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god please. please
#i feel bad hoping for this but please#please just let her die#and really soon#like tomorrow soon#please just let me wake up tomorrow and she's asleep and doesn't wake up#im talking abt someone who doesnt speak englidh btw so if you read this its not about you
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Incorrect, the fact that Biden has dropped out and a candidate with history of supporting medicare for all and being more receptive to a ceasefire in the I/P conflict has made me go from "I cannot morally support the Democratic nominee" to "I am voting for the Democratic nominee despite the fact she isn't perfect in every respect." I'm really happy this played out. The Dems for the most part abandoned the old Obama platform and it feels like its possible an actual progressive agenda could come to pass in my lifetime.
Kamala 2024!
If you weren't going to vote Democratic in this election before Biden dropped out you're a dorkass loser who does not care about any of the issues you're yammering about here and also a fundamentally bad person, and I hope you get run over by a bus.
But you got one thing right in all of this gibberish, Kamala 2024.
#personal#answered#anonymous#i mean let's be clear here no president is gonna attempt to be progressive ever again within my lifetime#because joe biden tried to do like 25% of that and got ZERO fucking credit#he did so much on healthcare on reform on loans on so many social issues and for all his litany of failings on i/p#he has been distinctly harsher on netanyahu than a good chunk of dems and certainly the entire republican party#for the first time since i was four we are not involved in any wars as americans and that is thanks to joe biden#but the thing is that he gets no credit for any of it!#him pulling out of afghanistan caused his approvals to tank in a way that never recovered#and leftists gave him FUCK ALL for it#they gave him nothing they just continued whining that even tho he cancelled a bajillion in student loans#he didn't actually cancel a QUADRILLION dollars so both parties are the same and voting is the most arduous task known to man#no democrat who is running is going to forget that catering to leftist/progressive policies gets them zero leeway with those supporters#that it not only tanks numbers but you still get constant haranguing about it anyway#so they're not gonna do it#we are gonna get fuckall for at least a good fifty years#and anything we get will be utterly in SPITE of people like you anon it will happen in spite of everything you've done#mostly because of people like me and mine who understand that voting is the bare minimum#and that for the democratic process to work the way you want it to you need to participate and not pitch a fucking fit#like a four year old who was told they can't go to disney this weekend#like i know you ratfuckers are happy this played out because this is all a game to you and you don't actually care#but that's why i've got zero faith in you people and why i'm glad it's my kind of folks#actual die hard democrats who have always been hardliners for supporting democrats in every possible election#who are picking up the slack and donating to harris and supporting her agenda#which is the exact same as biden's because she's his vice president and they share they same platform#because that's what they were both running on! twice!#anyway fuck you please feel free to find a necktie and test how tall your doorframe is
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And that's why Michael got cool shades in this AU.
That feeling when you're just a teenager and already got cataract. Amongst the other things that damn possession and truck accident caused you But John is doing his best all on his own...!
#faith the unholy trinity#michael davies#john ward#my art#i need a name for this au of mine#Father and Children AU#why children?#well i don't like innocent teenagers dying#imma draw Amy too in this au sooner or later fuck that i ain't letting her die#Please do not be like John tho.#Bring people that got ran over by a truck to a hospital don't heal them at home while you exorcise them.#also i love Michael he's just a kid that poked a dead fox and he triggered a red exclamation mark on every cultist in the range of 10 km
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ghost stares at the ceiling, chest heaving in a harsh pant; sweat ice on his clammy flesh and soaked into the sheet he restlessly kicks away.
ears still ringing, his fingertips blindly drift down to trail along his vivisection scar. he half-expects blood to smear in their wake. his own line of solomon, who ordered him split in twain; half of him given to a grieving mother and half left with the grieving to be.
just for both his broken halves to be rejected.
what did it make him that his mother grieved him more than she loved him? that she begged to be relieved of him more adamantly than she begged to receive him? why did his worth spill out with his drawn blood? why was his pain lesser than hers?
