#she isn’t physically strong she’s SPIRITUALLY STRONG

[deathsweetblossoms]

— Blodeuwedd: Welsh Goddess of Seasonal Sovereignty

[kcwriter-blog]

Just recently I asked myself an important question. Why do I, a person not usually into angst, continue to romance Solas. It’s not like it’s going to end differently. My Lavellan will always get her heart broken. 

The simple answer? It’s worth it. There is a gentleness in how they treat each other that you don’t find in many real-life relationships much less in a video game. It’s soft, quiet, and tender. It’s what love looks like after years with someone you truly care about.

How can that be? Solas isn’t being honest with her. To Solas’ credit, he realizes that. He takes her to Crestwood to tell her the truth. When he realizes he can’t, he breaks it off. Which in and of itself is an act of love.

What he is honest about is his love for Lavellan. He never denies his feelings. A case in point is the aftermath of the first kiss. It would be so easy for Solas to say that he just got caught up in the moment. He doesn’t. He may say that it’s been a long time and that he thinks a relationship isn’t a good idea, but he never denies that he has feelings for her. Even when he breaks it off, he refuses to lie and say she was a casual dalliance or that he doesn’t love her. 

For her part, Lavellan never pushes Solas. When he asks for time to think, she grants it. “Take all the time you need.” She understands him. He has trust issues. Getting into a relationship with her would be a big step for him. She may not know what made him that way, but she cares enough to let him decide if a relationship is something he truly wants.  She is willing to wait.

This demonstrates a respect for each other and for their budding relationship. They are honest about their feelings. They are willing to take it slow. They talk about it like adults. They go into it knowing there will be risks.

An underrated aspect of the relationship is the conversations where Solas shares his recollections of things he saw in the Fade. Solas isn’t just randomly pulling stories out of his hat. He is telling Lavellan about the things he saw that meant the most to him. He is opening up to her, trusting that she won’t laugh at him or dismiss him. For her part, she actively listens. It’s a quiet kind of loving and, for me, one of the most intimate things you can do in a relationship.

The balcony scene is another place where this plays out. Solas wants to be with Lavellan. He has come up to the balcony to tell her that. He still has reservations. He wants her but he doesn’t want to hurt her. 

Lavellan knows he must be the one to make the choice. Instead of kissing him, she puts her hands behind her back. If he wants this, he will have to kiss her. He balks. She asks him not to go. Many people interpret this as begging. That’s not it. She is telling him, quietly, that if he leaves, she won’t wait any longer. “It would be kinder in the long run but losing you would…” He can’t. He loves her. He decides to take the risk. 

There is also a strong spiritual component to their relationship. Solas isn’t attracted by her physical beauty. He is all about the spirit. To him she is wonderful. Someone wise. Someone who thinks before she acts. He calls her beautiful in Crestwood, but I think he is talking about her soul, not what she looks like. 

There are many other small moments that give us clues as to what their relationship looks like post balcony scene. Solas attempts to comfort her at the Winter Palace by dancing or taking her in his arms. She reassures him that he can trust her. They hold hands in Crestwood. He calls her “my heart” and it’s clear she is precious to him. His voice when he speaks with her in Crestwood is intimate. It’s a vocal tenor we don’t hear anywhere else. He remonstrates with Sera when she jokes about his relationship with Lavellan. 

I find it interesting that even if Lavellan is angry, when Solas finds the broken orb she isn’t fist pumping because he didn’t get what he wanted. She treats him with kindness. 

He goes out of his way to tell her what they had was real – or that she was right to be angry. No matter what happened they acknowledge each other’s feelings. 

Everything paints a picture of an intensely private, intimate, loving relationship. That’s what I love about it and it’s why I keep coming back for more. 

[apoloadonisandnarcissus]

Amazon: you had the guts to do Sauron x Galadriel. As a Tolkien fan, I admit that’s brilliant and I’m hooked on this ship.

Now, your job is to give us Half-Maia Celebrían.

How could this fit Tolkien canon:

In one of his drafts, Tolkien “kind of forgot” that Celeborn was suppose to be in picture when Galadriel became pregnant (who moves next door around the same time? Annatar/Sauron to forge the rings with Celebrimbor). Yeah, I know Tolkien correct this later, but still. “Half-Celebrían theory” was born in the 80’s;

Poor Celebrían suffered a horrible torture at the hands of Orcs when she was on her way from Rivendell to Lothlórien and she lost her will to live and travelled to Valinor (leaving Elrond and their children behind). How could this work? Revenge for Adar’s death (not all Orcs were enslaved by Sauron);

In some versions of the lore, Elven pregnancies can last between 1 and 100 years (let that sink in);

Sauron loses the ability to take on physical form after the Fall of Númenor, and he’s on Annatar form when it happens;

Sauron not wanting to become like Morgoth, but that’s what happens, in almost every way (his bounds to Morgoth are too strong).

Every living being is a creation of Eru. It has been confirmed that Eru was the one who brought Galadriel and Halbrand/Mairon together in Season 1.

In other post I already explained “Maiar reproduction” according to Tolkien. In order to do this, Maiar need to take on a physical form. The catch: they become bound to it, and are unable to return to their true spiritual form, unless their physical form gets destroyed (to break them free, basically).

We are bound in spirit, lets us bound in flesh, too, my precious?

Tolkien also brainstormed the hypothesis of the Maiar corrupted by Morgoth (Balrogs and Sauron), and what would happen if they were to reproduce. It’s pretty much the same (bound to their physical form at the time). But there’s also, another, catch: if they were to do such a thing (produce child or children), they would be “damned” and “reduced to impotency” if their physical form got destroyed (these are Tolkien’s words, by the way). Meaning, they would lose the ability to take on a physical form, afterwards.

What would happen to Sauron if he did had sex with Galadriel and produce a child? This:

I know Sauron isn’t a ridiculous "giant eye ball" in the books, he's just “formless” and “faceless” (invisible spirit.... "damned" and "reduced to impotency"?), but you get the idea. Amazing how it checks out.

Why did I mention Morgoth? Well, Morgoth end up bound to a physical form because he spent too much of his power corrupting Arda (the world). Sauron thinks he’s smarter than this, and, as far as we know, this was the only way in which he didn’t replicate his former master. He bound himself to the One ring, but it’s a piece of jewelry, not actually flesh/physical form.

Galadriel herself would have a good excuse, because no one would tell the difference:

“A blond Elven child? Of course is Celeborn’s, duh?"

“Rings of Power” won’t go as far as making this theory actually happening, but still, they can play with it.

[krisluxxeeempress]

Pluto Square Moon Synastry | Astro Synastry Series

hm, the Pluto person truly must tread carefully with the moon person in this synastry. This is a tricky or even a contradictory mixture of energies to interpret for many reasons.

THE PLUTO PERSON IS THE HEAVY HITTER IN THIS BITCH, I KNOW THIS, YOU KNOW THIS AND WHOEVER THE MOON PERSON IS, WILL SOON KNOW AND FEEL THIS. SO, THE SQUARE, THE CHALLENGE AND DIFFICULTY THE PLUTO PERSON BRINGS TO THE MOON HEAVILY DEPENDS ON THE SIGN THE MOON IS IN.

THERE ARE STRONG MOON SIGNS AND THEN THERE ARE WEAKER ONES WHO CANNOT HANDLE THE PLUTO PERSON.

THIS ENERGY REMINDS ME OF A MAN OR WOMAN CLAIMING SOMEONE “CAN’’T HANDLE THEM” AND THEN GET INTO BED AND THE WOMAN CAN’T TAKE BACKSHOTS WITH HER BACK ARCHED TO PERFECTION OR A MAN WHO CANNOT LAST 5 MINS IN THAT P****, haha.

A lot of people claim they handle intensity, possession, obsession and even violence until they have the handle it. Now do not get me wrong, the Pluto person isn’t evil (but can be). My point starting off with this synastry is that some thrive in squares meanwhile others crumble and fumble- so it’s difficult to interpret this without getting specific on the sign the Pluto person has and the moon. I suppose that is the purpose of this synastry- to test if you're about this life. The Pluto person will be challenged in dealing with the sensitivities of the moon person especially if it’s a weaker moon. The moon person will be challenged greatly on whether or not they can handle the Pluto person in all their glory.

This synastry reminds me of Bella and Edward in Twilight, with Edward being the Pluto person and Bella being the moon person- for my example. We all thought Bella wasn’t about that life, but she proved us and Edward all wrong. For my example, Bella appeared weak and deceptive in that manner, which the moon is known to be, however, she really had the all-powerful Edward on his knees, plenty of times. Edward, being the Pluto person did struggle greatly with his love, obsession, and desire for Bella all while trying not to kill her.

I used to be into dark romance books and all the ladies obsessed over the killers, thugs, psycho’s and unhinged but sexy men in the books but they all knew that if that book fantasy man came to reality- they would fold, be scared, call cops and run away. We fantasize about the Pluto person but in reality, can we handle it? The moon person in this synastry will find out firsthand and it will be life changing in a destructive or empowering way however, you have to experience it first. You can’t keep the Pluto person at a distance, you will be forced to experience them- all of them and this may scare the moon person off or like I forementioned, empower him/her. Similar to Bella. She was scared of Edward but that made her want more until it was too late to turn back and at the end of her journey (or the movie series) she realized that she was “born to be a vampire”. She would have never gotten that empowering realization had she avoided Edward.

My point is, the Pluto person is feared by the moon person however, the moon person can intuit and sense there’s more to the Pluto person that they have to discover. Spiritually speaking, the moon person knows they need the Pluto person but there’s fear, denial and a lack of the familiarity IN THE PHYSICAL SENSE, BUT EMOTIONALLY, THE PLUTO PERSON FEELS LIKE HOME TO THE MOON PERSON. HONESTLY, THE PLUTO PERSON FEELS LIKE THE MOON PERSON IS HOME TO THEM AS WELL HOWEVER, THE PLUTO PERSON IS CONCERNED ABOUT HURTING/BREAKING OR RUINING THE MOON PERSON AND TRIES THEIR DAMNEST TO AVOID THE MOON PERSON. (or ruins them because that's their secret intention, who knows)

HERE COMES THE CONTRADICTION OR MAYBE IM SENSING THE ENERGETIC SHIFT BUT THE PLUTO PERSON MAY BE THE AVOIDANT (INITALLY) AND THE MOON PERSON MAY BE THE COVERT CHASER. LIKE EDWARD, HE WAS AVOIDING BELLA AND BELLA WAS SECRECTLY ASKING ABOUT EDWARD AND VERY CURIOUS ABOUT HIM AND GOING TO BOOKSTORES TO REASEARCH MYTHICAL STORIES IN HOPES OF GAINING MORE KNOWLEDGE. HER INTUTION WAS TELLING HER SHE WAS MISSING SOMETHING BUT WHAT WAS THAT SOMETHING?

