#rly liked how these turned out i think im getting better at the giffing thing

[ryo-hirakawa]

MATTEO CAIROLI, KLAUS BACHLER, and CHRISTIAN ENGELHART of #54 DINAMIC MOTORSPORT win the 3 Hours of Monza of the 2021 GT World Challenge Europe Endurance Cup

[tarantulas4davey]

more hc’s!! even though i’m in school!!

al mining all the way to bedrock with race and being like ‘hey babe can you get this block for me i’m gonna build our house try to get at least five okay?’

and race, clueless, is like ‘sure babe!’ and after twenty minutes race is loSING HIS MIND and al is like uhhh babe i kinda need it?? and race is like, near tears, IM TRYING IM TRYINF I SWEAR I SWEAR

eventually al tells him and race unplugs al’s computer

race speaking italian bc he’s stressed and al doesn’t know what he’s saying but dear god that’s so hot

people make a million gifs abt al’s face and race is like ‘oh so italian is a turn on for you huh?’ but race, little bitch, says it in italian and watches al live up to his nickname of red

one time al is rly tired as he’s streaming and just falls asleep at his computer and race is facing his computer and eventually he realizes he’s been rambling and that al hasn’t said much? and he’s like ‘uhh babe you okay?’ and then looks over and you can see the exact moment his heart bursts bc al just dozed off and he’s so cute and the comments r going crazy

al is pretty shy abt it he’s like oh my god they saw me sleeping that’s so embarrassing hey race stop!! it wasn’t cute!!! and race is like uhhh yeah it was but he’s still sweet ofc and al (who’s slowly becoming more comfortable with himself) is like oh. okay. and the fans are like THATS SO ADORABLE

someone points out at one point that race and al have the exact same follower count and they’re like !!! that’s actually so cute!!!

race’s background is him and al and al’s is just race and they’re so cute and so in love

race n al both getting super into the game and they’re put on opposite teams and become like. lethal. like race is super smart ofc but he’s not saying anything so al has NO idea where to find him, but alternatively, someone keeps killing race’s teammates and no one can seem to beat them theyre so strong??

at one point al walks in and race is like hey hey hey! it’s radioactive red! and starts playing radioactive by imagine dragons and al, bright red, is like i’m going to kill you slowly and race, cheeky bastard, is like ha that’s kinda hot babe and winks and al’s just turning even more red

and ppl are like????? wait wait wait how is al the top did you see how flustered he got?

race n al literally laying on top of each other and full body cuddles but they both get so red when they hold hands and everyone’s like? you just literally sit in each other’s laps but ok

izzy these are fucking incredible i’m dying 😭

- al is such a little shit he totally would do that. race unplugs albert’s gaming monitor but the one with chat is still up and the cameras still going for the stream so everyone can see race whack al in the head with rolled up magazine from his desk and albert just throws race over his shoulder and spins around in circles while chat is loosing its fuckin mind

- whenever albert and race end up on different teams in a game race isn’t as good at and can’t just,,,,, math his way out (i.e. rocket league) he babbles in italian and it got to the point where al would get so distracted he would end up loosing the game cause he’s too busy internally going holyshitthatsreallyhotholyshitholyshit. albert went absolutely scarlet when he saw all the gifs of it and he’s sitting on the couch scrolling through twitter and race walks up behind him and leans down and whispers “why didn’t you mentioned you liked my italian” in italian and albert just ✨looses it✨

- SLEEPY 👏 ALBERT 👏 he doesn’t fall asleep on stream very often, but they do 12+ hour charity livestreams at least once a month so,,,, tired red is a common occurrence. he lives in a perpetual state of,,, ruffled? messy hair sticking up in every direction, a voice that always kinda sounds like he just woke up, constantly reaching for some form of affection from race that’s vaguely reminiscent of a toddler that just woke up from a nap between games, the like. he’s also a very deep sleeper, and it makes his already young face go from about,,,, 19? 20? to like 16 at best. he’s definitely getting better about seeing himself more accurately and all the fans think it’s so cute he doesn’t vehemently reject all of race’s compliments anymore.

- of course these two would be cute about having the same follower count. at one point someone follows albert but not race and race threatens to unfollow albert just to fix it, but about 10 seconds later the person follows him too and all balance is restored to the universe

- they’re 100% eachothers phone backgrounds. their lock screens is that cute thing where race has the half of the picture with albert in it and albert has the half of the picture with race in it and when you set their phones next to eachother in makes one picture. albert’s home screen is art jack made of them for his birthday. and race’s is a picture from the disney trip when al proposed.

- race is trying to pick albert’s teammates off from a distance, and he does fairly well for awhile, but as smart as he is race doesn’t have that much experience (especially compared to albert) so race’s teammates are dropping like flies literally ALL OVER the map and race is just like “?????? how the hell who is doing that” and albert is just silently chuckling to himself from his desk. eventually race is the only one left and albert finds him and just laughs maniacally while race dramatically falls out of his chair when he dies.

- y e s ok so albert blushes REALLY EASILY and race is,,,, race, so he’s honestly not that easy to embarrass and the general ‘red being flustered’ thing makes people confused how he’s the top. that is, until once race is laughing at how red albert is and albert just leans over and whispers something to race and race’s mouth snaps shut and his eyes get all wide and he just immediately changes the subject and albert has the smug look on his face and suddenly,,,, it all makes sense and that face race made gets so memed and albert laughs for 20 years over it

- honestly yeah it’s like

race: *kisses al’s neck and sits in his lap to try and distract him while albert keeps playing with a straight face*

also race: *can’t stop giggling for 5 minutes cause albert locked their pinky’s while showing him something and using the mouse*

~ or ~

albert: *carries race around the gaming room in victory or will randomly kiss him full on the mouth cause he just thinks he’s pretty*

also albert: *goes pink every time race calls him any sort of pet name, especially in italian*

this was written while also trying to keep track of the one year old and six year old i’m babysitting so i apologize for any random mistakes. no small children were harmed in the making of this post 😆

thank you for all of these i love them so much jdhdjdjd

[reversecreek]

clicks onto the dash wearing kitten heels n coyly holding my bang....... hi. me again. it took me so long to select a gif to use on cricket’s intro n i settled on this one bc he looks so unsure abt his smile n it’s rly his essence <3 u can find his pinterest board here n his (work in progress) spotify playlist here. hmu to plot!!! 

* alex wolff, cis male + he/him | you know cricket donahue, right? they’re twenty-two, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, all of their life, on and off? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to should have known better by sufjan stevens like, a million times this year, which slipping on wet leaves to photograph a tree struck alight by lightning, delivering a tedtalk to your own reflection to hype yourself up to buy groceries, hiding your hands inside of your sleeves in case you grew an impromptu megan fox thumb overnight thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 1st, so they’re a libra, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( nai, 24, gmt, she/her )

HISTORY:

cricket ws born to a couple tht lived in lilac ridge. their trailer was tucked closest to the woods n always fell under the shade. it was like the leaves wanted to pretend they were a perpetual hanging cloud on the family n that was kind of fitting. their only reason fr having him in the first place was a kind of shrugged like........... we’re under the income bracket we’d get child benefits so why not! may as well try it to rake in some extra cash! needless to say they didn’t rly think it thru or anticipate all of the responsibilities tht came w children n wound up seeing him as an extremely large burden n boy didn’t he know it!

(child neglect & abuse tw) i’ll try to keep this part vague n brief but things were Not Good for cricket growing up. people in lilac ridge didn’t like his parents n it was for a gd reason. he remembers foggy things. being little n wandering around combing the grass with a stick to search for wrappers to suck on bc he was hungry. feeling uneasy when the front door opened. finding out his name was cricket bc the insects used to crawl into their trailer thru the vents n his parents liked to squish them into the carpet -- his mum told him as much once. i think this says a lot. to excessively trim the fat of the story he wound up entering the system at around 8 after his latest and most serious hospital visit. his parents hd to deal w the authorities n last he heard they bounced to evade charges.

(anxiety & violence & trauma tw) cricket sustained a few lifelong injuries from his time in lilac ridge. his knee didn’t heal right which meant he had (n still has to this day) a limp n he’s partially deaf in one ear. he’s always been an incredibly insecure n anxious person so this mde him rly self conscious going into a strange n new environment tht wld b difficult fr any kid to adjust to, nvm w these added worries. he jst felt like something weird to ogle at honestly. he probably wld have felt like that no matter where he was or what he looked like. he cld be in a huge hall of 200 people all wearing the same uniform n he’d still feel like the odd one out. needless to say this didn’t rly help him make friends

cricket’s coping mechanisms were romanticising the things tht other people found ugly or embarrassing or painfully ordinary. he liked it when the rain hit clunky drops against school windows n forbid everyone from playing outside bc he could feel the vibrations through the rubber soles of his shoes n it was a little bit like hearing all of the world at once fr just a moment. he liked medieval fantasy lore about stout gnomes w crumbs in their beards n cheeks red from ale. he liked fallen nests with the remnants of hatched eggs still dirty from the branches n soil they’d hit on the way down. he liked the way the sunlight leaked thru the leaves of the trees in the woods and how, when he sat very still, he could tune into the ringing that was always in his ear n pretend it was coming from the same place, that light thru the leaves, that the angels were trying to talk to him.

he spent a lot of time in the red room at his high skl (i’m begging u this is not a 50 shades reference) (after googling i jst realised it’s called a darkroom bt i’m leaving this fr the sake of sexy bimbo authenticity) n felt quite at home in there. he borrowed a camera whenever he cld (maybe he did yearbook) n photography became his way of immortalising the world as the romanticised version he wanted it to be. his memories were bad bt his photos were beautiful. maybe if he took enough they’d paste over n bleed into each other. maybe bad cld be replaced w beautiful if he tried his very best.

he got placed into fostering w a family once bt apparently didn’t meet the vibe check of their tastes so he wound up returning to the group home he’d initially been placed in. overall this is where he grew up n he aged out the system rather than getting adopted. there was a sense of floundering/isolation/not feeling gd enough in tht bt cricket made do the best he knew how. 

that said there were some gd points! (shocking i kno bc his life hs been so fking bleak so far bt please it’s ok........) (is it?) (🤔). basically he interned as an assistant at this local photography studio during high skl working under this kind of whimsical yet endearing old man. suspected wizard possibly in cricket’s eyes, as an avid fantasy genre reader. for one of his bdays said old man / his boss bought him his very own film camera n cricket cried bc he’d never been bought a bday gift. this ws rly embarrassing bc this old man didn’t know how to emote n neither did cricket so he ws jst sort of sat wiping his eyes n sniffling saying he wasn’t crying as the old man pretended to suddenly clean his lenses. when cricket graduated he offered him a full time position there. they do like. wedding photographs n family portraits n all kinds of things...... pay isn’t huge bt it’s something n he Loves taking photos so it’s sexy <3

PERSONALITY:

SUCH an anxious person it’s actually unreal. overthinks absolutely everything he’s ever said. one morning he might hv put green socks on n for the rest of the day he’s nervously looking around like omggggggg they’re all looking at my socks probably thinking im a little green sock boy thinking i’m a fool n a jester this is all everyone’s probably thinking about i hv to hide my green socks..... even tho literally no-one cares

once saw a girl eating a chicken wing n in his head was like ok she likes chicken good future gift idea..... n turned up at her house with an entire rotisserie chicken

probably thinks WAY too hard abt what to write in bday cards n googles like generic ideas that he can use.... u open a card from cricket n it always says smthn weird like “Warmest wishes and love on your birthday and always!” or “You deserve everything happy. Wishing you that all year long!” tht he got off google

nervously fiddles w things a lot. literally anything. his hair. the cuffs of his sleeves. a thread on his bag. u name it

struggles w eye contact sometimes............ it’s like. he wants to talk to ppl n make friends bt he’s honestly so bad at it. he’s fumbling thru life like a nervous headless chicken

