#she goes to them like “ik ur still friends with her”

[3ashell]

why can't the bitch that groomed me leave my fucking friends alone

[digitaldaydreamm]

For the helping out ‘unspoken claim’ could u do an afterwards maybe? like ever since then reader is sooo like wtf did we do and she tells him it’s better if they forget ab it and then when rafes all frustrated cuz not only is he like IN LOVE W HER but he’s also like sexually completely attracted to her so she goes like if ur mad cuz I didn’t give u head back I could do it now?? And he’s like WTF it’s not even ab that? It’s the fact that I’m in love w u batshit crazy?(in his mind) Ik this is long but this is soooo them omg😭😭

unspoken claim

rafe x childhood friend!reader

| summary | you tried to act like nothing happened...

warnings: cursing, mentions of a blowjob

a/n: i mixed this request with the one i accidentally deleted, i hope it's okay!! also i didn't add rafe admitting his love... yet. saving that for later ;)

part 1 part 3 masterlist

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You didn’t think about it.

At least, that’s what you told yourself.

You kept things normal. Rafe was still Rafe. You were still you. Nothing had changed.

And if your skin prickled when he stood too close, if your breath hitched when his fingers brushed yours, if your mind wandered back to that night more times than you’d ever admit—well, that was your problem.

Not his.

So you did what you did best. You smiled. You joked. You teased him like always.

And Rafe?

He was going insane.

It had been three days. Three days of you acting like he hadn’t had you trembling beneath him. Like he hadn’t heard those breathless, wrecked moans of his name. Like he hadn’t felt your fingers tightening in his hair, your thighs squeezing around him, your entire body shattering under his touch.

You just carried on. Completely unfazed.

It was driving him fucking feral.

The worst part? You weren’t avoiding him. If you had been weird, awkward, shy—he would’ve known you were thinking about it just as much as he was. But no. You were still hanging out, still texting him dumb shit, still laying on his bed like nothing happened.

Like right now.

You were scrolling on your phone, one leg tucked under you, absentmindedly flipping through Instagram while Rafe sat at his desk, pretending to do something—though he hadn’t typed a single thing in the last ten minutes.

Because all he could do was watch you.

Meanwhile, you were completely unbothered.

And when you let out a small hum, stretching slightly before tossing your phone onto the bed, looking over at him like nothing was wrong—he finally snapped.

Rafe pushed away from his desk.

The chair scraped against the hardwood as he stood, crossing the room in just a few long strides.

You barely had time to react before he grabbed your ankle, yanking you toward the edge of the bed.

Your phone tumbled to the floor with a thud as you yelped, eyes flying to his. “Rafe—”

��What the fuck is wrong with you?”

His voice was sharp.

Your stomach twisted.

You blinked up at him, feigning confusion. “Excuse me?”

Rafe exhaled hard, dragging a hand down his face before gripping your wrist, yanking you up until you were sitting upright, forced to look at him.

“You’ve been acting like nothing happened.”

Your heart pounded.

Your lips parted slightly, but you hesitated—just for a second—before tilting your head, playing dumb. “Like what happened?”

His jaw clenched.

You swore you could feel the tension radiating off him.

“Don’t fucking play with me, kid."

Your stomach flipped.

You shrugged, forcing a small, nonchalant smile. “I just didn’t think it was a big deal.”

Rafe laughed.

The sound wasn’t amused. It was dangerous.

“Not a big deal?” he repeated, voice laced with disbelief.

Your throat felt tight.

You shifted on the bed, but he was still standing between your legs, still looking at you like he wanted to ruin you, towering over you.

“I mean… you were just messing around, right?”

Something dark flashed in his eyes.

His hand shot out, fingers gripping your jaw—not hard, not enough to hurt, but enough to make your breath catch.

“Is that what you think?” he murmured, tilting your chin up. “That I was just… messing around?”

You didn’t answer.

And that only pissed him off more.

He let out a low, humorless chuckle, his fingers dragging down your jaw before he dropped his hand entirely, stepping back like he couldn’t stand to be near you right now.

You hesitated.

Then, quietly, you said, “Well… if it bothers you so much…”

Rafe tensed.

You bit your lip, suddenly shy, suddenly not able to meet his gaze as you mumbled, “…I could, you know. Return the favor.”

Silence.

Your face burned.

You had never said anything like that before. Not to anyone. Not even to Rafe.

And you definitely hadn’t meant for it to come out like that.

You peeked up at him, nerves tangled in your chest.

Rafe was staring at you.

Not in the way guys did when they wanted something from you.

No, he looked—pissed.

Fucking furious.

Your stomach dropped.

“Is that what you think this is about?” he asked, his voice eerily calm.

You swallowed. “I just thought—”

“No. No, you didn’t think, sweetheart.”

The nickname didn’t sound teasing this time.

It sounded like a warning.

Like he was barely holding himself back.

You bit your lip, shifting on your feet, suddenly feeling small under his gaze. “I just figured it would make us even…”

Rafe exhaled hard, tilting his head to look at the ceiling, his hands flying to his hips like he needed to physically ground himself.

You couldn’t tell if he was trying not to snap or trying not to laugh in disbelief.

He dragged a hand through his hair before finally looking at you again.

“Even,” he repeated, like he needed to hear it out loud.

Your face burned even hotter.

“…Yeah?”

Rafe took a slow step closer. His voice dropped, dark and slow.

“You think I give a fuck about being even?”

You stiffened.

You barely had time to react before he was right in front of you again, tilting your chin up, forcing you to look at him.

“Is that what you thought it was?” he murmured. “Just some random thing we did, and now we’re supposed to trade favors to make it fair?”

You hesitated again.

Because when he said it like that, it did sound stupid.

And you suddenly felt really fucking stupid.

Rafe shook his head, voice still dangerously low.

“I don’t want a fucking blowjob, baby.”

Your breath hitched.

His fingers trailed down your throat.

“I want you to say something.”

Your lips parted. “Say what?”

His grip tightened just enough to make you shiver.

“That it meant something,” he murmured. “That you felt it.”

You were already shaking your head before you could stop yourself. “Rafe—”

His fingers ghosted along your jaw.

“You can pretend all you want,” he said, voice dark and sure. “But you know nothing’s been the same since that night.”

You swallowed hard.

He leaned in, lips barely brushing your ear.

“And the sooner you admit it,” he murmured, “the easier this’ll be for you.”

A shiver ran down your spine.

Because he was right.

And you had no idea what that meant.

[p-taryn-dactyl]

dudeeee ik ur reqs are open so why not give this a shot and see what u think abt it! since the new agatha trailer came out I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABT HERRRJDID!! so this is abt her! (plus love ur agatha content!! ive read all of em ALL OF EM)

so.. what abt a AU where agatha is the reader's manager and the reader is a famous actor? this could lead to a dark fic or just a wholesome light one! whichever u prefer ill leave it up to u!

~p.s i hope ur feeling better!! have a nice day and feel free to ignore this if u want to^^

a/n: first off, i love ur energy so much omg, and also SAME! the trailer goes through my mind 24/7 and i’m not mad about it! ooooo i love this idea!! definitely have to take creative liberties bc i’ve sadly never been famous😔 word count: 2.6k warning(s): fun fact: i am making all of these things up, if you're secretly an actor keep everything i did wrong in this fic to yourself - slight jealous!Agatha - friends to coworkers to lovers - agatha definitely knows how to communicate - all movies and characters mentioned in this are worlds/stories i have written- kinda rushed ending but then again i feel like everything is rushed - i really hope you like this! thank you so much for the ask and i am feeling a bit better 🫶🏻 - i really can't write kissing my apologies

i was the saint, you used to adore me

You remember when you first hired Agatha.

You were just beginning to dip your toes into the pool of acting, cautiously testing the waters by sending out your less than perfect resume to anyone who would accept. Agatha was the first, and only, acting manager to respond. She too was new to her field, so far only representing people who specialized in car commercials and medicine ads. She wanted a change of pace and your lack luster resume spoke to her. Some part of you still wanders why she picked to represent you, even though in the end everything worked out incredibly well, you wanted to know why she wanted to work with you.

Because now it seemed like she wanted nothing to do with you.

At the beginning, it was like the two of you couldn't be seperated. Outside of work hours, many movie nights happened, sometimes an excuse for Agatha to show you her favorite directing and acting techniques, sometimes an excuse for you to binge watch Sandra Bullock's entire cinematography. You would fill her inbox with emails of dream roles, she would fill yours with links to acting classes if the number of emails in her inbox from you exceeded 1,000.

She was your best friend.

You missed her.

If you had to pinpoint the time when she started drifting away, it was right after you landed your breakout role of Aerin Fey in the movie Pillars, which became a boxoffice hit, making nearly three times the production cost in theaters. Soon, your portrayal of the multiversal anti hero was on billboards, had sequels and contracts signed, had custom dolls on toy store shelves. It was everything you wanted, seeing little girls inspired by you as you either walked down a red carpet or passed them in the grocery store. You loved signing autographs in the signature Agatha and you spent nights perfecting. You loved taking pictures with fans, almost equally as excited as they were, after all your dream was coming true.

