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shownu w glasses on is such a game changer he's so boyfriend material i'm sick
#shownu#monsta x#he's so fucking beautiful FUCK#praying i get a man like him and i would never complain again#praying i get him tbf#i'm sick icl he's just so đĽ°đđđđđđđđđđ#im so sad bro#shownu appreciation post as always#i love him sm đĽ˛
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Protection be gone! ĘâĄÉ
×â°â⤠Some Choso and Gojo headcanons (Separate) on how they would be when they fuck you raw for the first time! I might write some for other characters too later on ;) Tags: unprotected sex- obvi, cum á˘áᢠ, whiney choso, creampies!, Gojo has a weak pull out game.
Satoru Gojo
his face lit up when you told him that you're ready to try it without protection - and the most devilish smile formed on his lips.
He's never pressured you about it but god DAMN was he happy to finally get the chance to properly feel you.
You were nervous of course, praying to god that his pull out game was as strong as he said it was - spoiler it wasn't .
he had your legs spread out and resting against his shoulders and his eyes were glued on your pussy as he put the tip in.
"Oh my fucking goooood~" he shamelessly moaned out loud, his mouth agape as he watched your pussy basically swallow him whole.
You could barely keep your mouth shut too. His cock felt so good inside you like this, you swore you could feel every twitch and vein.
You were so tight, so wet around him, so warm. Your pussy was making him feral.
The sounds he let out were like none other. He was a swearing, growling mess.
"You take my cock so-fuck-fucking good baby", "You like how fucking deep inside it is baby? you like how good my-hah- cock feels?"
How long did he last you might ask? 10 minutes tops. He couldn't control himself when he put you into a mating press. He was plunging himself so deep inside of you that it felt like he was trying to go deeper but he physically couldn't.
His head was buried in the nape of your neck as he pounded into you, moaning your name and talking about how good he's gonna cum.
You didn't have the time to protest because all you could hear is a muffled, "fuuuuuuuck" and he was cumming inside you, basically balls deep.
and it was A LOT.
Your mind was too hazy at how utterly amazing it felt to be filled up by him to complain.
His head lifted up from your neck, revealing a disheveled, grinning, gorgeous face that belonged to the love of your life. You couldn't even be mad at him when he looked like that, but you still shot him a glare.
"Oopsie"
Choso Kamo
The idea sparked through your head while you were riding him.
"Choo~" You whispered into his ear, kissing the shell. "Let's take off the condom this time."
Choso - bless his soul, actually froze and he cocked his head towards you, eyes wide and lips parted.
"A-are you sure?" He stuttered out before gulping and you simply nodded.
Choso was nervous. he's never fucked without protection before and he had no clue what it felt like. He didn't think it was any different than fucking with a condom on.
And oh, was he wrong
He basically gasped when you slowly sat down on his cock and he covered his mouth to stop himself from making embarrassing noises.
His grip on your hips tightened and it was like he was at loss for words.
But then you start moving up and down.
And then he absolutely lost it.
His moans were so loud and whiney.
"yesyesyesyes" "mmm please go faster baby" "I love your pussy."
He was a man possessed. gripping your hips roughly and pounding into you like you were his own personal fleshlight.
Thankfully, you were on the pill so it didn't matter if he pulled out or not and you kind of didn't want him to ;)
His cock felt bigger than ever - you didn't even think that was possible with the size of him already, and he was hitting that sweet spot over and over again.
Poor Choso couldn't even last 5 minutes - but you took it as a compliment.
His head was thrown back in pure euphoria muttering out little, "ahh fuckfuckfuck" 's and talking about how much he doesn't want this to end.
With one big thrust inside you, he came bucket loads, shivering beneath you and panting.
To your surprise though, he was still hard as fuck after he pulled out.
Probably because of how lewd it was to see your pussy gushing out his cum, - he wanted to fuck you again
And he did fuck you again, and again.
and again.
"I think your pussy put a spell on me"
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part3 of toxic!sukuna , prt1 , prt2
this one is kinda freaky..
not proof read
@hazzelle-kento for the idea !! thank youđ this might turn into a series ..
â- predator/pray dynamics , size kink , overstim (cant help myself) , stalking , fem!waitress!reader, batshit crazy!sukuna, slight misogyny , degradation, non-con>dub-con , possessive themes , body shaming , hair pulling , name calling , unprotected secs (wrap your willy pls)
thinking about toxic!sukuna and his inability to keep you off his mind. the way you cuss him out because he didn't put up dishes like you asked. or the way you stare him down when he doesn't take his shoes off before entering the house.
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who denies that you actually want to break up with him. who said you couldnt break up with him.
why would you break up with him when he didn't do anything?
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who is just so unaware of the toxic things he did. restricting what you wear and who you go out with. lashing out at you when he asked a simple question. brushing you off when he came back late and smelled like alcohol.
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who told you a top looks horrible on you. that it wasn't your color, and it was too tight, making you look fat. all because he wanted you to change.
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who heard your sniffles from the other room but wanted to hear more of them. just because he's mean
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who is in denial and in complete confusion when you put a restraining order on him
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who claims he never put any hands on you.
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who quite literally has internal conflicts on what to do. leave you alone, let you have your space youve been complaining about or come pounding on your door and fuck you to sleep.
thinking about toxic!sukuna who wouldn't respect any boundaries you've made and would invade your personal space.
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who would contact you even when you blocked him on everything. instagram, SMS, twitter, tiktok, snapchat, facebook, google chat, EMAIL, yet the man still finds a way to messsge you.
' you still mad ? '
thinking about toxic!sukuna who doesn't care about your feelings at all. about how he only wants you for your mind- or for your body.
thinking about toxic!sukuna would try and corner you on your way back from a third shift at your work.
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who literally dreams about chasing you and making you love him again.
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who tries to explain that he's right wrong and that he only wants you.
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who wants to be in every part of your mind. he wants to corrupt you, break you in, and make you maleable. just for him and his dirty pleasures.
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who succeeds in his dreams of chasing you.
why would you ever want to run from him?
thinking about toxic!sukuna, who chased you down the alleyway with you screaming at him to leave you alone.
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"get the hell away from me, you damn psychopath! youre fucking crazy! you stalk me, message me, call me- i dont want anything to do with you, Ryomen!" the sounds of your shrill voice bounce off the dry walls on either side of you.
he followed you from your work to the little 'short-cut' home, and now he got you cornered in a deadend. you had black wedges and a skirt on- courtesy of your uniform regulations.
of course, he knew where you worked, why wouldnt he?
"come back baby, you know better." he snickered. his taller form was hiding by the darkness of the alleyway as it was well past 11PM.
you shuffled through your purse in search of something to defend yourself. pepper spray, a pocket knife, maybe keys. but came up empty.
why would you need to defend yourself anyway?
it sounded like his footsteps got closer as your movements were more frantic in trying to find something to fight Ryomen off with. you hand came in contact with your phone, and you raised it above your head before looking up and straight into the eyes of the devil himself.
"what are you looking for-" he asked in your face, his breath washed over you. as your nerves spiked, you threw your hand down so your phone came in contact with his forhead. "argh- you stupid cunt!" he grunted out as his face contorted in straight fury and disbelief.
did you... just strike him?
you stomped on his foot with your heel, and you earned another pained groan. you immediately went around him to run off, run into someone to help you, run into the light- something. you ran, your wedges rendering your full ability to move, but you had to make due.
your phone layed cracked at the back of the alleyway but atleast you had your purse? the entrance of the alleyway came closer than before, and you made it about 2 full steps into the light of the streetlight before a rough hand pulled you back by the hair.
"no- no, oh my damn, let go, Ryomen!" you screamed in frustration. his other hand came in, covered your mouth before taking your struggling body and pushing you against the wall.
why would he let you go when he just got you back?
he held you there, his face red and burning by the way you swung at him without hesitation. his eyes didnt lie, and they were filled with hatred but longing.
"youre mine, im not letting you go." he growled into your face after his let his stinging grip away from your hair. his hand ran down his face and he sighed loudly, "you are just as predictable as any other woman." he looked bored.
"you hit me, step on my foot, and then try to run?" he asked. your eyes stung when he pressed your head harder into the concrete wall.
"sounds like you need to lean your place again, yeah?" he concluded.
his hand moved from covering your mouth to grabbing your chin roughly and forcing you to look at him. "been out of check for a while. ignoring me, blocking me, avoiding me, wanting to take a break from me? i think you have lost your mind, baby" he said as his fingers forced their way more into your skin.
"leave me alone-!" you tried to say before he pushed you roughly on the ground, you hit your tail bone, and he came in between your distraught legs and leaning over you. his rough hands came in contact with your body, tugging and pulling on your clothes. he ripped your blouse, and the bottons popped everywhere. he flipped uo your skirt so the waist band was up your tummy.
why would he leave you alone when you just look edible.
"ryomen- i asked you for a break for a reason!" you screamed at him as you tried to cover your body. you tried to grasp the last bits of your dignity, but as soon as he cupped your cunt through your underwear, it was left for good.
why would you ever want a break from him..?
the chase from the back of the alleyway and the adrenaline from him holding you against the wall made you wet. it turned you on that he was willing to chase and catch you.
he smirked as he slid your underwear to the left and slid a thick finger in between your soaked fold before finding your clit and pressing harshly into the little nub.
"uhh-" you groaned at the feeling, he went hard and rough, not caring if it didnt hurt or not. you squirmed as your hips jerked and tried to scoot away from the stimulation.
he put his other hand on your hip, pulling you close as his fingers dipped lower and probbed at your entrance. "youre about to be in for a ride, you little bitch." he growled and forced his two dry fingers into your cunt, immediately finding your g-spot and abusing it.
your back arched as your thighs came up to your chest and closed around his arm, "Ryomen- please! I cant do this.." you whined out as your hips grinded against his fingers.
he smirked over you as you whined and arched your back, "cmon' cunt- cum for me" he demanded. he pressed a thumb into your clit, rubbing it as he fucking your cunt wet.
as you were recovering from one of your intense orgasams, he looked over you. his eyes drifted from your blissed out face to your shivering torso to your trembling thighs and hips. he licked your liquids from his fingers and slotted himself between your thighs.
why would you ever leave him when he is just perfect for you?
"time for the main event, yeah baby?" he snickered and started unbuckling his pants, unzipping them and pulling his underwear under his ballsack. he grabbed your calf and held it up by his head as he leaned in and stuffed his face into your sweaty neck.
his large mushroom tip nudged your entrance, and you tensed up as he started to push in. he was reforming your insides just to match around him, "cmon, whore... take it all.." ryomen groaned into your neck. he resisted the urge to bite into you as he listened to your sobs.
he raised back on his haunches when he bottomed out and quickly set a rough pace. your pleas and little whines only egging him further the more your worked up.
he let go of your leg to rest on his shoulder and started to grope your tits, kneeding them in one hand while tweaking one in another.
"youre being rough, ryomen! ugh- be gentle.." you whimpered. he shook his hand as he smirked and started to actually plunge into you. thrusting his hips and pulling you back by your tits as leverage.
plap! plap! plap! was the wet sounds of his balls hitting your ass.
he only sped up as he got lost in the pleasure, chasing his and fucking you complete stupid. your neck stretched as you felt another orgasm take over you and your mind felt blank. only thinking about ryomen, ryomen, dick, dick, ryomen.
he saw your face and shook his head and took one hand from your tits to the front of your head and forced your head to look at where hes fucking you open at. your back in an awkward yet painful position as you started to groan.
"you can't escape me, your morsel. you belong to me! i will kill you before you ever get any other thoughts of trying to leave me again. I control you. You are mine."
left unfinished cs ive gotten lazy and unmotivated. let me know what you think !!
toxic!sukuna part 1
toxic!sukuna part 2
revenge on toxic!sukuna
@aizawasbarb
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Protective, possessive and Passionate
Jason Todd x Male! Reader
Warning: swearing, drinking and sex
It was no secret that your boyfriend, Jason, is extremely protective of you. He likes to make sure youâre safe, even if he is in the line of fire, he also wants you to always remember that youâre his.
âSee how that looksâ Jason turned your face a little so you could see clearly the red mark on your neck.
Jason always marked his territory for other men to see, for them to know youâre off limits.
Jason drove you to work, holding your hand in his, you never complained and always thought it cute. A guy as big as Jason, to be so needy and like a puppy at times.
âHave a great day, love youâ Jason spoke softly as he kissed you.
âBye, love you tooâ you replied as you got out of the car.
Your work day was filled with the usual nonsense that entails. Making you spend all of your working hours wishing for some sleep.
Everyone has that part of the day that they dread, yours happened to be a coworker. Adam. He never left the fact he likes you hidden.
âHey, how was your weekend?â He asked, smiling at you.
âHey, it was fine. Had dinner with my boyfriendâs family. Yours?â You asked to be polite, not really caring about the answer.
Adam knew that you have a boyfriend, but he never seemed to care. He still tried to get it on with you.
Heâd worked there for about a year now and still took every chance he could, as it was coming up to the office work party, you prayed that Jason could make it.
Perhaps the size of Jason would make Adam back off, Jason is big dude and can be pretty scary at times.
Jason held onto your thigh as you both watched Netflix, the newest show you both thought to watch sucked you right in.
âShall we go to bed?â Jason asked as the credits began to roll, you sleepily nodded.
Getting into bed with Jason was always something amazing, he would hold onto you so tight.
The huge puppy that is Jason liked to hold onto you all night. Never letting you out of his sight, or his grip.
You hadnât let it bother you too much, you were just thankful that Jason was able to come with you. Protect from the lustful eyes of Adam.
Jason knelt onto the floor as he found your shoe laces were coming undone.
âHey lovebirdsâ your work-bestie, Naomi, smiled as she greeted you both.
Giving you both a hug and a kiss in the cheek, you placed your hand on Naomiâs small baby bump.
âNot long to go nowâ you chuckled as she smiled, lifting her top to show off her new accessory.
The three of you walked into the building together as you found it dimly lit, music playing and a bartender on site already.
âThank God, I need a drinkâ Jason stated as he made a beeline for the bar.
âCan I get two whiskeys please? And a lemonade?â Jason winked as Naomi rolled her eyes with a small smile.
âOh fuckâ the words fell out of your mouth like vinegar.
Naomi stroked your arm gently as she blocked you from Adamâs sight.
Jason was aware of what this coworker was doing, but he didnât know what he looked like. Or if he was coming.
âOh hey you, howâs it going?â Adam cheered as he saw you standing with Naomi.
You smiled as Adam leant towards you, seemingly unaware of the 6ft plus giant next to you both.
âAnother coworker?â Jason asked curiously, you nodded. Hesitating the next few words.
âThis is Adamâ you took Jasonâs hand in yours as you saw his face switch.
The three of you tried your best to stay away from him, but Adam always ended up near you somehow.
âHey babe, gotta get going home or I wonât want to get up ever againâ Naomi smiled softly as she gave you a hug.
âYou two rest upâ you winked as Naomi left, all the while with Jason in the bathroom.
This left you alone for a few minutes which you would find scary. You had mental words with yourself, Adam is only a man, nothing more. But he still bothered you.
âWhereâs your boyfriend?â Adam asked as he came and sat next to you.
You pointed to the bathroom door, Adam only edged closer to you.
You shifted a little in your seat as you felt Adam get closer to you, his body heat felt like it was setting you on fire.
âYou know, four years is a long time to be with one person. Maybe you should have a little break from him. I could show you a good timeâ Adam spoke as you felt disgusted.
His words were like venom and you could feel yourself getting close to doing something youâd get into trouble for later.
âCome on y/n, letâs have some fun while your man isnât here. Heâs a wimp who doesnât deserve youâ Adam continued.
The smell of Whiskey was strong from Adamâs breath, heâd been drinking tons and not seeming to stop. Though, him drinking didnât make a difference as he was like this sober.
Before you could say anything in response there was a giant hand that had taken hold of Adamâs shirt collar.
âDonât touch my boyfriend again, donât even look at him. You disrespect him like that, you get me to deal with and I can assure you, you donât want thatâ Jason growled lowly in Adamâs ear.
You could tell from Adamâs face that he was regretting his words, the tower that is Jason was now in his face. Eyes looking deep into his soul.
It was a success as Adam had finally got the message, but Jason was still angry.
Needing to blow off some steam, Jason drove you both home. Jason threw you on the bed when you both got in. Practically lifting you off your feet and carrying you there.
âGet in all fours for me babyâ Jason said, anger still present but he spoke with love towards you.
Jason wasnât angry with you, he never could bring himself to be. He was angry that another guy had the audacity to try it with you.
âUhâ you called out as Jason slid his length into you, your eyes rolled back.
âWho does this belong to?â Jason asked, as he began to find a rhythm.
âYou, Jason. Iâm all yoursâ you called out, Jason smiled as he gave your asscheek a good slap.
Your phone lit up as it rested next to you in the bed. Jason checked to see it was Snapchat.
Snap from Adam.25 was all it said, Jason smiled to himself as he punched in your code to unlock the phone.
Still with his huge dick deep inside your ass, you were too busy moaning in pleasure to notice what was going on.
Jason snapped you on all fours as Jason hit it from behind, your fingers gripping onto the pillows, you biting your lip to stop yourself from letting out moans.
âHe busy, text back laterâ Jason typed into the phone with one hand, clicking send.
Then tossing your phone back where it was as he slammed deeper into you.
