#she shouldn't be dead

[aflowerbynoothername]

The Dead will Speak, for not even Death can Contain Us

I want to tell you a story about a trans woman who was murdered, and her surviving friends. The name most of you knew her by was "Emma," so that is what I will call her, here. I shouldn't be the one to tell you this story, I have no right to. But mostly everyone else who could tell it is either dead or dying behind bars. So if I don't, who will?

Recently, Alyssa Vance posted online about how Emma's friends pose a "danger to the community," using the events surrounding Emma's death to scaremonger and spread gossip.

Alyssa's post is highly irresponsible and malicious, since it's trivial to determine that the story Alyssa is spreading of Emma's murder is a lie. It's the same story that Emma's murderer, Curt Lind, has been telling. And Curt Lind is only telling that story because it's the only version of events where he isn't sent to prison for the rest of his life.

But it's not surprising that Alyssa would be party to amplifying Lind's lies. Alyssa has held a firm grudge against Emma and her friends for years. She's now monopolizing on this tragedy to threaten them.

So I want you to know exactly what happened to Emma, and the events Alyssa is lying to you about.

In This Backwards World You Get Rich being Evil and go to Jail for doing Good

Our world is upside down. The justice system represents injustice. Law and order is about creating an illusion of social peace to hide deep and systematic exploitation, violence, and injustice. Follow your conscience, not the law.

-- Subcowmandate Marcos

Curt Lind and his ex-CIA best friend, Patrick McMillan, spent months threatening Emma and her friends.

Unlike what the papers claim, Emma and her friends weren't squatters -- they were tenants who would struggle to find jobs or a place that would lease to them after MIRICFAR called a SWAT team on them in 2019. Members of CFAR's staff called the police and falsely claimed that Emma and her friends brought weapons to a peaceful protest in 2019. Subsequently, Emma and her friends were charged with trumped-up nonsense crimes following that protest, crimes which made it difficult for them to find housing.

Eventually, they managed to find a shady slumlord who would let them park their trucks on his lot. The lot had intermittent electricity, and the only running water was provided by a neighbor's garden hose.

That man was Curt Lind, the man who would eventually shoot Emma's friend SL six times, and murdered Emma.

A picture of Emma and her siblings

Alyssa is still attempting, all these years later, to make MIRICFAR's fake accusations sound legitimate. Because if they didn't sound legitimate, then you might start to wonder what Alyssa and her friends were so desperate to keep quiet.

So Alyssa wants you to believe that it was plausible for members of CFAR to have believed that Emma or her friends had brought weapons to their protest. That's why she continually paints Emma and her friends as violent psychos. She doesn't want you to know that her friends lied and called a SWAT team to threaten and coerce these whistleblowers into silence. She doesn't what you to know what her defense of abusers has wrought, or about the blood on her hands.

When Alyssa, CFAR, and their friends claim they didn't tell the police that Emma and her friends had guns during the 2019 protest, they're lying. The police recorded a 911 call from outside the camp falsely claiming that Emma and her friends had guns.

Veritatem cognoscere ruat cælum et pereat mundus

-- ddosecrets.com

Emma and her friends were protesting CFAR and MIRI's cover up of donor fraud, and accused multiple members of their staff and leadership of child molestation and sexual abuse, allegations which have been substantiated among the rationalist community, a community which had a culture of covering up sexual abuse, and of blaming abuse victims for their own abuse.

The rationalist community has seen multiple scandals, suicides, and heinous rapes, and all of it has been brushed under the rug for the sake of protecting the reputations of the community's pet rapists, sex traffickers, and paedophiles.

Sometime during COVID, Emma and her friends became unable to afford rent, in addition to the cost of their attorneys. They prioritized paying the attorneys, since losing that court case would be a worse fate for them than homelessness.

In 2022, they were still battling those trumped up charges from 2019. The police and Sonoma County court threw out the evidence that supported Emma and her friends' testimonies, including body cam footage. It was a mess of flagrant bizarre lies on the part of the prosecution and police.

So, from what I understand, they couldn't pay Lind anymore, but Lind couldn't evict them due to the COVID moratorium on evictions, which lasted through March 2022. Eventually, Lind escalated to slipping threatening notes under their doors, making sinister threats about how he intended to commit violence, and did harassment, and intimidation.

