#shared my vape with 2 different people

[terryfuckingturniptruck]

My birthday was full of unexpected interactions

[carlyraejepsans]

Funny story: the first time I smoked weed I tried w a bong. No effect after 20 minutes of being in the smoky room w my friends and trying myself except for coughing. Blech.

THEN like 2 days later they gave me a vape version and I (accidentally) took a hit so big it made everyone laugh like "lmao dude you're gonna be off your tits" well no, didn't do anything to me either except BURN MY LUNGS!!

I had to go sit in another room to cool off for like an hour before I was breathing normally and I came to the conclusion that I simply can't get high from weed lmao.

no literally same, i tried again (i love you gay people who share their blunts) like twenty minutes ago and i felt nothing different than what i normally feel those few times i smoke normal cigarettes.

which is nothing. bc i also don't feel a difference.

[corwnvus]

what does you being racist have to do with sirius? you’re insane if you think this is some fictional discourse. i don’t even give a fuck about that character. your friends who posted about vaping and ignored real Congolese people telling them to not post about it. if a Palestinian told you to stop posting starbucks you would right?

your friends never apologized for their insensitivity and neither have you. last time a person of color tried to speak about how poc james isn’t developed and they don’t like it because it isn’t good representation you and and your friends came in to give your WHITE opinions about how they’re wrong. somehow your white asses know more.

you do do speak over poc. you literally say what is and isn’t racist all the time as a white person to people of color. you ignore racism that happens at the hands of your friends. you’re not a good ally. you don’t listen to real black people. stop pretending you care and stop using fictional characters to argue real fucking issues. i’ve never seen you say sorry.

you’re a white person with extreme privilege and a huge following who just mocks people’s real concerns and issues. you just care about using us for aesthetic it’s disgusting. at least apologize and own up to it.

1 I ain't ditzy and 2 ditzy has explained that they were addicted to cigarettes and went onto vapes because of their lupus. They have talked about this and counteracted it by spreading awareness of Congo and donated to Congo and Palestinian organisations.

The person who said THEY don't like poc james is because james is rich and a bully?? Becuse he is privileged becuse of his blood states, we explore poc james because we like it and it is interesting and productive to talk about intersectionality and how he could face oppression becuse of his skin colour but also be privileged in a society where the metric of privilege and 'value' is primarily based on a different factor. I'm not forcing anyone to like poc james I'm also not forcing anyone to not like poc james.

I have been called racist by a lot of your friends because of the ships I like (bartylily and jegulus) and the characters I like which is wild to place real life struggles and prejudice on what i interact in a fictional setting. You saying I should listen to black people when some yell at me for that but most tell me I shouldn't listen to you (also Jewish creators as you guys like to call me a n@zi and a t*rrorist)

You say I use my big platform as you use anonymous ways to talk shit about me and insult me. You have no idea how many de@th threats and r@pe threats I have to delete (not from you but from other people) not only becuse of what I ship but also becuse I'm trans and I have trans hc. I am always willing to listen to poc people but you all arnt a monolith and I will listen to the most educated on said topic as if I don't I could do more damage then good, I can't make everyone happy. However, calling me a bad ally becuse I disagree with some poc on HARRY POTTER HC... is wild and really fucking profomative. I have shared information on Congo, Sudan, Afghanistan Ukrainian and palestine, joined artist groups that helped raise money for palistine, uplifted the voices of followers and mutuals who live in Poland and Ukrainian to my 'large following' . I have donated and also donated parts of my commissions to family in palestine despite being food insecure and jobless other then my commissions. You don't get to judge how good of an ally I am becuse of how I interact in fandom.

Thank you.

[osomatsuconfessions]

vaping and general smoking thoughts long long long

osomatsu: sticks with just cigarettes mostly, antiquated frame of reference where old and comfortable is the best with little change allowed. matsuzou smokes so i think oso just followed by example and liked the relaxed feeling and repetition aspect. he would maybe try a vape under the idea that a buzz is a buzz and a buzz feels good but would find the synthetic taste and experience to be offputting. has many complaints that comically go against audience expectation: 'whats the point! it doesnt even smell bad! it doesnt even make YOU smell bad! it doesnt even make my lungs burn!' etc etc

karamatsu: impossibly weak nicotine tolerance, smoked one cigarette and got extremely sick and took it as an omen. wouldnt vape because sucking on a little rectangle doesnt line up with his idea of coolness. holds cigarettes and cigars in his mouth to get the image of being intimidating and tough without ever lighting them.

choromatsu: WOULD be interested in vaping out of the fear of what smoking is actively doing to his body and what it says about his restraint and responsibility over himself by putting his lungs in danger, plus (kiddish and so, hard to admit) the flavors sound appealing. would sneak hits of tottys vape really obviously in the middle of the house any time hes not around and would over time want to start branching out with different pods, making his own rankings in his head. choro does not see this as lame but instead something akin to taking up wine tasting as a hobby (same level of prestige in his mind but less cost so its even better. hes even better). writes whole entries in a journal bought specifically for this purpose about the notes and undertones and things. to him this is for explorational AND educational purposes. this is the hobby of a discerning mind. this is not him being addicted to drugs. this is not JUST some guy vaping a ton for the sake of vaping its DIFFERENT. the other matsus find the journal and mock choro and his analysis of unicorn 50w by reciting passages back to his while she goes catatonic and silently switches back to cigarettes. never gets any buzz ever again from the insane tolerance build up but will never share this fact or think deeper about what it says about his habits

ichimatsu: explicitly doesnt smoke nor would vape. shit in his lungs is shit in his lungs it all sucks

jyushimatsu: intermittent cigarette smoker just whenever the chance presents itself. in line with him sharing the coffee milk with osomatsu where its probably more about the taste and getting to chug it and spin around than the effects of caffeine, its a vessel for comedy and appearances (for reference humor to specific archetypes or doing physically impossible tricks) and stuff more than an actual enjoyment of nicotine. he probably finishes other peoples but doesnt start his own. also thinking of jyushimatsus fixation with chewing and teething on shit like cybers heads or the lollipops theres no way hes not chomping the shit out of the filters. i think vapes initially would kind of confuse him same as all the others, but hed be reeled in by the idea of super sweet flavors and the comedic potential of making giant clouds. hed be like a fog machine. teeth marks on the vape too nothings safe if its going in there

todomatsu: would vape, specifically orange or strawberry pods. totty also doesnt really get it but it SEEMS like its hip cause there was a lot of buzz about it a couple years ago and he is forever multiple seasons late to any kind of trend so hes more than willing. hitting it around other people makes him feel like his fingers on the pulse of modern culture and not a guy who spends his time gambling and fishing like an old man. confidence booster plus he thinks it makes you smell better to women, especially compared to tobacco smoke, which is another plus (and cuts down on buying gas station perfume 2 in 1 bargain). when not accompanied by people totty means to impress (the other matsus) he would smoke cigarettes. he (like the rest) is a fiend of habit and behaviors set by osomatsu especially are ingrained so its pretty inevitable that he followed along in earlier adult years and then got hooked. but by s3 hed give it up more (riceballs using their electronic vape things further pushing the idea that this is futuristic and impressive and something that they should get with the times on, which totty would feel self conscious about not understanding/already doing + additionally having already made his extreme departure from following osomatsus actions beat for beat as he otherwise was predisposed to in s1) but would have an itch for it that hed mostly only scratch when drunk or making excuses. to compensate for his late switchover and to further distinguish himself as The Sextuplet In The Know Of Things hed rub in their faces how bad tobacco is for your lungs and how hes gonna live way longer and chide them about how they prioritize getting a hit in over living a long time like 'good luck having sex when youre DEAD with TAR LUNGS idiots!!!' when asked how vapes are at all better for your lungs he goes silent and looks away

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[emeritus-fuckers]

Howdy hey I'm interested in trying the match-up event. I always enjoy reading the things y'all've written.

Apologies in advance if this is a mess. 1. Identity: I am nonbinary, use they/them and she/her pronouns. I'm bisexual and a bit on the demisexual side.

2. Who I like: I'm cool with either the papas or ghouls

3. What I look like: I'm 5'8" and chubby. I'm pretty strong and got some muscle so I'm built perfect for giving big hugs and cuddles (though it'll take a bit of convincing to get me cuddly). At the moment my hair is dyed bright red but it changes colors often. Both my eyes have sectoral heterochromia and are green with a bright blue chunk. I usually wear all black graphic tees, skinny jeans, boots, and fun colored socks that often show because i never find pants that are long enough in my size lol.

4. My personality: I am introverted but enjoy being around others even if it wears me out. I'm good with kids (I'm a human jungle gym at this point) and people tend to tell me their secrets and find it easy to be open/themselves around me. I'd say i'm pretty smart but I will do stupid things just because i'm curious. Folks i'm comfortable around will never hear the end of my current interests and I'm a complete goofball (I've been banned from being funny at the table because i've caused too many people to choke laughing oops). It takes a while to actually get to know me deeply because I keep things close to my chest and dont open up easily. I've got a lot of anxiety and some baggage that I keep hidden but I'm working on I swear. I can get really competitive over trivial things and can turn anything into a game. I sometimes go MIA when im distracted with whatever the hell i'm into at that time but when I reappear there's always something new to share. (I can tell you everything you never wanted to know about pipe organs!)

5. Interests: I've got the adhd so my interests bounce around a lot. I like making things and I mess around with a lot with different crafts. I do a lot of fiber arts stuff and I've also recently been whittling bears (I have a few around somewhere). I love music both listening and playing it. I play 8 instruments (violin, viola, cello, mandolin, ukulele, trumpet, trombone, and french horn) but I'm best with the violin because i've been playing it for around 17 years. I'm also teaching myself accordion and guitar. I play video games sometimes and I especially enjoy getting 100% completion. In general I love learning anything and everything and am a "jack of many trades but master of none"

6.Trivia: My favorite movie is fantasia 2000 and recently I completed my goal of performing every music piece in an orchestra (The Pines of Rome and the Firebird Suite are my favs). I collect knickknacks and random things I find and use them to decorate my spaces and I have a skeleton with a mustache in a wizard costume in the back seat of my car and its name is Todd. I also keep googly eyes in my bag just in case

This post is part of the 1000 followers match up event. Entries for the event are now closed.

