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Inspiration tribute time!

Tonight's tribute goes out to @cholerascum

She does great art and seems to have a pretty good sense of humor from what I've seen.

Anyway, here is my attempt to draw her sona in my simplified style

I initially tried the outfit in this post before running into a bunch of problems (how do fishnet sleeves work with this style that does include sleeves but not arms? Being one.) So I swapped over to this outfit which cleared up basically all of them.

Also I love the design of your hair. It just goes out so well. I also enjoy the other designs you use but the reference images I used had this hair

I included the little lashes because while the eye wings(hope that's the right term) vary if they are there or not, those two lashes per eye almost always are.

I also colored the eye in with hair(worst way I could have described that) where the hair overlaps like you do, though it's not that clear in the picture.

Anyways,

Thanks for the inspiration Fiona

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About a week ago I posted this.

I’ve been getting horrible messages like this in my ask for months, including:

and my personal favorite

After getting the message saying “Just go kill yourself” I was completely done dealing with this person’s horrible messages and replied with just an “Okay.” and logged off tumblr.

About a week later I logged back on with 17 messages in my ask, most of them from the anon. I scrolled down and at first when I logged off, the anon messaged me things like

I scrolled up more and all of a sudden they started sending me more and more messages like

This was extremely surprising to me. I thought “After all those horrible messages you sent to me for MONTHS about hating me and wanting me dead, you say ‘sorry’ and that you ‘cant be responsible for someone’s suicide’?”

But I guess the lesson goes like this:

DONT TELL ANYONE TO KILL THEMSELVES UNLESS YOU ARE PREPARED FOR WHAT MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN

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And here we are looking forward to it!

Welcome, whoever you are. I have been going with many different pseudonyms over the years, but here I'm just Tuoni. I have a long and bumpy road behind me, but for the purposes of this blog, I'll be mainly talking about my transition. It's kinda funny to do this when I'm already middle aged, but I guess we can't really do more than play with the cards we are given. In my youth, I didn't even have words for what I am, so figuring everything while going was the only way. And boy, has there been a lot of figuring out: From a regular, deeply depressed cishet man to a pansexual, nonbinary fetish artist, who never seemed to fit in any fucking box. So eventually, I have ditched the box completely.

I am what I am. A whole god damn person. At the moment I have been on HRT for six months and it's really doing good things to me. I must warn you in advance: I am a kinky fucker who has a very morbid and dark sense of humor, a person who in reality feels things pretty strongly and sometimes it kinda shines through my calm demeanour. Girl gotta have hobbies, after all.

I will be venting out, making comics and occasionally put up some photos as well, but I really hope that I can find other trans people and make new friends.

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drew a freak and then turned it into homer instead of paying attention in class today

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So something that I've become a part of with my wife's (@greyeyedwarden) family is decorating Easter Eggs. They way they do things is wayyyy different from how my family did eggs growing up, but I like to add my own... sensibilities... to the eggs I make...

...you can tell which ones are mine. Wife made the cats egg at the end!

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Drew a what if (also tried making full pages instead of singular panels but idk if I'll do it again, it's not very fun)

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AGAB (Assigned Goth At Birth)

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As much as I’d like to think that Alex is feverishly reading my tumblr blog and stealing all my ideas (if you are, please do my Gary Numan one!) the general consensus on my comic was that it’s a fairly common phenomenon for trans women to see their mum looking back at them from the mirror.

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...what horse are you??

What is a horse? Nobody knows

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They're not in my head and can't tell me who I am. You also don't need to "prove" yourself to be valid

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eye liner

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Sorry to hear that your dad listens to that radio station. Have you spoken to him since? Did you ever tell him? I’m sorry I’m advance if he didn’t accept you. 🫂 💛

Sadly, he passed over ten years ago and never knew me in full.

It's a weird balance, loving the good memories and fearing the bad ones. I do like to think he would have accepted me, but I never felt safe enough to tell anyone until much later.

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On Transgender Day of Visibility, I got a message from Fran (@crazygnomenclature of Tiff and Eve) who was over the moon having just learned that a comic artist she’s a fan of was trans.  The artist’s name didn’t come up at first, but when Fran said it was Dana Simpson, I was like, “Oh, DC Simpson, I know her!  She made Ozy and Millie.”

I hadn’t kept up with her work in recent years, but back in high school (graduated HS in 2006 for a frame of reference), Dana was a god to me.  Ozy and Millie was one of the webcomics in my usuals and I absolutely loved everything about it. 

There was one storyline in particular that really stays with me today, when their school puts on a play… but not just any play, they put on… “The Story of Caulk”.

I mean, first off, that’s absolutely hilarious and I still giggle when I think about it.  As an adult, I’ve caulked three bathtubs.  I like to think that being introduced to caulk as a teenager prepared me for sealant based home maintenance later in life. 

But that plotline also had some poignant messaging regarding gender and how kids interact with each other, and has massive value beyond its comedy.

And that’s kind of what Dana Simpson was for me back in high school.  I’m not sure that I can find what she said at the time (or if it even is still online at all anymore), but I recall reading something she said about her comics being a way to create conversations about more serious issues that are otherwise difficult to get started.  I believe she said that comics were a way to open a dialogue by slipping these issues “under the radar”.

Now, it’s been twenty years since then so I miiiiiiight be misattributing that, but I’m almost certain it was Dana who said it.

She got me thinking about a lot of things.  It would still be about four or five years until I started my first comic strip, Corpse Run, but her work was a major part of the reason why I wanted to be a comic artist.

When she came out as transgender, she got me thinking more.

I knew I was queer, I knew I was questioning my gender, I knew that being transgender was a thing… but until she came out, there was no one in my sphere of life in any capacity that actually was trans. 

Her coming out made me realize that this was a kind of self acceptance and love that I could practice.  It took another decade and a half to eventually begin my transition, but without Dana, I’m not sure I ever get to where I’m at now.

She had that big an impact on me, and I’m forever grateful.

As a note on the second panel in this comic, there are many more folks that I’ve met and befriended in these last few months, and in the event you aren’t shown in that panel, I don’t want anyone to think that I don’t know, love, and appreciate you all.  These are drawings that I already had on hand, PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!

Folks in the second panel:

@maddiee-line - @kaylasartwork - @bubbleverseart - @lynnsenpai - @lariumbreon - @pennymations - @deadeyedfae - @haarlow - @cholerascum - @welldrawnfish - @paintedbytosia @biblicallyaccuratemoth - @crazygnomenclature (represented by Tiff and Eve)

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CW: Mild gore and body horror

IT'S FINALLY DONE!!

It's been so exausting but I'm just so happy to be done with it! Thanks to everyone that helped me with this project and a special thanks to @kaylasartwork for the amazing backgrounds! It's been seriously amazing working with u!

Thanks for reading!

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Do you prefer your potions with or without pulp?

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It’s possible there were signs.

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What they rappin about tho??? ⬇️➡️⬇️➡️⬅️➡️⬇️➡️⬇️➡️⬇️⬇️➡️⬇️➡️⬆️

ft. @kaylasartwork and @bubbleverseart they're so cool I love them sm 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