his hand flexes, digging into the raised scar like it’ll part beneath his fingertips to plunge into his mangled insides. no one knows the cruelty of reforming the halved; his name, his being, not nearly as important as his body when he was stripped from himself. no one knows the pain of healing and understanding losing pieces of yourself means losing your value along with them.
how many more pieces did he have to lose before he was halved once more? before his very presence incurred grief so strong it was better to be rid of him than cradle his bloodied remains?
did the infant fight himself? did he age always at odds with himself; his halves never truly whole? he hopes he wasn’t, that he was spared the loss of self; the fear that one may be welcomed over the other.
who will he lose when the inevitable comes? when he’s ripped apart again? simon? or ghost? is it better to be cursed with choice just like his mother or live with an aftermath chosen for him? does it matter if in the end, he convinces himself there was nothing of him left to lose?
his head lolls to the side and the wild buck of his chest slows. he watches johnny beside him, his face lax with the rare peace of sleep; his cheek squished against the pillow, his lips pursed as long breaths escape him.
johnny. soap. never torn asunder but two all the same.
he carefully reaches out and ghosts his fingers along the jagged scar on his chin. even in sleep, he presses into his bloodied touch. he’s never fled his half-flesh, never shies away from his gore as it spills unbidden from his cleaved torso. he holds on where his mother let him go; cups his stomach to hold his insides in place and never minds the blood that drips through his fingers.
simon will never let him become his own solomon and cannibalise himself. he will never let him question which half of him has more value; which pieces he can afford to lose before he’s cast aside.
ghost’s soap. simon’s johnny. his.
whole, in any incarnation.
#yall know the story of king solomon?#and the two mothers who claim a baby is theirs so he orders the baby cut in half so they can each have half of him?#well guess what woke me up out of a dead sleep and demanded to be written?#anyway roba showing simon clips of his mum on the news begging for the safe return of her boy#for the government to do something; /anything/ please she just wants her son back#just for ghost to dig himself out of simon's coffin and she can't bear to look at the man he's become#he's cold and afraid and hesitant and angry and in pain and so different from her little boy that it's just too difficult for her#he's a living breathing reminder that her simon didn't come back from the desert#and ghost has to live with the knowledge that his mum couldn't love him through anything#that maybe if he got himself out sooner if he was stronger or smarter or a better soldier... if he hadn't let simon die...#maybe he wouldn't have changed so much that she wouldn't look him in the eye and see a stranger#if you know anything about me by now you know i love the separation of the self and the person they become around others or bc of trauma#whether thats hizashi and present mic or simon and ghost its one of my absolute favourite tropes#and simon knowing hes become someone else and going home expecting to still be loved anyway?#just for this new version of himself to be rejected?#thats the moment he fractures into ghost#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#john soap mactavish#soap cod#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#ghost call of duty#cod mw2#cod mwii#save post
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stray thought but why didn’t they just let giles die in spiral? like... other than make buffy miserable what does he even do in the later seasons? I feel like it would've been better to just let him go out on a good note than waste away as a character
#absolutely let me know if I'm wrong please#but I've just finished s6 and what. what was the purpose of him even being there#in fact he WASN'T there!! his bitch ass self was in england!!!!#he was RIGHT when he said he wasn't needed but he hasn't BEEN needed since SEASON 3!!!!!#like could he not have just set some firmer boundaries with buffy. completely abandoning her was so extreme#plus I think killing him would've been like scary y’know?#cause the core scoobies are always safe in this show. in fact everyone BUT the core scoobies die around here#so to kill giles? big BIG deal!!#well actually I guess buffy dies a lot but she keeps coming back so idk if she counts exactly#me when I want all everybody to die#I realize I've also talked about how spike could've died within this season hahaha they say kill your darlings or whatever#also I get it was important that he killed ben for buffy but like being fr? I think xander and willow could've done it#for buffy? maybe. maybe. but for willow? I think xander would kill someone for willow. especially cause this guy is host of the hell god#and y'know willow would kill for willow. well tara but willow's love is a very selfish love so also for herself#anyways I think they could've done it they just didn't have to#and obviously spike would if he could not a question there#rupert giles#btvs#buffy the vampire slayer
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Have you ever noticed that pretty much everybody in Shakespeare's histories is an awful parent? Now you can rank them according to your tastes in (bad) parenting with my tier list maker:
I probably forgot somebody (please tell me if I did) and also all of the parent-adjacent characters are included according to my personal tastes (mostly because Falstaff does a LOT of (weird) parenting and deserved a spot and then pulled a bunch of other people along with him).
