#If u read the ramblings godspeed

[awzominator]

Day 13 Scars

the amount of effort I had to put into these and they still don’t look how I want is frustrating but alas time is not on my side

ramblings under the cut

Mikey: Gave Mikey Lichen Burns from that one time he got disintegrated and then reanimated via electricity. He died n got better and honestly it is one of the most violent injuries that I recall for him. Like he plays it off so easily cuz he has super powers and all that jazz but that’s so messed up. Also Raph yelling for him OOOFFFFF will never forget how filled w rage and hurt that dude was. He was ready to kill ❤️ Such a wild episode and I love how Mikey was so depended on in order for the plan to succeed. It was Mikey’s turn for the Self sacrificing bit and he crushed it

Leo: Get Shreddered idiot!!! The fucked up knee and throat from when he got beat up and thrown thru the window. This is def my fav event to happen which is a wild thing to say. It’s the most obvious thing to go for but I personally loved the farmhouse arc and Leo’s need for recovery. That dude is still not well and is repressing stuff but they don’t have time to heal. Their lives are too chaotic, too much is on the line, and Leo can’t afford to take the time to heal 100% none of them can tbh. I know a lot of ppl hate how 12 handled his knee injury but I loved it Bc it’s obviously not better but he’s a stubborn idiot who chooses to push everything down and out. He is the healthiest turtle for sure. I’m pretty sure in later episodes his knee gives out a few times don’t quote me tho it’s been a few years aha

Raph: His broken shell! After watching Lone Rat and Cubs and seeing where it came from, I always wondered if Splinter looks at it with loads of regret. A physical sign of his short comings that one time they almost got caught by the Kraang. A warning and a constant reminder they’ll never be safe, that splinter wont always be able to protect his babies no matter how hard he fights. I also like to HC he becomes the most hovering and overprotective of Raph while he’s still recovering Bc that shell broke so easy. Honestly seeing screen shots of close ups of Raphs shell is awesome to see both shell and plastron are broken.

Donnie: UGHHH THIS DUDEEEE !!!!! Literally had the hardest time Bc he goes thru a lot also but it’s more emotional and mental dude is fuked up in the head fr. I asked several ppl for help Bc I didn’t want to do another lichen burn thing from Karai’s trap. In the end I played around w the suggestions to see what would look most appealing to me. The scars on arm are from Slash (such a good episode thank you for the suggestion 🙌) as his arm was injured and in a sling at the end of the episode. The head scar def a big creative liberty Bc he does get injured there a lot ahah. I was thinking of Fourtrap again which lead to thinking about the time that Leo blew him up accidentally during is emo phase XD

[noxchievous]

back at it again w more Pearl. this time her first form. I wanted to give her those little joint lines that Amethyst had in the movie, so I did !! but I made them look more like doll joints because aesthetic and the whole "pearls are objects to be admired" thing.

[uwuowotf2waslife]

What does your husbando/waifu/nonbinary barbie-crotched S/O says about you?

TW: slight teasing,but oh well...., also nsfw themes and swearing ( sowwy)

TEAM FARTRESS 2

Scooter/weanie man: complete morosexual or the unhuman need to take care of Boston inhabitants with room temperature EQ ( en englais: you have the mommy/daddy/parent kink and you want to show that boi all the love he deserves)

Soldier: you are a human carpet ( sub) or so Dom my sibling in Christ I am terrified. You think his bravery/randomness is endearing or you got roped in by every tumblr/wattpad headcanon potraying him as the ultimate beefcake ( cant argue with you, mofo built like a brickhouse on steroids without the roids.)

Pybro: A. you are a nonbinary peep and any nb representation makes your ovaries/balls/reproductive parts COMBUst with excitment. B. intense latex/leather kink with slight burn/wax play on main. I am both afraid and faschinated by your ability to flesh out on a person we barely know the most basics of their personaility, Godspeed you allmighty bAstERD <3

eNGIe: cowboy appreciator, daddy seeker and parental figure creamer connesuer, you fell in love with the ( here ) so much you actively search and look out for the gruff, wrench handling and guitar-playing texas man of your dreams. No matter your gender or sexuality engie hits that hotspot only the daddiest of daddies hit !

