#put a cut bc this is wild

[malocclusive]

spent like the past 20 minuts going off on being overworked but honestly

who gives a fuck

I'm tired is the long and short, and I went to a case manager for a student with special needs who told me she was happy the kid was failing.

And I straight up asked her why she would ever think that way

And she said "Because this isn't the correct placement for this student, but the county won't approve payments to an outside school."

BRO IF I FUCKING KNEW THAT I'D BE SLAPPING THOSE 0S IN WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE

I'VE BEEN BORDERLINE CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP ON THE DAILY.

I'm outside DC in one of the top ranked HS in the goddamn US, and I have kids who can't read or follow more than one direction at a time (images on paper as well as written even) with no para in my room. I have 36 kids and 45 minutes, with a 10 minute clean up. If I just have them go ham, I have 1 minute per kid regardless of ability or need.

I never even thought of it that way. I was in so many remedial classes as a kid and so neglected that I got into teaching. I'm constantly explaining away how to remediate a single point lost on asssignments so it can be resubmitted that I didn't even realize that was a wholeass thing used to force the county to provide services. I'm constantly trying to make sure everything is as possible to retake and accessible for ev*er*y*one that I've placed feelings of a kid over the fact the system is actively ensuring they aren't accommodated because it's expensive.

I still don't feel right, and I'll meet them where they're at despite it running me ragged and destroying me, but I didn't even have it click that the data is forcing the real hands with the money. That I fucking hate as a concept. These kids are already fucking snickered at for shit they can't control, they shouldn't have to look at failing classes when they genuinely are working where they're at. But also. Most of them aren't aware if they're at that point. Like, genuinely. I'm trying to pad the ego of someone with so few supports towards being diploma bound that only their family MAY be concerned about their grade. I'll still spend as much time as I possible can to help them make something they're proud of, but fuck.

I'll never be the person giving even the median amount of fucks in a situation. I needed that as a kid, but the sheer amount of apathy/number of kids/inability because I have kids with extremely limited fine motor skills being put in a ceramics 1 class is shredding the meat from my bones

I have so many wins day by day, but it's.... not good for me. It wasn't any different when I taught elementary honestly. At least now the majority of kids in my class understand cause and effect/empathy/their folks MIGHT understand they can't just do whatever they want and skip class and shit by high school.

I'm constantly having kids I teach; or adjacent to me who hang in my room after school/at lunch saying I'm a safe space because I'm so aggressively queer and supportive of just.... listening and helping them out with random shit. That's what I'm here for and it heartens me so much.

I've had kids come out as trans, intersex, terrible home life situations (That are so relieved when I chastely explain my own background which was pretty bad), LITERALLY HAVING A BRAIN TUMOR as of today, like. God. That's what I'm here for.

I've taught students with vary abilities and special needs for a decade now, but it doesn't get any easier to see that they're thrown into your room with no support. And the only way to fix it is to give reports saying "They're failing" and wait years. It makes me want to die, despite doing everything I can constantly. It'll never get easier unless i stop caring, but I don't think I can.

[lovesickeros]

can we get some tsaritsa headcanons of yours? specifically appearance wise because i gen don't know how to picture her in my head.

YES because i've thought about it extensively and revised it like 20 times. um. don't expect a full descriptor though i run on Vibes tm

the core of tsaritsa to me is a careful dichotomy of archon of cryo + goddess of love. creating the ideal symbol of love and also frigid and emotionless. of a warrior as much as a leader. Childe speaks of this especially (describing her as a true warrior, arrogant and cold in Childe's delusion story, again with Childe but in his "about Tsaritsa" voice line describing her as gentle, "too gentle"). this is the base of her design, to me.

originally i leaned towards "very tall but very lean" at first but i've kind of leaned in the opposite direction lately. still view her as very tall (inhumanely, even), but i've taken a lot of inspiration from marble statues (and sometimes paintings) as a reference (notably and obviously, aphordite) in terms of body structure with the only exception being i view her with broader shoulders then typically painted/sculpted. facial structure is a different matter, but the general view i have is "angular and sharp" (prominent cheekbones, defined jawline, etc).

to be more specific as well, i tend to make the tsaritsa very colorless. the most color she gets is the occasional shades of blue, but most colors i associate with her are very monochrome in nature. i also use this to create a less "human" appearance for her as a personal hc of mine that the archons are all vaguely Off and not quite human in some manner. i portray this specifically in a few ways (extremely pale skin (to the point it makes her veins a lot more visible), white iris, etc) and a few other things i haven't quite settled on. i've considered the idea of her fingers having a black gradient (similar to arlecchino, in a manner) in reference to severe frostbite.

