#pushed back the depression a little

[analogboii]

just learned that my drunk self bought not one, not two, but all three versions of oneus' devil album. just got the notification that its shipped lmfao. no turning back now

[tamagotchikgs]

on the upside tho since im missing therapy we'll have extra money n i might be able to get bubble tea today

[1eyedstar]

lets brighten up my blog alittle ❤️‍🔥🏵

*a wild Rengoku appeared*

These flowers 🥺 reminded me of Rengoku so I'm happy I got them ♡

they are so pretty 😭 I love them so much!

i put them next to my small Rengoku shrine 🥰 and it's next to the window so it can get that sunshine

[tecchous-thicc-buttocks]

GUYS IM GOING CRAZY HOW DID I NOT NOTICE THIS ON THE BSD WIKI BEFORE????

[monster-noises]

I fuckin.. I need I need my art to be better man..

I need it to be looser, i need more Life, more Energy, more Colour!!!!! more Stylization!!!!!!! more SHAPES!!!!!! Mood Mood and Tone and Feeling!!!!!!!!!!

and less whatever weird archaic constraints I am holding from Highschool that I can't seem to shake off

I need to Break It a little bit, I need to Bend it until it Sings again..

[lewkwoodnco]

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[poisonedapples]

Super heavy vent ahead in the tags

[confused-alpaca]

tbh i was having a Bad Brain time when i found out about the ai thing so ive definitely over catasatrophised it (deleting. ALL my art off the internet. is not going to fix anything. its most likly already been scraped for at least one of the dozens of ai) but i just. dont know what else to do. ik i should glaze anything else i post but i dont know how much that actually helps(read some stuff bout how it IS effective, but only against some ais. and does Nothing for others and may actively help a couple?).

idk. i dont trust tumblr rn to not sell things on blogs that did opt out. i had been using instagram but. thats using all public posts for its own ai. and has a ton of other issues. i could use a different platform but theres no guarentee those wont jump on the ai train soon, and the only defense they have against scraping is that barely anyone remembers they exist.

idk. how am i meant to reconcile the fact that if i want my art to be seen by more than like. 2 people ever. if i want any kind of validation or community. if i want to even have the possibilty of monetization (not. a priority. but im startinig to get a little irl pressure.) i have to put it somewhere where some asshat is going to steal it for an artist-crushing machine.

[dennisboobs]

im actually getting so heated but i’d love to know your opinion on how annoyed people are getting about dennis “successfully monitoring his blood pressure” and actually being in control of his body. like??? huh??

I dunno, I don't really get why it's an issue for so many people personally speaking shsjnfnkhfjd this is like, pretty well established stuff, he's just gotten better at it and is using kratom to achieve it now. I'm jazzed that we're going to get (and have been getting) the Not Just Angry dennis that glenn wanted to play.

[ozlices]

btw it is our little's chosen birthday today since it's also emu's bday & not a single person has wished them happy birthday even with them being devastated in our discord status so 🙃it'd mean a lot to them to come back from their sad nap to ppl wishing them happy bday

[enbysiriusblack]

had loustat!wolfstar and danmand!jegulus thoughts.

[ironmanstan]

So much work to do but im actually doing it which scares me more than the fact i have work to do and u can tell bc i keep fucking posting like this

[dexaroth]

also ive been thinking. i always saw 'dex' as like a standalone nome and it only ocurred to me like recently-ish that it was the short version of dexter and idk its sort of growing on me. i kind of feel like a dexter. i think ppl irl would be like 'of course they have a weird name' whenever they saw me clumsily walking to my appointment n stuff. its also distinct enough to be easily recognized when im unfocused but has the drawback of being way further up alphabetically and such would force me to present those dumb college group projects earlier -_- ive had classes with a whopping 3 G names and even 2 ppl with the same name as me, sometimes that lead to there being so many ppl in front of me and the project needing at least 5 minutes to present that i got to do it on the next week just bcuz of name alone. im gonna miss that lol

also i have this fateful feeling that there will be a big potential of like. consequences to the name. i can imagine some ppl comparing me to the guy from dexter's laboratory but theres gotta be some more opportunities like that that i just cant conceive. ofc ive always had a name that has a big humiliating joke potential along the lines of having Dick as your first name but somehow i guess the school i was raised at or the ppl there just didnt do it to me or did it behind my back, i dunno. ive heard it from my mom but no one ever used it directly i was just constantly ridiculed by my weight instead by random 7yos which like yeah thats miles easier but itneresting i guess

[tittysuckersworld]

vent tw, if you have depression please please just dont interact-

[brittlebonesstanley]

holy fucking shit we are not doing this right now. stop

[sweetangelanon]

it's lookin bad for Henry rn gang...