BELLA WAS CLINGY BUT EDWARD WAS POSSESSIVE.  TO MY NEXT POINT, THE MOON PERSON WILL BE CLINGY BUT PLUTO PERSON WILL BE POSSESSIVE, PROTECTIVE AND SECRECTLY DANGEROUS, THAT ONLY THE MOON PERSON WILL BE PRIVY TO.

IT'A POSSIBLE FOR OTHERS NOT EVEN BEING AWARE THIS COUPLE EXIST, AS A COUPLE.

NOW IN THE EVENT PEOPLE KNOW YOU'RE A COUPLE, THAT’S ALL THEY’LL KNOW AND THIS MAY ATTRACT STALKERS OR PEOPLE HEAVILY INVESTED IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP. YOU BOTH HAVE SECRECTIVE ENERGY SEPERATELY AND MORESO, COLLECTIVELY.

LET’S SAY THIS COUPLE WORK TOGETHER. THEY CAN LITERALLY GO OUTSIDE ON LUNCH BREAK, HAVE BACK BREAKING SEX AND THEN COME INTO WORK LOOKING CALM, COOL AND COLLECTED AND DEPENDING, MAY EVEN APPEAR AS IF THEY DO NOT KNOW EACHOTHER.

IN A NEGATIVE SENSE, THIS SYNASTRY CAN BE ABUSIVE BUT IT'S COVERED UP VERY WELL (UNTIL IT’S NOT). AS I’M TYPING THIS, I FEEL LIKE MY ENERGY IS SHIFTING IN SO MANY DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS AND THAT’S THE VIBE WITH THIS COUPLE.

IT’S NOT NECESSARILY A STABLE CONNECTION AND THAT WILL BE THE SQUARE FOR THE MOON PERSON BECAUSE THEIR EMOTIONAL INSTABILITY WILL BE HEIGHTENED AND REFLECTED BACK. IT’S IMPORTANT TO NOTE THAT BECAUSE THIS RELATIONSHIP ISN’T STABLE, DOESN’T ALWAYS MEAN IT’S TOXIC though, it can be.

-sidenote: this synastry will feel odd to others, almost like Aquarius energy but unable to pinpoint what the oddity is, like Piscean energy but I digress.

Jacob thought Bella was going to die when she finally had sex with Edward. In Jacob’s mind, someone on the outside, he concluded Bella and Edwards relationship was toxic and life threatening however, on the inside of this relationship, Edward and Bella thought they had things under control and wanted whatever came with each other. So, people on the outside will be so disturbed and bothered by this couple because they cannot get in and this can be good and or bad. Bad in the sense that what if the moon person was being abused and no one can get in to help him/her? But good in the sense that the Pluto person is so protective of the moon person that the Pluto person would rather die than to allow any harm to come to the moon person.

This couple is hard to define because you never really know what is going on and this can be dangerous to the couple and to others on the outside of this couple. It’s so hard to tell.

If you have annoying neighbors who like abusive sex and you hear them screaming, how do you know someone is being abused or if they just like aggressive and wall breaking sex? Do you get involved and risk being wrong and exposed as nosey or leave them alone and risk someone actually being in danger?

I am using sex as a relatable EXAMPLE BUT THIS APPLIES TO ALL KINDS OF SITUATIONS. WE WILL NEVER REALLY KNOW WITH THIS COUPLE BECAUSE THE MOON PERSON WILL APPEAR WEAK AND VULNERABLE IN COMPARISON TO THE PLUTO PERSON HOWEVER, WHAT IF SECRECTLY THE MOON PERSON HAS THE SECRET STRENGTH, TO PUT THE PLUTO PERSON ON THEIR KNEES?

Like in the dark romance books, the men in the book are portrayed as Pluto types and they were scary, dangerous, and physically stronger however, their ladies in those books, who in my example, is the moon person, they had those dark and scary men on their knees for them. Whatever the moon person needed or wanted, the Pluto person obliged and then some. It doesn’t matter if the Pluto person is the woman and the moon person is the man, the dynamic is all the same.

People on the outside will always assume the Pluto person is too dangerous, serious, and hardcore- or they may suspect something dark about the Pluto person that they don’t like but can’t prove meanwhile, the moon person will appear weak, unsuspecting, and innocent but sometimes, it’s the moon person who has all the power.

Whatever the case, it will be extremely hard for this couple to breakup and that’s another square.

If things are all bad and warrant this couple to separate, they won’t be able to because there’s a deep soul tie here. In the event the couple need to separate for idk, work or life circumstances- it will literally feel like death for them. Remember Edward had Bella jumping off cliffs and Bella had Edward ready to get burned at the stake. Both could not be without each other and were more than willing to go to extremes to bring the other back. Idk, it’s either extremely romantic to some and for others, traumatizing because in a negative sense- the Pluto person would be the type to kill the moon person and their babies and then him/herself before letting them leave the relationship. The moon person will literally go emotionally and eventually mentally crazy without the Pluto person. (because the moon is the mind in Vedic astrology)

 do you see the overall dilemma? (the square) this synastry is so powerful that it will appear like an opposition. Oppositions insert themselves into this dynamic because the powerful soul tie that these two with Pluto square moon have, is so dynamic it’s threatening others- making others feel inclined to oppose it. It’s hard to explain, this couple is hard to understand for each other and especially for others. This couple must fight to stay together and fight to stay apart. Then they must fight others who oppose them because others cannot understand or respect their dynamic (even if it's not a toxic dynamic)

I can go on and on, but I will conclude here.

If you have Pluto square moon in synastry, be prepared for people on the outside wishing to get in, to oppose your relationship. These people can sense a very strong undercurrent of energies between the two of you but because they do not understand it- they will fear it and cause drama that will force the Pluto person to defend and protect or to be exposed. The Pluto person challenge is love, protect, and handle the moon person with care and be willing to die and or sacrifice for the moon person no matter what, if you truly love the moon person. However, if you do not love the moon person and you’re secretly a monster, your challenge will be getting exposed and left to deal with the light.

All things done in the dark are brought to the light. Pick a struggle.

As for the moon person, your challenge is facing your fears and handling that Pluto d*** or p*** , haha no seriously.

Like Bella, she was constantly around other vampires who wanted to kill her. She was constantly in situations that she had no power. Bella was somewhat helpless until she fought for equal vampire rights, ha. Speaking to the moon person- your challenge is to become empowered and stronger through all the trials and tribulations you will surely endure being with the Pluto person. Your comfort levels will constantly be eroded, challenged and tested and you will need to overcome them and come out wanting more.

When I think of the moon, I think of pregnancy. Did you know women can die during childbirth? No one talks about this openly or even appears concerned about this when they try to get pregnant! Why? because the love they usually have for the man, overpowers the possibility of facing death. There's a deep-rooted level of trust these people have for each other that carries them through the darkest pits of hell. (or a deep-rooted distrust)

I am just using this as an example, but hopefully you get the point.

The love you have for your Pluto person will make you more than willing, resilient, and empowered to face death, if that’s required, for your Pluto person. Now death comes in many different forms, but the point is, your love for the Pluto person is the challenge. How deep is your love vibes. Your love will be exposed in the light as well. So, what you both initially hid about your feelings, love and relationship towards each other and others will be exposed eventually.

I hope what’s exposed is unconditional love, a bigger ass from taking those back shots and overcoming opposition that is waiting at the door for the both of you.

Do you both love each other enough to run into a burning building to save each other? Or hate each other enough to start the fire with them in it?

Are you both willing to dive in the deep oceans to save each other? Or throw them in the deep ocean in hopes they die and are eaten by a shark?

Are you willing to save room on a floating door in hopes you both survive, or will you allow your Pluto or moon person freeze to death like homegirl did in the titanic?

[nayatarot777]

PSA For Those Who Don’t Understand That Shit Ain’t Always Sweet Out Here In This Spiritual/Tarot World

I’m not one of these “love and light” tarot readers/spiritualists. You’re going to hear shit about yourselves in my readings that you don’t like, if that’s what Spirit wants to come out. Idgaf if it’s based on personal topics, relationships, work, health in any aspect - a lot of us self-sabotage. A lot of us are in situations with people and environments due to our own doing (partially). I’m not the reader that’s going to enable your perpetual victim complex and tell you what you want to hear to protect your ego from seeing a side to yourself that you don’t like. I’m not one of those readers who help you to lack accountability over what you allow into your own life despite having the option to do better. Of course I’ll try to put it in a delicate way where I can, but if a difficult pill to swallow is presented in a reading, I’m going to point it out.

I’ll point out your control issues that I see (no matter how much you try to hide or deny them). I’ll point out where you’re betraying yourself, where you’re disrespecting yourself, and where you’re disrespecting another. If you want to focus on love and light, then by all means - do that. But that’s the reason why so many of you are still unstable and imbalanced with no idea of how to balance and ground yourself. You think any of us could exist without darkness and negativity (which isn’t always evil and “bad”)? You think that you can exist only paying attention to the good parts of you without the bad? Go ahead and see how that turns out for you.

So many of you wonder why your intuition is thwarted and why you feel like you can’t connect to your higher self or the spiritual world without a “middleman” (such as myself). It’s because you’re not ready for that. Because you’re not ready to explore darkness within yourself in order to clear out a lot of the bs that’s clouding your vision. Why do you think that so many people who are great intuitives go through some of the darkest manifestations of life itself? Major abuse, betrayal, childhood wounds, just complete chaos - and they STILL come out to be some of the strongest and well-balanced people you’ll ever meet. They’re people who are strong enough to transmute darkness into light. You’re not going to do that by ignoring shit that you don’t like. And the darkness is terrifying. Exploring space, the deep sea, or any type of unknown is terrifying. But what would society look like if not one of us decided to do that? Where would we be as a human race if people with courage didn’t venture into those spaces and bring back a bunch of knowledge for us to expand our consciousness with? We all owe doing that for ourselves. Not doing so is self-betrayal and stagnation.