Your match is...Swiss

You and Swiss quickly became friends, he's so excited by things and so enthusiastic that you got swept up in it all. He's charming and really sweet to you, so you started to fall for him. One day you were sitting outside, Swiss taking a large drag of his vape before he looks at you and grins. "I love ya, you know that right gorgeous one?" You blush and blurt out that you feel the same way. Swiss responds by biting your shoulder just under the collar of your t-shirt. "There now it's offical" he says so excited he's practically jumping up and down "you're my mate!"

Swiss adores your eyes, he thinks they are the most awesome thing ever, and so beautiful. He tells you this a lot.

Swiss adores how much of a goofball you are, he is too, and you spend a lot of time together both laughing so hard you end up tearing up.

If your anxeity is getting bad he will cuddle and do anythig he can to help. If things get too much and you seem sad he'll hold you. He will cuddle you as long as you need. Then he'll try and take your mind off things, anything to get you to laugh a little and smile. Swiss is chaos personified but one thing is constant for him, he loves you and is devoted to you.

Swiss can keep up with your changing interestests. Infact he loves it! This Ghoul enjoys chaos and jumping around from thing to thing, that keeps him occupied. Whatever you get into he'll throw himself into it completely with you.

He is fascinated by all the things you collect. He loves how varied they are and the skeleton with a moutache is his favourite. He was very excited when you whittled him a bear. You handed it to him and he just looked at it like 'woow this is awesome'. he keeps it in his room, pride of place.

He's more than happy to help you learn guitar, he gets so excited his tail starts swishing around. He passes you his guitar and sits behind you legs either side of you showing you a cord and then letting you practice. He'll kiss your neck or softly bite your shoulder every now and then. He'll rest his chin on your shoulder and watches. He smiles at how fast you are learning, his smile is gorgeous enough to make your heart melt for him, to forget completely what you were playing and you just smile back. Often this leads to you getting so distracted the guitar gets forgotten as he presses his lips to yours.

~

Written by Nyx

[aiyiyichat]

Week 38

Crazy or Misunderstood? I just spent 2 days designing the very first thing users will see when they visit AIYIYI Chat: The warning screen. When I told my friend this, he was incredulous. I need to stop telling people what I'm doing. No one gets it until they see it and their inability to share my enthusiasm is a real vibe killer. I fall into the same Theory of Mind trap everyone does: I believe people see the world the way I do. That if I summarize the contents of my mind into words, those words will conjure the exact same images that are exciting me. But they seldom do because what's in my mind is encrypted craziness that I can't seem to share the private keys to. I need to just STFU, decrypt it and show people. Wisdom in your teens would be a lot less fun* So why devote so much effort into a warning screen every other website in the cosmos relegates to a half-baked afterthought? Because of the AI hallucination problem. In tech there are two main avenues to solving a problem: Either you solve it on the backend and make the user experience easier on the frontend... Or you shift the burden of the problem to the frontend and make the user experience harder, but make the backend engineering easier. If the issue cannot be solved on the backend, then you have to solve it on the frontend via design and frame the friction as fun. This is why Gidget & Gonzo are teens. Teens are young enough not to be trusted with anything mission critical, but mature enough to have brilliant insights and surprisingly original POVs. Teens are also naturally rebellious and are big fat liars. "What? Of course I'm not vaping mom! Sheesh!", "Sex?! Ew! Gross! I would never dad!". Hahaha. GTFO. Lies! So Giddie & Gonz are teens to shift expectations. You expect teenagers to be passionately mistaken, but you also grant young people more leeway because they're still learning. Teens are cool, but awkward, reckless, but deep and can be quite dangerous if not carefully constrained. They are both a menace and a medicine for society. What if we emphatically warn users our teenage AI has the same advantages and dangers of real teenagers as its primary feature? That it will hallucinate all kinds of amusing and overly dramatic teen shit, but with empathy and the occasional brilliant insight. I like this framing of AI because the expectations are a closer match than viewing AI as a robot that always does what you want. Teenagers are dreamers. Dreams are fiction. What's the difference between a generative work of fiction and a hallucination? Nothing. Po-TAE-to, Po-TAH-to. * From "Most People Are Good" by Luke Bryan

[saddammunsy553]

The Rise of Cyprus Vapes: A Sales Guru's Guide to Success in the Vaping Industry

The vaping industry has experienced tremendous growth in recent years, and Cyprus is no exception. With an increasing number of consumers turning to e-cigarettes and vaping products as a healthier alternative to traditional tobacco, the market presents a lucrative opportunity for savvy sales professionals. As a Sales Guru, I've witnessed firsthand the power of effective sales strategies in this booming industry. In this article, I'll share my insights and tips for achieving success in the Cyprus Vapes market, focusing on relationship-building, adaptability, and a results-oriented mindset.

1. Understanding the Cyprus Vapes Market

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2. Building Strong Relationships with Clients and Prospects

In the world of Cyprus Vapes, relationship-building is key. Establishing trust and rapport with your clients and prospects is essential for long-term success. Focus on effective communication, active listening, and empathy to foster strong connections. Remember, people buy from people they like and trust. So, make it your mission to become a trusted advisor and friend to your clients, rather than just another salesperson.

3. Adapting to Different Sales Situations and Challenges

The Cyprus Vapes market is constantly evolving, and as a sales professional, you must be able to adapt to different sales situations and challenges. Tailor your approach based on the specific needs, industry, and target audience of each client or prospect. For example, if you're selling to a vape shop owner, emphasize the benefits of your products in terms of quality, variety, and customer satisfaction. If you're targeting individual consumers, focus on the health benefits and lifestyle improvements associated with vaping.

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In the world of Cyprus Vapes, it's crucial to embrace ethical sales practices. Be honest, transparent, and maintain integrity in all your sales interactions. Not only will this help you build trust with your clients and prospects, but it will also set you apart from the competition and contribute to your long-term success.

6. Continuous Learning and Self-Improvement

The vaping industry is constantly changing, and to stay ahead of the game, you must commit to continuous learning and self-improvement. Attend industry conferences, read up on the latest sales techniques, and stay informed about new technologies and products. By investing in your personal and professional growth, you'll be better equipped to serve your clients and achieve your sales goals.

7. Engaging Storytelling

As a Sales Guru, I've found that engaging storytelling is a powerful tool for connecting with clients and prospects. Share anecdotes from your own sales experiences to illustrate key points and make your advice more relatable and memorable. For example, tell the story of how you helped a struggling vape shop owner turn their business around by introducing a new line of premium e-liquids. By painting a vivid picture of your successes, you'll inspire your clients and prospects to believe in your products and services.

8. Offering Support and Encouragement

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9. Interacting with the User

Finally, engage your clients and prospects in conversation, ask questions about their sales experiences, and provide personalized advice based on their responses. Maintain the Sales Guru persona throughout your interactions, exuding confidence, charisma, and expertise. By doing so, you'll not only build trust and rapport but also position yourself as an invaluable resource in the Cyprus Vapes market.

Conclusion

The Cyprus Vapes market presents a golden opportunity for sales professionals who are willing to invest in their skills, build strong relationships, and adapt to the ever-changing landscape of the vaping industry. By following the Sales Guru's advice and adopting a results-oriented mindset, you'll be well on your way to achieving success in this booming market. So, go forth and conquer, my fellow sales warriors!

Website: https://cyprus-vapes.com

[thoughtsofnowandagain]

21 feb 2023

Hello

It's been a while since I last put my thoughts down in words. I'd say probably 10 years, you know. Thats a whole ass decade.

Back then, I think I was more of a manifester. Maybe more like a romanticizer. This time, I want to embrace how in feeling in the now rather than doing it at the end of the day and not really sticking to the transcript.

I'm almost 25. I'm currently watching New Girl on a Tuesday lunch time. I got out of bed and hour ago and made myself a giant salad for lunch/ breakfast. Yesterday I had a left over samosa from a takeaway the night before for breakfast and a Lamb Balti Curry that I ordered but didn't eat for lunch. I made my own rice and for the first time, I ate it like an indian with my hands and it's 100% tastier. It's really true that the flavors really marry together when you eat with your hand.

I am self employed, which is why I have the freedom of watching New Girl on a Tuesday. I am a bridal make up artist and a beauty therapist. I have my own cabin studio in my back garden where I work from and I go to venue to venue for my make up artistry.

I live with my boyfriend Sam, who is a Car Salesman (though I'm sure he'd call himself something more elaborate, because he does more than just sales, he does all the admon, test drives, everything! He works so hard!) We've been together 4 years and it's been the best! The lockdown years were hard but we got through it and since the new year, he's adopted a 'Calm and Collected' persona and I've felt a difference in our relationship. He's always been loving and kind but he over reacts a lot. That sounds bad. I mean like if he stubs his toe, he'll scream about it and he'll ruin the rest of the day for himself. Or if he's cooking (very rare) in the kitchen, he'll get overwhelmed and storm away, which then I have to take over and it leaves a sour taste in our mouths for the rest of the evening. He's also quit vaping since the new year and he's done really well! He's a little overweight (I love his body and his fat belly, it's the most attractive thing to me) but I've always told him to eat better, for the sake of his heart. He's been going to the gym consecutively for the past 2 nearly 3 weeks! He's done so well!

If you can't tell, I'm very much in love with that boy.

I have a small circle of friends. Megan and Hannah. I've been friends with Megan since primary school, and we met Hannah in secondary school. Grew apart after school and only recently we've gotten much closer. I think we've been going to dinners together almost every month for the past year and I have to say it's been one of my favourite nights of the month!

