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Underneath the mistletoe
#dexter's laboratory#dexter's lab#dexdark#dexter#mandark#dee dee#dd is following them around with a mistletoe all the day and they just gave up and finally kissed#she is barely hanging LOL#they're kissing longer than necessary rn enjoying it more than they thought#this is a while back before they wed#i drew this so it could be a background for the previous art when i realized i could do another small prompt real quick the other day#there's cameras in dexter's lab that caught this moment lol but i do like the discord's idea that dd just has terribly long arms LMAO#shiny anime boys kissin#dexdarkholidayevent2023#dexdarkmas2023#flame draws
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pata hai last kuch din i was very busy with my project kyunki final dena tha and binding karni thi etc to wo karwayi then i went to the bookfair bekaar tha then parso submit karne jaa rahi to subah accident hogaya (bhai ki bike skid hogayi and we fell down) and now i have a big ass blue bruise on my upper thigh and my parents don't even know lmao and kal ek science conference thi to i had to sit in an auditorium for 6 hours listening to accomplished people speak. that's what you missed now your turn
omg i knew everything in this except for the accident cause i stalk your blog vigorously everyday are you okay!!!!!!!!!! did you get tetanus shots!!!!!!!!!! also on your upper thigh oh no that's where future jiju is supposed to write MINE na as per our beloved song guilty as sin?
#did u have fun at the conference it must've been cool huh women in stem and all that#bookfair being bad is so sucky i was so excited for you to go i thought you'd send pictures too of books we like#also u already know everything i posted everything and every thought#i ate chinese but it didn't feel that good because my sister isn't here and we didn't eat it together watching#koffee or splitsvilla and i realised that it's not just the chinese food it's the whole hanging out that i love sm :((#kal well i told you pata hai the brownie place we met it's kinda new and cool types so uske bathroom mein#there was a button and it said press at your own risk and when we did it became a dj like the lights went out and#there when flashing spinning disco lights and party songs were playing mere mein wo aaya hum toh naye andaz hai apna purana#it was sooo cool im adding it to the list of places you'll visit when u come here!!!!!!!#also the food was soooo shockingly reasonably priced everything was under 200 rs!!!!! which is big for a dessert place here#and like great quantity great taste too my stupid people from office used to say it's awesome but i didn't believe them and never tried it#because they're all losers lol but i grudgingly admit that they were right#also ummmm hmm okay pata hai i realised ki oh okay im happy with who i am#like bachpan mein i used to feel very sad and loser like because dad was too strict to let me go out raat ko and everyone in school would#go to this club we went to kal and i always felt i was missing out and i wanted to be all cool and fun too#but it was kinda so boring and normal and i was like wow okay i didn't miss out i was spending days and nights reading books being in#fandoms and i was actually very happy!!!!! so like yay idk small thing bt yk i realised that oh it was okay and everything will be okay too#i kinda want to talk to that guy now like i weirdly feel like im longing for what could've been? which is ridiculous because#we were 11 and i barely talked to him back then because shy and friends would tease and i didn't realise it was a crush#i don't want to DATE him because like tbh i already know we're very different people but like wouldn't it be fun to idk make out once#then i got the urge to download dating app but i resisted the urge and won i don't think im made for casual things#me and my bestie were laughing about this yesterday too she was like i just don't understand how people can have sex one day and then#not give a fuck about each other the next day like idk if we have sex im having your kids and i was like ikrrrr like bhai sex is toh very#big im going to be attached if we hug i literally did!!!!! so we decided no more casual/situationships for us#phew okay more rambling on whatsapp love u bye this became too long#saumyuuuuuu
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saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad
#pov u grow up in a 3rd world country(/planet) where healthcare workers are exported by the thousands like cheap produce to richer countries#it's your ticket out of poverty as long as you can deal with the loneliness the separation from everyone you know the discrimination etc#ive never talked about my hc that vespas mother was one of them sending money every month visiting every couple of years until it just stop#like why return to the swamps when youre doing fine working on a richer planet w much better living conditions#cost of living rises every year. sending home a % of your salary used to be enough to support your husband and daughter and then it isnt#you know how it goes#vespa is also dead set on this path until ranga realizes that hemorrhaging healthcare workers leaves them with little to none of their own#students on scholarships or in community/state universities are bound by return service agreements and are forbidden to leave the country#until theyve rendered a few years of work on ranga to pay back their tuition + as a really shitty solution to the brain drain problem#this is real in my country btw but my professors say a lot of ppl do break their rsa's and fucked off to work in other countries LOL#our state unis can barely afford decent facilities they do nottt have the budget to chase down their own alumni in other countries!