Intuition is represented by the moon. Does the moon emit light? No. Mother Luna is a dark entity and she lives in the darkness - which is the core of everything. And if you’re a woman/a feminine, you’re doing yourself even more of a disservice. Because darkness is pure, feminine energy. We come from our mother’s dark ass wombs. This entire universe began as a dark ass body of space-and-time before it formed physical planetary bodies and light sources. Reject yourselves all you want, but you can’t complain that you’re out of whack energetically if you choose to do so. Or when what you’re manifesting doesn’t come through (which also stems from the darkness btw). Don’t reject the darkness but expect to be able to use it when it benefits you. Sounds like shit that masculines have done to the feminine for centuries, huh? And so many feminines are doing that same exact shit to themselves. It’s sad.

We’ve seen entire groups of people with weak egos follow the same path of rejecting darkness/femininity and we see how difficult they are as people to co-exist with: ignorant men who have egos as big as the sun because they don’t want to face the hidden sides of themselves - that often times houses some ugly traits because of what they’ve allowed to fester in the dark corners of their psyche. Ignorant, male-centred religious people who identify so much with their religion that they only want to focus on the light, happy parts of their religion while ignoring how much harm that same religion can cause to others (especially feminines/women). Thats just to name a few. If you walk around with this idea that you’re nothing but “love and light” then just know that you’re another ignorant person in this world who is no doubt ignoring very real and human negative effects that you have on yourself and/or others - no doubt. And the darkness doesn’t always have negative effects (obviously) but it will when it’s suppressed and therefore forced to come out in uncontrolled, unconscious ways. If that’s what you want to do, then I’m not the reader for you.

[prettyrealm]

monsta x i.m ideal type reading

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overall:

someone highly attractive & well respected/admirable. someone kind, but unfriendly (the type of woman who is nice to everyone, but isn’t friends with everyone - she keeps a distance), someone who knows what they’re doing, follows her heart and knows how to pick her battles well (can prioritize), someone upfront who doesn’t mask how they feel when it comes to him (he would prefer you to be direct), someone charismatic with a vibe that can capture him and a look that he deems “exotic” (so maybe a diff race/ethnicity or nationality than what he’s use to), someone secure that doesn’t depend on him too much, but at the same time, i think he wants someone who would give themselves to him completely and almost blindly (cutting off people & giving up things/interests for him, obsessing over him quickly), someone who trusts in him completely, someone chill & non-confrontational (doesn’t like the aggressive types), someone who tries to keep themselves looking young or someone with a youthful vibe/personality, someone with a unique or more edgy look/personal style (by edgy I don’t mean an emo or rocker look necessarily, just something different)

turn ons:

when someone is influential or a trendsetter (like if all the girls are copying her and wanna be her or something, he finds this kind of attractive), high self-esteem, he may prefer to get with other artists or entertainers, someone fun who likes to enjoy good times with him, when someone has a nice voice and speaks well, when someone is observant and isn’t easily fooled by others, when someone is independent can can handle things on their own (or is good at controlling emotions), “pick-me’s” or women who don’t like or get along with other women/women who prioritize and center men, when someone is very physically attractive, when someone has a high sex drive or is ready whenever he is, small/petite women, cute/soft face (like fluffy cheeks), strong emphasis on cute & natural appearance (minimal makeup and no sexy vibe) & on the heavier/curvier side.

turn offs:

jealousy and when someone lets other people come between a relationship, infidelity (i don’t think he’d ever give a cheater a chance) when someone brings drama or messy people into his life, when someone is too forward or comes on too strong, aggressiveness & self righteousness, i don’t think he likes when his partners are too concerned with social/political issues, cold blooded people, highly emotional people, when someone isn’t really working towards anything or doesn’t have a goal they’re trying to reach in life - indecisiveness, someone he sees as overindulgent (too promiscuous, too into parties, too into food etc), someone too religious or spiritual/someone & doesn’t practice what they preach, preachy people in general, i think he’s picky about breast size (doesn’t like too small or big), when someone tries too hard to stand out, when someone is overweight, when someone is older or has an older or more mature appearance, & tall height.

[rynspiritual]

Introduction

Me !

Hello ! I’m choosing to go by Fallon on here but it is not the name i go by on other platforms!

I am 19 years old, I currently identify as an aroace lesbian and i use any pronouns (heavy on they/she but do occasionally prefer he). I am neurodivergent and physically disabled (some, if not most of the time).

My main blog is @lunarsvertigo, it is for fandom posting, mainly star wars and original characters. If you ever get interactions from that acc, that’s why :)

My practice !

I’ve been into the supernatural for as long as I can remember. I grew up with a fascination for ghosts and the spirituality and bonded with family members over it.

I became spiritual in 2018 after dealing with an extreme bout of depression. I started practicing tarot readings around this time and found a deep comfort in guardian angels. In 2020, I ended up learning about Witchcraft and then eventually Paganism. In 2021, i ended up losing a physical spiritual guide which slowly lead to me losing touch my spiritual side.

I am deeply interested in working with Lord Lucifer which is what has lead me here! I believe having a community will help keep me motivated :)

DNI / DNF !!

If you are a bigot (support homophobia, transphobia, racism, xenophobia, misogyny, etc), support Israel/are a zionist, are a Wiccan (this one isn’t a hard DNI, I’d just prefer if you didn’t), and anyone who is just an asshole in general.

If you are strongly against people sharing their UPG / personal experience. Just because someone’s experience doesn’t look like yours, doesn’t mean they’re wrong or lying. As long as it doesn’t hurt anyone, it isn’t your business <3

If you are very intensely against therian/otherkin/alterhumans. i personally do not think people should be judged for this type of thing, especially AGAIN when they aren’t hurting anyone and especially because i have a very strong belief in reincarnation.

[revlischarm]

SO APPARENTLY I NEVER POSTED SEASON 3 DETAILS FOR THE LMK MORRO AU.

I feel like an idiot ugh

Anyways. Uh.

Take that, because I know if I don’t attach art to this post it will fade into obscurity.

Details about season 3 under the cut!! So, so much lore, it’s a very long post honestly.

• Okay so starting off Season 3 with Macaque attacking the ship

• Morro can tell from the moment Mac shows up initially that there’s something screwy going on, not on any spiritual level but more in a way of “What kind of motive would Macaque have for working for the Bone Demon?? Why would he????”

• So we have Morro making a lot of biting remarks every time someone tries insulting Macaque for being on LBD’s side

-Wukong, to Macaque: “You always had a sidekick kinda vibe.”

Morro: “And you always had a shut-the-fuck-up kinda vibe but hey, look at you!” (Credit to @breathlessmonkie for the joke)

• He just knows there’s gotta be something else going on. Or at least he’s hoping so.

• I mean Macaque definitely has some residual LBD vibes on him since she’s got her claws in him, and Morro can sense that, he just can’t pin it down specifically yet

• He wants to help his monke dad but he can’t and that frustrates him immensely

• And during Macaque’s actual attack on the ship/them trying to escape LBD initially, Morro’s broom ends up getting smashed. And I mean that quite literally it is reduced to splinters

-Rest in peace, Morro’s broom. It’s honestly surprising you made it this far with how much Morro refused to use you for your intended purpose

• Ohohoho Morro and LBD’s dynamic is so much fun btw

• LBD’s whole thing is about fulfilling the path of destiny, and meanwhile Morro’s schtick was all about defying his!

-They clash really well!! I adore the parallels

• Oh, and Morro can instantly recognize possession like that upon seeing her

-He was a ghost for fucking 40-ish years (I don’t know the exact timeline), it’s a sensation that sticks with you—being able to tell that sorta thing, I mean. He was literally a cursed spirit for longer than he was actually alive, for fuck’s sake.

-Morro is super twitchy when it comes to possession just in general. Like, he’s an expert on it and knows a ton of information about it (obviously)

-And he knows immediately that this isn’t a possession that can be broken via willpower, that’s a fucking child who is frightened and definitely not strong enough to resist this demon.

• Morro hates LBD a lot honestly, they don’t like anything about her

-She’s so dedicated to destiny and she’s possessing people

-They loathe how she seems so sure of herself, and how she uses “It is destiny and nothing you do will change this” as a justification for everything she’s doing. They think that destiny is a load of bullshit and people can do what they want, not just because someone said they should.

• While on the topic of LBD and ghosts in general I’m gonna take this time to go over my concept/thoughts on how Morro’s newly resurrected body works. I even made up a super weird and unhelpful diagram where I try miserably to explain my thought process.

-Physically, it’s difficult for an ex-ghost to get possessed because their spirit used to be departed. Like…it’s super hard to explain, but the body and spirit work? A bit oddly?

-That new body in theory was created from nothing in a way? It’s from the spirit themselves, it’s got weird physical attributes going on. I mean, Morro’s actual body is rotting away in a cave

-So he had to conjure up a whole new body when he got brought back

-It’s just like. The connection between body and soul acts differently than it would for a regular person. His body is an extension of his spirit?? They’re not really separate.

-For a normal person you’ve got a clear divide between soul and body, it’s like a shell, you know? Whereas Morro’s body is more of uhhhhh. A second skin. It’s rooted into him and attached. The soul is the body, and vice versa.

-His soul has turned into a physical form, so there’s no separation there! That’s just. It’s all Morro! It is so hard to explain and so frustrating that I can’t word this right and I’m repeating myself

-I can say that Cole is a special and different case

-There’s two ways that Cole’s whole deal could operate; one of which involves a fun notion that when Cole failed to escape the temple he actually ended up leaving his body behind, thus that’s what it meant by “becoming a ghost”. His body sorta smacked into the doors and his soul kept on walking, so. That’s a fun idea. If that’s the route we go with, then his resurrection would work just the same as Morro’s, but if it isn’t then he gets some completely different funky dynamics

-It’s overall frustrating sometimes to have to think about because both cases are so unique and isolated that I can’t really draw from any other examples since there are none. I just end up having to make up my own lore along the way

-TLDR: Morro is a ghost with skin

• On that note if anyone wants to contribute any ideas I would love to hear them, there are so many things in this au that are rough concepts at best and could really use polishing up

• Anyways…back on my other bullshit, it’s hard to possess something that isn’t really. A body/empty husk.

-It’s just Morro, all one thing packaged together

-Yeah LBD can taunt him and get inside his head (mentally), but not actually possess him

-She tries and just bounces off of him like a rubber ball because it’s literally just colliding with another spirit except he’s solid

-Plus there’s mental complications too. Someone who used to be a ghost (for a long time at least! You’ve gotta have experience with possession, you know?) would know all the tricks that someone does when possessing, so they’re psychically fortified, they just. They know how to lock out a secondary conscience with relative ease.

-When possessing someone, you have to keep that person’s will/conscious under wraps and separate it from your own! It works the same way as that.

