#religious trauma!peter

[here-for-a-good-time-hopefully]

I headcanon that Peter Pettigrew is Irish and grew up Catholic like something abt him gives me such like religious trauma vibes and the fact that he would’ve lived through the Troubles in Ireland like I feel like that would’ve been a huge catalyst for The Betrayal and his separation from the marauders

Also Peter just gives me such Derry Girls vibes like idk but I could see him as the Claire of the marauders

[occasionally-poetic]

marauders characters’ ethnicities/religions/languages

just my own HCs so don’t get offended!

jayaram fleamont potter

(tells people to call him j or jamie bc its easier, so everyone assumes his real name is james, and he doesn’t correct them)

indian hindu on his mum’s side (tamil nadu specifically)

effie comes from a rich tamil pureblood family (many pureblood families name their children something greek/latin, thus ‘euphemia’), and teaches jamie hindi, tamil and some greek

his tamil is great and he’s fluent in writing/reading as well as speaking, writing letters to effie from hogwarts in tamil

his hindi is okay, mostly with reading and talking, his writing is pretty limited

his greek is godawful and he’s barely conversational, much to effie’s dismay

(non-practicing) catholic chilean on his dad’s side

monty is (obviously) a potter, and most of his relatives live in chile or south america, but his parents moved to england for hogwarts (didn’t want him going to school on another continent to them)

he’s a practicing hindu with his mum (monty doesn’t really get it because he doesn’t speak a word of hindi so he just smiles and nods)

he speaks english and (chilean) spanish, which he teaches jamie, who speaks/reads/writes it as fluently as his english and tamil

sirius orion black

he is heir of the noble and most ancient house of black so he’s the french-est pureblooded-est guy you’ll ever meet

especially pureblooded because he’s the product of incest (his parents are second cousins) (canon)

the black family are french, owning many estates there, etc., but have lived in england for generations (his great-grandparents migrated and now they only visit france in the summer sometimes)

catholic (receiving NOO criticism here bc this is canon (no its not)) with intense religious trauma and internalised homophobia (not projecting at all whaaaaat)

sort of converts to judaism (ish?) he makes remus explain it all and siri thinks its sooo fascinating so he gets a menorah for the dorm for hanukah and buys a torah to study and remus is so happy

speaks french as his first language, and latin and greek fluently from tutoring, but only started to learn english for hogwarts (is so bad at it in first year omg)

remus yohanan lupin

(I KNOW HIS CANON MIDDLE NAME IS JOHN BUT HE IS SO JEWISH CODED TO ME SO HERE’S THE HEBREW FORM OF JOHN INSTEAD X)

polish-jewish on his dad’s side (lyall was evacuated to wales in ww2, when he was about 10, and hope’s parents looked after him until he graduated hogwarts and started dating hope (they literally adored him and helped raise remus I DONT CARE))

protestant welsh on his mum’s side (didn’t really practice her faith though - just brought them all to church on christmas eve and easter sunday)

interfaith household + being a patrilineal jew (more not fitting in angst for remus guys!)

spoke english and welsh at home, equally fluent (lyall picked up welsh while living with hope’s parents), and hebrew too from his hebrew sunday school

lyall tried (and failed) to teach him polish, as that was his first language, so remus can speak a very basic amount of polish, mostly swearing and children’s lullabies (marlene teaches him more at hogwarts so they can gossip!)

not very orthodox jews, but celebrate jewish holidays and go to the synagogue on sabbath (and he wears a necklace of the star of david that belonged to lyall’s late mother)

pieter daan pettigrew

(anglicised his name for hogwarts because everyone called him p-eye-ter (like actual pie + ‘ter’))

protestant dutch on his mum’s side (but she went to hogwarts!)

protestant english on his dad’s side

parents were ‘born again’ christians so they were very devout (grace before every meal, helping out at church every sunday, bible study every morning, etc)

peter never really believed in any of it, and would often go to jamie’s to avoid having to go

he spoke english with his dad and half-brother, but solely dutch with his mum and his other siblings. he was also taught latin before hogwarts (pureblood things) and absolutely HATED it (he was probably dyslexic and often found himself changing language in the middle of his talking exams)

picked up a fair bit of tamil from jamie and effie (aka his second mum) and absolutely LOVED the potters’ diwali party (literally the highlight of his year)

let me know any other characters i should do!! and if you disagree feel free to leave your HCs in the comments, but please respect that people have different opinions xx

[evanpeterswifeyyy]

Been listening to the Carrie musical (so good btw, pls take a listen) and drew the star herself, Carrie White. Added some alt images.