ALWAYS has his camera on him. like always. will tke a photo of u bc he thinks u look nice then be like im so sorry im so sorry...... bowing his head shakily holding his camera bc he doesn’t even kno what possessed him he jst thought it’d be a nice photograph bt boundaries exist. probably breathes very heavily over this later in his room panicking thinking he nw seems like hannibal lecter

probably more confident online bc he has time to think abt what he says more.......... i can see him hving a group of online friends tht he’s more confident w. honestly he’s pretty witty at heart he jst has a hard time verbalising things so ppl overlook him sometimes bt once u get to know him more / he’s more comfy he can b a funny little man.....

loves photographs where he cuts something out of them. loves missing spaces n voids. thinks it’s a rly interesting concept when something that isn’t there becomes the focus of a photograph where everything else is. probably loses his mind fr a collage like a front row 1d stan. likes experimenting w light n perception. pretty artistic honestly hs probably made a stop motion film in the past bc that’s just an extended form of photography in his mind bt i doubt he showed anyone

ummm...... very sweet bt like. he reminds me a lot of this quote. “he had the awkward tenderness of someone who has never been loved and is forced to improvise.” feel like tht sums him up quite nicely

WANTED CONNECTIONS

someone he met at a wedding: cricket probably ws forced to photograph a wedding fr his boss one time n it cld b interesting as a place to meet from that....... like. i can imagine either it being rly awkward maybe he accidentally spilled a drink on ur muse n was stuttering rly apologetic n it ws just a train wreck. or mayb they took pity on him or even (in a shocking turn of events) a shine to him n invited him to drink n dance. omgggg the thought of cricket trying to dance makes me wna die n probably mkes cricket wna hyperventilate bt idk maybe he went wild n let loose. mayb they wound up damaging the camera somehow. mayb they had to scramble to get another one n ur muse covered the cost n it was a strange late night excursion tht cricket thought about a lot since. cricket probably vowed to pay them bk somehow no matter what. idk. we can work things out. lots of diff options here. doesn’t have to b a wedding either can b any event tht required a photographer

ppl he went to school w: pretty self explanatory i suppose...... maybe they were frm completely different worlds..... mayb ur muse was popular n cricket was definitely not but they got paired fr an assignment n had to work on a project together....... mayb cricket asked ur muse on a date one time n it was completely embarrassing bc he didn’t realise they had a bf n it haunts cricket at night still bc he’s rly dramatic.... mayb ur muse felt sry fr him n ate lunch w him n inducted him into their group like a lost puppy finding a home.... world’s our oyster

neighbours from his brief time at lilac ridge: not to reference taylor swift but i’m gna reference taylor swift n say we cld do a seven inspired plot here. sighs a little..... then sighs a lot. he was here ages 0-8 so idk. we cld work out childhood plots perhaps....

sickening simp: i mean.............. cricket probably gets crushes on ppl so easily like just. anyone who’s the slightest bit nice to him.................. he’s a disgrace. ok i take it back. bt also please get it together freak............... i didn’t say that. he’d probably b extra nice to this person n try n pay close attention to things they liked so he cld get them little gifts. just a bit embarrassing n lovestruck bless his heart. wldn’t expect anything back tho honestly that just isn’t something he tends to do.

let’s go gays: cricket’s bi but he probably was rly in his head abt liking boys n tried to sort of squash it internally during his younger yrs...... i think he’s more comfy w it now MAYBE idk bt back then i picture him having a friend tht ws kind of like. similarly loserish as him perhaps (no offence to ur muse potentially filling this plot or cricket bt let’s face the facts) n they’d hang out n play games a lot n one time it jst kind of happened n he was like............. *struts in looking around sharply* What going on here? except not. bc it’s cricket. more like *shambles in looking around anxiously* What’s, uh... What’s... the happenings? S--... I’m sorry. (immediate apology for saying what’s the happenings bc nobody talks like that n it was an impulsive panic bc he didn’t know what else to say)

those who grew up in the system w him: maybe at the group home or i’d also like the family that fostered him n said sayonara. honestly i imagine the parents just thought he ws a bit too much of a handful / had too much baggage which is rly quite merciless n terrible but. if u think that aligns w ur muses home situation hmu......

um. can’t think of more bt just anything honestly. jst go wild.......

[matoitech]

hope its okay to ask, but do you know any tips or resources on preventing autism meltdowns/shutdowns?

i cant think of any specific resource w good info right now unfortunately but heres some stuff i do. also these r kinda for like the As Ur Feeling It Build Up to where its getting intolerable stage so if u meant just like in general i can try to help w that instead but here goes, some things i do to help cope n prevent stuff

if its possible and ur in enough control of ur body, remove urself from the ppl or situation ur in- if ur around ppl just stepping away to b by urself for a bit can help u feel a little better, or at least a little Less bad. outside, into another room, just another place where u dont have the added stressors of noise and masking and whatnot

try to reduce how much sensory input ur getting- if u need sunglasses, headphones, stim toys, pressure/weight, etc, use or try that if its safe to. sometimes ur body can be overwhelmed by something u cant consciously notice, like electricity humming in the wall + bright lights + traffic + ppls voices + ur clothes r rly uncomfortable, etc, so things like turning off lights and such to see what makes u feel more physically comfortable can b helpful (if u can)

and/or you may be thirsty, tired, hungry, emotional, etc and ur not getting the signals for that so ur body is showing its discomfort or upset in other ways. u may need to change into more comfortable clothes, go to the bathroom, eat something, etc. checking w ur body (and emotional state) can help prevent meltdowns/shutdowns or prepare for them. this stuff can b difficult to try and figure out tho so dont put urself down if u still end up having a meltdown or shutdown, ur body gets overwhelmed and sometimes i have not found another way to direct it than to sleep it off for a while. it sucks and its painful but if ur exhausted u might just need it :(

drinking water, listening to relaxing music, doing breathing exercises, and other things can help 4 me. usual ‘calming’ techniques might not help u feel physically better but can help center u a bit to feel less agonized

if ur safe to do so, try stimming if u can? sometimes ur instinct can be to tense up and shut down, but if its possible and doesnt make u feel worse, stimming can help- even just watching a rythmic gif or smth can help. sometimes ive noticed i feel rly bad like im gonna shutdown or im really twitchy and all over the place but then i realize i havent been stimming enough and that helps. if it doesnt help then u dont have to continue it, sometimes u just need to lie down unmoving in the dark for a while. when i need to shutdown thats generally what i do and i dont have any tips for preventing it when u get to that stage bc sometimes u just gotta reset i think

i would def suggest trying to chill out alone tho cuz ik not everyones like that, some ppl need like physical comfort from other ppl when theyre in shutdown mode, but at least 4 me it helps to just lie down under a bunch of blankets in the dark for a few hours

distractions can also help if just lying there bores u lol, test out what makes u feel ok (doin smth quiet w ur hands is usually good) and what u r not a fan of

most of this stuff was more for shutdowns but can still b applicable to meltdowns, but more meltdown specific, b4 i meltdown im rly prickly (emotionally) and have a lot of scattered shaky energy bc its usually caused by emotional overload so pacing and body stimming can help a lot 4 me at least to try n get that level. its better to direct the energy somewhere else instead of @ another person generally lol

uhh if anyone has any tips feel free to suggest stuff cuz i am scattered rn and can only think of a couple things!

[8zs]

Library

(gif is not mine)

Pairing: Seonghwa x reader

Genre: Enemies to lovers au, Fluff

Words: 1.066

Song: Looking Out For You - Joy Again

A/n: listen to that song PLEASE it screams hwa.... also ignore that this is my worst work yet im rly sorry.... if u want me to rewrite it or do something completely different just lmk.... ily ): 

You hadn’t always hated Seonghwa. But when he broke your friend’s heart in sixth grade, you couldn’t help but resent him. It was kind of lame, really.

You still treated him poorly for what he did so many years ago. You weren’t even friends with that girl anymore.  She dropped you for other people, ‘prettier and more popular people’ she had said.

So you blamed all of that on the raven haired guy. It’s not like it was one sided, though. He hated you, too. You didn’t know why, but you could care less.

You just got your report card, and you were failing math… You got an F. Your teacher told you that you were getting a tutor. You still heard her voice when she told you the most unpleasant thing.

“You’re gonna get a tutor for math, we’ve already discussed it with him and Park Seonghwa will be tutoring you starting next week. Okay?”

You had simply nodded and told her it was fine.

“Can you believe this shit, Wooyoung? Seonghwa is gonna tutor me. Seonghwa out of all the people in our class. That Yeosang guy is smart, right? I heard he got straight A’s in math. Why can’t he tutor me?!”

Wooyoung snickered and shook his head. “Stop being so dramatic, (y/n). Maybe you can over your dumb grudge and befriend him.”

You laughed. “No way! Just because he’s extremely good looking and popular and, soon, tutoring me in math doesn’t mean anything. He’s still a fucktard, I don’t care.”

“So, you think he’s good looking?” Wooyoung winked at you.

“Shut up, Woo. I’m not gonna deny the facts, everyone knows he’s hot and I bet he knows it just as well.”

The weekend came sooner than you liked, and it was over just as quick. You were walking to the library where you were supposed to meet Seonghwa every Monday, Thursday and Friday. You grimaced, this was gonna be a disaster.

As soon as you walked in, you saw he had company. You rolled your eyes and walked over to him. You sat down next to his friend, who you recognized to be Mingi.

Mingi was actually pretty nice, he always sat next to you in history and often made small talk with you before class started.

“Hi Mingi, Seonghwa.” You said and they turned to look at you. Mingi grinned and patted your back. “Hey (y/n), nice to see you here, but I promised Seonhwa I would leave when you came. So! See you guys later!” He said and winked at Seonghwa.

Seonghwa rolled his eyes. “Anyways, what do you need help with?”

It was your turn to roll your eyes now. “Shouldn’t you know that? You and Mrs. Lim discussed it.”

He scoffed. “Just give me your tests from this trimester.”

You got the tests out of your bag and handed them to him. He looked at them and a hum left his throat. “Okay, so what I get from this is that...”

It’s been two months since Seonghwa started tutoring you, and it was safe to say you didn’t hate him anymore.

You hated to admit it, but you might even like him a bit. Disgusting! How could you?

It wasn’t like you wanted to like him, but as you worked together and your grades got better you started to notice little things. Like when he’s struggling to explain something he sticks his tongue out from between his lips. When he’s unsure about something he tilts his head a bit to the side and gives a nervous smile.

It’s those little things you started noticing, and those things made you realize just how enchanting he was.

Seonghwa on the other hand, he had never hated you, or had any negative feelings towards you. He had liked you since sophomore year. Kind of embarrassing, he thought.

But you’ve never showed interest in him, you’ve never been nice to him. He didn’t know why you hated him, or acted like you did.

You really had no reason to hate him, you had quickly realized that. He was so sweet and caring and it seemed like he wanted you to pass.

“Hey.” You plopped down next to Seonghwa in the library chairs. “Hi.”

He started explaining the new subject matter and you two got to work.

It was almost 5PM when you looked at the clock. “Oh, it’s kind of late… Do you wanna go home for dinner?” Seonghwa just looked at you. “(y/n), why do you hate me?”

The question caught you off guard. You looked down and started playing with your bracelet.

“I don’t- I don’t hate you… I mean, I know I act like I do. But I don’t , well not anymore actually…”

“Why did you hate me, then?”

“It’s a dumb and stupid reason, it’s embarrassing…”

He looked at you, giving you an encouraging look to continue.

You sighed. “Remember Minjoo from sixth grade? Yeah, you broke her heart and she was my best friend at the time. So I guess that’s why I started hating you, and I just… I don’t know, I’m sorry”

Seonghwa just chuckled. “Is that all?”

You playfully hit his arm. “Hey! For a sixth grader that’s a valid reason!”

He hummed in response. “I guess you could say that.”

“I don’t hate you anymore, though.” You said in a soft voice.

He looked you in the eye and raised an eyebrow. “Hm? And why’s that?”

“I’ve become used to you.”

“Is that a good or bad thing?”

“I guess it’s a good thing.”

He smiled. “Do you maybe wanna get dinner together?”

You looked down to hide your blush. “Yeah, that’d be nice.”

The rest of the evening went by pretty quickly and you two had lots of fun. He walked you home and when you got to your door, you turned around to face him.

“It was fun with you, Seonghwa.”  He nodded. “Yeah, it wasn’t that bad hanging out with you.” He joked.

