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lh2603 · 2 months ago

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Old lovers (Part 1)

Heyy guys this is my first story:) I hope you like it and let me know if you want part 2.

Please keep in mind that English isn't my first language. Thank you. and enjoy reading:)

Warnings: This story implies guns, drug usage, violence, cheating, kissing, implies hooking up,...

Backstory:

This takes place around the end of season 3 and all of season 4.

Rafe is 21 and Haley is 19.

Hailey and Rafe have known each other for almost all of their lives as they were living next to each other, and their fathers were best friends. When Hailey was 16, her and Rafe started dating which wasn’t a surprise to anyone as they were basically meant for each other.

Their relationship was amazing, even when Rafe went crazy due to doing coke she stayed with him and helped him get better. To everyone they were the dream couple and everyone thought that they would stay together forever. However as Hailey found out that Rafe was lying to her about having stolen the golden cross that she and the Pogues had found she breaks up with him in an argument. Hailey never stopped loving Rafe, she was mad at him for lying to her.

The Pogues were sitting on the Blue Marlin after being rescued from Poguelandia, Hailey had a flashback.

Rafe was pointing that gun straight at Hailey’s face. She was looking at him with a tear stainned face ‘Rafe! Baby you gonna shot me?’. Rafe’s face softens but it still held anger ‘You broke up with me Hails!’ Hailey’s tears started running down her cheeks as she started getting angry and screamed at him ‘Because I was mad at you not because I stopped loving you!’. Rafe lowers the gun walking towards Hailey, but Pope comes running pulling Hailey along with him over the edge of the boat into the sea below. Hailey tried to fight back but Pope was stronger. The last thing she heard was Rafe crying out for her ‘HAILS!’

Hailey swims to the safety boat that the Pogues stole, and stares up at Rafe who’s now holding onto the Cross of Santa Domingo that Pope tried to sink. John B pulls her into the boat as Hailey was only focused on Rafe. When Hailey comes back to her senses again she screams at Pope ‘ Are you fucking kidding me? Why the fuck did you pull me off that boat?’ Pope was stammering trying to explain himself ‘I..I thought you were in danger’. Hailey got angrier by the second ‘ I wasn’t! FUCK’

End of flashback.

Hailey and the Pogues had been back for some while. While the Pogues had bought JJ’s father's old proprety and renovated it, Hailey had rekindled with her parents, and tried to work out the trauma. Seeing Rafe point that gun at her face completely destroyed her mentally because she coulnd't understand why she still loved him after all. Hailey had visited the Pogues regularly during their home renovations and during their first days of opening their shop, but she stayed home most of the time.

The first time she hung out with them again was at the Kildare Enduro, to support JJ who was competing. Cleo, JJ and John B were working on JJ’s bike, while Hailey, Sarah and Kie were standing in the crowd when Hailey spotted that one tall blond that had her heart, but it sank as she saw him kissing a small brunette.

H- ’He’s fucking dating someone? Fucking Sofia? Is he shitting me?’, Kie tried to calm her down

K- ’Oh Hails I’m sorry’.

The race is about to start when Sofia cheers Rafe on, but Rafe locks eyes with Hailey who got tears in her eyes. Rafe is leading most of the race, and JJ seems to be fucking up his chances of winning the race. However JJ was one of his crazy ideas pulling a dangerous stunt to lead the race. Shortly before the finishing line Rafe and JJ crash, Hailey thinks about running up to Rafe but before she could so he starts a fight with John B, looking at Hailey while walking up to Sofia.

H- ‘Fuck this shit! Sorry but I’m out, can’t deal with this shit’ tears slowly rolling down Hailey’s cheeks, she runs to her car and drives home.

Hailey arrives at home, as she walks in she hears the laughter of her parents, her mother notices her first, ‘Hey Baby’ her mother says with that warm loving smile of hers. However, Hailey’s tone still holds sadness

H’- Hey Mom’, her mother surprised by her daughter’s tone

M’- What’s wrong?’,

H- ’Nothing, Mom don’t worry’,

M- ‘Hailey talk to me’, Hailey was enoyed by her mother pushing her to talk about, but she opens up

H- ‘I’m just upset, found out Rafe is dating someone new’. Hailey’s mom looks at her daughter with sympathy and tells her to not worry about it. After talking to her mother Hailey leaves to go to her room to bury herself in her bed.

Later at night Hailey sneaks out dressed in only jean shorts and one of Rafes old hoodies, to go to her and Rafe’s old spot. Their old spot was an abandoned boat dock, with nothing around as it was in a pretty secluded area. As Hailey pulls up to the spot she sees Rafe’s truck already parked there. As she gets out of her car, and walks along the dock she sees Rafe sitting on the edge like they used to do.

‘I’m sorry I can leave if you want me to’, Rafe looks up at her ’Nahh it’s okay! Stay’. Hailey sits down on the other side leaving enough space between them. Rafe suddenly starts a conversation with her.

R- ‘Why are you here?’

