#rightfully so I had so much trauma and no help tbh

[dark-elf-writes]

You don’t have to if you don’t want to, but I would like to hear about your break up stories, mainly out of morbid curiosity but also cause I have a weird sense of humor and I probably would find it funny (like in a that’s messed up way not a that’s a normal thing)

Have one of my tamer ones as a teaser:

This isn’t technically a breakup because we werent officially together but we were pretty close friends and super physically affectionate and we’re dating in all but words tbh.

My house was the hang out house because my dad was never home and even when he was he was probably drunk and it was very easy to sneak guys in (read: walk through the front door and gaslight this frown man that it was just me what are you talking about) also on some level I don’t think people liked leaving me there alone for obvious reasons.

BUT.

This day it was me and for of my guy friends including that best friend I mentioned in the ambulance story pre the fight (now that I’m thinking about it this could have been the reason for the fight).

So we’re all in my room which is the entire attic. Two of the guys are on the couch, best friend is down stairs making snacks, and I am on my bed with the guy I wasn’t dating but kinda was.

Only I’m someone who can be super fine with physical affection one moment and super not fine with it the next. (My current friends treat me like a cat that has chosen them whenever I decide to give affection. I once asked for a hug and they stared at me for ten seconds before asking what was wrong.) Not BF put his hand on my leg and this was not a touch friendly time so I told him to stop.

He didn’t.

I moved his hand.

He moved it back.

I start getting annoyed. I tell him to stop being a dick and keep his hands to himself.

He says “You know you want it.”

Now at like fifteenish when this story takes place I was deep in the depths of so many untreated mental illnesses including a healthy dose of BPD that meant my reactions to anger aren’t always the best. And i recognize that violence isn’t always the answer now but at the time… look man I didn’t get to see a psychiatrist until after the ambulance episode where they all but forced me too.

I got up. Went to the lamp at the foot of the bed.

One of these mother fuckers but shittier and all black (I was a little emo what can I say) that was missing a few shades because my friends were shitty and broke my shit constantly.

And I picked up that lamp and threw it with all the force in my body directly at that kid and started shrieking at the top of my lungs.

BFF comes up from downstairs. Sees me losing my mind sees the boy who mind you was like six feet tall and built like a brick shithouse. Sees the other two on the couch gaping at me with something between shock and awe because while they all knew I was feral no one had ever seen me actually lose my temper before/be hurled so deep into the middle of a BPD episode so quickly.

BFF says I’m overreacting (I mean yes but also kinda no. Inset a boundary. It was crossed. It was laughed at to my face. I set a different boundary with a lamp) I punched BFF. Finally the other two get with the program and start restraining people. (Mostly me and bff because he was trans and the favorite and I was at the time the only “girl” I’m screaming the whole time telling them to get the fuck out of my house and that no one was allowed to fucking touch me and all sorts of things I don’t remember. Pretty sure I called BFF something for taking the other guy’s side I was pretty hurt about that. Punched the brick chimney at some point in all of this and probably broke my hand idk.

And the rest of the memory is gone because my teen years are not something I remember very clearly tbh.

As a fun small town USA anecdote:

That kid I threw a lamp at? His dad is a lawyer. THE SAME LAWYER THAT WORKED WITH MY PARENTS AND SISTER TO GET SOLE CUSTODY OF MY NEICE LIKE SEVEN YEARS AFTER ALL OF THIS WENT DOWN

Needless to say they never invited me to talk to the lawyer even though I had been one of the people threatened my by sisters baby daddy

[b0mblover]

Hate, in Every Sense of the Word.

By: J

major tws for; suicide mention, domestic abuse, abuse, sexual assult mention, murder mention, (really just alot of violence tbh) self harm mention

uh, sorry? that theres so many tws, ig also minor tw for mention of sex too.

uh haha i uh, can you tell what happened tonight? it wasnt even the worst one, just, im tired of it.

talk abt living out of spite bc mannnn, thats all i been going off of for a good while now!

i uh, i really wanna make a certain food bc um. (LOOK I WANNA MAKW A LESS OILY FUCKER OKAY) but my father is awake meaning my mother will be too soon but im scared to even go out of my room bc theyre prob gonna fighttt.

hhhrbd okok ill shut up for now, go ahead and read the angry jirou bullshit ig 😭

(oh yea, if it wasn’t obvious. im talking about my mother in this.)

——————————

yknow,

you havent been a great person

or a good one even.

yet you still question as to why i dont love you

or like you,

maybe you have an idea of how much i hate you.

maybe not

i dont really care about your feelings.

at all.

not now.

i put up with this for fucking 14 years.

my entire fucking life.

ive put up with your shit.

but now?

now im done.

you have no idea how badly you fucked up.

when he said that “im sorry im a fuck up” 

yknow.

he mightve not been right for what he did.

but,

it was just a mistake.

it was a goddamn mistake.

you have any idea how many times ive uttered those words too?

how many times ive repeated them?

how many times i fucking meant it?

just because you “had it bad” doesnt mean shit to me.

you have no goddamn right to treat others the same way.

dont give me that “i dont know how else to act!”

bullshit.

bullshit you dont.

you treated your damn boyfriend just fine!

you had a goddamn kid

you had two goddamn children.

with this man that you fucking DESPISE.

you knew it back then too.

you told me you did.

you fucking told me.

almost nothing can compare to the anger i feel to you right now.

nothing.

you have no right to act like that.

no.

you have no goddamn right to hit another fucking living being.

for such a simple mistake.

i dont care if he talked about it since friday.

i dont give a fuck if he talked about it for months.

you.

you as a goddamn human.

have no right.

none.

in the slighest.

to hit another living being.

for talking about something in your eyes “too much”

or making a mistake.

youre a hypocrite.

need i remind you?

you said that after you broke up with the man you were having an affair with.

that youd be a better person.

stop the fights.

stop the beatings.

stop all of it.

and everything would be okay!

.

i didn’t believe you for a goddamn millisecond.

youre a liar.

just how you said i was.

you didnt quit.

you didnt stop.

hell two months after you hit him again!

you threatened to kill him and yourself!

cmon.

dont you get it yet?

i fucking despise you.

maybe to a degree i feel shocked.

but.

i really dont think thats it.

youre the root of my problems.

every single last fucking one.

——————

need i remind you as how i had to learn to cook, because you were too busy with your damn boyfriend to help me?

.

need i remind you how when i tried to show you that i was fucking cutting myself when i was 9 you only talked about how it looked ugly?

.

need i remind you about how many times you said that you didnt care if i hurt myself as long as no one can see it?

.

need i remind you about how you ignored the rope burn on my neck god knows how many times?

.

need i remind you how you denied fucking multiple peoples sexual assault because “it couldntve been like that”?

.

need i remind you of how many times i almost had to be hospitalized because of your neglect?

.

need i remind you of how many nights i spent alone, in the cold, in the dead of winter, just because you wanted to fuck your boyfriend?

.

need i remind you of what you yelled at me so many times?

.

need i remind you of what i seen?

.

need i remind you of how many times you blamed your abusive behaviors on medication?

.

need i fucking remind you of my entire purpose?

.

i dont care about your feelings anymore.

i gave up years ago.

but now.

i dont feel just numb for you.

i hate you.

in every sense of the word.

.

i dont care of what you or anyone else thinks of me.

.

i dont care about what you think of my appearance.

.

i dont care if you think im too thin or fat or whatever word youll use next.

.

i dont care about what you think because you’ll hate me no matter what.

.

you thought id stop being xxxx when you broke up with him.

you yelled at me.

no.

you fucking screamed at me for weeks.

im tired of even putting in the slighest effort of acting as if i fucking care.

i dont give a fuck about you.

and yknow?

if.

no.

if it would work.

if it was possible.

id fucking kill you.

id stab you.

right here.

right now.

to end my suffering.

to end his suffering.

all of it.

id end it all.

i dont care if its wrong.

because i know no one else knows about whats going on.

yknow.

only one person around here knows what youve done to him and me.

and i havent even met her in person.

yknow.

the people i used to be close with from school.

only just learned you had an affair.

i know that.

the police are do-less.

since you know them.

and hes a man.

not a woman.

it wouldnt be taken seriously.

that he should just fight back.

yknow.

youve ruined what life he has left.

his parents beat him.

his ex wife beat him, and cheated on him.

and here.

youve done the exact same thing.

yknow.

he’ll never get to see how love truely is.

because of you.

because of what youve done.

i cant say i really like him either.

but.

that doesnt give you the right to ruin his life.

.

yknow whats worse?

how i know the only reason that so far youve never dared to lay a finger on me.

is because ive proved that i won’t hesitate to beat the fuck out of you right back.

i know i joke about that night.

but.

really.

hitting you for doing that was the best decision i couldve made.

its kept me safer than i wouldve been for years. 

and even now.

if you were to as so much to touch me.

while in a fight.

id do it all over again.

you maybe 100 pounds heavier than me.

but you dont know how to fight against someone who wont just sit there and take it.

i wont forgive you for what youve done.

even if he will.

.

i want nothing to do with you.

get out of my life for good.

[lunabug2004]

New to the stranger things fandom. Do you have any good fic recs? Especially byler.

First of all, omg welcome! I hope you're enjoying being a part of the fandom!

