#plus the other blog has not sparked joy

[playbarbies]

gonna move my hatchetfield muses over here methinks

[mimble-sparklepudding]

Highlight a FFXIV blog that deserves more recognition by a wider audience.

Highlight a FFXIV blogger who is always a joy to interact or RP with.

Highlight a FFXIV blog with some impressive gposes or screenshots.

An example of a FFXIV blog that definitely deserves more recognition would be @lunarcupcake.

Honeybun is a character I'm always delighted to see on my dash and I am really enjoying seeing her adventures in Tural. With some great screenshots and gposes, this is a blog that deserves more attention. Plus @lunarcupcake is always very nice and supportive to others (including me!) and sometimes posts seaside pictures with ice creams!

2. Well I've already given one example of a FFXIV blogger with whom interacting sparks joy, but there are plenty more. One example being @umbralaether who I have been following for almost as long as I've been on Tumblr.

Not only is their blog replete with excellent writing and beautiful screenshots (the graphical upgrade has made Eisha even more stunning I feel), but @umbralaether has never been anything but kind and encouraging, even when things in their own life have been tricky.

3. There are so many blogs with impressive gposes and screenshots that it feels almost impossible to choose one, but having made the game, it would be a very poor show if I didn't stick to the rules. So I will choose @furys-mercy as an example of a FFXIV blog with excellent gposes and screenshots.

I mean I can't even begin to imagine how you go about creating a picture like this.

The blog includes dynamic gposes, emotional gposes, atmospheric gposes and even (ahem) really rather sexy gposes. @furys-mercy could easily fit into any number of potential FFXIV blog suggestions - they are a joy to interact with, they have an unreasonably attractive OC, their responses to ask games are always really interesting - but when I consider blogs with absolutely astounding gposes then I immediately think of @furys-mercy...

[teastainedprose]

Intro / Master List

I made a place to shake out all of the writing blurbs free instead of leaving them to rot in my e-mail drafts. Fics, drabbles, nonsense musings, headcanons and whatever else falls out will go here. Side blog to @tearueful

I am here to WRITE because creativity DEMANDS it, and this is low enough energy that chronic pain can't steal it from me. Unless it has an A03 mirror link, the writing is RAW and probably full of errors. Real fuck it, we'll do it live hours.

I loveloveLOVE interactions on my posts and in my ask box. PLEASE add replies, reblog with your comments and/or and go HOG WILD in the tags. IT FEEDS MEEEE and further fuels my inspiration.

🔞 18+ content. I say fuck. I will write smut. The situations will be adult in nature more often than not. There will be problematic content as my favs are problematic.

The ask box is open and I encourage sending requests, inspiration, or just chatter.

Feel free to send ask requests on or off anon.

Current brain worms are focused on Homelander of The Boys with a mild Fallout invasion.

Archive of Our Own Link

Prompt Requests / Fandoms / Tags / Master List of Writing

I have no issues with prompts that are open ended with what characters are involved or ones that specify. Within the fandoms that have captivated my brain, I'm up for writing any relationship romantic, sexual, or platonic and x reader writings are ones I'll happily engage in.

Sending something in is no guarantee I'll write for said prompt or when I'll get to it. My mind is fickle and sometimes a prompt grabs me by the throat, or I let it simmer for a hot minute. That or I'll simply delete it if it doesn't spark joy.

I've been writing and RPing for a very long time, but only recently delved into anything canon adjacent and then writing actual fanfics for it. Thus what fandoms I'll write for are currently limited to things I've been hype fixated on or am currently fixated on. Obviously, the main one right now is Homelander. He's my poor lil meow meow, but I will happily slip back into writing OCs from my years of RP or other characters in fandoms I adore.

Fandoms I'll write for:

The Boys

Fallout, TV series

Wildstar (OCs)

World of Warcraft (OCs)

Given how long I've been writing for and what sort of dark stories I've written with friends, there's not much that I won't explore if it has an interesting concept that I can get a good story out of. Dark themes, kinky fuckery, violence, and sexual situations are all well and good. That being said, there's plenty of things that squick me out that I rather not touch but as I'm an adult I'll either delete the prompt or explain my thoughts on the prompt related to whatever character it is.

i.e., Homelander sure as shit has a lactation kink but pregnancy stuff is body horror to me. Can I write it? Possibly, it wholly depends on the prompt.

Writing

WIP List (Yes please ask about any you're interested in to motivate me 😭)

Fallout:

🔞Explosion (Lucy x Maximus)

🔞Too Sweet ( Cooper x Reader, WIP) : Chapter [1], Tag

🔞 Gash (Cooper x Reader)

🔞Take It As It Comes ( Pre-War!Cooper x Reader, WIP)

The Boys:

Fanfics

Play with Fire (Homelander x f!reader, plus sized, WIP) : Chapter [1] [2], [3] Tag

One Up (Homelander x f!Reader) : Chapter [1] , Tag

No Bad Dogs (Homelander x Kimiko??? besties!???!?!) : Concept stage, Tag

General Drabbles:

🔞Two Player Game (Homelander x f!reader)

🔞Lonely Together (Queen Maeve x Homelander)

Pinky Promise (Ryan Butcher & Homelander🥺)

Mark You Pretty (Homelander x reader)

🔞THC Gummies (Homelander x f!reader)

Introducing the 'wife' (Homelander x Billy Butcher)

Girl Dad (Homelander & Zoe)

Rainy Day (Homelander x reader)

Mix Tape (Homelander x reader)

Plushie (Homelander x reader)

Sugar Daddy (Homelander x reader)

🔞Making a Mess (Homelander x f!reader)

🔞Blackmail, Play With Fire side fic (Homelander x f!reader, plus-sized)

🔞Crusty.. (Homelander x reader)

Driving Lesson (Homelander & Ashley Barett)

🔞Over Eager (Homelander x f!reader)

Tampons (Homelander x f!reader)

Emoticons (Ryan Butcher & Homelander)

Flower Picking ( Homelander x reader)

🔞Office Tryst (Homelander x f!reader)

Breaking Point (Homelander x reader)

🔞Pet Play (Homelander x OC, WIP)

🔞Choke (Homelander x Reader, WIP)

Tags

General Tags

Drabble / Ask / Anon Ask / Fanfic Planning / Fanfic Chapter / Worldbuilding / Canon x You / Plus-Sized Reader / Brainstorming

The Boys

The Boys FanFic / The Boys Smut Homelander / Homelander Headcanon / Homelander x Reader / Homelander Writing / Homelander Smut Queen Maeve / Maeve Writing / Maeve Smut / Maeve x Homelander Kimiko / Kimiko Writing Frenchie / Frenchie Writing Ryan Butcher / Ryan Writing

Fallout

Fallout Fanfic / Fallout Smut Maximus / Lucy MacLean / VaultKnight / Cooper Howard / The Ghoul / Cooper Howard x Reader / The Ghoul x Reader

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[sunriseverse]

how do you overcome writer's block?

hi anon!! thank you so much for your ask! i actually have a lot of thoughts on this topic!!! disclaimer that ymmv and this is just what has worked for me—though i hope it helps other people! this also got rather long, so i'm sticking it beneath a readmore.

i should start by saying that i used to get horrendous writer's block—the type that, if i were the crying type, would have left me in tears of frustration. however, after over a decade of writing, and four-plus years of that being writing with intent and dedication, i've figured out some things that have basically eliminated writer's block for me (with the exception of mental health-related hiccoughs that i can't really control).

first of all, i like to identify what kind of writer's block i'm experiencing, because that will help me determine my plan of action. broadly speaking, at least for me, writer's block can be broken down into two distinct—though at times overlapping—categories: idea block and motivation block.

idea block is what happens when, for whatever reason, no matter how hard i try, i can't come up with concepts or plots, and trying to write is a frustrating slog where none of the words i put to paper seem to feel quite right—this is the type of block where there's nothing stopping me from writing, but actually doing so feels like a slog. i also call this "dry" writer's block, because it's more tolerable to me personally—there's a lot of things i can do to help break the block that work fairly reliably for me (i'll get to that in a minute).

motivation block is what happens when i just cannot find it in myself to write, no matter how much i want to. i may have dozens of fascinating concepts, but for some reason, i just can't sit down and write. if i try and force myself, i'll feel resentful and bitter and unhappy—and this can make the entire process of writing incredibly unpleasant, as i will keep getting distracted and feel frustrated with myself. i call this "wet" writer's block—it's much harder for me to deal with, and can be pretty damaging if i try and power through it.

the third type of writer's block isn't really it's own category—it's the overlap between motivation block and idea block. i won't belabour the point, but this one is generally not something i deal with, and when it has happened, it's the most tolerable—if i have neither motivation nor ideas, then i'm generally not too upset about not writing. still, this can be frustrating! it doesn't feel good to find yourself unable to do something that brings you joy or meaning.

now that i've defined the types of writer's block, let's get to how i actually deal with them.

idea block

usually speaking, this is the easiest for me to deal with! generally speaking, i take a step back and try and assess the situation. oftentimes, the reason i can't come up with any ideas is because i'm overwhelmed by the other things in my life. my first line of action in this case is to make a plan to reduce the stress i'm experiencing, and then, after that, go through the various things i've collected and see if any of that sparks anything—for example, i'll go through my poetry tag on my blog, check out some books from the library, and watch an episode or two of a show. all of these are things that i can take inspiration from concepts or emotional beats from, and, even better, they don't really require me to do much! i also have a folder in my notes app specifically dedicated to fanfic ideas—this is where i jot down one- or two-line summaries of a fanfic concept i've thought of when i am, say, in a lecture or at the grocery store, and am not able to write at the moment, but i want to remember and work on the concept later on, and looking through this will often help with idea block. obviously, a folder of fanfic ideas is something that takes a while to build up—it's not a solution if you don't have anything already in there, but the other things i've mentioned, like reading a new book or watching a show, are things that don't require prior planning.

