#shitty self esteem
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lowkey begging for someone to just come along and end me
yay
not actually going to do it, but the thoughts just keep onnnn coming
oh what fun
#vent incoming#mental health#spiraling#personal vent#vent#vent blog#venting#i have mental issues#mental issues#bad mental health#shitty self esteem#bad self esteem#i wanna kms
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while we're on the subject of "morty-prime teamup" what if there was another two crows situation
#rick and morty#prosh/p dni#morty smith#rick sanchez#this is based on the scene at the end of the 2 crows ep#but ummm i think rick would be much more irritable?#like morty very passively just accepted the situation but i feel like rick would start to double down and kind of revert back to his more-#'iconic' personality of just you know. being awful#like obviously he understands morty is justified and i think on some level even agrees with him#but guys. He is so codependent and So shitty. like he cannot express these feelings properly#and like. Improving as a person isnt a linear process Like i appreciate rick making an effort to be better#but just... Getting Better right away is not how it works really#like idk. if rick starts feeling desperate i dont think its unrealistic to imagine he unconsciously starts behaving 'in his comfrot zone'#he starts throwing insults and telling morty hes stupid. generally trying to kick down his sense of self esteem#BECAUSE HE GENUINELY IS SCARED OF BEING ALONE#or like. Not having control over being alone you know#my art
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actually that's made me incredibly curious & I feel like I'm gonna know the answer
#I have the feeling it's gonna be other people and self esteem#w a dash of eating disorder#but everyone acts like losing weight would solve our problems#and that it's all health related#but :)#nah my biggest hurdle being fat has been other people's shittiness#which is a them problem and I won't be changing myself to make others happy
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Whole ass scenes missing from the YouTube version of Be My Favorite's sixth episode.
YouTube is not making Kawi look great, while the unedited version is trying to make us sympathetic to his issues.
Someone at YouTube got beef with Kawi.
Which makes sense why Kawi was saying this while looking at Pisaeng.
#be my favorite#be my favorite the series#it makes sense why Kawi was upset#all his elders think he is shitty and they tell him to his face#Kawi and his poor self esteem
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Here are the results of my dkos kdj cosplay!!!
#I barely ever post anything about my own stuff because my shitty self-esteem is like shut up but I'm so fucking proud of this cosplay!!!!!#coolest person at the con for sure xD#orv#omniscient reader's viewpoint#cosplay#kdj#kim dokja#dkos#dkos kdj#demon king of salvation
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this is a question for the trans men/transmascs (or anyone not cis that this can apply to).
(not a dig at cis allies btw! this is just me going mm society again i promise i appreciate u 😭 feel free to talk about the trans ppl in ur life. and buy us a blåhaj.)
#my answer - yes unfortunately (though i have paranoia/shitty self esteem/dysphoria so thats definitely playing into it)#i worry that i'm seen as a 'lite' version of a man or a 'safe man' just bc im trans#i get it bc women/non men deserve to feel safe around the men in their lives#BUT i'd rather be seen as a 'safe' man because of my personality and how i view/treat women - not bc of my trans status#lgbtq#transgender#trans#transmasc#ftm
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Probably one of the worst birthdays in recorded history.
#non sims#although I will say it's been great for my self esteem#because no matter who shitty I feel I am#I saw what the right wanted and said absolutely fucking not#which means I am actually not a bad person#because many people apparently think it's great#bully for them#I hope they get exactly what he promised#and I hope they hate regret and resent themselves for it for the rest of their fucking lives
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A lot of “how to have a happy marriage” advice is to have sex as often as possible, which is stupid as fuck. If you both wanna fuck, good for you, have at it. But also: Find forms of personal intimacy with your spouse that are not sex, not foreplay, not ‘maybe this will lead to sex’, because I guarantee that you and your spouse will have periods in your life where you just don’t want to fuck.
Making sex a vital necessity to be happy together will turn it into an obligation and a chore, which will ruin your relationship. A sex obligation will create needless arguments, allow room for insecurities and resentment to develop and fester, and generally make living together exhausting and miserable.
Find ways to be intimately close without the expectation of sex.