You giggled and looked at his face. When did he get so handsome? And since when did his eyes sparkle that prettily?

“(y/n)? Do you maybe wanna do this again sometime?”

You nodded. “I’d love that…”

“Okay, it’s a date.” He winked.

You smiled, looking down to hide your blush. He gave you a hug and pecked your cheek.

“See you tomorrow at the library~”

[ynkkoo-a]

            ♡◞  𝐤𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐨𝐨  𝐬𝐚𝐲𝐬  𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒌 𝒖  !

            not  at  me  repurposing  one  of  my  theme  graphics  bc  i’m  a  lil  lazy  babie  ,  but  !  since  i  jus  hit  another  follower  milestone  n  the  decade  is  comin  to  a  close  ,  i  jus  wanted  to  say  thank  u  to  all  my  mutuals  n  followers  n  such  who  rly  made  this  last  year  enjoyable  on  this  hellsite  !  2019  was  tough  on  a  lot  of  us  in  a  lot  of  ways  ,  but  we  all  did  it  ,  babyluvs  !  we  saw  it  out  to  the  end  n  hopefully  the  20′s  are  a  lot  prettier  for  us  all  !  p.s.  i’m  sorry  to  anyone  not  mentioned  !  i  hav  the  memory  n  attention  span  of  a  babie  fish  ,  but  i  luv  all  of  u  soso  so  much  n  u  rly  all  do  mean  the  absolute  world  to  me  !  ♡

            first  off  ,  jus’  a  quick  an  honourable  mention  to  all  of  my  nonnies  of  the  year  ,  wherever  u  babies  are  now  !  in  particular  ,  my  cherry  nonnie  ,  my  jk  anon  (  @jminacious​​  )  ,  my  boo  ,  my  strawberry  nonnie  ,  n  my  grades  anon  !  n  anyone  else  who  has  sent  me  sweet  nonnies  ,  these  r  jus  the  recurring  ones  of  the  year  heh  !  u  sweet  nonnies  own  my  heart  n  truly  made  this  blog  such  a  lovely  n  pretty  n  positive  experience  for  me  ,  n  i  cannot  properly  express  w  words  how  much  all  of  ur  sweet  mssgs  meant  n  mean  to  me  always  !  ^♡^

            starting  off  w  the  mutuals  i  literally  never  speak  to  ,  bc  of  my  shy  babie  antics  ,  but  who  i  admire  from  afar  so  much  !  ur  all  soso  talented  ,  jus  all  around  beautiful  souls  who  deserve  the  prettiest  days  .  pleathe  feel  free  to  come  talk  to  me  ,  i’ll  luv  u  down  w  my  whole  heart  since  i’m  practically  ur  secret  admirer  anyway  .

@miyanez , @kimseokjvn , @rmsrpt , @capitae , @chunghart , @aronpiper , @jinjeongguks , @yukhciz , @cjdoesrpt , @pocmuzings ,  @chuuiez , @leeieno , @igorrpt , @luvgifs , @joonkookies , @drunkblushed , @savta , @frcylan , @jinsoouls  !

            now  ,  to  give  all  my  luv  to  those  who  literally  . . .  hav  my  heart  .  we  haven’t  talked  much  ,  again  bc  i’m  a  shy  babie  ,  tho  sum  of  us  hav  jus  recently  been  talking  more  which  makes  me  very  sparkly  ,  but  !  we  exchange  ims  here  or  there  ,  send  an  ask  or  two  ,  reply  to  n  like  each  other’s  posts  ,  support  each  other’s  content  ---  u  know  ,  we’re  cute  mutuals  !  the  ‘  will  they  ,  won’t  they  ‘  mutuals  !  for  realsies  ,  tho  ,  ur  all  so  talented  ,  whether  it  be  in  making  gifs  or  themes  or  graphics  or  writing  or  whatever  !  ur  talent  astounds  me  n  i  am  beyond  in  luv  w  u  !

@sprfluous , @chanheez , @loonarz , @jungjnsoul , @yeriimss , @hotjoong , @hiqey , @tcehyvng , @kvinabstract , @stcinfelds , @kermitgrinch , @mcninas , @doyyeon , @jminssii , @jiminslolli , @raihelps , @svnflxwer , @softcarpenters  !

            n  now  for  honourable  mentions  !  the  few  ppl  on  this  site  who  my  shy  babie  antics  did  not  keep  me  from  talking  to  n  becoming  friends  w  .  these  are  the  literal  luvs  of  my  life  !  our  ships  are  literally  *chefs  kiss*  ,  i  feel  comfy  cryin’  n  rantin’  to  u  guys  without  worryin  abt  being  annoying  n  i  hope  the  feelin’  is  mutual  ,  i  don’t  feel  even  an  ounce  of  anxiety  when  talkin’  to  u  guys  which  is  such  a  major  thing  for  me  ?  i  consider  u  guys  my  friends  sm  n  our  friendship  literally  means  the  world  to  me  .  ur  soso  talented  in  so  many  ways  n  u  hav  the  loveliest  hearts  ,  n  i’m  so  honoured  to  be  able  to  be  ur  friend  n  to  write  w  u  all  !  

            p.s.  there’s  cute  lil  mssgs  for  each  of  u  under  the  cut  !

@pointlcss , @ultraviclets , @musetories , @briingmetolifc , @heartvfire  !

♡◞  @pointlcss  !

                    alli  !  ♡  i  am  literally  so  happy  that  u  happened  upon  my  lil  1x1  post  a  couple  months  back  n  decided  to  mssg  me  abt  threading  bc  our  cute  lil  starstruck  plot  turned  into  a  friendship  that  i  am  soso  so  thankful  for  ?  there  is  not  anyone  that  i  wld  hav  rather  gone  thru  it  over  jungoo’s  long  hair  ,  tattoos  ,  n  haircut  w  .  that  one  pic  of  jjk  from  season’s  greetings  as  our  matching  discord  icons  . . .  stayin’  up  to  yell  abt  stray  kids’  n  txt’s  comebacks  . . .  i  literally  luv  this  for  us  ?  ur  soso  talented  n  making  gifsets  n  writing  ,  n  i’m  so  happy  i  cld  make  this  last  year  a  lil  bit  special  for  u  ,  bc  u’ve  made  this  year  such  a  special  n  pretty  one  for  me  too  !  i  can’t  wait  to  see  where  our  cute  lil  plot  n  ship  takes  n  i  hope  the  year  has  even  more  luvly  things  in  store  for  us  !  i  luv  n  adore  u  soso  so  much  .  u  rly  are  the  sweetest  soul  out  there  n  i’m  so  happy  to  consider  u  a  friend  !  also  thank  u  for  jus’  now  informing  me  abt  bts’  2020  tour  i  owe  u  my  lifeKSHDKJ  ♡

♡◞  @ultraviclets  !

                    ness  !  ♡  literally  . . .  the  luv  of  my  life  ,  perhaps  ?  i  remember  following  u  when  u  published  ur  first  theme  ,  bc  i  was  jus  like  .  wowow  wubbzy  ?  this  is  beautiful  n  free  n  i’m  broke  n  u  hav  my  heart  ?  n  u  know  ,  for  a  while  we  were  sort  of  will  they  ,  won’t  they  mutuals  ,  too  ,  which  was  cute  for  us  ,  but  i  think  we  actually  started  talking  when  we  were  both  in  abroad  ?  n  then  u  mssged  me  later  on  to  lmk  that  jjk  was  open  in  ur  rp  if  i  wanted  to  join  n  it  made  me  so  absolutely  soft  ???  like  .  ik  it  was  jus  a  lil  thing  but  u  captured  my  whole  HEART  in  that  moment  ?  n  now  ur  genuinely  sumone  that  i  trust  so  much  ,  like  .  the  other  day  when  u  let  me  rant  to  u  a  lil  bit  abt  smth  kinda  silly  ,  rly  ,  it  jus  meant  the  world  to  me  ?  n  u  mean  the  world  to  me  n  !!!  writing  w  u  is  absolutely  wonderful  always  n  our  current  ship  is  *chefs  kiss*  even  tho  i  hav  yet  to  reply  to  our  thread  again  BUT  !!!  i  will  do  it  ,  i  pinky  promise  ,  i’m  sorry  i’m  the  worst  .  u  deserve  the  whole  wide  world  .  ur  talented  beyond  belief  ,  ur  such  a  blessing  to  the  rpc  n  this  hellsite  as  a  whole  ,  n  i  adore  n  am  soso  so  thankful  for  our  luvly  lil  friendship  every  time  we  talk  .  u  truly  hav  made  this  icky  year  a  lot  less  icky  !  u  hav  my  whole  heart  !  ♡

♡◞  @musetories  !

                    sarah  !  ♡  u’ve  genuinely  been  one  of  my  best  friends  for  four  years  +  one  month  now  n  like  ?  wowow  wubbzy  ?  that’s  such  a  long  time  !  from  the  rp  that  shall  not  be  named  to  lit  rally  whatever  tf  we’re  doin  rn  .  u  were  the  first  person  i  ever  rly  shipped  w  on  this  hellsite  ,  even  tho  i  was  a  whole  babie  n  my  writing  was  godforsaken  at  the  time  .  n  now  we  lit  rally  hav  so  many  ships  up  our  sleeves  that  i  can’t  even  name  them  all  ,  but  i  luv  each  n  every  one  of  them  soso  so  much  ?  sum  of  them  are  so  iconic  that  they’re  jus’  eternal  now  (  we’re  rly  ALWAYS  on  our  eli  &  zazzy  bullshit  )  n  i  kind  of  adore  that  for  us  ?  we’ve  spent  so  many  our  jus’  stayin  up  into  the  night  /  morning  writing  novels  in  my  dms  ,  n  those  are  genuinely  sum  of  my  fondest  rp  memories  ?  we  don’t  rly  talk  quite  as  much  anymore  ,  but  that’s  okay  n  it  happens  !  we’ve  had  sum  ups  n  downs  ,  but  i’m  genuinely  soso  so  thankful  for  ur  friendship  these  last  four  years  n  here’s  to  four  more  heh  !  n  also  u  got  my  into  bts  so  i  owe  u  my  lifeKJSHKD  ♡

♡◞  @briingmetolifc  !

                    mozzie  !  ♡  wowow  wubbzy  ,  i  cld  genuinely  write  a  novel  abt  u  ?  we’ve  been  friends  for  practically  four  years  now  ,  too  ,  n  to  think  it  all  started  w  our  one  lil  ship  in  the  rp  that  shall  not  be  named  !  i  can  actually  n  genuinely  jus  talk  to  u  abt  anything  ?  whether  it  be  our  ships  ,  a  random  plot  i  wanna  write  ,  the  political  state  of  our  country  ,  how  fucked  ap  classes  are  ,  mister  jungoo  himself  ,  whatever  issues  i’m  having  w  sumone  that  i  need  to  get  off  my  chest  ---  there’s  literally  no  limit  or  bounds  to  what  we  can  talk  to  n  it’s  so  nice  ?  like  .  i  genuinely  trust  u  so  much  ?  u’ve  always  jus  kinda  been  That  Person  who  i  know  i  can  trust  w  anything  ,  who  i  never  felt  wld  judge  me  ?  like  i  can  jus  tell  u  anythin  ,  i  trust  u  so  much  .  ur  genuinely  one  of  my  best  friends  ,  even  when  ur  tryin  to  fight  my  babie  or  we’re  both  bein’  bratty  n  silent  treatmenting  each  other  or  ur  bein  a  stubborn  lil  babie  n  won’t  let  me  do  ur  theme  for  u  even  tho  !!!  i  luv  doing  ur  themes  !  but  it’s  okay  bc  u  hav  my  heart  ,  n  i  genuinely  ???  wld  be  such  a  different  person  w/o  u  in  my  life  for  the  past  four  years  i’m  sure  ?  n  also  ur  such  an  amazing  writer  ,  ur  muses  are  so  unique  n  ur  writing  is  so  fluid  n  ???  god  !!!  everythin  abt  u  is  smth  that  i  adore  .  pleathe  come  to  california  n  be  my  first  kissie  . . .  i  luv  u  !  ♡