H- ‘Had a shit day, what about you?’

R- ’Same here’

H- ‘Ohh’

R- ‘Yeah’

H- ‘You know after we broke up, I sat here every night hoping you would come here and that we could talk, make up and get back together’

R- ‘You fucking with me?’

H- ‘Why would I? I meant what I said on that stupid boat in South America’

R- ‘Bullshit Hails’

H- ‘Fuck this I shouldn’t have stayed! Forget I said anything’

Hailey gets up and leaves, tears already running down her cheeks. She’ s mad at herself for starting such a pointless conversation with Rafe knowing how close minded he can be when it’s about something that hurt his feelings. Hailey leaves to go home, when she gets a text from Kie asking her to come by the Pogues house. When she arrives the Pogues tell her about the newest adventure and what happened to them at Blackbeards wreck.

A few day later the Pogues plan on a beach and surf day as it was crazy hot outside. John B drives up in the Twinkie and Hailey follows them in her own truck. Just shortly after they sat up for the day a bunch of kooks pull up to the beach, music blarring. Hailey could spot Topper, Kelce and Rafe or as JJ liked to call them, the Power puff girls. They drove a little further down the beach but set up their spot close enough to the Pogues.

S- ‘What a waste of waves’

H- ‘Well shit! Hope this doesn’t end up completely crazy’

JJ- ’Nahh John B will handle this’

JJ- ‘Well Sunshines coming’

JB- ‘Topper’

T- ‘Routledge’

JB- ‘We just want a calm day can we manage to co-function here today’

T- ‘We calm if you don’t do any shit’

H- ‘I mean that’s settled’

While they are surfing JJ keeps messing with the Kooks by stealing their waves, later on provoking a fight. After all the surfing they decided to chill some time when Kie spots a hatch of baby turtles.

K- ‘OMG! Look baby turtles! We need to save them?

H- ‘Let me set up my phone to film’

While Hailey and the Pogues were trying to save the turtles, Topper’s girlfriend and Topper get in his Jeep, Ruthie being behind the wheel, she starts speeding towards the Pogues who are trying to save the turtles, almost running over Hailey and Kie.

K- ‘What the fuck is wrong with you?’

Ruthie throws out her drink at Kie, and drives back to their spot. JJ already started getting all worked up and wanted to start a huge fight, but Hailey quickly got involved already having an elaborate plan.

H- ‘Let me handle this’

JJ- ‘Hell no I-‘

H- ‘ Let me do this’

JJ- ‘Fine’

She quickly picks up her phone and stoping the turtle video and telling Kie to film everything. Hailey storms off to her fellow kook friends.

H- ‘Are you completely crazy?’

Top- ‘Hails your boys started this’

H- ‘I ain’t talking to you Top! I’m talking to your stupid bitch ass girlfriend’

Ru- ‘What did you call me?’

H- ‘You heard me! Are you fucking crazy or just stupid?’

Ru- ‘It was a joke relax’

H- ‘ Oh it was a joke? Yeah makes sense! I’m laughing my ass off! You know you ran over a hatch of baby turtles! Killed at least 4’

Ru- ‘Get over it! It’s the cycle of life’

H- ‘I mean I knew you and your family weren’t smart considering that your daddy’s business is going to shits but you just proved me how right I was about your level of intellect!’

Ru- ‘Keep my family out of this’

R- ‘Hails stop this’

H- ‘OH keep your family out of this? Honey enjoy your time with your family in your loving figure 8 house as long as you can still afford it!’

Ru- ‘What’ How do you-‘

H- ‘Yeah your daddy’s broke! He came begging for money

Ru- ‘You bitch’

Ruthie slaps Hailey right across the face, her head whipping to the side due to the impact. The slap earning Hailey a cut in her lip but Hailey’s plan worked out. Now she only has to take a look at Rafe to get the tears rolling. Hailey looks up and sees Rafe seemingly unbothered looking at Sofia, and the tears start rolling.

Hailey turns around walking to her friends, who stopped filming by now.

H- ‘Did you film it?’

JJ- ‘Yup’

H- ‘Now hell’s loose?

JB- ’Shit you got a plan’

H- Of course I do, and on that note I’ll be leaving’

Hailey quickly packs her surf board into her truck, and drives off to the police station. Trying to think back to last night with Rafe in order to make herself cry some more as she walks into the station.

H- ’Shoup?’

Shoup- ‘Miss Summers, what can I do for you?’

H- ‘I’d like to make a assault complaint or whatever you call that’

Shoup- ‘That got anything to do with that busted lip?’

H- ‘Yup!’

Shoup- ‘My office now please’

Hailey gets into Shoup’s office and sits down and starts to explain everything, showing him the video evidence and manipulatively trying to make herself look scared in Ruthies presence to make Shoup act quicker on what Ruthie did.

H- ‘That’s what happened’

Shoup- ‘Why you crying so much? I have known you for a long time Hailey, you’re not one to cry easily! So why are you crying so damn much?’

