#saeran knowing things about her that nobody knows because he is always by her side

[natasha-in-space]

Why am I suddenly thinking about a butler!SE Saeran/princess Natasha au.......

[juminies]

hi, any thoughts on jumin and rika and how he saw her? i love your jumin takes so i'm very interested in hearing your opinion on this

Hi! This is one of those things I've been meaning to talk about forever but never really had the motivation to get around to writing about, so you've opened a door for me to finally attempt to get my thoughts down. Sorry if it's a little muddled or convoluted :')

Disclaimer I will be ignoring the existence of the ssum because even though I know there has been Jumin and Rika related shenanigans over there they are not part of mystic messenger canon to me whatsoever 💜

I have always felt as though when it comes to Jumin and Rika’s relationship in particular a lot of people look at them far too simply without considering, in particular, Jumin’s view on love and human connection in its entirety—the fact that prior to his route he has not witnessed healthy love up close his entire life (including the "love" between V and Rika, even if they seemed good together on the surface). He is, as such, very hesitant to get close to it, and doesn't think about it as a realistic scenario for himself despite his admitted loneliness.

Jumin is very averse to making new connections in general; he struggles socially, is used to being viewed as something people can use for their own benefit rather than his own person, and V is the only real friend he has ever made of his own volition. Consequently his adoration and loyalty for Jihyun were bound to extend to anyone he loved too, and it just so happened that the person V loved was Rika, who confronted Jumin in a way that even his lifelong best friend didn't. There was a level of emotional vulnerability with Rika that V—like Jumin—was uncomfortable expressing, and so she brought out a different (new) side of Jumin. It wasn’t entirely one-sided either, as Rika also confided in Jumin in a way that she admitted she couldn't even to Jihyun at least once. Jumin and V have seemingly always had a tendency to undershare and Rika, as the person closest to them, definitely knew that. So she and Jumin developed this weird little friendship where they were both closer to V than they were to each other, but neither of them could quite confide in him the way they could to one another. She was also one of very few people (especially pre-RFA) who never saw him as just his talent, his position, his wealth. He liked that she saw the ugly parts of him too. She made him feel comfortable and free. He could just be Jumin, not C&R's Jumin Han, you know?

But it’s important to remember when thinking about them that Rika was very likely the first time anyone had ever talked like this with Jumin, and really tried to get him to dig deeper into his own emotions in a way that wasn’t belittling. Jumin represses and has always repressed. He had always tucked feelings he found inconvenient away ASAP, hidden even from himself. But Rika saw him as a person, and intentionally or not she tapped into the parts of Jumin that he tried to hide away and gave him an outlet nobody else had ever really allowed him. It became something that he associated with her and her alone.

I wanted to avoid just throwing big VN chunks in here but this one in particular is so important to deducing their relationship, so I am just going to put the standout parts here ->

Now the thing with Rika is that, the way I see it, it can be difficult to determine what is genuine with her and what isn’t. She didn't have anything to gain from specifically Jumin the way others did, but Rika has this fundamental need for people to see her as good and honest, and she needs to be admired even when she doesn't truly believe she deserves it (or otherwise when she doesn’t truly deserve it). The situation with Saeran aside I don't think that she takes to explicitly or purposefully lying much, but outside of her relationship with Jihyun(?) she is a people pleaser to the highest degree because she seeks constant reassurance that she is not completely evil.

This exchange, for example, has always felt incredibly off to me

because there is something in it that subtly pushes Jumin into a corner in what can be easily interpreted as attempt to seek validation. It happens in a serious conversation immediately after Rika asks if he trusts her and he tells her "of course I do." It feels almost like she's testing him; trying to see how far his loyalty to both herself and V stretches. There's a very real possibility that she knew how highly he held her and attempted to use it to reassure herself. To quietly push him to make her feel desirable—lovable—perhaps? This probably isn't the only time similar occurrences popped up. I don’t think she intended to cheat, and she would have known that Jumin would never betray Jihyun like that anyway, but I do know that she felt unfulfilled with V and it’s not a stretch to say she would seek similar reassurance elsewhere. A little bit like she does with MC in V route, really.

Then there's the projection onto Elizabeth, which is in my opinion a coping mechanism not for Rika's absence specifically but rather for Jumin's general loneliness. This, obviously, was not romantic (the fact I have to clarify this is absurd but I have seen some... interesting takes over the years), but Jumin admits himself that he viewed Elizabeth like a confidant. Him turning to Elizabeth was him knowing that he could not continually go to Rika when he needed emotional support because she quite clearly expressed she wanted him to find it elsewhere, however it makes sense that he struggled to disassociate Elizabeth from Rika when Rika was the only person he felt could see him for what he really is. He was not presented with any other legitimate option. I do feel it’s quite interesting when trying to comprehend how much Rika really cared for him that she seemingly didn’t know the extent of Jumin’s emotional reliance on her.

When all is said and done though, I think that claiming Jumin was in love with Rika is both untrue and far too simple. To be honest I genuinely don't even believe Jumin himself knows how he truly felt about Rika, really. He's the king of burying his emotions and he is loyal beyond belief, so I do think that if there had been romantic feelings for her mixed up in him somewhere (which there very probably were, though a bit warped due to his aforementioned lack of perspective on healthy love) he wouldn't have let himself unpack them enough to realise that's what they were. What he did definitely do, though, was put her on a pedestal as the only woman he felt like he could legitimately trust with anything. At the point where they were the closest every woman before her had either abused him or had an ulterior motive, but Rika was unique. She wasn’t trying to get close to him for sex or connections or monetary gain. She brought out a curiosity in him that nothing and nobody else but V had been able to before. Jumin had so little real, genuine, heartfelt human connection. Of course he was going to get attached to her, but I don't think that he’s lying when he says he didn't even think about it because she was his best friend’s girlfriend. Around the time that he opens up about Rika I cannot see him intentionally lying to MC whatsoever. She was his friend. He trusted her. I actually think the way he feels about Jihyun is incredibly similar to how he felt about Rika.

As a final note, Jumin knowing the truth about V's eyes, along with the assertion that MC is "warm and soft... unlike Rika" are very intriguing. They're the main two things that suggest to me that while he admired her on the surface he quite clearly had some much deeper, more complex feelings about Rika (particularly closer to her "death"), but still chose to put his faith in Jihyun’s judgement rather than doubting Rika while she was around. I think it's very possible that after witnessing the selfless kind of care that MC provides he started to really pick up and reassess the colder side of Rika's behaviour, so to speak. Not even strictly things that happened in bad faith (she did genuinely hold RFA members highly after all), but she has a very twisted view of what is good for both herself and others, and it’s one that Jumin does not mesh with.

[marshmallowprotection]

You know one thing I love about Saeran's AE sprite? It's that he's always facing us.

I mean, sure there are other characters who face us - actually all of them, I think have sprites that are face-on.

But Ray, Saeran, Unknown?

Nope.

They're always tilted to the side. Never quite facing us. Never direct.

And their hands are always covering their chests. I like to think they have their hands on their hearts. Just because I'm a simp.

But still. 😂

The Saerans never truly face us.

With Unknown, it could be disdain or pure arrogance, and for Suit, it could be similar.

Only Suit is more defensive, right? He always shields himself.

And Ray, well. He's timid and insecure. He doesn't want to come on too strong. He mightn't even feel like he deserves to properly face us.

But AE Saeran?

That beautiful man?

He faces us strongly, directly, and confidently.

Because he's free now. He's free and happy!

And all of those expressions his sprite does??

The blush?? The full, gorgeous smile with his lil teeth??

Look at that man.

Look at him, because he's looking right back at us.

Ever since I noticed this, I...just can't help but love him even more.

<3 <3 <3

...

...I've also got a message from Eunjoo to deliver.

She wants her cheeks pinched.

I like to say it's because they're all holding themselves back in some capacity. When you have lived a life where your autonomy has been Stripped Away from you, you're going to do anything you can to make sure that you have some semblance of control, and for them, what that often means is controlling how they hold themselves.

Keeping a hand close to their chest… well, it’s reflective of wanting to feel smaller, small enough to feel like nobody will try to grab them, and that’s a legitimate and rational fear after a lifetime of abuse and torture at the hands of Mother Choi and Mint Eye. So, it's no wonder that's how they stand, to protect themselves from everything, and to keep anything away from their heart so they don't fall to weakness.

So... they don't get manipulated again like Rika said they were by trusting Saeyoung and V.

But, you're right, GE Saeran no longer hides his chest or his heart, he wears it loudly and proudly, with a smile on his face. Sure, things aren't perfect by any means and it's going to take a long time before he can learn how to navigate how to be a free man, but he's no longer going to hold himself back because he knows he has people standing behind him who believe in him, and that helps him believe in himself.

[jenanigans1207]

Hold Every Breath for You [707/fem!character]

“Everyone has a fatal flaw.” She whispers into the blanket of darkness that shrouds them. She’s on her back, looking up at the ceiling, but Seven has been on his side looking at her for a while now. Even in the barely-there light of the moon, she’s stunning.

“Yeah?” He can’t help but smile at her, even if she isn’t looking at him to see it. The fact that he has the freedom to do this with her, to lay next to her in this bed as the moon rises high in the sky is like a dream in and of itself. More than he ever could’ve imagined for himself. More than he has ever believed he deserved. “Go on.”

“Well,” She turns her head to look at him and he feels his breath catch in his throat as she smiles radiantly back at him. “Zen’s is obviously his narcissism.” He can’t stifle a huff of a laugh that comes as a response to that and it seems to encourage her, so she presses on. “Yoosung is addicted to LOLOL. Jaehee doesn’t know how to set boundaries for herself. And Jumin’s is obviously his robotic lack of emotions.”

Seven laughs openly next to her, reveling in the moment at hand. Never in his life would he have dreamed of something like this— never would he have been bold enough to even imagine that he could have moments like this. It’s like every dream he never let himself have for his life but so much sweeter. “I can’t say you’re wrong about that.”

“I’m rarely wrong.” She teases, and it’s clear how at ease she is in this moment. After everything they’d gone through, every danger they had faced, every time he’d tried to cut their ties, she was able to be here and to let herself relax around him. She was able to be next to him with all of her walls down. It’s a gift Seven will never stop treasuring, will never stop recognizing as the absolute blessing that it is. “If ever.”

“Well, I don’t know about that…” She exaggerates a pout at him in response, turning her face back up towards the ceiling. It’s unbearable how much Seven enjoys it, unbearable how happy he feels at this moment. Maybe it’s because happiness is a foreign feeling to him after all these years, but he finds that he doesn’t know what to do with it. It feels like it’s pouring out of him, like he’s infusing happiness into everything around him because he simply cannot contain it all. “What about me?”

“Your fatal flaw?” She turns to look at him, bringing her whole body with her so that she’s fully facing him now, and her expression is serious, but still soft. There’s a fondness in her gaze, a warmth in her tone as she answers him gently. “You don’t think you’re worth anything.”

It hits home, but it doesn’t sting the way he would expect it to. It’s not because she’s right, even though she is, but because she says it in such a way that ensures there’s no barbs attached to it. There’s no sharp edges, no bite that could cut into him. It’s a simple observation of fact, said by someone who loves him so absolutely that she can’t really see anything he does as a flaw. And maybe that’s her fatal flaw, being blind to all the things about him that are terrible. If it is, he hopes she never changes it because he’s already eternally grateful for it.

It’s because she delivers it in such a gentle way that he’s able to make a joke out of it, to lighten the mood. “I’m pretty sure I call myself a God at least like four times a day.”

“Gods don’t sit in corners and try to make themselves as small as possible.” She reaches out to brush her fingers against his cheek, threading them into the hair by his ear.

He closes his eyes against the sensation, “This God does.”

“I noticed.” She hums in response, but he can hear the love in her voice.

And it’s true, she did notice. She had always noticed everything about him. From the first day, she seemed to have a read on him that nobody else had ever had. She had a way of putting his feelings into words when he couldn’t even figure out what they were. Nobody had ever been this in tune with him except Saeran, and they were twins. They were supposed to have that sort of unbreakable bond. But his bond with her was different. When it came to Saeran, he had always known how Seven was feeling because he had been feeling it too— two halves of the same soul, emotions bouncing between them like an echo chamber. She, on the other hand, had dedicated time to getting to know him, to understanding him and learning his tells. When she spoke about how he felt, it was because she had put in the effort to figure him out.

It was more effort than he had ever put in to figure himself out.

He had spent so many years hating himself for leaving Saeran behind, hating himself because his mother had taught him that he should. He hated himself for the secrets he kept, the lies he told. He never wanted to know who he was, never wanted to try and face himself and find out what kind of man he really was underneath all the masks. Because any man who could be okay with the things he had done couldn’t possibly be a good man. And then she had come along and started to remove his masks one by one, taking time to allow him to get comfortable with each new layer she revealed. And in the process he discovered that he wasn’t okay with the things he’d done at all. And that had been hard to swallow, but it had also made him realize that maybe he wasn’t the terrible person he had always thought himself to be.

Terrible circumstances do not make terrible people. She had said that to him once, trying to soothe him when he’d been inconsolable. At the time he hadn’t understood what she’d meant and it had felt like she was patronizing him. But now he understood that he had managed to become a good person despite the tragedies of his past. It gave him hope that Saeran could still become a good person, too.

“What about you?” He reaches up to place his hand over hers where it’s still resting gently on the side of his face. “What’s your fatal flaw?”

“Oh,” She bites the corner of her lip. “That’s easy. I’m in love with a God.”

There is absolutely nothing Seven can do to stop his heart from flipping in his chest at the words, not that he’d even want to if he could. He wanted to live in this moment, in this feeling for the rest of his life. If he could use his brilliant mind to create a machine that allowed him to freeze himself in a moment in time, he would choose this one. Wrapped up away from the world, just the two of them together, happy. “A God, huh? That doesn’t sound so bad.”

“Oh it is, it’s terrible.” She draws her hand back and flips over onto her back again, draping her arm dramatically across her forehead. “You’ve heard the stories, haven’t you? People who are in love with Gods are forced to spend half their life underground! Or smited by other Gods because of their jealousy! It’s a terrible burden to bear.”

And this is exactly why he was helpless to do anything other than fall in love with her. She had the perfect ability to be silly in a serious moment, to lighten the mood and keep him laughing, even when the pressure got too heavy. She said just as many off-the-cuff things as he did and she was the only one who could even come close to matching his sense of humor. He was helpless to do anything other than fall in love with her because her soul seemed to be on the same wavelength as his, constantly reaching out for him and meeting him in the middle, drawing him closer. She somehow managed to always be exactly what he needed, even if he didn’t like it at the time.

“Well,” He tucks his arm up underneath his pillow and settles a little further into the bed. “Is this God worth it?”

“He is.” She confirms almost breathlessly, purposely not looking at him.

He can still see the smile on her lips, even as she stares determinedly at the shadows dancing across the ceiling above them. “And does this God love you back?”

“I think so.” She whispers, “But he’s very fickle, you see.”

This time, it’s Seven who reaches out first. His hand cups her cheek easily, like it was always meant to cradle her so gently. He turns her to face him again and once again, she turns her whole body, leaning forward so that she’s only a foot or less away. Her eyes find his and it takes everything in him not to have his breath completely stolen out of his chest as he whispers. “Fickle? How so?”

She reaches up to take his hand in hers, drawing it towards her mouth. “Well, he acts like he loves me.” She presses a kiss to one of his fingertips, gentle as a feather and yet it makes his finger tingle. “He does all these really nice things for me.” Another kiss to another finger. “But then he tells me that he doesn’t want me.” She kisses his third finger, her eyes locked on his the entire time. Seven is fairly certain he’s not breathing at all anymore. “He tells me to leave him alone.” A kiss to his fourth finger. “But he always shows up when I need him, despite all that.”

The last kiss she gives him is pressed to his palm and Seven feels like his entire hand is aflame from her affection.

“You know I didn’t mean that—“ He rasps, his voice as weak as he feels at this moment. He feels like he’s one gentle breeze from cracking completely and baring his entire soul to her. He’d do it in a heartbeat, honestly. There’s not an ounce of fear in him anymore, not where she’s concerned.

“Why are you talking about yourself?” She teases, holding his hand gently between both of hers against her chest and curling around it as if she were protecting something precious. “I’m obviously referring to Zen.”

She laughs openly as Seven pulls his hand back away from her. The sound of her laugh is bright and warm, just like she has always been, and he continues to find it a balm for his battered soul. He shifts towards her quickly and she moves in sync with him, falling onto her back as he props himself up above her, staring down at her lovely face. She’s smiling beautifully up at him, her cheeks flushed from laughing, her hair fanning out on the pillow around her head.

She’s a vision. She’s always a vision, really. He’s thought that since the very first day when he had pulled up her picture online after she’d stumbled into Rika’s apartment, but he had never thought it more than he did now. There was a light in her eyes that he recognized as pure joy and he wanted to keep her looking like that forever. He would do anything, would give anything— including himself— to keep her happy and smiling for the rest of time. Even if that didn’t include him— though he wished desperately, painfully that it would include him. He’d never feared much before, but suddenly he found himself fearing the idea that she would forget him so much that it was almost debilitating.

“First of all,” He tries to sound stern and fails miserably. He’s too happy himself at this moment, still completely overflowing with it. “Zen would never tell you that he doesn’t want you.” She laughs again underneath him, her shoulders shaking as her eyes blink closed. “He’s still hitting on you every time he talks to you, even though you have someone else.”

“That’s all you have to say about that?” She manages to ask after her laughter dies down. Still, she sounds breathless as she talks and Seven has to convince himself not to just stay here and watch the rise and fall of her chest as she tries to catch her breath.

“Second of all,” He presses on, leaning just a little closer to her. She opens her eyes and takes in a breath as she looks at him, realizing just how close he is, and it makes something inside of him swoop. “I’m pretty sure this God loves you, too.”

“You are?” She reaches up to place a hand on the back of his neck, connecting them. It’s an anchor, something that reminds him that she’s real and she’s here, that he didn’t push her away after all the terrible things he said to her. It’s a physical reminder that she loves him, that she wants to be here with him.

Everything in him revels at the feeling of it, at the knowledge that he’s allowed to have this. After a lifetime of being denied anything he had ever wanted, after years upon years of having everything that mattered to him taken away from him and twisted, he’s finally been granted one single, solitary thing that he’s allowed to keep. And it’s the most precious thing he’s ever had the fortune of being around. It’s still strange to him, still hard to fight his natural reaction to push her away, even though he only wants to be closer, closer, closer.