-Just imagine Morro as being a physical ghost in a way idk I’m trying my best to explain

• Morro can touch things both on the spiritual plane and the physical plane

-He doesn’t have ghost powers tho, this is all just side effects from the Rift

-But Morro can interact with stuff in the mortal plane as well as any spiritual stuff, which is something others can’t do.

-He can’t separate LBD from her host or anything like that, possession isn’t really like. That’s an entirely different thing from grabbing something that’s on the spiritual realm like an object, and it’s not something I’ll go into detail about since it’s not relevant

• LBD’s powers also slip off of Morro a lot

-They can’t really. Latch onto him? It’s very touch-and-go.

-She can’t do any kind of long-distance contact with Morro either

-You know how she can get in MK’s head sometimes from a distance? Whatever that pang of blue outline is. She can’t do that on Morro

• The Mayor also struggles against Morro somewhat. It depends on how exactly he’s attacking. Physical attacks work normally, like nothing is really changed about that, but any sort of magic/spiritual stuff could be a tad wonky? I’m not sure

• Morro can also see stuff on the spiritual/astral(?) plane in addition to his being able to make contact with stuff! Think MK’s gold vision, except only for spiritual stuff

-So when Wukong is communicating via astral projection to MK, Morro is able to see that. His immediate reaction is “Oh hey Monkey King finally killed the bucket lmao” (he says, jokingly)

• Also Morro grabbing LBD’s chain things without consequences is something they can absolutely do

-Of course all this is to say that this stuff doesn’t make Morro immune to all spiritual attacks; if anything, at times they impact him even more. But it depends on what it is.

• Ohohoho plot time now

• Morro is freaking the fuck out when the ship crashes into the ocean. His powers just start going haywire underwater because of how bad he’s panicking.

-They have an actual panic attack, and are having flashbacks to their death via the Preeminent and how much they feared water as a ghost

-It’s a very rough time for everybody

• He’s tryna make an air bubble for people but keeps failing because Panic Attacc

-He’s upset and generally out of it overall; not entirely lucid

• Morro 🤝 Wukong: Being useless underwater

• So they get to the dragon palace, right? First things first, the moment they’re out of the wreaked vehicle, Morro sorta just stumbles to the ground and is having trouble breathing right.

-Morro is able to calm down from his panic with some help, but there’s not exactly time to recuperate properly when the plot starts moving along again

• So they meet with Ao Guang, and because of the green streak in his hair and the power of plot convenience and his having powers, Ao Guang is like “oh another dragon kid? I don’t remember you but okay. Bring him in too.” Plus the dragon pendant Morro is wearing adds to that as well.

-Not to mention Morro is still so frazzled that Ao Guang would feel bad throwing him in the dungeon anyways. He looks like a really sad wet cat and I love him for it

• Morro’s clothes got all torn up and wet during the chaos, so Mei insists that he get a change of clothes too. Cue the fashion montage!!

-And Morro dyes his hair purple as a kinda nod to Macaque. He’s also got his own color scheme now!! Trying to find his own identity and life and such. He’s got the ribbons to represent his friendship with MK and Mei! And bc they’re very pretty and I wanted something to flap around in the wind for dramatic effect.

-Morro actually lends MK his dragon pendant thing to be a part of MK’s new outfit! It doesn’t do anything, it’s purely sentimental/ornamental.

-MK literally asks, “What’s it do? Is it magic? Does it turn into some cool secret weapon??”

And Morro just goes “No? It’s just a pendant?”

-MK has the idea in his head by this point that Morro must have been some sort of ghost hunter since he’s able to punch ghosts in the face and knows a lot about them

• AIWUWHWJWJ picturing MK dying a streak of green in his hair to match Mei and Morro one day since literally two of his friends have that

-That’s unrelated, it’s just funny to think about

• Oh, and since Morro’s broom got broken, he steals a guandao from one of the guards as they’re breaking out

-The guandao stays with Morro for the rest of the season! And even after that, though a brand new broom is his typical weapon of choice, he’ll bring out the guandao (he keeps it in MK’s room lol) when he knows he’s going into a fight

-Morro, dual-wielding a broom and a guandao: “Don’t fuck with me! I have the power of the FSM and found family on my side!”

• Also also also!!! When they crash into the ocean and everything, Morro’s makeup that he’s been using to cover up his cursed markings gets washed off. Yes, he uses a lot of concealer, but so much happened that it couldn’t really withstand all of that

-He can’t reapply it because he doesn’t have any spare concealer on him, and the purpose is defeated seeing as everyone’s noticed the markings now

• When Morro had first arrived, they immediately went and stole concealer once they passed by a store. They spotted their reflection in a shop window and went “Shit I gotta hide these” since they’re a red flag in Ninjago

-And then he ended up getting stabbed by me after that lol

• Now they don’t know what the marks mean (Tang has a few suspicions tho), all they can see is that they’re etched into his skin. MK compares them to Macaque’s or Wukong’s face markings

-But Morro steadfastly refuses to elaborate on what his markings mean specifically, or how they originated

-He’s extremely vague and dodgy about the subject and will even go so far as to brush them off as a “birth defect”

-Then Amnesia Wukong comes along :)

-Yeah that’s actually part of a lovely big reveal for Morro’s new uncle figures Tang and Pigsy hehe

• Oh and when Wukong is meditating btw Morro absolutely draws on his face and messes with him. Takes pictures with his phone to send to Macaque later.

• I’m just gonna jump right into the amnesiac Wukong stuff because it’s a lot of fun

• I wanna start off with saying that Macaque’s plan when he separated the group was to specifically have Morro around with Wukong, that was intentional on his part. He didn’t want to have to deal (presently) with facing Morro.

-Like he’ll fight MK, sure, but he knows if Morro was with MK then they’d end up protecting the kid at all costs, whereas Macaque is aware that Morro doesn’t care very much for Wukong.

-Thus the way Macaque was thinking, he’d be able to subdue MK (without Morro knowing), and then go over to pick up Wukong without too big a fight

• Anyways back to Wukong revealing some sensitive information that Morro really wishes he hadn’t

-Like…Wukong says it so casually, too, as if it’s a glaringly obvious fact and not something Morro’s kept buried from everyone

-At least normal Wukong has the decency not to, you know. Mention the fact that his gold vision and centuries worth of experience let him know that Morro’s been cursed/dead at some point.

-But amnesiac Wukong? No tact whatsoever. “You! Spirit! Why are you hovering over there next to my master?!”

-This SWK only calls Morro variations of spirit, phantom, ghost, wraith, etc.

-Morro is wondering if Wukong has a fucking thesaurus or something on him with how many synonyms he’s spouting

-On that note allow me to list some because data collection is fun

-Apparition, shade, specter, banshee, poltergeist, phantasm, shadow, spook…those are the most relevant ones I could find. Although Wukong’s favorite/most used is gonna be spirit or phantom.

• That aside, Morro is mortified when he gets addressed in that manner

• This reveal happens before Tang gets snatched by the Scorpion Queen, so he hears SWK call Morro that along with Pigsy

-So that was fun for Tang to ruminate on while he was kidnapped lol

• Like, Wukong glances around and sees Morro and after some back and forth, proclaims “Well they’re clearly an evil spirit! Though they may hide in that mortal form, they can’t conceal the distinctive markings on their face! Those show who they really are: a being that was cursed upon death!”

-Cut to Morro’s expression getting increasingly alarmed while Wukong’s saying all of this, eventually tackling the monkey to the ground in an impulsive effort to silence him

-“Shut up shut up shut up! You don’t get to say those things, you don’t get to talk about any of that as if you—as if you understand! You have no right—!”

-Morro is frenzied and panicked, horrified that SWK may have just scared away the few people who he’d actually grown quite fond of! The last thing he wants to see (though he wouldn’t admit it aloud) is them looking at him in fear and revulsion.

• Pigsy definitely questions Morro on what Wukong meant while they’re looking for Tang, although that’s after needing to convince Morro not to immediately bolt when Wukong had finished talking. Morro was ready to fucking sprint off and start life anew as the local woodland cryptid; that’s how freaked out they had gotten. So Pigsy has to calm them down enough to at least get them to like, stay stationary.

• Once Morro’s settled enough (and even then, he’s got a very flighty look to him) Pigsy starts questioning him

-Morro is. Extraordinarily hesitant to disclose anything—he always is—but he seems especially cagey about this topic in particular, which is saying something.

-Morro, thinking to himself: “Oh my FSM I’m turning into Wu with the amount of information I’m keeping to myself.”

-He absolutely, positively, refuses to reveal anything about himself dying. He cannot and will not voluntarily mention that. Reluctantly and after a lot of prodding, he explains to Pigsy that yes, he was cursed at one point, but that’s as much as he’ll let on.

-It’s so frustrating for anyone to try and get backstory details from Morro lmao

-“I did something awful/something I wasn’t supposed to do, and it pissed someone off, I guess. It got me cursed, and it’s nothing that I want to talk about. Please.” Or he even mentions that he “defied destiny” and was cursed for it.

• The big reveal that Morro had died previously comes during the confrontation with LBD and Wukong

-She is definitely the one who reveals it seeing as there’s no feasible way that Morro is willingly divulging that information

-She straight up mocks him about it I’d wager

-“You, who have so foolishly defied destiny time and time again, and even defied the very cycle of natural life. O’ Morro, former champion of the Cursed Realm, general to the Preeminent—how low you have fallen in your futile reach towards a life of repentance.” LBD probably knows shit, dialogue ain’t set in stone, I’m really just trying to set the mood for these events

• If anything, I’d only imagine she knows about the ghost stuff for whatever reason. I don’t know. I’m making my own canon. She can tell he’s died before? She can tell he was cursed, specifically that he was, you know. Powerful/chosen/appointed some high rank. She doesn’t really know his life story.

-She just knows about his ghost status and that he’s died at least twice—she knows some vague details, and that’s only because of plot reasons and also because like. It’s like.

-Yeah she knows he tried to curse a whole realm/all the realms, she’s an ancient demon and has access to certain knowledge

-She wanted to find out who exactly Morro was that she couldn’t take hold of him. So she did some research spirit-wise and found out the basic information of Morro’s rank and role, and that he’s died at least twice, and that he just. Cursed spirit, you know?

-Reading Journey to the West I discovered that apparently you can just up and go to some records or whatever and find some convenient info out

-Literally Wukong did a whole quest to go find out more about LBD in the show

• So Morro is just. The most mortified and distraught and furious at her for the sheer audacity she’s shown to have outed him like that

-MK might even say, “You lied to us?” To which Morro immediately snaps that that’s bs, he did not lie about anything. He just wasn’t telling them every little detail about him.

