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My Flightless Angel

Chapter 1: Angel without Wings 🪽🪽

(The story can shift from different POVs either, from Edrawd’s perspective to Y/N’s perspective. Y/N can also be changed from referring as ‘she’ to ‘you’ to connect with the reader more in important bits to make readers feel more immersed in the story. Other than that, I hope you enjoy it.

TW: Alcohol, Thank you and enjoy🩷🌷🩷🌷🩷)

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It’s suffocating. The sounds of typing. The chattering of people. The constant buzzing of the white-led lights. The small space he is packed in to work in. All of it is strangling him. When it’s getting too much for him, he just wants to slam his face on the computer screen until his head goes through it. However,

“Mr. Nashton, do you want coffee?”

That sweet voice. That sweet sweet angelic voice that brought him back on earth from whatever manic episode he’s having. His gaze shifted from his excel screen to the face over the cubicle. She smiles down to him with her arms resting over the cubicle wall. He wonders if he would still receive her pearly smiles if she knew how twisted he is.

“Excuse me?” Edward replies with a nervous push of his glasses over his nose bridge.

He heard her the first time, he just wants her to keep talking to him even if it’s just a few seconds longer.

“Coffee. Do you want me to grab you a coffee? You really look like you need it.”

“Oh, um yea I would love that.” He replies with a nervous light lip smile as he leans back over his work chair a bit to ease himself, but it certainly is not working.

“Black coffee with no sugar as usual?” She said with her usual uplifting playful tone.

“Yes yes of course, why would I order anything else.” He stumbles and ends it with a nervous smile. (Embarrassing 🫣)

“Okie then.” Y/N chimed and with that, she walked away. Edward’s eyes can’t help but linger over her as she walks off like he can’t get enough of seeing her.

Y/N the only reason why he hadn’t quit his job in the first place. Y/N L/N started working recently as his boss Zach’s secretary. He groans at the thought of his boss Zach who only worked there for 3 months to gain that position. Anger seethes through him at the thought of how privileged bastards like Zach got a place in society but the poor like him scavenge for leftovers. If he were to get half of the privileges like those bastards, he wouldn’t be here, he would be somewhere better, somewhere where he’s known. But here he is wasting his life away in a cubicle with the other rats.

However, Y/N changed that. She’s not like others. Her presence changes everything. He feels blessed with just her eyes on him. Her giggles, her cheeks smiles. Every little thing she does is so intriguing to him. He’s completely head over heels for her but she doesn’t need to know that no. He knows deep down, nothing good would come out of a confession. It would only push you further from him. He already had hard times keeping you in his line of sight, he doesn’t need any further interference to push you away further than that.

He’s not oblivious, he’s not delusional. He knows he isn’t the best looking nor the most interesting person in the office. If you really like riddles and dad jokes, sure, you will find him partly interesting but either way, you aren’t going to choose him out of all people for a romantic partner. He believes he isn’t that sane to be with you either. You deserve someone normal, someone perfect. Someone who’s just not him. And his boss. He can never picture Y/N and Zach together no matter how, it just tickles his brain in the wrong way.

“Coffee’s here.” A familiar female voice came beside him which knocked him out of his daydream.

“Oh um thanks.” he said as he hurriedly took the coffee from Y/N’s hand. Edward then realizes she’s holding a handful of other coffee cups with different names on them. He almost felt sorry for asking for his coffee in the first place.

“Want me to help you with that, you seem to have too much stuff in your hands.” He said with a bit of a worried tone. He even stood up from his work chair, ready to help to which Y/N reply with a sorry,

“Oh no I got it, thanks a lot though.” she said with a reassuring smile before heading quickly back to the other cubicles calling out the names of other coworkers. They all brush her off or give a halfhearted nod of gratitude to her for getting their coffee.

Dam those rats. Edward cursed at his coworkers in his head for treating Y/N in such a way. He wishes he could beat some sense in their head to see what a beauty you truly are. Anyhow, he continues doing his task in hand, numbers just focus on the numbers.

“So, you want to join a work party? It’s just us going out for a drink at this Korean BBQ downtown. It’s going to be great.” Social gatherings and parties aren’t really Edward’s thing. He liked to keep to himself and hated being seen. (Ironically🤨) However, being asked by his one and only angel, he starts to doubt himself.

“Well, I’m not really sure, maybe next time?” He rejected not because he doesn’t want to spend time with Y/N. The idea of spending another minute with those pretentious fucks make him want to throw up.

“You say that all the time, I really want you to feel included this time that’s why.” Y/N said as she even goes as far as to give him those doe eyes he can’t resist. He looks around nervously at the parking lot of their work building to avoid Y/N’s pleading eyes.

“Forget it Y/N, he won’t even go even if you get down on your knees for it.” One of his annoying co-workers said with a smug look.

Anger boils in him in resentment at that comment. Before he could retort a glare or anything. He realizes Y/N's sadden face in defeat. Does she really want me to come with her that much? Edward sighs and finally gives in even though his social anxiety side of his brain screams no.

“I’ll join, ok? Only this time.” Edward muttered in a caring tone. His eyes search desperately for any joy in her eyes and when he finally does, he couldn’t help but smile at the sight.

As expected, the Korean BBQ restaurant is filled with the employees of KTMJ. The restaurant has a cozy warm atmosphere, except for the loud obnoxious drunks who call themselves employees of KTMJ. Except for Y/N who smiles naively at everything her co-workers are saying. How nice of her, even though most of what the co-workers say are a bunch of bullshits and lies. Edward sips on his beer as he sits at the edge of the table with Y/N beside him who doesn’t seem to mind his silent presence at all. He’s now on his 2nd cup. Edward, surprisingly, has a strong alcohol tolerance.

At the corner of his eye, he can see Y/N’s face a bit flushed from the alcohol and her naïvely nodding along to her co-worker’s nonsense. Seems she couldn’t take much alcohol in her system. He thought. His mind wanders over how close they really are. He can practically feel her warmth against his arm and all it takes for him to move a bit to feel her arm against his. But he sided with his better judgements, not too. However, his co-worker, Drue or Drake or Dane whoever the hell he is, is too drunk to realize Y/N’s discomfort over him forcing her for another drink.

“Come on, another one, it ain’t gonna bite cha.” Danny teased as he slightly shoves another cup of beer to Y/N.

“No um I’m good. I don’t think I can take more.” She said with a forced smile on her face.

“Come on, just oneee and you bet you can get your pretty little ass back home.” Danny slurred his words as he said. Edward jaw clench at the comment. He gulps down his cup at a fast pace to burn the anger rising in his throat.

“Um ok just this one.” Y/N said nervously as she took the cup from his hand.

“Atta girl.” Danny cheers.

“On the count of 3. 1 2…” Danny counts to chug together.

Y/N on the other hand nervously eyed at the beer cup and gulp and before the countdown hit 3. Her cup was taken by a larger hand from hers. Before she could even react, Edward chugs the entire cup of beer in secs before her eyes. His Adam apple bobs as he chugs down it in ease as if he had done this multiple times before. Then with a small burb he hands the empty cup over into Y/N hands. Before she could say a word-

“Woah damm girl you really got it in you don’t cha!” Danny’s booming voice distracts her back to the present.

His drunken self is too distracted to realize Edward was the one who drank it instead of her. All the other co-workers were too wrapped up in their own conversation to realize what happened.

“Oh, yea I guess.” Y/N replies dumbfoundedly leaving Danny in a laughing mess.

Her attention goes back to Edward who seems quietly watching this encounter beside her. She looks up to him and mouths a ‘Thank you’ and smiles sheepishly. Normally he could give back a tight lip smile but, maybe it’s the alcohol, maybe it’s the loudness of the room, he couldn’t help but laugh wholeheartedly. She watches Edward’s laugh; he even has to hold his stomach as he laughs hysterically at something so mundane. Everyone from the table shifts their attention to Edward and the room becomes silent only filled with Edward’s laughs. Some of their faces are filled with confusion, some with terror. Y/N on the other hand watches him intently almost like she’s mesmerized by his hysteric laughs. She could help but smile.

He looks cute when he laughs.

(Thank you so much for enjoying my writing, I hope you can leave a like or a note so I would know how much you guys like it to continue this series. I apologize if there's any grammatical errors or if you are unsatisfied with the experience. Thank youʚ♡⃛ɞ(ू•ᴗ•ू❁)🩷🩷🩷)

Chapter 2: A Mistake🪽🪽🪽 Chapter 3: Disclosure

(Me trying to convince myself the riddler is hot and doesn't look like an incel. [He is literally a discord kitten])

#the riddler #edward nashton #the batman 2022 #the batman #dano riddler #riddler x reader #riddler x y/n #riddler x you

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galene-gothic · 6 months ago

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Hi, following up on my previous ask, I wonder what SM's feelings/emotions are towards me? Over the course of the years, i have started to have feelings for this person. I believe your insights could give me more clarity:) My intials are VA. Thank you so much for reading this and making time for this! <3 take care!