“If I may be bold enough to speak for him—“

She pretends to consider this underneath him, tilting her head to the side and putting on a thoughtful face. After a moment, she lets out a breath. “Well, you don’t know him, but I guess you could give it a try.”

Seven makes a point of sighing at her response and the grin he gets in response is so bright, it feels like the sun came out in the middle of the night. “I guess I’ll just be taking a stab in the dark here, but I think that he has always loved you, he just didn’t know that he was allowed to love you.”

“Well, next time I see him, I’d like to tell him that love doesn’t have stipulations like that.” Her fingers brush gently into the hair at the nape of his neck, her nails scratching gently at his skin and it makes a shiver wrack down his spine. He swallows around a lump that’s forming in his throat. “Love doesn’t tell you that you aren’t allowed to have someone.”

“Well, maybe he’s realized that.” Seven closes his eyes as she continues what she's doing, his arms feeling weak as they continue to hold him above her. “Maybe he finally got the courage to love you properly. Maybe he didn’t think he was good enough for you— maybe he wasn’t good enough for you—“

“He was.” She cuts him off before he can go any further and he’s thankful for it because he thinks he might’ve been about to ruin the moment with the old fears that he hadn’t quite gotten rid of yet. They fit him like a glove, used to wrapping him up and holding him tightly. It was hard to shed them, no matter how badly he wanted to. “He still is. He always will be.”

Seven takes in a shuddering breath and opens his eyes to look down at her again. She’s still smiling at him and he wonders how that’s possible, how she has managed to smile at him through everything. Her smile had become the light at the end of the tunnel, the beacon that had led him to safety when he had been in his darkest hours. Her smile had been the thing he had clung to when everything else had been falling apart around him because she graced him with it so easily and so freely, a gift that she just gave to him without asking for anything in return.

“Well if you say stuff like that, I’m positive that he loves you, too. Whoever he is.” What he wants to say is that there’s no way he couldn’t love her, too, that there wasn’t a single part of his heart, his soul that didn’t absolutely belong to her,

What he wanted to say was that she was everything to him— his hope, his future, his stability. Everything he needed to get through whatever could possibly come up in the future was her and her stubbornness, her unwavering faith in him. Being around her made him feel like he had gained a sort of superpower— it made him feel like he was invincible, it made him motivated.

“Seven?” Her voice has dropped to a whisper, so intimate that it makes him feel like he’s melting into a puddle at her feet. “Can I tell you something?”

“Anything.”

“I wasn’t talking about Zen.”

The smile that comes to his face almost feels natural, despite all the years he had gone without smiling like this. “You weren’t?”

“I was talking about you.” She whispers like it’s actually some big secret that she’s letting him in on, like she’s his conspirator, telling him something that nobody else is supposed to overhear.

“Me?” Seven leans down the tiniest bit closer, his heart clenching as she tilts her chin up to keep eye contact with him. “Well then I think I’m very qualified to talk for him. And in that case, I’d like to assure you that he absolutely loves you, more than he’s ever loved anything else.”

And then he closes the small distance between them to kiss whatever response she could’ve had right off of her lips.

[marveloussupernerd]

Okay. So I’ve got this cold sore on my lip and it suuucks. SO that got me thinking.... what would be the RFA+v+saerans repsonse to MC getting a cold sore and denying them kisses until it’s gone because MC dosent want them to get one either....

I have a million things I should be writing but like... I think I’m getting a cold sore too! So this is super appropriate for both of us JSJJS

Mmmm I think imma do this headcannon style

RFA+V+Saeran’s Reaction to you getting a Cold Sore

Zen

You can tell you’re getting a cold sore

You can feel that stupid familiar tingling feeling

Damn

Zen got home from his run

You always like to greet him at the door with a kiss when he gets home

You wrap your arms around him and opt for a hug instead. He’s sweaty but whatever

“Uh... what’s this?” He asks

You’ll feign ignorance! “What’s what Zen?”

“You... you always kiss me when I get home.”

He’s trying not to show his disappointment

“Oh. Well, I have a cold sore. So, I can’t.”

It’s the first time you’ve had one during your relationship

He grabs your face, trying to trap you to give him a kiss

You’re pushing him away with all your might

“You can’t! Zen, you can’t! Your fans would KILL me!”

You slip out from under his grasp, running to the other side of the room to put space in between the two of you

He pours. He looks absolutely crushed

“H-how long do they usually last?”

Yikes.

“Uhm... like a week?”

He nearly faints

“You’re kidding.”

You’re not kidding though

He really looks like he’s about to cry

You can’t even go down on him to make him feel better, a real shame

I’m sorry it needed to be said

He takes a seat. Is he seriously feeling faint right now?

“Can you go to a doctor and get it fixed faster? I can’t... I can’t wait that long.”

Oh Zen

Why would you go to the doctor for this it’s really not that big of a deal

He buried his face in his hands

“I need a cold shower”

Zen is a wreck. He can’t kiss you. He can’t touch you because if he does he’ll want to kiss you. He has half the mind to stay in a hotel for the week so he doesn’t tempt himself. You don’t let him

Yoosung

It was game night

You went over to Yoosung’s every Saturday to have a game night together. It was really sweet

But this time you were spotting a large cold sore on your lip

It made you self-conscious honestly

But, whatever. He would understand!

You walk into his apartment, deck of cards in hand

“Hi!” He comes bounding over to you, grabbing the cards from your hand and setting them on the table. “I missed you.”

You give him a hug. “I missed you too Yoosung.”

It doesn’t take him long to realize the sore on your face

He doesn’t want to bring it up

You can tell by the way he keeps glancing at it, then looking away just as quickly

“I have a cold sore,” you explain awkwardly

“Does it hurt?”

You laugh a little. “I mean it gets dry sometimes and that’s not pleasant but it’s not too bad.”

“I can always kiss it better for you!”

Yoosung, Honey

“Actually, if you do that then you’d start getting them too”

“Okay. And?”

“I’m not letting you do that,” you sighed.

He looked up at you, with puppy dog eyes. “But... really?”

“I’ll probably be all better by next game night. They don’t last too too long,” you shrugged simply

He nodded, then kissed your cheek. “I guess that’ll have to do for now?” He asked

You chuckled, nodding. “Exactly. I promise I’ll make up to you next time”

Yoosung isn’t that bad about it since he can kiss you on the cheek, and you’ll be all better in a week

Jaehee

You could feel the cold sore forming as you worked

It’s so annoying how you can just tell they’re forming

After closing, you and Jaehee like to sit and have coffee and debrief

“Today was a very successful day I’d say!” Jaehee exclaimed cheerfully, setting down your mugs at one of the nearby table

You go to join her

She leans in to give you a sweet peck on the lips, but you step back

She looks confused

“I have a cold sore forming,” you explained

“Oh” is all she says

“Yeah...”

She takes a seat. “Is there anything I can get for you to help? Some cream or something?”

She’s the best girlfriend ever

“Actually... I do think I ran out of the stuff I put on it to numb it. You wanna go to the store with me after we finish these drinks?”

“Of course! That way you can show me exactly what it is so I’ll know for the future.”

She’s so respectful and sweet

And if you don’t want her to kiss you she won’t until you’re feeling all better

Jumin

You always give Jumin a kiss before he goes out the door to work

You’re tying his tie for him, getting ready to send him out

“Just so you know, I have a cold sore, so I can’t kiss you on your way out,” you mention casually

“You get cold sores? I wasn’t aware.”

You hadn’t had one since you had gotten married

You shrug. “I’ve had them most of my life.”

“And if I kiss you I’ll get them too?”

You nod

“Okay. And?”

He says it like you’re missing out on something startlingly obvious

“And what?” You ask, confused

“You’re my wife. I don’t care if I get them. I want to kiss you goodbye.”

You straighten his tie

“I won’t let you,” you say stoically.

“Really?” His face falls. “But we’re married. We share everything. Even cold sores.”

“I am protecting you from like a disease”

“Well,” he sits down on the edge of the bed. “I won’t leave until you give me a kiss”

“Jumin, don’t be a child,” you roll your eyes

“I think I’m being very mature,” he explains, a glimmer in his eyes

You look away from him

“Stop it! I can’t.”

He gets up, walking over to you, convincing you to turn to face him

His lips are inches from your own

“I’m telling you you can”

Jumin gets cold sores now.

707

You’re literally already kissing

You didn’t even realize you had a cold sore

He pulls away slightly

“Is that a cold sore?”

Your fingers drift to touch your lip. It is a cold sore

“Yes... I didn’t even realize,” you confess

“Damn,” he remarks

Then goes back to kiss you?

You pull away

“What? No. I can’t kiss you. I have a cold sore.”

He looks so confused

“We already kissed”

“That was an accident.” You crossed your arms

He sighs

“I probably already got it”

“But what if you didn’t!?”

“Can’t we just kiss? We already did. It’s fine.”

“You need to go, wash your mouth or something!! I don’t know. I don’t want you to get them. They suck.” You’re pushing him towards the sink

He surprisingly complies

But over the next few days he comes up with ways to get you to accidental kiss

Man pretends to faint so you can give him mouth to mouth

Eventually you do forget

Luckily though, Seven doesn’t seem to get cold sores. God Seven must be immune

V

V is one of the sweetest humans in this universe

Still, you feel bad inviting him over when you have a cold sore and can’t kiss him or anything

“Hi Sweetheart,” he greets you, bouquet of flowers in his hand for you.

“Aw, Jihyun! You didn’t have to be so sweet”

He goes to kiss you but you take a step back

“I have a cold sore. I’m sorry,” you frown

“Oh. Aren’t those annoying? I get them too”

V gets them too?

News to you

“I have some medicine that helps them go away quicker actually. You should’ve told me. I would have brought it! I can run back home and grab it if you’d like” he offers

He’s too good for this world

“You can do it tomorrow! I just wanna cuddle and watch a movie tonight”

“Okay”

He puts your flowers in a vase for you, silently

Takes him a while to speak up

“So... if I get them too, does that mean I can kiss you?”

Well... only if he wants to risk getting a new one of his own

“I guess... but you’ll probably get one then”

“That’s worth it,” he whispers, pulling you in for a kiss

V doesn’t have to worry much about cold sores since he gets his own

Saeran

Poor precious boy

He doesn’t get it when you say “I have a cold sore”

He’s cuddled up with you, looks up at you

“And? What does that have to do with anything?”

You have to explain that it’s contagious

And you don’t want to give him it :(

“How bad could it be though?” He asks

“It’s annoying. And it looks bad. And sometimes it gets dry and cracked and hurts. And then you have to worry about giving it to other people,” you explain

Nobody’s ever explained cold sores to him

He nods

“I’d be honored to get cold sores from you”

Saeran no

You shake your head firmly. “I’m not letting you”

“But-“

“No buts. No kisses.”

He sighs

Rests his head on your shoulder. He seems to be faking that he’s extremely distressed

“Kay. But you’re gonna have to make it up to me later when it goes away.”

Keeps a tally of all the times you two would naturally kiss

So that you can make them up exactly

He’s a baby

He’s pretty good with accepting the fact you can’t kiss him, but he makes sure to make up for it once the cold sore goes away

[ririkutai]

Saeran AE Good Ending Choice Walkthrough

Hello everyone! I’ve decided to share the walkthrough on Tumblr as well, because I received a message about reddit being blocked in some countries! I wasn’t aware! So here! Cheers!

I've since edited the guide to include some the Sad Endings, Bad Endings, Normal Ending, as well as the good ending. Currently this guide sits at 9/10 total endings for Saeran's AE. I've included chat times, save locations, as well as choices. If anyone complies the guide and shares it elsewhere, I'd appreciate a shoutout as this took some time! Feel free to @me anywhere as Ririkutai <3

The way to get Bad Ending 1 is by taking Rika's side and not wanting to leave Saeran's side. The trigger lies somewhere between day 2-3, but I'm uncertain of the specifics.

Cheers!

Day 1:

There are two sad endings on this day!

SAVE HERE! DON'T DO ANYTHING YET!

Time: 00:00 x2

Strange Meeting

· I’ll bring Saeran with me for the meeting

· Let’s save that part until Saeyoung returns

· Saeyoung owns all the rights

· Please be safe, Saeyoung

· I have a bad feeling about this

· Do you think the leader of Mint Eye is related to this?

· Did we, Saeran?

· Saeran, my sweet

· But first, we should discuss how to save…

· Is V still gone?

· Something’s fishy

· Make sure you check V’s luggage!

· Be careful on your way!

· We should keep our eye on V

· Let’s stay alert, Jaehee

· For some reason, I’m kind of uneasy

· What are you doing right now?

· I’m nervous, too

· I hope we can take plenty of pictures in the future

· I love you, too

Story Mode:

· Where is V?

· We never fight. I trust Saeran (Saeran Heart)

· Well, I did talk a lot

· Maybe it is her…

· I know it feels weird, but you must free yourself from your past

· Saeran, don’t you think we should tell them?

· What are you thinking?

· Is there anything you know about Saeyoung’s whereabouts?

· Try holding breath just a bit longer

· V… Why are you doing this?

Please Wake Up

No choices

Story Mode:

· Wake up

· Try to wake up

· Saeran

· I held my breath, like you told me

· I’ll help you

NOTE RELOAD THE PREVIOUS SAVE AND Select all options that aren't doubtful, don't hold your breath like Saeran suggests, fall like everyone else, and be sure not to move in the hospital. This triggers Sad Ending 1

Time: 9:45

Can We Trust Him?

· I don’t think I can rest, when I…

· I’m kind of tired…

· By the way, is there something wrong with the…

· Was it a hacker!?

· Could it be the secret agency...?

· Does that mean we need to be careful…?

· Traitor (Saeran heart)

· So you handed over the information of this…

· What did you expect? You tricked us.

· Prove to us that Saeyoung…

· And you are trying to pull Saeran into danger (Saeran heart)

· Are you talking about Rika?

· No! He will never do that! (Saeran heart)

· He’s gone again | (Selecting, "Maybe he really wants to help you." Gives a V heart, but I'm uncertain how it affects the rest of the route)

· But you can’t let yourself get into this (Saeran heart)

· I’ll be waiting, my love (Saeran heart)

Time: 11:23

Did She Change?

· Come on out, hacker! Fight me! | (Selecting "Go away, V!" Gives you a Saeran heart, but I'm uncertain how it affects the route)

· Oh, a bad guy! Time to say hi

· He knew we won’t ever trust him again

· Are you still obsessed with Saeran?

· And you’ve done horrible things to Saeran

· And you expect me to believe that?

· Sounds like you are inviting him into a trap | (Selecting "I must admit, you are persistent." Gives you a V heart, but I'm uncertain how it affects the route)

· You really don’t give up do you?

· Fact remains that you are far from normal (Saeran heart)

· No! Stay away! (Saeran heart)

Story Mode:

· The question is whether you should make... (Saeran heart)

· So, are you going to save Saeyoung?

Time: 16:05

Rika and V’s Reunion

· Rika! You can’t stop our love!

· Are you here to tell Saeran to leave again?

· Do you have any idea how bad she hurt Saeran? (Saeran heart)

· You should first explain about Rika | (Selecting "How is Saeyoung?" gives you a Saeyoung heart, uncertain how it affects the route.)

· Do you know Saeran does not have a family picture…

· But Rika's standing is very different from... (Saeran heart)

· But what about you? What about your life? (V heart)

· You do need balance for a relationship as well

· Are we witnessing the birth of a new savior...? (Saeran heart)

· It’s the prime minister isn’t it? | (Selecting "Could it be the agency?" gives you a V heart.)

· We will save everyone!

· There’s no doubt V, Rika, and the prime…

· Yay! Let’s talks! Just the two of us!

Time: 17:57

Rika’s Selfish Happiness

· What are you plotting with…

· I will go with whatever Saeran chooses (Saeran heart)

· He might leave by the time the rest of RFA…

· But we are always together (Saeran heart)

· Are you sure you have reunited with V?

· So nobody ever saved V (V heart)

· Maybe you wanted people to recognize you and tell you...

· That's good, but... V looked desolate

· What do you really want to become?

· Cough, cough calories

Time: 19:11

Secure Chat Just for Us

· Hey, we’re back

· Good job. Now lets use this room…

· What? Doesn’t that mean our enemies are huge?

· Of course you are… We have four bad guys…

· That's right! Let's go save Saeyoung! (Saeran heart)

· Then let’s get going! (Saeran heart)

SAVE AFTER THIS CHATROOM

Story Mode

· What if your trauma returns? (Saeran heart) | (Both options give a heart though!)

· I remember both of them (Saeran heart) | (Both options give a heart still!)

· I love you, Saeran

· This might turn out to be reckless (Saeran heart) | (Both options give a heart. This boi is full of love)

NOTE RELOAD YOUR PREVIOUS SAVE AFTER SECURE CHAT JUST FOR US And select "Then let's leave. Let's leave everything, instead of saving Saeyoung.", "Yes.", "I'll be fine. I want to be happy with you. That's all I'm asking for." To receive Sad Ending 2

Time: 20:44

Different Perspective on the Past

· Rika… You’re back

· I’m not sure if this is the best time…

· Do you remember what it was like back then?

· Were you happy even without Saeyoung?

· I guess you did miss her. You didn’t separate willingly… (Saeran heart)

· Family is not something you can replace like objects...

· Now I’ll be your family (Saeran heart)

· You’ll be a great parent (Saeran heart)

· Alike? How?

· You are still obsessed with him?

· Saeran is not like you (Saeran heart)

· It feels like you’re inviting us into a trap

· She might make you her prisoner…

· Can’t we stay a bit longer?

· Okay

Story Mode

· Don’t you think we should head straight to this…

· V provided his apartment to them?

· V would’ve thought everything by himself…

· It’s the agency!

Time: 21:56

Unbelievable Peaceful Chit-Chat

· V? What brings you back here?

· How come you own that place?

· Did you get scammed by any chance?

· I’d thought you plotted it

· I think it’s fake news

· But the prime minister and the agency are attacking..

· Jumin will be beyond shocked (Jumin heart)

· That’s where the root of all evil…

· You brought someone else to that apartment?

· I’m so glad Jumin did not turn out like…

· A dark magician!

· Do you think this news will be highly detrimental…?

· It’s not a good thing to play deaf to what you…

· Can’t you give me one last clue…

· If only Jumin…

· One day you will pay

Story Mode

· What is this place?

Time: 23:05

The Most Important Thing

· Saeran? You’re gone

· I’m fine. When I’m with you, my joy… (Saeran heart)

· Why not break through the windows?