Here's mine:
#shakespeare#shakespeare's histories#tier list#richard ii#1 henry iv#2 henry iv#henry v#1 henry vi#2 henry vi#3 henry vi#richard iii#king john#justifications:#john of gaunt is really nice to henry in their appearance together. it's sweet!#richard duke of york may SUCK but he is pretty darn nice to his kids. one of very few people who doesn't constantly insult richard jr#margaret got moved down to b tier for bringing her kid along to watch her torture a guy to death. but points for the unique bonding activit#owain glyndwr is a good dad. lets his daughter marry an englishman!#everybody in C tier is trying their best i think#hal didn't *mean* to die before even meeting his son but he Did. i'm sorry.#cecily probably deserves f tier for constantly insulting her son but to be fair he *is* evil#everyone in f tier directly or indirectly causes the death of their child#except for bolingbroke#he just sucks#don't tell your son you wish you could replace him with someone else's son! and don't call him a degenerate!#no wonder hal replaces him with a weird drunkard.#the yellow characters are only designated as parents because my notes say their historical equivalents were#and yes my source for that is my annotations in a book that i wrote down probably two years ago now#PLEASE correct me if i'm being an idiot#or if i forgot anybody!#also can you tell that i haven't read king john?
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MAN I'm seriously so sad about season 2. Bc I wish act 2 had the same emotional impact on me as it appears to have on so many others. But rn I'm just somewhere between unable to care and actively annoyed by some of those writing decisions. Seriously the more I think about it the less I like it.
#act 3 come through please 🙏#I don't think it can salvage some of the things I have contentions with but still... please...#don't ask me about the silco vander flashback with jinxs + vis mom#or the bizzare choice to do so much of the storytelling through this weird music video format they've got going on#completely stripping it of the weight these plot beats could've had if they were... normal scenes#and also missing the point of how the music was used in season 1 and what made it so effective#bc it was complementary to instead of replacing the storytelling#seriously don't ask me about these things I will spontaneously implode on the spot#whyyyyy would they recontextualize season 1 like this with that flashback#to me it kind of ruins the character dynamics and themes in s1. it just makes me so sad you have no idea#also what even are they doing with Jinx rn for real#aaarghhhh just... so many things that are making me scratch my head#also I'm so terribly sorry but I could not care less about Isha sorry lol#like i get that its sad conceptually but she was such a non-character that i struggle to feel impacted at all#same with sky tbh. i thought her role in s1 was alright but there is so much emotional weight put on her now#in terms of her relationship to Viktor but that was barely established so it's weird to have her around#and clearly you're supposed to care but they haven't given me much reason to#isha and sky were non-characters just there to die to further the development of other characters#they didn't really have anything going on on their own and that's just a type of character and plot device that does nothing for me#also i thought the war between zaun and piltover + internal struggles in zaun bc silcos gone would be the main focus#but that stuff seems so sidetracked rn#also sorry i dont like what they did with vander and warwick either. that man should've stayed dead lol#it honestly just makes his death feel less impactful and i dont know what this is supposed to do for the story or the themes???#that just feels like a pointless plotline that is taking up time that could've been spent on other things#i just... i could go on like this for a while like there are so many things that just puzzle me#it's so weird considering how tight and thematically consistent season 1 was#let's see where act 3 goes but... i kinda have a bad feeling about it ngl#obv im glad others are enjoying it and this is just my opinion! also a lot of this are probs just my personal tastes anyway#arcane spoilers
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I desperately need Bonney to join the Strawhats. And it is not only because I want to see more of her and I like her dynamic with the crew, but also because I think that, despite obviously being a dangerous place for a kid, she has been a pirate by herself too. She has seen atrocities and clearly knows her way around pirate matters. But now she doesn't really have a reason to have a crew of her own... And I think she'd be safer/happier with them and figuring out what else she wants to do with her life instead of being constantly reminded of her past and given responsibilities she shouldn't have to handle.