motivation block

this one is, like i said, much harder. however, the cause for it is often pretty immediately clear if i take a step back—usually, it's because i don't have enough happening in my life. this often occurs during breaks or on days that i don't have a ton scheduled, and the free time i have winds up seeming daunting and unappealing rather than enticing. in the past, i've definitely been guilty of trying to brute force my way through this—but, for me, at least, this is a really bad idea! it can lead to burning out, which causes damage in the long run, and is really unpleasant in the short run. instead, what i've learnt to do is to try and put myself in a writing mindset. some tools that help with this, for me, are going back to my initial concept(s) for whatever i've been working on recently, and try and identify if i've accidentally intimidated myself out of working on them, or if the concept itself is something i just don't feel particularly enthused by at the moment. once i've done that, i like to make playlists and moodboards—these can be for characters, or concepts, or anything you want, really! they're a creative exercise that doesn't require quite as much effort as writing, and they can help you with your writing later on. another thing that i do is read through my old works—anything that i've published on ao3 is fair game, and doing this often helps me to become motivated again because i'll find something that i really enjoy and want to replicate, or turns of phrase i want to use again. i also try and see if there's something physical that's the issue—i can't count the number of times where i was feeling unmotivated, and realised that, oh, i hadn't eaten in ten hours, or i was dehydrated, or i hadn't taken my medications for the day. another thing that helps with motivation block, for me, is to do a modified rubber duck method—i'll explain my wip or concept to a friend, and oftentimes they'll have comments or enthusiasm that will help me become motivated again, because i always have an easier time doing something when i feel like there's a third party that i am "accountable" towards.

total block

this one i honestly don't have a lot of advice for. generally speaking, though, in my experience, it's a good signal that i need to take a step back and recuperate—maybe i overdid it with my last project emotionally, or maybe i'm just really busy in real life and don't have the energy necessary to dedicate towards writing. either way, pushing yourself isn't a good idea! like with motivation block, it can wind up burning you out, or, barring that, make you associate writing with feelings of discomfort—which isn't something you want, because you can accidentally condition yourself into an aversion. my best advice for this is to just...............slow down! make yourself a smoothie, or eat some fruit. go for a walk, pet a cat, or work on a physical hobby. consider giving a friend a call, or texting them. in general, do something that reminds you that life doesn't have to be hectic and stressful—eventually, you'll have rested enough that your mind will probably naturally begin making up concepts and generating enthusiasm.

that's about everything i can think of! i hope anon, or anyone else reading this, find it helpful—and if anyone has any more questions, please feel free to ask!

[paramouradrift]

Sorry for intuding on your blog but I have to tell you that your story has inspired me to try world building. I am hoping that it will get me out of a deep writing hole. That and it seems fun.

Got any tips for beginners?

This is honestly a topic I could go on and on about. Worldbuilding has been something of a hobby of mine since forever, and delving into the lore and history of interesting settings honestly can make my enjoyment of something so much better. So here are some tips and tricks you can use to help get started! TIP #1: don't be too ambitious. The purpose of worldbuilding is to serve the story you are trying to tell. Anything outside of that might be fun and interesting...but only to you. Adding in trivia from time to time is fine, however.

TIP #2: ask questions of your world! Your characters don't exist in a vacuum anymore: they live in a world, and that world has changed them. Where do they go to get their groceries? What's the current topic of discourse at the local tavern? What's the dominant religion in your protagonist's hometown, and what kinds of rituals or worship services do they have? Who's the president/prime minister/king, and how did they get elected? What fruits or vegetables are currently in season in this world? Asking questions like this is a way to organically build out from some characters and a plot to make the story feel believable, like it's about believable people in a lived-in place with compelling and relatable problems.

TIP #3: purposeful research. I draw a lot of inspiration from real-world things, and that means I spend a lot of time trawling wikipedia and google for things like: ship blueprints, engineering diagrams, historical Chinese pirates, popular names in foreign languages, etc. If I want to include something in my world, but I don't know much about the topic, then that's a perfect time to start learning. Since I'm using what I learn for fiction-writing purposes, I can be satisfied with a surface-level understanding on most uncontroversial topics. This does come with a caveat: if you want to tackle a controversial issue in your writing, it is your responsibility to understand that issue. I like this video by OSP about how to do research, but there's not one right way to do it.

TIP #4: DO YOU HAVE A MAP!? If you don't then why the fuck not!? I'm visual. Looking at maps is how I orient myself spatially, and it's how I organize information about my worlds. Maps are useful. Maps are important. Without maps, we are truly all lost. Plus! There are so many ways you can use maps in your story! In H&V, I use maps of the world of Avatar to help me plot out Zuko's travels and work out how long realistically those trips would take. There are so many resources out there for making maps, populating maps, and interpreting maps. You really don't have an excuse.

TIP #5: you're not alone. There are whole communities out there of writers, gamers, fans, nerds, and others who are passionate about fiction and worldbuilding. Engage with them! Talk to them about your story, or about your world! Listen to their advice and their critiques. Watch their videos or slide into their DMs. Join their discords. I like Hello Future Me for this kind of thing because he is a writer who worldbuilds and who has a lot of great advice for structuring stories and characters. I also like Artifexian for his systematic look at different worldbuilding topics. But there are so many others.

The most important thing I have to say is this: at the end of the day, writing should be fun or rewarding. It should spark joy. If you find yourself running into a wall or falling into a hole with your writing, that's a good sign that something isn't working. And if something isn't working, change it! I certainly did when I was looking down my early drafts of H&V. Change the world to suit your story, or change your story to better fit into the world you've made. You have the power!

[arsynnotarson]

The only reason why I ever don't send you asks is just that I don't know what to say. I'm always glad to talk to you. I think about you all the time. I'm always happy when I notice something in your posts that I could use to spark a conversation with you because I love talking to you and reading your responses. I actually save screenshots of them so I don't lose them among all your other posts. I mean, I guess that's what your tags are for, haha, but I guess I can't be too sure; it might come in handy in case I'd somehow otherwise lose them. I love talking to you. I don't really talk to anyone else. I just chit-chat with my system's host, and sometimes they send things to our friends on my behalf, but I can't bring myself to talk directly to anyone but you. Well, as "direct" as an anonymous ask is considered, haha. Sorry for rambling. I guess when I run out of things to say I sort of have to resort to talking about myself, haha. I hope you don't mind

ohh !! what a pleasure to get this wall of text (/gen ^^) apologies if my response is all over the place , im still adjusting from my napヾ(^-^；) !!

i am happy with any asks you send me , whenever they are and whatever they contain. the energy you put into whatever it is you give to me is energy ill enjoy.

oh ! i would have never expected that !! i know the people here are a little looney /pos , but i never would have expected one of them to be so close in my inbox yet so far in the vastness of wherever you frequent. all in all, though, ive always loved the idea of others saving things ive said, like texts, for example. i do that with my in-sys companions and their questionable statuses.

while it may not be the most hilarious picture, it made me giggle a little. i would have put an image of levi's, but he very curtly said "no" plus some more unsavory words when i asked if i could include it.

and who knows? maybe this blog could be no more one day. maybe youll be the sole harbourer of who i was outside of coining posts on the archive. kind of bittersweet, is it not? ·ᴗ· and they were all to you!

i get that one, ive seen it in my days as a host; is it new-system-nerves, just anxiety in general, or you plain dont know how to talk to others?

well, as a closing, i hope you joy the fact finishing this whole post has officially woken me up. your rambling is just fine , by the way, i entirely do not mind !! it adds character , in my eyes..

[honeykaes]

𝐂𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐨 𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐦 𝐕𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐈𝐕

warning: mention of cheating

𝐁𝐨𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐌𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫!𝐍𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐠𝐮𝐚𝐧𝐠

About Ningguang: You’re asking why one of the richest women in the world has this job? Well, I don’t think I can reveal all my secrets without an exchange now, not to mention it’s quite rude to ask in the open like this. Why don’t we plan a more private conversation later?

About Ningguang II: I love the finer things in life what can I say? I purely worked hard to get to my position in the world. Why do you think the press can’t get enough of me, haha!~

About Zhongli: Honestly, he doesn’t know half of actually running a company. I’m one of the main reason this company is profiting and staying afloat. He hired me to keep him in check after his last business sank after all.

About (Y/n): Ah! The talk of the town. I may have invited them to some tea in my chambers. …What’s that look for. It’s only tea and conversation…~

About Yelan: I truly appreciate her. She makes my job ten times easier. You’d be shocked about the information she digs up. One reason why Golden Celeste does so well is because, not only are we one of the best casinos in the world, other companies know not to mess with us unless they want a…challenge. Let’s keep it at that.

About Golden Celeste: I will admit I am tired of his name as the reason this casino and resort is doing so well. Zhongli needs to be careful. I sense an uprising brewing in the background. And if he isn’t lucky, someone might take away his favorite toy. Oh me? Haha, I’m just musing, don’t mind it.

About Xiao: That boy is an odd one. He actually was the one who assisted in my travels from China to Las Vegas. He’s quiet though. I wonder what would make him crack…?

𝐈𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫!𝐑𝐚𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐄𝐢

About Ei: Yes, I come here from time to time as we have invested a lot in the greenery and furnishing in this establishment. I don’t like my money being wasted so I like to check up on how things are doing every now and then. This city is a…bit much for me, I must admit.

About Ei II: Siblings? I actually have quite a few. I’m part of a triplet. My eldest sister passed on though so it’s just myself, Sho and our half-brother. Whose our half brother? I think that’s none of your business.

About Zhongli: Zhongli and I have been partners for a very long time. I was tempted to cut business ties after much of my money was wasted on his previous endeavor. My late sister convinced me to give him another chance and here we are. We are only allies for her, that’s it.

About Venti: Yes…I’ve known him a long time as well. The drunkard actually had his own company before he completely sold it off and did…whatever he does now. I prefer not talking to him much if I can help it.

About Scaramouche: …I’d prefer not to speak about him.

About (Y/n): They did catch my eye when I first walked in. Hmm…I wonder if they’re sick of the city. It might be a great introduction to show them around Tokyo, where I am regarded so highly. It’s cute how they interact without knowing just how powerful I am. I enjoy our relationship.

About Sparking Sakura: My company? Yes. The top earning in the Japanese Market and one of the greatest in the world. We have dealings mainly in East Asia; however, we are beginning to finally branch out more in the West.

About Yae Miko: An old friend. Do be careful with her. She’s as tricky as a fox.

𝐉𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭!𝐘𝐚𝐞 𝐌𝐢𝐤𝐨

About Yae Miko: Ah! You know of my blog! Yes, I’m quite a famous critic in the art and entertainment realm. My articles have a lot of sway. As annoying as it is, Golden Celeste is a joy to be at, so I always stay here whenever I need to come to Las Vegas

About Yae Miko II: Oh?~ I’m not here to write? Perhaps you’re right. I needed a break, plus, I heard something was quite interesting here.