Heavy: rare breed of bear enjoyer, probs an older sibling that wants to make the older sibling ( tired, unhydrated and slighty (( extremely)) in need of therapy) pair. Probably not a huge shipper since you view HeavyMedic as more of a platonic pairing, or you are of the rarest Medicx Reader x Heavy poly sandwich. Please dont hug him too tight, hell hug tired and make your eyes pop like a cheap pop eyed toy.

Demo: contrary to popular belief, you are not a bbc enjoyer/seeker, Demoman isnt just a sextoy to you. He is just the only level headed person you see in a team of morons ( for u) or manchildren with murder tendencies and well, JUST LOOK AT HIM, HE IS BUILT WITH ABBS LIKE A WASHBOARD AND LOVES HIS MOM, HE IS NOT HUSBAND MATERIAL. HE IS SOULMATE/LOVE TILL DEATH ( WONT DO YOU PART, HE KNOWS MAGIK TO RECITATE YOU) , PLEASE I SALUTE YOU YOU GLORIOUS TAVISH ENJOYER!

Medic: WE GET IT HE IS HANDSOME AND SOUNDS EITHER LIKE A CHICKEN WITH A TOP TIER DANTE DEMON OR HOT GERMAN GILF! Please dont canoodle him so hard, youll throw out his back or break his hip. Also very questionable kinks ( i see you blood kinksters). You unironically are the I cAn MakE HiM So MUch WorSE squad and you scare me.

Sniper: yes he is the ratman ofyour dreams and yes he is also really pretty, but please stop treating him like a man who aint also a hired killer. Yes he wont even think to correct his Macas orders, but he will and can make you swoon so hard you look redder than Pyros suit, mans gots that outdoors, unshowered , rugged swagg and he is rocking it harder than the fricking 80s <3 <3

Spah: yesh you have a french kink, yes you want him to whisper in your ear soft french while he btters your bagguet, probably into dilfs or gilfs in the distance because none is a dilf /suave/sensual enough for you. ( perfume isnt a shower, go to shower now, mon petit coucou

RESIDENT EVIL VILLAGE ( or the bimbofied RE4)

Lady Alcina Dimitrescu: a cis male/ a sapphic soul/trans,enby vagabond who respectfully wants to drown while motorboating he absolute units of bazoongas. Perhaps slight size kink and perhaps a person who doesnt mind a good blood slurped by their F! S/O if their tumm had the ramblies. Please dont go overboard, or youll enter the unholy assemblange of vore/stuffing kink irl

Donna Bienevento: creepypasta kid, you unironically got spooked first time you read Jeff the Killer. Probably into some questionable types of literature, hardcore horror enjoyer who also has a sanrio addiction. You have tried some kinds of handcraftmanship and might even have some hobbies that involve handiwork. I applaud you, but please dont give the basement FEOTus monster your choccy milk, itll have the zoomies and knock of angies card-castle.

Salvatore Moreau: the epitome of I can fix him! peeps, probably slight hurt/comfort enjoyer. You saw how dirty all the other treat him and you crave to make fish man happy. Both feet in monsterfuckening domain, unironically want to do the dirty while he is at monster form. Maybe you saw the Shape of Water and your brain did the thingy, but oh well, please continue on and make the lord of the reservoir the happiest fish in the sea!

Karl Heisenberg : you slimy, daddy kinked bAsterds, cant we have one game with a slight rat man with a good VA without yall flocking to him like lycans to his factory for french toast scraps??? slight bdsm enjoyer, or person who wants metal rat man happy and softened out like a soviet made breadcutter blade after a top tier professional restoration. Either way, please handle with care he may cry if you hug him the good way

The duke: an absolute chad who may or may not want to drown all your sorrows to a large, beautiful, suave man hug ( or man-thing, you never know.) You seriously deserve the world, because you be pumping fics faster than a heated political debate on Reddit. Also probably a slight hand kink, we all show those monsters at the Shadow of Rose DLC.

