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Safe Enough: And Other Stories by Lee Child, narrated by Richard will be released on Audible US/UK and Kobo on August 29, 2024.
Synopsis : I was the guy who always found a way.
I was the guy that couldn't be stopped.
A drug-dealing hit man unburdens his fears to a stranger. An overlooked rookie cop is assigned to the department’s file room. A ruthless killer only kills bad guys. A methodical bodyguard quits his job when he’s outsmarted. A military mission is planned to perfection. . .
#richard armitage#lee child#safe enough: and other stories#audible#audible us#audible uk#kobo#new audiobook#audiobook#august 2024#news
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Hmmmm... This one and this one I guess -digs through old AU/Prompts ideas and starts tossing them into a melting pot to make something new-
Royal errors, maybe Ghost King (Or just very powerful and respected by the Infinite Realms) Danny, AND deaged Dan and Ellie. With half-sibling Damian.
Talia is a woman with many, many secrets, this is a cold hard fact.
She has so many secrets its no wonder not a single living soul knows them all...
So when seventeen, almost eighteen, Damian really shouldn't had been surprised (he was though) when out of the blue he gets a call from an unknown number that somehow bypasses his firewalls against unknown numbers about his apparent five year old half-sister and brother Helen 'Ellie' Fenton and Dante 'Dan' Fenton.
That their father, Daniel Fenton was taken (by a shady should had been disbanded government agency) and they couldn't get a hold of their mother Talia at all (she was in a middle of stopping a coup happening, a rival assassin group, AND some idiots trying to revive Ra's at the same time, thus radio silent). About how Ellie and Dan were in danger of being taken as well but they needed to put in them a safe place so they could go rescue Danny before word gets out to... well lets just say some very POWERFUL beings weren't going to be happy and they are working on very limited time to get him back.
Jasmine Fenton tells him she knows he had no clue about his mother being with her brother and having kids with him, its something she and Talia often got into small arguments about but try not to bring it up to often around Danny, Dan, or Ellie, and that his relationship with her is often... rocky but she begs him to please watch over them while she, and her brother's best friends go a rescue mission for him.
That they were two very scared five year olds that had to watch their father be taken away after he barely managed to get them to safety and that Damian was the only one she could think of being able to watch over and least protect them at this serious moment.
Damian, and the rest of the family, are stunned silent when Jasmine finishes explaining, her voice on the verge of breaking and no doubt she was trying so hard not to sob.
#danny phantom#danny fenton#dp x dc#blue rambles#crossover#danny phantom dc#writing ideas#random idea#dpxdc#de aged ellie#de aged dan#royal errors ship#half sibling Damian#How Danny and Talia got together is a whole story in of itself#basically she was investigating Amity Park and 'Ectoplasm' reports#meet Danny as he was trying to save a destabilizing Ellie and Dan#they struck a deal tbh. Talia's liminal levels were high enough to support their halfa cores and Danny gives her info on Ectoplasm#at first it was all business but eventually they both fall for each other#Danny loves Talia for everything she is and Talia adores that he doesn't ask her to change.#Talia loves how Danny how unassuming Danny looks but underneath is a powerhouse.#Danny was the one who supported her choice of taking over the League away from Ra's#Basically Talia is the busy powerful business/assassin lady and Danny is a more stay at home house husband#Damian and Talia's relationship is very... rocky to say the least#Not as bad as it used to be when she was following Ra's orders but not how it used to be when they were younger#Talia was unsure how to tell him about his half-siblings#Damian is gonna find it weird. Not bad but weird. He had wanted little siblings but at the same time he is hurt he wasnt told way before#Dan and Ellie like Damian though and latch onto him like leeches cause they can sense his liminal aura aka he feels like home#Meanwhile the Batfam are trying to help and are uncovering everything about Amity Park thats been hidden for years#Jazz knows she's going to be in trouble for calling Damian but she needs her niece and nephew safe first#and who better to keep them safe than an assassin raised half brother whose also Robin
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Disney, releasing Wish: "so it's all about legacy--the new generation surpassing the old, overcoming the evils perpetuated by them, relinquishing singular power... and there's an old man in a tower, uh... animal sidekick, i guess..., ah... magic...?
