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As a mexican american myself, i believe chris shouldve been a beautiful brown boy 💔
#brown chris truthers please raise ur hand in unison#resident evil headcanons#chris redfield is mexican#chris redfield#re#art#resident evil#my art#digital art#saw him at my cousin’s bday#didnt know we were cousins but we are 🫶#me when i lie 🫶#(im not lying he is mexican)
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AWESOME INSAANE and INCREDIBLE superior and ps4 art my cousin made for my birthday, which just so happens to be spiderman day !!! :3 check out his beautiful ART and animations ^_^
#GWAHHH THIS MADE ME INSAANE THE FIRST TIME I SAW IT#I BROKE ALL HIS BONES WITH HOW MUCH I SHOOK HIM AND HUGGED THEM💥💥💙‼️#THEY LOOK SO GOOD LOOK AT THEM !!!!#i still go insane at the superior drawing he made me last yr THEN THEY GO AND DO THIS#THEYRE BUDDIESS LOOK AT THEMMM#insane freaking poses and muscles n anatomy.. he even heard me say superior has such dramatic lighting and he worked that in too..#auagahhh<333#go give them some love if u have insta ^_^#gosh.. i am not beating the superior and ps4 bestie believer allegations#superior spider man#superior spiderman#superior spider-man#ps4 spiderman#insomniac peter parker#insomniac spider man#spiderman ps4#spiderman#LOOK AT MY COUSINS ART BOY!!!!#still cant believe my bday is spiderman day... literally FATED#i got permission to post here btw ^_^ so much joy and LOVE in this world..
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How it all started. Happy anniversary to this parasocial relationship, I guess.
#samblogging#it's actually all bc of my OC#i made sam his faceclaim#i think the dec 2018 post indicates when i decided on it first#after i watched snow white & huntsman which is still one of my faves#i first saw sam in my cousin rachel in 2017 which was incidentally out in june too#i'm making june my samiversary month instead of may. it's also his bday month#so what i'm saying is sam had been on my radar for a while even tho i hadn't watched thg (bc i how i am with that series)#i watched him in peaky blinders and he blew my mind. one of his best performances#this time last year was hard tho. i thought that maybe i should just end it bc i couldn't cope#and all the while he must already have been cast as monte cristo!#and now all those amazing projects honestly i think billy dunne was just a transformative role for him. he's only coming into his prime!#the awards will come#mypost
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my bitterness is all consuming
#my cat is here with me. i love her. anyway vent incoming 3 2 1 go#her hatred is. too much#even when im not even there#i can feel it#i feel lucky because i got to spend my bday with my friends. thats hasnt happened in a while#my cousins birthday is tomorrow. no one invited me but thats fine i dont care#my grandma is making a huge pie for my cousin. she has never done that for me#she didnt even call me for my birthday#i wish my grandpa was here. i know he loved me. i saw him so little but i know#she hated him too. hell my own mom is convinced she hates her because she is just like him#the despised grandchild of the hated daughter#anyway i know i shouldnt shed tears for this but i feel so alone lmao#i dont want to live here anymore#delete later
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I barely register that we are 2024 right now what do you mean my birthday is in 10 days and I’m going to be 26 😭😭😭😭😭
#i just realize if I want to celebrate it Need to me next Saturday cause my parents anniversary is June 1st#so now I’m panicking a little since it’s last minute ckdbjdjd#but I kinda want to hold a game night#my cousin dosen’t have her kid and her sister just separated I think it would do her good 🥺#and I guess she has her kids on the same weekend the other has hers so they can see each other#I’ll have to ask#cause no job and my parents don’t have a lot of money especially my mom she had to pay for Puppy’s pills 😭#i usually go bowling but that sounds fun too especially since we didn’t do it on new year like usual#Idk if their brother is free it would be perfect (since he’s my godfather and I never see him)#and if need to I’ll make my own cake bfkdbdjjd#and I don’t like it that much but my dad can make his spaghetti my family love it so much and it wouldn’t be pricy to do for a lot of people#i Need to talk to them about it I hope they accept 😭#i also need to make me aunt leave her house 😂 she will for me and her daughters (kids the third one is free) 😌#i don’t think my brother will be here tho I saw him every weekend this month 😭 ckbsjd#at least he wasn’t annoying this time he was super nice#the last time I saw him I wanted to beat him up#I’m a simple girl I just need a cake and family to have a happy bday 🥰#i also need to look for gift that don’t cost a lot cause my mom want to make me a gift and like I said the money is limited#it’s okay if I don’t have a game or Pokémon cards for once ekxbdjdn#or albums#unless I can find one that is surprisingly not pricy but I don’t think it exist 😂#my dad’s gift is my Purki tickets so it’s only her#alex.txt