Second, bestie I wish I could supply you more but I don't keep track of the fics I read at all :(. I have a few that I remember so I'll link those after the break! (but I gotta warn that all of them will be Mike-related and not necessarily canon because I have an addiction to his character):

'a cruel summer with you' by andiwriteordie, astrobi, and wiseatom: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48097207/chapters/121281193 Byler summer camp AU. Iconic & rightfully so. So so so good. [Ongoing, currently ~303k words]

'It's still raining. Why is it still raining?' by bouncehouce: https://archiveofourown.org/works/41543979 Mike angst, love it. + Mike&Hopper fiction is my fav tbh (after byler ofc) [Finished, ~2k words]

'The snow won't melt in mid-december' by GhoulSanderson: https://archiveofourown.org/works/45649651/chapters/114871651 Again, pure Mike angst. Love it. Also Byler, but might be pretty slight, I don't remember. [Finished, ~39k words]

'Please stay' by GhoulSanderson: https://archiveofourown.org/works/42486687 Madwheeler. Again, Mike angst but this time with Max. Madwheeler fiction is also my fav (also after byler ofc). [Finished, ~1.8k words]

'Code Purple Series' by BewitchingNotes: https://archiveofourown.org/series/3039501 Pure Mike angst as a series. No Byler unfortunately but very good and very sad. I reread a lot. [Finished, 15 works, ~24k words]

'Force of Gravity' by oceanfruit: https://archiveofourown.org/works/40134231/chapters/100515708 Byler modern AU. Also pretty iconic. Very good. [Finished, ~170k words]

'a stranger things group chat <3' by cosmicbrowniefan: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39748521/chapters/99513723 Byler. Everyone's LGBTQIA+ and it's amazing. This one's just very fun and lighthearted if I remember correctly. [Finished, ~69k words]

This last one's only for registered AO3 users so it's being difficult but it's 'The Darkest Eyes' by light_lanterne. Byler. This one is probably my top favorite but it's incomplete and seems to have been abandoned. It's "a semi canon-compliant character study of mike wheeler, his unaddressed trauma and his relationship with will byers, told through the eyes of a very tired jim hopper who can’t help but to become attached to the boy who keeps dating his children". (Yes this is the only one I'm using the actual summary for cuz I'm lazy by the end of this.)

Anyways, I hope you find enjoyment out of at least one of these! Sorry I couldn't give you more, I haven't read ST fanfic in while as my hyperfixation has died down atm (still there, just not as crazy as a few months ago). Also I'm so sorry for how long this response took me! I had to gather the fics and had lots of family gatherings going on these last couple weeks so my time was limited!

Thanks so much for the ask! I appreciate you so very much! <3

[hidingoutbackstage]

Meta post about Becky in Vendetta

Unlike some people I like to give others the option of not seeing a ridiculously long post so this will go under a cut

Rebecca is one of the recurring characters in RE who gets overlooked or taken for granted the MOST imo. She’s incredibly intelligent and capable and obviously has SO much trauma but she doesn’t get enough focus, from either the series or fans.

Her intelligence has been a staple since the first game; she was only 18 yet had graduated college with a bachelor’s degree in chemistry and she joined Bravo team as a medic. There, it’s established at the beginning that she’s smart and capable, especially when 0 fills in the blanks of how she got there and shows her to be even more capable.

Since Stage came out after Vendetta, (and because the people making Vendetta wouldn’t have cared about Stage anyway) the people behind Vendetta had no idea what Becky was up to in between surviving RE1 and showing up 16 years later in Vendetta. So they decided she worked with the BSAA. Okay, cool.

But since Becky’s a genius, they also establish in Vendetta that since 1 she has gotten her doctorate, and when not an advisor for the BSAA, she’s working as a professor at a university. Very cute ngl, makes her seem humble. Like yeah, she’s helping out this paramilitary on the side, but her primary goal seems to be making technological advances in a classroom setting, as well as giving back to the community of students that she likely teaches.

She also proves herself in this movie to be more than scientifically intelligent, she’s resourceful, as proven when she quickly uses a fire extinguisher as a weapon when she gets surprise attacked, and although feels remorse, does what needs to be done to save herself, both bashing her zombified coworker’s head in and injecting herself with the lab-made vaccine.

More than resourceful, she’s also a good researcher. She figures out that the outbreaks around the Great Lakes are connected, and because of the drinking water from the lakes. She makes the connection no one else does. She figures out how the virus works too, confronting Arias to his face about it after leaving the information with the people she knows can get it into the right hands.

She’s confident too, in the bar scene her speech doesn’t exactly make a lot of sense in context (plenty of the dialogue in this movie feels disjointed at times, especially the bar scene) but her info is right and she rightfully calls Leon and Chris out equally and makes them put aside their differences to work together and stop Arias.

Becky is good at straightening people out in general tbh, like when she rightfully lectures Chris about not quarantining or wearing a mask after being in a potentially infectious area. She calls Leon out for wasting his time feeling sorry for himself, she does more of this in other game (and stage) appearances but again I’m focusing on Vendetta.

She also goes through the worst in this movie. Granted, Chris and Leon might sustain more injuries than her, but neither of them get kidnapped, UNDRESSED (I feel like this goes overlooked A LOT by this fandom), tied up, monologued to by a creep, threatened with medical abuse, injected with a virus, and left to slowly die.

Becky’s virus and her knowledge saves everyone, and she gets very little acknowledgement for her role in that, which is a damn shame.

Her little thumbs up with Chris is cute too, and a nice little callback

[doomednarrative]

please please talk abt claire shes the specialest girl ever

Okay okay so

Since I finally watched Degeneration the other day, I keep thinking about that one scene she has with Leon after they manage to escape the airport outbreak where theyre talking in the tent together, and Leon tells Claire that she went down the path that he and Chris couldn't. And I keep thinking about the Why of it all, why it is that she went the civilian route and working with an NGO instead of being on the front lines fighting like Leon and Chris are.

Because the thing is, she Very much could be in direct combat if she wanted to be. Shes proven time and again that she's extremely capable of holding her own in a fight, whatever training Chris gave her growing up clearly went to good use and she's got the skills to keep herself alive.

But she doesn't Want that.

Yeah Claire may be capable and competent, but it becomes very clear when you see her actively doing work for Terrasave that That is the work shes both extremely talented at, and that she Thrives under. I'm saying this as someone who works a person facing job and takes care of people for a living, but that line of work?? Takes a very specific disposition and demeanor to be able to actually do and do it well. Claire not only has the patience to do all the paperwork and the office type bullshit that comes with the investigative work that Terrasave does, but she also has the kind of compassion that you Need to actually be doing the legwork required to assist people in the aftermath of a crisis. Part of Terrasave's work is to hand out medicine and vaccines and food and stuff like that in areas that have faced outbreaks and are now trying to recover. And if you watch how Claire interacts during the times we get to see her on that kind of duty, Especially when shes working with kids? It's clear that thats the kind of work she's really meant for, and that shes Good at. And in a universe like Resi that's so torn up constantly by outbreaks big and small, there's always going to be a demand for people like her in her line of work, folks who are both good at working with and helping people directly, but who can also do the legwork to help with the more office oriented side of things when it's called for.

Leon is right when he says Claire took the route he and Chris couldn't. Leon both can't because he's been blackmailed into being an agent, but good god could you imagine him trying to do paperwork at all?? The guy gets antsy when he's not out in the field doing active work, or he sits around and gets too deep in his thoughts and not so great coping mechanisms for all the trauma he's been through. He's built for combat even when he (rightfully if you ask me) complains about getting thrown into it. And Chris?? Chris fuckin Redfield?? He's not an office worker either. And this isnt to say that he can't be good with people after crisis, we see how good he is with Rebecca after the university outbreak in Vendetta. He's not Lacking in compassion and care. But he's also someone whos a bit of a hothead and doesn't always have the best handle on those emotions, and he often channels that into fighting directly on the front lines, which is exactly why he's so good at what he does both with BSAA and eventually with Hound Wolf. He's also someone who's just way more suited to front line work and can handle it.

There's always going to be a need for people like Chris and Leon in the field sure, but there's even More of a need for people who do the clean up work, who are good with Helping People directly and who have the patience and care needed to actually make sure survivors are taken care of, and Claire proves time and again that even if she Could be a combatant, she's one of those people who's really suited for the field she ended up in, and she clearly finds purpose in doing that kind of work.

And tbh? I think she had that revelation after finding Sherry in RE2. Sure finding Chris had been her original motive for coming to RC during the outbreak, but the moment she finds Sherry alone and in need of help, and ESPECIALLY after Sherry gets infected and Claire sees how negligent Annette is to her needs?? Claire puts Sherry first until she Knows for certain that she's going to be okay. And I have no doubt that that experience, coupled with Claire's own orphaned upbringing and seeing how Chris probably had to take on a more parental role to her while they were both still kids, is probably what led her to working with Terrasave and being more civilian oriented.

Not everyone can do the work that she does, and that's why it's important that she did actually end up in the field she did. There's always going to be a need for more people like her than there are people willing to or capable of doing it, especially in a universe like hers.

[lowkeyclueless5137]

I think uhh Reverse Haunting Ortho might need a break after uhhh angst and trauma. So uhh it help with that, did he like Fairy Gala(the one where he gets to slay in his fairy gala gear :D)

The thing is... In both og and reverse Ortho is our ssr in fairy gala. He deserves it tbh. :3

But for the reverse only tho:

In here, ofc he was chosen because robo Boi, but this was firstly told to Idia, who then, not wanting to make his little brother feel like he got the role because of just being like this, he twisted around the words and said that Ortho could slay at the runway. He had what it took to be poise and pretty. He could be a great performer and Idia wholeheartedly believed in that so he shared his belief instead of the actual reason Ortho was a choice in the first place.