#but the mental image is a bit funny#vespa ilkays first crime: tinakasan ang rsa#i do also think it lines up with her having a network of med friends everywhere in the galaxy (heart of it all) you kind of go into pre/med#expecting most of your classmates to leave to work in other countries eventually. mine are aiming for the usa / uae / europe / japan etc#anyway whether vespa breaks her rsa or not she leaves ranga asap decides to switch careers and the rest is history#i also deeply love the fact that she's superstitious i'm very sad it wasn't highlighted more (i've only heard s1-3)#as someone who did grow up in a rural area and went to more albularyos/folk healers than doctors in my childhood. (they never failed me)#lots of folk illnesses (ex. balis; pasma) local medical superstitions (dont eat noodles in hospital; youll have a really toxic shift) etcc#theres also a lot of potential in tying her past as a rangian + med student + assassin to me idk how to word this properly#being raised on cautionary tales of not to touch/disturb anything in the swamps then being given free reign to poke & prod at things in her#lab classes (now with the proper ppe)....she was having so much fun with the curemother prime too lmao#years of walking hanging bridges docks boathouses in ranga etc gave her great balance & stealth#cracking open alien shellfish in the swamps to cutting open bodies for studying then for assassination....#I MISS HER SO MUCH BALIK KN SAKEN 😭😭😭😭😭😭#i get why most people + the canon focuses on her being an assassin bc people find that cooler i guess#but vespa being a swamp girl > 3rd world med student > assassin is so personal To Me. the whole pipeline. eugh.#skl.txt
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WIP Wednesday
Thank you for the tags @greypetrel and @demandthedoodles! It might be misleading to call this part of a WIP because upon editing I fear I may have to cut this bit. But it's too funny to toss into the void and it doesn't fit with anything else I'm working on at the moment, so here's part of a letter exchange between Varric and Fenris post-HLTA.
A series of letters passed between Skyhold, a dead drop on the border between Tevinter and the Free Marches, and northeastern Ferelden:
28 Kingsway, 9:41 Dragon
Fenris,
Hawke is fine.
That’s how she wanted me to open this letter, so there: Hawke is fine. In my personal, expert opinion, I think it’s bullshit. She has that look about her—the one she had after Leandra died. You know the one I mean.
I’ll let her tell you herself, because you’ll never believe me if I try to explain. I wouldn’t believe myself, to be honest. Her trip down the mountain keeps getting delayed, but officially she’s headed to Weisshaupt. She said you’d know what she meant by it.
Don’t bother asking me why I’m the one writing to you and not her. I asked her the same thing and she wouldn't give me a straight answer.
As for the Inquisition: I wouldn’t bother. Sort of get the feeling there’s too many folks here you’d rather avoid. The whole “castle on a hill” thing makes this place hard to sneak away from, I can tell you that from experience. We have good people here. They’ll figure this whole thing out.
She refuses to stick around. Said she has a promise to keep, and she wouldn’t take any coin no matter how much they offered her. Between you and me, I tried to talk her into taking it—they’re good for it, and she might as well get something in exchange for everything else, but you know Hawke. She got that look in her eyes and said she’d have the loan of a horse and nothing else. Wasn’t really sure what else I could do.
Just—take care of her, would you?
Your friend,
Varric
10 Harvestmere, 9:41 Dragon
Varric,
You are mistaken. Where is she?
—F
15 Harvestmere, 9:41 Dragon
Fenris,
You know everything I know. Would it kill you to sign your letters properly, by the way? You have no idea how many of these things I send and receive in a day.
She left, is all I know. Didn’t want to be too specific for reasons I’m sure she’ll explain for herself. I’m not keeping anything from you. She said what she said and she hasn’t written to tell me otherwise. I don’t know what to tell you, Broody. Maybe go where she sent you and wait.
Listen, I’m set to go out on a set of missions in the next few days. They’ll pass on any messages, but I might not be able to answer right away.
Your friend,
—Varric
18 Harvestmere, 9:41 Dragon
Varric,
Hawke was not there. Nobody was there. Where have they put her? If you cannot give me a straight answer, I will ask you in person.
—Fenris
And finally, an undated and unfinished letter tucked inside a writing case in a Hinterlands encampment:
Broody,
I can’t tell you anything you didn’t read in the first letter.
