#seriously this is kind of embarrassing

[imstillalexcomic]

Ok so, a few weeks ago there was an ask that came in asking if “dress go spinny”.  It led to me doodling myself in a dress and because I am Trans Tomboy ™, I felt really embarrassed and spilled my guts a little.

I’ve tried dresses before and while there’s certainly a bit of euphoria tied to the exploration of my femininity, I’m really not a dress girl.

I’m really not feminine at all.

Whenever I do try to draw myself more fem, I get cold feet and just draw how I’m feeling, which is embarrassed.

This came up earlier today while chatting with @crazygnomenclature, and I showed her the picture in this post.  This was from a couple months ago while I was working on how I’d be drawing fem-Alex for my coming out as trans comic.

As you can see, I got embarrassed as all get out while drawing it.  After talking with Fran she gave me the confidence to post it.

…she also gave me a link to a skirt for me to try out.

She’s very encouraging and kind, and I love that so much about her.

ANYWAY… here’s me in a dress.

I’m still embarrassed…

…

…but I’m working on it.

[idontmindifuforgetme]

I love Tumblr because nothing matters here truly. There are no influencers. Having followers doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a site where people post their sporadic thoughts and rb pretty pictures. Anyone who thinks any of this matters is woefully missing the point

[youremyonlyhope]

Living with Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors

Me: *Is super stressed over life.*

Trichotillomania: Time to pull some hair! C'mon. You won't even notice you're doing it. It'll make you feel better.

Me: NO. *Spends 4 days putting hair in a mini twist protective style* There.

Dermatillomania: Hey. Your hands are free. And restless. And dry... Pick your skin. Bleed. Bleed.

Me: Stop! *Starts up a new crochet project to keep hands busy.* Ok cool.

Onychophagia: Hi hi. Your nails are.... perfect biting length... you should do that.

Me: Noooooooooooo *Paints nails.*

Dermatillomania: Oh look, you got some nail polish on your skin. Pick it off... now pick some more...

Me: SDJAKFDSJFKLDKAFDJKLAFJDKSAKLFDASL

[dreadfuldevotee]

unironically kinda fun how much iwtv for me has been about doing and saying all the fun stuff I was, for various reasons, too shamed to do in other fandoms

[kuruk]

don't ever read or watch anything I talk about on here I will kill you

[offorestsongs]

being in my little carefully curated fandom bubble makes me genuinely forget that some people still think that oc x canons or self-shipping or x reader fics or whatever are 'cringy' or 'embarassing'

[fisherrprince]

oh so alisaie’s exaggerated bully behavior is 80% fanon. saying this she casually picks up a large rock

[noodelnoodelapplestrudel]

accidentally making your 6’4 30something military grunt of a boyfriend addicted to dress to impress on roblox 🤭 he’s seen you playing it before and made a grumbly comment or two about it being “a game for snot nose ipad babies with lousy parents” which is kinda true but also,,, it’s fun and he’s just being mean because your attention isn’t on him 🥺

but really, there’s nothing you love more than coming home after a stressful day at work, pouring a generous glass of wine, and playing a few (16) rounds of the silly game! picking out fun little outfits and finding the perfect hair and makeup to tie everything together (just to get placed 6th behind a 12 year old who doesn’t even dress according to the theme and just presses pose 28 a bajillion times on the runway)

finally after the third or fourth sassy remark from your grumpy old boyfriend, you decide he needs to actually play the game so he can see the hype. you expected he would watch you play a round or two, get bored and make you turn it off before even giving the game a chance. which is exactly what happened… but, he gets bored when your at work and he’s on leave,, so one day he decides to log on your computer and just give it a try, what’s the harm right?!?

a few weeks after you showed him the game and it completely backfired (or so you thought) you get home from work and are greeted with a dark and quiet house and no boyfriend in sight. after you take off your shoes and hang up your coat and bag, you hear a few low rumbles coming from upstairs, followed by some aggressive clicking and,,, a familiar catchy song,,, wait, is that the dti music?? you tiptoe up the stairs and peek into the dark room. what you find is equally shocking and adorable?!? the lights are off and the curtains are drawn (he couldn’t risk a single soul seeing the embarrassing scene) and your big, burly man huddled over your monitor, which looks comedically small next to the grizzly bear. his big paw is completely covering the mouse, as he chaotically moves it around, frantically looking for something, muttering under his breath in concentration “c’mon you worthless twat, we’ve got less an’ thir’ey seconds to find a par a shoe that don’t look li shite”

you’ve created a monster, and you couldn’t be more proud 🥲 

[shmowder]

just need to vent about the Olympics

[torchickentacos]

you ever scroll past some sort of discourse that you didn't even know existed, and you have to take a second and realize that, while none of us are superior to others, some of us ARE much better at choosing which dumbass hills to die on? because I think sometimes you deserve to go 'huh. at least I'm not getting involved in all that'.