#'but i don't want to be in a sexless marriage' idk buddy maybe don't get married then#being with someone who only fucks you because they feel like they have to sounds pretty shitty imo#that will fuck up your self esteem their self esteem and ruin everything you could have had#why fuck things up when you could find intimate alternatives to lean on when one or both of you aren't in the mood?#and get this: it's like reverse psychology for libido!#the less you expect and demand sex -while maintaining other forms of intimacy- the more likely your spouse will want to have sex regularly
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honestly it's been really healing being back to actively contributing things and writing out thoughts on tumblr the last week or so, because while twitter tends to be easier for me to write out Thoughts on without getting overwhelmed, the environment in the twitter fandom circles i'm interested in is not only infested with antis but cliqueish in a way that is caustic to the fucking soul if you try to express a thought that's more than three sentences long--a hundred times over if you're autistic in slightly the wrong way--and it's incredibly reassuring to come back to an environment where the very kindest and most inclusive people toward you are not clearly thinking the r-slur the entire time they interact with you lmao
#whosebaby talks#took an incident of just open petty cruelty the other day for me to finally go#you know what all of this is doing a huge number on my self-esteem and scrupulosity and social anxiety and mental health overall#sometimes it pays to hold out and give the benefit of the doubt#when your knee-jerk reaction is to think something Must Be a Sign of Shitty Intent; bc often it will turn out that wasn't the case at all#but unfortunately sometimes it turns out people are in fact just being shitty in exactly the way you thought they were#and at the *very* best you are incompatible in such a way that if they don't have bad intentions you're just never going to be able to tell#or well. not even necessarily bad *intentions*; just shitty behavior that's harmful to you regardless of whether they mean well#sometimes you just gotta accept that even if neither of you *is* being shitty it's not worth your peace of mind to never be able to confirm#and it's better to just save both of you the stress and not try to pursue that.#it fuckin sucks when it's people you think are cool and really want to get to know; it's a hard lesson to learn; but it's the way sometimes#......and then sometimes the confirmation you finally get is that yeah okay this is some bullshit#and not in a way that can likely be communicated past; no matter how much effort you make to be kind; clear; and mature#and being publicly humiliated for carefully trying to yes-and some clarification on meta of mine#which was being used in ways i was deeply uncomfortable with; and had had no warning would take the turn that it did#and which was contributing to the original post gaining traction in the first place#all targeted in ways pretty much tailor-made to hurt someone with specific issues they had seen me talk about + acknowledged#was just. yeah i think i'm done here lmao#i am Not someone who takes down meta once posted#so the fact that it was bad enough to make me delete an entire thread really says something lol#anyway. lots of other context there; and i appreciate that in some ways the person was genuinely trying to be kind; but i'm. yeah.#that shit Hurted Extremely; and made me realize that while i'm not the *most* well-socialized or articulate or approachable#there is just something in the water over there and no amount of The Problem Not Being Me would have mattered#and the nice asks/replies/comments i've gotten both recently and during hibernation make me feel warm inside; thank y'all <3#the salt files#bullying cw#ableism cw
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Old draft i found and wanted to post!!!
monodeku AU fic idea thing where people can fuse (like steven universe gem fusing minus the gems) but ONLY if they have a strong emotional bond.
its their second year of highschool, and the two are friends (monoma swears they arnt). they bonded over their shared appreciation for quirks and such.
At some point they are on patrol and izuku's danger sense goes off for some reason (maybe something falling, maybe a villan idk, haven't thought of the details) so he grabs monoma in a panic to help him avoid the danger.
but instead of moving him they accidentally fuse.
after the initial panic of "oh god what why did we fuse" (mostly from monoma) they have to head back to campus. but the issue is, they don't know how to unfuse.
another thing, i came up with their fusion quirk!!
Its called "copy and paste". basically, it works like copy but the user can give the copies to other people as well as using the copies themselves. the time limit still applies for the copy and the paste.
#monodeku#monoma neito#neito monoma#izuku midoriya#midoriya izuku#mha#bnha#I actually came up with the quirk idea before the fusion idea#i just realized that it would fit their fusion really well#they do unfuse eventually#but then that leads to some interesting conversations and feelings#how i feel after coming up with the best fic ideas but never writing them#Since fusion is a product of strong emotional bonds i bet monoma thought he wouldn't fuse with anyone like ever#and izuku “i have horrible self esteem” midoriya thought the same thing for himself#but for slightly different reasons#monoma and his “im a shitty person and people dont like me so i wont ever fuse”#and izuku with his “people probably find me annoying and ill be too busy being a hero to fuse”#the strong emotional bond can be platonic or romantic btw#in this context its romantic#theres alot of pining#and slowburn in this#and misscomunication#these fucks cannot talk to eachother about serious things for the life of them#imagine the teachers finding out#“okay so you fused” “yes” “#also thinking they might be 5#since monoma is 5#anti bakugou
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my turn to jump on that hazbin theory train
I don't know if it's been suggested before - and it probably was, cause it's kinda obvious, so not claiming originality here. but.
what does get a person into heaven/hell? and why the fuck The Ultimate Dick isn't burning like he obviously should be?