Hawke left Skyhold in one piece. If I use the Inquisition’s agents to track her down, then they’ll know where she is. She explicitly asked me not to do that. So I’m not sure what you want me
The letter ends in a large, angled splotch of spilled ink.
(Originally, this was followed by a scene where Fenris is shaking Varric by the lapels. Despite being very funny, it didn't quite fit right, either. Alas. Someday.)
Tagging (no pressure as always, lmk if you don't want to be tagged, etc.): @daggerbean @dungeons-and-dragon-age @brother-genitivi @ndostairlyrium @idolsgf @gvnseylike @palipunk
#wip wednesday#shivunin scrivening#you see the problem is she went home by way of crestwood so she could pick up her mabari from the port#and hang out w merriIl for a few days#while fenris went south via the imperial highway#so they just barely missed each other#(i've been knee deep in a ME thing for the last few days and my mostly-done DA things feel too heavy to toss into one of these wip posts)#(so this is what i got lol)
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hey younger ppl who grew up with strict parents, i want to share something really lovely with you that i didn't really learn myself until this year.
you do NOT have to clean ur house when u have guests over. like yeah pickup anything particularly embarrassing but have you not felt more welcomed, happy and cozy when you visited a friend's home and saw Stuff everywhere? is it not more inviting to enter a home that looks and feels very Lived In? do you not feel self-conscious about contributing to any sort of mess in a home so clean and organized it feels sterile?
Don't feel the need to keep this weird facade ingrained into us that your place needs to look perfect in order for you to hang out - just invite people over! Let them see what you're about, let the Environmental Storytelling™ do some work! i promise you it's very charming being able To See what you do and enjoy.
it took way longer than it should've for me to accept this and it's been GREAT. i don't dread the deep cleaning that having a guest used to entail because nowhere near that amount of work is necessary to hang out anymore - and I think everyone deserves to know that they don't have to work so dang hard for something that's really so so simple.
#like. lol the ppl I've enjoyed visiting the most are those friends whose place is so messy it's basically like “pick a pile to sit on😼”#i sure as fuck will!! thank u (✿ ‚‚⌒‿⌒‚‚) i don't b having piles but i do leave some stuff out n around n whatnot.#i was in a 6yr relationship n my ex was very WE NEED TO CLEAN when we'd have ppl over once in a blue moon and like (´-﹏-`;)#she was raised that way ‚ i was raised that way. I'm assuming we both sorta internalized that from our parents but i made#a friend this yr whose home is SUPER cozy and lived in and cluttered w stuff and i absolutely love it. it's like a visual stim.#but idk also kinda feels like laying urself bare yk? i won't go on a whole (... other) rant about it but yeah i was so happy after my visit#that i just felt like I Too can have a cozy very lived in home - and not stress about perfection and appearances n just hang!#and yeah I've been this way long enough that I'm starting to realize a perfectly cleaned home feels very sterile.#there's an air about it that feels like u can't rly move around or makes u afraid to make any sort of mess and idk??#NO MORE STERILE HOUSES BE URSELF!! LAY IT BARE FOR YOUR GUESTS TO SEE!!
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i surviveddddd 🙂↕️🗣️👾
#barely but i did ittt#i say barely bc i was mostly with this one coworker that i like but she wasn't feeling it and showing it#+ i think she's the kind of person who wants to be always with the coolest people of the group and im never that and like. ok . jdhdjdj#you know how some people are like that. and ive learned ever since i was a kid not to take it personally and it doesn't touch me either way#but i still do prefer to hang out with people who want to be around me bc im me rather than bc im the only choice lol !#so yeah im sad if she didn't enjoy herself but i still did make an effort on my part and did the best i could !!
