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Rereading everblaze has been so interesting and I could talk about it for so long but I’m goin to talk about this specific part that had me SOBBING when I first read it (and again the SECOND time I’ve read but for a different reason)
And this is also a reason to complain about the council (I hate them all) (yes ALL of them)
Tw mentions of eating disorders and suicide 

“Instead, all we find is wrong." He turned to stare at Sophie, making it clear he included her in that wrongness,”
I want to talk about this part first before the rest because I find it really interesting. (And because the other parts will be longer) It’s clear to me that the cancel is afraid of Sophie in some kind of way they find her threatening even though she’s proven all she wants to do is help. They’re scared because they know her existence threatens there’s she’s the savior that’s supposed to fix’s the wrongs of their world.their wrongs they know there’s another group out there they know that’s the group that kidnapped Sophie and Dex but instead they fixated oh the black swan because to them it threateners there power and control. they feel the need to keep Sophie under control they need to keep her under their control.
“Sophie foster is not normal.” She closed her eyes as the words rattled around her mind”
This part comes a bit before the first one but that’s because I knew I wanted to talk more about this specifically it hits heard for a couple of reasons I’ll get into.
Gosh…. This part man :( ok let’s start with the fact that the lost cities was a place that was supposed to be where she belong it was supposed to make her feel normal and safe but instead she met with same kind of hate that she got from the humans. Sophie to me feels like a fallen gifted kid someone who was able to get to the top of her class now at the bottom and shamed for it. It wasn’t her fault that she could read minds as a kid and not know how to stop them it wasn’t her fault that she never grew up in the lost cities to learn the ruins everyone grew up learning. And yet they still shame her, for not being normal not being like them because she grew up with humans because she some kind of lab rat someone that’ll hurt there kids and them
They never see her for the child that she is the smart brave funny individual who’s saved their lives more then once no. Because she not normal. she doesn’t act right
As someone who neurodivergent this hits really hard I was constantly told when I was younger by my peers that I was weird. And I’m sure most people who are neurodivergent have a similar experience of being treated differently just because you’re not normal.. 
 “She closed her eyes as the words rattled around her mind”
For so long she been called not normal by almost everyone around her her human mother (even if she never said it to her face) her classmates in school and her classmates now In The place she was told was perfect and safe and were she belong.
GOSH I JUST WANT TO GRAB THEM AND THROW THEM AT THE SUN DIE
She deserves to live a happy life for once :(
“It wasn't until he raised it over her head that she realized what was happening.”
“Two of the Council's bodyguards rushed to her sides, holding her in place as Councillor Emery clamped” the silver band around her forehead.
“The circlet was Dex's telepathy restrictor.”
“The Council was trying to take away her abilities.”
This part makes me sick SICK this was the part that I cried at when I first read it. The realization of what was happening to her felt like I was being hit by a truck. The fact that the council had there bodyguards hold her In Place …… UGHHHHHGGH I want to fall them to in a ditch I swear. they were trying to make her talentless in a weird fucj up way to control her if wasn’t for the fact that her powers are so strong they would’ve forcefully made her disabled. Because that’s what talentless elf’s are to them. It’s how they treat them. It’s how they treat Dexs dad it’s how they treated Brant
I can’t imagine the horror and fear Sophie felt in that moment they had other options but no the reason they chose this one is because they knew it was the best way to keep her under control.
“She knew it was slumberberry tea even before she saw the purple color, and she drank it gladly, downing the whole thing and hoping it knocked her out for a few years—decades-the rest of eternity.”
How do you fuck up so badly that you get a girl WHO REFUSES to drink any kinda of sleeping drug do to the trauma of being kidnapped and drugged against her will. To DOWN like ten of them because of the pain and trauma you’ve brought her.
HOW CAN YOU CAN YOU NOT SEE HOW F UP THAT IS
“Edaline tried to get her to eat something, but she wasn’t hungry”
“All she wanted was more tea.”
I’m thinking back to this post I saw were someone mentioned that Sophie shows a lot of signs of eating disorders. And here it pretty prevalent. Her avoiding eating and avoiding the waking world to me in way makes me think she could be suicidal. She obviously depressed and ashamed. She feels like she should be disowned by her friends and family because she useless now. Or well in her eyes she is. 
