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The thing is they’re all foils of each other, you’re supposed to see each of them in everyone, Katniss and Peeta and Gale (though nobody really cares about him, sorry dude) in Sejanus and Lucy Gray and Coryo. There’s Katniss in Lucy Gray’s singing and the mockingjays, in the curtsy, in their similar looks; in Sejanus’s ‘act first think later’ reaction, in the way they honor the dead and how they want to protect the innocent; in Coryo’s distrust of people’s motivations, the way he second guesses everything, in their survival being the first thing in their mind in dangerous situations, in their food insecurity, there’s a reason that Katniss says the two of them have always understood each other. There’s Sejanus in Gale’s righteous fury, the fire he has, the fierce morality, there’s Lucy Gray in his loyalty and honesty, there’s Coryo in the way he gets taken under the wing of a powerful and prominent adult (Dr Gaul for Coryo, Coin and Beetee for Gale) as a teenager, manipulated and offered power and used to create atrocities in the name of a greater good. You see Peeta and Lucy Gray paralleled as performers in a hunt, using their charm rather than physical ability; Sejanus shown in Peeta’s compassion for others and in the symbol of bread, given to save Katniss for starvation, sprinkled over the bodies of the dead tributes; you see Coryo in Peeta’s determination to save his girl, to get her out of the games, the way he manipulates a crowd for his own gain, in their blonde hair.
And the thing is it’s absolutely brilliant because it only furthers the notion that none of them are set in stone.
Peeta is unfailingly good, even though his survival is predominantly thanks to those manipulation tactics. He uses them to sway the opinions of those in power without them noticing it, he even makes THE CAPITOL hate the games prior to the Quarter Quell. In the beginning of Mockingjay he uses it to sway Capitol favor towards Katniss in case the rebellion fails, at this point he is not focused on what the ‘right thing’ to do is, he’s looking to keep her alive at any cost. Katniss frequently describes Peeta as ‘playing the game’ even when they arguably aren’t in the Games, he knows what he’s doing, yet we never doubt in his goodness. The ability to manipulate people like that is pretty much never seen as a positive trait in any form of media, but we never doubt him, not when we’ve witnessed his compassion, his empathy.
Gale and Sejanus are both fiercely for the rebel cause from the beginning, even when they have no chance, the idealist, tho one who doesn’t care whether they get hurt to do the right thing, the paragon of morality, the ideal hero type. And yet still, by the end of the series, we cannot describe Gale as good anymore, even if what he did was for the right reasons. The power of taking the typical type of main character and showing how their ideals can be used against them, how they can get too caught up in the cause and fail to see the consequences piling up is fantastic, because there’s a certain point before Snow becomes an absolutely irredeemable monster where the two have a lot of similarities in their arcs, even though personality wise they couldn’t be more different. Snow is a fantastic villain because, in the end that cognitive dissonance overpowers the part of him that has misgivings, he is entirely convinced he is doing the right thing no matter the cost, a path we see Gale head down in Mockingjay. We even start to see Gale considering the Capitol citizens, including children and other innocents who played no part as ‘other’ and inherently monstrous. Coin and others in 13 wanting to do a Capitol Hunger Games illustrates that point as well, the escalation of it, the end result, when a revolution ceases to be a revolution and simply becomes a change in oppressors, but Gale is integral to that point because he is the early stages of it. Coryo is in the early stages of it for a large portion of his book. Obviously the difference is that Snow has 65 years to become very comfortable with this in his fascism and increasingly monstrous tendencies, but it’s the same beginning stage, and it’s incredible how Collins shows that a revolutionary type can quickly become something bad if they aren’t careful.
For Katniss as the reluctant hero type to never really willingly step up to the role, only be strong armed into it, is brilliantly done. Most ‘chosen one’ types don’t want to be, but eventually they do take it up with some willingness, but the Hunger Games is above all about using children in immoral ways whether for ‘good’ reasons or bad. Katniss only chooses to be their hero in the face of direct threat to herself or her loved ones, but that doesn’t undermine her actions. Even though she is supposed to be their tool, she exercises her free will time and time again, she makes calls that she know place her and her loved ones in political danger with 13, she makes herself their symbol on her terms. For someone who’s first thought is how to keep herself and the people she cares about alive, this defiance means a lot, particularly because she doesn’t trust people, she genuinely isn’t sure if there is going to be someone in her corner standing up for her, protecting her from the consequences of her actions, and most of the time when there is someone she’s surprised. She fully expects the worst case scenario, the worst in others, but unlike Snow she doesn’t hesitate to offer the best of herself in spite of having everything to lose and nothing to gain. Even though she fully expects everyone to have an ulterior motive, everyone to be lying, she cannot help but be anything but genuine, anything but true to herself. She doesn’t necessarily believe in any inherent goodness in others, oftentimes the opposite, but she still offers kindness rather than violence and that is all the more powerful.