[boogiewoogieweeb]

thank u for being a “Ned little pussy eating champ” truther. i’m always so confused when people say he would be terrible, for all the reasons u listed in tags. And if i’m currently writing a trans joplittle fic to right this extremely niche wrong opinion!!! well. saluting u while i do it 🫡

usually i'm both very flattered AND highly embarrassed when someone reblogs my tags. it's very much a, "thank u for agreeing with me, but please dear god, i don't want people to know i have Opinions™" kind of situation. that being said however, i will never NOT defend my no. 1 cold lad as being a talented pussy eater for the ages. if i have to use logic and deductive reasoning aka madly and obsessively rambling on about mcnulty's mouth/the ned and sol parallels in the tags to convince the fandom et al, then so be it. and if you happen to post said trans joplittle fic to help further the cause? well. all i can say is i will be reading the fuck out of it with tears of joy and recognition standing proudly in my eyes. godspeed, my fellow ned little pussy eating champ truther; godspeed. 🫡🫡🫡

[xx-vergil-xx]

[with the cadence of matt berry's delivery of 'father' in the it crowd] VERGILLLLL i miss hounds so much but classes and life are kicking me into the gutter so it goes so it goes etc but i'm going to catch up when i have time. also....enochian? 👀 i cannot think of it without thinking of cas which means i can't think of it without crying wonderful timely collision with the recent anniversary of november 5th.

fun fact i used to bookbind in 2020 and geez it is expensive but if i ever pick it up again....might i have permission to bind hounds? i'm picturing a lovely starry cover...... ohhhh imagine all the moon stars & sun motifs i could fit into it.... i could try gilded edges..... all the typesetting i could do.... akjsdfjh rambling here but i love typesetting so much dafont dot com my beloved. not to mention the ANNOTATIONS.

anyways very glad that i could pop by!

my good time boy, my sweet cheese, my rotten solider, hello <3 I wish you strength and fortitude and winds at your back in these trying times, may you make it through the Mad Rush that is October And November and further may you roundhouse kick life/classes in their stupid teeth

oh homie I went Hard In The Paint with the enochian I hope u enjoy (when time allows ofc stay strong soldier)

while I was not a full supernatural girlie I did actively read destiel fic because so much of it was (and is!) so fucking good?? like??? god there's one I'm thinking of that I can't remember the name of but it's like. dean buys this house and he's with cas but cas doesn't speak and like. eventually it's revealed that cas is dead?? like dean was just projecting him?? I think that was it I remember vividly a front porch scene and the texture of an old house peeling wallpaper creaky floors and this horribly good sadness. anyway that shit hit.

like what was it with 2000's/2010's shows creating these insanely compelling devotional-love-in-extremis arcs between their main leads and then. adamantly denying the subtext (or even just. text.) existed. "no they were just bros" oh excuse me well "I gripped you tight and raised you from perdition" says otherwise!! "when castiel first laid a hand on you in hell he was lost" says otherwise!! "we're family. we need you. I need you" says fucking otherwise!!! (this comment is also about house md because. those two assholes were in love like I'm sorry it's literally unavoidable like. like. yeah.) anyway happy belated nov. 5th <3

YOU. YOU HAVE MY FULL PERMISSION. HNKH. STARRY COVER?? SUN MOON MOTIFS?? GILDED EDGES?? SEXY TYPESETTING?? you have my full and utter permission and pls send pictures if u do end up binding it!! (and no pressure ofc ofc! if u feel like it if time allows etc etc etc). (also dafont.com my love my light I do graphic design work w one of my clubs at school and me and dafont are homies, perhaps lovers even) (also also just. the thought. of my work. being annotated. in tears. shambles even. holy lord. no greater gift. no greater honor. yeah. thank you even for the thought!!)

good to see you and godspeed my friend!! <3 <3 <3

[catcze]

nsfw but it's small btw

But also like every smut fic I read with kaeya involves having sex in his office like damn I LOVE IT but this man has a bed too. Minor thing but I find it so funny tht his office is the first place ppl usually write about LMAO.