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When I was 14 and fairly new to the realisation of maybe being into girls I suddenly got the most intense, all-consuming crush on one of my best friends. Confessing to her was out of the question (a mutual friend of ours, openly bisexual, had asked her out not long before, and she got rejected in a way that left both of them traumatised for a while. I didn't want to put her or myself through something similar), but it was pretty hard to not do anything because we saw each other every day and sometimes I really thought she was also sending me signals. Eventually I asked the friend who had confessed to her before, and she also thought I might have a chance. Flash forward like a month, my best friend whom I was still very much into asked if she could come to my bus stop with me. I said sure, that wasn't really unusual for us. Then she got on the bus with me, even though she literally lived on the opposite side of town, because she "had something very important to ask me". I was all nerves at that point, thinking I was finally going to get my queer coming of age movie confession here.
And then the thing that ACTUALLY came out of her mouth is that she wanted to date my cousin. And whether that was alright with me, because she knows we were really close. I think I gave them my blessing but I don't actually remember because I was just so insulted at the whole thing. Especially after she told me that the thing she liked most about him was that he had a really similar personality to mine, and that it was obvious that both of us were "raised well" (whatever that means). I managed to get over her eventually but to be honest I still don't understand why she chose to ask me this on my birthday of all times
"happy bday! can i break ur heart w ur cousin?"
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I don't understand why people are Soo butt hurt about asking for Ni-ki smut yeah it's a little weird cuz he's JUST turning 18 but they don't have a problem with making stories like that about anyone else's in the group and we basically watched them grow up too just cuz they weren't AS young as Niki doesn't mean they weren't young not only that but some of the smuts they write about the legal line is even more disturbing and disgusting then just simply asking for a slightly suggestive story for Niki seeing as teenagers (not me tho lol) are doing way more and nasty stuff at even younger. And about that thing with the older members like people literally ask for disgusting smut stories all the time like the members watching you and one of them do stuff or I EVEN SAW A NON CON REQUEST THAT SOMEONE ACTUALLY WROTE AND WAS PROUD OF BUT THEN WHEN SOMEONE ASKED THEM TO WRITE ABOUT NIKI NIT EVEN SOMETHING THAT BAD THEY SUDDENLY HAD A PROBLEM WITH IT and someone had asked Ni-ki to be included in the non con thing and I understand being uncomfortable with that but why even write it about that situation in the first place coming from someone who's been sexually assaulted and abused and harassed and taken advantage of multiple time even before I was 8 by people I thought I could trust like multiple of my one of my brothers (I have 3 brothers so one of my brothers) friends and my cousin and someone who was walking me home a classmate and even my brother who let his friends do that to me THAT is disgusting teenagers do nasty inappropriate stuff all the time and none bats an eye but suddenly it's a famous person and there's a problem not saying people sexualizing him is good or ok or not bad I'm just saying there's a double standard it shouldn't be OK for them to write about the other members just cause they are legal it still kind of weird to sexualize them the way people do . Like I can't eleven open tumblr without seeing MDNI and some inappropriate content about them that I don't want to see JUST because I follow enhypen tags or tags like enhypen x reader (even though I mainly only read Niki x reader) AND I'm one year younger than Ni-ki and my bday is the month after his but that's not important what I'm trying to say is that I have like a huuuuugggggeeee crush on Niki like I'm in love with him I swear (not literally I just have like an enormous humongous crush on him) and I don't think that it's that wrong to have feelings that normal teenagers feel (I'm a virgin so I've never done