#self; i am the beast
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Return of the self insert. Like I look at Bruce tonight and I'm like "mmmm big soft papa <3" but also no. I am a little beast he must deal with. A critter that bites him.
#i am a beast. a critter#agere#fandom agere#agere fandom#mouseprints#dc agere#batman agere#agere art#agere self insert#bat & mouse
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putting teeth on helmets i think should have them
#changeman#gekiranger#gingaman#go onger#watched amazon bite shit with his helmet and it fundamentally changed me as a person#and now i am of the firm belief that more helmets should be able to bite people#renn my baby boy i love you so much but oh my fucking god do i hate your helmet#its so 🙁#buT WHAT IF HE HAD TEEFIES#i actually love the changeman helmets a whole lot they are some of my absolute favourites of all time BUT THAT BEING SAID#'legendary beasts' my ass. griffon and dragon should have teeth idc if you dont give the other three anything#please just let my boys have teeth#gingaleon doesnt have big canines but if we close our eyes we can pretend he does <3#jan is self explanitory please let that boy bite things#2024 art tag
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I want to write some stuff for this but am actively nodding off so y'all just get an info dump before I forget it instead. (My baby loftwing being all fluffed and happy on my chest is not helping me focus lol)
Anyway! Miphlink baby!
I think it would be pretty neat if he was hard of hearing. The mix of Hylian/Zora genes mostly goes fine, but that's the one thing that just gets him. Part of it is because Zora and Hylian ears are different - Zora ears are small openings hidden under the side fins on their heads, and we all know about Hylian ears. Zora rely on different hearing sensors when underwater, hollowed out structures in their heads that allow, essentially, for echolocation. Miphlink baby is born with Hylian ears tucked behind thinner side fins, no structures for echolocation, and not the best hearing. So Link and Mipha have to sign with him most of the time, though he does hear a little better underwater since sound travels better underwater.
While Mipha's color scheme for her scales is like crystla red and creamy white, baby's color scheme is a lighter shade of red paired with Link's skin tone. He doesn't have claws, either, but he does have sharp incisors. He's got his dad's blue eyes.
As for size, when he's full grown he'll stand around the height of an adult Hylian man, so he'll be taller than his dad but short by Zora standards (I figure Mipha seems pretty short for her people's standards too - she is a teenager, of course, but like... she's shorter than Link. Girl is tiny). He's got the structural fins like any Zora, but his body proportions are those of a Hylian (longer legs, shorter torso, whereas Zora are shorter legs and longer torso).
He grows at a rate similar to Hylians - Zora age twice as slow as Hylians until they hit adulthood, and then they just... are adults for a million years. But Miphlink baby grows roughly at the rate of a Hylian, maybe a little slower, and the rest of the Domain is just floored at how fast this kid is hitting his growth milestones.
He definitely has that cute "head tail is too big for his body" thing going on that Sidon had <3
#miphlink#I love seeing people's takes on a miphlink baby#I am still cackling at the idea of Link being a Tired Dad working Too Many Jobs#with Mipha being a Mom Who Overstretches Herself Too Much#so both their parents and friends have to step in to save them from self destructing#meanwhile Zelda is a Stressed Queen and Link and Mipha are trying to support her too because they're all besties#and it's just a hilarious combination and I adore it#and then totk happens and Link gets to channel his inner Abel and be completely Done with everything#Link: *fighting monsters*#Miphlink Baby: *waving frantically and signing he has to pee*#Link while killing a horde of beasts: NOT NOW--#Miphlink baby doing the pee dance: But I gotta goooooo#guys I gotta make this like some silly little series or something good grief XD#mipha#age of calamity link#aoc link#age of calamity#with eventual totk lol#legend of zelda
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Hi! I am usually a lurker, but I have been following you for about a year or so (found from r/MM_Romance AO3 recs search) and my first read was Deeper into the Woods. -- Do you have any recommendations for "realistic" portrayals of sadists? (AO3 stories or MM romance but also open to non-fiction recs/other) -- I do not have any real-life experience with people who identify as sadists or the kink community in general, so I wonder how exaggerated the fiction is sometimes. Thank you for your time!
Hi anon!
