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citing all my sources of inspiration for Nikodemus would mean unironically putting Misfits 2009-2013 at the top of the list
#second? malleus maleficarum#sometimes you can tell this character's bones were constructed sometime in the beginning of the previous decade#and now i'm trying to put meat on them#but it's why i haven't changed all the silly weird shit about him in so long#his names are still a fucked misreading of various sources i half researched on my ass computer at 15#he's still like a badly written cartoon villain in some aspects#and a vague eldritchy blob that still elludes me in others#cause yeah i maybe read a little bit of lovecraft at the time and decided the evil fratboy was ALSO gonna be unknowably complex#without having the knowledge and resources available to write him that way#ITS WHY I LOVE HIM THOUGH#reviving him and Avita after so long felt a lot like excavating a time capsule left by myself in the past#and so much of it didnt fucking make sense BUT IT WASNT SUPPOSED TO MAKE SENSE BACK THEN#it was supposed to be FUN#sometimes i wonder if i've sucked the joy out of it somewhat but it's also a motivator to stop gaf#like fuck it man#little Vee's creation should be honored as instructed#Nik the bastardous little magic man and all his adventures#where's the fuckin WHIMSY BRO#ok rant over. this post was about nathan young and his chokehold on my teen self fjdkkdks it was TERMINAL
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Success is Dependent on Secret Information
A lot of career success depends on you and the work you put into it, as well as luck beyond your control, but sadly, it also depends on secret information, magic words, and stupid little tricks.
That's not fair. I don't like it, but we can help by sharing that secret information--which is the antidote to gate-keeping. That's why I recently wrote this in my Authors of Nonfiction Books in Progress substack:

It can be really disheartening to realize that, when you thought you failed at something because you didn't do well enough, other people had the magic words. For instance, some injustices I've witnessed (that may or may not always be the case, or maybe not anymore!) include:
A good athletic score doesn't get you into a college sport--having a coach or parent talk to the college coach is mandatory
Many school-sponsored scholarships are often not tightly linked to grades, test scores, or financial need, but whether the student said the right words ("I can't afford that") to the right person (presumably some financial office person.)
Apparently, some aspects of some degrees are cheated on by most students (if that's the case, we should tell all students that it's ok to cheat on that so they don't waste their time on something that apparently wasn't important anyway, or worse, fail out just for being ethical.)
Especially related to books: Few people will mention that you can get grants! Not my agent, not my publisher, not the 1 zillion "pros and cons of trad publishing" articles out there mentioned grants (Grant eligibility is a HUGE benefit of trad publishing.) I got more money from grants than my entire book advance!
Let me know what magic words/secret knowledge you've learned, that you wish you knew sooner. Or: the widespread understanding of what information would make a field more fair?
And please share ANBIP with anyone writing, publishing, or seriously about to start writing, a nonfiction non-memoir book, especially if they're interested in the more practical side (I share more about resources and strategy than craft.)
#book writing#I want to share this stuff with everyone!#Funny thing: I stopped sharing this info on FB because those groups get really mad any time I mention trad publishing#Literally no matter how I phrase it#Another reason I started this group was to gather resources for people who share similar ideologies about book-publishing#no hate to anyone who thinks differently
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12th House Strengths & Insights
The 12th House is absolutely the house of undoing and what is hidden. Many times the focus is on challenges, trauma, hidden enemies, and other negativities for this house. Even my own posts have a lot of this. So here are potential hidden strengths and advantages for those who grow within this house.
Aries/Mars: Has a good handle on their anger and assertiveness, learns confidence, picks their battles carefully, embraces their physical desires and prowess, passion is at the heart of their strengths, may love exploring their identity or define it strongly, puts themselves first, doesn't stress over other people's opinions, defends or fights for others and themselves, empowers themselves through bravery, independence, self-focus, and honesty.
Taurus/Libra/Venus: May heal any negative relationships with women in their life or their own femininity, see's beauty in many things - especially themselves, loves the self and has a lot of self-worth, knows how to comfort themselves, learns cooperation, negotiation, and compromise, is so magnetic, finds power through finances and the material world, finds inner security, brings stability or reassurance to others, has power through traits or things others define as "soft" or "weak", many may admire or be inspired by them.
Gemini/Virgo/Mercury: Has an open mind, is empowered through knowledge, is an eternal student and teacher, communication and persuasion become their strength, their sharp mind is their greatest asset, learns to listen to others and themselves, makes space for their voice and opinions, has a talent for cheering others up or ruining their day with just their words and maybe even with a look, embraces flexibility and change, a great problem solver, highly observant, thoughtful, and always ahead of the game.
Cancer/Moon: Their intuition is strong, they are deeply in touch with their emotions and primal self, focuses on healing themselves, can be an amazing healer or counselor, they seek out healthy attachments, they give love freely, compassion is one of their biggest strengths, doesn't fear the magic and sensitivity within them, vulnerability is a strength, protective over others, takes care of people, puts emotional needs first, is fiercely loyal, is the watchdog, learns to be understanding and more careful, guides family and community.
Leo/Sun: Takes pride in themselves and others, realizes their talents and strengths, knows and fights for their worth, speaks up, may embrace the limelight or leadership, uses creativity and bold self-expression to empower, self-motivation and energy become a great resource, creates their individuality, learns to love the self passionately, is grand and faithful in how they love others, defines their own honor and purpose, things like generosity, affection, play, and warmth become easy for them to give/do, learns the importance of putting the self first, makes a strong impression, rules their world.
Scorpio/Pluto: Learns self-forgiveness and how to trust themselves, has a strong connection to their depth, intuition, and subconscious, see's potential in people or things others do not, on the path to self-mastery, may be a spiritual or emotional teacher, leader, or healer, their transformations from what is hidden to what is seen/open may be violent, intense, or stark, knowledge can empower them with a focus on knowledge that is secret, exclusive, hidden, or obscure, empowered through facing their fears or pain, won't shy away from their passion or darkness and finds strength in it, taps into their sex-appeal or magnetism, gains incredible perception and influence.
Sagittarius/Jupiter: Fights for what they believe in, lives and speaks openly, takes big risks for big rewards, makes their own luck, keeps an open mind, finds great meaning in many things, empowers themselves through independence, freedom, truth, and defining their own beliefs, self-faith is their superpower, finds wisdom in being silly or playing the fool, learns to take things less seriously, responsibility may mean something different for them than others, leads and cares for others with passion.
Capricorn/Saturn: On a path to develop self-autonomy and self-authority, they are in control of themselves and their life, learns to be calculated and strategic, keeps a level head under pressure, is in touch with their ambition, may be a hard worker but benefits from working smarter the most, practices accountability, learns that their standards are the only ones that matter, is responsible, defines their own sense of maturity, empowers themselves through skepticism, boundaries, reworking their relationship with authority figures, and learning to express their emotions, learns how to balance asking for help and when to step up to help others, embraces their softer side, self-discipline is a great resource, and they gain useful wisdom.
Aquarius/Uranus: Their individuality shines and they express it and defend it bravely, is empowered through independence, rebellion, acceptance, and intellect, won't hide their knowledge or intelligence, charisma, originality, and being innovative are their strengths, may enjoy a mental challenge, knows when to follow and when to lead, may find being an outsider or being perceived as "strange" as empowering, learns how to embrace change and the unknown, taps into their own chaos, finds beauty in differences, and has a lot to contribute to their friends, community, family, or society, they make an impact or leave a mark with those in their life - even strangers or acquaintances.
Pisces/Neptune: Lives through intuition and emotion in a fulfilling and comfortable way, gets in touch with their spiritual side or spiritual meaning, is a talented healer, learns forgiveness and sacrifice on many levels, empathy, gentleness, and kindness are their strengths, embraces the fluidity of themselves and of life, knows how to find inner and outer clarity, may become a spiritual or emotional teacher or guide, finds inspiration and motivation in their fantasies and escapism, is empowered through change, giving and receiving love openly, and developing emotional insight or wisdom.
#12th house#zodiac#astrology#planets#zodiac signs#natal chart#astrological houses#aries#taurus#gemini#cancer#leo#virgo#libra#scorpio#sagittarius#capricorn#aquarius#pisces#sun#moon#venus#mercury#mars#jupiter#saturn#uranus#neptune#pluto
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Just hear me out on this; I'm absolutely certain that part of Bruce's Around The World Teenage Training Montage included training in childcare.
I mean-- we know that he studied medicine, both modern ideas and more metaphysical ones. We know that he studied psychology, both his own and how to use it against his enemies. Hell, we even know that he studied with Giovanni Zatara and learned Houdini-Style escape arts (and some information on fighting magic, but whatever). So, especially considering that the entire origin of his mission was to make sure that no child ever had to suffer the pain he did ever again, why on Earth wouldn't he study childcare?
So yeah-- Batman is a trained midwife, he can tie almost every single style of baby wrapping known to man, and he can silence a crying infant with no trouble at all.
He's well versed in Montessori techniques, always carries candy in his utility belt for the children he finds on the job (candy which, of course, he makes himself and infuses with extra vitamins because he's an overachiever [note-- Dick was 23 when he found out that his childhood patrol candy was full of vegetables and he was FURIOUS]), and keeps every single crayon drawing a kid has ever made for him.
He's excellent at deescalating teenage angst, helping runaways and abuse victims, making sure than when he catches them stealing or graffiting a wall or something it's the last time he does; not just because he scares the shit out of them, but because he gives them the support and resources to overcome their problems at the source.
(Of course, that just means it's all the more painful when he's not quite able to do the same thing for his own kids when they're struggling and angry and hurt, because they know his playbook and only get more angry when they realize what he's doing-- because they don't want Batman to help them, they want Bruce, and Bruce doesn't know quite how to do that... But that's for another, angstier post...)
And another thing-- of course, being Batman, no one other than the immediate Batfam knows about this little trove of hidden knowledge. So usually, when the JLA encounters a kid in the field they hand them off to Clark or Diana or maybe even J'onn or Barry depending on the circumstances, because obviously Batman wouldn't be good at helping the kid-- until the one time he's the only one available for whatever reason.
He does his thing, and after the kid is totally calm and safe, Bruce just hands them off to emergency services like nothing happened and immediately goes back to... You know, being Batman, and refuses to answer any questions on it.
I could go on about this forever but. Batman with kids, guys ☹️




#axel rambles sometimes#my headcanon#headcanon#headcanons#batman headcanon#batman headcanons#dc headcanon#dc headcanons#the batman#batman and robin#batman comics#batdad#batfamily#batfam#batman#jla#justice league of america#justice league#bruce wayne#bruce wayne is a good parent#dc comics#dc universe#dc#dcu comics#dcu
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You Are A Wizard, So Pour Over The Tomes
Hypnosis is magic. It is not just “the closest we can get to magic.” Trance practices in all kinds of forms have served as the basis for mysticism across cultures and human history -- thousands of years. It is not new. It is not western. It did not start with Franz Mesmer or James Braid or Milton Erickson or Wiseguy.
Modern hypnosis stems from a rich human history of fascination and spiritual veneration of the mind’s power. We are practitioners of a comparably new discipline where we can literally change the way that other people experience the world. Their innermost selves are as leverage to us -- putty to us, when we know what we are doing. We can transform others freely. We can give pleasure or pain. We can facilitate experiences that seem to defy reality.
People talk a big game about respecting that power. What they usually mean by that is respecting EACH OTHER. That’s crucial, obviously -- not manipulating, not harming, being a good person.
But what about respecting the discipline itself?
It’s tempting to see what we do as disconnected from the “historical” and “outdated” methods of hypnosis. But we are a part of that history. We are likely hilariously wrong about a lot of things related to trance, hypnosis, the human mind -- what will hypnosis and psychology look like in 100 years? And even as we innovate, we are always building on the techniques and ideas that came before us -- in ways we are often not even aware of. We reinvent; we use ideas from the past unknowingly.
We have a right -- and a responsibility -- to OWN our magic. I am not here to gatekeep and say that this magic is not yours. It IS yours; it’s unequivocally yours. But as a whole we could do more to respect it.
“Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.” And hypnosis is not even a technology that we UNDERSTAND. The only real reason we DON’T see ourselves as wizards is because there is a huge motivation to legitimize hypnosis as a scientific discipline -- and non-rationalist perspectives are looked down upon in our culture. I’m not anti-science (maybe a little -- tongue in cheek) but I do think that labeling hypnosis as “just psychology” is dishonest about how much we actually objectively know about it -- and does a disservice to the phenomenon itself.
I’m not saying hypnosis is literally metaphysical. But I am saying we practice something very powerful without knowing its nature. There are secrets we have tried to suss out about this magic through history that we have written down -- past and present. We actually have tomes of knowledge, records of past experiments and modern inventors.
In the last couple of years, I’ve started teaching/facilitating “text studies” -- classes where we sit down with an excerpt from a hypnosis book and parse through it as a collaborative group. I desperately want to show people that there is value in just critically reading the resources available to us. The clinical texts -- especially older ones -- are hard to read, like they are almost in a different language. But it is amazing the insights we have come to by tackling them together.
These old texts are not pure truths -- there is a lot we’ve improved on over time. But we can learn a lot by learning what hypnosis was like historically. The entire discipline of hypnosis is extremely susceptible to change -- it is defined SO MUCH by how we view it culturally. I just recently was amazed at re-reading some Erickson where he talks about making his subjects daydream autonomously -- as a primary mode and result of inducing hypnosis. Contrast that with today, where if someone’s mind wanders for even a moment, they feel like they’ve failed. There’s something really important here -- a technique from 50 years ago that tells us something we’ve lost in modern practice.
And there are countless examples of this, of people losing and reinventing methods over and over. As I’ve watched our kinky niche grow over just the past 13 years, I’ve watched ideas phase in, out, and in again -- there is both growth and regression of our collective body of knowledge. That’s the nature of things, especially when we operate partially disconnected from the resources that are available to us.
We CAN be connected to the rich human history of trying to unravel the secrets about our minds, and about this thing that gives us enormous transformative powers -- powers that we take for granted.
You are a wizard -- so pour over the tomes.
Read a book. Read an article. Set aside some time and view yourself with the respect of being someone who can study and suss out a magical text. Take notes, look up words and concepts you don’t know. Or just absorb what you can on a first pass and go back later. Read a chapter or just master a single page. Romanticize the aesthetic of sitting with the scent of paper, or as the technomancer with words appearing on a screen.
Read. Own this art. And bring that respect of this art to the people you share it with. I promise you can do things with hypnosis that you have never thought possible.
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This is a little motivational piece (for you and me!) as I gear up to teach "Analyzing Erickson" at Charmed. It's something I feel really passionately about, and I wanted to share it.
Permanently linked/free on Patreon.
#hypnosis#hypnok1nk#brainwashing#mind control#hypnosub#hypnofetish#my writing#this might be the thing i feel most passionate about
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Danny owns a ship.
A giant, wonderous piece of technology he is even! He made his ship from scratch!
Well, with a bit of help here and there from his parents, mom with the blueprints, him and his sister with design, and his dad showing how to fit certain pieces with each other that he couldn't do himself.
All of that resulting in the birth of his son, Tempest!
He did wonders on open water, a great ship all around that really only need him and him alone, usually at the very least. If he wasn't inviting a few friends on board, that is.
His ship was also fitted with some very good tech, wouldn't be of Fenton design if it weren't! Ghost shields, ectoplasmic canons, an engine running off of ectoplasm, etc, etc.
After he well outlived his friends and family (discounting Vlad, but that fruitloop would never die on his own anyway) he decided to sail Tempest into various waters, and by various, he meant various. Tempest, a ship unbound by time and able to sail along the timestream as long as he doesn't accidently fuck things up, lest Clockwork get on his ass about that.
It took a while of pleading for him to even agree to allow him to sail a ship as advanced as Tempest into the past, but he managed to do so. On an agreement that he would sail over to changes in time and fix them, which he does, and in the future it's pretty rad he won't lie.
Of course, then everything got kinda fucked up. You see, he was going back to his timeline via the timestream, and was going to drop by Vlad's place to drop off a few of his more recent spoils-
And yes, he dumps various things from his adventures on Vlad, least he could do after that whole trying to get with his mom and kill his dad thing. The dude's chill now, or as chill as he can get anyway, and has quite the interest in appraising the stuff he drops off, so a win-win for both of them honestly. Also, he uses the guy and his resources to upgrade Tempest here and there.
-When he uh, he well. He kinda, fucked up. Now you see, it wasn't his and it obviously wasn't the fault of Tempest either, but something outside the timestream (That Clockwork told him specifically not to look at) dragged his attention for a mite too long and suddenly he wasn't in the timestream at all.
Okay, so maybe it was his fault.
So now he was outside his dimension's timestream, and oh boy was trying to get back to it far harder than he was expecting. No wonder Clockwork constantly told him to be careful and pay full attention to navigating the timestream.
And he kinda, lost his...
He isn't a Master of Time like Clockwork is, though he does hold a good knowledge of the timestream he isn't as capable as Clockwork. So now he's lost navigating... wherever the hell he is, and is kinda hoping Clockwork would realize and find him.
He does manage to get back on a timestream though. He doesn't recognize it, but hell he only recognizes his because it was the only one he's ever entered so far. So he pops off to the present time of this timestream, and thinks that hey, yea, this definitely isn't his timeline.
Because there was a fuck ton of heroes, supervillains, magic, you name it, its here.
So, what was one eternally young-looking captain the Tempest, a time sailing ship, to do?
Explore of course!
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Trowels and Scales| Rafayel x Archaeologist! Reader
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Ch 2
About: Lemuria. The ancient civilization that inspired your love of history, and brought you down this road. Placing a trowel in your hands. Upon its discovery, your mentor invites you to join the second phase of the excavation of the underwater civilization. But before you can join, an odd artist enters your life. Uncovering secrets is a part of the job description, but Rafayel holds secrets you cannot hope to uncover alone.
Contains spoilers for: Rafayel's World Underneath stories Long Lost Treasure/Microuniverses, his anecdote Addictive Pain, and his bond Ebb and Flow. Contains spoilers for above stories and portions of Rafayel's story in Love and Deepspace.
Word Count: 38k (whoops)
A/N: This is my first time writing an x reader and my first time writing something this big!!! Huge thanks to this fandom and this silly game for helping me find that spark again.
Divider credit: @thecutestgrotto
You knew better than anyone that the best place for research to begin was none other than the library.
The place was massive. Story upon story, floor upon floor. In the recent technology boom many of the lower flowers held state of the art computers. The database and online archives held hundreds, if not thousands of years of knowledge, all mere clicks away from one another. Meanwhile, the upper floors held row upon row of old books.
The cobwebs hung from every corner. Each stack covered in a generous dusting of dust. But each floor, somewhere around the L section, there were smudges, revealing the dark wood under the years of dust.
You meticulously went floor to floor with your list of codes. Each floor holding a couple more books that you needed. There was no ignoring the downright baffled expression of the librarian when you asked to borrow a cart, but her confusion shifted into a simple ‘o’ shaped mouth when you presented your long list of books you wanted to review.
Archaeology was a tough job. You recalled your mentor’s words when you first met back in college- archaeology is a non-renewable resource. Once everything from a certain time period has been found, that’s it. It’s gone. You’re done. But the beauty of it was that people were constantly finding new things, new areas unexplored, untouched by humans.
You rolled your rickety cart, laden with old books, down the aisles.
“J… K… L! La… Lb… Lc…” Your eyes shifted down the specific row until your eyes landed on the book you needed. “Lemurian Legends, Folk tales, and Magic. Fourth edition.” You pulled the book off the shelf, adding it to your cart. The L section featured significantly less dust than the rest on this floor.
You gave the cart a nudge with your hip, giving it the momentum to start moving before pushing it along. At the very back on this floor sat an unused study area. At least the tables and chairs weren’t covered in dust. The cart creaked and groaned before finally releasing a shuddery sigh once it came to a stop.
You sit yourself down, pulling your own supplies out of your bag. A journal, a pencil, your phone, and your long list of books. The one thing the books all had in common was the name burned into the inside of your eyelids.
Lemuria.
As a child, the name was whispered as a legend. A fairytale. The mythical home of mermen and mermaids, with magic and technology beyond your wildest dreams. When you decided you wanted to be an archaeologist at the ripe age of seven, a small part of you hoped to prove those schoolyard bullies wrong. That Lemuria was real, and you weren’t stupid for believing in it.
Maybe that’s why oceanic archaeology called to you. You got your diving certification, and your mentor got you connected with the best known underwater archaeologists in the country.
That’s how you got this upcoming job. It was pretty hush hush, but Lemuria had been discovered. At first it was just a few fragments of sculptures that proved to be much too old for the human settlements from the same time period from the shore. Then it was jewelry unlike anything known from the region, and the surrounding context in the soil proved it wasn’t just blown in from somewhere else.
And finally, they found it. Ruins of cities. Technology. Life.
You flipped through your journal, your thorough, methodical notes taking you back to that phone call from your mentor.
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“Hello, Dr. C-?”
“Guess what, kiddo? They found it.” Her excited voice made you pause.
“Dr. C? What do you mean they found it? Who’s they? What’s it?”
“Lemuria. They’ve found Lemuria.” She was breathless. You could practically hear the grin in her voice. Her usually polite but aloof demeanor all but gone. There was no pretense of professionalism. Just the friendliness of your mentor- and your friend. “I know the head of the project, she was looking for divers with experience for the second phase. I gave her your name. Are you open to a job in two months time?”
You look down at the almost empty cup of ramen, your main source of nutrients between jobs. “Absolutely I am. I could start sooner.”
“Perfect. She has your contact info. I told her you were one of my best students, showed her some of your work from field school and maritime training.” Her excitement momentarily faded. “But…”
“But…?”
“There are some risks.”
“Oh I know that.” You shrugged, pinning your phone to your ear by your shoulder. You picked up the ramen, picking at the few remaining toppings in the bottom with your utensil. “I’m assuming it’s pretty deep, so light will be limited. There are always potential risks using submarines or submersibles. And since it’s all underwater who knows the integrity of the artifacts themselves.”
“Not that.” Her voice softened. Lowered. “The news already knows. They were trying to keep this under wraps, but… treasure hunters are sure to be on their way. This is top secret. You cannot tell anyone you are a part of this expedition when it comes. Or you’ll be putting a target on your own head. Are you sure you want to do this? I can tell my friend, she knows the risks and she won’t hold it against you.”
You paused. This wouldn’t necessarily be your first time running into hostility in the field. Whether it was hostile businesses trying to bribe you to turn a blind eye to the history of an area so they could build their high rise, or members of the community threatening you due to past grievances with archaeology as a whole… but treasure hunters? They were dangerous. Just trying to make a quick buck, they'd swoop in and the artifacts would just… vanish. Only to end up in some multi millionaire or billionaire’s home as the next hot home decor piece. And for that kind of money? Some people would kill.
“How much does the job pay?” You asked softly.
“More than I make in a year.” Your mentor responded. “They… took the danger into account.”
You sat straight up, nearly dropping your phone while you’re at it. You juggle it for a moment, your chair squeaking loudly as you jostle about, before catching it.
“I’m in!”
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Before you sat a stack of the most reputable books on Lemuria you could find. As well as some books on reportedly Lemurian fairytales.
You knew some of your peers may scoff, but you’d be a fool to deny the importance of stories. The oral tradition. You knew these stories likely were not true. But you knew even better that every good story had a grain of truth in it. Be it a reflection of a real event or person, or a poignant moral or theme. And if you manage to find these grains of sand, they begin to build into something much grander.
You looked around.
“Lemurian artifacts, history of Lemuria, Lemurian language, Dreams and Awakenings of Lemuria, Lemuria:Fact vs Fiction… for a land thought to be a fantasy for years there’s more scholarship on them than I thought.” You were pleasantly surprised. You figured you’d find more fairytales than anything, but you were pleasantly surprised by the amount of scholarship present.
The trained professional in you told you to start with the language, or the rough histories pieced together. But that little kid in you was greedily grasping at that book of fairytales like it was the last piece of candy in the store.
You flipped it open. The binding was worn. The pages yellowed. But that familiar, comforting scent of a book wafted towards you. And all you could do was breathe in deeply. While you wanted to read these fairytales for pleasure, the professional side of you still nagged. So with a resigned sigh you took notes. The author, editor, and date of publishing. The date of the original version. Translation amendments and edits.
But as you read each familiar story, common threads slowly began to form.
A Sea God. Master of tides, bringer of storms, keeper of fire. There were multiple themes of the battle of Fire and Water. And little blue fish.
A little blue fish. That’s oddly specific.
In each story where the sea god appears, a little blue fish would announce his presence first. As you got into the later stories you started to notice it. Pages before the sea god appeared, the narrator would mention a little blue fish.
A kind hearted protagonist would save a little blue fish from a whirlpool. Or an enemy would notice a single little blue fish zip by, before the god made his grand appearance. Time and time again. You made a note in your journal. The last story was the most fascinating of them all. It was of the youngest sea god, and his troublesome years as a child. You were quickly sucked in, finding yourself enraptured in the story.
He was constantly getting into trouble, not understanding the weight of his responsibilities or power. Mischievous, silly, and always up to no good. The story brought a smile to your face, a far cry from your typical focused expression while researching. You could just see it in your mind. A little boy with a fish tail flitting about, causing minor whirlpools, spitting water at birds, and simply causing trouble. From your years of story analysis, you could spot a trickster from a mile away.
And this sea god, for all his might and power, was quite the trickster god. Sly, cunning, and powerful. While he could sway others to do as he said through power and force, sometimes it was his intelligence that did the trick. These stories painted a clear picture of the understanding of the Lemurian sea god.
He was not to be trifled with. Even if he was just a silly prankster as a guppy.
“A-hem.”
The sharp sound of someone clearing his throat yanked you from your imagination. You immediately looked up. A man, your age, stood before you. He was dressed in a crisp red suit, dazzlingly decorated with roses. His dusky purple hair drifted into his eyes, but it didn’t hide how brilliant they were. Blue. With a hint of pink at the bottom.
“Do you really need all those books?” He lazily pointed at your extensive pile of books before you. “Someone’s just being greedy.” His tone was low. But playful. An obvious sign of amusement.
“Oh! No, not really! I wrote down all their names, so I can come back if you need some of them now.” You quickly closed the book you were reading, realizing how selfish it was to take all of them. “Which ones do you need?”
His eyes scanned the table, before locking in on the book right in front of you. “Lemurian Legends, Folk tales, and Magic. Fourth edition.” You pick it up and offer it to him.
“I was done with it anyway, you had good timing.” He accepted the book. He let it fall open in his hand, briefly skimming the page.
“Fourth edition, and they still have work to do… their translations are mediocre at best.” He grumbled his words, his eyebrows furrowing as he zeroed in on a phrase.
“Oh…” You look down at your notes before looking up at him. “Do you… know the originals, then?” The man snorted, snapping the book shut.
“Sort of. I know a thing or two about Lemuria. And I know this author is awful at getting the context of certain phrases right.”
“Oh!” You couldn’t deny the bubble of excitement. Was this man someone who knew more about Lemuria? “I’m actually working on a project about Lemuria right now! Do… do you know a lot?”
“A lot?” He echoed. He took long strides towards you, leaning down so he could look you in the eye. “Yeah. I guess you could say that.” His lips curled up, a glimmer coming to his eye. “I’m applying to be an associate professor at a local university. Art history. I just so happen to read and speak Lemurian fluently, soooo…” He shrugged. “Yeah. I guess I do know a lot.”
There it was. That familiar, glowing buzz that hit you. You love your job sometimes. You stick your hand out with a confident by polite smile, offering him your name. “That’s great! I’m actually an archaeologist doing some additional background research into Lemuria. I’m sure you’ve seen that some ruins have been discovered.”
He eyed your hand, but grasped it and gave a polite shake before promptly dropping it. “Rafayel. Aren’t they doing an expedition down there soon?” You shrugged, grabbing the book on Lemurian language and dragging it closer to you over the table. You open it directly on top of your journal.
“I don’t know, apparently it’s a pretty small team going on it. But you know there’s soooo many hoops to jump through to get that kind of thing approved.” You recalled the many times you helped a supervisor or client call in for the permits. The government agencies, local businesses, any local groups that may be impacted. Jumping through hoops for the government while appeasing businesses and people alike. You got a headache just thinking about it. “Could take months before they get anyone down there.” It was half a lie. You knew it was being streamlined, and it did make things easier since it was underwater.
But it did momentarily make a frown flicker onto your face. One of the most important jobs as an archaeologist was speaking with the descendants and local communities. They were never obstacles to be overcome, or enemies to conquer. They were allies. And often, victims. You looked down at the treasure trove of books. There were people behind these stories. One way or another. Obviously the humans who wrote or translated them. But somewhere along the way, there must have been the true residents of Lemuria. Would any of their descendants even still be around? Would they want this?
“Uhhhh… earth to cutie.” The purple haired man, Rafayel, lightly tapped your head with the book. “Did you just hear a word I said?”
You quickly shake your head, centering yourself back in reality. “Sorry! Got lost in my own head. No, I didn’t hear you, will you please repeat yourself?” Rafayel looked away, hanging his head while tapping it with one hand.
”I don’t knooooow, you seemed pretty happy to just be in your own head.”
”I was just thinking something… kinda silly.” You shrug, rubbing the back of your neck. “I mean. My mentor always told me and my classmates that the most important job of an archaeologist is to work with the community. Not against them. So, you know, if Lemuria is real, then Lemurians must’ve been real.”
Rafayel cut his eyes over, his gaze meeting yours through the curtain of purple hair. “Oh?”
”I mean,” you shrug. “Someone had to make all of that stuff. Those people…” You gesture to the book in his hands. “I noticed a couple of themes. Fire vs water, the sea god, and… the animosity between ocean and land. There’s a theory that Lemuria was actually a land based society that fell into the ocean, and it was its remains that people mistook for mermen and mermaids.” You frown. “But… I just don’t buy that.”
”Sooo… what? You think mermaids exist? Some scientist you are.” He scoffed, letting the book fall open in his hands again.
”It doesn’t really matter what Lemurians are, be they human or non human. Would they want this?” You turned back to your pile of books. “Would they want to be found?” The names of the authors on all the books caught your eye. You made a mental note to do some additional research into the authors themselves. Their backgrounds. Their prejudices or biases. Your gaze shifted back to the book right in front of you. The book of language. You flipped a few pages to an unfamiliar alphabet, showing the rough equivalent into the Latin alphabet. You gently nudged the book away, looking back and forth while spelling your name out.