All you wanted was to share these moments with your closest friend but soon Agatha started only filling the manager role in your life. No longer did she appear at your door bearing tubs of ice cream to celebrate a role you had been offered, no longer did she let you cry when you lost a role you had been desperate for. Your texts and emails became dry, only notifying you of roles she had sent your portfolio in for or sending you calender invites for interviews and late night show appearances.

All this was swirling in your head as you scrolled through your old texts with Agatha, your eyes becoming watery as you went further into the messages. You sat in your living room on your large couch, a purchase Agatha practically had to force you to confirm. You still didn't understand why you needed such a large couch or house for that matter, as you were the only one living in the space. It was damn comfortable though. You let yourself sink into the cushions, your mind running wild with theories as to why Agatha suddenly cut your friendship off. Sure, you two would keep a professional appearance when seen together on the carpet but you were absolutely certain people noticed the tense atmosphere between you.

"Bitch if you don't answer this door right now I'm going to assume you're dead and call every TMZ reporter here!"

The voice of your co-star turned friend Wanda Maximoff interupted your self pity episode, making you realize that the pounding you had subconsciously been hearing wasn't a sad theme song your mind created for you. No, it was the furious knocking of the red head. You reluctantly got out of your comfy spot, slightly taking Wanda's threat seriously. You opened your door, revealing your friend holding a folder with Pillar's studio name printed on the side and a bottle of champagne. You nodded to the bottle.

"Where's the rest?"

Wanda laughed, nudging her way into your home, bumping your shoulder with hers.

"Oh so it's that kind of day."

Wanda took her place on your couch, setting the bottle on the coffee table and crossing her legs with the folder in her lap. She patted the spot next to her on your couch, a smile wide on her face.

"Now come on, we have to make sure we know the answers to questions and what not to answer!"

You groaned at the reminder of your TV appearance tomorrow. Which also meant enduring the new cold demeanor of your be-manager. Wanda seemed to read your face as you made your way to sit back on the couch. She patted your knee once you were sat, her face a mix of pity and a bit of anger for your sadness.

"Is Agatha still acting weird?"

You nodded while staying silent, not wanting to cry in front of one of your only real friends. Not yet at least.

"God that's so stupid honestly. The least she could do is tell you what's going on instead of acting like a fourth grader who's favorite swing is being used during recess. I know you love her Y/N, I'm sorry."

You both laughed and choked at Wanda's words.

She was right, you loved Agatha. You've loved her since the first time you met her and your feelings only grew and intensified as your partnership continued throughout the years.

But you'd never say it outloud. That would make it real. And if it was real, that meant the woman you loved hated you and you had no idea why.

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Agatha was leaning against the wall of your dressing room, her eyes glued to her phone as she typed furiously. You watched her in the mirror as your hair stylist put the finishing touches on the style that was supposed to look effortless. Almost as if she could feel your stare, Agatha looked up from her phone to meet your eyes in the mirror. You felt heat rise up to your cheeks as your own eyes widened, standing up a little to quickly. Realizing once you were up that you didn't have a reason for such a reaction.

Wanda burst into the dressing room, her red dress sparkling in the light.

"They want us to walk on stage together, shall we?"

Wanda held out her elbow for you to hold on to, winking in an exaggerated way. Out of the corner of your eye, you noticed Agatha's intense glare at Wanda but decided that you weren't going to let your manager's weird behavior affect this interview. You hooked your arm through Wanda's, playing along.

"We shall!"

Agatha followed behind the two of you, her stare burning into the back of your neck as the two of you walked onto the stage, cuing the raging applause and cheers from the audience. Agatha stayed off-stage, watching with crossed arms and an expression that could take down the toughest of tough.

The lights were burning and bright as you and Wanda took a seat next to each other across from the interviewer. You immediately regretting your choice in seat as Agatha stood across from you in the wings, her stare like ice as it stuck to your skin. Taking a deep breath, you plastered on a wide smile as you were introduced. Purposefully ignoring Agatha, you focused on how the interviewer angeled her body towards Wanda, indictating who she would be asking a question to first.

"Ok, I got to say," Darcy Lewis, the host of this show, threw her hands in the air as if she was giving a confession, "I can't ask any questions about the movie until I get confirmation about something that's happened in your life recently, Wanda."

Wanda smirked, obviously understanding where Darcy was going, You, however, were confused, your eyes flickering between Darcy, Wanda, Agatha, and the audience, hating the feeling. Your smile stayed plastered on, not wanting to reveal your confusion. Wanda met your eyes and reached over to cover your hand with hers, her left hand on top almost purposefully. You looked down to see a beautiful ring with a braided band of gold set with a sparkling diamond of reasonable size.

"Oh my god!" You gasped out, grasping Wanda's hand and bringing it embarassingly close to your face. Wanda and Darcy laughed, the latter clapping as her vague question was answered in a hilarious way.

"I can't believe it's taken you this long to notice!" Wanda laughed out, tugging her hand back to marvel at her ring herself, "I've only been parading it around for a week!"

You flushed with embarassment, a real smile painting your lips as you covered your face with your hands. After the crowd calmed down, Wanda confirmed outloud what the ring symbolized.

"A little over a week ago, my long time partner, who I met on this set by the way, proposed to me in the park we had our first date. Oh, he was so nervous but I couldn't let him finish his speach I was so excited! Obviously I said yes."

You wanted to give your friend a giant hug but decided against climbing over the arms of the chairs, choosing to keep your dignity as you didn't want your dress to ride up too much.

Darcy continued with the interview, the air of the stage light and friendly as you and Wanda evaded questions and made jokes about being trapped in these roles until you're 90. You realized once the interview was almost over that you couldn't feel Agatha's stare on you anymore. Since you had been actively avoiding the spot she was standing in the whole time, you hadn't notice her slip away. A spark of anger lit in your chest as memories floated around your mind. What had you done that she deemed worthy enough to sever your relationship?

You were surprisingly thankful when the interview was over, everything becoming a blur as you made it back home. Wanda had a date with her fiance, Vision but told you that she wanted to get coffee the next morning. You already knew you would be needing that coffee, as you had a few pages of script to begin memorizing for a cameo scene you were doing for a spin-off show of Pillars.

You wanted to just curl up on your couch and binge watch old Disney movies but you forced yourself to walk in circles around your living room, script in hand as you acted out your scenes. A few hours in, you were getting frustrated. Your mind just wouldn't grasp the script, each line entering your mind quickly but leaving even quicker. You were about to learn how to use your fireplace just to burn the papers when your door shook with someone knocking. It was rapid, almost desperate and it sent a sense of urgency pooling in your gut. You practically ran to your door, afraid of what you would see on the other side. Did someone die? Oh god, hopefully Wanda and Vision didn't break up that would be awful-

The door swung open.

It was Agatha.

Her eyes were ablaze with an emotion you couldn't pin point, her hair was a mess but it only added to her beauty, and she was gripping her phone so hard in her hand that her knuckles were white.

You were frozen in the doorway, your eyes wide and your jaw slack. Agatha just stared back at you, her chest heaving as if she had ran all the way to your home. Blinking, you broke yourself from your trance, and against the voices in your head that sounded suspiciously like a specific redhead, stepped to the side to let Agatha in. She barged in, going to stand in front of the couch, arms crossed as she continued to stare at you. Wringing your hands, you decided you wanted to mend what was broken.

"I'm just practicing for the shoot in a week, would you help me? I can't seem to get-"

"Were you ever with Wanda?"

Her sudden question made you choke on your words and you were back to being frozen, the script falling dramatically from your hands. Agatha came to stand in front of you, her face inches from yours. Your tongue was heavy with shock and all you could do was shake your head in denial.

Why was Agatha asking this? Did she like Wanda? That would explain why she wouldn't be happy with you, as you had grown closer to the redhead throughout the years and Agatha didn't.

Something clicked in your mind, reversing your sinking stomach into nervous butterflies.

But if she liked Wanda, why would she be glaring at her? Unless, the person Agatha liked wasn't the now engaged redhead and was-

"Y/N, please, I need you to answer me."

Agatha voice contradicted her body language, her words broken and shaky, as if she was afraid of a potential answer. Her hands flexed in the postition of her crossed arms, as if she wanted to reach towards you. You took a deep breath, preparing your answer.

"Is this why you started avoiding me? Because you thought I was with Wanda? I've only ever been her friend, Agatha and we only grew as close as we are because you stopped talking to me! God, I thought you hated me!"

Agatha's eyes lost their iciness and filled with panic instead. Her hands shot out and grasped your arms.

"Hate? No, I love you! I though the giant annoucment at the interview would be that you were in a relationship with Wanda! I didn't want to ruin your relationship with her because of my feelings!."