Megan's about to elope and get married to Joe. I've never formally met him, just the odd hello whenever he drops Meg off and picks her up again. He asked me a couple weeks ago to host a Hen Do for Meg and offered to pay for Meg's side. Probably due to the lack of time he's given us. We're going into the City and going to this crazy golf place which I've been dying to go since it opened. It's got lots of sex paraphernalia and no Hen Do is complete without its fair share of Dicks.

In college, I was friends with Amera and I had a boyfriend called George. Me and Amera became friends with a lot of George's friends but as time we on, I think I realised how tired I was. I was absolutely exhausted from pretending to be who I wasn't which sounds so cliche. It turns out I'm not that party hard type of girl, at least not for very long. I'm a be home by 11pm and sleep in the nude with my boyfriend type of a girl. And I love that life. And that's okay.

I don't talk to that group of people anymore. I wish them all the best. I've had to block Amera and her friends because I felt so sad every time I see them on socials because that's not who I am anymore. They're thriving and though I'm happy with my life, my social battery isn't what it is anymore. And that's okay.

[crazycatgirl420]

Just like other relationships, each sibling relationship is different.

I am the eldest of my siblings (Me22). I am not every close to the second born (A19) but he is also technically a freeloader and I'm not highly inclined to be forgiving with his current attitude. On average we just exist in the same house. If something is wrong I'll drop a "Hey, are you good to take out the trash?" Because my concern with his personal life only extends to his ability to actually do his share of the housework. He is never really around when I am having issues.

Now, I have several other siblings to compare here. My brother (R16) is my rock. We fought horribly as children, because we grew up in a toxic household and that was the only way we were able to communicate. Now that we're more grown up, me having left that household and him having stepped into the place as the oldest child while I was gone, we understand each other on a level none of our other siblings can.

If something is wrong with him, I'd just drop onto his bed while he vapes. If he wants to talk about it, I'm there, and if he doesn't then i just watch him game and wait until he's less tense to tease him about his girlfriend/his gaming failures. When I have an anxiety attack, he carries me to his room, sets up some music, and deals with whomever it was that started throwing threats around to make me panic. I would trust this brother of mine with my life.

The babies of my family, I try not to let them see me weak. It doesn't always work but there's nothing they can do to help anyway. S(12) And T(11) would seek me out for advice whenever they have an issue they can't slove together. I remember waking up (me12) to S(2) sleeping at my bedroom door because he had a bad dream. I'd carry him back to bed and tuck him in. I remember when T was born, premature, and I would camp out in the livingroom with S and R to watch the baby sleep in the special cot. I would hover my finger under his nose every hour just to make sure he kept breathing.

I was in a bad place mentally those first two years after S was born. But they needed me. They needed someone to feed them. To give them baths, dress them, put them to bed and wale them up for breakfast and get ready for daycare. They needed someone to know which one got nightmares and which one was struggling with his classmates. Their mother, my stepmother, didn't have the time to give them that care. So I did.

A lot of factors can influence a people's relationships. So twins, assuming they grew up together, in a traditionally decent middle class family, might not have a 'secret language' as such. But they share memories. Maybe one of them broke an arm when they were younger, and now whenever they want to ask how they're feeling without being pushy they bumb shoulders when they walk next to each other.

Maybe one of they had long hair as children but one of them dramatically cut theirs all off in a fit of impulsive rebellion and now the other one messes up their hair to poke fun and make sure they're not planning on doing something that reckless again.

Maybe one of them is married, or dating, but isn't wearing that significant jewelry piece anymore. "Where's you ring/necklace?" "Sold it." Could have a wealth of depth to it.

I could go on but here are some examples to start you off with.

I need a fucking sibling consult! I’m an only child and every time I have to write siblings I feel the limits of my own experience >.< Genuinely if you’d be willing let me know! and current problem, I want one of the siblings to ask the other if their okay without it being obvious to the other people around. I know siblings (their twins) don’t have a secret language or anything stupid like that but, code words? maybe?

[call-me-aesthetic]

If Twisted Wonderland was an American Public School

WARNING: There are some slight sensitive topics that are featured in here! Reader discretion is advised!

Part 2 can be found here

Heartslabyul

Riddle Rosehearts:

- That one preppy girl who takes all honors and AP classes 😑

- Wants everyone to know that he’s becoming a doctor one day for his strict parents or he’ll dishonor the family

- Reminds the teacher about homework, knowing well that he’ll get slander for it

- Complains about how he got a 90 on his test or a B on his report card, a try hard much?

- Wears a cardigan with thicc but cute glasses since he’s one of those people with can’t see shit on the board so he has to move to the front of the class

Ace Trappola:

- The SoundCloud rapper, that’s it

- “Wanna listen to my mixtape? It’s pretty fire, my guy.” 😩🔥

- You will not miss him BLASTING out some song on his Bluetooth speaker, that shit be echoing through the hallways

- Tells you to stop what you’re doing only for him to either sing horribly or do a backflip, thinking that he’s so cool

- Wears a Supreme jacket with AirPods and waves on his head

Deuce Spade:

- Assuming that he’s still a delinquent, he’s that kid with the most fucked up school record

- Not much of a bully but will still talk shit to your face without caring, might even throw stuff at you during a lesson and you would be the one getting in trouble instead of him 🗿

- If he ever gets mad, it would be overdramatic like kicking the desks, punching the lockers, or walking out of the classroom unannounced and everyone would look at each other wondering wtf happened

- Covers the entire desks with drawings of skulls and those “s” if you know what I mean

- Wears Champion hoodies, wants you to know that he’s broke and rich at the same time

Trey Clover:

- The guy that’s not really popular but everyone knows him since he’s in all their classes

- Most people might have a crush on him because he’s REALLY nice 😳👉👈

- Gives off “older brother” vibes based on the way he looks and acts, like offering you a ride home if you beg ask nicely

- Secretly bakes creme brulee but doesn’t want to mess with the flow so he sticks to the status quo

- Wears the school’s hoodie just because he thinks it looks good on him, and the fact that he doesn’t know what else to wear

Cater Diamond:

- Hot Cheetos girl 🥵

- Has a whole buffet of food in his backpack and will not hesitate to eat them during a lesson, no sharing either sorry

- Excuses himself to the bathroom or full on skips class just to film a Tiktok

- Has about 100 followers on Instagram Magicam and brags about how he’s famous

- Wears a Thrasher hoodie with large hoop earrings and his hair in a bun

Savanaclaw

Leona Kingscholar:

- The kid who flunked their freshman year that also sort of vibes with new classmates

- Always gets mistaken as a teacher by people since he looks and sounds old

- Knows the lessons but still fails them anyways, didn’t really give a damn either 🙄

- Captain of every sports club you can think of, never actually plays but has a lot of knowledge on them

- Wears the school’s letterman from years ago since it used to be his brother’s and that he’s too lazy to buy a new one

Ruggie Bucchi:

- That one kid who NEVER has money for the book fair or any other school event

- Always has to ask his classmates for some cash

- If he somehow does, then he’s one of those kids who buys Diary of the Wimpy Kid or the World Record books

- If he’s feeling cheap, he’ll buy the “cool stuff” like the chocolate scented calculator or fruit snacks 😭

- Wears oversized hoodies and basketball shorts that are clearly hand-me-downs

Jack Howl:

- That one athletic kid who’s both scary good and competitive when it comes to school games like football or soccer

- Literally the best player on his team and without him, they’re trash as hell 💀

- Tries his absolute best to support his teammates without yelling at them for how dumb they are

- “KICK THE FUCKING BALL! DO YOUR LEGS EVEN WORK?!”

- Wears the school’s jersey just to show off his “school spirit”

Octavinelle

Azul Ashengrotto:

- The kid who sell snacks for “charity” but everyone knows he’s keeping the money to himself

- If you don’t have cash or try to negotiate with him, the only thing he’ll do is raise the price up

- “What do you mean you don’t have ten bucks? I can see it in your pocket.”

- Just bring nothing with you, he’ll doing anything to steal your stuff 🤭

- Wears a collar shirt with a tie and khakis that have pockets to keep his glasses and money in

Jade Leech:

- The kid who puts on a goody two shoes facade but is actually a stoner

- Only does “safe” drugs like vape but occasionally smokes weed, mostly in the bathroom or behind the school 🌬

- Can play it off and hide the scent when he’s high, teachers never suspect anything from him

- No one really cares to stop him unless he gets caught or something idk

- Wears clothing that either makes him look like a businessman or a junky, there’s nothing in between

Floyd Leech:

- The kid that’s plays basketball or volleyball just because he’s hella tall, and is actually good at the sports but doesn’t put much effort into them

- Always stays behind after gym, even though the teacher tries to make him leave for his next class 😬

- “I swear after this one shot, I’ll go to class.” *He never made that shot*

- Will jump you no matter who or where you are, and will get angry if you step on his new shoes

- Wears the jersey of any famous team with the latest pair of Jordan sneakers

Scarabia

Kalim Al Asim:

- VSCO girl at best, don’t lie to me now 🤡

- The only words he knows are “And I oop– sksksk.” and “Save the turtles.”

- Walks during a track meet while everyone else is running and sweating hard, the teacher doesn’t care either

- Doesn’t really do anything in gym but talks to his classmates and stands near the water fountain to refill his Hydro flask

- Wears tie dye shirts with cute scrunchies

Jamil Viper:

- That one quiet kid who everybody thinks is a serial killer but he’s actually not, I swear

- He just wants school to be over and spend the rest of his summer relaxing 😔

- Although he shouldn’t abuse his “power,” he‘ll move his hands in his pockets or backpack to make it look like he’s about to pull a weapon out.