About Ei: The workaholic. Since her eldest sister died, she has put everything into her work. I worry about her sometimes. She needs to get out more and live a little…

About Zhongli: To this day, I don’t understand how he was able to build this casino. I mean his credit is abysmal. I think he may have some connections with some rather shady people. I mean how else could he rebound so quickly from his bankrupt and scandal-filled company?

About Scaramouche: Ahh. Ei didn’t tell you? Figures. Yes, he is her half-brother. Her father went off and got some random woman pregnant from another company. They completely hide his birth in the country. I thought he went off to Russia or something. It’s interesting to see him here. Hehe…part of me wished I could see Ei’s face when she first realized he was here.

About Ayato: …I wouldn’t trust him if I were you. He shouldn’t even be here. I bet his trying to gather information for his own company. Do I not like him? We just have a…cat and mouse type of relationship.

About (Y/n):  Awww, just adorable. I can see why everyone is so enamored by them. Hehe…I can already think about the amusing scenarios we can put them through. I wonder how everyone would react hehe… 

About (Y/n) II: I will admit one thing, this is truly a game of chess for everyone. Who will be the winners, and who will be the losers…and who will cheat their way to victory? That’s for all of us to find out…and I for one am excited for the entertainment.

[kittehkwrites]

Cranky

Summary: Erik does not understand the importance of nap-time. 

Warnings: Fluff, dad!Erik, Soft!erik

Before your son was born you thought you��d be the mother of a momma’s boy or somethin... Boy were you wrong.

From in the womb, your baby boy would only calm down at the sound of his father’s timber voice.

“Aye lil man, yo momma’s tired right now and you doin all that kickin is keeping her up.” He’d say all serious but you couldn't help but smile at how he was acting and he followed on with “i’m gonna need you to bring it down a few notches” At that, your son would kick back at his father’s hand and the look on Erik’s face was too funny.

it had your stomach shaking and the little boy inside you pushing his hands and feet inside of you so that you could both feel and see his clear displeasure at being told to relax.

“Don’t get fresh lil boy.” You had to let a little ‘oop’ out when his voice got deeper and your thighs clenched up since it’s been a while. Ain’t his fault, the doctor just said to lay off it since the last time you guys went “a bit rough” and they didn’t want to chance an early birth.

The baby relaxed the same way you did when he used his authoritative tone.

“That’s right lil man.” He said after feeling the baby calm down at his command. He was smiling at you when he caught your eyes and you smiled back when he started to caress the bump caring your “future prince” as he’d always call him, since Erik stated he was the King and you’re his Queen so ‘lil man’ is the prince.

“Erik. You better make it up to him before he takes it out on me.”

“You lucky.” He said with a look like ‘what you think this is?’ But he saw your stern face and he remembered the nights of discomfort increasing since the baby was getting closer and he didn’t like you being in pain or uncomfortable during what was supposed to be a beautiful moment so he did what he could in hopes it’d pacify the baby for the night.

“Aye baby boy”- you always thought it was cute when he said that-” you know daddy loves you, right?” He pulled back from the close proximity to your stomach, waiting for the little hand or footprint to press against his large hand.

“Right?” He would look to you and you’d rub your underbelly to get the baby to respond to his now pouting father. You're convinced your baby inherited his attitude from, which would mean he’d be bratty from time to time because they can’t handle restrictions to their freedom.

“Come on baby boy. Daddy’s out here pouting”- He shoved you a bit and you just let out a bit of a scoff before continuing- “and momma can’t sleep with y’all fighting at each other” A little more rubbing and your little boy was pushing out his foot to meet the spot in which both you and your husbands hands were sat on your underbelly.

“I love you lil man. Can’t wait to meet you when you get here.” And with that, he’d put a little kiss on your belly before coming up to you, hands still on your stomach and fingers still brushing against the stretch marks that laid on the sides of your belly, and give you a soft kiss that gave you the same sparks as the first time you both kissed.

“I love you too baby.” He said before pecking your lips “don't forget it.” He said before turning off the bedside lamp and then laying behind you before letting sleep take over the both of you.

That was approximately 8 months ago.

The baby is now 6 months and your husband was a damn hog.

“Erik! Give me my baby!”

You and your husband have been playing an impromptu game of hide-and-seek with you son, Erik initiating the game after you wanted to put the baby down for a nap before heading to your parents house for family day.

“He’s mines too” He’d call out quickly before turning back to your son in his hands, continuing to make faces at the little boy and getting squeals of joy from the little body.

“Not for long you shit!” You huffed out as you started to make your way up the stairs, following the baby laughs. You were just tired and your husband wanted to annoy you, as you were convinced no man would keep the baby up for this long and not want to pass off their child to the mother. 

“He needs to sleep or else he’ll be cranky and I already have to deal with you! I don’t need to be dealing with the both of y’all at once, plus my family members coming up to me afraid to ask you what’s wrong or tell me how to raise my baby!” You continued, finally approaching the two bodies located in your husbands office. 

He gave you a look as he saw your slightly angered and annoyed expression, but he didn’t care. 

He had has lil man and his momma could stay mad, he thought.

“Babe. It’ll be alright. He don’t give no trouble, right lil man? Tell yo momma to go lay down before she pops a vessel.” He said in that ‘baby’ voice that annoyed the crap out of you but you couldn’t help but raise an eyebrow up at the nonsense spewing from your husbands mouth.

So you nodded your head, went over to the baby and checked his diaper before kissing him on the forehead and making your way out of the room.

He don’t even know.

Just as you said, so it happened.

You guys reached your family gathering and guess what happened within the first 20 minutes of greetings from aunts, uncles, grandparents and such?

If you guessed a cranky baby, then you were very right.

“Baby?” You ignored your husband who now had his signature stoic expression placed on his face, but it slowly formed into a confused scowl at the jerky limbs and loud hollering coming from the sleepy child who, may I remind you, ‘don’t give no trouble.’, according to your big headed husband.

“Baby? Your so-”

“-oh now he's my son? i thought you had that covered? Correct me if i'm wrong but didn't you say he didn't give any trouble?” You were making sure he’d hear the judgement in your voice at his foolish comments made earlier. 

“Yea bu-”

“-but nothin. Handle it before he ‘pops a vessel’” You said before seeing one of your favourite cousins and going to them, leaving your husband in a state of confusion while your son just wanted to sleep.

This went on for another 15 mins before your cousin and a couple other relatives came over and asked what erik did to the baby.

You simple said “He wouldn’t let me put the baby down for a nap.” which resulted in a few head shakes and inhales from the surrounding bodies, knowing that a nap could be the best thing for the baby and the parent.

“Girl go help that man. He probably over there trying to give the baby commands like some drill sergeant.”

“Don’t do my man like that” You couldn’t help but laugh at the way they all saw erik as this military man but to you he would always be your big softie, especially after the birth of your son. He just showed his love differently than others and you didn’t fault him for it. 

You waited another two minutes before gulping down the rest of the juice in your cup before heading to your husband and distressed baby.

“Alright papa. Momma’s hear. I know, i know. Daddy doesn’t have the magic touch huh? Maybe he’ll listen to me won't he? wont he? That’s right. Come on papa, nap time.” You said, taking him out the grasp of your husband after washing your hands in the kitchen sink and drying them off once you reached to the two inside. 

You checked his diaper and it was dry, probably changed before you got here since your husband probably thought he had a soiled diaper. You also saw the half empty bottle of milk in the baby bag near where you were seated on the couch and chalked it up to your husband attempting to silence the cries of the infant.

You had placed him on your legs once you got comfortable on the couch. Fingers running over his eyebrows, his cheeks, his nose and back up to his forehead and ears in the soothing motion. Within 5 minutes he was sleeping and your husband couldn’t be happier. 

“Baby”

“Yes mr know-it-all” You responded smartly, not taking your eyes off the small body in your lap.

“Don’t get smart now.” You had to refrain from clenching your thighs together and looked at your husband with challenging eyes.

You saw him deflate slightly once he remembered he was in the wrong. 

“I’ll listen next time.” You let out a little hum and turned back to your son in your lap. 

You just sat in awe at the life you created with the man next to you. You were so lost in thought that you didn’t realise your husband had grabbed your chin softly before turning your face to his, placing the sweetest, most gentle kiss on your lips that left you weak once he pulled back.

“I love you” He said. That glint in his deep eyes made you swoon like it had when you first met him at the black owned coffee shop near the outreach centre.

“I love you too” You said softly before smiling at the grin that broke out on his face after knowing you weren’t so mad with him. 

Hey y’all!

Hope your week started off alright and that you’ve enjoyed your weekend😊

This is the main account that i’ll be posting on in regards to my written work because i couldn’t interact as i wanted to on my side-blog.

But I won’t be deleting anything on that blog, im just moving over to this one.

Let me know what you thought of this soft imagine and who you’d like me to write for or just ask me anything😁

Remember to like, share and/or comment and be safe!

Love y’all and thanks for the support.

-K💜

[nctsjiho]

Love Letter

warnings: none

era: June 2021, during NCT Dream ‘Hot Sauce’ promotions

❀ An unexpected letter causes a commotion in the dressing room of the dreamies

“What’s that?” Haechan asked as soon as he entered the room. At least that was what Jisung thought, because he hadn’t paying attention at anything besides the item in his hands. The youngest’s head shot up to look at his older friend who, despite his question, didn’t seem too interested to know what the item was.

“A letter.” A scoff left the older boy’s lips as soon as he heard the answer. “I see that too Jisung, I’m not stupid.” Jisung’s eyes widened and his mouth formed a small “oh”. He however didn’t elaborate and continued scanning over the words written on the piece of paper.

Haechan eyed the other boys in the room slightly stunned at the lack of an explanation and in search of one. His eyes then locked with Chenle’s, who had the tiniest of smirks playing on his lips. “It’s a love letter from his favourite noona~” He answered with a teasing tone.

The ‘01 liner’s effort to make Jisung flustered was a definite success when Jisung jumped up from his seat, red creeping up his cheeks and ears and his hands waving defensively. “It’s not a love letter!” He then looked at Chenle. “Don’t say things like that!” The whole room – including the staff who were enjoying the little show – were all laughing and even though Haechan was enjoying seeing Jisung stumble over his words, his curiosity began to grow.