anything) but what I'm saying is it's WWWWASAAAYYYYYYY more weird to ask tobbe non con by the legal line than it is forbme to ask for something like a story where the reader and Ni-ki make out or some (I'm not the one who asked for you to write after he turns 18 just defending you from the people who have been dogging you for no reason when they probably read TONSS ON THOUSANDS Of WWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY WORSE AND MORE DEMEANING AND DISTURBING DISGUSTING THINGS ABOUT THE OTHER MEMBERS AND JUSTIFY IT BY SAYING THAT THEY ARE LEGAL? LIKE COME ON NOW AND THEN THEY HAVE THE NERVE TO MAKE IT SEEM LIKE THEY'RE SAINTS WHEN THEY ARE DOING THE SAME ABD EVEN WORSE TO THE ITHER MEMBERS JUST CAUSE THEY'RE "OF AGE" like seriously a A NON CON REQUEST AND THEY ACTUALLY WROTE IT? that's like not ok especially considering people actually struggle and go through that the double standard is CRAZY LIKE INSANE they don't have the right to look at you when they write and read stuff like non con or sleep stuff that basically just r*pe fics
I know I went on but it's crazy how people will dig you and make you out to be the bad guy when they're doing the same if not worse stuff
You ate all of this up I’m so sorry about what happened to you but your a really strong person and I appreciate what you wrote you couldn’t have said anything more fucking true people are so blinded it’s actually fucking crazy literally everything I wanted to say you summed it up
#enhypen#cherry1sblogs#fanfic#jungwon#jungwon smut#kpop smut#jake sim#sunoo#sunghoon#riki smau#riki nishimura x reader#enhypen riki#nishimura riki#riki x reader#niki#enha niki#niki nishimura#enhypen niki#niki x reader#niki fluff
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Getting to know my... genshin edition.
The one I started playing genshin for:
Diluc Ragnvindr, my love so sweet I will never the way you pulled me away from Valorant into playing genshin impact when I saw that one fanart of you.
The one I stayed for:
Kaeya Alberich, my darling, my sweetheart. I have no other ways to describe you but the reason why I manage to make it this far. I'm dramatic as f. Funny how I came because of your brother but the moment you show up in the screen while I'm playing I knew you are my type.
My current main:
Heizou Shikanoin, if it isn't my lovely child detective. I'm sorry I could not give you the best thing that was suitable for you but it's okay, it'll work out somehow.
The one I wish was my main / My future main:
Ayato Kamisato as the one I wish is my main but I don't have a good team let alone artifacts to give him. And yes, I have him. And yes, he is a good display on my teapot. Dainsleif as my future main so please please please please please make him playable.
The first character I made a fanfic for:
Diluc Ragnvindr, it just happened that his birthday was around the corner when I started playing genshin impact and because he was my first crush in genshin that I made him a bday fic HAHA it's the HOME ff.
The one whom I've made the most fanfic|imagines|drabbles|one shot:
Morax | Rex Lapis | Zhongli, maybe it was because of his interesting lore, something me and my cousin have talked about just this morning. I cannot stop writing, nor do I think I would ever ran out of ideal although most of it is angst because Zhongli is such a angst material, about this guy. His lore is very interesting as he is connected to quite a number of people/beings in the game, living up to his name as the former geo archon, he was a man who went through alot, lost a lot and gained a lot. He knows something yet keeps it disclosed only to himself mostly because of the contracts. He is such an interesting character with an angst material background.
The one I wish to write about:
Dainsleif, personally I think I can make something about him rn but most of the time I depend on the lore of the character before I started writing so that I can use their lore angst them to make them lore realistic. But right now I think that we are still lacking a lot of information about this guy sooooo yeah. Al Haitham on the other hand, I don't but I am yet to reach the Sumeru archon quest so I am yet to analyse his character and his lore. I have a few things in mind for him but for now, it is just my wish to write for him as I am yet to put it into words, on screen and paper.
My overall favourite character(s):
Ayato Kamisato and Kaeya Alberich. Yes, they are two. And I love them equally (..... i think, yes, i think.) That I cannot chose to pick one out of the two of them so might as well have a tie on top of my list.
[ⓒdark-night-hero] 2024°
: I do not own the used pictures. Credits to it's own respective artist, and if the artist wants it to be taken down, I will gladly do so hihi.