You shrugged Agatha's hands off your arms and took a step back.

"So you ruined ours? All because you thought your feelings were unreciprocated?" Agatha's eyes lit up with hope at your words, "Wanda's been with Vision for years, all you had to do was open Google!" You had started to raise your voice towards the end, all your frustration being let out at once. Agatha shrugged sheepishly as she slowly stepped to once again be close to you.

"I didn't want to be right."

Agatha smiled nervously as she brushed a hair from your face.

"I didn't know what to do and I'm terribly sorry for how I acted. God, Y/N, it hurt seeing you with someone who wasn't me. I thought you just wanted to be friends. "

Her whispered apology melted away the ice that had been hardening your heart for protection and you reached up to cup her face in your hands. Agatha leaned into your touch, her eyes closing for a second before opening and almost blinding you with how much hope was shining towards you.

"I loved being your friend and it really hurt me when you took that away but," you smiled at Agatha, shifting to be even closer to your manager, "I would love to be even more."

Agatha smiled softly, her eyes saying everything her words couldn't. Her smile melted into a smirk as she leaned in, your hands falling from her face so your arms could wrap around her neck.

"I would really love to make up for lost time."

You barely had finished nodding before Agatha's lips crashed into yours, consuming you. Her hands now cradled your face as you kissed, her tongue battling with yours. She started walking, directing you towards the stairs, where the door to your bedroom taunted you with it being far. As the two of you stumbled up the stairs, laughter breaking the kiss, you felt Agatha tugging on your dress, the one you still hadn't changed out of. Soon, there was a trail of clothes leading to your bedroom and once you hit your bed, from the look in Agatha's eyes, you wouldn't be leaving it anytime soon.

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a/n: please tell me u liked this bc i loved writing it :) i love this AU idea and would love to expand on it in the future! i wanted this to be a one shot but the potential in this pairing could lead to a series 👀 thank you so much for reading!! hopefully my writing slump hasn't affected my writing too much but i'm going to keep practicing to get better!!

[cherryredstars]

HI OH MY GOSH i read your fic where the reader tutors miguel and im so Hngghuagsg its amazing youre so good at writing<33

i saw ur requests were open and i was wondering if you could write a similar situation with like reader who's not exactly quiet, maybe someone who doesnt even like take the subjects he takes, but he passes by her in the hallway, she's known by people in his classes, she has friends and she talks to everyone but him. and he doesnt know why, (ik its a stretch but could the reader have acne in so many fics i see readers being kissed on the forehead and im like i have acne there he wouldnt want to kiss it :"D)

little does he know that she, whos normally not a shy person is shy to talk to him because she likes him and like she cant fathom him liking her back, she;s...just her. shes not special, or even like a topper. she's just there. and she couldnt be more further from the truth

im so sorry if this is confusing its long and a bit confusing but id love to see what youd do with it<3 thank you

Pairing: Miguel O’Hara x Insecure!Reader

Warnings: Fluff, Slight Insecurity, Mentions of Acne, Slightly Jealous Miguel

Summary: All he wants is your attention. 

A/N: So cute, so cute, so cute

Word Count: 1.8K (Barely Edited)

You remind him of a mouse. 

Always running away before he can fully register that you’re there. Always skirting around his field of vision in the halls as you walk past and purposely quiet your voice to not alert him. It frustrates him. Knowing that you’re there and not at the same time. It pains him because he knows you only do it when it’s him. He isn’t even around you constantly, but he knows there is a difference in the way you act around him. 

He knows you’re usually an energetic and bright person. If he were to pull random people in the hall aside and ask them about you, all their faces would light up in recognition of your name and they would go on and on about their love for you. They would recount all the times you’ve made them laugh and smile, how you’re the sunshine stuffed into a single person, how you can’t take three steps inside the school without someone calling out a greeting towards you. They all talk from experience. Experience Miguel doesn’t have.

He’s tried, he really has. He thought maybe he intimidated you with his height and the usually dark look on his face. So, he tried his best to be soft when you’re around, and tried to convey that he wasn’t a threat. But all of his attempts are in vain. You still stop talking when he comes up to your shared group of friends, always pick the furthest spot away from him, always keep your words and attention towards him to a minimum. He can recount the multiple occasions where one of your mutual friends walked with you down the hall and stopped to talk to Miguel. Each time, his gaze shifted towards you and watched the way you don’t even turn towards him, instead scrolling through your phone as you waited. 

It takes everything in him to not wave a huge sign in your face spelling out PAY ATTENTION TO ME! A large amount of his self control goes towards not pulling whoever you're walking with away from you so he can take their place, forcing you to give him the attention he’s so deprived of. Whenever he asks one of your friends about your behavior, they can only give him a sympathetic look and the shrug of their shoulders. So instead, Miguel steals his time with you through secret observations. His attention instantly snapping towards you when the group is hanging out, his eyes searching for your frame in the halls in between classes. 

He watches the way your eyes light up when you talk to someone, wild hand movements accompanying your stories. He watches the way you always adjust the strap of your book bag that you can never really fix. Loves the look of surprise on your face when someone you don’t know calls out your name and you laugh in confusion as you say hello back and turn to your friends in astonishment. Watches the way you randomly pull your phone out in the halls when you trail behind your group of friends, a small frown on your face as you turn your head and poke at the raised bumps on your skin. Each little sight feels like a breath of fresh air to Miguel, welcoming anything you unknowingly give him. 

It’s a god given gift the day he finds you sitting alone on the bleachers afterschool, none of the people you usually hide behind when you want to get away from him in sight. He keeps his movements slow and quiet to not alert your attention towards his approaching figure. When he sits besides you, you jump in surprise, a look of awe on your face at the sight of him that quickly morphs into the familiar shyness. He watches the way your hand tightens on your phone before you quietly speak up. “Hi, Miguel.”

The sound of your voice, directed entirely towards him makes his heart sing. He feels the unease wash from his shoulders, but he can see it transferring towards you. Even though it pains him to, he leaves a considerable amount of space between the two of you. A whole other person can fit in the empty space. Miguel clenches his fist as he eyes the space in envy, trying his best to ignore it for the sake of your comfort. 

He must be god’s favorite today because as you watch him, you let out a shy smile and whisper out: “You can sit closer, y’know?”

He doesn’t hesitate to fill the space, his knee bumping with yours in his eagerness to be closer. A small laugh leaves you and every rainy day for the next month is cleared away in your happiness. Miguel is utterly hypnotized by you, his eyes shamelessly staring at your face as he drinks in what he’s been missing out on. Is this what it's like? Is this what it's like to be in the presence of a star?

Your smile turns awkward the more he stares at your face, mistaking it for him studying the patch of acne you’ve had difficulties getting rid off. You shift in discomfort, trying to subtly cover the area from view as you clear your throat. Miguel is awakened from his state of awe at the sight of your discomfort, the way you try to hide your imperfections clear as day to him from all the times he’s watched you do it around your friends. Miguel sits up straighter and turns his body to fully face you. He gently moves your hand away from your face, unobstructing his view of you. “You looked really pretty today. Liked the way you did your hair, it looks nice.”

Your eyes are wide as you look at Miguel, his words not fully being processed by your muddy mind. He’s so close and he’s touching you. You think maybe you’re having mirage from being out in the hot sun for too long. You hesitantly look behind you, thinking he’s talking to someone else. The action makes Miguel smile slightly, his thumb rubbing against the pulse point on your wrist to call your attention back towards him. You continue to blink up at him, a blush forming on your face as your point to yourself in clarification. 

Miguel’s smile widens as he tilts his head slightly, a strand of hair covering his eyes while his shoulder shake from silent chuckles. “Yes, you.”

Your smile grows wider in bashfulness, muttering a small thank you as your hand goes to your hair. In your nervousness, you start talking about your process in getting up this morning. Oversharing about how you had tried it out the night before only for it to give you difficulties this morning that made you frustrated and think you would be late to school. Miguel listens wholeheartedly, a small smile still on his face as he lets you say everything that comes to your mind. You end the rant with another thanks towards him for being the only one noticing your efforts with your appearance. 

He finds the appreciation unnecessary, but he’s proud to have gained it from you. He’s sure he looks like a proud puppy with a wagging tail at your praise and his ability to coax a conversation that lasts more than three words. He racks his brain for more things he could say, anything he can do to make you speak more and keep up this easy going air that's so rarely over the both of you. The tiniest bit of pride shines in his eyes whenever he’s successful. 

He lets you go on and on, dismissing your apologies whenever you feel like you’ve talked too much. He’s always been more of a listener than a talker anyways. Plus, he likes discovering the world you dive into when you get lost in your mind. He especially doesn’t mind it when that world subconsciously causes you to raise your hand and push away the strand of hair covering his forehead. His heart beats dangerously fast as he holds his breath, scared he’ll break whatever spell he’s in. It’s only after you start pulling your hand away that you freeze with the realization of what you did. 

