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some quick jjk eye paintings
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#yuji itadori#nobara kugisaki#yuta okkotsu#gojo satoru#geto suguru#ryoumen sukuna#fanart#jjk fanart#tagging everyone feels like it took longer than the actual painting my god#i believe ive gone on record waxing poetic about how i love lower eyelids and how i could paint them fr hours#so i put my money where my mouth is and thats what i did today . self care :)#i had a cool idea fr gojo where i wanted to do like an abberated effect to show 2 extra sets of eyes#but god it looked cluttered and awful no matter what layer mode i put it on sdgdgjsdg#settled fr chromatic abberation on th irises :')#quickish painting but i am ! happy !#very proud also of the different eye shapes i ws able to achieve while keeping them consistently sized#was worried abt geto there fr a sec#but tbh he turned out to be one of my favs ????? surprised myself#anyway this is my love letter to eye skin <3 i love u lower eyelid folds mwah <3
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It's my birthday today (6/14) so I get to be mindlessly and shamelessly self-indulgent and pose myself with my speece's characters Kizuna and Setsuna Shader is I think from [Kore - Pearl's Dream] but I might be wrong, I downloaded that shader before I realized I should make creator folders so I'm not 100%
Kizuna is @zombiesockfuckinglovescardfight Also Sir Cash is here ;v; (the dog)
#I'm officially older today! Also yeah I did make a lala-insert-self because it was fun and I like them#by all rights I should be an elezen because I'm long but shh. Sh. I make the rules today#I. Uhm. Forgive me I'm not tagging this anything for indexing I'll regret that later but when I'm making this post it is simply.#Everybody look at my dog and clap for him he would bark and have a fit if he was still alive because he never cared much for people#but he was so so cute and soft and he loved me and his triangular ears were the softest ever#dated this one to future proof it if I somehow have the stones to reblog this later LOL#posting it earlier than I scheduled it for because I am. I want it out of my hands XD#btw speece is a word my FC came together to make up as a plural for Spouse#just to be. clarity. ok bye!
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wip
#hi. i think this edit is almost done#well. no. it IS almost done. probably gonna finish it tomorrow#i really want to do some writing today but will i?#i think i need to join like. a writing group or something bc i suck at self motivating but#idk. sounds scary. so. probably not.#i wouldn't know where to find one anyway & if i did. i probably wouldn't interact much.#i'm one of those doesn't speak unless spoken to people tbh#n e way. i've been really into my plants lately lol#my lil round cactus is growing fruits!!!!#it's never done that before so i'm hoping to save the seeds & try growing them myself. gonna set up a terrarium#& my haworthia is looking significantly better than it was before#it was all sunburned & sad but now it's very green!!! & happier!! i think i need to water it today#my desert rose however....... needs work. i don't think i know how to take care of it very well.#i looked up care instructions & it said to keep the soil moist but also to let it dry out completely so??? idk that's a lil confusing#i'm gonna put it in a more gravelly soil & see if that helps#i also propped my bunny ear cactus bc it was getting all droopy & heavy so#now i'm gonna have baby cacti!! so exciting#rainyrambles
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Trying out this whole "animation" thing, it's kind of a small niche community though so idk
#bandit's doodles#no fandom tags today#It's all me baby#That's what I'm talkin about!!#who needs fanart (me) when you can have critter#but honestly self love is important so I'll say this is fanart for myself#Be careful I might get all parasocial with myself#Stupid joke I'm sorry#i was just imagining the whole time I was doing this#what if you saw him climb through your window and then pull this#Honestly I think I'd flick him out and see if he bounces on the ground#Spoiler he does#Cartoon logic and whatnot#Squashed by an anvil and gets a big bump on his head and that's it#thats why he's on a windowsill btw#This was my first time doing proper animation#Ive done little animatics before that I just keep to myself#But never like#Frame by frame animating#so if this is stupid that's why lmao#i like it though#Making my little sona look stupid and dumb is my favorite thing#Good for releasing my pent up idiocy#Project that shit onto the funny doodle cat yeah#anyways new wonderlust ep today (it's midnight on Saturday rn)#so probably expect something that related soon knowing me#dude looking at these tag walls make me realize#If I talked to people I'd be the most heinous double texter known to mankind#a force to be reckoned with#I had another tag but I ran out of tag space so this is goodbye for now I suppose lmao
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There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.
