<- for filtering out purposes
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i need to get less ashamed of talking about my interests on my 0 follower tumblr blog because if i don't point out that despite having one of the most interesting concepts ever presented in a genshin event, shadows amidst snowstorms was not actually well written, and was in fact pretty Poorly written, then who else will. Who else will.
#seashell resonance#Anyway amber hasn't shown up in any content since 1.0 where she wasn't optional or thrown out entirely in favor of standing as an#advertisement for euIa. case in point in the scene in shadows amidst snowstorms where you're waiting outside the cave for albedo the last#person joel was left with was amber. when euIa confronts albedo about the fake trying to lead joel away...there's no mention ever of the#fact that amber...was With Joel. Amber who is an Outrider trained to Notice Danger. Either left joel with fakebedo without noticing anythin#or the actual explanation: hoyo didn't care enough to write her because. well. Amber Bad#the next time we see her is when she shows up with bennett#amber used to have a lot of fire to her and this sort of unique not quite cockiness but like. easy way to tell she used to be the difficult#kid we hear about in her character stories and teapot dialogue#she serves no purpose in shadows amidst snowstorms#an event that easily could've capitalized on the Horror aspect of being trapped with a doppelganger of one of your coworkers and shown off#ALL the characters (because get this. You can make people wanna spend on characters who aren't meta by making them Like Them.)#but amber? no value in any event she's ever been in. she talks about good hunter and sticky honey roast. she gets flustered. euIa pays for#her meal. Remember how she was in Almost All of razor's story quest and then when they needed a knight to give him a gift in weinlessefest#they chose...SUCROSE AND NOELLE?#remember how collei has had more on screen interactions with fucking euIa and sucrose than AMBER#how amber and collei's reunion was what people wanted to see and instead it happens off screen and amber simply isn't relevant during#windblume? how amber didn't get a skin with lisa and kaeya? how amber has no appearance in kaeya's hangout event despite their dynamic in#the webtoon and her being suspicious of him presenting so much room to work with?#her tcg dialogue has a meta joke in it. Because amber bad and amber doesn't exist outside of euIa and connecting collei to euIa#and i could go on. about the writing for cyno. about collei. about the way they write kokomi or any genius character. about albedo even.#about all my Other gripes with euIa because they go to about every single aspect of her character except her Basic personality#which is to say the personality we see in most of her voicelines. she could've literally been a saving grace for the cast if she weren't on#of the like top 3 worst written characters#i could talk about like almost any character's decay but that's not the point. Not the point. Nobody look atme.#i tried to replace the L in euIa's name with a capital i to make this post not show up in front of her enjoyers somehow but if it does#sorry about that! no problems with you it's hoyoverse who has my ire#i have so much more to say even just about amber specifically since she is. Unfortunately my fav and unfortunately almost the only characte#i care about whenever my enjoyment of genshin even Slightly wanes#but nobody will ever see it because that essay i write in my head seven times a day is for Me. I'll die before i crack open google docs
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gray pov girlies!
#warrior cats#dovewing#twigbranch#bristlefrost#frostdawn#my art#thinking about how in a way they all sort of parallel each other#was it done on purpose or were the authors simply reusing concepts they already used before#you decide
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my mom used the phrase "un peu quétaine" to describe one of the other acts at the last festival and nobody knew what she meant europeans are so swagless
#like how else are you meant to describe things that are simply quétaine#i guess in english you could say cheesy or corny which sort of gets at it but not quite#in french if you're not saying quétaine i suppose the closest is kitsch but that implies it's like#in some way purposeful and self aware#which quétaine is decidedly not#quétaine is just quétaine idk how else to describe it. you know it when you see it#soapbox
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almost 4am can't stop thinking about the meaning of the idiom 'to have blood on [someone's] hands'—to be responsible for a person's death—combined with the fact that Zach is the one we are specifically shown with Daryl's actual blood on his hands (once for real and once in a dream)... Not Josh who had been holding the sword Daryl fell onto, but Zach who took the sword out.