A nervous look crosses your face as you start to apologize profusely, your hand still hovering over the side of his face. Miguel shakes his head with a happy smile, once again scolding you for your obsession with the word sorry. When you don’t stop your onslaught for forgiveness, he clasps your hand and presses a kiss to the heel of your palm, successfully shutting you up. You’re a stuttering mess, mouth opening and closing like a fish as you try to form words in your useless mind. Miguel chuckles against the warm skin of your palm and keeps it in his hold as he moves your joined hands to the warmed metal between the both of you. "Go on, princesa. What happened next?"

More shy than before, you continue on, both of your thumbs taking turns rubbing the back of each other's hand. During the never-ending conversation, the two of you get closer and closer. Your body now pressed into Miguel’s side as you laugh and smile at each other. Miguel adds little bits of speech into the conversation, commenting on things he hears or remembers happening or to agree with you on something. He's never seen you so open and carefree with him, and he selfishly wishes for more moments like this. 

Too soon, the moment is broken when your phone starts ringing. You answer, a sorry expression on your face before you turn slightly to answer, pulling your hand from Miguel’s. He clenched his empty palm as you talk, staring down at the lightness that it contains. When you hang up the phone and turn back towards him, the closed-off and reserved behavior returns. 

"I have to go now, but it was nice talking to you, Migs." You whisper as you begin to stand up and gather your things. The nickname you call him warms him through the cold reality of what the two of you will resort back to. 

He hums sadly, the hand previously in his pocket taking your hand again. He debates giving it another kiss, but he decides against it. Instead he gives your hand a gentle squeeze and a small smile. Your cheeks flush again and you give him a fleeting smile in return before making your way down the bleachers. Once you make it down, he stands up and watches as you walk towards a newly pulled up car. You turn and give him a small wave, turning away too quickly to catch his small wave back. 

A heavy sigh leaves him as you drive off. A small weight stays on his chest and he curses slightly, hoping the two of you won't go back to square one. 

Meanwhile, you sit in the passenger seat of the car, a fond smile on your face as you trace the string of numbers scrawled out on the slip of paper he pressed into your hand.

This is the last Miguel request in my inbox WOOO!!

[biibini]

modern!mizu headcannons

a/n: my brain has been nothing but her so it’s ab time i write ab her. i’ve read a bunch of modern!mizu headcannons ab her but i need more !! it becomes a drabble at the end but my girl deserves peace and happiness pls

i’ve read a lot of hc w her in uni so i’ll prob stick to the similar things ive read + more

modern!mizu would def be in university studying mechanical engineering

ik this is specific but pls hear me out it fits bc shes a smartie & her adopted dad (master eiji) was a very technical person when she was growing up

she’s also in uni due to an engineering scholarship

modern!mizu is usually at the gym if it wasn’t for classes and fixing her bike

yes she has a motorcycle. i stand by this hc and many others who share similar ideas.

prob a kawasaki ninja but decked out w her own alternations

modern!mizu is a gym rat but is too stubborn to admit it, esp after taigen pointed it out once

likes to go in the early morning for the peace and quiet

she typically goes in for cardio and weights to keep her healthy and in shape but has dabbled in calisthenics before

taigen used to fence w her before he got into other sports such as basketball

(random thought but he just looks like he would play basketball player)

modern!mizu is very smart… but has a slight huge problem with procrastination

akemi has tried many studying techniques with mizu but it ends up her procrastinating and finishing alone

she prefers studying alone in the library or at her desk, until you came along

(ill elaborate on mizu & reader another time)

modern!mizu cannot cook for shit i’m sorry

she can kinda chef it up but it’s taken her a while she nearly burnt the kitchen and has repeatedly turned on the fire alarm and now ringo has ptsd

usually ringo will cook something or help her cook

speaking of ringo

her and ringo are roommates in off-campus housing 2 bed 2 bath

at first, dad eiji was a bit hesitant since he was helping mizu move in but warmed up to ringo once he cooked them dinner (his mom’s soba recipe)

mizu swears she saw a tear roll down her dad’s cheek that day

modern!mizu usually dresses more casually and comfy but still likes her dark blues

not to self indulge but she would like the baggy acubi look that she can move in

(i know this is so inaccurate of others’ headcannons but pls the baggy button up + slingbag combo would go crazy)

ik she got a uniqlo drawstring sling bag

or just any sporty crossbody sling bag

hear me out pls

it’s easier to get on and balance on her motorcycle with comfy clothes and a secure bag

on mizu’s and ringo’s move-in “anniversary” (as ringo like to call it), he got her a lil keychain for her bag with a jingle on it as a joke to her initial move-in gift to him: a bell for being so silent

modern!mizu usually keeps to herself and her friends

after her ex bf m*k*o (yes im censoring his name he doesnt deserve to be typed out) , she’s very cautious of who to trust

thankfully, ringo, akemi, and taigan (as much of an ass as he is) has taught her to open up and be okay with who she is

but there are days when she prefers to be alone and sticking to her own business in peace and quiet

headphones on locked in 🎧

modern!mizu likes to wind down before bed with some chamomile or lavender tea

her temper used to control her feelings, especially when she was much younger

having a small routine at night keeps her calm & well rested

eiji initially started this routine after their long days of welding in the backyard

she can’t cook but give her a teapot and tea leaves, she will make it right

(ok im done imagining her life lets get to the good stuff)

modern!mizu loves little touches

whether it’s holding u by ur hand or shoulder or waist, her hand will always be there

her main love language is physical touch

the more comfortable she gets with u, the longer she’ll leave her hand on u

whenever u and her are out at a party or gathering, u implemented the secret squeeze if either one of u wants to get out

u haven’t used it before but mizu did a few times

it was when she just wanted to be closer to u in the comfort of her own bed

modern!mizu enjoys shopping w u

she kind of knows her style: comfy and light

but she never explored how to pair clothes together until u showed her some basic pairing

when she first met akemi, she was uncomfortable with more feminine styles and shopping for going-out tops with her

it mainly stems from just not knowing a lot of trends and seeing a wide range of items

she got accustomed the items but seeing u have fun trying new tops

totally not sneaking into the changing room and stealing a few kisses many kisses

modern!mizu also enjoys holding ur things for u

she won’t say it explicitly but she is silently expressive ab it

u need someone to hold ur drink while u fix ur shoes? she got it. need someone to hold ur bag while u go to the bathroom? she got it.

need someone to get a glass of water even though ur all comfy in bed? she will get it (for a price aka some extra cuddles & kisses)

she’s also the type of put ur hand behind ur back when ur in a crowd

ok thats all for now but hope u enjoyed ♡

[returnofeternity]

butcherqueen matching each others freak during the hunt, smiling and just excited to get into it was crazy. also, did you peep how lottie was bouncing with excitement when picking a card until her expression instantly fell for not getting the queen 😭

so many thoughts in mind… might send some seperately but ofc, take ur time and no pressure at all :3

wanted to know your thoughts about shauna's or either lottie's reaction if you get picked to be hunted. ik shauna was so smug about it when it came to mari because she knew something was up with the draw but what if she miscalculated and it turned out to be you. the tension, the uncertainty but the facade they put on because they want to intimidate the others and to not back down from the wilderness' word in order to respect it. you're heartbroken, thinking they would reconsider but no, they're going through with it.

unlike mari—you survive from the pit or in general or someone dies in your place. the tension amplifies when you return to camp safe, and everyone sees it how either shauna or lottie are cracking because they realize what has happened and you won't talk to either of them because you're so hurt and angry. maybe ending the relationship altogether.