Miyazaki, just out of frame, sledgehammer raised:
#the boy and the heron#not tagging wish 'cause i'm being a little acidic#this isn't to be negative in the slightest--I really respect both films--but it's interesting to see how visceral boy+H gets with its story#what evils have to be rejected and what they represent--and how characters and the world suffer from those evils--as well as how the whole#'rejecting' part goes. in terms of animation powerhouses discussing their legacies - disney and miyazaki both - I find it interesting that#one makes a pretty safe and nostalgic movie about imagination and dreams; the other is a long trudge through the land of the dead.#b+h is a hard watch - and a look at the legacy of a man questioning his whole purpose in the world - after his cultural touchstones#have long passed by. Mahito needs to understand his grief to keep living--but if he drowns in it he'll just continue the cannibalistic and#violent world of his granduncle. how the hell do you make art when the trauma of your entire life has colored it forever? How can anyone?#maybe after a while... it's time to detonate that damn tower and keep living.#this is to say#if you have enough money to make whatever you want#Make It Fucking Count
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A–Aventio TGCF idea?? Wherein Civil God Veritas Ratio meets the infamous Ghost King Aventurine during his first mission cuz cuz like— The "live for me" paralels?!? The one who has all the luck partner as well?!? The villain who was actually not the Villain this whole time!?!? The loving humanity a little too much it causes their downfall !?!?!?
Rant AU in the tags proceed with caution
#Okay to put it into better words:#Veritas having once being a prince wanted to give everyone the prosperity of knowledge and became a civil god in the pursuit of it.#Sadly this backfires in people using that knowledge for their own greed and creating civil wars within it as well as unleashing far more#Destruction upon the land. And the other gods didn't help Veritas in stopping that bc see that's what happens when people overshare info!!#So the aftermath is just pure chaos plus banishment from being a civil god and thrown as this god of war and plague.#800 years passes and he is seen to just still be doing the same things but I a simple term. Teaching people to read and count.#Often times taking up mission and doing research on new pathogens to help cure the sick that can't afford and somehow during a reading#Lecture he gets ascended back to godhood and everyone is like ??? And even he is like ???#Well he doesn't care much about it and just continues to do what he's always done. Except that once in a while he has to take a detour#Mission to deal with ghosts and other malignant spirits. And upon one of those recurrences he finds himself aquaintanced with#The infamous Ghost King Aventurine. Who is mostly feared in heaven due to having beaten the strongest and wisest at their own games. Even#When the odds where fully against him.#As for Aventurine.#His life was harsh but as the prince had given a lot to the people#Not just education but also free them of diseases and sickness. One of which had struck his sister. He liked the prince and wanted to#Follow in giving and protecting the prosperity of the former kingdom. But the good things did not last and his family was struck in between#The many wars that took place. No matter how much refuge Kakavasha and his sister sought no place was ever#Safe enough for them.#He watched the entire world go up in flames yet somehow he could hate the prince-god for it. But rather the people who had started to#Create weapons in his name. The rest of his years he spent it as a warrior slave and then when death reached him he couldn't even go to#The afterlife since he still held so much vigor and wanted revenge to all the people who had turned his land into ashes and his family#Into bones. That is why he became a mourning ghost.#(I didn't want the kakavasha story to be so centered on ratio like it is in tgcf. Because I think it will be fun for the two of them to#Not recognize each other at first after 800 years and then when they do. Rather when aven does he's full on: oh shit it's the cute prince—#As for who was the cause of the upheaval in the kingdom and the maker of the weapons. Idk I was debating there being more than just one#Antagonist to have pulled their strings in verita's kingdom as well as be the reason Aven's sister died. So he's more revenge seeking for t#And the genius society as civil gods just spoke to me it for so perfectly. Ling wen as Ruan mei? Yeah exactly.#ratiorine#Aventio#Dr ratio