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ What are SM’s current feelings for you?

You make them feel positive feelings but they’re not interested in a committed relationship with you. They feel like you respect them and they’re aware that you care about them even if they’re not sure of the kind of love that you possess. They seem to know that if they choose to come forward to you, you’ll actually reciprocate. They feel supported by you but I’m picking up on some kind of one sidedness here. On some level, they’re planning on keeping up appearances so that they can continue taking your services. You make them feel validated more than anything. I’m not really getting the positive feelings being present because they actually have your good interests at heart but because you have their good interests at heart and they know it. They don’t want to be with you but they do not necessarily mind spending time with you. However, they still want to receive your emotions and favours while simply just going with the flow and not committing. I would shift my focus to myself if I was you because they don’t mind being open and vulnerable with you, using your emotional labour but they aren’t interested in having a committed relationship with you because they’re fine with you getting away but as long as you don’t, they don’t mind having you around. It’s funny because for as long as possible, they do want you to themself 💀. They think that they can do better than you, on an inner level, that’s what it is but that’s not true at all. It’s just that this person doesn’t see your value because you’re down to earth and don’t treat them like crap. You deserve so much better, I swear to god. They’re feeling and acting very selfishly, I wouldn’t try to pursue this but if you do feel ready to, you could ask them what their intentions of your connection are. ALSO, YOU SEEM TO BE SO MUCH BETTER THAN THEM ON EVERY LEVEL SO I’M NOT SURE WHY THEY ARE BEING SO DELUSIONAL. Due to how upsetting this reading is, I’m giving you a brief overview on yourself and SM as individuals. Let’s just say, even at your worst, you’re still better than them but the problem with you is that you’re a doormat for those who you seem to care about. You’ve experienced painful stuff and especially endings. There’s an energy of outright betrayal that you have experienced at some point. Right now, you seem to be sorta exhausted because of that. It makes sense why someone like you would be interested in someone like them right now, you’ve hit your lowest and aren’t thinking straight.

You’re supposed to let go of past endings and work on healing by not being a doormat. You’ll get there little by little, don’t forget that practice makes perfect. You don’t have the strongest self esteem right now so you aren’t being honest about what you want because there’s no way someone could genuinely want this person. You’re not acting out of integrity and that’s okay, you’ve just experienced a lot. You’ve been driven to insanity. Despite this, you’ve still not lost your true passionate self yet. You’re still very charming, charismatic and warm in the way you interact with people. You have a lot of mental capacity and are really intelligent. You also possess a natural curiosity. You’re too exhausted to even be your true self though. You have great communication and observation skills. You have certain values that you’ve still not deviated from despite being done dirty and hurt. Even right now, your true self is screaming out to be heard and acted out by you. You are a bit mentally restless due to your mental capacity and need for mental stimulation. You’re being too harsh on yourself. You deserve the best, don’t settle for beimg treated poorly. EVER! SM on the other hand is really full of themself. I feel like they are likely attractive to a certain extent but they’re attractive in a way where the more you get to know them, the more you don’t want anything to do with them. They keep on repeating negative patterns only adding onto them. On the surface, they act like they’re getting along well with people and respect them but on the inside, that’s not the case because they don’t even respect themself. They are really full of themself for someone who is this insecure. The reason I’m making this reading lengthy is so that you can figure out if it’s truly for you. You might have been acquainted with them because they seem to lack support in their life. I am picking up on a wounded saviour or unpaid therapist dynamic here. They’re the type to bury their own feelings leaving them unresolved and are carrying a lot of trauma. They’re the type who believes they have terrible luck and that everyone uses them but when someone with good intentions comes in, they use that person and treat them like shit because they get too comfortable. For some reason, they believe that you would always be there for them. I feel bad for them because they are just insecure and immature. Also, another thing, they’re going to guaranteed regret missing out on you in the future if you do choose to get away.

🩰 Thank you for participating in my event, I would truly appreciate your feedback someday. Much love and take care 🐇

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thisisyourprincipalspeaking · 4 months ago

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I think some people just like to see that your blog doesn’t sit there leaning towards any one narrative but at the same time, you clearly understand that something about this whole situation is remiss.

Thinking logically, it’s actually pretty easy to pick one side. The side that takes things as they see it. “Real, because that’s what they said and we’re going to believe them.”

So I’ll be honest, sometimes I see those blogs give their points and it does make sense. It doesn’t make much sense to go through hoops and claim that what they’re doing is fake and manipulating a narrative, because again, why? What’s the endgame to do this?

But then you take a step back and you look at the situation again, and it’s very easy to pinpoint all the plot holes. And then you realize, perhaps looking at it logically doesn’t work here because it’s not supposed to make sense. This is Hollywood after all.

Why would a veteran actor who’s gotten Oscar’s for his films with his other veteran actor bff need to marry an actress singer diva after they already broke up and married other people? (IYKYK) Why would he need MORE publicity? Well…

Why would the renowned pop princess of this generation who’s famous for writing songs about her exes need to have a new bf that’s a famous football player and bring the NFL into this whole charade? Does she really need MORE attention? Or does he? (Did he sign with a top HW talent agency and is now venturing into the world of acting by chance or…)

I think for many people who leans towards the middle of things, they see your takes and responses and realize, yeah, you’re right. You’re not screaming PR everything’s fake like your life depends on it but you’re also not blindly accepting true love and that it’s been real the whole time and the fans who aren’t buying it are just delusional haters.

You’re providing a voice for those who just don’t feel something is right about all this and feel there is another shoe that’s waiting to drop. When? Who knows. But hindsight is always 20/20.

The only thing I’d like to mention here is that sincerely, I don’t believe he is attracted to his wife. And it’s weird of me to say this because they married so the logical response would be, of course he’s into her why else would he marry her? But the body language repeatedly seems otherwise. Repeatedly. And these are just the public instances.

So I don’t agree with the narrative that some have claimed he sought her out because he couldn’t date women around his own age anymore. I’ve never liked those accusations because even now, with this person as his alleged partner - if he truly was choosing her because he liked that she was younger and this is what he’s into…his casual body language alone when he’s in public with her shows like he’s been assigned to her for the night. Maybe he’s trying to hide his attraction to her because he’s self conscious about their age difference? But what would be the point of doing that if they’re already married? A little late atp? See what I mean by if you go too deep down a questioning rabbit hole it just raises more questions, which is why the Occam’s razor theory just works better for some. And that’s what I believe one side is doing. They don’t see the point in questioning what’s right in front of them and I don’t fault them for that. But I do think blindly accepting what HW and the media throws at you is why so many seem to lack critical thinking skills now. They believe what’s being fed to them and while marketing does its job right, it becomes so easy to manipulate people into believing what you want because they don’t think to question what’s being fed to them.

Also, she does not seem remotely interested in him either but that was less surprising for a variety of reasons. I just don’t see these two vibing at a Lana del ray concert together - and I don’t see him pretending for her sake.

Of course, they are free to prove me and anyone else wrong. I just don’t think that’s what’s happening here.

And your blog is a great place to have these outlier discussions.

thank you, nonnie. all of this is why i say i do not care if they're genuinely together forever or if they never see one another unless it's time to smile for the cameras. it's about what's being shown, how it's being shown, and when it's being shown. there are patterns to all of it... so when it comes to their relationship either way, it's pr. and by definition not private.

what i feel like many of us in fandoms (and i could be very wrong in my assumption) tend to lose the concept that the only people noticing and paying attention to those details you've mentioned are fans. the rest of the population tends to forget celebrities exist until they see a headline about them and far too many people are only going to pay attention if that headline is dramatic.

it's a game where the points don't matter because the prize is your clicks and attention.

