#posting. not interested in debate btw im just thinking !!!!

[eeunwoo]

dylan mulvaney’s new interview actually fucked me up like that’s like my entire existence on this webbed site

[keibea]

lepacy update ~ part one

this is a long one, you've been warned.

hello friends! i am back (well ive been back for a while now but ive been debating whether or not to post this but i finally got the guts!) so i am doing the lepacy challenge originally by simpishly mixed in with the completionist challenge on modthesims. i will be writing a little about what has happened in my game for those that are curious in a series of posts, starting with this one. this is the world adventures gen btw (i will showcase all i've completed after ive introduced the family and stuff and what has happened, i am now up to gen 2 ambitions).

this family started with rory sawyer who is now (and has been for months lol) rory moretti! this is particularly funny to me because my fave family of all time is the moretti's (not related to rory in any way, they got lost to the sims void a long time ago rip) so this was a funny/happy coincidence. she married pepe moretti (who is a townie in monte vista, where they live). and pepe tsk tsk let me tell you about pepe...

so they were in a relationship when i got rory to ask pepe on another date (it had been a few sim days now since they got together) and to my UTTER SHOCK rory has the reaction of betrayed and goes up to break up with pepe. IM SORRY? i had found the perfect (or so i thought) man who was RICH and HANDSOME AND HE'S A CHEATER? this game hates me. but me, unwilling to let go, was torn because again (rich and handsome) and bro everyone else in this town is in a relationship with children where am i going to find someone else in the short amount of time before she ages up into an adult?? so i moved them in together to see who it was and what id be dealing with. turns out he cheated on my rory with not ONE BUT TWO WOMEN! at this point i am just shocked, and my game clearly felt it because it crashed because i was doing all this messing around. clearly rory deserved better than this. so i loaded up a previous save, thinking that she'd get the betrayed thing again but she didn't?? so i was like, okay, in this universe maybe he's not a cheater?

so they get married and it turns out he still had romantic interests with these other two women, the game just never told me. but they were married and i couldnt be bothered. so i made him enemies with these two women and WE'RE PRETENDING HE BROKE UP WITH THEM BEFORE HE GOT WITH RORY, OKAY? OKAY.

anyway, they are now happily married with a son, whom ill talk about in the next post. if you read up to here, you're a real one, love u queen.

[shoji-nj]

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Hii! I wanted to show you guys some concept art of Shoji! Some ideas I had back like 3 years I’d say. I do wanna explain throughly what I had planned for him- well it was her back then lol. So if you don’t mind me rambling I will be begin.

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Shoji’s concept is actually similar as to who they are kinda in a few ways. They do follow the same path of being an idol/ singer lol. However Beta Shoji was meant to be an idol in disguise, following their pursuit as they made friends with Mk’s gang. Since I did wanna follow the idea that they’d switch disguise/ looks. While OG Shoji follows the idea of being an idol/ singer in search for their ‘father’ (its still a work in progress for that..I do kinda wanna follow the same idea aa BETA but I’d feel its too confusing..)

Another thing, BETA Shoji love interest was actually REDSON, wanting to make the trope childhood friends. However OG Shoji interests is actually Mk, I am gonna be messing around with Redson and Mk since I have something planned out that will make sense in OG’s Shoji backstory and lore lol :3

BETA Shoji’s father biologically was meant to be an ancestor that followed the journey to the WEST, like a love interest to Sun Wukong. In simple terms, BETA Shoji’s father was like a reincarnation of someone Wukong had traveled with. I scrapped the idea since it didn’t work with my current story.

BETA Shoji had a connection with Macaque- I wont spoil much since that part will actually apply to OG Shoji’s story lol- but do know to extra Monkies will be added to OG’S Shoji current story and will make sense. Do know that Macaque does play a fatherly role, I do wanna make sure it does play right- since well…OKAY IT WILL ALL MAKE SENSE ONE DAYYY , ONE DAY WHEN I DO POST THE BACKSTORY TO SHOJIII!

BETA Shoji is a girl lol while OG Shoji is a guy. I did mess around the idea of the genders for Shoji but I did stick with male lol

BTW BETA Shoji had actually been chosen as a child to be like a prophecy kind of tale- but it was scrapped since it just look weird on my side. But instead now OG Shoji’s story does use a certain GOD thats drives their story. I haven’t revealed that yet but I will soon lol :D

Lastly Beta Shoji had a pet monkey! Like a shape-shift monkey. I do wanna follow that idea of OG Shoji having a pet monkey and knowing how the shape-shift would correlate and fit in with the story…just an idea Im either debating lol.

There is an extra image there btw if you can see- BETA Shoji crying looking as they are in pain. That IDEA is actually something I am debating to add since in the original image it shows as a kid buttt I do wanna add that to OG Shoji’s story but instead it wouldn’t happen as a kid lol- like I said its something debatable:3

If you managed to actually read this- man are you awesome! As well I did wanna actually create a fanfic for Shoji- I think it would be more easier to describe her story and everything that happens. Think of it like a season 6? LMAOO (I wish 😔)

If you are interested in me making an actual fanfic on it. Id be glad to actually make one! :D

