#phisycs

[winterswake]

DOCTOR WHO — The Zygon Inversion

[samsno1]

i just want a long hug from sam winchester is that too much to ask for

[johnwatersvhs]

downloading the audiobook of im glad my mother died

[pinemartenstudios]

The

[sheila--e]

ID: tags that read "#if no one understands me i know tumblr user willgrahamscock will get it" /end ID.

reaching the point of hyperfixation where I can no longer engage with it due to the nausea that I experience at the mere thought of seeing it on my screen is the closest I’ve ever been to being diagnosed with female hysteria

[camcamino]

this is the curse of being the only member in your family that doesn't like STEM

[cursed-rat-of-homosexuality]

also prepare for a lot of Severance and Leverage because apparently I'm also into that now

[girlbossagenda]

HOW TO ROMANTICIZE YOUR LIFE PT.2

Here's the highly requested come backk, how to romanticize your lifeee!! Are you getting tired of the everyday life? Grab your friend, your cat and favorite snacks, it's time to add spice to your bland life!

୨୧Create a band!୨୧

Everyone wanted to be part of those cool 2000s band, like Roderick Humphrey from diaries of a Wimpy kid, so why not making friends, or become friend with the band kids!

୨୧Make your own site/blog୨୧

This is especially for my 2014 Tumblr coded girlies and the girlies that wanted to be a fashion magazine author, you just need to decide what you want to talk about! Do you want a gossip tea page? Do you want a spotted? Or a self improvement one? You decide!

୨୧Write poetry/songs୨୧

This is for my romantics out there! If you can, go in nature and write poetries or songs take a moments to yourself and express not only your feelings but also your creativity on paper throught your words.

୨୧Start a collection୨୧

Summer it's the best season to start collecting stuff, seashells, rocks, crystals, stamps, swinsuits,stickers,albums,dolls,manga,cards etc..if you ever get bored of your collection you can sell it or use it for DIYs

୨୧Trow a slumberparty/sleepover୨୧

I never went to a slumberparty, but they seem so much fun! staying awake with your friends till the first sunlights, stargazing, gossiping and crazy storytimes! They don't even have to be your friends, they can be your cousins or your siblings!

୨୧Make a mixtape୨୧

This is so old school, but it seems like a fun way to pass time, it's like making a playlist just phisycally! You can choose if you want to do it on a cd or an actual tape.

Here's the second part for my "how to romanticize your life"!! If you want you can find the first part here , as summer it's coming I'm gonna try to post more guides and answer my inbox!, stay tuned cause I'll make sure to make the most about this time and to give you more fun props! xoxo gorgeous

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[wookiecookiesfactory]

I think the reason why I like merope so much is because she a female character that I rarely come across, I guess she counts as a villain but so often female villains are made, by the fandom or the writers, to be girlbosses who have a rightious strike to them (motivated by revenge, they were wronged in the past) and in the rare case they are actually sadistic they have cool displays of power, their evilness is wicked, they are power hungry.

Merope on the other hand has none of that, she is basicaly an slaved girl, her motivation is living a normal life she never had and scape the (phisycal, mental and implied sexual) violence she is has been submited to, her desires are typicaly femenine and domestic, she wants a husband and baby but because you cant twist her actions into something badass it taps right into horror territory, "I support women's wrong" sentiment only goes so far.

Its a strange feeling and I like that!

[fernlessbastard]

okay so a headcanon

Quackity does pole dance, but Wilbur instead of only seeing it as something sexual, he mostly sees it as some sort of art like ballet, something gracefull. Of course, sometimes he gets aroused and he always is blushing, but he is usually just blushing from looking at Quackity doing sonething he sees as so dificult.

Wilbur admires Quackitys habilities, and sometimes Quackity tries to teach him a bit, and after sometimes Wilbur learned just a bit, like how to climb the pole, how to go down (wich i think he learned a sometime after learning to climb, so usually Quackity would have to help him get down, and now Wilbur sometimes Wilbur acts like he cant is "afraid of the heights" and he needs Quackitys help, just so Quackity would carry him down) and like really simple postures, but its nothing near how professional Quackity is, espcially since Quackity does phisycal things daily and Wilbur just does that when he is with Quackity while Quackity is doing something physical

Ok so

I love this as a concept, and the first part is absolutely true

BUUUUUTT - and here's some random Fern trivia - I actually do pole, and I'll be honest, Wilbur is not learning to climb without determination. The very beginning your skin hurts like an absolute B I T C H. Like, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying he couldn't do it - it's not impossible, obviously - but if it's just him learning a couple tricks, then he's not gonna learn to climb, especially if we go with the hc that his body isn't in the best shape post revival

Also he'd have to jump down and have Q catch him, cause I can't imagine the amounts of leg and abs strength it'd require to go down a pole while holding someone else in your arms--

Also pole isn't that high off the ground, and always during practice you'll have a mattress underneath, so jumping off even from a higher point is usually safe. And before climbing you learn to sit, and alongside that you pick up on how to safely jump/slide off a pole from lower heights

But like in all fairness I'm being mostly pedantic, cause pole is my favourite sport ever, and I had to temporarily give it up recently, so now I'm hanging onto any chance to talk about it lmao--

Anyway I'd say he probably just leans a couple simple spins

Holyshitilovepoledancingsomuchineedtogetbacktoitasap

Either way anon kissing you on the lips for giving me a chance to talk about pole dancing

[yey56]

Villainous x chill/stoic but experienced reader

Reader has been working for BH Org for 6 years before the rest of the crew so they have seen things and been through stuff, although they appear chill as hell and is unfazed to the horrors and freak show of the house.

