#it wont make sense necessarily to the psychic most of the time

[merrysithmas]

love how they depicted divination and psychic/ oracle talent in this ep. so well done/real. also loved how every person was the personification of a tarot card in former scenes, very beautiful

[circe-poetica]

38.Laiste, Moon’s Daughter

Laiste, Moon’s Daughter, from the Faeries’ Oracle by Brian Froud and Jessica MacBeth

Laiste, Moon’s Daughter: “Light cast in shadows, Spiritual guidance, Illumination, Riddles”

“She is the bringer of light in the darkness, yet moonlight both reveals and conceals. Her bright faery hoof prints light the path ahead of you, guiding you through the dark. She is also one of the guides at the passages between the otherworlds and this one. It is she who, with her bright light, tends the Gate of Revelation, showing us the way through by illumination, while her sister, Epona’s Wild Daughter helps guide us through the Gate of Despair. Laiste’s gate is much more fun.

Yet, in the process of guiding us, Laiste may pull a veil of cloud across the face of her mother, the moon – and three steps later we fall into a bog. “That should wake you up,” she thinks, smiling wisely. She disapproves of sleep walking, which is something that most of us humans do a great deal of the time. The night contains too much magic and beauty and wisdom to walk through it unseeing. You may find her activities helpful, you may find them frustrating. How you take them is entirely up to you, but they are intended to help you awaken. Bear in mind that she does not trip us; she merely places an obstacle or a pitfall lin our path, and we, sleep walking and unaware, step right into it. We do not have to do that. As always, it is our choice.

Lasite wants us to be open to the great unknown, to mystical (not necessarily magical) experience that teach us an expanded way to relate to the multiverse, all of the worlds and dimensions together. She is daughter of the moon, but she is also an illumined child of Unity. Where the Losgunna, the Frog Queen, wishes you to get in touch with your subconscious and find the treasures there, Laiste hopes that you will reach for your higher self, your not-yet-realized cosmic wisdom. You know far more than you know you know.

There are places in ourselves that we may have feared because they are shadowed and unknown. We may imagine them full of monsters when, in fact, they are inhabited by joyful spirits. She wishes us to explore this terra incognita because that is where much of our potential and as yet unexplored wisdom lies. Laiste reaches into our deepest minds, opening long shut doors, illuminating and revealing the uncultivated ground of our being – our hidden senses and talents. She speaks to us in the language of symbols, as faeries often do, because words are so limited. Any one symbol may speak to us on many levels of consciousness and about many different aspects of being, if we speand time contemplating it. Laiste is a sphinx, and finding the answers to her profound riddles gives us keys to the multiverse.

If you are attending to your dreams and visions and studying every day occurrences, trying to discover the deeper levels of meaning in the symbols there, you are learning the language of Laiste. That language is spoken by artists, like Brian, and poets, whose works are informed by rich symbolism. Discovering it through study, through looking within ourselves, and through interaction with faeries not only teaches us the language of Faery, of art, and of high poetry, but is also gives us keys to our own psychic abilities and to the deep levels of our own psyches, where the Singers and the creative force of Unity are most easily found.

Through revelation and the ecstatic experience of the mystic, Lasite faces and leads us into the future. She prefers to let the old stuff of the past fade away in the illumination of insight and newly accessed wisdom.

You may be finding apparently random events and ideas are falling into a pattern and beginning to make sense to you. Things may be flowing more easily than you are accustomed to, and your decisions and choices may be bringing an unusually high degree of success. Psychic abilities- hunches, intuitions, foreknowings- are becoming clearer and making more sense. Trust the process.

Lasite also brings the psychic dreams, forelighting the future and illumining the present. These dreams often speak in symbols, as faeries are wont to do.”*

by Brian Froud and Jessica MacBeth

When the realm of Faery is involved as our guides, we are reminded to expect the unexpected! Faeries take their jobs seriously, but as they do so, they love to have a bit of fun while they are at it. They love to shake things up, and make us see things from a different angle; and they love to do it in a way that we simply cannot ignore! Obstacles or challenges may actually be doors to new opportunity as we are re-routed through interesting and amazing circumstances!

Buckle up!

Dee

~Archangel Oracle

[go-diane-winchester]

How can Wincest fans be against the idea of Dean being bisexual even though they pair him with Sam?  They are both men after all.

@sage-speight-trickster-jr​  Thank you very much for going through all the trouble of unblocking me just to ask this question.  Although, I have answered the question before, it seems that the answer was not circulated amongst the destiel shippers and the destihellers.  If you could kindly facilitate for me, I would appreciate that, because it would mean not having to answer the question again in the future.  I would also like to be very thorough in this answer so please bear with me. 

Just to clarify, I am not a Wincest fan, however as sage pointed out, I approve of it and that is because they haven't [to my knowledge] shown any form of aggression and violent intent towards my boys or even Misha for that matter.  I have been told by hellers that ''evil bibros'' threaten Misha, but when asked for receipts, the claimants disappear.  It happens every time like clockwork.     

Jensen Ackles, that ''uptight homophobe'' who hates anything destiel-related, was very eloquent about Wincest, when he was asked about it years ago: 

Jensen might have not realized this but he understands slash fiction more than he thinks.  Slash fiction, like bara etc, fall under the category of fan fiction.  Slash is a more intimate form of fan fiction because it has to do with the slash fan rather than the pairing.  There are personal factors that destiel fans don’t consider.  These factors were second nature to Wincest fans, because Wincest is a classic slash ship, and it followed the rules of classic slash.  What's more, no external person interfered with this ship and it therefore remained true to itself.  And Jensen, somehow, just understood these factors.  Wincest fans and Jensen are both in agreement as to what Wincest is supposed to be.  It is fiction.  It is a hot fantasy.  As Jensen said, Wincest fans don't think Dean and Sam are gay.  This is where the factors come into play and why destiel shippers get it wrong.

Slash is born from love

In order to ship a pairing, you have to like both people in the pairing.  Wincest fans understand that not everyone is going to think Sam and Dean are a sexual turn-on.  It might shock some people to realize, that there is someone in the world, who thinks Jensen, for example, is an ugly pig-of-a-face.  He might be sexually offputting to this person, for some reason.  So a person like this won't ship Jensen with anyone.  Why would you ship someone who doesn't turn you on?  Sometimes one of the pairing might look like a relative, or a former sexual harasser, or an enemy the shipper hates from where she works.  It is therefore, understandable, that the shipper will not have a single sexual thought about that guy.   It happens. 

If someone has that opinion about Jared for example, they wont like Wincest, J2, Mishalecki, Sastiel, Sabriel, Sevin or any other pairing Jared and Sam are a part of.  Sometimes, the shipper might like one person too much and not care about anyone else.  Nobody is good enough for her boy, but since slash fiction makes her happy, she slashes him with himself.  I have seen Jensen, Jason Teague, Alec and Dean Winchester all slashed in very imaginative pairings.  That is like a four-cheese pizza for someone who is crazy about fromage, and a puke-fest for someone who hates cheese.  

There might be other reasons why a slash fan wont be attracted be a guy.  She might not like what she considers to be Jensen's grumpy unfriendliness.  Maybe she just doesn't like Jared's long, floppy hair.  All the above apply to Misha as well.  They may not like his looks, his verbosity, the way he dresses.  The reasons are varied.  Not everyone is going to be attracted to the same guys.  If one part of the pairing is blergh! to the shipper, the shipper is not going to like the pairing.  Wincest fans recognize that everyone watches the show for different reasons.  Some fans watch the show for the paranormal element, not to ogle the boys and their epic chemistry.   

So wincest shippers don't force their ship on others.  I have been approached by fans who said they entered Supernatural via the destiel door, because the hellers seem to recruit shippers, but when they watched the show, they found Sam and Dean had more appealing and stronger chemistry and that Destiel didn't seem to cause a blip in the radar.  They aren't right.  They aren't wrong.  They are merely giving their opinion.  Wincest fans understand slash fiction.  They understand that slash is based on  love for both characters.  That is the first and foremost requirement.  If the shipper don't love either of the boys, the ship is not happening.  Some fans like Dean and Sam and Cas, and so we have Wincestial.  This is what Wincest shippers understand and destiel shippers don't.

Slash is a personal expression of love. 

You can’t force it on anyone.  Destiel won’t be for everyone because some people might not like Dean for some reason.  Or they might not like Cas.  In either of the scenarios, Destiel will be an offputting thing.  They wont like destiel, because it doesn't turn them on.  Wincest fans understand that some people may not find wincest appealing, not because of the fraternal thing but because of their own opinion on the characters.  Some fans might think that Dean is too smothering and possessive of Sam.  Some fans might think that Sam is too indifferent and ungrateful of Dean.  Neither are wrong in their opinions.  That is how they interpret the story.  If a fan has these thoughts and just cant stand one of the brothers, they won't like Wincest.  This is the most common sense thing about slash fiction that Destiel fans don't seem to understand.

Slash is unique and changes from person to person.

Even amongst the wincest fans, how they love wincest is different.  Some of them enthusiastically slash Smith and Wesson, so they can bypass the incestual [a word I learned from Jensen] thing and still have their boys.  Some fans go through all the trouble of writing a story where [for example] John kills Azazel and wants his boys off the road and in a home, only to realize that Sam was one of Azazel's psychic kids and not his own child.  And Dean has to take Sam and escape so Gordon and other hunters can't find Sam.  Of course, the entire story is written just to facilitate the idea that Sam and Dean are not brothers and therefore can fall in love. 