-He left information out but he didn’t lie because they never specifically asked so yeah lmao

-Morro: “I told you I wasn’t the best person.”

MK: “Dude I thought you were just being like, angsty and edgy.” (Credit: @breathlessboy)

• Oh LBD totally calls him a hypocrite, too

-LBD: “You tried to curse all the realms across time and space, and yet you really think yourself better than I?”

• Morro lets his emotions get the better of him during this whole encounter, I mean he’s been bottling them up for awhile as is

-This is when Wukong went off to go battle LBD on his own

-Morro and MK and Nezha are closer to the whole fight this time, and Morro’s actually trying to lend a hand since he does have powers and all

-Since they’re up in the air a lot, Morro has an extreme advantage, and aids the wind to Wukong’s side while making it way less favorable for LBD

• Either way LBD does this reveal when they’re closer to the ground/on the ground (so MK hears it), and it winds Morro up a lot.

-He’s very emotional at the moment and thus, his powers aren’t the easiest to control? Yes, he’s controlling the wind, but the wind is reacting in tune to his rampaging emotions right now.

-So he can’t focus them completely on, you know. The whole fight. This ends up making things harder for LBD and for Wukong, as well as MK and Nezha who can’t get near him amid the whirlwind he’s practically shielded himself with.

-He’s genuinely upset, he doesn’t want to hear about this after he’s already tried so hard to put it behind him. He had a chance he didn’t even ask for to start fresh with this clean slate, and it’s been ruined.

-Both Wukong and LBD are getting tossed around like rag dolls by the wind which is fun to watch tho lol

-Still, it means they just have to fight harder against the relentless gale

• Morro snapping that he’ll tear LBD apart and inadvertently frightening MK

-Because Morro is so goddamn scary and pissed off right now, his hair’s all a mess and has long since escaped from its bun, his eyes almost seem to glow in the darkness…it’s eerie, to say the least.

• Morro ends up going to attack LBD and unfortunately gets shot down because he’s so emotionally vulnerable she’s able to sneak attack him

-He’s off his game, he’s distracted

-She sorta knocks him out of the air and down into the mech/ground

-He gets up from the crater he’s created and he’s injured, but not badly enough to the point where he can’t stand.

-He is seething and then he spits out another, “I’M GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU!” which is met with a “Morro, stop!” from a terrified MK nearby

-Nezha is standing in front of MK almost protectively and MK looks extremely shaken up

-MK then having to remind Morro that LBD is possessing a child. They’re fighting a little kid right now.

-It settles Morro down a little bit, lessens some of that frenzied rage, but not by much

• “I’ll rip her out of that kid if I have to—possession can be undone, MK! Even if it takes me having to beat that wench out of her! She won’t possess a vessel that isn’t usable!”

-Which Morro regrets saying immediately upon hearing himself aloud

-He is just. Horror-struck, realizing he sounds just like he used to and hating it immensely.

-“I’m—I’m sorry, I didn’t mean…I didn’t…oh First Master, what am I doing? I was trying to be better than this, better than her, and I…”

-He gets so genuinely upset here because he’s trying so hard all this time to do better and be a good person, to make the most of his new life, yet the moment his past is brought up/he has to face that, he immediately snaps. He’s disappointed in himself and it has him fearing that maybe he can’t be redeemed. Maybe, no matter how hard he tries, he won’t be able to change and he’ll always be this—this bitter, awful person doomed to failure.

• Morro‘s very caught up in his breakdown right now and he’s experiencing a lot of not-fun feelings and doubts

-Morro’s gonna choke out something along the lines of “I’ll never be able to change, will I? This is just what I’m always going to be no matter how hard I try. I can’t fix this—I can’t fix what I am, and I don’t deserve to either.” And that in particular is gonna distract Wukong for a brief moment since he’s pinning LBD down on the mech rn, and thus, you know. Possession stuff.

-Morro feels guilty about that afterwards

• Morro also absolutely gets struck by a possessed Wukong at one point

-He’s so freaked out and in his own head that he just doesn’t see the attack coming

-He gets knocked back, MK runs after him, and Nezha holds Monkey King off

• Macaque saves them and Morro knows it’s him, he’s familiar with his magic, and he feels so much relief when those shadows teleport them to safety

• They get dropped in a jungle and into the mud, and MK is you know. Dialoguing to himself before saying to Morro, “Well…we should probably get going,” but Morro is just on his hands and knees in the mud, muttering quietly, “No, don’t go just yet, please stay” to seemingly nothing. MK assumes he’s speaking to him, goes over, and it snaps Morro out of his dazed trance.

-“I wasn’t—I wasn’t talking to you, MK. I…nevermind, just forget I said anything.”

-He was talking to Macaque (who wasn’t there and was already gone maybe? Idk)

-He felt Macaque’s magic and the teleportation and mourned when that went away. Morro just wants to talk with Macaque and vibe. He misses his monke dad.

• Morro’s also in a bit of a daze as he follows MK, he’s definitely aware but at the same time? Sorta disassociating.

• Although when he gets himself together after a few minutes, he’s reverted back to bitter remarks and insults. Unfortunate temporary character regression and hiding behind a wall as a defense mechanism, essentially. He’s withdrawn, he’s upset, and this is just how he copes.

• Oh I also wanna mention that when Macaque delivers the Mayor to the gang and makes his appearance, Morro can’t help himself from rushing forward and tackling him in a hug

-He’s just so relieved and it’s very surprising to the others in the room because 1. Morro doesn’t usually initiate that kind of physical contact and 2. DON’T HUG THE ENEMY

-“I missed you and also I screwed up bad and can I crash at your place when this is all done for a bit? I may need a spot to stay.”

• Dude thinks he’s gonna get kicked out of MK’s apartment for his behavior and also for the secrets that got revealed

• Macaque is taken aback by the sudden onslaught of info but then he sees how absolutely defeated Morro looks and deadass says aloud “Who hurt you??”

• They don't even need to tie Mac up, they just let Morro cling to him and it keeps the monkey in place (credit: @breathlessmonkie)

• Morro: “I never liked the Monkey King but I didn’t want him to get fucking possessed.”

• Oh yeah literally seeing them interact together? Everyone starts asking like “you two are really close? When did this happen??? How did we miss this?”

-Morro revealing “uhhh so I’ve actually been training with Macaque for a while now in secret haha”

• But legit like this is the moment that Macaque decides “This is my kid now.”

-He succumbs to the fate of being dad-caque

• Morro is also the one who voices concern about sending Macaque in to fight against Wukong

• Alsooooo Morro definitely fights by Macaque’s side the best he can for that encounter

-“Dude I know you’re insanely strong and all that but I can help. You shouldn’t have to face him alone.”

• Oh and Morro accusing Red Son of stealing his look lmao

-“Hey fuck you, the sleeveless black top is MY thing”

• Yes I know there’s a lot of things I didn’t go over like the Samadhi Fire, Red Son’s and Morro’s dynamic (spoiler alert: they can and will refer to each other as cousins. Do with that information as you will), a deeper look on Morro’s actual relationships with each character, etc, etc.

• This post is just way too long as is so I’m gonna end it here and continue in a different one

• Oh and one final teaser for y’all: there is absolutely eventually gonna be a confrontation/crossover that happens where the ninja show up and hehe

• I’m plotting and scheming and cackling with delight

[stealthisplanet]

New Mutants vol. 4 #18 – Homecoming

The imperative of a mutant community

Vita Ayala (Writer), Rod Reis (Artist), Travis Lanham (Letterer)

Let’s begin with first principles.

The two foundational, definitional characteristics of the New Mutants are the closeness of their bonds, lines between platonic and romantic almost permanently blurred, and their trauma, both individual and shared. The New Mutants’ mission on Krakoa, explored so beautifully in this issue, is to foster a community strong enough that it can guide and support each of its individuals to unburden themselves of the trauma of the past and flourish in the future.

The New Mutants begin their utopian journey in this fashion by creating a support system for younger mutants, no longer constrained by human frameworks and ideologies. This is symbolised by their new home the Sextant, which is itself a metaphor for charting a new course towards a future with limitless possibilities. When Vita Ayala takes over writing responsibilities from Jonathan Hickman from issue 13, they more closely interrogate how this idealism plays out in practice. As the shadow of the past begins to encroach on the Akademos Habitat in the form of Amahl Farouk, the young students are attracted to the allure of easy solutions to their problems. The teachers also perceive Krakoa as an opportunity to release the trauma they’ve held onto for many years but know that this victory must be hard fought. Enter Dani Moonstar aka Mirage to guide them through.

After Magik becomes a War Captain and de facto combat leader of the team, Dani remains the team’s spiritual and emotional leader, as well as the lead educator for the Lost Club, the island’s youngest mutants. While Mirage doesn’t have a story dedicated to her throughout the run, she remains active rather than passive, supporting the team through the period of introspection and reflection that the safety of Krakoa has afforded them.

Ayala uses Mirage to great effect throughout their run, using her innate skill of empathy to de-emphasis the distinction between individual and shared trauma. Ayala’s approach to this feels so realistic, as Dani does not always get this right, avoiding a trap that writers fall into with the character being so morally upstanding that her judgement is beyond reproach. While issue #18 is a wonderful testament to Dani’s strength as a leader and the nature of her bond with Karma, there’s only so much that a community leader can do for her people without wider structural support.  Wolfsbane and Cosmar are examples of attentions become spread too thinly, which is a catalyst for calamity and guilt that later issues must resolve. All of Dani’s attention is on Karma’s battle to reclaim her identity by separating her from her ‘evil’ brother Tran, who she has stored in her soul for almost her entire life to protect the world around her. In a society that promises amnesty and support for its former villains, New Mutants #18 examines the precarious moral balance of self-actualisation and community protection through one of the Krakoa era’s most controversial plot devices: the Crucible.

The healing rock

The issue begins with Karma and Mirage sat on a rock by a waterfall, hands held in meditation as Dani facilitates a conversation between Xuân and Tran on the astral plane. This is the same rock that Karma finds Wolfsbane sat on in the opening scene to issue 1 and offers her guidance about capitalising on the potential of her rebirth and finding new purpose. It is a space that symbolises the spiritual connections between the team, and the importance of quiet introspection as a way of resolving problems and challenges. It’s representative of Ayala’s approach to the series, which is to buck the superhero comic trend and resolve issues through philosophical debate rather than physical conflict. That’s not to say that action isn’t core to this issue because it is, but the resolution to the problem is arrived at here on this rock which then plays out in the crucible itself.

