#should i expose myself...?

[jaarijani]

being in the k/jo fandom: a moodboard

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

[mysicklove]

wish nanami was older 😔😔😔

[perianthkat]

I reread something recently :3

ID: Shen Qingqiu from scum villain's self-saving system saying "The masculine urge to mold myself into a blimp and fly Binghe to wherever his little heart desires <3" while in the back Shang Qinghua from the same novel says "this is not a masculine urge this is not any urge you are Clinically Insane" while looking extremely confused.

[like-the-rest-of-la]

Happy Little Accidents

The last thing Eddie Diaz expects to come out of his trip to Buckley’s Plant Nursery & Landscaping with his son, is to develop an honest to god schoolgirl crush on the guy who owns the place (and not notice that that is what’s happening for an embarrassingly long time).  

The plan is simple. Get in, have Christopher pick out a couple of succulents or whatever he needs for his school project, and get out without infesting any of the gorgeous plants in the shop with his bad plant karma. 

But then, the first thing he’s greeted with is a hunk of a man, carrying two heavy packs of soil on his broad shoulders. Eddie swears he can see a drop of sweat running down the man’s face in slow motion. His t-shirt looks like it’s one strategic muscle flex away from bursting at the seams and Eddie—Eddie feels nervous all of the sudden. And he’s gaping like a fish. 

“Hey,” Hunk-man says as he hoists the soil on the counter next to him with a grunt, “What can I help you with?”

At least Eddie has enough self-awareness to close his mouth.

Or: the one where Buck owns a plant nursery and Eddie stumbles through his crush (and has no game during all of it)—oh and also, there are a lot of Bob Ross references.

Read on Ao3

(With a banner by the wonderful @theladyyavilee thank you so so so much <3)

[kismetmoon]

that’s her officer, thats the woman who lived in my head rent free for over half a decade

[Plain text ID: A monochrome bust drawing of Nora Vigenere, a stylized, original Flatland character. She has dark grey skin, a large eye with a slit pupil in place of a head, a sharp point on top of her eye, long eyelashes and a teardrop-shaped necklace with a silver frame and a black gem in the middle. She is looking to the right with a neutral expression. End ID.]

[keenadraws]

her angst is entertaining

[timetravellingkitty]

Babe, based on what kind of shows and movies I already like, what kind of anime would you recommend for me? I wanna start watching anime and I have no idea where to start

Despite the fact that it's gonna 2 years since our mutualship I can't really think of an anime to watch based on what you like (that's on me I suck at vibe checking tbh) but I can give you a place to start. For example, the hit anime Death Note

[nostalgia-tblr]

i mentioned this in a discord server and nobody seemed to agree but do other native english speakers ever kind of second-guess a word (in this instance 'smitten') because you don't know where it came from but it's just got the... the "vibes" let's say... of something old and Germanic and so you stop for a moment and think "I do not trust all of these vowels. I may be 'smitten' now but in mere moments I could be 'smoten' or 'smattened' or - woden forbid - attacked by an entire herd of 'smeep'."

i think having done german as a second language didn't help (geholpt? gehalpen? helpierendenenen????) but surely someone out there gets me on this? your gut knows the warning signs of an irregular verb or plural form and your brain says "don't worry, mate, i've got this" but the gut panics a bit and starts demanding "are you sure? what if you've getted it wrong this time?"

must the mouses of uncertainty always threaten my carefully-built hice of knowledge???😭

[kabukeo]

tonight's little doodles

[stockcarbaby24]

tagged by @kazoologist to post my lockscreen, homescreen, last song i listened to, and a pretty picture!

1. Lockscreen: Been really feeling the Fire Emblem vibes lately (Iris if you're seeing this, you know why lmaoooo) so I changed my stuff to some old reliables from my fav game. Never graduating from the weeb with anime characters as her backgrounds even as an adult(tm)

2. Homescreen: Chrom Fire Emblem Awakening you will always be my one true love 💙

3. Last Song: NEVER BEATING THE WEEB ALLEGATIONS HOLY SHIT. If y'all following this blog thought I wasn't a massive nerd surprise I guess.

4. Pretty Picture: The view from my in-laws place when I was on vacation last week, heehee💜

Tagging uhhhh @endowataru @nico-di-genova & @raapija if any of you want (sorry to annoy you with this post if not lmao)

[2aceofspades]

... i decoded the Morse Code

Should I be scared?

Nononono I can explain!

Okay, so I hope I explain this well, but I was watching Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse. And, um...I got emotional, so I had to take a break to draw. That's why I drew this:

I was feeling feels so I just...drew...? And I used morse code just cuz. That's all.

Actually...the solo Raph sketch and the page of Raph and Leo were all done on breaks from watching the movie...heh. So...no need to be scared, don't worry 👍✨

[omppupiiras]

i screen recorded me drawing this 😬, so if you'd like to watch my process and listen to some käärijä music, click here 🙊 (i thought it would be fun to watch back for me, i dunno if it is for anyone else lol)

reference

[anxiously-sidequesting]

My recent take has inspired me to make a list of Wizard101's most fuckable spells. I will regret this when I'm elderly.

[funzige-gedachten]

I just had a panic attack and decided to rewatch this year’s Eurovision…. That was the greatest plan ive had in a while, who knew i could throw my emotions around that quick.

[whumpshaped]

guys whenever i post a prompt and in the tags u liken the behaviour to someone u know irl...... first of all im sending hugs second of all please let it stay a fantasy why do u think im writing abt it in the first place😭😭😭😭😭