The hairs on the back of your neck came to stand, and soon you felt Rafayel’s presence over your shoulder. He leaned in, looking at your handwriting.
“You need to connect those two letters.” He pointed between two symbols. “That’ll create the sound you need to replicate your name in the Lemurian tongue. It won’t be exact, but it’ll be as close as you can get in this language.” You flipped your pencil and rubbed the two letters away, replacing them with a more connected version. You weren’t sure what he meant, but as you wrote you steadily wrote one symbol before making the next without lifting your pencil from the paper. Rafayel’s eyes narrowed before slowly nodding. “Better.” His eyes cut up to your face again. “So. When are you going on that excavation?”
”Me?” You pointed to yourself. “Do you know how selective something like this is?”
”Not really.” He shrugged again, his lips tugging up into a smile once more. “Tell me.”
”Well… it’s pretty selective.” You put down your pencil. “Thorough background checks, lengthy interview processes…”
”I’m sure good recommendations are a part, too.”
You hummed in confirmation. “Yeah, big time. Networking is important in this kind of field. Everyone remembers. They might not have a name to a face or a face to a name, but if you fucked up even in field school they’ll know.”
”Field school?” His eyebrows furrowed.
”Yeah! Field school! It’s basically how archaeologists get trained, at least where I’m from. You are working in the field, but it is also an academic setting where you are learning.” You pulled your journal out, flipping all the way back to the front. It was a bound leather journal in your favorite color. You flipped to the first page and extended it to him.
”Those were my notes from my first ever dig.”
”Ugh.” He groaned, scanning the page. “Why are there so many numbers?”
”Archaeology needs math.”
”Gross.”
You couldn’t suppress a laugh, though you quickly clasped both hands over your mouth. This is a library. Gotta be quiet. Rafayel’s initially disgruntled expression shifted, back into the same amusement he had been carrying with him all morning. “It’s just us up here, no need to be quiet.” He shrugged. He leaned against the table, his eyes trailing over all the books you had laid out. “You say this excavation is selective. But you seem motivated. Think you’ve got a shot?” You removed your hands, what your mentor said echoing in your mind.
”I mean,” you shrug your shoulders, looking down at your journal again. “Maybe? Depends on how many people can go, and the competition. Besides, there’s plenty of other people who would be vying for this kind of position. Hence why I’m here.” You gestured at all the books he was eyeing. “Research.”
Rafayel’s eyes settled on one of the books on the table. He set down the book of legends, picking up the book on fact and fiction. He dangled it by the edge of its cover, his lips curling in disgust. “I’d… not read this one if I were you.” He held it away from himself as if it was diseased, and you couldn’t help but smile in both amusement and mild bewilderment. He glanced at you, scoffing before putting the book down on the other table, smacking it away. “The author doesn’t know what he’s talking about. Doesn’t cite his sources, doesn’t interview professionals��� all just theories and what he thinks to be true.”
”Oh.” You looked down your list of books, finding it. You grabbed your pencil and messily scratched it out, writing what he said down as a note to yourself. “Thanks for that, I’m planning on doing some research into all these authors later.”
“Better sooner than later. You’ve got a good eye, some of these guys are pretty trustworthy.” Rafayel tapped the book of language in front of you. “This author is the best. Her work is great. Well sourced, well written, talks to professionals…” You knew of the few experts in Lemuria out there. Rafayel now being the newest one, and one you’ve now met in person. But they’re few and far between. Plenty of people in the academic world scoffed at them, claiming they were chasing nothing more than fairytales. So while academic scholarship on Lemuria existed, the good stuff was few and far between. You circled the author’s name on the piece of paper, adding five scrubbed stars around it as well. You’ll need to look up her other works.
”You have any more suggestions, Rafayel?” Your eyes darted up again, catching the tail end of a continued glare at the offending book. He turned back to you, shrugging.
”Nah. Not really. Good stuff is hard to find, y’know.”
You chuckled wryly, looking down at your notes. “Oh, I know.” Your fingers found their way to the necklace hiding under the collar of your shirt. A simple chain in your favored metal, with a single charm. A pearl. Just one. Hell, you didn’t know if it was even real. It caught your eye shortly before graduation. After years of working towards being an archaeologist, all the people saying you couldn’t do it, you weren’t cut out for it, you’d never make it. The worried friends and family asking you to pick something else, be something else. After all that, you promised yourself a momento to show you made it, and remind yourself why you did this.
Your fingers graze the surface of the pearl. It was unique, it wasn’t white. The color felt so suiting, and the chain was your favorite color of metal. It was a no brainer. You bought it on the spot. A reminder of the story that started it all. A reminder of the years of studying and working that brought you to this exact moment.
“Academia hasn’t always been the kindest to those who tried to prove Lemuria’s existence. Always said it was just hopeless fools chasing fairytales.” You dropped the necklace and looked back up. Rafayel’s eyes seemed to catch a glimpse of the pearl pendant, but they popped back up to meet your own. “But hey. People said the same thing of the city of Ur. And of Troy. But those weren’t just stories.” You looked at the book he had picked up, the one you had just finished reading when he approached. “Every story has a grain of truth. Maybe it’s a universal theme, like love or loss. Maybe it’s based on a real person but was twisted over time. Or maybe it’s the setting itself.” You pointed at the book with your pencil.
”And now we know Lemuria was real. Which means Lemurians are real- people lived there. One way or another. And they are what’s important. Not the treasures. Not the statues. The people. Their stories.” Your eyes found their way to Rafayel’s once more. They were locked onto you. Behind the shield of his hair, you couldn’t quite make out what he might be thinking or feeling. He cocked his head to the side, a smirk coming to his face.
”You said it yourself. What if these people don’t want to be found?”
Something about that gaze felt intense. Like a challenge. Or a trap.
You sighed. “Well. We don’t know that unless we ask. Or find out the hard way.” You started to gather the books in front of you. Between the author Rafayel detested and the book he needed, your pile would be a little smaller. You were certain you could check out this many- or a portion of them and then come back next week for the others. “I’m a scientist and an anthropologist- but I have my beliefs. Sometimes, discoveries just aren’t meant to be made. Not yet. So I guess we’ll see how this excavation goes and go from there.”
You loaded the books onto the cart. The two or three books by the detested author went onto the bottom of the cart so you could return them, while the rest went on top.
“What? Like… some unseen force will bury the lead, or something?” Rafayel’s voice came from behind you. “Really?”
”Not necessarily. But I’ve had my weird experiences.” You shrugged your shoulders. You went back to your journal, shutting it and securing it with the connected elastic. You tucked your pencil behind your ear, tucking everything away where it belonged. You walked around the edge of the other table, grabbing the rejected book and adding it to your stack of books to be put away. “Things going missing, weird happenstances, tech malfunctioning and refusing to work… I’m not that superstitious. But if a site isn’t cooperating, maybe that’s a hint that the time isn’t right. If that happens, I take all my field notes, do the best work I can, and go home at the end of the day. That’s all you can do.”
”Hm.” Rafayel hummed. “Do others in the field feel the same way?”
”Eh, you’d have to ask them.” You turned to face him, offering him your hand one more time. “It was nice to meet you, Rafayel. Good luck with that associate professor position. What university?”
”The one in town. University of Linkon.” He extended his hand, giving you a polite but firm shake before dropping your hand again.
“Hey! I graduated from there. You might run into my mentor, she’s the archaeology prof there. Everyone calls her Dr. C. Tell her you met me.” You pulled your hand back, gripping the rail of the cart as you slowly began to push it away. “I meet up with her for coffee on campus from time to time. Maybe we’ll see each other again!”
Rafayel’s eyes left yours. He looked down at the book in his hand, before looking back at you. He smiled. Though it was clear it was only for the sake of manners. “Maybe. Good luck on the dig.”
You worked your ass off. You got all your background knowledge done and had extensive notes. You got confirmation from Eleanor, the lead on the dig, that you would be brought in for phase two. Additionally, the sponsors for the dig sent you an advance check so you could get all the additional equipment you might need. You had everything you needed up to their specifications, and your training was still good. Which meant the money was yours to use. You used a part of it on groceries so ramen wouldn’t be your only source of nutrients, while the rest was squirreled away in a savings account for the next in-between period you fell upon.
You were busy reviewing your journal, looking over your notes with a growing glow of excitement when your phone began to ring.
*I wanna know- can you show me? I wanna know about these strangers like me!*
The song you had set for your mentor was ringing loudly. You shut your journal, grabbing your phone. You accepted the call, putting your phone to your ear. “Dr. C! Hey-!” As you greeted her she said your name in a low, firm tone. Your greeting froze in your throat. She never spoke like this. “Yes? What’s going on?”
”Can you meet me on campus in an hour? We need to talk.”
”Dr. C is everything okay?” You were already getting up. You tucked your journal into your bag, slinging it over your shoulder as you rushed to the door. You put on your shoes, grabbed your keys, and left.
“I’m fine. And you’re not in trouble.” Her voice softened, picking up in the concern in your own voice. “It’s important. I’ll buy you coffee at our usual spot. Okay?”
”I’ll be there soon. Do you need anything? Can I grab something for you?”
”No, no. No need.” She released a heavy sigh on her end of the line. You couldn’t recall the last time she acted like this. You couldn’t recall her acting like this… ever. “I’ll see you soon.”
She hung up before you could respond. With your eyebrows furrowed and your lips pressing into a thin line, you hurried out the door of your apartment building. Luck seemed to be on your side. You caught the bus right as it arrived, and traffic was light. While hot, there was a pleasant breeze drifting through the city. The route was familiar. Nostalgic. For a moment you were taken back to those college days. Riding that bus crammed with so many chattering students, the breeze rolling through the bus every time the door opened for new passengers. The way you’d admire the petals dancing in the breeze on a beautiful spring or summer day, or leaves in the autumn, and snow in the winter.
You hopped off the bus at the same spot you always did. Your footsteps were quick, but didn’t hold the same lightness they typically did. Something was wrong. Dr. C never got shaken up. Never. Nothing got under that woman’s skin. Not easily at least. And the only way you’d know is if you watched her eyes. Her confusion and amusement would be clear as day. But irritation? It would be just the tiniest glimmer in her eye, before she buried it beneath polite but stern reconciliations, or firm reprimands if something was truly wrong.
And worry? You never saw her worried. Never. Even when expensive equipment broke, or an investor threatened to pull out, or someone tried to threaten her. So to hear her actively concerned over the phone?
It worried you.
You were forced to come to a stop at a crosswalk. You sighed, briefly glancing around. There was an old pet shop at this crosswalk. It was run by the nicest old couple. They worked primarily with old pets needing new homes, and pet supplies. You glanced in, surprised to come face to face with a flurry of fish. They flicked here and there, zipping around the large tank.
But one in particular caught your eye. A little blue fish.
You tilted your head, and the fish flicked to one side. You tilted your head the other way, and the fish followed. You cracked a smile, lifting a hand to wave at it.
”Hey there little guy.” You murmured. The fish seemed to be watching you. “So. Emissary of the sea god, huh?” Your smile widened. “Mind giving him a message from little old me?”
The fish flicked its tail, getting closer to the glass.
”I’m taking that as a yes.” You laughed. You leaned close to the glass. “Please tell Mr Sea God that I’m gonna be near Lemuria soon.” You dropped your voice, verifying no one was around you. “And I’d like to ask for his favor. It’s okay if he doesn’t want to give it. I can take a no.” Your smile widened in self incredulity. Talking to a fish, asking it to deliver a message to a god.
No wonder some of your colleagues thought you were loopy.
You leaned away, noticing the crosswalk sign change out of your peripheral vision. You waved to the fish, turning your body to cross the road. In a mere matter of minutes, the bustling city gave way to the college campus. It felt like stepping back in time.
People tossing balls and frisbees, friends studying for exams under and in trees, young couples cuddled on benches lining the path. Any other day you’d take a leisurely stroll, enjoy the beauty of campus. But not today. Today, there was a pressing matter. Your feet carried you along the familiar paths, winding your way to the campus cafe. A popular place to hang out in between classes. Students and professors alike would grab a little pastry and a coffee or tea. Some students would come to study, while others came for dates, or catch up their friends on the latest gossip.
You swung the door open, the familiar sights, sounds, and smells washing over you.
You breathed in it. It was nice to be back.
You walked in, avoiding the long line as you peeked into the very back corner. Just as you expected, you saw your mentor sitting there, her back to the wall. She was sipping on her own coffee, while an iced coffee sat across from her. Your lips turned up in a grin, making a beeline to her. Your footsteps made her eyes cut up, and everything about her seemed to soften. She put down her cup, coming to stand. She called your name, and in a heartbeat you were at her side, sharing a side hug.
”Dr. C! Everything okay?” You held her shoulder just a little tighter, your smile fading into a worried expression.
“I’m fine.” She assured, patting your shoulder before gesturing for you to sit down. “I remembered your favorite flavored coffee here. It’s a seasonal special now. You’re lucky they brought it back for the summer semester.” You sat down in front of her, while she returned to her spot with her back against the wall. You picked up the drink, taking a sip. The crisp coolness was just what you wanted on a hot day like today.
”I still can’t see how you drink that stuff.” She shook her head, taking a sip of her own coffee. Hot, with just a splash of cream. You shrug, lifting your cup to her.
”Eh, sweet tooth.” You explained. The two of you tapped your cups together, an unspoken toast. You took another sip, the cool liquid cooling you down. “So.” You dropped your voice, leaning in. This back corner wasn’t very popular. It was near the bathrooms, and the lighting wasn’t great. But it was great for semi-private conversations. “What’s going on?”
Dr. C slowly lowered her cup. She set it down on the table, her eyes scanning the cafe behind you. She smiled, but it was one of her typical, polite, not quite right smiles. “Phase one failed.” She kept her voice low, leaning in closer over the table. “The entire team was down a week longer than anticipated. They never lost contact with the surface- but the people in the submersible say they lost contact.” Her eyes cut to yours. “And everyone responsible has gone no contact. I talked with Sean last before he dropped off the map. But Yennifer, Fred, Eleanor? The others won’t talk to me.”
Your eyes widened. Your eyebrows shot up, and you quickly put your cup down. “What? Are they okay?”
”From what I’ve heard, yes. Gone into hiding.” She licked her lips. Still smiling, like she was whispering an inside joke. “Sean said he felt followed.” She looked you dead in the eye. “The field notes were modified. The videos corrupted. People are missing.” You kept your eyes low. Thinking. You hadn’t heard from Eleanor since you got that check. You chalked it up to the dig itself, and then of course taking everything back to the lab for testing and analysis. You licked your lips, both they and your mouth feeling very dry all of a sudden. “I’m sorry.” She sighed. “The job is off. I would distance yourself from this project.” Her voice dropped to just above a whisper. “Something is very wrong here.”
”No, no, don’t apologize.” You reached out, resting your hand on her clenched fist. “I know they were all friends of yours. All four of them. Sean, Fred, Yennifer, Eleanor. And don’t worry about me having a job, you know I do plenty of other things. A museum reached out to me to help them ID some artifacts of theirs, and that’s a three month contract that could be renewed. And a science magazine is going to publish some of my work.” You squeezed her hand. Her eyes met yours, and you smiled warmly. You had met all four of them before, albeit briefly. Sean was your stereotypical absentminded professor, though he was brilliant and skilled at his job. Eleanor was quiet but kind, a good reflection of your own mentor. Fred had a great sense of humor and always lit up the room. And Yennifer, though stern, always engaged in conversation with you. You could see them all in your mind’s eye- even smell them. Their familiar cologne or perfume when they weren't on a dig or in the library. Lilac and gooseberries was the most potent scent, every time. The nostalgia hit you like a wave, meeting them in your undergrad years.
You hoped they were all okay.
“Besides. Whoever was helping to fund this expedition was very generous. Eleanor forwarded a check for me to get all my gear upgraded and ready ahead of time, and any I didn’t use was mine to keep.” You add with a beam. “Never had that happen before!”
Dr. C’s eyebrows furrowed. She opened her mouth before promptly closing it. Her eyes locked on someone behind you. Everything about her shifted. Her smile widened, and her eyebrows relaxed.
She just shifted into polite professional mode.
”Rafayel!” She greeted the person behind you. You quickly turned, seeing the man in question. The same mop of purple hair was the biggest sign. He wasn’t wearing the ostentatious red suit today. Instead he wore a more casual black suit with a loose tie. He still looked the part of a professor- though his face gave away that he was much closer to your age than Dr. C’s. ”Rafayel, good to see you.” The two went and shook hands, both giving a firm shake with polite smiles. “This is one of my previous students,-“ Before she could introduce you, Rafayel chuckled.
”We’ve met.” He smiled, sending you a wink. “In the library. Still working on that Lemurian history project of yours?” You shook your head, coming to stand to greet him in turn. He was holding a thick binder in one arm and a yogurt drink in the other hand. Honeydew melon. He must’ve gotten it from one of the vending machines.
“Nah.” You shrug casually. As of today, no. “Kinda just sitting and waiting around to hear back about it by this point. I’ve got other smaller jobs to keep me busy in the meantime.” You gestured between the two of them. “I see you both have met.”
”Yeah! Rafayel here came and introduced himself after he got hired.” Dr. C nudged his arm with her elbow, a teasing smile on her face. She was significantly shorter than him, but her confidence and intelligence filled the room just as much as Rafayel’s presence did. “Invited me to sit in on some of his lectures. I should’ve known you two would cross paths.” She pointed at you. “This one was one of my top students.” She teased, her voice light and proud. “Wanted to go into maritime archaeology.”
”Ah, I see.” Rafayel’s eyes gleamed. “Mind if I join you two? You looked like you were having a pretty serious conversation, I don’t want to intrude.” Dr. C waved her hand.
”Nahhhh. You’re fine. Come, join us.” She went back to her seat, while you pulled your chair away so Rafayel could sit against the wall. Dr. C had her back to one wall, with Rafayel to her left doing the same. You sat to Rafayel’s left, your back to the rest of the cafe. “It wasn’t anything too serious.”
Rafayel leaned in. His smile dropped and his eyes narrowed. “Don’t lie.” He murmured. “I heard about it too. I know a lot about Lemuria. I heard about the archaeologists.” He added. His eyebrows furrowed. “Are they okay?”
You and Dr. C share a look.
”I don’t know.” You answer truthfully. “We haven’t heard from them.” Dr. C nodded to confirm.
”They just… vanished.” She added. “The authorities are looking into it.”
”Sure, that’s great and all…” You hummed, keeping your voice low. “But I think I might do some digging, too. I mean… four people dropping off the face of the earth. Video footage gone, field journals edited and changed…” You put a hand on your head. “That goes against everything we stand for. You know Eleanor, she would never permit something like this.” You look up, meeting your mentor’s eyes. Her lips were pressed into a thin line.
”I wouldn’t do that, if I were you.” The man between the both of you spoke. His voice took on a lower tone than you had heard him use back in the library. “If all this stuff is happening… it looks like they don’t want to be found right now. They’re trying to shake someone off their tails.”
”He’s right.” Dr. C turned back to you. “Don’t get involved in this. Not here. Not now.” Her voice was firm. Worried. Giving you no room to argue. “Whoever is behind this isn’t going to care who is or isn’t directly involved. This level of sabotage, or blackmail, or manipulation…” Her voice drifted. “Something a lot bigger is going on here. But it’s not for us to find out.”
You looked down, finding the table much more interesting than their faces.
“But there are people at risk.” You urged, looking back up again. “What if someone did something to them?”
”That’s the police’s job.”
You scoffed. “Yeah. Right.”
Rafayel blew some hair out of his face. “Listen. I get it.” He cut in. “These are colleagues, or just people who are important to you because they’re in the same field. But you said it yourself. Maybe some things aren’t meant to be found. At least, not here. Not now. Not by them.” You slowly looked to his face. “Maybe they found something they shouldn’t have.”
”What, some cursed treasure?” Dr. C’s voice was mildly teasing.
”No. Something more modern.” Rafayel frowned. “Lots of people just… dump their trash into the sea. Maybe they found something illegal and were going to report it.” You slowly nod. That would make sense. That would explain them going into hiding, the editing, the footage being lost… and it would make sense to leave it to the police, in that case. But something was nagging at you. Something is wrong here. You grabbed your drink and took a few more sips. Your eyes scanned the back of the cafe, since Rafayel and Dr. C faced the front. You looked up, finding a camera in the corner. It had always been there.
You always remembered it being broken. Now, the red light was blinking steadily.
”I won’t press my luck.” You sighed, leaning back in your chair. You cross your arms over your chest, looking away from them both. “I… I’m just worried.”
”So am I.”
”We both are.” Dr. C spoke first, before Rafayel echoed the sentiment. Rafayel sipped on his drink, his eyes scanning the cafe behind you. His eyes lingered on one spot. He finished his drink, standing back up. You scoot your chair to the side, allowing him to come out. “Thanks for letting me join you two for a minute. Keep me updated, okay, Dr. C?” He looked over his shoulder. “Oh! And you’re both welcome to come and visit my lecture next week. We’re discussing Sumerian art history.”
Your jaw dropped. How did he know?! Your mentor reached over and patted your arm, a grin on her face. “You should go! Your second love. It’ll get your mind off of this.”You thought for a moment. You might as well. You had a pretty flexible schedule with these past time jobs. So you might as well. You turned to look at him, offering a grim and a thumbs up.
“I’ll see you then!” You confirmed.
You turned back around to face your old professor, hearing Rafayel’s dress shoes crisply head out towards the chatter of the rest of the cafe.
“He’s cute.”
”Oh my gods shut up.” You whipped your head around to hiss at her, but she had that familiar amused grin on her face.
”Just an acknowledgment.”
”Yeah but I know what you’re really saying.” You groaned. “And we just met.”
”Yeah. But you can admit he’s cute.” She grabbed her drink again. “Interested in Lemuria, teaching a lecture on Sumerian art history next week… he seems right up your alley.”
”Dr. C, is this revenge?”
”Maybe a little.” She teased. “Remember when all your classmates would dog me about finding a date? Trying to play matchmaker?”
”Do YOU remember I never participated?” You groaned again. You could feel the warmth blooming up your neck and face. Sure. You could call a spade a spade. Rafayel was cute. And that playful but grumpy personality? Totally your thing. But you just met the guy a few weeks ago. “Don’t take it out on me!”
”I know, I know, I remember.” She finally laughed. Though you felt embarrassed, it was good to hear her laugh. You could tell how heavily this was weighing on her. Maybe it was for the best to avoid the topic for a little bit. You knew all you could know. “I’m just saying. Don’t close yourself off to the possibility. Let yourself get to know the guy. He’s your age.”
”Yeah. And apparently he’s a super famous artist.” You continued to hold your petty grudge, grumbling back at her. “He was just looking for something extra to do so he decided to become an associate professor. Saw it in a magazine.”
”Imagine being so wealthy you could choose to be an associate professor for fun.” She sighed wistfully. You two shared a look before bursting out laughing.
In your field? Impossible.
”See?” You laughed along with her. “He’s a super wealthy famous artist picking up lectures for fun. Why the hell would he want a sweaty, dirty, constantly bouncing from job to job archaeologist?”
”Who knows?” Dr. C finally came down from her laughing fit. “All I’m saying is he’s cute. Don’t push it away. See what happens. He seemed pretty happy to see you here.”
”Really? I didn’t see that at all.”
“It’s all in the eyes.” She gestured to her own eyes, her knowing glimmer in them. “I’m not saying anything about his interest. I’m just saying you two have things in common.” She grabbed her coffee cup. She took a sip while glancing at her watch. “Unfortunately I do have a class to teach in an hour, and I need to finish looking over some notes, so I need to get going.” As Dr. C stood, you did the same. She reached out, patting your shoulder with a reassuring smile. ”Let the authorities do their job. I know you’re hesitant. So am I. But this’ll be figured out. I’m sure of it.” She squeezed your shoulder, and you managed to smile in return. You reached up, resting your hand on hers, squeezing it in return.
”Of course, Dr. C. I’ll see you next week at Rafayel’s lecture?”
”Wouldn’t miss it for the world.” She grinned back. She grabbed her coffee and her bag, slinging it over her shoulder. “See you then!” She turned and walked out. You watched, noticing that familiar spring in her step. Just talking about it clearly helped her feel better as much as it did the same for you. You grabbed your coffee, deciding you might as well walk back to your apartment. You didn’t have anything else to do today, and traffic would be crazy on a Friday evening.
You exited the familiar cafe, greeted once more by the familiar campus. This was your home for years. Some things changed, but many stayed the same.
People throwing balls and frisbees on the grass, gossiping with their friends about the people on the sports teams, or complaining about the latest exam or paper. One guy was just on a park bench, scrolling on his phone, his black hood pulled over his face. It brought back the days of college, and you couldn’t help but smile a little wider. Your stroll was leisurely, taking in the sights, sounds, and smells of this area of Linkon. The trees planted by sidewalks, and the slowly growing glow of a setting sun. As you walked you heard distant music, almost carnival like.
You came upon a small carnival with games set up. You grinned, deciding to at least wander around. There were your typical strongman games, or the games with balloons you could throw darts at. An obnoxious teenage boy yelled at onlookers, trying to goad them into trying to dunk him into the tank. But off in the distance, you saw a tank with fish.
You chuckled to yourself as you approached.
”Hello again.” The fish scattered as you approached, save for a little blue fish. Its fins were different, so it surely wasn’t the same fish you encountered at the crosswalk. You looked around, but the person running this game was nowhere to be found. If you caught a fish, you got to keep it. You knelt down by the side of the tank, the fish seeming to eye you warily. You held up your index fingers, bringing them to either side of you. “Let’s play a game. Left is yes. Right is no.”
A part of you couldn’t believe you were doing this. No wonder some of your colleagues thought you were loopy. But if nothing else, it was fun to indulge in your imagination.
“Fish are emissaries of the sea god.” You said it like a fact. The fish didn’t react. Watching you. Before languidly turning, swimming off to the left. You raised your eyebrows, nodding. “I see.” You hummed. “Alright. Next question. Little blue fish specifically are emissaries of the sea god.” The fish darted to the right. You really raised an eyebrow at that one. “Oh? So that’s just legend?” It darted back to the left, this time swimming calmly. You shook your head. No one would believe you if you told them about this. ”Okay. Good to know. Maybe I should ask Rafayel about that next week.” You pause, trying to think of another question. Your eyebrows furrow, and your lips press together.
”Are the archaeologists okay?”
The fish turned. It swam in a slow circle on the left side of the tank. You were going to consider this good news, when it slowly swam to the middle of the tank. Then the right. Then to the very bottom right corner, near the gravel. You inhaled slowly.
“I’m… not sure I should take it from a fish.” You stood up. “But thanks for the assist. I’ll keep that in mind. Tell the sea god I said hi.” The fish flicked its tail and hid in a decoration, almost as if it was turning its back on you. Your expression contorted into a bewildered but amused look. “No need to be rude… I said thanks.” You turned, slowly beginning to walk away. You ran your fingers through your hair, the distant sound of cars and growing traffic adding to the growing cacophony in your head.
Rafayel did mention that the fourth edition still had some translation and context errors. Maybe the “little blue” section was one of them. Your mind wandered back to the most important question. Are the archaeologists okay. It was a slow, steady shift from yes to no. And a decisive no at that. You shouldn’t take a fish’s word for it. Dr. C was right, you need to let the authorities conduct their investigation. Maybe some company got involved and tried to blackmail them. Or they found something weird and inexplicable. Or they found nothing at all and dropped off the map out of embarrassment.
But with each explanation, something gnawed at your chest. No. That couldn’t be right. None of that could be right. Something felt sinister about this. Maybe it was paranoia. But in spite of Dr. C and Rafayel’s warnings, you found yourself more determined than ever. You would get to the bottom of this.
The week came and went faster than you had anticipated. Between revisions for that magazine article about your journey becoming an archaeologist and the heavy duty research you needed to do to help that museum with their artifacts, you didn’t have time to dwell on much else. Between working on those two tasks your mind drifted to the archaeologists. The failed expedition was starting to make headlines, with people questioning the people who ran it, the people who funded it… It was turning into quite the mess. People pointing fingers, people scoffing and calling the whole thing a hoax and a cover up.
Even the thought of it was giving you a headache. But at least the day had come. You had stayed up a little later than you normally did the night before, hammering out the last of this round of revisions for the magazine before sending it off. It would need to be reviewed one more time. So that meant today you could enjoy the art lecture without work looming over your head.
The bus ride was pleasant, albeit hotter than last week. The full extent of summer was setting in. You wore your necklace, as you always did, but you protected it with a tank top. No need to get it all dirty. Loose, flowy pants kept air circulating as you lightly fanned yourself with the book you brought with you. The bus came to a shuddering halt, the tires and breaks squealing under the pressure. You hopped off the bus, moving quick. *Ding!* You pulled out your phone, the familiar contact photo popping up. Your mentor. You opened the text, finding a crowded lecture hall and a caption.
Get here quick! I saved you a spot! People are fighting to get in!
The sheer volume of people in the room made your jaw drop. You had never seen such a massive lecture hall that packed. Rafayel was a famous artist, so it made sense his classes would be packed to the brim. But this was ludicrous! You shoved your phone in your pocket and your book in your bag before taking off running across campus. Students didn’t bat an eye as you ran, most of them knowing the struggle of being late to class all too well. You bobbed and weaved your way to the art building, flying up the stairs. As you ran posters and artworks caught your eye, fluttering with the breeze created by your quick moves. You were used to clubs and local groups putting up fliers in the stairwell. But for a moment, you thought you saw a single illustration of a little blue fish.
People were crowding around the door, so you muttered polite ‘excuse me’s until you could shimmy through. You spotted Dr. C, two rows back. She made eye contact and gestured for you to hurry up. You hopped up the stairs, and as she removed her bag you sat down as fast as you could so no one standing around her would try to steal it. The timing was perfect, just as you settled in the crowd around the door parted like the Red Sea. Rafayel came in, once again in that brilliant red suit with the roses. In spite of the weather he seemed perfectly put together. Not a drop of sweat on him. He carried his materials in, the room momentarily growing louder.
“Professor Qi is here!” You heard one girl a row back whisper. “He’s so cuuuuuute!”
“He’s our professor, you weirdo!” Her friend next to her hissed.
”Oh shut up, isn’t he, like, 24? I’d have a shot.”
You could practically hear the grin in the girl’s voice. You momentarily cast a side glance to your mentor, who was already looking at you with her signature bewildered side eye. You both averted your gazes, covering your mouths as subtly as you could to not burst out laughing.