not quite as necessary to the design but i also just give all the Archons big teef on principle. nothing more intimidating then someone you thought was a funeral consultant flashing a set of teeth that can rip out your jugular with no effort!! +1 to unnerving factor. don't piss off the local mondstadt bard, either. it's a bit unnerving to see them when he's laughing like a madman.

speaking of unnerving, i usually write and view the tsaritsa as very stone faced. like, it could put arlecchino to shame. not a single emotion to be seen. you won't even see her face twitch if she's angry. if she smiles you've royally fucked up and you have roughly 0.2 seconds to live. g-dspeed.

another feature i usually add is claw jewelry because it just Fits. in silver, obviously. and she keeps those things sharp. don't get mistaken by the name she can maim a man with those.

i keep clothing very vague because im not familiar with traditional clothing (ill create a mock-up of a design some day. probably) but one of the core parts of it is the veil. don't think wedding veil, though. even if it's white i imagine it's design more as a mourning veil because it fits more with her character (while weddings are associated with "love", the mourning veil suits her better i think in this regard. delusional made up lore things babey!!!!).

[charlotte-of-wales]

those W&C stans on twitter thinking they’re eating by comparing Catherine’s engagement count to Máxima, Letizia or Mathilde (and Catherine has a 5 year old while all the other three have teenagers 🤪🤪) when it makes no sense to compare her to foreign royals (different countries = different approaches) but rather to British royals…..and in that regard she is outworked by 70 year olds

[fizzytoo]

good morning who wants to kiss 🫵🏽

[ziracona]

I would so much rather play a game that is shorter and looks worse and has less area, but is complete, than an expansive beauty where they do shit like like the most beloved companion dies 99% of the time because they just cut the entire last 3rd of their questline, and didn't even patch the end to not default to a failstate.

[coridallasmultipass]

TRIANGLE SHRIMP ALERT !!!!

[apocalypticdemon]

being friends with someone who constantly throws pity parties for themselves is fucking exhausting.

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

have decided to apply for my dream job and i'm already stressed about it

[milkweedman]

am starting to think that there is nothing less helpful and correct than the manuals for fiber arts tools

[foxmulderautism]

autistic boys when they realise the egg theyre eating feels like Egg

[triforce-of-mischief]

why does nobody TALK about this?!?

[ckameley]

Potentially triggering post about eating behaviors below the cut. Please view at your own discretion:

Lay's classic potato chips have had me in their chokehold since I was a young kid

While in the past they helped me regain my appetite when my mood was low, I now feel like I'm overeating them and I don't want that for me

So once I get through this pack I'm not gonna buy anymore until I return home in July

[bumpscosity]

The fact that smugglers run is so poorly documented is genuinely upsetting

[3motionally3xhausted]

Redesigning the Fentons!!

Hi yes this is for yet another Danny Phantom AU of mine it has nothing to do with the Apprenticeship AUs but unlike that batch I actually wanna turn this AU into a fic eventually once I get through a few other big projects I have *sobs*

Anyway individual files for each character under the cut along with my obligatory rambling about all the choices I made ;)

Jazz! Honestly, when I was a kid, I always thought she was 18 not 16 so it was kind of a shock when I started rewatching the show about a yr ago and heard that. Anyway, she's 17 in this AU but already moved out to college on a scholarship bc living in FentonWorks is kind of hell and she has that Older Sibling Guilt for leaving Danny there. For her clothes, I wanted it to be a mix of tactical and preppy.

Danny! (Fenton) The effects of FentonWorks hell is much more visible on Danny than Jazz because she got out of there as soon as she could. Because of that though, a lot of the chores in the lab got pushed onto Danny, without passing on many safety tips, like replacing the ecto-filtrator, cleaning contaminated tools, organizing ecto-weapons, etc. And because he doesn't know any better when it comes to safety, he has many symptoms of radiation poisoning: visually, this comes through in the discoloration/scarring on his skin (Jazz has some slight scarring on her face and hands as well), the cataract on his left eye, as well as burst blood vessels in that eye. For his clothes, I wanted them to look a bit ragged and worn through ripped seams, tears in the jeans, & duct tape around his shoe.

Danny! (Phantom) I don't actually have a lot to SAY about my choics, but I am really happy with it. There are still a few things. I wanted his hair as Fenton & Phantom to be different but still reminiscent of the simplistic rendering of the original show: Fenton is kind of timid so his hair falls over his face, & Phantom is more active/aggressive so his hair is pushed upward. The only other thing I want to comment on is his skin: it's kind of about how I usually stylize Phantom (and I mentioned this when I redesigned Dani a while back) but a "healthy" Phantom in my style would have more bright cyan skin and an unhealthy Phantom has a more dull/zombie green. And lastly, as a ghost, the radiation poisoning kind of cleans up into more neat scarring rather than the muddy/bleeding look as Fenton.