[brokenmachinemusings]

hi!! i was looking through tianchen posts and i saw yours a long time ago about him having aspd... i was wondering about your thoughts on that more recently / if you have any other pd (or other disorder) hcs for the rest of the cast?? sorry if this is strange or random im just really excited to see someone interested in the same media as me who talks about this stuff, i find a lot of comfort in these kinds of things as someone considering and diagnosed with some stigmatized disorders

hi!!! thank you so much for the ask :-) so glad to see more mentally ill link click fans!!! (not saying mentally ill in a bad way btw, just that we are as an objective truth) i do have more hcs but due to dissociative amnesia i tend to forget them! plus i have to rewatch link click haha i’m long overdue

i know that i hc that lu guang has szpd and schizophrenia (as well as i’m a fan of him having ocd as well), cheng xiaoshi with bpd and dissociative identity disorder (my copium). a popular headcanon i see around is xia fei with npd but i don’t have quite enough of a grasp on his character yet🤔 (nor do i for liu xiao & vein). like i can definitely see slight hints but it’s like, ehhh, i need to know more. even though his pv tells a LOT about him

li tianxi i think has some kind of dissociative disorder as well… specifically headcanon her with depersonalization derealization disorder because i doubt she’s fully present in most circumstances, especially around the jobs. oh and the li twins (and shiguang) are all autistic to me though that’s off-topic

cheng xiaoshi and qiao ling share some kind of anxiety methinks as well… although anxiety is a much more “common” disorder i think they can get it. qiao ling can manage it through medication and routines, cheng xiaoshi is too disorganized to be able to do anything about it (also, generally speaking, i think his anxiety wouldn’t be medically noticed. nevermind all the other disorders)

anyway… time to explain the more interesting stuff. which will be under the cut, because this will get LONG.

cheng xiaoshi with bpd i think is kind of understandable. he has a huge fear of abandonment, he was also abandoned, he was reckless and impulsive as a child due to not getting the support he needed. he’s highly emotional, another trait among those with bpd and he can easily set himself into other people. despite that, nowadays he knows what he wants and he can focus very much on his tasks/goals. he is empathetic but there’s a distinction to be made — he’s empathetic because he’s in the bodies of other people, while someone like qiao ling is empathetic because she immediately notices them or their situation. not to say he isn’t empathetic outside of that, obviously.

anyway, how does this play into DID? well, see, first of all, we need to think of the root of what causes DID — severe and ongoing childhood trauma (it’s important to note this is in the child’s eyes and is different for everyone), typically between the ages of 3-10. this age is still scientifically debated, but we’ll use it for reference.

the sichuan earthquake in the show happened in may 2008 iirc — which would be cheng xiaoshi turning just about 8 himself. so, he was presumably somewhere 6-7 (or even younger) when his parents left him alone. simply that neglect can be enough for a child to dissociate into different states — especially with the bullying he was experiencing, i wouldn’t be surprised if it was so awful for him that his brain did start to dissociate.

but that’s not the only thing. he’s the most vastly depicted in different official arts, from the most happy-go-lucky guy to the most down in the deepest trenches man can imagine, specifically in that one recent cafe collab art where it was him & lu guang & liu xiao. if you want me to add any official art, let me know, i’ll reblog it under this post.

and by now, you might be thinking — doesn’t the possession play a big part in this as well? yes it does, it entirely does. to me, being able to enter different people’s bodies and feel what they feel so deeply is entirely DID coding. especially in correlation to the other characters — li tianchen’s possession is hollow, also indicative of his lack of empathy and even aspd if you’re willing to go that far. lu guang only peers into pictures — watching the events unfold, unable to do anything about them, even if it hurts him. li tianxi can see and feel thoughts & memories from far away, but not quite possess the same, she’s only there in relation. it doesn’t make her feel any less, though. cheng xiaoshi on the other hand, usually doesn’t know anything about the person, jumps straight in and turns into them. coupled with the usual disorientation before and after a dive, i think all of this is very indicative of him having DID. if you need more detail or have any questions though, let me know, i’m always happy to explain.

lu guang on the other hand… boy oh boy, where do we start.

actually, i never explicitly thought of lu guang with ocd — only as a passing thought pre-yingdu. now, recontextualizing AFTER yingdu gives a whole new perspective on this.

i’m not sure which to explain first, though. the schizophrenia is the most headcanon-y of mine, so i’ll just stop that there and say that i think it gets worse with each timeline and that his brain deteriorates in that way, which also causes him to get worse hallucinations/delusions each time and it all influences his decision making process. there, that’s done.

szpd i headcanon that it was more relevant in the first timeline. not that it still isn’t, it’s a personality disorder, probably untreated, but i think my way of seeing it is more “interesting” to say the least. while most of fandom goes “oh, they fell in love at first sight!!!” i actually think the opposite; i think that lu guang never wanted to be that close to cheng xiaoshi, that their meeting was all a coincidence and they kept finding each other. in the early days, lu guang didn’t want him anywhere close, explaining his aversion to contact early on, where he repeatedly pushes cheng xiaoshi away and is hesitant to be around him. also explains his lack of friends, methinks. not that he doesn’t care, he obviously cares, it’s simply that he can’t get attached very easily. by the end of the first timeline, i think that he realized that he actually loves cheng xiaoshi too deeply and that he feels like his only family is gone and he can’t live without him. which is, well, why he dives. complete with cheng xiaoshi’s dying wish! isn’t that lovely?

this all pairs into his ocd, i would say. he’s so careful about keeping each timeline the same — trying to act as his previous self, trying to keep the timeline in check. he’s under a lot of stress, and he thinks that if he fucks up once, it’s all over for sure. he doesn’t like unpredictable outcomes either. it’s why he has such an elaborate journal detailing every single thing — and i think it influences cheng xiaoshi’s dives too, when he leads him. it’s not just regular stress and worry, it’s the anxiety of messing up somewhere on top. that everything has to be right down to the minute and even the second. i would say that his habit to clean around is a way to keep his intrusive thoughts in check too, at least to some degree. could you imagine how much his brain cycles through? it would be bonkers.