DR FLUG:🧪

When he first crashed his plain in the manor you were making yourself some coffee after a whole night of work, so when the crashed happened all of your cup of coffee ended up spilled in the floor; all of this followed by you bosses curses and another individuals screams.

Against your better judgement, you decided to go to BH office so when you entered in the room you found you boss choking some man with a bag in its head?

The guy managed to blabber in the midst of this mess that he was a scientist and that he got lost so out of boredom you proposed to keep him as the evil scientist of the organization.

Miraculously the BH accepted and made him (threatened him) to sign the contract and expelled you both out of his office.

You greeted him and took him to a little tour so he could know how to navigate inside if the manor.

You both get along really well because you don't cause to much trouble thanks to your chill nature and because you've both been there for long. 💪

Since you are friends, is normal for Flug to make you coffee for the both of you and viceversa.

Has to hear you horror story's from your years prior to him in the manor.

Low-key looks up to you, I mean, lasting so long in that manor is admirable after all.

DEMENCIA:��

(I headcannons that dem is a flug experiment so she basically was born in the manor as well as 505)

Both you and flug were already there when she obtained consciousness so she just assumed you both worked there already.

In the moments she is wandering in flugs office and in some general areas she suddenly notice a picture of you shaking hands with a smiling Black Hat in which he's helding a dagger to you back and you're with a relaxed yet somehow nervous look.

She directly asks you about your time in the manor before them and how can you seem so chill when Flug is at the constant verge of a cardiac arrest. 😰

Overall she's doesn't really give a shit about that aspect of you, maybe sometimes wants you to tell her some stories or aspects of BH so she can seduce him more effectively.

And of course she expects from you all the context AND GOSSIP of the most recurring. clients.

BLACK HAT:🎩

You've lasted longer that he expected, he's not complaining though, you've proven over the year that you do you work well and you are really tranquil so you're not really annoying.

Tolerates you way more than the others, he's already used to you and your antics so it doesn't bother him as much.

You have been working for him all along for 6 years before Flug broke in (accidentally). So he knows you can be trusted with managing the manor when he's out destroying realities.

Sometimes he lets you to have the honour of doing you paperwork next to him and SOMETIMES he will bless you with conversation✨.

Of course hes still harsh with you, I mean we're not delusional but definitely less harsh than with the others but still you get you're share.

He likes you chill attitude, almost stoic; you're non existent reaction to the freak show that is being around him make you come out as a ruthless villain.

He doesn't admit it but he grants you more free time than the others. You have 1:30 free hours a day, veteran luxuries.😉

Whenever he makes you appear in his office he does it in a simple way like glitching you out and in of existence or just making you appear near, unlike with the others you bones and phisycal health are not threatened every time he calls you. (A win is a win 🤗)

At you first year at the manor he always said something insulting towards you (much like he does for Flug now) he stopped quickly after noticing you didn't gave a flying f*uck.

Now he doesn't insult you that much, overall he's way more polite to you than with the others.

505🥞:

Much like Dementia he wasn't aware at first about your time in the manor and since you don't brag because you're always minding your business it was already late when he finally was aware of it.

He likes being with you and Flug when you guys are having coffee (he doesn't drink coffee, but you guys make him some milk with cookies)

When he accidentally breaks something cleaning he reaches out for you to either cover him or help him hide it from the boss. 😚

Makes you cakes as a way of thanking you for helping him afterwards.

Listens to you when you are telling Demencia the gossip of prior years of the house and when you tell them to him as a bed story. 😴

You once showed him all the photos you've made about your time in the manor: photos you've made with the people you have to get information out of, of course they were all tied in a chair; or when the boss had to drag you out of the underworld because you died and he didnt let you do so because part of you contract consisted on not dying until he allowed it.

Of course 505 ended up traumatised because of those cuestanable photos.

[conscbgb]

Can we change the "wounds trend" in BL??

You are an adult with a micro wound on your finger: YOU DON'T NEED TO ACT LIKE IT HURTS LIKE HELL AND ANOTHER ADULT MAN TO HELP YOU LIKE YOU HAD A MAJOR DAMAGE!! ENOUGH! STOP THIS BS! 😂🤣

Writers should find smarter ways to have their characters have their first phisycal interaction...

And yes...at the moment I keep watching just to see how JJ and Methas rs will evolve

I can't get involved with Plawan and Aob rs because the way P characters is portrayed...he seems too much...silly and superficial and I'm not able to be involved in their rs...just my opinion, ok 😉

[joltai-showa]

fic notes, From Queen to a Pawn, chapter 8 edition!

I dunno where did the entire day go lmao, I swear to god I blinked and it was already middle of the night, but I did went to check out a major research innovation laboratories cluster which was pretty fun, really fascinating what is being developed for prosthetics field. Couldn't join the work dinner with the others cuz I wanted to decorate my flat for New Year + had to cook some stuff before it all went bad, which is where my evening magically vanished lol. The tree did come out pretty cute, so I'm pretty satisfied.