#super dark times#+ part of it that's insane to me is: Josh COULD have easily ALSO gotten (literal) blood on his hands—we see him go to check for a pulse#after Zach did... but we don't see his hands during that—they're left out of the shot! we just see his face. and when we see his hands next#there's no visible blood on them (if any got on he theoretically wiped 'em off ig? similarly Zach's hands when seen AFTER the shot of him#touching Daryl ALSO don't rlly show blood anymore—we see his hands in the leaves tho so it prob went there) BUT SO there was a CHOICE made#to give us a close up shot of ZACH pulling his hand away from the wound with blood on it... but to NOT do the same/smthn similar with Josh.#and yet ZACH is the one who CAN'T ACCEPT THE ROLE HE PLAYED IN ANY OF ITTTTT!!!!!!! GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!#this post brought to you by me rewatching the Zach + Charlie on the phone scene and needing to just. stop and scream at Zach being#like 'Josh‚ or fucking somebody else‚ they went up there and if they found Daryl alive—' LIKE BRO. YOU *KNOW* HE WAS DEAD.#YOU KNOW. YOU KNOOOOW. YOU WERE THERE. YOU KNOW HE WAS ALREADY DEAD. the denial. the trying to find any fucking way that#there could be even a sliver of a possibility that it WASN'T even PARTIALLY his fault.... shifting the blame entirely onto Josh...#[plus like. the 'somebody else' only added in after Charlie was giving him shit for trying to complicate this more—at first he was#straight up saying Josh was the one that fucked with the body]... aghghghsfd he makes me INSANE#also fwiw. i'm forever a 'Josh didn't harm anyone on purpose until AFTER his fight with Zach at Zach's house' truther. that provides#at least SOME sort of motivation to push him over an edge into... the shit that happens. anything before that just fuckin' doesn't make#sense. To Me. ive already written a lot on my thoughts about all of that though [uhhh in the tags of my gifset of the fight at Zach's house#anyways. im also NOT trying to say 'ah so we should Just Blame Zach' because nah nah this whole thing was a fucked up accident. they're all#to blame. plus Josh did horrible shit at the end On His Own there's no way of getting around that—but the messiness of how Zach handled the#initial incident and how that ripples out across the whole movie is simply soooooooo... ghghGHGhghGHGhghghgh. To Me.#in conclusion: im soooooooo normal about the characters in this movie (<- lying)
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⭐️⭐️⭐️ <3
Every ⭐️ exchanges for a headcanon (or we-haven't-plotted-yet theory / plot bunny) about our characters' (potential) dynamic.
I think I'm committing to the timeline shenanigans for this verse which is only relevant here to contextualize why Henry did not have any ties whatsoever to camp until post- the Battle of Manhattan. And I think it would be fun if Elle was the person who got saddled with giving him the welcome tour, in all the madness of the post-battle climate of camp and the flood of new demigods. And I think it would be very fitting if, on this tour, she got into some kind of mischief, and that more than anything else going on is what ultimately sold him on sticking around. And, of course, immediately put her on his people-I-like radar.
Kind of a uncanny duo, ever-after Henry's first day, and a bunch of people don't really get why they hang out. And it's not just about this but actually it kind of... makes more sense than people notice, because of his weird sensitivity to magic and ability to see through mist illusions ('son of a god of passages' might not give you any big elemental abilities but it sure does some other weird shit) Henry would be very fascinated with Elle (and her sibling)'s magic -is it wrapped up in the specific words used? the items? or the ritual? the intent? or all of the above? what happens if you change those things, can you still make it work?- and I think they would absolutely have hours-long conversations that verge on debates about it. Obviously the rest is just, why wouldn't they hang out? And people's biases make them think that Henry is a weird pseudo-mascot for Hecate Cabin to have, but. Crossroads. Crossing over. Kids don't have to follow the exact likeness of their godly parents, obviously, but it makes sense for them to draw toward each other, in a way.
Someone in Hermes Cabin got the wise idea to start a prank war. Henry & Elle become a nightmare duo answering it. Eventually, the whole thing escalates so badly between the thefts and the magical itching powders and the entire-inside-of-Hermes-cabin-gets-turned-upside-down, Chiron has to step in and put an end to it.
#can i interest u in some random as fuck thoughts?#nosestealer#here's the real question the real question is. do i think he's got a designated cabin? 'cause like#he's not unclaimed but also. his parents do not have any other children ('less i shovel maggie in here) and his dad Will Not have any other#if only because like. the opportunity simply does not exist for him as a passage-to-death god i feel like? i mean. and it just feels weird#to think about#he would never u know#ANYWAY THE POINT BEING where does this idiot stay i actually am not sure#i broke the expected origins on purpose but i did not think through the consequences#maybe amphitrite got a cabin and he's allowed to stay there as a ''eh close enough'' sort of situation? s;kjfg;ldksfjg#henry ur lineage is SO weird
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Theoretically, the prideful and ambitious figure should be the easiest target for her "devil's bargain, appeal to ego" tactics.
Well...