In the frame of the Hobbes/Locke duality that TBOSAS really leans into, Peeta believes in an essential goodness in people, Gale sees it as us versus them, with his side as naturally ‘good’ and the other side as inherently bad, but Katniss by default thinks of people as self serving, something she still struggles with in the epilogue, having to remind herself of evidence to the contrary, she is consistently fighting that idea, disproving it with every action, at every turn, which is much more powerful than her just seeing the world in a positive light.
The thing is Suzanne Collins has them all start out as kids, each with a personality type, Katniss most like Coryo, Gale most like Sejanus, and a melange of other characteristics and traits—Peeta and Coryo most similar in their way of dealing with people, for instance—and through the choices they make she shows that they’re not set in stone. That it’s not some inherent goodness or badness in them from birth, it’s not just the way they behave around their peers. Every choice they make, every situation out of their control sets each of them on a path. Time and time again Coryo is only protected or assisted by the corrupt adults around him, he’s shown that only a very specific type of person will protect him, and they will always have something in it for them, and they will not tolerate him being anything less than like them, and in the end he chooses to have security in his survival, to have control, over everything else, and he lets that warp him into an atrocious human being. He takes the easy way in life, in contrast to Katniss and her uphill battle for the goodness in human nature.
Collins didn’t even try to be subtle about it, it’s very deliberate in the book in the way that he narrates as Coriolanus through the entire thing, but narrates the final chapter as Snow. It’s as clear as a marker flag, the way she says, ‘this is him crossing the line of no return’. Your sympathy for him in the book doesn’t come from him being sexy or charismatic, because you’re in his head and he’s an absolute disaster honestly. His internal monologue is basically just panicked screaming. The urge to root for him comes from the fact that Collins introduces him to us as a scared teenager, a kid. He’s not necessarily a great person, but it’s not yet in a ‘set to become a fascist dictator way’ it’s just in the way that a great deal of seventeen year olds are. There were so many times in reading the book that I laughed a loud because he was SUCH a teenager in his reaction to things. There isn’t any point to having a book with a character who was poised to be evil from the start, the whole point is watching what he becomes, it’s ‘be careful how you treat the children of the world now, they grow up to run the world, and who they are is shaped by who is kind to them and who isn’t’. Casca Highbottom didn’t see Coriolanus Snow for who he was from the start, he saw an adult who had wronged people in a child and mistreated the child according to his beliefs, and in doing so opened the doors for that child to become exactly what he feared and worse.
The whole point is that they’re kids, the whole point of all four books, they were all just children to begin with, some more similar than others but they all ended up in completely different places and who they ended up with wasn’t the same as the people they had been most alike when they were young. The point is that you can’t look at a child and decide they are more or less likely to be the world’s next great monster just because of their personality traits or how they see the world or who they’re friends with. Children are blank slates for adults to write on, and then they have to take all that writing and make a book of who they are out of it someday, and they might be the ones to make that book in the end, but it matters what you write. It matters when you give them kindness, or when you hurt them, it matters when you leave them to fend for themselves too young, it matters when you give them everything they could ever want and teach them that it’s not precious to have things and that they should always get them and that others shouldn’t and that it’s nothing less than what they deserve, it matters whether you starve them, or you bomb them, because whatever they make of themselves they make with the words that you write on that slate, and even though they might be able to turn it into anything if they want to, it’s far easier to write a horror story with violence than it is to write a gentle poem.
So they are all meant to mirror each other, every one of them, to show different roads taken with circumstances similar and different.
To show you two blonde boys who could part seas with the way their words affect people, and ask you to look at them when they are five years old, or ten, or fifteen, nameless, without context, just pretty boys with prettier words in their mouths, and ask you: which one will be the monster?
#the hunger games#tbosas#coriolanus snow#peeta mellark#katniss everdeen#gale hawthorne#sejanus plinth#lucy gray baird#ballad of songbirds and snakes#rambling at 4 am
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I want more piercings, but I don't know what to get that suits my face... maybe a septum, but they take so long to heal 😓
Maybe snake bites? 🤔
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I think I made some of you guys a little sad with my last post, so you can have some happy aftermath twins before part 2, as a treat ❤️
#my art#gravity falls#gravity falls au#HWINEBHABWNAJCAHOWEEATOWEUB AU#gravity falls fanart#stan pines#stanley pines#grunkle stan#stanford pines#ford pines#grunkle ford#stan twins#i need to find a gravity falls discord or smth- it's basically a ritual for me with every fandom#i tried to find some on the internet but they're so... rude?? maybe it's just me but i dont think#openly cussing people out and insulting the people who want to leave the server is a very “positive and open” server they claimed to be#which was so crazy because Ive never seen a discord server be like that?? like usually they're pretty chill but these ones like actively#called people bitches and lame assholes after they left the server like CHILL my man- they're allowed to Not stay#it wasnt even just one- I had to go through like 4 to 5 different GF servers and they were all like that- it was CRAZY#anyways!! that was just me rambling it was just such a weird experience for me#GOD I am PLAGUED by thoughts of this AU
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oh also look what my husband built for me
any guesses??
a yarn shelf!!! I suggested adding dowels on the sides for skeins, but he designed the rest, building it out of birch plywood, premade trim, and some oak scraps leftover from a job renovating a church.