âFuck, Jasonâ you called out as Jason got even deeper.
Safe to say Adam got the message and never tried anything in with you again, he also got a word from HR after a sexual harassment complaint was logged.
You were thankful that Jason could be so Protective, Possessive and also how passionate he is. You wouldâve preferred for Jason to not make a statement with you on all fours. But it worked.
You smiled as you fell asleep on Jasonâs chest that night, him holding you as he buried himself into a new book.
#red hood#gotham#red hood fanfiction#red hood x reader#red hood x you#jason todd fanfiction#jason todd x reader#jason todd x y/n#jason todd x you#jason todd#jason todd x male reader#red hood x male reader
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nightmares â nanami kento
an. my finals start in june i'm gonna explode yall
cw. sfw. gn!reader. kento has nightmares and he needs you
playing. oh my god by fog lake.
nanami's been getting more sleep ever since he left jujutsu tech and that shitty nine to five he used to slave at every damn day â along with the fact that he's able to spend more time with you. he likes to say that it helps him sleep, having you within arms reach (something that was extremely rare in the past, considering he had no time to rest).
kento thinks you resemble closely to a human sized pillow, and he often treats you as such. his arms are wrapped around your frame, one of his legs laying on top of yours â his chest rises and falls slowly, small snores leaving his lips â and you're thankful, very thankful; nanami was never able to sleep this soundly when you two lived in tokyo.
you try your best to push his heavy weighted figure away: you groan and complain that he's too big to be sharing this bed with you and that he should be sleeping on the floor instead. yet, you welcome him with open arms every night â pressing kisses to his forehead and running your fingers through his blonde hair.
you'd rather clingy and sleepy nanami who uses you as a personal bolster pillow in the night than sleepless nanami who locks himself away in his office, or exhausted nanami who drags his feet through the entrance of your home with bloodied limbs. it broke your heart more times than you could really count, seeing kento that way.
nanami kento saw his life flash before his eyes in shibuya, and all he could really pray for was to make it out alive so he could see you one last time â even if it were just for a few minutes. he clung desperately onto the last bit of energy and will he had in hopes of making it out alive; even if he was mutilated to a point beyond recognition, he needed to be with you. that was the only way he could let himself go â he would crawl back to your home if it meant he could kiss you one last time.
he never told you how long he'd be gone, or if he'd even come back at all: so you waited anxiously, refreshing news pages and watching the television every night for some sort of good. any sort of indication kento was okay.
he doesn't return home. you only see him when you rush down to the hospital they take him to â barely conscious, holding on to hope he didn't know he still had. nanami regains his full consciousness in the weeks following, the first thing he says being that he's done.
yes, nanami didn't want to risk it. never again.
it's 2 in the morning and you're unable to sleep, nanami's groans and sudden flinches are keeping you up.
"ken?"
the expression on his face is horrific â you feel the guilt wash over you like a wave, high and then crashing; so your fingers find his arms and you try your very best to shake the man awake.
your husband wakes up with a whimper; tired eyes almost brimming with tears at the fact that he is awake and you are real. his mouth is sealed, unable to utter a word, but the way his lips tremble tells you everything he cannot say.
"are youâ"
soon, calloused fingers are gripping the flesh of your waist and pulling you impossibly closer. a nightmare, you can already tell: his hands feel clammy and his breathing is laboured.
"ken," you whisper. "'s okay. i'm here."
he sucks air through his teeth, trying to catch his breath. his body shudders at your touch as you graze over his skin â tracing circles on his bare back, your lips on his forehead. kento feels like he's about to cry, but he's not sure from what: at the fact that he had the worst dream of his life, or the fact that he's not dead and you're still here.
"'m s-sorry," he mutters. his voice is strained, still that deep and low tone that you're familiar with â but your heart still breaks as he apologises. "i'm sorry for waking you."
"don't be sorry," you comb your fingers through his hair using your free hand. "you know i don't mind it."
he sniffles and you yearn to hold him even tighter, but you think he would suffer broken ribs if you went through with that; so you settle for his head on your chest and your arms wrapped around his back.
"love you," nanami mumbles, voice getting softer and his grip looser â he feels his heart calm and his mind empty when you touch and hold him just like this. "i love you so much."
nanami wanted to be your protector. he hoped he would be for the remainder of his life â he likes to think he's doing a decent job at it now â but sometimes, it feels as though you are his; you fit awfully well to the title.
he supposes that's why he sleeps longer with you in the same bed as him; it's a peaceful thing knowing you're next to him if he has another bad dream, or if he feels cold and needs your warmth â or if he just wants to lay with you.
"i love you more, ken," you lulled, the tips of your fingernails scratching the skin of his trapezius; he recognises the heart shapes you trace on him. "get some rest."
"okay," he hums, his nose poking at your collarbones â his lips slowly leaving trails of kisses along them. "goodnight, darling."
your lips curl into a smile almost instinctively and you think it's embarassing, but it's much too dark for kento to see you blush at the name he calls you. you're thankful.
"goodnight, baby."
he's thankful that it's close to pitch dark, as well â kento thinks you can't see the smile he has on his face â but what he doesn't realise that you can feel him on your skin; feel the way his cheeks puff and his lips form the small smile you are so familiar with.
090124 â happy new years Tartaglieo fandom my gcse's are upcoming.
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How would Jason react, or even know about Bruce nearly killing the joker?
He doesnât hear it from Damian, Dick nor Barbara. Itâs only when a few years have passed and relations between Bruce and him slowly start cooling that he starts being able to return to the Manor more often without feeling pangs of guilt, longing, nostalgia and overall the Lazarus Pit screaming to be let out.
However, he isnât dumb. Whenever he complains to Tim about how Timâs been treated better and loved more than he was, heâs quick to notice how Timâs jaw tenses, with fingers spastic as if they wanted to curl into fists. Nor does he miss what Tim whispers under his breath twenty minutes later.
If only you knew..
Bruce keeps trying to make amends, tries engaging with him face to face before a few bullets got the message across and he retreated. But Jason could still feel him waiting, hovering, for the signal to light up and let him know he was needed.
He could go to hell though.. Every single time he looked at Bruce he felt safe, followed by fierce anger burning through his veins. He hated that he felt at ease when Bruce entered. Hated that he almost fell back into their old banter. Hated that he missed him. Hated that he still trusted him.
Hated that he still loved him.
One night, after giving Bruce the cold shoulder the entire time and watching in satisfaction as Bruceâs shoulder slumped in defeat, he felt the sudden need to comfort him. Heâs the batman, he chided himself. If he could get over your death, he can get over this.
Standing out on the balcony, he never spoke to the presence already there.
âMaster Jason..â
âHey Alfred, itâs pretty cold out you sure youâd be fine?â
âIâve faced worse winters.â
Jason sighed. That old man always had an air of expectancy around him, just like when he was robin, like a mother waiting for their child to tell them what they did wrong.
âWhat do you want?â
âI want to know what the bloody hell you think youâre doing?â
That caught Jasonâs attention. Hatred and stoic ness quickly melted and all he could do was stare at him in shock.
âWhy are you tormenting him?â
âAre you fucking kidding me??-â âLanguage master Jason.â
âAlfred. You were there.â
âThere was nothing master Bruce could do to save you-â
âI DONT CARE ABOUT THAT ALFRED! He-â
Shoulders slumped, he looked down.
âHe replaced me.â Jason whispered. âHe didnât even wait till my body was cold he just fucking went ahead and replaced me. Even after knowing I died, he still put another child in that suit, MY suit! And then, HE DIDNT EVEN AVENGE ME!! He just took Joker back to Arkham, which is basically just like a vacation for him, and LEFT. After all these-â
A shivering cold current of electricity ran through his body and he could feel the Lazarus Pit rising, making his body grow colder by the second.
âAfter all this time.. he never did anything.â Jason muttered. âSo yeah, not only was knowing I was dead for four years a slap to the face.. but to come back home to find another kid in my room and business as usual? As if I never existed? That just made me realise I didnât matter.â
CLINK
The tea cup in Alfredâs hands was shaking, and a wave of concern overtook Jason. He was about to reach a hand out to steady it when Alfred put the cup down, sighed and looked at the moon.
âMaster Bruce never gave Robin to Tim. I did.â
â.. Come again?â
âI gave it to him myself. After you died.. he was a shell of himself. He started pushing himself more, brutalising criminals to the point of hospitalisation. After you died.. a big part of him did too. He refused to be around people, friends, to be happy, to eat. He was punishing himself for your death by refusing to live. And I never forgot you either my boy.. Every night for months I stood by the windows, staying awake and looking outside..hoping to catch a glimpse of you. For the first time in my life I prayed for you to be beaten and bruised, but alive. Locked myself in your room, in your memories, as if standing over your bed was guarding you even in death..Master Bruce missed you so much he played tapes of your missions, just to hear your laugh.â
The older man shook his head and refused to look at him.
âHe rejected Tim, but I couldnât watch him destroy himself. Iâd already lost one son..â Alfred paused, looking at Jason with such fondness and pain. â I wasnât going to lose another.â
A long pause lingered in the air, and Jason could hear his heart racing as it processed what heâd heard.
âAs for Joker,â Jason looked up, and saw the most terrifying scowl heâd ever seen before, with eyes filled with hatred and a craving for retribution.
âJason Bruce almost killed him too. Like you said, I was there. I was always there. He had chas- hunted Joker down, torturing him slowly and violently until the air was thick with his screams. How every bone was shattered, with so much blood you couldnât even tell the tiles underneath were white.â
Alfred closed his eyes, and Jason couldnât help feel that though he was remembering the scene, he was also reveling in it. âHis body shattered, smile gone replaced with pain and the howls of misery that he emitted that night.. alas-â
âHe didnât kill him.â
Alfredâs eyes bore into his, and reflected the darkness of the shimmering sky.
âYouâre not hearing me. He damn well nearly did. There are things worse than death in this world and Bruce made sure to make Joker feel every single.one. But Superman.. heard him. He heard the roars of fury and grief, and stopped him. All while Bruce stood over the broken body of what once was human. All while muttering your name over and over again, like it was a prayer that kept him grounded. With every hit he took, with every ounce of pain he delivered, he did it with your name on his lips.â
They both just stood there.. shadows in fading moonlight as the noises of life started waking the world with their song.
âUnfortunately, his voice was recorded on one of those surveillance cameras. Tim wiped it, but we kept one copy.. and though the footage is corrupted, the sound is crystal clear.â
Alfred hesitated, before gently cupping Jasonâs hands and placing a cold weight on them.
âI hope you never hear it..my boy. Iâd rather you burnt it. But if you want to hear the raw truth.. I wanted you to have proof.â
Sunlight burst through the horizon, and with it came the dawn of a new time.
Jason heard the tape as soon as he left.
And burnt it right after.
Alfred was right.
All he had heard were the guttural cries of a broken man..
A father, grieving for his son.
Jason finding out Dick killed joker post:
#dick grayson#batfam#batfamily#batman#jason todd angst#jason todd robin#batman angst#tim drake#alfred pennyworth#red hood angst#badass Alfred pennyworth
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Pairings : Logan Sargeant x reader (platonic)
in which Logan and you have a day off work in London and decide to go to build a bear, creating each a stuffy for the other as you did as children.
â only friend i need series
"Come on Logs, live a little", you said, pressing the blonde to agree to your spontaneous idea of the day. "it's a fantastic idea, I always have those, and i still can't believe you've lived here for what? Two years now? and still didn't do it. shame, mate."
Said man, who sat opposite of you, took another bite of his somewhat healthy breakfast choice his trainer would've had a wet dream about, all while starring in disbelief at you, the one who's bright smile focused on the plate of waffles, covered in strawberries and cream.
He shallowed, opening his mouth to disagree with the idea but nothing came to his mind, letting you grin in excitement. "Iâ well, fine, but don't you think we're a bit too old for build a bear, y/n?"
"Buh, since when do we do age appropriate stuff?", you questioned, thinking back about the many times you rode rollercoasters for children, watched movies in the cinema for zero to six years old and did other things people considered then to be made for children. "it's cute, saw a tiktok about it."
"You and your tiktok obsession â when did you even watch it? We were out all day yesterday."
You rolled your eyes playfully. "Are you that old, sargeant? You were in the gym after we had lunch at mine."
"Yeah true", the man sheepishly agreed, remembering the cardio and weight session, before his blue eyes brightened, signaling you that he had an idea â for the better or worse, you never knew with him.
"Please enlighten me, what's on your mind?"
Logan's smile widened, pupils blooming. "How about I build you a stuffy and you for me like we did when we were younger?"
"Yes please, that has to the best idea you've had in a while, Logs", you giggled. "Let's eat and then we'll make our way there, its in that mall not so far away from here."
With that, you both ate in silence, listing to the gossip around you â an older woman complained to her son about back pain, a couple fought about having another baby (the woman didn't want another one while the man was adapt on growing the family) and a man in his forties tried to flirt with the waiter â, Logan and you sent each other looks and quirked eyebrows, whenever the topic grew hotter and juicier.
As you shallowed the last bite of your delicious breakfast, Logan already waved the waiter over to pay for today's expenses â since both of you worked, you took turns with the payment, even though the racer tried to take the check whenever you were eating in a somewhat bougier place, saying that he made more and wanted to be a gentleman which would get him a snort out of you or a slap on the arm. not that it hurt him, you liked to think the hits had to be gently because of his worth for Williams.
After the blonde had paid, he impatiently stood up, holding out his hand for helping you to stand up. "Let's go, y/n, we don't have all day."
You let go off his hand, pressing a finger to your forehead. "Don't know why I keep up with you, you're acting like a kid in a hardware store. i'm praying for Alex and his patience."
"Hey, I'm not that bad", your friend shrieked, pulling your head into am armlock to rub your hair which he knew you didn't enjoy at all â you weren't a pet, you'd tell him.
"You're a shithead, have I ever said that to you?", you grumbled as you freed yourself from his strong grasp.
"And you're what? a Saint?", a snort escaped the man's throat, pushing you lightly forward to continue your way to the destination. "cause I don't think so, you're as bad as me, that's why we're friends."
Once again you grumbled under your breath but decided to just walk, letting Logan rant about his trip to New York with Williams and the training camp that was held in Miami.
When you arrived at the mall, you've heard all about his recent work experience, Alex's stories about his holidays and a new recipe Logan's mom came up (it didn't sound but why was she adapt to add pumpkin to the dish?).
"Look logs, there it is", you pointed out, gaze hazy with childish excitement. You intertwined your hand with his, dragging him inside the colourful store to the yet lifeless bodies of stuffies â there was the classic Teddy in a few shades of brown, forest and savanna animals as well as movie characters like yoda, stich and hedwig, Harry Potter's beloved owl.
you truly were in paradise. "Oh look, it's an eagle, that's so American, so you", a booming laughter fell from your lips, winning the attention of a mother daughter duo next to you, causing you to blush and Logan to pinch your side.
alas, your friend had enough of you, so therefore he left your side to explore the many options the shop had in stock. You didn't see his pick as your only matter was to fulfil the task of finding the right stuffy for logan and putting it in clothing.
In the end you decided on a cute black alpaca and put it in a white cargo trousers combined with a multicoloured party shirt and some blue jeans jacket, letting yourself be inspired by the clothing styles of Logan and George Russell's invention of white pants and a williams team shirt as a williams driver's standard uniform â you'd switch up the party shirt as soon as you'll get a hang out of sewing to make a mini williams shirt but for now the alpaca was going to own the shirt as did logan in the summer when you both went out for a wild night back home.
As you put the heart and the small voice box thingy in the stuffy, a small happy tear rolled down your cheek; you chose to say two things: the first one was the viral meme of him being American, silently screaming rwahh what the fuck is a kilometre and the second was a sweet message to cheer him up, hopefully, whenever he felt bad and you'd be out of his reach â a small fracture of yourself, reminding him of his greatness and uniqueness, and that he was loved and cheered. You were a sentimental being, no shame whatsoever, even though your friend sometimes liked to tease you about it, causing you to clap back â it was just that kind of friendship where you could let lose, be yourself without further worries nor feeling embarrassed or awkward.
When Logan finally got to you â you had waited for him outside of the mall, leaning on the car as you had texted him, and bought two cups of coffee at the small cafĂŠ on the opposite side of the build a bear shopâ you gave him the box, containing the alpaca, wearing a silly expression on your face, which Logan mirrored.
"Let's see, if you still know me after seeing the whole wide world without me", you joked, silly smile morphing in a naughty grin on your lips.
"As if I could forget you, stinks."
"Maybe I should return it, you don't deserve itâ"
"Hey, I don't do anything wrong", he exclaimed, making grabby hands to get the stuffy.
"Mister Sargeant, you are a liar and a very bad one at that", you tsked him. "Haven't we already said that we refer to call me stinks? the name should be buried six foot deep next toâ"
"Don't you dare, y/n."
"I definitely should tweet the nickname, your colleagues would eat it up, don't you think so?", you giggled gleefully, remembering how you called him as you were two young children, running around the neighbourhood to terrorise them.
"And that's why I don't take you with me", he mumbled under his breath, holding out his hand where the stuffy box hang off. "Here we go, silly, hope you like it."
Slowly, you opened the box and the sight of your favourite animal greeted you, wearing the cutest hogwarts robes of your house. "Aw Logs, it's so pretty and fluffy. I love it." Gently you pressed you face against the small head of the stuff toy, enjoying the cozy texture of it and closed your eyes, salivating the moment.
