#sensitive!billie

[bxllxebxtch]

Deep Cuts (2)

warnings: angst, crying, venting, sh, cursing (i think that's it)

"What are you doing here Billie.." You say, your voice stern but filled with hidden and pushed away emotions. "Why didn't you talk to me..." she says, her voice soft but raspy, she sounds like she's been.... crying. "You were fucking wrong. I loved you, i fucking loved you..." you say, your voice filled to the brim with anger and disappointment. "i-i...I'm sorry" she mumbles, her voice cracking with emotion. Your heart ached as you hear her soft voice crack, but you couldn't stop yourself. "You're pathetic..." You spit at her, her breathing turning heavy and rapid. She feels like she just got stabbed. Tears roll down her pink cheeks "P-Pathetic..." she repeats as she feels like you just stabbed her.

Fuck, you messed up. Her breathing turns rapid as she chokes on her words "Fuck, Billie...i-i didn't mean-" "S-Stop!" she yells, as she holds her knees up to her chest and holds her ears to shut off any unwanted noise. I get up and slowly walk towards her, you bend down and crouch on your knees. You caress her head softly "I-I'm sorry..." her body shudders with emotion and she breaks down "i-i missed you...missed you so fucking much...all you did was work...work...and fucking work". Your face contorts with anger "Well how the fuck did you want me to buy us food?!" You snap, you never yelled at her...no matter how mad you were, you never yelled.

Her eyes widened as she hears your tone in voice, her heart aches as she trembles her hands tightening around her legs sobbing. "F-Fuck you.." she mutters out, her voice trembling and cracking with emotion. "You know what...Fuck you too, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you!" you yell at her "Fuck you, fuck Anna, fuck everyone..." Tears stream down your face then you just leave Billie under the tree, soft and fragile in her state.

You are now on a bench, not to far away from Billie. You could hear her broken, heartfelt sobs from under the tree. You could hardly contain yourself from running to her and hugging her, loving her the way you used to love her...no...the way you still love her, you never stopped loving her...and you know you never will. You couldn't take it anymore.

You still loved her, you never stopped. You can't hurt her and leave her like that. You slowly walk towards the tree wears she is sitting crying and trembling.

Just one hug

Right?

You knee down Infront of her and hug her, holding her close. You soothingly rubbed her back, you shouldn't have yelled at her. Her hands grip you shirt as she shakes and trembles in your arms, her sobs broken. Her tears soak into you shirt "I-I'm sorry..." you mumble softly, your voice filled to the brim with emotion and regret. "I-I....I-I c-can't..." she mumbles, her words choked with tears and broken emotions. Your arms tighten around her "W-Why Anna...Why...I loved you...I Love You..." Your voice is choked with emotion and regret.

You hold her closer as you both fall apart like broken glass, cutting each other deeply with each word. You know she's sensitive and she can't live without you, you regret ever stray word that left you mouth. Words that cut her deeper then a knife. She didn't want to touch or see you, neither did you...but you both needed each other.

Don't do that again...

Your words cut

Deep Cuts...

[bigdumbbambieyes]

Steve’s the kind of fuckboy to text Billy ‘come cuddle’ at 2am and Billy will literally rip his door from its hinges to answer that booty call every time

[28ms28]

Ferrari hopes and dreams

[scarlet--wiccan]

Oh God I was really hoping the backstory that was leaked for Billy was fake... just heard about the new episode and it turns out it wasn't. why would they choose this over adoption or reincarnation-

It's bad! I really feel like the M C U goes out of its way to interpret these characters in bad faith and come up with the worst possible versions of their stories. I've said this before, but everything about Wanda's origins and the nature of her power seems designed to make her an objectively worse person who is more directly responsible for causing harm than her comics counterpart, but is also weirdly set on punishing her for existing and having trauma. She's simultaneously more doomed by the narrative, and infinitely less deserving of redemption.

With Billy, they took a situation that, while complex and, at times, difficult to parse, is ultimately miraculous and joyful, and they made it just.... incredibly grim. There is no real distinction between Billy Maximoff and Billy Kaplan in the comics-- they're the same person, given a second chance at life and the great fortune to reconnect with his original family, in a way that doesn't invalidate or erase the second. And, again, I want to emphasize that when YA and CC were written, Wanda had Jewish heritage, so I don't think there needs to be any awkwardness in the transfer between the Maximoff and Kaplan families, and the text never does anything to imply that Billy's cultural upbringing is any less valid, or any less central to his character after his origins are revealed.

Here, they created a false dichotomy between the two characters, killed one them off, and made the other into a body-snatcher. That is so much darker, and so much more tragic for the Kaplans-- and it creates uncomfortable questions about their relationship, and Billy's identity, that I don't think can ever be neatly resolved. I will say that, thus far, I don't think the show explicitly disavows "William's" heritage, or writes off Billy's relationship with the Kaplans, the way some people are reporting. He doesn't actually remember his life before the switch, so it's not a total takeover, and at points, the episode seems to imply that he's somehow both, and neither-- a new gestalt.