I'm going to rec two of my own fics - Spoils of the Spoiled (especially tracing a young sadist who has to figure out where the lines are between reality and fiction in his own life), and Falling Falling Stars (which depicts an experienced genuine sadist who is quite frank/open about talking about it and is comfortable in himself about it).
You probably have a lot more experience with real life sadists than you know, since most of us are just regular people! (And quite a few of us are also masochists as well). Honestly it's possible to see people with sadistic tendencies in every walk of life. From massage therapists who enjoy working the knots out of their clients (including the 'good pain' it results in), to the professional manufacturers of boutique hot sauce, who like nothing more than watching someone suffer through what they created.
(And same with masochists - you need only look at the people who enjoy that hot sauce and the pain it causes them, lmao.)
You might also like the published m/m romance series by Lisa Henry and JA Rock known as the 'Boy series.' It starts with The Good Boy and the sequel is The Boy Who Belonged. It is, imho, a great and realistic depiction of an experienced sadist and a newbie masochist, as well as a trauma recovery story with an age gap, which realistically addresses the age gap, the sadism, lateral ways of being sadistic with someone who finds impact play triggery, and more. For me it's still one of the gold star versions of published m/m which shows the perspective of both characters, so we get to see what they're both thinking, and - imho - it's pretty realistic!
I'm also gonna rec one of my fanfics, The Beast that Chose Its Own Bridle, since a lot of the chapters are from the sadist's perspective, and while the setting is fantasy, the actual thought processes behind setting up scenes, the intention, riding the line between too much hurt and the right amount, what kind of pain is sexy and what isn't, etc. is - I feel - quite realistic. It's one of the things that fellow sadists have praised my work for (that the sadists feel like real sadists, and not just wish fulfillment sadists, who are otherwise apologetic for enjoying someone's pain), and while I still have a lot to learn re: writing in general, it's one of the reasons I write what I do!
#asks and answers#inadvertent recs#falling falling stars#spoils of the spoiled#the beast that chose its own bridle#self recs because i can#pia on writing#pia on fanfiction#folks can add more in the replies#there are other good representations i just#am tired and need to feed my dog lunch aslkfjsa#but also frankly#i feel like most sadists read like service tops#instead of genuine sadists#so i'd caution folks to be aware of if you're reccing just a good service top character#or a genuine sadistic character#who is a good representation of what it's like to be sadistic *in reality*#administrator gwyn wants this in the queue
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there r a lot of things about the myth of psyche and eros that makes me a little insane but one of them has always been the tasks from aphrodite and the unfairness of it. they're not intended to be possible. they're so obviously not meant to be possible, and psyche isn't fucking hercules, you know, she's not a demigod or whatever, she's mortal and these aren't mortal tasks!! it's why psyche has to be helped with each one, fucking by like ants and river gods and shit. and so like. idk. i know ppl see psyche and eros as like a story about love and shit which obviously it is but as a kid psyche and eros always felt like a story about being able to accept help
#in my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i'll never write i emphasize this theme#by changing psyche from a princess and youngest daughter to a poorer girl and eldest daughter who is very like. sophie hatter esque#also tbh when i first started thinking about my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i was reading hmc LMAO#also also ALSO. as a kid i always felt like the story was soooo deeply about regret and atonement and forgiveness#like YES the story is about love but not about easy love. love is difficult and requires work and sometimes u hurt each other !!!!!#it always struck me as a kid how psyche just. accepts the tasks.#i always read it as like. psyche KNOWS these tasks are unfair and i dont even think she expects to achieve them#but she accepts them anyways because she so deeply regrets what she did to eros and has no idea what else she can do.#am i verbalizing this well or have the worms eating my brain reached an irreversible point#also tbf im pretty sure the version i read as a kid didnt include the multiple times psyche tries to kill herself LMAO.#but we're ignoring that because i love the idea that shes just. so aimless and resigned to the tasks#ALSO on eros' side of things#i dont have like proper analysis about it but as a kid i saw eros hiding his face as like. fear?#like. fear that the person he loves will think he's a monster if he reveals his true self. or somethin. which also. i think is very queer#also very beauty and the beast. for obvious reasons since it was based on psyche and eros lmao#oh also. i already mentioned it but psyche and hercules r so similar.#did something unforgivable to a loved one --> given multiple impossible tasks to atone for it etc etc#i dont have any real analysis abt it i dont remember a lot abt hercules tbh but. yah#ALSO. okay i think retellings of hades and persephone where theyre totally in love and stuff r kinda tired.#BUT. in the theoretical adaptation i always imagined a scene where psyche does the last task where she goes to the underworld#and shes tired shes soso tired#and she goes to persephone and persephone is gentle and motherly which aphrodite has Not been to psyche#and i think if persephone is unkidnapped and truly in love w hades#then i think there could be a fun parallel between persephone and psyche in which like. theyre both in love w ppl#who are seen as monsters. and shit. or whatever#anyways. idk what made me think abt this again. ACTUALLY i do know i might write a twine for the neotwiny game jam#and it might be inspired by psyche and eros#anyways. lmao#jc.txt
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Hey so. I have created a YouTube channel because I heard u can stream art from your iPad on there. As it turns out, you need to have at least 50 subscribers to do this…. A dirty trick…..