Ortho, ofc, is very happy about it. It was his time to shine. His spotlight and he will make it worth it. He made sketches, he tried his best to be in theme with everyone else, he researched and did everything in order to serve the best performance he could. Idia was only assembling the new gear only how Ortho wanted. Idia was only there just to help with prepping up the gear and nothing else. He insisted that Ortho could do it and that it would be great. :3

By the end of it all, Ortho does find out, via eavesdropping, the real motive that he was chosen for. He was, rightfully, a bit bummed about it. But Idia hyped him up so much for it and supported him to just have his own spotlight that in the end, that happiness was much more precious than the motive he was chosen in the first place.

Idia also receives a big hug and a 'thank you' by the end. :3

[nani-nonny]

Okay, I think I’m gonna have to organize my peepaws to make it easier for mainly myself haha (organizing my thoughts through this will help with writing the second part of BYMH, I tell myself)

Possible spoilers(?) if you haven’t read Reunion, LCD, DMD, and the snippets/headcanons of WDS (check my pinned)

Reunion is less protective than the other peepaws tbh (but that doesn’t mean he won’t wreck havoc for the kids, he’s the scariest when it comes to the kids). His protectiveness over the kids stems from his gratitude for saving his timeline rather than having adopted them. His attitude is more chirpy and goofy than the other peepaws, and he is overall the more loose or I guess less uptight since he was able to heal easier from his trauma (yes, he still has trauma because he witnessed what had happened and remembers before the reset, so he has his moments but it doesn’t consume his life like the others). He doesn’t consider himself to be a parental figure to the kids, although he left a huge impression on them before he left.

DMD is probably the most parental figure out of all the peepaws as of right now (I like to think WDS will give him a run for his money). He’s extremely protective, as I had mentioned he is willing to die for them. His protectiveness stems from unknowingly adopting the kids (while unironically calling them his kids), gratitude towards them, and simply because he knows how much they’ve been through and wanting to protect them since they’re kids. He’s pretty laidback but tense for a good majority of his time, never allowing himself to not be aware of everything at all times. His trauma holds him back from letting loose, but he gets better as he heals and overcomes his trauma to an extent (but that doesn’t stop him from his senses being on overdrive, don’t tell the kids). He’s calm with a few bad jokes here and there, a great listener because he’s trying to take everything in but that also means he’s just weirdly staying quiet (it unnerves the kids but they take advantage of it).

LCD is not at all protective. Not a protective bone in his body. I’m kidding (we just haven’t finished his story yet so his character hasn’t gotten to this point). He’s very protective in the sense that he has no trouble killing for them and it all stems from his guilt. He’s like an assassin, do the kids wrong and he’s on the way (don’t tell the kids). He won’t die for them like DMD would, nor would he wreck havoc for them like Reunion, he’d just tell the kids to give him a name and the person in question would disappear off the face of the earth without a trace. But other than that, he keeps his distance. He’s an adult figure that the kids aren’t all that close to and are rightfully afraid of him. His guilt keeps him away from the kids, no matter how much one of them wants to see him *cough Little Leon cough*. He’s extremely quiet and keeps to himself compared to the other peepaws (good choice bud, best to stay away). There won’t be any jokes from this guy nor smiles, so he’s the most uptight.

WDS is the most protective out of the group. He pressed “all of the above” and will wreck havoc, kill, assassinate, etc. for the kids. He saw the kids, compared their sizes to Casey Jr and said, “I have to protect them. They’re mine.” His protectiveness stems from seeing them as his kids like he sees Casey Jr, and from seeings kids in the apocalypse living in those harsh conditions. His attitude is more in between DMD and Reunion in the fact he’s less laidback than DMD but more uptight than Reunion. His protectiveness gets in the way of the kids fun and it’s teetering on the line of paranoid, but his trust in the kids keeps him off the paranoid side. The kids (and the ghostly brothers ngl) like to tease him so he’s pretty easy to get along with. His trauma gifted to him from the apocalypse doesn’t get to him as much as it does the others because he’s so focused on the kids (well, that and he had his brothers longer than the others if you don’t count Reunion’s reset). He doesn’t have guilt from his actions or surviving his brothers like the others but what he does have is regret that literally weighs heavier on him the more his brothers talk to him. His regret is his main reason why he tries hard to be more upbeat, especially when he learns that his brothers are watching.

WDS and DMD get along the best while Reunion stays to the side just a teeniest bit because he isn’t exactly sure how to get along with them due to his different story. Although when Reunion gets over it, he meshes pretty well with them as the more goofier Peepaw of the trio.

WDS likes to tease DMD and respects him, but never dares to cross the line because he eventually learns that DMD is a ruthless Battle Nexus Champ and lowkey fears him for that (his Big Mama is obviously different than DMD’s Big Mama since he’s not a mama’s boy like DMD). Reunion also lowkey fears DMD but it also gives him peace of mind knowing that DMD will be able to protect the kids.

LCD is the outlier once again now that WDS is added to the Nonny Peepaws. He knows just by looking at the other peepaws that if they ever learned about what he had done, it will be the end of him. He stays away—far away—from the Peepaw trio and watches from a much farther distance than Reunion once was. He often overhears the other peepaws talking and how cheerful they are and grows lowkey jealous of how they have healed.

I’ll update this more when my peepaws interact some more or when I write more of their stories. Or when I get a better understanding of how they’ll react with each other hehe

[rosietrace]

How would your NRC OCs interact with Mireille?

After, they learned about her messed up life?

Oh I GOTCHU

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Yuuta

Didn't really care much about Mireille tbh

Now before you go and attack Yuuta, he was too busy getting over his own family trauma prior to befriending Mireille

Grim kinda had to convince him to befriend him since eating breakfast with someone you barely talk to but have to live with is.... Awkward

And so our money obsessed bitch did

Naturally, Mireille was cautious during their first actual conversation

I mean, who wouldn't? Yuuta may be a charming guy with good looks but he's also a manipulative asshole when it comes down to it

So naturally it would be awkward

And so began Yuuta's short-lived mission to befriend Mireille and gain her trust

Kinda just went softer with her and made sure she was at ease around him

And by some miracle, it turned out better than he had anticipated

No joke, he genuinely thought he failed after Mireille didn't talk with him for a week

When in reality she was contemplating whether or not he was trustworthy

In the end, Yuuta did end up befriending Mireille while also receiving a slight bonus!

That bonus being finding out her home life was absolute shit

When he found out, he went out of his way to spend a ridiculous amount of madol to buy a gift that could make her feel better

Which, is an honor if you know what kind of person Yuuta is

Ymir

Doesn't talk with her a lot, especially given the fact that he's busy tending to other student's wounds

When he does talk with her, Ymir immediately knows that this girl went through a lot

Judging by her mannerisms, while subtle, he knows that he must've went through some form of trauma that caused her to act the way she does

And also judging by the fact that when she was asked about her family, she avoided the question

So immediately, Ymir knew shit happened to this girl

He ended up interacting with her more often by calling her to help him with his errands, but made sure his motivations weren't creepy whatsoever because well- you know how people make assumptions is all

Mireille would either be cautious of him, or see him as a sort of older brother or father figure

When she eventually tells him, he was rightfully furious, but made sure to keep his cool

Basically became her personal therapist when needed, but definitely knows it's better than being NRC's medical center

Just- overall he cares a lot about her

Freyah

Barely knew who she was and immediately knew... Something was up

Like- She knows Mireille means well and regularly hangs out with her and asks ridiculously convoluted sounding questions

But.... She just had the feeling that something was off with her family for her to avoid the questions involving them

At first, her initial plan was to pry it out of her as subtly as she could

But realizing that Mireille was uncomfortable whenever she made those attempts, Freyah decided to stop and just make sure she felt safe

She slowed down on her odd analogies since it easily confused Mireille-

And as soon as she figured out what Mireille went through...

She basically became her bodyguard

Freyah follows Mireille around a lot and isn't afraid to tell off anyone who looks down on her

Kinda insists on helping her with anything

Immediately apologizes if she said something that made Mireille uncomfortable

Frisk

Really gets along with Mireille since her presence calms her, and vice versa

Sometimes goes to Ramshackle to have a study session with her when it comes to certain subjects

Much like Freyah she didn't wanna pry about her family

But instead of hatching a plan to pry it out, Frisk just.... Doesn't do anything

She's willing to wait until Mireille was ready to tell her about her family life since she didn't wanna seem vindictive

Often goes out to tea with Mireille and likes watching her sketch

Was in awe when she first saw her aesthetic art that she nearly cried

Likes her sense of style even though it's a slight contrast to her gothic lolita aesthetic

Styles her hair when given permission, never out of instinct and temptation to do so

Was low-key shook when she found out she had two ex lovers, but much like her family life, Frisk chose not to pry about it

But when she did find out?