He and his friends were explicitly transmisogynistic, believing that Emma and her friends, who were trans, were "men posing as women." At some point, it is assumed that he heard rumors from the community that Emma and her friends were members of a cult, and started telling other tenants that they were strange and sinister, in an effort to alienate them from their neighbors.

This may have culminated in one of the other tenants jumping one of Emma's friends on the lot. The tenant tackled her to the ground and started punching her head repeatedly. Curt Lind didn't evict him afterwards, even though this attack was clearly unprovoked.

Meanwhile, Emma and her friends had been continually receiving death threats from various parties in the rationalist community, over the course of years. Ziz's parents were doxxed, Emma herself was threatened repeatedly. There were numerous attempts to blackmail them, all of which failed. Someone even credibly threatened to bomb a rationalist meetup and blame it on her. Others threatened to SWAT her again.

When one of Emma's friends fled an abusive rapist stalker, members of the community fearmongered that Emma and her "cult" were behind that friend's "disappearance," all the while the community was working in tandem with that friend's former abuser to find them. They threatened to call the police and tell them that Emma and her friends had murdered her friend!

That's obviously untrue, and some of these individuals knew that their own allegations were untrue and were using that friend's choice to stop speaking to their abusive ex as a means to create pretext to threaten to have another SWAT team called on false pretenses to Emma's home. It was an unending nightmare for them of terrifying, insane and evil threats from every corner.

A few of these threats were documented on Ziz's blog, though most of the them weren't published. Other adversaries, like John David Pressman, became sexually obsessed with Ziz, and posted an entire website of bizarre lies claiming Ziz was a cult leader who was doing some kind of sleep deprivation gag. It was later revealed that he, Hive (@slimepriestess,) and Ratheka made up the whole thing. But people kept sharing it, and the rumors that Ziz was some kind of malicious cult leader kept spreading.

A selection of some of the threats they've received over the years

People sending threats like these had their legal names, the names of their family members, addresses of their parents, phone numbers, etc.

All the while, they were dealing with a court case, a murderous transphobic landlord, violent neighbors, obsessive stalkers, truck issues, and a stack of problems that would make most people give up in despair. They didn't give up, and managed to tread water for years.

At least, they were up until the day that Emma was murdered by Curt Lind.

In the weeks leading up to Emma's death, Lind made a number of specific threats. Emma and her friends feared that he was a threat to their lives.

They were right to be afraid.

The details of what happened next are graphic. They're the unadulterated experiences of the people who survived his assault. You know that scene from HPMOR where Harry does everything he can to save Hermione, but she dies anyway? This was like that, but so much worse because it really happened. And I'm writing it down here because I want you fuckers in this community to know exactly what you're tittering about.

This is What it's Like when you Do Everything You Can but it isn't Enough

Early one morning in November 2022, Curt Lind left his trailer and walked across the lot, approaching Emma and her friends in front of Emma's home in Vallejo. The night before Emma and her friends were frantically packing their things, preparing to leave the lot. As far as I can tell, after interviews and checking records, there was no conflict that night involving rocks being thrown. Patrick McMillan, when interviewed in the papers, claimed that the night before Emma was shot, there was a confrontation resulting in McMillan calling 911. Then McMillan's story changed: instead of McMillan calling 911, it was Lind who did. I have found no record of them calling 911 that night. I have the records of "calls for service" from that area that night, and there is not a single call that corresponds to that location. Patrick McMillan is a liar.

Lind was angry that Emma and her friends had sued him. He wanted to prevent Emma and her friends from leaving with their possessions, and believed that if Emma and her friends died with their possessions still on Lind's lot, then Lind somehow automatically gained ownership over the solar panels and trucks, which Lind could then sell to cover his debts.

That morning, he decided to walk the length of the lot, all the way from his trailer to Emma's truck, carrying a gun.

It was early in the morning, and that morning, Emma ate her breakfast at her desk, in front of her laptop, at home. When family went inside her house, later, they found an unwashed bowl still resting on her desk. She never got a chance to wash it.