If u r interested u can go ahead and give it a follow
I’d like to maybe make art videos or something in the future. But for now, if I can unlock the streaming feature, I will start doing that regularly. As it stands I am stuck in the trench of not having enough time in my day to even begin to think about pursuing things that won’t immediately make me money. All the money I make is going directly into paying rent, utilities, ect. Bc of capitalism. And poor money management. But once I am out of the trench and am comfortable enough to spend more time on going to battle with the algorithm I will do my honest best.
#hey… come here#thank you for supporting my pathetic sopping wet beast of a self#I am bad at words and expressing myself#but golly#the kindness I have been shown#to silly ‘ol me#!!!#it never goes unnoticed#love u all 💚😘
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Sooooooo. Orca!Eclipse, right?
Absolutely inspired from @themeeplord 's piece. "Apex Polarity" by @naffeclipse
#god this is so self indulgent#in this scenario i dont identify with the reader#i am the beast#oh to hold a thing so delicate with such intimate care#kryptodraws#orca!eclipse#orca eclipse#apex polarity
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doodling elias' sire😌
#love this guy which is exactly why ill always stay very vague on the backstory. which was bad. but not that bad? but bad#i just like the idea of exploring 1 a very likeable relatively 'good' person doing horrible things#2 vampires completely letting themselves be taken over by the beast but not in the usual lets eat everyone way#3 im just trying to make the toreador clan bane not look stupid af. getting so obsessed with someone else it makes you do things that go#against everything you believe in like even the toreador bane aside thats what vtm is about to me#like being a vampire making you betray yourself and your values and idk. identify death or whatever#at the end of the day the thing with my vampires is that they suck and they suck cause theyre vampires but not just in the lets kill ppl wa#wait im rambling and its almost 1 am already. goodnight#/mattia#wip#hes also italian and a successful abstract artist. not a self insert
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so sorry for spam liking your posts 😭
i’m just going absolutely feral over the food you have provided. this is fuckin amazing, and you’re doing such a good job! hope you’re having a great day <3
AWRHHRHRHFHF OMG THANK YOU‼️‼️‼️🗣📢 I'll try to get some stuff out today. I was just very busy with being alive haha X-)) actually, spam liking my posts brings me unreal joy like "OH MY GOD SOMEONE IS WITNESSING.. SOMEONE IS PERCEIVINGGG!!!!" like yes that's my goal. I need to feed my people.
For tonight we have...
