#raz’s smile!

[coyging]

[2hoothoots]

you mentioned phoebe, now you have to dish on phoebe!! what's she doing?? what's she like as raz's roomie??

phoebe!! she's a cool kid!

i think out of all of the campers, Phoebe seems the most set on becoming a Psychonaut. she's just as passionate about it as Raz himself, and i think when they move in together she's been working a couple months as a new agent. she'd been sharing an apartment with Quentin, but after taking a year or so to think about his options he decides the Psychonauts aren't for him and goes to study music at college. so they're both young adults who have just started out on what they always thought would be their dream job... and figuring out what that actually looks like, in practice.

i think Raz and Phoebe make really good foils, because in so many ways they're so similar! they're both very passionate and dedicated people, they're both longtime performers (Raz with his acrobatics, Phoebe with her music), and obviously they both really care about the work they're doing with the Psychonauts. and that makes it a lot of fun to highlight their differences, too!

for Phoebe, her music is about expressing herself, about taking her feelings and letting them out through performance. she doesn't make art for anyone except herself. but Raz can't get over the fact that whenever he performs, it's for a crowd, and he needs people to enjoy it - because growing up, if people didn't come to their shows, they didn't eat*. he can never really get over the idea that his art has to be for someone, that it has to be good to be worthwhile.

i think they both have very strong opinions on their work, too! Raz's specialty is psychotherapy, projecting himself into peoples' minds. i see Phoebe as much more into the talking therapy side of things! they have long arguments about appropriate boundaries with patients, and hands-on vs hands-off techniques, and about how this study showed sixty percent improvement in the first session with this technique (but that study cites that the long-term benefits are less in comparison, so actually-)

in my head, there's a bit of a teething period for the first week or so when Raz moves in, and after that they just click. sometimes too-similar personalities can be like oil and water, but i think they're on a mutually compatible wavelength. they're diving into deep conversations at 1am, because they each see enough of themselves in the other person (and are both unrepentant armchair psychoanalysts) to get into the really revealing stuff. they write and record a concept album together about having a tense relationship with your family growing up, Phoebe on drums and Raz on acoustic guitar and both of them sharing the vocals. it sucks! but it's cathartic for them both! Phoebe's still got a copy of it on cassette somewhere in the back of her collection

(* the Aquato family are poor, but in my head they were never seriously at risk of going hungry. however Donatella definitely catastrophised enough times about a show going wrong and the whole family having to eat watered-down gruel for the next month that it stuck in little Raz's mind, hahaha)

[keperaz]

evening commute

[13dps]

no mom we didnt just "take a trip to the beramuda triangle"..there was a theme song and everything

[theyaremanycolours]

Thinking about Raz, I feel like Raz was always going to leave the Aquato Family Circus.

The Aquatos love each other, but it's all weighed down by this immense psiphobia and underlying tension from the unintended conditional-ness of said love because while they would ultimately choose their love for Raz over the hatred for psychics, Raz especially had good reason to think that they would despise him.

The pamphlet merely spurred him into action at ten rather than sixteen, and gave him hope for changing his family's minds rather than the bitterness of a suppressed teenage-hood.

The only way I can see him staying is if the Aquatos did actually change their minds and decided to give up the Psiphobia, he never got the reassurance of True Psychic Tales that his powers weren't evil, or if he was completely crushed emotionally.

And for the last two, if left alone, Raz would probably not survive.

[mithrilhearts]

My favorite fic of yours - Dragonhearted

My favorite chapter in my favorite fic of yours - The ones with Ori :D

The best character you've written for - Ori LOL

The best ship you've written for - Bagginshield

A fic I haven't read yet from you, but I want to - Your second S&D, your second Thauc

Something I remember vividly from reading one of your fics - Berries, nose twitches, beard scratches...and being very afraid for Ori

What made me the most emotional after reading - When I thought the Shadow dwarves were dead :(

What I like the most about your writing - How engaging and captivating it is...