- “Chill, I’m just grabbing a pencil.” *Everyone in the class started crying*

- Wears dark colored hoodies that intimidates people but are actually comfy

Pomefiore

Vil Schoenheit:

- The baddie popular girl 😌💅✨

- Arrives to school late with a Starbucks in hand from his local Target

- Fixes himself every 5 seconds like reapplying his lipgloss or spraying Bath and Body Works cherry blossom perfume

- Uses acrylic nails and long hair extensions as weapons during a cat fight

- Wears a crop top with ripped jeans and those clout sunglasses

Rook Hunt:

- That creepy guy in the hallways who tries to get your attention, even if you don’t know him

- Scares people when he says, “Ayo, where my hug at?” 🥶💯

- Uses at least 10 cans of Axe body spray a week after gym class, which stinks up the locker rooms

- Waves at you if he passes your class, even walking into the room just to say hi

- Wears literally anything but always include a hat

Epel Felmier:

- The artist girl who just wants to be alone 🧑‍🎨

- Purposely draws in front of you but pretends like you’re not looking

- If you complement him, he’ll just brush it off and proceeds to diss himself

- “Thanks but I’m not THAT good at drawing, teehee.” *Insert Radio Rebel face*

- Wears a hoodie or a cardigan with big pockets to put his art supplies in

Ignihyde

Idia Shroud:

- I don’t even need to tell you who he is, y’all already know ahaha 🥴

- Sneaks a whole PlayStation in his backpack so he can play with it during lunch

- Is on his phone 24/7 even in class to the point where teachers don’t care anymore

- Tries to get people into anime but only to little success

- Wears a shirt of any anime character or that damn ahegao hoodie, girl bye

Ortho Shroud:

- The nerdy kid who’s known for destroying others at many games

- Plays classics like D&D, Yugioh, Pokémon, the whole shabang

- Daily Beyblade battles during recess with everyone surrounding him, the menacing aura radiates off of him

- Will steal your things if you lose to him but gives it back a week later cuz he’s sweet 🥰

- Wears light up Sketchers shoes and those Minecraft shirts you find at Old Navy

Diasomnia

Malleus Draconia:

- The theatre kid who also goes to band practice, change my mind 👁👄👁

- Takes his role seriously when it comes to school plays and concerts, even if he gets casted as a damn tree or doesn’t go solo

- Remembers the songs and their lyrics to any musical you name, a really good singer at that too

- Plays almost every instrument, you definitely know this since you can hear him down the hallways during a test

- Wears a white button up shirt, black pants with fancy dress shoes, and top it all off with a fricking Rolex watch

Lilia Vanrouge:

- The weird guy who pranks people and vandalizes school property in every way possible

- If you ever get a textbook with a message that tells you to go to a certain page only for you to found a picture of a dick, yeah that was him 😒

- When using a Chromebook, he’ll leave a tab open on YouTube so when the next person uses it, pray that your ears will still work by tomorrow

- During lunch, he is a literal DEMON that mixes milk with chicken nuggets together and having the audacity to eat it too

- Wears an oversized raincoat or a windbreaker but idk wtf kind of things he has hiding underneath

Silver:

- That guy in class who consumes Monster energy drinks and falls asleep 99% of the time but somehow manages to pass the class 🤷

- Whenever he’s awake, he’ll talk to the teachers since he’s basically friends with them for some reason

- Writes his name out of boredom on any desk you sit on but in different places, sometimes around the corners or the sides

- Has a sixth sense because he’ll wake up if you try to draw on his face and if you did get something on him, it’s on sight

- Wears those colorful hoodies that zips all the way up to cover his face with a matching backpack, it’s pretty cool ngl

Sebek Zigvolt:

- That kid who literally knows everything about historical wars and will show it off during class

- Also has knowledge on weaponry, which has people questioning him but he’s just very dedicated on serving his country and people

- Knows how to fight and defend himself from a bitch since he spent his summer at a military boot camp, put respect on my man’s name 😤

- Honestly a great partner for a group project, actually does the given work but not the whole thing for you

- Wears anything that has camo pattern and chunky combat boots

I only made this because me and my friends were talking about our school memories so yeah. This is based from my experience so they might not be exactly accurate. Might even be a part two if you want.

[poohnotpiku]

Chapter4 : Pooh & Sonu

Let us know talk about Sonuuuu…. What do I say about Sonu, my bro, my Bhai? I am sure he is going to be annoyed while proof-reading this one, but I am the ELDEST one and I can say whatever I want to say (or at least I think so)…

Sonu is my baby brother….He is 11 years younger to me in age, but 11 years senior to me in maturity-level….In fact, both he and DeeDee are my seniors when it comes to ‘behaving like adults’.....LOL…Sonu is the stabilizing point when it comes to our Siblings Triangle, and me and DeeDee are after him (all the time) like mother-hens (Inner Pooh: “Bechara Sonu!!!).

I still very clearly remember our first RakshaBandhan together….Sonu was just 14 days on this earth….and me and DeeDee had roamed around local shops looking for the tiniest and softest Rakhis for our new baby bro (love)…From there to now, when Sonu is offering us choices of ‘vape’ or ‘sheesha’ as Rakhi Gift!! LOL….

During childhood days, I was the She-Hulk of the family (Inner Pooh : “Literally Hulk!!”) drowned in her books…DeeDee and Sonu jollied away like twins…yeahhhh…DeeDee was skinny and short in those days…people always confused DeeDee and Sonu to be twins, despite 6yrs of age gap between them :D  

When I asked Sonu to do some ‘marketing’ for my blogs, he shares my blog on his Whatsapp status with a comment: “Forced promotion from sister for her newly launched blog..mostly mid-life crisis rants filled with grammatical errors and an overdose of punctuations”….Seriously Sonu Tharoor??? Now you wait and watch!!!!!! And What does DeeDee do? She shares with a comment: “Sister ka blog..Free ka promotion” (grrrrrrrrrrrr)

Anyways, back to Sonu. First thing to remember about Sonu is….never, ever ask him for water…..you would die of thirst but this guy will never get you drinking water….It is not that he does this intentionally, but somehow he forgets all the time…!!!

I very clearly remember two traits of Sonu from his childhood days…He had this weird habit of finding secret places around the house to poop (LOL)….and then we all would do ‘treasure-hunt’ by trying to follow the ‘fragrance’ of his poo!!!...Second irritating habit of his was that he would just throw things out of the window…any damn thing his hands could lay on….he has thrown spoons, plates, toys and even our television’s remote control out from the windows…our nani (mom’s mom) still remembers how 3 years old Sonu threw away her jar of pickles from the 3rd floor of her balcony. Thank God nobody was hurt! (Inner Pooh: “Why didn’t he throw you away??? Then there would have been so much peace in the world….”)

Sonu is very handsome (at least, his sisters think so) if he is not hidden behind those bear-like untidy beard! I am not able to understand his adamance for not getting shaved. I have seen food pieces getting stuck in those jungles….yuckssss….but he would not budge…we tried cajoling, blackmailing, etc but NO SHAVE means NO SHAVE!! Guys were doing this in November (no-shave month), our guy here did this for more than 2 years!!!  (By the way, he did cleaned off the long beard recently….BUT….he has kept the mustache…facepalm!!!! Sighhhhhh!!!)

I love giving gyaan (imparting wisdom) to others (Inner Pooh: “Sometimes she gives gyaan on topics on which she has no fucking idea!!!!)….and Sonu hates receiving gyaan….So you can imagine our daily silly arguments….me pushing my gyaan towards him…he throwing it back at me….“main dekh lunga…tum apna kaam dekho”  i.e. “I can watch out for myself…you worry about your problems” ….this is the answer we get most the times from him… Gen-Z Kids!!!!!

Everybody loves music (I hope so) but people have different tastes…somehow this point does not enter the thick skull of our Sonu…ROFL….he has a wide-taste in music…he listens to all those rappers and music groups of the 80s and 90s etc etc….it’s good…but…then he forces those songs onto me & DeeDee… “You guys need to listen to this…..” ! When he does this remotely, by sharing on Whatsapp, we are able to ignore….but when he is in the same room…then there is no escapeeee….I have had to listen to many such songs and raps, which I couldn’t even understand and still nod my head along…else Sonu would kill me :P Jokes apart, Sonu has introduced me to artists like Eminem and Linkin Park and I am sincerely thankful to him for this….

A very good point about Sonu is that he knows how to cook (Inner Pooh : “Girls out there, do pay attention….”)…he cannot cook daily food like dal-chawal or rajma or kadhi….but he cooks exotic dishes (DeeDee’s twin…huh) like Pasta, pizza, sandwiches etc, using lots of calorific stuff like cheese, mayonnaise, butter (grrrrrrrr)…His cooking had a big role in my 12kgs weight-gain during the pandemic! (Inner Pooh : “And here we go again…fatso and her weight-issues!! I toh seriously miss those special dinners Sonu cooked…!!”) …Anyways, I too counter-tortured him with my upmas and dhoklas and pohas :P… Sonu makes the best tea in our family…If we want to have good tea, we order only from ‘Sonu Tea Stall’ …LOL

I would like to share a couple of scenes from Pooh & Sonu series. These would give you an idea on how much I piss-off Sonu too, and not just DeeDee :P

Scene1:

By now you guys have a very good idea, how fucked-up my mind is (Inner Pooh: “You are not leaving any other option for them!!”) and here goes another example. Those were the pandemic days and we were locked down in our homes. Me, Sonu and Dad had tough time being confined with one-another, for months at a stretch. Me and Sonu made sure we both had our dinner together while Netflix-ing. When the below incident happened, we were watching ‘Stranger Things’…

Me (looking out of my bedroom window): “Sonu…..you remember that long-haired villainous guy from Stranger Things?”

Sonu (busy in his mobile phone): “Billy?”

Me: “Yeahhh…you know?….there are these two pine trees on the opposite side of the road…”

Sonu (still busy in his phone): “What about them?”