· What do you think will happen to us… (Saeran heart)

· I hope by tomorrow at least one…

· Regardless of the truth…

· Do you think the other members of RFA…

· They’d be shocked mostly by the fact…

· But I chose to come with you (Saeran heart)

· Yes. Because we will never stop loving… (Saeran heart)

· You are also important to me, Saeran (Saeran)

· Please be safe, my darling (Saeran)

Story Mode

No Choices

Day 2:

There are two Sad Endings on this day

Time: 00:23

Unexpected Guest

· Saeyoung?!

· How did you get in here?

· Saeran! We have an intruder!

· Let’s find out what we can from him!

· Are you here to hack this room…

· Do you know Saeyoung?

· Charlie the 3rd?

· Is Saeyoung safe?

· Is Saeyoung in mortal danger?

· Are you going to tell the agency…

· Tell us something! Anything is fine!

· I think you were

· No! Please, help us! (Saeran heart)

· My heart breaks whenever I think (Saeran Heart)

· And you will make that promise (Saeran heart)

· Are you telling him to instead save himself?

· But we don’t want to spend the rest of our lives…

· Are you going to report everything from this…

· But let’s not give up (Saeran heart)

· No, I’m gonna wait for you! (Saeran heart)

Story Mode

No Choices

SAVE AFTER THIS STORY MODE

Time: 2:22

How to Use Vanderwood

· Is that why you wanted us to log in…

· I don’t think that guy is very thorough…

· Vanderwood betrayed the agency! Like this? (Saeran heart)

· What if he’s stupid? What if he…

· I know you said that because you care… (Saeran heart)

· That’s right. He might help us once he… (Saeran heart)

· And it was all because Rika brainwashed…

· I’m sure Saeyoung was also manipulated by false information (Saeyoung heart)

· It must have been awful after you… (Saeran heart)

· Back then you were not ready to…

· I’m also getting this strong feeling.. (Saeran heart)

· I also had a feeling they…

· Please help us once, Vanderwood! I know… (Saeran heart)

· And a good expectation will manifest… (Saeran heart)

· Please!!! (Saeran heart)

· Nah, you’re the only one who thinks…

· Yeah, and now let’s get busy with our…

Time: 8:00

Zen is Awake!

· Zen!! Are you awake??

· I’m just grateful you are awake

· Maybe Saeran and I shouldn’t have left (Saeran heart)

· Could you please report it to the media?

· That’s right! Bring it on… (Zen heart)

· Not yet… It might be a trap

· It turned out the agency is…

· Don’t be disappointed with yourself

· Thanks for trying to look

· Okay. Now we are going to save…

SAVE AFTER THIS CHATROOM

Story Mode

· Yeah. Are you?

· Yes. I am not letting you go by yourself

· Are you the boss…

· We were told you will be in mortal danger…

· What kind of deal did you…

· You mean you’ll send them to…

· You want them to live caged lives…

· Saeyoung… You’re sacrificing yourself… (Saeyoung heart)

· But we cannot leave you here, Saeyoung

· We don’t have a choice. There’s nothing we can do…

NOTE RELOAD YOUR SAVE AFTER ZEN IS AWAKE And select: "This seems familiar...", "You can go ahead...", and "Okay." To receive Sad Ending 3.

Time: 9:45

Vanderwood’s Suggestion

· Vanderwood?

· Are you here to help us?

· How do we know this isn’t a trap?

· Your agency is a nightmare

· But won’t you get in trouble…

Story Mode

· What do we do now?

· But he just won’t care for himself

· Do you think we can trust Vanderwood?

· Let’s do that. For some reason I have…

· Let's put our faith in him. We're not leaving...

Time: 11:37

Saeyoung is with Rika

· Why are you here?

· Is it because you were scared…

· He wanted to save his brother

· You kidnapped Saeyoung!?

· Poor Saeyoung… He was manipulated (Saeyoung heart)

· I will never forgive the agency

· But the prime minister might…

· What drug?

Story Mode

· Saeyoung told the agency about the top secret…

· Are you sure we can trust you?

· Is it to put him to sleep?

· I have to be away from Saeran? I…

· Why would you do that? That’s exactly what happens in…

· I’m scared…

· Why don’t’ we go back to the hospital and… (Saeran heart)

· Why don’t we go back to C&R and…

· …No. We’re in this together (Saeran heart)

· I'm going to keep you safe, Saeran

Time: 13:15

Jumin Han is Here

· Rika has Saeyoung.

· Sorry. I can’t tell you (Jumin heart)

· Wow! I knew you’d be fit! (Zen heart)

· I bet you felt betrayed

· On a scale of 0 to 10

· Is your father really related to

· You mean you might lose..

· He didn’t betray us. He’s become his father’s… (Saeyoung heart)

· Did you hear anything from Saeran?

· What’s your secret?

· But you must have an emergency plan..

· I understand… You have lost…

· But if you put yourself in his shoes

· Let me know once you hear something

NOTE RELOAD AFTER THE STORY MODE FOLLOWING UNEXPECTED GUEST, AND SELECT ALL OPTIONS THAT INSULT/DOUBT VANDERWOOD. Do not agree to let Vanderwood help you. Do this to receive Sad Ending 4

Story Mode

· Where is Saeran right now?

· What do you mean, you lost the other…

· Why did you bring me here?

· You tricked me! (Saeran heart)

Time: 15:33

Vanderwood in Trouble

· You tricked me! (Saeran heart)

· Whose side are you on?

· Couldn’t you let both of us go?

· What do you mean?

· What happens if you get…

· Admit it – You’re a nice person

· But it’s adorable… I really want to see (Saeyoung heart)

· You’re returning the phone?

· Run and survive!

Story Mode

· I hope Vanderwood will be alright

· Saeran will never give up

· You are simply trying to make your dream… (Saeran heart)

· RFA might expose everything about

Time: 18:00

Rika’s Request

· Jumin, cheer up…

· They’re not coming

· Don’t you feel guilty?

· Yeah, unlike you. (Saeran heart)

· You were a great actress (Saeran heart)

· But do you really need those twins..

· But you cannot decide how they will (Saeran heart)

· I believe Saran will save… (Saeran heart)

· Saeran, if you read this… Don’t ever give up (Saeran heart)

· Just who led Saeyoung to the agency….

· Do you feel anything about RFA…

· Jumin will feel so betrayed (Jumin heart)

· Just because you say sorry… (Saeran heart)

· Saeran… I’m okay. (Saeran heart)

· V… Does that mean I cannot…

· Thank you, V (V heart)

· V… Are you really okay with everything..

Time 19:00

RFA in the Corner

· I’m waiting for Saeran

· You took in that gas again?!

· Maybe it’s a bluff

· Well, it’s not a perfect time for him to chat..

· I feel so bad for the twins…

· The agency is no easy opponent

· And we have no way to prove that we’re the good guys :’(

· That was a very brave…

· No talking on the messenger!

· How is Elizabeth 3rd? (Jumin heart)

· Maybe we should do that…

· We should stay away from…

· Calm down, Zen

· As soon as you do that he’ll be knocked…

· It’s okay. Don’t worry

· Vanderwood?

Story Mode

· Do you think Saeran will be here?

· Look behind

· Okay, okay…

· But you won’t be happy if someone tries to control

· Saeyoung? Are you awake?

· But he needs you

· Tell me.

· But how? You don’t have the right…

· I’m scared. That phone is the only tool you have…

· V, please… You have to help us

· V, you know this isn’t the answer

Time: 21:02

Why We Need Saeran

· You are so cold-blooded!

· Until when will the agency…

· Do you think he’s watching the messenger?

· Are you going to tell him to be silent and come find you?

· He will never give up… Not while he’s alive

· The problem lies with the life in a box (Saeran heart)

· But I don’t want to leave Saeran! (Saeran heart)

· This is too cruel… Finding this place…

· What are you gonna do now?

Story Mode

No choices

Time: 23:13

Did RFA Give Up?

· Did you hear anything from Saeran? (Saeran heart)

· You’ve made an excellent choice (Saeran heart)

· I feel bad for you, Zen (Zen heart)

· Is there really nothing else we can do?

· Please stay healthy, Zen (Zen heart)

· But we need Saeran here first

· :’(

Story Mode

No choices

Day 3:

Time: 1:02

Rika Wants Saeran

· The RFA won’t be using…

· They suffered a lot regarding…

· The agency is the biggest problem,

· You might think it’s protection, but..

· I wonder where Saeran is.. (Saeran heart)

· Maybe later

· No thanks lol

Story Mode

No choices

Time: 6:04

A Ticket Unused

· Saeran!!

· Are you safe?

· Are you really coming here?

· I love you too! (Saeran heart)

· You should be happy with me

· Why would you say that? I’m scared (Saeran heart)

· You’re gonna be here?

· But right now, we have to focus on surviving (Saeran heart)

· Okay… I’ll remember that

· Great! But...

· Okay… I’ll stay awake and wait

Story Mode

· I’ve missed you

· [Munch munch]

· If you keep making fun of me, you’ll pay for it

· No, we deserve to be happy

Time: 8:51

Saeran is Here

· Saeran! But this channel…

· Rika… Please let Saeran in…

· What took you so long?

· I think they’re putting him…

· We should be true to ourselves… (Saeran heart)

· But now RFA has nothing…

· I bet Rika doesn’t want to…

· She’s the seed of all pain!

· Are you avoiding the subject?

· One we reunite, I never want to…

· What freedom?

· You don’t want to repeat your past

· But Rika wouldn’t like that (Saeran heart)

· You hate Rika and V, don’t you? (Saeran heart)

· Okay, if that is what you choose… (Saeran heart)

· I’ll be waiting

Story Mode

· You should trust Saeran

· I’ve missed you

· Can’t you let me stay…

Time: 11:11

Rika’s Return

· Rika, where are you?

· You didn’t torture him, did you?

· Maybe he’s going to hurt them!

· Saeran will cause no harm (Saeran heart)

· I’m going to run with Saeran

· Ugh! I hate what’s happening!

Story Mode

· Do you have to do this?

· Saeran… wake up

· It must have been shocking and sad (Saeran heart)

· Saeran… one day you’ll be free and we’ll be… (Saeran heart)

· Only me and Saeyoung? (Saeran heart)

· What do you mean you’ll

· Why?

· RFA didn’t give up on you

· So did you make it?

· It’s too dangerous (Saeran heart)

· No, let me distract them!

· If Saeyoung brings down the agency..

· ….

· This so sad

Time: 12:48

Weight of the Past

· I’m so sad…

· And you left Saeran like this..?

· Hi, Saeran...

· Can I have your voice instead?

· Did you have to go this far?

· Saeran decide to leave past in the past (Saeran heart)

· It’s a good thing you left Magenta..

· Saeran changed himself. (Saeran heart)

· Trying to repeat a happy past can sometimes serve as greed

· She's not mad is she?

· You should reconsider (Saeran heart)

Story Mode

No choices

Time: 14:07

It Will Hurt, But We Will Be Happy

· Saeran! This is our love channel!

· Do we have to do this? (Saeran heart)

· I have a feeling we will fail (Saeran heart)

· Do you think they’ll get…

· But I don’t think I can live without you (Saeran heart)

· Please don’t leave me

· …

Story Mode

· Sniffle

· She might turn violent

· You can’t decide what Saeran will be like

· You are right… But please don’t die

Time: 16:25

I’ll Have None of This

· It’s a sad night

· Saeran’s will reached my heart (Saeran heart)

· To be honest, you’re…

Story Mode

· Feel what?

· But I want to spend as much time as I can

· I’ll be right back

Time: 17:55

I Promise You Will Be Happy

· Did you guys have an argument?

· I want you, Saeran (Saeran heart)

· Get one for Saeyoung (Seven heart)

· Do you have 2 tickers that will get us out?

· About what?

· No! Saeran is mine! (Saeran heart)

· Do you think you can make it someday?

· I’ll be having fun with Saeran

· What should we do now?

· Are we the only ones that know about this room?

· You mean including Jumin and Zen?

· I’m sad, too… Is there really no other way? (Saeran heart)

· Clouds? Why clouds?

· So your freedom was...

· Can’t you let me stay here? (Saeran heart)

· This is so sad. I don’t want to leave

· I was so happy I could meet them (Saeran heart)

· If you love me, why are you making me sad? (Saeran heart)

· Let’s think about a way to keep you safe?

· Yeah!

Story Mode

No choices

Time: 19:09

Rika is Changing

· I’m glad you released Saeran

· I think you mean tonight (Saeran heart)

· I want to live with just Saeran

· Do you think you can take another betrayal?

· I’m glad things loosened up

· Saeran is my love (Saeran heart)

· Please don’t stab Saeran… (V heart)

· Whatever happens, I hope you’d be happy, Rika

· I think I need someone to cleanse my head…

· Unlike his father

· If that’s what you want, you must one day…

· I’m glad I got to meet all of you

· Rika hurt your eyes…

· How long do you think this happiness will last? (Saeran heart)

· Do you think her hope is real?

· Is it related to Saeran?

· It’s okay. Saeran is strong (Saeran heart)

Story Mode

· Can’t I come with you?

Time: 21:39

The Weight of Truth

· V talked about this secret

· I don’t want to leave him

· Is Saeran okay

· What did you guys talk about?

· The death of their mother?

· Can’t you just stop

· You are pretending to be nice

· You can’t do this to him

· We must find Saeran! (Saeran heart)

· At least you didn’t wait any longer…

· You would still feel painful

· But that does not justify murder

· He didn’t talk to me

· You have until 11

· I’m so disappointed in both of you

· Saeran, are you okay?

Story Mode

· I don’t want to go

· Please don’t do this

· Please tell me you will survive

Time: 23:00

Rescue Plan

· Are we getting started?

· Is it okay to leave Saeran?

· Saeran

· I can't believe I must leave him... (Saeran heart)

· We’ll be back for Saeran, right?

· Saeyoung and Saeran didn’t even get to talk

· The prime minister won’t get to..

· What press conference?

· Thank you everyone

Story Mode

No choices

Day 4:

There are 3 bad endings, and one bad relationship ending on this day. The Normal end and Good end are also on this day.

Time: 2:16

Escape – Success!

· Saeran, I’m okay! (Saeran heart)

· I miss you Saeran

· I’ll be waiting

· I think I’m going to wait for Saeran

SAVE AFTER THIS CHATROOM

If you see "Story Mode: Savior" here then you haven't received enough hearts with Saeran and will trigger his Bad Relationship Ending (I feel this is the ending that brought most of us here, lolol... Help my heart.)

Story Mode

· I’ll go by myself if I have to!

· I’m coming with you!

· I will find Saeran

NOTE RELOAD YOUR SAVE AFTER ESCAPE - SUCCESS! And select: "Looks like there's nothing we can do...", "I think I'll stay here..." To receive Bad Ending 2

Time: 5:55

Vanderwood and Zen’s Argument

· Vanderwood, does this mean...

· You guys have such cute…

· You mean Yoosung?

· Looks like you have a lot of history..

· Come on, let’s be friendly

· Do you think Rika and V are not aware of this?

· I really hope Saeran is safe

· That’s what I heard

· I’m fine with anything as long as..

· I really hope that’d be the case

· Is there really no master key to get us

· I hope Saeran is okay…

· You kicked him out…

· I hope he can find a miracle for us

· Okay…

Story Mode

No choices

Time: 8:24

Saeyoung is Back

· Any news about Saeran?

· Are you gonna sign...

· It was so beautiful (Seven heart)

· I hope Saeran is safe

· Could you tell him I love him? (Two Saeran hearts)

· I’ll do that

· Good luck!

SAVE AFTER THIS CHATROOM

Story Mode

· The security’s changed…

· V, where is Saeran?

· Follow V

NOTE RELOAD YOUR SAVE AFTER SAEYOUNG IS BACK And select "Don't follow V" To receive Bad Ending 3

Time: 10:00

The Last Discussion

· Yoosung, are you okay?

· If you get to see her again…

· Like me and Saeran?

· Welcome Jumin

· We can beat them

· Do you think sweet and sour

· Please, go ahead

· But some people become stars without

· Yeah, but it won’t be easy

· So, Ray…

· Life

· From imprisonment to…

· That we are all responsible

· It’s so good to…

· Thank you for your sermon

· Let’s not lose ourselves

· Whatever it’s about good luck!

· We won’t be lonely if we’re together

· Hopefully I’ll get to…

· He is… He’ll be okay

SAVE AFTER THIS CHATROOM

Story Mode

· Where is Saeran?

· Embrace Rika

· But now you will change

· Go save Saeran

NOTE RELOAD YOUR SAVE AFTER THE LAST DISCUSSION And select "(Don't go save Saeran)" To receive the Normal Ending.

The Final Episode

· Saeran!

· Please stay alive

· He’s gotta be somewhere around here! I can feel it!

· He’s around here. I know

· I must go

· Leave the rest and run

· Saeran, please don’t go

· I love you

· Now you should be happy with me

· Wake up!

· Pity

· Saeran and Saeyoung simply wanted

· Your lonely heart…

· Saeran will forgive you…but

· You will pay

· I’m sure you had something…

· But can’t you see?

· Does survival matter that much?

· You must be so lonely

· We must get him to a hospital!

· Saeran, hang in there!

· Saeyoung, please

· Hopefully Saeran…

· But Saeran forgave him

· Okay. I’ll let you know once he wakes..

· Saeran?

· What is it?

· Are you saying…

· Saejoong Choi!

· Why did you find…

· Did you have a change of...

You’ve made it! Select whatever you like!

[elvendara]

Sugar and Spice Day 3

July 14th

Rock concert (Rockstar/Fan)

“Five minutes till curtains up!” the man ran backstage shouting over the din. Saeran expected a knock on his door shortly and sure enough, it came. Without waiting for an answer, the man opened the door to let him know the time limit. Saeran locked eyes with him through the mirror and nodded.

Once the door was again closed, he stared at himself. He’d long ago bleached his hair white to differentiate himself from his twin. Saeyoung worked in the shadows, it wouldn’t do to have a famous brother who looked exactly like him. He also utilized colored lenses. It served two purposes, he didn’t need to wear glasses, in fact, his fans didn’t even know he needed them, and the mint green was a stark contrast to his regular, amber-colored eyes. The pink tips were a more recent addition, but he liked them.

Black eyeliner was expertly applied, years of practice making it almost effortless. He took a sponge and smudged it, giving himself that perfect edgy look. The earrings were already in, silver crosses dangling on each side of his face. Ironic really, considering he didn’t believe in God. The thick black silver studded collar was snuggly around his neck as was the matching cuff around his right wrist. He stood and grabbed his leather jacket, sliding it on and glancing into the full-length mirror he had been given in his dressing room. He was comfortable in this persona. The music had been a way for him to deal with his life. Writing down his anger, confusion, and loneliness was a way to get it out of him. It became bigger than him pretty quickly and he found that hiding behind rock stardom meant he didn’t have to answer any real questions about his true self. It worked. Except it kept him lonely and alone. He’d come to terms with spending the rest of his life that way. It was easier than imagining being real with someone. Who could ever love the real him anyway?