Anyway, yapping about life stuff is over, let's get back to your guys' favorite yapping topic: Obito's suffering😘

(yes that's what he looks like in "Eclipse" ahaha)

- chapter's title: obviously, "Eclipse" refers to a natural phenomena that occurs whenever the moon blocks the sun's light from the Earth's point of view by being directly in the way between the sun and the planet

- and by this point I think it should be pretty obvious that this chapter is explicitly tied to the name of the entire series: "Body and Soul, Sun and Moon"

- I have seen certain interpretations of this title as Deidara being the Sun and Obito being the Moon, however, as you might have guessed, this is incorrect. "Body and Soul" is the part that refers to Obito. Maybe one day I'll write down exactly why is that in greater detail, but for now the only thing that is important is: Obito's trauma regarding losing half of his body, looking like a chewtoy for a bobcat, the reality being hell, him physically being stuck in it, while what he really wants and dreams of is the illusion. I don't think that I currently do a very good job of working the with whole "Soul" thing at this point in the series, mostly because "Mind" is more appropriate rn. Oh well

- but back to "Sun and Moon": yes, Deidara is indeed the Sun in the title, but the Moon refers to none other than Rin. No matter how passionately I hate canonic Obirin, one can not attempt to write Obito inside the canon universe without his love/obsession with Rin

- Kishimoto really managed to outdo himself with these two, because not only is Rin not a character (a cardboard cutout has a more consistent character traits than whatever the fuck she is), but also managed to make Obito both a terrible human being and a character. And these are two different things on Kishimoto's part: obviously, being the leader of Akatsuki and the mastermind behind like 80% of the shit going down in modern Naruto history, adult Obito that we meet in the story is an abhorrent man that is directly and indirectly responsible for countless horrific crimes and no amount of flashbacks to "uwu cutie patootie boi who dreamet of bekoming a hOkAgi❤️❤️❤️❤️" can ever excuse and explain that piece of dogshit that was supposed to be his "redemption arc". Seriously, the only thing that this man makes me feel in canon whenever I see him getting fucked over during the finale of Fourth Shinobi World War is "awww, you're having a bad day?🥺 I hope it gets worse!😊🙏 I hope you'll suffer far more than all of your victims combined🥳🥳"

- but that obviously only touches on Obito as a man, not as a character, and, surprisingly, even after giving him a full-blown flashback stretch of several chapters, him being the main villain for the series for like 250 (?) chapters out of the total 700 and getting "redemption arc"... Kishimoto still did not manage to produce anything coherent or even decent. I still wanna write down an extensive post regarding all of the issues canon Obito has, but for now I'll just say that he as a character is just terrible, mostly because his motivations are so fucking bad. Kishimoto didn't want to bother giving him anything beyond "I feel nothing"/"World is hell" + he literally phisycally couldn't as anything darker than the Rin death scene massacre would raise serious questions from the readers about why THE FUCK is this guy of all assholes is getting such a lazy "redemption arc", so at the end of the day Obito's motivations fall onto 2848927484 phrases on the level of iam14andthisisdeep about the state of the world and his love for a character whose defining feature in the plot is being Obito's love intrest🙂awesome stuff Kishi

- anyway, as I've mentioned here and there, as far as BSSM au is concerned, I will be changing both Obito's and Rin's characters. With Obito it's kinda already there and just me doing what I believe to be realistic about a man as bitter and traumatised as him. Also getting rid of the whole "I feel nothing" thing, because this is just Kishi's lazy writing to not deal with any of the things concerning Obito's relations with other people from that 17 YEARS LONG PERIOD OF HIS LIFE, so he's just gonna be yapping about feeling nothing, which is exactly what he wants to be (of his own volition + what Madara and Zetsus want of him). Rin being dead is a bit harder to show (LMAO), but I have some stuff in mind to give some meat to the skeleton of this character, so to speak.

- Rin and Girldara are two of Obito's crushes and, in a sense, roads with different outcomes. In the beginning (which is where we are now) they are also desires of Obito's soul and Obito's body respectively. I'm planning on having him excuse his attraction to his Akatsuki partner as "it's just physical urges, it doesn't matter, she's just something from this world, all of this belongs to this world, and it'll all be gone when the ideal world comes"

- Rin, in my opinion, has a lot of imagery assosiated with the moon as far as canon concerned. Not only does she die under the full moon, she is also Obito's ultimate goal at the end of this wonderful thing called "Eye of the Moon". I believe that even the 14 opening (Tsuki no Ookisa) of Shippuden directly shows her dead body's connection to the full moon. So, making her the "Moon" in the title was pretty obvious move.

- Deidara, on the other hand, is just a little sun bunny😙that's simply off the way she looks: lively, loud, hair bright as sunlight (regardless of the horrors of her past and current life💀). I wasn't planning on getting rid of the whole Rin thing, so it was pretty natural to kind of put them on the opposite sides as Sun and Moon

- also I find it incredibly funny that the name of the organization that both Deidara and Obito belong to is the... "Dawn" (yes, that's the translation of "Akatsuki" as it is written in the manga. The sounds in the word can be separated into "Aka Tsuki" which means "Red Moon", but this is moreso a coincidence and a pun on Kishimoto's part). Which is. You know. When the time rolls over from the night with the moon and onto the day with the sun😁

- anyway ENOUGH YAPPING ABOUT THE TITLE GODDAMMIT. and yes "Eclipse" refers to that scene when Obito starts seeing Rin as he holds passed out Deidara, as the Moon kind of got in the way of the Sun

- "Gritting his teeth tighter, Obito repeatedly attempts to locate Zetsu, no doubt in his mind regarding the thing's intentions."