#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz#ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and#then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc.#Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific#cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or#etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as#you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on#accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have#as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence#of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate#versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a#neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest#ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling#and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for#documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like#sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I#can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If#I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my#ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ??#Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be#accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor#focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it#were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan#that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is#some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my#kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means#i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m#in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in#one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability#& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER
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Sometimes you have to physically yoink yourself back from doing something really stupid.
If you need to do that now, do it.
#for the last little while i've been lowkey curious about watching It#even tho my horror tolerance is super low#just bcs it looks interesting#and i noticed today that it's coming off tubi tonight#and i was like 'oh hey if i'm going to watch it i should do it now'#and STARTED the MOVIE#at 9:37 pm#thankfully it only ran for like 15 seconds before my brain caught up to 'HEY i should n o t watch a horror movie at 10 oclock at night when-#-i spook super easily'#anyway#i speak#self care
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a really nice comment on 'nothing else fills' made me actually reread it for like, the first time in its entirety and.
wow. its... actually really good. like. i teared up multiple times and i'm the one that wrote it. why was i so mean to myself about it.
#that scene where katsuki re-experiences izuku's suicide.#that entire chapter where katsuki and izuku fight and then have really really violent sex. and he says he loves him.#jesus fucking christ. what the fuck was i on#i'm guessing my self-obsessed ass hated it because i thought i was putting my heart and soul into writing it#and it never like...'took off' or whatever.#like i ripped myself into pieces for it and nobody cared lmao#...which is so ridiculous. anna. ANNA LOOK AT ME#LITERALLY HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE READ IT AND RESONATED WITH IT#DIFFERENT PEOPLE CONNECT WITH DIFFERENT THINGS WHO CARES THAT IT DIDNT GET POPULAR#WHO GIVES A SHIT YOU NUMBERS OBSESSED LOSER#lmao. lol even#anyway todays episode? PEAK#the animation. izuku's reaction. the way gearshift LOOKS#I HAD TEARS IN MY EYES BRO ITS BEAUTIFULLLLLL#when izuku goes inside the vestige space and holds tenko's hands its over for me#i will be weeping. on the floor. just CRYING#it also resonates because in one of the worlds in NEF izuku killed shigaraki#and it literally does not stop haunting him. he's so broken up about it. 'i was supposed to save him but i killed him'#GOD. GOD. ANNA FROM A YEAR AGO YOU COULDNT HAVE KNOWN BUT#damn.