After a moment, the blonde man enclosed you in a hug. "the alpaca's lovely, y/n/n. Best idea we had in a while."
"yeah true", you agreed, returning the hug.
#logan sargeant x reader#logan sargeant imagine#f1 imagine#f1 x reader#logan sargeant#formula one imagine
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One Last Promise
Pairings: Sully Family x Reader, Jake Sully x Daughter! Reader
Wordcount: 1.3k words
They say when you have finished your purpose in the living world, Eywa will welcome you back to where you once came. From her loving embrace to that of a mother, awaiting for her child to come back to her once their day was over and the dusk sets.
Your father, the Toruk Makto, the leader of your clan, had always told you that death takes everyone without even a warning. May it be a toddling child or a withering old man. Death doesnât discriminate between the sinners and the saints, he would always say. And when he repeats that phrase, he had a wistful look in his eyes, lips pressed firmly against each other as he clutched the metal pendant that you were once told belonged to his brother.
You knew death would come for you sooner or later. The looming threat of it would often cross your mind once in a while but you knew it was always in your fatherâs. A hardened soldier like him had crossed deathâs path, and death would greet him. Through the empty eyes of his fallen comrades. Itâll come knocking, and youâd have no choice but to answer. Your father just wanted to shield you from that. From the horrors of war. That was what you kept telling yourself anyway as you had watched him become hardened by countless battles, your older brothers being the brunt of his fears of losing the one thing he had worked so hard to get. A family. One that was his to protect.
You gazed at your fatherâs still form, his wrinkled face scrunched up as tears rolled down his cheeks, desperately trying to cover the wound that tainted your blue skin crimson. His hands were shaky, you could feel it against your skin as he pressed his hands on your chest, desperately putting pressure on the wound that just didn't seem to run out of blood.
A cry escaped you and it took all of Jakeâs strength to not pull away. This was saving you. He needed to do this. He needed to keep you alive.
âDaddy..?â You mustered up the strength to mumble, praying to Eywa to give you a few more moments surrounded by the warmth of your family. A warmth you knew deep down, you would never feel again.. not in this life anyway.
âIâm right here, baby girl. Iâm right here..â Your lips weakly quirked up into a grin at the familiar pet name that you had once complained was childish.
Your ears twitched like they always did when your father called you that, it was almost always followed up with a scowl and a whine. But now that you are at deathâs door steps, you can only smile.
You lifted your hand up to gently cup your fatherâs cheek, trying to remember the way his skin felt against your palm. You often described it as âprickly like a cactusâ, a plant from earth your father described to you once. âDaddy.. I.. When âm gone.. y-you.. you go easy on the boys, okay? âS not their fault..â You could feel the iron on your tongue and you coughed, trying to breathe despite your lungs vehemently complaining. âDonât you blame âem, daddy.. âm gonna be angry if you do..â
âHey, hey look at me, look at daddy, babygirl.. youâre gonna be fine, okay? Youâll live, yeah? Youâll live.. weâre gonna go home after this. Back to Moâat, okay? Back to the forest.â His large hand cupped your face, moving some stray hair strands.
Jake shook his head as he held you close, your life flashing in his eyes. His fondest memory of watching you claim your own ikran, one that closely resembled the one that he used to have and he firmly believed that your ikran was of Torukâs own clutch. He flew with you that day, side by side as you soared through the heavens with cries of victory.
You had so much ahead of you. You were going to grow right in front of his very eyes, have so many adventures to go through, and when youâre old enough.. he could see being by your side as youâd introduce your other half. And he would play the part of the tough dad that wouldnât give his daughter away but he knew deep down heâd be happy that you were happy.
And the promises of your future was slipping through his fingers.
As your skin grew cold and clammy, Jake realized that he would never see that. He would never see you live the life that you deserved. One that knew only of peace. And for once, the great Toruk Makto wept as he pulled you closer, cradling you in his arms as if it was the day Eywa blessed him and Neytiri with you all over again.
âPlease, please..â He had begged, lifting his head up to look at the stars before his eyes flickered back to you. Eywa, oh eywa, please not his daughter. Not his little girl.
âDaddy.. p-promise me, please.. âs not their fault, daddy..â A gargled choke from your own blood made him hold you tighter, shaking his head as he heard your whimpers of pain. You mustered up your strength to say these words, knowing well that when you return to Eywa, your passing would devastate your family. You didnât want your father to blame your big brothers for something they could not control.
âI promise, I promise.â He says quickly as he craned his head to look at you, blinking his eyes to get rid of the tears that blurred his vision. âYouâre going to be okay, baby.â He refused to. He was begging, desperately pleading inwardly that Eywa would take him instead of you. âIâm.. Iâm gonna pick you up, okay? Stay with me.â He carefully held you securely in his arms, looking over at Loâak and Neteyam, whose sullen expressions and once vibrant eyes became dull as tears rolled down their cheeks. Never did they think they would be in this situation, their hands stained with their baby sisterâs blood.
âCâmon, Loâak.. N-Neteyam.. Help me out. Weâre gonna take your sister back to the village...â He tried not to let his voice shake. He had to be strong. âNeteyam! Loâak! Please.. Help me..â He tried again, voice laced in desperation when the two had yet to move, their eyes never leaving your form.
Your gaze never left your fatherâs face, trying to memorize every inch of the man who had loved and took care of you. Not Toruk Makto. Not Jake Sully of Earth. But your father.
A soft smile graced your lips and suddenly all the pain left you as quick as it had come. Then there was peace.
It was Loâak who noticed your sudden silence and he was quick to grasp onto your hand. â[Name]..?â His brows furrowed at the coldness of your palm and he felt his throat go dry and the tears poured down his cheeks as he pressed his cheek against your palm, shaking his head as Neteyam joined him, sobbing as he held his brother close.
â[Y/N]⌠No, no, no. [Y/N]!â Neytiri shook you in your fatherâs arms, shaking her head as if in disbelief. A gut wrenching cry escaped your motherâs throat as her shaky hands roamed over your face, those eyes that used to look at her with such fondness and admiration had lost all itâs life.
Jake could feel the warmth of your body retreating, your limbs limp and your body pale. He tilted his head to the sky, asking the Great Mother why she would take his little girl. Why you? It shouldâve been him. He dug his sharp fangs on his lip, biting back the cry of anguish that threatened to claw its way out of his throat, though it only increased the pressure in his chest and with one last look at your face, your dull eyes gazing at the sky, he let out a desperate cry. He cradled you to his chest, face pressed against your hair as he sobbed.
When eclipse broke, and the battle for Pandora had ended for now, your family sat on one of the rocky shores of Three Brothersâ Rock, holding one another close in this time of grief.
They mourned for the life you wouldâve lived, mourned for what couldâve been, what wouldâve been, and what shouldâve been. They mourned you.
Authorâs Notes: Inspired by @missroro âs prompt. I hope I did it justice. I havenât written in a year and my English is not very good, please excuse me for any grammar mistakes. Let me know what you think of this lil one shot! Kiveyame.
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Yandere! Roman Sionis x Reader
Note: I have a huge crush on Roman Sionis (not the BoP version) so I wanted to try my hand at writing him <3 Also, I am going with the version where he can take the mask off.
Tw. Unhealthy Relationship Dynamics
Roman Sionis was a lot of things.
He was a trust fund kid who relied on daddyâs money all his life until he decided to take that money for himself.
He was a horrible business man so he turned into a mob boss, you know, as you do.
He was a whack job who had a sick and twisted obsession with you and was currently holding you captive.
But you honestly think that the worst part about him was that he was incredibly snarky and condescending. To you at least, his countless victims would most likely complain about his sadistic and brutal torture methods, but you doubt that youâd ever experience that for yourself. Mostly because Roman knew how to psychologically torture people in other ways.
âThere we go, donât you feel all pretty now?â He hummed, tilting his masked face and speaking in a way that made you know he was smirking.Â
The scene is tense for everyone. His gangsters stand behind the other tailors who are sobbing quietly as they sit on one knee, you can feel the uneasiness of the two tailors behind you as they silently pray and beg repentance for every sin theyâve committed, but what makes it worse is that all eyes are on you. You want to avoid speaking, one of Romanâs favorite pastimes is to find a way to misinterpret your words on purpose so he could have an excuse to kill someone, to guilt you into thinking that you were the one who condemned them to death despite him pulling the trigger. You feel your stomach churn, knowing that someone was going to die for Romanâs own amusement, and he knew it too.
âCâmon, give Daddy a twirl, yeah?â He hums.Â
Daddy.
You scrunch your nose in disgust. You absolutely hated it when he called himself that, it made you want to shrink into yourself, and rip your ears off so youâd never have to hear him say it again. He probably knew you hated it too, guessing by the way he chuckled at your incredibly obvious reaction, and itâs probably the only reason why he says it. Still, you do as he says because you have no choice and try to twirl for him enthusiastically. The last time you tried to be nonchalant about a gift as a form of subtle protest was when you were getting fitted for a ring, that resulted in one person losing their life and the employees getting all of their ring fingers cut off, and you know what Roman said to justify/blame it on you?
âYou deserve only the best, sweetheart. If they canât give it to you, then I donât think they should be alive.â
Maybe in another life, where you were an equally depraved criminal, you wouldâve found his words to be genuine and sweet. However, you knew that Roman Sionis was incapable of being genuine and sweet, and that this was another one of his mind games. A warning for future reference that if you wanna try and resist him, even in the most tiniest and insignificant ways, he will not stand for it.Â
âAbsolutely stunning.â He praises, standing up to walk towards you.Â
You resist the urge to step away from him, no matter how strong it may be, because you know thatâs another way to get someone killed. Instead you stand there, obediently like the good spouse you were, and donât flinch when he brings a gloved hand to the diamond necklace around your neck.
âBut you know me, Iâm a sucker for you wearing anything expensive,â He says, almost in a tender tone as if there was some truth to his words, but you donât think about that. Instead, you think about his next sentence:
âWhat do you think about it?â
You gulp and you look up at him, your eyes silently begging him not to do this to you. Not to make you have to stand outside the shop as you hear gunshots and crying, shamelessly throwing his arm around you with small droplets of blood decorating his nice white suit, and leaving you lying away from his body as your haunted by what you could have done differently even if you knew Roman wouldnât have let you. His dark eyes stare back at you with nothing but a mischievous glee and you were on higher alert than ever.
âI love it!â You say, forcing your best smile and cheery tone.
He fidgets with your necklace between his fingers, his eyes now studying the way the diamond sparkles rather than your incredibly unconvincing expression, and he just says: âYeah? That right?â
 Still, you nod eagerly and continue to try and guess what he wants to hear: âYeah, it looks really good on me, I think! I really like the style, a-and the material, and the uh-â You lose your train of thought as he slowly lets go of the diamond hanging from the sterling silver chain, letting it fall back down to your chest as he slowly starts to walk behind you, and the goosebumps start to rise on your skin. You didnât like this, you didnât like this at all, but you still tried your best to keep going, âthe, um, the color is nice.â
âThe color, hm?â He mumbles, his hands gently massaging your shoulders as he lowers his mouth (or where itâs supposed to be) next to your ear, âYou sure about the color, sweet thing?â
You nod your head again, giving a shrill âmhm!â because your words are dying in your throat. You hated it when he got too close like this, it made you nervous, and you wanted him to get away from you. You wanted to push him off, to scream and run, but you also knew you couldnât do that. His silence made the very blood in your veins run cold but set your mind on fire as you were trying to figure out how to salvage this already doomed moment.Â
âReally? Because you hate this color.â Roman states, his hands moving from your shoulders to your waist.
Someoneâs sobs become a little louder than the rest and when Roman turns his head to look at them, you quickly turn around to face him again and put your hands on his chest. It does what you intended it to do because his eyes are back on you.
âI changed my mind!âÂ
âNah, I donât think you did. If I recall, you absolutely hate this color because it reminds you of me.â
Thereâs an edge to his voice now, a petty âgotchaâ kind of one. He wasnât wrong, though, because he tried to give you something in the same horrendous color early on when he abducted you and you blew him off. Saying how you wouldnât want something so gross and soâŚhim. You gulp, realizing two things: 1. Roman had an excellent memory regarding you and 2. You just lied to his face.Â
And he hated it even more when you lied.
You stammer out apologies and excuses, anything that could help the situation but he steps away from you before taking out his concealed gun. One of the workers lets out a fearful cry and tries to back away but one his False Facers comes and grabs them by their shoulders, walking closer towards Roman despite the fearful protest of the poor innocent civilian. They were going to be the first one to die.
âI mean, câmon, none of ya had the decency to look at how unhappy they were when they saw the color? None of you guys stopped to ask them what was wrong and fix it and put a smile on their precious little face?â He shakes his head as he loads his weapon. They beg for their lives as you try to plead with the devil himself.
âRoman, please, they probably didnât want to go against you! Th-They knew that you knew best and I- I promise I love this color-âÂ
You sound so pathetic, yipping at the big dog not to use his fangs, but you had no power here. No one did except for Roman Sionis, a man who never did anything other than to get more power for himself and to make others miserable, even the one he claimed to love the most.Â
Then it hits you.
Your body reacts faster than your mind as you take the fleeting opportunity to have one hand grab his mask and the other to grab his tie. Not even Roman was aware of what was happening as he tensed up the moment he felt your lips against his. You gripped the mask tightly in your free hand as you kept a strong hold on his tie, even pulling him closer towards you as if you were trying to chain him to you. As if forcing yourself to do this usually romantic and loving act is enough to break his need for blood. And it does.
Once Roman understands whatâs going on, he drops his gun and cups your face with his hands as he kisses you back. Tilting his head to the side to deepen it and his body relaxes. You might not see it but you cloud your mind completely. His eyes stay open for a while as he sees one beautiful tear stream down your cheek before they go half lidded and he surrenders himself to this bliss.
Youâre making his heart do the thing again. You did it to him the first time he met you, then you did it the second time, then so on and so forth, and here you go doing it again to him. You wonder why heâs so addicted to you, donât worry, he does too. He wonders why he bothers with such an ungrateful little brat who doesnât appreciate his gestures and only pays attention to the crimson that stains his hands, why he bothers with someone who sleeps on the farthest part of their bed as if Roman was some horrible monster they didnât want to touch, but itâs times like this that he remembers why. Itâs because you were the only one who could make him feel this way, who could give him a taste of what love felt like, but also made him feel so powerful when you did stuff like this as a last resort.He pulls away for air, your lips chase after him despite being out of breath as well to try and buy a little more time, but heâs just gonna tease you later and ask if he was just that damn good of a kisser.Â
Roman stares at you again, this time really looking at you, and his hands still cup your face gently. His pants softly under his breath as one thumb from his hand gently caresses your cheek. You stare at him with hopeful eyes and while he does love keeping you at the bottom of his heel and remind you whose in chargeâŚhe figures that this time it wouldnât hurt to let you have your way.
âOn second thought, boys,â He starts and he loves the way you edge closer to him unintentionally, â...Let âem go, they can be off the hook. This time.â
You let out a breath of relief but then shyly hand Roman back his mask, your hand letting go of his tie and wrapping your arm around his. As he puts on his mask, he relishes in the feeling of you resting your head on his shoulder and being more affectionate with him. Maybe you were so relieved that you managed to get through to him or maybe you were just exhausted with everything that went down but you fall asleep on his shoulder during the ride home and when heâs done admiring the sight, he gently puts his head on top of yours.
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I really wasn't expecting so many people to like my Mirage x reader so much! I'm glad you guys liked it!
Though this is a rewrite, because I accidentally deleted the original. I'm still a little salty about it but it's whatever
Though there will be a small few changes that aren't updated in the part 1, but nothing much, just how the text will be colored. And some inconsistent POV changes
Y/N-Pink
Mirage-Blue
Noah-Orange
But anyway, here's part two!
Part one is here btw
Meeting Mirage ;)
Warnings: Suggested drug usage, language
"So is there a reason why we're walking instead of taking your car?" Currently right now, Y/N, who was about to go to bed several minutes ago, is now walking the empty streets of Brooklyn with Noah right beside her. And in addition of that, a blindfold for some reason that she's still trying to figure out. It was nearly midnight and this man literally just told her he had something important to show her. Many questions asked, and no answers yet.
He just kept responding with, 'you'll see when we get there', which is slowly starting to tick her off. And to make it just a little worse, she's still in her PJ's, a black tank top, some baggy white sweatpants that aren't even hers, and some worn out spiderman slippers. And it's fucking cold.
"It's close by, not even that long of a walk."
"It better be, because I swear to God Noah if whatever you're about to show me is something stupid I'm going to fucking kick you."
"I swear it's not."
"Also why did it have to be at night? Why not early in the morning?!"
"Because it couldn't wait until early in the morning!"
"Mhm, yeah right. You didn't even let me have time to put on a jacket. It's fucking cold."
"It's summer."
"You know how cold I am naturally!"
"Wouldn't be surprised if you were a lizard."
"Maybe I am, maybe I'm just befriending you so I can slowly take over humanity! Maybe so I can lick all the things I want without getting weird looks from people because it'll all be lizards!"
It was quiet for a moment, before the pair started to laugh at the comment. Sometimes they can't take each other seriously. It's always one of the two that makes the most random comments to ever been said.
"I'll get you some of those croissant thingys from that bakery you like. As a, 'Sorry for dragging you out of your apartment to show you something' apology."