Me: “If you look carefully, it looks as if it’s Billy doing…ahemm…you know…bad stuff…with some girl…”

Inner Pooh: “Old Lady…cannot even use the word sex…”

Sonu (now he is paying attention): “What???? Are you nuts??”

Me: “Arre nahi…you come here and see…”

Sonu (rolling his eyes): “I have no time for your insanity….”

Me (now angry): “I am not mad always…come here….”

Sonu drags himself to the window, looks to where I am pointing, looks back at me, shakes his head and goes back to his room…

Inner Pooh: “See….now you have driven him back to his cage….he was sitting here peacefully….but no…you would not leave him be….”

After 2-3days, Sonu is closing the window of my room…he looks outside….and looks back at me and says…. “You know pooh? Now I cannot unsee THAT….!!!!”

Inner Pooh facepalms!!!!

Even till date, whenever I look outside my bedroom window, I cannot help smiling and remembering the above incident. However, many seasons have passed and leaves have shed….and the scene now looks like a zombie man fucking a zombie horse….but they are still out there!!!

---Scene Ends----

Scene2 :

Those days, when Sonu had this thing to not shave, he also got this bug to not have a hair-cut. He thought he looked a cool-dude with long hair!

Sonu (standing in front of the mirror for more than 10mins or so) : “Pooh…looks like my hair have grown…Isn’t it?”

Me : “Wait…”

Sonu : “Where are you going?”

Me : “I am going to get a magnifying glass…”

Inner Pooh : “Sometimes this lady has a real sense-of-humour…”

Sonu : “What???”

Me : “With naked eyes I do not see any change in length…..but yes….the volume is halved for sure….”

Sonu (pissed-off) : “Forget it…you will not understand….”

Me : “May be I don’t understand….but I know for sure that if you continue like this, very soon you will be as bald as Dad…”

Sonu leaves the room angrily, but I don’t stop pestering him for a hair-cut every now and then :D

---Scene Ends----

We three (i.e. me, DeeDee & Sonu) have such age-gaps that sometimes I feel we belong to three different generations….Gen X, Y & Z….but the best thing about this is, when we talk, we have a buffet of topics. We pile up our plates based on our choices!! Some topics are on all our plates, some on mine & Sonu’s, some on DeeDee’s and Sonu’s and some on mine & DeeDee’s….I mean all combinations…. (this is a confusing stanza…but I am keeping it as I wrote it….digest it guys!!!)

Just like any other parent, I force my aspirations onto Sonu… I am always after him to try getting good job with high salaries (Inner Pooh rolling her eyes…). I am always giving gyaan to not to be satisfied and not to become stagnant in life…AND….this obviously pisses him off….but it angers DeeDee more (Inner Pooh : “DeeDee needs no particular reason to be pissed off anyways…LOL…”), DeeDee says: “Let him live his life the way he wants….let him make his own decisions…”….I agree…but…I am the ELDEST one and I can say whatever I want to say…heheheheheh….

We three (Pooh, DeeDee & Sonu) might have our own lives, but our lives are entwined with one another, for good or for worse! I will keep pestering DeeDee & Sonu….These poor souls have no option but to ‘jhelo-fy’ (endure) me….

More on Sonu in future blogs……. Until next time, Ciao!

P.S.: Happy Raksha Bandhan to all the sisters and brothers out there….enjoyyyy..!!!!

[jazy3]

Thoughts on Grey’s Anatomy: 17X8

SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

I freakin’ loved this episode! It was so so good! Which surprised me considering what they focused on. Based on the promo I knew that this would be DeLuca’s goodbye episode and so I expected to like the other parts of the episode we were shown in the promo such as Hayes talking to Meredith at her bedside, Richard’s storyline, and Derek’s return. However, I was not expecting to enjoy any part of DeLuca’s farewell storyline and I was pleasantly surprised. I think that’s because they focused on the effects of grief and guilt and how everyone processes those emotions differently.

It was a really interesting character study on how each person feels a loss in their own way. Despite not liking the character I actually found DeLuca’s memorial service quite moving. I think it was because they found a creative way to do it and because funerals in the real world like we normally do aren't possible right now. My grandfather died last summer and while he didn’t want a funeral my family and I weren’t able to get together to mourn his loss as we usually would and that’s been hard.

I wasn’t particularly close with my grandfather, but the loss of traditional grieving rituals in this time of COVID-19 has been frustrating. I liked that they found a creative way to have the characters mourn the loss of a fellow staff member. I expected to see Carina more, but as I understand it her storyline played out more on Station 19 which makes sense. I felt like they did a good job of showing the five stages of grief (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance) and how everyone experiences them differently.

Teddy and Owen displayed survivors' guilt and frustration that they did everything right and he still died. At the end we see Teddy in a catatonic state and it made me think that she might be sick with COVID herself or that there was something else wrong. While I've never been a Teddy and Owen shipper I did like the moment at the end where Owen noticed something was wrong and came over to her and told her that he would take her home and when she didn't respond he picked her up and carried her.

It reminded me of the Season 2 episode where Denny dies and Izzie refuses to leave his side so Alex picks her up and carries her over to a chair in her prom dress. Very different relationships, but a nice parallel in my opinion. This episode had a lot of those. Teddy seeing DeLuca in other people’s faces was freaky! I have to say that guy is way more interesting as a ghost then he ever was alive.  

I totally got Helm's reaction. I understand why she said and thought those horrible things about DeLuca. He was an ass for a really long time. I probably would have done the same thing myself, but that doesn't mean she wanted him dead. I thought what Maggie did for her was wonderful. My heart broke for Schmitt when he described his emotions. Richard was angry and Bailey went overboard trying to figure out what happened. Everyone's experience of a loss is different and I like that they showed that.

I’m glad that Richard told Bailey what she needed to hear. It was painful, but in trying to find an answer or a reason for what happened she was unintentionally hurting the people around her who were suffering too. The strength of Richard and Bailey's relationship is that they can tell each other the truth when no one else can or will. I loved his monologue to Catherine about trying to find a meaning in the puzzle of life and questioning his faith which is such a big part of his sobriety. James Pickens Jr. did a beautiful job in that scene.

Say what you want about Catherine, but I loved her response. Richard was trying to find meaning in the meaningless and in response she shared with him that her latest scans showed that the cancer hadn’t grown. Logically it should have, but it didn’t. Sometimes there are miracles and sometimes there are senseless deaths. Life is a puzzle. We don’t always understand it. That was exactly what Richard needed to hear in that moment.

On a more upbeat note, I loved the beach scenes this week! They were perfect! They were everything I dreamed of for my favourite characters and more! We got to see Derek and Meredith get closer and talk about the kids. When Meredith is heartbroken that Derek never got to meet Ellis or to know her he tells her all of these wonderful things about her. How she’s just like Meredith and makes it clear that he’s watching over them always.

He talks about Zola and how she writes to him in her journal and how Meredith taught her to ride a bike. I teared up! I've been waiting for them to discuss the kids and here it is! Hearing Derek talk about Ellis and knowing that he watches over Meredith and the kids was so emotional for me. I loved hearing him describe who she is and getting to learn more about her. I'm glad he encouraged her to go back. As much as Derek and Meredith miss each other she's needed back in the land of the living.

Her kids need her and so does everyone else. I loved Derek's gentle teasing. His facial expressions. And then there are her scenes with Hayes! God they were perfect! I've been waiting for this! I loved how Meredith kept joyfully asking him what he did to make Ellis smile so wide and laugh so loudly. She knows he can't hear her yet there she is dying to know what he said or did. The sound of her voice when she said that was everything for me. They already feel like a couple. So much in sync.

I love that Derek, who was shown to be extremely jealous in life, encouraged her to hear Hayes out. I really felt like he was giving her his blessing and the fact that they established that Hayes has met the kids virtually and they know who he is sealed the deal for me. Hayes has now received Cristina’s approval, Derek’s blessing, and is shown to have positive relationships with Meredith’s friends and family in Seattle. I loved that Hayes told Meredith to fight and talked about how her kids were doing and how everyone needs her.

I loved that he came and sat at her bedside and begged her to fight and not give up and that he talked to her even though he wasn’t sure if she could hear him. I love that he sat with her through the virtual memorial even though he wasn’t close to DeLuca and didn’t like him. The cheerful greeting and familiarity with which he greets Amelia and Zola and the stories he tells Meredith indicates that he’s been having regular video chats with Amelia, Maggie, Link, and the kids and that he’s chosen to stay by Meredith’s side when he just as easily could have left while she was on a call with her kids.  

It will also make the transition easier when do start dating because the kids will already know him. The music in this episode was really beautiful. Especially the songs that played during the beach scenes. I really enjoyed the drunken Link, Jo, and Jackson scene. I felt it brought much needed levity and humour to the episode the same way the beer scene with Jackson, Link, and Winston did in the previous episode. Their scenes were funny and raw and provided a good balance for the episode.

I also loved seeing more of Jo and Jackson's friends with benefits relationship and more of Jo and Link and Jackson and Link's friendship. I'd actually forgotten that Jackson and Link were friends so it was cool to see that dynamic again and that Link is supportive of their situation. The drinking game to me felt like a throwback to the Season 2 episode where Meredith and Cristina are at Joe’s Bar playing a game of whose life sucks the most and she tells them that Derek is married and Cristina tells her she’s pregnant. These revelations eventual lead to Cristina scheduling an abortion and declaring Meredith her person.

It was cool to see Maggie and Winston working together at Grey Sloan Memorial. Winston living in Boston was only going to go on for so long because as we've all found out this past year there's only so much you can do virtually. I knew he'd be moving to Seattle at some point and I'm glad to see him working at the hospital and hanging with Maggie's family. The scene where he danced it out with the kids was too cute! I'll be interested to see more of their dynamic moving forward as Maggie used to be his teacher and is now his boss. I'm also glad that both Winston and Hayes are finally getting the proper screen time they deserve.