[incesthemes]

hey girlie it’s me, sam winchesters gay lover, your mootie 🥰🥰🥰 i just wanted to let you know, that your tags on the post about that wincest video are based and i agree with every word, hashtag slay couldn’t agree more i loved reading your essay in those tags heart ❤️

omg thank you!!! i'm basically only capable of talking in essays whether people want me to or not, unfortunately

i just have a lot of feelings on this topic and the whole "canon or not canon" argument is weird to me; the themes are pretty darn clear in supernatural (it is NOT known for its subtlety) so idk man. they don't have to kiss to be canon. and they don't have to have a romantic relationship to be canon either. how many times do they get into relationships with other people only for it to be treated as cheating/betrayal/abandonment, only for them have to give up that relationship in order to reaffirm their devotion to their brother

that's just what the text says. i'm not under any kind of delusion that they have some secret sexual or romantic relationship, but that doesn't change that sam and dean are each other's most important person regardless of that. which is really awesome imo, that romance isn't treated as more important than whatever horrible thing they have with each other, and that they don't have to consummate their relationship with romance/sex in order for it to be the most important one they have

(and of course there's romantic/sexual subtext, like parallels and metaphors and misunderstandings and jokes, but to me that just provides a solid foundation for presenting this relationship between them as the most important even though it's not romantic or sexual—because this language of romance is the only one we know, really, when it comes to writing important relationships between characters. it's the only one we know in our own personal lives, to a large extent. so you use the romance/sexuality to symbolize the actual bond they have. which is so much worse lmao)

anyway i think spn is fairly unique in this way because of how no other relationships can really ever stand parallel to the one they share; even in other shows that center male friendship, romance is allowed to coexist with brotherhood. for sam and dean, it's not, and that becomes a point of tension and conflict and resolution many, many times over the course of the show. so like yeah!!! just because it's not romantic or sexual doesn't mean it's not canon, in the sense that their relationship is the point of the show, and it is the most important relationship they have. they chose each other above all else, every single time. yknow, it's "the epic love story of sam and dean" and all that

[fandomcrazy]

This is all based on a dream I had that woke me up coughing my lungs out (not related to the dream, I've just been sick the past few days)

Hawks quirk (from mha if it wasn’t clear) being Robyn's quirk

Her apartment is in the sky (like actually I'm not even joking, it's just hanging there by pure magic) and right across from the lecture hall she takes notes from with her super vision (part of the quirk ig)

Steve becomes her roommate

Before she meets steve she's known nancy for a while now

Nancy think steve might not know Robyn's a lesbian but Robyn let's her know that "no yeha I told him everything we've been talking about this hot girl that literally everyone in town knows and how her nose is so perfect and how she's so graceful and-"

"Yes Robyn I get the point" Nancy says.

Steve up until this point just thought they were making conversation and was getting to know his potential date. His world view comes crashing down after only hearing Robyn's side of the conversation with Nancy on the phone.

Steve has a mental quirk so it doesn't outwardly show that much except for the little details around his body. Robyn doesn't know what the quirk is (neither do i honestly) and doesn’t remember to ask. Steve appreciates this and is large bonus to having Robyn as his roommate/friend(?).

Most people don't like going to Robyn's apartment because you need to activate your quirk to get there and you need to be synced up with her security feed, which takes a lot of patience and time to do. Steve feels conflicted about hearing this. On one hand it's good because that guarantees almost no one will be able to get to him here but he has to use his quirk everytime he wants to go home.