He smirked at his reflection as he laced up his biker boots. Time to bring the house down!

..

He was soaked in sweat but didn’t feel tired. In fact, he felt invigorated, like every time he finished a concert. Feeding off the audience was one of the biggest perks to his career. Someone handed him a towel and he wiped his face with it.

“Great show Saeran!” one of the concert coordinators told him. She held a tablet to her chest and had a handful of fans behind her. Five doe eyed girls and one shy looking boy. Well, now that he looked closer, he was definitely a man, close to his own age. He looked sheepish being with the teenaged groupies. “These are the VIP’s for tonight’s afterparty. Thought I’d introduce you before you change.”

“Nice! Great to meet you, I’m glad we’ll be hanging out tonight. Hope you have a good time. Congrats on winning the backstage passes.” He regurgitated. There wasn’t always an afterparty but there were some special guests, rich, who had paid for the whole thing, so he’d been pressed to oblige them with an appearance. He hated the politics of being famous, but he did love his fans. It was because of them that he could enjoy what he did. If it was up to him, he’d fill the party with fans and not rich entitled groupies. He knew he would spend the night fending off offers to ‘get to know each other better’ all night.

“Oh my GOD! It’s really you!”

“Wow! You’re so HOT!”

“Ahhh, my friends are never gonna believe this!”

The girls were just cookie cutter versions of every other girl he’d seen. He couldn’t blame them; it’s how they sold his image. The man looked embarrassed; he wouldn’t even look him in the eye. He took the chance to check him out. He appeared to be a tad shorter than himself, with blond hair and pink clips holding back his bangs. He wore one of his concert shirts and tight-fitting skinny jeans. His nails were painted alternating pink and black with the black ones having his band’s logo on it, a mint green eye. So he really was a fan. Cute too.

“Uh, well, like the lady said, I have to go get changed for the party, I’ll see you all there. And be sure to grab your swag bags before you leave, don’t let them rip you off there! There’s a CD with a snippet of some of our new songs.” He winked and walked off. There was a lot of oohing and ahhing as he left.

He took a quick shower and dressed in a ripped black T-shirt, black jeans and his biker boots, putting all his accessories back on and reapplying his eyeliner. Taking a deep breath, he turned and walked out to the convention center next to the arena. Of course he wasn’t alone, he had security that surrounded him and paparazzi snapping pics as he made his way to the party. They screamed questions at him that he didn’t answer, he smirked, the signature look the media had come to know him by. Surrounded by so many yet feeling so alone. Making it next door took longer than it should have because of the circus around him, but make it he did.

Once he was inside he was taken by the arm by the coordinator who had introduced him to the fans, he couldn’t remember her name but she seemed nice enough. At least she didn’t flirt with him like other women did and took her job seriously.

“You’re here, great, first you should go say hi to the Han family, they’re the ones footing the bill for this afterparty, then you can have a few minutes with the fans before talking to some reporters…”

“Whoah.” He stopped in his tracks and could swear she left skid marks with her heels she’d been going so fast. “I want more than just a few minutes with those fans, and who are all these people anyway?” He saw his bandmates and some of the roadies, but everyone else was a stranger.

“Nobody you need to worry about, uh, I’ll see what I can do with the schedule.” She seemed frazzled but clicked away on her tablet while heading off again. He assumed he should follow, so he did.

“Mr. Han, I appreciate you taking the time and effort for this function.” Saeran greeted the elderly man.

“Ah, of course of course, anything for my new bride!” he had his arm around a young woman who was clearly less than half his age. The rumors about C&R’s head were obviously true. Standing on his other side was a tall and elegant man who appeared to wish he was anywhere but here. He’d seen that face plastered on magazines of all sorts. The heir apparent, Director of C&R, Jumin Han. They nodded respectfully at each other, Saeran feeling sorry for the man and having to deal with his father’s escapades, but the old man seemed like a descent sort. After a few minutes of his ‘wife’ fawning all over him, making him feel uncomfortable, the coordinator pulled him away. He was thankful to her for saving him.

She escorted him towards a section in the back, past all the dancing and the loud music, that was closed off. The music was still loud but at least he could hear himself think. In the section the fans sat, eating and drinking snacks on the coffee table. They all stood up and rushed him. Well, the girls did, touching him and giggling. Where were their parents? They didn’t look old enough to be out. They sat him down and pressed against him. The blond man sat to the side in a chair and continued to sip his cola and eat the snacks, sneaking a look now and then. He wished he could just be alone with him and have a conversation. At least he wouldn’t try to crawl on his lap like these girls seemed to want to do. Well, maybe he wouldn’t mind if the blond tried that.

After about 30 minutes, which felt like a lifetime, the coordinator gathered up the girls and took them out. It was past midnight and he guessed he had been right about their age, couldn’t have minors out at all hours of the night. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes. It felt like they had leached some of his life force out and he was drained.

“I guess that happens all the time to you huh?”

Saeran sat up abruptly, how could he have forgotten about the blond?

“Sorry, I’ll go if you want to be alone.” He stood and Saeran panicked.

“NO!” he stood, banging his knee on the coffee table, sending him on his ass back on the sofa. He grabbed at the knee, eyes scrunched, “Ow ow ow…”

“Let me see.” Suddenly there was a presence by him as the blond sat beside him, his fingers touching his knee. Because of the ripped jeans, it was easy to see his skin in that area. “Doesn’t look so bad, at least you didn’t break the skin. You’ll have a hell of a bruise though.” The blond raised his gaze to Saeran and he finally got to see the full view. Wow, those eyes knocked him out, was that color even natural? Maybe he was wearing amethyst-colored lenses like what he himself wore. His face was kind, a soft pink flush growing across his cheeks and bridge of his nose. It was adorable.

“Ah, that was really stupid of me. But…I’m glad you didn’t leave. We didn’t even get a chance to chat.” Saeran tried to regain his coolness but found he couldn’t seem to be bothered to try and act in front of this man. “Uh, what’s your name?”

“Yoosung. Don’t have to ask yours I guess.” He smiled, lighting up the entire room.

“Yoosung…I like it.”

“Thanks. I…uh…like you. I mean…I…your music…I…I…like your music…and…uh…I”

Saeran laughed and waved off Yoosung’s explanation.

“So you’re a fan huh? And what…a doctor?” he asked, placing his foot on the ground gently, still rubbing his knee.

“Not quite. But I am going to medical school. And yes, a BIG fan!” his eyes got large, as did his smile. “Your songs spoke to me when I was at a really low point. I don’t know, it felt like you knew what I was going through and understood my pain.” The smile faltered as his thoughts went back to those days. Saeran reached out and placed his hand on Yoosung’s, yes, he knew what it was like to be in pain, he could see it in his eyes.

Their eyes met, an understanding passing between them.

[anonymousbaev]

Rfa + minor trio being jealous seeing mc with another member pls. ty if u do :DDD

*Angst* RFA+Minor Trio being jealous seeing Mc dating another member.

Enjoy! (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)    *Angst and NSFW warning*

☆Yoosung☆

"Congratulations..." They were the words he sent in the chatroom when you and Seven made it official.

Only he knew they were empty words though.

He really liked you, hoping to confess to you one day. Sometimes he had even imagined having a family with you.

But that was just how deeply he loved you.

Somedays he would just wish you'd broken up with Seven and ran into his widely opened arms.

Somedays he would wonder if it would've been him by your side if he had confessed his love a day sooner.

He always cursed himself out for thinking that way afterwards though.

He should be happy.

He has to be happy, for his two precious friends.

He avoided you and Seven for months, years... putting on a bitter smile when he had run into you at a RFA party occasionally.

It felt like he was trapped in a nightmare, he knew he had to get his feelings over with. But he just couldn't let you go so easily...

It wasn't until Seven proposed to you, in front of all the guests and members at the party.

He kept repeating the words in his head, "Please say no, please say no, please say no..."

But of course, you agreed and Yoosung sent you both his second congrats.

A few years later he started dating a girl he met at his vet.

Yoosung eventually got married to her and he was able to treat you and Seven the way he had before everything.

Yoosung and his new wife would never have the same connection he did with you though.

I mean she didn't have to go through getting compared with Rika.

He was happy with her, and you were happy with Seven.

He told himself, he was content with his life. And, he eventually came to believe it.

☕️ Jaehee ☕️

When Jaehee found out about your relationship with Zen through the radio, she joked that she was offended she had to find out through the internet and not personally by you or Zen.

She was confused about her feelings at first, she knew she was feeling jealous... but towards who?

She brushed off her feelings, convincing herself it was a neutral fangirl jealousy.

That wasn't until she found out how Zen broke your heart during an argument and you stayed at her house.

She felt so angry, how could he do that to you? He should've cherished you, loved you, because that's what you deserved-

That's when she realized, those feelings... weren't towards Zen but towards you.

Without even realizing it, her feelings for you have gotten so deep, she fell in love with you.

But it was too late when she did, because you were able to make up with Zen and you even told her you were going to get married to him.

That officially broke her.

She kept a straight face, continuing to work at her café for 2 years.

That was when you announced your pregnancy and even her hard metaled heart delicately snapped.

She cried silently in her house as she read your chats.

"Why am I crying?... I should be happy for her..." she repeated those words as she cried herself to sleep.

The next day she told the RFA she was going to leave, in order to travel the world to further her knowledge in her business.

You were sad, everyone was. But she promised to keep in touch.

She was able to keep her promise for a year. Until she fell out of touch with everyone, even you. And you used to be her best friend...

You were upset, why did she suddenly block you out of her life?

But only Jaehee and god would know how you had unknowingly broke her heart, because you never heard from her again.

♬ Zen ♬

Why did it have to be that trust fund kid, out of everyone else?

Himself for example... either way he just wanted you to be happy.

But sometimes he would wonder, if he had gone more less with those flirtatious jokes, would it be him next to you?

Did you think his flirts were nothing but a casual way of joking like Jumin told you?

Now only he would know, that he was being serious. That all those 'lighthearted' flirts sincerely came from his heart.

The way you were strong enough to have everyone open up to you, and the way you sincerely cared for everyone of them.

He fell in love with you, and he knew he would never be able to find another person like you.

But he tried his best to get over you. He still wanted to remain friends at the very least.

If he wanted that, he had to accept your relationship with Jumin...

Zen tried to love someone else, a beautiful woman he had worked with in one of his movies.

But when he saw you come in to congratulate him as Jumin held your waist his heart broke.

Eventually though, he proposed to the woman and at the wedding he felt shame because in the church, at his wedding with someone that wasn’t you...

He thought you were the most beautiful woman there.

“Why are these feelings still lingering?!”

Years passed... later finding out his wife has had several affairs, but he wasn’t one to judge. When he still had you in his heart.

He lived his life solely for his career in a loveless marriage life, until he finally shattered. He couldn’t take these feelings anymore, and when he left, nobody has heard of him again.

♛ Jumin ♛ 

It seemed as if he was cursed.

Every woman he had fallen in love with, the only two woman he’d felt emotions to, they all belonged to Kim Jihyun.

Although he’d never showed it, when you and Jihyun announced your wedding, he was bitter, “Already? Did you two even get to know each other, after all that happened with Mint Eye?”

He drowned himself in wine, everyday. 

One day he even sat curled up on the floor as he soothed Elizabeth the 3rd in his arms as he whispered, “Nobody will take you from me...”

The past months he’d been out of character and he was aware of that.

Eventually, he was slowly able to return to his old self again but the only things that surrounded him in his life was his cat, work, and wine.

He never wanted to feel those emotions for you again because they were painful to get over. But had he truly, gotten over you?

He would’ve done everything to make you his if you didn’t belong to his best friend, and he knew V deserved his happy ending, after everything he had been through. 

But what about himself?

You had a feeling, something wasn’t right. Jumin was different. 

And everything poured out when all three of you went to get dinner, all the emotions stacked up spilled out in a single second.

The next morning you found yourself in Jumin’s bed as he slept next to you shirtless, with your clothes also coldly left on the floor, your heart dropped. 

Then, you looked to your left to find Jihyun also sleeping next to you.

That was the start of your relationship, all three of you came to the negotiation that the two men would share you, to which you gladly accepted, because it was your idea. 

You were sure it was a great idea because all three of you were totally content on it.

Others would point fingers, while some would worry, “Isn’t history repeating itself? Maybe not in the same way... but in a ominous way just like before. They’re dragging themselves into a toxic relationship again.”

You and the two friends didn’t care though, because all three of you was sure this was an absolute fantasy...

 👓 Saeyoung 👓 

With all the flirty jokes the two of you would send, everyone that had seen you and Saeyoung, they were sure you and he had a fling. 

That’s what Saeyoung thought as well, that there was something between the two of you, but you must’ve only seen him as a friend because he was paralyzed for minutes as he watched you in Zen’s apartment.

You and Zen knocked down furniture desperate to embrace one another as your lips pressed against his, eager for his touch.

When Zen turned you against the wall as his slender hands reached under your skirt, Saeyoung didn’t want to see anymore. 

He wanted to give you both the privacy, but it was also because he couldn’t bare the pain of watching you anymore.

That’s when he noticed Saeran behind him with his ice cream. “Was that Mc?”

Saeyoung nodded with a grin to act like he was fine as he tried getting back to work, Saeran rolled his eyes and threw away his finished ice cream in the trash.

That was when Saeyoung finally broke down, and he wasn’t sure why because he used to always tell himself he would be ready when this day came.

When he tried focusing on his work and it seemed impossible, Vanderwood offered him to come back to the agency. Saeyoung accepted the offer.

He grows further from the RFA and more immersed in his works, but still occasionally enters the chatroom to see how you’re doing.

His heart stings with a bitter smile when he sees the selfies Zen uploads with you and your son that has the same white hair and scarlet eyes as your now husband.

He’s happy to see you with a good life, a good life he thinks he was never capable of giving you...

🌚 Saeran 🌚 

When he came home and started to live with his twin he’d been separated from for years, it’d be a lie if he said it wasn’t uncomfortable living with you as well.

He barely knew you except for the fact that you were Saeyoung’s girlfriend.

That was until Saeyoung eventually had to get back to his hacking work after devoting his months of time to Saeran alone.

You started taking care of Saeran, and it was awkward at first because he didn’t want you anywhere near him. The first two months were full of him just screaming and attacking you.

But eventually he realized how patient, loving and sincerely caring you were.

You became the only person he wanted to be touched by, and he wanted to be the only person able to touch you.

Of course he’d never said anything because you were the girlfriend of his brother.

Sometimes you would even give him cuddles, only supposed to be friendly hugs but Saeran didn’t think the same, because he loved you. In a different way from how you loved him.

When he couldn’t trust himself from you anymore he told you to stop coming near him.

It hurt you, because you didn’t know why, but you agreed.

You and Saeyoung never noticed how painful it was for Saeran when you kissed, and hugged each other in front of him.

He sealed his emotions away... for the happiness of his twin, and you, because he knew damn well his brother was good at making you feel loved.

♧ V ♧ 

He saw you as an angel, one that’d helped him realize the toxic of his relationship with Rika, one that’d helped him realize he was capable of real love.

But he had felt lost when he knew that the person he would experience true love with would never be able to be you.

Because you were already with Jumin, and V would never interfere with that, Jumin was his best friend, and he knew how well Jumin cherished you as his wife.

Whenever the people around V would ask him when he would find a new lover, he brushed it off. Sometimes hinting that he would probably never.

They all assumed it was because he had never truly gotten over Rika, but little did they know he had already realized it was never love.

Yes, the lingering feeling of guilt may have been still over him, but you were the one in his heart. He always caught himself staring at you at parties.

V wanted to avoid these feelings because he knew the dangers of it.

He avoided you and Jumin as he focused on his art, and Jumin didn’t have the time because he was always busy with you or work.

You noticed Jumin and Jihyun slowly falling out of touch. So you arranged dinner at a restaurant.

You drank until you were drunk.

V chatted with Jumin, it was a neutral talk between friends. They decided to drink until their hearts desires that night.

V was eventually the last one half sober with his high drinking metabolism while Jumin fell drunk next to you on the table.

V rests his head on his arms as he admired you for what felt like hours. 

That was when he lightly placed his cold hands and lightly brushed your cheeks.

It was an selfish move, one that he would only know of. He softly apologized to the both of you and called Jumin’s driver to pick the two of you up before leaving.

The next morning, Jumin told you Jihyun had left to travel somewhere with the promise that he would be back one day, when he had gotten over his feelings. You and Jumin didn’t know what feelings he had been talking of but hoped he’d be back soon.

However the both of you gave up, when even phone calls wouldn’t reach him, and you were sure he’d never come back.

That was probably the first promise V gad ever broke.

🧸 Vanderwood 🧸 

Vanderwood didn’t think much of you, just the fact that you were Saeyoung’s girlfriend. 

But that was it, even when the two of you had occasionally lived together for a while when he was a “maid” for Saeyoung.

That was until he and Saeyoung came back from dangerous missions, wounds and scars all over their body, you would always scold them and treat their wounds.

The little actions you did for him fluttered his heart and he’d always feel envious seeing you with Saeyoung.

He drowned himself in work so he could distract himself from all the unnecessary feelings in his heart.

You would never have to find out about his feelings because there was no need.

You were as happy as you could be with Saeyoung and he didn’t need to ruin that.

He also didn’t really think he had a chance anyway.

But he knew what kind of dangerous job he and Saeyoung had. 

So sometimes he’d wished you had just ditched Saeyoung and met someone with a far more normal life so Vanderwood would have to stop worrying about your wellbeing.

But at the same time he was glad you were Saeyoung’s girlfriend so he could always watch you from close.

Although you would never be his, close was enough for him.

Masterlist

[saeyoungs-sunflower]

what are the rfa s weddings lik?

Hey, anon! This request was SUPER cute, thank you so much for sending it! I absolutely loved it💛It’s nearly 3am and I am knackered so I may re-edit this is the morning but we’ll see! I hope you enjoy it! xx

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RFA weddings

Zen:

❤︎ A medium sized wedding

❤︎ He does invite his family, and it’s the first time they’ve seen each other in years

❤︎ His family put their differences aside to see you get married, and it was a huge turning point in their relationship with each other

❤︎ Did he cry? Just one elegant, pearly tear that glided down his beautiful bone structure. He’s emotional, but he’s gonna be pretty about it I mean this is Zen we’re talking about

❤︎ Best man? the fishbread man It’s gotta be Yoosung. He considered maybe asking his brother, but it just seemed inappropriate considering how he turned his back on Zen when they were younger. And he basically sees Yoosung as a little brother anyway ;)

❤︎ Flower theme? Roses. Of COURSE. Only the most romantic flowers for you

❤︎ “MC they also match my eyes!”