#dark night hero#genshin impact#genshin#random#dainsleif#genshin impact diluc#diluc ragnvindr#genshin kaeya#kaeya alberich#kamisato ayato#shikanoin heizou
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NASHURI TWINS PT. 2
The Girl
(original 🎨 by my friend @commanderbunny, specifically made for me on my bday 💕 love you boo) (YOU CAN SHARE BUT DO NOT REPOST WITHOUT CREDIT!)
Born on the fifteenth day, otherwise known as the day of the Eagle (Men)…
Birth Name(s):
🌎 Men Iik (meaning “spirit of the wind”, her true name)
🌍Princess Nyanga, Daughter of Shuri (given name by the Golden tribe of the sovereign nation of Wakanda)
🌙 Ix Ahuil (“Moon Goddess”), Daughter of K’uk’ulkan (royal name as addressed by the Kingdom of Talokan)
Aliases/Nicknames :
“Daughter of land and sea”
usisi (“sister” in Xhosa)
Íits'in (“little sister” in Yucatec Maya)
In lool (“my flower” in Yucatec Maya)
In ujo' (“my moon” in Yucatec Maya)
intombazana yakho (“my daughter” in Xhosa)
“Warrior princess”
“Bringer of Death”
“Youngest Black Panther”
Ek b’alam also known as “The Black Jaguar” - It comes to no surprise the princess goes against her father’s wishes, especially when it comes to Wakanda. With her twin brother and cousin Toussaint as her accomplices, they would travel to and from Wakanda, where they learned so much about the other half of themselves, of who their mother truly was. This meant everything to the princess whose anger and stubbornness rose each day in her mother’s absence. She was the youngest to receive the title of Black Panther at 15. Although it was not for purest of intentions, rather a way of getting Shuri to come back… and stay. Her mother’s grief and anger robbed them of time. In the future to come, the princess would renounce the title of Black Panther only to take on a new mantle, The Black Jaguar — protector of Talokan & Wakanda respectively.
Chac Chel (“Red Rainbow” or “Great Rainbow”) - Attuma gave the princess this title when he saw her merciless nature on the training fields as a young girl. Born a non-mutant, she had an affinity for proving people wrong and showing her natural abilities in the art of war and strategy. She showed strength, courage and honor. Others thought her dangerous for her constant disregard for the rules, not to mention she had trouble thinking things through. The princess drew arms with Namora and Attuma by the time she was 13.
Abilities:
Weapons master
Gifted martial artist
Expert hand-to-hand combatant
Genius-Level Intellect (i.e. made improvements on water suits for non-mutants, masks on Talokanil, etc.)
after consuming Heart-shaped herb…
Gained ability to breathe underwater
Superhuman strength, speed, durability, healing
Shape shifting - Much like Steven Grant as Moon Knight, the princess formed a special connection with an Ennead (most thought it limited to only the 9 Egyptian gods). Ixchel takes possession of her body when in absolute catastrophic circumstances. It maximizes all her jaguar powers. She does not know if it can be controlled and does not remember when she wakes.
Description:
Born under the moon near the Golden City
Non-mutant, but carries physical features resembling that of her father
She loves and fights fiercely
Known for her recklessness
For the Talokanil, the jaguar was representative of power, ferocity, and valor; it was the embodiment of aggressiveness. It represented the power to face one’s fears, to confront one’s enemies. They are also associated with vision, the ability to see during the night and to look into the dark parts of the human heart.
The princess remains very hurt by her mother’s comings and goings. Their father K’uk’ulkan promised Shuri he would do everything possible to take care of their children as best he could before she left the first time. This only meant raising them where he knew he could keep them safest, Talokan.
But the girl grew restless, she could not breathe in water like the modern Talokanil. She would sneak away to where she felt most at home, Wakanda. However their father did not frequent nor visited much after Shuri left so he forbade them of going without him. But it never stopped the princess. Sneaking out with Toussaint and taking her twin brother along, formed an unshakable bond between them all.
Her updated Black Jaguar suit does share similarities to Black Panther. However her helmet outlines, details, claws and teeth are embedded with jade, giving the suit a green glow instead of purple.
She loves her brother deeply. The twin heroes they’d call themselves after the Mayan myth. He is her confidant. She couldn’t live with herself if anything happened to him.