The entire first half (?) of the chapter Obito is trying to find Zetsu spying on them... and Zetsu isn't even present😁😁😁😁 Yes, as the omnipotent entity of the writer as I am, I confirm right now that no cacti or weird shadows of a miserable Uchiha man followed our livebirds in this chapter. Obito's paranoia regarding that will be adressed in later chapters, maybe even in the next one, but he is playing a carefully for no one, because Zetsu isn't there and Deidara has bigger issues on her mind

- that doesn't mean that Zetsus didn't have a plan in motion for these events🤭it's just that they didn't need to be present and risk being discovered to get a confirmation of their suspictions😁😁😁😁again, stuff for later chapters

- oh and one last thing about Zetsu before we continue with the chapter: I've already been dropping mentions of Deidara's left arm festering back in chapters 6 and 7

from "Dead or a lie":

from "Unexpected discoveries":

now as for whether Zetsu knew that it wasn't Deidara's severed right arm on the ground that was rotting, but rather her left elbow is an open-ended question😁

- and yeah regarding her wounds: in the manga Deidara kind of immediately loses everything below his upper arm, meaning no hand and elbow

(chapter 249)

I slightly changed her wounds in the fic to accomodate the... necessity for something to get amputated🙂 so in FQTP Deidara loses only her hand, the elbow rots away due to infection, and in the end she ends up with the same scars as her canon counterpart, meaning Kakuzu's threads going midway through her upper arm

- and yeah Kishi you wanna explain why the fuck Deidara just doesn't fucking die in the beginning of Shippuden? jesus fucking christ, got his arm crushed by Gaara's sand (pretty sure not sterile), whatever the fuck remained was hanging there with the remains of the cloak (surely not sterile), then he yoinks Gaara from the village, walks on foot from Suna to the hideout in another fucking country (????WHY WON'T YOU FLY DUMBASS), seals Shukaku for THREE FUCKING DAYS before yoinking Gaara again and fighting Konoha, but now with NO ARMS at all. A ninjutsu specialist and a ranged fighter btw. And then he goes on a stroll around the forest looking for his arm. WHAT IS ACTUALLY WRONG WITH YOU???? CAN YOU CHILL FOR FIVE FUCKING SECONDS???? OMFG DUDE'LL HAVE A NUKE DROPPED ON HIS HEAD AND SURVIVE AT THIS POINT

- ahem. so. yeah. Deidara almost dying from infection? my attempt at trying to tone down that black air force energy that Kishi created for this character in the Kazekage Rescue arc, because some things are simply too absurd

- I posted about this on here about certain research I was conducting for this chapter and yeah that was about Deidara's condition. What has happened to her left arm is commonly known as wet gangrene and myiasis (that's the scientific name for getting maggots😘😘😘😘😘). Surprisingly there's actually maggot therapy for different gangrenic wounds because the larva of certain species of flies will actually eat only the dead tissue, leaving the living tissue unaffected. That still involves putting maggots in your wounds though

- really don't recommend googling either of these conditions unless you want to see people with blackened parts of bodies and tiny white insect larvae inside someone's wound🙂

- anyway the gangrene stuff has been planned in advance, but I was not sure about the maggot part, so I checked and yes, the most common way to get it is to have an open wound in some very hot and humid climate. I'm too lazy to pull the Naruto World map for this post, so you'll need to open the pinned post on this blog if you don't know the general stuff about it, but based of the most extreme climatic points for it (with something like Land of Snow in the north and Land of Wind with its desert in the south), I think it's fair to interpret Naruto world as somewhat Northern Hemisphere situated? if that makes sense. meaning that Land of Rivers being next to Land of Wind is pretty hot and humid (there's literally a long ass river in canon by Akatsuki's hideout + also Deidara sits in some fucking cave for 3 days straight), sooooo... yeah, who would have seen this coming *gasp*

- and one last funny fact about my life: so I posted this chapter on Friday, and following Tuesday I had my regular Chinese classes, and our study group has like an absolutely insane range of girls from different profession, because somehow we've got me the data scientist, a girl who is currently studying back at uni that I just finished, but for something like a business degree, a lawyer girl, a girl working in agriculture and a nuclear engineer of all people, but most importantly a girl who is studying to be a doctor and already works as a nurse (which translates to "she is the same age as me but to get her degree she has to study like another 5 more years"). And as usual midway through the Chinese class we start chatting about normal girl things like SEWING BACK SEVERED LIMBS. And she actually said that the limit for a severed arm to be reattached is just 6 hours, after this it is considered infected and dead

- for reference I believe I've set the time between Deidara and her right arm's departure to be about 24 hours lmao. so realistically she should not be getting this arm back either. but realistically she should have also died from shock back in Suna, so some of the realism is thrown out of the window to accomodate Naruto world's batshit crazy stuff. let's just say her right arm is alright thanks to some weird DNA changes thanks to being an active chakra user and a descendant of a major shinobi clan😁I mean the arm was lying there for just a day, it's not as bad a walking around an open wound for almost a week🙂

