#revert struggles

[virginwithasthma]

Thinking of that one Dostoyevsky quote that goes something like "your worst sin is that you've destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing" and wondering how queer religious people would feel if they died and realized being queer wasn't a sin after all.

[clansnaphance]

I'm really not vibing with whatever staff is doing now. Not only does there seem to be a total internal communication breakdown, there also seems to be an absolute disregard for how the players are affected by this.

Like, ignoring the fact that the consistency argument doesn't even hold water, their takeaway from the Fern/Paisley thread seems to have been "oh we gotta change Breakup and Hypnotic too!!"

And then completely reversing Sandsurge Blend on top of that? A gene that's been out for over half a year and was only listed as having the gradient softened, not reversed? Just a total failure to communicate and an absolute bullheadedness in pushing the changes through despite the very reasonable player concerns?

To top it all off, none of these are bug changes, they are style changes. Someone saw these genes before they went live, greenlighted them, and put them in the game. And now, months upon months later, someone else (presumably) says "fuck that, I want the gene to look like this instead" and that complete change is just... pushed through??

Like. Did they learn nothing from the Butterfly debacle, from Obelisk Flair, hell, from the Eyepocalypse?

What the fuck is going on behind the scenes?

[i-wanna-show-you-off]

hey guys grins

text in the second one says “somebody here clearly has body image issues, and you already know it ain’t me.” text in the fourth one are the lyrics to say it ain’t so by Weezer (specifically the bridge)

[druidonity2]

You stumble across a sha with a unique appearance. It looks like it's struggling to keep it's original form. What do you do?

[misty-moth]

I have a hc that due to vampiric healing, Arthur’s need for reading glasses (which are light prescriptions by default) went away when he was turned.

He keeps the glasses because he’s accustomed to them when writing.

Glasses wearers know that feeling when you reach up to adjust them and the jolt of panic when they’re not there. If Arthur was in the zone while writing, it would throw off his concentration if he didn’t have that familiar weight on his nose and frames to fidget with while working. It would be a small thing, something he could grow accustomed to not having anymore… but it’s a comfort, too. A little bit of normalcy to his new life.

[queermuslimrevert]

I'm trying to start praying again. Any tips would be appreciated. I have a tendency to get up in my head about the "rules" and needing to be perfect, so I've had to set stuff aside quite a bit. I really want to connect with God again or even just see if that connection is still there.

[icarusbetide]

we are so back

amrev community: ah yes the alexander hamilton tag! beautiful art! insightful opinions! just as it should be!

me, crawling up from hell after a month of mia status, twenty incoherent draft posts in hand:

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

why is everything (showing other people respect. being patient and kind. not flying off the handle about stupid things. emotional regulation and self-control. et cetera.) so easy when I'm not around my parents and so so so so hard when I AM around them?

[caspersscareschool]

I'm going to make a dumb pointless post ok i hate in the movie that they decided suddenly that donnie haaaaates hugs and physical contact no matter what and presented this like it's always been a fact of his character when in fact in the show he sought out being squished to an abnormal degree including typically unfavorable scenerios like being on a crowded subway or crushed under a large dog or compressed in a giant bird pouch which leo Specifically knew he would enjoy enough to forgive her for calling him a slur . and would kill anyone for a hug

[nazumichi]

the fool jingled speedily across the floor

[into-the-feniverse]

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[boysborntodie]

I think that Johnnyboy’s potential to complicated and messy is criminally untapped in fanon. Ponyboy ‘fucking sucks at feelings, both his own and of others, and can be a bitch’ Curtis and Johnny ‘imperfect victim with shit self-esteem’ Cade would definitely have their ups and downs

[spikeyjo]

Siri how do i stop the cycle without doing these bitchass tiny steps

[bigenderrevert]

You shouldn't feel guilty about the reason that made you start researching Islam. God is merciful and He brought you to Islam. There are people who hurt others before converting and God has forgiven them for that. It's okay if you don't feel comfortable sharing it with others, but don't feel embarassed with God. He knows the journey brought you to Him and He is pleased with that. I hope Islam brings you peace.