Traits:
Strong, confrontational, assertive, independent, protective, stubborn, loyal, passionate, charismatic, practical, sometimes pushed people too far
(Thanks to my Nashuri fam! Love you guys <3 feel free to tell me what yall think 💭)
Click here to read the short story on ao3
Part 1
#namor#shuri#namor x shuri#shuri x namor#seaprincess#nashuri#namuri#shuramor#nashuri twins#nashuri children#namor of talokan#princess shuri#namor the sub mariner#bpwf#black panther#wakanda forever#nashuri baby fanart#k’uk’ulkan#king namor#black panther wakanda forever#mcu#marvel#mcu namor#mcu shuri
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noo i get u babes i saw my bf 2 days before yesterday for an event AMD I WAS SO HAPPY I MISSED HIM SMMMMM but yes before that event i didnt see him for like 2 weeks and maybe thats not long BUT I WAS TWEAKING
and imma go into detail now bc u gave me the green light LMAO but basically we was at his uncles house bc it was his cousins bday and we were literally like an hour late💀💀 LMAOOAO but we hung out w everyone for a bit then we went to the room he stays in when he sleeps over there and we were making out which is like perf but then yk you get more into it
so as his sweetie self he kept making sure i was comfortable and telling me to let him know if i ever want to stop or if i’m uncomfy (🥹🥹) but BRO.
he was knuckles deep😪 and i was in the literal clouds LMAOO and what made it sm better is when ppl came down the hallway i was obvi being a little loud BC WTF HIS HANDSSS and i expected my man to stop yk BUT HE KEPT GOING AND COVERED MY MOUTH???????? like holyyy i literally almost died right then and there😵💫😵💫
IDK WHY THE THOUGHT OF GETTING CAUGHT AND HIM DOING ALLAT WAS SO HOT BUT IDK IT GOT ME GOIJGGG
anywayy🙏
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GIRL !!!!!!!!!!! thats so fucking hot oh my god i was suffering already but now im suffering even more djsjdjdjd the way i felt butterflies just reading that
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OKAY FIRST OF ALL HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
I was wondering what are some of your headcanons for Dr teeth, or zoot? Have a wonderful birthday! 🍰
Thanks!! I'm so fucking terrified for my bday this year, I don't know if I'll make a post about it cuz there are a lot of other reasons behind it aside from just not having any irl friends to celebrate with, but seeing some of you wish my a happy bday gives me a little smile!
And I sure do!
Zoot:
-So I like to think that even though he can sleep anywhere anytime, his sleep schedule is actually whack. Sometimes he'll sleep for like seventeen hours straight, then wake up at two thirty in the morning, make himself a sandwich and watch tv or something.
-When he was a kid everybody thought his talking shoe Jimmy was just his imaginary friend, including his many cousins. To this day some of them still believe that Jimmy is just Zoot's made up friend and they play along with it
-The only real 'sweet' thing he can handle is dark chocolate, if he has anything sweeter which is barely ever he'll have to eat it alongside something else
-As a kid he had a toy sloth called Timmy, sloths are still one of his favourite animals
-Sleep deprived Zoot is a rarity, but it does exist, the band all fear him, even Animal. He's basically Muffin from the episode Sleepover, mixed with the terror of an eldritch horror. Sleep deprived Zoot is a predator, he can smell your fear
-He's the oldest out of his cousins so far that I've designed for him, but is coincidentally the shortest
-Zoot sometimes forgets that Liv is in her early twenties (she's the same age as Scooter). She doesn't drink alcohol a lot cuz she doesn't like the flavour but when she does drink the stuff Zoot gives her a look and tells her to stop drinking it and go get an apple juice. Liv has to remind him a LOT that she's no longer twelve
Teeth:
-Inspired by a short story titled A Nightmare On Mulholland Drive, even though Teeth's parents are dentist's, and he spent a small portion of his life working at their practise, he is deathly terrified of having to have any operations with his Teeth. As a child he hated the noise of the whirring drill his Mama would use in the practise. A large reason on why his teeth are so perfect is because he didn't ever want to be in a situation where one of those drills had to be near his mouth
-Though his confidence has only improved over the years of being a musician, if you know the right things to say, Teeth can still get quite flustered if the compliments and flirts are coming from the right people
-He is so befuddled by London Cheesecake. To anyone that doesn't know London cheesecake is a pastry like dessert with icing and coconut on the top. The first time Teeth saw it he blinked hard, then asked where the biscuit base was
-When he was younger he had a nervous habit of wringing his fingers, and his noodly arms would coil up by his chest like snakes in distress