- also I was pretty spot on with most of Deidara's symptomps even before finishing the research, except for one thing and that is pain actually going away after the infection kills the nerves in the limb. so in the released chapter she doesn't feel anything in it (and now it's just the rest of her body screaming in pain because low on chakra + got beaten up + didn't eat or drink for days + the whole blood loss thing, so she is practically getting a first row experience into what is it like to have all of your organs shut down), but in the plan that I did for this chapter Deidara actually still felt some pain in her arm, so Tobi asks her to rate her current pain on scale from one to ten and Deidara says something like three. Obito is kind of relieved but still sus of her condition then asks how did it feel to have her arm ripped away and then this dunderhead replies with four or five and Obito just goes

😁fun stuff that didn't make it to the final version

- now onto "hey, that happened before and caused this!" part of the notes: so why the fuck Deidara's condition deteriorates so quickly after an entire day of strolling around and hiding in the bushes from possible ambushes? well, the answer is: the strangulation scene!

- I imagined that she's already pretty low on energy by the time she finds Tobi and Zetsu, but she keeps herself stable by simply conserving her energy at any opportunity. However, certain someone's yapping pissed her off so badly she does a very stupid thing and attacks them. This entire physical exertion moment is what kicks off what follows in this chapter. I believe that I even mentioned that she is struggling to stand up after trying to kill Tobi. so, er, thanks, Obito?

- and now she is simply on a clock before she'll pass out in forest because ain't no way she is making it to Ame in that condition

- another major downwards turn happenes when Deidara starts vomiting and falls over, no longer able to walk: if you notice, she actually just seconds before that rapidly turned around two times, angry that Tobi is trying to stop her from walking to Ame, but accidentally going the wrong way. She was already feeling pretty sick, and this movement is the final nail in the coffin for her poor empty stomach. so, er, thanks, Obito?

- His much wider gait allows him to quickly close the gap between him and the Akatsuki member, however Tobi never allows the distance to fall below some respectable ten or so meters

I actually mention through this walk how the distance changes between the two of them, Obito is thinking about his 927482838 things, while he is actually getting closer and closer to Deidara, first it's 10 meters, then it's 7, then 4, until he catches up to her, but not because Deidara wanted to slow down

- As the branch that Deidara previously avoided hits Obito in the chest and finally breaks in half

just me having fun with their height difference😁Deidara is at best Obito's chin level, so this is a thing that could happen

- I explained it quite a bit in the comments under the chapter, but there's a number of factors going for Obito not realizing what is wrong with Deidara: his paranoia about Zetsu, his dick still wanting some explanation to the events in "Hell", him losing touch with understanding the processes of human body because he has been that isolated from others for years, him assuming Akatsuki members won't die to some wounds and his assumption that Sasori did something about Deidara's left arm

- Besides, even with her current wounds, she has been trained by Iwagakure, so she would have a higher resistance to low-level and medium-level genjutsu

I'm trying to balance here what is known and unknown about Deidara's past, and I think it should be a common knowledge that Iwagakure has some special training in place against genjutsu (considering how broken they are), and Deidara, being Tsuchikage's student, would have to go through it, if not something tougher🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭

- "Stop being so fucking daft and turn away already!" Deidara switches between passive irritation and angry outburst as quickly as her artworks go up in smoke."

So, in regards to Deidara's current mood: she is pissed at Tobi for watching her at her weakest. Like, wanna murder and bury your body right here pissed, but doesn't have enough strength to do it for the fear it'll make her feel worse. As far as Iwa's modern (I guess Mu and Onoki originated?) philosophy is that weakness is unacceptable under any circumstances. Showing weakness is crushing your pride, showing weakness is showing your worthlessness, and this cult of pride is being instilled in shinobi kids since young age. Not that people in Iwa don't naturally think very high of themselves

- "Obito's ears certainly felt hot even before Deidara started to sigh and cough while she continued to satisfy her urge somewhere at his hand level."

And another thing that I made a point to include in the first half of the chapter that goes away in the second with Deidara's quick descent into the afterlife - Obito's paranoia about Zetsu watching him and Obito's horny at the smallest things involving her, such as her drinking water. After our babygirl throws up, Obito doesn't think of the double trouble again for the remainder of this chapter.

Not only that, but Obito actually gets to undress and touch her body which would have awakened a rabid wild hog in him previously. I've actually changed Deidara's clothing a bit in the fic (all the way back in LTFG)

☝️exhibit of Deidara's clothing underneath Akatsuki cloak

to be completely honest I kind of disliked his top half of the design for years at this point. The color of the top is omega ugly and doesn't look good on him, and while practically everyone wears some mesh thingy in the manga, I can not concieve a practical reason for that. Either that's just pretty clothing (which is... why would an Akatsuki member wear something that doesn't help in combat?) or it's supposed to be some sort of body armor, but a) doesn't look to be that sturdy + Deidara rips it off his chest with ease b) it would just add weight to a ranged fighter who would, you know, rather avoid an attack on the vital organs rather than get hit and try to protect him with something.