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me reading and watching literally anything: how can i make a passionate torrid intricate Levi au out of this 🤔
#AS IF I ALREADY DONT HAVE ENOUGH 😶🌫️😶🌫️😶🌫️#was reading foucaults pendulum the other day and i caught myself thinking how could i incorporate a sexy love story into this LMAO#nothing is safe im afraid#levi ackerman#levi ackerman x reader#levi x reader#attack on titan#shingeki no kyojin#aot#snk#aphroditaeon.txt
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why the fuck would killer do such thing, he was not himself - yes I agree, but holy shit that was DIABOLICAL by making him in this fanfic do as horrific thing as such. you mentioned something that ALL YOUR DISCORD FRIENDS FAULT, guess what - 👏 you👏 could👏 have👏 not 👏listened👏 to👏 them
#if you get so worked up over a content you can read online for free#then I think that you don't have enough problems in your life#also I think you should consume more angsty content znd not only things that make you feel safe and coodled#guess what: people hurting other badly because of mental health issues despite being deep down good and loving person exist#block me and go read a fluffy love story without any consequences if this piss you off this much#ask Sid glorious#cmk
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Hunter what the FUCK-
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#love this because it's the following reaction to the last ask#this is funny considering 72.7% of 44 people who interacted with the poll considered Hunter worthy of forgiveness. which is around 31 votes#tbf forgiving is one thing but moving on is very different#someone commented on the post saying they would forgive Hunter but would struggle to continue friends/acquaintances with him#and honestly? that's absolutely fair. but yeah you can guess Bee's reaction to the truth wasn't the best one#Hunter is used to her explosive reactions so he kinda expected her to lash out#but worse than that he was met with an utter and deadly silence. B2 never made it clear whether or not she forgave him#on one side all those years of hardwork and friendship sounded like a lie and she struggled to process the weight of it all#on the other side she wasn't the only person affected by his past actions and that infuriated her even more.#a whole civilization was nearly annihilated by Bee's kind - all because Gideon decided to send 'em off to war#the same civilization he's infiltrated under the disguise of a 'rebellious android'#the same civilization they spent years trying to rescue and save. the same civilization she considered family. the closest thing to home#------ now to a more inconsistent and unexplored side of this story...#There's a Certain Event that takes place after this and is very heartbreaking. however I'm not entirely sure if Hunter's told the truth-#-before or after the final conflicts of the story were over#i like to think he waited until the very end to talk to Bee. presuming it was safe enough to do so#It's likely Bee was so hurt and angry that she promised to go back to her Real Home (to her orbit as a comet) and never look back#and that's when- oh boy i talked too much in the tags again!#oh gee! so sorry for rambling#i'll stop here :]#the continuation to this can be found in an illustration i'm working on!! stay tuned!!!!#ok byeee#inbox#fusionsprunt
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Oh I am *cackling* at the producers trying to claim the show was driven by Loki and Sylvie's relationship when she refused to lift a finger to help multiple times (while platonic bestie Mobius was living out romcom moments by the dozen with Loki), and honestly they could have not had her in the season at all and barely anything would change. Like, I don't like that ship but it's still SO deeply disrespectful to give them NOTHING on screen all season while giving all the cute classically shippy moments to Lokius, and then come out after and claim it was some grand, sweeping romance and also there was nothing intentional about giving all the shippy stuff to Lokius. 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄
Also, as I said in some tags, the "we can't get into Loki's head" like is just....peek absurdity. My brother in Christ, YOU'RE the writers! This character has been in the MCU for like, 14 years, played by Hiddleston who is *obsessed* with Loki. Getting into Loki's head should have been a cake walk! And even if it wasn't, IT'S LITERALLY YOUR JOB TO GET IN THE CHARACTER'S HEAD. Maybe this is why shows are so shitty? Instead of letting the characters drive the plot by getting into their heads and making choices from that perspective, showrunners instead twist the characters into a storyline.
ANYWAY.
