#relationship with mom

[nothingherebutmythoughts]

08/17/24 - 9:07pm

Entry one

today was weird. i started in a decent headspace. it was kinda on the verge of being bad but it was also back in forth. i woke up with my wonderful partner and spent time with my cat. i went to a friends house and had a fantastic time. and then i started spiraling not long after getting home. i mega dissociated. the worst i have in a bit. my partner wanted some alone time (which is valid we’re both autistic and take alone time) and while they were in the bedroom i silently sobbed about my mom being weird about my transition. it came out of nowhere and hit me hard. like, i was her only daughter and now she has none. and i know it’s hard. and she was really sad when i mentioned that i wanted to change my middle name too. i feel awful sometimes and i wish i could go back to being her little girl. but i also wish she didn’t react like that because it makes me feel awful and i shouldn’t. i’m finally on testosterone and it’s been great. and like, i also feel horrible about wanting more bc my mom is better than most. she loves me and supports me and wants me to be happy. but she also calls me my birth name around most people and uses she/her pronouns. and when we’re around my immediate family and my friends she calls me my chosen name (which is a play off my given name so it shouldn’t be that hard for her) which is great but she uses they/them pronouns for me even tho i’ve told her it’s he/him. i just wish she made more of an effort. and i wish she stood up for me. my dad got it so quickly and he’s the one i’m always the most worried to tell things. i ultimately got so lucky with my parents, they’re both amazing. but i wish my mom would understand more. i really need to sit down and talk to her about it but it’s so hard because i hate seeing her sad. i just want her to be proud of me. im still spiraling on a downward trajectory and fast. i feel myself slipping. i burned myself today for the first time in years. it felt exhilarating but it hurt. i hated it. and i hated that i kinda liked pushing myself to withstand it. i don’t want to do it again. i don’t want to slip that far back. i was past that. i’ve been past that. i need to be past that. this needs to be a fluke. i can’t make it a habit again.

- frog

[twistcmyk]

please

[incognitopolls]

If your mother has passed away, answer based on how your relationship was when she was alive.

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[royaltea000]

he could not control the class 😔

[olderwomendatingsblog]

[veryintricaterituals]

No comment other than the writers are not cowards and I can't wait for season 3

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt in Memes 5

Once more, have a prompt entirely in memes because I'm too lazy to properly write one right now lol.

[crowskullls]

I couldn’t be a minecraft creator because if I was doing freaky gay roleplay with my friends and then got called siblings I would just end it all

[petricorah]

scenes i loved from Real Enough to Get Me Through by @marriedzukka <333 [ids in alt]

[richolderwomenclub]

I have been single for two years and want to find a reliable partner!

[starrynyx]

i wanna talk about this portrayal of sally jackson and how it feels notably younger than the 2010 movie or even the musical. obviously her age is never explicitly stated there or in the books, but mama was sitting on the fire escape in the rain listening to olivia rodrigo and thinking about her ex. she's giving big 30-something millennial energy and i think that's so important in the context of HER story as a young mother alone in the world just trying her best. i think percy paints her as this angelic, caring, gentle presence that can do no wrong but the pov shift in the show lets us see her rougher edges, the places where she wasn't always perfect. and maybe im reading too far into this but if you reframe her and percy's relationship within the context of her being that young, of them reaching this quasi-gillmore girls space of "you are my baby but you're also my best friend and all i have in this world" idk it just feels a lot deeper somehow, like they're giving sally more dimension and development earlier on and i'm so excited to see her arc progress in future seasons

[thelastbitoffilm]

i wasnt talking back, i was trying to tell you how i feel.

sorry i forgot that if my emotions and opinions dont align with yours its considered defiance.

and then you tell me i can "talk to you about anything"? fuck off.

[justgrannyhere]

I need a man from any country traveling to meet you

[quekerahkerah]

Hey quick question, if i (a werewolf who's constantly wrestling with my own inhumanity, who both resents the fact that humans view werewolves as mindless monsters, and yet is also all-too-aware that my own werewolf family are cruel despots who deserve to die) ever snapped and became like my brother (embraced the monstrosity which i am sure grows even now within me) would you (my boyfriend, my walking moral compass, a Good Man to your very core) be strong enough to hunt me down and stop me? Yes? Cool, great, love you

[enmesheddaughterparentified]

Are you normal or do you have hypervigilence problems because you always had to be aware of your family members moods growing up in order to deescalate situations before the arose

[olderwomendatingsblog]