I found this one fic tht was like... First time w kaeya while bein w little tipsy on wine and I haven't been able to find it since it's actually killing me. Anyways literally I feel so bad for rambling but also he's a blorbo.

Thank u catte for letting me ramble Abt my one true love 💕

☄️

HAHSDKJA The way that I've only read a handful of Kaeya smut (and this was,,, quite some time ago 😭) but I can very clearly remember most ofthem taking place in his office HAHSDKJN Idk man I guess people just like getting railed on a desk in comparison to a bed ?? Or Maybe its just Kaeya's vibe that screams 'desk sex' 😭😭

And omg I hope u find that tipsy smut soon :(( I haven't been frequenting the Kaeya tag so I'm of no help but man do i get the drustration of not being able to find a specific fic :(( Godspeed to u in ur search my love

ALSO no problem darling im just vv glad to hear u speak abt ur blorbo, esp since ?? I don't get many people talking abt him so it's superrr interesting to hear ykyk??

[unmeiha-arc]

As Warrior of Light, we're not always the perfect example of a holy moral compass. To your muse, what’s the difference between justice and revenge?

          This is such a good question, though, especially for Koharu, because it’s something she’s had to learn the hard way and it’s something she’s still trying to figure out even as of the end of Endwalker.

          In simplest terms, it comes down to motive, execution, and how much sympathy/empathy is had for the other party. Is this something she’s doing for herself or is this something she’s doing for someone else? Whenever she’s sought justice on behalf of someone else she's had an easier time keeping a level head and seeing things clearly. On the other hand, whenever it’s come to seeking justice for herself she’s often found herself blinded by her own emotion and self-righteousness, leading her to step over the line between justice and vengeance. This leads to the question: how far does she take it? Where is the line drawn before righting a wrong goes beyond what is just?

          She’s always had an almost black and white view of what’s right and wrong, of what’s just and fair, and has always been very driven by doing what’s right. That mindset gets challenged a lot through the course of MSQ; when what’s ‘right’ is questioned, it means she ends up questioning herself.

          Through early MSQ, a lot of her motivations easily stem back to Doma, to its occupation, and to her feeling like she abandoned it — something that actually goes against absolutely every principle that’s been ingrained in her since birth — and that gets a lot worse when she finds out about the rebellion’s failure and Doma’s subsequent razing. Up until this point, she thought what she wanted was justice for both herself and her people, but when she loses everything she loves and isn’t even there for it, the line between justice and vengeance gets very, very blurred. Her motives shift from ‘I want to do the right thing [for everyone]’ to ‘I want to do the right thing [for me]’ and the morality of what is ‘right’ gets a bit skewed.

          This is only made worse by going into Heavensward, where the entire story revolves around justice versus vengeance, the difference between the two, and how much is too much. She’s just lost her family, she’s lost the Scions, the Crystal Braves have betrayed them, and she’s wanted for regicide. This is a person who, despite her hangups, has only ever tried to do right by those she comes across; to conduct herself with honor and pride. Where is her justice in all this?

          And then that’s followed by Haurchefant’s death, and that’s just such a big tipping point. Her actions following his death had absolutely nothing to do with justice, regardless of how much she tried to convince herself otherwise. Whether or not she actually believed it is up for debate, but it was painfully obvious to literally everyone, especially when her dialogue choice was absolutely "Life for death. I will have Ser Zephirin's heart for what he did to Haurchefant." It’s honestly probably a good thing that the WoL canonically faces primals on their own because she went full feral in the Aetherochemical Research Facility and it was terrifying and it did absolutely nothing for her except leave her feeling hollow and angry. It didn’t fix the hole in her chest, it didn’t soothe her rage, it didn’t bring him back, and that grief and anger doesn’t get properly dealt with before she goes into Stormblood. It gets pushed down and bottled up because saving Estinien takes precedence and when does the WoL ever get time to process their trauma? It does briefly resurface when the Warriors of Darkness’ plight hits a little too close to home. (”We did everything right and still it came to this!”)

