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Hello and welcome to my new and super cool blog! You can call me star and I generally use he/him pronouns. I'm in high school so please be aware of my immaturity. This super cool and awesome blog is for my self improvement journey! It's also dedicated to Lord Ares.
Why am I going on a self-improvement journey? Because I feel like â¨shitâ¨. That and I am currently grieving and trying to move on from a very unhealthy crush I have had on a friend. It was borderline obsessive and wasn't healthy for me or them. I think I've been really obsessed with relationships recently, which would usually be considered normal for teenagers, but mine has been, as I said before, obsessive and unhealthy for me and everyone involved.
So this blog is for me to work on myself and record my progress, and then hopefully, someday in the future, I can look back on this blog and see how far I've improved! It's a really exciting idea :)
I am going to do my absolute hardest to tag everything appropriately and put warnings at the top of every post if I think there is something there that could harm someone.
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Star reflects -> my super awesome reflections on myself, my life, and my beliefs. These may be sad, they may be happy! That's the joy of reflections :)
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#self care#glow up#self love#self improvement#self confidence#hellenic polytheism#hellenic community#star reflects#star motivation#star is funny#nerd#getting better#I've been a little sad#mental health#mental heath awareness#vision board#manifesting#Lord Ares#witchcraft#alt community#health blog#health and wellness#recovering from a crush#it was unhealthy#sad thoughts#but not for long#religion#recovery
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Core Gems
So when a ghost becomes injured, they have a last ditch defense where they retreat into their core. And I mean, injured badly where their body is rip apart to the point they canât hold a solid form anymore. And they basically go into a hibernation state until they are strong enough to form again.
Ellie, Danny, and Dan are all injured in a final battle against the GIW. The organization was destroyed and the ghosts were safe but the halfas ended up being so injured that they reverted to core form and then went to sleep for a bit. When they woke up, they were still weak but at least recovered enough to gain consciousness. And realizeâŚthey are in some kind of auctionâŚin the middle of a heist. It appeared that two furries (one in a bat costume and one in a cat costume) were ducking it out. And theyâŚthey were a necklace. All three of them had been turned into a necklace with their cores as gems accompanied by sapphires, pearls, and opals. And frankly gorgeous craftsmanship as the metal was crafted around their cores as if to cradle them and the other gems.
Unfortunately, they were too weak to take a form properly, they could still feel the strain on their bodies. But at least they could still communicate through their auras. Then the cat lady punched a hole in the glass container surrounding them and grabbed their necklace.
However, the bat grabbed the other end and it resulted in a sort of tug-a-war. Meanwhile, Danny, Ellie, and Dan were having a back and form commentary on the situation and what they should do. Completely unheard by the other party.
In the corner of their eye, the three halfas finally noticed a third contender. Some kind of clown who wasâŚhold onâŚholding a gun?! And it was pointed straight at the two fighting furies who had yet to notice him. The ghostsâ protective instincts went into overdrive and they frantically tried to shout, yell, move. Just do something to warn the two but their cries fell on deaf ears. All they succeeded in doing was faintly glow which immediatly caught the attention of the fighting duo. The two turned to look at the strange necklace but right at that moment, the clown fired and a gunshot rang throughout the auction room. Having no other options, Danny and the others poured every ounce of ectoplasm they had to try and phaseshift, making the two furries intangible as the bullets passed right through them, but in their shock, the two jumped away in opposite directions and accidentally ripped the necklace apart. Gems and pearls went flying and the three cores bounced along the ground.
Luckily, the two finally noticed the clown and went to deal with him and his minions who had appeared. Seemingly putting their fight on hold and forming a temporary truce. The three halfas could only watch as the battle finally wound down, ending with the cops barging into the place and arresting the clown and his grunts, the cat managing to escape with half the scattered gems and pearls from the broken necklace along with a few other jewelry pieces (none of their cores though) and the bat leaving through a skylight.
The auction continued and in the end, despite being broken, their necklace seemed to have caught someoneâs interest. A man named Bruce Wayne bought up every piece of the shattered jewelry wear. The auctioneers appeared relived that the item managed to sell in the end and gratefully gave it to him.