⋆ 🍓

god. just thinking about seeing them smile like this after you get picked. especially lottie. feeling so betrayed when she still counts, that wicked smile on her face that makes you wanna cry.

with shauna, she realizes what she did immediately. but she was looking out for herself, thinking that taivan were rigging the cards to kill her. you see a flick of regret in her eyes when you look at her, clenching her jaw and raising her head to keep her facade as she walks to you and undoes jackie's heart necklace. you don't give her the satisfaction of seeing your lips quiver and the devastated look on your face, so you turn your head away.

with lottie, she's almost jealous. jealous that the wilderness chose you instead of her. maybe you weren't even devoted to it like she was (aka didn't believe in it but never said anything to upset her), so she still goes on with the hunt. thinking about lottie being the one to put jackie's necklace on you because, well, you're dating, and it makes sense for your girlfriend to put the death necklace on you. being the one to push her as she starts counting though, shouting at her, and asking if she's really going through with this. she just looks you in the eyes and keeps counting, ignoring how you soften and cry out her name, begging her to help you.

either way, you still run.

and i WISH lottie participated in the hunt. le sigh. i think it'd be even more angsty if she were actively trying to sacrifice you to the wilderness. shauna just does this for the love of the game. does she think she'd really be able to kill you if she captures you? maybe. maybe not. but probably.

one of the girls, your best friend maybe, decides that this is fucked, that lottie/shauna is fucked and try to save you. they end up falling into the pit instead of you :/ returning to camp, badly bruised and bleeding, only to see your friend bleeding out.

shauna/lottie realize what they did when they see you and try to amend things but you shove them back, sobbing and telling them you fucking hate them, asking how they could do this, and break things off with them right in front of everyone.

shauna would snap and yell at everyone staring, threatening someone with a knife before returning to her hut. and gawddd. just sitting there feeling numb as you watch her get crowned as antler queen......makes you hate her even more.

lottie would just watch you walk away and stand there, quietly shuffling back to her hut without you. thinking of lottie who starts to talk less and less after this :(

[thehighladywrites]

this is not a request just. thinking. ik you’re writing the boys as plugs but have we considered. the women.

elain would %100 make her own edible pastries and give them to you in those colourful baggies with a bow. she’d invite you over to “make sure the new recipe I use is good for the next batch.” the watch movies and end up napping on the couch type

feyre would be the best if you’re a newbie and ever curious about anything. %100 is a bit of a push over for you and sometimes gives you a lil gram extra and offer to smoke with you. she would probably teach you (if you dont know) why you should put ice in your bong. i just know she smokes and paints. probably does art nights with you.

Nesta is pretty abrupt, definitely a one and done we dont small talk plug, but she is there for you if you need (like if you’re a newbie and greened out or paranoid or whatever) because she knows how scary it can be to feel out of control with your body. (replace her trouble with canon alcoholism with getting high every night. she knows how it can get to you.) tells you to drink water and sleep it off but is still hanging around when you wake up ‘just in case’.

mor is the plug thats more like a friend. would end up smoking half of the stuff she just sold you because you guys wanted to sesh and hang out. probably gossips about her other customers when you two get really close

idk anything for amren she probably only uses like cbd oils idk :/

anon i dont even know what else to add, this is so perfect😭😭😭 yess i’m agreeing with everything

also amren would probs smoke joints. i imagine her having one between her long manicured nails, she probs use magic on them to make them even more strong/she mixes in some crazy shit orrrr she has a cart, a fancy ass pen with diamonds and gem stones. when she offers u a hit, ur high for hourssss her shit goes crazy tbh, it’s probably borderline venomous

elain would have her own garden where she grows her supply, i imagine she’s a girl plug who have the cutest packages, they’re all pink with cute stickers that say “thanks for supporting my small business”

feyre is the curious one, down to try literally anything. so down to earth and would get high with you and paint you naked. she has one of those loose shirts with buttons and a pair of shorts, her hair is loosely braided as she mixes her colors, she’s so hot i literally need her rn

nesta is so real, like the helping out when u green out part is so accurate. ut her fav customer and she wants to make sure ur okay, she says it’s because she doesn’t wanna loose clients but in reality she likes u. she also throws in extra g’s but doesn’t say shit ab it

mor is forsure the friend turned plug, she put you on to her supply and ever since u buy everything from her. fav activity is eating infused food in public/meetings and trying to act normal. like at the high lords meeting, you eat a shit ton of edibles and then try to concentrate but it’s very obvious bc you both look stoned and you’re paying too much attention to peoples words, it’s not natural

[chaeryeos]

hey guys... uhm update: i hit way more than 1k ! im serious, i did not expect this i'm like super shocked rn. i'm also super upset because i didn't get a screenshot of exactly 1k (i'm too meticulous) but i'm like freaking out.

also update: i might be takin a lil break ! :3 erm my grades be flopping (it's just my math grade) but once one goes down they all go down. so i was gone for a few days to take time for myself and do my best for my school life and etc and honestly i think it's good for me ! so uhm i might be on a lil hiatus or something but dw! i will come back !

but anyway guys i'm scared how'd i get 20+ followers in only a few days. i'm seriously thinking up a whole ass heartfelt message but i'm honestly too tired to write it heh... (here we go anyway)

thank you all so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sooooooo much for 1k+. i seriously never expected this .. so there's these other people who hit 1k way before me and have only started like a few months ago! i think this is because our community is so welcoming and friendly, so we make friends fast and we help each other grow. i'm really grateful to have started making moodboards here... i never regret it.

i'm grateful that i'm not someone who got instant fame because it was nice learning from others and seeing others grow because i sincerely love all my moots and all these amazing blogs! y'all are so sweet and deserve every follow. i started a long time ago (holy... was it two years ago?! 😭) and i was super small from the beginning (y'all do NOT wanna see my first moodboard. it's shameful.) and i barely got any followers or notes.

nowadays i get many followers a day and although i feel i don't deserve as much as others do, i'm super grateful for it. i still cannot believe it and i'm shocked honestly. to all my moots who were there since the beginning, @hseungbi hey dude, you got a new account so uhm. y'all follow her pls. she my twin and we go WAY BACK (ily) @kiyeuo BRO i still remember ur lanaontop era it ate hard. we are the #1 crazy duo. @hourlyhoon ...i don't remember a time when you weren't hourlyhoon i'm gna be honest. ujhm.. but i'm willing to withstand seungho just for you. @prettias wya bro. come back. i'd keep the list going but uhm.. they were my biggest supporters (and like. my only friends back then i love y'all + also legal line on top?!) so thank you so so so much, i have you to thank the most for this.

and to all my st moots, @hypndiary you're literally a GODDESS, i'm glad to be here with you from the beginning of your journey (you deserve the world! ily!) @artoruu PLEASE FOLLOW HER AND MAKE HER UN-NUGU ik she ain't active but she talented (ariel i love you) @gyubnz rao.. we are the cups and we will conquer dw. @melonitos we had memories back then that we do not remember but we have reunited now. @gyarulise ok ik we aren't close but i wanna be closer to you (pls) and thank u for being there o talented one. @toreveluv rei i look up to you and you're so sweet like my sister or something thank you... @chaeneuu hey queen we are like not close but i really really appreciate you :3 @yejitopia777 my queen! where are you istg?! i miss talking to u heh.. ily lots and lots!

so to all my moots that i met on here later on in my journey, thank you from the bottom of my heart! you guys are the world to me. i love you all so so much and thank you for 1k (y'all why'd i write a whole ass essay is under 5 minutes)

i don't want to tag my moots because this is so long and i don't wanna bother them 😭😭😭 if you see this, you see this! i love you all so so muchhh bai bai gn im eepy

[your-favourite-yapper]

M..what do u mean by Mary x Walburga....

I'm so glad u asked !!!!! 0:)

So it's basically in the same universe as the prev mary posts and um in her "rise to power (?)" After pandora leaves but before she goes to uni. she gets asked out by one v confused Sirius bc james got to shaboink lily and now he has no bro to no homo w so he goes to mary at like the begining of the yezr and mary HATES sirius black like acc wants to beat him up w baseball bats and rip his hair out bc he's litr everything she wants to be but wo even trying BUT u kno the saying...keep ur friends close nd ur enemies closer so she dates him and ngl its kinda fun ?? Like it's all v performative (u kno those hs couples that are so lovey dovey on sm and in school but barely u know..talk?? Thats them)

and it's fun bc mary gets some of her like social points redeemed after the pamdora incident bc now she's dating the coolest boy in school!! Ev as all good (?) Things do the rlnship ends mainly bc sirius realized that he isn't rlly doing anything 4 mary as in he isn't acc fooling her into thinking he cares which is no fun and in fact he realizes SHES using him as much as HES using her so it ends and mary has So. Much. Fun shittalking sirijs and like posting slightly ominous sm posts and imm like dates the football cap or smth to show EVERYONE she doesn't care (this is however a catholic school so some ppl, even tho mary doesnt rlly do pda/sleep w the bfs, view her as umm a slut? Whcih makes her sad b7t she forces herself to Not Care)

And umm ev the more she starts thinking abt it the more she gets mad bc .. maybe instead of fixing her rep this ruined it even more? And so she's seething bc sirius unknowingly or not has taken something away from her again ... time to take smth from him!!!