Some fans don't care about dealing with the brother thing, and just barrel on through the story with terrific indifference.  The point is that, because they have such scattered points of views on what their ideal Wincest scenario is, they don't force the idea on others, especially the studio.  They understand that what is appealing to one wincest fan is not going to be appealing to another.  They understand that SPN cant please everyone.  So they ask for nothing.  And in an individual's fantasies, Dean and Sam can swing whichever way the slash fan wants.  

Fantasy is not about realism.  It is escapist.

Hence, the use of the word fantasy.  In fact, Jensen's analysis of Wincest ties in, with my definition of slash fiction, which is: 

It is an escapist, fantastical platform for female sexual expression, by women for women, about male subjects in a romantic setting.

I understand there are other definitions, but this one corresponds with straight and bi women.  I have seen destiel fans scoff at this definition but not give me a reason why.  The ABO trope and mpreg are proof of this.  Sam and Dean are not part of a wolf pack.  That is unrealistic.  But it is a fun little fantasy, for those who like that sort of thing.  Sometimes they aren't even men.  They get gender swapped for fun, by people who like gender swapping. 

Wincest fans don't disrespect canon. If its canon, they [like any other levelheaded fan] will respect it.  I count some destiel fans [not destihellers] amongst the levelheaded fans.  Wincest fans don't clash with canon or write reams of meta about how the canon should be interpreted.  They understand that subtext differs according to an individual's wants, desires and prejudices.  You can't convince others that there is subtext in a particular scene.  They have to find it themselves.  Of course, you can present your subtext, but tagging it in the main tags is equal to forcing the subtext on other people.  And that is wrong.   I get too many complaints about that.

Remember, if you present your subtext, meta and headcanon like it is fact, you are misleading people.  If someone disagrees with you because you are presenting the aforementioned as fact, it is not because they hate your ship.  It is because you are saying something that is based purely on your opinion, and some spectacularly gullible and horny young person is going to harass Jensen with this.  Take for example, the Dr Sexy question.  It was born as a headcanon.  Because nobody questioned it, one impressionable creature thought that it has to be the gospel truth.  I mean, no one was cross-examining the points put forward.  The only people complaining were those ''homophobic'' bibros who found it in the main tags.

This kid probably thought ''aha, I got him now'' when she asked the question to Jensen.  Why do you need to ''get'' him?  Why does he have to approve of your opinion?  If the headcanon had been opened to interpretation, that ignorant kid would have never made a fool of herself and her ship.  Jensen would not have to point out that a male fan of another man doesn't necessarily want to sleep with him.  This is common sense, but it escaped the kid.  I wager that some heller reading the question directed to me probably said ''aha, sage has got her now''.  I wonder if they will stick around to read the whole answer.  Remember, if you are presenting your subtext to like-minded people and only getting applaud, it doesn't give credulity to the subtext.   

According to canon, Dean says to Hendrickson ''You kinky SOB, we don't swing that way'' referring to both him and Sam.  Now, it would be fun to argue that this statement is presumptuousness on Dean's part, but we keep that fun argument to ourselves.  In fact, I did a post on that same topic, purely for fun, because I came across the topic.  Even then, I pointed out that it is a fun little discourse, and not a topic to harass Jared with.  After all, he didn't write the post.  We don't tweet the CW execs and demand to know why Sam doesn't have a boyfriend yet, preferably someone who is part of our fanon ship. 

We also don't violate Jared's personal space at cons, with entitled questions regarding Sam's sexuality because both Jared and Jensen have explicitly asked that the cons should be family-friendly and therefore shipping and sexuality questions should not be asked.  They also don't want to give the impression that SPN is about ships.  They are not queer baiting at all, just doing their jobs with honesty.  Wincest fans love the boys and acknowledge that forcing Wincest will make the boy uncomfortable.   Not only is it ethically wrong to force something sexual on other people, especially two friends, because it might hurt that friendship.  It  will definitely make the boys hate them and they don't want that. 

That is one big reason, I respect the Wincest fans.  They don't sexually violate the boys with their fantasies.  And yes they do consider asking prying questions about shipping to Jensen and forcing him to sign NSFW art at autos as a form of sexual violation.  A woman would be protected from this, but because Jensen is a man,[a straight, white one no less], who cares about his dignity, right?  If he speaks up for himself, he's a homophobe.  And before you call me a white racist for saying that, understand that I am a Muslim South African of Indian descent. 

Wincest fans don't use representation as an excuse for badgering the boys or the cast and crew.  I know of fans [both Wincest and neutral] who are LGBT and who resent that the LGBT are being used as a means to harass Jensen into accepting a fanon ship.  We all agree that the LGBT is being used as an excuse.  It always surprises me how Jensen and the Wincest fans, get each other.  They both agree on what Wincest is. Wincest fans understand that wincest was born in their fantasies. Jensen agrees with that.  Wincest fans agree that the boys are straight in canon.  Jensen agrees with that.  There is an understanding between the leads and their fans.  An understanding between the fan and No. 5 on the call sheet, doesn't mean destiel is going to be canon.

Wincest fans won't demand canon wincest for the following reasons:

According to canon, the boys are straight.  Wincest fans value the text, over the subtext.  They don't look at shirt colors, blocking, parallels etc.  If the character says he is straight, forcing the writers to change that, to feed you kink, is wrong.  So the wincest fans don't do that.  They just enjoy how sexy Dean and Sam [Jared and Jensen] are together and use them as inspiration for an awesome love story.  They understand that interpretation changes from person to person.  Not everyone is going to see things the same way.  

It might shock you to know that some wincest fans are actually against incest and find the idea of it being endorsed on screen unethical.  It may not bother Jensen [he like Game of Thrones after all] but it sure as heck bothers some of his wincest fans.  Its safe as a fantasy, but they would prefer not to see that ethical tug of war happen on screen. 

The show can't fulfill every subsection's fantasy.  There are many fantasies flying around in fandom, and pleasing everyone is not feasible Wincest fans are aware of that because it is common sense.  That is why some people consider hellers to be selfish.  They only care about their fantasy and not the integrity and longevity of the show.  Why would a business please one subsection and put off everyone else.  It is best to remain neutral.  That makes good business sense.  SPN has done that and lasted 14 years.  So they wont change it now.  Just think about that.  If it aint broke, don't fix it.  Wincest fans understand that some people like shipping, some don't but keep their opinions to themselves whilst other hate it and are vocal about their disgust.  Everyone likes Sam and Dean for different reasons.  Its not always sexual.  One fan said she [I think it was a she] wanted Sam and Dean to be her big brothers so that they could go to her school and beat up all the bullies who beat her up.  Side note:  the institution of schooling should be banned.  It is a social torture device.

Wincest fans don't treat the boys like sex toys.  They don't ask for intimate poses during photo ops.  They treat their boys with respect.  And I think the relationship has become reciprocal between the boys and their Wincest fans.  It is a 14 year marriage that has never had much upheaval because it is not a relationship based on coercion.  Jensen doesn't shoot the wincest fans down for their fantasies, and recently even said I love you to Sam in canon.  Dean has canonically said I love you only twice: once to Mary, but that was also coupled with I hate you.  Wincest fans are not screeching at CW about it.  They enjoyed the moment and moved on. 

This is a nice segue into headcanons.  Headcanons are fun if you treat them as such, but you need to understand that every headcanon is opinion-based and can be argued away.  Even Wincest ones.  Wincest fans don't use their headcanons that they cooked up in their minds, as a pro-Wincest argument for the boys to fight against.  That would be like saying ''how can you not agree with the thoughts in my head''.  One headcanon that many Destiel fans have, is that destiel is canon, because of the scrapped I love you in the Crypt episode.  They don't seem to understand that the fact that Jensen forcefully scrapped the line, actually proves the opposite.  

Jensen doesn't want canon destiel.  He removed the line without any consultation with writers.  But he didn't remove the I love line in the new episode, which was directed at Sam.  Why is that?  Why didn't Jensen scrap that line?  Maybe it has to do with the fact that, when Destiel fans threaten to kill him, wincest fans try to fight them off and protect Jensen.  It has nothing to do with canon or fanon.  It has to do with your overall entitled behavior.  Jensen would prefer not to hear about shipping.  He has no real emotional stake is shipping.  His opinion on ships is basely purely on how the shippers behave.  And Wincest shippers don't behave aggressively. 

The difference between how Jensen handles the wincest fans and how Misha handles the destiel fans is quite stark.  Jensen, even in the above monologue about wincest, does not encourage Wincest fans.  However, whilst letting them know his opinion on shipping, he doesn't discourage them either opting to say  ''But that is why its called fiction''.  Jensen is extremely neutral, diplomatic and I have to say, extremely intelligent.  Its his way of telling the fans ''have your fun, but don't ask me about it''.  The wincest fans listened and have kept their fantasies and headcanons to themselves for 14 years.  They didn't interpret his words on a direct instruction to them.  He said it.  They did it.  That's it.   

Misha does the complete opposite.  He was instructed not to tell anyone about the scrapped line because the crew knows what the destiel fans are like.  Misha still made sure he said it, even telling people ''I am not supposed to tell you this''.  Because he didn't respect an instruction given to him, Jensen got ambushed and abused for it online.  Misha did that to keep his destiel audience, but he alienated everyone else.  Not a smart person, because he is putting off potential fans of his who might not like shipping.  