H- ‘Rafe was there with his new girlfriend’

Shoup- ‘I get it! It’s hard, but you’ll get over it’

H- ‘Yeah I know’

Shoup reassured Hailey that he would immediately take care of the situation. Hailey walks out of the station whipping the tears from her face and getting into her car to drive home. She had to hurry as it was already late and she had plans with her father at the country club, because her mother wasn’t home because she was on a business trip.

She hurries home to take a shower. Hailey gets dressed in a short white summer dress and has her long blond hair down in beach waves. When she’s done she walks downstairs and sees her dad already waiting for her.

H-‘Hey Dad sorryy it took me so long’

Dad- ‘No worries honey’

As Hailey and her dad are seated in the restaurant, Hailey tells her dad all about what happened at the beach.

Dad- ‘You are my daughter’ laughs softly

H- ‘I know I provoked her but she was being a bitch’

Dad- ‘I’m not judging I would have done the same’

Hailey and her dad are waiting for dinner when Ruthie storms into the restaurant and starts screaming at Hailey

Ru- ‘You went to the fucking cops! You stupid bitch’

Ruthie grabs Hailey’s dad’s wine glass and throws the red wine at Haileys face.

Dad- ‘What the hell’

Ruthie’s dad comes to the table trying to drag his daughter away.

Dad- ‘Richard you should get your daughter under control! This is the third time she has assaulted Hailey in one fucking day’

Security comes in, leading Ruthie and her father out while one of the staff members has already informed the police. Hailey excuses herself to the bathroom to get cleaned up. While she was on her way to the bathroom Rafe walked past Hailey’s dad.

R- ‘Steve! How are you?’

S- ‘Rafe hello, I’m okay! Do you know that Ruthie girl?’

R- ‘Yeah that’s Topper’s girlfriend, why?’

S- ’She assaulted Hailey again just now?’

R- ‘Oh really? Is. Is she here? Hailey?

S- ‘Yes in the bathroom getting cleaned up. It’s nice seeing you again! You know me and Charlotte always thought you and Hailey would stay together forever, I mean you reminded me a lot of me and Charlotte.

R- ‘Yeah I thought so to actually’

S- ‘Hailey told me about your girlfriend Sofia is it?’

R- ‘Yeah she’s working here, that’s why I’m actually here to pick her up’

S- ‘Well I’ll let you go then! Was nice seeing you!’

R- ‘Yeah you too?

Hailey is still cleaning her dress when Rafe walks into the bathroom, startling her by doing so.

H- ‘The hell you doing Rafe?’

R- ‘Are you okay’

H- ‘Why wouldn’t I be okay?’

R- ’Stop being a bitch to me Hailey’

H- ‘I just got wine in my face, been slapped and almost run over! I’m splendid Rafe!’

R- ‘Hails I-’

H- ’Save it’

Rafe walks up to her and hugs her close to him. Hailey is completely confused.

H- ‘What are you doing’

R- ‘I know you need it’

H- ‘Go hug your girlfriend’

Hailey pushes Rafe off of her and storms out of the restroom, getting back to her father who was waiting for her at the reception holding two doggy bags.

Dad- ‘I talked to Shoup, got everything sorted, got the food to go! Let’s go home!’

H- ‘Yeah’

Hailey and her dad head home and enjoy their food together while talking about her dad’s new business plans.

After dinner Steve retreats to his study to work some more on his plans and Hailey retrieves into her room to change out of the wine soaked dress. She puts on Rafe’s old hoodie as it still slightly holds his smell, wearing it gives her that warm feeling of him holding her. She quickly picks up a pair of jeans shorts and leaves to go her spot, hoping that Rafe wouldn’t be there again. As she is sitting on the dock with her feet dangling above the water she feels the wood beneath her vibrating, as she looks back she sees Rafe, he comes up and sits down beside her.

R- ‘Hey’

H- ‘Hey’

R- ‘Are you okay?’

H- ‘Yeah why?’

R- ‘You had a pretty shit day’

H- ’So what?’

R- ’Hails what did I do to you?’

H- ‘You didn’t show up Rafe! And now you got someone new! So I’m fucking pissed Rafe? I have to watch the person I love, being with someone else and that’s fucking hard okay?’

R- ‘Hails’

H- ‘It’s okay I’ll get over it!’

Hailey gets up to leave, walking down the dock, trying to hold herself together. Rafe had been hurting her more than she has ever been hurt in her life. She always believed that Rafe could do her no harm, she knew that he didn’t do it on purpose he moved on from her after she broke up with him, it was perfectly fair that he had moved on it was his right. Yet it still broke her knowing that Rafe had someone new and she was still mourning after what they used to have.

When she arrives at home she crawls into her bed hiding beneath her duvet, crying herself to sleep, from yet another shitty encounter with the love of her life.

Friday night, there is a kook party going on and Hailey is getting ready. She’s hoping to forget some of the shitty weeks she had and maybe even try to get over Rafe. Hailey is putting on make up as she hasn’t done so in a really long time, she has straightened her hair, and put on a dress with a deep neckline. She finished up with putting on her favourite vanilla perfume and putting on some clear glitter lipgloss. As the party is taking place only a 10 minute walk from her house she decides to walk there.