i’m not sure if i ever made a post about li tianchen or not, but i still heavily hc li tianchen with aspd. he developed it as a kid, not just because of his mother dying — generally the way his father was acting towards her, the fact he had to protect tianxi and oversee all of this at the same time. he saw how cruel and unfair the world was from a young age. not to mention, the cunning liu xiao, who i still have to get into the brains for, instilled this mindset of “eat or be eaten” / “all or nothing” (specifically with “hunt or be hunted” and “are you a beast or a hunter? do you know the difference?”) that’s common within aspd minds. the fact that he had to solely take on the job of being li tianxi’s caretaker, be taken under qian jin’s wing and detach himself from anyone around in order to simply provide, all led to his developing aspd i think. “anyone against me or my sister” meant an enemy. it’s to supply themselves, really. to survive. and that’s what’s important, isn’t it? no matter the method. he doesn’t exactly have a grasp on right or wrong, either. i still find the scene where he gets angry at cheng xiaoshi for “not doing anything because it’s all the same” so heartbreaking and pretty much summarizing of his character. he doesn’t know what others go through, because it doesn’t concern him and doesn’t help them survive. which is why i find his whole story to be so tragic. he has to let go of his sister and his past, and somehow move on with nothing left in his life any more. that said, i hope they don’t butcher his character too much in the upcoming season. but link click very much delves deep into the psyche of their characters, i wouldn’t be surprised if director haolin researched psychology and mental health deeply before writing any of them. it’s also what's one of the strong suits of link click, and i hope we see more of it.

i hope you enjoyed this rant or analysis or whatever. if you have any further questions or want to add something let me know!!! i had lots of fun writing this :-)

[mcytshipsandmore]

I was debating if i should post this on my main or idk send it here, but yeah no the demons lost and I'll just send here yk yk. Something interesting about team pe [ pentar and ecorridor on lifesteal season 6 ], is that they clearly care about each other however they are WILLING to lie to keep the other safe, or walk on eggshells so that the team won't fall apart, they won't fall apart. with Pentar hiding hearts from E, telling Flame to remove the part where he got himself killed, when E logged off Pentar goes back to hunting people for hearts [ what a freakazoid btw/pos ] and Ecorridor lying to Pentar about dying and probably much more because ecor doesn't stream much idk [ E release a ls video or stream and MY LIFE IS YOURS ] ... It's just so interesting because Pentar goes through extreme lengths to hide the fact that he kills and dies for Ecor, and for what? to keep E naïve? Is it for Gratification? It's quite selfish and hypocritical to keep someone in the dark so that they don't experience the bloodshed that you've been doing to other people among other things. then E finds about this he's like.... understanding? And is thankful for what pentar did for him?

"did you really think that I would think less of you if I knew all of that stuff?" <- actual ecor quote btw, what a crazy world.

they then promise to each other, that they would no longer keeps secrets but here we are with E hiding the fact that he already died [ and im betting 100 bucks that Pentar will continue lying ], so is the promise already broken? Is it even a promise by that point?

they're so supportive of each other but not open at all, so selfish and selfless. The things they do for each other like sdhiasldhusfef waow i lauv characters that have issues. <3

I wonder how long they would keep lying until it all blows up on their faces, and in this essay I will explain on how TEAM PE BREAK UP IS STILL ON THE TABLE !!!!!!! anyways I would say more but this is already too long of an ask lmao. Anyways I'm groveling on the floor, I am surviving off a couple of team PE fanart, analysis, and like one really good Ecor Introspection fic #starving. Also whoever mod reads this, I hope you guys have a good day. I like team pe 👍

I will power through any length of ask for you guys 😤

I haven't watched Lifesteal (I may get around to it eventually) so I dont know enough about these two to give a good comment about the ship, but from what I can tell about them, these two would make for good angst

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[ashoss]

i wanna jump in on the bat x pjo au! (absolutely obsessed with it btw… the jason and cass being kids of nemesis……… galaxy brain)

(and forgive me if youve already said in a prev maybe)

but do any of the kids have additional demigod powers? like beyond the good at battle, understands greek, stronger than the average bear etc but like how percy can create hurricanes :)

i might have gone over some of their powers in separate posts but ive never really gone into depth on any of them :)

i don’t really want to give them super strong powers (like nothing on the level as the Seven lol). i think them having small sway over things would be best. (btw im going through each cabin's abilities on the pjo wiki :D)

dick as a child of hermes has a bit of increased speed, im not sure how much though lol. definitely stealthier and can sense traps and different locks and stuff. hes probably also pretty persuasive.

babs- since she isn't a demigod but instead a blessed mortal is a bit different from all of them. @pooky-chan sent me a great ask about apollo and babs and her blessing which i thought was very yummy! so babs just finds it easier to find information and find connections between things a bit easier. as they put it apollo "greases the wheels".

jason and cass's powers would be similar to eachother, since theyre both nemesis kids. they both have tychokinesis (what ethan nakamura has on his wiki - so directly controlling "the likelihood of things good and bad things happening to individuals to even out supposed good luck and bad luck") they can sense when people want revenge/vengeance on something.