Bruce had no idea what happened at the auction, but he could have sworn that some of the gems faintly glowed right before he and Selina were shot. If the necklace was some sort of magical item, then he needed to understand exactly what has been brought to Gotham. It was unfortunate that Selena had taken some parts of the necklace but he utilized his vast wealth to make sure all the other parts ended in his possession. Now he would take them back to the mansion for examination.
#Dpxdc#dcxdp#kizzer55555 ideas#Bruce thinks the necklace is magical. Heâs technically not wrong.#When he gets home he immediately puts each gem in a glass container to examine them. For the longest time though nothing happens.#They all look like normal gems except for the main three of the piece. He canât identify what kind of gem they are.#The gems are perfect spheres with various shades of blue (with hints of green and white) swirling around.#The colors almost look like they are moving in slow motion. Still. Nothing happens as he examines them and no strange events happen.#That is until one day he decided to take the gems to be examined by a professional and a villain attacked.#A piece of building was about to crush him when a wall of ice appeared as a shield over him. After that he took them back to the cave.#Bruce looks up thousands of documents about enchanted necklaces and artifacts but finds nothing. He even calls in favors from JLD.#Zatanna doesnât recognize them but feels some kind of power coming off the gems however it doesnât feel malevolent (at least for 2 of them)#(The last gem is neutral.) Also Constantine was unavailable (*cough* hiding from responsibilities *cough*)#The other bats get interested in the gems. Tim has a theory that they are some kind of protective charms. Damian agrees.#(Everyone is shocked Tim and Damian agree on something). So while Bruce is continuing his investigation the other bats decide to do some#âField testingâ and take the gems out. Consequently the gems end up saving their lives and they discover a few things they can do like make#The wearer invisible. Intangible. Create green barriers/constructs. Create ice. Vibrate when an enemy is coming. And much more.#The bats fashion them into new individual bracelets/necklaces and think they are the coolest thing. They have powered up protective charms!#The halfas just wish these kids would STOP PUTTING THEIR LIVES IN DANGER! What are they MORONS?!#Most of the ectoplasms they recover is used to protect the bats and nearby civilians.#(Dan also trolls people and is mostly protective his siblings though)#People notice the new power ups. A rougue gets his hands on a gem and tries to use it ONCE to attack something but the gems didnât respond.#Then it froze the roughâs legs to the ground.#Much time later the gems are swapped between the bats and alternated and have just become a new item in their belt#(batman was not pleased but eventually got used to it and begrudgingly accepted that they were useful. Especially when they save his kids)#They come to a Justice league meeting and Constantine finally sees them.#His mouth drops in shock and he frantically asks where they got GHOST CORES?! And this is when the bats finally realise what they have.#And are horrified to realize EXACTLY what they are holding and that these âgemsâ were technically ALIVE.#Meanwhile the three Halfas have been kinda chilling but also working their butts off to keep this family alive. It was a fulltime job.
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Tiso with severe head trauma scars my beloved !! Both gjinka and bug form, it means so much to see him deal with damage. I love any depictions of it, mine focuses more on his feelings and thoughts about being mortal. Especially compared to someone he considered very small and weak, actually is a wyrm-blood who not only beat the Colosseum but walked out without the damage he carries permanently.
I giggle and go yaaaaaay
#my tiso gijinka keeos his hood on because hes 1 insecure about his scar and 2 really worried of any more damage coming to it#everyone was at first confusion if hed even be able to move after literally getting his skull crushed#and for awhile he was dependant on the others while his body recovers from thinking it was dead fr#hes so awesome i should give him a cool as nail cane to help him walk or maybe bandages to keep his waist firm and structure#definitely deals w pains constantly
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Hi @naffeclipse I'm very normal about your fic. Have some frantic midnight sketches as extra kudos along with some tag rambling :)
#my ârt#crush depth#crush depth spoilers#fnaf#tw blood#tw drowning#idk how many others apply#anyways this is midnight crow coming out of the shadow realm to scream at you#first of all a cs ramble is on the way I'm still recovering from that fic too#im biting you naff im biting you so dang hard#I don't even know much about iron lung besides watching a play through but damn do you make me want to know more#just. where do I even start. the atmosphere is established so well and even though there was such a small space to work with I FELT it#I felt the claustrophobia I felt the walls and the console and the single dim lightbulb as my only solace in this death trap#the THOUGHTS#poor yn had so much time to just get lost in their head and spiral pretty much constantly#the dread. the constant overhanging dread of knowing there's a 99% chance they're not getting out of there alive and at this point#they just want to accept it and let it end bc there's hardly anything to go back to if they live#naff. look at me. reading some parts made my chest actually tighten with dread. it was so well done.#this poor human just buried in existential horror and just wanting it to end in a slightly less painful way#and the unknowable beings trapped outside who absolutely REFUSE to let that happen#god those eldritch fish were trying their hardest but just couldn't get in#yn was trapped inside while they were trapped outside and I just#I am EXPLODING the more I think about it#thinking about when they thought they were drowning and tried to breathe again#wanting to die but still having that instinct to survive#asking to be ripped apart but still cherishing their last breath of air#I'm shaking you I'm shaking you I'm dying on the floor#ough.#I'll never mentally recover from this and I want you to know I genuinely get inspired by your writing#this has been midnight crow ramblings. I just hit the tag limit. have a lovely night.