Lind shot Emma point-blank through her heart and lung. From the angle of the wound, it's possible she was already on the ground when Curt fired. She collapsed, and immediately her lung began filling with her heart's blood. She died within twenty seconds, violently coughing up chunks of her lung tissue onto her face and hair, in a futile attempt to clear her airways.

One of her friends was shot five or six times, in a futile effort to save Emma's life. She was hit through the neck and stomach. If she did anything, she only acted only in self-defense.

One of Emma's friend had been asleep. She woke to the sound of gunshots and rushed outside, but hid when she saw Lind staggering about, still brandishing his gun. He'd already emptied his gun, but she didn't know that. Lind left to seek out McMillan, and once he was gone, she found Emma and her fiend lying on the ground in growing pools of their own blood.

Someone ran back inside to call an ambulance.

The friend ran to SL's side, prioritizing saving her, falsely believing that Emma had been shot in the head, due to all the blood and chunks of lung tissue around Emma's mouth and around her head. Emma was her best friend.

SL wasn't breathing. So she ripped off some of SL's clothes, searching for bullet wounds. She missed the shots to SL's stomach in her panic. Didn't realize until later that SL had been shot so many times. But it's an understandable mistake -- SL wasn't breathing, and her focus was on getting her to breathe again. She performed CPR on her, and it worked. SL wheezed, and said something like, that she couldn't feel her legs.

The friend told SL that Emma was dying, that she needed her to keep breathing no matter what.

SL would stop breathing multiple times, that morning. I think I heard that her heart stopped at least once.

The friend turned to Emma, searching for bullet wounds, and found to her surprise that there were no bullet wounds in Emma's head. She began to hope that she could save Emma, too.

She tried performing CPR. She must've not pinched Emma's nose tightly enough, because her face got sprayed with Emma's blood from her nose. So she tried again, pinching her nose tighter.

Emma didn't start breathing, but every breath she breathed into Emma's body had no effect but to pass through the corpse's vocal cords, making Emma's body make a guttural sigh after every attempt to breathe back life into her.

That friend did her very best, cracked Emma's rib cage to try to get her heart beating again. For a second she even thought she heard Emma's heart beat, but it turned out she were just hearing her own blood rushing in her ear.

When the EMTs arrived, she carried Emma's body to them, risking arrest in the hope of a miracle. The cops who arrived with the EMTs threatened to shoot her, gave them contradictory orders -- get on the ground, don't move, put your hands up -- she ignored them, and explained that there was another victim, that she needed to go back because their friend was dying and someone needed to keep her breathing.

The EMTs and cops didn't care. They dawdled, focusing on threatening her and cuffing her over saving Lind's victims. SL survived because someone came back and kept her breathing, only to later be arrested for their efforts.

When the EMTs announced that Emma was dead, Emma's friend howled like a wounded animal.

Everything Matters All the Time; There are no Second Chances

So, that's what so many rationalists have been treating as their entertainment, these last few months. That's what they're making jokes out of. That's what they've been gossiping about.

It's horrifying, right? Emma's friend said afterwards, that when she was in the hospital, she couldn't get the taste of Emma's blood out of her mouth. She kept coughing; some of it had gotten into her own lungs.

Emma was her home. She said she will never be ok again.

Imagine having the love of your life's blood in your lungs because you tried everything you could to save her life, but it wasn't enough. And now she's dead, and you're in cuffs, and the cops are considering blaming you and your friends for her death instead of the fucking sicko who murdered her.

Can you imagine?

It's hard to express the horror of knowing that most the people you've ever cared about are dying or are dead already. Of doing everything you can to save them, and knowing that your best isn't enough and that they will probably die anyway. Of knowing that others could help, but choose not to. That those you ask for help will come up with all kinds of absurd fake "reasons" for why you're being "unreasonable."

So many humans took it for granted that this was all just a game, that the stakes were merely contained to reputational damage rather than to our lives. (But who the fuck thinks SWATing innocent people is a game?) And through all the fearmongering and nonsense, the biggest threat Emma and her friends posed to CFAR and MIRI was to their reputations.

They fought with their words. But those associated with MIRI and CFAR threatened Emma and her friends' lives, for the sake of protecting abusers.