I think this is my favorite thing that I own now.
#it also helped me clear out some of my yarn stash now that I could see what I own and its not just stuffed in shopping bags#now all of my yarn is on the shelf or in a WIP bag#which I am down to 4 WIPs thank you very much#two of them are crochet blankets and don't count#yarnblr#knitblr#rach rambles
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monkie kid season 5 major spoilers!!!!
if you have not seen lmk s5 yet then be warned!!! you can find uploads of s5 on youtube!!!
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season 5 got me skipping through meadows and singing with glee
#monkie kid spoilers#monkie kid season 5 spoilers#lego monkie kid season 5 spoilers#lmk s5 spoilers#lmk season 5 spoilers#monkie kid s5 spoilers#im trying to type every spoiler tag i can think of#monkie kid#lego#lego monkie kid#lmk#sun wukong#monkey king#mk#qi xiaotian#lmk mk#man.#s5 .#i am running on 4 hrs of sleep and hype from monkie kid#i asked for a spoonful of sunburst duo#and i got a full course meal#episode 9.#me when im in a self sacrificing contest and mk is already there#stomping my feet#mk died for like a few minutes man#i will never not think about that#mk 🤝 nezha#idk if i misinterpreted the whole scene#hopefully eng translation clears that up#sorry for rambling
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I know damn well I misunderstood the assignment but we roll, I'll understand it some day
It's killer and dust btw. If you couldn't tell. Which you probably couldn't.. forgor to say but shhh 🤫 Killers having a convo with himself..
..I kinda wanna change my url but idk to what
#I got this compliment once and I was like :3 bc I like compliments. then 4 days later I recognise the name and pfp on#on a tumblr I rlly rlly like bc they're super cool make super cool art and has super cool ideas and I'm just like woah they complement me s#so I search my notifications to find which post they complimented me on and I find out. they're following me. ummm IJWEHFOIWJ#i just can't get over this bc they're literally so cool what#anyways#I got two whole documents of canon dust things and one ao3 of canon things about killer#so I'm learning a way to do justice to the creators image while still putting my own twist on it bc I love fanon and that's how I grew up#I'm literally so passionate about fanon. specifically Gacha fanon bc it's literally so fun and no one else know that#like. literally everyone just like had terrible experience apparently idk how I didn't experience that#am I the only one who knows these characters still had lore Ben though unrelated to anything canon at all#anyways I'm rambling too much whoops#sans au#utmv#undertale au#sanscest#if u want#killer sans#dust sans#kist#if u want...#LOVE affair#teaching myself to use this tag too but eh#did you know Horror is more likely to be a part of the bad Sanses than Dust#Jesus fuck I rambled these tags to hell
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" WIP DELETE LATER 🤪🤪🤪" ok who gaf?
#me i gaf#anyways wip#ill finish this eventually#keyword#eventually#but i got other stuff to do#so for now here's Hopeful Steward with his staff because i am sorry#but why arent we all talking about how his staff is basically the symbol of the king#and hes the dusk ember#and knows spells#which means hes probably an enchantment kid#and also HE HAS A STAFF THAT MIRRORS DAWN EMBERS POWERS#sky magic is color coded#sky assigns colors to the prophecy elements#gives alef all 4#and hopeful stewards ultimate form is a form where hes an enchanter with a spell staff#and his colors represent water fire earth and 'purple'#(idk the basic enchantment color idk im a fake fan)#also Sky: NEVER ELABORATES#like????????????#anyways its 3:43am#take the ramblings of a mad woman and go#sky cotl#wip#hopeful steward#dusk ember#sky children of the light#this is a lot of tags for something youre deleting later SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHUDDUP#ok gn pookies ily#my art
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NO WAY
also extra v1 v2 vocaloid cosplay doodle under the cut :3
how
#me when 01 is v1 and then 02 is v2#the colors were very fun actually i tried using my flipnote brushes#i couldnt actually export the drawing tho bc the the brushes are like#the pixels look different depending on how zoomed out u are#and when i exported it it wasnt vibrant enough#erm im rambling#anyways this is so silly to me i really love it#vocaloid crossovers foreva#its 4:42 am#goodnight ...#ultrakill#v1 ultrakill#v2 ultrakill#v1#v2#hatsune miku#vocaloid#my art#oh yeah why does v2 not have a wig#i tried drawing it actually but i think it looks better when its just a huge white bow LMAO#wait isnt it bad to post really late at a time like this#IDK IM GOING TO BED!!!!!!!