But I don't trust these writers to execute that concept with integrity, or even consistency. In WV and MoM, Wanda's motives, sense of self, and relationship to her powers repeatedly change at the drop of a dime, and we're seeing the same thing, here, with the abrupt change that takes place when Billy reveals his identity. The shift in personality, escalation of power, and the vague implication that he's been masterminding this whole excursion makes no sense with the established timeline-- this is all happening within 24 hours of him even learning that Wanda had kids, let alone that he might be one of them, not to mention hearing about both Agatha the Witches Road for the first time. And up until that point, he really was just an earnest kid. The heel-turn feels silly and juvenile, and the needle drop at the end of episode #5 underscores that a little too perfectly-- his "bad guy" act is just as ill-fitting and unsubstantiated as the Eilish's edgy, wannabe-thug aesthetics.

Obviously, the most important issue here is not the quality of writing, but where this character falls into the spectrum of whitewashing and erasure. The fact that Locke is not Jewish but, before the switch, is playing a Jewish character-- and, specifically trespassing on prayer and religious ceremonies-- is a problem. I've seen a lot of different opinions expressed by a lot of different people within the community about who can or can't play Jewish characters, but I think we can all agree that this is worth criticizing, especially given the larger context of repeated erasure and historical distortion against Jewish and Roma people in this franchise.

But I also want to emphasize that, because of what was done to Wanda, and the franchise's insistence on conducting blatant anti-Romani racism, there was never going to be a truly authentic or acceptable version of this character. Now matter how they cast the role, a significant part of his background had already been erased, and he was already saddled with significant racist baggage. I am very, very tired of white people and Young Avengers fans overlooking that fact.

[lovelyymeq]

gotta lock in after

[pale-ski]

I REDESIGNED HERRRR

[fizzigigsimmer]

I think Billy writers should indulge in Billy cosplay tiktoks every blue moon. Because I love him and I love the way we write him, but I forget all the time what it felt like to view him through fresh eyes but these fans be out here reminding me.

Billy Hargrove walks like a cowboy. He's a bag of trouble and he doesn't care who knows it. The ground shakes when he enters his first scene to Rock You Like A Hurricane. It's part of a front yes, but it's still part of him and it all comes from a place.

[mynameismanze-blog]

I don't understand how you can be upset when someone says something slutty for a fan base... That literally makes great smut a lot. (No shame, just saying.)

[baronessblixen]

Skipping anon because >:DDD but:

How did you end up getting Billy? I don't think I've heard that sequence of events, if you don't mind~.

Oh! I don't mind at all - though I'm afraid it's not a very interesting story. I lost my first dog in December 2014 and knew pretty early on that I would want another one. I think I started looking around in summer 2015 and visited a puppy that I almost got - his name was Bobby - but somehow it didn't feel right.

I moved into my current apartment and started looking more seriously. Saw a pic of Billy as a tiny puppy and fell in love right away. Dragged my dad with me to visit Billy (and his siblings) and it was just love at first sight. I brought him home two months later 😁 that was nine years ago. Little dude is now a little senior.

Thanks for asking!

[piratefishmama]

i wonder if the cast ever found Flayed Billy to be absolutely terrifying to act with. I'm rewatching ST out of boredom and i'm at battle of starcourt now and Dacre is terrifying as Flayed Billy.

Like Dacre is super charming and clearly an absolute sweetheart but Flayed Billy is honestly terrifying.

His strength, the predatorial way he reacts to things, that one scene where El tries to push him back in the mall and he just slams her head back against the wall then throws her against the other wall, the efficiency with which he takes them all down one by one, like they're nothing to him. They're completely defenseless against him and his strength.

Facing that kind of ferocity even acting has got to be at least a little intimidating.

The Flayer picked one hell of a host when it came to Billy, Will was clearly taken through necessity, Will was the only one who could walk between the worlds, he was the only one accessible at that time.

but given the choice of host... it knows how to pick em.

[lumaxramblings]

if i see one more person say that jonathan isn't a raging abuser like billy because he "had support, unlike billy" i'm going to snap. what support was that, exactly????

[merrysithmas]

love how they depicted divination and psychic/ oracle talent in this ep. so well done/real. also loved how every person was the personification of a tarot card in former scenes, very beautiful

[yantao-enthusiast]

can some fucking people stop being to celebrities like “oh this person is either gay or queerbaiting because their personality is making me interpret them as queer because they act ‘stereotypically’ gay and that if you act like this you have to be queer. so we’re gonna either force this person to come out via peer pressure when they may not want to or be ready to or bully them for acting a certain way if they’re not queer because that’s the only way i can accept these people acting this way.” it’s really fucked up, based on toxic patriarchal values, and plain homophobic. analyze these parts about yourself and put a stop to it. it’s not funny. it’s not doing the lgbtq community a favor. it’s an asshole thing to do and you better be leaving that shit in 2023.

[just-bendy]

To all the Bendy’s(if possible), how did you all meet

GROWLER: Let's just say... a very bad place, and don't cha even think about askin' about it!

[aj-lenoire]

i do not like billy, he’s a cruel racist person who lashes out at anyone and everyone so he can feel powerful. but goddamn if dacre montgomery’s speech at the end of episode six, where the mind flayer is speaking through billy of his plans for destruction, and there’s that single tear that hints that billy is aware of what he’s doing and what is happening to him doesn’t give me chills.