(theres actually not a lot to go based on for powers for the children of nemesis so im not all sure on it)

its mostly their legacy powers that stick out- cass as a hades legacy can sense death and can actually feel or see a soul leaving a body. she could probably talk to the dead but it causes a physical strain on her. while not as potent as nico's, she could faintly see someones life aura. she can also blend into the shadows easier. (she cant shadow travel or have actual control over the dead.) shes basically Nico Lite (tm) (i also like to think she unconsciously makes the temperature colder when shes around :))

and jason as an asclepius legacy would be able to tell at a glance if there is something medically wrong with someone and has pretty good medical knowledge. (basically jason is a godsend in the medbay). he does have healing powers, but he probably doesnt figure them out until after he's revived. i think it would be interesting if he could only heal other people and not himself :)))) (he also unconsciously heals people) ((also also to foil cass he probably makes the temperature a bit warmer. like how being healed feels warm :DD)

(tim im a little unsure on atm. hes def a child of aphrodite but i do also want to incorperate athena in there too. i dont know if i want him to be like,, 25% aphrodite or 25% athena - basically his parents were demigods- but im still debating a bit between that and child of Venus, as the roman equivalent of aphrodite has more warlike associations - i.e battle strategy... soooo) he has better emotional insight and can sense peoples emotions. he has a light form of charmspeak thats mostly more about sounding Intelligent more than actually influencing people (like an authority bias. people are more likely to listen to him because he sounds intelligent and he knows what he's talking about- ex: if tim were to suggest someone clean something up, they probably would because well, why else would he be suggesting it? he knows what needs to be done.) hes also pretty crafty and has some more strategic intelligence in addition to his bat training lol.

stephanie i think im set on being a child of Cardea (minor roman goddess of hinges). if thats the case, pooky-chan sent another ask where they went over how broad hinges really were. so steph could manipulate hinges and since so many different things contain hinges it could really be a pretty powerful ability.

however i do like child of veritas (roman goddess of truth). in this case she would basically be a human lie detector, and also people would probably feel the need to NOT lie to her.

damian i legit have no clue. hes the one i have the least ideas on lmao. because for him i would also have to go into the LoA and bruce's parents, and both i dont really have anything im set on yet :p. definitely something with magic from the al ghul side tho!

[hockeypuckk]

please read my intro!! :-) its not pretty i know just read it (a lot of this info isnt important; includes my strawpage)

tldr: im andy but with a ton of different names and i go by he/him. im autistic (and might have adhd) and i probably have social anxiety. i gatekeep wham!, love saving private ryan, and love music. i love learning about history. i love roblox games (g&b, regretevator, forsaken.) yap to me please. i have bad mental health right now i think

im gonna put this on the speaker in the store I GATEKEEP WHAM! THIS IS IMPORTANT INFORMATION!!!!! VERY IMPORTANT INFORMATION!!!!!

hi im andy (or missing-andy or klaus or barry?? apparently. or julie) but idrc what you call me. he/they in order of preference :-)

for specific periods of time (likely 11pm-3am) i will act strange and frenzied and nervous (probably.) give me time and i will be okay once i wake up again, this is just something i have been doing for around a week.

i will freely block and i am scared of anyone and everyone and i vague post and i spam like

dont be afraid to yap to me!!! please!!! i love yappers so much

if you’re another wham!/gm fan and i block you no hard feelings im just uncomfy. if you listen to wham! to try and get closer to me i won’t be happy and there is a (big) chance that i will block you

it’s a hit or miss whether or not i block you and you’re a wham!/gm fan (outside-1998 and older1996 you two are fine i ❤️ you guys)

do not message me about donations

guys i gatekeep wham! please read this please it is very important

most of my socials are whamaniac :3

discord is whamaniac (ask before adding please)

autistic (maybe adhd) + probably social anxiety (and i am very forgetful)

debater (entp)

soup enjoyer!!

avs lover stars HATER. number #1 jamie benn hater

interests include

WHAM!/gm

(^ i gatekeep wham! 😞…)

hockey

JFK/RFK

saving private ryan

dead kennedys

eltingville club…☹️

i love saving private ryan (reiben and wade are favs!!!!!! i love them a lot)

i also like roblox games…guts & blackpowder and regretevator are the ones that i will probably post/reblog the most but i also play forsaken

average jukebox the ghost fan

average men at work fan

average dean martin fan

average frank sinatra fan

average stopgap fan (out of the 2 people that like stopgap)

djo fan!!!!! i love djo i love the crux (amazing album listen to it NOW)

biggest wham! fan (this is not up for debate.) (I GATEKEEP WHAM! GUYS DID YOU KNOW THAT)

occasional roar fan

dead kennedys fan

average alex g fan

i’m the biggest wham! fan btw 😁 (over 13,200 minutes, top 100 listener) (I GATEKEEP THEM!!!!! DID YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!)

husband is @sayingsomethinstupid !!! ily my husband

btw if youre a. republican/trump supporter get OUT!!!!!!!! you are NOT welcome here.

strawpage…send me gimmicks please!

please give me drawing requests. (these will take forever to do because i draw whenever i feel like drawing)

(i will not draw nsfw get out of here you freak. if you send a hockey art req, i refuse to draw stars players 😁😁😁) *BESIDES MIKKO RANTANEN AND/OR ROBO

my tags are:

[kidspawn]

Not to be a weird stalker but you just posted about the majors you’re giving Adam and blue and I’m pretty sure those are majors you have looked into/cared about/are in. Unrelated I think the best writers break up pieces of their soul and make them talk. <3

NO OMG WAIT THANK YOU PFFFTDJDJEJDJ I can't hide anything from you atp im done trying ppfffttt. Yeah, I have a particular love of writing where you can tell the author is passionate about a particular topic, or has experience in some capacity of the work they're describing and I've always tried to integrate that to some degree. (Shoutout to that one Haikyuu!! fic that rewrote my brain chemistry bc you could tell the author had spent time in the food industry in how they were writing chef!Kuroo) (you also do it quite a bit and I really enjoy that element of your writing)

