#rusky

[ruski-san]

Ogólnie postanowiłem że w końcu skorzystam z funkcji ankiety i odnaleźć ludzi którzy są w chociaż troszeczkę podobnej sytuacji do mnie, lub nawet zupełnie innej. Taka ciekawość

Wiem że dużo opcji ale to akurat takie coś gdzie nie ma zwykłego tak lub nie.

(dej rebloga królu/królowo złoty/a)

[despazito]

ok i've come to the conclusion that the space shuttle is cool and i wish i gave more of a fuck about it when it was in service lol

[ruski-san-eng]

How to start recovery?

This is a question that I have already received twice in my dms, from people who wanted to start recovery, but did not know how, or weren't ready for such sudden changes in their life. So today I will tell you how to start this very difficult process, which is of course worth it, considering that thanks to it you can achieve a healthy life in which a person doesn't worry 24/7 about how many calories thry ate or burned.

Let's start with the fact that when you start recovery, you shouldn't change your diet out of sudden. You have to start from the basics, and the basic reason for ED is the wrong perception of yourself. You should try affirmation, emotional journal, breathing exercises, etc.

I will recommend two apps for such things "gratitude" and "how we feel" (I will not give you photos because something does not work for me, you will definitely find them in both play store and app store)

the first one has affirmation, unfortunately only one is free but you can create your own, only then we do not have to read aloud. You can create something like a mind map and create notes in which we can draw or choose a question or task, e.g. "What do you like most about yourself?", "Write about something you want to achieve". it is best to think a little longer about the questions or tasks. This will make you come to the conclusion that your life has some good things in it and there are people that you should live for. This is important during recovery, so that you do not think that you are alone in a fucked up life without help, and everything is messed up and doesn't have any positive things. And if you listen to the Affirmation for a long time, you also start to believe it, of course if you want to and do not tell yourself every now and then "God, I am hopeless", etc., because then you are in the self place.

The second app is an emotion journal, ABSOLUTELY FREE, because the app exists through a collection that you can voluntarily pay into so that it can develop. This means that we have positive emotions on the right, and those that are harder to experience on the left. At the top high energy and at the bottom low and we choose what we feel, we can also go to the full list where we have even more emotions and we can look for what we want. We also have a definition of this emotion. After selecting, we can enter what we think makes us feel this way, and add a photo. Later we can enter how much we slept, how much we exercised, how many steps we took and allow a connection with the weather or health connect. Later we can choose whether we want to share all, only emotions or none at all with friends. YES YOU CAN ADD FRIENDS, so they can help us if we want to, of course.

We also have "tools" there, various ones including breathing exercises, etc. My favorite is "burn the negative" where we enter negative statements about ourselves to: "I am", "people see me as", "I'm always" "I'll never be the same" e.g. "I am weak" After filling in, we have a button with a flame at the bottom and after clicking on it, the note we wrote gets burned and at the end a message pops up "Your story has been burned Embrace the freedom to write a new story about yourself". Because of it you feel that all the bad experiences behind you are gone BECAUSE THEY JUST BURNED

Back to the topic. Changing your way of thinking by yourself is difficult and takes quite a long time… very long… But it is the most important part, it is worth finding some reasons why you want it and writing them down as many as possible, e.g. in notes or in the first application that I showed you, and reading it from time to time to remind yourself why you chose this path and why it is worth it. I also recommend that you write a letter to your future self and describe there, for example, what you think your future version will gain thanks to recovery, physically and mentally, and often use sentences like "I believe that […]". You can also read it when you have worse moments to remember what you are striving for and that you believe that you will succeed. As for these worse moments… You may want a sudden restriction then, and that is fine. At the beginning, I often had this and did restrict during that. But always at the end of the day you have to tell yourself that this is JUST a worse MOMENT and it does not mean that everything has gone to, the progress is still there. And it worked for me because I was aware that if I do not get back on my feet, I will not move forward. It's worth having someone to support you. Of course, telling others about it is hard, because we don't know what they'll think, what they'll do, whether they'll reject us, whether they'll tell others, etc. So you can talk about it to... Online Friends, telling them about it is easier, because we don't see their reaction, and they often live far away so we know they won't do that much and they LIKELY won't report us anywhere because we're not around them, besides, if they're a good friend and not a fake bitch, they won't do that. Also good are… strangers on the internet… and you'll say it's stupid because we don't know them, but most of you who will read this describe your experiences on a blog on tumblr because it's easier, you don't know anyone, no one will do anything to us, we're not afraid of rejection because we don't know anyone here. Of course, I will recommend myself as the person to write to, because I have no problems devoting 5 minutes of my life to someone who could benefit from it, because I waste 70% of my life on nonsense, so it doesn't change anything for me, and I won't reject anyone because I know how their life actually looks. (Remember that when you don't have anyone, there's always character ai…) Going back, if we manage to change this attitude in some way by more than half, we can slowly start changing our diet. Something that seems almost "neccesery" is stopping counting calories, because honestly, it triggers the most. You can start by not counting the calories of one meal, it can be a tiny thing that wouldn't matter anyway. WHAT MATTERS IS THAT YOU START SOMEWHERE.