At the party Hailey mingles with some of her old friends greeting Kelce and Topper. After hanging out with some of her girl friends, she spots a cute guy, she smiles at him, hoping he would approach her. After a few flirty eye contacts, he ends up walking towards Hailey. As they start talking Hailey starts flirting with him and giving him slight hints that she’s only interested in a one night thing, when suddenly Hailey feels a hand at the small of her back, and the guy that she has been flirting with turned around and left. She turns to face who was touching her back.

H- ‘You’ve got to be kidding me’

Hailey rolls her way and leaves, she starts heading to the downstairs bathroom knowing that there won’t be any people, Rafe follows her inside closing the door behind them.

H- ‘What the hell are you doing?’

Rafe walks up to her and starts kissing her, while holding her face in his large hands. Hailey is startled but she immediately kisses back, being pulled into her old habits, missing Rafe’s touch.

Meanwhile Sofia has entered the house and is looking for Rafe, she asks around for him but no one can help her until she finds Topper who points out that he saw him going downstairs.

Rafe’s hands wandered down Hailey’s body finding her hips and lifting her up and putting her on the sink, while kissing her.

H- ‘Rafe this is wrong you have a girlfriend’

Hailey pushes him away getting of the sink and running out of the bathroom, on her way up she bumps into Sofia.

Sof- ‘Hey Hails have you- ‘

H- ‘You don’t get to call me Hails! You know you’re just a Pogue his friends will never accept you! You don’t fit in get it? So fuck off and leave me the fuck alone!’

Hailey pushes past Sofia, making her way out of the house, to walk home, as the encounter with Rafe has already fucked too much with her head for the entire night.

Rafe walks out of the bathroom trying to catch up with Hailey after thinking about what he should do. However, instead of running into Hailey, he runs into his girlfriend.

R- ‘What are you doing here?’

So- ‘I wanted to see you’

R-‘Goo home! I need time for myself’

So- ‘Rafey’

R- ‘Go home’

Rafe pushes past her asking his friends if they had seen his ex-girlfriend leave the party. No one could help him, but when he approached Topper and Kelce they had an opinion.

R- ‘Yo Top have you seen Hailey?’

Top- ‘Why you looking for Hails? Sofia’s here’

R- ‘I don’t give a fuck! Where’s Hailey?’

Top- ’She just left

R- ‘My keys now’

Rafe grabs his keys running out of the house to his truck and getting in and immediately speeding off towards Hailey’s house trying to catch up to her. Halfway to her house he sees her and pulls up next to her.

R- ‘Get in Hailey I’ll drive you home’

H- ‘Nope’

Rafe knows how stubborn Hailey can be so he drives a 100m further down the street and gets out of his truck, waiting for her, but as soon as she sees him she switches the side of the road and continues walking home. However Rafe is faster than her and catches hr pulling her close to him.

R- ‘I’m sorry’

H- ‘Fuck you’ (she bangs her fists against his chest while he holds her wrists)

R- ‘I’m really sorry Hails’

H- ‘You can’t go kissing me after I tell you how much I love you!’

R- ‘I know’

H- ‘No you don’t! Rafe I thought I would spend the rest of my life with you! Kids and getting old and stuff!’

R- ‘I thought that to and then you broke up with me!’

H- ‘Because I was fucking mad at you! Not because I stopped loving you!’

Rafe lets go off her wrists and grabs her face like earlier at the party, staring in her eyes. She thinks that she sees his eyes sparkle for a moment, before he kisses her again. Hailey lets herself be pulled in by his actions however she quickly realises that it’s wrong and pushes him away.

H- ‘You can’t keep doing that Rafe!’

Hailey starts walking away but Rafe grabs her and convinces her to let him drive her home. She gets in the truck, starring out of the window until Rafe pulls up in her driveway and parks behind Hailey’s truck.

H- ‘Thanks’

R-‘ Your welcome’

To be continued

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futurewriter2000 · 1 year ago

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Needing You

A/N: I'm going to pull so much of personal experience from this that even I might cry at the end but I don't cry so I let's see how far I have healed. Not even gonna lie, this was harder to write than I thought. - It deleted itself in the middle of it so I had to REWRITE IT- but it turned out better than the first time.

REQUEST 15: "Optional("hey! I love your writing, so here's a request: could you do a shot about Remus X fem Slytherin who's James sister and they both have a secret relationship, and when he (James) finds out, Remus and the reader have a really strong fight when he says something like "he's my best friend, you're only an experience" (be free to change this) and they both broke up, and the reader doesn't even talk to james but rather just... isolates herself. nended however you like but IM BEGGING make it like really sad =)nHave a fantastic day! <;3.")" #wattpad

The sky was clear as day. It was the night and you had decided to finally swallow your anxiety and go out with your brother's friend. Your brother didn't mind. He just expected it to be a herbal gathering mission with his sister, when Remus told him about it. He didn't know the two of you were walking around the lake for three hours, holding hands because you almost slipped. Wishing you had planned that slip but you haven't. You put sneakers on in the winter- you haven't thought much with your head when it came to Remus. You just wanted to be next to him... and you were.