I wrote Adam as an architectural engineer because I'm studying architecture, (also every architecture major is a weird little control freak) and there is (in my drafts) a 2k rant about brutalism in architecture and how it sacrifices form for function and how this is the death of all creativity and historical preservation in architecture. (if form follows function has zero haters i am dead btw) and then I edited it the fuck down. I have a whole thing about Henry studying criminology, because I was supposed to be a juvenile delinquent therapist but never finished the degree for a variety of reasons, but it means I get to rant about racial disparity in crime reporting. Blue is an ecology major with a focus on research and hands-on field work because that's what I'm looking to do sometime down the line, and I can't help but force my hippie bullshit on her. (I'm getting this degree for her, actually.) Not to go on and on about myself but "write what you know" and put sprinkles of yourself in these story beats, because otherwise I'm writing about being an auction assistant at an Opera House and that was an exercise on humiliation I cannot repeat. There is a whole section on moral particularism because I got way too invested in philosophical debate this year.

(Ronan, my beloved, gets to spew all my cynicism on college and the methods upon which we're encouraged to monetize all our passions and interests and squash all originality and joy in the process. Inside me are two wolves.)

(random dorky snippets below that I haven't edited but hopefully make my point for me)

content I might cut? Who knows? still apprehensive on them, but im done with these two chapters and have to get my red pen out so these might not make it:

[4thenookie]

random hcs 3/??

do people even like these??

nina being the scene queen she is has racoon tails!! she bleached one into tobys hair one 3am, i havent decided how it went

liu drinks straight black tea but his coffee?? he might as well drink straight creamer

jeff has like..... patchy hair, like bald spots yk?? all that fire did a number on his hairline

puppeteer wants to play d&d but nobody wants to play with him

if someone pulls out cards against humanity i just know they all playin

guess who wins

guess

brian.

nobody expects him to find such filthy heinous shit funny but he does bc hes a tomfoolery enjoyer, a shenanigan causer if you will

BEN and toby both laugh at their own cards and then they're the most unfunny things ever

when people give tim an explicit card he has to turn away and take a deep breath before he reads them out in the most serious deadpan dad voice ever

you know the voice

and everyone finds this funny so they give him all their filthiest cards

brian giggles

nina can actually draw really well!! she does that emo art style the one that's all scribbly w the big eyes and skinny ass legs yk???

havent figured out who it is yet but somebody gives everybody piercings (who would this piercer be?? debate)

toby has quite a few because he can't feel the pain anyway,, im thinking snake bites, septum, lobes, helix, and maybe a tongue piercing??

jeff might as well make his entire ear one big earring at this point

if he took all his earrings out his ears would be riddled with holes lmao

nina has a couple ear piercings, as well as dolphin bites and a nose stud

BEN has piercings in his funny elf ears (which are very expressive btw!!)

ej has a stud in each ear (i think hed have pointy ears too! and they move like they prick up and droop and stuff!!)

speaking of ej... i think he also has really tiny horns, but he's so much taller than everyone else not many people actually notice them

also he doesn't wear shoes bc he has like demon feet idk

he has two fangs on the bottom that stick kind of out and up?? like you can see the points of them even when his mouth is closed

ok ill shut up about him now (i did a lil sketch of him a few posts ago if ur interested!!)

jeff and toby dumpster dive (the crust punk and his pet raccoon)

OK LAST EJ ONE FOR NOW.... he moves really slow to conserve energy, but when he runs jesus christ i pray for you

[rad10tower]

my experience with race ocd because I’d like for people to talk about it more and also I just need to write this down somewhere. also this is like the longest post to ever long post

i think my intrusive thoughts about being racist probably started with the fact that im white and also Latino. my parents immigrated from Latin America and i now live in the usa but im very pale. like i am paler than my American friends pale. everyone i meet thinks im American and i dont blame them

i was really insecure about it and felt like i was constantly inadequate and was constantly debating my identity. this goes back to the 3rd grade by the way

some people thought i had a seat in conversations about ethnicity other people thought no, that im white and I have no place in a conversation about race or ethnicity

and so every time there was a discussion about ethnicity i just ended up going “uhm im not going to join in because i might make people uncomfortable”

it was that uncertainty of “oh do i fit” or “oh do i not” that caused me to ruminate for years (and i still do) about if im Latino enough without ever taking into account nuance because so many people had discussions about what i am and never really reached a consensus

i ruminated a lot on how my feelings didn’t actually matter that much and i was just making a mountain out of a molehill, all because i was white and how i was definitely absolutely in the wrong, and also i had no right to be upset because my parents were never anxious about this this is just me

anyways hashtag shout out to white Latino people who don’t know what the fuck is going on

that was more identity based but this part is probably more relatable which is the “holy shit am i racist”

one time i had to write an essay about the contrast between how enslaved people viewed slave owners, and how slave owners viewed enslaved people

when i tell you it caused me so much grief to the point that i could not look it before turning it in because i was so anxious i am completely serious

i combed that thing through and through and reworded anything that sounded even slightly like i was diminishing the feelings of the enslaved people and over explained myself i think genuinely 3 different times.

i got a full score but this was the moment where i can identify the intrusive thoughts of me being racist.

when analyzing stories with people of color in it (specifically the film sinners. 10/10 btw totally watch it if u are able) because i found it interesting i got stuck ruminating that i only would have noticed certain symbols or metaphors because people who were more socially aware than me . also while watching the film I just go “hey you’re racist for being aware of their race.” And then like spiraling into a whole throughout the whole thing

Also ruminated that I was one of the people that i was overlooking the main cast just because they were black and instead focused on the white antagonist who was very racist and I worried that I wouldn’t have caught he was racist had other people not figured it out

This rumination about this film got so bad that video essays i used to enjoy about race and representation I couldn’t watch anymore. because it made me feel so sick with anxiety that i was a terrible person.