It was a spectacle. No one in Heartslabyul or NRC in general had seen Frisk so angry and showing it so outwardly

Had to be calmed down a pinch by Freyah and Riddle since she was willing to start a rampage

Is more protective of Mireille nowadays and makes sure she's always comfortable in her presence

Grey

Given how busy she is with basically being Savanaclaw's vice dorm head and dealing with Leona in general, it's unlikely that these two would talk all that much unless by some miracle Grey was given more free time

Mireille typically goes to Grey for tutoring on cursed artifacts due to her vast knowledge on the subject

They'd become friends eventually, but not to the point where Mireille would trust Grey enough to tell her about her family situation

BUT, it would happen eventually

And once that happens, there is no stopping Grey from starting a rampage

Given how aggressive she is, it's very unlikely that Mireille would be the one to calm her down

Rather it would be Leona since they knew each other longer and they're also engaged-

Grey offers to give Mireille bodyguards since she believes that Yuuta isn't doing that good of a job

Just, basically became a member of the Mireille protection squad overnight

Nyx

Her curiosity regarding Mireille was piqued, and she wanted to know more about her

Eventually she managed to befriend Mireille and subtly but not so subtly give her discounts to the lounge

It's just a habit she does when with close friends

Absolutely loves her art when she first saw it by accident when visiting Ramshackle

Tried convincing her to show off her artistic skills more and failed miserably

But then.... Nyx noticed something

Whenever she talked about family and making jokes about her own family, Mireille always smiled rather awkwardly and quickly change the topic

So naturally, she pulled a Sherlock Holmes and wanted to get to the bottom of it all

And she did so by making sure Mireille was comfortable enough to speak about it with her

Accidentally broke the glass she was holding when Mireille told her

She was just- Floyd levels of furious. Or more even

Mireille needed to calm her down and tell her that it's fine, but Nyx was not having it

Eventually she DID... But she still needed to be toned down a notch

Much like Freyah, Nyx basically became her personal bodyguard

Lumina

Likely met her before her personality was revealed to the whole of NRC

Mireille was cautious asf around her during that time

Something about how Lumina acted just intimidated and irked her, but she couldn't pinpoint it to anything up until Jamil's overblot

After Lumina began her task on fixing her reputation around campus, she finally managed to have some sort of common ground with Mireille

Since she's obviously a fantastic cook, Lumina's willing to cook anything for Mireille, especially when she's having a bad day

Mireille would probably be one of the few people who Lumina's tiger, Tempest, would like

Her heart broke when Mireille told her about her family situation

She didn't go through anything similar, but she empathized with Mireille and did what she could to cheer her up

Victoria

Mireille had heard of Victoria from Ace after he mentioned how scary the woman is when pissed off

Because of that, she was interested in the young lady, but also somewhat intimidated

She's somewhat amused by Victoria's bickering with Malleus and would honestly ship them together

Victoria finds great peace of mind with Mireille and frequently invites her to Pomefiore to help with her new designs

Mireille's one of the few people who know about Victoria's fashion designing hobby other than Vil, Rook, and Freyah

Is somewhat startled when a nearby window cracks when Victoria is nearby

Even moreso when Victoria's curse is activated and her finger sometimes turns into glass

As for Victoria, she did notice that Mireille never really seems to smile at the mention of family

And obviously like everyone else, knew something was up

Because of how "benevolent" she is(as said by Rook), Victoria chose not to pry and patiently waited until Mireille was ready to tell her

The moment she did, several windows broke one by one-

Victoria was already intimidating in general, but when angered?

That's like meeting Satan

Of course she eventually calmed down when she felt the curse go into effect

But she still felt frustrated because of how much Mireille went through as a child

Any wounds she may have, physically, mentally, emotionally, or psychologically, Victoria will be willing to help heal them

Little by little

Azrail

We shouldn't even be surprised that this mf knew who Mireille was before she even knew about him

When she arrived into Twisted Wonderland, he wasn't even in the sorting hall or whatever tf you call it

He was just in his room watching from the hidden security cameras he implemented

When he DOES go out and attend classes, Mireille was a bit confused

She doesn't see Azrail all that often, so it's natural for her to realize that oh right, Azrail exists

Not in any negative or offensive way of course-

They occasionally eat lunch together and Azrail tutors her on subjects she isn't all that good in

Despite his lack of effort on trying to tutor her, Mireille just gets better grades despite his laziness in explaining a formula

That's basically how they became friends tbh-

When he saw the signs that Mireille's family life isn't the best, he knew he had to get to the bottom of it

Because of the fact that Mireille was from a different world, there isn't any information of her

So unfortunately for Azrail and his poor social skills, he had to get the info from Mireille herself

Because they've been hanging out more frequently during that time, Mireille was more open to tell Azrail about her home life

And BOY did he want to commit a felony against her family when he found out

Man's ended up breaking his pen by how infuriated he was

Ended up making killer drones and gave them to Mireille

Pretty much insisted on her to keep them for "Safety purposes for your sake"

Idia's still surprised that his boyfriend would be willing to be so nice-

[cuntess-carmilla]

Okay so here's what happened (sorry it's long): my spouse and I wanted to try marriage counseling (we good but every couple can use some communication skills imo and I wanted us to get along better and make the marriage stronger), so we were assigned a counselor thru my therapy office. Both my therapist and my psychiatrist are amazing, so I had high hopes going in, tbh. But, the issue started literally in session #2. She asked us about issues that we may think are problems in our marriage, and I mentioned that I worry I sometimes am too much for my spouse because I have frontal lobe damage from the accident that made me disabled (I got hit by a truck), and so I get angry very easily and it's hard for me to control myself (I legit black out). The counselor told me that I needed to talk to my therapist about my anger issues to learn proper coping mechanisms to "control" myself. My spouse seemed visibly annoyed but didn't say anything. Then, after the session was over, my spouse went on a rant about "how can a professional not understand brain damage?", and "there is literally no coping mechanisms to help you when you lose control", and things like that. Like they ranted for like half an hr defending me and my brain damage/anger problems. My spouse was an occupational therapist in South Korea before coming to America so they're very well informed about brain trauma. My spouse was the one that decided to cancel marriage counseling because of that. I told my regular therapist about what happened, and my therapist also got visibly upset and just sighed deeply and said that even in mental health professions, a lot of ppl still don't have a true understanding of brain trauma and what it means. The good thing that came from all this shit, tho, was my spouse reassuring me that my brain trauma is not my fault and that they don't blame me for issues resulting in it. I lucked out in marrying an OT (we met before I became disabled and they were in school). Their license unfortunately isn't considered valid in America so they can't work as an OT here but they still went thru all the schooling and have a better understanding of disabilities, even as an able bodied person. But yeah. I consider my brain trauma a physical disability, personally, because of how badly it effected me in my every day life, and I saw this counselor dismissing my issues as a form of ableism. I got so many horror stories about ableism from healthcare professionals 😣

See, this is the kind of stuff I was trying to address in my post about how the brain is not the "soul" of the body but a tangible organ that's subjected to things like injury, dysfunction, physiological illness, structural flaws and poor upkeeping. And people still made it about their fucking depression.

I'm glad that at least you had other people around you who supported you and especially that your spouse was one of those people reassuring you and getting rightfully upset at the situation. I'm so relieved that they reassured you about it not being your fault and that they acknowledged that it's not something you can control. You deserve that kind of understanding and patience.

[not-poignant]

I'm a bit ignorant in this whole field, but I was wondering about the boundaries of professionalism psychological counseling in FFS. Like if the time ever comes when Ef may no longer require therapy (if that even can happen? considering it also feels like his trauma will be a constant battle in his life and rightfully so), will Dr. Gary still be allowed to remain in his life as emotional support/maybe even friend? That honestly feels idealistic though tbh, so I wanted to get more insight.

Hi hi anon!

Ooo there’s two good things to talk about here. The first:

Like if the time ever comes when Ef may no longer require therapy (if that even can happen? considering it also feels like his trauma will be a constant battle in his life and rightfully so) 

It’s actually a myth that people stop therapy once they’re mentally ‘healthy.’ People stop therapy once their goals are met. And usually those goals actually don’t include curing them of their disorders. Most people who exit therapy still have mental disorders, but they often exit when they have the tools to manage those disorders safely, and have achieved a level of function in human society (i.e. friends, possibly partners, hobbies, the ability to self-regulate or have mostly healthy coping mechanisms) that they’re happy with.

Shit fuck this got so long, sorry.

For example, I’m always going to have PTSD, major depressive disorder, and a couple of other things. But I’ve gone from needing therapy quite often, to only needing to go about once every 3-5 weeks, and as time goes by, eventually I’ll phase out to much less often, until finally I’ll probably only need to call when I have something unusual or an emergency.

So basically, Efnisien can have PTSD and Pure O forever, but he likely won’t need a therapist forever. Though he’ll need to see one longer than most people, because of the complexity of the mental injuries he’s endured.

will Dr. Gary still be allowed to remain in his life as emotional support/maybe even friend?

That might technically be possible, but not in the way you’re thinking, and for a few reasons:

1. If Efnisien exits therapy, but then needs it again, he can’t go back to having therapy with Dr Gary if he’s Dr Gary’s friend.

2. I’ll go into this in more detail below but... Dr Gary can’t stay as like, an emotional support if he’s not working in his role as therapist. Mostly because he’s a person, and he either gets paid for his job, or they renegotiate their connection.

3. Dual relationships are considered profoundly unethical and unprofessional in therapy. So this is like, when you’re friends with your therapist and also they’re your therapist. (A more extreme version is when you have a sexual relationship with your therapist and also they’re your therapist, but I’m not going to touch that one at all, lmao).

4. ‘Once a patient. Always a patient.’ This is partly because the therapy-client relationship is built on a fairly significant power differential, and that power differential is kind of impossible to unpack once you’ve kind of gone through it that way. (It’d be like trying to make your mother no longer a mother so you can ‘just’ be her friend, your brain still knows she’s your mother).

Like, you spill your secrets to someone who responds from professional distance. They want you to do well, but all they expect from you is payment. They’re not telling you anything that doesn’t help you the most as a patient in the moment (from their perspective), and you’re not finding out anything about them as a person. It’s wildly, inherently imbalanced in nature, and sets up flawed expectations (even the expectation that Efnisien could get emotional support in a friendship with Dr Gary is, itself, kind of a sign that it’s impossible to see him as a person and not a therapist, or not in a role where he centres Efnisien’s wellbeing possibly over his own).