Rod Reis’ use of pastel tones and inking to differentiate between the corporal and astral figures and between past and present tense is both economical and visually stunning. The washed out tone clearly demarcates the past tense, while the flare ups of Karma’s pink power signature emphasises Karma’s intense frustration and despair at the lack of success of previous attempts to separate her from her brother. Floating ink lines resembling restraints circle Tran’s body loosely throughout the scene, suggesting Xuân’s reluctance to incarcerate him. At the scene’s conclusion, the inks have become thinner, symbolising the loosening of the bonds and his imminent freedom.

“Tôi đã có bạn - I’ve Got You”

So why is the ritual of the Crucible so crucial to Karma’s story? First of all, it demands conviction. It demands that Xuân reckon with the conundrum of whether her full spiritual independence is worth the risk her brother poses to the community around her. And yes, it demands brutality because the foundational principle of the Crucible is rooted in violence, the premise that paradise should never come easily, even to those who deserve it, because it is simply worth so much.

In the Crucible scenes, Ayala and Reis combine to great effect to simultaneously create a violent intensity and gentle intimacy to the fight. The pacing ebbs and flows as Xuân’s creeping doubts are answered with Dani’s violence before the scene breaks away for Karma to “waver here, in this moment between breathes” as her memories of Tran as an innocent child and as a damaged man as the narrative caption boxes pose the question “who is Tran?”. The fluid, sketched panelling gives way to thick bordering on the bottom panel of the page as the reader sees Karma, sword in hand, resolved in her decision: ultimately, it is not for her to choose. Tran must be given the grace to find his own path.

The scene then ramps up to a frenetic yet almost silent crescendo as Dani stabs her with an arrow. Throughout this scene, when the narrative is from the two central figures’ perspectives, the background is dark pink, symbolising Karma’s internality, while everyone else is faded out. It’s just the two of them together, dancing to a song of violence written with pure love. The issue’s closing scene is a moving testament to the love between them, with Karma flirting with Dani as they stare into each other’s eyes in a way that brings us back to first principles: friendship and romance are fluid among the New Mutants, but what is clear is their deep affection for one another.

Other than the potential romantic elements, Ayala’s decision to have Dani be Xuân’s partner is a smart one in that Dani is probably the most self-actualised of the New Mutants. In the original New Mutants series, she was the first to lose her powers, the first to succumb to her trauma in the form of the Demon Bear and therefore the first to be saved by the found family around her. The passing on of care from one community to member to another is contrasted in later issues where the New Mutants talk to the Shadow King about breaking the cycle of trauma and replacing it with something more productive. By separating herself from the pain of her past, symbolised by the influence of her brother, she finally has complete autonomy: freedom to be who she wants but also to pay the kindness forward to others, which she is able to do with Cosmar in a later issue.

So when Karma is resurrected with her prosthetic leg still in place, accompanied by the narrative caption box of “Welcome Home”, the message is loud and clear: mutant paradise is being the version of yourself that you most love and identify with, and the Crucible is the hard road to travel to get there.

The Lost  Club

What is striking on a re-read is how much of this issue is dedicated to the Lost Club and the debate between Gabby Kinney and Cosmar about the efficacy of the Shadow King’s promise to restore the mutants to their idealised self. The scenes are very dialogue heavy, which weigh down the issue slightly, but they are important and completely on theme.

The Lost Club, and Cosmar in particular, present an alternative viewpoint on the theme of self-acceptance. If Karma’s decision to resurrect herself with her prosthesis still in place is a strong message of rejecting disability as something to be fixed, Cosmar’s experience is perhaps an allegory for body dysmorphia or more specifically gender dysphoria. The pop philosophy of self-acceptance generally argues that a person should accept themselves for who they are, which implies a rigidity of identity shaped by a patriarchal view of gender. The point that the children with visible mutations like Cosmar, Anole and Rain Boy make to Gabby is that what if what you see in the mirror prevents you from expressing who you are? How can one accept a version of oneself that is false?

Ayala is challenging a generally held belief in X-Men continuity, perpetuated by the Krakoa era, that possessing a mutant power is necessarily a gift. In the past this notion has generally been challenged by mutants whose powers are destructive, like Rogue or an even more extreme case like Glow Worm, but this comic explicitly is not interested in that. This is about the person behind the powers, and not just whether or not they look “different” from others. This comic is interrogating ways in which people look different from how they perceive themselves, and in that way is an interesting examination of body dysmorphia at the very least.

So while the Crucible scene is a beautiful example of how a community can support the individual, the Lost Club plot is about what happens when a community fails its citizens. The Shadow King, although characterised fairly sympathetically in this run, represents the systems that exploit those left vulnerable by lack of community care. Without spoiling what happens in future issues the seeds of this plot’s central argument are laid here: while they don’t always get it right, the New Mutants have their fellow citizens best interests at heart, and are a positive example of an inclusive and accepting community.

However, the point made by Magik in her letter to the Quiet Council gets to the root of the issue: local communities need the support of central government to best serve its citizens. In an economic and political climate in which vital funding and protective legislation for communities and their vulnerable citizens are being gutted to fund genocide and war, the idealism of Krakoa was always fated to be just another utopia.

[kkoumiii]

❁ 𝐋𝐞𝐞 𝐉𝐮𝐲𝐞𝐨𝐧 | 이주연⎾𝑷𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚⏌*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ

/!\ Friendly reminder that my readings should not be taken at face value, I do not claim to hold the truth and I do not mean any harm to this idol, my readings are only for entertainment purposes. /!\

🌼 𝗦𝗰𝗮𝗿 - 𝖳𝖧𝖤 𝖡𝖮𝖸𝖹 🌼

1:16 ───ㅇ───── 3:20

⊱ ᴊᴜʏᴇᴏɴ's ϙᴜᴀʟɪᴛɪᴇs ⊰

• Avenger (Shadow Attribute) | 4 of Swords Rx | Tenth House ~ The World •

- Naturally hardworking, he finds it hard to do nothing

- He often seems clueless even though everything makes sense in his head —this is just his resting face—

- He is optimistic and determined, you won’t see him wallow in self-pity, at least not for too long

- This boy is curious and wants to learn everything about the world. I wouldn't be surprised if he was the type of person to want to travel around the world

- Modern-day Robin Hood in disguise, he is a man of principles. Juyeon acts and makes decisions according to a strong set of values he lives by

- Often lost in his thoughts, it’s sometimes hard to bring him back to earth

- Juyeon is open-minded and gladly welcomes differences. He would not trust someone who judges and forms an opinion too quickly at first glance

- This is very random but he might be interested in geography and/or history

- This man truly lives in his own world —we’re just part of it—, he runs at his own pace

- He wants to leave a significant impact on this world and to be remembered. His ambitious nature leads him to think big, the sky is the limit to him

- He knows where to focus his energy and does not waste time on things he deems as useless or unfruitful

- He seems to be a gullible person, he looks on the bright side of things even if the situation isn’t benefiting him, which makes him a bit delusional at times

- I think he is a lot more talkative than we give him credit for.

⊱ ᴊᴜʏᴇᴏɴ's ғᴀᴜʟᴛs ⊰

• Mother (Light Attribute) | The Judgement | Mercury Retrograde ~ Reinvention •

- Overprotective, Juyeon tends to prevent his loved ones from flying on their own wings and growing on their own even though he thinks he knows what’s best for everyone

- Feels the need to be needed (hope it makes sense) and wants to be admired, he is a bit greedy for fame

- I think he lowkey has a messiah complex

- As I already mentioned previously, this boy lives in his own world which leads him to neglect everything that doesn’t match it

- I literally heard “archaic” so I can interpret this as him being a bit old-fashioned at times. I can picture him telling a joke and people around him saying that it was lame or just him suggesting something that seems boring to most people

- Related to the point above, I feel like he’s often wide of the mark, in the sense that it takes time for him to react or get a joke —I picture him as a cute sloth somehow haha.— Overall, he seems to be slower than others

- Albeit open-minded, once he forms an opinion about something, he swears only by it

- He is a proud person and thinks that he is indispensable and special (I mean yes, The Boyz wouldn’t be the same without one of its members)

- He can be a bit authoritative at times and he tends to scold like a mom would

- He doesn’t always offer a helping hand to the right people, certainly due to his gullible nature.

⊱ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ϙᴜᴀʟɪᴛɪᴇs ᴅᴏᴇs ʜᴇ ᴀᴅᴍɪʀᴇ? ⊰

• Exorcist (Light Attribute) | The Fool Rx | North Node ~ Life's purpose | First House ~ The body •

To catch Juyeon’s attention, you have to be confident and decisive. He appreciates worry-free people who follow their desires and stay away from expectations. Independent, adventurous, and curious individuals inspire him. However, they should be aware of their limits and keep working on bettering themselves since Juyeon probably believes that there’s always something to improve —whether it’s physically, mentally, or spiritually, etc.— Since he seems to strive to become a guide to others, he looks up to people who embody this energy. To him, a perfect guide is hard-working, knows what he/she wants, and is ready to get out of his/her comfort zone while remaining chill and cool-headed. There’s an emphasis on working hard yet letting go of expected results, which leads me to think that it is primordial for him to keep a carefree and mischievous mindset no matter the circumstances. The point is yes, you obviously have to work hard to get what you want, yet you cannot control external factors, so there’s no point in worrying about something you cannot act upon.

@monstaxdirtywonk enjoy this gif hehe 🤓

Thanks for reading <3

[thequietmanno1]

TheLreads, Vigilantes ch 117, Replies Part 1

1) “What nightmares lie waiting now that we had a force ghost give Koichi a powerup? God only knows, and with each passing chapter I fear he abandoned us. Now, let us see Koichi kick ass, on Chapter 117: The Bad one

2) Oh god you mean the other chapters weren’t the bad ones?!”-Well, from a certain point of view, the title could be referring to Koichi finally cutting loose with his magnum cannon of a fist, or it could be referring to Fires Georg showing in in a futile attempt to steal All Might’s spotlight, or it could be referring to Furuhashi’s brainwave idea to have legit force ghosts appearing in a situation outwith the OFA/AFO mental connection MHA has.

3) “OH JESUS FUCK POP IS TRYING TO WAKE UP BUT FURUHASHI IS TOO STRONG AND IS KEEPING HER DOWN”- She still got up….after a fashion. Just, left most of her fleshy part behind to show up for Koichi’s cheerleading session.