I also grew up in leftist spaces that were very puritan (currently unlearning that) and that left me constantly checking if I was somehow saying something racist with artwork I posted or if my post was racist and could lead to people cancelling me and saying I’m a terrible person (the post says “hi guys how’s your day going”) so double whammy

anyways. all this to say that if you’re dealing with race ocd I’m sure you’ve said this to yourself a billion times but logically you’re not racist. you’re not a terrible person and you’re trying your best . I’m still dealing with this and it’s not going away any time soon for me but just know that it’s not just you and we can work on this together you know. race ocd is hard and it seems like it ruins every interaction you have with people but it’ll work out because up until this point pretty much everything has

[azaharinflames]

unrelated to 911 haha but its kind of a shame the glee fandom still kinda sucks in places. the subreddit sometimes has nice discussions (which is why i'll sometimes lurk there lmao) but other times you look back and see someone go "i wish glee had been nicer to bisexuals" or "i wish glee had more positive bi rep" and there's always someone going "um you have brittany, i think thats enough, its unrealistic for there to be more queer characters" (always coming from someone who explicitly isnt bisexual btw) or even "its realistic for kurt to be biphobic because sometimes gay men are biphobic and ryan murphy was one of them" in response to "kinda wish the show had outright called kurt out instead of what came off as fully vindicating him." like... no one said it wasnt realistic, some of us just said "it'd be nice if the show didn't act like kurt was in the right." (doesn't help the fandom sometimes loves to woobify him waaaaay more than the show does :/ im not against angst but its always to put kurt on a pedestal waaaay above other characters and it always leaves a bad taste in my mouth.....)

Hi, Nonnie! I love to debate Glee, don't worry! i'm not just a 911 blog, I love to talk about my other fandoms as well haha

Yeah, hard agree. I still lurk on the subreddit from time to time, but oftentimes they have some horrendous talking points, like the ones you said. To be honest, I will always be mad at Kurt for his biphobic attitude (which he never apologised for). It would've been so nice to have more bi representation in the series, and it would've been interesting if Blaine had realised he was bi after kissing Rachel, too. But Glee was, to be quite honest, very biphobic at times.

Hard agree with Kurt as well. Perhaps I am not the best person to talk about him, because I do dislike him and he gets on my nerves more often than not (I am rewatching Glee right now to show it to my little cousin, who had never seen it as Glee premiered when she was one, lmao). My main issue with him is that they indeed put him in a pedestal all the time, even when he was wrong (the second half of season 5 comes to mind, that was rough let me tell you. One of my favorite fanfics I've written came directly out of my frustrations lmao).

Ngl the way they treat Kurt like almost this untouchable character that can do no wrong and someone that should not be criticised really took me out of the glee fandom :/. Every character has its flaws, let him have his and have him experience the consequences.

My inbox is open for ranting, venting, giving your opinion (unpopular or popular, I'm happy to receive and discuss both - and for more than 911, I'm open to whatever! ), and even confessions! However if you don't want yours posted, please make sure to say :)

Take care <3

[bolszaja-miedwedica]

it's been a challenge for me to understand why i should trust humanity. there's so much negativity from other people. everyday scrolling online i mostly see hate and people arguing, all the flaws of our nature. its hard to not be tired of that. it's hard to not see people as bad. especially since I'm very connected to nature and i mourn every little bug or every little plant that dies or gets killed. its to the point where i cut contact with a friend because they kept sending me pics of insects they were killing because "its on my property so it deserves to die". for a very long time i thought that humans are the plague of the planet and I'm of course not a saint. i was praying for the fauna and flora to get their revenge any day and i would be okay with being killed by a giant plant ngl /hj. but my god made me realize that I shouldn't hate humanity and that humans of course are flawed but theyre loving and caring and they're needed here. Yeshua told me he wants to help me with changing my opinion on humanity. of course at first i fought the idea. why should i change? i was met with so much hate and bullying and abuse in my life. but i started volounteering on a local anime con yk trying to socialize and mostly buy trinkets but! it was so fun! everyone was so nice! no one was hateful! so many nerds and geeks and so many different people at once! and me helping them? it was so fun and i felt so good in that role. last month i went to a meeting with all those people that were on the con and! i had so much fun! we were playing card games and i even did some tarot for! completely random people! and they were so excited! so many smiles and positivity! and so many good emotions! i felt energized! no one was homophobic! no one was shocked at my deep voice! no one made sexist remarks! they were normal young adults! their humour was different than mine but everyone was laughing because we felt comfortable! there were snacks! no politics talk! just fun and rpgs and making jokes and getting to know eachother! i felt energized and tired in a good way after that! when usually i feel drained after talking to people! it made me realize how humans are such nice creatures! we have our flaws but everyone has a story to them. everyone has hobbies, favourite food, color, everyone is similiar in their own way! it wasn't the humanity that's the problem it never was. i mean of course there are some bad people out there but internet makes it seem like everyone is bad and a nazi when in reality you just kinda need to seek a different community and just,,, chill...like genuinely...some things are not that deep. its like in this meme that people online are debating whether someone is valid for being a transmasc lesbian and people irl are like "hi how you doin". yeah so uhh its my opinion and it helps me to just think that its not that deep. this post is for me btw like obviously because my blog is my diary but its basically for me its my congratulation post that i want to put out there to remind myself always whenever i get too angry at online comments that its just better to touch grass for mental health and go play some board games instead of arguing with stupid people. so yeah. im nor gonna tag this because yeah bur if you read to this point basically hi yeshua helped me not hate people by making me hangout with some interesting creatures :]