5. Ending therapy, and the grief it brings, is actually a therapeutic technique that’s really relevant and important! It allows the client to grieve and cope on their own (something they’ll have to do in ‘normal’ life as well), and learn for themselves that they’re so much stronger than they used to be. It mimics other circumstances where they will lose things (or people) that really really mattered to them, but in a way that is guided and very safe, and can be done compassionately. It sets a client up to go ‘oh, I survived that, actually... I can do this.’ Ending therapy into ‘friendship’ kind of ruins that process.

The general adage is - it’s easier to find a good friend than it is to find a good therapist. So keep the two separated.

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The *general* rule of thumb is that if a therapist and a client are going to be friends, it should happen around 2+ years after the therapeutic relationship has been exited, to make sure that the client is like, living an independent life and that friendship boundaries can be negotiated. This doesn’t make it ethical, by the way, or even a great idea, it just makes it slightly less unethical (there are exceptions to the rule, but Efnisien and Dr Gary don’t meet any of those exceptions). Personally I’m still not a fan of it, and I don’t think it should happen in Efnisien’s and Dr Gary’s situation anyway. (I have no problems with people imagining it happening! And maybe there are AUs where Gary isn’t a therapist, but ends up become Efnisien’s friend, etc.! But I can’t imagine it for myself).

No WAY should Dr Gary be Efnisien’s emotional support and a friend. He’s either a friend, or he’s a professional, not both. There’s never a future (except in fantasy land) where Efnisien should be allowed to see Dr Gary after therapy as a friend to talk about how hard his life is and get therapeutic advice. That’s just ‘free therapy’ which is bad for both of them.

(Also, we don’t know what Dr Gary is like as a friend. It’s a fact of life that quite a few therapists are well, not that empathetic as friends, because they’re so tired from supporting their clients all day they don’t have much energy left to support their friends, lol. I say this as a person who has a lot of friends who work as therapists and psychologists (which is how I know it’s not always true, but it’s sometimes true!))

Something Efnisien could ethically do after seeing Dr Gary (also, Efnisien will still be seeing Dr Gary once this story finishes, lol, getting *some* support in his life doesn’t clear him to exit therapy at all) is send Dr Gary updates or emails about his life sometimes. Or have like a once a year session to just catch up, that’s a lot more relaxed and just going over how things have been. Like just because they terminate therapy, doesn’t mean Efnisien can’t update to say like ‘things are going well, thanks for everything’ and Dr Gary can’t reply with ‘I’m so glad to hear that’ etc.

But overall, the exiting process re: therapy is actually a really important part of therapy! It’s actually even more important if both parties have experienced positive transference (i.e. really liking each other / wanting to stay friends).

I’ve had to wrestle with this a bit myself. Like, in real life. Sometimes it’s really tempting to stay friends with your therapist. But yeah, outside of just daydreaming about it, or imagining it, it’s not something I see happening for Efnisien even though I really love Dr Gary, and I really love the way Dr Gary and Efnisien act together. It’s not something to worry about in the story anyway, we won’t be seeing Efnisien exiting therapy even if he’s really worried about Dr Gary getting rid of him, lol.

[yunmeng-trio]

even until the end of wwx’s first life, jiang cheng didn’t even pretend to hate his brother that much. in the nightless city battle you can tell he’s confused and concerned about wwx, and maybe a little angry but he definitely doesn’t hate him (props to wzc’s amazing acting). and while he doesn’t go so far as to protect him, he also doesn’t hurt him in any way! and then when yanli dies that’s like the breaking point for him, but he doesn’t even actually kill wwx; he stabs his sword into the rock (which i think was on purpose, i honestly don’t believe he had any intention of killing him, he just needed to express his anger and grief) and it’s wwx who flings wangji’s hand away causing him to fall to his death. But i think it’s those 16 years, during which his feelings of anger and jealousy and betrayal get no closure, when he makes himself ‘hate’ wei wuxian. he never Truly hates him of course, but those awful feelings are. just Festering for a decade and a half. that shit is traumatizing as hell for even an emotionally healthy person! and jc is not emotionally healthy lmao, thanks to his shitty parents e has a huge inferiority and abandonment complex and also does not know how to process or express any emotions other than anger. also, having to see jin ling grow up without parents and get picked on probably didn’t help. so those 16 years of Nothing—of no closure, no answers, just his trauma and hurt and sadness that he doesn’t even know how to begin to acknowledge, let alone deal with healthily, having literally no one to confide in—that’s what made him act like he hated wwx all those years, and upon his resurrection.

and ive talked about that scene taking place in qinghe, where jiang cheng ties wwx up with zidian. and he very seriously threatens wwx and is just generally very cruel and terrible in that scene. and it’s not justified per se, but you can understand why he’s acting like that. on top of the Sixteen Years of Negative Emotions Festering, jiang cheng has been further angered by:

1. wwx going off on his own and summoning wen ning instead of coming to lotus pier upon resurrecting, making jiang cheng think that wwx doesn’t regret leaving lotus pier and the jiang clan, and doesn’t want to come back, which Hurts Him

2. wwx summoning wen ning, who literally was used to kill jin zixuan: their sister’s husband and jin ling’s dad. and jiang cheng probably viewed it as putting jin ling in danger too, considering that jin ling was Right There when wn arrived! considering wwx had a history of losing control of himself and wen ning (even in cql canon, at this point jc has no way of knowing about the second flautist at qionqi way and nightless city) i think it’s pretty fair of jiang cheng to be scared of another disaster happening, and angry at wwx for (albeit accidentally) summoning wn.

3. wwx making that “lacked maternal education” comment or whatever it was to jin ling (wwx didn’t realize it was yanli’s son, but like also, no matter whose son he was, all kids his age grew up in the aftermath of the sunshot campaign and the nightless city bloodbath, and many of them were probably orphans... it was a shitty thing to say no matter what tbh). but anyways jiang cheng is rightfully pretty upset by that, both on jin ling’s behalf, and also cause it seemed like wwx was literally making fun of the death of their sister, who died to save wwx.

in conclusion jiang cheng never ever hated wwx!!! only post-resurrection does he act cruelly towards him, which is fueled by hurt and betrayal that he never learned how to express as anything but anger. They Love Each Other and they will be brothers forever, the end.

[tropicalfreckles]

Beej?

Anon you’ve opened the floodgates you absolute fool(i’m kidding) OKAY, let me tell you all about what I like about the smelly trash man cause if it wasn’t obvious before with me not being so subtle I have a big crush and enjoy this stupid demon a lot (crush on musical beej specifically of course LAWL)

Why I Like them: OKAY IN ORDER, first movie Beetlejuice. I enjoy he’s a big sleazy asshole that has funny one-liners every time he actually just show up in the movie. He’s a fast-talking con man that acts like a used car salesman and he has a sleazy charm to him. I also enjoy watching Barbara school his ass every time I rewatch the movie, stan movie Barbara y’all she’s a babe and will take you down. I also like to thank Michael Keaton for his performance it was a great one and we all have movie Beej to thank for the other Beetlejuices we got!

Toon Beej! Adorable, a brat, a jerk, a man that would do anything to make a quick buck and he’s gross and such a petty shithead I love him lmao. He can be pure and adorable and nice when he wants to be even if he doesn’t like to show that he has a soft side. Also holy shit all his puns??? YES?? I LOVE PUNS. His jokes, his powers, everything about this middle aged dead ghoul is A+ and ya know what when karma does slap him that’s good too cause he does deserve to get taken down a peg some times lmao. Toon Beej is someone I’d happily be friends with.

now we get to my big ass crush on a stupid, smelly BASTARD OF A BUGMAN

Musical Juice. What don’t I like about him? Besides his dumb ass plan of a green card marriage lmao (I mean movie beej also sleazy af for doing that too). ANYWAYS. What I like. His stupid smile (both blum and brightman just WHY ARE THEY BOTH SO ATTRACTIVE AHHH), his unhinged pansexual disaster energy, who tf is letting this man do coke that is a terrible idea but it gives such hilarious results, the fact that he uses his humor with his trauma he needs to NOT call me out like that lol. I weirdly relate to Musicaljuice like a lot (as someone who struggles with trying not to be petty or get jealous and stuff like that), plus him feeling invisible and lonely also hit home really hard when people in middle school and high school would randomly just drop/ghost me out of the blue. He’s such a chaotic sleaze and I just enjoy his energy and his jokes so much. His dirty humor? Sign me up I keep it clean here folks cause I got another blog for dirty stuff but I like dirty humor when it’s done right lmao. Also dadbod. Dadbod is CHEF KISS. The little things I also enjoy. How he does have an affectionate side (him being just affection/touch starved also coming for the throat cause me too), the fact that he jumped to protect Lydia after she rightfully killed him and he even gave her his cowboy hat as a goodbye present. I thought it was nice of him to yeet out of there cause he did do a lot of bads lmao. I also love how excited he got and the chaotic sibling energy he had with Lydia when scaring. I just really, really enjoy musical Beetlejuice a lot guys.

