#recovering from a crush

[cantyouseeimtrying]

INTRO PAGE PLEASE READ

Hello and welcome to my new and super cool blog! You can call me star and I generally use he/him pronouns. I'm in high school so please be aware of my immaturity. This super cool and awesome blog is for my self improvement journey! It's also dedicated to Lord Ares.

Why am I going on a self-improvement journey? Because I feel like ✨shit✨. That and I am currently grieving and trying to move on from a very unhealthy crush I have had on a friend. It was borderline obsessive and wasn't healthy for me or them. I think I've been really obsessed with relationships recently, which would usually be considered normal for teenagers, but mine has been, as I said before, obsessive and unhealthy for me and everyone involved.

So this blog is for me to work on myself and record my progress, and then hopefully, someday in the future, I can look back on this blog and see how far I've improved! It's a really exciting idea :)

I am going to do my absolute hardest to tag everything appropriately and put warnings at the top of every post if I think there is something there that could harm someone.

Now the less fun part: rules

This is my blog and account. I am in charge of the content I see and interact with. If you do not agree with the things I like or the things I post, then block me.

Any hate, bigotry, or bullying will be tolerated. I will delete things, I will block people. You get one chance to not be an asshole before you are gone.

DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS BLOG IF

You are over the age of 25, you post p0rn, you are pro @n@, you are transphobic or homophobic, you post purposefully triggering content, you are unaccepting of other people's religions, and you lack critical thinking skills.

PLEASE INTERACT AND BE MY FRIEND IF

you are under 25, you are also on a self-improvement journey, you are a cool little queer person, you are interested in theatre or classics, you are a Hellenic polytheist, you are kind!

My tags cause that's a really cool thing I see people do!

Star reflects -> my super awesome reflections on myself, my life, and my beliefs. These may be sad, they may be happy! That's the joy of reflections :)

Star motivation -> motivation for me or you to live your best life

Star is funny -> my silly little posts/reposts that I found funny and want to share with you ;)

Okay, that's all love you bye!

[kizzer55555]

Core Gems

So when a ghost becomes injured, they have a last ditch defense where they retreat into their core. And I mean, injured badly where their body is rip apart to the point they can’t hold a solid form anymore. And they basically go into a hibernation state until they are strong enough to form again.

Ellie, Danny, and Dan are all injured in a final battle against the GIW. The organization was destroyed and the ghosts were safe but the halfas ended up being so injured that they reverted to core form and then went to sleep for a bit. When they woke up, they were still weak but at least recovered enough to gain consciousness. And realize…they are in some kind of auction…in the middle of a heist. It appeared that two furries (one in a bat costume and one in a cat costume) were ducking it out. And they…they were a necklace. All three of them had been turned into a necklace with their cores as gems accompanied by sapphires, pearls, and opals. And frankly gorgeous craftsmanship as the metal was crafted around their cores as if to cradle them and the other gems.

Unfortunately, they were too weak to take a form properly, they could still feel the strain on their bodies. But at least they could still communicate through their auras. Then the cat lady punched a hole in the glass container surrounding them and grabbed their necklace.

However, the bat grabbed the other end and it resulted in a sort of tug-a-war. Meanwhile, Danny, Ellie, and Dan were having a back and form commentary on the situation and what they should do. Completely unheard by the other party.

In the corner of their eye, the three halfas finally noticed a third contender. Some kind of clown who was…hold on…holding a gun?! And it was pointed straight at the two fighting furies who had yet to notice him. The ghosts’ protective instincts went into overdrive and they frantically tried to shout, yell, move. Just do something to warn the two but their cries fell on deaf ears. All they succeeded in doing was faintly glow which immediatly caught the attention of the fighting duo. The two turned to look at the strange necklace but right at that moment, the clown fired and a gunshot rang throughout the auction room. Having no other options, Danny and the others poured every ounce of ectoplasm they had to try and phaseshift, making the two furries intangible as the bullets passed right through them, but in their shock, the two jumped away in opposite directions and accidentally ripped the necklace apart. Gems and pearls went flying and the three cores bounced along the ground.

Luckily, the two finally noticed the clown and went to deal with him and his minions who had appeared. Seemingly putting their fight on hold and forming a temporary truce. The three halfas could only watch as the battle finally wound down, ending with the cops barging into the place and arresting the clown and his grunts, the cat managing to escape with half the scattered gems and pearls from the broken necklace along with a few other jewelry pieces (none of their cores though) and the bat leaving through a skylight.

The auction continued and in the end, despite being broken, their necklace seemed to have caught someone’s interest. A man named Bruce Wayne bought up every piece of the shattered jewelry wear. The auctioneers appeared relived that the item managed to sell in the end and gratefully gave it to him.

Bruce had no idea what happened at the auction, but he could have sworn that some of the gems faintly glowed right before he and Selina were shot. If the necklace was some sort of magical item, then he needed to understand exactly what has been brought to Gotham. It was unfortunate that Selena had taken some parts of the necklace but he utilized his vast wealth to make sure all the other parts ended in his possession. Now he would take them back to the mansion for examination.