#My Art#Illustration#Original Character#Original Characters#Ipseity: The Wayward#Ipseity: Caligo Narcyz#She forgot to calculate that he's Also a little freak#''I'm not sure if I should punish or entertain this!'' - Paloma who's done exactly what he's doing in the past#I think this is why he has some sort of History with various Figures#2 Egoful People who want to Work for their shit and get their Hands Dirty#''I don't respect It but I do Respect it'' people#Caligo is lying and he is a cheater because all of this information is being obtained for ''I'm going to figure out how to use magic too''#purposes as someone who is super not a magic user#but you know. Aforementioned simply Cannot have his win handed to him (though it is tempting to see how Exactly that would work)#(what will it do to his body? Wonders of this world yet to be discovered)#Anyways fun fact this the 100th post on this blog yaaaay
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The I feel like she sees me line being said to Eddie who is the person that truly sees Buck for all that he is. Are we supposed to take this line at face value which would indicate piss poor writing because they needed to rush to a horrible ending or do we take it as Buck being an unreliable narrator? What was the audience supposed to interpret from Buck saying that, were we truly supposed to believe him or we supposed to be pissed at Buck for saying this to the one person that truly sees Buck?
Good morning to me, I guess.
I'm assuming you haven't really seen people's reactions in the fandom on tumblr because I feel like I saw this said in quite a few posts going around, but you are absolutely not supposed to take this line at face value. I'm surprised that people think you should. 9-1-1 has from the beginning had a habit of turning friendships into romantic relationships (Bathena and Madney) and taking their time with these things rather than having an instalove situation. Even Karen and Hen, who meet when they're set up on a date together, don't instantly fall in love. I do not think they would set Eddie or Buck up for an endgame relationship with a woman by having them date that woman immediately, even if they didn't plan to make Buddie canon.
Buck is clearly struggling post-death. He's lost and once again looking for the answer from a romantic partner. He did a lot of growth in regards to his family relationships this season but not his romantic ones. Remember, his couch ended up destroyed and he asked his latest girlfriend to pick the new one out for him. Again. He's still not picking his own damn couch. After being unable to sleep on the one his mom gave him but passed out instantly on Eddie's where he ran to feel safe.
If people think this is all, somehow, an accident or the writers are doing this without knowing what they're doing, then I can't help you. Do you also think the symbolism I put into my fanfics are a total accident? Do you guys think I picked the name of the poem "Fuchsia Emerald Alizarin Rose" just because the colors are fun and they accidentally spell out F.E.A.R. or do you think maybe I did that absolutely 100% on purpose and was waiting for someone to realize?
Buck saying that to Eddie is 100% supposed to make the audience raise their eyebrows. Especially when we see Eddie's reaction. He's confused and he's hurt and he's annoyed. Eddie then spends his next few lines showing Buck (and us) that he sees Buck. Buck misses it, it goes right over his head, but the audience is shown that Buck is wrong and Eddie sees him.
I think there was a lot of internal stuff going on behind the scenes way high up the ladder that meant Buddie didn't happen this season. No, I don't mean that in a tinhatting way, I just mean that they knew Fox wouldn't renew them, they didn't know if they'd get picked up somewhere else, Fox hasn't promoted or cared about this show the way it has its other shows in a while, and I think it's pretty clear there was shuffling and changes going on with 6B. So I think things had to be put off. Similar to the pandemic, where I genuinely wonder what kind of season four we would've gotten if we'd had the full 18 episodes and hadn't had to work around Covid. I think that when we know there was a big shift going on behind the scenes, we need to have some grace and patience in how that will effect the story that's told on screen.
But I think that this default to "everything good we see on our screens is an accident and the writers are making shitty choices" is a horrible bad faith argument, and it's exhausting. Aren't you exhausted? I'm exhausted. Fandom shouldn't treat the writing and production team like their enemies any more than the writing and production team should treat the fans like their enemies in some kind of war they have to win (looking at you, GoT showrunners).
We are supposed to be annoyed that Buck is missing the point. We are supposed to see Buck's yearning to be a husband and a father, and how he's missing what's right in front of him. We are supposed to put two and two together and see that Eddie was hurt by Buck's words, that Eddie sees Buck, that Eddie is Buck's safe place, and that Eddie in that moment decided he might not have a chance with Buck and needs to move on, because previously we saw Eddie admit he wants romance again but he doesn't want to go out on dates, we saw his aunt say she met her husband through work, we saw him say 'we have time' and then we saw him immediately after Buck tells him about this new girl who "sees him" flee to visit his mother and then immediately actually try dating. On a meta level this is also because Eddie needs confidence in himself as a romantic partner and needs some more experience under his belt before he's ready to take the plunge with Buck, but in Eddie's mind, I think it's pretty clear he feels Buck will never want him back and he's trying to find the love he wants somewhere else, even if his heart is still Buck's.