He doesn't realize that not every fan likes slash fiction and that not everyone is watching Supernatural for slash reasons.  They just like the show as is.  It also shows how little he cares for his co-worker's well being because he didn't think twice before throwing Jensen under the bus.  Misha is one reason, people don't like Destiel.  They don't like the guy that plays Cas.  There may be other factors.  But that one stands out the most. I know that there was repetitiveness in this post, but I hope it answers the question as thoroughly as possible.   

[constablegoo]

alright so i have. a lot of questions and thoughts on changeling physiology

tldr it’s quite unorganized so; asexual reproduction, shifting is a natural instinct but can be expanded through study and discipline, Form is easier to reproduce than Function, changelings passively absorb energy via background radiation, conservation of mass... ha, energy efficiency, regeneration is an aware but subdued/vulnerable state, you can sneak up on odo but not most changelings, exaggerated and inhuman movement, language and body language learning, Viscosity tm, vital organs exist, injury and physical tolerance, focusing the senses...

asexual reproduction. loads of possibilities here. they might split in two (which could mean they’re really all clones of one another or else slight variations on an original) or lob a bit of themselves off which then begins to form a new individual. they might fragment off and start growing more individuals from themselves until they’re mature enough to carry on, or they might produce spores!!! OR they might reproduce the way coral do. the main complication is that this is meant for simple or single-celled organisms and also maybe leaves them all more vulnerable to that Clone Problem of being wiped out by a single virus. but perhaps their ability to mimic other types of dna is involved in providing new individuals with a robust enough mix of original genes to be baseline Adaptable

also a problem with simple organisms is that they propagate Extremely quickly and tend to be short-lived and. unintelligent (think fruit flies) so - changelings could have a fair few ‘simple organism’ traits but are ofc complex in reality

the mimicry -- do they actually become the material?? if you scan a changeling as a rock, they have the make up of a rock. but what about more complex materials? or systems? like fire? that requires energy input. im gonna go with: 1. depends on skill level 2. some things like fire they can mimic visually, maybe even with proper light and heat, but does take energy to do so.

speaking of which HOW do they get energy. i think i rambled about this a little in another post, but basically im going with the idea that they’re sort of filter feeders on the dust of the universe... they’re just VERY energy-efficient and collecting these little bits of radiation being thrown around space is a passive activity. i.e. odo probs wouldnt even know he does it, even though he does it constantly.

um. conservation of mass. the biggest thing ive seen odo turn into is that blob-monster, which was maybe 10′x10′ ? 15 at most? large, but probably somewhat unstable, and not huge. the smallest thing in canon is probably the mouse. ive seen the idea that humanoid-formed odo might be. hollow? there’s no need for him to actually form internal organs or any of that, its all surface-level, and besides. if we’re going with the idea that they can reproduce Form more than Function, they wouldnt actually work. he doesnt even eat anyway, so why waste that kinda energy?

that said!! there are probably some basic object functions they can reproduce. im gonna say that maybe your average changeling isnt going to be able to make a microwave that actually microwaves (not without a great deal of practice and scientific understanding), but could more easily become a lamp, for instance, that does actually turn on. that means they have some ability for bioluminescence, but again that requires energy and would shorten the time they can hold that shape.

regeneration obvs. is a chance to re-acquire energy, but we’re told odo doesnt sleep - it’s still a resting state, but maybe he’s still at least somewhat aware of his surroundings, if a bit unable to focus. he certainly seems to still undergo thought processes, etc. but if attacked in this state, he’ll be quite vulnerable, esp if he’s just reached hour 16, but he wont be completely defenseless. WAY more likely to hide than retaliate though, esp depending on where in the cycle he happens to be at the time -- even if that werent also kinda his personality. maybe its like bein rly rly rly tired but ur brain wont keep quiet.

kinda enjoy the idea of changelings becoming a little translucent or misshapen when they zone out. it takes some effort, practice, skill to remain present. a habit!

im sure he doesnt really bother to maintain constant humanoid-shape unless someone’s likely to look at him. could see him MAYBE being caught unawares, on occasion, whoops. very rarely, but how embarrassing

on that note, if you’re able to sneak up on odo and surprise him, he might momentarily jump a little out of shape (like a cartoon, exaggerated). other emotions like disgust or haughtiness might come off a little exaggerated too

at large, humanoid body language is a learned language for changelings, even if they can pick it up very quickly

odo’s got his humanoid walk cycle down pretty good but probably not perfectly, actually. i sort of imagine it could be a little more flowing -- not always -- but if he’s doing something he normally doesnt do, he moves a little less like a human bc he hasnt practiced it enough

ok whats the viscosity of changelings? like..... really runny and liquidy? j.... jelly? i kinda refer back to single-celled organisms again. cytoplasm w control.

in fact odo probably has some very simple (or maybe very complex, considering, but able to disguise themselves accordingly. so simple-appearing?) organs going on in there as well as cytoplasm of some sort

they dont sweat, they dont bleed, they dont smell, they dont taste, they dont sleep

they DO see, hear, are tactile, and feel most emotions that humans do. some of that emotions stuff is cultural

losing a little tiny bit of themselves (injury, i.e., a bit chopped off by a weapon) probs doesnt really hurt much more than getting a scrape, but if u like chop em in half thats gonna be Bad. but most surface level damage is just like getting a haircut or something, no pain. re: that scene with odo stopping the turbolift like.... that could’ve been painful

FOCUS!! sight, sound, etc - im writing senses as things that dont necessarily need to be located in the. face. bc they dont. but im thinking odo tends to concentrate it of course to better interact with others. that means technically - he could. .. . ‘accumulate light sensors’ and see out the back of his head, for instance, even without forming eyes, but because odo’s odo and he’s really trying to fit in he usually wont do that sort of thing and you can still sneak up on him. sometimes he even forgets he can do that kind of thing, when he’s humanoid-formed (unless he’s startled -- then he might revert to more ‘natural’ reactions) - bc he really hasnt spent any time with his people at all

this doesnt even get into the Great Link and changelings being a little bit touch-psychic

another thought !! i like the idea of one limitation being that he has to have seen / experienced in-person / studied / encountered / been exposed to an object, person, or animal to really become it. that’s where skill comes in -- some things are going to come very naturally, like shapes that are common in the universe such as rocks or. plants, in star trek .  they can learn by description or by looking at images and making their best guess, but its not gonna be totally accurate. so - some shapes come from study, like humanoids, and others come more by instinct like rocks and dirt and water, like learning to talk.

so when did odo meet a klingon targ omg

also means they are instinctually EXCELLENT observers, both of material and behavior

but imagine a bird or smth speaking in odos voice yikes

speaking of speaking, odo speaks bajoran and doesnt really know any other languages on his own, except workable cardassian. i.e. he’d have to learn to speak seagull

what if bc odo’s learning and sort of stunted in skill bc of his upbringing and inhibitions his face is..... actually made of latex, sometimes, like when he needs to save energy he goes Low Poly Rendering cos its close enough, and easier, and he’s interacted with plenty of latex and other Made materials bc he’s hardly lived at all anywhere that wasnt built-up by life forms. (probs partly why he seems so interested in practicing other animals and plants -- natural shapes are not shapes he’s been as exposed to, so they’re more interesting - and dynamic - than say, furniture / appliances)

he gives off no body heat, but neither is he cold. room temp, with a wide tolerance

can survive in space and vacuums

they seem somewhat naturally stronger than humans, esp as a sturdy material

some of them can become a magnet, thats just aligning poles / can then reproduce some basic electronics functions

at least they seem to have pretty comparable intelligence to humans so that’s relatable

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

Everything Seems Okay Now

I had decided to check to see if the tumblr page would be still you know “not visible, unless ya sign in.” and it turns out, it is visible now to even those who are not signed in yet.

I’m glad that everything is back to normal now, I was concerned about what was going on with “we are a cult now” that belongs to esthyradler.

at least when I try to check out the page now, it wont just keep taking me to the dashboard and only showing a “link image.”

and no matter how much I try to go to a page, it would just take me back to the dashboard.

it does seem it is fixed now and everything is fine now, I’m glad. :)

and as for what made me pretty upset before finding that whole thing that happen before, the thing that has to do with family...

well I know I shouldn’t let it get to me, but it’s like it can’t be helped that if I do let it really get to me in a negative way, I will end up feeling really sad and crying.

I mean we can’t choose who our ancestors are, but if a few of them did evil actions, then their descendants shouldn’t be made to feel bad and be labeled the same as them just because they are blood.

 and well besides that, it is the thoughts of my soul’s creation being a accident.

which the very thought, made me cry, heck even something that made me feel like I would be going through another “abandonment by dad” all over feeling, got to me when I read something that had some info about the princess bride.

some dads and moms have a good excuse not to live with their ex-spouse and the child they had together, but for others....not so much.

if the mom is a total witch (the bad kind of witch, not the good kind.)

and ups and CHEATS on her husband with another man, while they still have a kid, who probably doesn’t know how much a disgusting human their mother is, who doesn’t deserve to be in the same room as him.