"You better, you mother fucker...and bring some milk too."
"You're the only person I know that likes milk as a beverage."
"Hey! You can make all kinds of shit out of milk! It's not weird to like it as a beverage. Hell, you were drinking it out of your mother once!"
"Never say that sentence ever again."
Sooner or later, they finally arrived at their destination. With the jingling of keys, Noah unlocks a door before gently pulling her into the building. She was immediately hit with the smell of oil, the fumes of paint, and the smell of gas. Wherever they are, Y/N's guessing they're in Noah's garage.
Now, Noah was nervous, the whole entire time they walked here, he was fidgeting with his finger every so often. He fears how his best friend will react to Mirage, and hoping, hoping it's a good reaction. Though, it might be a small chance, but that's not stopping him from praying to the point someone passing by will probably think he's a little crazy.
"Heyyy you're back! And you brought the pretty lady too~" Now Y/N wasn't expecting another person to be here. She thought it would just be the two of them. Not that she was complaining, maybe this important thing needed someone to look after it so it wouldn't break or something.
Though in reality, it's a huge 12ft robot chilling on the floor, waiting for the both of them. But she doesn't know that. Yet.
"Y/N, I want you to me-"
Noah was cut off by Mirage, a pout on his face as he crosses his arms. "Nu uh man! Lemme have this one!" He quickly clears his throat, with a flirtatious smirk replacing that pout in seconds.
"The names Mirage, bonita~ But you can call me yours~" There was a playfulness in his tone, and to Y/N, he seemed very confident and outgoing. Maybe a little flirty, but that's fine with her. Though he does sound rather young, maybe around the same age as Noah? (I don't know how old he is, but I'm guessing maybe around 19-21, also reader is like 6 years older than Noah) And what a strange name, maybe it's a nickname he likes to go by.
"That's the most cheesiest line I've ever heard in my entire life." Y/N let's a chuckle slip through, snapping out of her little mind rant, a small smile making it's way onto her lips.
"Hey I spent a good amount of time on that! Plus, it's not that cheesey.."
"..Was that too cheesey?"
"Dude you're the one who came up with it, not me."
"But you're supposed to be my wingman here! I scratch your back, you scratch mine." There was a small stare down between the two, before Noah sighed.
"...okay maybe it was a little too cheesey-"
"I may not be able to see, but you guys are horrible at whispering."
Y/N was still standing somewhat next to Noah, arms crossed over her chest as she waited for their so called secret conversation to be over with. All the things she wants do is to go to sleep and enjoy her day-off the next day. That's all she asks for.
"Anyway, what's that important thing you wanted to show me, Noah?" She goes to remove the blindfold, but was stopped by a frantic Noah holding her wrists in a soft, but firm, grip.
"Shit! S-Sorry, it's just.." Noah sighs out in frustration, letting go of Y/N's wrists. "I gotta tell you something before I show you the thing." Said woman raised her brow at Noah's behavior. Now's she getting a little worried for what the hell Noah might show her.
"It's.. It's not something illegal, right?"
"No!" He pauses for a few seconds, "At least I don't thin-"
"NOAH-??"
"Right. So, uh, I think it's best if you just..see for yourself?"
"Why do you sound so unsure." Finally glad to be able to take off the damn fabric, Y/N looks at her surroundings, blinking rapidly to adjust her eyes. Her suspicions of being in Noah's garage was correct. But what she wasn't expecting was a huge metal being sitting in the middle of the room, optics on her with a mischievous smile on his face.
"Hey~"
It takes a few seconds before her mind could catch up, her expression blank. When the scene in front of her processed completely, she immediately turned around, walking towards the door with fast and hurried steps.
"Nope. Nu-uh. Not dealing with this shit tonight. Fuck this shit. I'm out. Peace. AdĂos. Goodbye forever. So lon-"
"Y/N wait c-come back!"
"And I will walk 500 miles, and I'll walk 500 more-" Grabbing onto the handle, she tries to open it. Only thing was the door jammed repeatedly. "Fucking shit."
"Ouch, they never treated E.T like this." He pouts, dramatically putting the back of his hand to his forehelm. Now he was kind of expecting her to scream or least for her to faint, but this reaction was more amusing.
"Just let me, uh, us explain-!" Noah forcefully put himself between Y/N and the door, holding out his arms so she wouldn't try to go around. A staredown ensues.
"Please..?" Shrugging his shoulders a little with an unsure smile on his face, his attempt to make himself as convincing as possible. With a sigh, she nods, backing away from the door with slight hesitation. Turning back to the robot in question, Mirage has a bubbly smile on his face, optics lighting up.
"There you go! I ain' gonna hurt you," The mech coos teasingly. "Quite a show you put up though, ever thought of doing stand-up comedy?"
Y/N was still a bit tense, looking at the bot in caution. She doesn't even know what to do in a kind of situation like this. Hell, what do you even do in a kind of situation like this?
But despite that, Noah seems to know, Mirage was his name? He seems to know him pretty well, from how well Noah and him seem to get along. It actually explains a lot of things, that you didn't realize until then. How Noah seemed to be very secretive whenever it came to his garage, and seemed to be somewhat cautious whenever someone looks through his things.
"It's okay mami, you can admire this handsome face as long as you like~" Mirage's flirtatious voice broke you out of your mind ramble, a blush covering your face in an instant. You spaced out without realizing it.
"S-shit my bad."
"Heyy, it's alright~ Not often you come across a face like this!" He sticks his glossa out, making a peace sign with his servos as he winks at her. It, oddly made him cute. A small chuckle comes out of the woman, posture now slightly relaxed a little more, but still tense. Thinking this was a dream, she goes to pinch her arm as hard as she can, but no it's no dream. Maybe she had to much edibles before going to bed, and she was just in the streets all sluggish and her mind is throwing delusions at her, just for entertainment. Like a jester of sorts.
But she ran out of edibles 3 days ago, so that's most likely not the reason why.
Like promised, Noah and Mirage explained what, where, who, and why he was on Earth. And that there's more of him. And that they can transform into cars. And he demonstrated this, by transforming into a car himself. The Frankenstein car you were inside not longer than a week ago.
Now the dots were finally connecting.
She continues to ask him a variety of questions, each of which ranging from how long he's been on Earth, why he choose a Porsche to be his alt mode (to which he responded with, "A cool guy like me needs to have a pretty cool alt to go along with it" followed by a flirtatious wink), and how many other people know about his existence. By know your shoulders are less tense, posture completely relaxed as she continues a conversation with (mainly Mirage) the two of them.
And Mirage, being the big flirt he is, kept throwing pick-up lines whenever the chance showed itself, accompanied by a wink and a cute smirk. Each one making you a little flustered.
Eventually Noah had to leave, because apparently Kris never went to sleep in the first place, to busy to defeat Bowser. He knew because Kris accidentally blew his cover via walkie-talkie. So now it's just you and Mirage, all alone in the garage.
It felt somewhat awkward, but Mirage always found a way to break the silence of everything.
"So how'd you meet my boy?"
"His mom, she was a co-worker of mine a few years ago, and decided to invite me over to her house to meet her kids."
"And what, you guys hit it off there?"
Y/N let's out a small chuckle, shaking her head. "Not exactly. He was a little nervous at the start. We only started talking when I offered to babysit Kris." And the conversation continued on from there, leaking into the early hours of the morning.
Mirage knew he wanted to know and see more about the human, she's just so pretty and fascinating! And her reactions and little faces she makes are so cute to him, make him wanna squeeze her little cheeks. His tanks are filled with the fluttery feeling again, the more they talk, the more it increases. Now he knew when to take risks, and this is one of them definitely. He knows he wants to see more of her, to keep talking with her. Just makes his spark go absolutely crazy.
So why not ask her out?
Alright Mirage, you can do this, my man! Don't let that nervous feeling pull you down. C'mon c'mon c'mon! When will you get another chance like this ever again?
After giving himself a small prep talk, Mirage finally asks. "Hey you wanna go to the drive-ins sometime tomorrow? I'd love to keep seeing that pretty face of yours more~" A wink following with a smirk. His confidence was all over the place, and his spark was beating rapidly, like it's going to come out of his chassis. Obviously it wasn't shown on his face, but internally he was a nervous wreck.
You were somewhat taken off-guard by his question, a blush covering your cheeks. Is he asking you out on a date? I mean, he could be asking to hang out more, but his various flirtatious comments and compliments thrown at you made you think otherwise.
Now that she thinks about, he's actually a lot better than any person she's been in a relationship with. He's actually makes her laugh, is nice and gentle, a good listener, and overall quite comfortable to be around with. And he's quite a cutie and handsome one too..fuck it.
"Sure. What time, handsome~?" The mech perked up at her response, optics lighting up. "How 'bout sometime at 7? I know a pretty good spot~"
"Then it's a date." Oh how that word made his spark flutter. He does a little dance and fists his hand in the air for his small victory, Y/N laughing a little at his antics. Her cheeks hurt so much from smiling so much. She's pretty excited for tomorrow's drive-in now.
When Mirage finally settles down, she beckons him down to be at her level, a small mischievous smile on her face. Confused, he does so, couching down until becoming face to face with her smiling face.
Warm lips peck his metal cheek, his optics widening in surprise at the bold gesture, a blue blush makes itself known on his face. The warmth spreading through his entire body as a shiver goes up his backstruts. Now he's for sure his spark might just beat out his chassis. She can practically hear it!
"Something for you to think about until tomorrow~ Goodnight Mirage~" And with that, she leaves the garage, a big smile on her face as she makes her way home, ready to finally crash into her bed and excited for the night tomorrow.
Mirage was left crouching in the garage, a surprised look still of his face, still trying to process what had just happen. His look of shock then quickly shifted to a look of giddiness, letting out a victory whoop as he tries to calm his beating spark.
"Man, what a woman!" And he cannot wait to see her again.
#transformers x reader#mirage x reader#rotb mirage#rotb mirage x reader#such a cute baby#rise of the beasts#knightverse#bayverse#noah diaz
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I'm Almost Me, She's Almost You
summary: He swore he got over you ages ago - but it's hard to ignore the pieces of you he finds in someone else. gn reader, no pronouns or y/n used. feat: Brynjolf, Miraak, Vilkas, Erandur warnings: none omg masterlist
Brynjolf knew that he was over you. It had been months since you'd looked up at him with that heartbreaking smile and said those words that had ruined him - I just don't think we should do this anymore. He'd accepted your new roles as coworkers and stuffed away any lingering feelings the moment he saw you move on with another man. He was quite good at moving on, he thought. It had been weeks since he'd let your name leave his tongue when someone else's lips were on his skin, a mistake he would never repeat. It's difficult to mind his words so often - he knows you would never stumble on a job or leave behind any clues. When he glares down at the clear boot print his new partner left behind he cannot help himself - you would never do this. Sometimes when their hood is up, he can pretend that it's you. It's your fingers twisting into the straps of his armor and kissing up his throat or your boots planted on his desk to complain about a long day. Brynjolf lets them kiss him, reassuring himself that he is definitely over you.
Though many lifetimes had passed since he'd last heard it, Miraak would never forget your laugh. It haunted him; late nights spent alone in his study praying that your fingers would trail through his hair and remind him to rest, giggling when he swatted at your touch. He heard it in the winds when he stood atop mountains and the rustling of pages as he hunted Apocrypha for a way to get you back. He never expected to hear it in another. When the Last Dragonborn laughed it brought tears to his eyes. He'd been paying them no mind, mildly interested in the journey they took to High Hrothgar but it had not been enough to distract him until he heard that. It was you, the one he'd loved so dearly all those years ago. He would do anything to hear it again. Descending to Nirn was the last thing Miraak intended to do but it unavoidable. Tucked into the corner of some shady tavern he watched, cloak pulled tight and drink untouched as he stared at them. Their head tilted back, tears leaking from their eyes when they laughed at whatever their companion had said. It was the most beautiful sound Miraak had ever heard.
"Can you do this?" Vilkas wasn't sure why he felt so guilty asking someone to pet through his hair - it wasn't anything profane. As he guided their hand and demonstrated how to run their fingers through it, he assured himself that it was just anxiety. It had been months since he'd lost you but he was still learning how to be intimate with someone else. It was difficult. He'd grown so comfortable with you, something that had taken years dashed over one stupid mistake. He'd known that letting you go would be hard but learning to live without you was terrifying. "Like this?" They giggled and he readied himself to answer. All words failed when their nails scratched over his scalp, brain overloaded with you. Your fingers twisted in his hair tilting his head back to kiss him, you working soap into his scalp after a long battle, your touch wordlessly begging him for more. He stumbled over his words and couldn't bear to open his eyes, entirely lost in memories of you.
Erandur should have known better. Allowing himself to grow accustomed to your touch had been foolish. He knew he wouldn't be able to keep you forever yet he'd done it anyway, he'd become addicted to you - the reverent way you touched him and your voice soothing all his worries, your warmth and forgiveness absolving his many sins. Death had wrenched you away from him so long ago. The pain had broken him, ruining everything but his faith. When he knelt before Lady Mara's altar, hands clasped and lips wrapping around those all too familiar words of faith he felt you. It was your embrace he felt through his god, your arms reaching down from the heavens and your ear hearing him beg for salvation. How could he not see you? Lady Mara, the goddess of love and his first savior, could only be represented by you. You who had saved him over and over, only your eyes could appear in his mind when he whispered prayers in your name. Erandur's vision of his beloved deity blurred, replaced by visions of his most beloved. He could only hope that it was her will.
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How To Love .05
Trafalgar Law x F!Reader
Warnings: animal death, stalking, mentions of abuse, angst, it is edited best to my slow computer abilities
A/N: here it is. yayyyyyyyyyy
prologue pt.1 pt.2 pt.3 pt.4 pt.5
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Days pass without a word from the police regarding your car or the person who totaled it. Each second of the day, you checked your phone, praying for a call or a message, yet nothing. The thought of that psycho coming to the apartment haunted your dreams. Theyâd be staring over you, watching you sleep. And when youâd see them, theyâd pull out a knife and bring their hand down. Thankfully, you always woke up before the knife actually hit you.Â
It causes you to lose sleep to the point that you rely on coffee and energy drinks even to keep your eyes open. The paranoia and dread that something was wrong, a shadow towering over you, was genuinely exhaustingâmentally, physically, and emotionally.Â
Thankfully, Law had been getting off around the same time as you, so he would be able to drive you home. Eustass had offered a few times, but you declined. It was still hard to be next to him. To look at the face of a man who had shattered your heart so carelessly. While you were grateful for him taking you home and getting you McDonald's that night. You still werenât able to not want to beat the shit out of him just for making you go through the heartbreak.
Then again, if it werenât for his infidelity, you wouldnât have reconnected with Law. You havenât felt like this even when with Eustass. It was just like you could stare at him for hours and never get bored. Listen to him rant and ramble about his work day or the new episode of Sora the two of you watched together. There wasnât anything he did that you could complain about. Youâd do anything for him if he asked.
â(Y/N)! Did you get the mail?â Lawâs voice clears the smoke in your thoughts, returning you to the present.
âHuh? Oh, no, I havenât! Iâll be right back and get it, though!â Without wasting a breath, you put on your shoes before opening the door. Still, being careful of your hand that contains the burn you received only days prior.
As you open the door, a horrific stench hits your nose, causing you to cover your nose and mouth with your shirt. Your brows furrow as you peek your head out of the apartment, wondering what could cause such a terrible scent.
âWhat isâŚâ Stepping outside, you're met with a shoebox the size of a childâs box. Kneeling, you examine the box. Pulling off one of your sliders, you use the back of it to open the lid. Upon opening it up, the stench worsens, causing you to gag. âWhat the hell is in there?â
Taking a cautious step towards the box, you once again use the back of your shoe to flip up the lid quickly. Holding your breath, you look inside the box before letting out a shrieking scream. The scream causes you to stumble back into the apartment before you slam the door shut. Tears stream down your face as you tremble behind the door.
Hearing the commotion, Law rushes to your aide, a look of worry and panic written on his face. â(Y/N)? Whatâs wrong? What happened?â He kneeled to your level to try and comfort you. You point to the door and look up at him with glassy eyes and a trembling lip.
âOutsideâŚin the box.â A sense of unease fills Lawâs stomach as he stands up. Taking another look at your terrified form, he rolls his shoulders before opening the door.
Upon opening the door, Law sees an open shoe box before the unruly scent hits his nose. âJesus Christ-â Looking over the open lid of the shoebox, Law can feel his stomach churn. Inside the small shoebox was multiple pictures of you.
Pictures of you at work, coming home, shopping, and even some from outside the window. Many zoomed in and decorated with markers, depicting you in many ways. Black sharpie scribbled your face out, xâs over your eyes, adding horns and a tail, and even with names that he couldnât fathom. And on top of it all, there was a dead pigeon on top of the pictures. It looks to have been deceased for a while, which is the cause of the smell.
âWhat the fuck?â
âI canât believe heâs deadâŚâ The sound of your mourns makes Law turn back to you.
âHe?â
Puffy-eyed, you grab onto Lawâs pajama pants leg as you struggle to breathe. âStumpyâŚhe was a hurt pigeon that I cared for outside my job during the winter since he doesnât have a wing on his left side. He canât fly and relies on me and the other cafe workers to survive. When he stopped showing up, I-...â Turning your head, you get another glimpse of the poor animal's corpse before snapping right back straight, the sight only causing more tears.