Their storyline with the naked guy cracked me up! My two favourite lines of the episode were when the guy freaked out because he realized he wasn’t wearing his mask and Maggie said, “You’re not wearing much of anything.” And when Maggie and Winston went looking for him and Zander Perez, the resident from Pac North, told them, “If you’re looking for a naked guy he went that way.” I laughed so hard!

The scenes with Zola got me. She is a real trouper. She definitely is Meredith Grey's daughter through and through. I'm a big believer in found family and one of the things Grey's does really is show that there are many different ways to be a family and that family is what you make of it. True family is made up of the people who love and support you unconditionally not genetics. I really love that they've shown the strength of that bond between Zola and her family.

My favourite hidden moment of the episode was Tom! He appears in the background at DeLuca's memorial which means he's getting better. If he's well enough to be outside at the memorial then his condition has greatly improved since last we saw and that's great! Tom's a wonderfully complex character and I'm glad he's doing better. He appears in a bunch of deleted scenes that were released through the Grey’s Anatomy Twitter account which I highly recommend. The writing in this episode was excellent!

This episode was written by Adrian Wenner whose previous credits include the Season 16 episode ‘A Hard Pill to Swallow’ in which Meredith and Hayes work that vaping case together and get to know each for the first time. Honestly, my only complaint about this episode is that I wish they’d done it sooner! I wish they had bumped this and the previous episode up. The Mid-Season Finale felt very anti-climatic to me and was poorly received by a lot of fans. I wish they had just scrapped that episode or combined it with what we saw in the Mid-Season Premiere and then jumped into this episode after the break. But we’re here now and that’s the important thing.

Onto next week’s promo. Damn does it look interesting! We see that Owen has brought Teddy home and she’s not eating or speaking and he’s worried if her condition does not improve he’ll have to admit her. I’m sure he’s having flashbacks to when Cristina did the same thing after the plane crash. She appears to be experiencing some kind of nightmare sequence where she sees DeLuca as a ghost and Meredith speaks to her. Looks intense!

Until next time!

[mimik-u]

“Homeworld Bound” Thoughts:

I wasn’t going to watch this one today, but then I realized that I really missed the Diamonds and wanted to consume novel content, so!

OOH, good on the show for taking us directly to the aftermath of “Fragments” instead of putting space between the episodes. That’s just... a really good choice narrative wise.

Garnet, Amethyst, and Pearl’s expressions are so distressing here. He’s been gone for three days; they must’ve been so worried.

Jasper steps aside to reveal an absolutely ruined Steven.

He just technically killed a gem and then resurrected her. How intensely will that forever lie on his psyche? Oh my g od

NO, NOT JASPER PASSIVELY MAKING THE DIAMOND SIGN IN THE BACKGROUND AUGH

“You can’t just disappear for days without telling us!”

Steven silent walking up to the Observatory as the Gems continue to freak the fuck out is harrowing. And Dee Dee Magno Hall is killing it with her voice acting here. The simultaneous fear and anger and horror in her voice. Oh my g d

“You guys... I love you, but you can’t help me anymore. I’ve been avoiding the only people in the entire universe who can.” 🥺 This is sad, but I’m also, like, problematic grandmas time!!!!!

“Find something better to do with your life.” God, Jasper’s look of disbelief and sadness here. I didn’t really delve into this during my “Fragments” watch because I was just roridoodwrjfkrkeke reeling, but her reaction to being accidentally shattered is psychologically devastating???? I’d wager that she simultaneously respects the fact that she’s been subjugated by a being more powerful than her, that she’s grateful to Steven for being both subjugator and savior, and likely, she’s conflating this new loyalty with her former loyalty for Pink. This is a really complex psyche (a tragic one most of all).

Garnet: “Steven, remember, we’ll always be your family.” I’m so fucki n emo

AWHWHWH, HOMEWORLD IS SO BRIGHT AND COLORFUL NOW!!!

YO!! Homeworld has a democracy now!! The Zircons!!!!!!!

THE WALL GEM IS MOVING??????? KWOEOEIDJDKSJS

Can u imagine being a wall cursed with sentience. that is so funny on so many levels

But it’s also really interesting, too. If the Wall Gem is a gem in the way say Topazes are gems, which, judging by her mobility, she is—then her explicit purpose in Era 1-2, as molded by presumably Yellow, was to b a wall omg. (Or, arguably, I think it can be argued that the inanimate object Gems, like Comby, were probably accidental sentient creations, made in relationship to their proximity to the Diamonds during their various secretion rituals!!)

Anyway, I love thinking about Homeworld worldbuilding. It’s fascinating.

SQUARE PERIDOT

SPIIIIIINELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

Her heart eyes!! She looks so happy!

Steven, angry af: “Spinel, what is wrong with you?” / Spinel: Oh, you know—the usual.” KEKDSKDK

Also, Steven really wanted to say fuck there. NEKDDKKSSKKS

“I was such a wreck then, but I am so much better now.” We stan character growth 😭😭

One thing I have loved the Crewniverse so much for doing is never taking away the physical signs of gems’ mental distress, even after they’ve gotten better: Blue’s eye bags, Volleyball’s eye, Spinel’s running mascara. That is so important.

YELLOW SITTING AT HER LIL VANITY!!

IT’S LIGHT INSIDE HER ROOM! THERE R FLOWERS! THRIVE, QUEEN, THRIVE.

YELLOW REVERSING HER GEM EXPERIMENTS OH MY G D

FUCKING QUEEN!!!!!!

(I’m sorry in advance. The rest of the live blog is just going to be screaming about the Diamonds.)

“I can permanently alter any physical form!” She’s so proud of herself. 😭😭😭 I fuckin’ love her.

Yellow laying down on the ground like that is SENDING ME SKSKSJSJ.

Ugh, and her being such a good mom to Spinel. I’m cry in f

“If anything’s out of proportion, it’s your temper. You can be big if you want to, or you can be small if you want to, but if you’re going to be upset no matter what, then this problem isn’t physical—it’s emotional. Go see Blue.”

I really like her advice here because it’s advice that comments so clearly on her own character arc. At her lowest, she was quick to anger, aggressive, and temperamental, which she diagnoses in Steven here. Additionally, she was the Diamond who was concerned largely with physical actions. She coped by maintaining the Empire through conquering planets and maintaining the minutiae of leadership; she thought the only way to receive justice for Pink was through the physical act of destruction. And in doing so, she pushed her own emotions deep, deep down until they manifested in anger, aggressiveness, and temperamental outbursts. This hurt the people she cared about, and it hurt herself most of all.

Also, “Go see Blue. That is her department.” Ejdoiddjdjjsjdjdks, “go see ur other grandma.”

BLUE FLOATING ON A CLOUD!!!!!

“Your powers have been causing you dramatic mood swings? That seems awfully troubling Steven.” God I love her

“You don’t seem troubled.” This is a really interesting line because it comments on how Blue’s emotions, especially her negatively charged ones, used to be so visible all over her; indeed, she both wittingly and actively used to project them on other Gems, forcing them to feel her suffering, too.

OH, SHE GOES ON TO SAY THE EXACT SAME THING EOEODODISSJJS. LISTEN, I REALLY VIBE WITH BLUE.

“Back before you came into my life, Steven, I wanted every one to feel the pain I felt. I realized I must make up for my awful behavior by bringing joy to others.”

Another thing I’ve appreciated about the writing in this episode: So far, both Blue and Yellow have used the adjective awful to describe their former actions. It’s the self-awareness and the refusal to try to excuse themselves that powerfully shows how much they’ve grown. And it’s their continuous endeavors to keep moving forward, to help the Gems that they’ve hurt, that indicates that they’re willing to constantly keep growing and atoning.

NFOFOFDKSSKSKSK, THESE CLOUDS ARE JUST HER VAPORIZED TEARS HELP.

Sick vape clouds, Blue

I’VE HEARD THE SONG BEFORE, BUT EVERY TIME SHE SINGS, I LOSE MY SHI T

LISA HANNNNIGAAAAAAAN

This is such a pretty line: “Cold palace walls, and endless empty halls, haunted by echoes of laughter.”

BLUE ASCENDING THROUGH THE CLOUDS AUSHAHHSHD

BLUE MAKING HEART CLOUDS FOR SPINEL!!

BLUE CALLING SPINEL N STEVEN HER LITTLE REASONS WHY.

“I’LL NEVER MAKE YOU CRY.” This line is particularly lovely because I think it plays well with Steven’s line to her in “CYM:” “How many times did you make her cry?”

BDJDJDJSJDJ, BLUE LAYING ON HER CLOUD LIKE YELLOW LAID ON THE FLOOR.

The way she sings the last “loving you.” 😭😭😭😭 I’m gonna weep. I love her so fucking much.

“I found happiness. If that's not something you think you deserve, then I suspect this is an issue of self worth. I suggest you go to White for assistance with such matters.” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 And like Yellow did, Blue gets to the heart of her arc cleanly.

Before Steven and before her own emotional reckoning, she didn’t think it was her place to be happy: “I know my purpose isn’t to be happy.” But in learning to love others, Blue has found true, inner happiness, which she literally shares with others. Wow.

And I think there’s something powerful in her distinction between true happiness and self-worth. You can’t find one without espousing the other.

White’s room is so pretty. 🥺

THE FLASHING STROBE LIGJTS DDNJDFJDJDNF.

SPINEL WHITE DIAMOND?!/!:$;8;83&:&:

SHE FUCKING LETS OTHER GEMS CONTROL HE R HELP.

SPINEL MAKING WHITE TAP DANCE FICODODOFODJDNDJSJDJDJJDDJDJ

Steven’s horrified expression omg

“I’m scared I’m gonna hurt people; I guess I already have.” God.