I’m talking about someone who was once my older sister-in-law, and she better stay as far away as possible....

the reason my big bro can’t see his own kid, is because of that woman.

cheating two-face witch.

like I said, some parents have a good excuse as to why they aren’t able to see their child.

my dad didn’t have that excuse, he could of seen me at any time when I was really little, I only met him once...and that was it.

if a parent doesn’t have a better reason and a good enough excuse to not see their kid, and just up and leaves because the other spouse doesn’t want to move to where they want to and wants to stay put, then they should respect the decision.

then maybe it is lucky to have at least one parent, that stuck by you and didn’t make you feel abandoned when you finally realize what your other parent did wasn’t okay or right.

even if it’s okay for both your parents not to be together anymore, the other parent should of at least visited or came to see you after you were born and tried to be a part of your life, since they didn’t have a better or good enough excuse to not be able to be there before.

anyway I let that whole “Plantagenet being The Devil’s Brood”, get to me too.

I should try not to let it get to me, and apparently there is a book that some person wrote that involves the plantagenet house, wouldn’t be surprised if they go to make one that is titled Plantagenet: Descendants of The Devil’s Brood.

I had enough to deal with when it came to that “Saint”

who if I remember right, was called Bernard.

though not all men of the holy robes/cloth, will be “saintly”

even if there are some Pastors/Priests that you can trust

and know they are good people.

but there are some who bring shame, who turn out to be disgusting predators.

oh and even if I did mention this over at deviantart, and I don’t think I mentioned it here....but so far I am not able to find a gem that can block psychic abilities.

I know so far there are gems that can increase and enhance the psychic abilities.

but I don’t think it be good for those who are, unable to truly control them on certain times when they become too negative.

there should be a gem that blocks it’s owner’s most dangerous psychic abilities, but when taking the gem off and placing a little away from you or even walking far enough away, your psychic abilities are no longer block, but if you feel like you are about to have another dangerous episode, then you must hurry and put it back on, to keep those you love and everyone else safe.

and just because your son/daughter/child, get seizures, it doesn’t necessarily mean it’s going to be the normal every day kind.

I had figured out that my seizures had to do with the negative energy of where I had first lived at when I was a baby.

I believe now that not only it had to do with strong non-human negative energy,  but I believe now, that it might of had to do with people too.

and I believe now, when I had been visiting my grandmother (who is no longer with us.) and sleeping over there, I might of been absorbing the negative energy and it could of had a play on some seizures, that is a possibility.

but even in the second town that we lived in, my seizures would still happen, but like in some parts of town they would, but on other parts of the town they wouldn’t at all.

and ever since moving to the third town we are now, my seizures have seem to have stopped all together.

but I had wonder about if it is possible to get a phantom feeling, like the sense that if you don’t leave a room right now that is forming negative energy, you will have a seizure.

in theory, when your small like a baby or a little bit older but still a small child, you can’t fight back very strong negative energies from both humans and other worldly beings.

I did say before that my mom had went to visit a place that was some cemetery, and I had ended up turning the wrong way while she was pregnant with me.

I believe that babies even those who are still in the womb, are able to sense danger of evil energy, and you know if your baby who is not even born yet might be slightly lactose intolerant, there is a chance that you will become one too, after your baby is born.

I’m pretty sure the reason why my mom was able to feel evil from that cemetery, after I was born, was because of that type of thing.

I mean I know my mom said when she was little she use to see things, like some black shadow, like I think she explained it was like a smokey mist?

I will need to ask, but I think it is something close to that.

in the second town we use to live at, she would see things, which I think in the places she would see abnormal things, I think it might of been one of the places where my seizures would start, and it turns out when she was a kid, she would get seizures too, but I think over time they stopped when she got older.

I think I might of been more sensitive, but when I was starting to have my first seizure when I was a baby, she was away out of the house but then came back home because she could sense something was wrong.

 and there was the time when my older brother was in danger when he was a baby, and she wasn’t even in the same room as him, and somehow she could “See” what was going to happen, and she went to where he was and stop him just in time.

I think there is a possibility that my mom has some form of abilities, not sure if my brother has it, but there is a possibility I inherited it from her, but it is possible I am more sensitive.

it’s fine that no one believes that kind of stuff, but I strongly want to get a gem that can block some psychic abilities, but only if the gem is being held and even worn like as a ring or necklace.

 I believe it was this year, that when we almost had a tornado, when I was told by family of course it made me scared.

then while praying for it not to happen at all, and then going outside my room and to where my family were, I was told that the tornado had switched direction.

it did give me some relief, I am not saying having psychic abilities are 100% bad.

but some can be dangerous in some people, and it is best to have something that can help better control it and even seal them, the power will still be there but it will be blocked, so it doesn’t end up hurting those around you.

I think I should still try to hope that whole it raining, thundering and lightning (which the lightning did end up breaking our wi-fi, and making us have to get a new one.) some time after I was in a really sad and crying mood, is just a coincidence, but I still don’t want to take any chances and I want to try to get a gem that will block any possible weather psychic abilities that has to do a person’s emotions.

 I suppose it could be seen as “magic” and in a way, those abilities are like magic, a magic that can be used for good, but left without the proper control, could be very dangerous.

Carrie White from the movie series Carrie, had this “magic”

and when those disgusting humans broke her beyond her breaking point, she snaps and ends up killing everyone at the dance, save for the girl named Sue.

I hope to get the movie of Carrie where she and Sue end up as friends,

maybe I can the other movies of Carrie too.

at least one of the versions of her mother, wasn’t just punishing her for the pleasure of it. and still loved her, unlike the other versions of Carrie’s mom.

Carrie’s Mom, is a toxic-christian, but it might be possible the version that actually loves Carrie and even hates abusing her, might be a less toxic-christian.

I think that those who are less toxic-religious, are the most likely to turn over a new leaf and become better human beings because they still have good in their heart, but for those who are like the super toxic-religious types like the versions of Carrie’s Mother who doesn’t love her at all.

there is possibly no hope for them, as they are stuck in the ways that end up hurting those who are innocent.

the problem with most toxic-religious people (that give others a bad name.)

is that they try to force convert others,  

converting should be of the person’s own free will and not be threaten either by passive-aggressive or full aggressive.

plus even if some my not agree, but I think I can have friends who are religious and those who aren’t at all.

I mean I guess in a way I had “converted” into something that had open my eyes to the imbalance of the masculine and feminine.

 I mean yes, I still believe in God but I also believe in she who is the Earth Mother.

plus I will not let some toxic-christian like from a few years ago, make me feel bad about believing in her too, and lucky for me they wont be keep doing that whole “may god have mercy on you” right at me, because I had blocked them.

even when they did that the first time, and I said how bad it made me feel, they still ended up doing it again and that is why I had to block them.

just because I believe in a Goddess now, and the fact I see myself as both my birth gender and non-binary, doesn’t mean they should misuse those words.

plus after taking a quiz, that says I am Gray-Sexual/romantic.

I think I might be a type of Gray-Aceflux, I even took another quiz that has to do with my gender identity, even if it didn’t have “Gyno-Agender” in it, at least I don’t think it does, maybe not even Andro-Agender.

what I had got in the quiz for that, is Juxera.

I suppose it is possible I am that, I guess a person can be Gyno-Agender/Juxera.

there is the Intersex/non-binary gender identity, so I believe that is possible too.

I even did a drawing of both the gender identity and sexuality/romantically flags yesterday, and edited it a little just now to add my tumblr name on it.

I plan to post it both here and over at another place.

so after I do post this, I will be posting the flags next.

I am thinking about praying for a new gem that can better control and block dangerous psychic abilities, I mean there was one of those Lemurian crystal that helps nurture the feminine side of men and non-binary.

(the feminine side, doesn’t have to do with the biological organic binary, so please do not misunderstand.)

a gem that accept non-binary people, is the best thing ever, it is like the Earth Mother loves us no matter what our gender identity or sexuality is, she loves us and might even hate knowing that some of us will have to keep that true part of ourselves from most of our friends and family that we have real life contact with.

 it’s like after you discover your true self, both gender identity and sexuality, it might be easy to share that part of yourself online but not in Real Life.

it scares you that those who you love dearly that are family, might hate you or try to “fix” you by having you feel extremely bad and perhaps put you back in the very dark place of depression that lasted up until December of 2017, and that is a dark place you really REALLY don’t want to go back to.

I remember something that happen when I was little, that might of been a sign of my own sexuality, I believe it happen before I even turned 10 years old.

but it is something I didn’t truly realize or understood, and I think after a certain thing that happen, I think I had in a way blocked it and forgot about it and the sign that showed my sexuality, well given that I was a little kid at the time

the correct term wouldn’t be sexuality, but still being a feeling of interest that is like a crush.

well when I did get a bit older and had some crushes on some guys, and even having my heart broken by guys online, I have no interest in pursuing a relationship unless I know I can fully trust them with my heart.

and they understand I might not be able to have the perfect relationship with them.

and if I don’t want to have “woohoo” with them when I am not ready or if I am in the mood when I am not interested in doing such actions, then they should respect that.

and yes I use the term woohoo, which is from the Sims game series.

plus what if I end up with a bad person who might try to take advantage of me while we are sleeping next to each other after we get married, even if there can be some who would never do that at all, I just don’t want to risk that.

some of you know about me talking about what happen around 2015, when we were in the middle of moving and I was alone in the car and I was having a panic attack, because I was scared of the possibility of becoming a victim of rape, I know I did end up hitting my head on the inside of the roof of the car if I remember correctly.

I think I have got a bit better controlling it, but I still don’t like being alone in the car by myself, because I’m scared of the worse things happening if I don’t have someone there with me.