A fic i'm excited for you updating/posting - The Bodyguard fic

A character/ship I didn't enjoy/think about as much before you wrote about them - Bagginshield 100%

Something I wish/hope you write - More Ori

A fic of yours that i've re-read - Dragonhearted, your Acorn Drabbles

If i've ever shared/talked about your fic to someone else - DUH!

A fic I didn't expect to like so much - The Vampire Story!

A question I have about one of your fics - Where is Ori????

(I am nothing if not predictable!!!)

I can't believe it. You went through all the questions 😭 and let me tell you, reading through all of these has made me cry more than once. I've been feeling really down lately about my quality as a fic writer and what I bring to the table (among more real personal problems lately boo), and this did definitely cheer me up.

To see so many various fics you enjoy, the thing you remember from them and take away, it's just...so heart-warming.

Cries again.

But man!!! I am so excited about the Bodyguard AU too!! And I am happy to feature some more Ori in my fics!!! (That's where he's at btw, lost somewhere in my stories lmao)

Thank you so much my friend, for being some sunshine on my rather gloomy, cloudy, thunderous days.

(I am not linking all of my fics, but you can find them on my masterlist -> here)

[mirchloe]

what's really nice about the campers is how realistic their writing is. they can't all be "plucky" or willing to save the world like raz and lili, such as how although phoebe wants to be an agent, or offer therapeutical services, she's far more than willing to let raz handle it when asked. they each have their own dramas and social circles. everyone knows each other and has their opinions on each other like jt being hesitant to address bobby about stealing elka's profile because he's clearly worried more about aggravating elka than infuriating bobby. maloof's "journey" to becoming the top dog around whispering rock is completely compelling and told in a way that isn't rushed - he builds a bond with mikhail, and mikhail, with his own sense of jusice, is fine with assisting maloof. it's the smaller moments, too, like chloe's gentler, more considerate side shown to bobby compared to how she's far blunter with raz and nils.

i know there's been criticism about how clem and crystal were handled, but in regards to their personalities, what's written still fits. they're a great duo in how they separately deal with their negative thoughts, self-worth issues, suicidal ideation, etc, where crystal is still kind enough to believe people can be better while clem, with his abusive father, leans more into pessimism and dark humor to cope. it's make them fascinating individuals, but more importantly, they're great examples in how, for kids, being mistreated can manifest into those aforementioned feelings and how they're dealt with.

[astarioffsimpmain]

Unsolicited Affections (Part 2)

[Far Left & Right Screenshots + Tav by @brabblesblog & Center Screenshot by Raz]

Halsin x Plus Size F!Reader

Warnings: Body insecurity; internalized fatphobia; Halsin is a sweetheart

Synopsis: Halsin's cure for your ailments isn't exactly what you expected, but you're not exactly upset about it.

Author's Note: Thank you again to Ban and Raz for the wonderful screenshots! This one is where we dig really deep, everybody. Settle in with your comfort items and prepare for some Halsitherapy. <3 I hope you all enjoy, and get ready for some spice in Part 3!

Part 1 Here | Part 3 Here

Your hands shook as you made your way toward Halsin's tent near the edge of camp. He had insisted on being the first line of defense from any unwelcome visitors as a way to repay you all for saving his grove from the shadow curse, and while at first you had argued, you stopped short after witnessing the earnestness in those beautiful green eyes. He wanted to do this. He wanted to protect you all. So you had relented, and had found it nearly impossible to say no to him since.

You clamped your hands together and steadied your breaths. "Gods, get it together. He's just going to check over your cuts and bruises like always." You reasoned, chastising yourself for even taking your vampiric friend's words into consideration. "I'm nothing more than a good Samaritan to him. He is being kind in response to my kindness, nothing more." You reminded yourself, doing your best to ignore the way your heart ached sharply at the admonition. You wanted to hope, but you couldn’t afford it. Wrenching your hands with one another, you stepped up to Halsin's tent and awaited his appearance. 