❤︎ dork

❤︎ Now the wedding is pretty straight forward until the reception

❤︎ Because I need you to understand something

❤︎ Apart of the RFA, all of Zen’s friends are actors

❤︎ And y’all, the dance floor is so chaotic

❤︎ But also it’s so lovely because everyone is having an amazing time and the energy is so contagious

❤︎ Whilst everyone is partying though, Zen took you outside

❤︎ “Today’s been the best day of my life, but it’s been so busy that I haven’t got a chance to be alone with you.”

❤︎ I-

❤︎ He tells you just how gorgeous you look in your dress, and how he feels like the luckiest man in the world because he was the man that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with

❤︎ And that’s when he cries

❤︎ Just full on sobbing

❤︎ He’s had some champagne okay let the boi cry

❤︎ The Romantic Wedding

Yoosung:

★ BIG wedding

★ Yoosung has a lot of friends and family and you wanted everyone dear to him to be there

★ Also they were just gonna turn up anyway so might as well invite them and avoid the hassle lmao

★ Did he cry? Actually, no

★ I know I’m surprised too

★ Everyone thought he would, but instead he just absolutely BEAMED

★ Like nobody has ever seen such a look of pure adoration and joy and everyone else is crying because oh my God he looks so happy and cute I-

★ Best man? I reckon it’ll be someone from his family. He seems like a family man, I’m sure there’s a brother or cousin that he’s super close to (no, not Rika lol)

★ Flower theme? Sweet peas because he is a sweet pea aw

★ It’s a fun night guys

★ You got to properly bond with his family and he yours

★ And because there were some younger ones in his family, there are plenty of games and activities to keep them occupied after the ceremony

★ Which Yoosung also manages to rope you into

★ You learnt that playing musical bumps in a wedding dress is much harder than it looks

★ It’s a very sweet and fun day. The ceremony is taken seriously but after that you just enjoy yourself

★ You’re both exhausted by the end of the night, but also can’t wipe the smiles of your faces

★ The Fun Wedding

Jaehee:

☞ We know that Jaehee doesn’t half-arse things okay

☞ Girl goes ALL OUT

☞ If Jaehee’s planning it, then there isn’t a petal out of place and it’s the most gorgeous wedding no joke

☞ Like Zen’s, it’s a medium sized wedding

☞ She doesn’t have a lot of family but she does have some school/college friends that she invites

☞ YOU DO THE SUPER CUTE THING RIGHT where you both walk down the aisle from opposite sides and meet each other in the middle because you BOTH GOTTA HAVE YOUR BRIDE MOMENT OK

☞ Did she cry? I don’t think so. She’s absolutely ecstatic, but I don’t think she’s a cryer (also it took over an hour to get her makeup done she ain’t about to cry it off)

☞ Who gave her away? Our good old Zenny boi

☞ Just imagine Zen walking her down the aisle because obviously her father isn’t around to do it, and Zen has been her biggest fan (apart from you obvs) and IMAGINE HIM CRYING WHEN YOU BOTH GET TO THE MIDDLE BECAUSE YOU’RE BOTH SO BEAUTIFUL AND HE LOVES YOU BOTH AND OH MY GOD THE LOVE

☞ He cries more than he would have at his wedding lmao what a sweetheart

☞ Flower theme? Tulips! I dunno why Jaehee just seems like a tulip gal to me

☞ You make it your mission to get as many glasses of champagne into this woman as possible

☞ Because she has been s t r e s s e d all damn day. Jaehee it’s time to relax and have some fun

☞ And lemme tell ya, after a few glasses she hits the dance floor and it is glorious

☞ Watching Zen’s musicals has really taught her some dances because damn

☞ Your wife’s got moves

☞ The Perfect Wedding

Jumin:

♚ Oh, you thought Jaehee went all out?

♚ Then let me introduce to Jumin Han, the King of Extra

♚ It’s GRAND y’all

♚ It’s the most elegant wedding out of all of them

♚ You were reassuring him constantly that he didn’t need to spend so much or plan such a huge wedding

♚ You were head over heals in love with him regardless, and you would marry him in a shed for all you cared as long as you could spend the rest of your lives together

♚ But he insisted, saying that you deserved a day as special and beautiful as you were

♚ HE LOVES YOU OKAY LET HIM SPOIL YOU A BIT

♚ He invites a lot of people lmao

♚ We know he’s a family man, but he also wants to declare his undying love for you in front of many people as possible

♚ Like I said, King of Extra

♚ Also lowkey wanted to show you off lmao like “Yes this is my striking wife, emphasis on MY because were are married aren’t you jealous”

♚ Did he cry? Nope, don’t think so. Again, not because he’s not emotional, he just shows it in different ways

♚ Like the way that he physically cannot take his eyes off your

♚ Jumin bby you gotta blink come on now

♚ Best man? Jihyun, OBVIOUSLY

♚ Flower theme? Lilies. They are elegant and pure just like you ;)

♚ Or at least that’s how he sees you lmao

♚ VERY traditional wedding, but that doesn’t make it any less special

♚ Your first dance is the most tender and emotional thing that anyone has ever seen

♚ Yes that sound you hear is indeed Zen crying again. He just loves a good wedding guys

♚ The Grand Wedding

Saeyoung:

☀︎ Very small, intimate wedding

☀︎ It’s literally just your family/friends, the RFA and Vanderwood heheh

☀︎ Obviously he has no blood-relatives except for Saeran, but he considers the RFA as his family anyway so he’s very content

☀︎ Best man? Saeran, of course

☀︎ But also can we imagine Vanderwood as best man for like two seconds because woah

☀︎ Who do I have to pay to see that man in a suit

☀︎ Did he cry? Like a BABY. Literally the second that you walk through the doors he’s a sobbing mess

☀︎ He just never thought he’d ever have a day like this or meet someone like you and oh my God you look so stunning gET THE MAN A TISSUE

☀︎ Literally can’t even get it together for the vows lmao bless him

☀︎ Flower theme? Sunflowers  I mean look at my username I couldn’t not

☀︎ They’re just so bright and unique (as a wedding flower) just like him :)

☀︎ Sunflower is also a nickname he has for you PLEASE JUST LET ME HAVE THIS ONE OKAY so it was just the perfect choice

☀︎ The reception is also pretty unconventional

☀︎ Because the wedding was so small, you were all able to just gather round one table and chat all together

☀︎ And then you all danced and drank and laughed and you’re heart had never felt so full

☀︎ He never left your side all day, and his eyes were constantly fixed on you

☀︎ During your first dance he leaned in close and whispered in your ear

☀︎ “Thank you for making my life worth living. I love you with every fibre of my being, and I will dedicate my whole life to making you happy. Thank you, for everything.”

☀︎ “…also I think I can hear Zen crying.”

☀︎ The Intimate Wedding

V / Jihyun:

❁ A medium to small wedding

❁ But it’s also the most picturesque wedding you’ve ever seen

❁ Jihyun was in charge of decorations and oh boi he did not disappoint

❁ Every inch of that venue was a piece of art swear down

❁ Invited friends and family but only those he was at least fairly close to

❁ He didn’t care for inviting a bunch of people just to have a big wedding

❁ He wanted it to be a day of love, so he only invited those who he cared for and who he knew cared for him

❁ Did he cry? Ladies and gentleman we have another cryer. Not as intense as Saeyoung but there were definitely several tears once you met him at the alter

❁ Because you were right there…about to marry him. He never thought that somebody would love him the way that you do and he just couldn’t believe that it was all real

❁ OKAY I’M JUST GONNA GO CRY TOO BRB

❁ Best man? Do I even need to say? Obviously it’s Jumin

❁ Y’ALL the look on Jumin’s face when you got to the alter

❁ He was literally so proud of you both and also SO RELIEVED that his best friend found such a wonderful woman like you

❁ You manage to silently have a conversation with him, just with a few looks

❁ “Take care of him for me” “Of course, always.”

❁ I’M GONNA SCREAM

❁ Flower theme? NOT DAFFODILS THAT’S FOR SURE I think maybe baby’s breath. They apparently signify ‘festivity’ as well as sincerity, compassion, purity…

❁ Also I think that they just go with his aesthetic don’t @ me

❁ It’s a quiet wedding, there’s dancing and everything but it’s mainly slow dancing and meaningful conversations with your guests

❁ It’s so wholesome and sweet and just such a perfect start to your life together

❁ This man is gonna have a LOVING and PEACEFUL marriage with you because that’s what he deserves

❁ The Serene Wedding

Saeran:

☽ Just like Saeyoung’s, it’s a very small and intimate wedding

☽ In fact, it’s even smaller

☽ But that also made it so special

☽ Did he cry? He did not, but trust me he was going through a whirlwind of emotions

☽ He actually did tear up when you were saying your vows though

☽ Because he felt so cared for and loved and your promise that you would take care of him for the rest of your life made him feel more safe than he had ever felt before

☽ Best man? Driver Kim SAEYOUNG OF COURSE

☽ He almost asked Jihyun though just to piss Saeyoung off lol

☽ Flower theme? ALL OF THE FLOWERS. Saeran was in charge of flowers because he is a flower God okay

☽ I’m no expert in flowers so I’m not even going to attempt to explain what he did but just imagine some really nice flowers

☽ The overall wedding was a mixture of traditional and unconventional

☽ The actual ceremony is pretty traditional, mainly because Saeran just wanted to have something normal is his life, you know?

☽ He wanted to have the proper experience, and also wanted you to have that too because you’re life had been far from normal since you met him haha

☽ But then once the ceremony was over, you all had a meal and then the rest of the night was just talking with your friends/loved ones and just FEELIN THE LOVE YA KNOW

☽ It had been an eventful day, so everything was wrapped up sooner than most weddings are because partying into the early hours of the morning just wasn’t something that Saeran could/would want to do

☽ But that doesn’t mean it wasn’t the most special day of your life, because it was

☽ The fact that Saeran wanted to make such a commitment to you, despite everything he’s been through, was special enough and it was the perfect day for the both of you

☽ The Special Wedding

***

This was super fun to think about, thank you so much! And please excuse the awful photo quality, Pinterest was not being kind to me :’)

This will be the last request I do today (I mean it’s technically the next day for me but shhh;)) but thank you for being so patient!! Take care <33

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The Chois Next Door

Ch. 11

Progress?

“You can’t beat him. He’s too powerful. No matter what you unearth, he’ll have a ready explanation. You know that, why are you still trying?” Saeran sulked. It actually brought a smile to MC’s face. He tried to hide it but the man was warming up to them. There were glimpses of the old Saeran in there and they came out more and more.

Saeyoung still worked tirelessly to gain all the information he could about the Prime Minister, digging deeper and deeper. The longer he dug, the more repulsive the information he unearthed. But what Saeran said was right. No matter what they could release to the general public, there would be ways the Prime Minister could explain it away. They needed a smoking gun. The man was ruthless but smart. Of course he would be, he was the twins father after all. As much of a genius as they were.

Unfortunately for them, Saejoong Choi was adept at covering his involvement in anything illegal. It frustrated Saeyoung to no end.

“Nobody is perfect. There will be something, somewhere.” Saeyoung said, jaw tight with determination as his fingers flew across two keyboards. Saeran simply looked away. He now sat on the side of his bed, only one wrist shackled to the heavy frame. Had he really wanted to, he would be able to get himself free. He seemed content, however. The drugs coursing through his system had been depleted. He still looked weak and as if he was hungover after a night of debauchery and drinking, but his thinking seemed to have cleared some.

He no longer called them names but still kept them at arm’s length. They tried not to act too touchy feely with each other in front of him either, as it aroused anger and annoyance in him. He made eye contact with MC but quickly looked away.

“Do what you want. You never listened to me anyway. You always thought you were smarter than me.”

“That isn’t true!” Saeyoung argued. “I never thought I was smarter. In fact, I always thought you were the better of. I just…I just wanted to make you happy!”

“By fucking me?” Saeran threw out through gritted teeth.

Saeyoung’s anger subsided, and he deflated, sinking back into his seat. “Saeran…” but what could he say? That it was what Saeran had wanted? So what? He still hadn’t needed to do it. He had wanted to. Wanted to feel what it was like to be inside his brother. He knew it was wrong. Disgusting, unnatural, but it hadn’t mattered in the end. Meeting MC had made him realize that if he was ever going to be happy, he had to take chances with his heart. And they had been happy. All three of them. There was no jealousy among them. MC genuinely loved them both, and they loved her.

MC slapped Saeran. The twins stared at her in disbelief. “That’s enough!” she screamed through tears. “I won’t let you hurt him anymore with your words! You know the truth! You just don’t want to admit it! You love your brother, and you love me! Those drugs and the brainwashing are no excuse anymore! You hear me?”

Saeran stared at her, then slowly began to laugh. “Whatever.” He lay on the bed and faced away from them awkwardly because of the cuff on his wrist.

“It’s OK MC.” Saeyoung pulled her into a hug, taking comfort from her warmth. She wrapped her arms around him, but he could feel her trembling.

“You two are disgusting.” Saeran whispered, but they could hear the tears in his voice. They decided to ignore him this time. It was still better than where they had started. MC could still remember the awful screaming and the way he had tried to hurt himself. She wasn’t sure which had been worse. They were both horrifying to witness.

“You’re just jealous.” Saeyoung uttered.

“Saeyoung!” MC gasped incredulous.

“Jealous!?” Saeran scoffed.” Of your sinful relationship! Don’t make me laugh!” he sat up and glared at his brother.

“Yes. Jealous.” Saeyoung said again, grinning from ear to ear. “How do you think you’d feel if we kissed? Leaving you out of it?”

“Oh please! I don’t care what you do!” the man stood, his cuff rattling against the rail.

“Really? Then why comment at all?” Saeyoung shrugged. He took MC by the waist and pulled her close. “This doesn’t bother you?” he asked. Saeran looked away, but his jaw was clenched.

“Do what you want, pervert. But you won’t drag me into it.”

“You’re starting to remember though, aren’t you? The way it felt to be in my arms. How excited you got when I kissed you?” Saeyoung said. His words penetrating through Saeran’s hard exterior, but not quite landing where they needed to. Saeran resisted. The fear instilled in him was very much still there and had become instinctual. He did remember, remembered pleading with his brother for more than just a touch. And it sickened him. It elicited a negative physical response in him.

“Shut up shut up shut up! You filthy disgusting liar!” he tried to throw himself on his brother, fingers clawing at him. The restraint pulled him short, and the sudden attack didn’t make the older man blink. He still held that self-satisfied smug smile on his face. “I hate you! Get that through your thick skull! Things will never go back to the way they were! It was depraved and sinful! I see that now! It doesn’t matter what I wanted before because wanting that was wrong! It goes against everything God stands for!”

“OK. Just calm down Saeran.” MC lay her hand on the man’s shoulder and led him back to sit on the bed. “Nobody is going to force you to do anything you don’t want to do. That’s not what’s going on here. We just wanted to get you healthy enough so that you could make your own decision. If that decision turns out to be that you walk away from both of us, then so be it. But we’re not letting you go until we know for sure that you’re thinking for yourself.”

Saeran’s shoulders sagged, exhausted. He let himself be tucked into bed and closed his eyes. What he found in the darkness were two pairs of hands that had always made him feel safe and secure. He wondered who they belonged to.

…………..

“Sir, we’ve found them.” The security guard bowed before the Prime Minister, glad they had finally made some progress. Saejoong Choi could be merciless to those who failed him.

“Finally. I think it’s time for a little family reunion.” The graying man grinned, it was eerily similar to that of one Saeyoung Choi.

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Reality- Chapter 15

(A/N): I am going to go ahead and put a trigger warning on this chapter! If any mentions, or thoughts of suicide trigger you in any way, please skip over at least the beginning until the second paragraph of Saeyoung’s POV, or the entire thing!! I’m going to put a short summary of what happens in case you want to know what happened, but are afraid of it triggering anything. Remember that there is always a reason to live <3. 

(Y/N) POV:

I don’t know how long it has been since I’ve been back. I’ve lost track of time. I’ve given up on everything… I tried everything I could. I read so many articles about traveling between universes, I attempted to fix the portal, which failed epically. I played Mystic Messenger for many days, but it just hurt. It wasn’t them, not the real ones. I haven’t touched my phone in days, maybe even months at this point, I really don’t know. I don’t know what I was expecting. Living there was too good to be true. Saeyoung isn’t coming, maybe they’re even happy to have gotten rid of me. I’m tired here, even though I haven’t been doing anything at all. I haven’t eaten in a while, I haven’t moved from my bed in a while. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know why I’m still living. No one has checked up on me, the RFA isn’t coming, I have nothing. I am nothing. I was too much of a burden that they sent me away. I don’t want to live anymore. I have no reason to. I have nobody, I have nothing. I got up and out of my bed for the first time in weeks. I headed to my bathroom and grabbed a bottle. I brought it to my couch and sat down. I wonder how long until people find out...probably a while. I stared at the bottle in my hands. It’s easy, just take them. Why are you hesitating, you have nothing. I sighed. I never thought I would get to this point... I opened up the bottle and dumped it into my hands. I closed my eyes and moved my hand closer to my mouth….but a noise startled me and I stopped. 

I looked up and saw my front door swing open. Someone had opened it. Oh, they’re running towards me, wait this isn’t how this was supposed to go. What is happening? What are they saying? Oh wait, it’s Saeyoung. No, not just him, Saeran is here too. Why is he taking them from me? Give them back! It’s my only option. I can’t live like this anymore. My knees hurt. Why do I feel warm? Who’s there? I felt my face, I was crying. I looked around me. I’m on the floor, how did I get here? I watched Saeyoung as he pulled me closer to him. He looked disappointed. Of course he is, look at what he walked in on. He probably really thinks of me differently now. I thought I heard him saying something, but I don’t know what. My brain isn’t functioning right now. It’s probably the lack of food and water, or lack of sleep. Or lack of literally everything I’ve been denying myself. Why are they here? What happened? Am I going to be okay? Why do I care? Why is it getting dark around me? I didn’t take them did I? Maybe I did….maybe this is goodbye...it wasn’t supposed to be like this….