Once the laughter died down and the two youngest weren’t stuck in an intense stare battle, Haechan spoke up once again. “Who’s it from?” Jisung looked at Haechan again, who now pointed to the letter. “The letter, who’s it from.” With a sheepish smile Jisung answered. “JiHo noona.” The other boys, excluding Chenle and Jeno who already knew who the letter was from, speeded over to Jisung’s side, trying to look at the letter.

“Wow~ JiHo wrote you a letter? Why?! Why didn’t I get one?” Jaemin asked in a very animated way. “Did you get one?” Mark asked the two boys calmly sitting to the side. Both Jeno and Chenle shook their heads implying that the maknae was in fact the only one who had gotten a letter. Another scoff left Haechan’s lips and everyone looked at him. “Who sends letters these days anyway. You can just send a text through your phone.” He mumbled the last part. “Sounds like someone is jealous~” Jeno was now the one to tease and this time everyone joined in.

It now being his time to be defensive and deny any comment thrown his way, Haechan held up his hands. “Me? Jealous? Why would I be?” Mark stood up pulling Haechan to his side and ruffling his head with his free hand. “Do you want me to tell them how you tell Johnny hyung how much you miss JiHo every night- Ah-“ Mark held his arm where Haechan pinched him before turning away. “Firstly, I do not. And secondly, I don’t need a letter from JiHo, I can just text her whenever. She sends me messages all the time! You know we-“

Haechan stopped his blabbering as soon as the boys turned away from him uninterested and back to Jisung, wanting to know what was written in the letter. After a lot of coaxing – it was pretty much just Jaemin and Renjun whining – Jisung put up his hand indicating he was going to say something. The boys looked at him expectedly and he spoke. “It’s… It’s private.” A chorus of groans filled the room as he clutched the letter to his chest, away from Haechan’s grabby hands.

“Why won’t you show us?” Mark asked. The leader had tried to stay as mature as possible in the situation, but he couldn’t deny that the unanticipated letter along with the secret contents of it sparked his interest. “Because it’s embarrassing.” He mumbled, his cheeks and ears starting to turn red once again. “Why?” “It’s basically JiHo cheering me on and whishing us good luck with our promotions. But it’s just a bit embarrassing.”

The boys couldn’t help but melt when Jisung started to read the letter once again. His eyes sparkled with joy and he sported the proudest smile, feeling like the luckiest person alive to have a personalized hand-written letter from JiHo in his possession. “Cute!” Chenle cooed, reaching out to pinch one of Jisung’s red cheeks.

The group eventually went back to do their own things in each corner of the dressing room, but Jisung’s eyes stayed trained on the letter. “JiHo noona really has such pretty handwriting.” The young boy said in almost a gasp. “Can I see?” Jeno asked in a bit of a pleading tone. Jisung scanned the room and then scooted closer to Jeno. “Hyung, quickly okay?” Jeno nodded and Jisung then showed him the letter. The older one’s eyes scanned the letter, taking note of the pretty handwriting and little drawings and stickers decorating the rest of the letters. “Wow! Wow! Woowww! Why does Jeno get to see it and we can’t?” Haechan asked feeling offended and betrayed, Renjun quickly joining him. “Because I trust Jeno hyung to only look and not read.”

Realising that Jisung wasn’t going to show the letter to the other boys – at least not right now – the boys once again continued doing their own thing. “Haechan.” Mark called out with a chuckle. Haechan turned to the oldest and hummed in acknowledgment. “What are you doing?” Mark cocked a brow at him as he watched Haechan aggressively type on his pone. “I’m demanding a letter from JiHo.” “I thought you weren’t interested in letters.” Jaemin smiled teasingly. Haechan squinted his eyes at the same aged boy. “Shut up.”

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Side note: I’m back! I literally posted on Monday, yet it feels like I haven’t for so long lol (this is my first writing I think, where JiHo isn’t even there)

Lots of Dream content on this blog this month O.O also in general and OMG that DREAM-VERSE bonus chapter, ‘Life Is Still Going On’!!! The video already looked cool, but the song!? It’s so good! AS WELL AS HELLO FUTURE! That one minute performance was *chef’s kiss*

I thought the Hot Sauce album was already great, but now we get that PLUS these new songs which already sound amazing! I can’t wait to hear Bungee, but I have a feeling it’s going to be amazing as well.

[life-rewritten]

OMG!! I just found your blog through a WBL fan sharing your post about WBL on Instagram, and I am SOOOOO happy to see that you noticed and appreciate the tutor and fighter couple from Why R U series too. If possible, please write an analysis about this couple, about any specific aspect you deem as most important or just generally, whatever you are okay with. I love reading your analysis and the insights it gives me, and I just finished binge reading all of your writings on my favorite bl (1)

Hi wow mindblown by this comment Thank you so much for letting me know that my stuff is being shared I really appreciate that and I am so grateful that you took time of your day to come speak to me. I adore Fighter and Tutor, like they’re my favourite couple ever. What happened when why r u was airing was I wasn’t yet analysing BLs at that time otherwise I would have been writing essays and essays about them. Because it’s been so long since I went back to watch them I’m going to let you see some of my drafts on how I would have broken their relationship into pieces and analysed. Because they are incredible and I really always feel sad when people see them as just like a se*ual couple when there’s more to them than that.  So I will let you see the first drafts and my ideas on them through this  ask and I hope that's okay for now. Maybe after my other shows I will like go back and rewatch them and start analysing more about them. If I do I’d probably do a youtube video about them because they’re so good. 

Here’s some of the analysis for them that I wrote: 

The theme for these two is  the struggle with internalised homophobia and self-acceptance. They both had this obstacle in themselves as they fell for each other and tried hard to avoid and run away from what they felt.  It’s been a long journey for them being into each other since the first time they met but not really realising what they felt.  Fighter did but he went into extreme panic mode and tried to run away immediately he felt that. So he tried to stay by Tutor’s side through the teasing and bullying because Tutor made him feel great and happy always but then with pressure from his father and the path he was meant to take to keep on being seen as successful, he thought his feelings for Tutor were useless and wrong. Plus he didn’t know if it was reciprocated so that caused even more fear for him which is why he just stayed with teasing and finally kater in thinking Tutor likes Hwa he chose to pull her away from him by taking her attention but also he chose to keep what they have as enemies/haters that way and avoid being near Tutor. This is why they end up hating each other a lot by the beginning of Why R U which is like 3 years later or something after he chose to stay with Hwa. 

Tutor didn’t understand fully why he got angry, jealous and annoyed, he had an inclination from the first year that Fighter liked men and he was actually hopeful about it because deep down he had feelings of wanting to also flirt with Fighter, wanting to stay with Fighter even when annoyed him and bullied him. He liked Fighter’s softness at times and he liked the way he felt even though he didn’t understand why he was so rifled and affected by Fighter’s presence when no one else has been able to do that to him before. But he became upset when Fighter chose to date Hwahwa because it was his automatic issue with IH that of course Fighter doesn’t like him but he likes girls, so he got jealous and sad and proceeded to also dislike Fighter because he had this effect on him whilst still trying to date his best friend who had feelings for Fighter.

They both have had unknowingly pent up feelings for each other, so once Fighter breaks the barrier by their first kiss, they both go into extreme panic and they both could no longer pretend any more with what they have. Which is why the first episodes they both keep struggling to keep their attraction with each other quiet because its been 3 years since they wanted each other that way. Fighter has so much pent up attraction and needs to give into his feelings that each time they have a chance to break that barrier it’s intense and crazy. Both have been longing, pining secretly for each other since the beginning of the show. What happens next is for Fighter he has to choose to finally accept that he cares a lot, a lot , a lot about Tutor, he finally starts to learn more about this person he loves and he starts to want to protect and keep Tutor happy and by his side. When it comes to finally choosing to let go of Hwa and choose to fight for Tutor and start knowing if he feels the same way. It’s a leap of faith he takes when he breaks up with Hwa. He realises he’s the one stopping his wishes from happening with Tutor because he keeps being in denial about what they are because he’s scared it’s only him that’s gay and has feelings for the other.

It’s only after tutor sister tells him that he’s holding back his feelings does he realise that it’s time to talk about their unstable relationship and Fighter at that moment had also come to terms with his break up with Hwa after making out with tutor revealed the truth, that’s why on the rooftop they do a test that ultimately breaks their walls down and choose to give in to their feelings no matter how scared they are about it being reciprocated. When Tutor looks away and loses the game it’s a symbol to Fighter that he’s also been the same as him from the start. Tutor looks away sadly thinking he’s the one who has the feelings but Fighter just loses it and lets him know its equal which is why I love that scene so much because for so long both of them because of IH has been avoiding thinking the other had the same feelings for them when they both from the start have felt love for a long time. And from then they go on a journey to learn about what this means, if it’s real feelings and not just attraction hence their beach vacation which is essentially them asking if they could love each other and be in a real relationship, and if they can take on their obstacles around them. The beach solidifies for them their feelings so they choose each other for life hence the earring and necklace. But it’s fast paced how they feel because it’s just confirmation, now Tutor starts to realise that Fighter is actually different than he thought he was and he falls so fast, he now realises how much he loves Fighter and how much Fighter made him want to fight for his happiness and life. Tutor has not had hope for happiness and ease in his life, because he’s always had to fight to survive on his own. So when Fighter shows up like a prince charming and constantly is connected to saving him time and time again, it’s exactly him realising there’s someone who does represent that hope that he’d be fine. Hence why the final obstacle is Tutor regressing and starting to think because of IH and society that he and Fighter are just a pipe dream.

They go back to face the world only for Fighters father to bring back all the fear, internalised homophobia and obstacles they had. Fighter panics and thinks he was right; the reason why he never told Tutor his feelings was because he was afraid the other would break his heart (was not gay, did not have feelings for him, would make fun of him etc) so when Tutor breaks up with him he loses his mind after trying hard to let go. When he sees that actually Tutor is taunting him and is still flirting with a guy, not him, he proceeds drunk and upset to try and get back moments from the beach scene/ past make out scenes to keep that spark alive but realises Tutor is not okay this time and he’s the one forcing it. He also acted out because with them the truth comes out each time they’re physical with other romantically. It’s a kiss that caused them to finally tell each other how they felt. That’s always been the way they break their walls down.