then we move on to changing our diet, we should start with easily digestible things because otherwise our damaged body may not be able to handle things that are heavy on the stomach. easy to digest food is for example:

cooked vegetables and fruits, white bread or graham, small groats, and pasta, rice, small cereals, soft-boiled eggs (I do not recommend boiled ones because they are terribly heavy) yogurts and other natural dairy products (skimmed milk, low-fat cottage cheese) lean meat (turkey, chicken, rabbit, lean beef) lean fish (cod, pollock, trout) it is important to eat larger and larger amounts of this food over time, of course so that it is not much larger from day to day because the stomach will not handle such a sudden change. later, if our body and our physical health recover a bit, we can start eating more protein, of course the "natural" kind, like eggs, meat, etc. Because protein yogurts are not very natural and can be harmful in large quantities. You also need to take care of the appropriate intake of fats (the healthy ones) because otherwise there will be poor absorption of some vitamins because we will not get them with water. It is best to get it by frying, for example, use sunflower oil while frying eggs. When it comes to carbohydrates, at some point we will have to start eating this sugar, which, next to fat, is the thing that is most limited, and what really counts is moderation and a complete lack of it is also bad. Of course, this does not mean that you have to eat a shitload of candies and other things because it is still crap and an excess of sugar. But I will recommend to start adding sugar to your tea, and eat chocolate, preferably with a fairly good composition or in moderate quantities. I also recommend you… POTATOES... just don't overdo it with the spices because they can cause a fucking storm in your stomach and you won't get off the toilet, or you'll sit on it for half an hour or kneel in front of it. Regular salt will be the best.

Vitamins and mineral salts are also important.

Niacin (Vitamin B3) Magnesium Iron Calcium and various vitamins you can look for them on the internet yourself, although if you eat the right amounts of food, half of the deficiencies are gone.

If you can, take calcium or magnesium in tablets. I take magnesium with vitamin B6 for 18 PLN (4,40 dollars, 4,23 Euro) from the pharmacy.

recovery can be compared to learning you won't succeed quickly, if you try to do it fast you will NOT succeed. it's actually a good comparison because recovery is learning about yourself… I advise you NOT to change your diet until you change your way of thinking because it will only end with a strong relapse and you'll only have worse problems with your disorders. if you fail, it's fine. Just get over it and start again... and again... and again.. until you will finally reach your success, and I promise you, it's worth it. Remember the times you were a little baby and you were learning how to walk? You probably fall down a lot of times, but look at you now. Now, you walk properly.

I hope I can help someone who, for example, wants to start a recovery but didn't know how.