Thank you, Islam has brought me peace although I still haven't been able to disentangle my sexuality from my faith entirely and it's very complicated and difficult to explain

[komorisansgarden]

i watched nimona for the first time the other day, and ive decided that yes, i will talk about it because how could I not.

i would touch on the art or the general plot, but honestly i need to talk about nimona herself first because wow did her character really resonate with me.

As someone who is queer, gnc and neurodivergent, i felt so represented by her and the way she’s treated. its no secret that there is a lot of queerphobia & ableism in the world, and theres an obvious parallel between how she’s treated and how real queer/nd people are treated irl, but i think theres so much more too.

I loved how Nimona just existed. She wasn’t afraid to run around outside and be a person. She walked through the streets, she interacted with people, she did people things. All of that made it so much more heartbreaking when you see the difference between how she’s treated before & after people find out she’s different. I felt that so much. Because I’ve been there. There have been times where I’ve had multiple, full, amicable conversations with people, and the second it comes up that I’m queer, they’ve become withdrawn. I’ve had a girl tell me “I’m just going to pretend I didn’t hear that” when I offhandedly mentioned I’m not straight. And it hurts so badly to see that shift in people around you when they find out you aren’t like them.

On top of that, I connected so deeply with the emotional turmoil she faces. Near the end, when she’s about to turn into the ‘shadow monster’ (not sure what else to call it), we can hear overlapping voices of people calling her a monster, or saying she’s unwanted. And a lot of it is Ballister, obviously, because of how close they’ve gotten, and he was the most recent rejection she’s faced. But something that I realized while watching is that (correct me if im wrong) I’m fairly certain most of what we hear coming from ‘him’ isnt actually things he’s said. As someone who’s had their fair share of mental breakdowns, it was so interesting to not only see a visual representation of what it feels like (the visuals were so stunning and hit really close to home), but also (possibly) a peak into what happens inside your head as well. There are lots of things that people have said floating around her mind, but also there are things that people haven’t- things that her mind has simply made up in a moment of complete chaos and turmoil.

Then, when she turns into the ‘beast’, we don’t really see much of her actively attacking. She’s mostly just walking forward towards the Gloreth statue- to the giant reminder of the person she loved most, who then hurt her most. We see her in an almost unresponsive state, only really reacting when she’s been hurt. And then she gets to the statue, and decides to give into the thing people want from her. I probably would have cried when we hear her thinking back to her comment of sometimes wanting to give into it, if it werent for the fact i was watching with my brothers. And speaking of that quote, I also felt that super deeply- not only the actual message, but the fact that it’s clear its not something she actively wants. It’s something that rings in her mind during really harsh moments, a silent urge to simply give in, and its scary. Its terrifying. And now, while shes in a nearly catatonic state, shes going to go through with it.

Im not sure how to wrap this up, because its currently midnight and this is basically my brain running through all the ways that i felt Nimona’s character in my soul, but,,, i suppose the take-away is that the movie is great and it did a great job at resonating with me in regards to mental illness and living in a world where people hate even the idea of your existence.

[highlifeboat]

I would view it as more of look in the past, rather than "Detransition" that stage of Max's life was skimmed over a bit. But I get why you don't want to do it. They are quite close character for you :)

The thing with Max is that it's also like... this is a thing he had problems with way before the Castle. In fact he probably had more issues with it when he still lived in the Village.

I'm not against just.. lore dumping Max's struggle with gender if it's wanted (though it'd probably be a long ramble), I just don't think I want it to be a whole played out arc anymore. Like it's a past stage of his life now, and it's fine to discuss, but it doesn't really need to be dwelled on because that isn't necessarily important to his character as a whole now.

And talking about Max's past isn't quite the same kind of thing as like... an ongoing struggle. Which was more what I want/was thinking of.