So that's what I think. I think it's not explicitly spelled out for a few reasons, but frankly if one of them was a woman we wouldn't need it explicitly spelled out and personally I kinda like that it's not. Something that annoys me with M/F pairings is the constant "we all know you two like each other" talks from third parties that half the time aren't about the characters but are about the audience, to either tell the audience SEE THEY LIKE EACH OTHER THAT'S WHAT THIS IS ABOUT or to give the audience some fanservice while the characters aren't ready to get together. I don't need to be pandered to that way, thank you, so I'm a fan of the slightly more subtle approach that I, personally, see going on with Buddie.
If you or anyone else disagrees with me and feels it was just "piss poor writing" then that's entirely your right. I'd just appreciate it if people who feel that way would stop watching the show, and stop putting their complaints into the inboxes of people who clearly do enjoy the show.
TL;DR - You answered your own question, Buck is an unreliable narrator (and always has been) and we are supposed to be frustrated he said this to Eddie who has proven time and again (and does so in that very scene) that he sees Buck.
#lincoln answers things#911 meta#I'd be a lot more open to talking about 6B and the writing#if I felt people understood how much things were clearly going on BTS#and that affected what happened on our screens#and if people were acting in good faith and trusting the writers#I agree that all the fun meta and speculation can become a bit uh#red-string-board for sure#I've seen and even playfully reblogged stuff that I felt was stretching it a bit#but I don't think it's conspiracy thinking or anything of that nature#to assume the writers are able to see what they're putting up on our screens#or that everything good about Buddie is on purpose instead of some happy accident#or that the writers wouldn't do all this stuff if they didn't have the intention of making Buddie canon#because honestly this sort of stuff going on with Buddie I have only seen in two other situations#1. a Xena type situation where the writers could not make it canon but wanted to so did everything else they could get away with#or 2. there was a schism among the powers that be and some or most of the BTS team wanted it but there were others#who did not and so there's a BTS tug of war going on#personally the 911 team seems really united so I don't think it's 2 and I doubt it's 1 but if it is 1 I think the move to ABC will fix that#I think it's more likely it's not 1 or 2 but BTS issues affecting various storylines and writing#(for example when was the last time Athena got a real character arc that lasted a full season like everyone else?)#(when was the last time Athena had genuine growth?)#(I feel like she's mostly the same person she was in season one compared to everyone else's leaps and bounds)#(and that's simply because Angela has been insanely busy filming in other places so she might be in every episode)#(but they can't usually make her a big FOCUS of a season because she hasn't been available)#but I would really like people to presume that maybe just maybe#the people whose careers it is to tell these stories know how to tell these stories#and that not everything we are shown or told by characters should be taken at face value#and that the writers want the audience to do the math themselves#without having to spell everything out constantly#anyway I fucking hate my job and I'm not sleeping well and I'm fucking exhausted so I'm gonna start charging for asks like these
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how do yall write confessions without simply just saying 'I LIKE YOU' :)
#☼.txt#last night when i was doing the dishes i was thinking about this too bc#i really am not the sort who is good with words of affirmation#giving them or receiving them#like yeah i like being TOLD im good give me praise all you want i DO have a big ego sometimes but#not like i dont need it as a form of connection? if thats the right way to explain it idk.#this has been a point of conflict in past relationships#& now when im trying to like. WRITE UP A CUTE NOTE TO THE PERSON I LIKE ! IN A FRIENDLY MANNER ! IM LIKE#I FEEL LIKE. IM KNOCKING ON MY BRAIN. HELLOOOO IS ANYONE IN THERE HELLOOOO#WHILE IM ALSO SITTING AT THE DESK IN MY BRAIN WEATHERED AND WITHERING AND TEARING MY FUCKING HAIR OUT <3#simply put this is a post complaining about my lack of ability to be uh.... poetic on purpose in relationships <3#annoyed and embarrassed and shoving my face into my pillow. im a fool <3#but EYE dont need it as my form of connection/affection ** goodness. sorry im not wearing my glasses which makes it hard to focus on words
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positively despising how my consistent personality is leaving me and how i resort to such strange lies