"There you are." His soothing voice rumbled in your ear after several disarming seconds of silence and you would have toppled over in surprise had a strong arm not wrapped firmly around your waist to steady you. The Druid pulled you against his front and you nearly lost all of the breath in your lungs to the feeling of being tucked against him. He was solid, 7 feet of muscle mass, beautifully encased by the soft ripple of tanned skin that pillowed ever so slightly to accommodate you being pressed against it. You had never been this close to him before and your mind blanked as your heart hammered painfully against your ribcage. 

"Yep, here I am." You managed to sound playfully flippant, unable to reveal your true feelings, despite how desperately you wanted to jump into his arms. "I really do think I'm alright, Halsin. Nothing more than a scrape here or a bruise there."

"Physically, you seem well for wear, but I sense something bothering you, and I'd like to help, if you'll allow me. So please, follow me. I believe I have just the remedy." He smiled down at you, at last releasing you from his hold, which sent confusing waves of both relief and disappointment coursing through you. 

"Well… alright. I'll see what you have in mind." You mused, shrugging your shoulders and missing the way his eyes glinted in the light pulsing from the plants around you. You fell into step beside him, giddy at the prospect of spending more time with him. You figured this was as close to the Druid as you would ever get, so you relished each moment you spent by his side. You tried not to think about what would happen in the future. If you didn't end up the product of a non-consented ceremorphosis, what then? Where would you go? You knew it was likely that you'd never see Halsin again; that he'd return to the Grove to resume his position as Archdruid and that you'd end up somewhere far away, working some tavern job to survive. Hollowness carved its way through your chest, more painful than any knife, and you suddenly had to take a steadying breath to keep up with your companion's long strides. 

‘Don’t think on it now,’ you chastised yourself silently, instead forcing a glance to the towering man beside you. He was relaxed, walking in a gate slow enough for you to keep up without much effort. A soft smile decorated his beautiful lips and his green eyes reflected the serenity of the darkness surrounding them. There was not much peace in the Underdark, but what little there was, you found with Halsin. Soon, the path he led you on tapered into a clearing of stone and rocks, and in the very center, a small lake. A gasp escaped your lips at the sight. It was beautiful. The water hummed with the glow of bioluminescent lichen from beneath the surface, growing in scattered mounds at the bottom of the body of water. From the surrounding rocks and the looming trees hung glowing moss, their effervescence bathing you and Halsin in a soft blue light. 

"Halsin, this is stunning." You breathed out quietly, taking in the scene before you. 

"It is, is it not? Even here in the Underdark, a form of nature prevails and finds a way to create beauty. It inspired me when I found it. I have checked the water many times over, and it is safe for submersion." He replied, looking across the lake with a sense of pride that he could only find in what was natural. Several more seconds of awe passed through you before the implications of his words connected in your mind. 

"Oh, uhm…" you sputtered, your mind beginning to reel away from the scene before you and into your own insecurities. 'Oh gods, he's talking about swimming! I can't just swim in my clothes; can I? Maybe I can. He can't see me bare! Hells, he'd never look at me again!' Your thoughts ran away with you and you stood there, unmoving and unresponsive, and Halsin took notice. 

"My heart, please be silent no longer. What is it that troubles you?" He coaxed softly, fingers trailing over your arm with a gentleness that should not be possible from a man his size. When you did not react, he reached forward with the same fingers and curved them under your chin, turning your head to face him. Your eyes met his, wide and afraid, and his other hand came up to cup your cheek, his fingers wrapping around the back of your head as he settled into the hold. 

"Oh-" was all you managed to mumble before Halsin's lips were on yours; tender, loving. 'Gods..' your mind was racing.

You practically moaned into his mouth when he abandoned your chin to wrap his arm around your back, pulling you flush against him, the hard planes of his body sending electric shockwaves through you at an alarming rate. All thoughts from moments ago had scattered and you were awash with a feeling more overwhelming than anything you could ever remember experiencing. You weren't sure how your arms had made it around the Druid's neck, or when he had hoisted you into his arms, but when you finally parted for air, your ankles were crossed behind Halsin's back and he stood ankle deep in the lake, holding you in a vice grip against him. His eyes locked with yours and the green of his irises was overshadowed by how large his pupils were blown, staring at you like he held the world in his arms. You were made breathless all over again and felt your cheeks warm. 