[bigirlbased]

fallowl au rambles again!!!!!!!!

so i thought i would yap about the fallowl au again cause theres some little things i thought of and i think are neat btw some little things before the yapping begins if anyone wants to make art or anything of this they are allowed just tag me in it (if you have your own fallout X owl house au you dont have to give me credit or anything though i dont own the idea, just if its based on mine specifically tag me) also im still debateing if i wanna make this a fic, im not the best writer but i have some experience (mainly oc rps with friends and such) so i think it would still be a alright story anyways on with the yapping ive mentioned gus and willow in previous post but i think ill expand on them here. As stated previously they are both residents of freeside (the poor crime ridden outskirts of the new vegas strip) and they both retain there cannon personalitys mostly.

willow was adopted by her two dads at a very young age and grew up not in freeside for the first few years of her life before her family moved there thinking it would be a fresh start, shes been living there for a while and has developed interest in gardening and plants in general, she also used to be friends with amity blight who would sneak into freeside with her siblings for an adventure but they one day stopped coming. Shes best friends with gus and works for the followers of the apocalypse with her dads.

Gus was born and raised in freeside, his dad is an amature reporter that makes news papers for the people of freeside and host his own radio show. Gus is best freinds with willow and likes to explore ruined buildings and other things. See gus has developed a fascination with pre war America, wanting to know everything about how people lived before the bombs fell, however he just kinda goes off gueses so he isnt always the most accurate with his assumptions Willow and Gus go on adventures around freeside and are a well established part of the comunity, everyone is pretty chill with them. what?! a short post from biboibased?! yeah i kept this one pretty consise, i was gonna go into more detail on luz king and eda but im gonna do that in a separate post

[toxycodone]

i just wanna tell you. thank you, THANK YOU for being KINKY and WEIRD and KIND!!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is so good to have a safe space where we are free of judgement and able to go crazy with other people. bonding over shared interests will NEVER GET OLD!!!!!!!!! i love non judgemental people who just own their weirdness. the best people out there

your posts about human psychology and kinks/fetishes really opened my eyes. about how kinks =/= morality. because i get so scared and caught up in thinking that i’m a bad person for thoughts i have. its nice to have this reassurance that im normal and just human.

you’re a cool person

anyways, sorry this is getting long. can i be a cookie 🍪 anon??

If I can share the best thing my psychiatrist told me: If you were a genuine menace to society you wouldn’t be thinking about how your actions could affect others.

like irl pedos/SAers/etc. don’t go “hmmm am I hurting someone with this action? Does this action make me a pedo/SAer/etc?” Nor do they debate the implications or consequences of their actions!! you’re not hurting anyone by talking about fictional weirdness

I even hate that people on here even like equate discussing taboo topics as like. Enjoying them in a hypothetical sense because hell nah. Do I like fictional incest? Hell yeah. Hypothetically am I going to fuck by brother? Hell no. It’s not even something that crosses my mind. Like. UGH. Completely fictional discussion of taboos ≠ anything in relation to it irl

BUT YEAH. You are fine. Your brain is a biological supercomputer composed of wires made from FLESH and it glitches. And in that case sometime feet turn you on. Or getting your cock stepped on. Or something weird like that. But you’re fine. you are literally just some guy.

My blog will always be a safe space for stuff like this idc how taboo it is. My only boundary is that if you are starting to debate condoning this irl to PLEASE seek professional help I WILL POST RESOURCES IF NEEDED.

^btw like. I don’t count roleplaying with people as “condoning stuff irl”. Like whatever you do with another consenting being is 100% okay go crazy and eat each other for all I care

(also cookie anon is such a cute name i love cookies sm)

[rin-and-jade]

This question touches upon the notion of “traumagenic” and “endogenic”; as well as The Theory of Structural Dissociation. The Theory of Structural Dissociation seemingly supports endogenics as it states that there are “natural born” systems. They would be “endogenic” because they're not born from trauma, (as those who are “traumagenic” are).

I recently had a discussion with someone in a yt comment section about those two terms and they pointed me to you, so I just want to see what you think.

I believe in endogenic systems; because why would a book (the DSM) made by those who don't even experience plurality determine whether something exists or not? And as systems, those who are heavily categorized and misunderstood or looked down upon because they don't fit the singlet category, I feel as though we should embrace different forms of neurodiversity.

My questions are: what is the real line between "traumagenic" and "endogenic"? Are systems who were born as a system and weren't exasperated by trauma (like an endo) any less valid or real than those who were exasperated by trauma (traumagenic)? Or because of that theory, if that's how all systems work, aren't all systems "endogenic"?

Before reading: Long post. This purpose is to discuss and look at things in another pov, not intended to debate current beliefs/opinions. TLDR Provided. Last notes at bottom.

To clarify first, im in a neutral stance between the endo and traumagenic community as i focus more on the better of living for any kinds of plural people. Your question did seemed interesting and i had ever discussed this by myself on free time, so i do got some answers for you!

The line between these two are its origin and functionality, to put it in my opinion. The unique thing about plurality is that, i can totally see it being possible that it can exist outside of trauma.

Well, let me explain it to you like this:

An intact personality is where multiple facets are cohesive, and these facets that gives you that said personality is your identity. It's how you see yourself, and act like who you know. Basically, it's how you can act differently in different situations be it at school, at home, at somewhere else etc.