It’s what causes him to break down and finally reveal the truth he’s loved Tutor since he met him, he’s just been afraid of all that’s happening even if it’s happening he still wants to be with Tutor. Tutor however breaks his heart even more so he backs off. Tutor on the other hand is broken and mentally exhausted back to depression, back to having to fake being strong and deal with the futility of hope and joy in his life as he’s always been used to. He gets seen by Fighter and doesn’t have it on him to fight him away, so decides to stay in an idealistic fantasy, tells him to hold him and breaks his walls down again. Tutor is always having to fake being strong because it’s how he survives so whenever Fighter enters his world his vulnerability scares him, that’s why his sister gives him the image of a cactus. He’s tough and sharp or pretends to be with his demeanour but actually he’s just a boy who wants to be happy and be safe and survive. So when Fighter shows up at his weakest moments, as he struggles to deal with his mental exhaustion and heart break, he gives in  because again Fighter represents to him that hope. He starts to waver and want to stay in that lie for a long time with Fighter. Hence when he wakes up and Fighter is gone he thinks its all over and he finally breaks down completely.

Only when Fighter goes he breaks down in anguish truly thinking he lost him. Fighter finally comes out to his dad and fights his views, And we end up back at the beach, a place which represented authenticity and truth for them, it’s their truest realest self, but it also was their escapism. So Fighter coming there and letting Tutor know there’s no more obstacles in their way makes them both finally equally start a stable relationship with no more fear or care about anything. These twos relationship is full of tension and they both feel the chemistry, like magnets their bodies are drawn together, every scene they’re in, it’s their love language physical touch not bl fan service. They just naturally want to be in contact with each other and also their pent up feelings leads to them constantly wanting to sleep together because of hormones and well because they enjoy their se*ual life, nothing bad about that it’s realistic for couples to be that horny, that needy and that touchy.

It’s people who don’t get the context of internalised homophobia and what being in the closet is like for people with this anxiety and self hate caused by how they think society views them and treats them if out, those are the people who think there was no plot. Every dialogue these two had, their flashbacks and their acting (eyes, facial gestures, touches) showed why Fighter liked teasing Tor, why he dated Hwa but never paid her attention, why we had the beach scenes, why the break up escalated, why Tutor gave in when ill, why the non/dubious consent scene happened, why they get back together and why they told each other I love you forever immediately after they got together. Every single part adds up. It really is insane to me how people don’t see their real story to this day or see them as such a great storyline for BL. I would never get it.

[ss3890]

Let’s talk about Pyrite:

As both a pagan witch-bitch who likes to hoard shiny stones and someone who indulges too much in Obey Me, I remember seeing the connection between Mammon and Pyrite a while back and immediately fell in love with it. Like, it just fits sooooo perfectly. Check out why under the cut:

A BIT ABOUT PYRITE:

Pyrite is more commonly known as “Fool’s Gold” - for it’s ability to trick miners into thinking they’ve struck true gold. It has always been considered inferior, though it does contain a type of gold within it’s crystalline structure. It’s a fitting comparison for our Lord of Fools who is constantly dismissed and put down by everyone around him. See past his facade and get to know the real Mammon, and you’ll find a powerful ally with a heart of gold that would do almost anything for you. 

Pyrite is a stone of protection - it wants to shield and protect its wearer in every way possible. According to this source: https://tinyrituals.co/blogs/tiny-rituals/pyrite-meaning-healing-properties-everyday-uses “Pyrite rekindles any lost drive or passion and makes you feel like you are ready to embrace life once again. If you have been tangled up in depressive thoughts or residing in anxiety, Pyrite is here to help you step away from those thoughts and fears, to overcome all that is holding you back, and to take action to live the life you were born for.” This is especially fitting for our energetic Guardian Demon who encourages you to get out there, live life, and have fun - for better or worse.

This source: https://www.mycrystals.com/meaning/pyrite-meaning-and-healing-properties Identifies Pyrite as “assisting you in fully healing by accepting yourself as you are...Pyrite's purpose is to keep you strong, stable, and free of the chains of domination.” Mammon fully accepts the MC for who they are more than anyone else. He doesn’t give one shit about your connection to Lilith, because he already cares so much about you and the person you are - while everyone seems to suddenly care more about you due to your lineage. He will always encourage you to be your true self and love you for it, in all his free-spirited ways.

Additionally, Pyrite is a great symbol of prosperity and good fortune. Being the Avatar of Greed, Mammon has the ability to shower those he takes a fancy to with wealth - and absolutely does so with his beloved MC. 

PYRITE AND MY MC SELF:

I think one reason I’m so drawn to Mammon, is because he complements me well and I understand him. With a sun sign of Pisces and a moon of Leo, I myself am a deeply emotional person who is also quite fierce and strong-willed. While Mammon isn’t a Leo, he is that fire in the relationship, sparking joy and adventure in a dramatic way that Cayrie wouldn’t otherwise engage in.

My own altar has raw pyrite on it in tribute to my First Man and so would Cayrie’s. I think that would tickle his fancy. I also like to imagine her giving him a piece of it when she has to leave for the human world, maybe pairing it with a chunk of blue calcite or aquamarine, saying “It reminds me of you and I.” He’d definitely add the stones to his pile of treasures and never let them go.

Another nice little head-cannon: I went to one of my favorite stores the other day and found a pair of pyrite studs. I had to buy them, obviously. 

Can y’all imagine how soft Mamms would get if he saw you wearing pyrite jewelry because it made you think of him? Suuuper soft and you know it. Plus, my bird fucking loves them. She won’t stop playing with them, just like an itty-bitty crow who can’t stay away from shiny things. It’s pretty fitting:

So yeah, anyway - there’s a little bit about pyrite and why I love it so much. Stay awesome, peeps ~✨

[captainkurosolaire]

I challenge you to pick five Tumblrs in your social circle and tell them something you admire about their blog!

Only 5? I could probably do 500. However, that's determined by what's considered my social circle. I'm often in my head being incredibly social continuously is really a challenge of mine. I'm always actively marching to something, my flame of passion when I have it, I can do some crazy stuff but it diminishes relatively quickly, so I try to cling. But I'll up your thing and list 25 of my fave people. Ask me this same thing in a Month, I'll keep doing 25, until I do all the people. How about that? (If anyone wants to be taken off mention let me know.)

@eligos-venator

- Has one of the most intelligent and sophisticated minds, I've had the pleasure to know. Literally admire all his aesthetics, work, head-cannons, ideas. It's only a benefit that the dude shares some OC characteristics to my own (Winning features). I really enjoyed the short-thread we did. It was incomplete, mainly because of my faults. I want to actually be better to give him a proper delivery and RP worth his time, but he's incredibly worth the investment of eyes.

@mischiefandmystics

- If there was a Mount Rushmoore of writers who kept me in this endeavor, encouraged me. Sun'ra is one of them. His characterization skills, writing, the delivery and how believable his character is, they're masterful acts.

@mishivymendi

- I wouldn't be nearly tamed or as creatively freed if it wasn't for this gem. She broke my shell, I really didn't at a time ever see myself being anything really beyond a smut writer, but Mishi not only saw potential in me, but brought it out. Her stories and world's she brings to life are so majestically colorful.

@asymphonyofash

- My go-to. He's another pillar individual who saw things in me past just the obvious perception, (Probably second longest XIV RPer I know.) Taught me a lot of the lore, I shot him up and he's sort of become my stapled rock. He's right aside Sun'ra met them about the same, both took me under their wing's as I quietly observed and absorbed.

@lavender-hemlock

- We're always up and front with each other, never feeling like I couldn't say anything around, extremely rare to share that these days. Her gif's are legendary, something on my own terms I want to soar in quality. The writing she does is astounding. Character has so many mysterious pages that are quite addictive to want to explore and learn them. (Encore 20 below-cut)

@under-the-blood-moonlight - Her sweetness and artwork and overall is just a friendly presence to be around. I cherish them so much. One I can jive with more darker undertones with. She's one the most hardworking and ambitiously creative people. I'd mail them infinite hugs if could. Thanks for being you! @roxinova - I owe a lot of credit to her. She's constantly OOC and everything was nudging me too be more inclusive to things and involved heavenly. It's rare for me. I'm really horrible about that my autism sets me back socially, I constantly will be drowned by the next day and be reverted back to better off alone, that's my major crux and weakness. But her thoughtfulness, these things, aren't ever foreign to me, I do pay attention probably better than any would ever give me credit. She's a beacon model to have as a friend. @corpse-dancer - Haven't ran into many words with them, but her character, screenshot game, expressiveness, they're all a marvel to constantly see, alongside her attitude and bringing life character. I do think if I were better, we would click quite splendidly. They've recently reminded and motivated me to pick-up my daily-practice, or try too. Keep being a rockstar. @fair-fae - Few who wouldn't know who she is in this community. She's been in my opinion a huge core. I'm certain she's inspired many who weren't even RPers too try it by seeing her at the Quicksands or elsewhere, a tyme ago. Making no exception, I was even one of those. I used to be in QS every-single day and was often doing my shameless stuff. Though her presence first did show me there's a lot more. I admire her in all fields. Also appreciate her adopting me to the FC and her always thinking of others and giving events, or her aesthetics and portrayal, its the epitome of swan elegance. @thorcat - One of my most treasured friends. Been RPing with them for a longtime. There's never anything complicated between us or a rift of drama, it's just let's go and have fun. We really mesh well, I've welcomed nearly ever character and got the privilege to RP with nearly all them. They always open up envelope and help me, settle on back and just laugh. Whether used to be waking up to their characters humping my afk one or use randomly having a hardcore banter between Ufah and Captain and capturing them as a voidal pet. Memories with them isn't something I'd ever want to lose. I love ya! Never stop enjoying life for anything. @lukawarrioroflight - I get in the gutter find myself lacking motivation or writing, discouraged even... But I never have felt, I could ever do any wrong with this person, they bring the light out of me. So no matter what, how many hospital-beds I yearly visit, it's because of this rare nature, that I come back, even if they're the only one's ever to read my stuff. I would do it for them alone. @scholarlybreadbun - I've only been back recently and they've so much warmth. Their presence is the sun of inviting. The couple and posing all the shipping that stuff makes me even melt. I'm not particularly talented in regards to posing couples, but I took notice of them along time ago and set on quietly improving. Really like them for them, wouldn't ever want them to change that. Ideally look forward to be in their orbit longer so I can bask in them. @seascrapes - Been mutual with them for a while. Their aesthetics and character is all S+ level. I appreciate throwing back tagged prompts with them, one of many people I really think would be enjoyable to collab with any other seafarers. The artwork and pieces of Tal Brook, are breathtaking as ever exceptionally too, not to mention. Love your stuff matey, you're a king. @mai-takeda - Is a myth. Her absolutely sheer friendliness and her attitude, are so positive influencing, I was so thrilled to be welcomed with her and boosted by them early on. I couldn't see myself, wanting to exist where they didn't have happiness like the same she always delivers by just doing so many soft-things. Not to mention her writing... She's a whole world to throw yourself gazes