♡◞  @heartvfire​  !

                    kacchan  !  ♡  oh  my  god  ???  where  in  the  world  do  i  even  BEGIN  ???  ur  genuinely  one  of  the  most  important  ppl  in  my  life  .  i  met  u  first  when  i  was  a  literal  fckin  babie  in  the  rp  that  shall  not  be  named  a  whole  four  years  ago  now  ,  n  like  .  we  didn’t  talk  a  ton  at  first  ,  but  u  were  never  weird  or  condescending  bc  i  was  young  ?  like  ,  we  eventually  did  start  talking  n  i’m  soso  like  ???  happy  that  we  got  close  ?  like  .  since  day  one  ,  i’ve  looked  up  to  ur  writing  n  u  as  a  person  ?  ur  characters  were  always  so  insanely  creative  and  unique  and  ur  writing  was  so  fluid  n  beautiful  n  just  ?  u  were  literal  goals  to  lil  14yr  old  kookoo  .  n  even  now  ,  whenever  i  do  a  reply  to  u  ,  i  will  literally  write  n  rewrite  it  five  times  over  before  posting  it  bc  i  want  to  make  sure  it’s  as  good  as  urs  is  !  like  !!!  god  ur  so  talented  !  n  like  .  especially  as  of  late  ,  we’ve  jus  gotten  super  close  ?  n  like  .  i’m  genuinely  so  happy  abt  it  ???  our  friendship  is  genuinely  a  WHOLE  blessing  in  my  life  ,  like  .  ik  i  can  talk  to  u  abt  anything  n  u  can  talk  to  me  abt  anything  n  we’ll  meet  eachother  w  the  same  amount  of  enthusiasm  ?  we  can  vent  to  each  other  n  completely  understand  n  empathise  n  talk  things  out  so  we  feel  better  n  it’s  jus  ???  we  jus’  get  each  other  ??  so  nice  .  thank  u  for  listening  to  me  when  i’m  anxious  or  sad  ,  n  for  not  thinkin  ill  of  me  when  i’m  bein  a  brat  ,  even  when  it’s  for  silly  reasons  ,  n  for  listenin  to  n  not  judging  me  when  i  talk  abt  jungoo  n  bts  ,  even  tho  i  talk  to  them  a  lot  n  ik  i  can  be  a  bit  much  sumtimes  .  like  ,  genuinely  ?  i’m  abt  to  start  crying  rn  ,  i’m  so  thankful  for  u  .  u’ve  helped  shape  me  so  much  as  a  person  .  helped  me  grow  as  a  writer  .  i  met  u  at  one  of  the  worst  n  most  important  ages  of  my  life  n  u’ve  impacted  my  life  such  an  insane  amount  ???  u’ve  always  been  the  first  person  to  talk  to  n  comfort  me  when  things  go  to  shit  n  i  truly  cannot  express  how  much  that  has  always  meant  to  me  .  i  genuinely  think  i  wld  be  a  bit  of  a  different  person  n  not  as  confident  in  my  writing  if  i  didn’t  hav  u  to  look  up  to  for  these  past  four  years  .  i  trust  u  so  much  n  i  luv  u  soso  so  much  !  n  i  am  going  to  reply  to  the  dm  u  sent  me  properly  ,  i  jus  need  2  formulate  my  thoughts  properly  first  ,  so  pleathe  hav  this  for  now  !  u  literally  hav  my  whole  HEART  !!!  ♡

[chngbok]

I hit 2k a while ago now 2.2k im terrible and I never said thank you!! I didn’t want to open requests again as I’m terrible with following through on them so!! I settled with saying thank you to those who I’ve really come to appreciate + love ♥

@linos-teeth

someone who words just don't do justice (teeth fetishist might work).  you’ve been there longer than anyone and followed me through my many many different phases + blogs and that was all thanks for dai fucking up just a little bit (the one time I’ll thank a buggy game Bioware I owe you my life). you’re there for me whenever I wanna talk about shit, be it me complaining or me ranting (and more complaining) OR us taking a stupid one-liner from woojin and turning it into a 50 chapter long fic that’s 6 months old now!! we built a little home on discord with our all too fancy server for just the two of us, but dude your my best friend and I love you + all the weird shit that happens + all the fucking things we’ve made together. you’ve seen me at my worst and you were there when I lost others so,,, I know I say it a lot but!! I love you!! you’re my world and you meana lot to me!! you’re my best browse ~

@changbiinnbutspookier

Kirra, my idiot, my bitch, my rat, my Minecraft girlfriend. you’re an absolute dick but you mean well. You’ve made me laugh a whole lot and that means a lot because I’m normally alone a lot of the time,,, but calling with u almost all summer (literally) was amazing + we were talking most of the day and it gave me a lot to do and we fucking watched ooos which,,, im still getting over btw + that just,,,,,,,,,,, was a fuck fest tbh. You’re silly and fun but you’re also super good at? expressing ur words,,, n u know when to be serious and u care a whole lot about a bunch of things and u take 0 shit from people and all that's really good and cool and just? you’re a very like,,,, functional idiot who I love a lot ok. and I know i legit never say it bc 1) u don't give me a chance with all fo the kissy noises and 2) Im a shit friend and scared to say that stuff out loud but!! I do!! i cherish you a lot and you made me really happy this summer so!! thank you. 

@hauntedfelix

luna!! my angel!!!! you are a literal guardian angel please dont fight me on this for once.  It’s really? shocking to see how close we’ve gotten so quickly and I don't know,,, I know im a pretty open person but you’re one of the easiest people to talk to. you’ve let me talk about shit and it’s helped a lot and we have a lot of fun + ur really cute >:c *ok the rest of this is written after the thing oops* but!! to continue,,, u know how much u mean to me now lmao. you always keep me thinking ‘straight’ + know when to tell me that I’m being a lil stupid + u just have all these cute lil things u do!! (like ur folder of me being stupid,,,, cute shit) I’ve said a lot to you recently s o i dont wanna start sounding to repetative and I DO NOT wanna count how many times i said cute just now i d k. but you’re my shining star 🌙🧡☀️👭 you mean a lot to me and I’m glad we have eachother.

@glowsvt

Grace!! my sweet starlight, the nations wonderful, caring and ‘patient’, gaurdian angel. now I’m really shit with words compared to you,, it’s pretty obvious looking at this post,,, so I’m sorry for not being able to express how I feel very well!! but!! you!!! are so damn sweet and supportive. You have so much love to give and I’m just happy that I can be around to see and receive some of it. you have such a way with words and its really nice to see that you use them in such wonderful ways. You take every chance you get to make someone feel better and you’re always there for me when I’m pissed or in need of cheering up. You’re such a thoughtful person and I only wish you’d see, that you too, are worthy of all that you give out. You’re even willing to help me with my korean which is really really nice as I’m super slow to learn (oops) but!! u just want to do the best for everyone you love n thats super nice to see!! I love u a whole lot ok!! you’re amazing.

and also thank you to my other friends that I dont speak to as much as I’d like to!! @littlefallenrebel Sophie, it’s almost been a year since we’ve been friends and thats legit crazy. You were one of the first friends I made when starting to make gifs and all that so thank you for putting up with me this long. You’re really good with your art, even if u dont see that!! + I’ll never get over the changbin u did for my birthday. You’re funny + have a thing for small rappers + ur the kindest when it comes to letting me spill things so thank u!. @seungjin-chan Blake!! my writer friend,,,, I seriously admire your writing (apart from the unreadable chapter in cherry and peter + but I KNOW THATS STILL WELL WRITTEN FROM FRIENDS OK) u rly try so much with your writing and seeing u doubt urself is SILLY bc UR AN AMAZING WRITER and all ur aus are so creative and cute + all the little details are amazing.... also ur reaction memes are iconic and I always know what you’ll react to me stupidity with + u always wanna hear about my aus which like!! thank u ur my outlet + spoiler partner SKU GUYS @hoodiehan @00hj @kkvmi + @glowsvt , @hauntedfelix again!! u guys!! u make keeping up with skz + the great anons fun. you all do so much work and I’m really glad that Stay have u guys doing the most for them!! even with how busy u all are + everyone on sku that I dont talk to as much (you all do the best and it’s again, wonderful to see u all helping stay + trying to help with how chaotic skz are)

and now!! (it’s almost over I promise) a tiny follow forever.

NATRUALLY!! everyone already mentioned!! + (I’ll only do the skz blogs I follow + love a whole lot :c )

@realstraykids @devilhan @arqueritefrost @hanjisungz @mirror-mv @ifbin @skzleton @seungminsmile @bhubblemilk @abcdskz @seoschangbin @vampirewoojinnie @bamgchan @kittylixie @skzulls @chimneycloud @stray-kids @bellzy-loves-skz @hauntjin @prodskz

[aldiwali]

8. your favourite graphic and or gif created by yourself

aaa probably this one?? it’s one of the first ones i did but .. the base panel was so good & it just. i think it turned out nice!! also this one was really cute.. i haven’t done gifs past then because i don’t wanna deal with downloading eps & shit like that (i don’t have the patience.. adhd mood) & i feel guilty using others’ gifs as bases even when they say it’s ok but! i think it’s. she’s babey

10. what graphics / gif trends do you dislike most?

i don’t… i don’t really dislike any? um i’m not really “in the graphic community” in that i’ve never like. studied it & i’ve only recently made them & made friends like u who make them too (& ofc bc of that i pay more attention to fully appreciate everyone’s works but!!! aa)

um if there’s a trend... whitewashing SDKFFJ like it’s not so much a Trend as a byproduct of heavy psds? yeah. also i really like soft colors & lining so when it’s just. Harsh (this is mostly from my experience in the rpc) it’s ... yeah.

oh and flashing things?? especially on people’s themes / whatever where there’s not a warning?? i rly don’t have patience for that ;; and those edits where it’s like. it’s clear it’s not meant to be readable / consumed well & it just looks like a blur & u can’t tell what’s going on????

OH AND THE LIP THING. MY PET PEEVE. this hasn’t appeared in the op fandom (yet.. thank goodness) but in the bnha fandom adding a giant lip to characters they hc as black or even to be of color ..... like.. it looks ugly?? first of all bc it’s not done how it would Actually look & kinda just arbitrarily placed like “oh they have big lips look im inclusive :)” & it’s clear they’re just using stereotypes & not putting thought into it? (ex: giving east asians big lips too even though east asians tend to have thin lips????) and it’s just. Not Handled well. and the noses too they’re so often made to be. caricatures really. like when doing indian characters they’ll make it like a giant triangle or something and it’s .... it’s like they tried so hard to be inclusive that they looped around and just made it racist.

11. what graphics / gif trends do you like most?

coloring things sdkfdkfjdskfj it’s so pretty.... i esp love seeing people’s colors for characters that haven’t been given official colors yet, esp when i like them better than the original!! um & just.. everything saint does w their graphics are. SO good i’ve talked abt this before for like an hour in my gc but.. Holy shit

21. how much time do you spend on a single graphic / gif?

i don’t usually do gifs??? like i’ve done it one (1) time. um but with graphics.... it really depends. how complicated is it? is there background? how many charas? do i already have headcanons for what the chara looks like or am i figuring it out as i go along? mmm i’ve been trying to spend more time on my graphics recently so i can try to be more proud of them but? for a single character no background panel... 20 min? it really depends tho because most of mine i make during lectures in class,, meaning that i’m not 100% engaged with it or anything,, it’s more like i’m doodling but instead i’m. editing graphics.