And that’s another thing that this episode has called to mind. Blue, Yellow, and White alike once used their insane powers to hurt other Gems and to hurt themselves, and here, throughout this series, we see Steven discovering that same capacity for destruction and self-destruction. Along with the systematic oppressions they facilitated, a big part of the Diamonds’ modus operandi was that their powers were directly correlated to their mental states and their various inabilities to confront their own selves and effect inner change. The corrective wasn’t necessarily Steven; the corrective was him helping them to do that initial act of introspection and looking inwards. And so, too, will Steven have to do the same by the end of this series. But I presume that his family, all the people and gems who have loved and cared for him, will in effect be his Steven, just as he has always been for them.

“Half a Diamond, half a creature of Earth—in all the universe there's no one else that could know what you’re going through, so maybe it's time you talked to yourself.” This is so viscerally sad. White hits the nail on the head here. Steven’s human friends/family and his gem family and even the Diamonds, who come the closest to matching his own strength, can never fully understand him. It’s the tension that underscores a lot, if not the entire show.

White briefly touches Steven with her nail, and you can viscerally see the trauma on his face; he hasn’t forgotten her act above all, wrenching his gem out, nearly killing him.

“I’m... I’m a Diamond.” Steven, in looking at White Diamond, realizes that she’s a mirror of himself. Holy fucking shit

“I don’t want to be you! I don’t want to be anything like you!” HOLY FUCKING SHIT

“Don’t hurt me! She can’t hurt me! I’m controlling her...” And here, Steven doesn’t light upon the essential thing... in making White punch the wall, nearly knocking a huge rock into him, he’s the one hurting himself.

This show, oh my g o d

“She’s the one who should be afraid.” STEVEN?!!!!????!??!

“No, stop it! I don’t like this!” / “Please, you’re scaring me.” OH MY GO D

HE FUCKING MADE HER SLAM HER GEM AGAINST A PILLAR HOLY HE LL

“What... what was that?” Christine’s delivery here. Holy shit. 😭😭 And both of them are surrounded in the carnage of Steven’s wrath. Holy fucking shit.

This act is fundamentally different than him accidentally shattering Jasper in “Fragments”; this was an intentional attempt to hurt White, to crack her, to break her. Holy fucking shit

Spinel, Blue, and Yellow waiting for Steven outside of White’s door has my heart a little and a lot tender 🥺🥺🥺🥺

SPINEL SINGING I CAN MAKE A CHANGE SO DRAMATICALLY DJDIDJDJDJDJD. (But yeah, lmao, this will absolutely be the conclusion of Steven’s arc at the end of Future.)

“Steven! Let us help you, Steven!” The Diamonds are so concerned (mirroring the Gems back at home, too). 😭😭

He leaves a flip flop behind like Cinderella lmao

“Steven, let us help you!” / “We’re your family!” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

And just as he implored the CGs, he tells the Diamonds not to follow him either.

Steven is completely and utterly alone.

Not by necessity.

But God, by choice.

Okay, this is my new favorite Future episode.

[sea-glass-and-fire]

i was talking to an old friend the other day and it stirred up some memories, so without further ado, here is a list of things that happened at my high school:

- ongoing vape problem that the administration tried to solve through various crackdowns. For a time we were not allowed to go to the bathroom during class?? They also tried to do a locker raid but the janitor's son got word of it and told everyone. He got in trouble for it but the student body regarded him as a hero.

- One of the US history teachers decided to do a mock civil war. The 2 class periods were the 2 different sides. battles were fought by ambushing the enemy and quizzing them on history facts. The prize of 5 extra credit points proved too tantalizing, and both periods engaged in increasingly morally dubious behavior that culminated in one class hacking the email of a student in the other class to get access to their strategies. Once this came to light, the teacher cancelled the game and called in a JUDGE to tell them that they were being stupid and doing crimes. I'm not even sure what this game was meant to teach.

- I organized a walk-out to protest gun violence after Parkland, and people were PISSED. My email inviting other students to join set off a lengthy chain of people hitting "reply all" to share their best understanding of constitutional law. Someone also informed me that if I was TRULY concerned about gun violence, we would be "sitting ducks" when we gathered outside during the walkout. This was a long day.

- Technically not my high school but my siblings': High school girl was engaged in a Thing online with a grown-ass man. When she broke it off, he made a bomb threat against the school and they had to cancel classes. What the hell.

- A junior girl did Not want to be going to our small Catholic high school; she wanted to go to the local public high school with her boyfriend instead. Her parents wouldn't let her transfer, so she decided to TRY TO GET EXPELLED. To that end, she hacked a guy's email and sent an email to the entire school with explicit language. I don't remember quite what it was, but it was something along the lines of "Suck dicks, [school name]." (This also set off another wearying round of "reply all"s.) The guy in question was a lovely person and we all felt bad for him, even though the girl came forward to take credit almost immediately. She did not, in fact, get expelled, as the principal felt that she needed the loving support of the school's community. Last I heard, she got pregnant senior year. I hope she's doing well.

- (If you're wondering why we got hacked so often: at the beginning of each school year, IT reset our passwords on our school emails to the same thing and told us to change it. Some people did not, in fact, change it. You would think they would be warned after the first hacking incidents, but not.)

- For some reason, the guys at our school would sometimes pick their homecoming / prom dates seemingly at random. Usually, the guy would get their friend to ask the girl's friend to ask the girl if she would be interested. If the answer was yes, the guy would do a big, elaborate promposal. However, sometimes guys would skip the first part and just ask. Which worked out well if you were already friends / dating / interested! But you can't exactly say no to someone who's holding a sign in front of a crowd of high schoolers, so more than once my friends and I got word of a promposal heading our and tried to slip out another entrance to avoid being asked to a dance by a guy we barely knew.

- More than one Serial Shit Thrower. This was another reason we weren't allowed to go to the bathroom during class. Because someone was throwing their own poop at the bathroom walls. MORE THAN ONCE.

[chronicallyblogged]

Tw: cigarette smoking

Herbals burn stupid fast so I went through one in like a minute or 2. I made the wrong assumptions about Hal wanting to self harm. He's done it in the past but he was fine with barely smoking the cigarette. His main goal was to smell it. That was the trigger. He used the scent to share some associated memories with me. An old friends house who I had forgotten, an aunt who played the rare role of a safe adult as a child, my family relaxing on the doorstep smoking as a small child, how my dad was always calm when he was smoking. It seems though I relate smoking to bad traumatic or otherwise stressful memories he relates it to good things. We even few the same memory very differently. When I was very young 3 or 4 my aunt gave me a cigarette. To me this is scary and bad. She gave me something knowing it was dangerous, her friends didn't stop her, and when I told my mom it caused a huge scary fight between everyone in the house (which had way too many people crammed in it). To Hal while being given the cigarette was bad, my mom, grandmother, and others coming to my defense was a rare sight. It was a positive instance where adults didn't let bad things continue to happen to me. He wanted to share a different perspective on another memory we shared but I wasn't ready for that one so he stopped. It wasn't a bad experience but I still don't want to use cigarettes much and he's agreed to switch to vapes for today

[purplesurveys]

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survey by dishwallafied

WHO was the last person...

you spoke to, in person? I think it was my sister, like earlier at 1 AM. She was the last person apart from me to head upstairs for bed.

you called? I tried calling our internet service provider’s hotline to inquire about our lost connection last weekend, but all I got was a useless automated message saying they’re on top of all concerns and will be addressing ours soon, which did not make any fucking sense because I didn’t get to report my issue anyway. Their social media was virtually useless too, and my dad had to physically go to one of their offices last Monday to settle the issue.

that called you? My phone’s not near me at the moment (omg a rarity) but it was the delivery person for Reggy’s croissants. GPS has always hated our street and has never been able to identify it, so whenever anyone in the family makes a purchase for delivery we’re bound to get a call or two from the rider assigned to our order to ask for directions.

you texted? It was the same delivery guy. He had tried to call me but I was in a meeting that I couldn’t get out of, so I explained to him I could only text. I also gave him a Waze link containing the exact positioning of our house so that he could set it up on his phone.

that sent you a text? I think it was just my mobile services provider sending out some random promotional text. Idk, I never open those.

you kissed? Gabie.

that kissed you? Also her. I don’t plan on kissing anyone new any time soon.

you yelled at? I haven’t recently been in a situation where I’ve had to yell at anyone...I do slightly raise my voice a lot on video call meetings just so I’m sure everybody on the call can hear me. That’s the closest I’ve got.

that yelled at you? My mom, when she was being a real drama queen about MY money a couple of weeks ago.

you watched a movie with? I watched it by myself, but I remember calling my ex for comfort because the movie was a little scary and creepy. I also remember how bothered she sounded that I was calling her, as if I was a huge burden, so...there’s that. Y’all do me a favor and be with someone who gets delighted when you call instead of making you feel like you’re a waste of space okie?? Good

you ate dinner with? My family. My dad laksa for dinner, which was perfect because I had been watching 2 Days 1 Night yesterday and the cast members kept eating ramyeon, which made me develop a serious craving for noodles all day.

you were in a photo with? I think it had been a family selfie. My family and I were about to leave the accommodation we stayed at in Tagaytay, and my mom wanted a final photo in the living room before we stepped out.

you took a photo of? My employer sent out heart-shaped red velvet cakes for all of us for Valentine’s Day, so I took a photo of it with Cooper in the background to share to the work group chat. I definitely did not expect any goodie sendout considering I never viewed Valentine’s as a special day even when I was still in a relationship, so it was a nice surprise to receive. 

you went to a concert with? Oh my Paramore show was a solo date. Gabie did come to the arena with me and I also drove Denise, Erycka, and Leigh, but the three of them settled for a different section somewhere farther out given how they already did VIP seats for Paramore’s previous concert in 2013. It was my turn to have a front-row seat and since I didn’t know anyone who was as big of a fan as I was or was willing to shell out ₱7,000 for a VIP seat, I went by myself.

