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Tumblr keeps putting community labels on my works, THEYRE TAME ASF COME ON, I saw a post abt Luke x MC (smut š¤¢) and y'all can leave that up but label my bb Mammon's beautiful cheeks??
So anywayyy, if you can no longer see my posts, blame tumblr :((
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out celebrating with coworkers but its just me sitting silently shoving wings and tater tots into my mouth in between drinks while i get asked for the 50th time what my 4th of july plans are (idk think about gj i guess)
#i have low alcohol tolerance i must Eat#me at work: i cant get the work out today#my manager at sync meeting: her ft will be out tmrw#me: wtf š„¹#i used to have high alcohol tolerance#literally untouchable#now i have none less than 0 truly a pathetic amount will do me in#i wasnt feeling the convo at all tho#but i was feeling the spicy wingsā¦.#i miss my cat#this morning he was like why r u depressed again#and i was like please leave me alone and kicked him off the bed and i feel bad about that
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Paranatural fandom rn
#pnat posting#tag#razor rex is not the cherub . dad puckett isnt razor rex either. nor is phantomime . also not june! failed again.#can we leave polaris ALONE#the way yall talk about him. its like hes working overtime#please consider the timeline Im accttttually begging you. yall are so stupid.#also shoutout to the person who thought Pj was ALSO Shrike's son. guys Davy is kind of Edward-Cullen'ing it right now.#she was like 20 when she had that kid#well. mid 20s. but you get my gist right#anyways. hilarious.#making me laugh at least#and how people think that pj is Davys brother. So close! he is actually his son. ā”#paranatural#<- actually fuck it Im maintagging this. I have beef with some of you guys š#some of yall are OBZEZZEDDD with Davys fuck ass sword. IT DIDNT CUT JEFF INTO A PERFECT PLAYMATE FOR CODY GUYS. THINK WITH YOUR BRAINS#all of this and yet nobody is considering the Implications of Collin Sloinne yet? eye see how it fucking is . cheesus christ
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Disclaimer for everyone: I need to avoid a lot of the unhelpful noise about recent events so Iām not going to be online for more than a couple minutes at a time here and there for several days.
My main priority with political and world event topics is the hard and careful discussions about them I have with specific people I have ongoing inroads with who are still in high control situations. I donāt have time and energy to engage with anyone about leftist moral superiority and bickering. Full stop. Iām donating money I can spare and Iām actively and constantly working with people still in the same high-control/cult groups I came out of.
Donāt come into my inbox again with more claims Iām supporting evil by not trying to bring about an immediate revolution against colonialism and capitalism while Iām just trying to keep some people alive and critically thinking long enough to get out of high control groups and actually vote, volunteer, and change policy. I hear you. I understand your anger. Iām not your real target though. Please focus somewhere else.
Thank you.
#this is the one and only time Iāll discuss this from here to the election#I lean almost fully leftist#Iām also a realist#leave me ALONE#Iām already doing the work#go do your own instead of policing other people#the end.#politics and current events#shh katie#I also donāt want the U.S. or Israel to be doing these things but thereās no fucking glorious revolution in the next five weeks#especially with the right getting EVERYTHING they want on a fearmongering military global unrest level#do concrete work or leave my inbox please#Iām this close to just closing it. I donāt want to but I might at this point#I donāt know how to tell you guys that sometimes the right is completely correct when criticizing and complaining about leftist behavior#and if you canāt see that I dont know what to tell you.#but keep it out of my inbox and dms!!!!!!!!!!!#Iām just one person! itās not my ability OR DUTY to act according to the mantle youāre trying to paint me with#genocide is evil.#war is bad.#I will happily protest and do actual activism about it#but not voting or saying to vote for like. fucking Jill stein the liar and longtime hack is not it#and this is coming from someone who was a Jill Stein fan for a bit#Iām not afraid to admit when I was wrong and say that I changed. are you?
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Tapestry of love [G, 1.7k]
Summary:
Rayla learns the difference between sewing, knitting, and crochet.
Or: I'm a crocheter who was (and still am) flabbergasted at Rayla mixing up sewing and knitting. So I wrote a fic where Ethari teaches her the difference, and also how to crochet.