under. @zhauric - It doesn't go far either without the same breath of Mai, I could say about Zhauric. He's someone worthy to look-up and also recognize they're passionate and inviting, hoisting up literally everything. Could easily find any of their characters comrades with my own, or jiving alongside. Not to mention last XIVWrite, they slaughtered it. So enjoyable to read them all. I like how organized their blog is too, motivated me recently to redux my entire thing. @cadrenebula - They have so many diverse characters and their entire roster is vibrant and is imbued with a massive flux of life. They are able to encapsulate so many character's voices and portray them so effectively too, I really admire that greatly. They've made me think bigger and try myself recently at actually undertaking a huge roster of characters too. I've taken many breaks, but I always am so graciously returned often with them close-by and that's so incredibly sacred. I've seen a lot of people get discouraged or quit, leave, departure, etc. But they always seem to have a bigger house then they had last I took a break and I enjoy peaking in. @silvernsteel - Her artist and gif-work are awe-aspiring, there's little unrecognizable by her photo-sets and edits. They helped me even tip-toe into uncharted with giving me the recipes to try incorporating gifs into my arsenal. Plus so delightfully pleasant to actually talk with and just chill. I want nothing less in life, than the beauty they give, to be returned to them for eternity in all their glorious air. If ever needed anything of me, they've got me. @spotofmummery - We talk about passion or friendliness or overall a person to even remotely try to be, I got to include them. Their web-series and writing, screen-work, everything they do is fantastic. And that's furthered back nearly any I've met showcase or immortalize how just genuine of stellar person they are. I wish them always the energy to create and sparks. @snow-covered-moon - They've never been anything less but absolutely a diamond to know. I enjoy their character, their almost always abundant of energy that's very rub inducing. Their WoL character stories, writing, screen-shots, everyday they open up a new pandora box of joy, there's no mistaken love behind their character and that's infectiously easy to also enjoy something when the author does too. Always healthy to be around, I never feel short of vitality when they're close-by. @letheofthelost - Always cheerful or least encapsulates with me, they're a carnival ride. Just pure epic story-telling and engaging equally as passionate, constantly writing characters, not looking for anything outside of RP or anything really just being their selves, they fade all others. I love their presence, them as a person. Enjoy any character they'll ever come and throw under me, or a change of pace. Always feels easily understandable between one another. @crow-iv - Together we're an unfiltered, unstoppable wake of pure passionate writers and art. But I would say they're far ahead of me, in every regard. Already able to portray multiple characters in a scene and do such in-depth thinking, alongside even sketch or draw right afterwards or a scene. They're so talented, huge reason I set-out on giving them a Crew of cast and actual stories to-tell when I'm actually caught up and if they interested and we both have the room, I really think if further myself, I can be better and supply more for them to draw and I want to see them soar. I want to give them all my improvements and effectiveness. @trishelle - They've such a reinforcing personality and aura around them that easily bolsters anything that dares thinking they're about to be depleted so energizing. Aesthetics, characters, all them are so lively that further compliment their own mun's great welcoming presence. Worth hundreds of smiles and stars, keep high. Wish I had more time to dedicate to learning you! But I do notice and appreciate you. @fracturedfantasia - One of my people, I like to retreat and just talk my full

head-cannons with or learn, share insightful and inquisitive thoughts about philosophies and multi-culture things. Or plotting and in-general, they're a well of information and brimming ideas, they are every making of what makes a quality friend. When you can generally be open-about-all that's a real one right there. Their characters and tarot readings, I always would implore if they're offering. Thanks for giving me any-time. You're truly a treasure. @violet-warder - Never have even came to words with them yet unfortunately but didn't mean as a mutual, I haven't admired all their screenies, writing, or the aesthetics they bring of their character. Glamours is real end-game, I like all what you've done and put together. I care strictly about what represent and give, I don't want to see them ever think anyone want's them gone, they are abundantly so talented and possess things only they can deliver. I think recently came back too, and I'm glad to share, hopefully, overtime I can build you better up. Or eventually even talk, but I'm certain you are a busy-body person too, so we're relatable. @layla-grey - I have a lot of underline issues that set me back as a flawed person, but I've never not been anything but someone who's open, it's why I always do include my f-list in anything or etc. I'm not here to present this facade, and really don't care to be an image crafted by another. No one as of recently or now, am I close with as an RP partner or friend with then this stunning masterpiece. I never let-up on story-telling or anything so I can eventually use my Crew or other Characters, to give them anytime a master entertaining day, they push me to not be short-changed. IC and OOC I would devote my full attention too cause they've never shed from me. Didn't ever matter how much silence or anything, they're always around. And don't expect anything out of me or pressure. Just accept me and I equally share that sentiment, I want you to have everything in this world has to offer. ----- This is just a fraction of people, I've paid attention, noticed or know. I've been around in this Community for many years. There's a lot of things I could say about it, more probably then anyone else. But what matters to me, is recognizing the people who are here, that work hard, build others up, support, constantly are a beam. I don't need to interact with everyone, to know when someone is generally out for good. Or they're out for bad I've learned inquisitiveness longtime ago, I had to survive and remain afloat. I just go out and be me, and along the way, I get to find people like these, who help bring out the best me. I am nothing without these people, creators, writers, artist. I'm a terrible friend, horrible person, I don't have the energy to interact NEARLY with as much as I'd like with you all, If I could clone myself, or if things were different, I would drop it all to be in your orbits more if could. But, do know I appreciate you. And even if you ever do depart from this whole community or anything, know that anything you share, or give, that stuff does matter, somewhere, someone was aspired, if nothing else, by me. ONLY you can give the worlds you see and I am thankful. Do love yourself.

[happi-tree]

Sixteen

Hello, lovebirds! Here’s a bit of fic that I wrote inspired by @shima-draws‘ BNHA Distortion Link AU from Nexus’ POV! Check out her blog for more info about it. I’ll put the fic under a read more, so continue on if you’re interested! TW for blood and vague, semi-graphic descriptions of corpses.

Midoriya Izuku is 16 years old when his world is ripped out from underneath his feet. 

He awakens to silence - not the peaceful quiet of early mornings that he has become long accustomed to, but to a sheer and utter absence of sound. Not a whisper of birdsong, not a single utterance of cacophony caused by the morning commute traffic in Musutafu. The quiet is eerie, anticipatory, waiting to be shattered, and Izuku gets the distinct feeling that he’s the final character in some horror flick. 

His alarm clock blares “The morning is here!” again in a robotic facsimile of All Might’s voice. Izuku startles, badly, slamming his hand down on the alarm to silence it. A breeze outside grows in intensity, slamming into the walls. The ticking of clocks, the groaning of a house in its death throes, and the rushing of blood in Izuku’s ears are the only sounds now. 

Something is very wrong.

Izuku picks his way across the room to his window, lifting the blinds, and nearly retches at what he sees.

The streets aren’t clogged with cars or buses; the sidewalks are vacant of pedestrians. Instead, the concrete is dyed red with blood, puddles of it seeping into potholes, into gutters. Bodies, for as long as the eye can see, line the walkways and the asphalt at irregular intervals, their eyes unseeing, their mouths open in shock, their forms contorted and still in pools of burgundy-ebony. Newly deceased, the analytic, detached part of Izuku’s brain observes, noting the absence of stench and lack of buzzing flies. 

As much as Izuku desperately wants this to be some horrible nightmare, he knows deep in his bones that this is all too terribly real.

And then he looks up.

Up to the sky, where his fated enemy is silhouetted against the soot-stained crimson of dawn, wreathed in clouds of smoke like the angel of death incarnate. But Izuku knows that this man is far from angelic - there is no mercy in these deaths, no just judgement present in any fiber in his body as he hovers, gloatingly, backlit by the red-orange sun. 

All for One, in all his age, has never been a creature of compassion.

With the taste of bile and ash in his mouth, Izuku frantically grabs his hoodie from where it lays across the back of his desk chair, shrugging it on. Throwing open his closet door, he pulls on the boots of his Hero costume, barely managing to fumble their laces into a proper knot and swiping his gloves from where they sit draped over his tool belt. 

One for All rockets to the surface of his skin within milliseconds, his racing heartbeat and heightened anxiety calling the Quirk to activation in record time, and Izuku breaks down the front door of his house, sprinting into the streets of the world on its final day with eight souls singing across the lightning in his veins.

It is not enough.

-

Midoriya Izuku is 16 years old when he opens his eyes to the Beyond for the first time. 

The confusion only lasts for a few moments before memories - billions of them, thoughts that are not his, were never meant to be his - shove themselves into his still-growing mind, flooding his neurons until they threaten to combust. All at once, Izuku knows where he is. Izuku knows what happened to his world; rather, the world that was once his.

Now, Izuku knows everything, and it is with absolute, mind-numbing certainty that he knows that his universe is gone.

He is the sole survivor, the lone occupant of this plane of in-betweens, where both nothing and everything is real. He feels at once impossibly heavy and weightless, power sitting leaden in his bloodstream, pulsating in time with his paradoxically-beating heart, countless lives weighted and compressed upon his mind, their taste like copper on his tongue. 

Tears flow freely from his eyes, saline globules suspended in the not-air of the Beyond as he weeps and as he feels. Seven billion lifetimes of emotions flash through his mind’s eye like an old film reel, impossibly fast, impossibly hard to differentiate. Love and heartbreak and joy and sorrow and anger and contentment and longing and desperation and too many other feelings to name overcome him, and Izuku cries out, his strangled voice the only sound amidst the deep shifting colors of the void, utterly human and utterly alone. 