#loki#anti sylki#anti sylvie#to be safe#i honestly don't care enough about her to be anti and i think her character (and loki's) got shafted by shitty writing#but i don't need rabid fans in my inbox#i'm in a fair amount of pain so i'm being bitchy but honestly#what a clusterfuck#and after OFMD and GO this year pulled out amazing seasons you gotta turn around and pull this shit?#i am a person who LOVES love stories#i want to see the sweeping romance! i love cheesy christmas romcoms!#and i can tell you right now as a lover of romantic tropes the relationship you're claiming was romantic had ZILCH this season#while your 'platonic' male besties were hitting multiple romantic tropes and moments every. single. episode.#there WAS a sweeping romance being told (just ask your composer)#and if you couldn't see it or you think not showing it in the other pair and claiming it was there in an article after the fact#instead of PUTTING IT ON SCREEN which is your literal job to convey the story in a visual way to the audience#then maybe you shouldn't be the one in charge#if you have to tell people after the show is over that something was actually a romance and something else actually WASN'T a romance#then you did not effectively use your time in the show to tell the story you were trying to tell
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Coda and Ichor! (Catacombtale Style!)
These two don't have a *ton* of interaction in the Main story, but since Ichor and Balance are the only two characters I've fully designed, Coda gets stuck next to him, haha!
BONUS art jumpscare:
These two actually exist in another project I'm working on too called Codex, which is basically just removing the UT aspects of Catacombtale and doing a lot more worldbuilding and character design!
Coda is older in Codex and is marked by an old God (which should get him jailed or killed, as it means for everyone else) but he hides it for years and years before he finally flees the complex he's living in to go confront the gods and stop their destructive path. Meanwhile Ichor is much the same, only he's much more ready and willing to help Coda without much prompting. Here he's also sort of a Koi Fish! (His brother is a Betta Fish)
#utmv#utmv sans#utmv oc#my art#spot!drawn#utmv art#Catacombtale#Ichor Sans#Coda#ichor#Ichor is so funny to me because his Brother (Reward) uses puzzles and then a final battle as his “Challenge” but Ichor?#his Challenge is to tell him the best Pun you know. He is the God of Puns after all!#(I think he hides his true nature as God of Punishment from the player as long as possible. saying his bro is so cool for being a major god)#Coda is a human with a lot of integrity and stubborn morals. even Determination can't escape the Gods wrath. but integrity?#Gods have a code to respect a soul who follows their own nature and still co-exists despite it just like themselves#so Coda is primed to help out.#his sister is about 7 abd she's a soul of Bravery#which means Hearth (who watches over her as a safe-space from the eyes of the other gods) has his hands full#trying to keep her from charging after Coda#Coda is so funny because he'll just walk in sonewhere and start a “Nuh-uh” contest with any given god and like... usually ends up winning???#and usually the Challenges are more gentle because he's still a young mortal. hardly a Hero. certainly not the one of prophecy#everyone figures Asgore or Undyne will kill them but uhhh. yeah. no that doesn't happen.#There's a lot of Lore here but like...#one additional thing is that in the story Coda manages to spend enough time with Ichor to obtain an item#“Sans' Protection Charm.” /Ichor gave it to you. Says to keep hold of it when facing danger. It seems like an old keepsake./#that charm is one that Ichor carved years and years ago and he only gives out charms to mortals he cares for#not only has the underground seen his rage boil (even while chained) but they have also seen his sorrow. no one wants to be the one to kill#the mortal he has deemed harmless. some fear he might have another outburst. others worry he'd fall down.#it has no real stat changes but when Coda equips it? it's like turning on Easy Mode for Godly Challenges
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there's this twitter thread of white people talking about the off the wall shit they or their children did as toddlers and im just like. well i would have been killed for that so i never did any shit like that but glad u guys were OK 😭
#some story about oh my 3 yo got a whole tub of honey to their room and the younger sib spilled it#im thinking one.... i wouldnt have even Thought about doing smth like that#(taking the honey where it shouldnt be)#and two. ksndbdjjfkfndmmd#on the one hand genuinely glad that Apparently the kids felt safe enough to do this#on the other hand i do not envy the parents that had to clean shit like that up
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Remember when I could barely read anything for years?