Your anxiety was piling up but you couldn't stop smiling. He was shaking, since he was only in a thin black T-shirt and a fancy coat that did not provide much warmth. You marveled at the stars and he pulled you close, showing you all the constallation you knew. You haven't been watching the stars. All the time, you kept thinking about kissing him- having your first kiss with your brother's friend, on whom you had a small crush when your brother was small. You completely forgot about Remus until a few weeks ago when you started to spend more time with your brother, as well as his friends.

The kiss happened on the bench. The lake was in front of you, the stars above and he simply leaned in, finally providing some warmth on his body.

This film has been replaying in your head for the past seven months. Every day, you rewatched it in your head, it seemed to be more magical. Every day when you saw him, touched him, kissing him- you fell in love deeper.

It was as if you were going insane just by loving him. You wanted him by your side all the time. It wasn't as if it wasn't difficult, seeing his friends forcing other girls on him when the two of you were sneaking around, knowing each other's bodies pretty well. You knew every scar, every mole, every inch of his body. You believed he knew yours as well.

Remus was a nerd. He pretended to be cool and collected but he just spent 20 minutes explaining medical propreties of three kind of herbs and how other wizards- Healers even can mix them up.

"What?" he said, quirking an eyebrow as you stayed quiet, smiling at him.

"What what?" you smiled brightly, your eyes glimmering with pure joy.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" he asked.

"Like what?" you fixed your facial expression, hiding away the emotional depth you felt for this boy.

He stared at you for a moment and moved away from you. "Nothing." he said, starting to get dressed.

There it was. That awful feeling. That feeling of not knowing what he feels.

It always came to this. The two of you could talk forever into the night or into sex but never could the two of you talk about your feelings. You wanted to tell him. You did. You wanted to tell him that you were deeply obsessed with him. That you adored every single thing about his character and body- but there was a restrain. There was the familiar lump in your throat that blocked you from speaking any further.

He always had excuses. He was not good enough for you. He can't ruin his friendship with James... he's not looking for anything exclusive at the moment.

You moved to your pile of clothes and started to put on your underwear. I swear, your razor has never been so used in your entire life than in the past few months. You smiled at that and clicked your bra on.

He didn't even notice that your undergarments were matching. Something you felt as if your effort was for nothing, but you felt good when you did things like that. For him. To please him- do it for him... because you loved him.

"Hey..." he was by your side and you got startled a bit from your train of thoughts.

His eyes were lustful and his hands were possessive of your body. You smiled and wrapped your hands around his neck. "Hi." you said as his hand grabbed the hem of your underwear and let it go into a snap on your hip.

"This is really nice." he smiled, watching your breasts in your perky red bra.

"You like?"

"Haven't got a clear view before... but now that I do..." he said and tightened his grip around your waist. "You smell so good..." he continued, but this time it felt more as a growl than a whisper and he purged your lips with his.

It felt as if two universes were collapsing. That's how it felt, kissing the forbidden fruit for him and for you. Even though James presented a small obstacle in the way of your relationship, the whole secrecy seemed to be more exciting, causing more passionate interactions between the two of you the more you two continued this.

He backed you agains the bed... again but you laughed, pushing him away but holding onto his shirt collar. "We have to go, you know that."

He wailed like a small puppy. "I don't want to."

You pulled him into a kiss, just as passionate, just as strong and so hard to let go of it. "I-" you tried but he deepened it in that moment, causing you to heat up and back up on the bed as he crawled over you.

He raised himself up and tool a long look at you, just laying there as your foot found its way to his chest. He took a gentle hold of it and moved it onto his shoulder. "You're so beautiful."

And that was it. Small words, small gestures- you went for it all. Your love couldn't consume him all. It always wanted more.

These moments, your soul didn't care. It was happy, you were happy and you were glowing. Only your roommate was the one who knew about your secret and she didn't agree much with it. She said he didn't treat you as he should.

But you were happy and that was all that mattered.

"I love seeing you this happy but I'm so afraid that you'll get hurt." your roommate said as she made her way to your bed.

"He wouldn't hurt me. He said he would never hurt me."

"I don't know, (y/n)..." she continued but you only laughed and smiled. Something in your heart was so full of love that you couldn't keep it in. Even James thought there was something wrong when you hugged him more than you usually did.

He suspected something was going on with you but he had no clue what.

Or that's how you thought.

Remus came into the room and just as he closed the door, somebody pushed him against it. Defensively, he pushed the person away from him. "What the hell?!" he shouted and saw a pair of furius brown eyes staring at him. "James?!"