(Vigilantes ch 101) 4) “Also, where’s Midnight? Why isn’t she here? Her quirk could’ve put all of them to sleep, or at least she could try to do so.“- Midnight’s here to serve as the last line of defence between Nomura and Pop, and also as support when she starts flatlining. (Vigilantes ch 116) 5) OH DID YOU NOW, KOICHI

DID YOU REALLY

I WONDER IF SHE HAS ANYTHING TO SAY ABOUT THAT”- She says – Flatline noises

6) “Well of course, Knuckles also visited her and told her to get up.”- You tried to joke about it, but….

7) “Yeah Pop, fight on, since you can only do so when you’re in the fridge apparently.”- And even that amounts to her giving moral support to both a dying Koichi and Nomura as they tether on the brink of passing on. 8) “NO KOICHI DON’T SNAP YOUR FINGERS, YOU DON’T KNOW WHICH HALF OF THE UNIVERSE YOU CAN END UP ERASING”- Judging by your drunken binge following this, I bet you wished it was the half of the universe that conspired to allow this Bizarre ghost plotline to be birthed from Furuhashi’s mind. 9) “Koichi you fool, the power was inside you all along~And here comes the newspaper again, but now you can simply go “no <3” and brush it off”- Koichi legit could have overpowered Nomura’s best punch attempt here with his own arm cannon. Poor guy never really had a chance against the sheer force of the writer’s pen giving strength to Koichi’s blows/as much bullshit power-ups as he required.

10) “KOICHI GODDAMMIT YOU WERE THE ONE THAT SAID THAT YOU COULD USE YOUR QUIRK AROUND YOURSELF LIKE CC

DID YOU FUCKING FORGOT WHAT GHOSTKLEDUSTER TOLD YOU?”- Yeah, but he still doesn’t want to actually fire it. Perhaps one of the biggest hang-ups about liking Koichi’s role as the protagonist is his absolute adherence to never physically assaulting anybody- even here, he just resorts to tearing apart the plasma body to weaken Nomura, rather than strike the obvious weak spot in the head.

11) “PISS OFF KNUCKLES, GO TO THE OTHER SIDE ALREADY GOOD LORD YOU HAVEN’T SHOWED UP FOR AN ETERNITY AND NOW YOU REFUSE TO LEAVE”- And even when he leaves, Furuhashi just drags him right back before the curtain falls.

12) “Debatable, we still aren’t sure he has one”- If he did have one, it swiftly burned apart in his own self-cremation here. Though the lack of change to his usual demeanour when interacting with Koichi one final time indicates he never really put those brain cells to much work even when he had them.

13) “For pete’s sake, first McBee has a tulpa that turns out to be fucking AfO, now Ghost knuckles refuses to fuck off, can someone call in an exorcist already?”- At the rate we were going, I was expecting Koichi to Ghostbusters somebody by the end in some kind of spiritual final battle with Nomura – it’s not like the craziest ideas imaginable wouldn’t have fitting into this off-the-rails situation by the end.

14) “Why do I feel that any moment now Pop’s ghost is gonna show up to tell him that murder is okay in this particular situation”- You tried to joke about it, but Furuhashi was talking all suggestions as good ones the day this chapter came out.

15) “Koichi, with part of “it’s kill or be killed” you didn’t understood? Do you want to end up like knuckles there?”- I mean, he is sorta half-dead at this point – or at least in-tune enough with the spirit world to speak with actual ghosts. That said, at least the continuation of his character arc ended better than Knuckles’ did.

16) “Yes. Because guns are for pussies, real heroes kill with their hands. That’s the logic we want you to follow Koichi. Kicks are also in, as long it’s not below the waist.”- For Evidence, look no further than what All Might did to AFO with his meaty fists of supreme justice. @thelreads

[massivesimpfordilfs]

AIB Headcanons!!

Basically just different characters headcanons, not much else

SFW/NSFW

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Chishiya:

SFW-

He isn’t one for physical touch but he does like forehead kisses

PLAY WITH HIS HAIR. its fried and crunchy but its the most soothing thing on the planet

After a long day: expect shoulder rubs

He knows how to cook but doesn’t like to (he will if you ask)

Loves giving gifts even if he’d never admit it

Takes MONTHS to say he loves you but does little things to make sure you know anyway (little actions, things here and there, and tapping your wrist when holding hands)

He gives demi vibes so he def prefers talking more than anything (he definitely doesn’t have a poorly written list of all the things you like yes this man has that shitty doctor handwriting)

Holds your hands, your bags, you. He likes holding things but he’s rly not that strong

Likes playing minecraft with you and having your little minecraft beds together

NSFW-

He’s very vanilla.

Literally not much else to it, he’s not shy in bed but again: I HC him being demi so it would probably be a while before you’re this intimate together

He’s so gentle, doesn’t want to hurt you or be hurt

He likes morning sex.

Switch but top leaning

For aftercare: He likes to watch movies with you and make you your comfort food and maybe some tea or coffee

Gets you chocolate milk if you like it so that you can have some energy 

Kuina:

SFW-

She likes to cuddle you but it took a while for her to hug you early on

Def likes holding your hands, kissing your hands, anything with hand contact is the best

Her favorite kind of date is watching movies either at home in a blanket fort you built together or at the movies

She likes to do yoga with you

She feels very spiritual to me so she would probably make you a crystal necklace or bracelet for you

MATCHING RINGS.

She loves to sit with you at the end of a long day and gossip ab work or life or literally anything (muy chismosa)

She took you to meet her mom after your 6mo together (her mother was so excited, embarrassing Kuina by talking ab how much she would talk ab you)

NSFW-

Also very vanilla but is open to trying anything you bring up

She doesn’t like to get undressed completely but does like to wear fancy bras

Scared to give up full control but once she trusts you a lot she gives it up more

Aftercare mostly consists of silet cuddles, sweet nothings, and braiding your hair

Kyuma:

SFW-

Loves it when you hang out together before/after his shows

The band loves you, always bringing you on tour

Kyuma gets a little jealous easily so he tends to always be around you or have an arm around your shoulder

Wear his clothes. He melts.

He def likes cuddling and getting you gifts, you have matching bracelets he bought on tour for your anniversary

He mostly chills either shirtless or completely naked in the tour bus and at home but didn’t until a few months into your relationship

He keeps trying to get your permission to tattoo your name on his back

NSFW-

Man’s kinky

He likes all kinds of toys or turn ons but lingerie and handcuffs are his favorite

He also likes to do it anywhere, anyway, anyhow

He’s loud too. Like deaf for days loud.

He enjoys showering together, rubbing soap into your hair and feeling the water snake between your bodies

Aftercare is gentle, a nice warm bath for you with bubbles and candles, getting takeout and cuddling together

Chota:

SFW-

He likes to bring you coffee and sweets, always going on mini dates when he gets a break from work

He enjoys picknics and reading books in the library together

He also likes it when you play with his hair while he lays his head in your lap

He likes going to the movies but only kiddy cartoons

He doesn’t like it when Karube and Arisu are being bad, stinky influences

He’s fr like a tiny dog

NSFW-

The man was a virgin up until Shibuki…he doesn’t know shit when you two become more intimate

But he quickly discovers he likes to worship you and kiss all over your skin

He’s so gentle and always smiling at you, taking small pauses in between to kiss you

Aftercare is top tier, somehow his virgin ass is a master at making you feel safe and comfortable after

He does anything and everything that you ask of him, as long as you’re happy

Need I repeat: tiny dog

Ann:

SFW-

She is similar to Chishiya in the sense of she’s not much for physical affection but def likes buying you gifts

She is super intimidating and gets jealous so easily

She loves to just stand eerily behind you in public settings where she thinks people will try and hit on you

In private, she loves cuddling you and kissing your head, being super gentle

Her job is stressful so being in your arms is the most comforting thing in the world

She likes cooking for you, too

NSFW-

Oh god. Its fun.

She’s really dominant and has one too many toys to mess with every sensitive spot on your body

Her knowledge of anatomy helps her to…enhance your experience

She enjoys control and teasing but also overstimulation which is an…interesting combination

Aftercare is prime, she loves to bathe you and cuddle you and wrap you in a large hoodie

She will order your favorite kind of food and make sure you’re all pampered

If she’s having an especially rough day, she likes it when you comb your fingers through her hair and talk to her gently

Karube:

SFW-

This man is so gentle and does everything to worship and praise you

He smokes and drinks a lot but if you don’t like that then he’ll stop around you and won’t even mention it

He loves cuddling you, hugging you, and kissing you

He lets you dye his hair random colors but rinses it out in a week

He absolutely brags about you to his friends and regulars at the bar

NSFW-

Holy mother of Mary this man is a GOD in bed

He knows how to pleasure anyone

He will gobble you up like it’s his last meal and will make it last

He def loves it when you are a brat just so he can punish you in different manners

He likes to try new things with you but loves long sessions

Aftercare is all about making sure both of you are comfortable so he does just that

[celestiall0tus]

Reawakening - Life

Table of Contents

            Luka sat on his bed as he played his guitar. Sass sat on the nightstand as he listened to the melody. He smiled seeing Sass’s content smile and peaceful face. He continued when Liberty rocked. He clung to his bed while Sass tumbled off the nightstand. He dove and caught Sass as footsteps thundered towards his room.

            Luka sat back up as a transformed Adrien barreled into his room. His eyes widened seeing the tears that cascaded from Adrien’s eyes. He put his guitar aside as Adrien fell and clung to Luka.

            “Adrien, what happened? Why are you crying?” Luka asked.

            Adrien managed a choked cry as he sobbed.

            Luka furrowed his brown in thought. He let his mind wonder while he comforted Adrien. His thoughts were interrupted by a rattling sound. Sass sat on his shoulder, glaring down at Adrien.

            “What happened, boy?” Sass demanded.

            Adrien flinched at Sass’s harsh tone.

            “Easy, Sass. Whatever happened, it must have been terrible. Gently now,” Luka said.

            “Very well. Let’s see your methods. Show me what you can do,” Sass hissed.

            Luka nodded and looked at Adrien. “Your melody has become a somber lament. A far cry from the joyous upbeat tune. What caused this change?”

            Adrien took a sharp breath. “Marinette broke up with me!”

            Adrien broke down into another sobbing fit while Luka’s eyes widened. Juleka and Rose poked their heads in at the news. The girls shrugged when Luka looked at them for answers.

            “What did I do? Why would she do this? I thought she loved me,” Adrien cried.

            “I’m sorry, Adrien, but it isn’t your fault. Things like this happen,” Luka said.

