#please don't tell me I'm alone in this

[giyuu-is-lonely7]

Not enough - Lookism Fandom

I seriously don't think, as a fandom, we hate Mitsuki enough. Especially Jake Kim fans or Big Deal fans. Like seriously, the bitch brainwashed Sinu, called herself Yeonhui, made a room that looked like Big Deals street, and when Jake and the others came to save him she told him ahead of time that bad people were going to take him away.

People just let this shit slide because she's pretty or the way PTJ draws her, it really reflects the name of the webtoon 'Lookism'.

Oh and let's not forget about Vivi, like did you guys forget what she did in her club. The drugs, the lying to those influences and feeding them cookies that were laced with a drug. And yeah, y'know what happened after they went unconscious. And people still like her?

Now, Samuel seo. I love-hate this man, but remember when he locked people in tiny rooms to film content. Did y'all become blind to that because of his big ol' pecs. Not to mention the guy's crazy (most lookism men are).

Y'know who all these people tie back to. Eugene. That MF. I don't think i've seen many people like Eugene but I haven't seen enough hate on this man. But a thing I do like about him, is that he's a crew head with a brain, not brawns.

Now before I get people saying, 'oh what about Jake's illegal betting' or 'Johan's fake bank account and blaming Jiho'. Yeah, all Lookism characters aren't meant to be perfect, I don't think there is even a character like that (apart from Seonhui Park <3) in Lookism. But as a fandom we recognise this, and understand the concept that Lookism has.

I could write an essay about most character in lookism, and maybe some day I will. But all I'm saying is I DON'T see enough HATE for these characters, now maybe I'm a little biased towards Sammy because I've got myself familiar with his character. But for the other three, I need to see more hate towards them

I know there are more characters in lookism that have done worse, or less bad things than them, but for me, I don't like these characters at all. You could never get me to like them.

[caeslxys]

Something I think is extremely interesting thematically when it comes to connecting what Downfall and the ideas it tackled to the overarching narrative of campaign three is that the things Downfall made a point to showcase of Aeor—Cassida, Hallis, the visual of an aeormaton proposing to her partner, the specific and intentional decision to shed light on a far from insignificant amount of the population being civilians or refugees—is that it plays in perfect parallel across from what is happening (and, really, has been happening) to the ruidusborn on Exandria in present.

Bear with me for a moment. Aeor is ultimately a city that was collectively punished for the decisions of its leadership. We could (and, judging by the amount of discourse around this particular topic already, probably will) argue about what the Gods’ motivation for all of this was—whether it be that they could not, in the end, bear to kill their siblings or that they were terrified at the prospect of mortality—for me it is a very healthy dose of both—but for this I am much more interested in the latter. They were scared. That, really, is the driving force behind both this arc and their role in c3 as a whole.

Why I point this out is: It is far more interesting to me, especially as we go back to Bells Hells this week, to dissect the Gods and their decisions not purely on sympathetic motivation alone but as beings in the highest seat of power in the highest social class in Exandria.

So, having established that the Gods (in relation to mortals) are more a higher social class than anything we could compare to our real life understanding of divinity and that Aeor was eviscerated largely because of their fear—what is the difference between those innocents in Aeor caught in the trappings of their autocratic government leadership and a divine war on the ground, and those of the ruidusborn being manipulated both by Ludinus and by the very thing that inspired such visceral fear in the Gods to start with. I would argue very little.

I think of Cassida, doing what she genuinely thought was right and good and would save people, her son, and the object of her worship—and how that did not matter enough to any of them to spare her because of the fear they held at the very concept of mortality. I think of Liliana and Imogen, one of which we know begged for the gods to help her or send her a sign for years on years, and how every single one of their largest struggles could have been avoided had the gods loved them, their supposed children, as much as they feared what they could be. I think of how the thing that did save Imogen, in the end, was a woman who herself existed in direct defiance of the gods will. I think of that young boy, sixteen years old, that Laudna exalted on Ruidus.

I think it’s completely fair to judge Aeor’s overall society as deeply corrupt—it was!—but its leadership and police force are not a reflection of every one of its citizens. Similarly, it is fair to judge the Ruby Vanguard as corrupt—it is!—but its multiple heads of leadership and even the god-eater further are not a reflection of every one of its members.

Notably, and what I think the Hells will latch onto, this did not matter to the Gods. It did not matter that Cassida was trying to help. She was still too much of a risk. Will it matter, what Imogen does? Will it matter, if that young boy is in the blast radius when they decide to take no further chances?

I’ve seen a lot of people say that the Hells will side with the gods and I don’t think I agree. Especially as Imogen has been scolded and villainized over and over for daring to try and save her mother—who herself has been seen by some as an irredeemable evil in spite of her drive being the exact same—her family—but when it’s the Gods it’s justified? When it’s the Gods, it’s sympathetic? Too sympathetic to criticize further than “they’re family”?