I used to binge watch lucifer, and the whole business with self-actualisation that got angels risen/fallen seems like it could totally apply to hazbin universe at large.
there's no council or judge or omnipotent automatic system to decide that a person is worthy of heaven/hell. instead, once they die, humans go where they themselves feel they should go
because, in general? bad people are usually aware on some level that they are bad, or that they at least aren't good people. no sinner in hell (to my knowledge) is in denial about being an asshole, they revel in it, they know they deserve it, and even if they didn't believe in the afterlife when they were alive, they still felt like if hell was real they belonged there. and no one in heaven doubts their placement either, because they're (mostly) the mentally stable ones who knew they did fine in life and felt good about themselves.
why did Adam go to heaven? because he genuinely believed he deserved it. every once in a while there are psychopaths and narcissists that are so beyond the concept of remorse or basic self-awareness that they not just don't care how fucked up they are - they honestly don't even recognize any of their shit behaviors as such, and therefore slip through the cracks. and nobody looks twice, because they not just don't know to do so, they can't fathom that they would need to.
that also explains why people like Angel Dust, who I'd argue was a better person than The Dick Master even before his redemption, went to hell. not just cause Adam had much less opportunities to sin than Anthony, but because the latter was traumatized and convinced that he deserved eternal damnation.
that's how we get enough psychos in heaven to fill up the exorcist ranks and enough broken, desperate victims in hell to fill up the overlord's pockets.
that, or the entire theory is shit, there is an actual metric and Adam was a good person initially but went insane after thousands of years from sheer boredom like many of us probably would. idk, i'm not a lore expert.
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel theory#hazbin hotel thoughts#self actualization#in which shitty self esteem can literally fuck up your whole afterlife for you
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I am a q!Phil defender till I die. Also I would like to add that if Phil gets a message when he isn't looking, chat will have to go “PHIL CHAT LOOK CHAT MESSAGE CHAT YOU GOT A MESSAGE” before he actually checks. So we could have had a convo with q!Tubbo and q!phil but cc!phil doesn't check his messages unless it physically appears in front of him.
#qsmp philza#I WILL DEFEND HIM TILL I DIE#NO CAP#YES THE TWEETS ARE FROM ME#AND YES BOLAS MAY HAVE A VICTIM COMPLEX#BUT THATS ONLY BECAUSE THEY COMPARE THEMSELVES TO SOULFIRE WHO IN THEIR EYES HAS EVERYTHING#THEY VIEW SOULFIRE AS SCARY AND RICH AND POWERFUL#SO THEY ENVY THEM#SO THEY COMIT CRIMES BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE#THAT SOULFIRE WOULD DO IT TO THEM#BASED ON PAST EVIDENCE#WITH SOULFIRE’S LIKE THREE DIFFERENT BREAK INS#SO ITS WARRENTED#AND IN MY OPINION ITS SOULFIRES FAULT THEY HAVE A VICTIM COMPLEX#BUT THEY ALL HAVE SHITTY SELF ESTEEM ISSUES#SO IT REALLY DOESNT HELP#BUT NEITHER DOES BAD#THAT FUCKER#I HOPE HE GETS REPURCUSSIONS TO HIS MASS MURDERS AND STAKING#SLASH POS#BUT ALSO SLASH GEN
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it's probably the sunnier weather that's doing stuff to my brain to make me more optimistic but it's so interesting having a brain that craves a lot of self-fulfillment to the point where I can move past some hang-ups around perfection by going "oh I really wanna do that though" and then I do it well because researching how to do it right is also a rewarding part of the process
#it comes with the double edged sword of dropping projects as soon as they become a bit more involved/difficult#or when they don't feel fulfilling#but maybe it's better to take a break and come back to something with new knowledge ?#maybe it's good that my brain has a built in 'if it sucks hit da bricks' function ?#i just wish that i had more stamina for these things when they start lacking intrinsic rewards#it just feels like compared to my other family members i lose steam very very quickly and since we all have the same disorder i should be-#- 'just as capable'... but honest to god my under-activity feels SO severe#it honestly feels like compared to others my threshold for mental exhaustion is half the normal benchmark it should be#you know how there were studies done that found that 4 hours is the maximum amount of time people can work before a decline in efficiency?#i swear to god when the activity is something i have no internal reward for it takes 1-2 hours for that decline to start. and my brain -#- crashes HARD. my eyes start to glaze over. i start forgetting how to speak. my brain starts acting like it's 2-3 am and that i need to -#- sleep. i don't push myself not because i coddle myself but because i perform WAY worse. my work becomes unintelligible#or if it's some other kind of task (such as cleaning) my brain desperately tries to take shortcuts in order to get it done#i am trying to avoid a situation where i have to fix up the shitty job i did after the fact!