So Girldara actually wears just a simple black top on her upper torso, no mesh or anything. Here's a photo of how I approximately imagine it looks:

Simple, doesn't restrain movement, comfy, all of which would have been pretty important for a nukenin like her. The cloaks, I think, would be enough to protect against the weather and temperature, so there's no need for her to dress anything beyond the pants, her belt bags and a top.

(and if you are wondering if she wears bra beneath it, well... I would say that no?🤣 ahahhahahaha. It would kind of get in the way and she isn't "endowed" enough to have to wear one to support her back🤣 but let's allow Obito to discover this fun little fact)

- "The eyelashes on her only visible eye shake as she gazes at Tobi in a stupor-like state, he is not even sure if she understands who he is at the moment."

an unexpected complaint, yeah, but I keep forgetting that Deidara's left eye is covered with a scope, so Obito can't actually see her eyes plural. I do remember that Obito has only one eye, but Google docs keep trying to fix both Deidara's eye and Obito's eye to plural🙄🙄🙄

also I often forget which side of Zetsu is which. Because Obito's left eye is gone, while Deidara's left one is covered by hair/scope, I constantly think that Black is the left half, when in reality it's the opposite💀💀💀💀

- "But Tobi thinks it looks okay! For a... well... limited edition limb. Sorry! Tobi's sorry! Please don't hit me, I'm just saying whatever comes to my mind!" Deidara simply makes an irritated grunt in reply, keeping her eyes closed."

If you haven't noticed, throught the entire "examination" Deidara keeps her eyes closed. She is trying to get back to her senses. But in the process she stops expecting seeing Tobi prancing around her, so when she does open her eyes, it's hard for her to focus and see things around her, her vision is getting blurry, and because she can't see clearly (and well whatever is on her mind) she freaks out

- a mild spoiler but what causes her to freak out is the color of Obito's mask. Certain someone from her past used to wear something orange and that set her off.

- I actually got around to designing this someone and I think I did a pretty good job getting them from my mind out onto the 3D model! Obviously, not showing it right now, but just keeping updated that some characters are already in the process of being developed

- okay but something actually drove me fucking nuts with the whole examination scene. so I finish writing Obito looking over her right arm, deciding that it looks okay enough and choosing to put something around it to prevent her from bleeding out later and kind of decreasing the necessity of her keeping up the chakra blocks, right? so I go open the dictionary for the word describing that thing to put around her arm and what I find is

tourniquet????

this feels like a fake word. like somebody made it up and placed it in the dictionary for funsies. why the fuck is it like that?

so I send it to my friends and ask them if it actually exist and describes the thing that I am trying to explain and they collectively reply that yeah, that's the word, sounds super fake, doesn't it?

anyway the executive decision for this chapter was to use the word "strap" because it does sound more sensible and appropriate for the context. yeah, "strap" also refers to a specific... device that a girl would wear with her freaky boyfriend (and I can't say that I haven't entertained such a scenario with Obito's bisexual ass, but anyway). in any case I would rather use the funny word rather than that one, because that feels like French propaganda that I'm not about to fall for.

- "Dumbass... a real shinobi knows how to take pain... with head held high..." Deidara interrupts Tobi's unserious musings with her croaking. "You're... worthless... if you can't handle pain..."

huh I wonder who could have told Deidara that🤭

- "No, sorry, not happening. I've got only one scarf, after all, and you've got a bunch of those cloaks that you guys don't even wanna share with Tobi. And it's Tobi's favorite too!"

This was me just messing around lmao. Tobi's and Obito's sentiments practically never coincide, but in this instance Tobi does say the truth and Obito actually values his ✨scarf✨ like a petty bitch lol

- also I believe that as chapter progresses I've been changing Tobi's speech pattern in "serious" situations, particularly by getting rid of the third person name calling (Tobi thinks/Tobi wants/Tobi can't) which actually sounds more natural in Japanese because it's not uncommon for someone to refer to themselves in third person in certain circumstances. Obito uses only "I" whenever shit starts hitting the fan

- "It was always him assuming that Pain and his people would act reasonably"

If you remember the description of the fic, the main thing around From Queen to a Pawn is Obito finally deciding to leave the shadows and join Akatsuki as their member, Tobi. This moment in particular refers to some of the biggest issues that Obito has ran into during this mission - all of Akatsuki members belonging to a suicide watch and caring only for their personal bullshit, even if that said bullshit will result in them or their fellow Akatsuki members getting killed😁so Obito will set out to watch everyone in the open and correct their movements so that Eye of the Moon doesn't end before even starting

- "Deidara's speech now sounds like an endless mess of slurred noises somewhat resembling human speech. Obito is unsure if it is becoming harder to understand her because of the Iwa accent suddenly returning to her or simply due to her tongue not following her brain's commands anymore."

I am a big fan of the whole "Five Great Shinobi nations actually don't speak the same way" idea. I would definetily say that Iwa, Suna and Kiri certainly should have civilians speaking different languages than the "common" one, which affects their speech a lot, so you can kind of guess where a shinobi is from based on the type and strength of their accent. Obito got rid of his years ago (plus I would say that Konoha's accent is by far the closest one to the "common" language of the continent), because it gets in the way whenever he must impersonate someone, he actually learned how to imitate most shinobi accents on the go. Deidara used to have Iwa one and a pretty strong one at that, but she had spent half of her life away from her homeland, so she practically never shows it. I'd say most of Akatsuki members end up losing their hyper specific accent after a few years, so their speech is pretty close to each other's.