I love Carrie so much. I seriously relate to her so much more than I can describe.

Socially awkward, bullied in multiple ways, outcasted since she was young, grown up in a religious household and pressure, having religious trauma and fear, built up rage, day dreaming and social anxiety, isolation, people pleasing, feeling as if kind gestures are some sort of prank, and last of all…seeing that comparison and her completely destroying everyone and everything that hurt her and then disappearing with it—having some sort of peace. Watching it all burn after the final straw snaps. The ultimate fantasy.

[yokoluvv]

jason todd having religious trauma is more vital to me than my vital organs

[cosmicallydivine]

i fear the target audience for this may literally just be me but this realization hit me like a fucking truck the other day and i could not stop thinking about it

[itsstilltru]

“Forgive me.”

[exvangelical-christian-nerd]

TW Religion

Look I understand why religious people take offense to Good Omens, the Hellaverse, and that type of media (I've made posts on this before, about how the church kinda made their own bed, and I stand by that). I'm religious. I'm a practicing Christian. There are things in the shows that bother me a bit at times. There are parts of the fandom that I think go too far, but that happens in every single fandom. I think many of us who've been in any fandom for a bit can think of an example where someone just took something way to far. I mean there are multiple stories out there, to the point you sometimes see jokes about it, where someone went from fan to felon pretty dang quick. Or cases where a group of fans got more than a bit culty. The difference with the Hellaverse specifically, is, I believe, that if you take it to far you can start messing with very real demons, who are not the same as the ones in the show, and I don't want to touch that.

Now all that said, the fact that I am religious is a key contributor in why I love this kinda of media, and why I gravitate to it. I like things that bother me, at least things that bother me theologically. I really like things that make me question my faith, or components of it. Also, if I haven't made this crystal clear, the church has caused me a great deal of pain, and continues to do so. I have a lot of religious trauma to work through, and it can be really hard, because I often feel really alone. Most people with religious trauma leave the religion in question. I'm still here. I have to grapple, almost daily, with separating my hurt from my faith, and separating what I was taught from what I actually believe. I'm exvangelical, but I'm still a church going, bible believing Christian, and y'all that's a special kind of hell. It hurts, a lot. Sometimes to the point where it makes me physically ill. People I love and respect, continue to say things knowingly or unknowingly that cut like a knife. And How many times can you get stabbed? How long? How long must I hurt?

These shows help me process. They help me look at things from another perspective and go "do I believe that? And if I do, why?" Also sometimes they call me out, and that's never fun... but it can be important. But one of the big ones is that it gives me a chance to process my hurt with the symbolism of my childhood. It's healing.

I latched onto Emily, because I see myself in her. I see someone who believed, and had the rug pulled out from under them. I see someone, who still believes, but feels betrayed. Someone who now has to confront and question, because "if this was a lie what else is?" And "I trusted this person and this is what they did?" And possibly worst of all, "I helped enable this. I allowed this to happen. I might not have known, but I still helped. What have I done?" I know those feelings. I live them every single day.

I understand Aziraphale's choice to go running back to heaven (whether I like that choice or not, and I don't). It looked like they would accept him as he was, even accept those he loves. He sees an opportunity to change things for the better, in this system he knows, and cares about even. It's not going to go well. We know it's not, and I think even Aziraphale knows that, but that need to believe it can change, that you change it, yeah I get it. I really do.

I understand Sera's desperation to protect. I remember feeling St. Peter's aversion. The desperate bargaining we've seen from the cherubs trying to convince themselves what they're doing is right, or at least not wrong, I've done it. I see myself in Vaggie, trying to mend the damage she did. I was an armored gay. I know I too caused harm. Lucifer's abandonment issues and desire to just leave it all behind him or try to. It's all to real. And Crowley's disillusionment with everything? His belief that he is "on his own side", because where else could he possibly go? Yeah I get that too.