32. the least notes a graphic / gif of yours has ever gotten that you feel deserves way more. (link it!)

agjdskfjdsf i don’t really like my graphics very much? i think i’ve said this before. like to find things for this ask (part of why it took so long) i went through my shit and found like.. 5 i liked. and so it’s not so much “i think i deserve more notes” as i “wish it would have been better before i posted it but also like. i’m done with it at this point..” the ones i do like tend to get noticed, even if it’s like a week after it’s posted? so i think the least is like .. 71 notes? & 72 notes. those 2 respectively fsdkfj. now if it was about my art… there’s a recent alyanette i posted on @/atvie but it’s not rly noticed but that’s ok!! fskdfj

there are some graphics that are low-effort but i wish had more notes just because i want to interact with the fandom but the fandom’s like. Really Small like with lookism & act-age & oresama teacher (like my most recent posts basically) so i don’t really expect much sdfjdkj

38. are you working on anything right now? if yes, show us a work in progress!

i’m not really? like i’ll start one & then i’ll be like. Fuck it. & just never look at it again because it gets buried in all of my other pages but. here’s one from last night?? that im probably never gonna finish also click maybe bc tumblr quality is .. Not Great... this one was wild cause i had my colors in mind & then once i was done with the clothing i just. switched them to the canon colors (mostly) by looking up the anime cap & while it may be more fitting to them i Don’t Like the Colors. also i gave robin a pantsuit. yes i know she was on the fire side of the island but she’s goth smh... u gotta have dedication

ask meme  /  @toooticki​

[linos-teeth]

[1/?] Hhhh sorry for disappearing for a week too it's been a (mentally, but i can sense the howework is coming for my ass soon) busy time ig?? God it went, idk, better than i expected but at the same time worse? Idk im just mostly alone all the time except when i can hang out with friends in the higher grade (we dont have the same schedule so it's rare) but in my class? Fuck, your boy got no one JDSVKS but i think i made a friend today but im not sure?

[2/?] We exchanged numbers and she was nice but she seems too cool,, for me,, idk how to act around new people anymore,, so yeah basically how my week went, alone in my sadness and already crying because of school lol so i feel you, i reallly want to just run away from responsibilities :) my new school is ugh idk, i’m not used to be this free with basically everything so it’s weird for me? Schedule’s kinda ok, ppl in my class are (for now) rather normal, teachers are ALL jdh BOR I N G– anyway!!

[3/?] It’s sad you’re not going to see your friend before next year, god :(( i hope you’ll get good friends at uni,,— and well not stress too much abt real life eiTHER and erm i cant offer advices or anything obviously but fuck yeah i’m (for the 373929th time, i’m sorry for ALWAYS repeating myself) here to listen :(((

[4/4, finally] + dont apologize abt not gif-fing (??) anymore, really, your mental health is way more important!! Take all the time you need to figure things out n all, and understand im not saying we dont care abt your gifs (i personnaly rlly like them!!), but its toTALLY OK AND UNDERSTANDABLE YOU TAKE CARE OF URSELF FIRST anyway i may have forgot things i wanted to say? But its getting rlly long so ill stop here but basically ily and wish u good luck with finding a place and all that stuff! 💕

HELLO FRIEND guess who disappeared for over a week i’m the one who’s sorry :// i feel you soso much wow my mind is just like.....dead i was away for 3 days this week to sort stuff out with the other uni in person like i had to hand in a document to receive another and bus connections are disgusting so i had to stay 2 nights but!!! it went well the counsellor was rly sweet (good bc i felt like i’d offended her when we were exchanging emails rip) and now i’ve got all my documents on the way and i just need them to arrive on time aka monday which is the deadline for applications aND THEN I’M GOOD TO GO!!! i also have a rly nice place to stay temporarily with a family and their baby randomly loves me and the guy and i share the same favorite football club so life‘s quite alright (just the wifi uh....kinda sucks so.........idk what that means for this blog yet)

bUT!!! i hope hw is treating u alright and school too! sucks that the ppl you get along with don’t share classes with you but i’m glad you have them still!! and the girl too i hope she’s still being good and i don’t have to beat anyone up bc wtf nonny i rly don’t think she’s too cool for u!! like coolness rly is subjective and maybe you’re her brand of cool! like i don’t think i’m cool but ppl say i am and i find ppl cool who think they aren’t you feel me?? but yeah anyway i hope that is going well ♥ i get the freedom part i cried sm when i started uni bc they don‘t rly tell you shit any more and me as someone who needs detailed instructions for everything i was like jhaskfjahskfjahskfas

also sue me but i think boring teachers are the best the fun ones usually turned out to be fake for me tbh bUT I DON’T WANNA BE NEGATIVE

but i don’t like the sound of the sad :/// are u feeling better?

bUT YEAH THE PLAN IS TO SHARE WITH U AND MY FOLLOWERS (even tho i don’t wanna rant too much without rly contributing to the community you know) except i’ve been kinda hating tumblr lately esp with birthday season i got some big blog crisis again (ha look at ur part 4......i failed u again sorry) BUT I’M RLY TRYING AND I GOT SOMEONE TO HIT ME WITH A LITERAL STICK WHEN I TALK SHIT ABT MY BLOG SO!! DW

but yeah i’ll try to reply quicker from now on!!! i hope you had a good week pls know that i love you and i’m sending you hugs always ♥♥♥

[hotdadlicense]

ahh for my dearest zhenya @fapfapfashion lover! heres that bfu post i said id make for you like monnnnnths ago i PROMISE i never forgot! just :(:( life. but anyway this was FUN i love youuuu! disclaimer: im not rly in the fandom this is all stuff i see through like just some friends reblogging stuff every now and again and whenever i go to the tag to find stuff sometimes but ANWAY I HOPE its semi coherent <3<3<3 love YOU.

OKAY I FEEL LIKE i said YEH ILL MAKE YOU A MASTERPOST FUCK YEAH but now im like hmmm making a buzzfeed unsolved masterpost is.......not that much cos its like? all there on their youtube channels like its not like music or stuff where theres yknow albums! singles! unreleased songs! special live performances! music videos! documentaries! band info! like its all over on buzzfeed multiplayer youtube and buzzfeed unsolved network youtube but whatever i can ramble about dumb shit and link some stuff so ayeee.

heres the links to the actual videos:

SUPERNATURAL

+ season one // two // three // four // five

+ supernatural: postmortem

TRUE CRIME

season one // two // three // four

+ true crime: postmortem

all eps in order (including postmortem)

personal favs

a vid that bab @chantillystars linked me and i watch it every time im feelin not fresh so i can smile

someone elses better done video round up master post! op ur incredible

now under the cut cos i realy did ramble :(

okay so THE HOSTS!

RYAN BERGARA (insta//twitter)

the fucking creator and inventer of bfu its his baby and im so proud of him and how far its come <3

when the season finale of the latest supernatural premiered it trended at number 1 over the fucking new lion king trailer and he got emo on twitter and insta about it and i cried a lil bit

fucking loves sports basketball or whatever themeparks popcorn and paddington bear

not scared enough of ghosts to not sleep in a haunted house but is scared enough that he absolutely will scream the whole entire time that he is in said haunted house

first ghost encounter was on the queen mary when he was a teenager. the ghost knocked his toothpaste of the shelf and he freaked. and now he has shat his pants at every bump in the night since. icon!

works his ass for to produce mass amounts of content for us like its fucking insane? all up there are like 9 seasons of bfu plus post-mortems and its only been going since 2014?? plus everything else hes got happening??

rly sweet and funny but like in a frat boi kinda way but like. a frat boi you could trust?

SHANE MADEJ (insta//twitter)

wasnt actually the original cohost!

(BRENT was the orignal host but had to beg out a couple episodes in cos he was juggling too many commitments so which fair!)

ryan and shane were desk partners and longtime buzzfeed pals that ? if i remember correctly? interned together back when they first started?

ryan turned to shane one day and was like ‘yo, wanna cohost this show with me?’ and shane was like 'sure.’ and honestly trying to picture it now without shane?? okay ryan and shane just bounce off each other so well theyre like a dream team. god bless them being desk buddies and work pals.

shanes a freak

does not believe in ghosts spirits orbs and all things that go bump in the night like he seems to genuinely want to but like. science and his big ass brain wont let him.

very smart! can rly work a patterned floral shirt! or plaid! kinda gives a dad vibe in glasses but then he talks and its like okay please never supervise a child!

v into history! so much so that he has his own lil show on buzzfeed aka:

RUINING HISTORY

stars him along with ryan and sara (his beautiful and smart and talented gf who also works at buzzfeed <3) with some other ever changing cohosts

hes also responsible for The Hot Dog Saga aka THE HOTDAGA and i know there are people that adore it but! in their own words! id rather walk into the sea.

ryan, too, hates the hotdaga and i feel like this was? about the hotdaga after shane sung something fuck if i remmebr

RYAN + SHANE

these gifs are from the ?second ep? i saw of them honestly it rly sums up the ryan/shane dynamic i guess

but like. the way ryan looks and laughs whenever shane says something mildly funny? hearteyes mutherfucker

above when i said shanes a freak? yeah.

ryan letting shane live as long as he has? true friendship

whenever theyre at the lil desk in their lil basement talking cases shane just talks shit and ryan just lets him and i fucking love them

the LAST FRAME

oh one time they lucked out with a hotel that had a jacuzzi tub <3

yknow what? this was actually kinda sweet. like yeh bitch

shane madej: nations greatest tragedy.

i can hear this in my head just looking at these gifs and it makes me laugh everytime and thats BAD cos a child fucking died

shanes a freak pt.2

OH SHIT one time in postmortem they joked that brent was coming back and shane was leaving and fuck? they had to actually address that it was a joke fUCK

its not all shittalking and screaming there really is some fond and happy shit too

bfu most recognisable and iconic line.

shanes hottest pick up lines when hes on site

the comments on the video for this ep about this part are fucking hilarious please read when you watch that ep

okay its common knowledge that shanes a demon which ill tlak about in a sec but THIS SCENE RIGHT HERE? ryans the fucking demon. like the way hes just standing there, hands clasped behind his back, giving shane (whos acting like a CHILD) that Look? demon bout to kill the dumbass chillin at a haunted house on halloween. come to collet a soul or 10. magical!

OKAY SO SHANE TALKS SOME BIG GAME IN THE EPS but HIS love for ryan will always melt my heart like HE LOVES and cares about ryan so much and supports buzzfeed unsolved so much and whenever things get dumb on social media shanes ready to call it out and make a post or just like. praise ryan (like he rightfully deserves) and yeah im emo about it anyway hes shane being cute part one and heres shane REALLY FUCKING going all out (!!!!!!!!!!.meme)i LOVE him also being cute part two

‘id walk into the sea.’

shanes a freak pt.3

ryan: “Are ghosts real?” shane: *this dumb face*

NERDS

i laughed for like 10 minutes the first time i watched this part thankyou shane

THEM LAUGHING TILL THEY CRIED ABOUT SOMEONE THAT DIED PLAYING THE PIANO

a real insight to shanes mind

ryan really puts up with this

shane got a bowlcut once just for funsies like okay youre no joba but good job i guess

TROPES/ICONIC MEMES/WAHTEVER:

shanes a demon

+ free real estate.meme

+ the office.meme

+ he aint right

+ JALDSHFK FUCK

+ ryan acknowledging that shane is a demon thankyou

+ like the good thing about having a guest fill in on the few times shanes been away has been ryan always being like okay so the demons not here so lets just acknowledge That

goatsman bridge

+ the video that started all this aka the one you reblogged hehhehe

+ what a fucking JOKE

+ an absolute JOKE

+ bridge owner fuck OFF

+ ksdjhfgjhsdkj.meme

sallie house

+ shane was insufferable this episode i fell in love for real how did ryan LIVE

+ like imagine trying to feel your heart beating while fucking shanes over there doing That

+ rock n roll buckaroo

+ swell has become apart of my daily vocal i hate

bobby mack

+ ‘hey there demons. its me, ya boi.’

+ ‘and frankly i dont believe in you, so i feel like im writing a letter to santa claus right now.’

+ tweet.meme

+ overall a great ep

+ can shane calm the fuck down okay i need ryan to make it out of this SAFELY and ALIVE

father thomas

+ ryans FACE also shane being that annoying sibling to ur parents

+ father thomas really went into this thinking he could help these boys to be fair shane was taking notes. ryan was just? dying inside

+ freak

+ imagine being like a 70 yr old priest hearing some dudes walking into ur congregation and overhearing ‘jesus said chill.’

bigfoot

+ ryan does not rly believe in bigfoot but shane does so like you win some you lose some

+ in the least shippy way possible this epsiode is ultimate soft gays going on a hike

+ like its just such a sweet domestic ep

+ <3

+ just happy babbey

[666shiki]

85 Questions tag

i was tagged by @saphore love you babe MWAH

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

last:

1. drink: SPRITE BABEYY

2. phone call: my brother........ the call lasted for literally 17 seconds lmao

3. text message: man i get you............