But !! Remember how they started dating at the beginning of the yr? Guess who became seat buddies !! (Ik im overusing this conspet but shh) and they have a group project and it's alr halfway thru when they breakup so they still have to do it tght and sirius refuses to enetr marys "poor ass home" and Mary's like "suits me !! :) (>:] )" and then they enter the manor and mary starts plan bagging walburga she starts going to his home early while he's still out and looks up oldmoney hairstyles and traditions and once sidihs invited her over for dinner after they fin working (lowk did it to embarass her) but she did her homework so she knew all the ettiquete and she wears one specific strawberry lotion and perfume and starts spraying it a bit around the excuse to remind walburga of her and she starts on purpose making her eyes wide and voice breathy but when she realizes walburga doesn't like that she makes herself strong and arrogant (?) And is just customizing her personality like it's the sims and stuff and in general pulling out all the stops (she kinda accidently seduces orion but hes like "ew." So she doesnt engage)

It takes a loooong time btw but ev walburga starts enjoying (?) Mary's company don't get me wrong she doesn't do anything IMM abt it but she starts giving small chitchat which turns into lingering glances which turns into small touches which leads to LINGERING touches which leads to THEM SHABOINKING ON WALBURGAS BED AND GOING AT IT FOR LIKE 6 ROUNDS

Kidding !!! They both lowk hate meaningless sex

There's a more pressing matter tho and that's walburgas boy momness (?) Mary and srs started out as like dtating wc walburga did not like so she demonized mary in her head for taking away her sweet precious boy(even tho she found out abt their rlnship like a wk after they broke up) but Sirius keeps acting out and causing scenes and well she childishly wants to get back at him (?idk man im sorry?) Bc even tho marys like poor she still has etiquette and is knowledgeable and is wide-eyed and cunning and she acc reminds walburga of her in her youth and well.....how could she NOT be interested in her

But that's all it is..interest. after the project ends walburga tactfully approaches Sirius abt mary when she's coming or if she would like to join for dinner and sirius argues w walburga abt it bc they're LITR exes (u kno those tiktoks where its like they broke up but the fam loves the ex so they still come over for finners and stuff) but he goes to mary anyways and she's like !!yay!! Plan worked BUT she wants walburga to b just a lil teensy eensy winsy binsy desperate so she pretends she has hw or class or anything rlky (she goes to like some of the invitations but not all) and somehow mafymacdonald has managed to get walburga black interested (w the italics this time)

Ev mary goes to undergrad (dk how uni works srry) wc is still in the area and it's a good school so sorta closer to the black family home than b4 and walburga is antsy bc sirius is gone regulus is gone orion is cheating or drunk and most of the family has demonized her bc of the loss of the heir (theyre just jealous tho) and she starts wondering abt the nice polite girl w the strawberry perfume so she pulls some strings and finds her address and sends her a letter to dinner

Now mary is v much busy w undergrad school (she hasnt yet Healed) so she pretty much forgets abt her ploys to seduce walburga bc ykno what's the point? There's not much status to gain from it so y would she bother?

But she still goes anyways and remembers to wear the strawberry lotion and retreads the invitation and refractive her ettiquete and goes to the home and finds....walburga alone? Theres no orion no regulus no Sirius and she wasn't expecting them but then it's like...it's walburga !! ALONE ??!!!! she invited her to dinner herself !???!!!! OMG

So the catchup and mary is so pleased fo see walburga and they talk (dk whzt abt tho cus im not cool enuff srry)

And once again bear w me cus idk what happens next BUT they grow closer and closer till they're having dinner everyday and mary finds it so fun bc 1) walburga litr just talks abt how she was when she was younger or some stupid things 2) walburga is now looking at her 3) walburga offers to let her stay at her house

And the rlnship itself while not Good isn't Bad like walburga lowk looks down on mary for having 2 work for her grades or marys accent or smth and mary realizes this and changes it and walburgas like wait no it was endearing. And walburga loves mary bc she sympathizes w her And understands her and doesn't demonize her (or smth)

Walburga takes mary on these expensive ass trips she would have taken w orion but she just takes mary instead and leaves orion and she loves treating mary like a porcelain doll and mary loves someone like reverring her like she's a goddess or smth and I don't think they have sex sex but walburgas fave pastime is adiring mary and letting mary admire her (im srs bro they strip down and stare at each other for like 3hrs like its a cult) and it's so weird bc they also have that tr x protégé thing going on and walburga does Not Like it when mary spends her time doing things w other ppl (bc thats how she lost sirius) so mary grows further from her friends and walburga doesn't like some parts of mary (her loudness primarily) and doesn't say it directly but mary cuts out the pieces wwlburga doesn't like till there's nothing left

And mary thinks she's the one in control bc she shittalks orion and boom he's out the fam she shit talks regulus and waburga suddenly Hates him (always did but now its alot more) shittalks Sirius and...walburgz cries

ALSO mary has not met her mom so her mother (not mommy) kink is being fulfilled (should probably expand on this more hut im tired)

Umm anyways ev mary passes undergrad and one big problem is that she got accepted to her dream grad school (Healing arc coming soon) and the prblm is that it's so far away and walburga does NOT lik this so when the letter comes she tries hiding it from mary but mary alr got the email and when she realizes walburga hid the letter on one hand she's angry bc duh but on the other hand she's like "you hid my letter? 🥺🥺Bc u didnt want me to leave? 🥺🥺You love me?🥹🥹"

But she goes anyways and Heals and doesn't rrly keep in touch w walburga bc walbutga HATES technology but mary writes some letters to her and ev she dates the girl.... heals ...yada yada ...gets run over by pandoras truck yada yada

and walburga has been stalking like marys uni so when she sees this news she doesn't kill herself BUT she does fall v ill and dies and when ppl found her willshe gave EVERYTHING? to mary and even added a piece where she said she wanted her heart carved out of her to be given to mary and the ppl were like ?? Marys litr dead?? What?? And also why did she wanna give this much money to mary?? But the mosey just goes to sirijs cus he's heir or whatevs

And sirius is like ??? Bc him and mary acc made up in grad school bc they were in the same STEM dep ?? Why is mary getting his inheritance...then he realizes and he's like "wtf"

But he goes and fucks his bf (james) and yeah :|

[flowery-mess]

I'm watching a turkish telenova rn so that's why I'm requesting this specific thing.

What if teen noah and teen reader got pregnant, but he's like, "I've got a band and no time for a child, get out" and readers being a badass and is like "k, I'm moving back to Europe, raising this child and becoming a lawyer"

So daughters now 20 years old and a rock fan, hence why she goes to the rock am ring festival where bad omens are gonna perfome (she's not a big fan of them, she wants to see the other bands)

Noah spots her in the crowd and is like "yn?" And sends the security to get her backstage. She declines to go backstage bc of the stories of rammstein drugging and abusing their fans and tells the security "yns my mom tho" and boom Noah realizes that's his daughter. At the end of the festival the daughters waiting with her friend for her mom to pick them up when Noah approaches her and is like " i know ur mom" daughters like " prove it i,I don't believe u" so Noah's like " this is her birthday, her middle name is this and yada yada"

(Daughter not knowing that Noah is her das obviously, mom never mentioned any names just that he was trying to make it with his music)

She was like "oh cool, mom used to be friends with bad omens?" So they're talking and boom Mama pulls up and is Hella mad when she sees Noah buuut not because she's butthurt of what he did to her 20 years ago but bc she's mama bear and is like " u were a nobody when u hurt me but now ur a big Rockstar and have more power. So stay away from her"

Noah's obviously still in love with mom and is shook that she thinks that way of him.

Ik specific and long but if u wanna work with this imma love u forever. It could be like dad daughter things, where he realizes even tho she looks exactly like ger mom, they have same interest. Orr the mom and Noah could talk it out and eventually fall back in lovee.

I don't write about having kids, but I gave it a try so I hope you like it💗

Uf I don't think Noah would be like that, but let's get along with that scenario...

I think it would be only fair to the daughter to tell her the truth.

I'm not sure what her reaction would be, but I wouldn't tell her what Noah said in the past, she doesn't need to get hurt too.

So maybe tell her that he wasn't ready to be dad yet so they parted ways and you got back to Europe.

Daughter would listen to both sides, take it all in and make her own opinion.

She wouldn't feel any hate towards any of you, because despite being just 20 years old she's very mature.

But she would want to get to know Noah.

They would exchange numbers and keep in touch as he and the band continue festival season.

After they are back in the states, all three of you have a big call about finding a date when the daughter would come visit Noah in the states and stay with him for like a month.

Daughter attending college makes it easier with her semester starting in October, so you agree on date from middle of August to the end of Semptember.

After the date is set, Noah tells her he wants to talk to you alone for a minute.

You talk about what happened between you two and Noah apologizes.

Through the years all the hate and anger kind of dissapeared.

Mostly because you're proud of yourself for raising your daughter alone and making it on your own.

Noah is proud of you too.

And he would never ask you or your daughter to talk about him like her dad or ask her to call him dad, because he knows he doesn't earn that title yet. He just wants to get to know her.

But what he does is ask if you would want to come too.

And you're surprised.

Of course all of those feelings you had for him flashed through your mind when you saw him again. But also all the pain he put you through with his decision.

But before that happened he was amazing. He was great boyfriend and great person.

The thought about your daughter flying alone scared you, but you know she could make it and then she would be with Noah. And you were 100% sure he would keep her safe.

That's why you didn't mind her flying to the staes even if you and Noah haven't seen each other in 20 years.

But you coming too? That made you scared.

You were scared that you would fall in love with him again.

You made this new country your home, you have great place to live and amazing job.

You can't give that up for someone who left you when you needed him the most.