Well, at that time the very few books I could read were Brandon Sanderson's ones. Until I couldn't. I tried to read rhythm of war and I just couldn't. Not because I got bored of it, had lost my obsession or whatever. But I was just physically unable to read it... Tbh Kaladin mental state being close to mine at that time was probably a reason. Anyway, after that I stopped reading completely. It broke something in me to not be able to enjoy something I know I normally love. And I knew it wasn't cause I grew out of it like I usually do And I felt guilty not reading, etc. So I basically stopped reading completely for what feel like ages.
When I started reading back I was scared picking up any of his books, so I didn't try, I then you know I slowly came back to my original self, found a part of my soul that was dead, or so I thought. But yes basically I'm now my normal reading self with my imagination functioning, as normally as it is possible when you're an adult working 40hrs a week, dealing with a dysfunctional brain, you know the drill. Last year was a good year in terms of books.
So what I'm telling you is that I'm finally confident and able to read a Sanderson book. And also it means I'm like 10 books late 💀 I haven't decided to read ROW because I've decided to be reasonable and test water first. And I've started Tress of the Emerald Sea so I can have a nice one shot at first. And god does it feels good to dive into something love. And to instantly recognise the narrator despite the years, to know you're gonna have a good world building and a magic system. I'm very early in the book, because as usual my reading pace during weeks is like very very slow cause I'm on low battery brain and sleepy but now that I've accepted that I don't feel guilt anymore. I think I picked the right book cause it's light, it low-key have the kind of British humour style I love so I can relax in peace. Can't wait to finally be able to come back to the stormlight archive and cry, cry cry.
Also generally speaking I have the urge to come back to big ass fantasy book series so it means I'm good.
#misc#i love reading you guys#also i somehow didn't spoil myself tsa#idk how#when i come across posts i just read the first words to know if im safe#and no spoilery fanarts#maybe o did see some and didn't know but o don't remember lmao#anyway im not gonna read all books at once#cause i like to digest with other books in the middle#and with french translation of tsa dividing books in two (for money or because Mélanie the poor translator is having a nervous breakdown idk#i will have stuff for years lmao#speaking of fantasy series#ive promised my friend to give Robin Hobb a second chance#long story i will talk about later short story i was 13 when i read royal assassin and i didn't like it#but i think i wasn't mature enough#so she landed me first book (divided in two again 😤)#but yeah they're waiting#but now#i've heard a lot about Steven Erikson Malazan's series#and it seems complicated as hell and i want to read it so bad#probably crave it because i don't have the freaking book#anyway do you have other fantasy series recs?#i also want to read le sentier des astres#which i started back then but it wasn't the time#and now i want to read the novella first#also don't rec me the wheel of time#i considered reading it wheel of time because well... Sanderson finished it#i've read the first few chapters#but it's the same beginning as every single classic fantasy books and that part of my life is over#could be standalone books too! i know these things sometimes exist in fantasy believe it or not I've read a few
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well, how about this, while I wait for the roofers to come fix the mess they made of my ceiling. just so I can feel like I'm doing something productive.
since my savings are now significantly smaller than they were a week and a half ago, I guess now's a good enough time as any to start talking about some half-decided plans I have for this upcoming story I've been writing, and perhaps other original stories as well if this goes well.
while I'm still going to be posting the bulk of my work on AO3 like I usually do, I think I'm also going to be launching a patreon!
here's the soft plan, though I'm still working out details:
serialize this story at a chapter each week, which will probably take a few months overall.
chapters will be posted to AO3 the same day every week, and a week early on patreon.
extra material will also be on patreon, from author commentary to essays on historical/mythological background that's going into the story to extra fics that will be a few thousand words each. (or... so.)
the main story will fully stand alone. extra scenes will be like... stuff happening from other POVs offscreen, flashbacks, a sappy post-story fic, etc.
after the story is fully done being posted, an ebook version of the story will be made available to patrons with thanks, etc. to everyone who supported the project.
??? repeat?? m/m minotaur story this time, f/f witch who owns a familiar animal shelter story next time. lmao
part of me is still like "no, no one will pay money to support your writing" but like. I've seen worse writers than me make money, I guess, so why not try? it's not like it can hurt, and it can be fun to experiment with new methods of distribution sometimes.