#anon asks #fandom drama #chris evans fandom #chris evans shitshow #this is your principal speaking

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babydollmarauders · 2 years ago

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how do you think Jack would act with a plus-sized reader? idk, the little menace in my mind is telling me that NO hockey player would EVER want to date me because i am not skinny and it really hurts sometimez

( might be a angstier ask but i just really needed to get this off of my chest. I can be so delusional sometimes and then realize that i probably will really be single forever because no guy would want to date a fat girl who is obsessed with hockey guys and fictional guys who would never want to date her. sorry, i know this is really heavy but i just really wanted to talk to somebody about it and i just feel really comfortable around you ensemble though I've never met you (sorry, that may sound stalkerish))

before i get into jack dating a plus-size reader, i just wanna say that i do not AT ALL believe that no guy would date you! trust me, not all guys are assholes. i’ve always been the fictional guy and celebrity obsessed girl and i was plus-sized in HS and i dated! (not to make this about me, but i wanted to show you that i relate)! not only is appearance not the only thing that matters, and sometimes it really doesn’t matter at all, but guys will fall in love with how passionate you are about the things you love. no matter if that’s fictional guys, hockey, celebs, anything!

as for the hockey guys not dating you or plus-sized girls; i really don’t believe that! i swear i saw a plus-sized (or at least not a skinny model (not that there’s ANYTHING wrong with the ones who are skinny, it just feels nice sometimes for the girls who aren’t skinny to feel represented)) WAG recently, but i can’t remember for the life of me who’s gf/wife she is.

now onto jack dating a plus-sized girl!

he would definitely be the one to constantly be complimenting you, telling you how beautiful you are!

always hugging you and showering you with kisses!

he would definitely hit back at anyone who wanted to comment on your appearance or your weight. he doesn’t stand for it because he thinks you’re beautiful no matter what anyone else has to say.

this one is more of a self-indulgence bc personally i’m very insecure about photos but: respects your boundaries with what you do and don’t want posted. like he lets you look through the photos he posts with you in them and choose the ones you like the best. no matter if it’s literally just you deciding you like your smile in one pic more than another or what.

like i’m serious he’d literally be the type to post a photo he looks horrible in (like eyes half closed, hair sticking up) just because he knows you thought you looked good in it and he wants to show you off.

he’d always whisper to you how much he loves you and how gorgeous you are before he goes to sleep!

loves taking you out on dates but is okay with staying in and just cuddling up and watching a movie if that’s what you’d prefer.

(p.s. i’m so glad you feel comfortable and safe with me! not stalkerish at all! i’m so happy that i can make people feel comfortable!)

#faithlynn speaks 🪐#ask faithlynn ✨

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kcjacobs · 2 years ago

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If we, we as in each individual, stood up for ourselves, took back all that power we have willingly given over to our so-called government, the people we trust to keep us, our money and our homes safe, then we could live a much better life one that we are still yet to discover. Instead, we have been made to believe thay without a president ( posh word for dictator ) we can’t function as a society Funnily enough it’s those in question who are the ones that keep telling us that, scaring us to believe that this terrible world we live in, all the crime and violence we see constantly broadcasted worldwide, would only get worse without them.

Why is this 100% not true?

War is caused between governments, higher powers, and it’s all for money and power.

Poverty isnt a misfortune, it could end, lets be honesy theres plenty of money in the world that if divided farely would end poverty all together, one football teams wages together alone, the houses of Parliament could save thousands of lives just by cutting their income by 10%. ….but they earned it you say?

If someone, anyone ould look me in the eyes with a straight face and tell me exactly how they earned all their thousands and millions that isn’t off us, weapons, trafficking or our taxes (a few examples from the top of my head) qnd make a valid point, you will never see me write again but it’s impossible. We hand over over 50 % of our hard-earned wages and don’t say shit about it out loud... we may huff and puff and tell our other halves, or friends how pissed off it makes us and then brush it of and continue our day to day lives.

How can we be letting this happen and think its normal? we need to fight for what is ours, and that’s everything

Our wages, our land, our kids, our freedom, our planet. We, as a society, are so strong…if someone stole 5000 euros or even 5p, knowing who they are, would u let it go or would you fight to get back? Assuming our minds aren’t completely delusional, of corse we would fight to get back whatever was stolen….if your answer is anything other than that then get back to believing your social media bullshit and catch up on what’s most important like, Adam Sandler in a hoodie at the grammys or the fact that Shakira caught pique cheating because her jam jar was half full because this is wasted on you.

Once upon a time on this same planet earth we inhabit on, lived thousands of people with one simple rule/law….do no harm, to others…Easy and simple, but we then had thepower over ourselves and ourselves alone. Laws were put into place for buisnesses, corporations laws and even then two partys had to agree to it before it was put in place. Slowly, somehow at somepoint someo e placed this laws outside of buisness and into our lives and with power comes greed and that’s exactly what happened

I look at my grandparents, my grandfather from my father’s side, his parents e.c.t fought for us in the war, and the guilt I feel keeps me up at night sometimes.

They left their homes, their children, their wife’s and lives to fight for us for our futures and did not give up for a second, they must had been exhausted, petrified so lonely and lost yet they kept going with the thought of us, our families safety and for what? For the lives we have choose to live now, no freedom, no love, our society no longer has passion or pride, we just keep our heads down and do as we are told out of fear? Laziness? Or pure stupidity I don’t know but either way out soldiers have every right to be disgusted and disappointed in us but its fixable, we can do everything in our power to make sure our babies don’t have to live this continuous rat race we call life.

If law was so important and necessary for us to live right, how come one rule applies to one and another to others?

If we haven’t realized by now that all news is fake news and it is simply a disguise to keep us all blinded from what is truly happening around us, which is what we really want to know, or need to know.

Credit to us all, getting through one of the biggest ‘epidemics’ as they called It. I saw a real society where I was at the time, exactly what our society should be like at all times, baking cakes, gardening, exercising, people caring for their neighbours, helping our elders with shopping, most places became a real community, so I don’t believe for a second anymore that we can’t possibly be civil together alone because we can, and we will.

#freedom #corrupt politicians

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suzannepetzoldt · 7 months ago

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Manipulation.

How can I not be angry? How should not everybody be angry? It is nearly impossible to know where to start—an almost traumatizing whirlwind of emotions and fragmented words, thoughts, pictures that have been boiling for a while, needing to get out, but not in an orderly fashion, no. This is beyond order now; the chaos has been going on for too long, has tempered with my patience, with uncountable pitfalls, illnesses, deaths, even. No. This has to be an explosion. Your smile is the personification of toxicity, and you poison not only the land you walk on but everything that crosses your way. How dare you continue selling your lies when the people you poison first are the ones that love, trust, and, worst of all, support you the most? It is a shame; it is a tragedy, an incomprehensible catastrophe. I have not lost steam along the way. And maybe the reason for my rage is a rather embarrassing one. You see, I was lured in once—in your world, your fantasy, your never-ending fever dream of perfectly manicured lies and deceit. But I have a skill you lack: introspection and the ability to confront my cognitive dissonance and therefore change. Do you think it’s right to hit someone who is already on the ground? Oh yes, you do; they are the perfect prey, aren’t they? The weak, the lost, the wounded. You pick them up with your flashy, long-rehearsed grin, take them willingly in, promise them a life in lands where milk and honey flow, being the cunning predator you are, and once they are fully experiencing Stockholm syndrome, you start sucking the rest of their now miserable lives out of them. How dare you? How the f*** dare you? What makes me even angrier, you may wonder? It can only be the fact that these energy vampires are not of the smartest kind. Most of them believe they act in the name of wellness, prosperity, abundance, and even enlightenment! Ha! You might think that justifies, balances it out. And I do. I nearly feel sorry for this insane worldview, or should I say “ideology”? Acting dumb and damaging yourself is one thing. But you know how to minimize your damage, right? How to even profit from it. And that’s when you start to love and justify tearing others apart with you, or rather instead of you, willingly, because solely their downfall leads to your ascent and your ascent alone. And there you peer down from your ivory tower, choosing the next “peasant” you can pick to pieces, chain up, and enslave for the rest of their delusional state. Because it remains a state. There are brave people coming for them, and they will not wait for a split second to rip their blindfolds off. Watch out.

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aajjks · 10 months ago

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BC!JK

nonononononononononono.

this isn’t real.

this can’t be happening.

not here.

not now.

why here?

why now?

you just feel like someone ripped your heart in two and then, for the fun of it, ripped it more. tearing your poor heart into tiny pieces until it couldn’t be torn anymore.

you can’t believe this. you LIVE with him. what are you supposed to do now? why would he choose now to break your heart and not wait until the both of you were home? why didn’t he tell you before you both left so you could already have your stuff packed?

it hurts too much. this is all too much.

so here you are walking, basically jogging somewhere away from eunwoo so he doesn’t see your tears and what hurts most is that he doesn’t come after you. this breakup is real.

you thought you made it clear that you’d support eunwoo through it all and if it were his career he had to prioritize then you were okay yet here he is choosing his career over you and you don’t mind it but dammit you mind it!!!

you supported him through thick and thin, been there when people thought going professional was crazy, and in return you get a broken heart. no, it’s not his fault y/n. he’s just doing what’s best for him but what about you? you can’t live without him.

you love him.

finally, you’re somewhere to cry it out. to just let it out and a few minutes later, you hear someone’s footsteps…

“eunwoo?” you call out but when the person makes it to you, all the hope you had is gone.

“o-oh. jungkook, h-hey” you quickly wipe your tears with your hands pretending to be “okay” when it’s obvious that you aren’t.

“i-i’m okay. just, uh, just something in my eye. y’know how eyelashes are. gosh, they suck” you say as you keep trying to wipe your tears away but more just keep falling.

God, this really hurts.

you take a deep breath and try to give jungkook a smile to indicate that you’re okay but since he’s here…

“eunwoo and i broke up” you blurt out in a shaky voice. “like…he JUST broke up with me”

“please don’t tell anyone, okay? i don’t want anyone finding out. you’re the only person who knows and i’d like to keep it that—“

“y/n!!” yells danielle who bypasses jungkook to pull you into a hug.