4. song you listened to: NCT 2018 - Black on Black

5. time you cried: yesterday..... bc i was really soft for seungkwan.. LISTEn i saw a really cute gif of him i cant help it

ever:

6. dated someone twice: nah

7. kissed someone and regretted it: yea : D

8. been cheated on: noo

9. lost someone special: yep

10. been depressed: hasn’t everyone? (lmao caroline this is so accurate im just gonna leave it)

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: noo i usually feel like throwing up the next day

favorite colours:

12. neon red/blue/yellow

13. lilac

14. mustard yellow

in the last year have you:

15. made new friends: yea !

16. fallen out of love: yea:D

17. laughed until you cried: also yea

18. found out someone was talking about you: what.. no? what does this even mean SJODFOKSD

19. met someone who changed you: YESSSS GODD and im thankful for every single one of them

20. found out who your friends are: yeah

21. kissed someone on your facebook tumblr friends list: nope

general:

22. how many of your facebook tumblr friends do you know irl: 2

23. do you have any pets: a tortoise and two dogs !!

24. do you want to change your name: no i actually really love my name

25. What did you do for your last birthday? nothing.. went to school? dskksf i dont really care about my birthday

26. what time did you wake up today: around 10am

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: idk probably was crying at the cute seungkwan gifs

28. what is something you can’t wait for: UHH.. nothing? i never rly wait for anything since nothing happens anyway

29. what are you listening to right now: Seventeen - Oh My!

30. when was the last time you saw your mom: like 2 minutes ago she gave me french fries :]

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: noo i dont think so

32. something that gets on your nerves: EVERYTHING LMFAOOOO im constantly mad about everything even tho i dont always realize it but most of all myself

33. most visited website: youtube and tumblr

34. hair colour: black? that kinda looks like dark brown in the sunlight

35. long or short hair: uhh.. short? medium? im like debating whether i should cut my hair or let it grow sdfkjsdf

36. do you have a crush on someone: i mean aside from idols uhh..... hmm idk kinda? kinda not.. im trying not to let my feelings grow for them ssjhsjhdhsdh

37. what do you like about yourself: my eyes and my eyebrows >:) my friend said that she likes my eye shape? and i fking died love YOU

38. want any piercings: YESSSS god PLEASE but the problem is i would forget to take care of them

39. blood type: idk dude

40. nicknames: raada and raadamus occasionally huora

41. relationship status: been living that single life for 16 years

42. zodiac: scorpio

43. pronouns: she/her

44. fave tv shows: riverdale atm i guess.. i rly love ahs and oitnb too

45. tattoos: no even tho i REEALLY want one:( or two.. or five

46. right handed or left handed: right

47. ever had surgery: nope

48. piercings: none

49. sport: that’s a silly word :) (caroline.. MOOD)

50. vacation: i want to travel to northern finland and japan ! and recently i just really want to go see caroline even tho thats unrealistic but a bitch can dream

51. trainers: the fuck are those

more general:

52. eating: FRENCH FRIES BABEYYYYY

53. drinking: SPRITE BABEYY

54. i’m about to watch: idk bitch probably gonna see if my fav youtubers have uploaded anything

55. waiting for: DEATH

56. want: ohh dude sooooooo many things.......

57. get married: unrealistic!

58. career: i want to do art idk what kind but id love to be a character designer for games or something. GAME ART! thats what id love to do but again .. unrealistic

which is better:

59. hugs or kisses: depends on who the person is

60. lips or eyes: both

61. shorter or taller: either

62. older or younger: older

63. nice arms or stomach: idk either??

64. hookup or relationship: relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

have you ever:

66. kissed a stranger: no

67. drank hard liquor: noo ive drank normal liquor tho

68. lost glasses: i dont have any sdfsdf

69. turned someone down: kinda?

70. sex on first date: no

71. broken someone’s heart: i hope i havent

72. had your heart broken: idk.. kinda

73. been arrested: no

74. cried when someone died: yes

75. fallen for a friend: no? no

do you believe in:

76. yourself: man... on good days. yes

77. miracles: yes

78. love at first sight: yes

79. santa claus: he died years ago

80. kiss on first date: yeah

81. angels: yes !

other:

82. best friend’s name: Jemina and Julia..... and another Julia

83. eye colour: green babeyyyyyy

84. fave movie: it used to be As Above So Below but tbh i havent seen it in years so idk

85. fave actor: Choi Minho best actor of all time

i’m gonna just tag @jenofiles and @lukkilucas

[synthfolks]

do all of them for the ask meme :-)

this is going under a read more ahsjglw

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

usually closed.. i dont have a closet at my mom’s and the light’s on automatically if it’s open at my dad’s

2. do you have freckles?

yeah!! u can’t see them as much as usual tho cus i’ve been wearing moisturizer w spf in it this summer and makeup someof the time but naturally i get a lot

3. can you whistle?

yes

4. last song you listened to?

cellphone’s dead by beck (i have the gorillaz pandora station on at work rn okay)

5. what is your favorite color?

various shades of blue

6. relationship status

taken!

7. what is the temperature rn?

63 degrees.. it’s night

8. did you wake up cranky?

i don’t think so?

9. how many followers?

1458 (most i got several years ago and probs aren’t active)

10. zodiac sign

gemini sun… aries moon cancer rising

11. what is your eye color?

turquoise

12. take a vitamin daily?

i used to take a ton of supplements but now i just take my meds

13. do you sing in the shower?

sometimes not usually

14. what books are u reading?

i just finished the miseducation of cameron post and am sorta between books rn 

15. grab the nearest book to you, turn to page 64, give me line 14

“old peace there, and something in the air that smelled like”

16. favorite anime

who do u think i am 

17. last person you cried in front of?

i think my grandparents but possibly my mom

18. do you collect anything?

i hoard like, everything but i don’t rly consciously collect anything. maybe cd’s and i used to collect gems/rocks

19. what did you have for lunch?

i didn’t rly have lunch i had eggs for breakfast and tacos for dinner

20. do you dance in the car

yeah sometimes?

21. favorite animal?

not to be boring but like…dogs

22. do you watch the olympics?

some events yeah

23. what time do u usually go to bed?

like 1-ish

24. are you wearing makeup right now?

no

25. do you prefer to swim in a pool or the ocean?

the ocean!! im not super into swimming in itself like it’s fine but i loove swimming in natural bodies of water i could stay in the ocean and lakes and rivers forever

26. favorite tumblr blog?

climbsbian.tumblr.com

27. bottled water or tap water?

ooh boy .. tap water

28. what makes u happy?

my friends and my gf! 

29. post a gif of what ur currently feeling right now

im on my laptop and not gonna bother searching for one

30. do you study better with or without music?

usually with, or like some sort of background noise but if im using spotify or smthing ill get distracted on the app itself

31. dogs or cats?

dogs cus i was raised with them but i like cats too!!

32. if you were a crayon what color would you be?

idk crayon colors uh something gay or a sexy shade of blue

33. playstation or xbox

we own an xbox but i seriously don’t care

34. would you swim in the lake or ocean?

absolutely

35. do you believe in magic?

in a sense

36. what color shirt are you wearing?

brown and blue

37. can you curl your tongue?

ya and i can do the w thing too

38. do you save money or spend it?

this is such a weird question iike i try to save money but i end up spending a lot on gas and food and random shit (like CD’s and clothes)

39. is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

the package for the chocolate covered sunflower seeds im eating, the strap of a childrens climbing shoe and some random hot pink paper peeking out of a binder

40. do you have an obsessions right now?

excluding the OCD sense of the word i don’t think so really

41. have u ever caught a butterfly?

i’ve had them land on me!

42. are u easily influenced by other people 

yessss :/

43. do you have strange dreams?

usually yeah 

44. do you like going on airplanes?

i mean they’re fine

45. name one movie that made you cry?

i can’t think of anything specific rn but i’ve cried at any movie with like an animal death 

46. peanuts or sunflowers seeds

i used to not like sunflower seeds but im eating them rn and theyre good in certain contexts, but peanut butter’s better if we count that

47. if i handed you a concert ticket right now who would you want the performed to be?

gorillaz but only if @sashs got one also 

48. are u a picky eater?

nope!

49. are u a heavy sleeper?

not really

50. do you fear thunder/lightning?

in an abstract sense but i’ve never rly gotten actually scared in a sitaution

51. do you like to read/write

yeah i do but i’ve been bad abt it i wanna read more again

52. do you like ur music loud?

sometimes yes and i like it loud in my car and i don’t mind loud music at loud events/concerts n stuff but honeslty if i have it loud in my headphones or whne im playing stuff out loud i get stressed cus im very hypervigilant and it’s hard for me to process audio when there’s other stuff

53. would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents?

carve pumpkins

54. put your music on shuffle what is the first song that came up 

kill the director- the wombats

55. what season are you in right now? (weather)

it’s summer babey!

56. what are you craving right now?

a cold can of enlighten mint yerba mate. also gf

57. post a screenshot of your tumblr feed

????

58. what is your gender?

lesbian (yes i know it says gender)

59. coffee or tea?

coffee but tea’s good too!!

60. do you have any homework right now?

i probs have summer assignments but i havent seen what they are yet

61. what is your sexuality?

lesbian

62. do you make ur bed in the morning?

not regularly

64. favorite social media?

tumblr unfortunately

65. what’s ur opinion on instagram stories?

they’re fine i like watching them but they can also get rly weird n fake sometimes, which isn’t a result of the stories themselves but the culture built around them

66. do you get homesick?

not rly but ill miss specific ppl and get nostalgic for old places and old places i used to live

67.are u a virgin?

no

68. what shampoo and conditioner are you using right now?

whatever shampoo’s onhand and tresemmes moisture something conditionter cus it’s the only thing that detangles my damaged hair

69. if you were far from home and needed to sleep for the night woudl you choose to rent a crappy motel room for $60 or sleep in your car for free?

depends where and how hot it is, if it’s cold ill get a room but if im in a safe enough place and it’s not freezing im fine w sleeping inmy car. im a climber

70. are both of your blood parents still in your life?

yeah

71. what’s the next movie you want to see in theaters?

infinity war if it’s still playing, otherwise idk mamma mia or mission impossible? idk what’s in theaters rn 

72. do you miss ur ex?

i think about them a lot but i don’t think i miss them. 

73. what is your favorite quote rn?

uhh idk

74. what eye color do you find sexiest?

idk brown?

75. did you like swinging as a child? do you still get excited when you see a swingset?

yes and yes

76. what was the last thing u ate?

carrot and hummus

77. what games do you have on your phone?

i used to have way more but i deleted most of them on my old phone cus of space and most of the ones i actually played were on my ipad, uh smash hit, 2048, white tiles, solitaire, minesweeper, line bubble, lovestruck

78. would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? why or why not?

uhh yes ? bc homeless ppl still deserve to .. live???

79. been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

yeah

80. stalked someone on a social network

not like actual stalking but looking through the way everyone does sometimes yeah

81. do you like meeting new ppl?

yeah!

82. do you wear rings?

no

83. do you sleep with ur bedroom door open or closed?

closed

84. what are three things you did today?

went to work that’s where i am right now and there i also:

played ping pong w a child

watched a dog named dyno

85. what do you wear to bed?

usually a big t shirt and underwear, or pajama bottoms and a tank top

86. list all of your different beauty products you have rn

uh i’ve been wearing moisturzier from trader joes, lorac foundation and this light powder stuff from this organic brand my aunt works for, and mascara sometimes and then various chapstick. i have more makeup like eyeliner and eyeshadow, blush and lip products but im not gonna list all that

87. are u a day or night person

depends

88. list all of your video games

im not gonna bother

89. tell me about a dream you had and when it happened 

i keep wanting to tell ppl about my dreams lately and then forgetting them so all the only thing that’s coming to mind are the recurring tsunami dreams i get. my dreams often involve like challenges and are very controlled and systematic and incoroporate parts of my life and ppl but im boring and can’t rememebr anything rn 

90. favorite soda drink

ginger beer

91. what sounds are your favorite?

idk musical sounds? water?