            “Precisely. If it’s any consolation, Luka had his heart broken by the same girl,” Sass pointed out.

            Adrien shot up and covered his mouth. “Oh. Oh, I’m so sorry, Luka. I completely forgot and I came to you. I’m so sorry.”

            Adrien ran out of Liberty before Luka could stop him. Luka jumped off his bed to pursue Adrien but was cut off by Rose and Juleka.

            “Please, let me through. He needs me,” Luka said.

            Rose shook her head. “With all due respect, no. He needs his moms, and you need to think of yourself.”

            “I don’t understand. Why am I important right now?” Luka pressed.

            “Because of Marinette. She just broke Adrien’s heart as she broke yours,” Rose answered.

            “But she didn’t break my heart. She enriched my life.”

            Rose and Juleka shared a look.

            “Luka, we know better. We know you were hurt by that rejection,” Juleka muttered.

            “And it’s not fair for you to relive all that just to comfort another,” Rose added.

            “Let his moms help him,” Juleka whispered.

            “I agree. You need to consider yourself once in a while. It’s all and well to be strong, but even the strong need to be weak,” Sass butted in.

            “I don’t understand,” Luka said.

            “Oh. Well, allow me to show you. Now, bask in our power,” Sass said.

            Luka watched as Sass used his power on him. Luka gasped as he was enveloped in golden light. It faded away with invisible weights and walls that allowed the flood through. He covered his mouth as tears poured from his eyes. Pain tore his heart apart from the mild ache of learning the truth of his father to the immeasurable wrenching pain of Marinette breaking his heart.

            Luka shook his head as he knelt. “No. Please, stop. She didn’t hurt me. She only enriched my life.”

            Sass rolled his eyes and faced the girls. “We always think our health and lives revolve around our physical sense of self. However, there is so much more than just your vessels. To maintain everything, you must look past the physical and at the spiritual. Keep the two in balance and life will be easier.”

            Rose and Juleka considered Sass’s words, then shared a knowing look. They each approached and hugged Luka.

            “It’ll be ok, Luka. These things happen,” Rose said.

            “Don’t deny the feelings, Brother. Let yourself feel. It’s ok,” Juleka whispered.

            “You don’t need to carry your burdens alone,” Rose reassured.

            “I’m here. We’re here. You’re not alone,” Juleka said.

            Luka smiled through the tears. He held Juleka and Rose close while he cried out his buried pain.

[ailurocide]

Okay some random hc’s I’m dropping to see if they’ll stick for her :333

-She cannot handle really strong smells. At most she can take small sprigs of lavender (a whole patch would make her sick for a day). While Grousefoot was injured she sucked up the smell of the den but ever since she just cannot go near it. Some smells also make her physically weak, mostly the ones used for burials…

-Very much in her head most of the time. She thinks through everything before doing anything which both makes her very knowledgeable but also stuck sometimes.

-She tends to just stop in the middle of a sentence. Those close to her can tell the difference between her stopping because she thinks it’s the end of a sentence and her stopping because she’s still working through her words

-Not a picky eater to say but has strong likes and dislikes. Lizards are AMAZING!! Eggs tho… icky. She’ll try something new but most of the time doesn’t like it :/

-Probably would be a poet but not necessarily because she wants to share her work but because she can’t really explain things in “normal” ways. Everything is kinda a metaphor in a way since she doesn’t know how to explain it easily.

-Naturally very very cold. Always cold. She’s grown used to it, with all the time speeding everywhere and all but really craves warmth when she feels it. (Lots of cuddling between those she trusts enough, also naturally just a cat to stick to those she likes)

-She isn’t like super spiritual but has a mixed belief in lucky objects of sorts. Would probably carry around a charm or smth and give anything she feels is special to those she cares for. Sometimes she calls it dumb to have these things but deep down she does feel a lot better with them

This is all actually SURPRISINGLY accurate for my thoughts on her character lmao???

Once again. How’re y’all getting access to my notes >:0 /j

Not necessarily the specific tastes, but I don’t think there’s anything wrong with adapting something so small for a fan favorite ;) So lizards it is!!

[astroyongie]

XG April Reading

Note: please remember to take it with a grain of salt. This is also my first reading on the girls and I don’t know them a lot so feel free to feedback ! 

Jurin

Love: In my opinion, Jurin was in a relationship before she debuted. And once she did, she had to cut ties with the person she was seeing that wasn’t an idol and highly probably someone from Japan. She is having still a hard time because she cared for this person dearly, but her comes comes first

Career:  She has been procrastinating a little lately and self limiting herself, probably because she thinks she isn’t enough. That because one of the staff that works with her (maybe a dancing coach, a manager, etc) is being very harsh and very critical with her. Which is affecting her performances

Health:

Physical: Healthy, just tired

Mental: She isn’t someone that speaks a lot of her feelings, she prefers to bottle it up, and of course that isn’t good. She doesn’t have the best healthy behaviors either. Despite meditating a lot, she has a lot of fears that aren’t true

Chisa

Love: I didn’t got much info and the little I got I am not suppose to share. So I will just say that she had/s someone in her life, and despite maybe not being around them, she knows her heart will always belong to them

Career:  First thing, I want to say that this girl has a very strong energy spiritually speaking. There’s a lot happening in her career, decisions that weren’t made yet, and her feeling trapped and complexity under the mercy of her manager that is trying to help her get her projects done. Chisa talks and communicates a lot inside the company, about her needs, but also for the members. I have no idea if she is the leader or not, but she acts like it at least. She is also very well intended and hearted as she is trying to prioritize her members health

Health:

Physical: She might feel pain on her lower backs usually, also if she can, she should stay away from alcohol

Mental: A poor mental health, full of guilt and repetition of traumas  

Cocona

Love: Since she is still a minor, talking about what’s going on, on her love life might be a little complicated, so I will only state that she is very happy with her love life, that she has her eyes on someone and she is living a normal and healthy teenage love story

Career:  She has been working very very hard on her projects, spending a lot of time training with her teammates and doing the best she can to get ready for the company’s plan, which seem to be including the world. Perhaps a new comeback might be close. Cocona however needs to be careful with the jealousy, there’s someone inside the group that has a lot of jealousy over her talent

Health:

Physical: Hormonal issues, chest pains and breathing problems. She needs to take things easy and check for asthma or any type of disease in that area

Mental:  she is okay, but she has been very agitated lately and very very angry as well (maybe related with her hormones, but she gets easily angered)

Hinata

Love: A lot of information for her, first thing first, Hinata seem to have been in a relationship as well, but not anymore, as she was offered something better and thus, have broken up with her partner. It’s probably seemly like Jurin, where for her career she left her partner, to focus on work only

Career:  Her sponsor (a girl, feels like a motherly figure too), is behind her and helping her with everything that she needs. I see so much abundance for Hinata, and the fact that she has been writing her own lycris and trying to be productive on her own way. I also feel like she has been offered some type of solo activity, that her sponsor and her are still managing and thinking to accept it

Health:

Physical:  She doesn’t eat a lot, and her sexual energy is a little bit high

Mental:  She has a poor self esteem, a lot of repressed memories inside her little mind. Hinata suffers from anxiety and from the feeling that she has abandoned her family

Maya

Love: I feel that Maya is currently In a relationship, the person has a strong feminine energy around them. They have known themselves for 8 months, and they have been going out from the past month and half. Well she seem to be happy currently with her situation. Also I fee like she hasn’t spend time with her family, has kinda of cut ties almost, and instead spend times with what she calls her “new family”

Career: She too has someone inside the group that is jealous of her, and I feel like they have been arguing lately, and Maya was the one who had to apologize for things which made her feel like it was an injustice. Other than that, her career is going wells and she is investing her money well  

Health:

Physical: high sexual energy as well, and some headaches

Mental:  she is very very sensible lately

Juria

Love: She too was in a relationship, but due to the difference of age and her debut they had to separate as well. However, she has kept close contact with this person and they are still very close, still friends and their relationship is for now in the friendship state

Career:  She has been very upset lately with her work and also overwhelmed even I would say, since she still has some debts that she needs to pay off that haven’t been payed. Other than that, she is enjoying her life as an idol, she is taking her luck, learning a lot from her members and herself and enjoying these opportunities to fly and meet new countries

Health:

Physical: Thyroid should be checked. Sore throat but also belly aches are recurrent due to her poor alimentation. She should check her digestive system as well

Mental: she has been healing a lot, mentalized her issues and her past. Still, there’s a lot of things she should get away from, because the people she is friends with aren’t the most healthy ones  

Harvey

Love: Like the other girls, she too had been in a relationship, but she had to terminate it due to her debuting. At the moment she I single and she isn’t looking for any type of love

Career: Seems like she has been the member who had an argument with Maya, however in her energy and facts, she was the one being betrayed by her. The higher up of the group is actually managing these whole discussions and trying to stop it. Other than that, Harvey have been lucky, she has been progressing in her career and even using her own creativity into the group ideas

Health:

Physical: okay

Mental:  okay

[ghidorahsrealm]

Mothra - Cleric Class, focuses on Support; centers around healing and poison spells. Can bestow Blessings, which grants magical, physical, and spiritual resistance but it isn't that good with Barb. Only reason why she follows Ichi around is bc of Ni. Mothra and Ni have established a telepathic connection so that they can talk when Ichi is in control or when Ni takes control of the main body.

Ghidorah - Spellsword class, main DPS. Utilizes immense destructive spells and combines them with his dual swords, incredible warrior with blades. Ichi had killed Ni and San in a duel which was held by his parents, but utilized soul magic to transfer their souls into his own, and so Ni and San take the form of tattoos on his arms. They’re like Blitzwing from TFA in how they can temporarily take over the main body when they have something to say, but when Ichi uses his most powerful spells Ni and San can temporarily conjure a physical form and utilize their own abilities.

Ni is a spell caster, a destructive wizard build. Utilizes weather abilities the most and overwhelming the opponent; has more mana than Mothra but uses it quickly.

San is a pure warrior build. Familiar with the way of the sword and can be disciplined when needed, though he doesn’t like to be. His skills are greater than Ichi’s own, but he loses to Godzilla’s brute strength.

Barb - Monk Class, a mix between support and tank but prefers to tank. Casts debuff on enemies (blindness, deafness, weakened muscles, etc.) and uses her strength to capitalize on weaknesses. Can take a hit, more than Ichi, but her damage output isn’t as strong as his. Jack of all trades.

Barb is the weirdest one out of the three because i started to lose motivation for drawing mid way and i dont know how to design her oop

aight im gone bye