          Stormblood is where her biggest struggles with vengeance vs. justice and finding proper definitions for them is. This is the expansion where she finally goes home and sees exactly what the result of Doma’s razing was, and all that pent up emotion from Heavensward comes back in full force and multiplied. It’s worse this time because in Heavensward, she knew she was lying to herself about seeking justice/vengeance for Haurchefant, whereas in Stormblood she genuinely believes her actions are just. It’s worse because she can’t see where the line between the two should be because it’s too personal. It’s worse because she does feel vindicated by the end of it. Her homeland is free, she’s regained the sense of honor she felt she lost when she left Doma before ARR, she feels good.

           Picking up DRK immediately after 4.3 really helps her to reevaluate herself. She essentially speedruns the entire Dark Knight story after the Doma arc comes to a close with Yotsuyu and Asahi’s deaths, and Fray... Fray shows her what she was like through Stormblood and that was a version of herself she didn’t recognize; a version of herself she didn’t like, but a part of her that she had to come to terms with none the less. Fray helps her to face the fact that her personal quest for justice had really only ever been a vendetta.

          She’s much better about differentiating the two after that, but she’s far from perfect. Endwalker’s Garlemald arc was particularly challenging. There are Garleans she’s grown very fond of by this point (Cid, Livia, and Maxima, to name a few; even Nero to a degree, though she wouldn’t trust him unsupervised as far as she could throw him) but there’s no denying she has a certain degree of prejudice against the Empire for obvious reasons and a handful of outliers is very different from going into the heart of a country, saturated in the propaganda that lead to the occupation of her country, with the very deliberate intention to help. It’s very difficult for her, but she’s also a symbol by that point and if people see the Warrior of Light, a woman who came from the provinces, leading by example and setting aside her feelings (not forgiving, that’s still too much for her) to work towards breaking the cycle of vengeance, maybe they can too. And, more importantly, she’s trying to be better than she has been.

          It’s 4AM and this definitely got away from me to the point that I’ve completely lost track of everything I’ve written here aaaand was less of an answer and more of a ramble about her personal justice/vengeance journey but, in the end, for her the difference really is about the motives behind the actions, how the actions are done, and how much the motives and feelings of the other party involved is taken into consideration. An emotionally-charged cry for blood (vengeance) is a far cry from demanding atonement (justice). People can’t right their wrongs (and, hopefully, change for the better) if they’re dead.

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id post more on here if i wasnt paranoid as shit abt the ammt of absolute freaks abd weirdos are on this website

but anyways i realized i dont care and n so; there 2 things about myself and im just laying here like -___-

unrelated uhhhh therapist says she thinks im disabled which is weird but i guess its nice to have someone who supports n understands the stupid amounts of pain constantly

its summer so my memory is a bit better, ive been remembering stuff from when i was a kid which is again weird but theyre mainly pleasent memories despite the otherwise terrible flareup my illnesses r inacting for the 5th week in a row

good n bad n whatever im doing ok, new medication, trying to stay upbeat

[soledadcatalina]

when me & frances were watching fma in the living room my dad passed by, looked at the tv and went “oh, fullmetal alchemist?” which is still wild to me bc ive never talked abt this anime to him before but the man still wanted to be a knowledgeable anime dad

[albatris]

i'm too shy to come off anon or interact with posts beyond just liking them but i just want to say i am in awe of you and how much you post about your stories (i love to read abt all of them!!!!) it inspires me to also post a little more openly on my blog instead of being a content hoarding gremlin. it's soooo hard to put stuff out there ;-; please never stop <33 ((also murder nat is a good nat. sorry for what he's going thru but that except was 💯💯💯