"I- gods… Halsin, I-" you sputtered, your words still not having returned to you quite yet. 

"I do hope I have not been careless, my heart." He said lowly, his voice betraying a hint of uncertainty. "If I have misconceived your heart, I deeply apologize."

"I- no! Halsin, I- it was incredible. It was… it was everything, I had no idea. I never thought you would feel that way about- about me." You shook your head in surprise, a breathless chuckle escaping you. "Of all people." You added, attempting to seem at least somewhat put together in front of this incredibly handsome man who had just kissed you senseless. 

A confused look passed across Halsin's features. "You speak as though you are disbelieving. You saved me. You saved my home, knowing I could do little to pay you back in return. You are incessantly kind to me, and understanding of my position, my condition-" He paused, his voice cracking with barely hidden emotion, and you reached a tentative hand to his cheek, brushing your fingertips across it gently in hopeful comfort. You let out a shaky exhale as he leaned almost desperately into your touch, his eyes having fallen closed. "You are a wonder, my heart. Nature could not possibly have made a more divine creature." 

Your heart swelled, and the thorny vines that had grown around it over time began to prick it painfully, letting it bleed into Halsin's. You sniffled as a tear escaped your eye and cascaded down your cheek, and green eyes met yours once more. It was time. He deserved to know. "I-" you took a deep breath, steadying yourself. "It seems so foolish now, in the face of everything you've said to me."

"If it troubles you this deeply, it cannot be foolish." He corrected you gently, and you nodded, another tear falling down your face. He kissed them away like it was the most natural solution in the world and you giggled; a strained, breathless thing, riddled with leftover pain, shock, and love - gods, so much love. 

You curled your fingers into his chestnut brown locks and fiddled with his braids while you sorted out the correct way to begin. Halsin waited on you patiently, stroking the undersides of your thighs with his thumbs as he continued to hold you far above the water below. "I have never been perceived as beautiful. The- uhm… well, the world has decided on an idea of what beautiful is, and I simply don't fit. I never have. No matter what I tried or how hard I tried it… I never became that ideal. I've come to accept, at this point, that I was never meant to be that. I have always and will always take up more space than most people. I will always have trouble finding clothes. I will always be more difficult to pick up and swing around. I will always be too large, in all the wrong ways." Tears were streaming from your eyes now, vehicles of the pain you carried deep in your heart running out to join the water around you. "I have always been told that someone will find beauty in me eventually, that someone will find me worthy of love, but there's a hesitancy in their eyes; a question in their gaze. 'Should I tell her this? Should I raise her hopes like this?' But even with all of their good intentions, I have only ever been ignored, or used and tossed away." 

A little sob escaped you and you clapped a hand over your mouth to quiet it, but lips pressed firmly against your knuckles and you blinked through your tears to look at the Druid. "Do not hide your pain from me, my heart. I wish to see all of you, to love all of you. I wish for you to know my heart as well as my body, and I want the same from you." Your hand returned to his shoulder and he nuzzled your nose with his own. "You should never have had to know such heartache. You shine brighter than any sun, and had they not already been blind, perhaps they would have seen that." He murmured the words you had been longing to hear all your life into your mouth like a prayer, and then he kissed you with such earnestness that you thought you would melt away and become a part of the lake beneath you. 

You cried through the kiss, your tears wetting Halsin's cheeks along with your own, but he only held you tighter, his fingers finding purchase in the dips your thighs readily made for his grip. When your lips parted, only far enough for air to play across them, Halsin murmured, his voice low, "Let us bathe together, my sweet." 

fin

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[nrdmssgs]

Respectfully I need to rip off nikto's face mask and take a bite of his face😌

Masterlist

Love, this shit bites back. Let him as close as you dare to, take off that mask, tease him, you restless mischief. You think, you will be done after one playful bite? How wrong of you. How naive.