Read on AO3
#i worked very hard on the banner and i love it; please appreciate it#the dragon prince#my fic#rayla#runaan#ethari#moon fam#tdp spoilers#tdp s6 spoilers#very minor spoiler but it still is one#seriously though WHO mixes up *sewing* and knitting?!?! usually it's *crochet* and knitting getting mixed up#i am clearly being Very Normal about rayla mixing these up#it's so specific but it won't leave me alone
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad š
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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so I got the cute manager's phone number today for normal work reasons. and he immediately informed me that it was 11:11 and I should make a wish. and we exchanged photos of our dogs and bantered about military time and being functionally nocturnal. finally I said I still feel awful and am calling it a night. so his final text was "Good night my friend," to which I replied, "Night buddy," and nothing has had me kicking my heels and twirling my invisible landline phone cord quite like this since the time I got asked out to spring banquet.
#internet wasn't lying that autistic can rizz#and I KNOW it's stupid because we don't agree religiously which is super important to me#and also I don't date my coworkers#and also there's a power hierarchy imbalance at work so it would be super unethical#I know this isn't actually a realistic thing#but we work so well together#and I think he would let me pin him down#I'm gonna kermit the kill myself#that one stupid beautiful unreleased Hozier song called 'I could be yours' has the best little set of lyrics#'I know what could've been / but nothing comes from it. / That'd be a helpful thought / if I could remember it. / But I could be yours /#I could be yours I could be yours.'#j*** if you're out there I'M SO SORRY#please leave me alone and let me process this foolishness in peace
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remembering the time that I listened to so much rusty quill gaming in such a short timeframe that my internal monologue was narrated by alexander j newall for like 2 weeks straight
#rusty quill gaming#rqg#it was so distressing ahfkajflak#he would not get out of my brain#Alex please leave me alone#I just listened through all the eps of TMP and now I'm in a rusty quill mood again#I'm totally gonna relisten to some of the rqg oneshots at work tomorrow#Jason statham oneshot my beloved#*Ben Meredith voice* Jason. Babe. Darling. Sugarplum. My delicious rose.#I miss hearing Ben Merediths ensemble of voices#I miss them all#rqg I miss youuuuuuuuuuuu#fluffle talks
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tumblr glitched and spared you all the most heated rant of my entire hoa fandom tenure
#idek what happened i answered the ask & hit post but it completely deleted LOL#Iām not gonna bother to reanswer anonās ask so Iāll give you the abridged version:#i would not feel the need to post so much about season 3 of hoa if people would stop being such virulent haters#and hold this season to an entirely different standard than the other two#like it genuinely makes no sense#i cannot stress enough that you can like s3 the least#thatās your prerogative#but to be so LOUD and so WRONG#ALL THE TIME???#makes me genuinely mental#SEASON 2 IS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE SEASON#but season 3 needs love and so itās been 11 years of me giving her love#anyway i guess i just gave you a take version of my rant#and @ anon: fuck you LOL leave me alone once and for all#i love having discussions and deep dives tho please do not think Iām @ing anyone on here you guys are chill and smart#and make good points and do great work and i love you#but if youāre a genuine s3 hater please fuck off to someone elseās blog i BEG#AND if youāre the anon who refuses to leave me in peace? i hope your pillow is warm on both sides#tess rambles
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I keep praying to Odin to make me his academic weapon (Iām almost done with school and I have tons of important exams) and he keeps telling me that I need to actually have discipline and that he canāt do it for me and Iām like PLEASE I KNOW I JUST KEEP PRAYING TO YOU TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM CAPABLE HELPPPP
#norse odin#odin deity#norse pagan#Norse paganism#never expected Odin to even reach out to me but here we are#two months ago he did and wouldnāt leave me alone#kept sending me birds and little signs and I couldnāt ignore it and now I work with him often#Odin help me please I need to pass my state board and become licensed#hail Odin#hail the old gods
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not-yet-dead-person
silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww
(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)
i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!
the head circles are there for emotional support
very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.
(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)
usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.
according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it
the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!
Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.
background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!
for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway
that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it
#re:kinder#fanart#sayaka re:kinder#rei re:kinder#OH I ALREADY RAMBLED IN MY POST WHATEVER SHOULD I TALK ABOUT NOW IN MY TAGS UEEEEEEEššš#oh yeah do you want to know a fun fact about this drawing#i started it yesterday. i wasnt meant to I DID NOT HAVE PERMISSION...FROM MYSELF... i was meant to be on break#i self imposed a one week break from doing any rekinder related project after the transcript to avoid accidental burn out#NOT THAT I GOT TIRED OF IT AFTER THAT TRANSCRIPT NOT AT ALL#but jumping straight into more hours of creativr work after over 30 hours of it is asking for disaster. it is asking for burn out#yesterday was the last day . 12 hours were left but i was going to die if i didnt draw anything it would have been OVER#(aka my period started recently so i got very gloomy and depressed so i needed to run to my favorite stress relief...drawing rekinderāŗļø)#(on that note seriously what the fuck please explain the evolutionary advantage to getting horribly depressed every month)#(like hello?!?! rant real quickā i get enough flashbacks everyday i DONT need them to last longer and have me more msierable ?!?!?)#(periods are so dangerous to my mental health for no reason can i get a restriction order on them or some shit what the fuck)#(anyway thats enough of that break of character DONEEEE :3333)#SO YEAH I DIDNT EVEN LAST 7 WHOLE DAYS i even played a new game in between those 6 days youd think itd het my mind of rekinder. WRONNNNGGG#not even another devastating rpg horror gamr could divert my attention for long i hsd to draw rekinderš#using the newfound power of mt transcript i was decided on drawing rei because i dont draw her enough for how high she is on my fvaorites#i was initially doodling random lines but then i stumbled upon this interactkon and it doesnt really fit into my usual expression sheets#so i thought hey lets do it asife#i thumbnailrd it and from there i was like hey lets do it in comic format isntead of separated messy doodles in tint canvas#and the rest is hisotry .... aka i spent the last two days doing this instead of doing MY HOMEWORK!!!!!#on my defense when i wasnt drawing i was horribly depressed i had no other choice#(seriously fuck off periods WHAT what do you mean i need to be distracted 24/7 to not be struck by crippling meltdowns LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!?)#(they should be banned we as a society should find like a . cure to them it dont do me good to have a whole week where i cant function)#these tags have been more of a weird rant im sorry IVE BEEN FEELING PEEEVEDDD LATELY SO YOU GET. STRANGE DROTTER LORE ????
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Why am I missing 2 advisors?
#it's my modded dress isn't it?#must i sacrifice a husband and a work bestie for fashion?#josie took her chair and everything#cullen left the lights on#he's coming back right?#please don't tell me they're pulling a solas#don't leave me alone with leliana!#heeeeeeeelp#dragon age inquisition#commander cullen#josephine montilyet
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Really love how the mother of Zoey101 Star, Christopher Massey, is trying to defend Dan Schneider with saying blame the parents, when by her own logic, she's taking the blame then for not only Christopher being an abuser but also her other son, Kyle Massey, for being a predator.
#if you wanna do that lady please be my guest#your acting like we wont questioning some of the parents after quiet on set anyway#since drake bell's mom is still questionable for literally being TOLD by drake's dad to not leave drake alone with brian#as the man was literally seeing the red flags by this point#but what did she do? proceeded to let drake be alone with brian more then once#let alone brandy's mom admitting she didnt even call the police when jason was being predatory with brandy#because she feared being called a bad mom for allowing the two to talk to each other#meaning he got to keep working in the industry and be around children until finally caught#but to act like the shit with dan is the parents fault and not dan's himself...get the fuck out
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it's so funny when someone tells you you look happier now because you smile all the time when in reality you know damn well you couldn't get out of bed today
#it's so easy to pretend when you're at work tho#but like it's really bad right now#what the hell does he know#also coming to my store only to tell me this is weird af behaviour like#why are you coming here to talk to me and tell me about your little daughter and show me her pictures#we're not friends#just do your fucking job and leave me alone#stop being hot and funny and cute in front of me#it makes me feel depressed#i wanna cry for hours i hate this guy#i'm a fucking clown#somebody please just give me a gun#the unwanted delivery guy*#i say whatever and whatever that i want*
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AU doodles
This was the original reason why i drew league girls in those poses btw
#my art#fate stay night#arturia pendragon#queen guinevere#cu chulainn#mordred#my aus#arturia is mentally unwell leave her alone#she's trying to be babygirl for guinevere she's trying to rizz up her wife#its working but also please just be normal. gwen much rather your serious but soft demeanor you had</33#fsn ruins
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would you still love me if I was a Cymothoa exigua
#was making a mental list of all the parasites I can remember off the top of my head#(as one does when itās a slow day at work)#and now this phrase wonāt leave me alone#so. please have this old meme#(if anyone decides to look this up warnings for:#weird parasite stuff. damage to specifically fish tongues)
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