:D!!!!!

being shy is definitely no worries! feel free to interact however you're comfy c:

and aaahh thank you for the kind words!! hehehe mostly I just like to ramble, it's very fun for me, and I am physically incapable of shutting up sometimes. but ye, putting yourself out there is haaaaard, it took me forever to get comfy posting excerpts and even now I'm mostly only comfy with posting silly excerpts, anything serious makes me feel so nervous about sharing :'))

I'm really glad I have inspired you though?? that's super cool?? n I'm glad you're feeling inspired to post about your own works!! that's a nerve-wracking thing to do but I hope you have fun and get somethin good out of it :D :D good luck and godspeed for your creative endeavours!!

(also fjdks yeah, murder nat is a good nat and I love him :3 I would absolutely not go near him even if u paid me a million dollars but he's still a good boy for sure. oof, though)

(and I'm delighted you enjoyed the excerpt!! I was nervous about posting that one because it's A Lot LMAO)

anyway thank u again for the sweet message <3 I hope you have a nice day!!

[ziracona]

ive spent all day reading your dbd fic and i have sooooo many feelings about all of them that i dont even know how to put into words. your grasp on the characters is just so incredible, there were characters i didnt know or care about who i now absolutely love and would do anything for purely because of how you wrote them and made me connect to them. i've been reading a lot of dbd fic despite only having played (and failed at) one entire game, and your characterisations will always be my gold star i think, no other has ever seemed to capture the characters so genuinely in a way that doesn't just also excuse their actions, i love how indepth you go into the moral ambiguity of it all. either way, out of all the fandoms im in no other fics have ever just made me actually feel so much, made me physically ache and hurt with what's happening to these characters.

i also really love your character interactions, found family is my all time favourite trope it makes me all gooey and tender even when its also angsty and made me cry like your anna fic did (my mom 😭). also love the dumb teenage antics and interactions between joey & quentin in both their fics, and im also ridiculously invested in them now when before i couldnt tell one legion from the other 😭 i already loved quentin from watching noes but your joey pov and the glimpses into his psyche and history and feelings has won me over too.

ive also set aside my entire weekend to read and absorb and analyse and contemplate and ponder in living memory, im beyond excited 😌😌😌 sorry for this ramble i was just emo

TuT God this is all so sweet I have no idea how to respond! Thank you! 😭💙

I am so glad you enjoy how I write my kids! Character is my favorite story element (surprising no one I’m sure lol), so I am always thrilled when people like how I do that! TuT ahhhh that’s so sweet; thank you! And I am really happy tou enjoyed my like, secondary humanity & virtue ethics study threads—dbd is /such/ a complicated and intricate situation for the charcaters in it, and there’s just so much fascinating black and white and so much grey to just kind of try to think about. Any individual living through either role in the realm would just have so much awful shit to unpack, and god even being one of the sympathetic killers even if you were lile, Rin and had no control, or Adiris and lied to, it would be so hard to get over or through what you did and experienced and even know /how/ to move on. I really like realism and complex character study, so I was living getting to just dig into personal journies for 20+ major charcaters. AH and I am so happy you really enjoyed that side of it in particular too! It’s one I only hear people bring up every so often and I am always ecstatic.

Seriously, thank you so much. Knowing I was able to create that level of emotional impact is priceless to me. TuT💙💙💙 Thank you. And I am glad you like the Found Family! Damn if that isn’t just the best ever trope. ^u^ 💙 I love it. Life really just kind of is all about hope and trying to become a better person each day and learning to know and love and forgive yourself and do the same with the people you gravitate to who are worth it and find you worth it and become the family you both deserved I cry. 😭 Ahhhh and Half-Life! That one messed me up too but god, she’s trying and they’re both so awkward and uncertain and sad but sweet and trying. Eeehhh, yeah! The JoeyQuin fics are so fun to write they vibe so well, and I am so happy you’re invested in them!!! Me too bro, haha. I am working on NDF rn because I really want to update it’s been too long. TuT

AH!!! A fellow NOES2010 fan! Bless; loved him in that too. I am so glad you love my son and I hope you continue to get the best of times watching the poor boy try to do his absolute best while suffering. 😭 Love him.

