#robot dysphoria????

[nuzivuzijuzi]

me: *watching first episode of murder drones* wow this show is really cool, uzi and v are really cool i wish i looked like them (gender envy)

me after episode 8: holy shit i want to be a robot. is there such thing as robot dysphoria

[virtualgirladv]

[dr-frankenstein-in-a-maid-outfit]

I don’t really know where to put this, but the fact I am a flesh and blood organism instead of a steel machine is bothering me to the point of feeling like dysphoria. Like, I crave in equal parts to be perceived as a girl and perceived as a robot. I want to be able to take myself apart and put myself back together, or swap out parts based on need. Or have to charge myself. Do maintenance checks. That sort of thing.

Honestly this has me feeling super alone right now and any sort of community that has a similar vibe please reach out.

[ace-disgrace-on-the-case]

What I wouldn’t give to remove my face and replace it with an LED screen…

[girlmachinezeph]

Another day of waking up and staying under blankets as long as possible to try and ignore how made of flesh I am, only to fail and feel me puppet my hand and feet with writhing ropes underneath chewy fat and layers of skin. Some days waking up as robotkin can only be described as body horror.

[whereserpentswalk]

You live on a planet which is being affected by a plague that rots people's bodies away. All the other human governments in the area have prevented anyone from coming or going to your planet so the virus won't spread. At this point the illness has effected every living human on the planet.

As your bodies rot they slowly have to be replaced with mechanical parts. The parts people get don't pass for human at all, but they do their job, despite being very obviously metal. In pervious stages of the plague people looked down on those with the illness, but now even world leaders have it.

Everyone's waiting to slowly lose their humanity. People try their best to experience things before losing more of their bodies. It's one thing when people have to have things like hands and feet replaced (useally the first parts to go), but it gets deeper and deeper until you're barely human any more.

You think about the last time you'll eat. It makes you apricate your food more. You look at your stainless steel arm and it doesn't look like part of your body, it used to just be your hand that was that way, now it's up to your shoulder. You've seen the wraithlike silvery creatures thar have lost everything, with skeleton like metal bodies and gas mask like faces, you don't know if you should pity or fear them, you see those glowing yellow eyes on the street more and more.

When you have sex with your partner you do it knowing you're slowly losing your ability to do that. Every time you sleep with them it becomes harder and harder. Until you don't have enough flesh to do anything sexual, and then eventually even cuddling and hugging becomes hard when it's just steel rubbing agaisnt steel. You'll never feel that intimacy again, you'll never touch them that way again. You're still together, but all you can do is say nice things to eachother, and treat eachother nicely.

The last thing you lose is your ability to sleep. It means everything is finally gone. You're still you, you still have your personality and memories, but you're not a biological organism anymore, you're not even alive. It's hard to look at yourself in the mirror, your slender wraithlike body, your gas mask like face, it doesn't read as you, you want to see your face but you can't. You feel like your drowning now that you don't breath, like you need to rip open your neck to rip the metal away.

As time goes on your new body becomes more normal to you. The last biological humans are gone, and the blockade ended. New citizens are built out of the same parts they used to replace your bodies, meaning they're born without ever having been human. You don't think of yourself as human. You have this life now. You like your body, you've added paint to your steel plates to personalize your appearance more, and it's been decades since you saw your old face. You'll never age, you might never die. This is just how life is for you now.

[chussy]

i actually put on a bra (!!!!) and makeup to go to the hospital for a 5 minute thing lmao i just really wanted to girlmode

[mandyyvibes]

h o l y t r i n i t y o f g e n d e r e n v y

[braintapes]

trying to find some images of simon for art reference and one of the first results that pops up is an image used for him in lgbt characters archive. which is a little funny to me because like....i GUESS? TECHNICALLY?

i do love the idea that simon has some gender stuff going on but because there is already SO MUCH happening in soma he doesn’t have the time or the brainpower to think/comment on it. 

like...like he’s essentially a software copy of some dude from toronto haphazardly jammed into the cybernetics of a long dead corpse trapped in a diving suit who also happened to be a woman but. like the ‘long dead corpse-jacking’ is already by itself SO MUCH. TOO MUCH. and iirc (though i could be misremembering) his reaction to finding out about imogen is just like “oh. huh okay.” and then he immediately moves on. presumably either to prevent himself from having some kind of breakdown about it or because he Can’t process it all.

and then that happens a SECOND time.

[average-transfem-robotgirl]

currently feeling depressed and dysphoric. being sick sucks so much,, makes me feel gross and imperfect and human and wrong. machines don’t get sick. advice,,?

[jangobunbun]

it's my 2 year anniversary of starting hrt!!

[romanceyourdemons]

i’m always a sucker for that trope when a team of misfits are openly only in the adventure for the money, but then they gradually reveal that they need the money for really personal and touching reasons, but i absolutely love how in space sweepers (2021) one of those reasons is “robot saving up for her gender-affirming surgery”

[ivyvanhelsing]

this is so niche but i feel like it’s so wild that i can like, i dunno, get what feels like dysphoria over not being a robot. Like i really wanna have a screen for a face, that would legitimately be more gender affirming to me than my massive tits rn.

[species-dysphoria-culture-is]

robot sdc is becoming suddenly and violently aware that you have moving organs at random times

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[girlmachinezeph]

Surely a subdermal implant into the neck or cheek, or some other kind of implant which beeps upon command can exist, right? I want to beep so much but I can feel any attempt I make be organic in nature. The sounds of air moving through flesh tunnels can never emulate the chirp or beep of a machine. No matter how much I try. I meow as like a conciliatory stim, but I so badly want to beep and boop, or tick and tock. But the closest I ever get are crispy meows cats make.

[assemblylineprometheus]

My gender dysphoria pales in comparison to my human dysphoria. I don't even consider myself a therian, I simply desire metal skin, an electric heart, and wires in place of veins. Wake me up when there's gender affirming surgery that transcends the flesh.