92. do you wear jeans or sweats more?

i don’t wear sweats v often i usually wear pants that aren’t jeans

93. how do you look right now?

fine my hair;s nice rn and wavy and i like my outfit but i hate my face rn 

94. name something that relaxes you

climbing

95. what tattoo do you want?

i want mountains and some climbing related stuff, and i want a floral pattern on my thighs when they’re healed enough. also a heart or smth gay and small on my hip

96. favorite youtuber

i don’t rly watch youtubers (i used to but was nvr that into it) maybe chris fleming and i like the wondrous life of caleb gallo

[jooheongif]

hey how do you create your gifs? because im thinking about making a blog soon one I get a laptop also what programs do yo use and video download

(sorry this is kinda long so putting it under read more)

hey anon, im not sure if u wanted a tutorial or just a general answer but heres a list of what i use to make gifs:

the comp i use is a macbook pro (which i rly shouldn't be making gifs on bc it's too old and one day it's just going to...give up on me but at this point im too attached to it :( if i could get new comp in the future though, i'd get a windows one since apple purposely slows down their products as it ages... the lag that comes w it is a real goddamn btch of an unsatisfactory situation when making gifs)

firstly i use avisynth to start the gifmaking process

brandinator, god of avisynth has a tutorial [here] on how to install for windows

unfortunately for the mac tutorial that i used to install avisynth, the op blindkpop (bless them i hope they are doing well) deactivated their blog and i can't remember the steps on how to install it (but if i find smth in the future ill let u know)

i recommend learning how to make a gif on photoshop first before learning avisynth

after avisynth, i use photoshop cs6 and topaz

i'll link u to some recent-ish tutorials on how to install and download photoshop but im sorry i can't confirm that these work and install alright bc the photoshop i hav rn was from a few years ago (and my university gave it to me)

photoshop cs6 windows: fatenumberfor's [tutorial]

photoshop cs6 mac: [this tutorial] might be helpful. the ps trial link might not work so [here]

for the topaz plugin: [this link] for both windows and mac

yeahps has more photoshop dl resources so if none of these work, try another on [this] tag

i recommend these vids [this for windows] and [this for mac] to learn how to make a gif on photoshop

for downloading vids:

i always download from the most original source at greater than or at least 720p resolution (youtube, v live, naver etc) or i get them from mx dvds

for youtube: i use [4k video downloader] which is available for both mac and windows

here are some useful vids on how to use 4k video downloader: [windows here] and [mac here]

for vlive (non-channel+): i use [soshistagram]'s online downloader. a helpful tutorial on how to use this as well as other ways to download vlive vids can be found [here]

apparently [videograbber] also works for downloading vlive

for naver: [2getflv] online downloader works well even if it's blocked in your region [this] tutorial explains how to download from this website

i try to avoid using .ts files for performance gifs bc it lags my computer but if i do use them, they are either from [monsta_x_mas], [kpopexciting] or [kpop24hours]

if u wanted a tutorial on how i actually make gifs, pls let me know and ill try my best to make one for u but it would be for a mac (my free time is limited atm so it'll take some time for me to write it up though) pretty much all of the things i know abt making gifs are from others' tutorials on how they make gifs..i know nothing and im only able to make gifs thanks to them :( [yeahps] has a lot of tutorials for making gifs which helped me a lot !

i hope there was smth helpful within this mess :( sorry if it's not as detailed as what u were looking for but if u ever need help, u can always send me a msg and though im still mediocre at this stuff, ill try my best to help u out w things i do know how to do 

when u do start making gifs, i hope u hav a fun doing so !! dont be too harsh on yourself if it doesnt turn out the way u like the first time around. as with all things we practice in life, with time u will surely get better at it. good luck w making your blog !! id like to see ur blog when its made if ur comfy w sharing it w me !! hope u had a lovely day !!! 

p.s. i forgot to link the dashboard sizes for gifs whoops: [here] 

[hwarangbangbang]

im jaebum » kiss the girl

i got the idea of doing this from reading a bed sharing AU i found on Tumblr, you can find it here. i take no credit for these prompts or gifs, however i do take credit for writing these stories.

mark | jaebum | jinyoung | jackson | youngjae | bambam | yugyeom

title- kiss the girl prompt - “we fell asleep on the couch together on accident, how did my hand end up in your hair? were you breathing on my neck?! (why did I get tingly???????)” pairing - im jaebum/fem!reader tags - drinking, fluff, again hickies, suggestive snuggling, good morning anacondas, train to busan s p o i l e r s im sorry, they're meaningful hickies tho, is that even a thing, little mermaid reference ayyyye, bambam just rly likes hello kitty ok word count - 2,009 words author's note:  im sorry this chapter was so shitty, i just got done with school and i have a job so i work like 5 days out of the week, and i have college and payments and bills and ew. But i will try to be as productive as i can with the other members! enjoy!

How you ended up like this, you have no idea.

The last thing you remember was boo-hoo crying along with Youngjae at the ending of Train to Busan, probably annoying the hell out of Yugyeom on Youngjae's left and Jaebum on your right of the couch.

Listen, as much as they wanna complain, Su-an deserved her fucking father -- the scene when he made her let go of him in the train car and he forced himself away was brutal to your heart strings -- and he didn't deserve to die in the end. Neither did the buff dude who's name couldn't come to mind at the time in writing this story.

"Hey, (Y/N)-ah?" Youngjae sniffled out your name, you remembered, causing you to look over and he wiped his eyes. "Could you get me another s-soju, please...?" He asked and you nodded, getting up from your spot next to an already passed out Jaebum, head tilted back on the arm of the couch, exposing his neck and god you had way to many drinks.

You remember wiping your tears and trying to worm your way through the sea of bodies across your living room, slung across one another in slumber.

However, there were six things you woke up to in the morning that you were prepared for.

And one thing you weren't.

BamBam was curled up on the coffee table with a Hello Kitty blanket and a neck pillow (you honestly weren't surprised he could fit on there, he's so skinny-).

Yugyeom and Jinyoung were on the floor to the right of the coffee table, Yugyeom using Jinyoung's sweater as a blanket, and Jinyoung using Yugyeom's stomach as a pillow.

Youngjae was laying on the loveseat, Coco (yes, he brought his dog) sleeping on his chest while Mark was on the floor in front of that sofa.

Jackson was snoring quietly in the recliner with one knee pulled up to his chest rather uncomfortably, and his other sprawled out on the foot rest.

All those were expected. Even your slight hangover was expected.

However, the thing that caught your attention was the thick arm curling around your waist, keeping you pinned beneath the owner and the couch. You were on your back, but you couldn't see the face of who was currently making you suffer from so much body heat. However, you could feel a few things that gave you an idea.

He was breathing in and out slowly, his mouth moving slightly against the expanse of your throat as he stirred and you weren't sure if you were still dreaming because no way in hell can this be who you think it is. But all the signs did scream yes. The silky black strands your right hand was entangled in, the piercings you could feel resting against your shoulder, the other hand poking into your thigh-

Wait a minute.

If your head is resting on one arm of his.

One hand of yours is in his hair.

His other arm is around your waist.

And your other hand is fisted in his shirt.

Oh-

Oh my god.

That's a dick.

That's his dick.

His dick is hard-

Im Jaebum's dick is hard-

and it's-

now poking into your leG.

p a n i c-

Then the lips that were pressed against your neck began to part. And that was when the panic began to low-key set in. Open-mouthed kisses were placed on the space just over your jugular, kisses that had you squirming in the best ways. You were actually enjoying yourself. Until you realized how incredibly wrong it was as to what you were doing.

You liked Jaebum, but he didn't like you. And it was wrong of you to let him do this to you, knowing that he had no idea it was you who he was doing it to. His morning wood had nothing to do with you, his closeness, his tongue technology (a to the g to the u to the sTD- sorry) all of it had nothing to do with you. It was just his dream, and it didn't involve you-

"(Y/N)~"

Or, dreams do come true and he just moaned your fucking name.

His voice startled you, causing you to jump. Which was a bad idea. Because that caused him to switch positions, so now he was on the bottom (hehe, bottom) and you were laying over him, his arms tightly around your torso so you weren't moving anytime soon.

aND YOU COULD feEL his dICK.

Anaconda. Cock-A-Doodle-Do. Pool Noodle. Hot Dog. Banana. Incredible Hulk. The terms are endless but it was there and o h m y g o d. Do you scream, do you cry, who the fuck knows.

You were about to wake him up when what he said next had your face redder than whatever 'set' he was complaining about. "Black makes you look sexier, (Y/N), more dangerous... I like it." Fuc- it's okay, you were fine.

"Jaebum... Jaebum-" You called softly, lightly patting his cheek but all that got was a nose twitch and a small groan. You sighed, before it dawned on you. You'd liked Jaebum for a while... when were you going to get another chance like this? You always thought since you were the third oldest out of the group of friends, two months older than BamBam, that he saw you as some kid. I mean, you two talked amongst each other about photography and such, but he never looked like he saw more of you.

Well, this was a game changer.

Taking all the courage you had, you leaned down and you kissed him. It was quick, barely even a full second, but you pulled back and scanned his face, but found no signs of consciousness.

Until he smirked a few seconds later.

"I knew you liked me, (Y/N)."

His sleepy smirk turned into a full on grin as he flipped the two of you once again, now both your hands on your stomach and his on either side of you, holding himself up. God, he looked gorgeous even when he was just getting up; his hair matted on one side, his voice deeper than ever, it rivaled Jackson's even.

You were pretty sure that you looked a mess.  Ruined eyeliner from crying with Youngjae at the end of the movie – your breath probably smelled straight from a dumpster with how much you'd drank combined morning breath and it didn't sound like that good of a combination. You probably even had some drool dried on your chin.

You were sputtering like a dying engine trying to figure out what the hell to say. But he said it for you. "I... I know that I don't seem like I have feelings... for really anything." He confessed, catching your attention down to his plush pink lips just begging for yours. "Jinyoung and Youngjae have been working with me on that- I promise." He added, slightly caressing your cheek with his thumb.

“Oh my god, shut up I have a hangover let me sleep!” BamBam croaked out in his slightly deep voice – it was in English, surprisingly, rather than Korean or even Thai – and he just rolled over on his back to face the other way, the small Hello Kitty blanket barely covering his thin, lanky form.

This caused the tension in the room to shift. With you frozen beneath him, after the outburst from BamBam it caused you to go into a fit of giggles; ones you hushed yourself with your hand to keep from waking him up more. Jaebum was no better, biting his bottom lip to stop from laughing himself. After you two calmed down, he resumed his monologue.

Do you think he practiced it?

He totally practiced it.

For the sake of your own ego, you led yourself to believe he practiced it.

"I know I might treat you like a kid sometimes, but that's just because I'm scared of getting close to someone... someone I like a lot and have them leave me in the dust just for my fame. But I-... I know you won't do that to me, (Y/N)... right?"

God, it broke your heart to hear such things come from the singer's mouth. He'd been your friend since he was in the JJ Project, when you and Youngjae were just itty bitty trainees at JYP. Then, you'd landed a job in the production of GOT7, and were a on a team as a artist for their albums and their brand. But you always were honest with everyone, especially the GOT7 members, they were like family to you.

But Jaebum... he was more. He made your heart flutter with every passing glance.

You'd had a crush on him, even in his awkward blonde  JJP phase with Jinyoung -- who was like an older brother to you. You would barely talk to Jaebum as a trainee, and when you weren't cutting it for debut, you were surprised to find yourself in JYPD-nim's office, and have him tell you that you got a job instead.

You didn't know it, but when Jaebum was told of the trainees that weren't debuting and were being let go from the company, he had to make sure you were kept on the team. He didn't know how to tell you of his feelings for you, but he would keep you around until he did.

And here he was.

C O N F E S S I N G.

"S-So, (Y/N), will you-"

"Yes. Yes, a billion times yes, just.. one thing."

He tilted his head, a big sleepy grin on his face at your acceptance of his feelings as well as reciprocation. "What's that?"

You bit your lip to hide your smile.

"Kiss me?"