Sorry I’m such a simp for him lmao

He is my emotional support bastard

Why I don’t: I honestly do not hate his character at all, but, I can criticize his actions. To a degree. I can’t exactly say (ex. Musicaljuice)“Oh no! a demon trying to kill Lydia’s friends and family?? How unexpected!!” he’s a demon he’s gonna do evil-ish things. Which is why I applaud Lydia taking matters into her own hands good kid 10/10. and like movie Juice is a bastard sleazy man of course he’s gonna have a shitty idea as to marry a teenage girl so he can freely do whatever he wants in the world of the living. He never in the final script showed any creepy shit towards her which god I am grateful for I don’t need someone perving on this teenager that’s already having a wild time in her new house. He’s a conman just trying to have a good time but goes about it by crappy means. The petty/jealousy thing can go too far some times (but I chalk that up to musicaljuice’s sad upringing along with not having an positive relationships that we know of in his life to support him) for musical and toon juice (toon juice once again I don’t think had any friends that really understood him when he was alive and when he died so he just does whatever he wants since people already think so little of him before he meets Lydia), however with the proper talking to I think both could improve from it. Like in an analysis way I know these guys are fictional just like character development thoughts. All three have said and or done some things ranging from like small shitty things to problematic obviously. Beetlejuice is a very complex character as a whole. Movie juice obviously not as developed since he’s barely in the film to kind of shroud him in more mystery but that doesn’t mean his motives aren’t intriguing. I don’t want to make this post longer than it already is so that’s just all of my thoughts summarized.

Favorite Episode (scene if Movie): Fav movie beej scene is hard.

His first time meeting the Maitlands, his charades with Lydia, then the ending scene are all so good.

Toon Beej I’m trying to think. Once again I’ve only rewatched like 20+ episodes for the cartoon so it’s hard to pick with limited options. Uhhhh I like the haunted attraction episode lmao also the creepy tree and how he went out of his way to help Lydia move her favorite tree and in the end tried saying something nice to the tree even though eh was annoyed with it the whole episode.

Musical juice that is HARD, Blum and Brightman just own every scene they’re in shit lawl. I really like the evil plan reveal during the séance. The whole being dead pt 1&2 (the guide reprise), say my name, his scenes with the maitlands.

Favorite season/movie: Skip

Favorite Line: NICE FUCKING MODEL!! *honkhonk* (pfft)

also like... everything beetlejuice says in the musical lmao “new phone who dis”

Favorite Outfit: HONESTLY I love every single outfit all three beetlejuices wear. I want the fucking guide hat so badly!!!

OTP: 

hahahaAAAHH ah. Well. Ya see here. Let’s go with the first options. Cause of a number of artists on here I’ve been pretty keen on the BeetlejuicexMiss Argentina ship for moviejuice tbh lmao. I like the idea they had an office fling. Musicaljuice and Miss Argentina sounds cute too.

I don’t actively go into the Beetlands tag but I do think the art and idea for it (after a lot of building up trust/consent/and talking) think it can be a super cute poly ship! I like.

I don’t really ship Toon Beej with anyone tbh.

so now into the self indulgent shit lmaaoo

I love people’s ocs/self inserts with the Bugman a lot and I myself super hardcore ship my oc Leilani and musicaljuice. I... maye have drawn self insert art I have no posted here out of being shy but it’s on another blog that will stay hidden lmao. I don’t normally post self insert stuff of myself cause man I can draw it easily for other people but when it comes to myself I am shy.

I mean I’m writing a fic for beej and lani as we speak and you all know by now if you’ve been following me for the past couple of months I’ve drawn a handful of doodles plus commissioned numbnutspo to draw my self indulgent ship lawl

BROTP: The obvious for toon and musicaljuice is Lydia Deetz of course. Chaos siblings. Also I have a BROTP of my demon oc Antares with musicaljuice too. Dumb demon bros.

Unpopular Opinion: TBH Idk if I have one. I like to think there’s a resounding hiss @ the ship that shall not be named lmao.

A Wish: Same wish I had for Lydia’s ask, I wanna see the musical live REAL BADLY. I also wish I could tell the cast/crew of the musical how much it has helped me get through this shitty year and how it legit just revived my passion for drawing again. I got to meet a lot of people through the musical and made some new friends. Plus I’m actually making money off my art now???

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: I wanna forget that clean beetlejuice from that one episode of the cartoon exists lmao it scares me (I mean I wouldn’t object to musical juice to taking a fucking bath or brushing his teeth but let’s be real that ain’t happening)

5 words to best describe them: Bastard, Unhinged, Handsome, 1-Brain Cell, Huggable

My nickname for Them: I mean when I refer to him or write fics it’s always Beej, BJ, Bugman, Bug, Bastard Man, Smelly Trashman, Garbage Man, Lawrence, the list goes on lawl

and now I have aired out more of my stupid obsession with this dumb demon

edit: I FORGOT HEADCANONS

OKAY HEADCANONS. Musical juice is definitely the oldest of the three, (in dead terms too, in alive terms he was ony alive for like less than 3 minutes or something), I love musicaljuice pansexual/genderfluid so much. I have a bunch but my mind is like blank rn for the rest shit sorry but I added those in at least

also I like the funny headcanon toon juice is taller than keatlejuice and musicaljuice

I also like the headcanon for autistic beetlejuice (as someone who is also autistic)

[swatato]

One reason why I love blacksun so much is that it doesn't rely on the weakening or destruction of other characters to move forward. Blake and Sun brought the best out of each other and Blake was happiest around her sunshine monkey. This isn't the case for its rival ship. No one can dispute that Sun suddenly being forced into irrelevancy and Adam's pathetic character are catalysts for the ship. Executing a romance off the corpse of someone who Blake once loved and trusted stinks to high heaven.😒

Yeah, I like how Blake and Sun can be their own characters while still being a ship. They’re definitely not perfectly written, but unlike bb, bs don’t need to be glued at the hip and fuse into one being while losing all individuality to be good for each other romantically; They’re allowed to have their own goals and adventures away from each other. They don’t need a third party to comment on how they *clearly* have smth going on and fake development for their relationship, and they don’t need to *parallel* other established couples for their romance to be believable. They actually TALK and COMMUNICATE their issues. The ship stands on its own legs because the screen time they shared with eachother was meaningful.

Thats pretty much why I didn’t like bb at all in volume 6/7. Despite the writers deliberately stationing them side by side throughout the volumes, all the blatant opportunities for blake and yang to share some actually meaningful screentime to show how they’re progressing from a broken friendship to romantic lovers is completely wasted. We only got one scene in the barn (that had WEAK payoff) and a hug at the end of 6 (Blake damaged and sobbing that she wont break promises after getting gaslit by adam for that....how ✨romantic✨) The rest were just fuffy, filler moments that eventually bordered on obnoxious just to bait the fans with. The world around them (rwby rewind, the merch descriptions, the VAs, other RT employees, the DC comics, the fans) has to convince us that these two are in love rather than the merit of the screentime they share with each other. For volumes, they have so little to show that they are distinct from the friendships around them (jnpr/rw) but I’m supposed to believe their eye/aura colours and one line in one song is supposed to mean something (even tho yang has z e r o to do with beauty and the beast). Tbh, its not that there’s NOTHING here, but it seems so very one-sided with yang putting in all the emotions and work, and thats upsetting. To make up for it, Adam has to say things like “WhAt DoEs She EvEn SEe In YoU”, Marrow has to rightfully criticise how its not good for bb to ONLY EVER work with each other (cuz yano?? Its team rwby not team bees??) But he just has to be shown how wrong he is for daring to impose upon bb’s Sacred Air Space when Yang goes red-eyed to Shut Him Up 💅🏽✨, and Nora has to project her own feelings for Ren onto Blake and Yang. The more I think about how and why these two are getting together I’m just left confused. Sure, they rep bisexuals, but that can only carry a ship so far. It still needs to have the juice. Bb could have been great if it was actually planned and fleshed out properly (while not accidentally fleshing out blacksun decently all the while). There is even an arguement that bb kinda has some really toxic tendencies about it. Their “romance” is just too spotty and composed of too much trauma after trauma and negative emotions (THAT THEY DON’T HELP EACH OTHER GET THROUGH........HELLO....) before they pull a thicc 180 and start exchanging bedroom eyes. Its odd stuff, anon.

[thewhiteboardofkanjisan]

I may renege on this but i’m starting to wonder if i’m nonbinary in some way? I know “gender non-conforming” is like, discouraged terminology right now, but it feels much more right than a lot of other options to me...

I’m conflicted because ‘she/her’ is absolutely the only pronoun that feels “right”, Considering “they” is deeply uncomfortable. “He” is right the fuck out. 

Being fat, being conventionally unattractive, but above all being disabled, I feel constantly denied my gender, my sexuality, my maturity. Like I have to over-perform femininity four times as hard to be perceived as even half as feminine as other women. Like the only thing marking me as Woman in most people’s eyes is my chest, which I resent for all the physical discomfort it brings me, for all of the trauma I carry in it. A lot of the low-grade bullying I experienced as a child was gendery. I remember some random older girls on the playground yelling that I looked like a boy when I was in 4th grade. I’ve gotten so used to male friends basically forgetting I’m a girl, and in fact a friend in grad school admitted as much in a stoned conversation once. That sucked.

I feel a weird alienation from femininity, in a way that hurts. I love feminine-coded things and dressing in a feminine way but i sometimes feel like i’m appropriating something that doesn’t “rightfully” belong to me, which is an odd duck feeling. Like when i wear certain dramatic makeup looks, it feels more like “drag” than just “makeup”. God help me if I DON’T have a full face of makeup on, because then it’s I can’t make sense of my face and if it’s masculine or feminine. And it certainly makes it hard to freely experiment with “masculine” things I like without feeling like I’ll tip the scale (unwelcomely) on how I’m perceived. But how much of this is Me Being Something Behind Door Number Three? How much of it is a lifetime of having my gender Othered by the perceptions of society, instead?