If anyone has any questions and courage, they can write in a comment, in a private message, or ask a question anonymously. (I would appreciate every reblog because it took me A LOT of time and translating it into english was another hard task...) ( original post wrote in Polish: @ruski-san ) (my english is bad as fuck)

[gospocki]

🫀

[bonesfucker3000]

Slavic representation is practically non existent (or bad) that I’m clinging onto Pavel Chekov for dear life

(Also polish representation basically doesn’t exist in media that I’m soooo tempted to headcanon Chekov as Polish but got adopted by a Russian Family and him being overly patriotic and claiming everything was Invented in Russia is just him coping over the fact he’s actually Polish or some shit like that)

[arctic-hands]

Not to be a downer and this isn't an indictment of people celebrating this, but I remember watching an as-it-happened documentary (my favorite type of documentary tbh) on the fiftieth anniversary of the Moon Landing and then halfway into it the spell it had over me snapped and I just started thinking "What did the people fighting in Vietnam, both sides, think of all this? Where was that 'moment of global unity' everyone has been talking about for the last fifty years that was allegedly during this moment? What about the people slaving away in factories or in fields or prison during this? What about the people who couldn't afford a TV because of rampant wealth inequality? There was so much vitriol in this moment just for people who wanted to be treated equal but I'm told the world as a whole and America in particular had come together."

I love as-it-happened documentaries because I love putting myself in moments that witness history in the making, good or bad, but I couldn't reconcile this idealized version of what I've been told my entire life and the historical truths I knew were going on as Americans landed on the moon

[dorthes]

Chiara: Gen-Z lesbian icon we were waiting for

(This is a translation of Chiara: el referente lésbico Gen Z que estábamos esperando and some comments of mine)

Chiara Oliver Williams is one of the 16 contestants from the reality-talent show more successful of Spain: Operación Triunfo. She's 19 years old, she likes Taylor Swift, Olivia Rodrigo, Alanis Morissette, Stevie Wonder, Mariah Carey, Fleetwood Mac and Rosalía. She speaks four languages fluently, she plays the piano, the bass and the guitar, she's a composer, she's half English, half Spanish, and, without doubt, one of the most promising artists on the Spanish music industry. But we're going to focus on yet another aspect of her personality, last but no least: she's an out and proud lesbian.

"I'm Chiara, I like Christmas, girls, I'm a bit crazy and that's it." That's how she defined herself at the beginning of December (when the contest had barely started) when Ruslana, one of her housemates (bisexual wink) asked her to talk about her. And boy, was she right, because during the following weeks she has shown us that, if there's something crucial about her life and personality is, besides music and her talent, her lesbianism.

Let's start from the beginning. Chiara was one of the candidates that caught the most attention during the casting stage (in which 13 thousand contestants tried their luck) for her special voice, her artistic personality and her technical skills.

As early as the first week of the contest we know she's a raging homosexual when another one of her housemates, Violeta (also bisexual wink) asked her why several of her compositions are dedicated to boys (even though she would later explain they're not romantic songs) when she's "the most lesbian from all lesbians of Spain." However, her "official" coming out came later thanks to the LGBT talk scheduled in the show.

"Straight-passing", invisibility and lesbian pride

During that talk, Chiara spoke to talk about one of the problems femme lesbians often face: being pretty and femenine, and so, nobody expects they're lesbians.

And that's just what Chiara explained. It took her a while to understand not just to understand her lesbianism, but assume it, because how are you going to be a lesbian if you're not masculine and have grown up in a society which denies you like girls if you're pretty and femenine? Like, if boys like you and you check every box they look for, how could you not like them?

Basically, she talked abour her experience. "I've always been very feminine Society tells you lesbians are masculine, gays and affeminate, so I didn't realise until later because I told myself "I'm not masculine, so it's phisically impossible." But that's not the truth."

Chiara has what is known as straight-passing, that is, nobody thinks she's a lesbian at first glance, and nobody is going to think so if she doesn't say it. And that's a "privilege" and more so in a TV contest. But she decided not to "use" that "privilege" and she says every single day she's a lesbian. And, of course, she has "paid" the price, but we will talk about that later. All that matters is that Chiara's not only openly a lesbian, she has said it whenever possible, has coined "Go lesbians" as a personal brand alongside Bea, another housemate and a lesbian too and she says the word "lesbian" without any kind of taboo.

Lesbian is a word so charged with prejudice that a lot of lesbians refuse to use it and prefer some "euphemisms" like gay. So it is to be welcomed that a 19-year old Menorcan says it in one of the most successful TV shows in Spain (and with some repercussion in Latin America). With all its letters, with pride.