âI canât believe someone would do something so horrible to him.â As you cried, Law couldnât get over the multiple photos of you that were taken without you even noticingâeach more eerie than the last. The fact that the person responsible hurt something that mattered to you meant this had to be someone from your inner circle.
Questions sped through his mind about who itâd be, but despite his need for answers, he knew that questions would probably upset you more. And he hated seeing you cry.Â
Law sat down next to you after closing the door, leaving the disturbing scene behind him as he sat on the floor beside you. His heart beat in his chest at the proximity between the two of you, the heat of your body hitting his own as he put his arm around your shoulders.
âIâm sorry (Y/N).â Law felt his heart leap when you put your head on his shoulder, curling up in the comfort he offered.
âWho could do something so cruel? To take a life like that?â You whispered into his shoulder.
âI donât know. Only a few people and your co-workers knew about him, right?â Nodding into his shoulder, you clutch the fabric of his shirt.
âYeah. People outside my job were (.....) and Eustass. And now, you. I could have sworn I told youâŚâ
âHey, itâs okay. Weâll figure this out. Iâm going to call the police to come and take the box. I have a feeling it has something to do with your car.â
Pulling out his phone, Law dials the police, his arm wrapped around your huddled body in a firm embrace. A small fire sparked in Lawâs chest as he saw how serious it had become. Initially, Law thought it was a simple case of wrong identity when your car got vandalized, but now, with the scribbled pictures and the targeted attack on something that meant a lot to you, it was apparent he was wrongâvery wrong.
You hadnât said anything about the pictures, so he hoped that you were too distracted and distraught about âStumpyâ to notice the multiple pictures. Hopefully, itâd give you some semblance of sanity not to have to feel fear in your own home, knowing someone was watching you.
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You didnât want to tell your co-workers about Stumpy or the photos that had shown up on your doorstep the day prior. Didnât want to break their hearts and let them worry about a problem that wasnât their own. It was hard to hide the shaken and paranoid look you now held in your eyes.
You knew why Law hadnât brought up the pictures; he didnât want you to have something more to worry about. While your heart fluttered at first, it was still overpowered by fear. You wished you hadnât seen it. Wished you were left in the dark about the fact you couldnât even the curtains open anymore in fear someone was watching you out of them.
Since Law didnât know you knew about the pictures, he wanted you to stay home so that you didnât have to be at work alone at night. While you wouldâve agreed to it if the box had shown up at your job, it didnât. It showed up at your door, right before the place thatâs supposed to keep you safe from the horrors of the world. Now, what once had a feeling of safety had been tainted.
âHey! Are you going to take my order or what?!â A snarky voice pulled you from your mind, dragging you back to the present.
âOh-oh yeah, sorry. What can I get you, maâam?â
Rolling her eyes, the woman crossed her arms and answered. âIâd like a thunderstorm Turnover with the Morning Matcha Latte. Hot.â
âOf course, and what size will that latte be?â
âSmall.â
âPerfect, and your total comes to $7.86. Iâll get your turnover and wait for your drink down there.â With a huff, the lady pays and waits at the end of the counter. You rub your face with your hands before grabbing the monster next to the cash register and taking a huge chug of the carbonated drink.
Putting back down the monster can, you feel a hand on your shoulder. âIâve got this. How about taking some water instead? You look like you could use it.â Killerâs comforting and understanding aura has you letting out a sigh of relief.Â
âThanks, Killer.â
Going into the breakroom, you pour yourself some water before taking a nice sip of the cold liquid. Even with it sliding down your throat, you felt no different, so you cup your hand that wasnât injured and let water fill them before splashing it on your face. âCome on (Y/N), get your shit together. You're fine. Nobodyâs outside, the sun is still up, and I wonât be closing alone. Law will pick me up and keep me safe like he promised.â The sound of your heart echoing in your ears has your head spinning violently.
âFuck, man. This shit sucks.â
A vibration in your pocket causes your attention to shift to your muted phone. Pulling it out, you see itâs from an unknown number. Typically, youâd never answer it, always figuring itâs from spam callers. But with everything going on, you felt this could have something to do with your stalker. If you answered it, could you use the number to track them down?
So, with a deep breath, you answer the unknown number. âHello?â
âHello? Is this (Y/N) (L/N)?â
Swallowing your spit, you respond. âUm, yes, it is. Can I help you?â
âGreat! So your services are still available then?â
âMy services? I'm sorry, I have no idea what you're talking about.â
âOh, come on, donât be such a bitch. Iâm a paying customer! Why put up ads for sex if you're just gonna be a prude broad?â Furrowing your brows, you pull your face away from the phone, looking down at the cellular device in shock.
âExcuse me, asshole, but I have no idea what you're talking about, so shove your pissy attitude up your dick and trip on a knife.â You slam your thumb down on the end button before blocking the number.
Adâs? For sex? Not only have you never done anything like that before in your life, but why the hell would someone put up such an ad? And what desperate bastard would actually agree to something when itâs 9/10 a scam or a way to get robbed?
It didnât make sense. How did your number and name get on a website that promotes that? Itâs not like you give your number out to strangers. Especially not online. So how the hell could this happen?
RING! RING! RING!
Looking down, you see another unknown number. Narrowing your eyes, you have a sinking feeling about the nature of this call. âHello?â
âHello, beautiful. I hear you're looking for a good time.â
âNo!â Once again, you end the call quickly, slamming it down on the countertop. âFuck!â
Looking into the mirror, small tears of frustration slip past your cheeks. You quickly wipe them away before shoving your phone back into your pocket. With a quick, shaky exhale, you return to the front, ready to continue what seemed like a never-ending day.Â
It occurred to you that the calls could relate to the harassment youâve been experiencing. And despite narrowing it down, the thought of someone giving out your personal number to strangers for sex made you sick. The cops could track down the people who made the call, right? They have to. Maybe you could leave early and have Law bring you to the police station to give them an update.Â
As you move to the register, a man approaches the counter. His face is neutral, but there is a look behind his eyes that gives you goosebumps.
âHello. Iâm Officer David, and I'm here to ask your co-workers about your case and the shoebox that was delivered to your apartment.â
âOh! I can get them for you!â Not wasting a second, you rush to grab Killer and another co-worker to answer the officer's questions.
While you didnât doubt he was an officer, as you saw the badge when you looked closer, he just gave you an icky feeling. âHey, Killer, Janet, an officer wants to talk to you guys. Itâs about my car?â You didnât add the pictures or the corpse of Stumpy once again. Once again, wanting to spare them the pain of knowing a beloved shop âpetâ was so brutally slain.
Killer and Janet looked at one another before nodding and moving toward the cop. âIâll finish your guys' orders, no biggie.â After giving them a thumbs-up, you quickly went to work to finish the orders.
âHey officer, how can we help you?â Killer and Janet go to the register to answer the cops' questions.
âI have a few questions regarding the vandalization of Ms. (L/N)âs car, the shoe box full of pictures, and the animal carcass dropped off at her apartment.â
âShoe box? We donât know anything about a shoe box officer.â
âYeah, first time Iâm hearing about it.â
âHmm. Well, have you two seen any suspicious activity or people nearby or around while sheâs working?â Killer and Janet look at one another before Janetâs eyes widen.
âYou know, now that you mention it, I think Iâve seen a red Honda Civic pull up in the parking lot around the same time every day when (Y/N) goes to take a break outside for some air.â
âActually, yeah, I remember what you're talking about now. It has a huge crack in the front window. It never comes in for anything; it only sits in the parking lot and leaves when (Y/N) comes back in.â The officer hums in acknowledgment as he writes down their statements.Â
âI see. Iâd like to take a look at the tapes, please.â
âSure, our manager will be back in ten minutes, and she can open the security camera door for you.â The cop's face turns a little sour before returning to its neutral expression.Â
âNo need. Iâll simply come back later.â Without another word, the officer left, not sparing you, Janet, or Killer another glance. The lack of lights and identification raised a few questions when he got into his car. But with no real reason to question it, you continue the work day.
~~~
The sound of call lights seems to echo in his ears as he types on his computer. It felt as if the entire day had been nonstop. One moment, there was a young patient with a common cold, and the next, he had a patient having an active heart attack. Yet every moment was spent worrying about you, the box never leaving his mind.
The pictures covered in permanent marker, xâs on your eyes, obscenities scribbled onto it, and even badly drawn art of you being killed in different ways. He was thankful you didnât see the polaroids. He hoped you didnât see the polaroids. The security video and deceased work pet were already enough hell for you. You didnât need to worry about how many knives werenât in the kitchen block at home.
âOi, Law! We got a male twenty-three in Trauma Bay nine! Motorcycle accident. Brakes broke, and he ran a red light, getting T-boned by a car.â A nurse barged out in, out of breath, her scrubs already having a bit of blood on them.
Law quickly jumps to his feet and rushes towards the trauma bay. Nurses crowded the body on the bed, and cops waited outside the room, looking serious and communicating with one another.
âOfficers, how can I help you?â Law asks as he moves close to the patient, his heart beating in his ears.
âAh, doctor. Weâre suspecting there was more to the crash than it seems.â
Lawâs brows furrow. âFoul play?â
âBased on what our other officers at the scene said, it looks like the brakes were cut instead of simply worn out. It was a clean cut, and the brake discs were almost brand new. If anything seems weird at all, let us know without hesitation.â
Nodding, Law turns to the patient. âAlright, Iâll let you knowââ Lawâs eyes go wide as he looks down at the man lying on the stretcher.
âHis stats are-doctor are you okay?â
âI-uh yes, sorry. I got distracted by something else. Tell me his stats again and what youâve done so far.â
~~~
Looking at your phone, you sigh. Law got caught up in a surgery and couldnât pick you up. Janet had already left, and Killer had left when he got a call. He didnât say what it was about, but the look on his mostly covered face told you it was important and urgent. With both of them leaving, you and your manager were the only ones left at the cafe. You were supposed to leave at 5pm, but Law couldnât make it. You didnât want to interrupt Killer with whatever emergency he had and were too awkward to call Eustass.
You could always get a taxi, but getting into a car with a stranger sounded like hell with what was going on in your personal life. So you just sat at a booth by a window inside the cafe and huffed. You wanted to go to the police station to report your number being uploaded to a site without your permission, but it was getting dark, and the station was a 20-minute walk.
âDo you want me to call you a taxi? I know a really trustworthy one. Heâs my brother, and he does it on the side for extra cash.â Your manager's voice clears the fog from your head and brings you back to the annoying present.
âOh, no thanks, but thank you anyway, Reiju. I have nothing against you or your many brothers.â
âNone taken. I can just see how much you wanna get outta here. Are you going home, or are you going to the hospital to see your lover boy?â
Your face flares hot as your eyes widen. âShh! Reiju, someone could hear!â
âOh, please, the cafe is empty, and itâs been empty since 4 p.m., and itâs 5:30. Everyone and their mom can see it. Even the regulars ask me if âthat barista and tattooed man are together yet?â almost on a daily basis. Your little love story is great for business, I must say.â Reiju chuckles at your horrified face.
âReiju, I beg you, please tell me your lyingâŚâ Embarrassment fills your soul, and you wish you could disappear at that moment.
âI'm happy to say I'm not. And trust me, everyone thinks itâs so cute!â Smiling, Reiju gives you a hug before pulling out her keys. âHere, as a way to ease your embarrassment, Iâll give you a ride to your house. You still live with the doctor, right?â
Sighing, you run your fingers through your hair. âI mean, yeah, but that's not where I was planning on going. I just need to talk to the police about my situation again.â
âIs there a new development about who busted up your car?â
âI wish but no. Instead, I just got calls about my âservices.â From what I gathered between men yelling at me, I was able to pull that someone put my name and number on a random website and say I was willing to have sex for money. I never give my money out to anyone, so how can this happen? No one I know would do something so gross as to try and pimp me out. Iâve literally been getting calls all day by random numbers.â
Reiju gives you a sympathetic look. âWow. This isâŚâ She goes quiet for a moment before speaking. âHere, Iâm giving you a ride. Put your jacket on, and Iâll be right back.â
You watch her run to the break room before returning with jacket and keys in hand.
âWait, Reiju, who will watch the cafe?â
âItâs closed. Now put on your jacket and watch out for your hand. The burn still hasnât healed all the way yet.â
âReiju, I donât want you to get fired, please. Itâs okay-â
âNo, itâs not okay. I wonât have one of my employees going through this while I'm on the clock. Not to mention, they wonât fire. Canât fire their last manager.â She smirks at the end as she turns off the lights. Encasing the cafe in pitch black. Locking the doors, she starts her car and walks you to her vehicle. âPlus, I can just call my dad, and heâll threaten them with legal action if they fire me. Theyâd do anything to keep some of their secrets under wraps.â
âDo you always use your dad to get out of being fired?â
âThat's the only thing heâs good for, really.â You canât help but laugh as she shrugs her shoulders and enters the vehicle. After hearing the start of the engine, you follow after her and jump into the passenger seat.Â
âAlright, on the road we go.â Reiju pulls out of the parking lot and onto the main road.
~~~
As you walked into the police station, you were greeted by the same cop who came to your aid when your vehicle was first destroyed. You were glad that you had someone familiar to share the new developments with.
âMiss (Y/N), I didnât think Iâd see you tonight. What brings you down to the station this late?â The officer walks you to his desk, motioning you to have a chair.
âWell, I think my stalker has put my number on some sort of site for sex. I donât know if they did it just today or if itâs been up and just now seen. Iâve been getting calls all day about men asking for sex and to see what my âservices pricesâ are.â
The cop's face drops from welcoming to disgusted. âOh god. Iâm so sorry. I canât imagine how you must feel. Do you have any idea who knows how to do something of this sort?â Pulling up his computer, he tries to search whatever corners of the internet to find the âad.â
âWho all could have your number?â
âWell, I donât give my number to many people.â
âDo you think it could be some sort of prank?â shaking your head, you dig out your phone to show him the small list of contacts you have.
âI canât. No one I keep in contact with would do something soâŚgross. My contact list contains only ten people. Co-workers, my roommate, a friend or two, and regrettably an ex.â The cops hum at the last revelation.
âAn ex huh? Are you sure they wouldnât be the one to put it up? As revenge for the breakup or to be petty?â
âNo way. Eustass may be an asshole, but heâd never do something like that.â yet even as you spoke, a spot inside you grew a seed of doubt. Eustass has always been very petty, but heâd never give out your number like this. Then again, you thought heâd never cheat, and now look where it got you.
The cop stops typing before looking at you for a moment. âEustass? Can you tell me his last name?â
âYeah, itâs Eustass Kidd. He works at Punk Victoriaâs Mechanics?â You watch as the cop's face drops and the gears turn in his head.
âFire red hair, red nails, and lipstick?â
âYep.â The sound of your confirmation only seems to trouble him further as you watch him drag his hand over his mouth and look at his computer.
âWell, that makes this much more complicated.â
Furrowing your brows, a sense of unease settles in your gut. âWhat? Why?â Watching the cop type something on his computer and ignore you makes you dig your nails into your palms. âWhy does that make this complicated?â
Turning to you, the cop sighs. âWell, since you are on his emergency contact list and I see that the cop who was supposed to inform you hasnât, I will be the one to tell you.â
âTell me what?â The unease in your stomach only bubbles at the look on his face.
âThis afternoon, there was an accident on Sterling Road. A motorist ran a red light and was T-boned by a car. The breaks stopped working, which made him unable to stop.â
âAnd by himâŚyou mean?â
âEustass. His motorcycle was destroyed in the process. Heâs currently in the hospital.â Your hands fly to your mouth as you feel shock rush through your body. A wave of different emotions wash over you. The deep, dark parts of you, the part that still holds anger and rage, is happy karma got him. That he would feel how he felt when he fucked your ex-best friend. Yet another part, the side that aches from the memories of your time together, is horrified and worried. Is he okay? Whatâs his condition?
His motorcycle was also destroyed. You knew how much it meant to him. After spending so much money and time repairing it, he finally managed to fix it up, only for his breaks to stop working? There was no way Eustass would look over something as important as that.
âThere were signs of foul play when we inspected the scene. It seemed his breaks had been cut. There was a clean slice in the middle of the line that couldnât have been caused by anything other than them being tampered with.â The cop pulled out a piece of paper. âIs there anyone you can think of that would want to hurt Eustass?â
âI hadnât talked to him in the past 5-6 months before last week. His life during that time is a complete mystery to me. I donât know if he made any enemies since then. But I canât think of anyone whoâd want to hurt him like that.â
âI see.â The cop looks at his computer before typing something. âIâm seeing a restraining order against a woman called (.....) (..........). Do you know anyone by that name?â
Your blood runs cold upon hearing the name. You never thought youâd hear her name and ârestraining orderâ in the same sentence. Of course, youâve come to realize sheâs a horrible person after fucking Eustass, but hearing that even afterward, she wouldnât leave him alone furled the growing hate in your heart.
âYes. Sheâs my ex-best friend. She slept with Eustass when me and him were still dating and I caught them together. I havenât talked to her since.â
âHmm. I see. Has she made an effort to reach out and contact you?â
âNo. I have her blocked on everything.â
âBut she still has your number, correct?â
âI mean, yeah, but-â
âAlright. Well, Iâm glad you came in. Itâs helped both your and Eustassâs cases.â
âIt has?â
Nodding, the cop begins to pull out some files and other such things. âI hate to cut this short, but I need to write these things down and consult with my co-workers. Feel free to contact me when anything else pops up.â The cop gives you a stick note with his name and work number before sending you on your way.