“why are you crying? did something happen?”

“eunwoo and i had an argument that’s all. i’m okay”

“why are you out here with jungkook?”

“we…we were just catching up” you lie and you’re hoping jungkook will piggyback on your lie and convince danielle so she doesn’t fret too much.

“catching up about what?”

“his life, danny. what else would we be catching up on?”

“mhmm…do i need to punch eunwoo in the face? you look like you’ve been crying”

“i was but i’m okay and now i want to talk to jungkook….ALONE”

“oh, excuuuuse me. i’ll talk to you later then” danielle rolls her eyes and sizes jungkook before heading back to the party and once she was far enough you let out a sigh and thanked jungkook for helping you fool danielle.

“sorry about that” you say “but uh…promise you won’t say anything about eunwoo and i, okay? i want to be delusional a little longer if you don’t mind”

jesus, you’re pathetic and you’re sure jungkook thinks you are too.

he wants to fucking jump, he wants to laugh, he wants to scream.

Eunwoo broke up with you- abs even though he wants smile right now, he can’t because it’s literally hurting his heart to see you so heartbroken and crying like this.

Because all because of your ex-boyfriend. That’s right.

“Oh yn sweetheart don’t worry about it- I swear I’m not gonna tell a soul… your secret is safe with me.” He winks at you, approaching you, because he wants to comfort you.

And he wants to personally thank eunwoo for breaking your heart so now jungkook can mend it and steal it for himself, although he deserves to get punched in the fucking jaw for making you cry. Jungkook is now standing right infront of you and he takes the opportunity to pull you in for a tight hug.

His tattooed fingers sliding over your pretty hair as you reluctantly cry in his shoulders, and your heartbeat is already synchronized with his- he can feel it.

Oh poor you.

“Yn shhh… please don’t cry… listen I’m here for you..” he whispers in your ear, trying his best to soothe your trembling shoulders. Your sobs are breaking his heart into many pieces but this is for your own good.

Jungkook is having the time of his life having you in his arms and God… your scent… is so exotic, he can get high on it. Jungkooks heart is still fluttering with the way you asked Danielle to leave so you could talk to jungkook.

Aw.

“Yn I’m here for you… hush sweetheart… it’s going to be alright…”

Of course, he knows his you’re feeling because heartbreak is something he has experienced first hand, thanks to you.

“D-Do you want to leave? I could take you somewhere yn.”

#ask: bc!jk #oh yn so relatable cus I’d never get over eunwoo as well 🥺🩷

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do you think that Taylor thinking she would get an Oscar nom and her and Joe would walk the carpet together and him saying no and also refusing to go to celeb hotspot restaurants is actually legit? I dont want to believe it because its so stupid but part of me does believe it unfortunately

Who told u this? Taylor defs thought she could land an Oscar nom lmao - she paid for a whole ass campaign for it. Her not getting the nom had fuck all to do with Joe, her MV just wasn’t really eligible for the category and it’s delusional she had enough yes men around to say otherwise. I don’t know who’d know what he said for sure, but if he was a bit harsh - possible since we know by this point they weren’t happy - I could believe that. Like if I were Joe and she told me about the Oscar nom plan I’d also be like “baby are we sure this is the best plan??” tbh.

And I do think he doesn’t like celeb hotspot restaurants - he’s not been going to many since they broke up. He goes to the theatre and to concerts and to footie matches and out for drinks and shit a lot but he doesn’t seem to want to be at the “be seen” places. So I could believe that was a fight they were having - him trying to choose chiller places and her trying to go out with people to more high profile ones.

It is stupid but it doesn’t sound inherently false. No real way to know because we aren’t them and as I said before, even “insiders” are basing stuff off of what they heard and all of us are unreliable narrators of our own lives. Joe’s besties and Taylor’s besties will have different versions of what went down, and by the time it trickles down to friends who talk to journos/pods/Deux/etc there is enough broken telephone going on that who tf knows.

that said, like yeah I don’t think Joe was blindly supportive of the Oscar bid because he was getting over her by then and it was silly so you’d have to be blinded by love to think otherwise and I do think he doesn’t like celeb hotspots because if he did he’d be at Nobu every damn night 🤷🏻‍♀️

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the-path-of-zen · 2 years ago

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I am not a saint

"Zen is not about being a saint." I tell people who ask me what Zen is about, and I also say, "and, it is not about being a devil either."

This path of Zen, as I explain to people, is about the middle way, to not abide in the extremes. This actually interests many people, for they have tried the 'Saint' path and found it unworkable and it creates suffering. I explain that Zen is about who you are right now, with what you are doing right now.

So, I personally am not a saint. I don't try and be one. I don't practice vegetarianism mostly because any dietary practices that claim to 'make one Buddha' is absurd, and that the Suragama Sutra in which this practice is emphasized is most likely a fake sutra (see my earlier article on this), and the mentions of this practice in the Lanak sutra are most likely edited in well after the fact.

Though I don't drink alcohol or smoke anything (tobacco or otherwise) out of personal choice, I do not criticize others who choose to do those things.

I also don't view altruism as a Buddhist practice. A belief or action to: Altruism is when we act to promote someone else's welfare, even at a risk or cost to ourselves.

This sort of view always creates suffering, always!

Many misguided westerners interpret Buddhas teachings as altruistic, and will say things like 'Loving -kindness", yet when one really looks at how the person who is misguided behaves we find such people to be extremely selfish in creating the illusions about themselves that 'They are loving-kindness' for others to see. For, as an example, if you ask a person to do something of a monumental effort of self-sacrifice, and nobody will ever know it is them who did it: the result is that they never do it.

Buddhism is not about deeds of altruism, or about those who are 'seen doing altruistic deeds'. For those who engage in this misguided view only embark on a path of pain and suffering, that only leads to disaster.

I really do not have 'Religious Rules' or such that I follow. Many believe that the Precepts are like Mizvas or Religious Law, but they aren't. Precepts are viewed as guidelines or wise suggestions and often left to the individual to interpret. There is no Buddhist council that decides what action is right or wrong, or dictates to the discipleship how to live and in what style. There is no successor to Buddha, there are no Buddhist Pope or Holy See, or prophets.

Many Zen Preist mistakenly view themselves as 'successors of the Buddha' through the 'holy transmission', though this has been proven to be a Chinese creation and any sort of mind-to-mind transmission claimed has been well documented as broken. Misguided Zen students, especially western students, bring in this 'ex-cathedra' view into Buddhism that is simply never taught by the Buddha or any of the Pali or Mahayana Sutras.

Many Zen students try and interpret the Eight-fold path as a moralistic code. That is a totally wrong-view approach to the eightfold path and one that is not only laughable but based on utter ignorance to what the Buddha taught. The only ones that speak like this are the Zen students who are illiterate, under-read, and are just following what spoken teachings of some delusional person who is spouting nonsense.

I am not a con-artist or running a scam, for that action creates suffering. I could certainly brag about being in a line of successorship that goes all the way back to the Buddha. But why? Its a lie, I know its a lie, and anyone who hears this will eventually find out it is a lie. To say such a thing is only creating suffering, and thus saying such a thing should be totally abandoned.

Zen has nothing to do with foreign culture, praying to various deities and gods, heroes, and wise priests. Has nothing to do with ansectors, or mythic stories. Zen is about your mind right here and now, and about the WRONG eight-fold path you are on!

When Buddhism is talking about RIGHT view, it is meaning to 'cease creating suffering'. Wrong view is creating suffering.

Many people sort of demand that other people 'follow rules', as a way to control others. The truth is: There are no rules. There is only what you do right now, and you have to ask yourself:

Is what I am doing creating suffering for myself and others?

That is the contemplation that the wise Zen masters are asking you to ponder. What is it that you are doing that is creating suffering? What is the delusions that prevent you from seeing that you are already in the Pureland? What is it that you cling to that festers in your soul, creating torment and laments?

#zen #buddhism

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gfmima · 2 years ago

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category : ツイステッドワンダーランド work title : his friends believe you’re out of his league

it wasn’t mean to offend him, but it did nonetheless. no one could blame jade and floyd for their reluctance, azul spent a majority of his time managing the monstro lounge and dipping his hands in a few meticulously calculated business ventures that it arrived as a surprise to see he had a window in his schedule to find love.

perhaps another reason to their doubt could be the fact you are what they call a “total package.” you had the beauty, the brains, and the personality; in the their eyes, you were way out of the dorm leader’s league. taking all of it into account, it made it harrowing to believe him when he announced you were his girlfriend.

the leech twins didn’t need to utter a word, their expression alone voiced their thoughts for them. the top question running through their minds went along the lines of what in the world was he inhaling for him to say something so… so delusional?!