Lucifer (the art is basically done)
Adam (if I have the patience)
#ARGHGHGH BEING ALIVE#I love it#the sisyphean struggle of accomplishment#I will never be satisfied and I am at peace with that fact#some people will never understand what it is like to be okay with your whole self#and it is the cause for most of human suffering#caused onto the self and onto others#ah- but it's just a fear response#why of course it is. fear makes man unlovable.#enough filosophy#back to the scheduled programming (porn)#love you all gorgeous beasts
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wip from months ago that i will complete someday maybe 🥴 (delusional) BUT UNTIL THEN- i'm a self indulgent binch i want a witchy hakuno for a general fantasy verse so badddd it makes me look stupid <3 /this was rlly inspired by "wait by the shooting star falls" btw 🥺🫶
#&&. out of#witch who doesn't know anything abt herself (just h.akuno tingz) n lives in a lil cottage in the woods bc ppl arent too fond of witches🤨?!#ITS CLICHE BUT IT FITS OKOK SHDKWNXKWK AND IM SAUR WEAK 4 ITTTT#even if the ppl hate her and call her evil and etc etc she'd still do her best to keep them safe from idk magical beasts or whatever#pov u hear all kinds of rumors abt a scawy with but u meet her at last she is just 😐🧍♂️#a lovely lil lady 💖🌙✨️ but also yea she may be a widdle weird and maybe rlly aloof and awkward but SHE MEANS WELL ...... !!! 🙏🙏#im the most self indulgent binch ever dont look at me VSKCJSKF#I AM CRINGE BUT I AM FREEEEE (i run on pure Delusion)#scopophobia cw#scopophobia /#tbd.
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Kind of whelmed
#isgh. like i dont try to dwell on it much#but i really am so incredibly envious of people who have good relationship with their parents#i havent had a good relationship or trusted mine since i was thirteen#NC is great its fine im doing great#but mentally theres a part of me that cant get over it its fucking ass lmao#an extremely childlike part of me that really needs an older person to tell me its ok???#i guess?#dont really have anyone like that#so i exist as i am and i hold no love for myself and i hold too many expectations#and im like does this make me happy or accomplished?#idk#not really#not really so why do i have the expectations in the first place#its a disgusting culmination of identity crisis and lack of self esteem/love idk#augh.#i just want to be a little beast#like bog witch turns me into a frog kind of thing id be so happy#maybe#anyway thats dramatic its nothing important#ill put it away and think about it again in like four months time
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One thing that I will say about me potentially bringing beej back (she says as she fills her drafts with posts about him) is the dynamic has to shift DRASTICALLY for it to work with the way I am now vs the way I was when I was obsessed with him
I was drawn to him because I had a desperate need to BE needed and his pathetic clinginess fit the bill, among other things like relating to his mother issues 😂 but im a healthier person now overall! And tbh I've never been happier in my life, with my partner, with everything 💖💖 I think in order for it to work he ALSO needs to improve and strive to be better and happier and idk...maybe that's beautiful!
I'm thinking maybe it's more of a slow burn because he really needs to learn how to be a FRIEND first before he can be in a healthy romantic relationship. So I'm imagining after he's had some time to reflect on his mistakes from the musical he ends up in me and my partner's house and we just...hang! We play games and watch movies and fuck around and he has a silly rivalry with my partner and he's given the opportunity to just BE happier and eventually down the line it just becomes something a little more ☺️
#jane journals#self insert talk#🪲 breather and the beast 🧃#updated ship taaaaag#am i gonna bother to retag all my old posts? FUCK NO#if u want some more context to my history w him its the same thing just with no emojis 😂😂#ourghh this ended up being more sappy than i thought itd be > w <#but idk its just smth i was thinking about!!#also my partner just interjected that its probably that they were just TRYING to summon a demon 😂😂#LIKE NOW THATS KILLING ME#beej having his little spiritual journey and reflecting in the void and suddenly hes poofed into the home of two hot ppl#his favorite thing#but yeah ourgh youll see that in the queue now and then!! :3#ive got it filled for the whoooole week while im on vacation with ruby ☺️☺️☺️#so ill be off and on!! i love you guys!!!#ill be taking pictures and stuff
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Is the problem that I'm being too self indulgent with my plots that they start to lose coherency or is the problem that I'm not being self indulgent enough and thinking too hard about trivial things like whether they make sense rather than whether or not they kick ass severely and look good as the backdrop to my daydreams