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ouhhhh the neighbour doesn't have any supplies of her own for crochet and I'm teaching her and my mother today starting in just over an hour
and i am ... not selfish with my supplies but i am unemployed and living off a very tight budget (cannot purchase any more yarn for projects unless i manage to do some pretty spectacular savings on my groceries for the month which is... not very doable) so I'm a tad worried she's going to be good at crocheting and want to Make Something with the yarn that i do have fjdskl and I would normally be totally fine with that but considering there's basically nowhere in town to buy yarn (i've had to buy online) and shipping is $20+ lately, that's not exactly a great thing for me right now 🧍♂️
#but i feel terrible for worrying about this fdsjkl like it feels selfish and greedy to worry#however. she is employed. as is her husband. and i have been unemployed (due to disability lol) and have had zero income for three yrs#just living off savings and watching it get drained slowly all away by my parents charging me rent to live in the basement fdsjkl#(and i realize i am very very lucky to have had so much in my savings account that i'd been stashing away since my first job in gr 8 lol)#so um... i think perhaps she should go to walmart and buy whatever random skein they have on the bare shelves#in NORMAL circumstances i'd be totally fine to share my supplies#i love teaching ppl and sharing my crafts !!! i love helping ppl make art !! i am normally very happy to share and give away !!#this is not normal circumstances though i am so stressed about even just buying groceries lately fdsjkl#AUUGHH i was just hoping she'd got some sort of beginner's kit or smth already fdsjkl#im probably worrying about nothing though fdsjkl like crochet takes a while to get the hang of#and hopefully by the time we have our next ''lesson''/teaching session she will have acquired at least some yarn of her own#and unfortunately i cannot lend her any of my hooks bc i am working on a project that requires the hooks i'd normally lend#vent //#dandy.cmd#I'LL DELETE THIS LATER BTW SORRY i just have to yell somewhere so i dont cry and panic dsfjkl i got myself so worried over this
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haven’t been on much bc my dog has been sick :( between seizures and an infected tooth we’ve been having a Time trying to get everything fixed (this started around the holidays so our vet has been very booked up…we have been like 3-4 times in the past 4-5 weeks OTL does not help it’s like an hour drive there, so that’s been exhausting) now his new seizure meds are making him sick (was hoping it was like, just an adjustment period thing but he’s been sick for a week and having concerning symptoms…) if I’m not on a ton or slow to replying to messages it’s bc I’m working as much overtime as my job will give me bc Vet Expensive and mentally drained obvi 😞
#it makes me a lil mad his meds were kinda pricy and they literally are making things worse. like sure he isn’t have seizures but he can#barely walk and keeps running into things and keeps having diarrhea so like. 🙃 and the meds are making him sooo hungry and thirsty#I’m seeing the vet AGAIN FRIDAY I know she’s so sick of me but man my little guy. if she can’t figure out a combo that doesn’t have such#bad side effects I’m literally going to scream and cry#he’s the most sensitive boy in the world and my mental health hangs on his and my cats well being. please. 😭#sanchoyorambles#I’ve also called them like twice to find out if I should stop or what they want me to do and keep getting ‘oh they’ll call u back’ WHEN#GIRL MY PUBBY#if I don’t hear back before his next dose I’m just gonna make an executive decision myself to stop them for now#he’s literally on the smallest possible dose too bc he’s so little. so. they can’t go down in dosage they’ll need to put him on smth else 😑#which means paying for ANOTHER PRESCRIPTION A WEEK AFTER ALREASY GETTING ONE THAT WAS $30 ON TOP OF HIS STUPID VET BILL#screaming.#and like if I have the money it’s fine. and it’s not like the vet could’ve known he’d have bad side effects#im just frustrated it’s no one’s fault#I could go to a closer vet. the thing is I LIKE the one further away#they have the only groomer I’ve found that can trim him without sedating him! they send me reminders abt his shots! I like the vibes!!!#they seem caring!! but they are always SOOO BUSY it takes forever to make appointments or to hear back from them 😭#remember how I said one of my goals was to buy a vechicle this year lmao the vet bills are draining any savings I’ve managed to build up 🤧#my pets are priority 1 tho like even before all the medical stuff /I/ need like lol… that’s my baby#it’s just really bad timing. not that there’s good timing for medical issues but. u know
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me when too much good stuff happens at once and so of course feeling happy has the consequences of a crash i have not recovered from in 2 days
#hanging out with mara and max and booking my trip AND the phour leak all happened in one night#then the phour was announced the NEXT DAY and i could barely process that i booked my trip let alone that phour is real!!!!#and i was just so 😵😵😵😵😵 and then i crashed on tuesday morning at work#and ive literally felt like shit since#im also still so tired from staying up til 5am with mara and max and jay on saturday night and also staying out in the city 'late' on monday#(for a work night a day after staying up almost all night 10pm was vv late)#anyway so not only is my brain all jumbled she's also very sleepby#and i just can't feel normal im either feeling randomly 😵😵😵 or just. depressed 🤪 lol#idk it's just so weird that such good and fun things happened and the that caused depression#diary