-It's not obvious thanks to him always wearing a hat but Teeth's hair is curly in parts, like his Mama's and Grammy's. Tina's hair when it's not pulled back into her signature style is a wild, frilly MESS
-When he first met baby Animal he was fascinated by his jaw strength, impressed by how something that small could have that much bite to him. Floyd was surprised, thinking Teeth would at least be a little more wary about him, but it brought him relief knowing Teeth wasn't unnerved by him
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MISS NIKIII HOW ARE WE FEELIN WITH TTPD FINALLY OUT??? AH I ENVY MY COUSIN BC TAY RELEASED IT ON HER BDAY AND WE’RE BOTH DIEHARD SWIFTIES ;^;
ACIAKXJ brb listening to it while i browse through your blog for my favorite pieces hehe >:))
i still haven't finished listening because of my classes earlier but 'my boy only breaks his favorite toys?' and 'but daddy i love him' so far?? i'm already taken out miss lia ૮꒰ つᯅ⊂ ꒱ა ՞ˎˊ˗
also i saw u passed the upcat !! congratulations, my dearest. you deserve it so much i'm so happy for youuu <3
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I'm going to my cousin's bday party this weekend and i rly hope none of her guy friends are there because last time i saw them one of them literally bullied me to tears. idk how else to explain it.
We were in a club and i was with the girls. And for the first time that night, this guy approached me and started showing me pictures of his gf. I never once initiated a conversation with him. He just pulls his phone up and starts going "SEE I HAVE A GIRL. THIS IS MY GIRLFRIEND. I DON'T LIKE YOU" obviously just trying to get a reaction out of me. But he kept doing it until i had to sit on the stairs outside and weep. He kept insinuating i was ugly too. It was all so weird, like he was trying to make it look like i was interested and he was rejecting me, when i never once talked to him..... okay....
After i sobered up that night i drove like 3 towns over just screaming at the top of my lungs.
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MY OLDER COUSIN GIFTED ME RE2r, RE3r, AND RE RESISTANCE
IM SO HAPPY ILY BRO 🙏
RE was the reason we started talking bc I never talked to him before but I recently got into RE and I saw that he was a long time fan so I started talking to him about it and he said we should play RE6 together :> then the Steam mid year sale happened so I bought RE6 and I told him we can play now !! AND THEN I SAW THE STEAM NOTIF THAT HE GIFTED ME 3 RE GAMES AND OMGGGGG I EXPLODED IM SO EXCITED TO PLAY 😭🙏he said its for all the bdays he missed 🙏🥹
I’ve never played survival horror before so ummm wish me luck im gonna start crying if I see Mr. X💀 I wanted to play RE4r 1st so i could avoid that but its not on sale :( so RE2r and RE6 first !
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I love my boyfriend AAAA
I didn't message anyone the other day, had a really bad depressive episode and basically kept my whole room void of light and felt like shit. I had my notifs turned off as well so I didn't see all my bf's messages and when I came on the next day, I felt so bad cause he messaged me multiple times asking if I was okay (cuz usually even on my worst days I at least send a text and check up on my friends) Have had a migraine for days but didn't wanna take meds for them because I don't wanna use too many of the strong meds because ibuprofen or paracetamol doesn't work well with my migraines. So I explained everything that's going on to him and left it there. My migraine got so bad today and nothing else I did got rid of it so I caved and took some of my strong meds and feel loopy and tired and just as I thought to text him to check up on him cuz he was going to his cousin's bday party and social stuff usually stresses him out, he called just as I picked my phone up (talk about timing) and despite the fact he's in a more stressful situation, he asked me if i'm alright and he sounded like more concerned than I expected so I said "yeah, why?" and he replied "I just want to make sure you're feeling better. I know how bad your depressive episodes can get and I worry about you anyway." AAAAAA He knows my depressive episodes can get really bad because even prior to dating if I went days without talking to anyone, he knew to call to check up on me (I never hang up calls and he knew that because friends and family only usually call me if it's urgent) and one thing I've struggled with for years is SH and I've done so in the past and it really upsets him to see me in a state like that. There was once a whole MONTH I couldn't beat the depressive funk I was in. Worst was I was stuck going to school during that month and he describes how I looked and acted as "dead but still walking and breathing, it was like the life was drained out of your eyes, you didn't have that spark of joy or humour you usually have". So whenever I mention I've had episodes like this, he always gets really concerned but it's so sweet he was still worrying even days after when I told him I