“Good afternoon, everyone.” Rafayel’s voice cut through the chatter. Everyone fell quiet immediately. Raf picked up a clicker, pressing a button so the projector cast a series of images onto the board at the front. A series of ancient artwork covered the wall, all in that distinct style you so adored.
”Today we’ll be going over a bit of a history lesson.” The sudden loud groans of everyone in the audience made Rafayel throw his head back for a laugh. “Woah! Calm down, everyone, I’m not here to put you to sleep! Can you really appreciate art and artistry without understanding its history? Can you appreciate something without its context?” His eyes scanned the room, before falling on you. His amused smile widened. “Trick question. You can.” He turned back to the rest of the class, getting some nervous chuckles. “But! With context and history comes a different kind of appreciation. Different levels of context can lead to new interpretations. And an understanding of the history of art can bring your appreciation of modern art to new heights.”
Rafayel tapped the button again.
You were awestruck to see one of your favorite pieces of art.
At first glance, it may appear crude. Even sloppy. Semi-human figures stood around what might be a field. A person with long hair, a skirt, and wings stood on a rock. Their wings were outstretched. There was a figure standing in water, while others stood or worked in the field. The image below it depicted another favorite. A similar, if not the same, figure. But this time the figure was identifiably female. She looked directly at the viewer, one leg perched on a lion, her leg actually fully sticking out of her skirt. Weapons were lined behind her, and she held a leash to the lion she controlled.
You felt a smile creeping up on you.
Rafayel pointed to the images. “Could someone give me an interpretation of one of these two images?” His eyes scanned the room. But his usually chatty class was silent. Most people had their eyebrows furrowed, trying to make sense of the vaguely human figures. You gave it a moment. Maybe two. Before slowly raising your hand. Rafayel caught the motion from the corner of his eye, before nodding at you.
“Yes?”
”Both images depict the Sumerian war goddess Inanna. You know it’s her from the eight pointed stars near her in both images.” You pointed at the stars in question. “The one on the bottom, where she’s staring at the viewer? It’s a blatant breaking of the fourth wall, potentially instilling both fear and awe in the viewer. She stands on a lion with a leash on it, proving her power and authority over the domain of the wild. But the lion does not seem to be in pain, just held back. While she is controlling, she is not inherently cruel. In the picture on top Inanna is seen with various other gods of fertility, since she herself is one. Her husband Dumuzid stands in the grain near the livestock, and the gods of water and farming join them in ensuring the harvest and raising of animals goes well.”
The room remained silent, all eyes locked on you. But you kept your eyes on Rafayel. His eyebrows lifted and he took a step back. “Well.” His eyes scanned the room before he smirked. “At least someone did their homework. Did anyone look over the documents I asked you to glance at before today?” You couldn’t help but chuckle. The rest of the class began to grumble, some people embarrassed they forgot or didn’t do it, while others protested that they did, indeed, look at them. ”Don’t raise your hand the rest of class.” Rafayel pointed at you, his lighthearted smirk making it clear he was just teasing. “I know you know the answers. Anyone else have an interpretation?” You leaned back in your chair, before hissing as your mentor lightly elbowed you in the ribs.
”Show off.” She murmured. But the slight curl of her lip revealed her true feelings. You just pouted, rubbing your ribs.
After your brief introduction to Sumerian and Akkadian art, some of the students began to pipe up. Some noted the composition, while others commented on the way the bodies were shaped. The depiction of the star. Rafayel eventually began to tap through more examples of the art, before briefly touching on the history. Mesopotamia and its numerous civilizations, as well as its importance to the surrounding area.
The lecture continued, discussing the origin of the writing system, with examples of the cuneiform on the board. With each slide, there was an advancement in the art. An advancement in the writing style. And soon, the art and the writing appeared to be much more familiar to the audience. The language itself was an art. What began as pictograms slowly turned into letters, forming an alphabet of its own.
“And, as our lovely archaeologist friends pointed out,” Rafayel smiled cheekily as he glanced in your direction. “Those first two pieces of art depicted the Sumerian war, love, and fertility goddess Inanna. Many scholars argue that through cultural exchange and trade routes, she influenced many other goddesses in the region. Including, but not limited to, the Akkadian Ishtar, the Hittite Astarte, and even the Grecian Aphrodite.” He clicked the button again, with art of each goddess from her respective culture and time of relevance.
One girl in the front shyly raised her hand. “Professor Qi?”
“I told you, you can call me Rafayel.” He sighed, shaking his head.
“Oh. Sorry Professor Qi- I mean, Professor Rafayel.”
”Good enough.” He ran his fingers through his hair, pushing back that curtain to fully reveal those brilliant eyes. With nowhere to hide you zeroed in. There was something otherworldly about them. It looked like the sun setting into the ocean, leaving a pink tinge in its wake. You tilted your head, examining him.
”I noticed… there’s this continued theme in all this art of love and war. Inanna, Astarte, and Aphrodite… all of them had war aspects and stories, but they were also love goddesses. And it’s reflected in the art, this… contradiction.”
“Well said.” Rafayel released his hair. “Is that what you see, then? This continued theme of a supposed contradiction in love and war?”
”We… see that in art to this day.” The girl added. Rafayel walked to the edge of the platform the podium was on. He sat himself down on the edge, a gleam catching in his eye.
”Exactly.” It was like a flip was switched. The passion he had earlier paled in comparison to the new fire before them. His eyes gleaming in the lights, his hands beginning to orchestrate an invisible symphony as they illustrated what he said. “Art is art. All art appreciation is interpretation. And the key to appreciation is…” He left a gap in what he said, gesturing for his students to fill in the gap.
”Trust your gut!” A student in the front row exclaimed. Rafayel pointed at him with a grin.
”Exactly. So if you’re sensing a theme, or noticing something you’ve seen before? Call it out! Notice it! Appreciate it, or reject it!” He popped back up to his feet like it was nothing. He walked back to the board, pointing between the three examples. The same image of Inanna standing on the lion, a statuette of the goddess Astarte, and a painting of the goddess Aphrodite. “It doesn’t matter if it’s made of mud or clay, it doesn’t matter if its proportions are off.” His impassioned words resonated with you.
You planted your chin in your hand, watching him control the room with just his words. You briefly tore your eyes away, looking around the room. Everyone was enraptured. Captivated. Like sailors lured in by a siren. Rafayel had the entire room in the palm of his hand. Your eyes went back to the platform, where Rafayel stood. His eyes locked on you. He seemed much calmer, his passion present but bubbling under the surface in a much more restrained way. But that glimmer in his eyes was still there.
“You have homework.” The room’s buzz turned into a low groan. He chuckled, motioning for everyone to settle down. “Hey, bear with me, this should be fun.” He pressed the clicker one more time. “I want you to find an old piece of artwork, ideally 100 years or older. Then, I want you to be ready to come to class prepared to briefly speak on your own appraisal of the artwork, before and after you find the historic context.” He grinned. “After all. How you felt about the weird winged person with their leg out likely changed after hearing it was an infamous war goddess breaking the fourth wall.”
A chuckle ripped through the room, and you couldn’t help but follow suit. Everything this man said had you on the edge of your seat.
“That’s all for today. Enjoy your weekend.”
It hit you like a bucket of ice water. It was over? That was it? You checked your phone, eyes widening as you realized it had, indeed, been three hours. You put your phone down and turned to Dr. C, who was already looking at you with a knowing grin.
”He’s great, isn’t he?” She lifted her eyebrows in a teasing gesture, but all you could do was agree.
”Damn.” You murmured, looking around the room again. While some people were rushing to pack their things, and a few people had already done the same and rushed out the second he dismissed class, others were beelining it to the front of the room to catch Rafayel. You looked back to the front, finding Rafayel lazily packing his things while responding to students. ”And this guy is my age?”
”Yup.” Your mentor chuckle, nudging you again with her elbow. “I’m just saying, you could probably get a decent teaching job… age isn’t a problem.”
”Yeah but I’m not a super wealthy, famous artist that can just on a whim say oh sure, I think I wanna teach.” You stood up, stretching your arms above your head. Your back popped as well. “Gods, I always hated these chairs…” You watched as students fluttered around him. Some sensible students were just asking for clarification on the homework, or passing by with a polite thank you for the lecture. Others were curious about the art pieces he presented in class, asking for recommendations for more.
You gathered your things, tucking them away into you bag when you noticed the book you had packed. You pulled it out, your thumb sliding over the glossy cover.
“Oh-“ Your mentor peeked over your shoulder. “Lemurian legends. I remember you were obsessed with the first edition in undergrad.”
“It was the only edition the university had.” You smile, flipping the book open. “Reading the more updated version was an eye opener. Went ahead and bought a hardcover for myself, but…” Your eyes drifted back to Rafayel. “Raf actually caught me reading it in the library when we met, and he needed it, too. He was complaining about the author still translating things wrong, missing context.” You shut the book and held it up. “I was wondering if he might be willing to help me understand the proper context behind some of these stories.”
Dr. C shook her head, but her warm smile clued you in to her real thoughts. “Coolio. Sounds like a cool project. Hope he'll agree. I’m gonna head out, gotta go and meet my boyfriend.” She shimmied past you, about to hop down the stairs before she paused. “Oh!” She turned and hopped back up them, leaning in. “I heard from Fred.” She dropped her voice. “Just briefly. He was panicking. Acting skittish. I immediately alerted the police. But I’ve heard from him.” Her smile turned grim.
Your heart sunk. It wasn’t good news, that he was so skittish. But it was news. Hearing from anyone was good news, honestly. You took a deep breath before slowly nodding.
”Okay… it’s something.”
”Ear to the ground, eyes up, stay vigilant.” She added, before turning right back around. She hummed some random tune as she hopped down the stairs, striding to the exit with all the energy in the world. But it was all in the eyes. And even from here you could see how her smile didn’t quite reach them. You shuddered, trying to shake off the chill her words left you with. The room had steadily emptied, and now it was only those two girls sitting behind you that were left at the front of the room.
”Ohhhh Professor Qi~!” The girl grinned, walking up as close as she could get to him. “Could you recommend me some books on Inanna? Her iconography sounded so cool! Love and war, what a badass!” Rafayel smiled. You started to make your way down the steps, catching Rafayel’s eye. For a moment, you saw a flicker of relief.
”I’m not an expert on Sumerian history or mythology.” He spoke dismissively, shrugging while putting something in his own bag. “But my guest here clearly is.” He gestured to you. “Any recommendations?”
You looked behind you, before pointing to yourself. You cleared your throat as the two girls looked at you. They were a few years younger than you, maybe second or third year in college. “There’s the Sumerian Corpus of Literature online for documents translated straight from cuneiform. And different museums that house her artifacts will have extensive history on her.” You grab a marker from the whiteboard, beginning to write down a few names.
“If you’re interested in her character, you’ll want to read Enheduanna’s hymns to Inanna, like Lady of Largest Heart. Inanna and Ebih is an important myth. Inanna’s descent to the underworld is another important one.” You kept writing. “Oh! And the epic of Gilgamesh of course.” You finished your little list, stepping to the side. Her friend pulled out her phone, snapping a picture of the list.
”If you wanna learn about Inanna, these are all great places to start.” You put down the marker. “Oh! And a good way to know if a piece of artwork from the region is depicting her,” you grabbed the marker again and made a simple eight pointed star. “This is all you need to look for. If you find this, you’ve found her.” The friend took another picture of the star.
The girl was nodding along, but her eyes were anywhere but you. “Cool. Thanks for the tip.” She turned back to Rafayel. “Any other recommendations? Maybe a thorough art analysis of her iconography?”
Rafayel shrugged, his head lulling to one side. His lips curled into a smile. “Nah. You’re on your own for that. Start there, then get back to me with what you find. I’d like to know, too.” He nodded to your list. The girl grabbed her backpack off the table, heading to the door after that. Her friend quickly thanked Rafayel before hurrying after her.
You wait for a few moments, distantly picking up on complaints and mocking laughter about the failed attempt at flirting. You turn back to Rafayel, who had finally dropped the polite smile. He rolled those magnificent eyes, shoving his papers back into his binder much more haphazardly.
”Tactless.”
”Oh she was throwing herself at you.” You snort, making him turn to glare at you.
”I don’t date students.”
”I’m not accusing you of anything!” You put your hands up, grinning at him. “It’s just funny.” He rolled his eyes again and turned back to pack his things. You went ahead and pulled out the book. “I did have a question for you myself, though.”
”If you’re gonna ask me for book recommendations in order to flirt with me, don’t start. I'll scream.”
”No, but it does have something to do with books.” You held up the book, the light glinting on the gilded title. He turned back, his frustrated pout vanishing for a moment. But when he made eye made eye contact with you again he jutted that bottom lip right back out.
“Hmph. That one.”
”Hey, listen, it’s got a place in my heart.” You flipped it open to the cover, where you had written your name in the Lemurian alphabet. Connected letters and all. “The university only had the first edition in my undergrad years here. But it just… grew on me.” You offered the book to him. “I was wondering if you might be willing to help me amend it. I want to annotate this one, write all over it with all the corrections these stories need. All the missing context, details, clues. All the context the author continues to miss.”
Rafayel’s eyes darted down to the book. But he reached for it, taking it into his hands. His fingers danced over the cover, long and elegant. He was certainly a painter, he had the touch of one. Each move decisive. Controlled. His eyes met yours again. And even behind that veil of purple hair, you caught a flicker of something new. Intrigue.
”What’s in it for me?” He quirked an eyebrow and forced a smirk.
“How about…” You tapped your chin before grinning. “I buy you a drink, and we amend the book?”
”I don’t know. I don’t think a drink is enough to pay for my editing services.” He quipped back.
“How about a drink, we edit for a bit, then I can help you with something.” You suggested a counteroffer. “Like… I’m an archaeologist and I have ties in the community. Oh! And I’ve got some ties to local history museums. I could help you set up field trips for your class to museums for art analysis lessons. Or help you set up a curator to come for a guest lecture.” You suggested a few more options. With each idea you tossed at him, he seemed to be further swayed. He shut his eyes, a self satisfied smile covering his face.
”You drive a haaaard bargain, cutie.” He cracked open an eye, gauging your reaction. “Deal.” He stuck out his hand, and you firmly grasped it, shaking on your deal. He let go of your hand after the handshake, but reached for the book again. “So. Where do you wanna start?”
”No, not tonight.” You lifted your hands and shook your head. “I know you live out in Whitesand Bay and it’s a bit of a drive. I don’t wanna keep you. I was hoping we could meet up on campus or something to work on all this together. Maybe once every other week? Depending on our schedules.” You shrugged. “It’s not urgent. Just a pet project that came to mind after our first talk. I know translation isn’t a perfect science, you can never really capture the true beauty and intent behind the mother tongue of a phrase or story. But you can get as close as possible with the right context.” You took the book back, tucking it into your bag.
“Fair enough.” He shrugged, grabbing his things in turn. “Want me to walk you to your car?”
”Nah, I rode the bus here.” You walked out with him, your footsteps echoing in the now empty halls of the building. His crisp footfalls from the soles of his nice leather dress shoes, and your softer footfalls from the worn bottoms of your everyday sneakers. The sounds reverberated in the stairwell, and out of the corner of your eye you saw the drawing of a little blue fish flutter on the wall.
”Let me walk you to the bus stop, then. We can plan when to start working on this translation project.” As he spoke you opened the door, sticking your foot in it so he could exit the building behind you. You pulled your foot away once he cleared the doorway, jogging to catch up with his long strides.
”Honestly, it’s hot, I’d rather walk. The bus is always wayyy too cramped this time of day. And I’ve heard the air conditioning is broken for a lot of the buses right now.” You shrug, grabbing the strap of your bag to readjust it on your shoulder. Rafayel cocked his head.
”Really? You’d rather walk?” He lifted his head. “Suit yourself, I guess. But still. Let me walk with you until the edge of campus.” In spite of the weather, he seemed perfectly content in that red suit. You figured the two of you must be an odd sight. You in your tank and loose pants, him in a flashy suit, walking side by side. You briefly looked around, noticing a couple students glancing up at the two of you before going right back to whatever they were doing beforehand.
Campus was emptier now that the final day classes had let out. Night classes would start soon, though you knew from firsthand experience people were more likely to hang out indoors after their night classes. The cafe, or a dorm, or some local cheap restaurant. The odd student walked by, some too engrossed in their phones or music to pay you and Rafayel any mind. Some folks had their headphones, while others used earbuds. One guy in a black hoodie still had wired earbuds. Huh. Vintage.
”So. Professor Qi, huh?”
”Oh not you, too.” He groaned, lifting a hand to pinch the bridge of his nose. “I tell them every time, Rafayel is fine. But nooooo.”
You continue to people watch while holding the conversation, a smirk coming to your face. “Yeahhhh, get used to it. Especially with first years. Heck, I’m technically on a first name basis with Dr. C but she will always be Dr. C to me.”
“Yeah, but I’m Rafayel to you. So don’t start.” He huffed, briefly brushing his bangs away from his eyes. You smiled a little wider, catching that glimmer of amusement in his eyes. "It's not like I'm some 80 year old tenured prof with two doctorates." He added with a huff. You laughed, recalling the exact kind of professors like that from your undergrad days.
"To be fair, those profs usually demand first name basis, too. They're just too old to care." You looked ahead again. But your smile faltered. You stopped walking, taking the moment to rub your eyes. Rafayel stopped walking beside you, tilting his head. His eyes darted to the side before returning to you.
“Something get in your eye?”
”No,” You muttered before glancing over your shoulder. A guy with a hoodie and a black backpack had just passed you. You stared at his back for a moment but he paid you no mind. He looked like he had earphones in, judging by the white cord you could see bouncing with each step he took. “Am I crazy, or did that guy already walk past us… twice?” It was the same guy you had noticed with the vintage earbuds. He walked by another time as you were people watching. Rafayel followed your line of sight. His eyes narrowed, but he plastered a smile on his face. He offered you his hand.
“He did.” He lowered his voice, but his words didn’t match his friendly expression. “Hey, why don’t I just walk you home? It’s a nice night, and the sun’s gonna set soon.” You watched the guy on the hoodie, noticing how his footsteps slowed as Rafayel spoke a little louder for his offer.
You grabbed Rafayel’s hand, plastering on a big smile. “That would be great! Thanks! We can keep talking about that potential book project.”
“Just what I was thinking.” He confirmed before beginning to pull you away, walking a little faster. “Hey, why don’t you give me your number? That way we can send each other updates.” You hurried to match his pace. To an onlooker it might come off as a playful, the way he was tugging you along. But you could feel it. The way the hair on the back of your neck was coming to stand, the pricks you felt on the back of your arms. And you knew he felt it, too.
”I don’t knoooow,” You drawled. Now was not the time to be saying your phone number out loud. “Should I really just give you my phone number that easily?” You looked up at him, and for a moment you saw his eyebrows furrow just the tiniest bit. Before promptly lifting again.
"Oh?" He smirked. "Playing hard to get, are we? Sure. We can play that game." It was unsaid- but you understood. He knew what you meant. He knew that you shouldn't say it out loud, for fear of someone hearing you. "Why don't we take a long way home, then? Forget about a walk. Let me drive you home. We'll have plenty of time to talk in the car." Car. Privacy. You hummed and hawed for just a moment, before sighing dramatically.
"Oh, fine. But I'm not paying for gas, you offered!" Rafayel grinned changing directions to take you towards one of the faculty parking lots. As you two moved you kept your wits about you. Listening to your surroundings. Glancing in reflective surfaces. And every once in a while, you would catch a glimpse of a shadowy figure. Or the sound of a single footstep. Rafayel pulled his keys out of his pocket, approaching a grand, expensive car. You could feel your eyes widen as he unlocked the door. He gestured for you to get in, his eyes now sharp as he surveyed the area.
"Are you sure? These are my running shoes, they're kind of dirty." You suddenly felt incredibly self conscious. Right. This is a super wealthy, internationally famous artist. Not just some guy. His eyebrows furrowed again. He tilted his head to the side.
"Really? Now you're worried about your shoes-?" He sighed. "Get in."
"But-"
"Get in." He dropped his voice an octave. His eyes sharpened as he looked off in the distance. You didn't argue, grimacing to yourself as you slid into the passenger seat. The door was shut behind you. You went ahead and pressed the lock for that door as well. Rafayel briskly walked over to the other side, to the driver's seat. You watched from the windows how he stared down whoever had been following you. He opened the driver's side door. Before he simply started grinning and winking at the person, then sliding into his seat while shutting the door. The expensive car roared to life as he immediately pulled out of the parking spot.
You watched from the window as the figure in black leaned against a wall to a nearby building. Clearly watching the car as it pulled out of the parking lot.
"Don't worry. The windows are tinted. He can't see you." Rafayel sighed, gripping the wheel as he maneuvered the car with ease. The engine purred, and the vibrations of it reverberated through your body. It didn't escape you that you were sitting in a car worth more than your entire college degree. And probably as much money as you've made since then. His eyes remained on the road, but he did briefly glance at you. "You can relax."
"My ass is on a seat worth more than my degree."
"Don't be dramatic." Rafayel's eyes darted to you again, this time with genuine amusement once more at your slight mortification. "The seat isn't worth more than your degree." He hummed. "Probably just your first three years' tuition."
"Shut up!" You groaned. But as the car turned onto a road heading out of the city, you sobered up. Back to reality. "Hey, I do need to go home."
"We need to take some twists and turns. Whoever this guy is, I don't think he was following us for me." The observation made your blood turn to ice. You inhaled slowly. You thought back to those archaeologists, and what Dr. C said before she left the room. You fished your phone out of your bag, quickly pulling up her contact. You called her without a seconds' hesitancy.
"Hello?"
"Dr. C, I'm in the car with Rafayel. I was being followed when we left the art building. You're on speaker."
"Holy shit- are you two okay? Do I need to call someone?"
"No, we're fine." You quickly clarified. Rafayel expertly guided the car through traffic, before finding an old back road. The car moved like water, easily flowing and gliding from place to place. "We're just gonna take a long route back to my place to shake them. Just to be safe."
"Dr. C," Rafayel piped in. "Wherever you are right now, make sure you don't go anywhere alone. Stick with large groups of people you know, and don't go straight home, okay?"
"Do you think this is-?"
"About Lemuria? Yes." Rafayel continued. "Dr. C, you're known to be colleagues with the missing crew. And unfortunately," he glanced at you. "So are you."
"But how-?" You spluttered. Rafayel shrugged his shoulders.
"Dr. C's published articles with some of them, worked on projects together. And you're making a name for yourself."
Your eyebrows furrowed. You could see why he said that. And yeah, Dr. C was active in the archaeological community, so it made sense for people to draw connections. But you never told anyone you were accepted to phase two. Including Rafayel. And Dr. C certainly wouldn't tell him that. You pressed your lips together, humming in thought.
"I don't think anyone is going to pull any stunts. Just watch your backs for a little bit, lay low. Let this whole Lemurian excavation thing blow over. Give it a few weeks." Rafayel blew his bangs out of his face. With his eyes trained on the road, it was harder to read him. The darkness of the coming night didn't help, either. His eyes became more shrouded, more hidden. "This isn't necessarily a scandal, but I've dealt with stuff like this before. People making wild assumptions and then acting off of that. Whoever was following you might just be some journalist wanting to write about the missing people. Or just some creep on campus. I don't know. Just... both of you, be careful."
Dr. C was silent on her end of the line, and you found herself keeping quiet in turn. Something was very wrong here. Fred feeling followed. The camera in the cafe suddenly working after all these years. And now, someone following you. You didn't even go on the damn expedition. Neither did Dr. C. You blew a raspberry in frustration.
"What do we do?" You muttered.
"Exactly what I told you earlier." Dr. C finally spoke. You could hear a distant mumble from her boyfriend, another professor her age from the university. "Ear to the ground. Eyes peeled. Watch your back. Lay low. Maybe call up some friends to watch your back, too. People you know you can trust."
You slowly nodded. Though you knew she couldn't see, so you hummed. "I can do that, doc."
"Rafayel." She then addressed the man driving, who grunted in acknowledgment. "Make sure my old student gets home safe, okay?"
"Can do." He hummed. "We were just talking about exchanging phone numbers. In case this happens again. Can't promise I'll be in town but if something weird is going on I've got some people I can call to get to the bottom of it."
"Thank you, Rafayel." She sighed in obvious relief. A smile flickered onto your face. You knew she thought of her students as her kids, but with your own age difference it was more like that of a much older sister. You two always had each others' backs, through thick and thin. "You're always welcome in my office, or sitting in on one of my lectures. I know historical archaeology may not be your thing, but you're always welcome."
"I appreciate it." He took a sharp turn, making you grab onto your seatbelt. You watched as a black car flew past, before screeching to a halt. Your heart rate accelerated. You could hear it in your ears. "Same goes for you, I'll always save you a seat in my lectures." He took another sharp turn, sliding between a few buildings before killing the engine and shutting off the lights. He reached out, gently taking your phone and flipping it upside down so the light faced the bottom of the car. "Say. Your old student here told me you were the one who taught the whole you work for the community spiel. That true?"
"Uh- oh! Yeah. I teach that in every class of mine, from intro to graduate classes."
"That's pretty new school from what I've heard." He looked out his window, watching the side view mirror intently. "Archaeologists weren't always so... accommodating."
"You're preaching to the choir." You laughed dryly.
"That's why I cover it in every class. At the end of the day, I've always thought of what we do as an act of service." There was rustling on her side of the phone. She might be grabbing her things. "We work for the community. Not for whoever might be sponsoring us, unless they're one in the same."
"It's a service job, in its own way." You agreed softly, a smile coming to your face. "You gotta listen to people."
Rafayel snorted, his eyes still trained on the side view mirror. "Yeah, funny joke. Far cry from how the whole discipline started."
"What, the racism, the classism, the theft?" You shook your head. "You're right. It is a far cry from how it started, and people who think the old way is the only way are still around. But Dr. C and people like her exist."
"Yeah, and people like you, too." Her voice was a soothing reminder. "You can't force anyone to be willing to trust you. The years of hurt and abuse at the hands of this discipline... we'd all be stupid to ignore the effects. Trust and rebuilding take time. The best we can do is extend the olive branch, and be open to conversations when the time is right."
"You can't force anyone to listen. Or trust you." You echoed her sentiment, still smiling. "But that's okay. The best thing you can do is just show up. And listen. The communities hurt for years and years... the anger is justified. More than justified. So hey," You shrugged. "Be mad. Yell. Vent. I'll take it all, can't say the same for other archaeologists, but I'd much prefer a much needed confrontation to put matters to bed than frustration constantly simmering under the surface. Just so long as we can have a conversation about it"
"Exactly." There was a twinge of pride in your mentor's voice. There was more rustling on her side of the call, and you could hear her boyfriend's voice again. "We're heading out now. Gonna take a nice scenic route home. Thanks for the heads up, you two. Stay safe. And call me if you two need anything, okay? Wait. Rafayel, do you have my number?"
"No, but I can get it from our mutual friend here." His eyes finally met yours again. "See ya, Dr. C."
"Bye, doc, stay safe." You smiled, hanging up once you all said your farewells. You flipped your phone back over to do so, before quickly turning it off. Rafayel started the car again, the same low purr warming the engine back up.
"You're good, they're gone." He rested his arm on the back of his seat, looking over his shoulder out the back of the car to reverse out of the hiding spot. "Huh. Maybe the movies are right. You've made some enemies."
"Only way I've made enemies in this field is by debating idiots who think aliens built the pyramids." You huffed. "Or yelling at supremacist assholes. This isn't Indiana Jones. Or Tomb Raider."
"Yeah, I can tell you and your mentor are pretty passionate about that." You caught the way he smirked as his hand glided over the wheel, turning the car around before switching back to drive. He took the car back to the main road, taking a few twists and turns here and there along the way. "You're pretty passionate about this whole making things right with the community thing."
"Well... yeah." You shrugged. You opened your phone, getting both Dr. C's contact info and your own personal info in one place. "I've wanted to do this... for all my life, really. Decided I wanted to be an archaeologist as a kid, and I just stuck with it." You lifted your hand, the pad of your thumb briefly stroking over the familiar pearl charm hanging from your neck. "Stuck with it for all of school. Even grad school. But... as I learned the history of it..." You sighed. "People were hurt because of this. There were real life consequences. The dehumanization, the depersonalization, of all these different cultures and their people... you can't separate the discipline from how its impacted people." You gently squeezed the chain. "But you can try to improve. To make things right." Your eyes darted to the side. His eyes were locked on the road, only the occasional streetlight illuminating his face. "I'm not perfect." You murmured, looking back out the front window. "But I'm gonna keep trying."
"Hm." He only hummed.
For a few minutes, a soft silence fell over the two of you. The car was filled with the white noise of the engine running, the tires over the road, the rush of the wind past the windows. The sun had long since set. Only the glow of the occasional street lamp illuminated the interior of the car and Rafayel himself. The orange glow of the lamps cast a warm light over him, making him glow for a brief moment before the light vanished. You turned to look out your window, turning your eyes upwards. The moon was present, a waxing gibbous, but didn't drown the rest of the stars. As your eyes adjusted to looking at the night sky, you were able to identify some constellations you knew.
"About that little project of yours." Rafayel's voice broke the silence. You turned back to him. "Every other week might be hard for me. On top of teaching, I still host galleries, and my painting schedule is..." He lifted a hand, wobbling it from side to side. "Erratic at best." He found the word he was looking for, offering it as an explanation. "So I can't promise consistency. I fly out of the country for other events pretty often, too."
You felt a pang of disappointment run through you, but you shouldn't be surprised. He was a busy man, he couldn't just make time to help you with a pet project. Unpaid, to boot. "I get it. No worries, work comes first."
"Did I say no?" He glanced at you for just a moment, then returned his eyes to the road. "You need to listen better. I'm not saying no. Just saying it won't be consistent." He turned onto a road. "You live in an apartment complex, right? You said you took the bus, so it can't be too far from campus." Remembering you never told him your address, you quickly shared it with him as he started to make his way back towards it. He was already heading in the right direction anyway.
"Oh... well, thanks! You really don't need to help me, I just-"
"This isn't a charity, y'know." He smirked. "I'm taking you up on all your offers you made. Museum curators, field trips, connecting me with others in your field. And I might have other ideas in mind for... compensation, for this little translation project of yours."
"Oh!" You sat up straighter, a grin on your face. "Sure, yeah! I didn't expect you to just help out. This is gonna be great, thank you! Anything come to mind?"
"Yeah. I might pick your brain right back about your job. You and the doc make it sound... almost altruistic."