Even heroes need to cry, sometimes, Todoroki’s voice seems to whisper to him, and Izuku’s body wrenches with the force of his sobbing, clinging to himself and wishing beyond anything for the phantom comfort of a friendly hand upon his shoulders. 

How can I ever call myself a Hero when I failed my entire universe?

After a time - perhaps seconds, perhaps centuries - Izuku’s cries pitter out, and he straightens enough that his feet find contact with something solid. Opening his eyes once more, he finds that his tears, spheres of liquified crystal, lay suspended across the not-space, twinkling like so many stars. For all the pain that they had caused him, Izuku finds beauty in their sorrow, trying not to tear up again as he thinks of the shifting constellations of his homeland, their lights forever extinguished. 

The memories threaten to overturn his mind again, but Izuku holds firm, pushes past the grief and the sorrow. He is the sole occupant of the Beyond, the Nexus, a realm that oversees every universe, every timeline. The weight of countless worlds rests on his shoulders now, and Izuku cannot allow himself to crumble beneath it any longer. Infinite power - so much that the feeble, human part of his mind can scarcely begin to comprehend its beginning or its end - resides in his soul, stitched into the fabric of his being. 

<If I could not be the Hero my own world needed,> Izuku speaks into the void, curling his hands into fists, <maybe I can be the Hero that the rest of them deserve.>

So many lives are in need of protection, in need of saving. And now, here I am, with the power to look after every single one of them. What kind of Hero would I be if I didn’t use this power to help them? For the first time in a long time, Izuku laughs - a hollow, broken laugh, but a laugh nonetheless.

<Plus ultra.> Izuku says to the unspeaking, unblinking void. He cracks his knuckles, takes a deep breath, and then gets to work overseeing the multiverse. 

-

Midoriya Izuku is still 16 years old when he feels the first disturbance in the Beyond. 

The new presence feels scarcely like a blip on his radar, as quick and meaningless as the blink of an eye. But after centuries and centuries of absolutely nothing, a spark of excitement - an emotion almost foreign to him, now - makes itself known in the cavity of his chest, bright and white-hot. Alongside it, an equally strange feeling: hope. 

The fabric of the Beyond bends itself around him, malleable and fluid as it bows to his whims and carries him to the source of the disturbance.

Izuku watches as a corner of his world blurs green. A figure, human, falling endlessly, glitching in and out between this plane and the one to which they belong. Reaching out with his mind, Izuku nearly reels back in shock with what he discovers.

Because the figure trapped between realms is him.

Well, one of him, Izuku should say. Across the multiverse are countless Midoriya Izukus. For whatever reason, this one seems to have gotten himself into a bit of trouble.

A constant for all Izukus, getting into trouble, he muses as his other semi-conscious self falls infinitely. 

Probing further, it looks like this particular Izuku is from a world quite similar to his own. Time slows, solid in his grasp, to allow him to decipher the teal of his Hero outfit, bits of blood scattered across his freckles from a previous fight. Clearly, this Izuku had no intention of coming here, and is likely feeling very out of sorts. How he got here in the first place is a wonder, but not for long.

Memories of his double flash through his mind. The patrol assignment. Uraraka, Todoroki, Ojirou, Shigaraki, Kurogiri’s faces come to mind in consecutive flashes, and his knees nearly buckle at the sight of their familiarity. One for All activating in tandem with Kurogiri’s portal, disturbingly reminiscent of the moment that ripped the fabric of his homeland apart.

Ah, there it is.

Izuku’s power comes to grasp the connection tethering his doppelgänger to the Beyond, and he hears a gasp. 

Well, that wouldn’t do. Not that Izuku has ever seen this happen before, but he has the sinking feeling that shoving his other self back into his own universe will not erase the connection entirely. There’s something wild about it, unstable. Dangerous.

Izuku walks closer to his double’s side, time grinding to a halt.

<I’m sorry for this, but you’ll likely see more of me,> he says to himself, taking in the other Izuku’s gaping expression and wide eyes, imprinting the familiar lines of his Hero suit into his vision alongside the spattering of freckles and the smears of dirt. 

<For now, though, I’ll try to get you home. You’re doing so well, you know. I’ve been watching.>

Gently, Izuku presses a fingertip to his doppelgänger’s forehead and watches as he reappears through the tear into his own timeline.

A universe away, provisional Hero Deku returns to his friends with shaking hands, a phantom warmth between his brows, and an odd feeling of recognition in his chest.

-

Nexus is 16 years old when he sees the sky again for the first time in millennia. 

[wickedpact]

life's hecticness has finally kinda caught up to me and im just feeling super worn down and im seeking comfort in the old guard and because your blog always sparks joy ive come to you. on the subject of comfort do you have any thoughts on coping mechanisms/ways to comfort themselves the members of the old guard have? and similarly, ways they help comfort the others too? i would love to hear any and all thoughts you might have on the matter <3 - 2ta

in terms of comforting others:

nicky: words. i think its kind of interesting, but every time in the movie we see as character in emotional distress nicky speaks up (its okay nile, tell us, sono qui, everything happens for a reason boss) the only time he breaks this habit is when booker talks about grief in the lab.

booker: we dont rlly see booker explicitly comfort people much but he does seem to tend towards expressions of solidarity or subtle check-ins/expressions of concern (for the former he tells nile about his family, he tells nile big wounds take longer to heal, he reminds andy that ‘this is what you wanted’ and for the latter he asks andy post-stab if shes alright, he tells andy he wont see her again, etc)

hes also quick to (rightfully lmao) accept blame (after the kill floor, when he wont get up when the squad escapes, and the scene where he and andy get captured)

joe: he doesnt do a whole lot of comforting to the non-nicky’s out there interestingly enough. he encourages andy like the others do just after the baklava scene (i know you needed a break but its been over a year boss) he also tends to make little light hearted jokes/comments to lighten the mood sometimes (this plus 'faster than the elevator', etc)

and i suppose one could say him answering nile’s questions during the dinner scene are a type of comfort in itself, tho .. .... his answers arent exactly reassuring lmao

nile: So are you good guys or bad guys?

joe: Depends on the century

(j o s e p h you could have given her a more reassuring answer than that!! altho depending on the person, straight honesty can be very comforting in of itself, and joe prolly knew that andy would dance around nile’s questions and be generally unhelpful)

but additionally joe is a pretty strong protector and worrier about his friends’ well-being. he advocates for finding nile in the train scene and tells the others to ‘cover andy’ when they find out shes mortal

(plus the little touch he does to andy’s back!)

andy: andy’s mileage varies when it comes to comforting (primarily nile of course bc shes the Distressed One in the movie) but a lot of the time she tends towards offering stability and loyalty (me and those three men in there will keep you safe, you’re one of us now we would do the same for you, [to nicky] this changes nothing) which of course makes sense for her. stability and loyalty obviously probably mean so much to andy and as Team Leader shes probably very used to offering those things

nile: nile is more the comfortee than the comforter in the movie for all the obvious reasons, tho i think its interesting that at the end she tells andy ‘youre gonna [spend the time you have left] with us, andy’ not only bc shes delivering that stability/loyalty right back at andy but also bc shes also a leader (in the marines) so she might have a similar situation as andy with offering stability & loyalty as a Leader

being comforted:

nicky: the most notable instance of nicky being upset and getting comforted is obviously the van speech, tho like ive said i doubt joe’s go-to method of comforting nicky is a Speech. tho also (obviously & as ive talked abt a lot) i think he takes a lot of comfort from the idea of destiny/fate and the idea that he and The Lads were all destined to be together. he lomves his friends and hes happy when theyre happy

booker: alcohol.

honestly im not even sure how booker would really like to be comforted/comfort himself besides his given Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms. i think he does take a lot of comfort in his Solidarity with andy tho. considering his ‘that way madness lies’ comment about the immortality and his comment in the comic about ‘whats the purpose of an uncertain immortality?’ and his tendency towards tech, i think he’s the kind of person who likes when things are explainable and logical (and u could say thats a way he foils with nicky i suppose)

joe: him touchy

ive been meaning to make a gifset thats just Joe + Reassurance Through Touch but i keep forgetting about it. hes a very tactile boyo. in the comic while theyre having the nile nightmare joe reaches out and physically grabs nicky’s arm/shoulder in his sleep, like hes subconsciously checking hes still there. he worries So Much about the others (nicky in the armored van, nile in the train scene, andy post-mortality) and their well-being that i think he takes a lot of comfort in knowing all the lads are okay and safe (esp nicky)

andy: like i mentioned i think she likes loyalty and stability, which is obvs something shes had a serious lacking of throughout her life. ik u arent super into the comics but the recent tales through time story about andy went over how she takes comfort in the idea that her axe belonged to her mother once, even if her modern-day axe has had all its parts and pieces replaced so many times its not the axe her mother gave her 7000 yrs ago anymore. however andy still clings to this idea of her axe being her mother’s axe (‘this is the labyrs she held in her hands’). the memory of her family/mother and the stability of having the same axe with her through her history obvs comforts her a lot.

nile: again similarly to andy i feel like loyalty/family comforts nile a lot. she followed her father’s footsteps into the marines and worries about her loyalties to them through the first half of the movie, and tries to go home & thinks about her mom and brother through the whole thing.

(plus, music obvs means a lot to her)

[verobatto]

Destiel Chronicles

Vol. CXXV

It was a love story from the very beginning

Loudly In Love

(14x10/14x11/14x12)

Hello my friends! After Purgatory we have a cute and dummy sweet Dean-bean in love with Castiel. As we'll see int this meta summary.

You can find the links to my metas from these episodes following this links: X, X, X, X, X, X, X, X, X, X, X, X, and X.

There's something in my throat

At the beginning of episode 15x10 we can read a shop's named BERENS' KWICK TRAP.

This takes another symbology now, with the horrible ending of the show. In which we could say Berens settle a trap to the C*W and he gave us 15x18 Castiel's love confession anyway.

Before talking about Dean's mating tap dance, let's talk about Dean vomiting again. Because it's relevant again, due to the shitty ending and how C*W silenced him.

Throughout the whole season 15, we had vomits, gagging situations. And in this episode we had two important scenes related to this symbolism:

One was Dean literally vomiting, and the second was Dean datin: "I HAVE SOMETHING IN MY THROAT"

Gif credit @agusvedder

What had Dean stuck in his throat? Maybe the ILY TOO to Castiel that never happened. But writers gave it it's relevance by writing it like this.

Maybe they were trying to day we will never have it.