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Something about how the last time Simon wore the purple shirt all buttoned up he thought he would spend the weekend with Wille đ
#he just wanted to look nice for his crush#and now they're at the flipping castle#together#and alone#and happy#Iâm losing my mind#young royals#wilmon#yr s3 spoilers#simon eriksson#yr stuff I will never recover from#1x03#yr s3#yr netflix#my gifs
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*insert âbe careful of the boys you ignore in middle schoolâ incel joke here*
Modern AU that I made purely for the growth spurt joke. Yugoâs time in the Necroworld was actually an allegory for male puberty
Originally just wanted to make their clothing as adults evocative of their royal attire but ended up making them all blends of multiple outfits
#Wakfu#Wakfu au#modern au#yumalia#yugo#amalia#Art#fanart#fan art#Articâs Art#Made their ages 14 and 13 bc I think thatâs when Yugo started having a crush on her#Awww~#Drawing this made me realize Yugo has Perry the platypus colors and Iâll never recover from that#The poses gave me real struggle#Which means each picture took four hours#I spent eight fucking hours on this#Somone chuck me into the river plz
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Im super fucked up about that Gwaine post I just reblogged because
Merlin would have had zero tears left to shed, he was utterly spent and broken yet would be told he had lost Gwaine too and he died without ever fully knowing him? I mean at least Arthur and Lancelot knew his secret at the end and that is <3 but fuck me how the fuck why the fuck on the same day WHAT THE FUCK would he bury him in the lake too OH GOD did Percival carry him to the lake so they could say goodbye??? THE LIST OF PEOPLE GROWS LONGER THAT MERLIN LETS GO ON THE LAKE
and wow one day it would be Gaius...and Hunith...and Gwen...until Camelot crumbles and Merlin wanders and waits...alone...1500 years later I
#merlin#merthur#gwaine#HE LOSES EVERYONE#IM GONNA FLING MYSELF INTO THE SUN#that post broke me haha </3#I AM NEVER RECOVERING#how can we go from farting gwen and morgana and bald uther#to the most heartbreaking soul crushing pain
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âI love you. I love you. I love you. I'll write it in waves. In skies. In my heart. You'll never see, but you will know. I'll be all the poets, I'll kill them all and take each one's place in turn, and every time love's written in all the strands it will be to you.â
â Max Gladstone, This Is How You Lose The Time War
#like. what an insane thing to say. can you imagine being that in love#I'm never going to recover from this book#or from the fact that my ex-crush still has it. petition for me to message them to give it back#this is how you lose the time war#literature#quotes#poetry#words#love#romance
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lmao watching the titan battle again to check how many NPC soldiers were there (somewhere between 6 and 8, though in one scene there's like 9) and I am more convinced than ever that Amaya and NPC soldiers are the only ones who survived injury because they were the ones wearing fucking helmets
since, y'know, other than the one dude who gets stepped on, the consistent cause of injury and death throughout fighting both the titan and Thunder is "hit the ground really hard," so... wear your goddamn bike/motorcycle/riding helmets, kids
#'would sarai have survived if she wore a helmet like her sister' is a question that haunts me#a helmet is the majority of the difference between 'died at the scene' and 'will probably recover most functionality with years of pt'#in bike and motorcycle accidents#though i mean the problem is still being hit by several tons of steel at high velocity and you can definitely die from that#so probably sarai like... had her ribs crushed and punctured her lungs or something#BUT STILL#amaya definitely survives because of her helmet
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Erin, to her crush: You're a dick
Mason, the crush: I won't argue! But to clarify -