“begging begging begging her to wake.”
“So she dove deeper into her drug-induced haze, wishing she could find her way back to the nook in her mind and stay there forever. She'd been happy there.”
“Safe.”
This is where I see it most. All she wants to do is hide in this drug-induced haze, wanting to go back to the nook in her head were she felt Saft warm and happy. But once the drug wears off she back in the living full of a pain and heartache. Where she feels utterly useless and broken. All she want to do is be happy. But because the council are all absolute idiots they decided to make her life a living hell!!! I’ll still never forgive Bronte for inflicting her In Exil still one of the most F up things he’s done.
Anyways I’m tired and if I try to write more it might not come across right oop just know I hate the council !!!
Thanks for reading my nonsense I hope I made sense or a least made a good analysis :D

#the council to me are cowards#they pretend not to know what’s right in front of there eyes#because they don’t want to break the already fragile system that they’ve built up#mind you#the very Flawed System#they hurts more people then it dose any good#I’m obsessed with the way Shannon wrote this system#its so Clear to me that they try so hard to convince you#they there world is Perfect#and that there perfect#when in reality there not#and Sophie proves that#her existing proves that there world is flawed#now that may sound weird BUT HEAR ME OUT#the reason the black swan made her#was because there world was so flawed they needed hope#and Sophie that hope#she the hope that one day#this world can be fair and good#idk maybe I’m just writing shit#keeper of the lost cities#kotlc fandom#kotlc#kotlc thoughts#sophie foster#kotlc everblaze#floof thoughts#Essay#personal essay
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Lucy celebrating her 31st birthday!
(I am manifesting getting to live to 30 as a trans woman)
#my art#lucy#art#transgender#trans#yay#i never see drawings of trans women above the age of 25#i am 24 now but i hope i can be 30 one day#privilege that many cis people dont realize they have is getting to see their body wrinkle#sh#tw sh#she has self harm scars but i want to depict her happy#because people with sh scars deserve happiness
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every single time (template from @mhuyo)
#sorry lemme just. **audiodramas**#the silt verses#the magnus archives#midnight burger#cry havoc! ask questions later#camlann#ethics town#fawx & stallion#find us alive#wooden overcoats#i hope this hasn't been done yet#my coworker asked for podcast recs the other day and i was halfway through my list before she mentioned the true crime ones she liked#and if we had any similar ones#also today my friend was like “oh you don't know these anime because you've been into podcasts lately huh?” and sounded confused about it#but also this isn't a dig at anyone who does like the podcasts shown on the other side i just googled top podcasts
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i firmly believe she got picked as a judge just to counteract his vibes
#genshin impact#nilou#alhaitham#art#fanart#based on that one scene where cyno is being cyno and shes so ^_^#meanwhile alhaitham....#that one dialouge where shes like (who do you thinks gonna win!!) and he goes (whoever does the challenge fastest)#my dude you are stuck there all day with her at least pretend to converse#hes law and order and shes there to keep the contestants encourages and hopeful#i still like to think they are the most unlikely of friends#i dont know how but they are#these two are also unironically my murder team#put nilous bloom with alhaithams crazy dendro application and every domain becomes trivial
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Dia dos namorados? Today!? NO!!!! Post aro Tsubomi right now
#Tsubomi is so cool I wish people talked more about her#what do you mean a common 14 yo girl was one of the people who resisted cult brainwashing the longest#while the entire city was under Dimple's control#just because SHE SAID NO????? and refused to do or take anything she didn't want to#and she somehow survived her day-to-day as the local school goddess even though people treat like a rival or a prize#an icon I hope she is happy wherever she went#anyways foreshortening killed me here and I had to reedit this twice because the hand was the wrong way#mp100#mob psycho 100#mp100 fanart#tsubomi takane#lalarts
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Eimmet High...temmiE high. OMG!