You couldnât help but feel slightly annoyed. There was obviously something he wasnât telling you. While you know you should just be grateful that they were taking your situation seriously, the fact they're hiding things from you causes an itch you just canât scratch.
Walking out of the cops' office, you see Reiju waiting for you. âThanks for waiting, Reiju. You didnât have to, but I appreciate it.â
Sitting up from her seat, she smiles at you. âNo problem. I wasnât just going to let you walk home in the cold at night. Now, let's get you home. The car might be cold, sorry.â
âItâs better than walking.â You chuckle.
~~~
As you sit in the car, you stare out the window, a somber look on your face. The events of the day drained your energy.
âIf you donât mind me asking, did something else happen in the cops' office? You look more upset than when you went in.â Reijuâs worried voice breaks through your thoughts. You argue whether or not to tell her. Should you tell her you're concerned about Eustass? That you learned that your ex-best friend, who you thought you knew, turned out to be a freak who stalks your ex after sleeping with them? Maybe there could be some advice she could give you on how to feel?
âHey, so remember how I told you about not being friends with (.....) anymore?â
âOh yeah. Good riddance. I always knew there was something about her.â
You turn your head to her, confused. âWhat? What makes you say that?â
âThere was always an aura to her. God, how do I describe it? I guess to me and some other people at the cafe thought you could do better than her.â
âI could do better? What do you mean?â
âWell, she wasnât the best person. Itâs not your fault for not seeing it. But there were multiple instances where she just treated you super shitty, but it just flew over your head.â
Hearing that all your co-workers hated (.....) was weird. While you understood if it was after the incident, knowing it was before it all went down made you question. Did you really not see the signs? Were there actual warning signs about her doing this?
âOne incident I can think of is when you were telling me a story about how sheâd taken the boy you liked to promâtwice, junior and senior year.â
A burn of embarrassment hits your face as you remember that as well. When you look back on it, you feel stupid. But simultaneously, you just wanted (.....) to be happy. You remember how she had always put herself down in high school, always saying that the people she liked never liked her back. And when you asked, she said the exact person you liked. Each time, you felt terrible, so despite wanting to be the one going with your crushes, you let her go instead. Wanting her to be happy.
âOhâŚYeah, I remember that.â
âIsnât it weird how everyone you ever liked she magically liked too?â
âI just thought we had the same taste in men.â
âSame taste isnât the same as stealing everyone youâve ever liked.â Keeping her eyes on the road, Reiju continues. âTell me honestly (Y/N), can you name one time (.....) actually did something for you? Has she ever done anything to sacrifice things like you did? Did she ever say thank you even?â
You desperately tried to come up with an incident, trying to prove you werenât as ignorant of (.....)âs actions as it seemed, but nothing came up.
âDidnât she always rely on you to get her homework done? Sheâd never done anything and always copied off you. You told me she probably wouldnât have passed high school if it werenât for you.â
âShe told me about her parents and how hard it was to contrate when they fought all the time. Her dad hated how she went to school when she âshouldâve been at home like a real woman.â and that her brothers would steal and rip up her homework.â
âHave you ever met her parents? Or family?â Reijuâs question actually brought up a revelation for you. You actually couldnât recall a time you ever met her family. Growing up, you never had the desire to. But after learning and feeling like youâve never even known (.....), you had more questions.
âI remember her coming to school wearing long-sleeved shirts and jeans. She told me it was to hide the bruises from her dad when he got mad. They only ever lasted a few days since she heals quickly.â
âYeah, no. Bruises take more than three days to heal. It is more like two weeks at best. Depending on how bad the bruise is.â
âI donât understand. Why would she lie about something like that? What would there be to gain? Why would she lie about something she knew meant something to me?â
âDo you wanna know what I think? Now, this may sound cruel and harsh, but whatever. I think she was lying to you (Y/N) about everything. From my point of view, it seems like she always wanted to have a one-up on you. Wanted you to fail and be there to her beck and call.â
âIâŚâ You were speechless. Never have you thought (.....) might be lying. She wanted to be better than you or see you fail. Sure, there were instances, but there's no way everything about your friendship was a lie. It couldnât be.
Youâve told her things youâve told no one elseânot Eustass, not Law, not anyone except her. The things you told her you were sure would never be heard by anyone else but her. What if she told others what you told her in confidant?
âRemember when you told me how the boy you liked in college ended up dating your friend after he mysteriously never told you before that she liked him?â At the realization, it felt like a bucket of ice water had been dumped on your head. But at the same time, you never told (.....) that it was Law that you liked, so how would she have known?
âI never told her his name, though. How would she have known it was him if I never said his name?â
âYou said she went to the same college as you, yeah? And Iâm guessing you told her his anime at first, not thinking youâd fall for him, or she could have snooped in your phone when youâd left it open. Wouldnât put it above her if even Eustass got a restraining order on her.â
âDO you think sheâd actually go through such lengths to prevent me from being happy?â
âI think theirs a lot of shit sheâd done that youâve blocked out over the years. I think the (.....) you know is a shame. A huge lie.â
âBut why? Why would she do something like this? Spend years of her life just to try and make me unhappy?â
âDonât know. Wish I had the answers for you, but I donât.â Reijuâs words bounced around in your head like a ball. Distracting you from the world around you. Pulling you from reality to search your memory of the past of all the times sheâs done you wrong.
~~~
âHey, weâre at your apartment. Doesnât look like Lawâs here.â Pulled from your flashbacks, you're met with the sight of a dark rainy night and your apartment building in front of you.
âOh, we are. Well, thank you, Reiju. I really owe you one.â
âItâs no problem really. Go take care of yourself, okay? Take a relaxing bath, eat some ice cream, and get some good sleep. Good night (Y/N), and stay safe.â
âGoodnight, Reiju. Thank you again.â You leave her car and wave goodbye. The rain hits your body repeatedly, making you rush to the safety of your apartment.
As you walk up the stairs to the 2nd floor, only one thing runs through your mind despite it being so close to home. So close to the place where you felt at least a shred of safety.
Did you really know (.....) or were you too blind to see (.....) true intentions?
~~~
Here is a promotion poster for one of the drinks at the cafe reader works at:
Also I KNOW Reiju is actually pink but reader was pink first so-
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Why'd you only call me when your high?
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Mark Estapa X F Reader
Summary - You've always had feelings for him, but he only evers calls you when he's high.
W/C - 1.5 k
Warnings - Drinking and smoking, kissing, fluff, angst, like kinda smut to very little. swearing and mentions of smut
A/N - start requesting hockey guys pookies đđ
You were always helping Mark. Fucking Mark. The guy would couldn't seem to not be inlove with blunts and weed as you were inlove with him. Everything was so fucking pathetic to your friends, but you needed the slightest bit of attention from him that you could manage.
So, at 3am, Ethan called you, claiming him and Mark were not currently under the influence, but they were. If either one of them calls you at 3am, Mark was high. Doesnt even matter if any of his friends told him not to, he found a longing in it.
"Y/n, Mark needs you." Ethan mumbles and Mark giggles in the background.
"No." You say, your heart breaking at saying this, but you need to say no. You just couldnt keep saying yes, you would get known for being able to relie on when someone was high. The hockey guys knew you only did this for Mark, some of them tried it once. You needed to say no to Mark just like you say no to his teammates.
The slight gasp you heard from another guy, who your assuming is Dylan. "Shit man, she hates you now." Dylan chuckles. Your eyes narrow in instinct, the quickly go back when you realise it was a phone call.
"I don't hate you Mark, just get sober." You whisper as you hang up. It was heartbreaking, saying no. But you just couldn't bring it to yourself to say yes and let him walk all over you like usual.
Ding! Ding! Ding!
Each time your phone vibrates, another ping of pain to your heart. You couldn't help but feel sad about it all, you were rejecting the only form of contact you get from Mark. You open your phone, if you read the text but don't respond, it'll give more impact to him.
Please Y/n For fucks sake Y/n, answer me I need you.
You can't help but chuckle as you turn off your phone, every single time this happens, he comes to your dorm, you don't now how but he gets here somehow. Then you hookup and he ditches in the morning. A horrible cycle of pain for you and a great cycle of pleasure for him.
Each time and everytime you open the front door for him, he kisses you with lust, the weed or whatever he smoked on his breath. Each time and everytime you accept those kisses, he takes off your clothes and you, his. Each time and everytime it gets taken too far. Each time and everytime you try to convince yourself it'll be different. Each time and everytime it isnt, it never is.
So, he better get the fucking memo. You hear a knock on your door and it pulls you out of your train of thought completely. You pray it isnt him, you pray to god. But no praying could ever save him from arriving at your dorm whenever he was high.
"Y/n, please...open the door." He croaks out, you can't really tell if he was crying or if he sounded like that because he just had probably like 3 blunts.
âMark, I canât do this anymore.â You say and he groans from behind the door. âPlease. You donât understandâ
âWhat have I done wrong?â He asks. You werenât one to complain about this, the attention you lusted for from him night after night, but it had just gotten out of hand for the both of you.
âNothing. I just need you to not be drunk.â You sigh and he groans again.
âJust open the door Y/N.â Mark begs. Then every single memory comes back to you, his dick being in you, filling you up to the brim, his lips trailing on your neck, the sudden euphoric feeling you get when he fucks you.
The longing feeling in your heart was too much to handle at this point.
And as his ears chirped up at the sound of the doorknob rattling as you opened it, he walked straight inside, no kiss or nothing.
You notice his eyes are bloodshot as he turns around to look at you. âIâm sorry.â He says.
âWhat?â You ask him as he looks at you, a sorry look plaguing his features. âIâm sorry for being a dick, Iâm sorry for us hooking up and then ditching, I just- I canât imagine my life without you Y/N.â He pleads.
You sigh. âIf only you werenât high, you wonât remember this in the morning.â You say, disappointment ringing in your tone.
âBut I do, I always have.â Mark says and you tilt your head. âI always remember it, the way we fuck, the way your body feels against mine, the way I canât wait to get high and do it all over again with you.â
âThen why not mention it?â You ask and he groans.
âBecause! Iâm scared your going to fucking hate me and never talk to me again if you do,â He cries; not actual tears, in actuality all that he was crying for was for you. He cups your cheek and presses his lips against yours.
And as he does so, the same everything and everytime floods your brain, but you just hope that he doesnât leave you this time.
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blooming hearts.
jean kirstein x reader, reincarnation au
chapter three - growth//act one
chapter warnings ; canon typical violence, death, mourning, mentions of suicide.
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Jean hadnât known what he was getting into when he scowled at you from afar on initiation day. If he had, maybe he wouldâve stopped it, and maybe it wouldâve taken him faster to finally accept defeat and pray that his feelings would go away.
No, because even if he prayed to someone who never had the ears to empathize with him and lessen the burden of being in love, he knew heâd regret his wishes coming true. Loving you was the light that heâd hoped for â always present, never flickering, always standing and beautiful. Heâd get burnt a thousand times over if it meant he could feel what your warmth again.
He couldnât put a date to all the times he thought you were the hope. Of how many times heâd looked at his right side with tenderness in his eyes without even trying, of how many times heâd thought you were made out of everything he was curious about â the stars, fire, the sun. even when it was after training and you were sweaty and sat under the shade of a large tree, he wondered how you maintained your warmth in the blazing heat without making him suffocate.
You were on his right as always, heâd find out, as he relaxed lazily on the lush green grass, feeling the inkling of a breeze wash over him. He could only faintly hear his friends and their excited cheers â marco talking to armin about the book that they had read, something jean wasnât all that interested in, mikasa softly telling eren that heâs doing better in training with the gear and jean could almost see the way the latterâs face wouldâve gone red even if jean was looking at the sky above him. Connie and sasha argued bravely with reiner, the blonde's boisterous laugh taking over the whole field. Nothing could reach jeanâs ears, however, because when he turned to look at you, on his damned right, you were looking at the clouds just as he was.
He shuddered. Summer in July with a full, heavy uniform on, he shuddered.
And his heart was beating so fast in his chest and he could hear it, almost taste it, when you turned around to look at him and smiled brightly.
Someone called your name. âhowâd it go for you guys?â marco asked, armin turning towards you. jean watched as you shrugged and it all seemed effortless â uncalculated, relaxed, you responded with a soft smile, âyâknow. Canât complain. Reiner did try to shove me into a tree, though-â
âthat was an accident, Iâd never-â
âno, you did! I saw you!â sasha says, pointing at the blonde who looks around for support, red with embarrassment. Jean finds the strength to sit back up, his weight on his forearms, and you turn to look at him after instigating the bickering that now seemingly everyone but you and jean were a part of. He wondered if you could detect the softness that filled his eyes as he looked at you. you offered him your waterbottle, noticing the sweat on his brow, turning back to the conversation â if you could even call it that â at hand.
âI mean, it couldnât have been intentional-â bert reasoned, to which eren remarked âreinerâs a team player, though!â at reiner's defence. The man looked like a deflated version of himself, looking down at his lap shamefully.
You laughed. âtotal team player. Sorry, reiner.â
âhonestly, I donât blame you. if his big-â connie gestures to his chest, cupping the air around it, â-bumped into me, i'd also fall into a tree.â
Eren laughs. Jean groans, his face scrunching up. âdo you want me to tell everyone what happened last night?â he says with a smirk, leaning into the conversation, and connieâs eyes go comically wide.
âno-â he says, his voice cracking, and the chatter breaks out once more, everyone urging jean to continue.
Marco glances at him with a smile. You and jean make a good team, he thinks, and he wonders how long itâll take for the two of you to realise it without any help from him. The moment you stop talking, he completes you, without hesitation and with the same sharp glint in his eye as yours. marco always pride himself as an astute observer, the same as his best friend, but unlike the latter, he wouldnât point out his discoveries outright, not without some coaxing or unless it was absolutely needed. So of course â even if it had been obvious to everyone else except maybe eren â the way you and jean conversed and acted like two halves of the same being didnât go unnoticed by him, the way jean stole a couple spritz of his lavender perfume sometimes to make himself more âpresentableâ to no-one in particular, he knew it was for you. the way your shoulders relaxed under only jeanâs soft gaze, the way you would try to spot jeanâs ashy hair across the dining hall and would beeline towards him without hesitation. All of it, all the telltale signs of young love that was capable of turning so much more were all present, splayed out with its organs open to poking and prodding.
Marco wondered if this is how it would always be. If jean would always glance at you for a reaction while retelling a story against connieâs loud protests, if you would always laugh at his obvious attempts to bring connie down as much as connie did to jean.
Maybe it would. Maybe marco would always observe you two, skirting around your feelings because it was too obvious to say out loud.
And maybe it was, marco realized, his eyes squinting at your interaction with his best friend â unsaid, almost secret but not ashamed to be out in the open. He watches with only a little confusion as jean nods his head towards you with recognition and a small smile that barely reaches his cheeks and then he watches you, a stranger he doesnât know the name of, do the same to him and almost wants to laugh at how obvious this is. But nobody else is watching, nobody witnesses the universe bait its breath and stop time for an intangible second.
And then, just as quick, you turn back to the rest of his friends and ask with your shoulders relaxed, âso, what would you guys like to order?â
Right. Thatâs what was happening. Marco blinks back at you.
âthree cheesecakes. Wait, no, hold on-â sasha says, and turns to her as connie squints at the menu again, no doubt having trouble reading, mustering up a loud but sure, âdooibos jelly!â
You tilt you head, âone rooibos jelly.â, you say, subtly correcting connie and marco laughs. âstupid ass name.â connie mutters, and jeanâs head turns to him. âI know youre not talking, constance springer.â
Your movements still.
âthatâs not even my real name. thatâs fake. Like, I stole an id-â
âI have your birth certificate on my phone right now.â Sasha says, pulling out her phone from her pocket, but marcoâs eyes are on you. âwhy the fuck do you have my birth-â âresearch.â âthe astrology bullshit again?â âsomething has to answer to this mess!â âexcuse me? Im beautiful.â baldy - connie speaks.
Your fingers have gone stiff, shoulders tensed, blinking rapidly and it clicks. It makes sense. To marco atleast. He steps closer to the counter, placing his hands on the wood. âbreathe, just breathe through it.â
Your eyes close, as if that would help with everything you were seeing. In the wooden, humid dining hall, connie stealing from your plate, repeating the same joke with him and the brown haired girl and doubling over with laughter as your beloved grumbled under his breath about how it wasnât that funny but you knew he was smiling too; comforting connie after he lost his twin, accompanying him to ragako to see his family and listening to his stories about his small but loud village.
you did as you were told, not questioning Freckleâs instructions as you inhaled, exhaled. One, two three. Why did remembering have to be so painful? You could only faintly make out the concerned voices that filled around you, hands guiding your shoulders â they were warm and familiar is all you knew, all you wanted to know â and you try to focus on your breathing, but this name, this goddamn name sends you spiralling through a tornado, falling with you breath stuck in your chest; âconnie springerâ and his jokes, sitting in the dining room, standing near the stables, charging into an unfortunate carnage, flying through the trees as the branches scratch the side of your face, your cheeks stretched with the wide smile that spills from your lips, your laughter mixed with his travelling through the air because of a joke that was deemed lame by almost everyone but you.