Also WHOA, holy shit! I wish you the best of luck, but don’t push yourself! ILM is a fucking /long-ass/ fic, and while I know someone read it in two days once, I truly live in awe of anyone who did it in two weeks or less. Godspeed however it goes speed wise though, and thank you so much for this incredible comment, and I hope you enjoy! 💙💙💙 Seriously I cannot thank you enough for giving me such a meaningful and sweet message to read and taking time out of your life/day to brighten mine. It means more than I properly know how to express.

Goodnight, and I hope you enjoy ILM! I think it’s my favorite thing I’ve ever written.

[theday]

anyways, ill say bye now... i hope ure well rested and have a good day!! (wait, i remember what i wanted to ask!! at least i think this is what i wanted to ask? anywys, do u know what u want to do now that ure finished w school? if u dont mind me asking, of course, i understand if u think its a bit personal!) ok, now im done, have a good day!! take care and stay hydrated!! (and now i really did send u a bunch of asks..)

omg i hope u dont mind but ill be answering the stuff from ur last ask here (the one where i… deleted everything) under cut bc itll be 2x longer now

so first !!!!! how i got into kpop!!! it was thanks to my good pal (@.briwoon) boxy! i follow her on twitter and despite her being a day6 stan twt i had her unmuted anyway bc.. after years of being an anime blog on tumblr and seeing all my anime mutuals slowly converting into kpop blogs one by one i was able to filter the kpop out of my brain?? smth like that since back then i wasnt into kpop and i didnt want to unfollow since im mutuals with most of them :-0 

another backstory - i was one of those people who never saw themselves getting into kpop? and i think the main reason was bc i thought liking kpop would make u seem lame?? due to the influence from people around me?? but as years went by and as my mutuals changed interests it stopped bothering me and that mindset kind of just? faded away bc who am i to call other people’s happiness bad?? but despite being okay with it i never really made the move to get into any groups lmao that was until i got tired of my interest at that time (seiyuu, japanese voice actors) and my interests would always. not last?? idk so maybe thats why i didnt want to get invested but it happened regardless 

anyway usually i wouldnt take notice of her rts but this . this beautiful man with orange hair and minion glasses caught my eye when i was scrolling through my timeline and i was like o worm? oh mu god? hes beautiful? so i slid into her dms and asked her whomst the beautiful man was and she sent me all their mvs after that from congratulations to i smile (the most recent mv at that time, late june) for me to watch :-D now at that time, from what little knowledge i had of kpop.. i understood that groups would be singing and dancing so i was prepared to see some sick moves or smth?? but then. i clicked on miss i smile and my wig flew off? bc… wtf.? they were playing instruments???? and they sounded good ??? so i was like oh my god? a band??????

before day6 i also had (have) a preference for bands and the way their music sounds so i was like?? ready to just. get on board yknow?? i watched how can i say and i saw the lanky noodle wearing glasses and i was like o fuck mu life? i caved and asked boxy for their names and other information and best decision of my life bc.. they really make me happy!!! after that like the day after ? myabe they did a vlive and i was like o shit? what do i do… so i downloaded the vapp and wowie i love it? its my second home…… i watched every vlive they had at that time and i thought that was a lot… (it isnt, compared to mx) and i was just rly content??