Maddie! Now, I'm gonna be honest, real vulnerable here,... I hate Maddie's canon haircut. It's ugly, I'm not sorry. But I can modify it, so it's fine: now it's curlier, a bit darker, and has a few grey streaks bc she's a genius and constantly pulling long working hours. And, it didn't come across as much as I wanted, but she's got some biceps, strong lady. Now, I'm not really sure why, but I wanted to shift the color of her and Jack's jumpsuit, making hers much more desaturated.

Jack! Big guy. I don't have many thoughts about him either, but I did give him glasses and some stubble for a little bit more dad energy (?) I mainly changed the color of his jumpsuit bc Orange is an extremely hard color for me to render for some reason, so now it's the classic Hazard Yellow. Finally, the most notable difference is the coat I put on him for a bit more scientist energy but my main reasoning for it is the potential visual of him being an absolute tank jumping from overhead with the ghost gauntlets and his coat flapping behind him. Also, I generally like the idea of him presenting himself as a big, dumb teddy-bear, always smiling, but completely unhinged below that facade: dropping the smile or not while towering over you in shadow. Wild imagery.

FINAL THOUGHTS: Do not count on any actual steps towards creating this fic in the near future, it's just on my mind right now, but I NEED to finish my other projects first 🙏🙏🙏 That said, I will (eventually) get around to a handful more character redesigns for this AU including: Vlad, Sam, Tucker, Valerie, Paulina, and maybe Lancer & Dash

[awzominator]

Day 13 Scars

the amount of effort I had to put into these and they still don’t look how I want is frustrating but alas time is not on my side

ramblings under the cut

Mikey: Gave Mikey Lichen Burns from that one time he got disintegrated and then reanimated via electricity. He died n got better and honestly it is one of the most violent injuries that I recall for him. Like he plays it off so easily cuz he has super powers and all that jazz but that’s so messed up. Also Raph yelling for him OOOFFFFF will never forget how filled w rage and hurt that dude was. He was ready to kill ❤️ Such a wild episode and I love how Mikey was so depended on in order for the plan to succeed. It was Mikey’s turn for the Self sacrificing bit and he crushed it

Leo: Get Shreddered idiot!!! The fucked up knee and throat from when he got beat up and thrown thru the window. This is def my fav event to happen which is a wild thing to say. It’s the most obvious thing to go for but I personally loved the farmhouse arc and Leo’s need for recovery. That dude is still not well and is repressing stuff but they don’t have time to heal. Their lives are too chaotic, too much is on the line, and Leo can’t afford to take the time to heal 100% none of them can tbh. I know a lot of ppl hate how 12 handled his knee injury but I loved it Bc it’s obviously not better but he’s a stubborn idiot who chooses to push everything down and out. He is the healthiest turtle for sure. I’m pretty sure in later episodes his knee gives out a few times don’t quote me tho it’s been a few years aha

Raph: His broken shell! After watching Lone Rat and Cubs and seeing where it came from, I always wondered if Splinter looks at it with loads of regret. A physical sign of his short comings that one time they almost got caught by the Kraang. A warning and a constant reminder they’ll never be safe, that splinter wont always be able to protect his babies no matter how hard he fights. I also like to HC he becomes the most hovering and overprotective of Raph while he’s still recovering Bc that shell broke so easy. Honestly seeing screen shots of close ups of Raphs shell is awesome to see both shell and plastron are broken.

Donnie: UGHHH THIS DUDEEEE !!!!! Literally had the hardest time Bc he goes thru a lot also but it’s more emotional and mental dude is fuked up in the head fr. I asked several ppl for help Bc I didn’t want to do another lichen burn thing from Karai’s trap. In the end I played around w the suggestions to see what would look most appealing to me. The scars on arm are from Slash (such a good episode thank you for the suggestion 🙌) as his arm was injured and in a sling at the end of the episode. The head scar def a big creative liberty Bc he does get injured there a lot ahah. I was thinking of Fourtrap again which lead to thinking about the time that Leo blew him up accidentally during is emo phase XD

[bibliosims]

genus | an upper body tattoo. ⊹₊ ⋆

download | sfs (free, no ads)

TOU: do not reupload and never put this behind a paywall !

previews and more under the cut !

i present you genus, which was born the second i saw this snake skeleton while scrolling through pinterest. making this tattoo made me super nostalgic bc i took a bunch of bio courses in college as a human bio major :') enjoy !

also feel free to tag me if u use these ! it’d be cool to see these in the wild 🫶🏻

thumbnail previews:

unedited previews:

•☽────✧˖°˖ art by anna maria redfield in her zoological science or nature in living forms ˖°˖✧────☾•