A hand was intertwined with yours, pressing into your flesh with soft pressure despite its calluses, you note, another hand that you couldnât feel through your clothes rested on your back, feeling the up and down of your breathing, moving their thumb in a small circle there. The wood pattern of the table infront of you, the small chatter from everyone in the cafĂŠ but your circle, the smell of fresh tea â chamomile, you think, you werenât as good as Levi with the guessing game â berry flavoured gum that stained your tastebuds. Breathing in and then out. In and then out until connie springer became nothing but a name with a face and wrinkles around his eyes. Someone that could lighten the mood with one word. Someone that could hug you and pat your back awkwardly but with all the love he could muster up, which seemed to be a lot. Someone who was important to you. Was supposed to be important to you.
âbetter?â flower boy asks, and you know its important because heâs never looked at you like this, with this much warmth and knowing, and it was his hand holding yours. With flinching being involuntary, it left less of a choice for you to leave his grip. You can only find it in yourself to nod, a simple action bearing more than you want to imagine.
Connieâs on the other side of the table, looking at you eagerly. Freckles is to your right and Sunshine â this is what you will call her until you could have the courage to learn her name before you learn your own â is sitting to his right, connieâs left. Was his nickname just as heavy as his name? is that why you felt like this? You shift in your seat. You wonder how heavy your own name is.
âman, thought you died again with that look on your face.â Connie jokes, as always. Flower boyâs hand goes stiff in yours and you find it involuntary to squeeze it to relax him. Since when did you give yourself as much importance? Since when did you think that your touch could relax someone? Your hands have always been cold. Dead? Is that what connie said? Checked out.
âtoo soon.â Freckles says, a small smile on his face. Connie nods and shifts back in his seat. You donât want to learn the rest of their names â not because you lack the courage or the grief but because you lacked the knowledge to. You couldnât bear to hold that importance, the expectation that held up their faces, the same look your parents held, the same look that would be broken when you mentioned going to the university of paradis instead of the one you couldnât get into. You couldnât bear to break the news to them, their hopeful faces, looking at you for a word â your word, the one you hated to say out loud because it made your existence far more real than youâd like it to be, your name that was nothing but an outline of what you were supposed to be â and to watch their same faces fall because of everything you couldnât provide. Your story was already written, however, because the next words you could think of were remnant of what you wanted to say and not what you were supposed to say, âso, what have you been up to?â with a pep in your voice that you didnât recognize. You suppose you never have been able to recognize who you were.
Flower boyâs confusion to your avoidance terrified you, terrified of the importance you felt because you could identify his emotions without so much as a glance at his face. And then there were Sunshine and connie who talked over each other, their voices settling deep within your bones, everything you felt increasing tenfold, feeling like it was no longer contained within you but reached out of the boundaries of this store. It terrified you. You were giving yourself too much importance, a place that wasnât supposed to be filled by you.
Freckles looked between the two of them, opening and closing his mouth to say something, interject their stories, and flower boy was still looking at you. You wondered what he was thinking. You wondered what you were thinking, too, to still be here. You had a plan, something that you were supposed to do. Complete high school graduation, something that would fulfil your parentâs wishes before everything else, pretend to care about further education, pretend to care about waking up no matter how exhausted your body was from never sleeping, pretend to eat, pretend to not lock your bathroom, pretend you didnât want to let the ground bury you. Itâs embrace would be infinitely warmer than whatever the air held, always smelling like built up guilt and discomfort that refused to leave no matter how many incense sticks you burnt, no matter how much smoke you filled up with. And then pretend to be alive for seven minutes as the cold felt warmer and the warmth felt colder. At least, thatâs what it was supposed to feel like according to the minimal, hesitant research you had done about bodies after death.
Planned. Everything with you had to be put in perfect, cursive letters, reminding you of who you were supposed to be, of the shoes and clothes you were supposed to fill out. The heaviness of it all, too; you were listening, not quiet there, and it felt a lot like an apology. Like lost letters from friends who could never find the otherâs new address because they never reached out to. It felt a lot like an admission of guilt than you actually being here, like this big performance the steps to which you were entirely unaware of, always teetering between the edge of being just enough and failing, always on thin ice.
Dead. Thatâs what you were supposed to be, right? Connie said it. Flower boy felt it, you were sure, and Freckles was aware of it. Sunshine tried to hide it entirely but the pea sized elephant in the room was made clear to you â you were not supposed to be here. Maybe some other, better, beautiful version of you was. she deserved it. You didnt know her but you knew that she did, and who were you to deprive her of that joy? The joy of getting to know the version of you that was long buried underground with dirt filling their lungs and whites of their eyes turned a cold grey. Whoever it was that you saw in your dreams â you refuse to call her your own name â was someone else entirely, crumpled under the weight of those fiery monsters in an island that went just as unnamed as you. Maybe thatâs who they were looking for. You were dead, performing at a funeral of someone youâre supposed to know, someone youre supposed to be, and people are looking at you for answers you donât have. Theyâre looking at you.
Theyre looking at you. You stare at the space between you and flower boy, Freckles is tapping you on the shoulder. You look up, theyre looking at you for answers you donât have, expectant smiles on their faces for a voice you couldnât bear to hear from yourself, for a name you could never make your own.
Sunshine shifts closer, her hands leaning on the table. You do the same, leaning in close so her excited whispers can reach your ears even though what she asks isnât a secret. âwhatâs your name?â
right. You owe it to them.
You lean back. It hurts. You tell them who you are.
And then theres more silence. They seem to know how to deal with it â Sunshine leans back into her chair and stares as the ceiling much like connie, Freckles leans forward and rests his head on the table, flower boy stiffens entirely and you worry he isnât breathing. He shifts closer to you without speaking and you let him. Who are you to stop him? They know you now. Or atleast, theyre supposed to. You rub circleâs on flower boyâs hand, rhythmic, performing. Speaking of a dead person was hard, especially since it was yourself. You never knew how to sign off on letters, you never knew how to give speeches or how to start them without sweating and now you had a crowd â a procession, some mourners for someone you were supposed to be â and it felt like an apologetic eulogy of someone you had never met but were supposed to know about, know of, become. It wasnât you.
Maybe your parents were also mourners. The few friends turned strangers you had back where you regrettably grew up were also mourners.
but that was giving yourself too much importance. Who were you to have a funeral? You would never. But she â the you with the blades in your hands - could. she would. Was it him? flower boy? Who cried over your â her â dead figure drenched in blood, promising something important? Mustâve been him with the way he was holding you now but, then again, it wasnât you being held. It was the body in the casket that went unburied not because she wasnt loved enough, but because she were loved too much.
Something that could never be you. Too much importance.
The silence was broken by Freckles. He smiled warmly, with familiar happiness, letters found by strangers turned friends after finding the right address to go to. âgood to see you again.â
again, as if youâd met before. As if it was you who heâd met and loved.
You smiled back as performance, standing up with him as he took you in his arms, noting the way flower boyâs hands lingered in yours as you got up. she mustâve been important, this version of you that they had built up in their heads that you were sure to destroy with one wrong word. Freckles hugged you tightly, his arms circling your shoulders, his head resting on top of yours and you wonder if he thinks itâs an awkward form, one of your arms is pressed in between both your bodies, the other reaching around his back, your nametag digging into your chest, no doubt digging into his as well with your rapid breathing. Connie and Sunshine joined in a minute later, unable to stop themselves â how you could guess their emotions was a mystery to you. You were giving yourself too much importance, you assumed, flower boyâs hands engulfing the four of you now and despite the layers of arms covering you, you could feel his warmth the most.
You were giving yourself too much importance.
âconnie, I cant breathe.â Sunshine says, her nose buried into Frecklesâ dark blue sweater.
âits jeanâs fault-â
âget your nose out of marcoâs fucking big back-â
âjust because im taller than sasha doesnât mean I have a big ba-â
So many names being thrown without a care in the world; without the importance held under their tongues that you thought theyâd hold. No longer Sunshine and flower boy and Freckles, their names meshed together with the memories and the pain of remembering, again, and you wondered why it had to be you. Why it had to be someone like you who had to hold this gun to your own head, you who had to recite a eulogy in front of strangers, you who had to forget and remember and forget again, why it was you who wasnât allowed to give yourself too much importance, why it was you that was supposed to be important.
Your head buried itself further into Frecklesâ â marco. Marco with constellations for freckles, marco who had asked you â her â for advice on what to give his youngest sister on her birthday while being so far away from her, marco who had told you your gear was loose before you headed headfirst into battle without knowing its consequences, marco who had told you that you and your flower boy make a good team after a mission, marco whoâs face chewed off in an uneven chunk, half his limbs destroyed, his eyes closed. Without a goodbye.
Marco. His name was marco now, your eyes closed tighter, the chatter around you increased. Something about connie saying, âwhat did we do now?â only to be met with âdid we not tell them our names?â âI donât⌠I think we did?â âwell clearly fucking not.â Followed by another pair of arms replacing marcoâs, and the feeling itself made you crumble to your knees if it wasnât for him holding you upright, your weight pressed onto him. He held you delicately, with a purpose you didnât have the importance to serve. âIâve got you. Weâre here.â He says, and if just the sound of his voice could solve everything, youâd let him. Youâd let him play god, youâd let him play with the strings of the universe that youâd let control you, youâd let him put you in your coffin and dig dirt on top of your stranger of a body.
âshould I get them some tea? Whatâs their favourite?â previously Sunshine, now turned sasha asks. No, she was always sasha. Were you always yourself? You werenât sure about that, but her voice makes you grimace, even with her honeyed tones flowing to your ears. It wasnât her fault. No matter how much you tried to suppress all that you were feeling to show that you were fine because thatâs what the mangled corpse of yourself wouldâve done in another life, you donât, because you're not her, and sashaâs voice serves as a reminder of her being a part of you. Bunking with her, her hair flowing over her shoulders as she took a hold of your hands and practically begged you to steal some extra rations from the kitchens, sitting on her bed after your first expedition, sitting in silence for the first time since you met her because both of you were incapable of having something to say to each other, opting to hold each other instead, brushing the knots out of her hair as she rambled to you about the countless horrifying ways her date with the blonde chef all while laughing at her drawn out conclusions about the end of the date that hadnât even started yet.
And then there was him. Flower boy. Jean. His nickname felt just as heavy as connieâs, but if you had the strength to, you wouldâve wondered why, knowing that the answer would be a low, inconsiderate hum from the universe, and the way your heart constricts in your chest makes you wonder if this serves as a punishment. The sin you hadnât meant to commit, the sin of being someone else and trying to fill their uncomfortable shoes â maybe the hole in your chest was a cruel, albeit worthy, damnation and the only thing that brought you comfort was the fact that you had felt this before. That you had prepared yourself by knowing what it felt like to have nothing to thaw yourself from the frozen state you were in. even if it wasnât in the same position as you were in right now, you had felt the drowning depth that your limbs ache into and ache for. The only problem was him. The same person who was quiet literally holding you up by the shoulders was the reason you were so conflicted, why everything felt worse because now you had people to let down. you knew what it was like to be held by him and you knew that it was him who was holding you and now you had to come to terms with the uncontrollable fact that you had to be the one to break his hopes. Tell him that the person he had been looking for was dead, waiting to be buried by him, body getting warmer by the minute because he was holding itâs corpse.
Dead. You were supposed to be dead, you had everything planned out. Complete highschool. Pretend. Dead. You were supposed to be dead but now jeanâs warm breath is shifting the hair where his nose rested, his lips forming words youâre sure you can shape yourself into. You breathe out. He feels as real as nothing ever has and you shudder again and you think he thinks youre cold â you are â and he pulls his jacket off and on top of your shoulders as muscle memory even if your skin has never been used to the kindness heâs offering. Hes covering a corpse with his own hands. Bed of flowers growing over your previous body, you were sure, because only she was capable of growing something beautiful.
You control your breathing. Youâve done this before. back when you used to be afraid of the dark, back when everyone with a face claimed to hate you, back when the bathroom was your only respite to breathe. And then jean pulls away, only a little, and youre looking down at your shoes because you know his eyes will speak truth that you donât want to read. His voice â vibrating, low, considerate, his â asks, âbetter now?â
Performance. Whoever you were in that life is capable of something far more beautiful than what you could say, and itâs a script thatâs been provided for you, because you find the teetering strength to look up at him and speak, finally, with a voice thatâs not yours because itâs alive. Or itâs pretending to be. ânever better,â your teeth are rotting and falling out and there are maggots in your skull youre dead youre dead youre dead.
Jean smiles. The light falls down on his cheekbones and he looks like he belongs with this performance of you and youre glad your wear for worse body had provided him with a rare reason to smile like that, all soft and kind and eyes crinkled on the corners because he had lived. Your fingers move without the hesitant permission they usually openly have, brushing a lock of his hair behind his ear. His eyes fall shut momentarily, the universe baits itâs breath with patience that it hadnât been kind enough to show you until now. You breathe in too, involuntary, unallowed, impatient, and your hand falls back down, resting on his chest, feeling the organ of his heart. A place you knew you belonged. Where she belonged. This new performance.
The stage has been set. All you have to do is act. Keep up the appearance of being the person they wanted you to be, all for the satisfaction of someone dead being miraculously alive. You wondered if your demise had anything to do with the way you unfortunately turned out â if the blood seeping out of you somehow tampered with the way youâd live (if you could dare to call it living) in this universe, in this life, but then you look over to sasha whoâs deer-brown eyes have a glossy sheen to them, wide and waiting with her arms open, fingers waiting.
The stage has been set. All you have to do is act.
ACT 1, SCENE 1.
INTERIOR. BLOOM TEAS, 4:48 P.M.
SASHAâs arms open for POPPY. The lights filter in through the windows, afternoon warmth slipping into the cool of the store. CONNIE waits, expectant. MARCOâs smile is soft. flower boy JEANâs hand on the small of POPPY's back. POPPY steps into SASHAâs embrace.
SASHA (smiling, voice cracking)
I missed you.
POPPY (reciprocating)
me too.
CONNIE (joining in)
stop gatekeeping the hug, sash.
SASHA
im not doing shit, baldy.
MARCO (joining in, chuckling)
this feels right.
flower boy JEAN (humming)
we should probably get out of here, though. That guyâs starinâ at us.
ALL turn their heads towards LEVI, who wipes down a cup, shooting glares towards the group.
POPPY
oh shit, I have to be at work right now.
SASHA (holding POPPYâs face in her hands.)
Her hands are soft, warm. Her thumb almost pokes into your eye but sheâs careful to not let it.
does this mean we get stuff for free now?
MARCO
sash, I donât think thatâs allowed.
CONNIE
why not? POPPYâs an employee. There should be uh⌠a discount.
MARCO (turning to POPPY)
...is there?
POPPY
I wish, but no. we do get one free drink per day, though, and sometimes we get to take the leftovers home. I have some matcha cake in my fridge, if youâd like.
SASHA (grinning widely)
are you inviting us to have matcha cake at your place? Dâya have a crush on us or something?
Flower boy JEAN (groaning)
are you sure you wanna share with her, poppy?
SASHA (offended)
hey!
CONNIE
no, jeanâs right. for the first time ever.
jean scrunches his face up. Its cute. If you had more importance and more of a connection to being a part of this play, youâd reach out to tap his nose with your index finger gently. Enough to annoy him but still find your affection.
MARCO
I really think we should leave, now that jean said it.
POPPY
donât worry about it. Thatâs just levi.
Collective silence.
jeanâs head rests on your shoulder for a moment. sasha and connie's face pales. you're not sure if its because of you saying his name out loud or if itâs because theyre still afraid of him. you wouldnât blame them. marco simply tilts his head â you suppose he wasnât there when levi had made everyone clean the cabin top to bottom five times over because he had found a singular speck of dirt under one of the beds.
CONNIE
yeah we should fucking get out of here I donât want him to chop my fucking arm off.
SASHA
I donât remember the last time I cleaned my room. Can he smell that on me? I feel like he can.
flower boy JEAN
I think he can hear it on you too. Hello captain.
LEVI enters the scene. All eyes are now on him.
LEVI
what's going on here?
CONNIE and SASHA salute, their fist against their chest.
BOTH (eyes screwed shut)
captain levi, sir!
flower boy JEAN (standing up straighter, fixing his posture.)
s-sir. Hello.
LEVI (narrowing his eyes)
names. Now.
FADING OUT
ACT 1, SCENE 2
INTERIOR. BLOOM TEAS, 9:56 P.M
you had the closing shift, and after serving some beverages and food â there were multiple rounds of this, considering sasha â and your hands shook with familiar cold as you pressed in the code to lock the back door of the cafĂŠ, your apartment keys heavy in your pocket, calling you back to your pyjamaâs and mattress.
flower boy JEAN
hey, poppy.
POPPY flinches, turning around.
POPPY (smiling softly)
jesus, you scared me.
flower boy JEAN (also smiling, hands in his pockets)
boo.
POPPY
oh, im so scared⌠I hope a big strong man comes to save me.
flower boy JEAN (interlocking hands with POPPY)
right here, my love.
Huh. Love. It was strange how the nickname fell off his lips so nautrally, as if it were already there, as if it suited you and became who you were. But the name wasnât meant for you. it was meant for this poppy. A reminder for you to stay on stage without breaking character.
POPPY (laughing softly)
were you waiting for me, flower boy?
flower boy JEAN
no, I was just⌠you know. Admiring thisâŚ. Beautiful alley. Yeah. Nice brick walls you got there.