And also I truly really really want to see her being loved by the crew and I think she'd form so many strong bonds there,,
#my pookie#also i want sanji to cook for her everything she asks for#no but seriously i think it'd be good let's adopt bonney please#ACTUALLY SHE SHOULD JUST. JOIN FOR A WHILE AT LEAST#CARROT STYLE CMON AT LEAST FOR ANOTHER ARC OR SMTH I WANT HER WITH THEM FOR LONGER#if egghead ends and we don't see her again i will die#jewelry bonney#one piece
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So guess who finally watched JJK
#I went from watching Dungeon Meshi earlier this month to watching JJK and I haven’t watched a shounen in literal years so#I can found dead in a ditch after being beaten bloody and raw holy shit#I like knew it would but dark but like Jesus fucking Christ on a cracker I was not expecting that#I still need to read the manga but like damn I need a moment after that#so far I can say JJK is in fact worth the hype and has consumed my soul#Yuuji Itadori my absolute beloved I love you so much I would die for you with zero hesitation#he’s my favorite character and I only want good things for him so so badly and I also want to torture him#I have a deep love hate relationship with Sukuna that kinda haunts me#Megumi is so funky I like him a lot#an absolute madman pretending to be the straight man in bits and no I will not be taking criticism on this opinion#kugisaki my girl you deserve more screen time please let her shine#nanamin you will also haunt me#I didn’t want to like Gojo I was like I am above simping for him and then I’m putting on the clown make up and THEN#They put him in a box just as I went goddamn it I am down bad for Gojo Satoru like COME ON#Anyway Suguru and his eye bags and depression and deeply rooted issues compelled me#Satosugu brain rot is in fact and real and can hurt me#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#shibuya arc#itadori yuuji#megumi fushiguro#nobara kugisaki#gojo satoru#geto suguru#nanami kento#satosugu#ryomen sukuna
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And then she threatens to kill him if he doesn't man up and say that while looking her in the eye (and then he apologizes while looking at her in the eye because he cannot be directly rude).
#my characters#they might all be adults but really they are also children - they are my children your honor i love them#imagine right and brent to the side and right saying wow damn cant believe blondie was told what i expected to hear my whole life#and brent saying he would take his life and then there is a pause and then he says ah wait that was more threatening than i intended#and right yelling to karen HEY BLONDIE I THINK BRENT JUST THREATENED TO KILL ME#and she yells back BUT I CANT CHOOSE BETWEEN YOU TWO THREATEN TO KILL PAUL OR SOMEONE ELSE I CAN SACRIFICE#and rick just relieved the focus is off of him so fast because he doesnt want to die by karens hands#and doesnt know she actually wouldnt kill him bc she would feel too guilty bc hes too nice and she has a small conscience#thats why please threaten paul i would love to kill paul it would be cathartic actually please let me kill paul#its a dnd au and she craves the murder and violence ok let her have this its not real#thinking about right and brent a lot lately and yet i didnt even draw them ...