- "I wasn't late, I am not late, I can not be late, she survived, she survived even when all believed her to be a goner, she can't die now, not like this."

One of the main ideas that I had coming into this fic is to parallel Rin's death with Deidara's aftermath of the Kazekage capture mission. Obviously, Obito was too late to arrive to save Rin, and when he goes off to find Deidara, he eventually starts succumbing to despair and assuming her to be dead as well. Obviously, she proves him wrong, and so he gets this childish and hopeful idea that everything is going to be alright, because he was not late this time. Of course, nothing is fine, as Deidara is about to die in the middle of the forest from an untreated gangrene, so Obito gets a choice: to follow Madara's (Deidara is a disposable tool ultimately not really important for the plan) and Tobi's (incompetent idiot that won't be able to do anything for Deidara regardless of how hard he tries) role or to follow what Uchiha Obito set out to do 16 years before the current events and failed at (saving the girl of his interest from a certain death). Well, you know how the rest of the chapter goes, but it is one of the first steps that Obito takes in Deidara's direction😁

- "Hey, hey, hey, Deidara-san, I'm bored. Like, sooooo bored. Can we sing a song? I know one about nine cute ducklings and a scary crow!"

I was writing that particular part during my flight after IELTS, so I couldn't google any real kids' rhythems, thus I simply ended up making up something on the go. The nine cute ducklings are supposed to be the Akatsuki members, while Obito is the scary crow lmao

- "Tobi twirls in place as he jumps onto a clearing with no grass, likely burnt down by a forest fire in the past summer, the earth beneath his feet dry and chunky, as he almost collides with charred tree stump."

The choice for "Obito tweaking the fuck out" scene was to contrast Rin's death scene. Obviously, Deidara finds Zetsu and Tobi in the middle of the day, so she passes out under the sunlight, while Rin died in the middle of the night with full moon present. But besides the whole Sun and Moon thing, I've also decided to contrast "dry" and "wet" qualities of both scenes. Obito is sitting on a burnt down clearing, the earth there is cracked and dry, sun is burning as they are in hot climate, compared to the massacre that Obito commited back then, with everything ending up wet and covered in blood.

- "The edges of his vision are trembling as Obito slowly lowers his face to finally take a look at who (not what, not what, not what) he was holding."

Another thing that I did for this scene - Deidara is no longer referred to by her name, only "she" all the way until, I believe, Obito makes the decision to try and save her with Kamui. This is to amplify that feeling of Obito no longer being able to tell apart who he is holding, because again he is having his wonderful PTSD attack

- "Obito keeps supporting the girl's back with his left arm while he is trying to tighten the makeshift strap above the now bleeding wound."

Again, I was writing this part during the plane ride, so I couldn't check the manga, but later as I was editing the chapter, I realized that I accidentaly did some very funny contrast between this scene and Rin's death.

So, what happens is Obito picks Deidara up with her right side pressed against him, meaning that for the rest of the chapter Obito is holding her back with his left arm, Deidara is supported by his still fully human part of the body

Meanwhile if we compare it to Rin's death

It's actually the opposite

Obito is holding Rin with his right arm, the one that was destroyed and replaced by Madara

:D

- "A few seconds later a strong trembling overtakes her entire body, something moves in her throat and blood begins to leak from her mouth too, painting the left corner of it red."

Also an intended simularity

- "If he glances to the right, he can see silhouettes of newborn trees, their bark shining pearly white in the impenetrable darkness of the night, bearing their first fruits clad in blue-gray uniform and masks, the air heavy and moist from the bloodshed in it. And if he glances to the left, thick forest dances in the bright rays of sun, creating a somber melody for the burnt down clearing, empty and dead and so damn cold."

Again with the whole right and left thing - to Obito's right it's his massacre of the Blood Mist ninja, while on his left what is actually taking place

- "But no matter where he looks, one thing remains the same: a body of a girl in his arms, her face covered in blood, thin streaks of it running down from her mouth, pale and unmoving, but with a bizarrely serene expression on her face, as if at long last she is at absolute peace."

This paragraph can refer to both Rin and Deidara, it's specifically vague like that

- "Where the moon doesn't reflect off of her blood-soaked brown hair.

Where the sun doesn't make her long messy bangs shine like gold against the paleness of her skin."

That's as close to Sun and Moon analogy as I could get lmao

Aaaand that's about it for this chapter? Most of the remaining stuff is self-explanatory in my opinion lmao. Now onto finishing "Obito's no-good terrible bad day"🤭

[iamirhen]

Road to recovery headcanons dump about Robbie Reyes relationship with love and sexuality.

This is all based on my own prefferences and my understanding of sex and relationships so it's 100% subjective.

There is a part 2 talking about Lisa here:

I like to think about him as demisexual or a-spec but not sex repulsed. I think it fits his character, since he does not show a lot of interest in the more phisycal side of relationships but does not seem particularly disgusted about it and also I think we need more a-spec rep. So yeah, he stays ace. He is also bi-romantic because I have a soft spot for amareyes.