Now the rest of the Hawkins gang have all been synced up to the security monitor just in case, except for the quirkless and mutation type quirks but they still have a system for that. Almost everyone asks Robyn once in a while if she can just fly them there instead of them activating probably dangerous or embarrassing or not easily accessible quirks. No one else except robyn in the Hawkins gang has a transmutation quirk until Eddie comes along with bat wings on his back at all times. Robyn are the same in that sense, that they can both fly but Eddie can't exactly fly over large bodies of water and he's not as fast as her. No one is as fast as Robyn everyone in the party has agreed.

Robyn knows what she's capable of. She knows she could easily cheat during tests or quizzes at her university without getting caught but she just. Doesn't want to. She wants to prove to herself that she can accomplish something without resorting to taking the easy way out. If she has to bomb 3/4 of tests she takes than so be it as long as she doesn't get thrown put of the university she doesn't care. She'll work double shifts if it means getting to prove that she can do things herself. (This might or might not lead to her slowly neglecting herself and her needs, needing someone to make her understand spreading herself so thin she can barely hold her wings up in the sky is not proving anything to anyone, especially herself(Steve says all this yall, maybe less eloquently but the point gets across)). Maybe this all started from a young age when her parents expected a lot from her, expected her to solve all their problems for them (maybe financial? Idk) and it just made her more convinced to not do anything for themn, but for herself. And although, at the time, this kind of thinking was healthy, it was not sustainable in the long run after separating herself from them in the future.

Oh uhhh heros and villains don't exist, quirks and criminals exist. There is technology created that stuns a persons quirk factor and makes them immobile (paralyzed) temporarily. This technology was used on Steve as a child to make him more "docile".

I like to give as much angst to characters that I think would look hot being pathetic wet dogs-

Robyn and Nancy end up together obvi (if you didn't catch it up there, Nancy was a little jealous of Robyn talking about someone she might be interested in like that that isn't her (that was literally her who Robyn described but whatever)).

Steve and Eddie

And literally anyone else you want to ship I'm a big elmax or elumax supporter and Dustin being steddie's kid basically

Also why the fuck is nobody talking about the sass potential with Dustin and Erica friendship?? They're like copy paste stobyn but with a different font that makes them roast everyone else instead of each other

Anyway don't take any of this too seriously it only took like 30 minutes (that's a lot fo time holy shit 💀😭😭 I'm a slow writer) and no brain power because, again, I just woke up with a coughing fit that probably made me lose a lung. I should probably check on that.

Anyway, BYEEEEE

[theraphos]

if we don't get this exact energy for live action bon clay i think we should riot a little bit actually

[transnightfury]

aaaaaa

[seventhheaven1927]

i also want to re-read the price of salt this month because i honestly don't remember much about it lol.

[phxntomhives]

Hello, it's time for the first "Yana has made me paranoid so I try to look for hints even when hints are not present"

Aka extremely silly theory about the manga, spoiler for the end of season 4 and the manga under the cut!

Ok. Since I hope I hide this well. Here is the incriminatory pannel

They are all dancing and my first reaction was aaaaw 🥺🥺 but then what if there are hints?

I would like to start with the most important thing which is blushing Edward. After you task a good look at him, he is interesting I feel he is there just to not have a white spot. And he is adorable and blushing with I think Lizzie's maid. They are cute 🥺 nothing more I think. I just wanted to point it out!

But honestly that hidden "hole"... Feels a little like they are separating. On the left Francis, Tanaka, Redmond, Joanne and two of Bluewer sisters (the younger one could be one of the twins?). Then on the right we have Lizzie, O!Ciel, Soma and Meyrin.

A part of me wants to say: oh it must be R!Ciel side VS O!Ciel side but then what are Lizzie and Soma doing there? Both were deeply hurt by O!Ciel, can they even go back to be like this? Maybe after (if) undertaker explain of the bizzarre dolls to everyone? And Joanne would also be on the wrong side (unless everyone is against O!Ciel now so undertaker tries to win him over somehow, and they are successful).

What made me start to go insane is that I read another blog suggesting that one of the stars (Vega) could be one of Bluewer sisters. So what if the little girl here is Vega? Joanne, Francis, Takana and Edward are "more important" characters but she is the one that is shown so close? Maybe to let us have a nice look at her and remember her for later? I'm playing 5D chess against myself.

The true answer

More likely: Yana just wanted to draw something pretty and this is her result. Nothing more nothing less. But hey I wanted to try to be smart.