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hi im back from reading....with a couple minutes lf trying to reconnect to my wifi (cus it disconnected right after i was goign to make an ask,and wont..connect after)
ahEM!! BAI HE IS WITHHER PARENTS NOW?? AWWW, HOW DOES SHE LIKE THE HELMET⁉️⁉️
anyway, real, hershey is such s good dogn:3 pat pats for her yuhuh
ALSOALSOSOSLSLSLSKSDDM XIUYING RAAAHHH, HOWS BRO DOING⁉️⁉️ totally shoukd vidit the philippines soon hshhshs 😋😋😋
RAAAHHH IT WAS AMAZING READING THIS CHAPTERRR 😭😭 BRAVO, BRAVO,, so sorry if thid is somewhat long omg
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#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#monkie kid macaque#lmk macaque#lmk baihe#lmk little girl#lmk hostess#monkie kid baihe#monkie kid hostess#monkie kid little girl#blue and violet#I think I've only vaguely referenced Xiuying's design on this blog#but here she is! in all her glory!!!#I mean she doesn't usually wear that outfit she usually wears a hoddie and jeans but she is on holiday mode#therefore she is making it her mission to become the pinnacle of a dad on holiday#wearing those tropical shirts and sunglasses#yeah the sunglasses are pineapples and so is her shirt- I just thought she would like pinapples- she's a pinapple on pizza guy by they way#anyways BAIHE HAS HER HAPPY ENDING INDEED#I... actually still need to figure out whether or not I want her to keep her powers#i left it vague on purpose because I literally couldn't decide what I wanted lmao#i am leaning towards letting her be free but idk lol#at least she has her parents and a helmet which is essentially just Macaque saying “here have this and please know I don't want you to die”#Hershey appreciates the pets#and Macaque stands by his point that the dog is being spoiled
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tumblr is literally a dead bloated horse we found on the beach and we're all poking it with sticks and slapping leaves on it. one day it'll blow up in our face and we'll find another dead horse but for now we just keep playing with it
#sjonnie.text#please don't get spooked by jv or anyone else. yes tumblr will be migrating her staff. we knew this for YEARS let's be real#but just because it's going to be a minimal crew does not mean it's going to die tomorrow. realistically 5 to 7+ years#and during that time one of us just needs to get rich to buy tumblr#text post#tumblr#tumblr discourse
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Something I love about ATLA is that it doesn't force the "forgive the villain" on all the characters. It's been left clear that Ozai is a bad person, and there's no chance of redemption; the only reason he's not dead yet is because Aang is a pacifist
The one episode where a character is supposed to forgive someone who has hurt them in the past is the one where Katara is off to kill a man (which, fair) and Zuko helps. In that episode, even if Aang is telling her to let go, she doesn't forgive him. She never will. But she spares him. Not because she thinks he doesn't deserve death (he does), but because she's not willing to continue the cycle of violence
Killing someone can have a very important impact in your entire being, mostly depending on who you are as a person. Aang would've never recovered from killing Ozai. Katara wouldn't be who she is now, had she taken her revenge on the man that killed her mother
And the best part of it is that Ozai doesn't deserve to die. Not in a "I'm defending him" way (ew), but in a "he deserves worse that than" way
Taking away his bending was the perfect punishment for him. He believed bending made you superior and he never cared enough to train something besides his bending. What a loser. Zuko and Azula wouldn't be restrained by something like that
He's alive. Nobody has forgiven him. Nobody ever will
#on a “ozai deserves smth worse than death” mood#which is. my everyday mood but we're not talking about that#read a fic where ppl were mad ozai was still alive#zuko clarified that he's still alive not only bc that's what aang wanted but bc death would be a mercy for him#that's the man who ruined everybody's life(s). you can't tell me we can just let him die like that#and they're not even torturing him. he's just in prison#but he's so fucking weak that not having his bending = torture#pathetic#honestly what did he even do? his entire family was better than him#zuko was better at any kind of fighting and he learned firebending from the fucking dragons#azula is. azula! she bends blue fire and is the best at lighting n stuff#iroh created a whole new bending technique and broke out of prison w no bending#ursa killed the fucking fire lord#i mean sure ozai can shoot lighting out of his hands. but so can iroh! so can azula!#his 14 year old daughter is better than him#she could kick his ass if she wanted#but that's her dad right there and the obssession she has w pleasing him is straight up unhealthy#man. poor azula#anyways back to the point: ozai is pathetic#loserlord indeed#atla#avatar the last airbender#fire lord ozai#zuko#aang#katara#azula#uncle iroh#avis' post#avis talks
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i really appreciate discourse on penelope featheringtons character but it also reminds me that some people dont understand that she's not supposed to be this amazing gracious person. shes flawed and loyal and stubborn and she's also, guess what - 18 years old! i cant think of one good decision i made when i was that young and she has so much pressure to be what shes not.