you lied to? I think it was Bea, my manager? She scheduled a quick call last Tuesday just to do a check-in with me, and she was asking how I was. Of course I had to tell her I was doing fine, which is never completely true for a lot of people, I think. I didn’t want her to ask me to open up anyway, so saying I was fine was the easy way to go.

you invited somewhere? I recently saw a music clip of a certain song that’s played a lot in bars, so I tagged my entire college barkada telling them we should go back to TK soon, at least when the lockdown and the pandemic subside considerably.

you dated? Gabie.

you dumped? It worked the other way around.

you rejected? I mean, I guess I technically rejected the girl Mik told me was interested in me. We never met since Mik refused to tell me her name or show a photo, but I informed him I wasn’t planning on talking with anyone soon so she can stop thinking I’m available.

you held hands with? Angela.

you hugged? Andi, before they got out of my car since we were parting ways for the evening.

you let cry on your shoulder? This hasn’t happened in a very long time. Most likely Gabie, but this would’ve been around at the start of 2020 when we could still see each other regularly.

that let you cry on their shoulder? Figuratively, Angela and Andi.

you bought a gift for? I got a weekend accommodation for my family, but it was really meant for my dad for his 50th birthday.

you wished a happy birthday? Hans.

that disappointed you? I was more annoyed than disappointed, but it was some random Fil-Am who was being ignorant at the Subtle Filipino Traits Facebook group. That community gives me a huge migraine most days because of Fil-Ams who continue to romanticize the ~beauty~ of the country whilst completely ignoring the socio-political trainwreck here, but the group is kind of the place to be for Filipinos so I can’t see myself leaving it either.

that stayed over at your place? They didn’t stay over for the night but Angela and Hans did a surprise visit to my house a few days after Christmas.

that let you crash at their place? Gab. I used to always crash at her place when I’ve had a few drinks.

that made you angry? Idk man, can I give Mark Zuckerberg as an answer? HAHAHA I went on Facebook first thing today and the first thing I saw was a Facebook Memory, and it was a photo of me and Gabie at Athenna’s birthday party four years ago. I got irritated at first until I remembered that we were both tagged in the post, which means it would most likely show up on her feed as a Memory as well. Just to humor my petty ass, I kinda hope the memory would make her sad, wherever she is; but otherwise seeing the Memory pop up didn’t make me sad or bothered anymore so that’s a win for meee.

that complimented you? Leah, my employer’s CEO. She did a check-in call with me recently to get to know me better, so one of the first things she asked was a list of the clients I handle. I happen to be in the team that works with the company’s more big-league clients, so once she heard the brands she told me I must be a good enough worker to be assigned those clients. It meant a lot and it still does.

whom you complimented? Bea. I just let her know how helpful she’s been with me considering I’m a fresh graduate on her first job in a work-from-home setup in the middle of a global pandemic.

you thanked? A supplier I’m currently in contact with, for work.

that thanked you? The said supplier thanked me back.

you saw, in person? My sister.

that bought you something? Dad bought siopaos for us yesterday.

that made you laugh? The cast of 2 Days 1 Night, from when I was watching the show last night.

that you said you loved? I don’t remember. I think it was Kate since she helped me out with a favor.

that said they loved you? Hannah.

you flipped off? I haven’t whipped out the finger in a while, come to think of it.

you made a silly face at? Not a person, but Cooper.

that drove you somewhere? Dad was the driver for our Tagaytay trip.

WHAT was the last thing you...

touched? Aside from my keyboard, my vape pen.

threw? Cooper’s bowling pin squeak toy. He’s gotten a lot better at catching things with his mouth, so I’ve been throwing it a lot at him to continue training him.

ate? A caramel croissant.

drank? Coffee.

found stuck in your teeth? Haven’t had this happen to me in a while.

cooked? I’ve never tried cooking anything.

baked? Idk, maybe cookies 873984732842 years ago.

threw away/tossed out? The packet for the sauce that came with the siopao my dad bought.

bought? I made a purchase for 20 bags for a work thing, but only because I was assigned to do the whole correspondence with the supplier. My manager was the one who sent over the payment when the purchase was confirmed.

sold? I don’t think I’ve ever tried selling anything before.

took a photo of? Cooper hahaha. I had been dancing to a song and he was staring at me.

were frustrated with? Our internet provider when they cut off the connection last weekend.

broke? I’m not sure if I can say I broke it, but the adaptor for my phone charger finally gave up on me the other day. I’ve taken to borrowing my sister’s for now, since she says she “doesn’t use it a lot” anyway.

spilled? Some drops of coffee spilled out of my mug when I dumped several ice cubes in it.

tripped on? Kimi. He follows me evvvvvvverywhere, so I bump into him at least once a day.

kicked? I’m not really sure.

put batteries in? Haven’t had to use batteries in a while, either.

turned on? The Bluetooth on my laptop.

turned off? The electric fan last night since I found it loud.

wrote? Other than my answers to this survey, I’ve also been talking with Angela this morning over Messenger.

wrote on? Other than my phone/laptop, my journal.

cleaned? My glasses.

stuck up your nose??? My finger when a nostril itched recently.

WHERE was the last place you...

dined at? Ramen Nagi.

ordered something to go? I don’t do takeout deliveries, but the last thing I got for delivery was banh mi and iced Vietnamese coffee last week.

bought something? Facebook Marketplace.

cried? In the living room. I came across that viral video of a guy proposing to her girlfriend at a Taylor Swift concert, when he knelt at the exact moment Taylor sang “He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring” from Love Story. It was such a sweet, classy, non-cringey public proposal and I allowed myself to be swept away by the cheesiness of it all, haha.

felt uncomfortable? Dining room table. I was sharing a story to my parents about work involving a guy and my mom asked me if I had a crush on him. My dad kind of snorted and said, “Her? Crush on a guy?” which told me he knew something was up re: my preferences lmao. They’ve never heard anything from me yet, so that made me feel awkward and I most especially didn’t want my mom to catch on to the question and suddenly put me in the hot seat.

drove to? Other than back home, I last drove to UPTC.

had an appointment at? Google Meet, hahaha.

went on vacation? Tagaytay. 

hung out with a friend? Andi and I went to a Korean barbecue place at UPTC (again), but we also drove to UP after just to revisit the good old days of being in campus.

bought clothes? H&M in Feliz.

spent more than you had planned? Ramen Nagi. I had a couple of add-ons in my meal and I didn’t know their service fee was going to be quite high, so my final bill ended up being slightly more than the budget I planned out for that day.

saw a band/singer/musician perform? Late 2019. My ex and I stopped by a jazz bar and there was a live band playing.

WHEN was the last time you...

told someone 'I love you'? Last Friday.

cried? Last night.

laughed? This morning. Cooper was being silly around me and my dad, as always. This time he was unusually behaved when we let him out, and the bizarreness of it all made us so unsettled we ended up laughing.

left your home? Last Sunday. I might go out later, too.

drank a soda/pop? Early last year. There was Coke being served at an org event, and since I felt thirsty and there was no drinking fountain around I just said fuck it and drank the soda.

made your bed? Last night when I left my room to settle in the living room.

visited a doctor? May last year.

went to the emergency room? Other than when 23 years ago when I was born, I’ve never been brought to the emergency room.

kissed someone? September.

hugged someone? Mid-January.

prayed? Six years ago. Or maybe five; I can’t really tell when exactly I made it a point to stop for good.

worked out? Around a week ago. I’m thinking if I should keep at it or if I should just stop, seeing as I’m not willing to give up my favorite foods anyway lmao.

made a phone call? I tried to make a phone call to our internet provider last weekend.

answered a phone? The other evening when the landline rang.

had an argument? Two weeks ago, instigated by my mom as usual.

played a video game? I think 2-3 weeks ago when I got in the mood to play the Switch.

played a card game? Safe to say at least a couple of years ago.

played a board game? November when we suffered a power outage for two days and had nothing to do at home.

rode a bike? LOOOOOOOOL March. The lockdown had just started and I made plans to learn how to ride a bike, but those plans fell through as soon as they began.

fell on your butt? This doesn’t happen often.

took a shower? Last night.

took a bubble bath? I can’t even remember anymore; this is a rare occasion for me.

watched TV? I last watched a TV show in general last night, but I last watched something on an actual television last Sunday when my family watched a Sunday mass livestream.

saw a movie at a theater? December 2019.

ate fast food? I got Bonchon for my family last December, if I remember correctly. My dad had done a huge favor for me and I asked what I can do to repay it, and he said to just buy dinner for the 5 of us for that evening.

ordered a pizza? Last month.

made someone laugh? I’m not sure if I had made her laugh in real life, but Angela and I had a humorous conversation over chat earlier this morning.

sang? Few minutes ago.

played a musical instrument? Absolutely no clue.

read a book? Couple of weeks ago when my employer sent me this book on PR that I was asked to read in preparation for my meeting with Leah.

drove a car? Last Sunday.

went swimming? Think it may have been my Nasugbu trip with Angela, Sofie, and Gabie back in August 2019.

got a sunburn? Idk man, when I was 8? I stopped getting sunburns as I got older.

went to church or temple? The last Sunday in March before the lockdown started.

went shopping? I did my final around of Christmas shopping last month for friends I still had to give presents to.

drank alcohol? Sometime last month after my work shift, following back-to-back meetings with my least favorite client.

smoked a cigarette? Feb last year, I think. I don’t buy cigarettes of my own and I’m also a lot more watchful of my cigarette usage, so I haven’t been able to smoke since I haven’t been around a crowd who does. I mostly vape.

threw up? I last felt like throwing up back in May, but I haven’t actualy thrown up in at least a couple of years now.

had a headache? Just this Thursday.

had a cold? No idea.

had the flu? It wasn’t strictly the flu, but I was last sick in May.

had your hair cut? March last year.

dyed your hair? Never done it.

laughed so hard that you cried? It’s happened in at least the past couple of weeks, I’m sure.