"Oh, no, no, it really isn't." You quickly shook your head. "Most people know better than to come into it thinking it'll make them rich and famous, academia is not for the faint of heart. Publish or perish. But people generally have this idea of a glamorous life, of constantly traveling, going on wild adventures. But it's a lot of work in the lab, arguing with people who lie about your work, trying to maintain healthy relationships with others in the discipline. And the physical side of it? Excavations can be grueling and hard on the body. Your bones wear out fast. Not to mention there's a lot of corruption, businesses and government agencies getting involved, creepy science groups trying to snatch remains..." You grimaced. "It's hard, and doesn't pay well, so that filters out a lot of people from joining. But you still get plenty of people who join and start acting all holier than thou."
"But your mentor taught you better than that, huh?" Rafayel made a few turns. After your brief stint hiding in an alley, some of the typical traffic of the day had broken up. The rest of the drive was smoother than you anticipated.
"None of us are perfect. But Dr. C does make a big effort to teach service and compassion alongside the mathematics and science behind it. Radiocarbon dating and dendrochronology won't do you any good if you don't build and maintain relationships with the people you're supposedly trying to help, or the descendants of the community that once lived in the area." You could see your apartment building coming up. You grabbed your phone again and pulled up the document you made with both your and Dr. C's contact info. The car slowly came to a stop outside your apartment building, and Raf put the car in park.
You two exchanged phone numbers, and he added Dr. C's number to his phone as well. You glanced up, looking at his phone case. You briefly recalled seeing that exact phone case in an ad for a designer brand. It was worth more than the phone itself. You pulled your eyes away, adding his name to your phone. Nothing fancy. Rafayel Qi, his phone number, and a brief note about finding a time to meet up for your first round of fixing the stories in your book. You liked adding unique ringtones for everyone in your contacts list, so you left yourself a note to find something fitting for him. The door was unlocked, so you unbuckled and opened the door.
"Thanks for the save, Rafayel." You turned back to smile at him, waving after you shut the door. Rafayel rolled down the passenger side window so you could keep speaking to him. "I'll text you in the morning, so we can figure out schedules.”
“I look forward to it, cutie.” He nodded. The window began to roll up so you waved one more time before losing sight of him entirely. You turned around, walking back to your apartment building door. You let yourself in with your key, and you could hear the car pull away only once you were inside and the door was shut behind you. You made your way to the stairs, jogging up them two at a time before reaching your floor.
Your footfalls were soft as you walked through the hall, turning to your door. You unlocked it, letting yourself in before immediately turning back around and securing all the locks on the door. You kicked your shoes off and wandered to your room, fishing your phone out of your bag.
The first thing you did was text your mentor that you made it home safe, and she thankfully responded with the same news on her end. Dr. C mentioned reporting this alongside Rafayel to admin the next day, though it was likely nothing would be done unless this became a recurring issue. You didn’t want to go to sleep with news like that hanging over your head. So after shooting her a thumbs up, you switched to Rafayel’s contact. You pursed your lips, humming in thought. An idea hit you. You plopped in a chair and quickly googled some of his art, scrolling through pictures of it online. You found his official art gallery in Whitesand Bay, with multiple beautiful pieces presented. There was one piece on particular.
The blues and reds danced together the same way his eyes did. It was hauntingly beautiful. You took a screenshot, taking the moment to edit it down to the exact place where the blue and red met. There, a contact photo. You added it, before switching to a ringtone. He was also interested in Lemuria so ocean themed songs seemed fitting. You added the first portion of Caribbean Blue.
You opened a text message thread, shooting him something short but to the point.
Hey Rafayel, hope you got home safe! I’ve attached my schedule below, but for an overview I’m most available Wednesdays and Fridays in the afternoon. Looking forward to our book talks!
You knew better than to expect a response, especially since he should be driving back to Whitesand Bay. You turned your phone off before coming to stand. You tossed your phone onto your bed, letting it bounce as you went off to shower and begin your nightly routine. Memories and images of the last few weeks plagued your mind as you went about the monotony of routine. Meeting Rafayel in the library, Dr. C calling you in a hurry, seeing that little blue fish everywhere, the news about the fellow archaeologists, the camera that finally works again, the hooded man.
Ultimately, it all started with the rediscovery of Lemuria.
You showered, dried your hair, brushed your teeth, and washed your face. You flopped into bed at the end of all of it. You picked up your phone, seeing no new notifications for the night. Probably for the best. The phone was turned off and plugged up, as you wormed your way under the sheets to stare at the ceiling until falling asleep.
The air was warm.
The flowers swayed in the breeze. Red as far as the eye could see. Flame lilies creating a sea of red, only the occasional sprig of green grass popping out from the rolling waves. As you sat up, the sound of the ocean and a soft voice washed over you.
The voice started as a soprano. You slowly pulled yourself up, sitting upright. The voice was carried by the breeze, and the notes wrapped tightly around your heart. You pushed yourself to your feet, stumbling upon a newly forming path before you.
The words were somber. They were in some other language, you couldn’t understand what they meant. But you could feel the loss and pain held in every note. At every footfall, you felt the song changing. Shifting. The singer was no longer a soprano. It was no longer the same singer at all. A tenor chimed in, claiming the song for his own.
The melancholy that had washed over you only intensified. Silent tears dripped down your face. You looked down, finding your feet hitting sand instead of grass. Your eyes slowly, slowly lifted. The roar of the ocean became the backing music to the solemn lament. The waves came to kiss at your feet. Then your ankles. Calves. Knees.
The chill was welcome.
Your eyes lifted to a rock in the distance, a vague shape resting against it. The source of the song. You reached an arm out, walking towards the rock, right as the figure stopped singing. He sharply turned his gaze to you, his speed inhuman, before jumping into the water. You couldn’t make out his legs. The blood rushed in your veins, and you could feel your heart rate increasing. Without his song, the mood turned from solemn to horrifying. You wanted to run backwards, get out of the water, when a small glowing object darted towards you.
The little blue fish darted around your legs, not afraid of you in the slightest. It glowed like bioluminescent algae, leading you in deeper. Something was pulling you into the water. Something else was pulling you away. But it was irresistible. You couldn’t deny the little blue fish who had helped you so, could you? Why deny it? You waded deeper, until you were at your waist. Then yet deeper, until you were treading water.
The glow of the fish did little to illuminate your surroundings. But somewhere underneath you knew something was there. You finally snapped out of your daze, turning to look at the shore.
When did it get to be that far away?
Before you could turn and swim to shore, a cold hand gripped your ankle and pulled you under. All you could do was scream before your head went under. Your years of training for diving and swimming did nothing. You panicked. But the little blue fish accompanied you, darting around your head. Its light allowed you to make out a few of your surroundings. A webbed hand with blue iridescent scales yanked you deeper, but one swift kick to where you thought the connected head might be made him let go.
You kicked your feet and used your arms, trying to swim back to the surface as quick as you could. But a hand grabbed you again. You whipped your head around, aiming for another kick. The hand was no longer webbed.
It was skeletal. A skull met your gaze, with its other hand holding a weapon, with an oddly familiar gem like feature in it. Your eyes widened and your lips parted for a scream.
You sat bolt upright in bed, clasping both hands over your mouth to strangle the scream that threatened to spill out. The room was bright. There were birds chirping.
The covers were soaked in sweat. You grabbed the corner of your sheets and threw it off, moving so fast you nearly fall on your face out of bed. Your breathing was labored, and your heart was racing.
But this was real. You touched your upper arm, then the cool wall, then your face. Real. This is real. You force yourself to take a deep breath in, in through the nose and out through the mouth. Though your heart was still pounding you managed to stand up a little straighter. The sun is out. It’s day. It was a nightmare. You ran a hand down your face, grabbing your phone off of your bedside table. You didn’t plan on living off of ramen for the next few months, so even with these side jobs, it was time to start hunting for your next dig. You groaned, pocketing your phone in your pajama shorts. Back to work it is.
Days turned to weeks, the weeks into a month. Between your two side jobs and hunting for something more consistent, the time flew by. The science magazine had finalized your article and published it in their new edition. But, unsurprisingly, you found it sandwiched between articles about Ever's newest advancements. The print was so small in comparison it hurt even your eyes to read it. It shouldn't surprise you, academia was a cutthroat field. And unless you discovered the next big thing, you'd always be two steps behind those corporate giants.
You took a pair of scissors, cutting out your article and pinning it to your corkboard. Alongside this new edition were pictures and articles and journals you had been a part of. Pictures with friends from field school. Pictures of you presenting at a conference. Clips of your name from some small newspaper referencing you as one of the team members working on some local site. It didn't matter how big or small the job, it all deserved a place. Among all these were letters- notes from other professionals in the field, or a member of the community reaching out to ask more questions about what you do. And there, in the corner, you had printed and pinned a blurry photo of the first discovery of Lemuria. You reached up, taking down the thumbtack holding the picture in place. You flipped the picture onto its back, a saddened smile crossing your face.
Nice to finally meet you, old friend. You wrote on the back of it with the date of the news. You remember your joy, how vindicated you felt. It was real. You were right. All those years of studying weren't in vain. And maybe, just maybe, you might be able to have even the smallest hand in breathing life into its story once more. Your eyes darted to another corner of the board. A letter from Sean, congratulating you on your graduation and asking you to come and work for him as a field technician, affectionately nicknamed a shovel bum, for the summer. Your eyes lowered back to the picture of Lemuria. It was beautiful. Even in its ruins.
There was no news of the missing archaeologists. The police were still working on it, but nothing was being found. Their homes abandoned in a rush, their homes found utterly ransacked. You heard a filmmaker, who had been interested in making a movie on Lemuria, had also gone missing for a while before reappearing with memories missing. The interview with the news showed him dazed and confused, muttering about nonsense. Dr. C and Rafayel's words came back to mind. This wasn't your place. You shouldn't get involved.
Your lips pressed into a thin line.
"To hell with it." You muttered, putting the picture of Lemuria front and center. "What's archaeology without a little detective work?" Thumbtacks were added to a small pile, while you tediously organized everything you took down into neat piles so you could put everything back up later. Lemuria remained in the center. You added the pictures and letters of the other archaeologists, Dr. C, and yourself. You added segments of field notes you saved. You grabbed your journal, flipping to the back to rip out a few pages.
A pencil flew across the pages as you wrote down everything you knew. Dr. C making contact with Fred and Sean, but only temporarily. Eleanor reaching out with the money before the excavation. How long they were underwater. The discrepancies in the story. How those on the surface claimed they never lost contact, while those in the submersible claimed they did. A brief check of the Deepspace Academy's website, and a little digging, revealed that Fred, Sean, and Yennifer's professor pages were removed first. Then Eleanor's last. They all quit in short succession of each other, with Eleanor staying the longest. You frowned, writing this information down. That sounded just like Eleanor, wanting to see things through to the end, though clearly something made her change her mind.
The film writer. Tony, was it? He had been contemplating making a movie on Lemuria, and there are claims he made contact with the archaeologists. But the police found him by the ocean, staring at the water, muttering to himself all the while. He couldn't remember the past 24 hours, and much of the past couple weeks had missing memories. The poor man was checked into a hospital to recover, but his memories seemed to be gone. Tony's phone was found with him, and Tony didn't seem to find anything wrong with it. But who knows what could've happened within those now missing memories?
You knew full well that in situations like these, the first 24 hours were the most important. And it had been long since that point. You didn't want to think the worst. Your eyes locked on the picture, of all of them smiling happily at the camera, covered in various levels of dirt and sweat right after coming back from an excavation. Those weary but excited grins, the way they all held themselves up a little straighter in spite of their exhaustion.
You wiped a tear from the corner of your eye with your thumb. You can't think of the worst case scenario. It's gonna be okay.
Next came coordinates. Readings. Publicly accessible information. Did any company or specific government agency have rights to these waters, where Lemuria lay? Did any diving groups beforehand make their way to this area? You dug and dug, working through all the publicly accessible works you could find. The bureaucracy, red tape, and tedious lingo made your head spin. But it was nothing you weren't used to, it was just like reading through research articles.
And finally, you struck gold.
In the middle of a court briefing document, between an environmental advocacy group and Ever, the advocacy group claimed that while out on a boat one of its members saw a boat near the same coordinates you had pinned to your board now. The person claimed they saw the boat dumping items into the ocean, before rushing off. Nothing came from the court case, since the boat's gps system put its members miles away from the proposed scene of the crime, and a brief investigation showed the boat's navigation system to be in top shape.
You scoffed. Sounds about right for Ever. There was always something shady about them. You wrote this down, but only abbreviated. "Ever dumped objects at site" turned into "E.D.A.S". You knew you'd remember what you meant, but to be safe on the back of the paper you scribbled the date and code of the legal documents. Might be worth swinging by the library to print these out for a physical copy.
The cork board before you transformed, from your memory board to a case board. You were no detective, but problem solving and mystery unraveling was absolutely a part of the job description. Your eyes trailed over the pictures and your notes. The camera in the cafe, the man in the hoodie, your missing colleagues, the filmmaker... Something was very, very wrong here.
Your phone suddenly buzzed, snapping you out of it. You grabbed your phone and lifted it, pleasantly surprised to see a text message from Rafayel.
Rafayel Qi: I've got a reception at my gallery this afternoon, but I'm free after that. Bring the book, we can grab tea or coffee and start with the recontextualization. Meet me at Flux Arts.
Me: I thought these kinds of receptions were by invitation only? I can sit on a bench outside, I'm fine to wait.
Rafayel Qi: (typing...)
You felt your eyebrows lift as your eyes remained trained on the invitation. Certainly he just meant swing by when the event is done. Your eyes lifted to the corkboard again. Admittedly, there was one more figure you should add to this board.
Rafayel himself.
From the day you met, your life was thrown into chaos. He knew a lot about Lemuria. But that didn't mean he was necessarily involved... You touched the necklace around your neck. You should keep everything in mind. It's not like he'll ever step foot in your apartment. No worries of him seeing it.
Rafayel Qi: Then consider this your formal invitation. If anyone gives you trouble at the front doors, just show them this.
Your phone pinged with a follow up image. A proper, digital invitation appeared, with an official QR code in the corner to authenticate it. Your eyes widen. Dress code, semi formal. You glanced to the corner of the room where your mirror hung. You were far from semi formal at the moment. You looked back to the time the event was supposed to start.
Rafayel Qi: No worries if you can't make it for the event. I can meet you somewhere in town. Bring the book, and clear your schedule for the afternoon, I plan on getting my money's worth out of your end of the deal.
The text was signed off with an animated winking emoji of a little yellow chick in a beret. Your sudden laughter bounced off the walls of your apartment. That was oddly adorable.
Me: Alright, perfect! Thank you!!! I'll see you soon, Rafayel!
With your response sent, you hurried to your closet. Semiformal… maybe something you’d wear to a conference? A nice dress shirt and slacks. And sensible shoes. Yeah. That’s good. Lemurian Legends and your journal got tucked into your bag, alongside some annotation supplies. After weeks of negotiating schedules you two finally managed to match up. Your heart fluttered, and your stomach did a flip. Finally getting to speak to a language expert to make this book as close as possible… you didn’t dare suppress your grin.
You flew down the apartment, buzzing with excitement. On top of the annotations, you had been personally invited to a reception of his. Obviously it was only for ease of meeting up after the fact, but it was flattering nonetheless. The job often came with attention- though often not the best. People would reference video games or movies, and you’d have to politely correct them that no, you didn’t run around in just a crop top and shorts in the jungle. Nor did you carry a whip. And on the more hostile side of things, sometimes people would accuse you of various things. Being a thief, being a liar, being a pompous asshole… But it wasn’t all bad. You got to meet some incredible people, and having even a small hand in something bigger made you swell with pride. Even the tiniest footnote at the bottom of the report mattered.
Besides. You doubted you would’ve been able to meet Rafayel if you hadn’t been in this field. Hell. You doubted you wouldn’t been able to meet him if you hadn’t gotten than Lemurian excavation job, even though it fell through. Your thoughts began to ruminate on it as you used public transport to make your way to Whitesand Bay.
Your first two meetings. The first was entirely by chance. You both needed the same book- the very one you had in your bag at the moment. Though this was a personal copy and that one was a library’s. Then, meeting with Dr. C in the cafe to discuss the disappearances. Both times it was a right place, right time situation. From there, the invitation to his lecture and the subsequent ride home in his car. And now? An invitation to his gallery. Your eyebrows furrowed. You glanced in the window of a shop as you walked, taking a moment to take in your surroundings. Ever since that night you’d been a little extra vigilant. But you hadn’t noticed anything strange. Your trips to the museum you worked for were uneventful. And when you went to research in the library you still would have an entire corner to yourself. Though you figured you should still watch your back.
You were deep in thought the entire trip. Hopping from bus to bus, thinking all the while. Once you pulled yourself out of your thoughts, you found yourself in front of the luxurious gallery. It was clearly a modern building, with a very pristine exterior. You made your way up to the doors, pushing them to let yourself inside. Gleaming white walls were covered in gorgeous works of art, each brushstroke filled with some kind of intent or emotion. People in nice clothes milled about, some discussing or debating the meaning behind the art, while others simply admired it.
You took a few steps in before realizing there was a man in front of you. You quickly paused, looking up at him. He wore a grey suit, a black top peeking out from under the jacket. His bangs fell into one of his eyes, but his polite smile still made them gleam.
”Welcome to Flux Arts. I don’t believe I’ve noticed you visit us before.”
“Oh!” He didn’t seem to be questioning or hostile, but you fished your phone out of your bag and opened your chat with Rafayel. You selected the picture and turned your phone around to show it to him. “I’m new, this is my first time. Rafayel invited me-?” The man sighed, his polite smile vanishing. He pinched the bridge of his nose.
”Ah. Yes.” You furrowed your eyebrows and glanced around. He opened his eyes again, catching your expression. He lifted his hand. “I’m sorry. Let’s try this again. I’m Thomas, I’m Rafayel’s manager. He told me you’d be coming.” His introduction didn’t soothe you. You kept glancing around, trying to spot the artist. “Listen. Whatever project it is you’re working on with him, it’s got him excited. But I need him here for the reception.”
It clicked.
“Oh, I’m not here to try and steal him away or distract him!” You hurriedly explained. “I offered to wait outside…”
”No, no, that would distract him even more.” Thomas looked over his shoulder, scanning the people mulling about for that familiar wavy purple hair. Once he knew he wasn’t there he turned back to you. “Listen. We just met, but I need you to do me a massive favor. If you can find him, find a way to incentivize him to stay put until the end of the exhibit today. Please. I can’t keep making stuff up for him if a client wants him and he’s nowhere to be found.”
You took the moment to bite the inside of your lip. You didn’t want to laugh at the man’s misery, but it was a little funny. First Rafayel’s petulant pout while teasing him after the lecture, then the artsy birb emoji, and now the fact he’s hiding or trying to escape his own art gallery. This man was an enigma.
“I’ll see what I can do. We’re not friends, I don’t think we are anyway, so I can’t promise he’ll listen to me.”
”He is my friend and he won’t listen to me.” Thomas huffed, but his lips curled up. “Just try. Thank you. I’ll keep looking for him and send him your way if I find him. Feel free to look around while you look for him.”
”He can’t be that hard to find…” You murmur. But you wandered off to the gallery before you. You kept your phone out, going ahead and texting Rafayel.
Me: Hey, I’m here! I just talked to Thomas and he said he didn’t know where you were. I really wanna look around! Your stuff’s great.
You kept it short and sweet, hoping the flattery would give you a leg up. You tucked your phone in your pocket. You were no art connoisseur. But you could see the beauty in each piece. Some seemed to have each brushstroke be slow, deliberate. Precisely planned out. Like how he had touched the front of your book after the lecture. Or how he had guided the wheel of his car in and out of each street while evading potential pursuers.
Others, however, were wild. Chaotic. Each stroke an act of anger, or sorrow, or pure vengeance. A brief glance from another angle showed the literal depth of the stroke, as if he had forgotten his strength for a moment and warped the canvas after applying too much pressure. If art is emotion, then every single piece in this room was a priceless masterpiece.
But one caught your eye. The painting you had saved as his contact photo. Where red met blue. In person it was clearly much more red, in the photo it came off a little pink, hence why it made you think of his eyes. The painting itself no longer looked like the Flower Moon rising out of the ocean.
It looked like the remains of a sacrifice.
A shudder ripped through your body, from the top of your spine down to your toes. But you couldn’t tear your eyes from it. The colors swirled together, haunting you, but beckoning you towards it. The faint melody of your nightmare suddenly came back to your mind, and the vision of the skeletal merperson holding you underwater appeared in the forefront of your mind.
The red of the flame lilies. The blue of the water. The swirling fog. Blood in the water. It wasn’t your blood. Whose blood was it? You could see them- your friends. Your colleagues. Were they dead? Was it their blood in the water? Were they the sacrifices needed to keep Lemuria’s secrets locked away?
You nearly jumped two feet in the air as a hand suddenly clasped your shoulder. You whipped around, your breathing erratic, as Rafayel quickly held both hands up and took a step back.
”Woah-! Hey! I said your name three times.” He displayed his palms to you, gesturing for you to take a deep breath. Another shudder ripped through your body. You could still feel the fog clinging to your skin, the way the waves lapped at your body. But you did as asked. You took a deep breath. As you slowly exhaled Rafayel wrapped an arm around your shoulder, guiding you to another part of the exhibit. “You okay?”
”Yeah, I…” You put a hand to your head as he guided you to sit down. “I just had a really weird reaction to that painting. What the hell was that?” Your question, though pointed, wasn’t accusatory. Just confused.
Rafayel sat down beside you, propping his elbows on his knees. “I was playing around with color and emotion, and I think that’s my most evocative piece yet. Based on a dream. People tend to have… extreme reactions to it.” He propped his chin on his hand, watching you as your heart rate slowed and your breathing returned to normal. “What did you see?”
”I saw it before today.” You admitted. You sat up straighter, allowing yourself further room to slowly calm down. “A picture on the official website. The lighting made the red look more pink, so at first it made me think of your eyes. The more I thought about it, the more it reminded me of something that happened during field school. It was in May, and we were on an island. So the night of the full Flower Moon my mentor, some fellow students, and I walked to the beach. The moon was pink, and the way it rose out of the water… it was just…” You couldn’t find the word for it. But his slow nod indicated he understood.
“In person? That’s red. Blood red. Blood in the water.” You wet your dry lips. “Whose blood? Mine? A sacrifice?” Your eyes darted up. “The... others?”
His eyes flickered. But he nodded again, more resolutely. “I know who you mean.” He dropped his voice. He looked away, looking off in the distance to a gaggle of rich folks eyeing different pieces. One man approached the very painting you had been discussing. He seemed utterly enthralled with it, and demanded to buy it on the spot. Thomas scurried over, displaying his palms. Even from this distance you could hear the apologies and the ensuing argument.
"I'm sorry, sir, that painting is not for sale. Multiple of these other pieces are, however! Anything with a green-"
"No! Where is Rafayel?! How much does he want for it? One million? Two? I can outbid everyone here!" The man looked around, before laying eyes on the man beside you. He stormed over. You could practically see the steam coming out of his ears. "Rafayel, that piece is simply exquisite, I have the perfect place in my home for it! How much do you want?"
Rafayel crossed his arms over his chest. He didn't even grace the man by coming to stand, remaining sitting beside you. "Nothing." His voice changed. It was cold. Indifferent. "It is not for sale."
"Three million? Four? Name your price." The man got louder. "I have to have it. I'll commission you to recreate it. I don't care. What do you want?"
"Do you need to see your doctor, Mr. Raymond? I don't believe you are understanding me." Rafayel finally stood, taking a step towards him. "You may speak with my manager. All paintings on display are marked for sale, or not for sale. This painting is not for sale."
"Five, six? Do you need billions? I can do that." The man grew frantic. Thomas hesitantly approached, reaching a hand out before pausing. Rafayel caught his eye. Raf's back was to you, so all you could see was Thomas's eyes slowly drifting to the floor, his hand lowering.
"Mr. Raymond. The painting is not for sale." Rafayel's voice dropped an octave. His voice sent another shiver down your spine. An unspoken threat hung in the air, but the old man was either too bold or too determined to notice. Or care. He didn't appear to be very old, maybe approaching his forties.
"Seven. Seven million." Raymond stuck out his hand. "Don't be stupid, son. That's more than it's worth. But I'm feeling generous." You sat up straighter, opening your mouth. The condescending tone in Raymond's voice didn't escape you, but Thomas caught your eye and firmly shook his head. You closed your mouth, then opened it again to protest, but Thomas's look sharpened. No. You slowly shut your mouth.
You couldn't see Rafayel's face. But you could see him extend his hand, shake Raymond's, then drop it immediately after. "Thank you for your generosity." His voice was thick with sarcasm, but Raymond's face lit up in glee. "I'll begin the preparations for it to be transferred to your home once the exhibit is over today. You will hear from Thomas for the paperwork in the coming days, then we will discuss a suitable crew to move it."
"Smart boy! Maybe you're not so bad for an upstart. I will say, your negotiating skills could be better." Raymond clapped a hand on Rafayel's shoulder, and you could see every muscle in his body tense. He grasped Raymond's wrist, pulling his hand off as if he was holding the edge of a piece of garbage. "But maybe there's hope for you, yet. I look forward to your next collection." Now satisfied, Raymond returned. A new swagger in his steps, proud as a peacock for wearing down Rafayel's defenses.
You didn't bother hiding a scowl. Rafayel turned back, wearing a matching expression. He came back to the bench, sitting down more heavily than necessary. He ran a hand over his face, pushing his bangs back momentarily. "Where were we?" You caught the tail end of a wry smile.
"You were asking me what I saw in the painting that guy just bought." You nodded to the painting in question. "I was saying I saw the pink moon rising out of the ocean from a memory, your eyes, and a bloody scene hinting at something more nefarious. But you said it yourself, the key to appreciation and interpretation is to trust your gut, so-” His eyebrows lifted, and his eyes caught the glimmer of the light.
“You remembered?”
”I took notes.” You managed to smile, your heart rate finally evening out. “I guess… if we’re going off of our guts, then my first inclination would be the thing to go with. Your eyes. Yeah, your eyes have that pink in them, and the painting is more red… but that junction where the red and blue meet, where the warm and cool colors meet…” You tried to find your words, taking a moment to pause. “They say the eyes are the window to the soul. Something about this painting feels like it’s the window to your soul. Specifically. There’s something you want or desire depicted in it.” Your eyes lifted, finally meeting his.
And for a moment- you found a flicker of intrigue in his eyes once more.
”I could be way off base. You mentioned it was based on a dream.” You shrug, averting your gaze again. “But… it reflected a desire back at me.”
”Oh, so seeing my eyes made you desire something?” Rafayel’s voice took on a sing-song, teasing tone. He shifted closer to you on the bench, cocking his head to the side. His lips curled into a boyish grin.
You huffed, crossing your arms over his chest and looking away. “I- yeah. I guess so. The flower moon.”
”What was it about that moon?”
”Field school. It was hard. It was long, and difficult, and I didn’t always get along with everyone I was there with.” You sighed, recalling the memories. Good and bad. “But there, under that moon… we danced. Sang. Told stories. Laughed. Cried. Played in the ocean. And for a moment, all the stress of the job, all the stress of the lives we all had melted away. A far cry from the past few weeks I’ve had recently.” You could feel a prick come to your eyes. You looked up again, finding Rafayel’s eyes still trained on you. That teasing, boyish grin had faded. Replaced by something that felt… softer. Sincere. He subtly nodded.
“It is from a dream. But it is kinda is about desire, too.” Rafayel confirmed, his voice low. “Something I’ve wanted to do for a long time.” His eyes cut up. You followed his gaze, finding the old man shaking Thomas’s hand as they discussed the price and delivery of the ornate painting. “I won’t bore you with details.”
”You wouldn’t bore me at all.” You protested. “If you can sit through Dr. C’s lectures on historical archaeology then I can easily sit through your explanations.” Rafayel snorted at the comparison. He lifted his foot, crossing his leg. He crossed his arms over his chest and looked away, a faux-offended expression crossing his face. Accompanied with a profound pout.
”I am wounded. How dare you compare those.”
”I think you misunderstood. Or maybe I should rephrase.” You laughed again, this time scooting a bit closer to him yourself. “It’s easy to listen to someone talk about something they’re passionate about. Even if you don’t understand, you can enjoy their pride and passion.” You grinned. “Dr. C always made her lectures fun. Cracking jokes and engaging in banter. And honestly? You get this glimmer in your eye when someone gets you going, like in that lecture.” He cracked an eye open, looking at you over his shoulder. His exaggerated pout slowly vanished, his lips turning downwards into a more surprised expression. His eyebrows furrowed and his one open eye narrowed.
”How do I know you’re not buttering me up, huh?”
”I could make up some bullshit to say about your art, about how profound and complex it is, and it truly reflects the state of our society through the color… blue.” You adopted a superficial, pompous voice while sitting up straighter. You jutted up an index finger. “A perplexing choice, but a clear reflection of the creator’s-“ He finally broke character, leaning over and covering your mouth with one hand.
“Enough.” His shoulders shook with a barely suppressed laugh. Your pompous voice did its job. That grin was unlike the professional and polite smiles he had offered before. Finally, you got a hint of something true. You glanced down at his hand, debating between biting him or maybe licking him. You knew neither would be appropriate so you just gently placed a hand on his wrist. That alone made him pull his hand away, so you did the same in return.
“Okay, okay, I’m done.” You laughed. “I promise, I’m done.”
”Good. You’re not bad at art analysis.”
”Being in my field makes you a jack of all trades.” You shrugged. “Field technician, scuba diver, writer, researcher, detective, artist,” You counted off the miscellaneous skills that could come with the job before shrugging. “Oh! And trowel dart thrower.”
”Trowel darts?”
”Trowel darts.” You nodded sagely. “You keep your trowel sharp at all times. I specialize in maritime archaeology but my first bout of training was on land, so I still help out from time to time. You need your trowel sharp to cut through roots and keep edges nice and precise. Of course, off the clock, that also means drawing a target in the dirt back at wherever you’re staying, and seeing who’s got the best aim.” You grinned as you explained. “All in the flick of the wrist. Like throwing daggers. But more on theme.”
“Sooooo, if I ever run into an excavation, I should keep an eye out for any trowels being thrown at me? Is that what you’re saying?” Rafayel cocked his head again. Every time he did that he looked like an adorable puppy cocking their head from side to side. You swallow the comparison and keep it to yourself.