"Thanks, but no Noah. You know it's not a great idea. I trust you with her, she is adult so I will be supportive of you two getting to know eachother. But I'm not gonna turn my life upside down because of you again. I appreciate your apology, I will stay in touch with you, but please, only because of her."

Even though he asked you to just come to the states for month you knew him and you saw in his eyes what you saw 20 years ago.

Love? Feelings? Call it whatever you want, but you knew how going there with your daughter would end.

And you didn't need your heart broken again.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - April 1

skirt anon (new), hijabi anon, gender crisis anon (new), therapist anon, amount anon (new)

skirt anon

So it’s been brought to my attention that my church is weird. (redacted)

Uh YEAH that's absolutely not okay, PLEASE tell an adult. Like...right now.

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Hijabi anon

I haven’t sent a ask in a while but Ramadan ends today and Tmrws Eid and I just spent hours waiting to get my henna done and I’m so tired rn 😭😭 I hope ur day goes well btw!!!!

Happy belated Eid! I hope you had a great time celebrating!!

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gender crisis anon

gender crisis where you feel so feminine sometimes you don't identify with enby or masc, so masculine sometimes you don't identify w enby or fem, and so enby sometimes you don't identify as either gender

pls send help I thought I figured shit out

does this make sense-? I feel like I'm rambling 😭

thank you and have a nice day :D

Hi!

This does make sense! I'm not trying to tell you how to identify, but have you looked into 'genderfluid' and similar terms? It might be helpful. <3

Let me know!

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therapist anon

Hello hello therapist anon here

First off all how are we feeling? I hope everything's good and that the weather is nice cos holy fuck cab summer HURRY TF UP

Anyways

I was recently talking to my friend about how my parents agreed to buy me shoes if I do well on my spring assessments

She wasn't horrible per say just questioning why cos these exams are quite minor but lemme put this in context. Basically my younger siblings have been getting emails home and detentions left right and center then getting rewarded when they go a whole week without doing something naughty. Fair enough, positive reinforcement but I just felt a bit not seen in a way cos this year I'm doing two subjects I've never done before so I'm proud of myself for getting good grades and ik my parents are as well, I'm just not getting a prize for getting an A on an a subject I've never done before you know?

There also a holiday coming up so these shoes will also go to that like instead of getting 30 pounds shoes I'm getting 70

I really really don't wanna come off as spoilt I just didn't feel seen and that my achievements were kinda pushed to the side cos my siblings can't get it through their heads that getting detentions twice a week aren't cool. Also I've been needing new trainers for a while so these shoes are going towards loads of things which is why my parents are happy to get them. Also I feel like I shouldn't have to explain myself you know? My parents said they're happy to gwt them for me so idk why other people should question their reason behind it. (I'm not spoiled btw if I want an expensive pair of shoes I usually buy it myself like I bought myself uggs cos I wanted them and my parents wouldn't buy them for me for no reason)

Also quick note, the show went AMAZINGLY we raised alot of money which is so good! Me and my friend choreographed a dance which went so well especially cos we had to change it a week beforw the show and I really wanted my cousin to see it but I guess she got really stressed cos when I went up to her asking where she was she pushed me to the side (literally) but left her to be cos she seemed stressed and I didn't want to crowd her

Then later during the choir she came up behind me and went 'omg they sound terrible' okay one that was so uncalled for tf? Also half of the girls were under 12 so yes obviously they're not gonna sound like Taylor swift but still! We had such a short time period and they actually sounded amazing for their age abs the fact they had like 2 seconds to learn one of the songs which was in a different language so yeah

I love my cousin I do but omg she has got to stop hating on things I do. I would never go up to her next year knowing she's piled up with work and ten other things to do and tell her the show looks shit cos that's a horrible thing to do right?!

Oh well.

Thanks for listening to me your the best lots of love ❤️❤️❤️

Hi!

As far as your friend, you absolutely should not have to explain to anyone why your parents are buying you things. Especially since like...it's one pair of shoes and it sounds like you more than deserve them. It sounds like if your friend can't say anything nice, they need to keep quiet.

Same with your cousin. Like...that was unnecessary. And it sounds like they were actually quite good!

I'm so glad the show went well though, congratulations!!

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amount anon

Hi cas im 14 and i feel like im not gonna amount to anything. I cant find a job that i actually want to do and i feel like im going to be miserable for my whole life. Everybody has everything figured out and i have no idea who i am. I dont even feel like i have a personality half the time.

Hi hon <3

I understand this feeling but I need you to understand that you are SO young. You have so much time and so many things will change for you over the next few years. When i was 14, I thought I was a straight girl who would grow up to be a lawyer. Now I'm a queer nonbinary teacher, and very glad I'm all those things (most of the time.) I'm not saying you're ignorant, please don't take it that way. I'm just saying that life changes so much and that's a GOOD thing. I promise <3

[cloudysarts]

knocks on ur door politely…..

how does mabel’s muse au go abt her relationships?? the angst potential…..with bill enabling her selfishness and chaotic tendencies, i imagine dipper getting more and more aggravated w her as time goes on……which leads to him mentioning mabel as a reason why he wants to be ford’s apprentice and agreeing that, lately, bc yeah she’s been a bit much this summer and he thinks some time part would be good for them. having mabel overhear her twin saying those things + ford saying what he said in ur art ,,, it just pushes her further into the trenches of bill’s manipulation. since u said she met bill early like after the pilot, i think stan would be used to mabel acting the way she does w bill and all, even if there are the occasional red flags. but dipper, having known her since birth, ik u said he thinks bill isn’t real but he has the journal full of warnings of bill and i think he’d be rightfully suspicious of mabel’s supposed muse…..idk i think he’s a curious smart lil guy who would have a gut feeling abt what’s going on w mabel and her muse. i do like the idea of him thinking bill’s just an imaginary friend tho!!! just him thinking it’s another mabel quirk or something is plausible :O! how often does bill possess her body? he doesn’t hurt her like he did w ford, right? since he needs her to trust him and all….. :3

AH this is so well thought out!!!!!!!! first of all thank: thank you for taking interest in my auuu im SO happy that so many people like it so much!!!! im gonna try and address all the points you made so bare with me sjhkdfhjksdf

dipper ABSOLUTELY gets irritated with mabel as the series progresses. especially since, at the beginning, he doesnt believe in bill, so the fact that mabel is blaming a lot of her childish actions on something as silly as an imaginary friend bothers him A LOT. he wishes shed just take accountability (which later leads to him trying to take accountability HIMSELF, which backfires, bc he just ends up way too critical and self-loathing. at the end they find a healthy middle of taking accountability and also not beating yourself up). i honestly didnt even think about ford still offering the apprenticeship but in hindsight i can SO see ford using that to try and convince him to come aboard!!

in this au, bill isnt depicted in the journal. ford never mentions him by name/draws him out, other than little hints (dipper does raise an eyebrow at the author also calling a being 'my muse', and starts to theorize, but never gets to come to a concrete conclusion before the truth comes out anyway). i think over the course of the story he DOES come up with a bunch of theories on what the 'imaginary friend' could be, really, but they all fall flat. itd be a fun little b plot to the main story if he were trying to investigate various creatures to see if any could fit only to never be able to figure it out

bill doesnt possess her body very much (if at all) and definitely doesnt hurt her when/if he does!! he really just doesnt NEED to possess her. on the rare occasion that he does, its not as self-serving as it is with ford or dipper in canon. like i can see her letting him use his body so she can stay up later making her sock puppets or stock piling mabel juice or something jhksfhjksdf. since he doesnt have any real reason to want to destroy the journals, he wouldnt have to take over anyones body in sock opera but he might just for funsies.

heres a now non-canon interaction that popped into my head and i wrote down back when i was first developing this au :)

OK i think thats about it HKLSDFHJK thank you for the askkkk!!!!!!! :DDDD

[starfxkrinc]

haiiii moony!! i only started following you heavy on this blog so i was a fake fan on ur old one ngl. ik you have short blurbs for each reader on here, but do u have info on them/their personalities outside of vibes? (esp kitten shes my faveeeee)

okay...all that got deleted from the old blog and i never redid them so lets do a quick rundown

courtney/kitten: weird combo of aloof and antagonistic, she's very quick to anger and impulsive but can mask it very well (unless it comes to jj) fighter in her youth but as she got older she mellowed and prefers #psychological warefare. not the most affectionate, but she's filled with love dont get me wrong. kind of a crybaby lowkey but shes one of those silent criers she goes in the bathroom, cries and then comes out like nothing happened. not much of a talker in most cases but like she's fun as fuck. esp when she off that liq like she's a ball. most likely to get arrested for public intoxication.

erykah/pup: my sweet girl is so lonely despite all her friends. surprisingly very melancholic underneath her wandering spirit. has problems actually telling people what's wrong and expects them to ask her or already know. very clingy with her friends and john b but not very much with her parent. very crafty, lowkey the main touron scammer she's always getting them to cough up money for palm and tarot readings that she bullshits. its not that she doesnt know she just knows what ppl wanna hear. very spiritual and superstitious. never stays in one place too long even though she wants to call someplace home. just never felt comfortable anywhere.