 I know I have a phobia of rape, heck even finding out about corrective rapist is scary and makes me mad that there are humans who do that, even doing it to a person who is a virgin.

I don’t think it is just men who do that, and it is possible women do that too, and they should be just as punished as the men who do it.

I want to protect my virginity, from men who are rapist (and corrective rapist)

and from the thing that happen that felt too real that scared me awake as soon as it was starting.

I think I was still asleep but at the same time I was “awake”,

like being more self aware even in sleep.

yes in my dream where I saw nothing but darkness and felt something, too real. it end up scaring me awake, it is one of the reasons I had got another gem that helps protect from those types of stuff.

I even had decided to have extra protection by getting a gem that is in a shape of a angel, that is suppose to protect from sex demons.

 I should try to believe it was just one of those nightmares that was only starting a bit and never really got the chance to truly finish, because the touch being too real, ended up scaring me awake.

 I sleep with the gem shaped like a angel under my pillow, so it can protect me while I sleep.

and I do wonder if it is possible for the star of david to end up on the palm of a person’s hand, I mean would it be just his descendants or would even those who aren’t blood related to him would get it too...?

like it being there when they were born, but them not really taking notice of it unless finding it in hidden sight on the palm.

and what would it mean if it’s on the right palm and like in the lower middle part of the “M” pattern of the palm...?

 and what would it mean when you have a cross pattern on one palm of the hand and on your other hand there is a star...?

like I know there is info about those two, but what would it mean when a person has both...? guess I am just curious.

 I think I should try not to let the whole “Plantagenet” thing get to me too much, I mean yeah I am a descendant of that house, and I should hope there will be more people who know that just because there were bad people in that house back years ago, it wouldn’t be right to make those who are descendants of that house, be made to feel like garbage.

plus the house of David ain’t exactly 100% saintly either.

and I am a descendant of that house too, which is through Solomon.

I don’t think Solomon had ever “hurt” his wives or concubines.

not that I know of, and plus I think it is blessing that I will not be on that throne of David.

maybe I should be thankful to the ones who had got my 99th Great-Grandfather Rehoboam off the throne, some might think it is a punishment to Solomon for having foreign wives, but me it is a freaking blessing.

  in the words of Homer Simpson, WOOHOO!

I do have a 14th Great-Grandfather who was a King, but I’m not saying who.

but I will say their current house was not called David or even Plantagenet.

but it is not likely those who are a 14th Great-Grandfather of a King or Queen, will be one of those next in lines to the throne, and I’m pretty sure even if it were, it wouldn’t be possible because of certain reasons.

not that I can complain, even if a person is technically a princess or prince but not given the official title, it’s better that those who you made friends with and everyone else, still treat you as you and the person you are and not just by some purple bloodline, I say purple bloodline because technically I shouldn’t be consider blue blood because of what the term blue blood really means.

so I like to refer myself as “Purple Blood”, it might be strange to some but it makes sense.

plus there was that whole man who says he was the rightful king of England, dude you ain’t the only heir and the next guy who says the same thing just because he finds out he is part of the Plantagenet House, shouldn’t think he is the “true and only heir” and should just take the throne from Queen Elizabeth.

even if she should step down one day, it wouldn’t be to those who have selfish reasons on wanting to be king or queen.

even if a king, queen, empress or emperor has power, power means nothing if you don’t protect and give what you are able to, to those who are under your rule and protection.

one or two even three men who discover they are of royal blood, should not try to be king or even take the crown if it is out of power alone and has no selfless reasons.

I don’t think the man who had died before, was one of those who had selfish reasons, unlike the one who all I know about is that he wanted to take over the throne.

and if it does turn out the death of Princess Diana, was not really a accident

and it if does turn out some secret royal police, saw her as a threat and took her out and made it look like a accident, and they feel no remorse about it.

then they shouldn’t get away with it,  but it BETTER not be true and it had better just been freak accident caused by those insensitive paparazzi back then.  

well I suppose they will end up burning in heck possibly if it does turn out that Diana’s death wasn’t accident, while the one man who did feel remorse about it, will be redeemed and maybe even be hug by Diana in forgiveness.

I see that as a possibility, I like knowing and finding out that I have distant cousins like Princess Diana and Weird Al.

well we do got weird in the family, and Weird Al being family makes sense XD

he even did the voices of Cheese Sandwich from MLPFIM and even Wreck-Gar from Transformers Animated.

Wreck-Gar is a precious cinnamon roll that must be protected.

if Undertale gets a cartoon, it be so awesome if Al ended up voicing Papyrus, that would make my day :D

that and the thought of a modern reboot of the movie Roger Rabbit, having Jim Carrey as the Judge Doom.

he was a AWESOME Robotnik in the Sonic The Hedgehog Movie.

I had finally saw that movie and I loved it, and it’s good that they didn’t stick to the first design of the movie Sonic.

a lot of fans were NOT happy with the first design.

but lucky it was fixed just in time before the movie was fully ready.

then again maybe if there was a Undertale Cartoon based off the game,

would Weird Al fit voicing Papyrus or Sans, well Sans can be a bit “humerus”

and Papyrus even has this charm about him even if he has this narcissistic side but he still has a good and loving heart despite it.

but he wasn’t all ways gonna be that way, before the Papyrus we know now in Undertale, he was going to be a jerk with no redeemable qualities.

and his original name was going to be “Times New Roman”     

but picture in your head of Papyrus in Weird Al’s Voice

saying “Sans You Lazy Bones! Get Up And Watch For Humans!”

oh and because of how some villains were defeated or like how what one character uses something or someone as a scapegoat.

I fully see that not all heroes or “good guys” will end doing good and will end up hurting others for the actions they take.

like them being both the hero and the villain of their stories.

I still believe that Cozy Glow’s change was caused by Discord, when she first appeared she wanted to help the Cutie Mark Crusaders get in Twilight’s School by “failing on purpose.”

then when she saw that her actions ended up hurting them and made Twilight believe the three did on purpose, she could of let it keep it that way and choose not to say the truth and that they didn’t make her fail on purpose and it was her own doing because she wanted to be with them, and go to school with them and even make their dreams come true in getting into the school of friendship.

that happen before Cozy Glow became “evil” and that was her first appearance.

I am sorry I am suspicious of Discord, but even if he is technically reformed, it doesn’t mean he is 100% innocent in the part he played.

and he did change the Mane Six from their true selves.

he made Rainbow Dash disloyal.

he made Applejack a pony who only speaks lies and never the truth.

he made Rarity full on crazy greedy.

made Pinkie Pie not cheerful with laughter and made her full on grumpy.

turned Fluttershy into a Meanie and Bully, though despite that she does seem to love her animals because she did say

“Good Boy, Angel, Mama’s So Proud.”

then there is Twilight Sparkle, it did take something more to break her and cause Discord’s magic to change her from her true self, to work.

and when it did, it caused her to want to leave.

I know that some fans have guessed that Sunset represents the element of Empathy.

but what if Twilight’s true element isn’t magic alone.

when we remember how she acted and losing her bright colors after saying “with friends like you, who needs enemies.”

I believe that Twilight’s element of harmony is Hearten.

and when she lost hope and said those words “with friends like you, who needs enemies.”

she became the opposite of that element, and became dishearten.

 but once she read the past letters she had send to Celestia in the past, her true self the Element of Hearten, came back to her. 

I believe that even Sci-Twi represents The Element of Hearten.

and I believe if Sunset had saw Cozy’s memories and feelings in the human world, she might of seen what happen before she turned evil.

I believe Discord changed her, while Twilight and her friends were on that wild goose chase that he send them on.

one of the signs that she had changed and became under his influence, was what she said to the Young Six before they went under the school and was given the test given to them by the Tree of Harmony.

 Discord might of used magic to make it so that her mane and coat stayed the same and didn’t turn grayish, like Twilight and her friends.

and it might be possible that the disharmony magic is still in Twilight and her friends, but in a less evil way.

Pinkie Pie did become less happy and even lose that lively bounce to her mane and tail after her friends told her that they wanted her to stop playing that Musical Yak instrument, but once she started to play it again, she got her laughter and joy back.

it is interesting finding out some info that Pinkie Pie is the Main Protagonist in My Little Pony Life, instead of Twilight Sparkle.

yeah Twilight is still a Alicorn, but she isn’t the Main Protagonist this time, but Pinkie Pie is instead. :)

yeah she is still one of the Main Characters, but she isn’t the protagonist like she was in the start of season 1 of My Little Pony Friendship Is Magic.

I can only hope it wont be like with the whole Teen Titans 2003 vs Teen Titans Go thing.

the only reason I started to even start like Teen Titans 2003 again, is thanks to that crossover movie where the Starfires and Ravens gave a positive interaction with each other.

maybe the reason why the Teen Titans Go show brings up the toxic side of dislike of their show, is because it has more toxicity from the whole Teen Titans 2003 Fandom, then most reboots.

I like the Powerpuff Girls Reboot, even if it did have some hiccups.

the 1998 versions weren’t even the “originals”

plus the originals were going to be darker and had killed The Amoeba Boys, ON PURPOSE.

and their original name wasn’t even “Powerpuff Girls”

and the original name was Whoopa** Stew/Whoopa** Girls.

yes I am kind of censoring, but even if some Fans of the 1998 version of the Powerpuff Girls, might not want to agree and they don’t have to.

but we need to open our eyes that the Powerpuff Girls in the past, had hidden innuendos, so yeah they had hidden Adult Jokes.

like with that episode Members only.