Nikto’s teeth raze your ear, that low chuckle rumbling through you. Such a light body - so easy to scoop, carry wherever he pleases. Or maybe just shove you against the wall, lock your wrists in a steel grip above your head, pin you down.

"A yeshcho raz smozhesh?*" You wouldn't see his grin, but smile lines brushing against your soft cheek will show you, how welcoming is he about your little teeth.

No need for a translation - you feel, it's a dare. Impatient, hungry and therefore rushed. No sense of tact in this man, no manners.

So you open your mouth in an attempt to leave a few marks down his jawline, but he's faster. Catches your lower lip with a growl, gives it a little squeeze. A warning. Or maybe an invitation.

And then he bites. Nikto doesn't even close his eyes as he drinks you in. You ever witnessed a heart of the blizzard growing dark? You're about to - just don't move away. Look him right in the eyes as he starts devouring you.

"A yeshcho raz smozhesh?*" - "You think you can do it again?"

[barrenclan]

Wait a minute...

More seriously though, the issues keep getting better and better and this has been one of my favorite ones to date; thank you Raz! It paid off as well on its own to get an explanation for one of the most heavily foreshadowed phenomena in the comic, but especially for me, reading as someone who thinks too much about how my dreams might reveal information that I'm not meant to know yet, canon Warriors StarClan ambiguity-style.

Love the expressions (and the cameos! I want to know how Dodol or a lookalike ended up in Barrenclan or if that's just his design being recycled) in this one as well. Double instances of Pinepaw smiling again is a treat, maybe signifying the beginning of the healing process for him. I'm happy Nightberry advises him that it's going to take time.

Seeing an older Pinepaw with green grass and a blue border in a shade that I'm pretty sure has never come up in the comic yet also gives me hope for the future, but who knows what it holds!

Thank you! I'm so glad you enjoyed the issue.

This universe's Dodol is separate from the original one, in a sort of AU. Although, out of all my cat characters, he's the only one for whom it's perfectly reasonable that he would just wander into a random Nebraskan Clan and sit himself down.

It was very nice and satisfying to bring some resolution to Nightberry and Pinepaw's fracturous relationship. They have much more in common than not.

[woso-lover234]

Matilda’s x (teen) reader- beach day

Before the end of the camp after the Olympic qualifiers everyone promised you (and harper and Harley) that you guys would go to the beach. After a lot of talks with the older girls from staff they finally agreed so the next day the girls were due to head off.

The morning they were due for the beach trip Caitlin woke you up early so we would be able to find a good spot on the beach as that is what everyone agreed on minus mini and Tameka due to having kids with them.

After you groggily got up and complained to Caitlin it was too early and she just rubbed your back and helped you get ready.

"Do you think someone will teach me how to surf?" You asked Caitlin who nodded

"I'm sure if you ask nice enough they will say yes and teach you if you wanted" she replied as your smile grew.

On the car ride there you were stuck between Kyra and Charli and demanded they play I spy with you which they agreed to. After a few rounds you all started getting competitive and Caitlin, Alanna and macca (finally being the responsible ones) shut the game down so the three of you had to sit in silence the rest of the 5 minute journey.

Once you all got to the beach the older girls all set up their towels and umbrellas and just as you were about to make a quick break for the water mini grabbed your arm

"Sunscreen" she said putting it in the hand she had grabbed as you groaned

"Do I have to?" You asked and a few of the girls that were around heard and laughed

"We may love you but the sun doesn't really love you which means your gonna burn without this and I don't want to deal with that" mini said which caused more laughter from the girls and a sigh from you as you nodded and mini made quick work of rubbing some on your face, neck and ears.

"Can we go in now?" You asked as you were waiting on your towel for a 'responsible adult' to be ready and go in with you which ruled out macca and Kyra who were the only ones ready and actually wanting to go in the water.

"Just wait another minute y/n/n I'll come in a sec I gotta let my sunscreen set" Charli said from beside you as you kept chucking longing glances at the water which felt so close yet so far to you.