”Oh that or shovels. Or machetes, if you’re in a densely wooded area.” His eyes briefly widened and he nodded his head.
”Machetes. Got it.”
”That’s enough about my job.” You waved away the topic at hand. “Don’t want anyone thinking those are thinly veiled threats. Just acknowledgements the job is dangerous. I’m glad I was able to come for the exhibit itself.” You looked up again, admiring the handful of smaller artworks adorning the room.
Rafayel scoffed, as if your dismissal of your own job irritated him. “Nahhh. Your job is better than sitting in this stuffy gallery hearing rich folks argue about which wrong interpretation of theirs is better. Or getting badgered into selling a piece.”
”I thought there is no wrong interpretation?”
Rafayel rolled his eyes, a soft groan escaping his throat. ”When your head is so far up your own butt all you see is crap you’re bound to have some crappy opinions. Including on art.” He scowled. You laughed in surprise at his comparison, but he had a point. You shook your head at him. You glanced at the time on your phone, there were still a few hours left. Rafayel already seemed irritated at the people milling around. And the interaction with Raymond clearly set him off further. You had agreed to help Thomas out, but at the same time, the only thing that came to mind was that book. You went ahead and pulled it out, along with your journal. His scowl dropped, now replaced with a glimmer of curiosity as he eyed your journal.
”Your first batch of field notes. Why bring that?”
”These were actually a copy of my first field notes. Dr. C has my first field notes back in the archaeology lab on campus, same with all my classmates from field school. I got her permission to rewrite all of it into this journal here so I’d always have reminders of how far I’ve come.” You crack it open, flipping through the pages. “I’ve also added some more personal entries, some stories from field school I kept out of my official notes. It’s just become my everyday notes journal nowadays.” Rafayel leaned in, peering over your shoulder to glance at your notes. Flickers of names passed by as you flipped through the pages. He looked up at you again.
“We’re gonna be stuck here a while. I already tried to make my escape and Thomas dragged me back.” He tossed a glare at his manager, though even you could see it was only halfhearted. “Tell me some stories.”
You hesitated. He’s a famous artist, what would your stories have on him and his life? But that look in his eyes, when you explained your own thoughts and feelings around the art, came to mind again… You flipped back to the start of your narrative, skimming through to remember some of the finer details. “Okay, so to begin, there was this fucking raccoon that loved harassing Dr. C on this island…”
People faded into nothing but colors and blurs of movement. Hours faded, but neither of you seemed to notice. Each page in this journal, though smeared in ink, dirt, and tears, formed a vivid image in both of your minds. Colorful characters, and even more colorful finds. Stories, relationships. Jokes. Rafayel was leaning over laughing, his shoulders shaking.
The light in the room had slowly faded, the warmth of the sun replaced by the cool, harsh lighting of the fluorescent bulbs. The low chatter that had been your background music for this conversation had gotten quieter and quieter, before vanishing altogether. Soon, only a single pair of footsteps accompanied your mutual laughter. You looked up, finding Thomas approaching with an expression reflecting both frustration and relief. Rafayel's laughter was cut short.
"I'm glad you stayed the whole time." Thomas crossed his arms over his chest. "Raymond bought the painting. He already signed the paperwork."
"I heard." He sobered up quick. It was like watching the man switch between masks, flipping it on and off with ease. The amused glimmer in his eye vanished. His eyelids lowered, his eyebrows raising into an impassive look. "I'll sign the paperwork for the sale tonight."
"I'll send you everything I need from you before the end of the day." Thomas confirmed. His eyes narrowed, his eyebrows furrowing, his lips curling down. "Are you sure-?"
"Dead certain." Rafayel shrugged. He got to his feet, buttoning his suit jacket once more as he came to stand. "Raymond wants it, so he'll have it." The colors Rafayel's voice typically held vanished. The passion in his lecture, the amusement from your talks... there was a hollowness to his words. Thomas's eyes momentarily flickered to you. He smiled.
It didn't reach his eyes.
"Thank you for your help today." Thomas turned his body to face you. Rafayel scoffed, reaching up to lightly play with his own bangs.
"I can't believe you asked someone to babysit me like some child..."
"I was gonna be here anyway! It's not every day I get to talk with the creator of the exhibit himself." You shrugged. You tucked your journal back into your bag, and Rafayel in turn turned to face you. He extended his hand, helping you come to stand.
"I owe you some translation notes, and you owe me some more information on your job." A hint of humor entered his voice again. His lips curled up, but his eyes were trained on the painting that had just sold. You didn't know if it had a name. You didn't think to look- or ask. But something about it just... felt off. However, that felt fitting in its own right. If it was truly a reflection of desire, it ought to make people uncomfortable. You took his hand, standing up. Unlike with Raymond, Rafayel released your hand but allowed it to hover momentarily. Not immediately trying to escape as though your touch was diseased.
Over the course of the afternoon, the lighting in the gallery changed. From the beautiful sunlight adding to the experience, to only the fluorescent lights lighting up the place. Thomas glanced out the window and his lips twitched into a frown. "If you two are heading out, better be fast. Looks like a summer storm is about to hit us." You and Rafayel both followed his gaze. Dark clouds roamed the sky, and the trees outside swayed in the wind. You quickly fastened your bag, taking long strides to the door.
"Thanks for the heads up, Thomas! It was nice to meet you!" Rafayel was quick to follow, his long legs allowing him to catch up with ease. Thomas lifted a hand, exchanging a farewell of his own before the two of you made your way out the door. The wind was steadily picking up, and the sky responded with a low rumble. You extended a hand, but didn't feel any rain. "Where were you thinking for our little talk?"
"There's a cafe down the road, good tea and coffee." Rafayel pointed down a sidewalk, still walking briskly. "Its gonna pour any minute now."
"It is, but a little rain won't hurt us." You quickly followed, jogging to match his speed. "Running in the rain can be fun!" A roll of thunder answered you, much closer this time. "See? Even the sky agrees!"
"You know, for a scientist, you're not what I expected!" Rafayel called back, breaking into a bit of a jog. Another roll of thunder. A few drops landed on your head and shoulder, and you broke into a run alongside him.
"What? All stiff and professional? Ha!" The rain began to fall steadily. "Hell no! We're professionals when we gotta be, but not all the time!" The steady rain turned into a downpour. You laughed, grabbing your bag and holding it over your head. "Go, go, go!" Something about the rain seemed to wedge its way behind the mask. Rafayel laughed back, both of you running down the sidewalk in the pouring rain. You ducked under a cover, putting your bag down. The cover of your bag did its job, the objects inside perfectly dry, in spite of becoming an impromptu umbrella. "Besides," You shrugged, coming to stand. "Archaeology is kind of the weird step sibling in science. It requires a lot of the hard, physical stuff. The biology. But you also get the so called soft sciences, the social sciences, anthropology. You need to know soil composition and the impact of sea salt and weathering and erosion. But you also need to understand social theories and history." You pulled your bag over your shoulder again, watching as the rain continued to pour from your small shelter.
The cover over the bus stop didn't stop the rain from hitting the both of you, not with this kind of wind. Rafayel poked his head out, watching the clouds roll by even though he was being pelted with rain. In spite of his bangs growing soggy and his clothes getting wet, he stepped right back out into the rain. You stayed under the cover a moment longer. You reached a hand out, reaching for his arm. Just before you could touch his sleeve, you paused. You slowly lower your arm and pull your hand back. Instead, you step out into the rain with him. The downpour slowly lessened into a steady rain. It still soaked your hair and clothes, but it no longer pelted your skin. The cool rain was a nice contrast to the warm weather.
You lowered your head to look around. Whitesand Bay. It was a beautiful area. In the distance you could make out a beautiful white building, the fabled studio and home of the peculiar man beside you. The gates were always shut, likely for his own safety and privacy. Your eyes darted up to him. His eyes were shut, his head leaned back. He seemed to be more at ease with rain streaming down his face.
"We should get inside before we both catch a cold." You spoke quietly. It felt like you were speaking to the water itself instead of Rafayel, but he hummed to acknowledge your words anyway.
"Sure. Cafe's right over there." His eyes slowly opened. His typically wavy bangs were straightened by the rain, clinging to his wet forehead. He reached up a hand, pushing them out of his eyes. They were distant. Focused on something else. You opened your mouth, only to get rainwater in it. You shut it and followed him. Neither of you felt the need to run or hurry, even with the threat of a cold hanging over your heads. The walk was slow and steady, like the ongoing rainfall. Up ahead, in a small dip near the road, a puddle had formed.
You took longer strides, all of a sudden ahead of him. You took a hop and splashed into the puddle with both feet. You heard rapid footsteps and barely moved out of the way in time for Rafayel to do the exact same. You looked forward. There was another puddle. You scurried towards it, and another set of footsteps quickly followed. You hopped into the puddle with one foot before hopping out, Rafayel mimicking you. You turned, catching a growing smile on his face. He looked ahead. You followed his gaze.
The mother of all puddles sat there before you.
You looked at him. He looked at you.
Both of you set off running.
"I'm gonna beat you!"
"No you're not!"
You both laughed, your pounding footsteps on the ground adding to the cacophony of noise. Laughter, running feet, rain, distant thunder, cars racing by. It was close, you two were neck and neck. And with a jump, you both landed in the puddle, sending fresh rainwater everywhere. The grin on your face made your cheeks hurt, but you couldn't stop. Rafayel's eyes glimmered in the faint light, and his lips shifted from a grin to a smirk as he splashed at your feet. "Told you I was gonna beat you!"
"No you didn't! We tied!" You splashed him back, kicking at the water and wetting the bottom of his pants legs further. The cold water didn't bother him in the slightest, and he only splashed you right back.
"Nuh uh! Did not!" "Uh huh! Did too!"
Another distant roll of thunder accompanied your laughter, the sky seeming to echo your joy. A lash of lightning lit up the sky, momentarily putting that light right back into all pairs of eyes present. The sudden flash sobered you up. You looked down the road, seeing the sign for the cafe Rafayel certainly was alluding to. You grabbed his arm, starting to tug him along.
"Okay, okay, we need to go inside! We're both gonna catch a cold, Thomas is gonna kill us."
"It's fiiiine, I can work from home, a little cold isn't gonna kill me, y'know." Rafayel didn't protest, walking along with you at a brisk pace in the rain. It had lightened further, now only a drizzle compared to the deluge you had been caught in mere minutes earlier. You made your way down the road, soon entering the refuge of the cafe. It was surprisingly warm, which was a relief after the cool rain. "Drink's on you?"
"Yup, that's what we agreed to." You confirmed. The two of you made your way to the counter, selecting warm teas since you were both soaked to the bone. The cashier looked baffled, but accepted your payment without commenting. Once you got your teas you found a warm spot tucked away in a corner. Rafayel sat with his back to the wall, facing the rest of the cafe while you sat across from him.
You pulled the book and the annotation tools out of your bag. Highlighter, pencil, pen, and some sticky notes. You put your journal on the table as well. While you grabbed some napkins and began to pat dry your skin, Rafayel reached across the table, picking up your journal. He undid the elastic and began to flip through it. You shook your head but didn't stop him.
"I didn't realized archaeologists could be so..." He paused, his eyes scanning over pages as he casually flipped through.
"Nerdy? Dumb? Goofy?"
"Thoughtful. But yeah, those, too."
You laughed, patting your forehead dry. "Sounds like you didn't really have the best opinion of us."
"Can you blame me?"
"Oh no, not at all." You shook your head. You dried your hands as well grabbing the book you wanted his help with. You flipped to the first story, already preparing all the tools you had laid out on the table. "Archaeology has a dark past. And unfortunately it still can be weaponized against people. That's why Dr. C and I are so adamant about how we go about things, working with the community and not against them."
"Mm hm." His eyes remained trained on your notebook. "But not everyone thinks that way."
"An unfortunate reality, but one that is changing." You nodded your head. "The older voices, the ones primarily espousing foul rhetoric... they're dying out."
Rafayel snorted. "Literally."
"Literally and figuratively." You confirmed. "People are realizing that the discipline can be, and is, so much more than its roots. That when done in collaboration with the communities, or even better, led by the community in question at any given site, it yields better information. More accurate, with more context." You took a sip of your tea. The warm liquid went warmed you from the inside out.
"When we met, you joked about the existence of merpeople." Rafayel's eyes cut up. "Raymond, the guy who nagged me to get me to sell him that painting... he has the skeleton of a merperson on display. Some people say it's just an evocative art piece. Some say its real." Your nose crinkled, and a deep frown etched itself onto your face.
"Ugh." You grumbled. "That's... I don't know how to feel about that."
"You work with remains." He hummed, turning back to your journal as if it was a fascinating piece of fiction. "Why does even hearing about it bother you?"
"Because remains shouldn't be displayed. Not in my opinion, anyway." You turned to the first story starring the infamous little blue fish. The one you saw in the pet store, the carnival, the stairwell, and in your nightmare. "It just..." You put the book down. Your skin was crawling with the mere mental image. "It often feels dehumanizing. Depersonalizing. Relegating a person to just their remains, then showing them like a trophy. Even as an art piece that just-" You shuddered. "What a creep."
Rafayel laughed, though it was low, dry. "Looks like we agree on something." He finally put your journal down, sliding it back to you. He grabbed his tea, taking a sip. Those eyes, so bright and colorful, were hooded. His gaze was distant. Unfocused. "He is a creep."
"I don't like how he touched you." You added. You grabbed your pencil, moving a bit closer to him just so he could see the book better. "He was peacocking. Showing off."
"I could feel you glaring daggers behind me, thanks for the backup but I handled it." He finally looked up at you again. "Don't worry about that creep. Hubris will get him eventually."
"That I believe wholeheartedly." You scoffed. You finally shifted the topic, tapping the book with your pencil. "Now. Let's take out our frustrations on someone else- this translator." Your lips turned up, and his managed to do the same. "I actually had a question first. Throughout these legends I noticed a little blue fish would always be mentioned before the sea god. Is that a thing? Is it specifically a little blue fish that's an emissary of the sea god, or is it a mistranslation?"
Rafayel reached over you, grabbing the pen you had also laid out. He uncapped it. but used the bottom of it to point at the book. "Yes and no. All fish are emissaries of the sea god, but the color can have a meaning as well." He pointed at the page. "Blue fish were favored by this iteration of the sea god, though I have seen other versions where it was a red flammula, specifically." You grabbed a sticky note and wrote this all down, adding it to the page.
"I'd love to see your sources some day." You flattened the sticky part of the sticky note with the edge of your nail.
"Eh, maybe I'll show them to you, maybe I won't. Not like you're gonna publish this anyway." Rafayel leaned in closer, eyes scanning over each line of text. Slowly but surely, he began to offer alternatives, not quite line by line but just about. The little blue fish could be amended to any kind of fish, same titles and names could be swapped out. You flipped page to page. You knew you would only be able to scratch the surface in a single afternoon, but some of the amendments could be extended to the rest of the book so it would not need to be said again.
Soon enough you came to the story of the young sea god and his mischievous deeds. He scoffed. "You might as well rip out that story entirely." He grumbled. He sat back in his seat, crossing an arm over his chest while reaching for his tea with his other hand. "Not relevant."
"Why? That sounded less like an academic critique and more like a former bad kid grumbling." You lifted your own tea, your voice light and teasing. Rafayel huffed again. But it lacked the playful air his pouts usually held. He seemed... genuinely irritated at the moment. Eyebrows furrowed, eyes narrowed, and a tiny pout overshadowed by genuine irritation in his eyes.
"You don't know the first thing about me. Seriously, you're better off ripping that story out. It's not true, or important."
"I don't know you?" You cocked your head. That was what stuck out to you. You tucked the sticky ntoes in the book to act as an impromptu book mark, pushing the book away for the moment. "I mean... you're not wrong. I don't really know you. I don't think you want me to know you." His eyes darted up. Remaining on your face. But you resumed speaking in spite of his skeptical stare. "I know a few things. You're a well known artist, you're not a fan of flying, you're a passionate teacher, you've gained an interest in archaeology, and you love Lemuria." You named off a handful of things on your fingers. "But you're right. Those are all kinda surface level things. We've interacted... four times now?" The library, the cafe, the lecture, and now. "Neither of us really know each other. And, if I can be honest, its like you're wearing a mask around me. I've picked up on a few things hidden behind the mask. You're selective on who you allow to touch you, especially where and how long. You enjoy childish things like jumping in puddles and the artsy birb emojis. You're very level headed, even in scary situations, like when I was being followed."
You watched his face as you spoke. The minor pout slowly retreated, and his eyebrows slowly relaxed. His frustration appeared to melt into pensiveness. Curiosity.
"You're right." You confirmed. "I don't really know the first thing about you, Rafayel. But I'd be more than willing to learn. If you'll allow it. If you'll have me." His eyebrows lowered again, but his eyes had softened. Confusion? Intrigue? A flash of fear? What was it that you saw in those eyes? The pink mixing into the blue?
Blood in the water.
You shuddered, the dream from the other night springing back into your mind. You grabbed your tea, averting your gaze to it. You took a long sip. It's gone cold. It was better than nothing. You finished it in one go, finally putting it down as a newfound silence settled over you. This was unlike the silence in his car. It was heavy. Suffocating. Blood rushed to your cheeks. Did you overstep? Was that too much? Too forward. You steeled yourself, looking up to Rafayel. His eyes were distant, and he wasn't looking at you. Watching the front of the cafe closely.
He began to pack your things for you, putting them all together.
"I don't really know you, either." He admitted. "I made a lot of assumptions about you upon meeting you." He gestured to your bag. You opened it and began to put all the supplies into it. "I hate to cut this short, but we have company." Rafayel leaned in, dropping his voice. All the hair on the back of your neck came to stand, but you didn't react. You just kept putting everything away in your bag, before reaching in. You kept a tactical knife around. Cutting through roots, cutting through packaging, self defense. You switched it from your bag to your pocket. You came to stand, taking your mug and his in hand. Rafayel followed suit and immediately joined your side. You finally turned to face the rest of the cafe, spotting two men sitting together at a table not far away. One held a newspaper, hiding his face. The other idly scrolled on his phone.
You peeled your eyes away, looking impassive as you returned the used mugs before stepping out. Rafayel remained beside you all the way. The rain had stopped, and the sun was poking out again.
"Let me walk you to the bus?"
"Mm hm."
The exchange was brief, btu nothing more needed to be said. Not now. You two began to walk. You could feel your wet socks and your shoes beginning to dig into the back of your heels, and the general sogginess of your clothes was making you uncomfortable. You'd need to go straight home to shower and change. You didn't go out of your way to jump into puddles, but when you two approached one you didn't resist the urge to put your foot down a little harder than necessary, leaving a splash in your wake.
The walk to the main bus stop in Whitesand Bay that would take you back to Linkon wasn't far away. But the appearance of those two men made every second drag on.
"Thanks for letting me look through your notes." Rafayel broke the silence. His crisp footfalls from his nice shoes were one of the few sounds around you. Hist steady gait a constant companion. "Probably should've asked first."
"You're fine." You dismissed his concern with a wave of your hand. You settled your hand over your collarbone, settling on the charm on your necklace. The single pearl. You felt his eyes on you, so you turned to look at him. His eyes were slightly narrowed, trained on the pearl around your neck.
"A pearl?"
"Ah- yeah." You cupped it to show it to him, dangling from the chain. It was simple, a piece of metal connecting it to the chain. "Don't know if its real... Probably isn't, but it means a lot to me. Got it right before I graduated. Little momento of hey, I made it, remember why you came this far." You explained. You two approached the bus stop, and once you came to a stop he leaned in close. You could see his individual eyelashes, the depth of his eyes. The way his bangs had begun to curl now that they were drying. He frowned deeply.
"Oh yeah. That's fake."
"You think I have the kind of money for a real one?" You scoffed, now holding the fake pearl to your skin. "Besides, I don't have to worry about damaging it now that I know."
"All those years of studying, and training, and researching... and you want that represented by a fake pearl?" He seemed downright offended by the mere concept of it. You held the charm a little tighter.
"It's fine. Its not like anything is gonna come of it anyway. What with this stalking and the others being... gone," You finally just said it, choking on the word. "Dr. C is right, and so are you. Something is wrong here. I need to keep my distance. My intentions don't matter, I just need to put my nose to the grindstone and find something else to focus on." He turned his nose up, scoffing right back.
"A fake pearl... we're doing something about that."
"We aren't." You corrected, adjusting your bag. "I appreciate the help today, and thanks for letting me come to your exhibit, Rafayel. But its like you said. We don't know each other." You could see the bus in the distance. It was right on time. And with Rafayel beside you, you doubted whoever was following you at the cafe would do anything to you now. Too many people around anyway.
"But we can." His voice caught you off guard. You turned back to face him. Something about him had softened. Though in the blink of an eye, he seemed to go right back to what he had been like before. "I mean- you're useful to me, and I'm useful to you. Who knows? Maybe we'll find other things in common. You're right. I like art, I like teaching, I like artsy birb... I liked reading your journal. I liked hearing your stories, and your interpretation of my art." He leaned in again. "You're not what I expected of an archaeologist. I don't like being proven wrong." The bus finally rolled up. "But you might be an exception."
Your heart was pounding. Your ears and cheeks grew warm. You lifted a hand, resting it against your own cheek. You could feel how hot it was under your touch. You could hear the door to the bus open, and a few people hopped off. You snapped out of your stupor, looking away from him. You waved, taking the first step onto the bus before he called your name.
"Text me when you get home, okay?" You looked over your shoulder. He was smiling, and for once, it made his eyes fully glimmer. You nodded, managing a smile in return before hastily making your way to a seat. You sat down, burying your face into your hands. None of that went the way it was supposed to. Second guesses and questions flooded your mind as the bus finally began to move once more. You peeked through your fingers, finding Rafayel still waiting outside. He lifted one hand in farewell, waving as the bus slowly began its journey back to Linkon. You lifted a hand in return, slowly waving as his form got smaller and smaller in the distance. Once he was too small to make out in the distance you turned to face forward once more.
As much as you were overthinking every interaction you had had with him, you found your mind also drifting back to more practical things. The excavation you were applying for. The pay wouldn't be as good as what the Lemurian excavation was offering, but it would certainly help make end's meet. Since Dr. C had been asked to be a temporary help, you figured you had a good chance of getting an official field technician position. This time around they'd also provide near site housing, and a stipend for groceries for the crew. It was on land, but at least it was something. Something to keep your mind and hands busy, something to keep it off the other archaeologists, and off of whatever the hell Rafayel was up to in your life.
The jungle conducted its own unique symphony. The hum of all the bugs, birds, and other animals. The whistle of the wind in the trees. The low growl of the truck slowly driving over gravel. Your team had become the choir accompanying the symphony, singing along to some song at the top of their lungs. The wind whipped past, cooling down all of you from your long day of work. Starting shortly after the sun rose and stopping just before the height of the heat in the mid afternoon.
The truck came to a stop outside of your accommodations, and people began to pile out of the truck and the truck bed. You swing your legs around the side, patting the truck twice to signal to the driver everyone in the back was getting out. You dropped down, taking off your kerchief to wipe your face of the sweat and dirt. "Alright, everyone! You know your assigned tasks. Tech folks, take the equipment in and get it ready to charge. Water folk, empty and clean the container for tomorrow. If you finish early and others need help, pitch in. Those of you on dinner duty, go get cleaned up and start cooking once all of that's done."
It was a small but good crew. Dr. C as helping run the excavation for a couple of days, but you would be there the whole time. A couple of younger archaeologists, students, were also present to learn a few things. You took off your backpack, grabbing your trowel and tucking it into your belt as you approached Dr. C. She was unloading the truck as well, sweat dripping down her back.
"Hey Dr. C, you got a minute?" She looked over her shoulder, but nodded her head. You gestured for her to follow you, another one of the more seasoned field technicians overseeing the rest of the crew while the two of you walked away. You walked to the edge of the forest, just off the main road near the house you were all staying at. You pulled a smaller journal out of your pocket, cracking it open to show her some numbers. "I think some of the students are getting themselves confused, they were-" Your eyes darted up, looking at her when you registered the look on her face. She was looking at something. Her eyes narrowed. Eyebrows furrowed, and shoulders tensed. Not from the long day of work.
She saw something.
You licked your lips, but kept talking. She would stop you if she needed you to. "They were getting mixed up with the absolute value. I mean yes, we're digging down, but you can't dig negative five centimeters." You flipped a page in your field notes. You rubbed your forehead with the sleeve of your sun shirt, noticing a streak of grime come off. Post dig showers were mandatory, and you couldn't wait to hop into yours. "So some of their numbers in their field notes are off, I was hoping to borrow yours so they can cross reference and how those corrected-"
Without another word Dr. C pulled out her trowel from her pack and threw it at a tree. You threw your notes to the side and grabbed your own trowel, turning to do the exact same as a familiar mop of dusky purple hair entered your vision.
Rafayel had moved faster than you thought he could, dodging the trowel. It hit the tree, now wedged into the wood as he held his hands up. "It's just me! It's just me, I though you could see me coming from the road-"
"What the fuck are you doing here?!" You interrupted him, still holding the handle of your trowel tightly. You moved slowly, going and picking up your field notes before tucking the smaller book into your pocket again.
"I-"
"Rafayel, before you say anything, just know you're gonna be in trouble no matter what you say." Dr. C sighed in exasperation. She took a few heavy steps forward, her work boots making the gravel crunch a little louder. Rafayel turned, pulling her trowel out of the tree before offering it back to her. She took it, her eyes narrowed at him. "So just be honest. Honesty will get you into less trouble." His eyes darted to you, as if he was asking for your help.
"I was just in the area, too. I remembered you said something about going on a new excavation, and I was in this general area for supplies for my paintings."
You pressed your lips into a thin line, pointing your trowel at him in a mock-threat. "Bullshit." You huffed. "I didn't tell you anything about this excavation. All I said was that I'd be out of town and wifi would be bad."
"So I put two and two together." He protested, still keeping his hands where you both could see them. He gestured to a pack at his waist, the way it sat implying there were things inside. "The rest of this area is open to the public, and the nearby beach has some great stuff to make pigments out of. I've been here before, I'm not-"
"What, following me?" You scoffed. "You realize how this looks, right?" He sighed, his hands still up.
"Okay, fine, yeah. I was here for supplies, don't flatter yourself. You can check my pack here. You'll see."
The crunching of gravel along the main road caught your attention. You turned, surprised to see a black truck pulling up. It didn't have the same markings as the vehicles used by the people who ran this site. You glanced back to Dr. C. Her expression had changed, her eyes no longer narrowed at Rafayel, but at the truck. She wordlessly dropped her arm, still holding her trowel tightly as she marched over to the truck. It was slowly pulling up in front of the house, where other members of the crew were finishing off cleaning off their boots before going inside.
From this distance you couldn't quite make out what was being said. But you could see the tenseness in her shoulders, the way she held herself taller, made herself bigger. You turned back to Rafayel. Any facade he had been trying to maintain was gone. "You wanna know why I'm really here?" His voice dropped. That lower octave he used with Raymond back in the gallery. When he noticed you were being followed. It was your turn to put two and two together.
"But- how?" You stammered. You didn't share your location with anyone, you didn't tell anyone you were coming to this site. And you needed clearance to come to this part of it. Whatever checkpoints and safeguards that had been put in place clearly didn't do enough. You turned back to that black truck, seeing one man get out of the passenger seat while the other remained behind the wheel. The man was dressed nicely, and he was extending what looked to be a business card to Dr. C. She was smiling, but held her hand up as a sign of rejection.
"Come on." You muttered, gesturing for him to follow you as you began to approach the situation hesitantly. You couldn't hear Rafayel behind you, but you felt like he was still following. He was good at being quiet. Maybe too good. As you approached the conversation, Dr. C was gesturing for everyone else to go inside.
"... I'm just saying, Hannah, you ought to consider it. Ever pays well, and the employee benefits would be a lot more than any individual excavation could give you. We've been watching your work for a long time, and with how much expansion we've been doing sometimes we need to do some shovel testing on sites before we build a new facility." The man conducted himself with the charm of a snake oil merchant. It made your skin crawl, the way he was subtly leaning in closer to her. "Not to mention being a professor isn't the best pay, either. You'd have a lot more flexibility in your schedule, you could still teach, but-"
"You're not supposed to be here." You interrupted him, standing across from the two of them. The man turned his head towards you. He didn't seem too surprised. If anything, the way he smiled, he seemed excited to see you.
"Oh, I recognize you!" His chipper tone did little to stop the way a shiver crawled up your back, digging its icy hands into your skin. "You're the one who wrote that article on your journey as an archaeologist into the Linkon Science Report! Nice to finally meet you, I'm Carter, I'm one of the medical scientists for Ever." He extended his hand to you, but you simply held up your filthy hand in response.
"Probably don't want to touch me." You smiled, but it was a sharp warning. "I'm a little dirty."
"A little grime doesn't bother me." Carter quickly put his hand down. "Shows you're hard at work. Anyway, I was just talking with Hannah here about a job opportunity. The offer is open to you, too, and everyone on site. Ever is looking for some reliable archaeologists to help form a team of on call professionals. Ever has been expanding so rapidly, we're just getting a hand into everything! Not to mention with the construction of new facilities we sometimes need to do a brief shovel test to ensure we're not building on important grounds." His smile was superficial. You were used to these kinds of people in the trade. Thinking they could buy off archaeologists for whatever goal they had in mind.
"Nah, but thanks. I've got steady work right now, don't feel like I'm cut out to work for Ever." You shrugged your shoulders, flipping your trowel in the air before catching it by the handle. "Dr. C, did we bring in the equipment to sharpen the trowels and machetes? I might sit on the deck and give everyone's gear a touch up before dinner tonight." It wasn't subtle. You weren't trying to be subtle.
"We did." Dr. C responded, her typical smile on her face. Pure professionalism. Your own was a flatout mockery of the man in front of you. "I think that's a good idea."
"Woah, hey, no need for that." Carter laughed as though the two of you had made a joke. "I'm just here making an offer." His eyes darted from you to Dr. C, then to the man behind you. "Oh! I didn't know this dig was open to amateurs, taken up a new hobby, Mr. Rafayel?"
"No, landlubber history isn't in my wheelhouse." Rafayel scoffed. It was still in that lower register of his. The hair on the back of your neck stood up, feeling him slowly approach until he came to stand in front of both you and Dr. C. "I think these two made it clear enough, but I'll clarify, just for your sake." He tilted his head. In a flash of dazzling pink light, he summoned a blade with his evol. "I don't need a trowel or a machete. Get lost. You're not welcome here."