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WIP
Cowgirl Sevika??? Cowgirl Sevika.
Men DNI
#kinda brought to my mind by my sims 4 save#my oc n her are living the peaceful farmer lesbians life#I would give her a horse and make her an actual cowboy if i could#but i play on console i am NOT paying 40$ for some horses. 😭#anyways sorry to ramble#I’ll finish this one as soon as i can#sevika#arcane#my art#arcane league of lesbians
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lmao of course now i try to update fic, and AO3 is down😂💀
Override chapter finally done with editing, it'll go up whenever the site's back🙃
AO3's status:
#YukiPri rambles#sigh#an fyi to anyone wondering what's up with ao3 rn#update: as of 11:11 PM EST AO3 has been down for almost 4 hours#and I meant to update fic well 4 hours ago#i got my new Covid booster + flu vax today and unfortunately they are starting to kick in#and i am getting very drowsy and possibly feverish#hopefully ao3 is back online soon otherwise i may need to crash for the night
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I wish solomon would tuck me to bed
#rambles#im slightly annoyed because of some irl matters that i dont wanna go to sleep anymore#time check it's 4:30 am#tho i did got some few hours of sleep before that#hearing solomon's voice would heal me
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Phantom getting a little belly after about a year or so on the surface. His pants fit a little more around his thighs (and perfectly around his ass if you ask any of the other ghouls). His cheeks look a little less gaunt, he just starts to look softer. His vessel begins to look well loved and cared for.
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leroy jethro gibbs was really out there in 2005 running a team of highly trained federal agents queer kids with daddy issues
#my ncis hyperfixation has not gone away. i'm watching 4 episodes a night MINIMUM. i am in season 9. it has only been four months#ncis#leroy jethro gibbs#jethro gibbs#gibbs#anthony dinozzo#tony dinozzo#timothy mcgee#tim mcgee#caitlin todd#kate todd#abigail sciuto#abby sciuto#ziva david#james palmer#jimmy palmer#donald mallard#ducky mallard#ducky#okay i'm done#beth rambles#beth64 posts
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PUTTING UP MY FIRST EXHIBIT EVER RN CURATED ENTIRELY BY ME !!!!!!!!!!! RAHHHH 😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈
IT’S OPEN 2 THE PUBLIC NEXT WEEK ‼️‼️‼️
#also hehehehe i have another exhibit going up in a different room that’s opening in the summer !!!! RAHJSNSNAJAKAK#i used 2 pray 4 times like these#straight up bad bitching it rn#now everyone pray that everyone is super niceys to me and love love LOVES what i’ve done w the place or else …. 🔫#biggest nightmare is my boss being like ‘oh no…. this isn’t what we wanted at all….. i fear you’ve missed the mark’#like i will throw up on her very nice loafers :/#<- it’s because my biggest fear is being bad at the things i love the most#does that make sense? like this is all i am. i’ve dedicated my entire studies and life to this … if im bad at it …. i can’t be bad it …yk?#but i think its swag idc! now is not the time for self doubt !!!!!! 🙂↔️🙂↔️#nat rambles
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psssst look under the cut
surprise I actually screen printed this poster
sorry I only have the one process pic but it was finals when I made this so I was in a rush
14x17, 5 color screen print- one for each type of skill + black. getting the layering and registration just right was a bitch and a half but I love how it came out <333
#disco elysium#disco elysium fanart#de fanart#disco elysium skills#screen printing#I did 10 prints of this and in the end only like 4 of them came out just right cause I had to mess with the opacity of the inks like crazy#I just wish photographs did the print justice cause there's something about the physicality of the piece that's so scrumptious#the digital version was made first but always with the intention to screen print from the way I constructed it#I love the way screen printing intersects between physical and digital processes. it might be my favorite medium tbh#enough rambling. show me love for posting my school work pls#cause I usually forget that I am an artist who makes things and I can post those thing to the internet for fake points#soupy post
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#did i re-invent john prodman again? yeah i guess#did i do all this just to draw big corpus?#who do you think i am. of course i did#also that is mausolon. it's basically a very long rectangular box in my drawing i can't really make it more specific w/o color#art ramble#i spent waaaaay too much time on this#like at least 4 hours or something#and half of that time is spent on draft#like#why#how#like is that a normal thing for this kind of drawing or what#uuggggghhhhghhg fuck my efficiency#after all this time this art thing is still unintuitive to me#warframe#warframe corpus#warframe rhino#warframe gauss#warframe gauss prime#warframe operator#do i really need to tag all of them no one will be looking for this when they search for these tags#my art#warframe carl the intern
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