And I could go on

And on

And on

[mayasaura]

There's a weird kind of tension I feel being in the Locked Tomb fandom without being Christian. Especially having grown up in a heavily Christian part of the world, constantly surrounded by pressure to convert.

I don't only mean the constant low grade cultural pressure underpinning daily life, though I mean that too. I mean I get accosted in the street by missionaries. I mean I was first told I was going to hell when I was four years old, by a babysitter who would only let me watch Veggie Tales. I've had a man handing out leaflets follow me around attempting to lay his hands on my head or shoulders while reciting what I think a Catholic friend later told me was called the Sinner's Prayer, cajoling me to repeat after him. My grandfather died after being unable to find a support group that wasn't rooted in the christian faith, and didn't therefore require him to violate his religious beliefs.

Which is all taking the long way around to saying I don't really vibe heavy with the series' christian subtext. I like to enjoy the story primarily through other lenses.

But at the same time the symbolism is there, and intentional, and doing a lot of very interesting things. So I am paying attention to it. I try to consider it an interesting mythological theme, like the classical Greek references. It usually works, but maintaining that distance can be a struggle.

I don't really have a conclusion here. It's just a weird place to be. The draw of wanting to connect the dots, to appreciate the intricate symbolic art, at war with... all that, and with the creeping anxiety that whispers: how much of a philosophy can you know before you get filled up with it? Is there ever a point where you are what you know, whether you want to be or not?

[your-fav-has-religious-trauma]

Peter Lukas from The Magnus Archives has religious trauma!

[starsandsnakes]

FF: When the Church Choir Sings by starsandsnakes

Friendly reminder that the remainder of my FF comes out this Friday!

Who is ready to cry? Raise your hands. 🙋 🙋‍♀️ 🙋‍♂️

[dairyfreenugget]

I could count the amount of original stories of mine that don't have horror elements on one hand and idk what that says about me

[giafaeryprincess]

[shootingthe-stars]

nowhere man chapter 37 is now out!!

chapter 37 or from the beginning!

[stay-pos-cos]

I ask you to betray me with a kiss,

To exchange a pound of silver for my pound of flesh.

I ask you to betray me beautifully, to break bread at my table before you break my heart.

Your brother will claim to have never known me, and that may be for the best.

After all we all have our crosses to bare and the scent of lumber is the smell of home.

My brow is laiden with the weight of a crown I never asked for, so betray me softly, with a kiss.

[yokoluvv]

Jason Todd has religous trauma. Why do I believe that? 1) I can. 2) I like to yap. 3) @spisher-man asked. (I hope it's okay to tag you)

Now we don't really see Jason's religion mentioned all that much, or it having any impact on him; none of the DC characters I know of do. DC's pretty vague with the characters' religions.

I'm kind of self projecting here but bear with me. Now Jason died, came back from the dead, and followed an objectively not-so-good path. You can believe that Jason's Catholic or Christian or whatever but he IS going to have some guilt. He came back from the dead; something that shouldn't have happened, something unnatural, something wrong. He came back from the dead wrong.

His existence in this world is wrong. When he dies again, will he come back? When he dies again, will God forgive him? Or will He condemn him to the deepest pits of hell for being such an unnatural product. Will he get punished for going against God? His ways? Jason thinks he will be. Deep down he knows he's so disgusting and unlovable that even the most gracious of all would look at him with spite. Regret creating him.

Somedays he lays awake on the rock-hard bed. Body trembling with fear as unintelligible mutterings of salvation and begging fill the cold, empty room. Begging for God to forgive him, to ignore his heinous acts. Tears threaten to fall, his eyes closed shut, the guilt eating away at his heart. May God forgive his sins.

He's seen his mother pray, on her knees with her head lowered. Praying to be forgived. He lowers to his knees, scraping the hard wood floor. His knees bloodied and raw, not from his many fights but from his search of God's favor. He knows deep down there is something wrong with him, that what he does won't make things any better and he's just getting worse but how could he stop when the only one that could save him of his fate refuses to listen. Hands clenched so thight they bleed, his eyes red from his tears, he knows it isn't enough to be forgiven. He isn't enough.

May God forgive his sins. May He forgive him.

[pepart]

Random religious themed art piece I drop ever 3-4 months for whatever reason - check ✅️