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im so fucking mad at myself at my mother at her dead husband at god fucking knows what. "concentrate on yourself" well i cant can i. now more than anything i should and i cant. losing my fucking mind istg
#i wasted the whole fucking weekend because i *had to* come visit her and once i visited i *had to* hang out with my fucking grandfather#watching him cry about grandma and bitch about modern times and the waiter not doing his job because the café was full to bursting#and it took longer than usual to get our coffees so ofc he had to loudly insult him in third person. oh and then he had to bitch about#gay people and women who dont want children too because of he did. and i sat there and listened to it because i HAD TO#wasted four fucking hours. and then i HAD TO go to the theatre with my mom because she got us tickets because she wanted this#to be a nice day for me but i dont have fucking time to have nice days rn but in order for HER to have a nice day i need to at least pretend#i am having one. so i wasted another almost two hours on that play#which was some modern uselessly loud to the point of being physically painful bullshit bad enough that we left mid-show#and then i had to go meet with her friends so lost another two hours and by the time i got home to write that bullshit thesis it was 11pm#and i barely got anything done till 1 am because i went through another stupid little mental breakdown and then it was almost 6 am#and i had to stop because i had a train at 8 and i already only slept like 3 hours that day#and then i got home yesterday totally fucking exhausted and i started reading stuff for the thesis but i was falling asleep so i laid down#'for 10 minutes' and i woke up today at 6. not having written a word lol#and now i could just say fuck it and defend it in september and it would make my life so much easier. but my voice teacher wants me#to get accepted for the masters degree even if im already planning to get the deans leave for the first semester so like. god.#i cant do this lol#i know i should have started earlier but i was kinda busy losing my fucking mind and lying in bed staring at the ceiling for hours#and contemplating dropping out completely lol god i hate my life so much it's unreal
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#my blog so imma post what i want#but I've been thinking abt two of my aus both to do with the second game fjhchgc but i don't think I've mentioned this one before soo#i like the idea of sera making an ai of my s/i just like she did with the others yeah it breaks my canon but idc#my s/i was always like an older sister figure to sera so why wouldn't she make my s/i too n of course her ai is shipped with heat c:#my other au revolves around the big incident basically sheffers isn't the only demon in that room#so ob is still shot but not fatally he's still bleeding out tho cause bros been shot but anyway sheffers leans down to do his whole#people are just tools thing my s/i either heard the shot n ran to see what was going on or she was there anyway but either way she kicks#sheffers straight in the face to get him away from ob n basically tries her best to stem the bleeding n keep him alive sera sees n hears it#as she does in game but in this version sheffers n my s/i become demons but while sheffers is just a ravenous creatute who slaughtered n ate#everyone in the facility my s/i is hell bent on protecting ob she basically stands guard over him like a guard dog n gets into a vicious#demon brawl with sheffers once he's devoured everyone else n has set his sights on ob n my s/i#she keeps him away till he's gunned down but cause my s/i shows no threat n is just ob's guard dog rn she's subdued n taken for studying#ob is taken for medical treatment cause he's barely hanging on n was one of the only two survivors from the incident#my s/i basically becomes his demon wifey n is pretty much glued to his side#they both still work for the Karma society but it's more to make sure seras safe then anything for the organisation itself#i do also like the idea of heat n ob meeting iyfyjfjhf#shut up rattie no one gives a shit lol
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weh.... i miss my sister...
#buzz buzz#she went home today :(#we barely got to hang out w just us like the whole time!#at least we got to talk last night while dad and BOL went to a concert lol#i mostly talked about magpie.#but she asked me abt vtm bc her husband wants to run a game of it i think#so i did just talk abt the game in general and then i told her the kidney story bc it's my favorite
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Ghaleon, scream-whispering and turning several worrying shades of red: DO THOSE LOOK LIKE TEENAGERS TO YOU????
Xenobia, nonplussed: I am 200 to 400 years old, everyone looks like a "teened ager" to me.
Ghaleon, ignoring her, struggling to unlock dungeon cell quickly: I am so sorry, oh god. Shit. I am so, so fucking sorry for-for the inconvenience. Oh. My god.
FANTASY ABBA, exit cell: It's cool.
Xenobia, rambling: What even is a teenager?? We don't have those in the wastes. "14ish to 19ish"??? That's a baby, that is an infant child.
Ghaleon, literally dying: Is there anything I can do to make it up to you two? Drinks? Are you hungry?? Can I give you a ride home???
FANTASY ABBA: No, we're cool.