POPPY (laughing)
yeah, I made them myself, thanks.
flower boy JEAN (starting to lead POPPY home)
I was going to drop you off. Missed you at the shop today.
POPPY
i forgot I took a double shift today. I wouldâve told you last week if-
flower boy JEAN
its alright. Where do you live?
Another reminder that he doesnât know you. this you, the one that half-assed decorating your apartment because you got too whipped up into the semester to care about how you lived. This you who couldnât call any place a home. How could this you â someone whoâs not a poppy or a love or a whoever he deems fit â compare to the one that had a temple built under her sacred name in the centre of jeanâs heart?
POPPY
just straight and then a left. Takes about twenty minutes by foot.
flower boy JEAN hums.
Theres a lull in your barely-there script of a conversation, your hand still in his.
flower boy JEAN
you okay?
POPPY (smiling)
of course I am. Why?
flower boy JEAN
youâve been acting kinda weird since you found out our names.
Fuck. Did he figure you out? Did you let yourself slip away? Youre supposed to be dead. Your grave was already made. Perfect coffin with your name crossed out and eyes forcefully screwed shut.
POPPY (leaning her head of flower boy JEANâs shoulder)
just a little tired. I had a couple classes before work, so.
flower boy JEAN (humming)
wanna order some takeout when we reach your place? I know some really good pizza.
POPPY (smiling)
Iâd like that.
FADING OUT, flower boy JEAN AND POPPY HAND IN HAND.
END OF ACT ONE.
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Vampire!Cowboy! Yandere x GN! Reader
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A/n: I do not condone yandere behavior, this is purely fictional. This will be a short series. If you want to see what our yandere looks like you can see him here <3 also this technically isnât a slow burn but the juicy stuff will show up in part 2
Part 1
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The rain thudded dully against the roof of your old rusty car. Your windshield wipers squeaked across your windows, flinging off thin sheets of water that blurred the dark road in front of you. Puddles reflected in your single headlight.
Youâre grandfather was a cruel man.
As sweet as honey, you loved your grandfather dearly. He was always especially generous on the holidays.
But he was cruel. Because while he was on his âretirement vacationâ, he left his massive farm in your care.
You! The grandchild who hadnât done a lick of farm work in their entire life! Hell the closest thing to a farm youâd ever been to was a petting zoo when you were- what 6??
How were you expected to do anything remotely useful! In fact you were 90% sure that these crops and animals would be dead and gone within a week under your care.
But ohoho! Lucky you! You grandfather has a helper on the farm! A complete Fucking stranger who youâd never met before was going to be sharing a house with you for the next 6 weeks! Thank you grandpa! Love you SOO much!
You did love him. But you were irritated and you felt like you had a right to be so! He dropped this bombshell on you, not even asking if you had any plans!
Which you didnât but that wasnât the point!
Plans couldâve popped up at any moment!
With a very stressed sigh you pulled your beaten up car into the drive way of the rustic red farm house. Your engine wheezed with exhaust as your wheels rolled to a bumpy stop on the wet pavement. It took about 5 hours to drive to where your grandpa lived. Which meant you couldnât just stay at your house and visit everyday to water the animals and feed the crops or whatever.
You physically had to stay here.
I mean it was a paid vacation but come on! Youâd rather be working at the cafĂŠ than on a farm! At least you knew what you were doing there!
You let your head fall softly against the steering wheel, sighing again at your circumstances.
âWhatever. No use in complaining now.â
âProbably not kid.â
âHoly Sh-!â
The violent sound of your car horn scattered birds and animals for miles. Though there were few to begin with in this dreary weather. The stranger who had peered through your open window winced, covering his ears with a snarl.
âOh shit- i am so sorry you just- actually- no what the fuck you scared the shit out of me!â
Typically you werenât one to point fingers but you were in a particularly bad mood today so you felt that it was justified. Plus he did scare you!
The strangers lips twisted into a grimace, and you felt your body sending various warning signals when his turquoise irises narrowed down on your figure. Jeez this dude had a judgmental stare. You prayed this guy wasnât your grandfathers âhelpâ.
The mystery man clicked his tongue. âYou the old mans grandkid?â
Fuck
You glared deeply at the totally not gorgeous cowboy, â..and I suppose youâre his âhelperâ?â
The stranger didnât seem to take very kindly to your attitude, what with the way he leaned his head a little further into your car window to stare you down.
You had half the nerve to try and close it on him but the dumb thing was a window crank and you wouldnât have gotten it up in time anyway.
âThe names Micah. Your pops calls me Mickey. Itâs either Micah or Mic to you, kid.â
Asshole!
âIâm pretty sure weâre the same age Mickey.â
He didnât respond to that, merely pulling himself out of the car with a deep exhale.
He backed up slightly from the vehicle, you assumed to wait for you to get out, but when he lifted his boot up you got a little more worried
âHey whatâre you-â
With a sharp kick, Mickey smashed his boot into the lower side of your car door causing it to shoot open like a spring lock. Aka causing you to flop out onto your ass with a loud cuss.
Crying out you scowled deeply at the cowboy who didnât even bother to send you a snarky look in return.
You could feel the water drizzling through your hair and clothes.
Looking painfully disinterested, the redhead(?) began walking away from your slowly soaking form. Leaving you to bring in your luggage. In the rain.
âI thought cowboys were supposed to be friendly or something..â you growled somewhat pitifully into the empty cold rain.
Glancing down at your wet knees you sighed, beginning to pick yourself off the ground, in hopes to spare a little of your own dignity.
Though it was for not when you felt your non grippy shoes slide against a stray patch of mud.
You didnât have time to do much more than gasp when you felt yourself fall forward, only to land into a surprisingly secure and- kinda cold, set of arms.
Your breathed deeply for a moment, pulling back to stare at Mickey, whoâs own eyes peered down at you from the brim of his now spotted hat.
You didnât want to acknowledge the size of his forearms, or how you could feel practically everything under that flimsy wife beater he wore despite the weather.
You swore you heard him mumble something along the lines of âcity folkâ, but you became too distracted when noticing the purple spotted umbrella that now shade the two of you from the rain.
âOh..â
You think you finally saw a small smile on the cowboys lips.
âStill thinkin I ainât nice?â
You flushed, mostly in embarrassment at the fact that he heard you.
âAh dip, you heard that?â
His laugh was fucking hot dude.
âYouâd be surprised on how much I can hear, Kid.â
âCreepy but okay.â
Mickey laughed again though a bit shorter this time before propping you back up. You swore you heard a deep inhale, but you werenât sure due to the sound of rain pelting the umbrella and car.
âWhy donât you head inside. Iâll grab your luggage.â
âOh no, I can take care of it-â
The man glared at you, though you felt it was considerably less hostile than it had been originally.
âJust get in or else the foods gonâ get cold.â
Food?
âSay less!â
You had half a mind to be embarrassed when Mickey laughed at the sight of you practically skipping up to the porch and through the rustic door.
âââââââââââââ-
There was a loud and aggressive knocking at your door.
You decided being cruel was a country thing.
Because while Mickey had been sweet enough to make you dinner last night and breakfast this morning, he also rudely woke you up at the ass crack of dawn and kicked you out into the field to help with the chores.
Now mind you, typically you were a morning person! A go-getter of sorts! But the sun wasnât even awake yet! So why were you out here picking peas, tomatoes, squash, peppers and so on, when you could be sleeping peacefully, cozied up in the slightly itchy and heavy wool sheets of your guest bed! Something about âthe morning dewâ apparently.
You werenât even sure how Mic got in your room after you didnât respond, seeing as you were once again, 90% sure you locked the door. Then again, the food he made practically sent you into a coma once you were done.
You werenât sure if it was coincidence or not, but Micah had made all your favorite foods that evening. You wanted to assume your pa had told him, but you didnât believe for a second that, that rude cowboy would go out of his way to make your favorite foods for you.
Especially considering he didnât eat any of it.
All he had was this weird cup of, what you could only assume was wine or cranberry juice and a few pieces of a steak he popped in the oven.
This guy was weird.
âHey kid! You done pickin or are your city hands to sensitive to finish the job?â
Speak of the bastard and he will come! Unfuckenfortunately
Your scowl was probably noticeable from a mile away, and especially from where the tall country man stood, given his smug grin as he walked over to examine your work.
He whistled mockingly, freaky blue-green eyes scanning your baskets.
âNot bad, for city folk anyway. But here.-â crouching down in front of you the, ginger(?) reached his rough hands out and softly pulled the baskets from your arms.
âYou wanna keep your herbs separated from each other. Some of them are harder to tell from others and you donât wanna go mixin them up.â
You watched quietly, mostly in your own mental brooding, as he carefully separated the different herbs and spices from each other. His hands were large, but you noticed how precise he seemed to be. He had to have been working here quite sometime, cuz you couldnât tell much of a difference between half of the things he was organizing.
âThere we go.â His voice was soft this morning. Blending in with the sound of the faint winds, and the after rain dripping from the gutters and into the soil. It was still too early for the birds to be chirping. The sun still had yet to rise but the stars gave just enough light to see the gentle gaze the farm boy had set on you.
This moment of silence was odd for you. Especially given the two of you bickering since your arrival yesterday. This guy before you made no sense. Like a switch, he was harsh and snappy, and then gentle and calm. Caring almost. At times he almost acted like heâd known you for years. Though that seemed to mostly happen when he was doing something around the farm.
Caught up in your own thoughts, you missed the way Mickeys eyes were burning into you. They moved languidly over your figure, taking in your attire, dressed more warmly for the morning chill. Nearly every part of you was covered.
Except your neck. You had forgotten to pack a scarf apparently.
The pale manâs jaw clenched tightly, his shoulders tensing before he scowled and stood up, interrupting the once peaceful atmosphere.
âGet up. We still have work to do.â
His tone was cold and biting like the morning. Your breath came out in foggy puffs. But his didnât. At least you couldnât see it from where you were.
You watched with furrowed brows knit confusion as the cowboys boots carried him into the farmhouse, right as the first rays of the sun stretched over the country side and bled into the fields.
What was his deal?
For the rest of the day, Mickey seemed to be adamant about being as big of a thorn in your side as possible. Barking at you to hurry up. Scowling at you when you slipped or did something even slightly wrong.
Perfectionist asshole.
He also seemed to be avoiding looking at you.
At least directly. Every time you turned to yell at him, or glare, his back was always turned or his head was to the side, seeming adamant on not meeting your eyes.
Moody much?
The only time he did look at you was when he thought you werenât looking. âSpecially when you were moving heavy objects and you had to take off your jacket so you wouldnât drown in your own sweat.
To some extent you prided your self on your work. You werenât lazy by any means, and actually considered yourself a fairly hard worker, if the muscles of your forearms were any indication. You werenât ripped. But it was something right?
You assumed that Mic agreed, though granted he couldâve just been comparing yours to his own massive forearms. But with the way his eyes were trailing all over you and zoning in on your barren arms and shoulders, You were almost flattered!
Almost. If the same guy who was checking you out wasnât also being bloody ruthless with the chores. You got a few scrapes and bruises by that time noon, and you practically fell into the rickety kitchen dining chairs.
âHoly fucking shit Iâve never moved that much in my entire life..â a pain groaned poured from your lips as your aching muscles strained with your body heaving itself upwards.
Mickey let out a soft scoff at the sound, though still considerably gentler than he had been all morning, as he placed a very aesthetic sand-which In front of you.
Your stomach growled particularly loud at the sight, and with new found energy you picked up the scrumptious food with a grateful thanks and began eating.
Mickey, once again, without a lunch of his own opted to watch you openly instead. His belt buckle jeans pressed into the kitchen counter top, muscular arms propping himself up against it.
He watched quietly, and you wouldâve been freaked out if you werenât so damn tired.
âThereâs still more to do. We havenât gotten to the animals yet. And the roof on the barn needs leak repairs.â
You choked.
Hacking violently you smacked your chest before unlodging the piece of fresh bread from your throat.
Gulping water quickly you exhaled and turned to look at the cowboy in what you hoped was a glare, but was more accurately a very pathetic frown.
âI-!â You opened your mouth to argue before closing it softly with a tired sigh.
Youâd complained enough today.
Mickey had been doing this kind of work for who knows how long, and he was going out of his way to accommodate your pace, though not by much, and was even making you food. It felt rude to comparing at this point.
You just hoped that if you died from exhaustion Mickey wouldnât use your body as fertilizer.
So with a resigned groan you sat up after finishing your delicious sandwich. â..Yeah, okay.â You mumbled, getting ready to move to the trash can and toss out the crumbs and paper, but a large pale hand forced you back into your seat, without much pressure given how tired your body already was.
You gazed at Mickey curiously.
The tall cowboy looked down at you firmly, his expression odd as he scanned your bruises and sweaty face. Sighing completely inaudibly before reaching into his back pocket and placing a tube of some kind of muscle cream and a pack of wraps.
âGo upstairs and run yourself a warm bath. You stink and the water will help relax your muscles so they wont hurt as much tomorrow. You can spend the rest of the day doing whatever you need to do, but I expect you down here and out at the gate by 5 to bring in the cattle. Got it?â
You were stunned. The smile that worked its way on your face seemed to embarrass the farmer slightly as he turned away from you with folded arms and a grumpy frown.
âDonât look at me like that, Iâm only letting you off because at this point youâll slow me down more than anything. I donât need a clumsy city kid messing up my work.â
You chose to ignore the bastards insults in favor of gently placing your arm on his lower bicep.
âThanks Mic.â
You missed the deep inhale and weird glow of the cowboys eyes that followed you up the stairs and into your bedroom.
ââŚ..â
It was good to see you hadnât changed much.
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California Dreamin'- The beach boys
Seo Changbin with California Dreamin from the Beach boys for the fall series
Genre: Angst, hurt/no comfort
Warnings: none really, reader is just a shitty person
Wordcount: 808w
a/n: this req, by @lina-linny as it seems we are getting lot more angst than fluff in the fall series lol. I'm working on it alrrr. I have some fluff in mind too, (hehe spoiler its with lix) So now as always, take ur blanket, a hot cocoa (or a coffee, man i'm craving coffee rn (no i didn't drink two cups just an hour ago)) And have a cozy falll <333
Chills went through Changbins body as he walked on the little side path, the wind seeping into his bones. When he was looking around he saw all the trees, leaves being brown, seemingly lifeless. Just like he felt. And the weather wasnât the best for a walk either. The sky was grey. Heavy, dark clouds hovering above changbins head. With some luck he could make it home before it would start to rain. He wrapped his jacket around himself a bit tighter, watching his breath come out in little white clouds.
People were passing by, leaves were falling down, and everyone seemed to be distracted from the coldness. But changbin could never ignore it. The heavy, cold air, and his frozen hands were only a sharp reminder to you, and California. Yes, while he was here, freezing in the streets of seoul, you were in the oh so beautiful california. Â When he only was thinking of the sunshine and the warm breeze there it was shaking him already. But not only the warmth of sunshine was missing for him. It was your warm hand in his. Your sunny, comforting presence next to him, that made every single day seem less cold. But what could he do? He couldnât just fly over to california, all his responsibilites were laying on him heavily, and with the comeback album and the upcoming tour he could never leave the boys alone. And even if heâd come, would it change something between you?
But he also couldnât convince you to come back. Not right now. You hated the cold. And probably him too right now. He didnât even want to think of your last words before you flew off to your beloved hometown L.A.. It didnât matter now anyway. What mattered was that you left him, here alone on seouls street in the sharp cold. Without you there to warm him, and giggle about how he would blow warm air into his hands he slowly began to despise the cold just as much as you did.
But all he could do about it was to wait. To wait and hope you would come back. Maybe in spring, when it was getting warmer again. Maybe in summer, or maybe just anytime soon. He never entirely understood why you left. When you announced you would, he was apologizing a thousand times, not even knowing what for. He was making even more time for you, if that was somehow possible, since all his free time was already yours. Could he have done more? He didnât know. And maybe he never would. All you said was that you âneeded spaceâ, right after you complained to him about how he was not giving you enough attention. After that, he knew that all that were just excuses for you to leave, altough never entirely admitting it to himself. He didnât know if space was for you to stay away for a few days or weeks, or just your way of breaking up with him.
The cold was getting suffocating, and it felt as if it only added to his heavy, anxious thoughts. There was a little church by the sidewalk. He didnât think much into it and just went in, hoping the cold would be less intese in there.
He got down to his knees pretending to pray. It just didnât feel right to use the church only to clear his thoughts or make the cold go away. Especially when a preacher was standing in the front oft he church, a few people listening.
But now, without the walking it only got colder. Until now, Changbin still tried to talk your actions and words good, to somehow romanticize everything, but now, as the  cold seeped not only into his bones, also into his mind, he started to see clear. Your words were an excuse to leave. And nothing more. An excuse to maybe come back, or maybe not. It was all in your own hands, and options were open for you, since you could do your job from everywhere too, and your family would surely like if youâd stay in california. But deep inside he probably knew you werenât gonna come back. And somewhere in him, he promised himself to let you go, to not wait for you forever, with no idea if youâd come back or not.
But in this moment, he could feel the cold stone under his knees, hear the wind howl around the walls of the little church, and smell the cold autumn. In this moment, all he could do was dream of california, of you. If he was there with you right now, he would be way warmer for sure. But this wasnât going to happen. And sooner or later he had to accept that. He had to stop with the california dreamin somedayâŚ
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