Can you be nonbinary AND a woman? Am I just a lameass anxiety-ridden ciswoman with unaddressed trauma? Am i trans and in deep, deep denial? I genuinely can’t ever see myself being “a guy”, so i don’t think that’s it at least.

I’m scared to explore my gender presentation—much less the deeper identity stuff involved—because i have no idea what I’m doing and i don’t want to give up the woman side of me. I don’t want to be scrutinized or criticized or “worried about”. I don’t want to have my every experiment under a microscope, only to feel like if something doesn’t stick, it was just stupid and a mistake rather than a step on the way to figuring out who i am and what i like and what i want to be.

 It used to bother me much less. Look at when i had short hair and wore a skirt-tux to my art expo! Where’d that part of me go? The punk-ass, hurting-but-hopeful Daisy who wasn’t afraid to do what she wanted with her appearance and not give a flying fuck what mom or anyone else thought?

All of this feels pretty intertwined with the bi thing too. That may be ALL of it, tbh.

I have to figure out how to get out and live in my own place. There’s just so much of me. There’s no room to unpack any of it in my childhood bedroom.

[chameli]

This is for the lovely Olivia @changshapatrol and anyone else who wants to get to know Divya or relive their childhood memories of her. This list mostly includes her Hindi films because due to lack of subtitles, I haven’t seen a lot of her Telugu ones (although I really want to!!!). This took me forever to write, so I hope you find something that appeals to your tastes. Click the title of the film to watch it. Enjoy!

Bobbili Raja | 1990 | Telugu: First things first, the songs are SO good. This is Divya’s debut film and she plays a spoiled rich girl named Rani. Her character is annoying at first, but she gets better as the film progresses. Rani is in love with Raja, but their relationship is vehemently opposed by Rani’s shrewd politician mother. The chemistry between Divya and Venkatesh is cute. They bicker a lot at first, get caught up in hijinks, but then fall in love. 

Dil Ka Kya Kasoor | 1992 | Hindi: Divya plays the role of Shalini aka Shalu, a wealthy girl who has a passion for poetry. She is secretly in love with her classmate Arun, who despises her due to her rude behavior. This is one of her finest performances and she absolutely carries the film on her shoulders. Shalu is a complex character whom Divya played beautifully. She goes from being a brat, to a heartbroken girl who realizes she will never have her love, then finally someone who does not have much time to live. The ending is a tad bit dramatic, but oh well. Suresh Oberoi is endearing as Shalu’s older brother/father figure and Manjeet Kullar as her loving bhabhi. The songs are absolutely beautiful and melodious.

Deewana | 1992 | Hindi: The film that catapulted Divya into stardom. Despite a massive age difference with Rishi Kapoor, I think they actually had great chemistry. Divya is excellent as Kajal, a sweet yet sassy girl who is obsessed with her favorite singer, Ravi Kapoor. They fall in love, get married, and have a fairytale romance until her husband is murdered on their honeymoon. As the widowed Kajal, Divya expresses her grief and pain through her beautiful eyes. The once spunky girl is now a somber widow, until love finds her again. She looks absolutely adorable with SRK, who was then a newcomer. This is one film I can never get tired of watching. The ending still gets me to this day. The soundtrack is full of gems which still hold a place in my heart. Divya absolutely shines in this film.

Dil Aashna Hai | 1992 | Hindi: This is the story of Sitara, a cabaret dancer who is in search of her birth mother. However, she finds out it could be one of three very influential women. I’m not sure why this film was a flop, but I enjoyed it. Divya was fantastic and definitely held her own against the three more established actresses she shared space with. That being said, I really enjoyed the scenes showing the ladies bonding with Divya. They were so sweet. SRK plays the supportive love interest but he’s mostly in the background. He and Divya look incredibly adorable together, especially in the title song.

Geet | 1992 | Hindi: Divya is Neha, a popular singer who is sabotaged by her sleazy manager, played by the perpetually gross Shakti Kapoor. She then retreats to a small village where she meets Raja, her biggest stan (seriously, the guy is kind of a stalker). He paints posters for her concerts, but he wasn’t present at the last show where tragedy struck. Neha wants to put everything behind her but Raja keeps pestering her until she’s had enough. She plays a nasty trick on him, but they resolve their issues and become friends. I thought the hero was super annoying at first, but then I had a change of heart because he’s super endearing as he helps Neha claim what’s rightfully hers. The soundtrack is fantastic and so are the picturizations. I also really liked Divya’s clothes and styling in this film.

Dil Hi To Hai | 1992 | Hindi: This is actually a Jackie Shroff film, but Divya is an important character as well. Jackie plays identical twin princes: Harshvardhan, who is expected to take the throne and Govardhan, who is dorky and cowardly. Harshvardhan is fed up with his parents’ expectations, so he switches places with his twin and runs away. He and his royal adviser (played by the iconic Kader Khan) settle in a basti. He pretends to be a regular guy and meets Bharati (played by Divya), who HATES rich and privileged people. The other heroine is Shilpa Shirodkar, who is SMOKIN’. The main thing I really liked about this film is that they address mental health issues. Harsh feels trapped and lonely; he wants a life outside of the palace and riches. He just wants to be a regular person. His father basically tells him how to live his life, but Harsh wants to choose his own destiny.  Simultaneously, Govardhan learns to be more confident. This is something I haven’t really seen in the 90s, tbh. I like this film and I think it’s really underrated.

Kshatriya | 1993 | Hindi: Oh boy. This film has a HUGE starcast and a complex plot that spans two generations. But you know what? I love it. I constantly watch this one a lot and I don’t know why. The songs are wonderful and Divya has a small part, but she’s as charming and effervescent as ever. Basically it’s about two warring kingdoms who’ve suffered through their own Romeo & Juliet tragedy, and now are even more bitter towards each other. Divya’s love interest is Sanjay Dutt (YUCK!) and her character is very bubbly and cute. Especially in the song Main Khichi Chali Aayi Piya. There’s loads of violence, melodrama, and action but I enjoyed it. It was also Divya’s last release while she was alive.

Rang | 1993 | Hindi: This was the first film to be released after Divya’s death. Divya plays Kajal, a wealthy (and a bit spoiled) girl who lives with her mother Indu (Amrita Singh), awful grandmother (Bindu), and sweet yet passive grandfather (Kader Khan). Kajal falls in love with Yogi, which I can’t figure out WHY. Dude is so so bland and extremely unattractive. I guess he’s smart? Anyway, another girl is also in love with him. Pooja (Ayesha Jhulka) is a traditional, sweet girl who lives with her single father Ajay (Jeetendra). It turns out, the two girls are actually - *gasp* - SISTERS! But they have no idea and don’t find this out until way later. We get to see the dysfunctional relationships between all the characters: the parents, separated by a cruel streak of fate and misunderstandings. The sisters, in love with the same guy but unwilling to give him up. And finally, the grandparents: the passive husband who finally stands up to his witchy wife, who has ruined her daughter’s life and broke up her family. The songs are lovely, especially Tujhe Na Dekhoon and Tumhe Dekhen Meri Aankhein. There’s a really sweet tribute to Divya at the end which never fails to make me cry.

Shatranj | 1993 | Hindi: Divya’s last film. This is a remake of Chalti Ka Naam Gaadi. It’s a comedy/drama about three brothers who own a garage and hate women. Actually the older brother (played by Kader Khan) does, because of a childhood trauma involving his evil stepmother (rolling my eyes). So he raises his two younger brothers to follow suit. But they end up falling in love and try keeping it a secret from big brother. Jackie Shroff with Divya, who keeps showing up at the garage, and Mithun with Juhi (a very odd-looking pairing). It’s a fun yet drama filled comedy. I liked the scenes where the two couples are trying to make the older brother fall in love with the girl who’s obsessed with him. But the best thing about this film? Divya and Juhi, my two favorite actresses. Both ladies are absolutely stunning.

- Special Mentions -

Jaan Se Pyara | 1992 | Hindi: This is a cop drama which stars Govinda in a double role. Divya plays Sharmila, his girlfriend. She doesn’t have that many scenes but is an absolute delight none the less. Sharmila is feisty and sassy but also supportive and caring towards her man. Divya and Govinda have the best chemistry. I love their silly/playful bickering and banter. The scenes between her and the family are sweet as well. This film also has really great songs. My favorite Divya song EVER: Bin Tere Kuch Bhi Nahin. The picturization is lovely and the song is peak 90s romance. Chanchal Chandni has a sensual vibe while Taale Laga Le is super fun and upbeat. tbh I just watched Divya’s scenes and not the full film, so idk what happens.

Dushman Zamana | 1992 | Hindi: Okay, this film is just way too dramatic. Divya plays Seema, a rich girl who is actually nice and not bratty for a change. She’s in love with her schoolmate Vijay (the unattractive and untalented Armaan Kohli). Of course, he’s poor. And OF COURSE her father (Paresh Rawal) HATES him and constantly reminds Vijay he’s worthless. Paresh, who I usually think is a great actor, was way too much of a cartoon villain. The saving grace is that Divya looked extremely beautiful in this film. Plus, the song Mausam Pyaara Bheega Bheega is pure perfection. 

Balwaan | 1992 | Hindi: Suniel Shetty’s debut film, so the typical action drama. Divya plays Deepa, his college sweetheart. She’s a spunky girl but oh so charming. Her scenes with Suniel are adorable. And the songs, omg. Divya’s outfits were super cute, especially in the song Jalta Hai Badan (which is really sensual and takes place in a library lmao).

Rowdy Alludu (which I really want to see!) and Dharma Kshetram have amazing songs. Divya looks like a dream. Too bad there aren’t any English subs and I don’t understand Telugu :(

So, that concludes my list. Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy these films as much as I have!