Part 28 || First || Previous || Next
--Full Series--
Next update may take...much longer! I have finals and an internship and not to mention I have to draw- A LOT :')
#Golly!#this is a shorter update but I wanted it to be that way. We've been in the house for a while. It's time to change some scenery!!#Chara using their game narrator voice like “golly!” and “amazing!”#Eimmet high :)) i was really hoping to be able to reference Temmie Chang here. An integral part of UT/DR!! She's awesome!#WE ARE OFFICIALLY ON Day 2 BABY#yes- there is still a little everyman easter egg as well as some other things... ;)#I tried so many new and different things for these panels. I was a little nervous implementing them. But im having a lot of fun with it!#i try to put my own artistic enjoyment above all other things :) its what I strive for.#Angle's landing day! excited for the festivities!#Chara is feeling stabby :)#loved detailing Chara's hand in the last page. When I detail the hands- just know shits getting real#I'm really happy with how I was able to redraw Toriel here. She showed up in the second part and that was it for 2 years -w-#so even if she's not a major character- I wanted to give her some good screen time <3#I did not make the Darkworld “Mayor” just for that one joke....but dang did it fit perfectly.#these 4 pages took longer than I wanted. I got burnt out with school and then finals came!!! AND ALSO EMAILS q-q#deltarune chara timeline#deltarune chara timeline comic#chara#asriel#kris#susie#toriel#tw cursing#cw cursing
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Happy mother's day...
#shoutout to all the mums. i know at least one of you mentioned kids in tags before so hope you had a good day! or will have.... timezones..#anyway did aunty lee know need to be included? no. but also yes. to me she did#stray kids#skz#bystay#createskz#lee know#lee minho#hwang hyunjin#yang jeongin#han jisung#linosource#sQz
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I love going out thrifting and a timid trans woman in passing whispers a little "I love your shirt ☺️"
I love being a source of safety for my community
#girlie was obviously like fresh out of the closet too#getting a total closet overhaul and trying to make herself as small as possible#i really hope one day she'll learn she doesnt need to be small. in the mean time i will take up and make space for her#bite me#butch#lesbian#queer#trans
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I just saw one of your fave games is What remains of Edith Finch and I’m so happy! I feel like its a lesser known game but i loved playing through it. I’m so happy to know more than just my small friend group know about this game!
Sorry this isn’t a question. Also want to say that you’re art is amazing and the development of the designs is so interesting to see. Also the way you draw intimate scenes have so much emotion to them. I love the Aj and rarity kissing comic so much, you can just feel their love for each other ;w;
Thank you so much!
I highly, highly, highly recommend What Remains of Edith Finch to anyone interested in narrative game experiences/"walking simulators." It's one of those games that was handcrafted with nothing but love. Every room you explore is just... real. The way the light flows in and makes the colors of the living room, the kitchen, the bedrooms glow. Playing the game is like walking through your childhood home as an adult and seeing how the dust clings to everything you once touched. Also genius-level gameplay mechanics, ones that can make you completely empathetic with the character you're embodying or feel completely complacent in their tragedy. It's really not fair to call it a walking simulator because it's so much more and so much smarter than that.Everyone talks about the fish one.
The theme of death and memory and storytelling and the burden of invisible trauma and self-fulfilling prophecies is so affecting too. The ending made me cry.
#detective-marshmallow#ask me#using this ask to seriously plug edith finch#and to talk about spoilers here#major major major spoilers#because i still think about walter. who saw something so awful and traumatic as a kid that he spend the next 40 years living right under hi#family. and everyone forgot about him#i think about the house. literally aching and creaking with the family's history of strange deaths#i think about sam. who had to grow up in an empty bedroom he once shared with his twin brother. and stare at the partitioned-off side#every single day#i think about edith. who knows she will have a child and knows she will die and continue the family curse but decides to live anyways#god edith didn't even make it to adulthood.#this game tears me up from the inside yet it's so full of love and fantasy and hope#it was honestly really helpful for my death anxiety.#don't fear death. one day you'll go. people will mourn. and then they'll tell stories about you.
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and i said “that's not a metal box that's my wife!”
#objectum#osor#techum#ag-500r youre my wife my one final destination and the day i have you in my arms is the day i achieve the utopian state of living#i love her so horribly i hope one day to show her how much she's loved and how valued she is#posic#old tech#objectum sexuality#objectophilia#[ PANASONIC AG-500r ]#[ ART ]#this is me btw!! self-insert or whateva but um yeah i look like that lawl
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You know what kills me. Via understandably feels like she's been left behind, like Stolas has chosen Blitz instead of her. That they've gone off and formed a relationship she can't be a part of.