Carter held both of his hands up, the smile vanishing from his face. "Woah, woah!" He tried to gesture for Raf to calm down. "I'm just here on behalf of my bosses to make an offer to fellow scientists! Academia is a rough world, publish or perish. But we take care of our own!" He looked past Rafayel to you and Dr. C beside you, his eyes pleading for backup.
"I'd hardly call anyone who willingly works for Ever a scientist." You spat, not bothering to bite back your venom. E.D.A.S. Court case 896318. Your note remained burned in your memory. "At least not one with an ethical backbone." Carter sighed, dropping his hands.
"I think you're all jumping to conclusions, seriously, take my card. Maybe heat exhaustion is kicking in. Why don't you go and clean yourselves up, then really think about it, hm?" He pulled out his card, trying to reach past Rafayel to give it to you. But Rafayel merely snatched it, burning the card the second it came into contact with his skin. Carter gasped and jumped back, watching the pink flames incinerate his fancy branded card.
"That won't be necessary." Rafayel kept his blade out. You held your trowel, and Dr. C had a hand on hers as well. Carter's eyes darted between the three of you, before he nodded.
"Alright. Seriously, though, you two. Think on it. You deserve better than surviving paycheck to paycheck and dig to dig. Give Ever a chance." He walked back to the passenger door, hopping into the truck. He shut the door, but while leaning out of the open window, he flashed all three of you a warm, kind smile. One that made his eyes crinkle, and you could see a single dimple. But no matter how warm his expression looked, it felt like a bucket of ice water just got dumped down your shirt. "Don't lose this chance." With that, the truck started again, making its way down the road. You watched it closely, your grip on the handle of your trowel only tightening as it vanished into the trees.
"There's no way in hell they had clearance here." Dr. C murmured.
"I memorized the license plate." You hummed back. You finally tucked the trowel back into your belt, your lips pressing into a thin line. "Wouldn't be surprised if it was fake, though." Another flash of pink fire appeared, and as you turned to face Rafayel, he made his dagger vanish. He turned to face you and Dr. C in kind. Nothing about him was the same as when you met him. The mild amusement he always carried with him was gone, now he seemed dead serious.
"That's why I'm here." He finally admitted. "I've... encountered Ever before. They asked me to do a commission for an office space, I said no, they've held a grudge ever since." He shrugged, speaking so casually it was like he was talking about the weather. "Dr. C, someone was at your office asking for you. And another person was trying to press Thomas for answers on when he last saw you." Rafayel pointedly looked at you. "Something is weird. I couldn't get in touch with you, so I came here."
"Last I checked you still don't have clearance to be here." You protested, but that icy feeling was slowly blooming all over your body. Every hair coming to stand at attention, goosebumps all over you in spite of how hot it was.
"I have my ways." Rafayel gave a non-answer, messing with his hair again. "Listen." He stepped closer, lowering his voice. "Something is wrong here. Like- really wrong. They shouldn't know you're here. I don't know why they're so insistent on you. But I think you both should take your own advice. Lay low for a bit." You and Dr. C exchanged looks.
"That's not really an option right now." Dr. C explained. "I'm helping to lead this project, I can't just run off."
"And I do need the money." You added. "Those other jobs held me over but I can't just give up this kind of money."
Rafayel hummed. He put a finger to his forehead. tapping it. "Okay. Hear me out." He looked up, meeting eyes with Dr. C. "Say you had a family emergency, but leave your notes here for your superiors. Go straight home and go into a media blackout for a couple of days." He turned to face you. "Do the same. Family emergency, go home, blackout. I'll handle the money."
"Absolutely not." You protested. "I'm not-"
"Would you rather continue to be stalked?" Rafayel cut you off, putting a hand on his hip. "At least until this is figured out, just accept it. Dr. C and I already alerted the campus authorities the first time we were followed. I can alert them again so other students aren't targeted. You should tell the security of your apartment building, too, that you've been followed recently."
"I'm just- this is," You stammered, putting a hand to your head. This was still about Lemuria. It had to be. Ever. Ever is definitely involved, you were nowhere near a big enough name for them to come after you. But your association with Dr. C and the others from that excavation? That could put a target on your head. Or at least make you a person of interest. And the last thing you wanted was to be on their radar. "I have some savings, I can-"
"No." Rafayel stopped you before you could continue. "Let me help you." He looked over his shoulder, eyes trained on where the truck had vanished. There was a faraway look in his eyes for a moment. But they snapped back to reality, turning back to you. "Consider it a loan."
"I can't afford to pay you back for that."
"Then don't think of it as a loan- its..." He backtracked. "A gift."
"Gifts don't come without expectations." You continued to protest, before a familiar hand on your arm grounded you.
"Thank you, Rafayel." Dr. C's clear, resolute voice grounded you in reality. "We have our pride. We like taking care of ourselves. But," She looked at you. "We need to lean on each other. Especially when things look shady." She turned back to him, her dark eyes glinting in the light. "We'll take the help. But we'll find our own ways to pay you back."
"I can accept that." Rafayel confirmed, slowly nodding his head. "I'll hold you to that."
"Hey, I might be able to bring in some pottery sherds and manuals on the different styles through time and space." Dr. C immediately offered, an option, starting to drag you towards the door of the house. "Guest lecture if you don't feel like teaching for a day? Or making some connections? We'll figure it out. We'll pack our things and let the higher ups know." She stopped just before the door. Your eyes were still trained on him. This entire thing felt weird. You and Rafayel hardly knew each other, why was he willing to stick his neck out for you like this? He must really be expecting something in return. But what did you have that he could want?
"We'll touch base before the blackout." You found your voice again, speaking resolutely. Rafayel met your eye. He nodded, turning his back. He did a mock salute, holding up two fingers in farewell.
"Good luck, archaeologists. You'll need it."
As he walked away, you found your eyes trailing after his figure. The way he moved so nonchalantly, so effortlessly. Did his hips sway a bit when he moved? A sharp elbow to the ribs snapped you out of it, and you caught your mentor's gaze. Any other day you knew she would tease the shit out of you.
But for once, her eyes held no amusement.
"Go shower, then pack. I'll call the higher ups. They'll send our replacements by tomorrow morning." She nudged you inside with a more gentle hand, the door shutting behind you after you removed your shoes and left them on the porch. People were busy flitting about, some chatting playfully with the others, some calling out instructions for help in the kitchen, yet others trying to act like they weren't watching the whole scene unfold from the screen door.
You brushed past all of them, ignoring the teasing looks and the confused mumbles. Shower, pack, finalize field notes for the day... You had your schedule.
Shing, shing, shiiiiing-
The steady sound of metal being sharpened joined the orchestra of the night. Night birds cawed and crooned, grasshoppers hummed their nightly song. And you were the featured artist, the occasional spark lighting up your face as you sharpened a machete on the front porch. You held it up, checking the edge in the faint light coming from inside. Another guest artist chimed in, a symphony of swearing and laughter that accompanied a game of cards against humanity.
You smiled, shaking your head.
You and Dr. C agreed to not tell the crew the full truth of why you were leaving. Just that you both had sudden emergencies pop up, and you likely would not be reachable for the foreseeable future. Everyone was saddened and disappointed, but they all wished you both well. You were nearly suffocated with concern and the well wishes, as well as tentative asks for your phone number or mailing address to stay in touch. The cool night air was your reprieve.
You put the machete back into its sheath. You came to stand, attaching it to your belt before putting everything away. Shovels, trowels, machetes, and root clippers were all sharpened and ready for the next day. With that done you found your fingers drumming on the wood of the porch. There was so much work to be done. You didn't like the thought of being dependent on Rafayel, on his generosity. To survive whatever the hell was going on here. But what other choices did you have? He was suggesting you do a blackout for a reason.
Your feet moved before your mind did. Those heavy work boots crunched on gravel, leaving a path of footprints in your wake. The trees swayed. There was no moon. Only the stars above and the distant crash of the waves guided you, though you had your phone if you needed a flashlight. You knew the rules. Always alert someone if you were going somewhere alone, especially at night. Scorpions, snakes, and other creepy crawlies were sure to say hello if you didn't watch your step.
But like a siren's call, something beckoned you to the ocean.
Gravel gave way to dirt, which gave way to sand. The dunes rolled, echoing the tides you could hear in the distance. The soft crunch of gravel turned into the soft shift of sand, hissing and sliding with every step you took. Now in the grace of night you could wear your tank top, your necklace poking out. Resting on the top of the fabric, catching the light of the moon. The pearl is fake. You frowned as you recalled this. It really didn't matter, in fact, it was probably for the best. That way, you wouldn't have to feel too bad if something happened to it.
You walked to the edge of the water, watching the waves come to kiss the bottoms of your boots. They were waterproof, so you stepped in just a little bit more. You didn't feel like walking back with wet socks or getting stung by a scorpion, so you opted to keep your shoes on. You turned your gaze to the horizon, where the constellations vanished. These past few months had been the most tumultuous time of your life. Fred. Sean. Yennifer. Eleanor.
Dr. C. Rafayel. You.
A heavy sigh escaped. You crouched low, letting your hand dance along the water's surface, when a distant splash caught your eye. You froze.
Blood in the water.
You didn't move. That nightmare coming back. The siren song. The sea of red. Flame lilies. Blood. Skeleton.
Little blue fish.
A little blue fish darted towards you. You didn't dare move a muscle, watching it as it approached. It had lost all shyness, now boldly darting between your legs and around your black boots. You gaped at it, but it simply zipped in front of you before finally calming down. It seemed antsy, flitting back and forth before you.
"...hello again." You breathed. You slowly sunk your hand deeper into the water, offering it to the fish. "It's been a while." The fish flitted around your hand, but never got too close. You kept your hand exactly where it was. "I'm starting to wonder if the sea god is mad at me.' You murmured down to the fish. "All of these horrible things, all of this bad luck... And it all started with the rediscovery of Lemuria."
It all started there. And that fateful day in the library.
Your fingers twitched, but the fish was unbothered. "Tell me. Have I done something wrong?" You looked back down at the fish. Unlike the one in your dream, this one didn't share the otherworldly glow. It was simply a little blue fish. Any fish could be an emissary of the sea god, after all. But it seemed you had a penchant for the blue ones. The fish flicked its tail, now swimming above the palm of your hand. This was the closest one had ever gotten to you. "You wouldn't get this close if I had..."
You scoffed at yourself. "What am I doing?" Some scientist you are. Talking to a damn fish. But watching it settle, moving around your hand, growing more and more comfortable by the minute... You hissed, a sharp pain tugging at the nape of your neck. The chain of the necklace had gotten caught in some hair. You didn't lift the hand the fish was so content with, fiddling with the chain with your nondominant hand. But it must not have been clasped all the way. The moment you freed it from your hair, the chain fell. You gasped and tried to move fast to catch it, but the fish was faster. You couldn't tell if it had been startle by your sudden movement or gasp, but it zipped away. And in the faint light, you could just make out the chain of your necklace being dragged along.
You blindly groped around the water for a minute. Maybe it was the low light playing tricks on you. Maybe it was exhaustion. There's no way a fish stole the necklace. Worst case scenario the chain fell on its head and it zipped away. You stood up, squinting, hoping to see a glint of light. A reflection in the water. But even after shining your phone flashlight around, there was nothing to be seen.
You rubbed your neck, feeling bare without it all of a sudden. You were grateful the pearl was fake for this exact reason, but... that was still important to you. You slowly stood up, brushing your wet hand on your pants as you stared out at the ocean. In a place like this you were used to feeling eyes stare back. You were never really alone. "Guess you are mad at me, huh? Maybe you take offense to the fake pearl, too." You dryly joked to yourself. You turned, walking out of the water, slowly treading towards the house. The waves came in, seemingly nipping at your feet, trying to follow. But you just kept walking.
Come tomorrow, the wind and waves will have erased you from this place. But maybe, someday, some other archaeologist will find evidence of your existence in a necklace hidden under the waves.
The days were long and lonely. The nights offered little reprieve. Further discussions with Rafayel and Dr. C both led you to believe a two week blackout would be for the best. No social media, no leaving the apartment, no nothing. Food delivery only, and meal prepping with groceries delivered. Typically, this might be a dream come true. Two weeks to rest, to not have to worry about anyone but yourself. But it meant your only companion was your mind.
That corkboard stared you down. Every time you passed by your desk those pictures would burn themselves into your mind. Their faces. The names. Ever. The people who came to the excavation. The people following you. E.D.A.S. It made your head spin.
You were just coming out of the shower when you caught your phone light up on your bed. You weren't supposed to respond, but you did peer over the screen to see who said something. Rafayel's contact photo surprised you. What was up with that? You picked up your phone, still scrunching your hair with your towel. But the second you went to open the text, it vanished.
The user has deleted this text.
You narrowed your eyes. You went into your phone and found multiple missed calls from the man, as well as multiple deleted texts.
Rafayel: ignore everything i sent u, i'm ok
You eyed your voicemail. You hesitantly tapped on the most recent one, letting it play. It was late. The buses would still be running, but not for long. Surely if something was up he'd contact someone in Whitesand, not you here in Linkon.
The audio started with rustling, like he was tossing and turning somewhere. Coupled with low groans. Your eyebrows shot up. He sounded like he was in pain. He muttered your name, breathless, gasping as if he couldn't breath. You hurriedly grabbed some outdoor clothes, throwing everything on as fast as you could. He sounded like he was in pain, and you could hardly make out what he was saying. It was an exceedingly hot night, with a lack of humidity, even down at Whitesand. You grabbed your keys and hurried out the door, flying down the stairs. You called hit number, holding your phone to your ear as you jogged straight to the bus stop. You were lucky, it was the last bus of the night.
"Hello, you've reached Rafayel's voicemail. If this is for art commissions, requests, or interviews, please reach out to my manager Thomas. If this is a personal matter, I will get back to you when I can. Leave a message after the tone. Beep!" Any other day you might find his voicemail endearing, but the fact he didn't pick up even after just texting you left you feeling more anxious. You plopping yourself in a seat, your hair still wet, in clothes you just managed to yank on before flying out the door. Your fingers trailed up to your collarbone, searching for the familiar charm. Your fingers pinched down on air, nothing in your grasp. You looked down, remembering that your necklace was gone.
You frowned, sitting back in your seat. Right. The little blue fish. The more you reflected on it, the more ridiculous it was. Did that fish steal your necklace once it fell into the water? It couldn't have. It is a fish. If anything, it got spooked off and the necklace got moved from the flick of its tail. Or it fell on the fish. It didn't take it. You slid your fingers around nothing, still searching for the reassurance of the chain or the charm itself, even knowing it was long gone. Likely buried under sand off the coast of that island somewhere. If nothing else, you hated to litter. Your mind was in a whirl.
The bus stopped. You pulled out your phone. How had you already arrived? You didn't question it, getting up and hopping off. You typed in another number, calling someone else. You held your phone up to your ear, keeping your voice low. You were supposed to be in a blackout right now, so you still needed to be careful. The line rang a few times. You didn't have Thomas's personal contact info, so you were just hoping he might still be at Flux Arts, if you were lucky.
"Hello, you have reached Thomas at Flux Arts. If you are contacting us for-" You hung up before the answering machine could give the prerecorded spiel. Fine. You walked up to the gate of the gorgeous house, once again struck by your very different tax brackets. You peeked around, looking for some way to buzz in and let him know you're here, when the gap in the gate caught your eye. You hesitantly reached out, ready to set off an alarm as you nudged the gate. But it slowly swung open with a low groan.
"He didn't lock the gate." You didn't know if it was his own forgetfulness or if someone else was already inside. Your heartrate skyrocketed. You opened the gate the rest of the way before shutting it behind you, your panicked footsteps reverberating on the path as you ran up to the door. You didn't bother to knock, testing the handle, and finding the door was unlocked as well. Your breath hitched. You threw the door open and went inside, shutting the door behind you as you quickly walked in.
"Rafayel?" You called his name, looking around. "It's me! You're being weird, are you okay?" The scene before you was an artistic mess. Canvases and paintbrushes lined the floor, mortars and pestles here and there with the most unique and vibrant pigments you had ever laid eyes on. One was a brilliant, unique vermilion. It made your skin crawl.
Blood in the water.
You swallowed, goosebumps crawling over your skin. You kept going in further, still calling his name as not to spook him when you found him. You poked your head into one room, then the next. And you couldn't find the artist anywhere. You found what you knew to be his bedroom, which was less of an artistic mess and more of just a flat out mess. Clothes everywhere, discarded scribbles and drawings. You pressed your lips together. Now was not the time to judge him.
"Yandere this, tsundere that, you need to do your laund-ere." You grumbled your half assed pun as you returned to your main goal. Finding Rafayel. You knew it wasn't your place to snoop, but after looking from room to room with no sign of him you felt it was only right to keep looking. You kept your phone out, now dialing Rafayel's number again. Back in the main area you heard a tell tale buzzing, so you followed the sound until you looked at the back of the couch in the studio area.
You dropped your phone, swallowing a yell as you found him unconscious on the floor. "Rafayel!" The shout didn't rouse him, so you hurriedly came to his side. His white dress shirt was left open, revealing the many moles decorating his body, like the brightest stars in the night sky. His lips were parted, taking shallow breaths. You put a hand to his forehead. He was burning up. You knelt down, wrapping your arms around him to hoist him up the same way you did the sandbags on a site. Albeit, he was much bigger than a sand bag. You managed to get him on the couch, his eyebrows furrowing from the disturbance.
"Rafayel, Rafa? Hey, hey, it's me." You perched yourself on the corner ot the couch. He wasn't waking up or saying anything. You hurriedly stood up, grabbing your own phone again. You dialed the number for Flux Arts again. As soon as the voicemail message was done you left a brief message of your own. "Hey, Thomas, it's me. Rafayel was acting weird and I found him unconscious in his home. I'm gonna stay with him until he wakes up." You kept it brief before hanging up. You wish you knew anyone else to call. A local friend of his, a family member, someone nearby. You could call paramedics but something in you felt like that was the wrong choice. While you had your back turned to him you heard him groan again, so you quickly turned around.
Something was shimmering on his neck. You frowned, wondering how you missed it when you picked him up. You sat back down, assuming it was some art supply that got stuck to his skin. But as you looked, you saw more of them appear before your very eyes. These weren't rogue scraps of paper, or paint, or any other art supply. Rafayel's brows furrowed further, and he was breathing heavier in his sleep.
"What...?" You felt breathless yourself. You adjusted your position beside him, leaning close enough to analyzed the shimmering objects on his skin, but not touch him. Your lips felt dry. You slowly lifted a hand, finding some of the objects on his cheek, on his neck, on his chest, arms... They were few and far between, scattered across him as he seemed to glow in the pale moonlight. The distant sound of crashing waves infiltrated his home, though they were much quieter than they normally would be. It was a low tide tonight. One the lowest of the year. You hesitated, lifting a hand. He didn't seem to like touch. He was selective with it. But you gently ran the back of your finger over his cheek, first. The objects on his skin were smooth when your finger went down, but jagged when you went up.
"Scales?" You murmured. He lifted his face, pressing against your finger as you gently touched his warm skin. You lick your lips, shocked. You turned your eyes to his neck next, gently pressing two fingers against his pulse, against the scales on his neck. Rafayel's eyebrows furrowed further, moaning in his unconscious state. Something tugged on your heart, he seemed so uncomfortable, like he was in pain even while unconscious. Next, you gentle tapped his cheek, trying to see if that would rouse him. But the closer you looked at them, the more reality finally settled in.
The pieces slowly fell into place. His appearance at the library. His interest in Lemuria. His surprise at your perspective on archaeology. the initial hostility. He was keeping an eye on you.
While your thoughts ran wild, reality slowly settling in on you, those brilliant eyes finally opened. Relief washed over you at first, a smile crossing your face. "Rafayel, you're awake-"
"Huh?" His brows remained furrowed. He didn't fully face you. Everything in his body was coiled, taut and ready to jump. He slowly turned to look away. Your eyes softened, but you didn't chase him. You were in his home, right beside him. He had every right to be wary.
"You called me." You explained, your voice soft. "You kept sending and deleting texts, and your voicemail... you sounded like you were in pain." Your eyes trailed down to the scales on his skin. There's no way... But your eyes turned back to him. Showing nothing but confusion and concern. "I was worried. I found you unconscious behind the couch. And these... these things, they just showed up on your skin. Do they hurt?"
"You-" He cut himself off. "You wouldn't usually be able to touch me like that, you know."
"And normally, I wouldn't." You assured him, putting your hands where he could see them in your own lap. "But, are they-"
"Shocking, isn't it?" His voice was low. Suspicious. Wary. Was that a twinge of fear? There was a slight shake to his voice, one he couldn't hide even in his fake nonchalance. "All those legends about the Lemurians, they aren't just fairytales." The confirmation was unlike anything you could have dreamed of. His hooded eyes, trained right on you, watching your every move, left only the pink in the bottoms of his eyes visible. Only the tiniest hint of blue surrounded them.
Blood in the water.
You put a hand to your head. Things were falling into place. The book. His own interest in the archaeologists that went missing. His behavior. How he acted around Ever.
"I..." You whispered, trying to find your words. Before you sat the biggest proof of your years of work. A Lemurian. Rafayel, the Lemurian. Your heart was pounding, your stomach twisting. Was this all some sick loneliness induced dream you were about to wake up from? "I..." You reached up, trying to grasp your necklace again, but once more you remembered it belonged to the sea now. You slowly lowered your hand, grasping your own shirt instead. Wringing the fabric.
"Yeah," He quietly acknowledged your inability to say anything. "You can think of me as a lost pearl that washed up on the beach." Questions suddenly flooded your mind. Lemurians could have legged forms? Were there others? How did they feel about Lemuria being rediscovered? Were they angry at the archaeologists? Were they the reason why they're gone? Does he have a tail? Can he have a tail?
Some of the questions felt less pressing. But he still didn't seem all that present. "So..." You decided a more lighthearted question might be the most appropriate. "You do have a tail?" It seemed to somewhat work. His eyes opened a little wider, and his characteristic half scoff half laugh fell from his lips.
"Yup." He confirmed, finally fully facing you. "Whenever I cry, my tears turn into pearls. I can kill anyone with just a song. And those scales you touched are the sharpest weapons in the world." Everything he said sounded like it was ripped straight from the Lemurian Legends book. There had been theories that the concept of sirens across multiple mythologies actually came from Lemurians, but most academics brushed it off as fairytale nonsense.
"But that's- that's straight from the legends book." You cocked your head. Not disbelieving him, just surprised. He laughed again, his lip curling into a half smirk.
"You noticed? I guess you're not as gullible as you seem."
"No, I believe you." You corrected him. You looked at the scales on his cheek again. "May... may I touch you? Feel your forehead? You felt really warm earlier, you may have a fever."
"Don't." He jerked his head away, even though you hadn't even raised your hand. "Don't just... touch me wherever. It's rude." You quickly nodded, again keeping your hands where he could see them. He held his own hand up defensively, like he was ready to do something if you did try to touch him. "You humans truly are greedy." His voice was low, an unspoken insult hiding behind the more blatant one. "Always exploiting other species once you discover their weaknesses. Your kind are the worst." His eyes lowered, landing where the missing necklace once sat. He tilted his head.
You pressed your lips together. "I know." Your voice softened further. "Taking things that aren't ours. Taking advantage of the weak. Whether it be material culture, like your art, or..." Your lips curled downwards. "Or the people themselves. Academia, anthropology, archaeology... they haven't always been the kindest to you and your kind. They come in, take your things, harm your people, then come back claiming you were all too stupid to have done all these incredible things yourselves. You can cry pearls, make sharp weapons, and create amazing art." Your eyes were locked on his. He was looking you dead in the eye. The usual glimmer you managed to find, mirth of some kind, was gone. He was dead serious. And his eyes locked on yours made a shiver crawl down your spine. "Why would anyone want to let you, and your kind, get away?"
"Do you really want that?" His eyes were trained on yours. He was a cornered predator. Not at his full strength. Vulnerable. But still dangerous.
"What?" You whispered.
"Master." The whisper sent another shiver down your spine. You lifted your hand, leaning back. But he caught your wrist before you could move, his eyebrows furrowing in pain. "I don't-" He groaned, holding you fast. "I don't feel so good, help." His eyes squeezed shut, clearly in pain. You licked your lips and held still.
"How can I help?" You whispered, urgency rising up again. He slowly pulled your hand closer, his eyes cracking open.
"Don't hold back." He instructed, hesitantly bringing your hand to his cheek. "Share your warmth with me." In spite of his high body temp, you knew full well it was easy to get chills while sick. If he was even sick. You hesitated as well, but with his explicit permission gently pressed your hand against his warm cheek. He sucked in a breath, letting your hand rest there before he guided it to the side of his neck. You mimicked your actions, gently touching his neck. He was clammy. He groaned, his eyes squeezing shut again for a moment, before he guided your hand down. To his collarbone. To his chest. Lower. You gasped, pulling your hand back as he tried to make it go lower still. But he held your wrist tight, wanting your hand on his skin. You yanked your wrist back.
"Your fever has gotten worse." You quickly stood, taking a step back. "I'll get an ice-" Before you could speak, he grabbed your arm again and yanked you right back down into his arms. You gasped, falling right against his chest as he clung to your wrist. Nothing about this felt threatening. He wasn't trying to pressure you- he was trying to cling to you. He was desperate for something. He clung to your hand, pulling you as close as he could with it. You knew your blade was in your back pocket. If he went too far, you could get to it in time. But he was strong. Stronger than he looked. In spite of everything in you blaring that that was a bad thing, your concern for him prevailed.
"What?" He caught your bewildered look, his eyes still trained on you. Watching. Waiting. "Don't you know the stories? Imprisoning me and keeping me as a Lemurian pet? Taking my scale so I'll make all your dreams come true? I can't even run away... do whatever you want to me." You did know the stories. Those were the ones you chalked up to being just fairytales. But the way he said it, the vitriol mixed with something harder to identify... He held your arm close, leaning in. He was in your space. His face so close to yours you could feel every breath he took. Your own breath hitched, gently tugging your arm back.
"No, no, I don't want that." You gently assured him. "You deserve better than that."
His eyes brightened. Though only for a moment. His eyes shifted to the hand in his grasp, looking at it closely. "Aren't you curious about the Lemurians? Come closer if you want to know more." The bait was set. You were curious, no doubt. You had been taught to always listen to the community. And if you were ever going to engage in Lemurian Archaeology again, you needed the insight of the community you now know for a fact exists. So you carefully shuffle closer to him on the couch. He accepted your answer, still staring at your hand. "Every year, there's a day when the ride in low, and it flows in the opposite direction. It's when the Lemurians are at their weakest." He pulled your hand closer, nuzzling his face against it.
"Even the most feeble human can kill us once they know of this." Your breath hitched again. You slowly relaxed your hand, fingers twitching with reluctance before gently resting against his forehead. The sound you made caught his attention. His eyes darted up and settled on your face, even as you gently stroked a lock of hair away from his face. "If you want to push me away, kill me even... I can't stop you."
Your eyes widened. "No, Rafayel-" You looked down. His shirt hung open, allowing you to feel the waves of heat radiating off of him. "I can practically feel the heat radiating off of you. Are you really okay? Do I need to take you to the doctor?" The question felt foolish the moment it fell out of your mouth. Of course you shouldn't, who would you even call? Who would know how to help a Lemurian without handing them over to become test subjects somewhere? Rafayel scoffed, finally releasing your hand and leaning back on the couch. With a bit more personal space back you sat up straight, watching as he glared off into the distance.
"You don't know how dangerous this is, do you? You still have time to care for someone else." The blatant call out made your face flush red in embarrassment. This was certainly not the time to admit to anything. But he kept talking. "Not all characters in fairytales live happily ever after. Maybe the mermaid set a trap from the very beginning... in order to take the sailor's life." Your breath hitched again.
You knew, in this story, you were the sailor. "Then, the library, when we met..."
"The fear in your eyes tells me that you're regretting coming here. Am I right?" He cut you off. You took it as a silent agreement. You licked your lips. The blade was burning a hole in your back pocket. He wasn't holding onto you anymore. He wasn't moving as fast. He caught you off guard once, but not again. But you took a deep breath.
"No. If you actually wanted to kill me, you wouldn't have waited. You had me alone on multiple occasions." You watched his face, eyes locked on his. "You're not feeling well. We can finish this conversation in the morning if you're more coherent. I'll stay here until you get better." His eyes widened. He didn't seem to expect that response. "Rafayel. I'm sure you have every reason to be wary of me due to my occupation and the fact I'm a human. But I will do everything in my power to never hurt you."
He watched you. You slowly lifted a hand, hovering it over his cheek, but not touching him. He made the connection himself, nuzzling into it. "Promise?"
"Promise."
"Then you can stay, at least until the sun rises." He pressed his head against your hand as hard as he could, nuzzling into it, rubbing his nose against your wrist. He shifted, slowly trying to lie down on the couch. You moved around with him, sitting down and making yourself as small as you could in the very corner. But it didn't seem to bother him. He laid down, putting his head in your lap as his breathing slowly began to even out. You moved your hand from his cheek to his forehead. Fever was still there, it didn't seem to improve or get worse, which was a relief of its own.
"Sleep well." You murmured. You doubted you'd get any sleep of your own. Your mind was swimming with questions that demanded to be answered. Did he have a hand in the disappearances? Did he know who did? Were you next for finding out his secret? But as your eyes settled on his face, contorted in a fitful sleep, you couldn't find it in you to be angry. The questions would be answered. In the morning, once the sun rose.
The crashing of the waves and the caw of seagulls engulfed the room. The soft, warm light of morning caused you to stir. The crick on your neck reminded you of where you had finally managed to fall asleep, your head leaned back at an awkward angle on the back of the couch. As your eyes slowly adjusted to the sunlight beaming in, you found a blue blanket draped over you. You blinked, bleary eyed. The paintbrushes and messes sprawled across the room were the reminder you needed for your location. You inhaled, stretching your arms over your head. The blanket fell off your shoulders, so when you stood up you grabbed it off your lap as well. You folded it nicely.
Unsteady footsteps brought you to the kitchen, where you could hear soft humming. The sizzle of the food in the various pans met you as you paused in the entryway of the kitchen.
Rafayel stood there, his back to you. Looking at his skin it appeared all the scales from last night were gone. A part of you wanted to call the whole thing a dream, but the fact you woke up in Rafayel's house to begin with suggested otherwise. You took a step in, causing him to pause and turn around. His eyes revealed he was a little tired, likely from his fitful rest the night before. Other than that, he looked and sounded like he was back to his normal self.