Saeyoung POV:

As soon as Saeran and I went through the portal, we made our way to (Y/N)’s apartment. When we got there I knocked, but there was no answer. Concerned, I quickly picked the lock and opened up the door. My mind wasn’t ready for what I saw. (Y/N) was sitting on their couch, a handful of pills in their hand. They looked, well, small. It looked like (Y/N) had lost a lot of weight, not in a good way. Their hair was messy, there were dark circles under their eyes. I did this. This is my fault. Saeran immediately moved when he saw what was happening, I was frozen. Saeran shoved me out of the way and ran over to (Y/N). He moved their hand, and took the pills and the bottle. I watched (Y/N) scream, and reach out to Saeran to get them back. I did this. Why do I always hurt the people I love? I watched Saeran move out of the way as (Y/N) fell to the floor. Saeran looked at me, and I broke out of the daze I was in. I ran over to (Y/N) and hugged them. I had begun to cry. I held onto them as I sobbed. I should have listened to Saeran. I should have focused on getting (Y/N) back, I should have known something was wrong when Jaehee couldn’t contact them. I should have done better. After a few minutes I noticed that (Y/N) was no longer conscious. I looked for Saeran. He had moved to the kitchen to make sure the bottle was out of sight, he was coming back with a glass of water. He moved me to get to (Y/N). They were barely conscious, but drank the water, before losing consciousness again. “Saeran,” I managed to get out. 

“We need to get her to a hospital. I don’t care if it’s one here or one there, she needs to go,” Saeran interrupted me. All I could do was nod. I picked up (Y/N) and we headed for the nearest hospital. We probably should have gotten an ambulance. What is going to happen to them? We got to the hospital and checked (Y/N) in. The doctors made us stay back since we weren’t family. We knew we would be getting questions from a nurse to find out what had happened. Saeran did most of the talking. All I could think about was what I could have, what I should have done. When the nurse left, Saeran turned to me. “The nurse says we’re good. She said it’s up to us what we want to do with (Y/N). (Y/N) hadn’t been taking care of them self, the doctors have got fluids and things running through them. They say they’ll be up in about an hour. While (Y/N) is asleep we need to decide what we’re doing. (Y/N) needs help. We can send her somewhere here, or take her back and do something about it in our universe,” he told me. 

“Yeah,” I mumbled. This made him angry. 

“What do you mean yeah? Can you snap out of it?! (Y/N) would be dead right now if we hadn’t gotten there in time. It’s our fault. We need to figure out what we’re doing. We need to be there for them! I don’t care what stupid things you are telling yourself right now because it’s not important. What’s done is done. All we can do is hope they forgive us and be there for them!” Saeran stormed off, realizing he was getting worked up and didn’t want to cause a scene. I sat down in a chair and thought. No one likes mental health centers, Saeran almost killed people in one because of how much he hated it. I want to help (Y/N). They were happiest in our universe, so I think we take them back and then get them help. Hell, I probably should too. I waited for Saeran came back, before heading into the room they had (Y/N) in. 

(Y/N) POV: 

I woke up confused. My body hurt. The lights are really bright. I felt something grab my hand. I looked up and saw Saeyoung. I looked around. I was in a hospital room, Saeran was sitting in the corner watching me. I looked back at Saeyoung. “What happened?” I asked. My voice sounded harsh, and my throat hurt. Saeyoung smiled. 

“Which part?” he asked. 

“All of it. How am I here? Why are you here?” I sat and listened as Saeyoung told me everything. The agency sent me here and threatened Saeyoung. They took down the agency and came here when they found me, you know. Then I passed out and they took me here. “So you didn’t get rid of me?” I whispered after he finished explaining everything. 

“What? Why would you ever think we wanted to get rid of you?” Saeyoung asked. 

“Stupid. Obviously they thought that. They woke up in their universe, with no explanation. To everyone’s knowledge we were the only people who could do anything like that,” Saeran rolled his eyes at Saeyoung. Saeyoung’s face fell, I watched a tear fall from his face. 

“I’m sorry,” his voice cracked. “I should have listened to Saeran and focused on getting you back before taking down the agency. I was worried that they would harm you if I got you back without taking them down first. But I was wrong. I was the only one that hurt you. I wouldn’t ever want to get rid of you.” I looked up at him and tried to smile. 

“You are stupid,” I giggled. “But I knew that. I understand why you did what you did. You just did what you thought was best. It’s not your fault my mind is messed up.” Saeyoung looked up at me. 

“But I’m still sorry.” 

“I know. It’s okay.” I thought to myself. I didn’t really know what to think. I don’t know what to do or where to start. “What are we going to do?” I finally asked. 

“Well, it’s ultimately up to you, but Saeran and I talked about it. We think it would be best to go home and then get us some help,” Saeyoung answered. 

“Which home? And who’s us?” I asked. 

“Home home. And you and Saeyoung,” Saeran answered this time. I nodded. I knew I needed help, I’ve known for a while and didn’t do anything about it. Look where it’s landed me, a hospital. 

“If it’s okay, I’m going to sleep some more now,” I mumbled to them. Saeyoung smiled and nodded. I woke up a few hours later. I felt something by my side and looked to see Saeyoung leaning on me, asleep, still holding my hand. I smiled a bit. Maybe he does care. I just overreacted, took things too far. I should have trusted him. 

“How are you feeling?” I heard Saeran softly ask. I moved my head to look at him. He looked uncomfortable, but concerned. I knew he had gone through similar things as I just did. 

“Better I guess. I want to apologize to you,” I told him. 

“For what?” he asked, genuinely confused. 

“I’m sorry for trying to do what I was going to do…” I looked away. 

“You don’t have to apologize. Your mind was just lying to you, telling you that was your only option. It happened, but we got there in time to stop you. I’m sorry it took us so long. I know it’s not a fun place to be in when you think that’s your last option. It’s hard, but you’re a lot stronger than I am (Y/N), you’ll be fine,” he responded. I was surprised. I had never heard of this. Someone not being angry for someone trying to end their life. But I suppose he knew what it felt like to have someone yell and ask what’s wrong with you when you do something like that. It was nice he didn’t. 

“Thank you though. For saving me,” I told him.

“Thank you for letting me. I don’t want to lose you either. I’m sorry it took us so long.” I felt Saeyoung stirring in his sleep. He slowly lifted his face, his glass askew on him. He looked up at me and smiled a bit. “Good morning,” I told him. 

“Morning. How are you?” he asked. 

“Better.” Just then a doctor came in and asked about our plans. We told him I would leave and get into therapy. The doctor suggested I be under constant supervision, which I really wanted to oppose, but I knew I needed it. The doctor let us go, and we checked out. We headed back to my apartment. I decided to shower and make myself decent before returning to their universe. Before I could go into the bathroom, Saeran ran in. I was confused at first, until I saw him exit the bathroom with anything sharp or dangerous. He meekly smiled at me. I nodded. I knew he should. I got into the shower and it felt refreshing. I got out and changed. I walked out to my living room and informed the twins that I was ready. They nodded and we got on the bus to head to the portal. I was nervous, but also felt oddly calm. I was going back, sure my life would be slightly different now, but I was happy there. So I could be happy again right? 

When we got through the portal, I once again was out for a day. When I woke up, Saeyoung and I talked about what was going to happen. He and Saeran decided that I should stay with them so someone could be with me, which I agreed to. He then gave me a few options of therapists to see so I could decide and make an appointment. I looked through the options and decided. We made our appointments for tomorrow. Saeyoung wanted to make sure I started early, which was probably best. The day was weird. I didn’t spend a minute alone, except for when I was in the bathroom, but even then, one of the twins would be waiting outside of the door for me. They made sure that I ate plenty, all three meals plus snacks. If I refused they would look at me and refuse to let me not eat. The twins each tried to give me space, but I knew it was hard when they wanted to make sure I wouldn’t do anything. I didn’t really have too many negative thoughts though. Around 4, I was watching a movie with Saeyoung when he broke the silence. “The RFA all wants to see you,” he began. “But only when you’re ready.” 

“I think I could, maybe in a few days,” I paused. “And maybe only a few at a time. I don’t want to have to answer too many questions. Did you, you know, tell them what happened?” 

“No, I don’t think it’s my place to do so. You can tell whoever you want and whenever you’re ready.” I nodded. I watched a smile creep up on his face. “Do you want to go get dinner somewhere? There’s a small cafe I know of that doesn’t get too crowded.” I thought about it. I hadn’t been out in a long time. I took a deep breath, I was nervous to go out. “Sure.” Saeyoung and I got up and ready to go out. I thought about changing out of my sweats, but decided not to. We told Saeran and then got into his car. The drive wasn’t too long. Their bunker is far outside of the city, but the cafe was in a nearby small town. When we got there, we walked in and ordered. It was nice. When we sat down to eat, it was silent for a bit. Neither of us really knew what to talk about. Soon, we were talking like normal again. Saeyoung made sure to make me laugh a lot. After we left, we went to a nearby park. I sat down on a swing next to Saeyoung and looked at the ground. I heard him chuckle. I looked over at him. “What?” 

“It’s kinda like when I first met you right now. You, in sweats and your hair pulled back, in a park at night,” he replied with a smile. 

“Yeah, I looked like a wreck then too.” 

“I don’t think so, you look amazing to me.” 

“Yeah whatever,” I said, moving to bump my swing into his. He laughed. 

“I knew then that you struggled with mental health. I should have been better about it all,” he told me. 

“What do you mean?” I asked. 

“Well, it’s not like your mental health just suddenly gets better. You even told me how you felt! People are fine for a few days, maybe even weeks, but then it’ll all go downhill. When you told me how you felt, I should have been better at being there for you. Been better at showing you how I felt.” My breath caught in my throat. How he felt?.... Saeyoung looked at me and took my hands into his. He looked into my eyes and smiled. My heart felt like it was beating much faster than it ever should have. “I love you (Y/N). I have for so long. I was afraid to say it, I didn’t want to push you into anything. But I should have told you sooner. I should have told you that I am so in love with you. I should have told you how much I care about you, how much I want you to be happy. I should have said that I don’t want to be with anyone else, that I love your personality. I should have been more forward, I should have shown how much I cared. I should have told you that I loved you sooner. I love you. I do. I really do.” I began to cry a bit. 

“Saeyoung, you know that what happened wasn’t your fault right?” I asked. He didn’t move. My chest began to hurt. He can’t think this is his fault. “It isn’t your fault. I knew how much you cared about me. It’s just my brain. I love you too Saeyoung. And I appreciate that you didn’t rush me into anything, even though I knew that I love you. I’m happy when I’m with you. And I’m going to work on my mental health, because I want to live. I want to live so that I can love you. Maybe it’s not the best reason, and it’s too dependent on someone, but for now, it’s what is stopping me from trying again.” I reached over and hugged Saeyoung. When he wrapped his arms around me I was reminded that someone cares. Even when I feel like that, someone cares. After a while, we made our way back to the bunker. I was still tired, so I headed to bed early. I slept for a few hours, before being woken up by bad dreams. I sighed as I sat up. I should be over this by now. Don’t go see him, he’s asleep. I decided to get up and get some water. When I got into the kitchen I noticed Saeran in there. He smiled at me. 

“Can’t sleep?” he asked. I nodded. I knew he also struggled to sleep. He passed me a glass and I filled it. “What’s on your mind?” he asked. 

“Everything,” I smiled. “Nothing dangerous though. How did you get through it?” 

“I wouldn’t say I’m completely through it. There are definitely still days where I wonder why I’m even still here and trying. But it’s usually on the days that Saeyoung decides he needs to spend time with me. As annoying as he is, it helps.” I smiled and nodded. 

“Yeah, it’s hard though.” 

“It is, but it’s easier if you have people who help you. Saeyoung might not quite  understand what it’s like, I’m here for you too (Y/N).” I looked at him. 

“Thank you. I’m going to head back to bed, have a good night.” 

“You too,” he replied. I headed back to my room, but hesitated before going in. It wouldn’t hurt anybody if I just...Before I knew it, I was standing in front of Saeyoung’s door. I could see a light coming through so I knew he was up. He was probably working. I knocked on the door and I heard him mumble to come in. He swung around in his chair and looked at me when I came in. “Oh (Y/N). Is something wrong?” he asked. 

“No, well...kinda. I just had a dream that woke me up. What are you still doing up?” I asked him. 

“Well, I was working, but now it seems I have something more important to do.” I furrowed my brows. 

“What?” I asked. He got and came toward me before hugging me. 

“Making sure you get to sleep,” he answered. He picked me up and put me on his bed. 

“Oh uh, are you sure? I’m fine alone…” I mumbled, embarrassed. He nodded. 

“Yep! God 707 is here to make sure his 606 sleeps comfortably!” I shook my head. He wrapped his arms around me as he laid down. It felt wrong, but also right to be next to him. I smiled into his chest. Maybe, with you here, I can get through this. I can get through the thoughts my mind has put me through for years.

SUMMARY FOR THOSE THAT WANTED TO SKIP OVER IT:

Basically, Saeyoung and Saeran saved (Y/N) when he got to their universe. They took them to a hospital to get them immediate help, before returning to their universe. The twins decided to keep (Y/N) under constant supervision, so their first day with the twins was weird being followed around. Saeyoung and (Y/N) decide to go out to eat at a small, empty cafe. They head to a park afterwards where they are honest with their feelings to each other. They return to the bunker, where (Y/N) has a bad dream and is woken up. They have a short conversation with Saeran about how hard it is dealing with mental health, before going to Saeyoung, who decides to make sure they sleep comfortably. 

[juminsmysticmc]

RFA Sarean V with MC that loves to spoil them with affection

RFA + Minor Duo with a MC that loves to spoil them with affection 

I‘m literally the same! I also love to spoil people with love. Btw! Love isn’t giving only through kisses and hugs but also through smiles and care….enjoy! 

Jumin 

Everyone thought that in this relationship you were the one getting spoiled. 

Spoiled with money and love. 

But nobody knew that they were awfully wrong. 

They just found out when they saw you. 

You were so kind hearted, you loved Jumin Han so much, nobody knew that a pure love like this even existed. 

And Jumin enjoyed your love. 

After being used and abused by women for money he really enjoyed his life with you. 

And it wasn’t that he only took. 

He also gave love. 

,,Jumin, hello!“ you giggled when you visited him at work, bringing lunch with you. 

With everything you done, you planted a heart warming smile on his lips. 

,,Come here, your tie is…“ you mumbled and already rightened his tie, kissing him at least five times in a row. 

,,I never thought I would say it but I guess they are a perfect couple….“ Zen sighted as he watched you feeding the CEO-in-line. 

Zen 

He wasn’t spoiled as kid but the love he received from his fans made everything up. 

Although, the love he received from you was different. 

It was true love. 

The hugs you gave him…none could ever hug him like that. 

The kisses you gave him before going out, were the most special ones. 

The little presents, like a new bag mirror or perfume made it look as if you were the man in the relationship. 

So this was what it meant to be in love, right? 

Getting stroked until falling asleep, getting hugged whenever he felt bad and being smiled at whenever he forgot how to smile. 

You were his princess and he loved you so much. 

And you felt the same, this was for sure. 

Yoosung 

It was for sure, your children would be spoiled with love and presents. 

People knew right away since they saw how much Yoosung changed. 

,,I want a girlfriend like Mc too…“ Zen whined as he saw how lovely you cooked his food. 

You were always holding his hand or saying that you loved him. 

Even in the chats you spoiled him with love. 

Messages like ,,I miss you“ 

,,Work well“ and ,,I love you, take care!“ weren’t seldom messages. 

Whenever he got ill, you would get ill afterwards since you cared for him a lot. 

You fed him, changed his clothes and always gave him his medicine. 

You were really never in a bad mood for his sake. 

Jaehee 

Just the fact how nice you were to her in the chat showed how much you loved to spoil her. 

In really every moment you were the one spoiling her with love and care. 

While laying in bed you were the one who would always kiss and stroke her skin. 

Even the customers knew how amazing you were. 

Whenever she finished serving a rude customer, you would hug and praise her, making her feel better that way. 

One day she asked you why you would spoil her with so much love. 

,,Because I love you so much that I want you to know how much I love you.“ you giggled. 

Saeyoung 

Being spoiled with love….

For Saeyoung it was like seeing a horse flying. 

He only got to know the rude side of life. 

And so, when you first hugged him, he felt odd. 

,,Oh? Oh oh oh! Why are you crying?!“ you asked him worriedly. 

You immediately took his hand and let him sit down. 

With your thumbs you wiped off his tears and kissed him. 

It made him sob even harder when you hugged him so strongly. 

,,I love you, why are you crying?“ you asked him. 

Since then Saeyoung was like on drug, he was addicted with your spoiled love. 

It made him feel strong. 

Hugs on the back were his favorites. 

Your kissed on his cheeks were also a highlight for him. 

But what he loved the most was the first kiss in the morning, together with your very first sentence. 

,,Good morning my love! I hope you slept well….what do you want to eat for breakfast…?“ 

Saeran 

He had to be honest. 

He still felt guilty for his mean behavior. 

But you forgave him and he could feel it. 

You were constantly hugging or kissing him. 

Spoiling him with little surprises like his favorite food or a lot of flowers. 

But these weren’t the only things you did for him. 

Whenever he looked at you he felt spoiled. 

Hearing your laughter and feeling your warmth was spoiling. 

,,Saeran…I love you so so much…“ you mumbled about three times the day. 

Saeran really wanted to cherish you. 

Jihyun

,,Lucy~ good morning!“ you greeted your daughter. 

Jihyun observed you from the door how lovely you were. 

He felt spoiled with love, seeing you with your adopted daughter. 

You were five months pregnant. 

Jihyun couldn’t believe his luck. 

Your happy smile and kind words made him feel as is he was having a lovely dream. 

Not only that but you also had a lot of patience. 

You cared about him so much, you cared about his food and cooked for him. 

You weren’t lazy at all, you did everything you could do to support him in your state.

And when he asked you to please rest, you did. 

,,Can I help you? Should I bring you water?“ you would always asked him. 

And if he didn’t need anything you would kiss him and tell him how much you loved him and how proud you were. 

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[marshmallowprotection]

Kait, would Saeran be okay with just sharing comfortable silence with me? These days... even mere words felt overwhelming to me. I don't want to be left alone but I also don't want to talk about anything to him. So I wonder if he would be fine with it. Perhaps you could write a little comfort drabble related to this?

The silence used to make him uncomfortable but there was nothing he could do about it. Well, that would be a lie, wouldn't it? It wasn't the silence that bothered him. It was the noises found in the silence that nobody would think of. The sound of your own breathing, the faintest noise of a breeze against the roof, and whispers that didn't belong to you but you couldn't trace it.