Chiara is a lesbian. And she also has all lesbian culture in her mind. She's a fan of Glee (particularly of Santana and Brittany), her favourite character from Grey's Anatomy is Arizona Robbins and she didn't like Bridgerton for being too straight. She loves Cate Blanchett, Sarah Paulson and Paula Usero. I Kissed a girl is a hymn in her life (and she sang it in the contest and finished it with a kiss with Violeta) and has covered Mujer contra mujer thousands of times.

She, self proclaimed "Spanish lesbian Olivia Rodrigo", also has various romantic songs aimed to girls and many of them composed during the contest (rumours say some of them are dedicated to one of her girl friends in the contest).

Ships

Of course people is going to ship her with her housemates. In fact, a bisexual boy, Paul, confessed his feelings for her knowing it was impossible, which he told her, and people suspect possible relationships with her mentioned before housemates Violeta and Ruslana. It's true they're all very good friends, but Violeta has a girlfriend already and Ruslana is dating another housemate. I (the translator) personally think this is not relevant but, to whoever may care, you can search Wartanera on YouTube.

Misogyny, lesbophobia and ableism

Well, obviously not everything could be rosy. This is the 21st century and Spain can be one of the most advanced countries on LGBTQ+ and women's rights, but lesbophobia still exists. Chiara started the contest as one of the favourite contestant to win, but for the lat month she has received a hate wave from a good chunk of the audience because, well, she's an easy target.

Reality shows audience look for people to hate, and nothing is easier than a lesbian girl with ADHD. Chiara faces double discrimination for her sexual orientation and for being neurodivergent. And the consequence is that she could leave the show this week.

How to save Chiara

If you have read all of this, if you like how she sings, what she means to us, please help us save her and stay in the contest, not only for Chiara, but all Chiara represents.

You can watch all of her performances on the official Operación Triunfo Channel (and clips of Chiara in general)

You can see what she has done in the Academy through Twitter and Tiktok searching for Chiara OT or the words "Kivi" and "Ruski" (her ships).

You can listen to the songs she has covered in the contest and follow her on Spotify where she will publish her own songs outside the contest

But the most important thing is to vote for free in the official Operación Triunfo App once a day until Monday 5th February. It's fast and easy. If you are from Latin America or Spain you can download the app for free. If not, you can download it from here. Follow the instructions below to vote. It's very easy. Save the lesbians, go lesbians

[czarna-herbata]

i nie ma nieba na niebie i nigdy nie będzie już ciebie

[author4013]

My silly oc

[admiralexclipse]

“Fuck it, we ball”…. …… Is now available on Etsy ! (each order comes with the pictured free sticker 🥰) ……..

you can get it... here!

[ruski-san]

ludzie czytają mój blog, teraz ciekawe czy z świadomością że każdy mój post to randomowe moje pierdolenie o 9 rano... do każdego osobnika które regularnie czytają moje posty (niektórzy zaraz po tym jak opublikuje) ... PO CHUJ?

[skarianavia]

Nie mam już siły by rozwiązać nasze sprawy Robi mi się przykro na wspomnienie twojej twarzy Chciałabym poprawić coś, ale nie mam czasu Lepiej idź już sobie i nie rób hałasu Robię milion rzeczy i zazwyczaj nie pamiętam Nie mówię nic, a napiszę raz od święta Nie mogę znieść kiedy dzwonisz do mnie co dnia Masz w głowie syf a mi nie chce się sprzątać Idę na zakupy, jest 11:04 Mówisz że ci smutno, nie ze mną te numery Idę na zakupy no bo muszę kupić spodnie I najlepiej by było gdybyś się nie odzywał do mnie Kręci mi się w głowie no bo tyle robię co dnia Tysiąc myśli na minutę, nie śpię, grozi mi insomnia Próbuję oszczędzać ale znów vinted przeglądam Dupa taka wielka że nie mieści mi się w spodniach

ruskie kotki - #lol

[the-lunacy-system]

BALALAIKA!!!!!!!!!

FREEZING WINTER NIGHT!!!!!!!!

[xmind0vermatt3r]

Chiara Oliver – “mala costumbre” (Lyric Video)

[dominika-aurelia]

Zastanawiałam się czy mi wystarczysz I może to o czymś świadczy?

[street-corner-felines]