I'll probably post a survey once I've finished the rough draft of the fic so I can plan out the finer details, but that's my basic plan. I want to write the whole fic and edit it before I start posting anything, and at the rate I'm going... I'm aiming for the beginning of May? it's at about 70k rn, and I'm thinking it probably has about 10-20k to go.
so I guess we'll see!!!
in the meantime, if you are a person who is interested in any of this and you have feedback about the project, feel free to lmk! anon or logged in, either is fine. lemme know if there are any patreon perks you'd like to see or if you have ideas about pricing/tiers/etc.
I'm very new to this so I'm open to ideas and opinions!
fingers crossed. lmao
#I originally considered making the ebook available for purchase on patreon from the beginning#for people who didn't want to wait#but the more I thought about it the more I think serializing is the way to go#for my own enrichment lmao#I'm trying to get over my own mental block about selling my original writing#I have enough money saved up to replace my roof and for this upcoming medical procedure I'm gonna need#but that's only because I've been saving since before covid to renovate my bathroom to make it safe and accessible for me#and uhhh let's just say that that fund has been remarkably depleted 🙃#so I'm trying to get over my very intense imposter syndrome ig#go out on a limb and try something new#I want to write the stories anyway so I guess this is just me experimenting with new distribution methods#can't hurt#worst that can happen is no one reads it#but my betas are enjoying it at least so I'm hoping other people will too
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I just woke up and now im having a panic attack because some overfried orange bigotted dictatorial asshole (and a bunch of red elitist capitalistic shitheads) was given too much power and now they’re starting to try and fucking axe literal safe spaces for queer people and minorities on the fucking internet as long as the base of operations are in their fucking country……..
And the thing is its just the start too…
#vent#like WHAT THE FUCK#fuck- i cant- my head is too loud right now…#i am furious and in despair and stressed#and its most definitely NOT ONLY GOING TO BE A THING THAT WILL AFFECT ***ONLY*** THE PEOPLE IN THAT COUNTRY BC FUCK#THESE SITES ARE USED GLOBALLY TOO FOR FUCK SAKE#PEOPLE NEED TO STOP BEING IGNORANT AND APATHETIC ABOUT IT JUST BECAUSE THEY THINK ITS NOT GOING OT AFFECT THEM#*BECAUSE IT IS.*#AND ITS JUST STARTING TOO…#FUCK ITS GIVING DYSTOPIAN VIBES FOR FUCK SAKE#HAVE WE NOT LEARNED?!??????#SO MANY AUTHORS HAVE WRITTEN SO MANY STORIES ABOUT IT…#AND WE HAVE LITERALLY HAD A WHOLE HISTORY TO LOOK BACK ON#DON’T FORGET.#AND WHO AM I KIDDING IT ALREADY STARTED LONG AGO. IT WAS ALWAYS THEIR PLAN ALL ALONG#AND ITS JUST GOING TO GET WORSE MOVING FORWARD!#AND WE CANT JUST STAND AND JUST *WATCH.* OR FACE THE OTHER DIRECTION.#BECAUSE ALL THIS IS EVER GOING TO LEAD IS TO EVERYONE’S SUFFERING.#except for those these shit benefits. which is basically those on top#fuckhhhhhh#DUDE IM NOT EVEN FROM THAT FUCKING COUNTRY AND ITS STRESSING ME OUT!!! LIKE FFS THESE SITES HAVE BEEN MY SAFE SPACES SINCE I WAS A KID#AND NOT JUST ME BUT FOR MANY OTHERS!!! SO MANY OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES ONLINE???! IVE MET DUE TO THESE SITES#AND NOW THERES A HUGE FUCKING CHANCE THAT ITS GOING TO BE TAKEN AWAY BECAUSE PEOPLE WERE STUPID ENOUGH TO WAVE AWAY THESE ASSHOLES’#ATROCITIES AND PUT THEM IN POWER *AGAIN* ANYWAY#the system is working as intended#and it is fucking everyone over#aster rant
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the sinus headaches are already not great but Extra Shit has been added to the pile and im just sat on that right now trying to figure out what the fuck to do
#ive uh not processed it yet and it also wont really shake out for a little while now i guess but .. yeah#long story short my friends who ive been A Trio with since we were 11 might be done with each other#theres a LOT of additional factors but theyre splitting a house share so one can go live with a boyfriend#and in the process it sounds like theyve made a lot of selfish choices for some unknown reason#ngl theyve pissed me off a little bit for being so weird and reclusive since theyve had the boyfriend as well but only with us#its ... yeah i dont know what alls happened because i dont live with them#but i just cant fathom how they got to this point quibbling over the contents of their shared house of 5 years#over a boyfriend whos been around for 2 or 3 years ..... to ruin a friendship of 18 years ????