Also a thing that I think I have never seen discussed before is the following: In the comics, Robbie seems to be a shy, inexperienced guy regarding sex and relationships. He is at a stage when most people start exploring their own sexuality when he gets a psychopath shoved in his head and every sense of privacy gets stripped for him. Everything he can see, Eli can see too. And Eli is not above purposely ruining an intimate moment for him, as we see when he tries to kiss Lisa for the first time.

Sex puts you and your partner(s) in a vulnerable position. An important aspect of being able to enjoy sex is being able to relax and let yourself go. Considering that Eli is living in his head and has already taken control of his body and attempted to use him to harm others, I think it wouldn't be too farfetched for him to have issues letting himself go and also developing some fear of intimacy. That's not to say that I don't think he'd never be able to have sex, I just think that he'd need a very understanding, gentle partner with whom he can discuss this stuff calmly. Unfortunately, you can't just casually discuss the fact that you have a murderous psycopath living in your head. So probably it would need to be someone who is aware of the whole picture that's going on with him being Ghost Rider, etc. and unfortunately, Robbie is Very Good at keeping people apart.

I think that we tend to assume that men, specially attractive men like him, will always manage have sex regularly. But being queer, being ace and having trauma are all factors that can make you have your sexual debut later in life and that's not something bad or shameful.

So, how does he feel about this? Well, I don't think sex is his top priority, but it's an experience that he'd like to have. Same with relationships/love. Sure, it would be nice to have someone but he's got more important worries. After he has spent some time with Eli, specially after his first kill, he kind of assumes that those are things that are and will always be out of his reach. He's resigned himself to be lonely, pushing away from partners and friends.

[that-angry-noldo]

The ship was being rocked by the waves.

It was a simple thing, far from the last ship Maedhros has sailed in, but it was more than enough. The air around him smelled of salt and was pleasantly damp, and the sky above glimmered with thousands of stars.

Maedhros inhaled. It was a new thing - to feel the world around him so closely, so phisycally, so intimately; he missed the tangitibility of physical things in the Halls, when he got well enough to miss something, to long for something. The waves splashed quietly. Maedhros lied on his back and closed his eyes.

Far, far a way, a familiar presence twinkled like a star. Maedhros reached to it with all his mind and being, and felt the answer touching his own soul reassuringly; wavy and shifting like the Sea, but it was there, and it was familiar - and so, so dear to him.

Maedhros' soul wept when it could not find his brother's between the countless tapestries in the Halls; Maedhros has rejoiced when he learned his brother was spared his fate. Death was an escape, the one Maedhros had to pay costly for; but life, he knew, costed Makalaurë even more greatly. He had looked for him in the Gardens of Irmo and found nothing but the whisper of wind from the Sea; tried asking about him from his uncle and found nothing but apologetic words.

But Makalaurë was there, soft and steady, and Maedhros only had to find him.

The word came from Uinen; a word from the world far beyond, from the grey shores. Your brother greets you, she had said; he is glad to welcome you back. Maedhros had asked a lot, then; listened as long as he could, of his brother's wanders, and the laments he composed, and the little hut he built - and Uinen had not denied him.

She told of instruments he crafted, and children in a village he loved; told of salves made to treat the burn on his hand, which was slowly fading away, and of stray hound he housed. He had lived, and suffered, and found healing, she said; and now, he is ready to return.

Maedhros built his ship by himself.

It was a long, slow process, carried under his uncle's watchful eye and instructions and under Teleri's suspicious gazes. It took months, too long and too little simultaneously; and each day filled Maedhros' heart with a newfound joy, and each day, he reached to his brother's spirit in greeting.

Makalaurë never refused him, never shut him off; only reached out, steady and sea-like, in confident promise: I will wait for you. You will find me.

The Valar permitted him to sail, and ever Maedhros felt Ulmo's watchful gaze and Ossë's wary presence around him, but the Sea has not refused him. The currents carried his little ship, and the winds were gentle and steady, and the stars shone peacefully above his head.

Maedhros closed his eyes. Far away, he felt his brother smile, and start the fire in the hearth.

(for @thelordofgifs, number one m&m appreciator and a beloved mutual :)

[cianfries-stuff]

hi! I'm new here.

my name is francesca and I'm italian. I study literature, history, latin and linguistics and I am a sucker for languages (actually I speak none apart from a little spanish and english but I swear I'll get there).

I like watching tennis and sports in general but I'm bad at all of them. I also read a lot and I like all genres, fantasy, fiction, thrillers, non-fiction (mostly feminism, astromony, phisycs and music-related) and sometimes a little bit of romance, though I always end up hating the romances I read.

my music taste varies from times to times, depending on my mood, but I think it's pretty basic. I listen to a lot of italian music but I also like international pop, rock and indie.

in my spare time I try to write fics and that brings us to the real important things: fandoms. my all time fandoms would be harry potter, lord of the rings, sherlock bbc, the umbrella academy, good omens, prisma, shadow and bone, one piece and stranger things (which sadly I am no longer following). I recently got into supernatural which is kinda driving me insane...

other fun facts about me: I have three siblings and all of them are younger than me, I'm a scorpio, and I make the best soy rugù you've ever tasted.

I would love to meet new people so if you share one of my interests please reach out!

you can find me on twitter (I mostly talk about tennis there) and ao3 by the name of cianfrie.