[poisonepel]

Chemistry Between the Dorm Leaders and a Hero-Inspired S/O— (pt.1)

After that Snow White request, I had a small idea... so here are headcanons for each dorm leader with an s/o inspired by the heroes of their respective films. I had some hesitation with both Vil and Leona, since their heroes are the Evil Queen’s stepdaughter and Scar’s nephew respectively... I could get past the Snow White one bc Vil’s so different from the Evil Queen, but the Simba one weirded me out too much ;; so I substituted him for Nala. Sorry !!

Of course, this is disregarding the original characters’ ages and assuming they’re all students at Night Raven, in the same dorm as their villain. Please let me know if there’s a problem with anything though !!

Idia, Leona, and Malleus will come in a second post.

Riddle & Alice

I remember Alice as a bratty, opinionated girl who is dissatisfied with her normal life and prefers to escape to her imagination. Very stubborn, but also very sensible. Pairing these traits with Riddle’s hotheadedness and severe need to keep things under his command, I don’t think they would make a very good match. Alice constantly rolls her eyes at all of his decisions, and blatantly refuses to listen to him if she doesn’t agree with what he says.

It would be extremely difficult for these two to even tolerate each other. Alice sticks out to Riddle because she’s the only one who doesn’t fear him—but that might not be a good thing. He develops a “You will fear me, you will obey me” type mindset, to which she responds with an unimpressed, “Oh, really?”

Riddle gets so fed up with her that he marches down to Headmaster Crowley and demands that Alice be relocated to a different dorm—“She’d be great for Pomefiore, with all the other stuck-ups.” (Dire says no).

As much as she loathes Riddle though, Alice might enjoy some of his nonsensical rules. She hates boring things like order and routine, instead craving the thrill of things unique and unpredictable. Riddle is taken aback when one day she exclaims how much fun she’s having during one of his sudden events, which had annoyed and tired out everyone else. He’s not sure how to react.

He spends a long time thinking about this, and then curiosity gets the better of him; he tries to experiment to see if he can do anything else that doesn’t make her turn her nose up at him. So basically, this is his odd way of figuring out her interests - and he realizes she’s not just automatically appalled by everything he does; she’s simply very opinionated. He might even start to appreciate the fact that she’s got such a strong grip of her views and morals.

It takes much longer for Alice to fall in love with Riddle, though. She has such a great distaste for him that there’s no way she’ll even consider falling in love with him. She would have to catch him in a vulnerable state to realize there’s more to him than simply yelling at everyone all the time - maybe when he’s stressed from school, or sleeping, or witnessing him experiencing true happiness (perhaps with his friends? does he even have friends?) And then she, too, having a natural curiosity, might try to learn more about him.

Tbh, the only thing that might help bring them together is the fact that both of them are way too nosy for their own good.

Azul & Ariel

Like Alice, Ariel is very curious, stubborn, and determined, but she can be a little gullible and naive at times. She’s been sheltered her whole life and Night Raven is the first time she’s been away from home for so long. Azul, on the other hand, is very independent; he’s somewhat of an information broker, good at observing people and seeing what makes them tick - and also swindling what he wants out of them. Naive little Ariel makes a perfect target.

Azul is very gentlemanly and polite, enticing and friendly, so Ariel is immediately swayed. She pretty much falls into the honeymoon phase with him straight away, but not truly in love; she’s just excited to be socializing with a nice boy.

It’s easy for Azul to trap her in a deceptive contract with ambiguous conditions. He doesn’t have any personal interest in her initially, but Ariel responds to his betrayal with vigor and goes above and beyond in trying to void the contract. It is only here that Azul starts taking more of an interest in her, since she’s now causing problems for him and therefore in the way.

But, even he has to appreciate her fierce determination to get out of this contract. He even stops at one point to consider why he’s been trying so hard to prevent her from getting out of it; Ariel is nothing but sweet and pure, so why is he so intent on inconveniencing her? He tries to convince himself that his original mindset is the same as it was before: Ariel was unable to pay the price he had set. Perhaps under misleading terms, but it’s her fault for not reading the contract carefully enough - therefore he can’t give her any leeway until he’s collected his payment. Even so, a part of him feels regretful.

However, Ariel has developed a (rightfully) bitter attitude towards Azul, and even though he understands why, it still leaves a sour taste in his mouth. Witnessing how beautiful of a personality she has has made him rethink his whole view of her - and a part of him wishes they were on better terms.

If Azul was serious about remedying their relationship, it would take a serious amount of effort on his part to regain her trust. Ariel can be naive, but she’s not stupid; and she’s already established that Azul is not an ally. But, in the case that he is able to prove himself to her, then the same elation she had when she first met him would resurface.

For their relationship to work, Azul would need to be the one who’s most committed. He already has a personality Ariel would immediately grow infatuated with, so it really depends on him being able to truly become someone she can trust and rely on - and make sure she knows that too.

Kalim & Aladdin

These two are hopeless idiots together. They come from vastly different backgrounds: while Kalim grew up with basically everything handed to him on a silver platter, Aladdin comes from a poor family and barely scraped by in his youth. They share a common resourcefulness, though, as they both are very talented at making do with whatever situation they’ve landed in (but, Kalim always has the advantage of wealth and power).

While Aladdin might be initially turned off by Kalim’s extravagant wastefulness, he also admires it greatly; much like his canon love for Jasmine, he is struck by beauty and wealth and only dreams about what it might be like to live with such greatness. This overpowers his slight aversion for him.

It’s easy for Kalim and Aladdin to become friends. Aladdin is funny and bright, with a knack for socializing since he’s come across so many people from being in such open, unstable living conditions before. Overall, he’s just very easy to slide into conversation with and feel like you’ve known him forever. Kalim is also very extroverted, but in more of a you-will-pay-attention-to-me-now forceful kind of way. Like Jamil, Aladdin is one of the few people who doesn’t tire out from Kalim’s constant energy & semi-sheltered mindset.

Once they find out their shared extroversion is very compatible, Kamil and Aladdin talk nonstop. Aladdin is a natural storyteller, and loves sharing about all his experiences from his childhood. He had to be very independent and willing to defy authorities in order to secure his survival, while also helping all the other orphans and street rats obtain food and shelter as much as he could. Kalim finds this extremely admirable. To him, Aladdin is almost like a literal prince - he rose from nothing and now is thriving at the prestigious Night Raven College. Also, he seems to have turned out fairly normal for someone who suffered so many hardships as a child.

But evidently, the closer the get, the more Kalim realizes Aladdin is not as normal as he makes himself out to be. His traumas from his youth have and are still affecting him, and once Kalim sees this different, more somber side of Aladdin, he becomes desperate to help him any way he can. He first takes him on a “date.” This isn’t meant to be romantic, just a nice all-expenses-paid trip to give Aladdin something nice.

Jamil is surprised because this is the first time Kalim has ever thought about anyone other than himself. But then, once the “dates” keep happening, Jamil realizes there’s more between them than just Kalim “being nice.” Things might escalate between them both, and while the final trigger for Aladdin was Kalim’s little acts of kindness, there had been something clear between them since the beginning.

Vil & Snow White

This sort of piggybacks off the headcanons I wrote here.

Snow White is sweet and pure of heart, a girl who doesn’t fully realize when someone might be taking advantage of her. She is gentle and sweet when she talks to you, but also doesn’t mind keeping to herself for long periods of time. On the other hand, Vil is vain and proud, constantly needs attention, and keeps his own appearance as his top priority. He always makes sure his connections are up to his own beauty standards too, and if Snow White enters his social circle, this includes her. Fortunately, there’s not much for him to do, because she is already extremely beautiful.

Vil takes interest in her because of her beauty. He feels a bit threatened by it in the beginning, but every time he talks to her, she always, always acts like the nicest, most genuine human being he’d ever met. He gets a little frustrated because he wants to hate her for being so much more beautiful than him, but she’s so ridiculously precious.

Snow White doesn’t mind Vil much. Like with everyone, it’s basically impossible for her to view him in a bad light, and she respects him as Pomefiore’s dorm leader. That being said, he’s not a major interest for her - she has a very tight-knit circle of 3 or 4 girl friends who she spends most of her time with.

Their interactions are usually initiated by Vil. Half the time, it’s because he can’t understand how she’s so nice all the time, so he tries to draw out a negative reaction from her.

But with enough time spent together, the opposite effect happens. Snow White develops a small crush on him. She starts getting flustered whenever he talks to her, and even more fidgety and precious - and even more, starts picking up his little mannerisms and habits. She sometimes points out whenever she notices something’s changed in his appearance.

Then, it’s Vil’s turn to feel flustered. She noticed. She notices whenever he does his hair differently, or when he paints his nails a new color, or when he wears a new arrangement of jewelry. He’s taken aback when his own heart starts fluttering whenever he’s around her, and soon he drops his mission to find fault with her and refocuses his attention on trying to avoid her. He has no time for falling in love.

But now Snow White is the one nervously trying to get his attention. And he's fallen so head over heels for her, he can’t not interact with her - and would feel too bad if he was mean to her. For a while, there’s a lot of tension between them, and Vil feels hideously awkward. He hates it. So he tries to finally confess, as slyly as he can.

Snow White isn’t very good at reading between the lines, but Vil isn’t very good at being subtle when he’s struck by so much emotion - so their feelings for each other come to light very quickly. There isn’t much verbal communication between them when they “confess,” though - Snow is too shy and Vil can’t admit anything unless he’s not being serious. But, if they do establish that they love each other, their relationship would be stable and warm from both parties.