That silence was louder than any explosion.

Saeran lived that way for as long as he could remember.

There was no choice but to adapt. Every now and again his older brother would do something to make it less overwhelming; telling stories or trying to talk in circles until he passed out from exhaustion, that helped most of the time. But, when his brother left, he had no choice but to live in the deafening noise of reality. Every moment was a sensory nightmare that he lived in agony.

The only thing he could do about it was cry, and he wasn't even able to do that. Any noise just above a little whisper would be enough to enrage his mother and start a toxic cycle that wouldn't end no matter how much he pleaded with her to let him go and to stop. That uncomfortable feeling stuck with him for years. Throughout everything he went through and suffered, there always needed to be something that killed the silence. Most of the time, it was the white noise of a small fan.

The silence was a scary thing if only because it could create overwhelming noise. He learned to accept it, and he hid his discomfort well, but it wasn't something he could hide from you. Even if he did, you would see right through him before he could lie through his teeth.

He promised you that he would never lie to you, and that was why he was honest with the reason why he couldn't sit still when things got too quiet. He had no choice but to fidget and think about every little thing that was happening all at once. It was scary to think about, but, being with you made the silence a little less scary.

Part of the reason why it was so scary was because he felt like he was alone. If he was alone, he could succumb to his paranoia and every fear he imagined would trickle up his spine no matter how hard he tried to avoid it. Being with you made the silence feel less daunting.

Even in those moments when you said nothing and he said nothing, he didn't feel as though the world was going to collapse. It was definitely a step in the right direction. But, he understood that you had a different need than he did. It wasn't that he wanted to talk your ear off or live in a world without a mere second lacking sound, it was more like he wanted to know that it was okay to have something.

Of course, when he looked at you with those eyes trying to figure out if you wanted to be in absolute silence, you couldn't help but laugh a little. You did want to sit in comfortable silence... but you didn't want the world to be completely silent. You weren't asking him to be in a room where there was nothing but the sound of his breathing. You just wanted the ability not to say anything if you didn't want to talk.

That's where healthy communication paid off. It was how the two of you found a way to satisfy both of your needs. You could sit with him at your side while the sounds of a radio or the television played in the background so it wouldn't be without sound, but it would be enough for you and him to feel safe.

You didn't have to stress yourself out with trying to fill in the noise and he didn't have to worry about forcing himself to be okay with the feeling of his skin crawling again.

No, you comfortably leaned into his side while he brushed his lips against the side of your head. This was where you wanted to be and it was where he wanted to be, too. It might not have been perfect every step of the way but What mattered was that you two were willing to find a way to make it work.

[foxyotomelady]

Another love, Chapter IV (JuminxReader)

Author’s notes:

Wow, that was a ride.

Be aware of: strong language, slightly angst, my poor grammar, ANGRY MC.

And again: THE DRAMA!

Chapter I | Chapter II | Chapter III | Chapter IV (You are here) | Chapter V | Chapter VI |  Chapter VII | Chapter VIII | Chapter IX | Chapter X | Chapter XI | Chapter XII | Chapter XIII | Chapter XIV |

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[Y/N has entered the chat room] 

Jumin Han: Oh, you're here, Y/N 

You: Hello, Jumin... 

Jumin Han: Did you sleep well? 

You: Actually no... It was a bit difficult to sleep... eheheh ^^' 

Jumin Han: hmm, same here.

Jumin Han: That's probably because of what happened yesterday

Jumin Han: I must apologize once again

You: That's... Um... You don't have to.

You: You were very polite. You asked me and I agreed so there is no need to apologize.

You: Are you heading to work? 

Jumin Han: Yes, forgive me that I couldn’t say goodbye to you. I didn’t want to wake you up. 

You: It's okay. Actually, it's good that you didn’t wake me up. I really fell asleep late.

Jumin Han: It's an interesting feeling to be a reason for your sleeping problems. 

Jumin Han: I probably shouldn’t be happy about this fact. 

Jumin Han: But I am. 

Jumin Han: 

Jumin Han: And don't worry, as I said earlier, you're also giving me sleepless nights :3

You: staph

You: I'm embarrassed >///<

Jumin Han: cute

Jumin Han: but you don't have to be

Jumin Han: You're a beautiful woman so it's only natural that you appear in men's dreams.

You: My god, Jumin Han!

You: What did I just say?

You: staaaph >////<

Jumin Han: I'd like to talk to you more, but I must be going now.

Jumin Han: Have a pleasant day Y/N.

[Jumin Han has left the chat room]

[Y/N has left the chat room]

You breathed in and pressed the phone to your chest. The memory of yesterday's kiss came back to you and you felt that you're getting hot. Jumin was not the only one who let himself be carried away by the moment. But now that you were sitting in silence in this huge bedroom and you only heard purring Elizabeth curled up next to you… Other memories have begun to come back to you. Your head was aching. You didn't want these memories, but the rush of thoughts wouldn't stop. You still remembered Yuwoon's smile, his warm voice, his touch... Despite all that he did, and even though he revealed his true face to you... You still remembered how happy you were together. Such memories did not go away easily. Such feelings were not easy to forget about. You wanted to forget, you wanted to stop feeling this terrible pain. Pain after betrayal, pain after being deceived and manipulated. Was that how Jumin felt the whole time? You understood more and more why he wanted to keep you by his side. Two of his best friends turned out to be liars, and then he lost one of them in such a brutal way. No... He must have felt much worse than you.

You calmed your thoughts in the shower, you ate the breakfast that the chef prepared for you, and then you decided to leave. The bodyguard did not stop you - Jumin, therefore, fulfilled his promise, he tried to trust you. You took your laptop with you and left the building. You wanted to visit a well-known cafe where you were able to pay for snacks and drinks. You decided to study a little, sipping coffee and eating sweets. It's been several hours.

"Y/N!" You heard a familiar voice and looked up from the keyboard. You blinked in surprise.

"Zen? What are you doing here?" The white-haired man laughed nervously and went to your table, "May I join you, baby?" You nodded and Zen took the place in front of you. "If I say I'm here by accident, will you believe me?"

You raised your eyebrow meaningly.

"I thought so," Zen sighed, and then he winked at you. "I am here because I was worried about you."

"As you can see, I'm fine, have you been here for a long time in a hope that you will meet me accidentally?"

"Hmm..." Zen folded his hands under his chin, smiled flirtatiously at you. "Maybe I happened to be here day by day since you are at this jerk’s place."

You shut your laptop and you gave Zen a look that was colder than you intended, "Stop calling him that, he's really doing a lot for me, and you have no idea how many things he has to face."

Zen was taken aback, "This guy was born with a silver spoon, he has everything he wants, and it looks like he already got you in his hands too."

"I'm not a thing, Zen," You frowned.

"Not what I meant!" Zen raised his hands and shook his head. "Just... After V died... Jumin was not in good condition, and now suddenly..." He scratched his head. "He suddenly became so happy that it gives me goosebumps, I'm worried about this sudden change."

You crossed your arms and pierced Zen with your stare, "Your point?"

Zen began to look very embarrassed, "Something is happening between you two, am I right? It's not my business... But lately, Jumin seems to be a little... No, he always seemed unstable."

You took the laptop and got up from your place. You looked at Zen from above and took a breath to calm your anger, "You're right, Zen, it's NOT YOUR BUSINESS, I understand you are worried, I understand that you are all worried, but for fuck’s sake, stop acting like our babysitters!"

When you passed him, Zen jumped up, knocking over the chair.

"Wait, wait!" He called after you. You swallowed and somehow you overcame your fury. You turned to him, "I didn’t mean to make you angry "

"I know, Zen."

"So... How about a little hug?"

You rolled your eyes, "Fine."

Zen spread his arms, came to you and then put his arms around you, "Aww, aren't you cute?"  

You were pressing the laptop to your belly, not able to return the embrace, "Okay, that's enough, Zen." You couldn't help but laugh.

When Zen pulled away from you, he winked again, "You look cute when you're angry."

You rolled your eyes again. Then you said goodbye to each other and you returned to Jumin's apartment in a slightly better mood. Jumin should be back from work soon. You wanted to spend time with him, just like that. You wanted to talk with him while drinking wine, Elizabeth on your lap and his smile in front of you.

To overtake the boredom and not let the unwanted memories to come back again, you logged in to the messenger. You've unfortunately found an amused Seven there. Because of what he wrote, you concluded that he had to read your morning conversation with Jumin. 707: lololololol

707: What is happening with our Mr. Director?

707: when he became so smooth?

707: lolololol [Saeran has entered the chat room] 707: oh, brother, you're here!

Saeran: he's like that only to this girl

Saeran: so it's obvious what is happening 

707: you mean Y/N?

707: what did you do to him yesterday night Y/N??

707:

You: I did nothing

You: and it's not really your business -_-

707: ooooh >_<

707: something has happened

707: I'm sure lololol

707: I want to know the details

707: 

Saeran: gross 

You: I agree

You: You're gross Seven

707: 

707: how could you brother?!

707: you should be on my side!

You: btw, it's nice to see you here, Saeran ^^

You: You rarely log in

Saeran: It's because you're all gross

You: .... -_-' and why is that?

Saeran: they're all wagging their tails in front of you

Saeran: like a bunch of dogs

707: Saeran

You: what's that supposed to mean?

Saeran: what? Are you dense or something?

707: brother

You: what do you mean dense? If you have a problem with me at least be more specific

You: or is it too much for your small brain?

Saeran: Ha!

707: brother what did I tell you

Saeran: ok I'll be more specific if you wish

707: about making Y/N angry?

Saeran: it's so freaking obvious that all of these guys

707: stop

707: she's gonna eat you alive!

Saeran: are so into you

Saeran: you're stupid for not seeing this

You: You're delusional you little bitch

Saeran: oh and what was that "Saeran it's nice to see you here ^^"?

Saeran: you want me to be your dog too?

You: you wish!

You: I'm way out of your league.

You: You're not even worthy of being my dog

You: You're not even worthy of being my PIG

You: no actually

You: If I ever had a pig, I would call it Saeran

Saeran: I don't want anything to do with you

Saeran: At this point, you already have your own harem

707: WAIT!

707: Am I the part of this harem?

707:

You: I don't have a harem

You: It's a kindergarten full of children

You: and Saeran, you're that one kid who always pretend to be sooo bold

You: but in reality, he's crying in the corner

You: desperately calling for his brother

You: "Brother where are you?! I'm scared!"

You: "Nobody likes me! I'm trying to be mean to everyone so that no one can hurt me first!"

707: Umm... Y/N.... That's a little harsh...

Saeran: .....

You: but wait, you're actually nice to Jaehee

You: maybe you're into her HMMMM?

707: 

707: wait

707: that is

707: actually

707: a good point!

Saeran: I'm leaving, bye. [Saeran has left the chat room] 707: WOW

707: You're scary when you're angry, Y/N

707:

You: I was not even that angry 

You: just teaching him some manners

707: don't be such a meanie to my brother T-T

You: I won't be if he stops being a dick

707: lolololol

707: I warned him

707: but he never listens

707: BUT ACTUALLY

You: don't

707: I kinda agree with him

707: I don't know about Yoosung

707: but Zen is sooooo into you

707: as much as our Mr. CEO

You: it's such an absurd

You: Zen is not into me

You: he's flirtatious toward everybody

707: and what about Juju?

You: mind your own business

You: seriously Choi twins you’re more alike than I thought

707: you're not denying~ [Y/N has left the chat room]

Jumin’s POV

He was remembering the kiss over and over again. Her lips were so soft and sweet, her body so warm. He wanted to possess her completely... But it was too soon. Way too soon. It would frustrate him if it were not for the fact that the thought of her waiting for him at home smoothed the whole anxiety anchored in him. This girl... She awakened and brightened his darkest desires at the same time.

When he came into the apartment, she greeted him with a smile that he returned. They ate together and talked, she asked him about his day, about whether he is tired after work. Her warmth and care overwhelmed him. He wanted to enjoy it until the end of the day, he wanted to fall asleep with these feelings, calm that he finally has someone just for himself. Unfortunately, it was not given to him. Suddenly there was a knock at the door. They were both surprised - who could worry them at this hour?

Of course, the bodyguard appeared first, "Mr. Han, a man named Yuwoon insists on letting him in. He says he knows Ms. Y/N."

Jumin immediately felt a surge of icy anger. He wanted to instruct the bodyguard to immediately escort this idiot out of the building, but suddenly Y/N spoke:

"I want to face him," She stated, her face tense. "I want to talk to him."

Jumin's hand twitched, his fingers clenched into a fist, "For what purpose?"

"If I don't talk to him and don't deal with him for good, he will never give me peace," She explained, looking him straight in the eye. She was fierce, confident.

Jumin inhaled deeply into his lungs. He closed his eyes and pressed his fist to his forehead. Then he nodded reluctantly, "Yoon, let him in and get out of here. Leave us alone."

Yoon did not look convinced, "Sir, are you sure?"

"Yes."

"I'll be right outside the door."

As soon as Yuwoon came in, Jumin understood at once that everything would end badly. The idiot's face had a suspicious smile.

"What do you want, Yuwoon?" Y/N asked coldly.

Yuwoon looked around the apartment, greed flashed in his eyes, "I see you've done well, honey."

"What do you want?" She repeated.

"You see, you must have forgotten that we share a flat and someone has to pay the rent."

"I don’t live with you anymore, Yuwoon, you have to deal with it alone."

"I don't think so. You found yourself a rich boy, I'm sure he could give me enough money to pay a rent for a few years forward. And if he does, then I promise to leave you in peace."

Jumin swallowed loudly, it was hard for him to breathe, but he did not interfere. Not yet…

"Who am I to you?" Y/N asked angrily. "The thing you want to sell?"

Yuwoon looked at her with a hideous smile, "You're just a hole whom I used to fuck."

Her face went pale, her eyes wide, her confidence flew away, "No... That can't be true... We were..."

"What? In love? I just used you. You're so stupid."

"That's enough," Jumin said icily.

"Now he's fucking you, so why are you sad? Do not pretend! You quickly filled this hole of yours with another dick!"

Y/N suddenly jumped to Yuwoon and pushed him so hard that he stumbled on his feet, "How dare you come here, whine about money and acting like you're jealous after you cheated on me! Who are you?! With whom I was for these few months?! "

"And how dare you raise a hand on me?!" Yuwoon rushed suddenly at her, he was about to hit her.

Jumin, however, overtook him. He grabbed the man by his wrist and squeezed so hard that Yuwoon groaned in pain, "You don't want to know what unpleasant fate may face you if you continue this. If I ever see you near her again, you'll regret it really badly. I have good lawyers, so I'm sure I won't have to worry about the consequences." "You're insane, you-Arrgh!"

Jumin squeezed his arm even harder, then grabbed him by the shoulder and led him violently towards the door. After opening them, he pushed the idiot outside in such a manner that he fell on the ground.

"Take this man out of here, and tell others that he’s not allowed to approach my building ever again," He ordered the bodyguard.

"Yes, sir!" Yoon quickly dealt with the situation. He twisted Yuwoon's hands behind his back and, despite his protests, took him out of Jumin's sight.

Jumin felt himself shaking with anger and rage. He shut the door with a loud bang and turned to face Y/N, "I shouldn't allow it," He hissed furiously. "I shouldn't let him in here! Why did you want him here so much?"

He approached her and she stepped back to the point her back hit the wall. He leaned his trembling hand against it above her head, "Why you insisted on letting him in?! He doesn’t deserve to look at you! He could hurt you!" His other hand went to her cheek and cupped it.

Suddenly, she grabbed him by his shirt and drew him to herself. Their lips met violently. His lungs  burned for lack of breathing, but he immediately responded. He clung to her, put his hands on her waist. Her fingers were digging into his arms, she moaned in such a voice, that he completely lost his control. He slipped his knee between her thighs, and she arched her back, whimpering his name straight into his mouth. His hands began to wander over her body, move around every roundness, examine every piece of her exposed skin. Her shaking hands grabbed his tie, drew him even closer, deepened the kiss. Jumin growled and took her face in his hands again. Then he felt... tears on her cheeks. He froze, his heart ached painfully.

"J-Jumin ..?" Y/N murmured in a weak voice, her lips brushing against his own.

"You... Why are you crying...?" He panted and withdrawn his head.

"I... I don't know..." Even more tears flowed down her face, her lips trembling. "I just..." She released his tie and clenched her hands on his shirt.

"It hurts, Jumin... I believed him, all these months, I trusted him... I had feelings for him... How could I ever love him…? How could I be so blind...?” She rested her head on his chest. "This is the worst... The fact that I still remember how he was when I fell in love with him... I still remember his other side, the good one... And it's so hard to forget how he used to be back then."

Her words hammered into his heart like daggers. However, he closed his eyes and hugged her tightly. She still... she still loved that idiot in a way. Such feelings don’t disappear at once, not after a few days. 

"So you wanted me to make you forget about him...?" He whispered into her hair.

"I'm sorry... I don't want it to look like that, I'll understand if you want me to leave."

"Do not say such things," He sighed deeply. "I know how difficult it is, I was blind too... And because of my blindness, V is dead…"

"It's not your fault," Y/N calmed down, looked at his face. "Please, Jumin, do not blame yourself for that."

Jumin stroked her cheeks and wiped her tears in silence. They slowly moved away from each other, and Y/N looked around, "Where is Elizabeth? She must have been scared."

She was not in the main room. She was not in the bedroom. She was not in the kitchen. They even searched in the bathroom, they were calling her by her name, checked under, above and behind the furniture, searched every corner.

She was nowhere to be found.

[fandomplethora]

(ummm, i’m not sure what inspired to make this post (besides the fact that i have been listening to this artist on a near constant basis now) but here we go anyways;;;)

MYSTIC MESSENGER CHARACTERS AS HOBO JOHNSON SONGS

Hyun (Zen) - 3% 

“you should go and quit your job and make all of those dreams come true. how is your self esteem? huh? that's important in what you're about to do. don't talk to your friends, their opinions hold so much weight. and that doesn't make sense. even your family, parents just don't understand. make the time. drop school, and people, and work to play music all night. you'll make a dollar an hour, at least you'll like your life. and roll with the punches even when it feels like you're getting fucking jumped but you're a real bad judge of it. hold on tight, boy. might be a fuckin', hell of a ride. but, but, but, they said it's a three-percent chance...that I'm gonna make it. that's a little bit less than what it is in my mind but it's ok, I think I can take it. they said it's a three-percent, my friends, that's what they said. and then I sat there and thought about it and almost believed it for a sec. but I think that they'll love me.”