And in the same episode as she confronts Stolas about that, she has no idea that the "shitty boyfriend" is daydreaming about not just having Stolas and his own daughter in his life, but about HAVING VIA THERE TOO.
Like I completely get why she thinks she's been left out, but the irony of the very guy she thinks is the cause of her exclusion, actually of his own accord, without prompting from anyone, yearning for her to be part of it, to become family.
It is killing me. In Blitz's perfect family daydream, he has TWO daughters, not just one. He's gonna love her so hard when she's willing to let him.
#stolitz#i hope i have made it clear before but if i see via hate it is an on sight block. that is NOT what this is.#the way she's feeling is completely understandable. I'm just sad that (unbeknownst to her) it doesn't have to be that way.#and i hope that one day Stolas and Blitz and Loona will be able to show her that#oh via#my precious Starfire#helluva boss spoilers#octavia goetia
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Where do you go If I don't love you anymore? 🎶
#ts4 gameplay#ts4 challenge#ts4 legacy challenge#ts4 screenshots#I was listening to that song and this scene popped into my head#I had to make it or my brain would explode lmao#now i'm at peace#probably Sterling recognized her but then he turned around and she was gone#he thought “I’m going crazy aren’t I?”#idk sometimes I just want to heavily edit my pics lmao today’s one of those days i guess#pollock legacy#gen5#hope pollock#sterling atcliffe by rasoyas#I don’t think I’ve ever put a couple through so much like these two lmao#Sorry my children I promise you’ll be happy someday 🤣
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#14shyx#14shyx edits#kamen rider#kamen rider gavv#gavv ୨୧ kr log#kr gifs ♡*+:。#kr gifs ♡*+:。 gavv#gavv spoilers#kr.gavv: episode 7#kr.gavv: glotta stomach#flashing gifs#i feel so bad shouma...i know she traumatized you for life and she doesn't deserve a redemption in the slightest#and i don't expect it either i fully support burning the stomach legacy into the ground#but if one of them has purple eyes and gothic fashion sense with pink hair then i'll crumble into pieces and stare a bit too much 😅#call it a fatal flaw if you will#she can usurp her brother and run stomach inc for one day. as a treat#glotta's actress mentioned she's wearing 16cm heels for the role....i really hope she doesn't roll her ankles in those#it would hurt so very much >-<#i might end up making gifsets per ep for glotta so for the time being i'll hold myself back from making 540px gifs of every glotta scene xD
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Women doing dumb shit together 🤝
#blah#she's a stunt woman#and every video ive seen of her is her throwing her entire body at or off something lol#corrine nicewick#one day i hope to be strong and flexible enough and then use it for dumb shit
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Bros. Lilly's statue in shintaro?
Right.
Now...
Nya in seabound.
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She became her element.
SHE BECANE HER ELEMENT.
#lego ninjago#ninjago#ninjago lilly#lilly brookstone#master of earth#ninjago nya#nya smith#nya seabound#seabound#seabound nya#earthbound#EARTHBOUND LILLY#lilly knew she was going to die#in hopes to perserve herself so that her son could one day save her#she went to shintaro and talked to vangelis' queen (screw him. this is about HER.)#about becoming a statue to blend in fron dangers until the time comes
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#FF7#FF7R#FF7 Rebirth#Final Fantasy VII#Final Fantasy VII Rebirth#aerith gainsborough#barret wallace#my favourite synergy ability... solely for the animation its so cute and cool#sorry papa wallace for i am 1) not good at drawing facial hair and 2) was not mentally strong enough to draw your gun#one day i will but today was not that day#i worked on this for 9 hours straight it got to a point i zoomed out and was like why doesnt this look right#and it was bc i forgot his tattoo....... he's naked iwthout that#also i've never tried to do comic-y explosions and text before so i kind of just looked at clip art for reference and then yolo'd it#i hope it doesnt look terrible i've decided i no longer care to fret over it#i need you to understand that if you were to zoom out the camera on this photo#barret is proper crouched down and aerith is standing on a pile of books#so that they could attain a pose where she is leaning on his shoulder#I FORGOT MY OWN ART TAG bro im so tired#my art#<- i am moonlight elegy on twt
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