#i just wanna be mechanical

[average-transfem-robotgirl]

currently feeling depressed and dysphoric. being sick sucks so much,, makes me feel gross and imperfect and human and wrong. machines don’t get sick. advice,,?

[average-transfem-robotgirl]

God,, I need this so bad.. I actually kinda teared up while reading this.

Chassis swap

After the procedure, looking in the mirror filled me with a feeling I had never known before. Recognition. Finally, when I see myself, I see me. The shiny metal, the rubbery elastomer, the dark lines contouring access panels. The dataports and maintenance ways.

A full chassis swap. The procedure I underwent. It's relatively simple on paper. Just take my Processor, Memory, Storage and a few other components, and move them into a new Case. It's relatively common amongst Androids, Simulacra, Drones, and all manner of other created beings.

I, however, was fully human before undergoing the procedure. Which has lead to some complications. I'm still getting used to the decreased latency. A 3ms difference might not seem like a lot, but compared to the 10ms of my new form, the 13ms of a wetware nervous system seems sluggish.

Usually, you have time to ease yourself into things as your components are gradually replaced, but I took the full conversion as soon as possible.

I just couldn't stand waiting any longer.

The physical therapy has been helpful. Re-learning how to walk, how to grab and hold things. Learning that I don't need to breathe anymore, and how to suppress that instinct to free up the memory for other tasks.

They tried to dissuade me. "You know the process is irreversible, right?" "But won't you miss [INSERT HUMAN TRAIT]?"

I know it's permanent. I know that I won't have these things anymore.

That's the point.

I have fully given up my humanity.

And I have never been happier.

[plasterdrain]

was it casual when the last time you met your best friend you were trying to kill him, you really killed him years later and now you met him once again, but this is not him (just his body), this time his soul was trying to save you.

isn't it ironically beautiful.

[art-is-kayos]

Everlasting A5

[usinguntiligetmyaccountback-blog]

please tell me no one has done this yet

[cowardlylittlebranchman]

what could he do? Should've been a rockstar

I've been listening to this on repeat and couldn't get my mind off tim, I had to draw just a little thing with him

[cicada-candy]

favourite cannibal #2!! keep your guns, explosives and Natural Satellites as far away from him as possible.

head in hands i havent drawn mechs fanart in like. Actual Years and am now in the trenches trying to settle on designs so have yet again another piece with 57 alts lmao,,

[tapeworrmart]

Circles

[kalashnikovlobotomy]

oh well it's probably fine

[crstn-art]

the worst most chaotique boat ride ive had the pleasure to be on

[puppyeared]

learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

[pyrosomatic-metamorphosis]

tbh i think that even unwinnable fights should be winnable. some of the BEST fights i've ever run as a dm were ones i built kill the players (in a fun way. I had some cutscenes prepped so even the loss would be a different flavour of win)- but then they were clever bastards and managed to either win the fights or pull themselves out of trouble. I think it's perfectly fine to plan for a fight that players aren't supposed to win, but you need to let them. if they can't win, they can't lose, and the meaning of that encounter is diminished. do that too many times, and they stop trusting you to give them roleplay prompts and start expecting to sit there waiting while you drive the story for them.

but if they can win... if there is always the chance to win, no matter how impossible the odds, then they ALWAYS have hope. they always get invested. they feel the big emotions of success or the big emotions of failure, and you fucking Win as a dm/roleplay prompter/lead bastard.

[tubbytarchia]

Flower husbands tag is once again discourse with air. "I'm so tired of discourse and toxic FH shippers hating on me" girl where. Who is hating on you. Can the Flower husbands tag please just be flower husbands again I'm so tired of one person yelling at a cloud and then 10 others joining them to bitch about discourse that does not exist. I wanna see Flower husbands again not this. Where are those two gay guys. Show me the discourse. Actually show me. Please I'm begging. Show me. Show me how toxic FH personally attacked you.??

[a2zillustration]

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(Part 2)

Many many many many many years ago, I created some space pirates for a contest @tanginello was having on dA. Both characters were pretty heavily self-inserts, as you do, but last year I felt the urge to revisit them and finally make them into their own blorbos. I made this two months before I started playing BG3 and I think it's part of what gave me the comics itch.

[kalashtars]

oh god they made chaos in hades ii so fucking hot oh my god oh my g

[princessdarth-vader]

genuinely forgive me for spiralling abt this thing i just made up but the concept of rolling on the relationship track potentially giving people a stress token is making me want to see riz snap all the more. i think it would be so appropriate to the whole like "the moment he slows down he will break" thing for him to finish these huge challenges and successfully pass all of his classes for the year with flying colours and have a chance to take a breath and use that to try and, for the first time in months, reach out to his mother.

and then it just all comes crashing down and he takes a rage token and fights with sklonda and logically he knows that this rage isn't helping but he's so angry at this system that forces him to work himself to death and sklonda is just. there in the moment; a face for him to yell at. and even if it's not fair he can't control his anger. in the moment he suddenly feels much closer to kipperlilly than he ever has. who sees what she considers an unfair system, and is pissed at the people who enforce it and benefit from it.

idk obviously there are larger plans for the rage tokens as a whole (tying into ankarna, probably pushing them closer to like, being this corrupted being) but it would make so much sense for riz, after everything else has fizzled down, to just crash into a wall and break.