“he didn’t bind you to a contract, right!?” floyd looked down at you. you wouldn’t admit it for the sake of your boyfriend’s blood pressure, however, his friends’ clear skepticism about your relationship greatly entertained you.

“oi!” azul hissed, giving him a silent scolding via a scowl for his uncouth behavior in front of you. was it too much to ask for him to act proper around you? he grumbled to himself, as he reached for your hand and gently squeezed it to calm his nerves.

“what,” floyd shrugged. “i’m only making sure!” forcing azul to pinch the bridge of his nose and groan out loud. in the meantime, jade leans down to your eye level and instructed, “blink two times if he’s holding you captive and i’ll go check your contract for any loopholes.”

your boyfriend complained, “not you too…”

late afternoon rolled around and soon did his friends decide it was time for them to leave. the tension in azul’s neck and shoulders disappeared after the main door finally shut close. he spoke a tad too soon though since you didn’t wait a second later to say, “your friends are really funny, ‘zul. we should invite them to hangout with us sometime again.”

trey was the first person to break the lingering silence in the room. he raised a dubious brow. surely cater can’t be serious. he, and their friends, wasn’t the least bit convinced with his announcement. it had to be fake, it was outlandish! “and you aren’t pulling my leg here?” he asked.

“nope!” cater replied, popping the ‘p.’ he was bewildered by their reaction. he didn’t understand what he did to elicit such a distrustful response. was the thought of him finding love that unconvincing of an affair that it forced all of them to doubt his word?

no, it wasn’t.

trey, ace, and deuce knew he could find love — just not with you, though… it sounded strange to hear that he was dating you of all people. it wasn’t to say that he couldn’t but he was a far cry from your ideal type. you were the resident homebody of the batch, and it was confounding to imagine you, a wall flower, would date a person like him.

tapping his chin, ace stalled, “how do i say this to you? um.” while he had no trouble in speaking his mind, he decided to choose his next words rather carefully since he was speaking to his senior.

“you’re tiresome to be around,” deuce interrupted, growing impatient with ace, “compared to her laidback attitude and easy-going life, you look like a pesky fly that won’t leave her alone.”

“what he said!” ace snapped his fingers in agreement to his friend’s explanation.

great… cater grimaces, a frown makes its way onto his face. and as if that wasn’t enough, trey added, “she’s an introvert and extremely private about her life too — sorry to say it but you’re the exact opposite of who she would date.”

if it were any other individual, they would’ve stormed out of the room. but he was cater diamond and he wasn’t easily wounded. there was a part of him that understands their side because he too was floored when you said yes to go on a couple dates with him and much more after you agreed to be his girlfriend.

needless to say, cater invited you to the dorms the next day just to tell his friends yourself that you were dating him.

#azul ashengrotto x reader #azul x reader #cater diamond x reader #cater x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader

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hiroshikoi · 3 years ago

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How would they react to you being into the occult?

+ Should You Tell Them?

Pick a Pile: Intuitive Reading

Pile One-Pile Two-Pile Three

I will be referring to “occult” as in divination (tarot, intuitive, cartomancy, pendulum, scrying, etc.), astrology, spirituality (chakras, witchcraft, astral, crystals, spirit/deity work…) and/or manifestation (including reality shifting even).

“They” can refer to your future spouse, next romantic partner, family, friend(s)/best friend(s), anyone you would like to ask about in mind, or even other people in general

How to Pick a Pile: Take the time to look at each picture above. Which one sparks a memory? What emotions do you feel? Do you feel anything at all? If all piles spark a memory, choose which one is the strongest. If none, try to go with the one that draws you in the most otherwise, these messages are not meant for you (at this time).

Photos aren’t mine, got it from pinterest and all credits go to the owner.

1 • Pile One

This person/These people would be scared. shocked. Its “out of the blue.” You may come from a religious background or you may have this image of you not being into this kind of stuff. You may be seen as more conventional or basically just into whatever people are into (maybe you tend to listen to the most popular songs/artists, watch the most popular/trending shows and movies, wear the trendiest clothes…). For those who are into witchcraft particularly, they may even be scared that you’ll do “black magic” on them. Or that they would suddenly be or feel cautious around you, and try to not piss you off. The reactions that I’m getting from this pile is the kind of hmm… a theatric but understandable reaction you may expect from people finding out about this. They/this person/these people may ask about their future, if they would become wealthy, famous, if their crush likes them back… They may also ask if you could see ghosts lol. If you tell them about manifestation and/or reality shifting, they will not believe it and think its bogus. Also, some of them may be scared that you’ll manifest bad things into their life. I feel like if you were to stare at them after they might’ve said something that offended you they may also feel like you’re cursing (in the witchcraft sense) them inside your head or something lmao.

:. Should you tell them about your occult endeavors?

Probably not if you don’t want to deal with people who are against it and would flat-out tell you to stop doing it because its “evil” or that you’re just being delusional. If you are someone who has a shaky belief on this matter but want to make this work (and it does; law of assumption baby!), or if you’re someone who is greatly influenced by others when it comes to your decisions, what you like and don’t like… then maybe its better to keep it to yourself. There’s lots of people online to talk about this with if you really want to share your experiences or ask questions and other things of that matter! (i.e. here on Tumblr!!, on Discord servers, Twitter, Instagram, Youtube, and yes even Amino and Reddit)

2 • Pile Two

Happy. Sad. Proud. I’m getting that you might come from a family that is into this kind of thing. You may come from a family of witches, people who participate in witchcraft or paganism, and they might’ve been coaxing you to join them and follow or at least incorporate some of these practices into your (daily) life. I’m particularly getting that you’re specifically into manifestation. You may have been doing simple spells or rituals to manifest what you want in your life. I’m seeing citrine, and some kind of herbs 🌿 being used perched on a white clothed covered table (altar?). Wealth? Also, I think I’m seeing rose quartz so you may have been manifesting self love or a love interest into your life. These people/this person would also be sad when they find out you’re into the occult not because they don’t want you to do that but sad because you didn’t tell them. They’re thinking that they could’ve helped you, given you advice, recommended you books pertaining to your interests and desires (i think I’m seeing spirit work, you may be into learning more about entities. Supernatural beings are coming to mind, and specifically maybe you’re into learning about the angelic realm? It could also be astral projection. Tulpas?) I’m getting that they’d want you to participate a little more largely in celebrations/festivities such as in (i particularly got this word:) Sabbaths or in Samhain. Maybe cooking your own food this time for this event rather than just meditating and lighting incense (?; I’m not that familiar with what goes on in those events, I apologize).

:. Should you tell them about your occult endeavors?

Yes. I’m getting that they can give you proper protection/teach you how to more effectively have proper protection. Wards and circles are coming to mind. They can also help you vex (this might be the wrong word, i forgot the term. but that thing where you effectively question spirits/entities to make sure that they aren’t tricking you and to make sure you’ve summoned/channeled/are talking to what you intended to) entities for you.

3 • Pile Three

this pile got quite long whoops

I’m hearing sad and betrayed 😥 “whatever.” The person/These people you have in mind will really feel like you hid something from them. Specifically in a way as if you don’t trust them or are comfortable with them enough to share such a (this slipped out:) large part of you life with them. Upset. “Why didn’t you tell me?” This person/people you’re asking about may want to keep everything transparent between you both. You both may have explicitly made a promise to each other to not keep secrets from the other. You both may have a disagreement if they found this out, they may not talk to you for a while or just dismiss you/give you short responses if you were to ask them or try to talk to them. They’re upset that it seemed like you weren’t comfortable enough around them to tell them something like this (something you’re ashamed about?? Is what i heard). For some of you, this person/these people may be upset of what you’re doing itself (occult). I heard “why are you doing this?!” 😰 If its the second reason, the reason for this reaction of their is they feel inadequate. They subconsciously feel that whatever they were doing in real life (action-wise, more practical-wise) wasn’t enough that (they feel like) you felt you had to turn to such a source of which (they think/believe) your desired outcome was unlikely to come. For some of you, they may also specifically feel that you might’ve felt that your faith (conventionally in “God” I’m hearing) wasn’t enough. Maybe because whatever you prayed for or done in accordance with your religion didn’t happen. Maybe you asked to get away from a terrible place, and it didn’t happen, but when (the person you’re asking in mind assumes that:) you turned to the occult, if finally did.

:. Should you tell them about your occult endeavors?

To prevent such a disagreement, most likely you probably should. Though you have to ease them into it. You would have make it clear to them what your stance is, what this is about, and why you’re doing this. Some examples of what you may have to tell them that; this isn’t inherently bad, there are some people who do curse and all and yes there are some people who are satanists and work with demons but not everyone comes from a bad place. People who practice this also work with angels, saints, Mary, some also even work with God, and other religious spiritual figures, Buddha (i heard). There are people who do it for protection both for physical and spiritual protection, there are people who use this to heal themselves and/or others. And some such as manifestation and subliminals aren’t even witchcraft itself, it can be incorporated but at its core its just changing your mind and waking up to the truth that you can drastically make a change in your life simply by your trail of thought and what you say to yourself & what you let yourself believe. Tarot isn’t evil even if the “Devil” is in there (I heard 😆).