"Were you with my sister!?" he shouted, not as if he was asking, simply waiting for Remus to tell the truth he already knew. But how could he had found out. "Tell me!" he snapped, pushing Remus' shoulder. "Tell me that Peter didn't see you leaving Room of Requirements with my baby sister!"

Oh, that's how.

Remus shot his eyes at Peter, than back at James. His eyes let loose. He was tired... and ashamed. You and him talked many times about getting caught but he thought the two of you would end by now... but you didn't.

"It just happened mate."

"Fuck you, Moony!" he pushed him again. "Did the two of you kiss?!" he asked. "Were you her first kiss?!"

"Yeah, okay!" Remus lifted his hands in defense. He felt as if he was being interrogated by the Ministry at this poing.

James only stared at him for a minute, than turned around and ran his hands down his face. He mumbled something under his breath- something Remus couldn't hear.

He then turned around really carefully, trying to control the boiling blood that kept flooding into his brain. "I'm not even going to ask if the two of you shagged- I'm just going to tell you this." he said calmly, however, you could still hear the fury in his voice- the one he never used before, not once in all years of friendship. "You are going to my sister and you will tell her that it's over." he warned. "She doesn't need this Remus. What you have- she doesn't need this." he threw knives with his poisinous glare.

Remus couldn't even argue with him. He knew that this was the reason why James would never let the two of you be together. You didn't know... you didn't and it wasn't your fault but he started this mess, and he felt as if he owed it to James to finish it.

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By now, you knew something was off. Whenever Remus seemed to stay away from you, you got a strong feeling in your stomach. The two of you could talk it out, always but this time, the feeling was extremely powerful and deep inside, you knew that it wasn't good.

So you avoided him too. You simply felt... afraid...

And James knew. He knew Remus hasn't spoken a word to you yet because you seemed to be cheery and all over the place. Jumping from one friend to the other.

'She seems so happy.' - he thought at first, seeing you talk to one of your friends from class. 'I'm glad he was her first everything... but she can't go through with this. She'd break.' He looked at Remus, who stared into the book, ignoring you completely.

James stood up and walked to him. "Go talk to her." he said, more of a warning than a suggestion. Remus looked up at his friend's eyes and saw the demand in his darkened look. "Now." he finished and walked away.

Remus watched his best friend walk away, Sirius hiding away in discomfort, meanwhile Peter was lost in his own world. He looked at you on the other side of the room and just as he did, your eyes met. His heart stepped a beat, not knowing that it matched yours on the other side.

He shuffled in his seat for a second or two but cleared his throat and walked up.

It didn't take a lot of convincing to let you come with him. You loved him. You would be by his side every second that counted, if it wasn't for the circumstances the two of you were in.

The sky wasn't like before. It wasn't clear as day but it was still just enough chilly. He was about to graduate soon and you will go into your last year. You haven't talked about it yet but maybe this will finally be the conversation that clears all that mess up

You thought.

He couldn't get himself to say it. Your eyes shimmered so brightly- even on a day like this. How could he do this?

"Umm..."

You smiled and took a hold of his hand. "It's me Remus. You can always talk to me."

He swallowed hard and flickered his eyes from your hands to your eyes.

And then it was cold.

"James found out about us... and for me, I think, it's best for us to end this now. " he said, not letting you interrupt him when you started to process information. "I think it's best that we end this." he continued quietly, removing his hand from yours and avoiding your eyes... but you only stared, not blinking once... only stared.

He tried to smile but it wasn't sincere. At least not in your eyes. "We had so much fun- (y/n) but-"

"No..." you spoke weakly, clearing your voice and not letting a single tear fall from your eyes. "You can't just break up over this. James can understand- so he knows."

"No, (y/n)... listen..." he started but you interrupted him before he could continue.

"Why do you want to end it? Finally, James knows-"

"James doesn't want us to be together." he started to get more harsh with you.

"Well, that's his problem, not ours." you snapped back.

"What do you mean it's not our problem?! He's my best friend!"

"And he's my brother- if he was a real friend, he'd be happy for you."

"If he's a real brother, he'd make us break up!"

"What does that even mean?!"

Remus threw his head back. He cannot tell you. Not this. He could tell you a lot of things but the why... that he couldn't tell you. "It means it's over." he stood up.

"Don't you walk away from me!" you shouted behind him and grabbed his arm, turning him away.

"What don't you understand!?" he shouted back, pointing at his head with his fingers. "We were never meant to be, (y/n). It was a ride but we get off now!" he pointed at the floor, steaming from all the fury.

'Why couldn't you just let him go?'

"Oh, it definitely was a ride!" you scoffed, crossing your arms as he narrowed his eyes at your sarcasm. "But you're going to let one James get in the way between this?!"

"Yes!"

"Is HE THAT IMPORTANT, HUH?! WHY DID YOU EVEN CHOOSE ME THEN?!"