After Charli had deemed that her sunscreen had set you, her, Kyra, macca, Caitlin and Sam headed into the water.

"Is no one else coming in?" You asked shocked so much of them decided to skip to opportunity to go in the ocean.

"I think teagan and raz are coming in, in a bit" macca replied just as she got splashed with water by you as you laughed like it was the funniest thing in the world "your gonna regret that" macca said smiling deviously as she advanced towards you as you tried to cower away behind Caitlin.

"Nuh uh" Caitlin said tryna move from infront of you "stay away from me" Caitlin finally moved from infront of you

"Traitor" you yelled at her as she pushed you towards macca as you then screamed which made the group around you laugh. You then caught sight of teagan and raz coming into the ocean and quickly swam towards them and hid behind the two before putting on an innocent act.

After a while of swimming you decided you wanted to surf. You came back to the shore asking all of the Matildas if they knew how to surf before you settled on lyds. Lyds grabbed a board and headed into the water with you to teach you some basics and hopefully by the end get you on some waves.

After a few failed attempts which between all of the Matildas on the beach had been filmed, you were starting to get that hang of it. You called out to lani and told her to watch this so Alanna took it upon herself to film it as lyds said a nice wave was coming. All of the Matildas on the beach and the rest that were scattered in the water watched with anticipation. You caught the wave and stood up smiling and throwing your fists in the air

"NAILED ANOTHER SPORT!" You yelled having finally gotten the hang of it before being smashed by a wave and unbeknownst to you lani had gotten all of that (including your fall) on camera.

After finally wearing yourself out after spending atleast 4 hours in the water and some out to reapply sunscreen, which you were forced to do or would have to stay in the shade next to lani, you came out of the ocean and laid on your towel. Steph was next to you and started patting your hair and detangling it a bit due to it being messy from the water and she didn't want to have to deal with it all later. She adjusted the umbrella to shade most of your body from the sun which Steph found hard eventhough you were wearing long sleeved bathers with shorts but Steph eventually managed it.

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*the video of you surfing and saying you mastered another sport with lani writing 'wouldn't say mastered with all the attempts it took @y/n.y/l/n'

Once everyone realised you were having a little nap they were all interested to see what you would say when she woke up as it was always hilarious. When you started to stir everyone pulled their phones out but mini due to holding a sleeping harper and Steph due to running her fingers through your hair gently as to not hurt you or wake you up too fast.

"There's sand in my bed" you grumbled rubbing your eyes as everyone laughed.

After you had fully woken up you were ready to go back in the water again.

"Who wants to go back in the water with me?!" You yelled so all the Matildas that are still there can hear you

"I'll come" teagan says as you both go to the water

When lani and Steph look back out they see Tegan piggybacking you into the ocean so you're barely making contact with the water. Alanna laughs filming it to post on her Instagram story

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*the video of you getting a piggyback from Teagan with the writing 'I thought she said she wanted to go back IN the ocean @y/n.y/l/n @teaganmikah'

After splashing around in the water with Teagan and playing mermaids with Cait, macca, Sam and Kyra you had fully worn yourself out and retreated back to the shore, slightly red (which would most likely go more red soon) and really hungry. Shortly after everyone left and as soon as you got back to the hotel you were in the shower to rid yourself of the salt, sand and smell of the ocean from your body. After that you enjoyed a peaceful dinner with the team before gathering in Alanna and maccas room for team bonding where you promptly fell asleep on Caitlin and everyone now realised how sunburnt you truly were

[ssspace-cadet]

mmm lil self indulgent but cg!Vander from Arcane? yes? maybe?

like you cannot look at that man and tell me he doesn’t give amazing hugs. if you asked for a hug he would press your head into his chest gently, no explanation needed. a large hand splayed on your back holding you secure, the other tangled gently in your hair, fingertips brushing through the strands.

on long, sleepless nights, he would stay up with you, telling stories of his own adventures, until he finds you snoring gently while leaning on his shoulder. with a soft sigh and a gentle smile he carries you to bed, tucking you in with a soft kiss to your head.

i feel like he would hum soft melodies while he tidied up The Last Drop, twirling you around while cleaning. wiping down counters and washing dishes, either letting you watch or, if you really wanna help, letting you sweep the floors. but only a small portion.