And now Emma is dead, and there are no second chances.

So now, months later, when Alyssa attempts once again to make Emma's friends sound like dangerous nutjobs, I wonder how many in the rationalist community will fall for her bullshit once again.

So many so-called "rationalists" in the past would believe the stories of abusers who have every reason to lie over the words of those who are defending those abusers' victims. How daft are they? Do they like being taken for fools? For a community of supposedly smart people, they all certainly enjoy being taken for some. At some point, they stop looking like fools, and it starts looking like Emma's murder was what they desired all along.

Over the years so-called "rationalists" all let the likes of Alyssa Vance fearmonger and lie with no reproach, so as far as I can tell, here is what the rationalist community want to happen to people in or adjacent to the rationalist community, when they speak up about sexual abuse: they get SWATed, lied about, lose their jobs and housing, are pushed out to the margins and into the hands of murderous landlords, receive death threats for years, and then are shot to death by their landlord, or are accused of murder, and are then further slandered by community members who just can't miss a chance to rep for their favorite pedophiles, sex traffickers, and fraudsters. That is what they want the story of a whistleblower to be, in this community, in order to intimidate and threaten whistleblowers into silence.

So, in the strongest possible terms: fuck you, Alyssa.

Emma and her friends are the bravest, kindest people I've ever met. They've housed homeless folks and abuse victims for months with no expectation of reward, helped multiple people in or adjacent to that community escape their abusive parents, partners, and roommates, and the rationalist community would rather cover for those abusers rather than help those who protect victims.

injustice is contagious, any sustained defense of evil, gets you arbitrarily large amounts of evil.

-- Somni

What you think are "small acts of evil" or "doing the wrong thing for the right reasons," if you're wrong, will snowball into a disaster. It's not worth it. You will bitterly regret it, if you care at all.

-- Dyce

Now, once again, Emma's friends are being scapegoated. Because so many humans in this world would rather kill the best people in it than abandon their abusers.

The Weight of Emma's Body

ur heart cannot die & if ur heart cannot die, u cannot fail

-- Mi

To you who have threatened them and spread lies about them, I lay Emma's body at your feet. You who lied, bullshitted, and covered for abusers, rapists, sex traffickers, and pedophiles. You who SWATed them, got trumped up charges filed against them, so they'd never be able to hold another job or rent an apartment again. Look at the blood on the ground, look at the body. Look what you did. Did you think this would silence us?

Not even in death will we be silent. Our words and Emma's body will haunt you for the rest of your days.

No one good ever regrets doing the right thing. We'd do it over an infinity times, no matter the cost, no matter that some of us are dead or in jail. And we won't shut up, we won't stop talking about what you did, how the MIRICFAR leadership covered up fraud, participated in sex trafficking, and pedophilia, how their allies raped people, abused them, and covered it up.

And if I too should fall, another will take my place.

今日までの自分を 潔く　脱ぎ捨てる　裸にな 自由を舞う薔薇のように たとえ２人離ればなれになっても 私は世界を変える -- From this day, I will take myself and Bravely strip down to nothing at all, Like a rose spinning free. Even if the two of us are ever separated, I will change the world. 輪舞-revolution

[lurukifennecfox]

Gotham was welcoming of Amity Parkers.

not as loving as with her own but she was way more patient with the people of her friend that any other outsiders.

so the people of Amity those Liminal and aware of her tried to pay her kindness back, to a reasonable degree of course but they could help and she let them stay so they did.

Paulina took it upon herself to make a nice place in the fashion district, she sold some charms to help with the curses as much as she could.

Sam being Sam opened a surprisingly Ivy Approved community garden and was very hard to convince not to join the Eco-terrorist but they managed to, thankfully.

the Fentons designed filters to help the 'Parkers but it was good for the city too if too little to do much.

Val hadn't moved here (yet) but she visited often enough and each visit volunteered somewhere.

Gotham grown to adore them almost as their own, she even hid them from the bats for a while to let them settle (and maybe help her more before her Knight inevitably got paranoid)

Gotham laughed when her King stumbled into her Red Knight, you could hear it in subtle ways the sounds of the night flowed just a little too much like a giggle.