"I said you could stay until sunrise, y'know. It's morning now." He used a utensil to point out a window, the morning sun illuminating everything as far as the eye could see. "I'm fine now."
"I can see that." You approached slowly, not sure how welcome you were at the moment. "I can go, I just wanted to ask a few questions."
"Not sure I can answer all of them, but sure, shoot." He shrugged nonchalantly, going back to his cooking. You looked down, noticing he had set aside two bowls.
"I'll start with the most important ones, then." You nodded, leaning against a nearby counter to watch him. "First off. Last night was real, right?" He didn't respond with words, a soft hum being your only confirmation. "Okay. So... you're a Lemurian. How much do you know about the missing archaeologists?"
He paused. His muscles didn't tense, he didn't freak out. He just looked over his shoulder at you. Smiling. "More than I acted, less than you think."
"Okay." It wasn't the answer you were looking for, but it bled into your next question. You pushed yourself off the counter, taking a few steps closer to him. "Was a Lemurian behind their disappearance, or is it Ever?" Even that didn't seem to catch him off guard. He began to serve the two bowls, filling it with the best looking seafood porridge you had seen in your life.
"Ever." He confirmed.
"I knew it." You slapped your thigh, looking away sharply. "We need to alert the authorities, we need to-"
"We need to eat something." He thrust the bowl against your chest, making you quickly take it. "But you're right. Ever dumped some old weapons at the site, so when the archaeologists found them, they hunted them down."
"If you know this, that means you were watching them, too." It came out more accusatory than you intended. You inhaled sharply, and got a whiff of the porridge. You hesitantly sat down, taking the provided utensil to begin eating. "I'm sorry, that came out worse than I intended. I just meant it neutrally. I can't say I blame you."
Rafayel leaned against the counter, watching you as you began to eat. His bangs were pulled to the side. You could see his face better. He was beautiful, truly beautiful. It was no wonder there were so many myths and legends surrounding Lemurians, mermaids, and sirens if they were all based on him and his people. "Yeah, but they weren't the only ones." He tilted his head, a smile creeping up on him. "I was keeping an eye on you and Dr. C, too."
"You really shouldn't be telling me this." You huffed. "Was that the real reason why you were at the library?"
"No, I had no idea who you were. You just had the book I needed. But I put two and two together while we were talking, and figured you might be important, too. But you really surprised me." He took a bite of his own food. You were eating slowly as he spoke, nodding along. "The whole work for the community bit is cute, y'know?"
"Cute?" You shook your head at his word choice. "I get it. You have every right to doubt me. But I'm serious. I knew there had to be people behind Lemuria, and I'm admittedly not surprised they aren't humans. What... what are you gonna do about Lemuria?"
"So long as Ever doesn't want the weapons found, they'll do the dirty work for me, keeping people away." He shrugged. "Buuuut, when those two idiots followed you to that excavation to try and hire some of you... They're up to something."
"I'll put money on it that they're trying to hire archaeologists they can bribe into destroying or hiding evidence." You grumbled. "Right up their alley."
"That's where you come in, cutie." He pointed his spoon at you. He put it and the bowl down, holding up his fingers in a frame as if he was about to take a picture of you. "You wanna work with the community? Here's your chance. You'll be our archaeologist, helping us keep Ever away." You leaned back in your seat, crossing your arms over your chest.
"And how do you expect me to do that? I don't have the kind of big name that'll get me recognition, and as much as I'd love the authorities to help, they'd easily be bought off. They've already done it before in court, messing with evidence back when they dumped all of this stuff."
"That's where I come in." He squinted, getting the angle just right between his fingers. "I don't expect you to do it alone. We'll work together on this." He flexed his thumb, as if he was capturing the picture of you. He dropped his hands, pulling a small box out of his pocket. "Think fast." He threw it, and luckily you caught it. You looked down at the box in confusion. You slowly began to open it, finding a folded piece of paper and a chain inside. You pulled it up. "You told me that old necklace of yours was a momento from college, a sign of how far you've come." As he spoke, the charm caught your eye. A brilliant pearl, shining in the light. A wire tail was wrapped around it, connecting it to the matching chain. You slowly slid your thumb over it, your eyes locked on it. "A little fishy told me you needed a new one." Rafayel approached you from your side, extending a hand. You gently placed the chain in his hand. He undid the clasp, wrapping it around your neck so the charm dangled between your collarbones.
"Lemuria's been found." He murmured beside your ear. "Now, help protect it."
You rested your palm over the charm. It was cool against your skin. You whipped your head around, flustered by how close Rafayel was to your face as you did so. But you held his gaze, steadfast, ready. "What can I do?"
"What you've been doing all along." He smiled, tugging on the chain playfully. "Listening to the community. Warning others in your field about Ever. Sticking up for us. For me." He kept his eyes locked on yours. You watched those eyes, the brilliant setting sun melting into the waves. The warm red and cool blue melting and intertwining. You slowly nodded your head. You two were so close. You could feel his breath on your face, see individual eyelashes.
"I can do that." You murmured. He truly was a work of art. "May I ask one more question?"
"Sure."
"Last night. All the-" You turned red just thinking about it. The words on the tip of your tongue. "The affection. Is that something that always happens that day of the year, or..." Rafayel's cheeks and ears bloomed a bright red. There was no staying cool this time around. He looked away, his bottom lip jutting out.
"Nevermind, I take it back, no. You can't ask me another question." He crossed his arms, leaning away from you. You exhaled a laugh.
"Noooo, no taking it back! I just," You rubbed the back of your neck. "You weren't acting like yourself. Or, at least the you I know. You're just- it feels like you're always hiding something, other than the obvious." You gestured to him. "I just... I just want to be clear. On the same page." You finally said it. "Was your behavior last night because you're attracted to me?" He appeared even more caught off guard by how upfront you were. The red only deepened, and his lips parted as if he was about to protest. But he sighed.
"Fine. Yes. On ebb day we seek the comfort of our mate, or whoever we are interested in." He refused to look at you as he said it, his eyes trained anywhere and everywhere else. "I didn't mean to spam you like some horny teenager."
"You didn't, you weren't feeling well." You stood up, joining him. The pearl he gifted you glinted in the light, making him crack an eye open to peer at it. "You needed some companionship. Rafayel, I..." You sucked in a breath. "I want to help you. And I want to see where this goes. We come from two different worlds, in just about every meaning of the phrase. But I promise you, I'll listen. I'll be here for you. I won't hurt you." You lifted your hand, holding it near his face, but not touching him. The silent invitation extended. His eyes trailed from your face to your hand. Wariness. Anger. Fear. All that and more flickered through his eyes faster than you thought possible. But the invitation was accepted as he gently pressed his cheek into your hand, closing his eyes.
"Promise?" He murmured.
"Promise." You whispered back.
The seagulls cried in the distance, and the crash of the waves provided a soulful song to be the background music. And somewhere in the ocean, a little blue fish hid away a necklace with a fake pearl among the ruins of a once great empire.
#loveanddeepspace#lads#rafayel x reader#rafayel love and deepspace#lads rafayel#rafayel x you#lnds#love and deep space#love and deepspace rafayel#love and deepspace x reader#lads x reader#love and deepspace x you#Trowels and Scales#Trowels Series
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'EXU: Divergence' is the Series I Didn't Know I Needed Right Now
I’ve now watched ‘Exandria Unlimited: Divergence’ fully through twice, plus the cooldown multiple times, and from the beginning to the end of the first episode it hit me like a sledgehammer. It's probably the most brutal EXU to date, and it is also somehow the most uplifting.
It's such a departure from the other Calamity-era EXU series in the best possible way, and I wish we could have an entire longform campaign with this cast in this time and place.
Spoilers for episode 1 of EXU: Divergence below the cut.
‘Calamity’ was a tragedy in the most classic sense: powerful people at the height of their strength who damn the world in their hubris. ‘Downfall’ was also a tragedy in a different way, a family of gods coming together briefly to save themselves, but at what cost?
But ‘Divergence’ is a story about ordinary people. As the gods play their family games, and the powerful vie for even more power than they could ever use, and hoard wealth and resources beyond what they would ever need, these are just five people trying to get enough food and water and rest. Trying to survive in a world that acts first as an oppressive prison and then in indifferent chaos as the gods fight above them.
They're not even Level 1 adventurers. These are level 0 nobodies. NPC stat blocks. They don’t have classes; they have jobs. And in each of these people, we see the true heart of what good people can do in desperate and damning times.
I want to talk about all these characters, because I love them so much. I love the story they and their rolls are telling.
Nia isn’t a cleric with magical healing; she’s a nurse with some herbs and bandages and a little knowledge. Hell, in a world where misery is endlessly and pointlessly perpetuated by the games of the powerful, she’s not even a healer. She’s a repairer of bodies. She keeps feeding them back as grist in the mill, because what else can she do?
She can hope. She can believe that change is coming. But more than believing in it, she can act toward it. She can enact tiny acts of rebellion and kindness. Because maybe she is just repairing bodies, but she will desperately overreach and overplay her hand to try to buy them a little more time, a little more comfort, a little more light in the darkness.
She's young and naive, but her hope is still chosen at every terrible moment. Even when she falls into exhaustion, having prayed over her sister's locket and received nothing in return, Nia still chooses to act. She chooses to get up and, if water isn't coming to her, to go looking for it instead. She is doing better than the others, even if she's not doing well. And so she goes. She looks. She sees a friend die, wishing with his dying breath to see the rain.
And it rains. Not, to her mind, because a god walks across the world before her. Even if she sees the god, she's not looking there. She knows that Starmian made the rain. She sees the acts of people good and bad. She sees the power in hope.
Garen isn’t a fighter or a druid; he’s a stonemason with one arm and a hammer. And he’s a man who has spent so long under the boot of oppression, so long being ground down into nothing that he’s learned never to hope except when exhaustion takes him so fully that he forgets not to hope. That's when he can still see the faces of his family, instead of the prison he's lived in for so long he built most of it.
He is a character we meet in complete despair, but he's also the first to move past it. As soon as the opportunity for action arises, as soon as there are people in need, Garen takes his old and tired body and makes it work for people he’s never met, simply because an injustice is being done to them. Because he’s been waiting for longer than he can remember to stand back up after being beaten down. When he brings his hammer down on a guard’s head, when he breaks through a wall to save a bunch of dragonborn he’s never met, when he insists that they will not leave children to die. This is a man remembering what it is to stand up.
He wants to save everyone, well beyond what he's currently capable of, because once hope is rekindled he clings to it. He believes firmly that if people who can help others don’t do so, then what is the point?
Fiedra isn’t a rogue; she’s a gang leader with the ability to talk her way out of trouble. She also isn’t nearly the altruist that Garen and Nia are. She acts out of self-interest because that was how she’s survived as long as she has. She has a roach tattooed on her arm. She is a survivor, someone who can worm her way into a position of slight privilege even in the worst prison imaginable. And when she’s starting to feel the effects of exhaustion from their march north, she sneaks a meal from their dwindling food stocks that no one else gets. Because that is what a survivor does, even if it hurts others.
But she's also not so simple. She only eats the cheese after she checks to make sure her friend isn’t becoming exhausted as well. Because as much as she knows how dangerous it is, Fiedra cares. She shows it again and again in her interactions with Crokas, how she drops everything including her position of privilege and relative comfort in the prison to try to break him free.
Crokas is her family; her gang was her community, and she cared for them fiercely. And now all she has is Crokas (because the dice tell an amazing story, and those terrible rolls were incredible for her character development). So she looks after him. She jumps to his defense when it’s revealed that his breath weapon doesn’t work. She talks him up, tells everyone how great he is, explains things to him when he doesn't understand.
She’s not to the point where she’s capable of expanding that compassion out beyond the two of them (“The best I can do, kid” was a hell of a line). But she’s making steps in that direction. She survived a hellish march with these people. When she and Crokas found Starmian’s body she was the one who immediately asked where Nia and Erro were. Sometimes, when the shit hits the fan, all you can do is care for yourself and those you love. Learning to care for more than that tiny sphere is part of part of reclaiming the best of one’s personhood in the worst of times, and part of finally building a future instead of just surviving now.
Crokas isn’t a barbarian; he’s a massive bodyguard in way over his head. He has no idea what’s going on most of the time. He has an intelligence stat of 6, and he’s stuck in a world that keeps upending itself on him. Maybe he understood how life worked in a city with his gang and with Fiedra guiding him. Even in Rybad Kol, the worst prison imaginable, a man as massive and imposing as Crokas probably did all right, especially with Fiedra talking the Roaches’ way into running the Slop.
And then every dragonborn in the prison was taken to be carted off to die for a goddess he’d never heard of, purely because they were dragonborn. He can barely even understand that he’s part of a singled-out minority group, and certainly can't grasp the machinations of gods.
But he can see that, in the cart with him, there are children. And when they escape he might not understand how this happened. But he understands that this long march toward some hope for a future is currently killing them. They don't have food or water. Their feet are damaged for the rest of their lives by this endless walk north. It is SO BAD.
But he notices when those children start to become exhausted, so he walks like a monitor lizard with them riding on his back.
Because that's what strength is for.
Not to rule. Not to hurt. To lift up those who can’t stand, and carry them. Crokas may not understand what’s going on, but he understands what needs to be done, and what he can do. And the fact that he starts carrying those children, taking penalties against his constitution saving throws at the end of every bad day on the road, right after Fiedra ate that cheese in secret? The look on her face says it all.
Erro is not a ranger or a druid; he's a mapmaker who has survived for far too many years seeing far too many horrors. He is clearly almost as old as Garen, and is far more stubbornly jaded. Their lives have both been destroyed, but all of Erro’s travels, everything he’s done has ground him down to basic survival. He is practical, but still not cruel. Liam said in the cooldown that he’s been on a teeter-totter between simply surviving to live another day, and the thought he could even hope for a better world.
He’s not there yet. He’s more like Fiedra in his fatalism, even if he's not as openly cynical. And yet he still follows Nia when she goes out with Starmian to find water. He still looks after her, just like Fiedra looks after Crokas. And like Fiedra, he sees in Nia the hope he tries to smother in himself. Starmian dies, as Erro knew he would, because he’s seen dozens of Starmians.
But then the rains come. The gods give and take and take and take and give and take. The world is a cruel place, but he still watches a younger, more hopeful person fall to her knees with the rain in her hands as she cries in thanks.
I am immediately and completely enamored with these ordinary people living through extraordinary times. I can’t wait to see what becomes of them, how the world shapes them and breaks them and how they might lift one another and a community up out of the rubble.
I didn’t know how much I needed this right now. Because it’s SO BAD, but the very first word in the very first episode is hope. And more than hope, these people are embodying acting in tiny ways to build a better future. I know that myself and a lot of people have been watching the enshittification of the world around us and feel like ants under the feet of uncaring, cruel tyrants and gods. Like their games always lead to suffering, and they either don’t care or actively enjoy that part of it. And it's so easy to give in to despair, to become convinced that there is absolutely nothing that can be done.
But we are all level 0 ordinary people too. And we can still hope. We can still take acts of defiance and kindness, great and small. We can stand up again when we’re knocked down, even when it hurts. We can help those we love to live day to day, even while we can take what steps we can to build and lift up a larger community. We can live through hell, because even in that hell there will be moments of exquisite beauty and joy.
Because maybe all of us can find the rain.
#critical role#exu divergence#exandria unlimited: divergence#brennan lee mulligan#matthew mercer#liam obrien#celia rose gooding#alex ward#jasmine don#rei'nia saph#garen#fiedra marrow#crokas#erro mordaurum
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Soul Soothing Messages
Pick any one of the 6 piles
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Pile 1

Confirmations: Golden hour - JVKE, Magic Shop - BTS, Moon - Jin,Bts
Seaweed grass, neck problems, back problems
Dear Pile 1,
My loves, you are amazing, radiant, and beautiful exactly as you are. There’s nothing you need to change about yourself to win the love of someone special. You’ve never had to become someone else or mold yourself into a fictional ideal to be worthy of love. True love comes when you are unapologetically yourself.
Pile 1, take care of yourself—especially your neck and back! Don’t strain them by staring down at your phone all the time, and maybe turn down the blasting music in your ears. There’s a whole world around you waiting to be explored.
Why let the fear of judgment hold you back? Break free from the imaginary cages you’ve built and step into the light. The internet might feel limitless, but it’s still another cage if you use it to hide from the real world. Are you constantly doubting your looks or imagining what kind of person you think others want you to be? Stop overthinking!
The world will love you for who you are. There are people out there who won’t judge your views—some will even find them inspiring and find you incredibly attractive. You have unique perspectives, and people can learn from them. So, ask your questions openly, share your thoughts freely, and embrace this world as a classroom where we are all students, each learning at our own pace.
Take a moment to reflect on what you want in a soulmate and the kind of people you wish to surround yourself with. Let this be a reminder that your authentic self is enough. There are people who will love and accept you wholeheartedly for who you are, who you’ve been, and who you will become.
No matter what happens, someone out there will always cherish you just as you are.
With love,
Your Friend
Abyss Seer
Pile 2

Confirmations: very mindful very demure trend, very subtle, slow and steady, stand offish, emblem, victorious, knowledgeable, September, Virgo Season, Virginia
Dear Pile 2,
Contemplative, introspective, patient, victorious, revolutionary—how many more labels do you need to define yourself? Do you really have to carry the weight of this "serious identity" of being a leader? Do you think anyone—or anything—could truly define who you are?
Why look at yourself through a stranger’s lens? Does that perspective truly capture your essence? Who are you at your core? Is the person within you the one calling the shots, or have you let someone else take the reins? Even Girish (Lord Shiva) himself couldn’t define you—only you can. (Some of you could love mountain strolls, ‘Girish’ means one who resides in mountains. Maybe some of you worship a mountain deity like a Shinto deity)
This isn’t something a tarot reader can tell you because deep down, you already know it. So, what’s holding you back? Are you unaware of your own potential? Haven’t you seen the hurdles you’ve overcome to reach this point in your life?
Why feel embarrassed about being in a better position now? Why isolate yourself when you’ve already earned your victories? Do you really need to shrink yourself to fit into the mold of others, or should those trying to limit you rise to meet your level? Which path sounds more empowering and true to growth?
Pile 2, stop accommodating people who judge others based on superficial flaws. Instead, move at your own pace, staying true to your ethics, standards, and values. Ask yourself: what do you really love to do? What would you pursue if judgment didn’t exist?
Because here’s the truth: it’s possible to live that life. And not just live it—leave a legacy that others will remember. Your soul’s unique signature is meant to inspire, to create waves in the world.
So, go after what excites you. Reignite that spark. Make life worth remembering.
With love,
Your Friend
Abyss Seer
Pile 3

Dear Pile 3,
Alright, Pile 3, who’s the person that’s stolen your heart? Do you feel sad about not being noticed or seen by them? Does this person inspire you in some way? Do they leave you at a loss for words?
Aww, my sweet little angels, don’t be sad! Your heart doesn’t deserve to carry this kind of ache. Let me tell you something: you’ll never know what could happen unless you express your feelings.
This lesson applies to more than just love—it’s the same with your career. Some of you might have experienced hardship, maybe even violence or exclusion, possibly because of poverty or feeling left out. These moments can make you question your path in life. When it comes to love, you’ve been hesitant to take risks. And in your career, you still feel uncertain.
The real issue, Pile 3, is that you’re not standing up for yourself. You fear judgment and hesitate to take bold steps. Your Manipura Chakra (solar plexus) and Visuddha Chakra (throat) are calling out to you. They’re urging you to be honest, make a strategic move, and take charge of your life.
Remember your Shakti! You are not here to be preyed upon or diminished. You’re here to walk this Earth like a tigress—strong, proud, and full of grace. You have the power to reclaim your rightful space and radiate light onto others.
Now is the time to cleanse yourself of negativity, self-doubt, and unrequited energy. Clear your mind, space, and body of anything holding you back. Take a moment to stretch, breathe deeply, and let happiness fill your soul. Go for a walk, feel the freedom, and let yourself reconnect with your purpose.
I promise you, success is within your reach—whether it’s in love, your career, or life itself. Take a step back, relax, and trust that Devi Durga is with you, guiding you toward your light. Embrace who you are, do what excites you, and show courage when it’s needed. Take risks, stand up for yourself, and trust that you’re on the right path.
You’ve got this, Pile 3! Shine bright, take the leap, and know the way will reveal itself.
Good day, my loves. Bubbye!
Your Friend
Abyss Seer
Pile 4

Confirmations:
Film based, happy hare,638,368,63,36,93, multiples of 3,21, sea monsters, percy Jackson, someone’s nickname could be or mean ‘monkey’, mooncake, mid-autumn festival,707,909,yoy,LOL,
This pile reminds me a lot of PJ series and all the sea goddess, Beren and Luthien, Lord of Rings and Hobbit, 3 letter palindrome with letter ‘o’ in the middle could be significant, Having Strict teachers and parents growing up,Sailor Moon, religious leaders like pandits or priests forcing culture on you, Character of Father Nelson from Hilda Furracao, Guru Dronacharya disabling someone's growth to enable someone else.
Dear Pile 4,
Are you constantly changing yourself to be loved by others? Are you holding on to the idea of a “dream partner” from childhood, wishing for someone as idealistic as the fantasy? Do you find yourself torn between loving the real person in front of you and the ideal person in your mind? My loves, isn’t it exhausting to hold people to the impossible standards of your favorite anime or fictional character?
It’s time to stop wasting your energy trying to change people or resenting them for not meeting those expectations. Real love doesn’t come from forcing others to fit your mold. Why do you feel the need to change others? Is it because you struggle to accept them—or maybe even yourself?
Are you in connections where you pretend to be someone you’re not? Does the idea of looking beyond the “mist” of a perfect life seem unbearable? Pile 4, take a deep look within. Where is this mist coming from? Is it the people around you or fears rooted in past trauma? Whatever the source, clarity begins with you.
For some of you, this mist may stem from childhood expectations. Perhaps a mother figure or other authority figures imposed strict control, criticized every small mistake, and denied you the space to fail and learn. Maybe decisions were made for you, leaving you fearful and indecisive despite knowing what you needed to do.
I sense echoes of Eklavya from Indian mythology but in a negative context —someone who was subservient and maladaptive because they weren’t given the freedom to adapt or grow cause their thumb was cut off to stop their growth. You might have faced harsh punishments, controlling parents, or strict teachers, which instilled meekness and fear of failure. For some, even religious or cultural traditions may have felt stifling, leaving little room for individuality.
Pile 4, I’m so sorry if you endured any of this. Do you settle for what you’re given because you were taught that’s all you deserved? Have past experiences, like being bullied for your accent or identity, left you afraid to ask for more or show your true self? (I am specifically getting Kim Kardashian's NYC accent, its as if someone was bullied for their accent which ended up in them never asking questions again out of embarrassment, aww pile 4, iam so sorry for what you went through. This should have never happened, I hope you know that and beleive me when I say so. It should have never happened you, alright? Love you so much 🩷)
Listen to me: you don’t have to be the person others forced you to become. Let your soul breathe. Release yourself from expectations and labels that don’t align with who you truly are. Life is full of gifts if you choose to see them. Heal from your fear of delays and failure. Let go of hyper-independence and control.
You weren’t meant to carry the weight of the world alone. Let others help you. Don’t let past bullying or harshness keep you from caring for yourself or connecting with others. Recognize these patterns, ask yourself the right questions, and start your healing journey.
There is help out there—mental health hotlines, domestic abuse support, and professionals ready to assist you. Please know you never deserved to be treated poorly. You are unique and worthy of expressing your true self. Don’t suppress your light; don’t let these experiences turn into controlling tendencies or victimization.
Pile 4, you are bigger and better than the labels and burdens placed upon you. Let go of the harshness of the world and embrace the beautiful soul you were born to be. Celebrate yourself and find joy in the things that resonate with your spirit.
You might enjoy songs like “Just Right” by GOT7, “Nunu Nana” by Jessie, or “Born to Be” by Nano. Let them remind you of your worth and strength.
With love,
Your Friend
Abyss Seer
Pile 5

Confirmations:
child,baby,chidren,111, zen meditation, earth sign, mother mature, river goddess, mother gaia, a very beautiful meditative spot, a very good ecosystem, jeji,jiji,gg,gigi, shaktivism, devi energy coming through,
Jeju island in korea, best childhood memory relating to cellphone ringtone, come hard at me, hard carry got 7, alternating current, bird sound ringtone, nokia cellphone, 1980s to 1990s, remembering taking a phone call of a beloved family member, message of concern, coffin, news related to someone’s death, one question that doesn’t change in your mind,Rishab or bishop, motherly nature, very organized.
Pile3 and pile 1 could be significant for you
Dear Pile 5,
It seems you might be in a very vulnerable place right now. I’m sensing deep emotional struggles, and for some, even thoughts of self-harm. My dear Pile 5, if this resonates with you, please seek help immediately. If you’ve experienced abuse, emotional suppression, or even substance struggles, know that you are not alone. There are people who care, support systems available, and resources like suicide helplines to turn to.
If you feel lost, start small—reach out to a trusted friend, a past colleague, or someone you feel safe with. Don’t let the doubts planted in your mind stop you from seeking the help you deserve. You are worthy of healing and support.
For those of you who have endured this pain, justice will come—but don’t focus on revenge or the past. Instead, focus on you. Build yourself up, prioritize your mental health, and reclaim your strength. Therapy, support groups, and professional help can be lifesaving. There is no shame in seeking help—it is an act of courage.
You may feel like your dreams, energy, and hope have faded, but that’s just an illusion. You still have strength within you to start over. Listen to “N’y Pense Plus” by Tayc or “Daisy” by Stereo Dive Foundation—they might bring some solace. Remember, no matter how exhausted or defeated you feel, this heaviness is temporary, not your reality.
If your mind replays past memories or clings to moments of comfort during abuse, that’s your trauma talking. Be patient with yourself. Trauma takes time to heal, but healing is possible. If there’s someone you trust—someone whose words could lift you up—reach out to them now.
If you’re in an abusive relationship or situation, get out of it right away. Your intuition already knows who to turn to for safety and support. Listen to that voice inside you. You deserve love, care, and peace. Don’t carry this burden alone—talk to someone, even if it’s online. Vent, share, cry, but don’t keep it bottled up.
Pile 5, I love you, and I want you to take care of yourself. Healing starts when you reach out and let it all out. You are stronger than you think, and your life is worth fighting for.
Take care, my dear. I’ll leave you with this: you can and will rise again. You are not alone.
With love,
Your Friend
Abyss Seer
Pile 6

Confirmations:
Nature sound, bird watching, chirping of birds, nightangle, happy hare song, I need u by bts, run by bts, something about doing drggs in bathtub, Suffered by a bunch of goons, heart shapes, dwarf, someone breaking up on phone due to the other cheating, Taste – Sabrina Carpenter, Someone saying they have been known to share their (cookies) or (peonies) everywhere, hiring a Private Investigator to uncover that the person was lying about their misery to get money out of you 🫠🤷🏽♀️, Seven by Jungkook, you could want the cookie or peony seven days a weeks, 24x7, 365 days, s*x addicted, Dimple - BTS but all of it feels heavy illegal so it increases the taboo, Serenity by Jimin. I channeled "Kpop Singers, Kpop Band and Kpop Man" in my head, wanting to commit some sort of treason or illegal deed (or idk make them cheat ) for a lover, 100 ways by Jackson Wang, Pretty Please - Jackson Wang, Pretty Please by Dua Lipa, Someone's beggin someone to bite the forbidden apple, What the heck! Pile 6 you are interesting af, seems like you are hanging on the line between good and bad.
Dear Pile 6,
You’re not just a chess player—you’re the grandmaster of strategy! Your message carries the wisdom of ancestors, and you radiate a fiery resilience that reminds me of Daenerys from Game of Thrones. Like her, you’ve endured pain, abuse, and underestimation but transformed it all into wisdom. You waited, learned, and now stand ready to claim your crown. You’re the underestimated force no one saw coming—what a powerful energy!
Pile 6, I see you. You’ve worked hard, earned your success, and now indulge in the fruits of your labor. Luxury suits you. Seven by Jungkook? That’s your vibe, along with 365 days. But beneath it all, loneliness lingers. You may wonder if you’ll ever find true love or family again. Some of you may even feel orphaned in spirit, longing for connection.
You’re being asked to let things flow. Don’t overthink or take shortcuts to cope with disappointment. If a dream or relationship didn’t work out, stop replaying it in your mind. Release it. Change your perspective and focus on your growth. Your work likely involves communication or intellectual skills, so channel your energy there.
For those who feel a deep sadness from broken relationships or missed opportunities, let go of trying to rationalize what went wrong. The answers won’t soothe you. Focus instead on your aspirations. Someone here might resonate with country music, rural living, or have a love for animals like horses. Express your desires boldly—don’t shy away, even if you’re on the closeted side. Someone here could be from the year of horse or Ashwini, Shatabhisha, moola and Ardra (I was getting dog yoni) Nakshatra or a Sagittarius or can have a pet shop or stable full of horses.
If conflicts around family property, betrayal, or unresolved commitments are weighing on you, it’s time to release the baggage. Feeling cheated or betrayed, especially by family or a past lover, can be overwhelming. But holding onto anger only prolongs your pain. Stop revisiting old wounds or seeking validation from those who wronged you. If a cheater or manipulative ex resurfaces, don’t let their sob stories reel you back in. Protect your peace and move forward.
You’ve been blessed with a fresh start—don’t waste it looking backward. The attachments you hold to past people or situations may feel familiar, but they are chains. Trust me, better people and opportunities are waiting for you. If anyone from your past tries to return, proceed cautiously, and never let them exploit you again. Friends and lovers who only take from you aren’t worth your time.
Pile 6, you’re a star, and you deserve relationships that uplift you, not drag you down. Let go of anyone who dims your light. Cut the snakes from your garden and welcome those who genuinely care for you.
Stay radiant, stay strong, and have a fabulous day!
Bye-bye 😊
Your Friend
Abyss Seer
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You know what mixture of AUs i havent seen here yet? Danny x Bruce with de-aged clones!
Bruce and danny are near the same age and meet pretty early in batman's career, maybe even before dick was adopted. Danny is a single dad of infant/toddler twins ellie and dante. (To make them young and at the same age, i imagine they were rescued after both taking serious damage and retreated to their cores, and remerged as newborns about the same time, but i also want to leave this open for others to flesh out.) Timeline-wise, that would probably make them somewhere around jason or tim's age.