"YES!" he screamed at this point. "He is MORE important than you. He is MORE than you will ever be to me!" He lost his temper, blubbering out everything he thought. "I didn't choose you! You were just there- JUST FUCKING THERE- at the right place at the right time- THAT'S WHY YOU AND ME WOULD NEVER WORK OUT. You were an OPPORTUNITY!" he shouted, letting his eyes darken and glare at you maliciously. "And I took it gracefully." he finished in a low growl, his eyes shimmering when all of a sudden you took a step back.

...

...it's that how it felt?

It was like a click in his brain. He was too harsh. He was- you're still James' little sister- he still... "Shit, (y/n)..."

You pulled your hand away from his touch as he tried to take a hold of it. Physically, it wasn't possible for your world to be shaking at the moment... but somehow it has and you couldn't see.

"It came out really wrong-"

And your heart could, in logic, not hurt phisically. Hertbreak is psychollogical but then why did suddently feel as if it had been ripped out of your chest. A hole... a deep dark hole in your chest, sucking every last bit of your soul into it.

"(y/n), please say something. You just stepped on a nerve and I got angry-"

Was the world always this silent? Were the voices around you always this muffled. You couldn't hear, you couldn't feel.

You took a hold of your cold arms and the cold didn't hurt. Your fingertips... as blue and swollen as they were, they didn't pain.

"Come on, let's get inside."

You wish, you could have ran away but your legs felt numb, so you wobbled as far away from him as you could. The first corner you turned to, the moment your legs collapsed and you slid into the floor.

'Was I really this stupid?'

'What just happened?"

'What will my roommate say- she'll mock me-'

'He probably feels so great now that he knows I was in love with him.'

'Why does it hurt so much?'

Random thoughts came through your head. One running over the other- one as random as what to wear tomorrow. But the air was cold and you felt as if you deserved to freeze in it.

The stupidity, naivety and the immense ego death- everything has destroyed you. They say words cannot hurt you but they can. If they say it right, if they say it in the truthful manner- in a manner intended to hurt you... you?

So you thought back to the night the two of you first kissed. He said, the right place at the right time... that's all you were to him. A girl, who was there for him to use. A girl, he had no feelings for, not close to what you felt for the past few months. He kissed you and touched you, he had seen you naked and it didn't mean anything to him. He meant everything to you.

You were stupid. You thought he loves you. You thought you were special when he kissed you. That he found you attractive, beatiful- as he had said but you were just a day given opportunity.

If there was a monster that day, there, he would have kissed it. Because it was just there. Not because it cared for him, because it was his brother's best friend and it had trusted him with itself- no because the monster was just there, by the lake, at the same time like him.

Nothing. You meant... nothing.

---

Grey... the colours were grey. Every single one of them was gray, different shades of it. You promised yourself, you wouldn't let anybody affect you but you couldn't help the feeling in your chest, this soul sucking hole causing your whole body to ache. It felt as if your heart wasn't even there. He ripped it out and destroyed it.

You barely woke up, but you had to... for school. You had to go to school. Not that you cared anymore. You simply just existed. It was as if you couldn't remember when you got out of bed and when you got back into it. Time flew by like it didn't exist at all.

You didn't even know when one week passed by. It just did and nothing much mattered. You sat behind your desk and wrote your Transfiguration paper. It was when you were almost done when he altered your brain and there was the big pain in your throat. You swallowed it, closed your eyes and felt them burn.

You have to finish this. - you thought.

So you did and you forced him away. As soon as you did, you went to the bathroom and washed yourself. Then simply crawled to bed at six pm. It was your ruitine since then. You took a journal, you wrote it down, realising you cannot write things down without crying, so you grabbed the pillow and pushed it to your chest. You squeezed it so tightly in the meaning to place it into the empty hole in your chest.

It didn't cover, so you cried anyway. You did. No matter how hard you tried, you cried.

You don't remember what you talked with your roommates. You plastered a smile and nodded but avoided pretty much everybody.

Everything was a no for you.

A walk? - No.

Hogsmeade? - No.

Dinner? - No.

Study group? - No.

Roommates were a nice distraction but it wasn't enough for the pain. Even when James sent you a note, you always replied with a no. It was automatic by now. You said you had to study or that you were tired. You needed time for yourself. You needed to find your self-worth again because for the past months, you let your happiness depend on one person and that person just took all that happiness away from you.

So what you needed? It was work and sleep.

---

James knew you were heartbroken. He knew he was the annoying sibling but he wasn't used to being annoyed by you. You had always kept your emotions to yourself. The two of you weren't close emotionally but you had your own share of fun together. When he asked Remus when everything started, it was just around the time your bond started to get better. The two of you would spend much time together and you weren't so stuck up or annoyed at any slight inconvinience.

He never saw that side of you. The one that was emotionally opened to him. He didn't know it was Remus the sole reason for that. You were happy, excited and... well, in love. But it was the wrong person. Remus has something that he didn't wish for you to deal with. You were always the rebel of the family. He was the golden child but you were your own person. You didn't talk back t your parents as he did but you did all the things that you wanted. You did everything you wanted. That was your own magic. You were a rebel but you were a kind and understanding person.