#it's just kind of crazy to me how this is viewed as laziness LOL 'you did a bad job!' because i was pushed past my limit!#not to mention... i get burned out for DAYS if i push myself too hard. i am trying to conserve my efficiency#if you want me to do a better job... i need more time. and trust me: i'll do an excellent job if you let me rest#i am a very smart and capable person who cares about doing a good job - and i have a fine eye for smaller details as well#the trade-off here is i'll need some time to find joy and fulfillment somewhere else for a little bit while i rest. let me excel ok?#idk where this high self esteem came from other than like. realizing i wrote an entire research proposal in such short time#while receiving positive feedback with very few notes for improvement. i just sat down an added another section today based on -#-feedback and realized like 'wait. i know what i'm doing and i probably care about this far more than the average classmate'#i've been having a lot of thoughts lately and i sort of want to get to the bottom of how i have a difficult time coping w/ burnout#and i also want to figure out how to offset the costs of the stuff i need to do... it's a process
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Second oc apart of the "Feelings" set-a series of drawings dissecting different parts of myself, to try and help how I've been feeling lately
Her name is Julie, she's 21 and she's a star. At least that's what everybody says. Her parents say it. The crowd says it. But some people say the opposite. She listens to the opposite. Sometimes she spirals because she thinks she's not a star. Other stars are starting to shine brighter then her. She doesn't like that. She looks down on them. They don't deserve the love she gets. They aren't worthy of it.
#eva talkz#Oc#Oc art#Artists on tumblr#digital art#Shes the part of me who gets jealous easily#And also the part with shitty self esteem#My self esteem is so ass I asked like 8 of my friends if they were mad at me during an anxiety attack#Lexapro...save me lexaproo
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like, it's not even about sabrina tbqh. i see this narrative pop up a lot about "well if this sex symbol celebrity can be cheated on, none of us are safe" and it's so fucking frustrating!!!!!!!
like, first of all, people do not cheat because their partners have failed to keep their attention somehow. there are really only two reasons people cheat, they either a) want an ego boost or b) don't care about their current partner enough to be honest about their desire to fuck other people.
i just don't like this narrative because frankly, men who cheat like to date insecure women. or really just like any cheater ever.
insecure women are more likely to forgive them for their behavior and that's why these people who like to abuse trust in relationships seek out partners who do not understand their own worth.
the best way to prevent yourself from being cheated on is to know your worth. there are always red flags you ignore when dating a cheater because you want to believe the best in people and trust your partners etc. but you should love yourself enough to not make up excuses for partners who are not living up to your standards.
it's okay to have standards and it's okay to leave relationships at the first sign of trouble [i mean real trouble like they lie to you or keep "accidentally" ghosting you]. if you employ this attitude of "i know what im worth and will not settle for less" you don't stick around shitty people long enough to give them a chance to cheat on you.
like, im just... tired of people being like "well she's gorgeous... what chance do us "normies" have" because first of all, she's pretty yes but babe... that's a shit ton of make up. she looks good because she puts in hours of work on her face every day.
and also, it's not about looks.
its not about the partner.
it's always about the cheater's cowardice and fucked up personality that causes them to cheat.
#personal#cheating#i am not saying u can always leave before shit like this happens to u#i am saying women especially should get their self esteem up bcuz that is no 1 to weed out shitty partners quick
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My life been so fucking hellish and I don’t wanna get personal but I’m praying to god my birthday redeems this month even if it’s not gonna save this year at all I’m just so upset this year has been shit after shit like damn I know this is life but when am I gonna get a fucking break (tags will give some clarification but it’s abuse subject so don’t read if you don’t wanna hear that)
#meg text#vent post#might delete later#I can’t get into details but know I sadly do not live in the best household#I’m not at the risk of being thrown out thank god but it’s not mentally stable#my parents be like “let’s crush your self esteem even MORE by not treating you like a person”#and I think that’s all I can give away without saying anymore#but it’s not wonder I like robots so much (in the not human regard)#also ahaha this isn’t my first batch of abuse trauma cause I had a shitty ex#and I just got over them only for my parents to become significantly worse
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