Hood did deserve more good things she's proud of herself!

[technically-human]

You, the one I left behind

[backpackingspace]

Okay but consider by the time the odysseus is baby girling himself during suffering, it's been very well established that he is the distraction/talk their way out of trouble friend. So eurylochus who has probably been putting up with this nonsense since they were children was going no no this is 100% normal just ignore it. While the crew (who was just random subjects yes?) Was going what the fuck what the fuck

[bumblingbabooshka]

S'chn T'gai-Grayson Family Memes

[ria-the-camel]

It's so interesting how everyone is openly accepting Laudna giving herself up to Delilah in exchange of power.

It's like they must understand at this point that she's going to lose herself.

But they accept it, they kinda have to, she asks them to. They pretend they're going to figure it out, a problem for later.

Imogen spoke so little when Laudna joined back up in the room, because she also has to accept it, she's going to respect Laudna's wishes, but she's realizing that there is very little hope to save her.

She's going to miss their little cottage, miss something that could have been, please Laudna, it could still be, I need you to choose to fight still, I need you.

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Modern (LoK era) day Kyoshi fans: I can't believe Kyoshi was a bottom????? For her wife???? Kyoshi's spirit materializing at the sound of her wife being talked about: Have you SEEN my wife tho????? Modern day Kyoshi fans, freaking out over a ghost: HOLY FUCKING SHU???????

[winepresswrath]

I will laugh so hard if it turns out that John is making a sincere effort at being a decent parent and it's such an awful outcome for Gideon that I feel like it's plausible. He's giving off such man who thinks of himself as a good guy confronted with oops baby vibes.

[annymaght]

Season 3 Brooklynn was goated and probs the best version of her we got

[pettyprocrastination]

cringe brainrot cod thought but Alien!au Simon Riley where he's a retired veteran who takes on a job of being freelance security which means accompanying a collection of scientists led but some capitalist billionaire onto an non-domesticated planet where they all inevitably get picked off one by one until he's the only one left to find their murderer is an alien gal who wants to be left the FUCK alone on her planet. Builds a little hut deep in the forest and learns if he leaves her alone she'll leave his alone on separate sides of the world- eventually they fuck idk what to tell you.

[nostalgia-tblr]

hereby banning myself from ever using the phrase "her quim mewled desperately" in fanfiction as "a clever callback to canon dialogue"

[possamble]

Ohh okay it's just a theory. Thank god. The thought of "him dying prompted the continent to lift" straight up didn't even occur to me. I 100% assumed the implication was that it started happening as soon as the dungeon was destroyed, it just took a few days to reach the surface (and a few days more after that to fully re-emerge, as is stated in canon)

[character-obsessed-fem]

messy meeks sketch i made 😋

[bitacrytic]

With Por's parents who are rich and disgusting, and Non's parents who are just disgusting, I wasn't surprised that neither of these children would approach their parents for help. After all, Por had to have the information about the camera dragged out of him only to be physically threatened, and Non had to sit there and listen to his parents and their foolish quarrel.

So when Phee sat before his father and said this, my heart healed just a bit.

[coquelicoq]

"i already knew that you liked me, but do you know i like you?" she's not actually dead. she's got eyes. and ears. and a brain. i think maybe she figured it out.

[blood-orange-juice]

Hello! Speaking of Skirk/Childe as “nuclear waste levels of toxic”, what’s your ideal dynamic for them, be it romantic, platonic, or otherwise?

Platonic, maybe he had a crush on her but it didn't last long.

I have a bunch of friends who studied martial arts extremely seriously (I did a bit of that too, although only as a hobby) and pretty much made it their whole life. And I know that relationship with a teacher/shifu is of a very special type

In most cases at least 50% of the time you profoundly hate them. They demand the impossible, don't take you seriously, criticise you to no end and playfully poke at things you consider pretty much core to your existence. Many see annoying their pupils as a form of training. Many have huge egos and they make it your problem.

(these are the good ones. the bad ones are... bad)

Adding romance to that mix would either ruin that dynamic or turn in into a planet-ending disaster I'm not capable of imagining.

So, yeah, for me 100% platonic. Although I'll happily read a well-written dead dove.