They silenced him, for real.

Baby Castiel and Color Symbolism

I wrote this in one of my metas...

Baby Sam was dressed with a yellow ascot. Accurate. And Baby Castiel was dressed in blue. Accurate too.

Bess was dressed, and pay attention to this..., She was in pink (happiness) green (Dean) and light blue (purity)... She said to Dean that Cas was looking at him with love. Right? The happiness and purity in Dean was telling him Castiel looks at him with love in his eyes! Now... Dean said Cas baby kept looking at him weird. And Sam (who knows) said JUST LIKE CAS DOES.

And then Castiel's eyes glowed and Dean said... I think he has something for you to Bess (symbolically representing Dean's happiness and purity) GOSH IT WAS PERFECT!

This is something too cute, because finally, they talked about the Destiel eye-love-making and the fan-service with some SAMMY KNOWS.

Gifset credit @subbydean

Another important reference was Garth. When he went to rescue the boys, Garth was playing Castiel's mirror. And when Garth breaks that lock (Just like Castiel will do in the incoming episode) But mostly because Dean's reaction to it was priceless!

DEAN: You're so strong! He's so strong!

This is, literally, what Dean thinks about Castiel everytime he's in BAMF mode.

Numbers

Just a brief travel through the repeated numbers in the narrative in this episode (you can find the extended version of this in the links I put in the top of this meta)

Basically, we had number 7, 5, 17 and 40 repeating in the dialogues and the visual narrative. Some examples of that are the following scenes...

The Beren' kwick trap had a poster naming "7 days per week", then this one...

Dean eating 7 pieces of cheese.

Biblically talking, number 7 is the perfect number, represents God and knowledge. And it talks about Chuck then, knowing Chuck is writing this. But it also is what it means KNOWLEDGE.

Now, number 5...

Also at Garth's house, the address said 75

In numerology talks about socialize, and self-knowledge in masculinity and sexuality... Hello Dean!

But number 5 also represents in Bible the grace God concedes to David to defeat Goliath, the giant, written on the first book of SAMUEL (yes, Samuel) chapter 17.

Gif credit @agusvedder

17 means HOPES,it's what TFW keeps alive go defeat Chuck.

Now, number 40...

GARTH: Yeah, better than I ever thought I’d get. I mean, hunting – I figured I’d be dead before I’m 40. You know, go out young and pretty. But now I’ve got a great wife, great kids. I guess...sometimes things work out.

Putting to a side these had been also Dean's old thoughts... writers really got me here...

40 years old, but 40 is a common biblical number that talks about self-knowledge and growth. It talks about CHANGES. So so accurate with Dean and that caterpillar/butterfly wall in episode 15x04.

I really thought back then we will have the huge change in Dean through his love confession to Castiel. I mean, we had a change in his own way to see himself, thanks to Castiel. Let's keep that as a consolation prize.

An ABO fic plus Mating Dance

This episode had an ABO fic hudden as it also had the learning lesson about MATING FOR LIFE.

The visual narrative and the dialogues pointed at it.

Garth hugging g Dean as he said: YOU SMELL GOOD, remember Garth is a werewolf, and he was smelling Dean's pheromones because this episode happened after Purgatory, Dean is facing the knowledge about his romantic love for the angel, and it shows.

The swan's statues in one of the rooms in Garth house. Swans are birds that mate for life, and males swans can mate with another males for life. Hello Destiel. (Also, the room where these statues were placed was color BLUE)

The tap dancing and the suggestive lyrics of 'Let's Misbehave' was perfectly settled as a mating dancing I'm which Dean invited Castiel (the lamp) to Misbehave with him. Showing us that there's not just sweet and innocent love in Dean's heart but also a passionate fire and a desire to make love with him. That's what the song says, and that's why Garth mentioned colonoscopy, as a medical tool to health control, because cavities are related to Colon Cancer.

The wolf puppy is back

And following the same topic about ABO, the scene in which Jack is back with his family was similar (if not the same) as a wolf pack behavior documental.

Dean checks on Jack's eyes and immediately after that he checks on his pack mate, Castiel, to see if Jack is Jack. Beautiful

Gifset credit @thelordoftherings

Bi!Dean and Tolstoy

There's more info in my links at the top, but let's see why Dean called himself "Tolstoy" in that bar in front of that greek goddess in episode 14x11.

Okay, we had the singer from 'Let's Misbehave' (Cole Porter) a queer man, and now we have Tolstoy, a bisexual man...

DEAN: I'm Tolstoy

So much love

I will only speak about this scene:

Gif credit @agusvedder

There's more analysis about the dialogue here related to the storyline about Chuck, Jack and TFW. But because these are the Destiel Chronicles, I know I have to talk about this particularly Destiel heart eyes scene.

Because Dean is loud, his eyes and his face, he is yelling how proud he feels about Castiel, but it also, the ways his eyes just lingered to him, full of love, it's perfect, and no one can tell me these are not two men in love.

Look at how Csstiel turns his face to him, with a small smile, trying to hide his joy for being praised by the man he loves and also for share this moment with him. And the feels are of an old married couple that still love each other so much.

I just wanted to finish this meta with this "Good Omens" like scene.

To Conclude:

Dean reaffirmed he is in love with Castiel, and he wants to spend his life with him, as a couple. He loves the angel romantically, and he also desires Castiel with passion.

We also had several confirmations of Bi!Dean and some fan service with Sammy knows.

Hope you like this meta, see you in the next one.

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If you want to be added or removed from this list, just let me know.

If you wanna read the previous metas from this season, here you have the links:

Vol. CXXI, CXXII, CXXIII, CXXIV.

[birdkoskincare]

the best skincare of 2020 🕊

or, the gospel according to birdko. not everything in 2020 was terrible, so i’ll focus on the good as i reminisce about the things that kept my skin happy during these wild times. read on to learn all about the stars of my routine in 2020!

[ all prices listed are from the retailers i originally purchased from, as of the time of writing. holifrog was purchased from beautybay, the ordinary from maquibeauty. all other products are from yesstyle, and many are currently on discount — if you choose to shop there, consider using my code ‘5PEBNA’ to support the blog at no extra cost to you! ]

my skin type: combination, acne- and hyperpigmentation-prone, tolerant to actives

— first cleanser: holifrog shasta AHA refining acid wash, 39.25€ / 148 ml

this is pricy for a cleanser, but the main criteria for this list is whether it sparks joy to use it, and this one sure does! i don’t use it every day (i alternate with a simple gel cleanser when using other strong actives in my routine), but when i do, i massage it in for a bit and after rinsing it leaves my skin very soft. it’s extremely satisfying.

— second cleanser: isntree micellar melting cleansing oil, 21.85€ / 150 ml

speaking of satisfying, nothing beats a makeup remover that effortlessly melts even waterproof mascara. this one was purchased thanks to kelly driscoll’s recommendation, and it delivers on the promise of a no-frills, low-on-irritants (no EOs, hooray!) oil cleanser. it’s replaced my previous fave, the heimish all clean balm.

— toner/mist: missha time revolution artemisia treatment essence mist, 25€ / 120 ml

some things are in my routine purely for enjoyment’s sake, and this one is the most blissful step: after cleansing, when my face is craving moisture, i always rush to spritz this on before the rest of my routine, so as to avoid even a moment of dehydration. 2020 saw a lot of mugwort toners come out, but this is the only one i’ve tried, and i’m on my second bottle already. i’m good, i don’t need anything else.

— BHA: cosrx BHA blackhead power liquid, 18.10€ / 100 ml

i first used this circa 2017, when i was first getting into skincare, and i did get through it but it didn’t leave a big impression. fast forward to late 2019 and the resurgence of my acne, and i’m scrambling to find a BHA that’ll help my skin cope. after a disappointing one by the inkey list, i repurchased this, and there was a marked improvement in the state of my breakouts once i reintroduced it. it’s now firmly my favourite BHA, and it doesn’t irritate or dry out my skin at all.

— AHA: the ordinary lactic acid 5% + HA, 6.50€ / 30 ml

not all the ordinary products have been hits for me, but this is another one where i truly noticed a difference after starting to use it. it left my skin positively glowing and feeling hydrated, and it prevented comedones from forming, which is really all you could ask from an AHA serum — and at an unbeatable price point, too.

— mask: innisfree jeju volcanic color clay mask cica, 8.00€ / 70 ml

i’m not a mask person (skincare-wise, of course, you won’t catch me outside these days without a face covering). sheet masks feel like a chore, and ones in pots and jars ick me. this one managed the impossible: a clay mask that isn’t drying, leaves my skin looking and feeling calm and smooth, and that i keep reaching for.

— moisturizer: klairs midnight blue calming cream, 24.75€ / 30 ml

it took me a while to hop in the bandwagon, and i admit i got the jar instead of the tube version so that i could take aesthetic instagram pics of it, but this one lives up to the hype. the rich texture melts into the skin without greasiness, and the calming ingredients do work for me. plus, that beautiful blue colour sparks joy.

— spot treatment: neogen dermalogy a-clear soothing pink eraser, 8.35€ / 15 ml

this was the year i first tried these dip-a-cotton-bud-into-the-sediment biphasic spot treatments, and i’m a convert. the first one i tried, kate somerville’s eradikate, was pricy and a bit drying. this one perfectly circumvents both issues. it’s not a miracle cure, but it’s definitely effective if i catch a spot early on.

— lip mask: klavuu nourishing care lip sleeping pack, 7.65€ / 20 g

another product category i first tried this year! while i don’t particularly suffer from chapped lips, i enjoyed how smooth they felt after using this. i also like the subtle scent, and it has an almost glassy lip-gloss-like effect (without stickiness) that makes me feel really pretty before going to bed, which is always nice.

— daily lip balm: rohto mentholatum melty cream lip SPF 25 PA+++, 7.00€ / 2.4 g

sun care isn’t just for your face, lips need protection as well! this balm from rohto has one of the higher SPF ratings of lip balms at this price range, and it wears very comfortably, so i like to keep it handy. i chose the matcha variant for that tiny lil’ extra antioxidant kick.

no best sunscreen because 2020 left a purito-shaped hole in my heart 💔

please do send me your fave skincare products of 2020 in an ask, don’t keep your holy grails a secret! i hope that in 2021 you feel happy and comfortable in the skin you’re in, and that this year turns out far better than the last in every way 🕊