So now we have an au where the bat kids are collected into a stable home where bruce and danny are also raising ellie and dante. Bruce is much closer to WFA characterization right from the get-go because danny would whip him into shape.
Tim probably gets adopted because one of the phantoms sniff him out, either living alone in the neighboring mansion, or following the bats and ghosts on patrol.
Talia either stole bruce's (and/or danny's) dna or drugged bruce (it didnt work on danny) to create damian. If bruce was drugged, danny is on a warpath and might even find and rescue damian at a much younger age.
Jason's timeline is the most difficult to predict, and i will forever simp halfa jason, so he's gotta die no matter what changes. I dont think that's terribly difficult because the joker specifically targeted him to lure him out (assuming i understand canon correctly - also this is definitely true in the UtRH animated movie canon). If jason isnt interested in finding his biomom in this au, joker will just find a different bait. Would be cool if danny is able to track down jason's ghost during the six-month down time and brings him home, and a potential point of angst if he revives without his memories as a ghost (and is lost for a while before danny tracks him down again.)
(Danny probably doesn't have the no-killing rule like bruce, so he'd have no qualms killing the joker and detaining/destroying his ghost. If not danny, then jazz would. Bruce conveniently looks the other way.)
Batman mythology in this universe is inexorably linked to phantom mythology. They both help each other out with vigilante stuff. Danny's team (sam/tucker/val/jazz) visit often and are considered aunts/uncle to the batkids. Batfam is highly liminal because they are part of danny's fraid. They might even develop liminal powers, if that's your kind of headcanon.
Danny may or may not be ghost king, but i like the idea that he's the crown prince and wont be coronated for several more decades. He's got time and all the resources that position affords him. Danny still gets hounded by the observants, but the batkids have made a game of pranking the annoying eyeballs.
Danny is a founding member of the justice league and of jld (the rest of his team might be as well). Batman is much more knowledgeable of the supernatural because of danny. I like the idea of constantine being more terrified of phantom than batman. He still gets called on for advice because he's the demonology and magic expert, while danny specializes more in ghosts and Realms technology.
Ellie and dante are not allowed to join the vigilante scene until they turn 12 (they managed to argue it down from 14), but because of their powers (and potentially retaining memories and experience) there are numerous occasions before then that they functioned as a sort of vigilante retrevial unit - zooming out and retrieving anyone who was injured or otherwise hit their emergency beacon and bringing them straight back to the cave. They might have even done this once or twice during justice league emergencies.
I'll leave their vigilante identities open to discussion, but im partial toward a really old drawing i remember seeing here on tumblr, someone designed a pink batsuit for ellie with exaggerated bat ears, and a sort of glider cloak that attached to her belt or her wrists to disguise her flight as gliding. (If someone knows the post im talking about, please leave a link so the artist can be credited!)
As for danny's old team...
Jazz works at arkham, helping to reform the place and causing many of batman's rogues to reform a bit earlier. She is the expert called in by the justice league to formulate ways to both detain and to help various rogues globally. She especially likes the flash because of the friendly attitude he has towards his own rogues.
Sam is a humanitarian. If she has plant powers, she's using them to establish food stability in poorer nations, helping the people there become more self-sustaining, as well as providing relief for disaster-stricken areas whose farms need to be completely rebuilt and regrown. Jazz introduces her to poison ivy, and the two end up joined at the hip, helping to reform ivy much earlier. (Would it be weird to make this au have sam x ivy and jazz x harley?)
Valerie probably stays in Amity Park to be its designated hero since danny moved out. If the fentons are good, she works alongside them as the fentons also develop tech for the justice league. If they arent, im gonna assume theyre the reason dante and ellie got de-aged, danny absconded with their cores to keep them safe, and the rest of team phantom descended on the fenton parents like hungry wolves. When the dust settled, valerie and her dad were left in charge of protecting amity and with ownership of fentonworks.
Tucker is a freelance hacker slash tech expert, and will kit out any vigilante's tech and security free of charge. His unique blend of magitech is very difficult to counter, making it all-the-more sought after. He probably helped set oracle up and maybe even trained/mentored barb to some extent.
There are lots of other potential changes, but ill stop here.
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ive been wanting to do some redraws of the gravity falls art i made as a kid n since it's seasonally appropriate, here's some magician au doodles ^^
and just in case i don't come back to draw it again any time soon here's my thoughts so far on the topic and the original art circa smn like. idk maybe 2015 or 2016?? i wish i'd put the date on anything from back then lol
Palestine: Funds | Action | eSims | Info
Sudan Resources | Congo Resource | Lebanese Red Cross


i might change the designs later on but at this point i thought it'd be most fun to just kinda leave it really close to the originals :3
anyways!!
okay so gravity falls magician au. plotwise it's all actually about the same, the twins might be a little older actually, like 15 or 16 (maybe they've visited gravity falls in the past?), but whatever. they get sent to a sleepy little village in the woods to stay w their great uncle. magic runs in the pines family, although no currently living pines is thought to have any notable capability. healing a scratch or finding something u lost under ur bed, basically. magic is actually probably a lot more common and mundane in this world than canon, so gravity falls' weirdness as a region comes more from the intensity and unpredictable nature of the magic found there
anyways the BIGGEST plot difference is that i like the idea of the kids meeting bill pretty early on. he introduces himself as a seasoned familiar looking to get back in touch with his old partner. now, bill is a breath of fresh air for dipper in particular, who finally has someone he can speak frankly with about the weird experiences he's been having, but even tho bill loves nothing more than spilling secrets and arcane knowledge, he's not really able to do so as he'd like to. he's got TONS of spells placed on him for the express purpose of keeping him quiet, but there's a few things bill has been able to elude to if nothing else: 1, he knows who the author of the grimoire dipper found in the woods is. 2, he knows stan pines' great secret. and 3, he knows how to access magical power beyond comprehension
hehe idk i just like the idea of bill spending possibly months mentoring and making friends w the kids fully planning on just using them for his own gain the entire time but. well. maybe it's nice not being alone anymore too. tho he'd never admit it
#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#dipper pines#mabel pines#bill cipher#gravity falls au#if i draw it more i'll give the au a proper name but that's a problem for later lol#honestly not any good these days at crafting my own lore or plotlines so i guess it helps that there's only some minor variations here#grunkle stan there's a weird fuckin cat outside and it keeps promising me the secrets of the universe if i'll help it get its ex back LMAO#halloween
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hello mr. sex witch. 100% ok to discard if this is inappropriate or out of your wheelhouse. i love my husband very much and feel very safe with him, but i tend to dissociate pretty bad when trying to have sex. like, full on my soul leaving my body and floating a few steps away from it. it’s really distressing and makes me feel terrible because it makes me want sex less, which makes my husband feel like i must not be attracted to him or love him and i feel like an awful spouse.
i’m in therapy already, but it’s one of the hardest things for me to talk about with another person. it makes me feel dirty and shameful and disgusting every time i try. i love my therapist and have been seeing her for around 4 years now, but i just want to leap out of my skin anytime our sessions go anywhere near my relationship to sex, and i have a hard time even using correct anatomical terms to refer to my body parts when talking to her about it. i usually just slip into vagueries like “down there” or “that part” or “that area.” my mouth and throat dry up otherwise.
not at all asking you to diagnose me with anything, but i was wondering if there happen to be any good self-help resources you know of for moving past this? the things i have found in the past 10-ish years or so often feel sort of like “just look at yourself in the mirror and jerk off more and then one day you’ll magically get over it in one fell swoop,” and that’s never really felt like anything but dismissal to me. (i also acknowledge that i could be misreading the tone of some of these stories and guides because i’m coming at them from a place of pain and fear. may very well not be their fault.)
if you don’t have anything for something like this it’s okay, i don’t want to be annoying or a burden. you just seem really knowledgable and i thought maybe would know of something or other. if not it’s totally fine, i hope you’re having a nice day. thanks for your time reading this.
hi anon,
I want to be very delicate here, because I'm broadly opposed to offering diagnoses here especially when it's in an area that's very outside my realm of knowledge, and I really appreciate that you aren't asking me for a diagnosis.
having said that: virtually everything you're describing here, from the consistent dissociation to the physical distress response you experience when trying to talk about sex, sounds very much like a trauma response. I absolutely agree that most of the resources you've been finding likely aren't suitable to be helpful for you, because they're aimed at people who are feeling a little insecure in their body and not someone who has a deeply rooted distress response.
it sounds like the most well-equipped person to help you tackle this is a trauma-informed therapist. I obviously don't know anything about the therapist you see now, and I'm sure she's been able to help you in other ways, but it seems like you're having a hard time cracking this particular matter with her to make any positive change in the direction you want. if trauma isn't an area where she's able to work with patients, I think it may be very worth your while to consult someone more specialized to help you address this specifically.
I know that all by itself this isn't really an answer, almost certainly not the one you were hoping for, and is only a suggestion of more work and emotional difficulty for you, in addition to the potential costs of finding a second mental healthcare provider. I am sincerely sorry about that. I wish there was an easier solution I could provide, and I wish you the best of luck.
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Alright, here's my dream Stardew Valley style game, designed for my own tastes.
You come to a small town with the usual twenty to thirty people. It's in the middle of nowhere. It's a fantasy town, and no one actually farms anymore, partly because it's only questionably profitable, partly because a lot of the knowledge has been lost. Instead, everyone uses these magic doodads which are very powerful but also very limited. The tavernkeeper has a doodad that makes him a single kind of weak ale and a single variety of off-tasting wine. The clothier has basically a square mile of linen to work with, and everyone wears her drab clothes. Tools are made from a doodad that the blacksmith owns, not even made of any actual metal, just a material that wears away after a month and needs to be replaced by a new copy from the blacksmith's doodad. People get their meals from the doodads. They get their medical checkups. It's all a bit shit.
Because I'm a worldbuilder at heart, I would have this all exist in the wake of a large-scale war that depleted the town of its fighting-age population, with the doodads being a sort of government program to ensure that more of the lifeblood of the town could be drained away. And for there to be some reason for the town to continue existing, perhaps the government is harvesting some resources necessary in the creation of doodads. That's enough for a pro-doodad faction and maybe some minor drama with them, though I do like the idea that the only reason things are Like This is because there was a war and things got bad. It's not necessarily a bleak town, but there's definitely a listlessness to it, a "what's the point".
So you're a farmer, but no one is really a farmer anymore. Maybe there are a few books, but you don't learn farming from books, you learn it from practical experience; that's a lot of what this game is about. When you start, there's no one to buy seeds from, there's just a bunch of wilderness where farms once stood, now all long overgrown.
So you go out and forage, for a start, and you clear the land, and you pay attention to the plants and how they can be used, and you start in on making recipes with them, maybe with the help of your grandfather's old, partially incomplete books. You find some wild corn that's a descendant of the old times. You find some tomato seeds in an urn. You discover potatoes because you see them dug up by a wild boar, which itself was once a domesticated animal.
In my ideal game, you need to pay attention to the soil quality, to how far apart things are planted, to what crops work well together. Farming is a matter of companion planting and polycultures. You get some chickens by giving them consistent feed, and you keep them around because they're natural pest control. Your climbing beans climb the stalks of your maize. You're attracting pollinators. (From a gameplay perspective, yeah, we probably put this all into a grid, and you have crop bonuses from adjacencies, and emergent gameplay that comes from all that, some plants providing shade, others providing nitrogen fixing.) You're a scientist making observations about the plants, maybe with your incomplete book giving you confirmation on the nature of all your crops once you hit certain production goals or a perfect specimen or whatever.
Cooking is the same. There has got to be a system that I like better than just "combine tomato with bread to get tomato bread". I'm pretty sure that it's some variant of the actual process I use when cooking, which is making sure that things are properly cooked, balancing flavors against each other, adding in a little salt or acidity or umami or whatever. Time in the kitchen, in this game, is often about making meals, ensuring that if you have a fatty piece of meat you have some asparagus that's coated with lemon to go with it. (From a gameplay perspective, I think building the dish once is probably sufficient and it can be automated after that, and building the meal is the same. I don't want to play this minigame every time I'm cooking a dish, I just want to play it a single time until I have good knowledge of the best way to grill a BBQ chicken breast with a homemade sauce.)
But if we're having a little minigame here where we pay attention to how long we're cooking the kale to make sure that it's the right texture, and we're paying attention to abstractified mouthfeel and palette, then we can get something else for free: variation. See, you're not just cooking to get an S grade, you're cooking for people with different tastes. The cobbler has a sweet tooth, the librarian loves fruity things, the mayor cannot stand fish, that sort of thing. From a gameplay perspective, maybe we represent this with a radar graph with some specific favorite and least favorite individual flavors, and maybe it's visible to the player, but the important thing is that player gets feedback and have a reason to strive for both "good" and "perfection" and some of this is going to depend on the quality of the ingredients.
And this is, gradually, how the town is brought back into the fullness of life. You're not just cooking for these people, you're also selling them food, and they're making their own recipes, and all the stuff that's not food is making their businesses not suck anymore. After the first test keg of ale goes swimmingly, the tavernkeeper wants more, a lot more, and puts in an order for hops, wheat, grapes, anything he can use to make things that will improve nights at the tavern. The clothier will skeptically take in wool and spin her own yarn, and then eagerly want more, because how awesome is it to have a new textile? There's a chemist who is extremely interested in dyes and paints, and wants you to bring him all kinds of things to see what might be viable for going beyond the ~3 colors that the doodads can provide.
So by year two, if you're doing things right, you're the lynchpin of the revivalist movement. People are now moving to the town, for the first time in decades, because they hear that you're there and doing interesting things with the wilderness. Maybe there are other farmers following in your wake, but maybe it's just new characters who are specifically coming because a crate of wine was shipped to the capital city. Maybe some of them bring new techniques for you, or a handful of plants from a botanical garden, and there are new elements for the minigames, or maybe some automation for the stuff that's old hat.
I think something that's important to me is that there's a reason for the crops you plant and the things you do. I always like these games best when it feels like I'm doing something for someone, when I can look at a plot of cabbages and think "ah, those are the cabbages I owe to Leon". Where these games are at their worst, everything is entirely fungible and I've planted eight million blueberries because they have the highest ROI.
And yeah, in most of these games, there are other minigames like fishing and mining and logging and crafting, and since this is just a blog post and not a game, I definitely could massively expand an already sizeable scope.
I think for mining the player would use doodads of their own, and maybe you could make a mining minigame out of that, using the same planting tile system to instead create an automated ore harvesting machine that plumbs the depths of the earth (possibly dealing with rocks of different hardness, the water table, and other challenges along the way).
Fishing is a question of understanding the different fish species, what they eat, where they congregate, and then setting nets or lines, since I have never met a fishing minigame I really enjoyed. Again, there's some idea that the player is gaining information over time, building up a profile of these fish, noticing that some of them go nuts when it rains, understanding the spawning season, that they go to deeper water when it's cold, etc.
Crafting really depends on what you're crafting, but if you're reintroducing traditional artisan processes to this town, then people are going to need tools and machines and things. I'm not sure I know what a proper crafting game looks like. The only experience I have to draw on is wood shop, where I made wooden boxes, cutting boards, and picture frames. Since this is an engineering-lite puzzle-lite game, you could maybe do something in that vein, e.g. defining a number of steps that get you the correct thing you're trying to make, but ... eh. I love the idea of designing a chicken coop, for example, or building a trellis if I want my climbing beans to not need maize, or whatever, but I don't know how you actually implement that. There are definitely voxel-based and snap-to-grid games where you build bases, and I tend to find that fun ... but it's mostly cosmetic, for the obvious reason that doing it any other way than cosmetic requires programmatic evaluation, which is difficult and maybe unintuitive. The closest I think I've seen is ... maybe Tears of the Kingdom? Contraption building? But I don't know how you translate that to a farming game. Maybe I should ask my wife about this, because she's always doing little projects around the house (an outdoor enclosure for our cats, a 3D-printed holder for our living room keyboard, a mounting for our TV).
Making an interesting crafting system is difficult, which is why pretty much no one has done it.
And if I'm talking pie in the sky, without concern for budget or scope, I want the villagers to all have a mammoth amount of writing for them. I want petty little dramas and weird obsessions, lives that evolve with or without my input, rudimentary dialog trees that let me nudge things in different directions. This is just an unbelievable amount of work on its own, it would be crazy, but I would love having a tiny little town game where sometimes other people would fall in love. I would like to be invited to a wedding, maybe one that happened because I encouraged the chemist to hang out with the clothier, and in the course of working together on dyes, they fell in love. With twenty people in town and another ten that come in over the course of the game if you hit the right triggers, I do think this is just a matter of having a ton of time/budget. You write tons and tons of dialogue so there's not much that's repeated, you have some lines of conversation between characters that are progressed through, you have others that trigger off of events, and then you have personal relationships between NPCs that can be progressed through time or with player intervention. Give single characters a pool of love interests, have their affections depend on their routine which depends on what's changed in town ... very difficult to do without spending loads and loads of time on it though.
Anyway, that's one of my dream games. No one is ever going to make it, it would be a niche of a niche, and as scoped here, is too much for a small team to ever actually finish, let alone polish. But it's the sort of thing I'm imagining in my head when I think about playing Stardew Valley and its successors.
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Hi English is not my first language, so sorry for the mistakes, but I could do a Kurt Wagner x reader, in which the reader follows the Wicca religion, or something linked to witchcraft, they are both in a relationship and I would like to see how their different beliefs would affect their relationship (already that Kurt is Catholic although I believe he has no prejudice in dating someone with a different religion I would like to see how this would affect their coexistence)
sorry for the writing errors
I have lots of thoughts about this that I can’t reflect in a single one shot, so for now I’ll do some headcanons! However, it would be interesting to parallel this with a spin on Kurt’s 2004 solo series! So I will probably do something with that :) Obviously, I can do research, but I am in no way knowledgeable about the practices nor those who practice wicca or witchcraft. I don’t want to generalize and say, like, “Kurt x witch reader”, but I’m not quite sure what else exactly to put :(
Nightcrawler with a Witch S/O
Headcanons
Warnings: aside from mentions of religion and witchcraft there’s nothing | I mean there’s some cute stuff here and there if it counts :)
⚜️ Kurt may be catholic, but his background is full of diverse people with different perspectives and practices!
⚜️ Scarlet Witch, his adopted mother, and his adopted sister all practice witchcraft, and he has a… well, decent enough relationship with all of them! But any of their spats have nothing to do with their way of life!
⚜️ He means well when he wants to drag you to mass Sunday morning. Really! He does! It’s something he’s done with every one of his friends by now, anyway, but it’s just that it’s a huge part of his life! He genuinely just wants you there! Sure, he can’t deny there’s always going to be some part of him that wants you to also be on some level of his own religion, but again, it’s from no place of ill will.
⚜️ After all, even though he has seen firsthand that this rule is relatively loose, I think it’s normal for someone in his belief system to worry whether their life partner will be able to join them in the afterlife :( He’s going to worry about it from time to time. He’s also definitely going to pray about it a lot. Take it in a sweet way— he just really cares about your love so much that he’s afraid it’ll have to end 🥲
⚜️ He also means well when he brings home various herbs and wildflowers he’s seen you use!! He probably even tries to make a cute little bouquet to present them! Obviously the source of said plants might not be ideal 😅 So maybe it’s time to expand a little garden! Plus, having a small garden if your preferred ingredients or offerings is a good way to teach him a thing or two in case he needs it (again), and he enjoys helping out in non-direct ways! Besides, gardening is a cute activity to do together 😘
⚜️ Speaking of which, while he’ll always be grounded in his faith, that doesn’t mean he doesn’t acknowledge everything around him! He’s seen demons and gods, magic and ghosts, heaven and… well, not hell, but you get the gist! So don’t worry, he knows well enough that not only what you do is real and powerful, but still a respectable craft. In fact, I’m sure he holds a deep respect especially if you tend to be one who thanks the Earth/ask permission for resources often. And you just might rub off on him! While he would be thanking God instead, it probably makes him more mindful of his everyday interactions with the environment 😌
⚜️ But because of his own beliefs, I’m sure certain practices or spells would make him nervous 😅 Because of this, if there’s a specific deity/god/goddess/etc you answer to/pray to that really clashes with his morals and beliefs, a relationship probably won’t last long.
⚜️ But just because some things make him nervous, it doesn’t mean he’s going to leave or anything. He might not partake in a tarot drawing or participate in certain things, but he still respects it and trusts you.
⚜️ But, uh, there might also be times when he’s literally in the next room holding the cross around his neck and praying aloud while you’re trying to do something 🤧 But this also works the other way around! Not only does it probably throw off either of your thoughts, but I’m sure it doesn’t help either of you when you both might be putting very different energy into the room rn 😅
⚜️ If for whatever reason you ever need something from him, like a bit of his fur, you probably have his permission already to just walk up to him with a pair of scissors! Even so, he usually asks billion questions 😒 So is it worth the hassle?
⚜️ While your beliefs and intentions may be different, you both might share quite a few daily rituals! Kurt won’t at all mind sharing the rug or the lawn with you if you meditate as often as he does. You both use it for similar reasons, really. It might even be both nice and interesting to have a conversation about any thoughts and experiences afterward 💙 Maybe, for once, you both found the answers you needed this morning and can share it :)
⚜️ But there are some other things he considers more “harmless,” so to speak that he does participate in. If you tend to journal things like dreams and daily experiences to cross reference later for any signs and such, he might do it too. Well- he’ll probably tell you his dreams or a reoccurrence he’s noticed (especially if it’s something that has been stressing him or maybe he’s just got a gut feeling he can’t explain) and see what you have to say about it! Just because you have different beliefs doesn’t mean he can’t find value in what you have studied and what you have to say!
⚜️ I’m sure many mornings he likes to drink teas with specific herbs and what they’re known for, and you might also partake in this! Of course, there’s probably much more intention behind the herbs you use, the way you prepare it, the way you stir it, but sometimes Kurt just likes to feel involved :)
⚜️ You don’t have to worry about him messing with any of your stuff! It’s probably out of both respect and paranoia, but he won’t mess with any alters or offerings or generally just the way you have your side of the room set up (though, probably after some gentle explaining here and there…)
⚜️ However, he may have a hard time with wanting to look at and touch any rocks and crystals… In a very respectful way, he just thinks they’re pretty and neat, okay? ;w; To be honest, get him one or two to have of his own that you think he needs when he’s stressed or when he’s out on missions. Kurt will carry them with him everywhere ❤️🩹 Because while he might not always believe that they carry this or that type of energy, he knows it means you care 🥰
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Currently thinking about The Batfam and what Hogwarts houses people usually put them in vs what house I think they’re actually in, Let’s go:
Starting off with Dick Grayson, he’s the oldest and most of the fandom knows him as “the golden boy”! The original Robin and the mother hen mediator of his siblings… he works so very hard to keep this reputation, inside he is a feral feral child. Defo got some anger issues that he shoves down because he blames himself for Jason’s death of reasons. Most people put him in either Gryffindor or Hufflepuff. As an adult, I agree he does fit these houses… however. The children of Hogwarts do not get sorted as fleshed out adults, they get sorted as feral 11 year olds. And 11 year old dick was as feral as they come. I think what house he’s in really depends on what age you think he was when his parents were murdered. The most accepted ages are 8-12, which means that there’s some wiggle room here. Pre-orphan hood I feel like he could swing that Gryffinpuff nature that many people believe him to be. However, if this is after the accident, I believe that it would be a toss up between Gryffindor and Slytherin depending on how long ago it happened. If it’s 8-9 I believe it’d be closer to Gryffindor because he’d have more time to settle into his role as Robin and maybe he’s starting to lean more toward Reckless and fun than “I will murder those that have wronged me” that early orphan-hood brought him. If he was 10-11 and still feeling that rage, then Slytherin.
Next we have Jason Todd-Wayne! Second Oldest… kinda, I think he and Cass are tied. Second Robin and first adopted, Jason grew up on the streets of Crime Alley and his tough skin showcased that. But! Don’t let his past fuel you, this boy is famous for his “Robin makes me Magic” quote (I’m so sorry if that’s not the actual quote, but I’m not doing research this is vibes and past knowledge only) and made Batman wait until he was finished with his homework to go on Patrol. Though Famous for his death, Resurrection and anger issues and murder, once again he did not die until 15/16, so we will be sorting him based on his 11 year old self. Now, honestly I don’t know where most people sort him beyond Ravenclaw because the Ravenclaw people are correct. This man has valued education since the day he was born. Pre-adoption or not, the moment he hears that Ravenclaw has a built in Library he was never going anywhere else.
Down the line we have Timothy “Tim” Drake-Wayne! Third Robin, ace photographer and Detective, he figured out who Batman was when he was 9. I don’t feel like Tim needs much explaination for me to say Slytherin, but I’ll give a bit anyway. It’s commonly believed that as an adult, Tim would be in Slytherin. It’s also commonly believed that the only reason he doesn’t kill is because Bruce doesn’t allow it. At 11 years old, not adopted by Bruce or in regular contact with him at all and criminally neglected, Tim has no super vision, resources, a brilliant mind, and too much time on his hands. When I say he would do anything to get what he wants, or what he thinks needs to happen, he fucking will.
Alright! Next up we have Stephanie Brown! Now I will be so honest, a lot of these next characters I don’t know a lot about them or their backgrounds, so I will be trying my best. This girl has ✨daddy issues✨, her dad is the knock off Riddler: Cluemaster. She grew up in Gotham proper, though I don’t know the specific neighborhood. She donned a mask costume to take him down herself, running into the third Robin, befriending him and eventually takes over for him a bit when his dad’s being a Debby downer. Valiantly refuses to be adopted by Batman. Very tough, very classy, I dub her a Gryffindor through and through… Although she can get into the Ravenclaw common room with ease.
Following her, we’ve got the legend herself Cassandra Cain-Wayne. Raised to be a living weapon by her father and escaped him after her first kill, she was never taught how to speak, only read body language. Found by Barbara Gordon at… 16? I think, she was eventually either taught how to sign and speak or had her brain magically rewired to understand speech and learned it alongside sign then. Again, don’t really understand her personality, but from what I’ve read she has a vicious sense of right and wrong and a mischievous streak just as long and wide and her brother’s, though the adults never suspect her. At 11 years old, I feel like she would find a home in Hufflepuff. She doesn’t quite know who she is, but she’s hard working and vicious like a badger if you fuck with her.
Finishing off the Batgirls, we have the original: Barbara Gordon! Originally Batgirl, now Oracle, I have no idea where people normally put her. I can see her going into any house: she’s hard working and kind like Hufflepuffs, Reckless and Brave like Gryffindor, Cunning and Resourceful like Slytherin, and Smart and Creative like Ravenclaw. I’m leaning toward Slytherin for her as an adult, but I don’t know a lot about her younger self to say anything too definitively. Maybe Gryffindor when she’s young and reckless, but grows into Slytherin more and more? Or maybe just Slytherin through and through.
And now, rounding off the Robins, we have Damian Al Ghul Wayne! Son of Talia Al Ghul and Bruce Wayne, Damian was raised to be the perfect assassin with the disposition and arrogance of a prince. His entrance to the family was rocky, but he’s grown more and more into his place as time passed. If he’s very new to the family at 11, Slytherin without any doubts. Two and a half years and on, I think he’s a Hufflepuff who’s got a lot of Slytherin habits. He was raised to beat down his kindness and natural loyalty, but being with Bruce, Dick and the rest of his family brings it out more and more with each year. So, the longer he’s with them, the more chance I think he has of being in Hufflepuff, though I do believe it’s really just down to him deciding, similar to Harry in the books.
And Last, but most certainly not least, we have the newest member of the family: Duke Thomas! Not yet adopted by Bruce (and maybe never, we don’t know) Duke is the only Metahuman member of the Batfamily. His parents were rendered insane by the Joker when he was young and he was pushed into the system… I think. For probably the fourth time in this post, I’m not as familiar with his character. I know at some point he either started a child gang or was one of the leaders of a child gang called “we are Robin”, so while he never had a Batman as Robin, he did don the symbol at some point. Now I know Duke like Poetry, was kind of a loner before he joined the Robin gang, and that a lot of people debate whether or not he’s chill or just as insane as his other siblings. In my opinion, he’s just as insane, but when he first got to the manor he was kinda nervous and accidentally conned everyone into thinking that he was normal, when in fact, he’s there for a reason. At 11, I believe that his parents had already been Jokered, so similar boat to baby Dick, but I feel like the toss up is between Slytherin and Ravenclaw, rather than Gryffindor (though that was briefly considered). Idk I think anyone who’s part of a child gang is gonna be cunning and Ambitious, but also I’ve read a lot of things where he’s quite creative, good at thinking outside the box, good at writing Poems, and good with Brain teasers, so I think he wouldn’t be out of place in Ravenclaw.
And those are my opinions on the batfamily and their Hogwarts houses. I forgot while writing the post that I could’ve included Bruce and Alfred, so: Bruce is Gryffindor, Alfred is Slytherin and I won’t be explaining that further. Good day and good night 🫡
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Okay so most people are focusing on Dev losing his memories, but I want to talk about Dale real fast and losing his.
So he definitely lost his, but he still has that Project H board.
He could easily look at it and find out that fairies exist again. I mean, all he has to do is erase the layer of blue that Dev put there. Or simply read it, it's still quite legible.


Except maybe this time, I think he'll try honing in on Cosmo and Wanda since it states that they "are magic".
With this in mind, my prediction is that he'll team up with a type of paranormal researcher to get to the bottom of it.
But the there's actually two he can pick from: Mr. Wells (Hazel's dad) and Mr. Crocker.
There's a lot of potential to be had with both of them.
Mr. Crocker may be seen as a bit of a loon, but he has an actual history of hunting fairies specifically.
Mr. Wells may be more credible and smarter, but he may have better equipment from being a trusted paranormal researcher.
(Also Dale could easily provide some funding/money for resources to whichever he chooses cuz you know he's rich.)
Or worst case scenario, Dale hires both.
I also find it entertaining how different Mr. Wells and Crocker are from each other.
Crocker wants to catch and expose them, but Mr. Wells wants to genuinely learn about anything supernatural.
It's really a 50/50, and I'm leaning towards him choosing Mr. Crocker just because of how much more knowledgeable he is on fairies.
Although, it'd be really interesting to see Crocker and Mr. Wells interact.
Plus, now that Antony and Hazel's friends are aware that Cosmo and Wanda are fairies, they could help with steering Dale away from them.
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