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carrotmakar · 4 years ago

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here’s to us

Pairing: Harry Styles x Reader

Genre: Enemies To Lovers (with a twist)

Word Count: 5.3k

Summary: You hate Harry more than you’ve ever hated anyone else, and he feels the same (or does he?). The people around you see the interactions that the two of you have and believe that you’re a match made in heaven, but you can’t see it, and you doubt he can either. When he’s the last option to help you with a project that you’re working on, things are either going to go very well, or they're going to crash and burn.

Warning(s): alcohol, cursing, kink talk, angst, sadness, innuendos, tension, a set of lovers trying to convince two people that they’re meant for one another, fluff

A/N: this was originally a piece written for a writing challenge but that’s been cancelled (i love u liv take your time i will still participate in any and every wc you ever do bb) so this is now just another piece haha!! Thank you to @tbslenthusiast and @harrysclementines for letting me know that this piece wasn’t as bad as i thought it was (literally forever ago like.... i wrote this a long time ago lmao)!!! Also thank you to @kiwismoon for letting me send you parts of the fic and scream about how much i hate myself for writing things like i did!!!

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Relaxing.

That’s what you were supposed to be doing tonight. You’ve been stressed out about the article that was due in less than a week and you were in need of a night out with your friends. No matter how hard you tried, you couldn’t find the inspiration to write the piece. Plus, you had been completely swamped with your school work. Even though you were still in college, you had gotten a job as a writer and chosen to take online classes.

Sarah had suggested that you and her go out and have a few drinks. That had quickly developed into you, her, and Mitch. Then your ‘friend’ Michelle was added into the mix.

Now, you’re standing at the bar, waiting for your next shot of tequila and wondering how you let Sarah talk you into this. You hate bars. In all honesty, you only hate them because someone always seemed to mess up your nights when they were drunk. Luckily, that someone isn’t here tonight. You had made it abundantly clear to Sarah that if she were to invite anyone, it better not include him.

As the bartender hands you your shot, you down it and place the glass down on the bar. You wait for him to retrieve it before turning to walk back to the table that Sarah, Mitch, and Michelle are occupying. Right before you sit down next to Sarah, you catch a glimpse of a very particular head of curls. Your stomach drops at the sight, and you immediately feel the urge to exit the building. There’s no way that you could mistake that for anyone else but Harry. He’s the only person that has curls as seemingly perfect as that. Plus, he’s the only broad shouldered, muscular, tattooed man that you’d ever seen around here with hair that’s grown out to the point where it passes his shoulders.

Fighting the instinct to be as far away from him as possible, you sit down next to Sarah and do your best to ignore his presence.

That lasts all of three seconds. It’s as if something is pulling your focus towards him, and you can’t stand that, so you quickly tell Sarah that you’re going to head out. Grabbing your coat, you give her a story about suddenly having inspiration and not wanting to lose it before offering to take her almost empty cup back to the bar. She nods, wishing you a farewell.

As you’re making your way over to the bar, someone knocks into you and the small amount of liquid left in Sarah’s cup splashes onto your chest. You scoff, turning to tell whoever bumped into you to watch where they’re going. You’re met with a pair of piercing green eyes, and suddenly your words get caught in your throat. All you manage is a scoff and a quick “fuck you” before handing him the cup and walking out.

You stand outside of the bar, leaning up against the brick wall of the building as you order an Uber for the ride home. The stench of alcohol is radiating from your shirt, and you almost gag at the smell. Beer has never been your favorite, and you have absolutely no clue how Sarah can drink it.

You place the order and go to stand on the sidewalk to wait for the car to pull up.

“Fancy seeing you here.” The voice seems to carry through the entire street.

“What the fuck do you want, Harry?” you snap. The chuckle that he releases at your words makes your blood boil.

“Just wondering why you’re avoiding me, love.” You don’t have to turn to know that he has a smirk plastered on his face.

“Do you have a degradation kink or something?” Your words have their desired effect as he all but chokes on the air.

“Um, no. Why? You trying to turn me on, darling?” You roll your eyes.

“Absolutely not.” How can he be so fucking annoying all the time? “I’m just wondering why you continuously pester me after I tell you how much of a dick you are and that I absolutely cannot fucking stand you.”

“Because normally when you do that, you find some way to compliment me. And I think it’s funny how flustered you get when you realize what you said.” You hear him walk closer to you, but you keep your eyes locked straight ahead of you.

“So you have a praise kink.”

When he speaks, his breath hits your ear. Fuck, you didn’t know he had gotten that close. You have to fight the shiver that’s threatening to run down your spine. You can’t give him the satisfaction of knowing that he’s having any kind of effect on you. “Do you want to test it out?”

You scoff, stepping away from him. “You fucking wish, Harry.”

He hums. “Maybe, maybe not.”

You finally turn to him. After seeing him, though, you begin to regret your decision. Seeing him like this, in a white t-shirt and black skinny jeans, hair forming his face in the most perfect way, isn’t doing you any good.

“I’m not going to be your temporary fix, Harry. Go find someone else to give you a good time.” He puts on an exaggerated pout. “I don’t even like you as a friend, so stop fucking around like that. It pisses me off.”

Before he can say anything else, your Uber arrives and you check the plates before getting in the backseat and shutting the door, effectively blocking him out.

What he would have said if your Uber hadn’t pulled up, though, is something that Harry decides you’ll never get to know. Because just when he was about to say, “I’d want you to be more than temporary,” you found a way to break his heart yet again.

The Uber driver has continuously given you looks since you got into the car. His nose scrunched up the moment that you closed the door, and honestly, you can’t blame him. You smell like cheap beer and probably look like an absolute mess. He’s most likely just checking to make sure that you don’t look like you’re about to throw up all over his backseat.

You roll your eyes, trying your best to ignore him. It’s not even your fault that you’re like this right now, it’s Harry’s.

Harry, who you absolutely despise with every bit of your being. He’s been an arrogant, selfish dick since the very day that you met. He only cares about things when they include them, constantly dropping comments about his success, and always finding a way to insert himself into any and every situation. You can’t seem to get away from him. He seems to be around no matter what you try (at first, you thought it was a coincidence, but now you’re convinced that he just does it to get on your nerves).

Harry, who’s so fucking annoying and unbearable but also so hot that he makes your mouth all but water. He can draw a reaction from you without even trying. Harry, who you’re so fucking attracted to despite hating him, and that fact makes you hate him even more.

It shouldn’t be like this. You shouldn’t be attracted to someone that makes your blood boil.

I’m just drunk, you repeat to yourself as you push the thought of Harry as far out of your mind as you possibly can.

You groan as you walk out of the kitchen.

“Y/N you know I’m right!” Sarah yells after you. “Stop trying to avoid it.”

Plopping down on Sarah’s black faux leather couch, you roll your eyes even though she can’t see it. “You’re delusional, Sarah!”

She doesn’t say anything until she comes into the living room and sits on the couch next to you. She has a bowl of chips in her hands. When you go to grab one, she pulls the bowl from your reach.

“Admit it, you and Harry would be absolutely great together.” You could scream. She’s so adamant about the idea, but there’s no way that she could be right.

“Dude, we hate each other. What do you mean? What do you expect from us in a relationship if we can’t even be in the same room together for more than a few minutes without arguing.” She sighs, running a hand through her hair.

“I know, I know! But Y/N, come on. The two of you are so compatible.” You laugh at her words. How could she possibly think that when she sees the way the two of you interact.

“How so?” you ask, just to entertain her theory and let her get her thoughts out.

“Okay, hear me out. You both like music, right? He sings, you write songs. That’s literally perfect right there, even if you were just friends.” You nod, not saying anything. “You’re always talking about how you want to do hair and nails and stuff for your friends and I know that he’d let you paint his nails and play with his hair.” You had in fact been telling her these things, but you weren’t aware that she would choose to use them to try and set you up with Harry. “You’re both really funny and smart. You guys talk about a lot of the same things, too. It’s just never when you’re around each other.”

“Alright, yeah, that makes some sense.” She perks up slightly but you hold a finger up, motioning for her to wait a moment before getting her hopes up. “It makes sense, but you’re forgetting a few things. I couldn’t write songs for, or even with, Harry. He’d find something wrong with him just like he does now. He’d nitpick them until there was nothing that I could find about the song that he didn’t hate.” You sigh, thinking back to what she had just said. “We’d have to be too close to each other for me to mess around with his hair or nails and you know that every time we get within a few feet of each other, there’s some kind of fight that always gets started,” you trail off, giving her a chance to speak.

“Are you going to give me a reason why the last example of why you’re perfect for each other is incorrect?” She groans when you nod.

