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[argmonster]

I started a new medication back in November of 2023 (as of writing this it's now July '24) and it messed with my brain chemistry pretty bad for about a month when I first started taking it. I almost made some really bad desicions, but kept reminding myself to wait it out. After that transition faze, I felt like someone had lifted me up on their shoulders to see a beautiful parade that I had been a part of the whole time. it was like I finally understood the inherent beauty of being alive, and I could participate in it, fully.

I couldn't remember a time I had ever felt that before. for the first time since I was a kid, I was excited to go to sleep and wake up in the morning to live the next day.

It wasn't just my medication though. I had a support system. I started a paid internship and new routine that I loved, I stopped using social media+youtube, and was spending a lot of time with my partner and my friends during my free time. My medication gave me energy to focus on healing my body with food and daily low-impact excersize, which in turn gave me more energy to be creative and do the things that I forgot I wanted to do.

Right now I've been having a hard time, my routine has changed, my parter and i are long distance, and some of my friends have moved away- and it's fucking me up right now. But remembering that I can be that happy again has kept me hopeful. I know that there are people who love me, and I love them back.

I know that my feelings and circumstances are always temporary. And I can eventually learn to work with the hard things -and find the gems of joy inside each day. Some days are way harder than others, and I work to problem solve them.

you might be surprised by how many bad/funky moods can be fixed by just taking care of your basic body functions: nutrition, hydration, sleep, movement, and bowel movements. It's annoying as heck, but it's so worth it to check them off your list first when problem solving why you might be feeling bad. Not all problems stem from those physical needs, but it's much easier to deal with the complex stuff on a full stomach than an empty one.

Waiting through the hard stuff and choosing to keep going was the best decision I ever made. I got to experience being loved and loving others. And I think that's what keeps me going. Love is what unites us, love is what our meaningful connections are based on. Love exists even when you don't feel connected to it. And remembering the things you love, no matter how small and meaningless they might be to others, can help you regain the connection to the big loves.

I hope something from my experience can resonate with you. It's okay if it doesn't. I just hope, in my heart of hearts, that everyone can have a similar opportunity to what I had with my medication- a stepping stool to be able to see the beauty of life, and the agency to live it how you want.

I'm very sorry to ask something like this, I've really been struggling with this question, and I wanted to ask the combined wisdom of the people on this site

I would like to know why you keep going, and what drives you to keep living. I know there are a lot of reasons to stay alive and enjoy life, I can think of a few that personally resonate with me, but I really want to know what your reasons are

You do not have to comment on this if that's too big of an ask, and I'm very sorry for asking something like this, I really need someone's help, I feel like I don't have much purpose

Also if I may ask, please don't post any suicidal ideation in the comments of this post, I really can't handle something like that right now

[kenapiece-main]

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

[fly-chicken]

A Pragmatic and surprisingly comforting perspective about the Trump 2nd Presidency from the ACLU

***Apologies if this is how you found out the 2024 election results***

Blacked out part is my name.

I’m not going to let this make me give up. It’s disheartening, and today I will wallow, probably tomorrow too

AND

I will continue to do my part in my community to spread the activism and promote change for the world I want to live in. I want to change the world AND help with the dishes.

And I won’t let an orange pit stain be what stops me from trying to be better.

A link to donate to the ACLU if able and inclined. I know I am

[taffywabbit]

they should invent a new type of "staying in bed for 2-3 hours after you wake up repeatedly opening and closing apps on your phone" where it makes you feel awesome and energized and emotionally fulfilled

[pangur-and-grim]

I think Pangur likes the new bed

[datcravat]

tetotetotetotetotetotetotetotetotetotetoteto!!!!!

[yamujiburo]

clothes shopping!

[froody]

reverse house flipping. I’m making the inside of this boring house bizarre, outdated and creepy.

[spaceistheplaceart]

more ford and mabel bonding because i said so :)

bonus ford under the cut:

[risariba]

Falin's Moving Castle

[poqu]

happy year of the dragon!

[incorrectbatfam]

You're literally gay??? And it's pride month??? And Israel's our only safe haven in that region???

There's no pride in genocide

[astearisms]

the winter king

[nipuni]

Overflight 🌃

A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon soon!

[beyondbirthdayzzz]

when the article is titled "17 unknown facts I bet you didn't know" but i already know five of those:

[ochi06]

thank you sonic team, we will not take it for granted