#writing#writeblr#much to think about#much to write about#writer things#textpost#relatable#can't get over how much 2016-2017 me wrote just absolutely off the rails self indulgent angst mostly#with some demons and beasts and angels and melodrama#and i had that day where a week into nano having forgotten about it i wrote nearly like 10000 words#and had a vague plan of where i was going#and now it's like 7 words i'm burned out what am I doing#i gotta shamelessly self indulgently poor little meow meow ify some characters again#first nano project my character's introductory scene is him running from a ghost in a nightmarish chase scene that messes with his head#and has to do with his hashtag secret dramatic past#then having him be introduced to the other main character as passed out on the porch like a drunk before getting in a fight and getting sho#then getting driven to the hospital in a small car with claustrophobia with the person who shot him#and then arriving at said hospital only to be met with painful memories and meetings of a previous stay there#and then getting tricked into investigating a murder scene there that has to do with his specific backstory of demon angst#and then burning his hand on silver having paranormal flashbacks talking to demons and idk#i was just beating this guy up scene after scene glorious 37000 words unfortunately lost a couple thousand to a power out and lost steam#but still like it was so much writing and some of it wasn't even half bad#what happened that i can't write that self indulgently anymore#i mean worsening adhd and loss of structure and better writing skill and over perfectionism happened but hey#i used to daydream consecutive scenes and opening scenes now i just got that one thing in the middle half the time#and a premise and vibes with no solidity despite the ideas being more solid to me the execution is less solid#anyway ignore me#now my plots are very self indulgent premise wise but after I get the premise I start thinking of all these complicated things that get in#the way of the indulgence I think
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Have been sketching misc things today and decided to color one of the sketches 🔒🩸
#bloodborne#brador church assassin#laurence the first vicar#bradorence#i *tried* to make laurence's first garb more modest than what was to come but... yeah...#i'll need to maybe reduce the amount of colors at LEAST#otherwise it is JUST 'alternative outfit' and not the more simple/underwhelming one#like i drew his second outfit (with the crown) already#real ones remember how it is like.... not even all that more detailed... so yeah note to self#as for brador i just give him a cool cape to go outside before laurence became a cleric beast#hello girl its 3 AM + i love the trope of a person getting fed up with another's cluelessness and snapping#brador is so less... 'impressive' than people that tend to be in Laurence's surroundings?#but i guess you have to assert yourself if he won't budge past abnormally tall warriors :pensive:
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Another miserable thing is that what feminist upswings there are are mostly bioessentialist and hostile to trans people. We've had discussions around the Korean 4b movement and its transmisogyny on here, but you can also see it in online discussions where women will talk about men as if they're completely bereft of any self control.
#catgirltxt#listen i am very much of the opinion that men as a whole need to be held to higher standards#particularly with regards to romantic relationships but also with regards to any relationships with women#but portraying men as mindless rape beasts is the opposite of that#it's just 'boys will be boys' but with the valences flipped#acting as if men can't help it is incorrect because they can in fact help it and acting as if they can't lets them get away with it!#men are in fact fully realized human beings possessing a moral compass capable of reason and self restraint
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very often ill see bears following my nsfw account and ill end up looking thru their profiles as i check for ppls ages in bio and theyre 99.9% bear4bear. That one anon lied to me.
#talkys#this is like a half joke/not that deep bc i dont actually care#and like. hm. how do i word dis.#there ARE people that have messaged me very very excessively over how much theyre into al on there#and i would NOT want that directed at me.#and i myself am‚ of course‚ an al enjoyer#and like. this is also not that deep im not saying its actually affecting me on a very personal level#especially since me and skunker are boring little guy things#but seeing everyone going into that account only being there for my guy is just reminding me of#being friends with like the prettiest girl in high school#where like at lunch she'd leave to get something and all the guys tailing her would be like#so whats the name of your hot friend lol :)#LIKE GAH. of course you're here for him but damnnnn cmonnnn#idk how to describe it bc again id also feel strange if ppl were being weird about skunker instead. idk! idk what it is#and i myself wouldnt lust after skunker adjacent beasts etc so i get it but theres Something about it i cant place#I THINK its bc skunker is an expression of identity and self#and skunker and cow al are like. copium. so some part of me feels really alienated by feeling like my audience straight up doesnt want#''me'' there...ykwim...i think thats it. bc ive been asked for more solo als or al with literally anyone else#or al with other big guys bc itd be hotter#and while im open to dis if im paid to draw it it really feels like the simpsons sheep bit LOL
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