(i’ve only watched two episodes and im already in love with the show. so painful, but so good.)

pictures are not mine!

banner credit: @dollywons

[32bitterra]

(August 25 - August 31 2023)

Last of August

Donatella apologizes to Raz (and more things under the cut.)

Next scene: Raz ignites Dion with pyrokinesis

"It is not just a little spark. It is a flame; a big roaring flame. I can feel it now ... it is burning, Burning, BURNING. ...Hey, something IS burning around here."

Hearing Dion say the corniest shit imaginable.

Oh hey, and I drew Dion "apologizing" too:

Misha saying thank you. (Misha smiled.)

I know I'm not the first to draw anthro versions of Kitty and Quentin, but here's my take on em.

I wasn't expecting the line when Raz shows her the button to hit me so hard. She's hanging out with some weeds (primarily ones that people only want to get rid of.)

I don't wanna end on a sad note, so I'll let you have the early sketch of the Frazie BLECH drawing (I thought Raz looked funny so I held onto it.)

See you next time

[raz-writes-the-thing]

masterlist squared

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first masterlist (full - link limit)

second masterlist (full - link limit)

third masterlist (ongoing)

raz's quick fix fics

unpredictable masterlist (Ian Malcolm x OFC multi-chaptered fic - ongoing)

currently musing for: Wade Wilson, Betelgeuse, Simon Riley, Captain John Price, Negan (will also write other characters though)

fandoms are in alphabetical order (Bad Samaritan, Beetlejuice, The Boys, Broadchurch, Call of Duty, Deadpool, Doctor Who, Good Omens, House of The Dragon, Jurassic Park, Marvel, Our Flag Means Death, Primeval, Prodigal Son, Secret Smile, Six of Crows/Shadow and Bone, Supernatural, The Walking Dead, X-Men)

current anons: 💙 ⭐️ 🍓 🕷 🦘🪷 🐝 🛐 🫶 🍃 🍞🐢🌒🎀🌈🐬🐍🍿🌌🐉🥐🐇🏅

[bcdrawsandwrites]

Day 19: Taken for granted / Left behind / "Why wasn't I enough?" Characters: Razputin Aquato, Mirtala Aquato Warnings: Brief description of drowning Summary: Raz has a nightmare, and Mirtala overhears.

The jet was finally started up! Or Raz was pretty sure it was, anyway. Okay, guys! We're ready to go! he called out over telepathy, and watched as everyone immediately came pouring out of the base. They were all talking hurriedly, and ran right past him without looking back.

W-wait, guys! What about me?! he cried, watching helplessly. He couldn't move, and he realized with horror that his body was still inside the rapidly-flooding base.

"Five seconds to self-destruct," the PA system announced cheerfully. "Four—"

Wait!

"—three—"

Don't leave me!

"—two—"

GUYS?!

They filed into the jet, which began to rise.

"—one!"

DON'T LEAVE—

His mental voice was drowned out by a deafening explosion that combined with the roar of water as he was catapulted out of the hangar and, somehow, into the ocean. The water was freezing and clung to him, and he couldn't breathe, and the hands of Galochio grabbed him and pulled him further down. He tried to call out for help, but his mental voice felt too weak and dazed to speak, somehow like he was surrounded by psilirium, but he tried to call out again, and again, and the hand of Galochio began to shake him—

"Raz!"

Groaning, Raz blinked to find that he was not underwater, though he was drenched in sweat. It was dark, and he could feel blankets clinging to him, though he was still being shaken.

"Raz, wake up!"

"I'm awake," he grumbled, finally pushing himself up to a seated position. He was in his cot, and Mirtala was sitting next to him. Even in the dim light of the stars peeking through the open tent, he could see her big eyes staring at him.