I obviously do not think the Gods should die or be eaten or what have you, and I certainly don’t agree with Ludinus (though I find him much more compelling than just a variation of hubris wizard), but when talking about the Gods in Aeor and in present it isn’t really at all about their motivation or their family. It can’t be. Too many people, including our active protagonists, lives have been effected for it to be as cut and dry as “they’re family”. These are your children. They are your family, too.

[beanghostprincess]

Something I think about a lot is the order in which the Strawhats joined, how that affects their relationships, and how we as a fandom perceive them (this is about the Romance Dawn trio and Sanuso, by the way).

Zoro and Nami were the first two to join Luffy. The Romance Dawn trio. Luffy's first mate and Luffy's navigator. Luffy's anchor and Luffy's compass. He would not know what to do if something happened to them. And of course he loves all the Strawhats. Of course he does. But there's just something about Zoro and Nami that it's personal and intimate in a different way. It's not that they're more important to Luffy, but they're their special people. Their main two. His specialest boy and his specialest girl. Whatever. The thing is that, if we consider this inside the East Blue crew, it just makes sense that Sanuso were so close at the start.

I'm always mentioning how much I miss pre-ts Sanuso because they had more scenes together, whether I referred to background silly scenes or important, character-driven ones. But it's quite literally because they were the only two left. Let me explain:

Sanji has this thing about not wanting to take up much space. Like, his whole personality is to serve and please others, and he isn't used to taking what he wants. Usopp is an anxious mess and he thinks he doesn't deserve to be where he is because he assumes the others are stronger and better than him. They just naturally feel out of place. And they're sharing a ship and an adventure with three other people that, apart from knowing each other before meeting them, they take up so much space in the world without a care. They're shamelessly taking what they want. Slicing people in two, stealing, becoming kings. That leaves Sanji and Usopp in a place of-- Not really loneliness, that's their family now and for once they feel like they belong somewhere but, y'know, they belong without feeling like they deserve it.

I think Sanuso works so well, too, because of their numbers. Usopp was the third one to join. Sanji the fourth. Usopp joined when the Romance Dawn trio was already a thing and he actually hesitated about joining them. And Sanji then met them when they were already like, an actual crew and not just some idiots (well, they are. But y'know, at least four people is better than just two). That thing about 'three's a crowd' and all that? Well, I think there's just some sort of barrier between the Romance Dawn trio and Sanji/Usopp. Not really because, again, they have their own bonds and it works in different ways and the East Blue crew is extremely intimate but please tell me you see what I mean. The Romance Dawn trio wouldn't be a thing if I wasn't right here.

So Sanji and Usopp bond for being the third and the fourth and I think the fact that they don't feel like they belong in the place they should feel at home the most just shows that they just... Feel like they don't belong anywhere. Except when they're together. They're alone together. I think that's why they work so well.

[meowmeowuchiha]

I have decided that Zane Flynt from Borderlands is the mysterious handsome rogue type but he fits the "mysterious" part in an atypical way.

He's mysterious not in the sense that you know nothing about him and he refuses to talk about it

But mysterious in the way that he talks about himself a LOT and you have a LOT of information about him and his past but everything he shares leaves you with far more questions than answers and idk I think that's wonderful

[buckingham-ashtray]

The Invisible Clubber........................ SMILING. CAN'T STOP SMILING. LIFE SO HAPPY. LOVE. LOVE LIFE. BEAT GETTING FASTER. CAN'T STOP SMILING. NOW JUST HARMONY. NO BEAT. MELODY. STOP MOVING. SMILE TO THE SKY. ALL STANDING STILL. BEAUTIFUL. NEVER BEEN SUCH HARMONY IN ALL HISTORY. WANT TO KISS EVERYONE. THEY WANT TO KISS ME. BREATHE IN. BREATHE OUT.................

Sebastian's Story.......... Sometimes I wonder what it'll be like to die. I'll find myself drifting off, staring at something, anything and I'll stop blinking. I feel my whole body slowing down... My heartbeat... And I wonder how long it'll be broken

*Sorry that I couldn't find the source where I got this from and have no idea when this was released. If anyone has the link I will be very glad to insert it!

[dreamlogic]

aye can i get a fuckin uuuhhhh

break. on my burger

[melit0n]

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[several-ravens]

so here are my categories updated in light of the recent events aka the end of season 1 (under the cut because it's still long af and i don't want to pollute dashes):

i have been made aware (by my friend, again) that these categories are based on fears, so:

fire:

episode 8, the contractor

episode 12, gerard keay at the hospital

episode 37, guy in the forest and milk bottles

pestilence (infestation, but cooler):

jane prentiss in general (worms)

episode 36, care home (flies)

madness (hypnotic patterns and fractals):

episode 3, not!graham's table? idk

episode 8, the contractor's dad obsessed with fractals

episode 38, homophobic vase

episodes 39, not!graham's table again? idk

bonus: episode 26, michael because

web (name-dropped by martin in episode 39, formerly spiders):

episode 16, arachnophobia

episode 36, zippo with web design that jonathan received

death:

episode 7, guy who met war

episode 11, black tendrils

episode 29, guy who plays faro

darkness:

episode 9, serial killer dad (there's a weird date inconsistency in this one)

stranger:

episode 1, anglerfish

episode 8, not!graham himself?