 Stan from Gravity Falls, even brings up that there was Adult Humor that went over kid’s heads, which means some who ain’t little kids will get it and understand it more.

even if some fans of the Powerpuff Girls 1998 series, might have a strong dislike for the reboot, and they don’t have to bring themselves to either but I hope they can respect my and others feelings of liking it.

but the Powerpuff Girls 1998, WASN’T the original the ones that came before it was the original, those Pilot episodes and even the original intro with the original version of The Professor, were one of the first originals.

even Steven Universe had a Original Pilot version of himself, Amethyst, Garnet and Pearl.

even before the Reboot, the Powerpuff Girls went through different Animation Styles and originally they were going to be much taller.

PPG Fans loving the Powerpuff Girls is good, but we shouldn’t just assume that the 1998 versions are the originals when in truth they are not....

they are just one of the Reincarnates of the Incarnations of The First Original Versions.  

they weren’t even originally voiced by the ones that fans love so much and wish had voiced the Powerpuff Girls in the reboot instead.

the original voice actor from the old show of the Powerpuff Girls, that did Him and Professor’s voices, was in the reboot and voiced the reboot versions of Him and Professor Utonium .

 yes I’m talking about Tom Kane, I think some fans already knew that he was a part of the reboot, maybe even before I knew.

and I know it might be strange, but maybe there is a reason why I became addicted to that song ADDICT, that is a Hazbin Hotel Music Video.

(Not For Kids, as it has Mature Themes, it does give a warning in the start of the video.)

 after listening to some Weird Al Music and a few other songs, I am now currently listening to that ADDICT song now.

pretty sure I’m addicted to the madness, too.

well that and the weirdness, but that is what keeps me sane.

this was originally going to be just talking about how glad I am that things are okay now and I wont be taken back to the dashboard when I try to go the tumblr page I’m following.

 but then I started to talk about other stuff.

and since I can’t seem to find a gem that can block/seal psychic abilities, I can only hope and pray that a gem like that will be born soon.

for myself and others who feel there should be one, not just for myself and themselves, but for everyone else too.

anyway I’m going to hurry up and post this up, then next I am gonna post the drawing of the gender identity and sexuality flags.

hope some of you who read this fully, understand my feelings and there is no misunderstandings....I can’t deal with the type of misunderstandings that take things too far and can’t truly be fixed and will end up hurting someone’s feelings because of a miscommunication and misunderstanding.          

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Congratulations, Stella! Both apps for Shae were great in their own ways, but I really liked the way you tied Shae to other characters that weren’t necessarily mentioned in her connections. The depth you added to her character with the discrimination she faces really blew me away. It’s tough to write about, but I think it’s something Shae definitely sees, and I think it’ll be really interesting to see you write more.

Thanks again for applying! Please create your account and send in the link, track the right tags, and follow everyone on the masterlist as soon as you can. Welcome to Foxcroft!

OUT OF CHARACTER Name: Stella Age: 23 (shit) Preferred pronouns: She/her Time zone: EST Activity: I graduated (crap) and have a real job now (fuck) but other than that have a lot of free time (oh god). Anything else?: If you hid a password in here somewhere I totally missed it. IN CHARACTER Full name: Shae McKinley Date of birth: June 23rd 1992 - Gemini/Cancer cusp, 25 years old How long have they been in Foxcroft: Three and a half years, maybe closer to four. Shae doesn’t remember the first day she landed in Foxcroft– dates and the passage of time have always been a touch hazy for the woman more concerned on the so-called “bigger picture”– nor the decision to stay there, yet here she is, and here she’s remained. Sexuality: Fluid as the rest of her. She’s dallied with genders of all sorts, letting relationships and trysts melt into one another as they were wont to. Troubled childhood and turbulent relationships aside, her mother had always been both affectionate and fiercely protective: this bleeds over in earnest into the strange webs she builds between anyone who has won her attention, her affection. Shae has never been shy to make her needs and wants known, for better or for worse, nor has she been afraid to shift her focus from one lover to the next if those needs were not fulfilled. She likes people as much as the next caricature of a grey witch but it’s easier to bleed them dry than to open her chest and grant them permission to return the favour. FC change: Don’t you dare. MORE How do you interpret this character’s personality? How will you portray them? Include two weaknesses and two strengths. (2+ paragraphs)

[+] versatile, charismatic

[-] dishonest, insecure

Shae is a chameleon. In Foxcroft, in this little podunk town where only the people are stranger than the land on which it sits, Shae has been more herself than she remembers being ever before. Something about the ground and the swamp and the wind makes the blood sing through her veins: her Sight has never been stronger than here. Despite it being a gift she’s wished to shed since inception, it feels almost normal in Foxcroft. Calypso has thus become half an extension of herself. Despite deliberately shrouding herself in mystery and seeding contradicting rumours every which way she goes (who wants to visit a psychic that’s little more than the girl next door who burns her pot roast every damn time and tidies her house every Sunday evening?), the perfume oils– Calypso’s Tears– that she slaves over are often small vials of herself in her most pure form. She’s dabbled in modeling scents after mythological creatures– Cassidy Holloway is fond of Helen of Troy, so Shae makes sure to keep a handful of vials in rotation– but since Adam Foxcroft died and his sister swung like a pendulum into the public eye she’s been striving to bottle her thoughts and wishes and dreams. It’s more honest than anything else she has to offer up to Foxcroft and the creatures within it. Scent is tied more closely than any other sense to memory, after all, and if she’s doomed to live within the memories of others, she sees no harm foisting it upon others.

Outside of her shop and the goods within it, Shae is careful to be only what those with eyes upon her want to see. She is a witch, a harlot, a devil, a terrible influence, a sweet promise, a ray of hope, a wealth of information lingering just out of reach from anyone’s grasping fingers save her own. Shae is literally a real psychic masquerading as a fake psychic. She learned from her mother to see with her whole self and reflect back what those who sought her were hungriest for; she has made a small fortune from the small town already, despite half its residents being all but up in arms to protest her presence. The true Shae sits often silent beneath this more-familiar facade: unfamiliar after so long masquerading as someone smarter and stronger, quietly needy, thirsty for affection and honesty despite how much the latter terrifies her to the bone. It’s easier to pretend to be a little more than she is and a little of something she’s not than to show the world the true self and risk rejection of the real her.

How did this character react to the death of Hazel Abrams? Adam Foxcroft? (1+ paragraphs)

Hazel’s death rocked Foxcroft as a whole, and Shae– relatively new to the town as she was– was not immune. She’d seen the little red-haired Saint-incumbent in her own shop before, giggling over ceramic pins boasting terrible puns or books full of love spells interspaced with raunchy testimonials, always with a lost lamb lingering awestruck in her shadow. She liked Hazel well enough but hadn’t been rooted deeply enough in Foxcroft to understand the why behind Hazel’s starry-eyed entourage. All Shae had seen was a young soul doing her best to seem older and wiser than she’d rightly learned to be. It was always a shame to watch a candle burning bright snuffed out far too soon, but Shae had always been more worried about Jonah than Hazel’s soul or the hole she left behind. She had never been brave enough to say Hazel’s name aloud in Jonah’s presence, not since the first time, not since she’d asked if he knew the drowned girl and saw the way his face whitened. Now Amelia Foxcroft’s brother is dead, too, and there is only so much Shae can do to deaden her eyes and ears and dreams from Adam’s call. Fever dreams of yellow bicycles and fire-red hair smack of her Jonah; if her best friend’s fingers had played a part in this new loss, Shae has no desire to be aware of it.

How do they see the town and its people? Think about the different groups of people and prejudices the town holds about them. (1+ paragraphs)

A few notable exceptions aside, Foxcroft is full of marks. Shae gives them what they want, rather than what they need: little white lies that soothe papercut wounds and keep them coming back for more. She reads tarot cards and palm lines and crystal balls, readies little white-witch starter kits of candles and minerals and dried herbs or love potions spiked with edible gold leaf and pink rosehips, adds constantly to the collection of perpetually-dusty spellbooks lining an entire wall of her store. It’s a bandaid fix, but if it soothes their souls and heavies her pockets, what’s the harm in it? Her salves and cures and oddities and services are not geared towards any specific socio-economic circle; the young man scraping by on food stamps is as likely to pick up one of her money talismans as the upper-middle-class mother of two thirsting after this season’s Coach handbag from the closest mall. She’ll humor a request for a numerology chart for the right price and is currently working on two, the first for a highschool girl and the second for a great-grandmother nearing the end of her life. Shae fills a hole in Foxcroft that spans age, class, and the ever-present religious divide. That’s not to say she’s welcome, exactly: for every body that steps past the evil eye hanging in Calypso’s sagging door frame, there are three that glare at her busy store window and tug their children past as if she might corrupt their hungry minds from eye contact alone. (It’s the latter which she’s most likely to wave at so enthusiastically her arm nearly dislocates at her shoulder.) She gets along well enough with her customers, most of whom return sooner or later, but wonders if some of the bullshit she’s endured is more based in her race as opposed her means of breadwinning. Shae had been dragged through the deep south beneath her mother’s wing and is no stranger to the sting of a racial slur. She remembers the fat manager who had grabbed her hand hard enough to bruise when she was barely seven and caught slipping candy from a corner store into her pockets; she remembers the hate in those beady eyes as the woman blamed her behaviour on bad breeding and black skin. Shae remembers that vitriol and sees it again some ten years later in those touting the greater good of the decent citizens of Foxcroft as their reason for turning up their noses. “There goes the neighbourhood” and all; Marcus aside, many of her most vocal opposers are white as fucking snow.