#again i dont know the whole story but i trust what the friend whos still good at talking to us to not lie about them being screwed around#i just dont get it at all how to reconcile what ive been told with who ive known over half my life#theyve felt off .. or wrong for a while now tbh ... i miss them#i havent seen the other one since before may ...#the thought that mightve been the last time we all hang out is kind of killling me inside lol#and it was also pretty weird and stilted again because it was very boyfriend-centric#this always happens to me lol ive lost count of all my school friend groups who end up basically fighting over me after they fall out#its a MAJOR trauma point for me and i thought we kind of grew past that but i guess i was wrong#ive been catching myself with a weepy eye or a single sob all day#i dont know what to do i wanna know what the fuck happened and what was worth doing this for#i wanna confront everyone and ask for a fucking explanation as to why my single life solid bedrock is falling apart#i mostly wanna dig a hole and die in it ... im fine im safe but im bothered by like ...#what a total fool ill look like if i just melt down at work ... i might find the mental health first aiders list and write an email lol#im like not okay cksbdkssj fucking hell#i have some hope but its ... its hard out here#i need to go to bed fuck#id dont neeeeed thiiiiisss im gonna choke on life agaaaiiinnn#the battle to keep my shit together enough to at least not self-sabotage ??? its testing my patience#rory's ramblings
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question to radfems who play project sekai: what is your analysis on mizuki?
My take is going to be very "on the surface" as I tried to play the game twice (bc there are a lot of cool songs (vocaloid and not) incl 2 by mafu) but just don't like the gameplay mainly for the upward flick notes and I don't follow stories of the games I don't play so I skimmed the wiki for cards and some quick info. So (using sex-based pronouns for the character Mizuki here):
Mizuki is a crossdressing male, voiced by an actual female actress. His gender is stated to be unknown, the character himself uses "boku" which is used by males and tomboyish females, the game either avoids using pronouns or uses "kare" which is "he" but I see people say is also used gender-neutrally for "they" (male pronoun is used as gender neutral, who's surprised? Not me), eng version uses "they", the playable characters who didn't know him before he grew out his hair and started dressing in feminine clothing sometimes use "she". He is and was bullied in school for liking cute things, was/is still(?) depressed bc of it (even wanted to commit suicide), mostly skips school but not so much he'll be made to repeat a year. Good at altering/making(?) clothes and making music videos. And well the being bullied/depressed can be easily sympathised with, and his talents appreciated. Worth noting that being bullied for liking cute things bc they're "for girls" is a strictly male experience (but idk the details and can say that if a girl is bullied for that (if by other girls I mean) it usually goes w it being her hyperfixation if she's autistic, if by boys it's bc they just bully just bc.). However, the way the character is coping is... not really cool. He engages in consumerism and recreating his idea of "cute" with wearing dresses, thighhighs and heels(?)/feminine shoes and using infantile (yes mainstream cute in jp really is that) poses and face expressions such as : ○, : ↿, : - and :p and "foxy" (cunning?) expression with a slight smile and slightly lowered brows. Most of the cards have him with these expressions, but also a lot of them have him portrayed pretty happy, some are just neutral but usually include a "cute" pose. One or two looked like the character is evil/insane (glowing eyes and a wide smile without showing teeth :) ), and then like again JUST one or two look like the character is sad (younger version with short hair and masculine clothing crying and another which looks more like serious/deep in thoughts and has a pretty dark palette). He doesn't call himself a girl though and doesn't try to convince anyone that he is one, instead he hopes he can be viewed as just "Mizuki" like he is. Means he's just a gendernonconforming guy that is unfortunately imitating/perpetuating harmful stereotypes generated by the culture he currently lives in.