[autism-swagger]

I love comparing s1 Skye and s4 Daisy. Like awww her spark is gone and all the light has died in her eyes 😊

[lilianade-comics]

desperately trying not to crash out and deactivate my Tumblr before the DP fantasy zine drops

[waywardangel-wilds]

I ask for so little.

[loren91]

Something about how the last time Simon wore the purple shirt all buttoned up he thought he would spend the weekend with Wille 💜

[burning-academia-if]

Honestly I was set on the beck/rook poly but starting to think of going for a beck solo route tbh. I could see my mc giving up his crush on rook and decide to see how things with beck go. My process went from solo rook to poly to solo beck

Tbh I just really like the angst of having a crush on Rook(past) and solo romancing Beck lol it's a very fun dynamic

[articwolfclawartist]

*insert “be careful of the boys you ignore in middle school” incel joke here*

Modern AU that I made purely for the growth spurt joke. Yugo’s time in the Necroworld was actually an allegory for male puberty

Originally just wanted to make their clothing as adults evocative of their royal attire but ended up making them all blends of multiple outfits

[eric-coldfire]

Sees a clip of Falcon being punched by Red Hulk, blocking the blow with his wings and Cap's shield, sent flying and bouncing off a pair of a cars.

Honest reaction:

[specialfanboying]

i appreciate how the nozomi pov endings are fun but like ultimately pretty normal meanwhile the hiruko and eito pov ones are just the most soulcrushing shit ever

like you get nozomi final girl-ing it up compared to hiruko going back to certain death while holding takumi's body and promising to not give up hope as they burn and eito realizing far too late that he wants companionship and dying while earnestly praying for the group to be happy (when with full context. they certainly will not be). like The Cursed Cycle and Praying For Your Happiness are good, great ways to get your heart stomped into tiny littl epieces, but the contrast is just a little stark

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Omg...... Like Mother, Like Daughter is doomed Yuri (half yuri? One sided yuri?). TT0TT Sol doesn't feel the same way I'm pretty sure (sadly), but Som is DEF down bad. TT0TT And Som's not exactly the most mentally stable jakfjdksalfj (I think she has a bit of a "Sol's my pet" vibe going on as well. Som means well but she is NOT healthy either jfakslfj oh this is just going to be a fucking wreck I'm ready let's GO!)

(spoilers under cut, also under cut cause length and pictures)

Like she saw the boy Sol is hanging out with and was just ">:("

*sobbing* She is SO DONE when she finds out they are dating TT0TT

*sobs* ahhhh! klasjfdk OhmyGOAD SHE is tREMBLING as Sol tells her how she got with the guy TT0TT

She is literally SULLEN that Sol and guy have been dating FOR A MONTH! she looks os SICK TT0TT

My poor girl is literally doing the Arthur fist clench with her fist TT0TT

Som! Som! Girlie! I don't think this is just a friendship for you anymore.

LKFJDASKLFJKLAJFKL WAIT

"Anyone can see at first glance that he's good for nothing. But how does she not see that?"

OHHHHH MY GOD SHE'S LIEK 'HE SMELLY. HE STANK. HE POOR. HE BROKE. HE TOO NORMAL FOR HER." GURL! GET OFF THE FLOOOOOR!

"To be honest, I wish they'd break up" NO YOU DON'T SAY???? nEVER WOULD'VE GUESS!

Oh I was just here for the matricide but I've been blessed with more angst! Let's goooooo!!!!!!!!!

[ladyofthelake]

Im super fucked up about that Gwaine post I just reblogged because

Merlin would have had zero tears left to shed, he was utterly spent and broken yet would be told he had lost Gwaine too and he died without ever fully knowing him? I mean at least Arthur and Lancelot knew his secret at the end and that is <3 but fuck me how the fuck why the fuck on the same day WHAT THE FUCK would he bury him in the lake too OH GOD did Percival carry him to the lake so they could say goodbye??? THE LIST OF PEOPLE GROWS LONGER THAT MERLIN LETS GO ON THE LAKE

and wow one day it would be Gaius...and Hunith...and Gwen...until Camelot crumbles and Merlin wanders and waits...alone...1500 years later I

[socialtomcat]

tshirt that says “i ❤️ benefitting from my father’s impulse purchases”

[sangre]

water, running down my face / water, running different ways water, like a billion waves / water, just a tear in space. ✧

for my ffxiv oc, eden mercure. prior to enw, he was not a little predisposed to world-shattering grief and causing problems bc of his weary heart. SO, when i got to elpis, it wasn't long before i decided that he was a hermes shard rather than one of azem. it's just too perfect a story.. anyway, please enjoy my love letter to him before dawntrail! and go listen to this song, it's so good

[shatinn]

Love and deepspace - Sylus - Magnum Opus - 1

(whatyoumeanSyluswhatyoumeaaanbythisomgwhatyoumean?)

[flowersandfashion]

“I love you. I love you. I love you. I'll write it in waves. In skies. In my heart. You'll never see, but you will know. I'll be all the poets, I'll kill them all and take each one's place in turn, and every time love's written in all the strands it will be to you.”

– Max Gladstone, This Is How You Lose The Time War