#quantum vent

[wearequantum]

You ever not log yourself fronting because you don't want to admit to yourself that you are in fact fronting? or is that just me?

-🖌️

[wearequantum]

I did do plenty, maybe even too much in fact, but it felt empty and meaningless because I didn't hit any milestones or improve my life. in fact, it got worse, because of how quickly my disability is deteriorating. but hey, it's better to know I prioritized my health and survival instead of pushing myself to self-deleting

[cultofthepigeon]

its only today that i realized i do in fact imagine any writer at DC (or marvel for that matter) who is genuinely trying to write something good, as having to go on these sort of oceans eleven james bond esq espionage ass missions, to try to sneak the Good Writing past the execs and editorial teams

[raideyo]

Anger and Sadness

No one really talks about the feelings associated with not having your 3D reflect the 4D.

(“Not shifting” for basic terms Because you’ve already shifted.)

I miss my friends so much, I miss seeing them. But most of all, I miss my Father. (Mha DR)

I feel so Angry and Upset with myself that my 3D hasn’t changed yet, I keep trying to ignore it. Give it time. Not to be so desperate.

But it’s so difficult to do, Especially now more than ever feeling so far from my family and friends.

I miss them. But I haven’t even met them, I just, I wanna see them.

I miss the way my class would joke. My friends hugs. The way things always seem to get better when they’re there.

I miss my Father, he just always knew what to say to me. His hugs are full of love, parental support, and protection.

It’s so weird to think this way knowing I haven’t seen them in my 3D yet lol. But these feelings are so strong and unignorable.

Any advice to deal with this? Or just advice for the journey? Anything would be appreciated <3

[proudsilkies]

Kate Bishop crawling thought the vents. Part 23.

*Yelena and Kate enjoying a girls nights watching Disney movies and eating Kraft Mac & Cheese*

*Yelena looks over at Kate and smiles*

*Kate notices and smiles back with a slight blush*

Yelena: Did it hurt?

*Kate smirking*: ...when I fell from heaven?...well, I mean-

Yelena: -No. When you fell out of the vent earlier?

*Kate shocked*: You saw that?!

*Yelena with a knowing smirk*

[wearequantum]

literally my entire life, and my parents are so upset that I'd still like them to acknowledge that I was hurt even if they did their best. they say they've already apologized, but I've told them that their actions don't reflect that. and they got pissy. so I guess nothing's really changed at all

a lot of children - especially mentally ill children - end up traumatized not because someone was specifically hurting them but because their needs weren’t being met, or because their problems weren’t being seen, or because they were rendered particularly vulnerable by other aspects of their identity, like queerness or race. 

and it can be hard to look at your childhood and go “I was hurt” and also know that the hurt wasn’t deliberate. it’s uniquely painful to not have someone to blame. 

you do not have to excuse the people who hurt you, even if it was unintentional. & acknowledging your own pain does not necessarily entail blaming them for it.

you are allowed to do what you need to do in order to recover. 

[xstrawberryshiftsx]

TW: suicidal thoughts and ED

Had a shit first day back at school (someone showed me a video of my friends saying how much they hate me lol)

I know it’s not that deep but every time something remotely bad happens I start to relapse so I’m probs gonna be irregular with uploading for a while-until I get into a better headspace because I might just kill myself if one more bad thing happens(for legal reasons this is a joke)

also relapsed with me ED lol

lots of love

-Berry

[nintendowiimote]

i dont know how many paragraphs i got left in me

[wearequantum]

saying this here cause it's Tumblr and I can put whatever I want on my blog even if it's just my boring personal troubles

[vent]

I have a friend in my town, one of my only irl friends, that I really think I shouldn't hang out with anymore. He has schizophrenia and a barrage of other stuff but he's a nice guy and tries to stay positive; the only issue is that being around him makes me want to indulge in my unhealthy coping skills and wallow in my depression. Not even really cause of how he acts, he's a very optimistic person, he just has very dark humor and thinks just thinking happy thoughts is all it takes to be genuinely happy again. It's just hard to say "I don't want to hang out with you anymore" when I'm probably gonna bump into him a lot and I'm one of the only people in our friend group that genuinely enjoys him. I know staying friends with someone just cause you're all they've got is a bad idea, but it's still hard not to.