#my characters#its so sad that all of erins character development and kindness is on paper and nothing digital to show her growth#she picks on mason for many reasons and she kinda narrows her eyes at him but its more to squint than to glare#because she watches him from a distance when hes off laughing with others#though they are united on peter being worse than mason at least they can agree no matter what peter is worse#but also masons right arm is metal and she thinks its fascinating bc theres so many high tech prosthetics#why is he using the equivalent of a trash can ? is it some weird flex to not needing advanced stuff?#and its just he was from a poor family and was born with one full arm and then a stump#and he lived a lot of his youth with just one arm so once he got a second arm (installed basically) he went cheap#since he only wanted the other arm to get better jobs cause not many people would hire him with one arm#and he never really cared much about her comments because her lil verbal pokes of#so rogers whod you piss off? the mafia? is actually nicer than stuff he heard as a kid without the fake arm#so he tells her the only reason he has a metal limb is because god knew hed be two strong if born with two arms#and shes like uh huh sure thing rogers#and yeeeeah eventually something happens where mason is injured and erin is panicking#and hes acting like its okay to die because hes a dick remember TRYING to make light of it and she gets so sad#and after hes recovering and better he feels guilty making her so sad and hes talking to her#and she says that she doesnt have a lot of friends and she didnt want to lose one of the few people she liked#and hes just oh.......................... ididntthinkthatwouldbeme#so he starts to be super friendly to her and enforcing the crush that she doesnt wanna own up to#and then she does eventually confess and mason is baffled as to since when and shes like day one? and he just#erin you have got to be kidding me you were glaring at me for months#and shes just i have bad eye sight and im shy what did you expect#he isnt super smart or super stupid hes just exceedingly average
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well, it was a pleasure meeting you all, miz.u5 officially killed me, idk how I can recover from this, and I haven't read the story
#STORY PLEASE BE OUT SOON#I NEED MY SOUL TO BE CRUSHED#mi.zu.... frend....#wanna hug her and tell her everything is going to be ok#but... it sure doesn't like it#I COULD RAMBLE ON FOR AGES ABOUT THIS GOD DAMN EVENT#WVEN WITH SO LITTLE INFO#ww ain't recovering from this chat#thoughts of the wind#mizuki tag#caps tw
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people telling me that they used to have a crush on steven and theyre talking to The steven stone yumeshipper is so funny to me
#many occurrences of this topic with different people btw ... /lh#he was the elementary/highschool crush of every young pokemon fan#my dumbass is very late unfortunately#i think it wouldve been so cute if i had a small steven phase with him before... idk idk even watching ppl online say they used to like--#- him is so silly to me. they all ârecoveredâ from the silver dreamboat phase and heres me ... um.#late to the party...? ASDJDFHJGDFD#why wasnt 4th grader me not paying attention to steven when i played ruby/sapphire? BWAHAHAH#then again i think i coincidentally played r/s on the same year that oras was being released. everyone had yet to see his revised look#i can only imagine how many fans were all over him when they found him ...#~ rambling
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why the fuck was my childhood crush orin scrivello. what was wrong with little me
#a lot actually#seymour is my current crush from lsoh now though#ive recovered from that era#little shop of horrors#little shop of horrors 1986#orin scrivello#seymour krelborn#orin lsoh#flowers rambles
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water, running down my face / water, running different ways water, like a billion waves / water, just a tear in space. â§
for my ffxiv oc, eden mercure. prior to enw, he was not a little predisposed to world-shattering grief and causing problems bc of his weary heart. SO, when i got to elpis, it wasn't long before i decided that he was a hermes shard rather than one of azem. it's just too perfect a story.. anyway, please enjoy my love letter to him before dawntrail! and go listen to this song, it's so good
#ffxiv#hermes#warrior of light#ffxiv art#i thought about him crying stars and have been a man possessed for 48 hours.#my ocs#breezyarts#he definitely had some like. mildly fandaniel-esque qualities too so he's really the perfect cocktail between the hermes>amon>etc pipeline#it was so funny to me. and also i cry abt it forever#me when his eyes were the same color as the fandaniel stone azem gets: I have died. badly.#but it makes me happy to have a hermes shard who lives on and recovers when his canon fate is not so relieving. so ya :)#this piece is mostly about the conflict of self love and madness that comes with realizing where your heart comes from#and all the pain tethered to an eternity of course. he loves the stars but i wanted to draw him crushing one too. you understand#fandaniel#ocs#ch: eden mercure