was fine and pretty sure this one was just because my hormones were out of whack from my period. I wanna talk about him more because before dating up til now, we've been best friends for 9 years and he's been with me through thick and thin. I actually lost contact with him over the pandemic because he was in the year above me in school and left for college before my last year. He had no social media, only his phone number, and my last phone died fully on me and I couldn't recover anything from it so I lost his number on there. In fact, it was because of a guy I had a crush on, in early 2020, that I met my boyfriend again. The guy said he'd walk home with me because that morning on my way to college, an older guy had stalked me and I felt worried about going home by myself. My 'friend'/crush ditched me without a word, so I had to walk to the train in fear and I saw my bf on the far end of the platform and omfg, the joy I felt seeing him again. It's crazy to think on it now that if the guy I crushed on back then hadn't ditched me and left me waiting those extra 20 minutes, I might not have ever reunited with my bf and eventually start dating him again (we dated in the past but I had so many problems years ago in my personal life that I broke up with him on good terms and we just remained best friends). And you know what was crazy? He admitted to me a while back on a night out with one of our old friends that over those years, he never got over me. I feel bad that he pined for years and didn't move on, but it makes me feels so genuinely loved to know that someone who has seen me at my worst, who has put up with the angry side of me that I used to not be able to control, STILL felt love for me all that time up until now.
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I am so in love with soobin it’s not funny anymore. I am so so so so deeply deeply deeply in love with soobin that is my soobin I love soobin. We should marry.
I’m tired of staring at my screen so im looking at my phone I think that’s the issue it’s been abt 40 mins and im looking away and getting bored idk if thats normal it just seems like natural pomodoro technique to me so i think from now on ill just not go on my phone during breaks but omfggggg i am ITCHING to swipe out and look at instagram but NO i am an INDIAN I have a responsibility to my country to be SMART and HARDWORKING
I wonder if my cousin is bringing my laptop over today I need it for tm :(
La la la la la la lalalalalalala love all my days ok now im gonna go sit w my thoughts but im ngl sitting w my thoughts instead of my phone has been distracting as hell too i think its cuz ive been kicking myself in my room for 8h a day to do work and then to study lalalalala love all my days la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la love all my days
I wonder how my family friend suprabhas is doing. last I saw he moved to Arizona or smth for smth and we wished him happy birthday or smth. He introduced me to Percy Jackson which then changed the trajectory of my life bc I used to be a hater of pjo bc I was a Harry Potter girly but then he just KEPT recommending it like physically took the book he owned and put it in my hands and I was like FINE I’ll read it and then my life changed
Almost opened Instagram again this is so hard 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 take me back to the days when I didn’t have a TikTok’s attention span PLEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASE
MY THROAT HURTS
I miss my old philosophy class. I was happy then
Kick it by blackpink 😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿 rosé and jisoo should do a song like this
:( last night I smoked a cigarette :( my dad would have been so upset :( then we got tattoos by the coast :( and I just stood there like a ghost :( maybe im an old souls trapped in a young body :( maybe u don’t rlly want me there at ur bday party :(
GITCHI GITCHI GOO MEANS THAT I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m happy agaigjn!!!!!!!!
FLY TO MY ROOM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭BTS COME BACK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭MY BANGTAN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭god it’s so bad rn I need back 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭mihika u GYATT to hear this song
ITS JHOPES PART MY JHOPE HES COMING BACK HOME HES COMING BACN IN 2 WEEKS I HAVE REASON TO LIVE AGAIN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿
I need to download bts to my phone it’s getting hard going this long without listening to them same w lesserafim and the new txt stuff after freefall
…it’s maze in the mirror now. Oh god taehyuns singing im gna crYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY god FUCK txt for releasing this song and playing it live like twice I hate u I’m skipping this song I can’t do it rn
Why did they get ferb to get with Vanessa. She was like 8 years older than him.
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