“Yeah, actually. We may like the same things and be funny and smart or whatever, but there’s no way that we’d be able to talk to each other.”

“Why?”

“His communication issues.” She throws her head back and obnoxiously groans.

“He doesn’t have communication issues.”

You burst out laughing. “He’s an Aquarius. Of course he does, right on top of those commitment issues.”

She rolls her eyes at you. “Whatever, Y/N. One of these days you’re going to understand that the two of you are quite literally a match made in Heaven.”

“Not likely,” you mumble before reaching for the remote and finding a movie to put on.

“Wait, what?” Mitch is looking at Harry like he’s grown a second head.

“You guys were right. Always have been, really, I just couldn’t say it before now.” Harry gulps, waiting for the ‘I told you so.’ It doesn’t come, though.

“Fuck, dude, I’m so sorry.” Harry shrugs it off.

“Not letting it get to me anymore. I’m tired of letting her break my heart.” He curses himself when tears begin to line his eyes.

“If I had known you really felt that way I would have backed off.” Harry nods at his words. “Sarah would’ve too.”

“It’s fine, Mitch, really. I just, I’m just tired, you know? It’s like there’s a magnetic force pulling me to her but every time I try to get close she shows me, yet again, that she can’t stand me.” He’s never been ashamed to show his feelings, and right now isn’t when he’s going to start. He lets his tears fall down his face as he leans back against the chair he’s sitting in.

“I really didn’t know, H. Normally I can tell when you like someone but it wasn’t like that this time.” Harry nods at him.

“You get pretty good at hiding your feelings when you’re hiding heartbreak after heartbreak.” He’s silent for a moment. “Should I cut off my hair?”

“If you want. But don’t do it just because you’re sad or you’ll regret it.” Harry closes his eyes as he debates the decision. A part of him wants to do it anyway, make the sadness go away for a moment as the exhilaration of a new haircut sinks in, but the rational part of him knows that Mitch is right.

As he sits there with tear stained cheeks, new droplets wetting his face every few seconds, he really wishes that he could hate you. He wishes that he could find anything to hate about you. But when he searches his brain for a reason to dislike you, he comes up empty. It’s frustrating, really. You seem to hate everything about him while he can’t hate a single thing when it comes to you.

He hears Mitch get up, presumably to go get something to eat, but he doesn’t open his eyes. There are a million memories with you flashing through his mind and it hurts him even more to know that every single one of them have been bad.

“What do you mean you can’t do it?” Your voice is high pitched, some would even say a little whiny. “Sarah, you promised me that you’d sing the song for me.”

“I know, Y/N. But something urgent came up with Mitch’s family and I have to be there.” Even over the phone, you can hear how worried that she is, so you can’t really bring yourself to be upset with her.

“It’s fine, Sarah. Really, I understand.” You hear her sigh of relief and a small smile graces your face, glad that she now has one less thing to worry about. “I’ll just find someone else to do it.”

“Ask Harry.” She suggests.

“Why would I do that?” The way your mood changed was immediate and it’s almost sad, how fast he gets you worked up.

“Because, Y/N, this project is due in like two days and he’s available.” She says in her duh voice. “Plus, he can sing really well, so just ask him. The worst thing he can say is no.”

“That’s a lie. The worst thing he can say is yes.” Sarah laughs before wishing you good luck and hanging up.

You groan, thinking about what Sarah said. She’s right, honestly. There’s nobody else that you’re going to find on such short notice, especially not one that can sing as good as Harry can. Admitting to yourself that you need him (which is something you never thought you’d say), you pick up your phone and click on his contact.

“Y/N?” His voice sounds deeper than usual, a little raspier, too. Almost like he just got out of bed. You’d be lying if you said it didn’t have an effect on you, the way your name sounds coming out of his mouth when he sounds like that.

“I need your help.” You grimace at the words.

“Alright. What do you need.” Your mind races, trying to figure out why he didn’t have a sarcastic comment or a snarky remark to throw at you. You ignore it for now, though.

“I need you to sing a song that I wrote for a project.” He hums, and you can picture him pulling his bottom lip between his fingers and then running his hand through his curls.

“Okay, when do you need me?”

“Does tomorrow work? Around noon?” You hold your breath as you hope for the best.

“Yeah, I’ll be at your place then.”

You thank him and hang up, letting your phone fall from your hand down onto the couch. Harry Styles, the man that you swear you hate, is coming to your house tomorrow.

When he arrives the next day, you almost immediately hand him the song and let him read over it, not necessarily wanting to spend any more time with him than needed. When he says he has a few suggestions, you’re terrified that he’s going to tell you how awful he is, but he actually only has a few suggestions to help with the flow of things. Besides that, he promises that it’s a really good song.

You go to grab your camera and set it up while he strums on the guitar that he brought. Once you’re ready to begin filming, he sets the paper with the lyrics on it to the side and nods.

He begins singing after the camera has started recording and you get entranced by him almost immediately. His eyes close as soon as the first word leaves him mouth and with them shut you feel much more comfortable while looking at him. His hair is flowing all around him and you have the intense urge to tuck the strands behind his ears. There’s a small crease between his brows, that of which she wants to smooth out with a kiss to his forehead. He seems so concentrated, and something about it pulls at her heartstrings.

You shake your head. He’s your enemy, remember? you think to yourself as you divert your eyes to somewhere else in the room.

After you’ve looked away you find yourself wondering why. Why do you hate Harry so much, really? Yeah he can be arrogant and cocky and rude but who isn’t? Yeah he talks about his famous life and his awards and chart placements a lot, but you would do the same in his shoes.

Plus, he really is pretty funny now that you stop to really think about it. He’s all the things that Sarah had told you over the past few months, and you can’t believe that you didn’t realize until now. You don’t hate Harry, you’ve been convincing yourself that you do to hide the way that you really feel about him.

You’re broken from your thoughts when he clears his throat. Once you turn to him, there’s a smirk on his face. “Could feel you watching me, love.”

Your cheeks burn at the statement. Regardless of the truth in it, you’re still not very keen on admitting that you were ogling him only minutes prior.

“It’s alright, I find myself looking at you sometimes, too.” You don’t say anything to that, and the room falls quiet.

With that stupid smirk, that’s way too hot for it to natural and fair, he picks up his keys and his coat and walks to your front door. “See you later, sweetheart.”

You raise your hand in a pathetic half wave goodbye and try your best to smile. As he opens the door, cold air sweeps through the room and you can see the snowflakes falling outside. “Great, there’s a storm.” He groans, but still continues to walk out the door.

“Harry, wait!” He stops, turning to face you. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?”

“Um… leaving?” He gestures towards his car that’s most likely covered in snow by now.

“Not in this weather you’re not.” Your voice grows hard as you glare at him. You know that he’d most likely rather not be around you, but there’s not a chance in hell that you’re going to allow him to risk his life by driving home.

Surprisingly, he doesn’t put up a fight, he just shuts the door and shrugs his coat back off. He hesitantly comes back over to take a seat on the couch. You stay silent, struggling to find the words to say.

“So, um, do you want to watch something?” He asks after a few minutes of nearly unbearable silence.

“Yeah, I’ve been watching Lucifer on Netflix, but if you don’t want to watch that, we can watch a movie or something.” You offer, looking over at him.

“Yeah, we can watch that.” You grab the remote from the table and walk over to sit next to him on the couch.

Pulling up Netflix and starting Lucifer, you let your eyes wander to Harry for a split second before noticing that he’s already looking at you. You immediately divert your gaze. Your cheeks begin to heat up, but you try your best to ignore it.

After watching almost an entire season of Lucifer, you’re just about ready to go to bed. You’ve gotten increasingly more comfortable beside Harry and you’ve even started to lean into him slightly. Not a single part of your body is touching yours, but you can tell that you’ve gotten closer.

You’re about to get up and brush your teeth when the lights go out. You groan, throwing your head back against the back of the couch. “Great, power’s out.”

He doesn’t say anything, just hums in response.

“Stay where you are. I know where the candles and the flashlight is, and I don’t want you to hurt yourself trying to get around.” You stand up, feeling your way through the living room towards the kitchen. Opening the cabinet closest to the wall, you pull out the three candles and the flashlight. Fuck, you forgot that there are only two candles. That’s not enough for there to be one in the hallway on the table, in the bathroom, and in the living room for Harry. And fuck, your extra blankets are in the washer.

You shake your head, lighting the candles and walking to the bathroom to place one down, and then through to the hallway to do the same. Making your way back to the kitchen, you pick up the flashlight and switch it on.

Once you reach the living room again, you clear your throat. “Okay, bad news. There were only two candles, and they need to be in the hallway and the bathroom.” You cough awkwardly. “Also, my extra blankets are dirty and I don’t want you to lay out here in the dark and freeze to death so,” your voice gets quieter, “do you maybe wanna come lay with me?”