alicia/bunny: oh she's such a bitch. i love her deeply. manipulative and a social climber but she doesn't hide it to be fair. it's not to say there aren't ppl she loves and cares for she's just a tough nut to crack. always had lofty ambitions and because of that she's a very ambitious girls, super high self esteem and driven. but she has a tendency to be greedy and spoiled. kinda the smartest of all of them which is why she plays rafes dumbass like a fiddle until they start to like each other more. can lose perspective though especially when she hasn't been back to the cut in a while and feels ashamed of her upbringing because of it.

destiny/foxy: TROLL she's so dry and sardonic. loves fucking with people with her creepy ass smile/laugh. had a psychosexual obsession with pope because she's distrstful and thought he was fucking with her (he just had a crush on her). personification of the goob "they all hated me" meme bc courtney and erykah are her childhood best friends she just be forgetting they like her. very socially awkward but she was kind of a slut bc she was in #band. could not care less about what everyone else has going on which made her a prime target for kooks growing up. not a fighter but quick on her feet and clever as shit she can talk her way outta anything.

liana/lamb: preachers daughter. super fucking perverted despite her naiveté and is kind of a mystery to everyone else. she tries to reach out for friends but has trouble doing so because of how isolated she's been. she went to school with them but was kinda "weird" plus she's younger than everyone which doesnt help. clings onto sam ALOT because they grew up together. feels very resentful of sams perceived freedom. extremely neurotic, prone to emotional breakdowns and despite her fathers best efforts has a raging rebellious streak.

samson/bambi: freaky weirdo creep. split her time between the sticks of the mainland and the island so she's also kinda shrouded in mystery. also raised by a bible thumper like liana but more of the doom and gloom survivalist kind. raised by her dad along with her brother and is very androgynous. kinda unsettling and very calm/still due to growing up hunting and when in a fight or flight mode she just might stab you. ask barry.

[pastsaoi]

Going off of the angst idea, I think the main issue Rosa had was that she was basically like !! #alone after Luke left for the gov job and then afterwards her parents left too for their jobs as archeologists??? I think?? Tbh I have a theory they might be dead and only Luke knows bc how has she not contacted them at ALL??

(Spoilers to various Luke cards)

It’s mentioned in that one fireworks sr w/ Luke where she talks about how after they left she often felt alone esp after getting ditched by her friends, and still went to the festival by herself, riding a Ferris wheel alone. There’s also that one sr of Luke and MC doing a trivia of eachother during a couples test and MC had done everything by herself like eating hotpot by herself etc etc bc she had nobody.

There was also a lot of people giving Luke more attention after he came to live w Rosa’s family, (Luke SSR at another festival before the 1st anniversary cards) which tbh I don’t think Rosa really minded but Luke didn’t like the idea of Rosa being neglected, so maybe she may had some kind of issues w that secretly or unintentionally?

In conclusion Rosa does have some angst if you squint rlly hard enough in her past, and lowk I need more of it bc we have more development of the boys trauma but lowk the boys comforting her would eat 💔

yes!!! i forgot abt so much of this😔

i do see where ur coming from with ur theory bc... how much time has passed in game??? how have u not heard from ur parents at all?? rosa are u not worried?? ik ur like 25 now but girl....

i hope her parents become a bigger part of the story that would be so cool.. if they're not.. yk.... dead

atp we should rename the nxx team fucking. team neglect. team abandonment issues. team isolation.

BC THEY R ALL SO LONELY

it might be why i enjoy nxx found family so much bc they all need their comfort and they get it from each other </3

like the boys pretend they hate each other but... i know ur secrets... u love each other i know it...

i think the fact that u do have to squint for rosa angst is so ??!! atp i think most people who play see rosa as her own character, not a self insert, which honestly i prefer but thats a wholeee different topic so i like having hints towards her life before the main story

she's a very selfless person from what we see, like it takes so much for her to be selfish or put herself above others... so maybe im reading into it a bit too much but the fact that she is so dismissive of her own possible traumas is so :((

im so glad that she's also becoming more of a character recently, like we're seeing her develop as well and it's just !! im looking forward to seeing where it goes and how much she changes with the story and with the boys

it gives angst And fluff potential so im *dancing around the room*

[mangoposts]

girl i need to know ur thoughts on alahna. like for me i genuinely miss her sm bro and it makes me so upset that she still wishes they could be friends -but they’ve just like fully ignored the whole thing and have never said a WORD abt it whereas she’s constantly like reposting stuff about old friendships and such that’s def about them. also i always think about how like even IF they became friends again and like we all found out, there would always be like a sense of awkwardness knowing abt the friendship breakup. like obvi it’s happened before with youtubers and stuff where they’ve stopped hanging out but then a couple years later theyre friends again, but i really don’t know if i see that happening, and like she’s a childhood friend as well so it’s a bit different. ALSO it makes me so sad too how they make such an effort with nate and see him all the time, i just don’t get what happened with alahna like that’s my girlll. AND (sorry i keep thinking of more stuff), with the whole unfollowing thing that started it all, that really caught me off guard cos like they have other friends from boston who i bet they dont see that much, but they still have each other on insta, like there’s no need to fully remove them off all their socials ykwim?

also just another thing (IM SORRY😭) in regards to madi, i love her and think she’s so cute, and honestly by no means do i believe she’s replaced alahna cos their friendships were always so different, but for me no matter how close they get with her, it’s just not gonna compare to their childhood friendships, cos it’ll always be through her mom being their manager, so it lowks work related?? STAWP it sounds like i’m hating on her NO I LOVE HER PLS - and i do think their friendship with her is very genuine i’m just saying like the vibes i get are so diff to their boston friends

like in their videos with alahna/nate/chloe etc the friendships are just so real it just like makes me so upset bro idek( obvs it’s cos they grew up tg but yk😭😭)

sorry for this long ass rant ik its sooo not that serious and none of my business at all but like i genuinely mourn their friendship constantly ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

PLEASE.

PLEASE.

PLEASE.

DONT GET ME STARTED.

I don’t think anybody understand how much i love and adore alahna. No doubt i miss her ass soooooooooooooooooooo bad. I literally talk about it every single day it’s my disgusting roman empire i never stop thinking of her, I’ll die without ever knowing what happened between them. But im sure it was all for a reason, i know it doesn’t look like it makes sense but we weren’t there and we never know what goes down behind the scenes. I don’t think it was anything messy i don’t believe alahna has ever had bad intentions and she never will. But i mean it’s obvious something rough happened if they treat her that differently from the other friends in boston, ill never fucking knoooowwww and i have to get over it one day but i miss her so so so so so so sos is sos sosososowowowowowo BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. Fuck. Im not saying anybody is trying to compare, but nobody will ever compare. That’s all and if u don’t like alahna i hate you and block me

[pazzispizookies]

word for word for word that was me like a year or two ago it drove me INSANE. coming into college i knew i liked girls but didn’t know if i could be w one or get w one fr but then when i got to school and met this bi girl and she was the one i first came out to and literally when she asked i said “idk” like i was so not confident w myself or rlly completely sure but became like homoerotic codependent best friends and i was like OH yeah im so gay i was obsessed w her but it took me until like a year into college tho to have the feeling that i couldn’t be w a man after i had dated one and felt like i was missing something if i married him i was crashing out having a crisis even to him i feel bad😭 and after we broke up finally realizing that my body just wasn’t doing what it was supposed to do and i wasn’t looking at him the same/how i was “supposed to” even tho i was obsessed w him like it was crazy to realize ab girls like the way i saw them like oh wait this is what people have been feeling ab their bfs like im not messed up or something… took another couple months to figure out for sure what i am and a while longer to accept it but now ik for sure im such a lesbian💀also my best friend for life from hs finally accepted/realized she’s def bi like this past year and probably like 3 of her friends from the time we got to college until now realized they weren’t straight and also men aren’t doing it for them…ur so not alone i swear once everyone gets to college thats when everyone pops out as some kinda gay bc they realize it then or can be comfortable but hs only a few people were actually out or really knew like i promise when u get to college and start meeting ppl who r similar and time goes on itll become clearer plus u can almost “re-invent” yourself when u get there like w ur style and stuff like these people do not know u so its sm easier to show up and be yourself.

go read the lesbian masterdoc that really changed my life like that was def part of clearing things up it’s wonderful. report back once u have lmao comphet is a crazy concept

……..now I’m in more of a crisis.

Like I cant be a lesbian.

But god the idea of marrying a man and spending the rest of my life with a man feels like I can’t breathe

But like I’m not a lesbian, because i still find them attractive so like what

But like the idea of doing the devils tango with a man again makes me cringe but the idea of doing it with a girl………

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