James is the tough one in the group. He is the leader, the great one... even in your own family, he is the golden one, the perfect one but you always understood him the way nobody else did. You saw him, behind all of that facade. He loved being around you. You were his safe place. You were... his sister. The sister who gave him all the unsolicited advice and was there for him when nobody else was.

He didn't see much of you and most of the time you ignored his letters and messages. The times he did catch up to you, you excused yourself to go study and he knew you were furius at him because at times, you'd snap at him, throwing harsh words at him.

He knew you were sad and heartbroken but he also knew you'd move on sooner rather than later. You were just dramatic. Women always are.

It was to his surprise when he walked into the classroom and saw you sitting at one of the tables, laughing and smiling with a Ravenclaw his age.

It was Newt's and you were one year behind- so there was no reason you should be there.

Remus was more surprised than James. If he was bound to find out, he couldn't do it now. The protocol was to sit down and take the exam. No talking, no turning around but nothing could make him focus without knowing the truth about your attendence at this exam.

He could hear the professor something whisper in your ear but he couldn't understand it. Maybe, the professor realised you weren't supposed to be there either.

But nothing happened. You mumbled back and you stayed.

It was up until the exam was over when he turned around to see your chair empty, your robe disappearing behind the door. He ran after you but James had already caught up.

The two of you were already arguing.

"What do you mean you're graduating early?" James bulged his eyes out.

Graduating early?- Remus thought. You? Why would you ever graduate early, you hated studying.

"Why not? I've already taken most of the exams and I passed. McGonagall said if I roll up my sleeves and grab the whole thing, I can do it but the chance is small. Yet, here I am." you smiled and that twinkle in your eye that was known to more people to be the twinkle of up to no good.

What were you up to?

"You can't. You don't have any recommendations- not- no." James couldn't piece it together.

"Yes. I'm graduating and I am moving to southern Europe and I am never stepping foot in England ever again."

"Southern Europe?!" James shouted in disbelief. "You're shitting me?"

"I'm not. I have a plan to leave. I always had."

"That was your fairy tale. To live in Italy or Greece or some shit." he started to laugh.

"To be away from here." you said angrly. "I hate it here. I always had."

"No." said James.

"Yes..." mumbled Remus but nobody heard him due to the loud arguing between siblings.

You always said about leaving when the two of you were together. The beach, the culture... you said you felt as if nobody supported you here. The rebel of the family. You confided into him about how you felt there was zero effort made to make something out of you. All attention was always on James and that made you rebel in your family. You didn't want to be like James but everybody forced you to be at least somewhat like him. You said, how people take you for granted, underrating your power.

I guess, this was you taking your power into control.

Before he knew it, you were storming one way and James the other but unlike last time. He chose to follow you.

"YOU CAN'T DO THIS!" he shouted behind you.

"Watch me." you turned around to see him then back around to turn a corner.

He caught up and took a hold of your hand but you snapped it away as soon as it touched you.

Of course, you wanted to see him. Of course, you wanted to talk to him, you craved him but you were furius beside all things. God, you could have screamed at him right now and hug him at the same time.

"You can't do this because you're angry at me. Don't take it on James." he started but you laughed.

"You think, I'm doing this for you?" you laughed, poking his chest with your finger. "I just grabbed the opportunity, Remus. I was just there, at the right place at the right time." you lowered your voice, quoting him.

"Come on- you don't know the whole background-"

"No, you know what Remus. I chose you. I fucking chose you to be my first. That means that I decided to trust you with my soul as well as my body and trusting people isn't easy for me." you continued. "I let you in- quite literally- but I thought we were something and you surely played the role to make me feel that way." you smiled forcefully, hiding away the feeling in your chest. You had no idea how a heart that is no longer there can still break.

"I really cared about you. I still do."

"You moved on, two weeks after us." you finally let him show a bit of your emotions. "Two fucking weeks and another girl was under your arm- God fuck, Remus. The hell is wrong with you."

"A lot..."

"Fuck you for playing the victim all the time." you pushed him hard. "Fuck you- fuck you- fuck you!" you continued to shout angrily. "I won't play the victim because I am not one. I'm moving on- away from fuckheads like you." you spat out. "Because you could have had somebody who would have loved you for everything that you are. You won't find anybody who will be prepared to love you as much as I was. Remember that, Remus Lupin. You won." you threw your hands up in defeat and walked away.

And it was one of those things that stick with you. It stuck with Remus because he didn't see you anywhere else anymore. Neither did James. He didn't know whether you were dead or alive. The graduation, they both looked for you but nowhere.

You disappeared from his life and it was until then when his life started to fall apart for him. You told me he could be whatever he wanted to be- even an auror. You supported him the way nobody else could and you accepted every flaw. He knew you would love him even more if he told you his secret but he thought.... he thought the two of you would stay friends. He thought, he had time with you. He thought he would appologise and the two of you would eventually talk.

He needed somebody. He needed somebody to talk to- always. Sirius was in Azkaban and James was dead. And all he could think about was needing you.

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