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how i be rn
#i love foblr :3#spi.arts#this is me btw this is what i look like irl#fr#so comfy coozy#first time i’ve dragged myself out of bed today just so i could watch andy stream :3#THEN i made myself food because i was already up#kickstarted my self care fr
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(cw vent, sorry it's just been A Couple Of Days)
Not really having many irl friends comes at the price of feeling so terribly lonely, I feel like I have no one to talk to because I'm not close to enough people, or maybe I am and I just haven't talked to them in a while and I don't want this to be our first conversation qwq
I'm honestly just. Tired, tbh qwq
#I mostly talk to my partner#But they've been more absent lately and like they have their own life#But the second they're gone I realize I don't talk to anyone that much#I used to have someone else I spoke to daily; it was an awful friendship though and it took a lot of struggle to end it#But god; just qwq; I'm so tired of everything qwq#Honestly I'm disappointed in how upset it makes me that my partner is more absent because I know it's bc they've found a game they're into#And have been playing non-stop#They'll come telling me that they've done this and that and I'll be struggling HARD and will try to mention it at some point but#But like I wanna leave them their space to be excited but I just#Look. Look the NPD is getting to me; and I know these are not kind or fair feelings but#But I hate it here; I don't care about their game; I don't care about what they've done;#All my brain focuses on is that I've had a shitty fucking day and everything's gone wrong and they weren't here#Because they were fucking playing#And I know that's not fair for MANY reasons and that voicing all that would make me a massive asshole#And that at its core; it's more of a matter of never going anywhere; not having people to hang out with;#Not leaving my house nor talking to that many people#I feel so lonely and so fucking hollow qwq#My bag got taken away and I feel like I've lost an intrinsic part of myself#And to top it all off; I had today's exam and the project I'm doing#And my dad screaming and my period coming and all the things I have to do and how much I yearn for friends#Yet when I'm with my friends I can't wait to be alone#Man; just#I didn't wanna go this far; and I only say it here because no one's really gonna read it;#But I genuinely just wanna kill myself at this point#There's no point nor reason#I'm trying hard to enjoy life but nothing goes my way#I have so many things I want to do and nothing fucking goes my way#I'm so tired; I just want to go to sleep and not wake up; it's gnawing and clawing and it's such an ugly feeling qwq#I feel like if I cut myself I'd be even more pathetic; I wouldn't even be met with sympathy; just. Disappointment#It's been a while since I last self-harmed in a way that was visible
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The greatest tragedy of Sanji's character is that he could have basically anyone he pointed at, man or woman or anything in between, if he just stopped being Like That™
#one piece#sanji#self-sabotage king#i love him#he's so dumb#like look at him he's so charming and sweet and caring but then he just#is like that#and the moment a girl *does* start liking him he basically loses interest#i could write essays on how it all links to his trauma and lack of self-worth#maybe one day#not today though
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so just know, I'm healing / even though it don't feel like it
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#good evening it is past midnight and i am here furthering the itfs scar kissing agenda#stumbled across the insp pic buried in my likes and i went oh this is relevant in the opposite direction :) I Can Use This :)#op has some of my fav itfs fanart ill b so real n tht piece ws swimming around in my brain fr Days#so i told myself today my reward for submitting my zine checkin wld b drawing yuuji kissing megumi's scars#also pls observe. /this/ is what i mean when i say tht megumi receiving affection looks like he is unsure and in mild pain#Does Not Know How To Respond To Affection Even From His Own Boyfriend.png#i LOVE drawing megu with this expression so sosos much the downcast sidelong gaze + furrowed brow.....#its SO good#also idk what i did with his hair here but the render actually turned out so well ?? best megu hair to date every1 pls clap#not 2 mention th shape of yuuji's bangs???? pats self on th back no offense but i am on fire w these boys' hair lately#that being said i decided i did not want to render anything else ddfdfjjghdjgf i got tired#kept the rest flat n took the opportunity to play around w light chromatic abberation on the scars#idk if any1 noticed but i found th retro film filter n used it a bunch on my recent comic#its so convenient it comes w built in noise n everything!!!!!!#anyway . caption is salt fv <333 if u care <333333#i think it is also a megu song but like . a post-canon megu song#i thought this wld take longer bc i was planning on rendering everything so i cracked an energy drink and am tragically awake#shld i start smth new we shall see smile :)
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Actually, scratch that, I’m cutting the break short. Good evening, everyone. 💙