Xenobia, lecturing: Did you mean "young adult"? Because the Vile Tribe equivalent would be 70 to 125 years, approximately. You have got to stop using all these human terms or this alliance is going to fall to pieces, Ghaleon.
FANTASY ABBA: So, like, we're cool to go?
Ghaleon, last shred of dignity dying dying dying: YEP. (cough) Uh, yes! Absolutely! Y-you're cool--t to go!!
(Exit: FANTASY ABBA)
(Dejected, distraught, uncool slump: Ghaleon)
(Exit attempt: Luna)
Ghaleon: NOT YOU. >:(
Luna: >:(
Xenobia: The vibe, as we say in the wastes, is in shambles.
~it's over!~
#my life would be so much easier if i didn't envision every silly idea in comic form lol#yes i headcanon xenobia as being way older than ghaleon haha#and being insufferable about it#xenobia = 350#phacia = 300#royce is baby = 250#ghaleon canonically around 153 by sssc#i should make a random mazoku headcanons post really but like#what's the point of having demi-imortal characters if you're not gonna have them live hundreds to thousands of years :B#phacia theoretically lived just up to eb/800-1000 years post-tss#and was only barely middle-aged when she died#so idk#i don't really have a point there#other than ghaleon is probably only just barely an adult as far as other mazoku are concerned#stress and hanging around humans and beastfolk his entire life has aged him#i just think it's funny to imagine this barely drinking-legal age nerd acting like he's having a midlife crisis#wait to be fair that was also me at 21. shit.#file under: comic scripting
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"The crimes you have committed are beyond pardon"
Her biggest crime is stealing my heart, your honor
I started drawing this last month after watching her trailer but I only got back to this today. I honestly couldn't remember what else I wanted to do with this piece so I just finished rendering some parts and called it a day (it's 4am).
#i want to draw kafstel next#I realized the handcuffs I drew weren't consistent with the trailer lol#she was also wearing a belt in the trailer but i thought it was weird because shes already wearing suspenders?#IRL stuff had me barely hanging on and HSR kept my mind off things im so tired 24/7#honkai star rail#digital art#artwork#art#honkai#fanart#kafka#stellaron hunters#hsr kafka#video games#hoyoverse
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my mom sure loves to call me just to ask bait-y questions so she has an excuse to freak out and remind me she wishes i was never born
#gotta be honest im barely hanging on by a thread here lads she just gets worse every day#like this is all i have to look forward to. for the rest of my life. lol. i wish i was dead.
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#i don't normally post stuff like that here but i need a place where i can just vent within it being seen by those people#anyway ok i just wish my friends were my friends more alsksjdj#i see ppl with their best friends how they talk about them what they do together and it just makes me sad#bc i want to have someone like that to do stuff and be silly with and talk and just hang out and i miss my best friend#bc we don't do that anymore#we've barely seen each other last year and when we do it's always just briefly and we never get to talk about deeper themes#some things i'm desperate to talk to her about and we've always done that but now she never has time for me#it feels like I've been replaced by her gf and they're doing everything together and i guess that's what you do you abandon your friends#no I'm not bitter or jealous. at least I'm trying not to be#she also has other friends a different group from uni that I've never met and i see she's having fun with them#and i don't have any of that and I really want to have a group of friends i just can't seem to find any#and we also barely even text anymore. sometimes i reach out and then it can take over a day for her to answer and it just feels shitty#ik she has her reasons and she's not doing it bc she doesn't want to talk or doesn't like me lol but it sucks that we can't even text#and i can't help but wonder if she does that to other people or if she's texting her gf right away and ughhhh#she feels so distant but i don't want that. i don't want us to be like that#i only have two real good friends that I've known forever and my other friend also sucks at reaching out and has her bf and friends#who i know but i'm also not really a part of that group. so basically i never see my friends and i feel fucking lonely woohoo nothing new#i want to have friends who reach out and just casually text me and i can tell them about my day and i see them at least once a week#and we can just hang out and have fun and god i sound so pathetic i don't even have that#somehow i missed the call where everyone started having their group of adult friends and a romantic partner and I'm still stuck#everyone just kind of has their own lives and I'm not a part of it#it just hit me again today i literally had a dream i met a bunch of people and we were having fun and it reminded me of how lonely i am lol#*without it being seen wow great typo in the first sentence that i can't change now#anyway i wish there were songs about this particular situation that i could listen to and be emo but i can't find any rip
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