"You were having a nightmare!" she whispered, though her tone betrayed her excitement. "What were you dreaming about? Getting eaten by bears? Or by sharks? I had a dream I got chased by a shark once!"

"Nah, nothing like that," Raz replied, smiling at Mirtala's questions. He thought for a moment, trying to remember what he'd been dreaming about, and shuddered. "I just... dreamed I'd been left behind."

"Like that time we left Queepie behind?"

"What? No. We didn't leave him behind. He jumped out of the caravan just to see if he could stick the landing." He rolled his eyes at the memory. "He did, which is why mom didn't kill him when we found him again."

"So you dreamed we left you behind?"

"No, I dreamed I was back on a mission I'd been on. We had to leave a base before it exploded—"

"WOAH!"

"I know, right? And I had to start up the jet so we could get out of there. But I was astral projecting, and—"

Mirtala blinked.

Raz faltered, wondering how to put it. While it was nice not having to hide his psychic powers from his family anymore, it wasn't easy explaining the more complicated psychic powers to his non-psychic family. "So... it's like I wasn't in my body—I was in the body of a fish... person."

"You transformed?!"

"No, no, my body was still there—I was just in a different one."

His sister's brow furrowed as she took this information in before she suddenly let out a gasp. "Like a ghost?!"

"No, Tala. There's no such thing as ghosts, and—" He stopped, staring into her big, shiny eyes, and sighed. "Yeah, like a ghost."

"COOL!" Mirtala exclaimed, grinning.

"It is pretty cool," Raz admitted. "So, I was in this fish person's body, and told everyone that the jet was started up and ready to leave. I saw them all run out, but... it felt like they were leaving me behind. I kinda forgot I wasn't in my body, so I got scared when they didn't even look at where my astral projection ghost was."

"Oh no!"

"They all got onto the jet, which flew away, and the base exploded!"

"Did you die?!" Mirtala leaned forward, eyes nearly bugging out of her head.

Raz's excitement at recounting his adventure immediately dropped. "No, Tala, I didn't die."

"Just checking!"

"It turned out they brought my body onboard. A second later, I was back in my own body. But..." he sighed, curling in on himself. "Before that happened, it... really felt like I'd been left behind."

For once, Mirtala went quiet. Slowly she crept closer to him until she was sitting right by his side. "So that's what your nightmare was about?"

"Yeah." He sat quietly for a moment before shaking his head and loosening up. "But—I'm okay! They didn't really leave me behind, and I know they wouldn't. It just... scared me, is all."

Again, Mirtala was quiet. Just when Raz was about to say that he was ready to go back to sleep, his sister whispered: "I was scared, too."

Raz's brow furrowed, and before he could protest that she hadn't been there, she went on:

"When you left us behind."

Her words hit him like a shock of cold water.

"I-I thought you didn't want to be family anymore." She sniffled and rubbed her face on her sleeve. "I thought we weren't gonna see you again."

Raz hugged her as her words sunk in. He'd never once considered how it would look from his family's side—his thoughts had entirely been on getting to Whispering Rock and becoming a Psychonaut. "No, Tala. I wasn't planning on being gone forever. I'll never, ever leave you guys behind, okay?"

Mirtala sniffled, hugging him back. "Okay, Raz." She went quiet again, then, "We're not gonna leave you behind, either."

Smiling, Raz hugged her tighter. "Glad to hear i—"

BONK!

A pine cone bounced off his head.

"Would you be quiet?! Some of us are trying to sleep!"

"Okay, okay," Raz grumbled, rubbing his head.

"I'm gonna go back to bed," Mirtala whispered, slipping off the cot and creeping out of the tent.

"Tala?"

She looked back at him, blinking.

"Thanks for being a cool sister."

Mirtala grinned. "Thanks for being a cool brother! Even though you're kinda dumb sometimes."

Raz raised an eyebrow, but she was already leaving. Snickering quietly to himself, he settled back into bed, and into a sleep free from nightmares.

[mirchloe]

kicking and scuffing the ground because i forgot to write something frazienorma related for lesbian day of visibility....what the goddamn....