#random thoughts#i write this on the cold tile floor of a place that has yet to hear my wailing screams. this is a lie. i am in bed#if my writing were anywhere near kafkaesque i don't think i'd be doing very well. but how i do admire his work#i read quite a bit. my bookshelves one day shall be piled with the works of authors such as anne rice. oscar wilde (and franz kafka himself#though this is the 21st century. what of modern fiction ? what of modern nonfiction ? i've made myself into someone#whose vocabulary is strangely extensive. we could argue that i've been this person all along#a sort of “gifted child” perhaps. except. i don't fucking use words like perhaps#as. not as. because this is a mockery of the self#how to put it less concisely ? i sound so old. “so mature for [my] age.”#i'm a very strange sort of person and when i stand alone in the water my screaming takes the form of beautiful song. but#how i long to stop the sound and choke it out into something strangled with my very own fingers. my essence is poetry#and therefore all that i am is poetry. i am so beautiful#my face and my body and everything we are made of#to spill the essence of poetry in the form of something more human. blood or spit or tears or vomit#i am so very interested in human function. what am i saying i'm being strange on purpose? but i like being strange#and this is how you see me now. my eccentric persona(lity) does not make me special at all. i'm not doing very well#i never am to tell the truth. it is getting so hard to prove my humanity and i'm starting to feel rather artificial#i have nothing to show proof of humanity such as blood or spit or tears or vomit#but then again i am simply being dramatic. i'm just being dramatic. that's it#i am just a boy and just a puppet and just how i present to others#i am pleasant. i am charming. i am robotic. i am awkward. i am cultured. i am weird. i am almost a person#my fingers are so thin. i've always been inhuman. they have their blood and spit and tears and vomit#and i have nothing but i think i like those words quite a bit. and i am watching the numbers raise higher. notifications. pretty things#i'm sorry i'm acting like this. acting. acting. actingactingactingidon't know what's brought it on#i speak so strangely. maybe i should try something else. i shall go to sleep and pretend that nothing happened. which it did. let me#bstvlpeooiamotridst . you have the words. i've been purposely alternating every three tags to write blood and spit and tears and vomit#i like patterns very much what else can i say. patterns are. pretty. though pretty isn't a word that fits into my extensive vocabulary#it should be buried at the bottom rather. what's a nicer way. i'm not actually sure#if you've made it this far please kindly say hello. otherwise that's alright#we've arrived to form our pattern again and i don't actually feel very much. bloodspit tearsvomit
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None of this is changing how hype I am for NiF 3, which will apparently feature Wu Lei in some capacity.
#this rewatch really got me on the langya family front#i honestly wish we'd gotten more time with lin chen#mr who the fuck is lin shu himself#very fun contrast to jingyan#also I think if Jingyan had the chance to really see him with mcs he would die a thousand deaths#not even jealous just devastated#happy lin shu had a life and a person he could confide in a trust and uno#look after a kid with#who can offer him a life of freedom and adventure#and a dad who looks after him instead of uno. trying to murder him a bunch#agony! agony to see someone who looks at his beloved from the other side#don't worry baby u r all equal in his eyes#like in the eleventh hour we think woah is there someone mcs loves as an equal who doesn't need to be lied to and managed#whose devotion he doesn't run from? who he can stand to be honest with?#and then at the twelfth hour it's just like: nah#people who love lin shu love a dead man I need to be inviolate and untainted with what I've become#people who love Mei Changsu simply have bad taste and will be excited to meet my old self#who I can stand to inhabit for the purpose of dying#idk idk I really do just want him to sort his shit out#but I do think it's interesting that even in the happiest of endings#he can't be lin chen's wanderer and nihuang's husband and Jingyan's it's complicated all at once#pick two and it can't be lin chen and jingyan#the rancid polycule vibes of the previous generation are absolutely chasing them#consort jing like: love flourishes in unexpected places. build it where you can. and then there is my husband#objectively my worst and least favourite companion
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ah shit here comes my tendency for dropping unknowable gods into my fics who have plans that are beyond humanity’s goals
#HEAD IN HANDS EMOJI#sorry i just love musing over the nature of humanity in these sorts of themes#what is humanity in the grand cosmos#what is our purpose why do we exist etc etc and is it okay to simply want to survive#can someone slap my hand and tell me to stop including cosmic horror into my fics i am begging#can we grow beyond our purposes even? can we imvent ourselves into something? can we grow beyond our scope?#or are we simply satisfied in our insignificance. we are simply organisms we thrive we die and life goes on it gives us meaning#as opposed to the stagnation of death#maybe we dont need a meaning maybe just existing is fine enough#what blood.borne does to a person
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