penelope is not a great person, and THATS THE POINT. she's flawed and makes many mistakes and in the end, were some of the things she did selfish? sure. does it make her the devil reincarnated? no.
people is a teenager that has two friends and is ignored by her family. she is 18 and on the marriage market. she doesn't have much say on how her future will turn out but she DOES have a platform.
penelope is doing what she can and protecting her loved ones the only way she knows how. is that a good way to deal with her issues? not at all. but she's not perfect and LW is the only way people hear her (eloise only listens to her occasionally). you can argue all you want about her not deserving colin but its not like she's publishing things that aren't true or would not have come to light later on.
the point i'm trying to make is that female characters shouldn't have to be angels for the audience to accept them. i dont see one word about anthony when he attempted to literally KILL his best friend in a duel, or when he tried to place his sister in an arranged marriage when she wanted to marry for love. anthony is flawed too but the fandom sees past that because he was protecting his sister. but then what was penelope doing? how is that easier to excuse and look past? was she not protecting eloise and colin from worse fates in the wrong way? you cannot pick and choose what characters you give leeway to. especially when it REEKS of misogyny.
women shouldn't have to be perfect for men to love them. same thing goes for anyone of any gender. i'm tired of female characters not receiving the same treatment as male characters who do the same things.
no one ever claimed that penelope was supposed to be a good person, in fact nicola coughlan has stated multiple times that penelope is not, and that is precisely the point.
i could write a whole essay on this but i will end it here. stop expecting female characters to be perfect in order to deserve any good things.
#penelope featherington#penelope featherington discourse#polin#netflix bridgerton#bridgerton#bridgerton s3#bridgerton season 3#penelope bridgerton#youre allowed to not like her just please be aware of why#im a penelope defender till i die#colin was a dick to say he would never court her not because he doesnt feel the same but because he told eligible gentlemen#like RIGHT after he told her how important she was to him#i love colin but hes not perfect either and thats why i like him#but people dont hate on colin like they do penelope#and it just reeks to me#anthony bridgerton was redeemed but lets not forget#he tried to place daphne in an arranged marriage#and he tried to kill simon#like literally aimed a gun at him
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Jasico Bingo Challenge: love letter
A sheet of paper, folded into thirds, dotted in places with what must be water and grass stains. The handwriting is legible in some places, and shaky in others. In the margins are small doodles of birds, clouds, trees, and other miscellaneous, abstract shapes, as if the writer’s mind kept wandering.
TO: Nico di Angelo
FROM: Jason Grace
Hey, Nico. If you’re reading this, something probably happened to me. Maybe I hit my head again and lost my memories, or something, and you went through my stuff to try and find things to remind me of who I was. Maybe this fell out while we were hanging out, one day, and you saw it was addressed to you and you picked it up. Maybe I died—
However you found this, I guess, surprise! :)
First thing’s first: I’m sorry for leaving. I know I begged you to stay, and then turned around and left, and I really hope you understand - I didn’t leave because of you. I needed to find Leo, and leaving with Piper was the easiest way to do that. I had to try and get him back.