Please include 1-2 possible plots your see for this character (1 paragraph brief explanation for each) MARCUS MURPHY: The first time Shae met Marcus, she mistook him for a customer, and that little blip in judgement worked its way clean under her skin. He’d been in plain clothes and watched her a little too closely. Her mother had taught her how to recognize a cop from a mile off; that Marcus slid under her radar was like a piece of corn kernel stuck between her teeth. They’d clashed then, an unpleasant precursor to every other interaction they’d had since. The next time Marcus stepped foot in her shop she’d pick-pocketed his wallet and left a miniature fertility statue in its stead; he’d been furious, perhaps rightly so, but she’d dropped what she’d taken (contents riffled through but otherwise intact) into his mailbox. He’d never been able to prove she did it, not that it stopped him from haunting her stoop like one of the ghosts that lingered around the edges of her dreams. The first time she’d sweetly asked if he was racially profiling her, his head had nearly blown off his shoulders; the first time she laid her tarot cards out on the hood of his car in broad daylight he’d turned as ruddy red as her beat-up old Beetle. Marcus will be her undoing in one way or another: he is most likely to pick her apart at the seams, either to build her up or tear her down. I would love to see Shae grow closer to the reluctantly dirty cop, to stumble into the thick of a messy love-hate situation, to open herself up if only a hairline crack, and learn what he’s hiding in turn.

JONAH GRAVES: How far will– can– Shae go to protect someone so guilty even she is having trouble turning a blind eye? Everyone has a skeleton or two in the closet and Shae knows as much as any, but Jonah’s is quite literally a skeleton. If Shae ever allows herself to see Jonah for what he’s done instead of the boy she loves, the questions will be endless: why Hazel? Why turn the mini matriarch in making into a martyr? How could he find it in him to do what he did? How deep are Val’s claws? Can he untangle himself from the little cult that devil in a rosary has built around herself? Couldn’t he have done it further from home, further from the swamps and the people already facing so much hardship and strife within them? Has he cursed his soft heart? How can she fix this? (Did he kill Adam, too? Did he kill Adam, too? Did he kill Adam, too?)

VALERIE PINEDA: If Hazel was Foxcroft’s last living saint, what did that make Valerie? There’s something other-worldly about Jonah’s “other” friend. They’ve never been close but Shae finds her thoughts drifting Val’s way more often than not, in the quiet still of the morning or during a lull in the shop. Val comes screaming to the forefront of her mind more often than not when she’s working with her aromatics. She finds Val in the strange, woodsy, almost off-putting smell of amber oil; the headrush of dragon’s blood and frankincense, like the cloying smoke of Catholic incense; the copper, metallic tangs reminiscent of a thumb pricked by a rose’s thorn. All the reasons she’s tempted to drift closer to Valerie’s phoenix-like light are the same ones that keep her at arm’s length: Val burns too black to be true, threatening to bring anyone close to her down with her, and Shae can’t fucking read her. I’m aching for Val to turn the tables on Shae, to be what Shae needs like Val once did for Jack; to bend reality around Shae the way Shae does for everyone else. A psychic could be a painfully useful asset to Deathless, assuming Val can look past the ungodly nature of Shae’s work, and assuming Shae will follow Val’s will-o’-the-wisp light off her comfortable path.

WELLS DONOVAN: That fucking bicycle haunts Shae’s dreams, as relentless as a hydra: for every one vision Shae bites back, another sprouts up in its place. She has seen that bicycle and the letters carved into its handlebar; seen it zooming through the paths in the swamp from the eyes of the girl who had rode it like an extension of herself; seen the shed where it was stored and the racks it had been chained to; seen the wall it now hung from, now as lifeless as its owner. When Shae’s VW Beetle inevitably kicks the bucket, she’ll end up in Wicked Wrench, and face to face with the ghost that’s been haunting her for years.

HAZEL AND ADAM: No man is immune to death, and Shae is hardly immune to the dead. Seance and psychic go hand-in-hand, and though Shae stays as far as she can from thoughts of Adam and Hazel, she would play the part she always does for the right price. Whether the event is the real deal or the smoke-and-mirrors show she has perfected depends on who is asking, though the outcome will likely be the same regardless of Shae’s intent: the dead are knocking at the windows already when Shae presents them with a door.

WRITING SAMPLE There are two options here, and you only need to complete one. Option #1: Provide links to two paras. They will serve as samples to your writing and help the admin decide on your application. These samples can be starting paras, self paras, or in the middle of the action. Context is appreciated, but not necessary.

One: Emma Vanity does her best to weather the temper of Alastor Moody.

Two: Remus Lupin enjoys the company of an old friend, James Potter.

Option #2: Write an IC sample (third person, past tense) about something having to do with the character you’re applying for. Really get into the character’s thoughts. It could be anything you feel would be a good show of the character. Show us how well you can connect your writing to the character.

EXTRA [THIS SECTION WILL NOT INFLUENCE ACCEPTANCE] How would you feel about this character dying?: (In this roleplay there is always the possibility of death, and as an admin I’d like to know who is and who isn’t comfortable with this ahead of time.) I’m fine with writing Shae’s death so long as I know it’s coming. Why did you choose this character?: Little blind witch with a heart too big and bruised to see herself clearly? Right up my alley. I love the idea that Shae sees more in and about people than anyone else– she’s psychic, clearly, but she’s also observant and adaptable and an absolute little shit. I’m forever drawn to anyone with a quick wit and sharp tongue. Extras: (pinterest boards, mock blogs, aesthetic posts, drabbles, etc.)

Shae’s pinterest board is as eclectic as she is, a mishmash of herself and the store she has poured herself into: https://www.pinterest.com/ctmwilson/fc-ss/

Perfume/aesthetic inspiration: https://sixteen92.com/

Because I’d hate to see my other fancy-ass boards go to waste:

Val: https://www.pinterest.com/ctmwilson/fc-vp/

Nina: https://www.pinterest.com/ctmwilson/fc-nd/

Cassidy: https://www.pinterest.com/ctmwilson/fc-ch/

Sticky Fingers: https://www.pinterest.com/ctmwilson/sticky-fingers/

How did you find us?: (certain roleplay tags, friend referral, etc.)

Referred. Repeatedly. 

[mommabearoffour]

Reiki Experience

Psychic reading #1 (yes, I got 2 - technically 3 different ones)

My nan was there (she described her perfectly describing what she wore - shorter and a little heavier set lol) and how talkative she was and how she was the glue that held everyone together and everyone branched off in their own separate ways after she passed away...and she sensed how close I was with her right off the bat... again, before I even said a word. Grandpa Murray was also there (described his jeans and plaid shirt) and said that the man was really quiet and more serious than the woman She said that the spirits she saw were grandparents but she didn't see them in a relationship... so she asked if another grandparent passed and that's when she mentioned grandpa. 

She then asked if Dominic was my first child, I said “biologically, yes” and she said “Okay, because I’m sensing a girl” - I pointed to the stroller where Nevaeh was... and she was like “Oh my. I didn’t know there was a baby in there” 

She said they feel that I'm worried about them and that they are okay and that they are so proud of me. And they are watching over Nevaeh like crazy.

She says that Nevaeh will be very intuitive and see spirits at a young age and that her and Dominic will be very gifted and we will notice that they are different due to being gifted. She loved Dominic's energy.

She also said that I will go back to school but she says that it will be for something involving a lot of children - she sees me surrounded by them a lot. She saw Photos and asked if I was interested in photography. My cards read that I needed to take more time for myself or I will burn out, which is funny because I was going for Photography before nursing.

She asked if we were moving, and I said we just recently decided to do so. She was like are you in or moving to an apartment or the country? She said I feel confined and anxious where we live and it brings me a lot of stress. I said were we live feels like an apartment but we want somewhere with more space and that my nan lived in the country and that we really liked it where she lived. She said that the move will be really good and make me feel more free to be myself.

She said that she feels there is one person that is pushing our parenting boundaries recently and that my cards read that I need to be assertive and make sure that I set the boundaries with this person (this person being my mother)

She also says that she feels the connection between Kevin and I and she knows I truly believe he is my other half and that we compliment each other well, and that it is rare that she feels the strong connection we have at such a young age. She also feels how tense things have been and how much we both want time together away from the kids and that we need to work on getting that time,  and she said that she felt that Kevin didn't want to go but he did for me...

She also sees prosperity in our future - not just necessarily money. She sensed that I was an impatient person - because she sensed that I was forcing things to happen, and to just let life happen the way it is meant to be and it will all happen when it is meant to. She said that life will be getting better and that me and the fam will be okay.

I was told that she sees another baby in our future - which we have had discussions about in length. 

The first psychic also said that I was very intuitive and coming into my gift as I have started opening up and that I have been changing a lot recently and getting better with everything I struggle with... she said that signs will start popping up and that they have always been there and I just have to listen. and so I walked into chapters looking for cards so I could look into trying it out... and right there in front of me were books about basically becoming a better me... and have more confidence and how to communicate better and stuff...

Then after that was done another psychic came over and he was like "sorry. but I just have to tell you that I feel a very homeschooly vibe off you - like schools wont provide your children with what you need and that you’re worrying about it. I'm also getting a very little House on the Prairie feeling." Which is funny considering I had just decided to try getting into the school to volunteer to help Clayton...