Edit: also he used to experience dysphoria/dysmorphia if he used to cover the mirror?
(Disclaimer about femininity: it was created and is constantly modified to opress the female part of the human population, which is punished for both following it and refusing to follow it. If a male is uncomfortable with masculine gender roles, which are used to learn to opress and tries to follow the other set of rules he is bullied for CHOOSING the "loser" position that is used for women and everything associated with them. This is an EFFECT of misogyny but is again a strictly male experience which means it isn't misogyny itself)
I'm trying to reflect what my PERSONAL gripes are here: when I chose that band bc the theme of trauma resonates with me most out of all the others (I mean the group with a (self-made)trainee and 3 ex-idols just by description sounds meh bc female idols are exploited too strongly but I hope they're characterised well ig, I didn't get to research that when choosing and tbh now too, the group about reconnection sounds ok but too slice-of-life-y, the other two are mixed, I mean have boys) and I hoped it was a group of just girls trying to be supportive of each other and to overcome hardships together and then among them saw this kinda shallow infantile character who also mostly didn't even look depressed and looked "playfully cutesy" and happy and was also a "trans girl" (which to me explained these shallow imitations of being a girl) but turns out it's the fandom shouting about trans so loudly and occasionally about nb, and shutting down any discussion about him being male. Idk if the storywriters and artists are ever trying to make a comment about gender roles or just want an actually shallow cute-pretty appealing with looks character. I do not want to research any further and if anyone actually following the story of the game can tell me if the matters are made better or worse, I'll be glad. For now I can say I don't have a strongly negative reaction to the character anymore, as intentions matter, but still remain critical of him not reflecting on why he is following what society says is cute and why is he not dropping out of high school if he doesn't need it?
Disclaimer for gender-pilled tumblr community: I reflected on my kneejerk hateful reaction to a character and softened a bit but still remain critical for slightly different reasons now. I know you don't like sex-based pronouns but if you come here to argue please read the whole thing first
#radfems please touch#radfems do interact#radfem safe#Radfems please interact#project sekai#mizuki akiyama#mizuki pjsk#Also I wonder if keeping the secret is essential to the character so it will go on until eos or if theres a future story#Where he tells the truth to everyone. If he does I wonder if it'll be “I'm a boy I just like this kind of fashion” or#“I'm a trnsgrl”. The outcome will probs be “dont worry we are such good friends now it doesn't matter sorry you had to keep a secret”#With like no conflict whatsoever other than maybe “you didnt trust us enough?”#Also lucky mizuki might be one of those men who even after puberty don't have the voice crack ie ayumu murase#Honestly having an openly gnc boy will do wonders unlike the “color coding pink+blue+white means trans”#As if the combination hasn't been used for cute stuff waaay before the trans flag became widespread
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Somi, Somi, Somini
#youni originals#fantasy story#neon's crew#issassom#tal#eyestrain#<- for somini#catgirlguy time <3#(somi is issassom's nickname. because i do not want to type all those letters all the time)#the first two are. mildly inspired by me starting to watch dragon ball.#but like. very very mildly. it's mostly just generic anime imitation art style#i've decided that somi was originally Neon's navigator and he is still like. the head of the navigators in Neon's pirate empire. but he was#assigned to Tal's crew because tal moves around A Lot so somi can gather a lot of data on safe routes and places to avoid n stuff#and he and tal argue A Lot because tal is like I do Not need a navigator I'm good enough at this on my own. and somi hates him because he's#a very irreverent guy and always late to the captain meetups (on purpose) and basically yeah they kinda want to kick each other's asses.#and also want to kiss each other a little bit.
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