I wanted you to come with, but you were still healing and things were going really well with you and Will. I hope things still are, in fact. Wherever I am, I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come, and how much I’m sure you continued to grow even after I left.
I really love you, man. I never got to tell you that, but you’re one of my best, closest friends. You mean so much to me. You showed me a side of the world that I never would’ve seen otherwise, and gave me a space to be myself, and I will never, ever know how I deserved that. How I deserve you.
Is that out of left field? Haha it definitely is. Sorry.
I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, Nico. I didn’t want to leave. I’m so sorry for leaving you. I’m sorry I had to go and I’m sorry it had to be me, but it couldn’t be her, Nico, it can’t be her, it can’t be. It has to be me.
It has to be.
Here, some of the words are smeared from the water marks. Lines cross through some words that have then been re-written, as if in after-thought the author realized they were too important to delete.
If you really are reading this, after the worst case scenario, I understand if you’re angry. I understand if you never want to think about me again, after what I’ve done. I’ll understand if you storm to your father’s palace and demand I be placed in the worst of the worst punishments for being so stupid.
Gods. Gods, Nico, I’m never going to get to tell you how I really feel. About all of this, about everything I’m going through, I’m never going to be able to tell you and that hurts. It hurts more than knowing I’m going to die, it hurts more than getting stabbed and poisoned. I’m going to die loving you and you won’t even know until it’s too late.
Maybe this is a stupid bad idea. Maybe I should let it die with me. Is it cruel, to tell you how I feel if I’m gone? Does this make me an awful person?
Shit. I think I’m an awful person, Nico. I’m awful and I’m selfish and I can never choose things for myself, it always has to be for the greater good, so this is it. This is as selfish as I can be. This is all I can be for you.
I want to see you on the other side. I want you to punch me for getting myself killed and hate me for being a hero and I want you to know that I didn’t want this but it needed to be me. It has to be me.
I’m still wrapping my head around it, but it has to be me, okay? So if I’m really gone when you’re reading this, okay, you have to let me stay gone. Please. If you get hurt, if you die, and it’s my fault, I could never—
Here, the letter abruptly stops. Then, it continues:
That’s all I wanted to say, anyway. That I love you. I love you in any way I can, and even if I’ve done it silently, and stupidly, from a distance, just know that it was there, the whole time. It’s still there, wherever I am. Dead, or lost, or whatever. I love you, Nico. I’m sorry.
-- Jason Grace :)
#jasicobingochallenge2024#love letter#tw major character death ment#tw suicidal ideation#i haven't read TOA so I don't really know what Went Down with this shit but I think Jason did journal-type letters to people#he wrote down whatever it was he wished he could say to them before he died#I think there's one to Piper about how much he loves her and wishes things could've been different for them#I think there's one to Leo where Jason pours his guts out about how much he hates him and needs him and wishes he hadn't died#(the irony of that is lost on him)#he writes one to Reyna about how he wishes they had more time to be friends again#He writes one to Hazel begging her to keep an eye on Nico. pleasing for her forgiveness because he knows she'll be so angry#one to Percy and Annabeth in a similar vein.#i thik Jason just had a lot of feelings that he never let himself feel until he decided to die for everyone#and in that moment his dams broke and he realized that he was never going to have the chance to be himself#not really#he was destined for this. he was destined to be the son of jupiter champion of hera sacrifice of olympus.#who knew the boy raised by wolves was really a lamb for the slaughter#ANYWAY. :)#pjo#jason grace#hoo#nico di angelo#jasico
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my kaycee hyperfixation has ruined my ability to open commissions on other sites.. my favorite artwork ive done in the past Year are all pieces of Her and i dont even want to use her as an example because shes so fucking gross..
#you are all used to my garbage but posting these pics i make elsewhere feels like stripping naked in public i will die of fucking shame#i cant just whip up commission quality pieces of other characters. not even my own ocs. let me out#(i dont actually have comms open rn please dontask)(unless you want me to draw her LOL)
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