And he sure as hell did. He kissed everywhere -- your eyelids, nose, cheeks, chin, lips, everywhere he could reach, leaving you in giggles. Until he kissed somewhere that had you making other noises that you had to clasp your hand over your mouth to hide.

He left exactly five marks on your skin. One for each year he knew you. One for each year that he should have told you. One for each year he left behind with you.

Just as he was finishing the last one, with you just barely managing to push him away from your neck so you could have a minute to breathe without it being into your hand, you heard a round of 'ooh's' sounding around the room.

"Jaebummie-hyung got some!"

Oh my god, Yugyeom. Go back to sleep.

"Good, now he'll stop complaining about her talking with Jackson more than him."

That was Jinyoung.

"She doesn't talk with me that much more!"

You were red in the face.

"Aish! You woke up Coco and now I have a headache!"

"Yah, Youngjae-ah, I think there's pills in the bathroom-"

Everyone was awake aside from BamBam, who was still snoring comfortably on the coffee table, passed out drunk.

And here you were, buried under Jaebum with marks littering your neck from him.

"Come, Jaebum! Kiss the girl!"

Jaebum looked down at you, a big grin on his face.

general masterlist

[ohoshi]

lmaoooo at us writing anna karenina to each other (yes i read all your tags and i love it)

i loved all the memes you put in your message hehe and i would put some too but TUMBLR WON'T LET ME (bc i'm anonymous 😭 ). once i reveal who i am in 2 weeks i will send you all the jaemin gifs and memes!!

ok my fav moments...so nana first: i actually kinda dont like aegyo but i find it so funny how the dreamies pretend to throw up and look away from him whenever he does it HAHA. i think the most recent time dreamies were on weekly idol, jaemin was doing the ottoke song and then he was like "i cant see the lyrics" and the dreamies died laughing but he was like what happened 😂 and in the same episode at the end he called eunhyuk by the wrong name and the dreamies were on the floor laughing but also like "omg did i really just witness that" and it was hilarious (and nana actually turned red aww)!! but the compilations on youtube of jaemin complaining for 8 min straight are also funny! and how he's not rly competitive unless he wants to be, so he just makes his members happy (like during nct dream in wonderland when he gave up one of his snacks to get one that renjun wanted 🥺 im soft) also, i too am a basic bitch who is whipped for his "ice cream" part in boom and "let's roll" in ridin lmaoooo

now mark! i totally agree i love his panicked gay moments HAHAHA and whenever he gets flustered or embarrassed it's actually the cutest thing ever!! i think one of my fav moments is the nct127 video (N'-88 vlog to be specific) where theyre in japan buying something and he's like "oh ONLY CASH?!" it's so funny. i also agree that i love marks dancing (tho maybe i'm just biased, but the boy can rap, sing, dance, AND is good looking) but i think his dancing/stage presence has improved a lot esp since he got to be in superm and work with so many different kinds of performers/dancers!! like i feel like the 90s love dance practice kinda shows how he's improved (also, i love the nct dance video where he is dancing to simon says)

lastly jaehyun: i love his aura, he seems like he has such a calming presence (unbothered king) like in his nct127 relay vlogs! and there was one video where nct127 had the waiter pick two members who looked the least funny from their pictures, and they would have to pay for the meal...he picked jaehyun/mark and mark was so shook at the check but jaehyun was just calmly like okay let's go i'll pay for it 🥺 but of course ALSO he's such a good performer and his voice is princely...i can't wait for his drama that's coming out next year too?! i'll prob be wrecked but like i'm here for it ahahah

this was really so long but i hope you enjoyed reading it hehehehe, i love how we are just writing so many words fangirling about these 3 men 💀

gafsdghda can’t wait for you to reveal yourself i am already so excited!! 😽

me neither personally i hate aegyo i wish they would stop doing it bc it just..... looks bad.... and makes me cringe... hard.. SO I RELATE TO DREAMIES A LOT even tho nana’s aegyo is not TOO bad  🤷 (still bad tho, actually the only idol whose aegyo doesn’t suck is jungwoo i think?? it somehow comes naturally to him as a person)  I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT GSDFAHGFDA omg nana was SO EMBARRASSED i lowkey felt bad but it made me laugh so much.. and OMG THANKS FOR REMINDING ME i wanted to point that i love how he’s not at all competitive bc same lmao and how caring he is for his members<3333333 so precious 🥺🥺🥺 how is he not everyone’s bias?????? handsome, cute, adorable, caring, funny, quirky and drinks a lot of coffe? what a perfect guy how do i take him all to myself

omg i see what you mean because i noticed the same thing!!! (which is not surprising for me bc i’m a dancer myself so i always pay attention to these things shgdafhda just like i noticed that nana performing riding before maw and after maw is so!! different!! he literally does it better now, his body alignments are better and his moves are very well executed hasjdha i am so proud to see my boy improving 🤧 i guess being in maw really benefited him) i love superm so much and i love that mark is in it bc no one does it better than him let’s be honest 😏 glad he can benefit from it, to work with great idols such as taemin, baekhyun and kai is an honor, but mark is so great you can’t really say that he’s so much younger and less experienced than them

UNBOTHERED KING damn right he is i love that for him hgsadh yk what i also love when it comes to jaehyun? the i like me better cover. everything about it. i prefer to listen to his version rather than the og version.... and don’t even get me started on the video... in my version of heaven all i’m doing is watching that video and listening to that song adjghsjdg  oh right his drama!!! i’m so excited!! i watched jaemin’s drama too and i..... yk shit’s gonna get real when i call him jaemin instead of nana  ok don’t kill me for this but i-- didn’t like it..... i mean it was entertaining to say the least but it was so cringey gdhafgdaf nana’s character was kinda sweet but also kinda boring bc most of the time he’s just :| so that was boring ahsdfhgas at least we got some nana bf material so that’s cute i guess,,, anyways,,, i hope jaehyun’s drama is better!!! let me know have you seen nana’s drama and also what you thought of it?

i enjoy reading your asks so much<33 thank u

[saveme-ruinme]

Boyfriend Minhyuk

A/N: this was requested so long ago omg im so sorry that this took me this long! But i did it! I hope u like it!

Highkey fuckin annoying

Dramatic™

Bothers you allllllllll the time

Sometimes to be cute sometimes just to piss u off

Depends on how bored he is and how mischevious hes feeling

Always texting and callin u

Doesnt matter if hes got nothing to say he just wants to know what ur up to even if ur not doing anything

Sends u hella selfies and expects hella selfies back

Doesnt care if ur sitting on the toilet just show him a pic of ur face

Hates being ignored but will ignore u if u piss him off

Which hardly ever happens tbh bc hes super chill and easy going so it takes a lot to piss him off

He really only gets mildly annoyed with u but doesnt go much further than that

Mostly bc u back off when he does that stare where hes trying not to look annoyed but he u and sticks his tongue in his cheek

Thats when u know u better chill before he gets super upset

Tells u he loves u in the most cheesy way he can think of bc he likes the way u get all flustered when ur embarrassed

Tells u while doing aegyo or greasing up to u or singing it to u while down on one knee and holding ur hand out in public so everyone can see

And ur like omfg minhyuk can u chill i get it u love me

Wont stop embarrassing u until u also proclaim ur love for him

Then will try and make out with u on the spot

AFFECTIONATE always playing with ur hair or pinching ur cheeks and telling u how cute and pretty u are

Like what he does to the other members mostly jooheon tho

LIKE THAT ONE GIF WHERE HES RUNNING HIS FINGERS THROUGH JOOHEONS HAIR AND CALLING HIM PRETTY

Theres a reason why all the other members go to him to be cheered up hes rly fuckin good at it

Hes described as the mood maker in the group and its the same with ur relationship

Minhyuk is such a bright and cheerful person that its so easy to get consumed by it

Its honestly so refreshing especially if ur like me and spend the whole day in a sorta dull haze

Having Minhyuk around is that feeling right after u finished spring cleaning and u get to sit down and enjoy ur clean house and relax with a cup of tea or something

Always happy and energetic and it rubs off on u so ur always smiling around him

Sometimes it does get a little overwhelming but hes so good at reading ur emotions that when he sees that its becoming too much for u he will calm down immediately

Hes hella extroverted too so hes always gonna wanna go out for dates

Like lets go out to the amusement park! Or the zoo! Or the aquarium! Lets go somewhere!

And ur like ……..minhyuk pls its 9am can we eat first

Then minhyuks like oh yes food! Oh where should we go? Oh lets go to this cafe! It has dogs!

Everything is an adventure with him he always makes the most mundane things exciting and fun idk how he does it but im jealous

Said he likes chubby girls so hes gonna always wanna get food tbh

Asking u if u have eaten when he sees u

Offering to buy u food all the time even if u have eaten

He just wants to make sure ur eating well doesnt care if u gain weight

If u complain about ur weight hes gonna give u a detailed analysis on why ur beautiful plus make a whole album dedicated to u accepting ur body the way it is and ending it with food and making sure ur eating well

Into alllllllll the pda

Kisses u

holds ur hand

hugs u

does everything

Minhyuk had absolutely no shame he will grab ur ass in public he does not care

Especially if someone is eyeing u up then he will literally grab and squeeze an entire handful of ur ass while making eye contact with that person like thats right bitch this is mine dont even think about it

The jealous type

Like hes a scorpio even if he seems chill with everything he will get jealous

And he gets petty when hes jealous bc hes a snake

Like i said he will shamelessly grope u in front of whoever just to prove a point

Will probably apologise later if it makes u uncomfortable and will try and not let it get to him but yeah probs not

Once whoever was makin eyes at u is gone hes back to normal

And ur just like bitch pick a mood goddamn ur giving me whiplash

Likes it when u baby him

Bc hes a big baby and just wants to cuddles and kissed

Gets whiny when u baby him to the point where u roll ur eyes

But ur not gonna stop babying him bc hes cute when hes like that even if it is exasperating

Dont tell him tho bc then he will never stop acting like that and it will get real old real fast

Sings to u!!!

Whenever u ask and even when u dont he will sing to u

Like full on serenades u sometimes and makes a whole show out of it and makes u laugh

The two of u have stupid little debates over everything if ur very opinionated like him

Not in a mean way its always just minor disagreements that sometimes get too loud

It why the rest of monsta x doesnt like hanging out with the two of u lmao

Well that and minhyuk is all over u all the time

Probably a sadist honestly

Minhyuk is chaotic neutral on a good day but when hes in a mood hes in a mood

Obviously hes gonna get the okay from u and set boundaries and stuff bc at the end of the day ur well being is the most important

But man once he does he jumps in head first

Teases u til u start crying and just smirks at u mocking ur tears

Like when he eats u out he will only use the tip of his tongue or just play with ur pussy

Enough to stimulate u but not enough to get u off

Degradation is his shit he loves to demean u if ur okay with it Its such a stark contrast from how loving he is during the day that u sometimes wonder how hes the same person

Makes u choke on his cock bc its fun watching u gag and seeing ur eyes water as i struggle to swallow his entire length down ur throat

The type to dabble into all sorts of weird shit if ur cool with it

Honestly its such a turn on when he turns into a snake and decides that he doesnt give a fuck about anyone but himself

No? Just me? Cool alright but he takes that approach with sex

Not all that rough tbh just very meticulous in how hes going to wreck u

He will u tease u to tears then use u to get off and be like alright that was fun goodnight and leave u high and dry

Ur not allowed to get urself off either sorry u gotta wait for when minhyuk wants u to cum good luck

When he does tho he goes in

Its borders on overstimulation bc he will make u cum seven times in one night if hes left u hanging for like two weeks

Will probably just keep going til u pass out

Bright side is the next morning u wake up feeling refreshed and minhyuk is there to take care of u in the soft loving way

ANYWAY MINHYUK IS SO SOFT AND LOVING BUT ALSO A LITTLE SHIT WHO LIKES TO MAKE U SQUIRM

BUT HE LOVES U AND WANTS THE BEST FOR U ALWAYS

SOMETIMES HES LIKE THE SUN BUT THATS OKAY BC U NEED THAT TO SURVIVE

APPRECIATE MINHYUK AND STAN MONSTA X