(ok i know u asked for kpop and not … day6 or other groups bc im gonna talk abt how i got into mx and astro too bc…… how can i Not.. u can skip this part tho i just wanna ramble abt my loves? ill tell u when u can continue)

that was peak happiness for me at that time.. until… boxy started talking about monsta x in our groupchat (with @.tokayhk) and she would just ramble abt this kihyun fella (who i vaguely knew bc my real life friend likes him and mx and i bought her his pc before along with the guilty clan part 2) so i was like hmm interesting… and honestly? i wasnt going to get into monsta x i really wasnt planning on asking her abt them (since i was scared id lose interest in day6 right after) but then.. she started linking videos and i .. my resolve crumbled down as i heard monsta x yelling and … this beautiful cover (which boxy sent to show us how powerful kihyuns vocals are but i was 2 focused on mister aka minhyukku) and she told us how funny these monsta men are and i was like o h no…………….. eventually one day in late august i asked her to tell me more about these monstas…… aftert that i watched every mxray episode (starting from season 2 bc i dont know 1 comes before 2) and even though i didnt know anyone who was on screen except jooheon i found it really funny and?? it made me laugh so much i love mx?? ya… boxys kind of like my guardian angel?? shes really the reason im living tbh… introducing me to all these lovely people?? thank u miss boxy i love u

now. for the astrosus….. they were a bit different.. because i didnt have boxys help and they were the first group i took interest in solely bymyself so i knew i was in for a wild ride (at first, i couldnt even differentiate brian from sungjin in day6 lmao) after stanning monsta x and day6 i became more?? open to kpop and i started watching unhelpful guides on youtube bc . they were funnie and idk its nice??/ and i stumbled upon the astro one (which wasnt that funny but more helpful than anythng) and i was like. oh worm? the cicada group… bc i watched a short clip of them catching that stupid cicada in their office as it appeared on my tl one day so i clicked on the video ..and after watching that it led me to another video of astro being extra for 6 minutes and those six minutes/????? best six minutes of my life because theyre so fnny and they made me laugh a lot? (combined with the editing from op) so bc they were funnie i decided to look them up and read their profiles/??? i watched their nimdle video and only knew mj bc his tag was the two letters m and j lol but it really made me bust both of my lungs i just?? laughed A Lot 

im not sure how i managed to put name to face so quickly but it mightve been bc after the nimdle videos i watched every ddoca and astro play as well as their vlives available bc..  i just inhale the content at godspeed?? 

for mx and astro i was drawn in by their personalities before their music because they were on more variety shows and had more chances to show dorky they all are which made it way quicker for me to fall for the two groups??? for day6 its a bit sad but the weekly scheduled vlives arent enough for me to tell what kind of people they are (although those r still hilarious) i just wish they would go on more variety shows?? its understandable if they themselves dont want to be on any shows though!!! i love all 3 groups with all my heart :-D 

ok if u skipped u can start from here ill be answering the questions now lmao

FIRSTof all,,,,, youre learning how to drive?? thats so cool >:-0 we’re not allowed to learn until we’re like...?? 18?? or 21 idk but not so Soon :-( and its cute u think abt me (or of what to say) but pleaseth stay safe... i hope ur driving lessons go smoothly until u end theM!!! hopefully youll be able to get ur licence :-D 

aNDD!!! the thought of drinking warm tea when its cold outside.. is so ?? nice to think about hecc u better drink that tEA and enjoy it !!!! stay warm and comfy miss RM ..... and it even snows there????? thats so cool tbh ?? (i love snow but maybe thats bc it doesnt snow here so i dont know the tru evil of snow but like.... its so.... white and fluffy??) i would ask u 2 take pics and show me but alas...... the time is not right :-( do u know when we’re allowed to expose ourselves?? i forgot rip... but its sometime next month right im excited???? since its near my birthday !!!!! 

ok now to answer this ask no i actually have no clue what i want to be after i finish school?? yikEs but last year i (jokingly) said i wanted to be a farmer??? idk if i might actually do that probably not i guess im just freestyling (going with the flow) for now we’ll see where life takes me 

and like i said u can ask me anything !!! im fine with it :-) alsooooo please dont ever feel bad about sending too many asks bc its a lovely thing to wake up to and i just?? get rly happy when i see all the asks in my activity :-D!!