-☁️

Reminder: You are allowed to decide that you don’t want to spend your time with a person anymore, and then just stop doing so. You are allowed to dislike people. Yeah, don’t be mean, and yeah, be kind when you can, but also you’re allowed to just… not be friends.

[puppyboywinger]

can i just say i never use the word mutual or oomf to the point where it’s like, bad. if we’re moots on tumblr ur just my buddy. “my pal liked my post!” and we’ve never spoken before. you’re all just my buddies in my head even though we’ve never talked.

and if we have talked/you rb my posts? well now you’re my girlfriend. my wife. sorry, thems the brakes.

[wearequantum]

sometimes your mental illness gets so convoluted and down a rabbit hole that when you start typing something and then delete it cause you didn't really like it anymore, your own rejection of yourself triggers your rejection sensitivity

[snikt111]

i am SO tired. i am so tired of havinf to prove im “indigenous enough”

yet, even if i make my situation clear (despite the fact that i shouldnt HAVE to do that???) ppl still get weird anytime i mention my tribe or whatever

it just gets a little… exhausting. i want to be welcomed as an indigenous person, not be constantly berated for my blood quantum and who the last full blood in my family i know is

[void-thegod]

oddity vs the world

i've always known i was different. as i've gotten older, that has only become more apparent as the gap between myself and others widen.

i know there are many people who feel the way i do. people who have had strange experiences. peoples whose very existence threatens the status quo.

but i also know that i am alone. i've never met anyone who feels the way i do. who understands me.

they only grasp aspects.

how is spirituality/the supernatural and capitalism intertwined?

well. strangeness has been a part of human experience much longer than capitalism has. so has the urge to rule - at least in some of the species.

that one would be diametrically opposed to the other is not surprising.

the supernatural and the natural are diverse realities. as in: they thrive on interrelated nature of all things. they're multi-formed. and "all things" mean energy, life, form, etc individuality and cooperation are the best ways forward. the path of least resistance.

it isn't just competition. it never has been.

now you can see why this would be a problem for a system like capitalism or the many forms of government we have.

the reality of the strange is a direct threat to the system we have in place. one that destroys diversity, whether intentionally or not. for profit. for the few at the expense of the many.

and so, much of humanity has dreamed of the impossible from the prison of the norm.

[sometimesraven]

Can I just say I appreciate the Quantum Leap fandom on here so so much? This year has been hell for me so far, I’ve lost so many close friends already and if not for y’all I’d be so fucking alone right now. I know I get salty sometimes that I can’t get people to care about my original fiction as much as my fanfics but I really really do appreciate you all so much

[sagetheenbymage]

Okay, slight Vent here.

Sorry about the fact that this is my first post, that’s kind of depressing, isn’t it?

But I’m a rambler, ever since I was really young. I used to ramble about blues clues, Bob the builder, the sims, etc. Now it’s more about Stranger Things, Ace Attorney and Quantum Leap, especially Quantum Leap 2022.

Now believe me, I know how annoying I sound. But does everyone I know have to make comments about it 24/7?? Even when I just bring up the fact that ‘hey, it’s a good show, wanna watch it with me?’ Or ‘ Can you proofread my fanficiton for Quantum Leap for me before I post it?’ I’m read as annoying or bothersome by frankly, a lot of my friends and family.

My interests are treated like they’re annoying, as if my youngest cousin doesn’t have an obsession with David Walliams and my mother with, ‘Susan from my high school who she stalks on instagram.’ But you know, clearly that’s different.

Plus, i have pretty bad social anxiety, opening up to people about my special interests is already, really hard! People don’t seem to understand that! :D

I had one girl, apon asking her if she watched it, asked me, ‘If I had a brain.’

I’m always treated like the joke. My dad’s the only one that treats me like a person because he was a rambler too.

All that said, if I anyone wants to talk to me about Quantum Leap, please do. I’m tired of feeling like the obsessive, mentally ill, crazy friend.

[im-just-a-silly-lil-guy]

Episode 6 [of quantum leap] hit way way way to close to home