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i think the diamond dogs should play improv games just bc it would amuse me, an ex theater kid, specifically
#ted and beard ofc are reading each others minds#trent is shockingly good at it but only when he forgets to be self conscious#also see: he does both best and worst with ted (best when he's not being self conscious#worst when somehow the prompt gets too touchy or 'romantic' bc Crush Crush Crush Brain Panic)#(please the image of ted in character hugging him or something and trent just. red. brain crashed. no longer improving just frozen. barely#manages to recover and even then it was not subtle. unclear if ted is a) genuinely oblivious b) teasing him and thinks trent knows that#c) something else(??) )#roy is too stiff most of the time but if he gets really into it he gets REALLY into it.#best way to get this result is to involve phoebe or another child#higgins did community theater at some point and is the one teaching them all the games. beard also seems to have done intense research#but higgins is the one with EXPERIENCE#not that i think beard and ted couldn't have done an improv duo in college or something but in this scenario they did not#nate surprisingly is pretty good at it once he gets into it like it takes him a second but#then he's like. really getting into it and he's very quick on his feet#new way to go mad with power (affectionate): the rush you get when you make the perfect snap back comedic line/acting choice#also while trent is so good paired with so many of them i think he and nate would be a hilarious duo. they're SO funny.#they complement each other well and are both quick & clever#esp if it's about a mutual interest (although one of them taking the lead on something else like nate and music while the other plays off t#em is also good) but like#please i just had the iamge of them basically doing a bit where they're like. those mean old gay muppets in the theater?#like trent and nate improv duoing as some bitchy reviewers just going back and forth and it's so FAST and SO funny#beard records it and posts it somewhere and it goes viral.#god don't even get me started on the idea of some sort of official richmond social media/the gang posting random clips on social media#bc the ideas i have are so funny.#also largely trent centric but what do you want from me okay i'm just a little slut.
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hiiii omg introduction to the fact that our Norse AU comes from The Last Unicorn!! so when we mention the Norse gods me and @clusterpuppy have come up with theyâre basically caricatures and different spin offs of the gods but in THIS universe YIPPEEE
but Thor has a silly group of friends he likes to be around on Midgard to escape the craziness on Asgard! From left to right we got Dmitri, Aimery, Billie, Mirche, Roland, Thor himself, and Neisti! Also his goats are featured in this piece too ^u^
close ups!!! back at it again with trying to mimic the shows style but the show does not include characters that look like all of them đ so you see more of my style leaking in this one but itâs okay I had to simplify them as best as I could. Iâll make a masterpost of them all later going into detail!!
#the last unicorn#norse mythology#norse mythology au#norse gods#norse mythology art#norse thor#norse tlu au#procreate#the temptation to give little facts about them is insane#Okay so Dmitri is a ye olden version of a psychologist and psychoanalyzes all of his friends#Aimery is always high. Alwyas got weed. always smoking. He also owns a metaphysical shop of his own with his wife#Billie is actually elven and doesnât really know it!! very little with elven features but was raised by cowboy parents LMAO#Mirche recovers from his addiction to alcohol by drinking copious amounts of tea. and has a crush on the store owner of the tea place. Corny#Roland is a walking compass and map if they donât know where to go heâs got it. also has narcolepsy#Thor is Thor letâs be real guys being the constant defender of everything gets tiring#and neistiâŚ. really sharp shooter and good with a bow but will never hunt bc heâs vegan. also is very very traumatized#girls just wanna have fun! (and itâs a gaggle of middle aged men)#OKAY IM DONE RAMBLING ILL DRAW MORE OF ALL OF THEM LATER#need to draw more of the actual gods for yâall#I promise we got interpretations I promise I think about the plot (genuine)
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