episode 10, vampires?

episode 27, bedroom doorknob

episode 28, anglerfish part 2 (yes i recognised sarah baldwin's name from episode 1, i'm better than jonathan /j)

episode 39, not!sasha herself?

hunt (name-dropped by jonathan):

episode 10, also vampires?

episode 14, voodoo fingers old lady ("some hungers are too strong to be denied")?

episode 15, cave diving?

episode 31, werewolf

fear of heights (?) (formerly infinity):

episode 21: parachute guy

lonely (name-dropped by my friend haha):

episode 13, graveyard and fog

episode 33, ghost ship and fog

ew (flesh/bones/meat/body/blood) (also probably two categories in a trenchcoat):

episode 8, the bleeding tree

episode 10, also also vampires?

episode 14, voodoo fingers old lady

episode 17, boneturner's book

episode 18, rotting meat nailed to the floor

episode 28, anglerfish part 2 (idk she wears her own skin like a glove and that's gross)

episode 30, abattoir

eyes (not a fear, btw, so i'm gessing fear of being watched?):

episode 12, gerard keay's lighter, and also gerard keay's tattoos

episode 23, mausoleum in germany

episode 39, jonathan feeling observed

claustrophobia (?):

episode 2, casket?

episode 15, cave diving?

episodes i have no idea where to put:

episode 4, ex altiora

episode 5, trash bags (probably multiple categories depending on the trash bag)

episodes 19 & 20, priest (probably multiple categories as well, maybe a bit of madness and a bit of ew)

episode 24, red organ and puppets (i will not let my own fear of clowns and dolls bully me into making a shiny new category just for them)

episode 25, cult roommate (could be lonely, could be darkness, idk)

episode 35, corridors (all of the categories at once)

[bookshelf-in-progress]

I want to make "Shadowstruck" an Inklings Challenge story so bad, and there's no way I'll be able to finish even part of it in time.

[chiarrara]

okay....am I crazy or-- Kirara's a trans girl, right? She's a girl. And for some reason gege (or the translators idk) are just intentionally misgendering her in the narrative?? Like I'm looking, I'm seeing her, and she's a girl. I'm not the crazy one here right? They're gaslighting me. Right?

[dragongirluvula]

just found out about the hdg and I definitely don't vibe with it. It almost captures my interest but the hard stance opposition towards exploring the implications that come with a self designated benevolent empire that can solve the inherent problems that come from cultures who are supposedly inferior in some way by nature really like, both rubs me the wrong way and feels like a disservice to the setting itself.

idk just looking at every empire in history it's like, that's literally what they all say and how they justify colonizing others. It's kinda really fucking hard to just take at face value. If imperialist colonizers who just happen to be legimately nicies to the people they colonize is like, ur thing then absolutely jack off to it I'm not here to judge that, just like, own that I guess? But if your argument for them is just that narratively speaking it's just true then my interest in your setting, horny or otherwise just does not exist.

The contradiction of the setting also bothers me, 25-45% of any given species will be domesticated on average but the space between that and rebellion just doesn't seem to be accounted for in the wiki, what is the life of someone not opposed to the empire but also who doesn't volunteer for domestication? How much of their own cultures are retained within the empire? It really seems like the only option for any autonomy in the setting is rebellion but that's also only ever seen as a bad thing.

I just get caught on the whole "affini are imperial" and "affini are benevolent" thing in the axioms section of the hdg wiki. My mixed race ass cannot really look at an invading empire calling itself the good guys without my own personal baggage about it weighing in, ya'feel?

[stargayzerlily03]

Reblog if you still ship Donald x Odin / Donald x Uno! I wanna see how many of us are still here! 💚💙

[themarsbar]

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[beevean]

I went to a birthday party yesterday partly to "change environment" and spend time with people, but I came home antsier than ever and with even less desire to socialize

I guess part of therapy is learning how to see the line between "stepping outside of the comfort zone to improve" and "harming yourself"

[andresmounts2]

I'm a high masking/low support needs autistic and I genuinely don't think living alone is in my best interest.

I'm not saying that I can't, and I'm not saying that I'm not capable of being independent, but I think it's important to acknowledge that not all autistic people can live without at least some assistance from others.

I'm concerned that I won't be able to drive, and since most places don't have walkable cities I'm gonna be screwed. Frankly, I don't have a good reaction time & I will freeze up if I get stressed. I literally have bad reactions to being the front seat with someone else behind the wheel.

I'm concerned that I might forget to feed myself or buy groceries. Sometimes I forget to feed myself or I don't eat enough. I also have sensory issues & I fear that being left to feed myself will worsen my diet.

I struggle with social interactions. I often freeze up and don't know how to properly communicate with others. My responses may be awkward or socially unacceptable. Which could be dangerous because I'm a black trans guy.

[tenwhiteandalusians]

and then no one said anything about the fact that if i watched ONE MORE episode tenax pulls a "i'm not angry i'm just disappointed i'm hurt" about scorpus signing with the white faction.