Kevin got his reading and the guy said he was the most grounded person he has ever tried to read. and that he feels a lot of anxiety and he doesn't talk about his emotions and he holds a lot in - he said he needs to try opening the wall that closes him off and let some things go and Kevin is very maternal

Apparently there was a man who was a really close family friend that passed away when Kevin was younger... and he says that a part of Kevin is still mad at him for passing and hasn't let it go. but he has to let it go in order to move on. and that him not verbalizing his emotions makes relationships difficult and that he needs to try opening up more so he can feel better and that the kids are Kevin's joy and they keep him grounded and that him and Dominic are very close. that is who he is closest to.

 The psychic was seeing two jobs. He said he sensed that Kevin was a primary caregiver (because of custody of the boys)

THEN I went back for a different kind of reading... from someone else...so Reading #2:

More cards... she automatically sensed that Kevin and I had been having some difficulties.... so she demanded my rings and put it in the middle of these stone bracelets.... and put a crystal over them... then she asked me to pick a deck of cards...actually 2 decks... and she read them both while describing what ones I should start off with etc. which deck I should buy if I want to connect with Nan and regular every day readings... So... I will be purchasing a couple decks soon. But she also said that she sensed that I enjoyed books, and she asked if I ever considered writing one. She said that I should start using a blog to get out those emotions and center myself. She discussed how different stones do different things... we talked about self calming and how to centre myself... Then when I got my rings back... they felt so light. Because I guess metals hold energy - so if I am mad at Kevin, all that negative energy will get stuck in my rings and I will hold onto it and I wont fully feel like it is over and dealt with if it isn't let go, so cleansing the rings every once in a while is really helpful She also taught me how to channel my energy so I can centre myself and stay grounded and part of this was by using stones... I guess her husband tells her when they get into arguments to go talk to her stones   but I think this stuff might help. 

[leileibunz]

The Art of “Maneuvering”: When They Won’t Commit but They Won’t Let You Go

“Oh! He wants me But only part of the time He wants me If he can keep me in line…” –       “Voices Carry” by ‘Til Tuesday It’s really incredible…These past few weeks have just been inundated with calls regarding the same issue so I figured I may as well just discuss this in the open.  It’s almost creepy how over 50 readings in two weeks, nearly all of them started the same way:  “Every time we get close, he/she pulls back. But, when I start to back away, he/she gets closer, but he/she won’t give me a commitment . What’s going on?” What’s usually going on is what I like to call “Maneuvering.” It is a merciless act of cowardice and selfishness of one lover towards another, beyond teasing. It’s basically keeping your partner at “arm’s length” – just far enough where you don’t have to have the responsibilities to meet the other’s expectations, but close enough to enjoy the benefits. Here are some samples of the mentality behind the Maneuvering act: 1 – “I only like/love bits and pieces of you, so if I don’t get to close I don’t have to deal with anything I don’t like.” 2 – “I’m not totally sure about what I want, so I want you to just stay available to me and put your needs on hold until I make up my mind.” 3 – “I know you want a commitment, but I don’t. I figure if I keep you at just a distance, you’ll be satisfied with the little bit of me I’m willing to give you instead of losing me altogether.” 4 – “It turns me on to see you beg and cry over me.” (I kid you not). 5 – “I’ve got a couple of other people I like to keep handy. I don’t want to settle down until I see who wants me the most.” The list can go on but if you notice, none of those reasons have any consideration for the other person.  It’s all “me me me.” (Or as my friend calls it, “Swimming in the Great Big Lake of Me.”) It’s nothing new. Maneuvering is not some trend that’s going to go away any time soon and I can almost guarantee if this sounds familiar to you, then you are not the first to have suffered by the hands of your maneuvering lover, nor would you be the last. To me, personally, I consider this behavior emotionally abusive.  Love and emotions have nothing to do with the offender’s actions — it’s all about control, like any other type of abuse. What makes it so extra wretched is that it’s subtle, like a poisonous gas rather than a flamethrower in your face. There’s usually no violence involved or anything that can be covered on your insurance policy. But, the results of being on the end of that “I want you, go away, don’t leave me” game for too long, thinking there’s no alternative, no one better for us, and we have to settle for what we’re given “or else,” can be incredibly damaging.  “Maneuvering” may not necessarily be an aggressive control tactic, but make no mistake…it IS a control tactic, nonetheless. In all fairness, there are times when people Maneuver the ones they love and don’t realize it. They don’t think that blowing someone off for three days after a powerfully intimate weekend of passion or a mutual proclamation of love is hurtful to the other person. Sometimes they get themselves caught up in the mundane – either work or other obligations and just don’t think about it. But, whether or not they are aware, it is what it is, which is emotional sabotage and a power play, and it’s important to never lose sight of that. Of course, we have to ask why anyone would allow themselves to be put in such a horrendous emotional condition in the first place. Again, there are a plethora of reasons, but, the first and foremost is good ol’ fashioned Addiction and Fear.  Addiction; when the high points are so high with that person they make you feel divine and that’s all you can think about. Fear; that if we let this person go completely we’ll be alone for the rest of our lives or just be alone – and there are way too many of us that think of that prospect worse than a death sentence, especially with women, with much thanks to mass media and sex culture. Nine times out of 10, the next question I always get after my client understands that they are being maneuvered is, “Is there anyone else coming into my life?”  Sometimes, I just wanna scream, “Does it really frickin’ matter? Grow a spine! Learn to love yourself better and enjoy some independence for a while, fa gawd’s saykes!”  But, alas, I cannot.  Besides, if someone had said that to me when I personally went through this nonsense myself, I would’ve just been like, “What do you mean love myself better? I love myself just fine! Screw you!” Psht…yeah.  Denial gives the lovely illusion that we really have our shit together, doesn’t it? Now, I can give you some general guidelines on how to get out of a situation like this, but I’m aware every situation, though fundamentally the same, is unique. It’s not going to be so easy if you’re dealing with a co-worker or someone you see on a daily basis. Besides, those who maneuver usually have a sense of irresistible charm or can be intimidating, which is how we get into their clutches in the first place. But, before you take any steps to change the dynamic, you just have to realize one very universal, hard-core  law: You will never change them. Period. This is who they are. So, with that, the ball’s in your court.  Ask and answer yourself with perfect honesty: Is this enough for me? Let’s face it: There’s no point in trying to break something off if you really, in your heart, truly do not want to! So, live your truth. If you’re willing to take what little your lover’s willing to give, then accept it. But, if you do that, then you no longer have any grounds to complain. However, if you do find that this situation is toxic and you wish to change, I do recommend seeking professional or helpline trained advice. But, here’s what I’ve found helpful: 1 – Stand your ground. Do not allow yourself to be sweet-talked, cajoled, or convinced that you’re “making too much of this.” The reason why he/she keeps coming back to you is because you keep giving him/her what they want. Stop giving the naughty kid dessert if they’re not going to finish their dinner! 2 – Let them yell. If their way of keeping you around is to go completely off the wall and yell, well let them. Watch the show and see how stupid they’re acting. Don’t answer back. When they’re calmed down, simply ask in a very level cool tone, “Are you finished? Because so are we.” 3 – STOP WITH THE MICRO-MEMORIES! You know: “Well, right before he/she was about to leave, he/she stopped by and sniffed my hair and touched my face, which they never ever do, and there was a little smile at the corner of his/her mouth and I just knew somehow that he/she really loved me by the little twinkle and then so and so said…” Just…stop it.  When we are obsessively focused on these tiny, tiny, minute little bitty details of what he/she said or did or wore, whatever, we are keeping ourselves from looking at the big picture.  “He said I was special, but started dating someone else.” Period. Bottom line: You’re not that special. If you were, he/she’d be with you and he/she’s not. “He/She said he/she doesn’t know what he/she wants.” But, he/she knows enough that they want some of you some of the time, not all the time. This is the stuff you should be paying attention to. The obvious! 4 – Don’t take it personal. Seriously. Do not for one minute think you are being treated like dirt because you deserve it. No one deserves it, ever. If you give someone your heart, your time, and your consideration, you’re giving them real beauty. Sucks for them that they can’t appreciate it. These people would treat anyone this way. Unfortunately, in this particular circumstance it just happens to be you. But, it’s never everyour fault! 5 – Come to the realization that you’re not really in love. Face it: Real love is mutual. Real love is fulfilling and doesn’t need anything. Real love has trust and respect. You are not respected. You do not trust this other person because you question what he/she is doing or where they are when they’re not with you. You ask when you’ll hear from them again! Love doesn’t ask why or when. Real love doesn’t call a psychic what his/her love is doing and when or if they’ll be together again! You are willing to take bits and pieces of attention and affection as they’re thrown at you. This is not the act of someone in love. This is an act of an addict. And the object of your affection knows they can get away with just throwing you scraps and leftovers of their adoration, so they see no reason to change. Give them a reason to change.  Give yourself the chance to get what you really, really want. People don’t come in bits and pieces, but whole packages…just like you.  And you deserve a whole package! As for those who Maneuver? I kinda feel sorry for them. They’ll never know the true majick of Love. Pity. What a loss… “Voices Carry”  https://www.google.com.ph/amp/s/msrayspsychicepisodes.wordpress.com/2012/01/14/the-art-of-maneuvering-when-they-wont-commit-but-they-wont-let-you-go/amp/