Yoosung - Mario and Link

“mario's never getting some and link's never getting some, so why would princesses love me? i'm not really making moves, I'm just kinda breathing. i work at fucking pizza places just so I keep eating. (that's the type of shit)...thats the type of shit to make be buy a flask for 25 and fill it up with takka vodka only 4.99...yester-year yes-sir-please let me get the recipe, to not being broke. fuck I'd really love to be a king, but mario and link should've showed that perseverance is not the end all to everything. the princess in the hallway with a robe, I asked "do you for coffee and scones and she says "no!". but I just killed a fucking dragon though! with this sword that I made from the words of my soul. I just killed a fucking dragon though, I just killed a fucking dragon though. but its whatever I don't even care that much.”

Jaehee - Peach Scone

“...disregard every time I call you pretty. though it's meant sincerely it's just my imagination drifting...so I fall to ground, collect myself and get ready to take over your heart...or at least your spare time. and I love the thought of being with you. or maybe it's the thought of not being so alone. the second one's way sadder than the first one...we should go get a cup of coffee...I don't know what to tell you if I try to confess my love for- scones! i just wanna tell you real quick please, shh, I love- these scones! ...but she, you know, she is just so sweet and she cared about me a lot when no one else cared about me and I think that's really nice. really you know, she's just a, she's just a peach. she's a peach scone. and I love the thought of being with her, I just really hope that she doesn't get hurt.”

Jumin - Father

“my dad taught me 'bout the story 'bout the birds and the bees. when the bees turn into wasps and take half of everything. he sounded sure, that a bird doesn't need a full nest but a bed for our bird heads to rest...he told me son, beware, of the monsters that roam the depths of your head. sometimes they'll make you real sad or or real real mad, or real real jealous and that's real real bad. boy, breathe...my father's married to a shape shifting monster who can sometimes take the form of a really really really nice woman. and although it seems super fucking frightening, sometimes this scary monster makes a really really great vanilla pudding. he has courage but sometimes your courage isn't quite the kryptonite as the monster runs rampant through the house. sometimes your courage makes you feel strong but it seems as if the monster eats your muscles all along, fucking pickin' out your self-respect right out its scary teeth. her breath smells like pride of self and other men she used to meet. and the monster doesn't sleep - just schemes and fiends on the next tasty meal it gets to eat, it gets to eat.” 

Saeyoung (Luciel) (707) (Seven) - The Ending

“she said, "you're like the weird...guy...in all the movies, who turns into the hero at the end and gets the girl" and I was like, "shut your mouth". but I'm gonna take over...the world as soon as everybody dies. i'm gonna take over your heart as soon as I get the balls to try. Ima re-arrange the alphabet and then take "U" and "I" and put a bit of space between 'em and hope that nobody cries. ...Ima be a nice guy might fuck around, it make a difference. Ima hope for the best, but prepare for the worst...I hope that you don't fall into their schemes and what they say, when you look them in their eyes, that they don't choose to look away...I hope that you don't fall into my schemes or what I say. when you look me in the eye, I'll look you dead into the face 'cause you don't deserve to be fucked with unless you're a fucking asshole...yeah, I ain't shit I ain't shit compared to them, right? I ain't shit. and I know she wants a piece of this wit (no!) and I know she wants a piece of this wit. my wit, my wit, my wit...” 

Jihyun (V) - Romeo and Juliet

“we're just romeo & juliet but getting drunk and eating percocets. but just to ease the stress but soft what light, thru yonder window breaks it is the east - but juliet just puked off the balcony. how romantic. nothing like getting drunk and getting manic on a motherfucking monday, i brush the bangs behind her lovely little ear as she describes in detail how the end is truly near. wow, and I'm sure that we can do this for forever or until we drink the poison, 'cause she sees some cloudy weather. ...dear shakespeare, could you write a happy ending please? we just deserve a happy ending please, please. ...and every sting from every teardrop from every ring at every pawn shop. ...but dear mom, conversations from a couch haven't ever felt the same...my mom was made from adam's rib and the marriage went south...but dad loves to shout really loud. loud enough to knock the lamps and dressers to the ground. in my memory, i can hear chopin's nocturnes playing in the background, a slow trainwreck, you'll close your eyes, but forever hear the sound, and boy, it's tough. ‘cause that’s the sound of people falling out of love.” 

Saeran (Unknown) (Ray) - Jesus Christ

“jesus christ seems super nice, i wonder if he'd save me. i've been on the wrong side of a bunch of arguments lately. and jesus christ seems super nice, i wonder if he'd love me. how come I only wonder when I'm sad or really hungry? jesus christ, you're super nice but don't expect much from me. I would kneel down, but I'm afraid that I would just feel nothing. praise god and other things that don't make sense to puny minds, like ours, designing roller coasters that almost always seem to fall apart. ain't it fun, ain't it fun, ain't it fun knowing that. that one day, you know, I fly to the sky, to the sun? and jesus christ, you're super nice. so I'll write a song about it. or that no one ever knowing for always claiming they're about it. press "ignore" on both sides that always claim to know that they're so sure. or just not be a giant fucking prick and enjoy the show. I'll enjoy the show if I'm not a giant prick, does that just mean that I am saved? jesus christ, you're super nice, i'm sure that you could love me. even if I don't go to church every sunday. jesus christ, you're super nice, how could you let me burn? if I'm not murdering people, then smashing their fucking urn. but jesus christ, you're super nice, how could you let me burn? but if I go to hell, I'll grit my teeth and get to work.” 

? (Vanderwood) - Demarcus Cousins and Ashley *note: this one was more difficult because we are not shown much of vanderwood currently in the game though i do consider him a pivotal character - and one i want to get to know more as a player. we know vanderwood is a caring guy who can be rough around the edges - he’s also funny, awkward and, personally, charming. so, i look at this as him relating how he does care for those around him while comparing it to other shit he has seen. okay, analysis done. bye.

“I'm not a nice guy (he's not a nice guy). I go to jail sometimes (he goes to jail sometimes). but I am slowly getting better ever since a little lady wrote me such a lovely letter. I love breathing...I love drinking, but not enough to ever have to go to all those stupid meetings (let’s go)...I- I love you like the dog hates the leash and the leash loves the dog, like I love nothing else at all. love you like my dad loved my mom before they realized they don't love each other at all...I love you like bosses love to talk a lot of shit and like getting really mad when I quit, what? I love you like the bird hates november or just really really rainy windy weather. I love you like america loves to fuck things up and cops love to do things that are super unnecessary...and I love you like the stars love lonely eyes on seven consecutive friday nights.”

Mina (Rika) - Creve Coeur 1 

"hi," says the girl with the right eyes that pairs pretty well when she hits you with the soft smile. you can kinda tell that something's going on, but she's like a skrillex song that never drops, she'll never talk. she'll never talk about the feelings that she felt today. better kept inside of a fence, inside of a cage, inside of a safe. that's safe for her 'cause they just hurt. and she don't know why that god sauntered. I hope he's trying. she said, "I hope he's trying. do you think he's trying?" then I said, "I don't know" but I asked her, "what’s wrong?" she just nods her head. and then I asked her, "what's wrong?" and she said...hold me closely. I don't think you should love me. I always feel so lonely knowing that nothing will ever last forever. sorry, you're much too late, much too late. ("you are so late")...she holds her breath all day and fucking gasps for air at night. she promised she would love me but only 'til the morning time. sorry, you're, you're much too late. you're much too late, you're much too- sorry, you're much too late- much too..."

MC - ? (MC is more difficult...I almost can find lines from various songs but it came down to these two.)

#2 - Mover Awayer (and it’s mainly for this part only.)

“fear  the man who lives without love and  the lover who lives without fear. fear the man who always wants to fight, he's not a talker. fear  the talker who never wants to fight, he's got no guts. fear the man who knows he's gonna die so he cries every night and just denies his life's beauty. and  fear the man who has heaven in his plans, so he gets so complacent that he doesn't call his family. fear the man who doesn't understand that there's a million fish in the sea, but fear the girl who he really thinks is a different species, she'll rip your heart out. ...makes my Mondays feel like Fridays (give me a break)...makes my Ruby Tuesdays taste like Benihanas (give me a break) and all I've really wanted was for us to get along.”

#1 - Typical Story (I genuinely won’t even put the lyrics for this song because it is more about the theme and feel of the song itself - as MC is the only one “playing” and going through these character’s “stories”. Casual, Deep or Another. So, I will just recommend listening to it and reading the artist’s notes on it for why I picked it as number one for MC’s song.)

[quirkychaoticraptor]

Mystic Messenger Opinions

 So, I’m doing this under the cut just in case of spoilers (that I know of), and I don’t want anybody else spoiled. Anyway, I haven’t completed this awesome game, yet (and probably won’t because of reasons), but I just wanted to share my opinions on the characters.

 One thing, first. While I haven’t completed the entire game, I did purposely spoil myself on some stuff, so I do know a thing or two about the characters just from reading off of reddit and the MM wiki. Also, I’m going for the good endings, first, in the routes I’m doing. Just putting that out there.

 Ok! I’m gonna list the characters off as my most favorite to my least favorite...so let’s get to the opinions of mine!

Jumin: Ok, I can’t help it. He may be a bit of a jerk, sometimes, but I love him...and yes, he’s hot xD! I love how he improves on letting others in and getting used to his emotions...and that he moves on from his cat! Don’t get me wrong, I like cats, but...geez, Jumin! He actually gives off bad-boy vibes to me. I dunno why xD. But, he does.

 Admittedly, during his route, when he got a little possessive, it did weird me out, a bit. But thank the Lord, it didn’t last too terribly long. After that, I just adored him and how he tried, so hard, to be sweet and understanding. I was aiming for his normal ending, at first...but then, I screwed up, and got his good ending, instead xD. Which is fine. His good ending was lovely. Although, I’ve seen and read about the normal ending for him, and I gotta say, I kinda like that one more than the good ending. If you ask me, I feel like the two titles should be switched. But that’s my opinion.

V: I’m playing V’s route, right now...but even more I started playing it, I read a bunch about him and what his deal is, and I still love him just as much as Jumin. Now, I admit, he’s frustrating me by keeping everything from everyone. But it’s only frustrating me, a little bit. I just don’t get why it’s necessary for him to have kept everything from all his friends about Rika. And yes, I do think he had a toxic relationship with Rika (but that’s why I’m playing his route, I am trying to save him from that), something that could have been avoided by him. But for some reason, he chose not to, and I just don’t get that. But, other than those things, I’ve always felt really bad for him, and I totally believe that he deserved so, so much better.

 Honestly, the whole thing’s 50/50 with me about him. Probably because I have never been in any sort of toxic relationship with anybody, and I’ve never met anybody who has gone through that, so I don’t really fully understand what it’s like...but I can imagine it, and if I ever do meet someone who struggles with that, I would do my best to help them out with it. Nobody should be in any sort of toxic relationship.

 But, I still love and adore V, either way. If he was my child, I’d protect him.

Seven/Saeyoung: After playing this guy’s route, I have to put him as my 3rd favorite character. He has been through so much sh*t in his life, and he’s tried so hard to hide it all by being happy and random. Now, he’s not exactly my type, romantically...however, he is definitely the younger brother type in my eyes. Like V, I just wanna protect him, and let him live a happy life without any torment from his childhood.

 Mind you, I have not played the secret endings. The only reason is because I just didn’t have enough hourglasses to pay for every episode. I bought Another Story, and bought enough hourglasses for that. However, that is most likely going to be the only time I buy so many hourglasses (I’m trying to save my money for real life, here ^^;...also, I never really like buying in-game things, anyway). So now, I’m just trying to save up on hourglasses throughout the game so that I can get every episode of secret ending. At this point, though, since I purposely spoiled myself...I kinda know a bit of what happens, already. I didn’t read too much into it, though. I only spoil myself to a certain point, and that’s it.

 There were times when Seven’s randomness was a little too weird for my taste...but I can overlook that because, despite all the secrets, he’s a sweet boy, and I adore him ^^.

Ray/Unknown/Saeran: Basically, my opinion on him is the same as my opinion on his brother, Seven/Saeyoung. I hate that he was used and lied to throughout most of his life. And, I can tell that he’s sensitive, which is totally understandable, considering his backstory. I purposely didn’t read a lot about him, only because I was planning on doing his route right after V’s. All I really know about him is from what I’ve seen/read in Seven’s route.... I do feel really bad for him, though...nobody should ever have to go through anything of what he and Seven went through. It’s horrible.... Other than this, I don’t really have that much of an opinion on him. He’s a very interesting character, and definitely deserves better. At this point, though, I’m just gonna leave it at that. Sorry!

Jaehee: Honestly, my opinion on her is small, compared to the others. I will say that she is a great character, and I do respect how hard-working and smart she is. If anything, I’d see her more as a good friend...but since I don’t swing that way, I don’t like her, romantically (please, do not hate me on that. I just don’t swing that way). But she is a great character, and I really like her. Just not in a romantic way. I also think she deserves her coffee dream. Also, because I don’t swing that way, I am not interested in playing her route, so I won’t be doing that.

Rika: Ok.... After reading a bunch of reddits and aminos and whatnot, and from what I’ve seen/read in the game.... I have mixed feelings about her character. And like Jaehee, my opinions on Rika are not very big. Honestly, for the life of me, I can never tell if her good intentions and everything were actually good...or, if it was all a lie and she gave in to her dark side a long time ago. She may have thrown parties for fundraisers to help those in need and all that good stuff...but! But! She also lied to people (her own friends and adopted cousin, especially), nearly completely blinded somebody (whether that was actually accidental or on purpose, I don’t know yet), and led a frickin’ cult! She doesn’t seem like the type of person who would do such things, but she did. And I’m sorry, but irl, that is not something that I (or anybody, for that matter) can condone. She needed serious help, and she should have gotten that a long time ago. 

 If anything, Rika honestly kinda confuses me. Only because I can’t tell if some of her intentions were actually good, or if everything was a lie and she had given in to her dark side, years ago. She’s an interesting character, for sure...just not somebody I would trust. Also, like Jaehee, I am not interested enough in doing Rika’s route, so I won’t. I may have questions, but they’re not strong enough to be interested in seeing her backstory. If I am curious enough, I can always read the MM wiki.

Zen: Ok, at first, I thought he was really cool and sweet and like the big-brother type, and at first, I did want to eventually play his route. However, unfortunately, after playing Jumin’s, Seven’s, and V’s routes, I can hardly stand all the narcissism. There’s only so much of it that I don’t mind. Zen...makes it too much. On top of that, he is way over-protective of MC. All men are wolves? Seriously...? And is he not a man? I’m sorry, but that doesn’t fly with me. I’ve never played his route, but I do know that he’s...self-conscious? I think that’s the word.... However, that does not excuse the constant, constant, narcissism in just about everything. I’ve also become very annoyed with how much he hates Jumin. It’s not so bad in V’s route, so far...but it was definitely bad in both Jumin’s and Seven’s routes. He has crossed the line quite a few times in them. It makes me feel really bad for Jumin. Sure, the guy was born rich and doesn’t really know how to feel much (emotion-wise)...but come on! Seriously? Belittling the guy every chance you get, and going too far, sometimes? Just...no. It’s a big no in my book. And I’m not saying that in Jumin’s defense. 

 It’s mostly the constant narcissism that is making me dislike Zen. I even hate that, many times, when chatting with him over call or text or in the chatroom, MC’s options are pretty much just feeding his narcissism.... Definitely not my type of guy :/. The more routes I play, the more disappointed in him that I honestly feel. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t even know if I should bother playing his route or not...in the end, probably not. But as much as I dislike him, I just can’t ignore his calls or messages. Because I’m just that nice.

Yoosung: Ooh, this boy....! First off, just like Zen, I used to like Yoosung. I used to think that he was pretty ok for a game-addict college student. I have a younger brother who’s addicted to his games, so I know the feels. I used to also think he was sweet, like Zen.

 However! After playing the second half of Seven’s route, and now playing V’s route...I can no longer stand Yoosung. I’m sorry, people, but he’s just pissing me off, now. He is just so.... Like, ok, I get it. He’s depressed and still mourning (”mourning” now that I’ve read some things) over Rika. I know how that feels. I lost my grandmother, just last year, and she was nowhere near ready to pass away. She was elderly, but she was physically getting better. As in, she no longer needed her cane to walk around. She was taking care of herself, she was doing fine! But then, a horrible fall sent her to the hospital for weeks and weeks, and it eventually killed her (the fall, not the hospital she was in). She was like a second mother to me...and my family lost her way too soon. So I know how Yoosung feels when it comes to losing somebody close to you.

 But what is pissing me off is how incredibly childish he is! Especially in V’s route! Oh my gosh, I have never met a character who was this whiny and childish, before! And he becomes spoiled, too, apparently (reddits, I have read). I’m sorry...I get that this a somewhat different timeline or whatever from the routes that I’ve been playing...but what the hell, Yoosung! You were not this bad in Jumin’s and Seven’s routes! 

 Also, the whole blaming V for everything thing? Ok, sure, V has done some things that frustrate me, too...but why all the hate? I don’t get it! Not everything is even V’s fault! And apparently, even when everybody reveals the truth to Yoosung about Rika, he doesn’t believe any of it or says that “Rika must have had a good reason”?! What?!

 Sorry, sorry.... His character in V’s route is just the worst that I’ve seen in this game...and in V’s route in particular, and it’s made me strongly dislike him. He greatly annoys me, now, just as much as Zen. Imo, he needs professional help...like some of the other characters were suggesting, and he refused it. He obviously needs all the professional help he can get.... I feel a bit sorry for him. But not enough for me to want to play his route. 

Please, keep in mind that is all just my opinion on the characters. Kudos to anybody who love Yoosung and Zen. I personally just don’t. Especially after what I’ve seen and read about them. But I won’t judge you or anything if you guys like them. Sorry about my rants! I just needed to get that out of me about Zen and Yoosung. I’m not blaming Cheritz or anything, so don’t worry about that. I’m just really annoyed at those two particular characters, and if I know anything about my taste in men, it’s not them being super childish or narcissistic. Those two qualities are a big turn-off for me, and always have been.

 But anyway, those are my opinions on the characters. I love the game! And I’m rather glad I downloaded it and that I’m ruining my sleep over it xD. Actually no, I try to get at least some sleep in the middle of the night before returning for the midnight and 2AM chatrooms ^^;. If I had to give this game a rating, I think it would be 8/10. Sound fair? I think so.

 Ok, that’s it for my super-long-as-hell post xD! Imma go to bed, now. Goodnight!