The thing about where personality is located in our brain has been a complex topic for scientists, if i remember correctly, there wasn't a specific spot for it as our brain has multiple areas with different functionality, and these regions cooperating creates a tangible output like how you react, or your typical behaviors.

I kept finding singlets discussing things that looks like really mild system things, and especially from this one youtube video (im so sorry i couldn't provide the link, it has been months ago i had watched but it discussing this too by a doctor or something. lmk if i have to find it again) quotes that the brain fools us into thinking theres only one 'kind' of us, not by it's exact words but close. These people can have different levels in terms of sense of personality unity btw, so not all singlets are the same either.

Now the origin and functionality for a traumagenic is different, because these states are being separated, and compartmentalized due to trauma. The presence of amnesia blocks the other side's of selves sometimes to severe degrees, now acting independently. There is also proof that the grey matter and the communication between regions are different, compared to a healthy brain (i can find the links for this too if needed). Well, you could read more about DID if needed.

So no, neither are less valid, but that doesn't mean both works the same or have the same processes either. Which means, not all systems are endogenic by origins.

Lastly, this is from what i had learnt and connect the dots over many sources i had read to ensure a wide perspective, nuanced understandings in topics. I am fully aware if some of you seem to disagree or see my views as wrong,, we have our own pov's ofcourse. i don't want to fight about validating my pov alright? Im also open to feedback/extra questions, im as well aware of the existence of fake/bad endos and do not support them.

TLDR: There are real life experiences and proof that supports the idea of being plural in mild/different ways, or ways that are different to traumagenics due to the complexity of the brain. Neither are the same in terms of how it functions and where it came from. Neither are also less valid.

- j

[normalaboutjungkook]

and since ppl interested in debating religion have found me i will post my draft abt christianity

i used to argue that the bible isnt homophobic but after i actually read (half of) it once, it definitely is (btw im no longer christian). but i dont care what that book has to say tbh. and ngl i should at least tell my mom that im not christian anymore and explain that it doesnt make sense for god to be both all powerful & good (maybe the next chance I get I will). one simple reason is the existence of satan. and i used to even do apologetics but there is really no explanation for this one. if he is all powerful then he isnt good because bro couldve easily prevented the existence of satan and evil in the world. could he not predict what would happen in the garden of eden? im sure he could see how letting satan in would needlessly put the human race through hell (literally). why create pain if u truly loved your creations? some christians argue that it could just be the fact that joy means nothing without pain, but why does it have to be that way? he is all powerful and can make anything happen, right? so why cant he make joy be meaningful without the existence of pain? instead it seems he wants people to suffer and prove their worth to him in a way that not everyone will even be able to find out about. a fucking book? word of mouth? what about the billions of people who never find out about jesus… do they just go to hell when they never even get the chance to know about him to accept him? what about the people who dont even have the mental capacity (due to disability) to even reject or accept him… they go to hell too for a having a disability that prevented them from accepting him… a disability god “GAVE” them? also non-human life suffers a lot too because of evil in this world & apparently god cares about them too but not enough to grant them chance for salvation because… theyre not human. ok that totally adds up 🤔.  also if we do get salvation by “simply” accepting him as god pls explain why people would actually need to follow any rule in the bible without quoting smth like “salvation by faith without works is dead” because that is contradictory and you know it

or maybe god is good but not all powerful (cuz both concepts cant logically coexist). so let’s just say maybe he couldnt change any of these things. then why are we praying to someone who seems to be a mere spectator and cant do anything to help us anyway? a few good coincidences dont change the fact he’s letting “demons” terrorize poeple every damn second. im not gonna believe in god just because everyone else in my life does and it would make my life less complicated to just fall into place with everyone else. because for example if u were raised by ppl who believed in hindu gods you would likely end up believing in them at some point. christianity is not any more valid than any other religion. also if god’s word is as clear & perfect as people pretend it is why are there so many disputes over even small things such as whether or not women can wear pants or not. thats why there are so many different branches. there is just no clear way to interpret the bible (it's also full of contradictions) and as a result there are multiple oddly specific disagreements leading to new churches. for instance anglicanism actually came from a disagreement about divorce in the bible. there are also huge disagreements about how SALVATION works. some of the things i said about who gets chosen to get into heaven or hell are not even entirely agreed upon. do u see how fucked up and confusing that is. nuance is important but some christians like to just ignore it because they like to think sky daddy is protecting them & all their suffering is for a reason. also there are religions that have been around since from before Christianity.

When I tried reading the Bible from start to finish on my own (not solely reading psalms or any of the “cute” stuff) I realized how disturbing a lot of the stories are. They are very grotesque and so are the punishments. But that one story of a woman getting viciously raped to death then her body being dismembered and shown throughout the community was just genuinely unsettling and served no purpose, old testament or not. Also, despite Exodus, there are verses that condone slavery or give guidelines for slavery. which is what slave masters would use on us black people and then try to indoctrinate us into christianity. do u ever wonder why christianity is so big in the black community? it comes from colonialism. and then the same white people that put this stuff onto us are starting to realize how it doesnt entirely add up. leaving our communities on our own with this mass delusion

and then my mom always tells me “dont let other people influence u out of religion” but why? how are you the only valid influence? do u really think that highly of ur own opinion…

anyways it makes more fucking sense to worship JK at this rate. at least JK isnt gonna send all ur pet cats to sheol for an eternity. I hope Christians can someday find a different way cope with the fact all their suffering is meaningless. including small suffering like a papercut (which is already inherently meaningless). there are ways to cope with existence that doesn't involve justifying everything in a bigoted & outdated fantasy book