#To keep things succinct; the man I was courting tragically found me too intense.#However we persevere nonetheless and refuse to wallow.#I do so wish for an apology from him but alas I fear his ego limits the chances.#Whatever. I went shopping today! And I got the most darling garnet jewellery set.#They look like scales! Snake scales… Dragon scales… just. scales.#And the colour; don’t even get me started on the colour.#Remember kids ! a man will; much like rest of humanity; wither and age and rot to nothing.#A durable; well taken care of and appropriately respected stone will not. <3#But to return to the topic; I was planning on deleting all social media but.#Self isolation won’t help; even if I have no social energy.#I don’t necessarily have to push myself out of my boundaries.#Social media can also exist solely to reblog 20 posts of your man and then disappear into the void for the next 43 hours.#I likely won’t be interacting much or going out of my way because I do not have the time or energy but. I am cheering everyone on. <3#✧.*🌹
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totally normal of me to start crying upon seeing that my uncle bought more apple juice for me. totally not indicative of my familial trauma btw. i’m sure that people cry over juice all the time
#i am So unaccustomed to anyone noticing what i like/do and caring enough to be nice to me/help me?#it’s also just like. i Just ran out earlier today when my aunt and i got home from the cabin and i feel really dehydrated and gross#and after finishing the bottle i was like Man i wish i had more of this so i could hydrate more. Anyway#and then i looked in the pantry and saw that he had bought me another bottle? and i Literally started crying#like that is so nice of him. i am not used to ppl thinking of me and being nice to me and i didn’t ask him to do that#compared to like. last month (cw vomit) when i threw up like 5 times and was in an emergency room amount of pain and#my mom wouldn’t drive 2 min to walgreens to get me gatorade and i had to get it delivered from instacart#idk man. the combo of people Caring abt me and wanting to be Nice to me and also being Functional adults who are self sufficent#(guy who has been buying groceries for his parents for years now bc they are so bad at it)#is just kind of blowing my mind and also slowly healing my broken ass heart
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sorry I keep forgetting about tag games and dm's etcetera I am in the not real mental state time
#we have a week break coming up (theoretically a break bc things are due after it so I know we'll all still be working)#hoping to decompress and get off of all devices during that time just to like. touch grass and smell the flowers yanno#self care and enjoy nature#I just haven't had the same energy since The Fire aisjsahsndhdh I am floating on a cloud loving and supporting y'all#while entering my unconscious npc era ahshsshdhdh#i'm shooting brainwaves at u filled with positivity#going to a gallery w my friend today to look at a fairytales exhibit hopefully that'll be a nixe relaxing thing#I would yell about the dnd sess yesterday but. tired. doodles coming eventually#one of my classes is literally drawing for games so the only fun art i'm doing atm is kofi member doodles ajahshdhdh#please other kofi memebers request a doodle sometime so I can draw more cute ocs. it heals me#anyway gotta go vote also oajssoahfjd have a wonderful day everyone <3#nadine is typing...
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My dad took a really unflattering picture of me and sent it to the big group chat saying he “likes that I have character” and then compared me to a dog sitting behind us at dinner 🥲
#anyway.#I’ve been struggling so badly with my self image these past couple of months and I kind of liked how I looked today#and then he said I looked like a dog#man. I really wish I didn’t care how I looked. I don’t need to be pretty. I just wish I didn’t care that im ugly#I discovered some am I ugly sub reddit last night and I was looking at all these very beautiful people getting ripped to shreds told#they’re mid and need to lose weight and wear make up and yeah. that sucked. don’t know why I looked at it. knew it would be shitty.
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Tbh being closeted trans is kinda cool if you think about it right. Like sure you know me but watch out for my alter ego that comes out at night! She is tired as hell and hot as fuck
#Separation of self for trans-ness has helped with dysphoria so much to be real#Like yeah I’m that guy but I’m also a girl. And how cool is that!#Like yeah a lot of people will only see the guy but like. People I love see the girl!#I remember when my reflection wasn’t me. When my name rung in my ears. But nah he’s actually not that bad. Feel free to like him#I think I would be happier if I transitioned more (even just in a social sense) but my family is def not ready for that and-#I think I have told most of my friends that would care to know. So we are just living now#I hate giving advice cause I always look back and think it’s bad. But I think I will agree. You are not your enemy#There is nothing wrong with who you are and who you will be#I will probably feel very unlike this post someday but today is a good day and I am happy
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