He chokes on his spit and then clears his throat. “Um, yeah, yeah, sure. If that’s okay with you, of course. Remember, I can always go home.” You shake your head as his words.

“Nonsense, come on.”

Once the two of you are in your room, you climb into your bed and wait for Harry to do the same. Neither of you say a word as you get comfortable as you try to get to sleep. Without the heater working and there only being one blanket, though, it’s a little hard to stay warm and comfortable. “Um, Harry, I- can I- you- can we maybe… fuck I don’t know.”

You feel him turn towards you. “Are you cold, love?”

“Yeah.”

He wraps his arm around your waist and pulls you closer to him, letting you lay your head on his chest and wrap yourself up in his embrace. His arms come to wrap around you and one hand finds its way to your hair as the other rests on your hip.

As you bask in his warmth, you try your best to not let yourself think about the way that you feel so perfectly comfortable in his arms. About how he smells so divine and he’s so warm that you’d be content with never leaving his embrace. About how, without even realizing it, you’ve been letting yourself believe that you hate Harry when really you’re in love with him. However, you’ll never tell him that. Not a chance. If there’s one thing that you absolutely will not do, it’s let Harry Styles break your heart.

When you open your eyes the next morning, you’re still in Harry’s arms. He isn’t awake yet, so you let yourself appreciate the way that his hair is tickling your face and the way that his arms are holding you tightly to his body. You let yourself enjoy the way that he’s got ahold of you like he can’t bear to lose you.

You know that when he opens his eyes, everything is going to go back to normal. You’ll have to hate him again and he’ll pretend that none of this ever happened. That thought shouldn’t hurt you as much as it does.

You’re broken out of your thoughts by his voice. “Mornin’, love. Did you sleep well?”

You nod, all but entranced in the way that his voice is so much raspier when he first wakes up. “Sorry for being all over you, it was cold last night.”

You go to move away from him, but he keeps you hugged to him. “Don’t apologize, like having you here, dove.” The words confuse you, but you don’t question them. Instead, you let yourself relax back into him.

Everything is silent for a few minutes, but the air is comfortable this time. “Do you wanna go get some coffee if the roads aren’t bad?” Harry whispers.

“Yeah, sure.”

The two of you climb out of bed and get ready for the day. You let him use an extra toothbrush and once you brush through your hair, you hand the tool to him. He gives a small “thanks” and gets to work on taming his hair as you walk out of the bathroom.

A few minutes later, he’s walking towards the living room with his keys and then he’s leading you out the door to his car.

The ride to the coffee shop is silent besides the hum of the radio, neither of you really knowing what to say.

Once the two of you slide into a booth at the little diner that he drove you to, you order a coffee and something as he does the same.

“So, tell me about yourself, Y/N. I don’t really know much about you.”

You hesitate for a moment, trying to figure out what to tell him.

“I write. My job is to write articles for this company. But I’m still in school technically, so I’m taking online classes to finish getting my degree. I like songwriting. Um, I think that’s about it.” Your cheeks heat up as you tell him about yourself, although none of the things that you’re listing are embarrassing.

“Why haven’t you ever talked about your songwriting before?” He ponders, placing his elbow on the table and resting his chin on his hand.

“Um, you hate me. Or.. hated me? I don’t know. I don’t want you to tear it apart just because you’re some hotshot writer. Or because you hate me.”

He pulls back, looking down. “Never hated you.”

“What?” You had to have heard that wrong.

“Ever stop to think why I was only rude when you got rude first?”

Your jaw drops as you think it over. “No, um, I didn’t.”

“Yeah, well. I never hated you.”

“So, you’re telling me that I hated you and you just… never hated me?” He grimaces.

“Yeah.”

“Fuck, I’m sorry.”

He offers you a soft smile. “It’s fine.”

Throughout the next few hours, you sit there with Harry and talk about any and everything that comes to your mind. He pays for the bill, although you insist on letting you help. As you’re walking out to his car and he’s about to drive you home, he stops. “Um, hey would you maybe want to hang out some more?”

The question takes you by surprise, but you agree nonetheless. “Yeah, I actually would really like that.”

He nods, climbing into the car as you smile to yourself.

It’s been six months since you made Harry stay over at your house because of that pesky snowstorm, and you’ve never been more thankful for the weather.

You’ve spent the majority of your time together, going out to eat when possible and staying over at your house most nights. His is too big, as you’ve always said, so for the simple sleepovers, you insisted that he came over to yours. You’ve grown closer and closer to him, and now you can confidently say that he’s your best friend.

Along with the growing friendship, your feelings have gotten deeper. There’s not a single part of you can deny that you’re absolutely, head over heels in love with Harry. And you don’t want to anymore. You still don’t want to tell him, but you’re no longer lying to yourself in the slightest.

Today is the only day thus far that you’ve even slightly regretted how close that you’ve become with Harry. And that’s because you’re currently standing at the airport, head buried into his chest as you try to find a way to say goodbye for the next six months.

“Don’t want you to go.” You whine as you hold him as close as you possibly can.

He murmurs a “fuck it” before pulling away from you.

“Come with me.” Your eyebrows raise in surprise. “I know, it sounds crazy. Absolutely ridiculous. But listen, we’ll go home, back to your place and we’ll pack your bags and then we’ll go. I’ll reschedule my flight. I- I can’t do this without you, Y/N.” He reaches up and runs a hand through his curls (which you’d begged him to let you braid, but he said it was easier to have it down for flights). “Listen, you’re my rock. I- I feel like I can breathe when you’re around me. Fuck, Y/N, I’m in love with you.”

You freeze, completely shocked by the words that fell from his mouth.

“Fuck, I didn’t mean to say that. That was stupid. Forget I ever said anything.” He’s rambling because he thinks there’s no way that you can feel the same but you do.

“I’m in love with you, H. Have been for a long time.” Before he can respond, you surge forward and grab his face in your hands. Bringing his face closer, you slot your lips with his and allow the kiss to envelop you. After a few moments, you pull back. “Let’s go home and get my bags packed.”

#harry styles #harry styles x reader #harry styles angst #harry styles smut #harry styles fluff #harry styles writing #okay yeehaw tell me what you think #here's to us

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sneezemonster15 · 3 years ago

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I am new to Naruto fandom. Even newer to SNS fandom. I observed the shipping wars, and frankly, participated in it a couple of times. Just to see what it's all about. And I have come to one conclusion.

It's bonkers how far one will go to convince oneself about one's shipping whether it makes sense or not. At the end of the day, it becomes not really about the content itself, but one's comprehension and understanding of content. Which helps me understand why SS, NH, or NS stans exist. Their projection (which it certainly is) almost seems delusional and definitely inconsistent with the content itself.

When I first started watching Naruto, I wasn't aware of Naruto fandom. I am a cinephile and I am used to analysing content involuntarily while I am watching it. I wasn't expecting much from Naruto, I definitely underestimated it and wasn't expecting any emotional impact given it was shonen and I am very hard to please (yes, I am a film elitist). But as I kept watching it, I had to grudgingly change my opinion. By the time I reached Shippuden, I could tell that I was almost fevered with excitement and looking forward to more emotional impact.

I didn't watch it with any romantic lens, I was mostly interested in the fighting sequences initially. Hell, that's all I was expecting from a shonen show about ninjas. But at the end of vote 1, I was like, hmmm. What?? This was so emotionally wracking. Are they really just rivals, or friends? Now, I am a fully fledged cinephile and have watched a lot (a. Lot.) of LGBTQ films, given my interest in shows about emotional and sexual repression. And throughout my first watch of the first part, I kept picking up on the subtle sns moments without actively thinking about them. I was really into the story and wanted to see what will happen next. But at the end of vote 1, I had to stop and think, wait what, are they in love with each other? They are definitely not just friends. Or rivals. The language of their interaction in vote 1 is so fraught with underlying currents of repressed emotions that it just made the cinephile in me ask, what am I watching exactly? Like isn't it shonen (I am also relatively new to anime/manga) where gay relationships are a strict nono? Like why does it have all the tropes of repressed homosexuality in men, just like all the films I had seen. The way Naruto and Sasuke constantly gravitate to each other, their interactions at times feel like a borderline attempt at just staying close to each other, their violent, strong feelings and devotion for each other (land of waves arc) and then denial of those feelings (after the land of waves arc), their contant physical fights for no apparent reason, Sasuke goading Naruto for no apparent reason especially when Sasuke is not the type to talk without reason which had been made abundantly clear. Sometimes, it literally felt like he was flirting with Naruto (during the chuunin exams) while rejecting Sakura. Sasuke constantly appears to be caring and attentive towards Naruto while treating Sakura like trash. This was even acknowledged by Naruto who asks Sasuke to be nicer to Sakura. But Sasuke doesn't even think about it. He instead flirts (?) with Naruto. It made me think, why did the writer choose to do that? Why make it clear that in hierarchy, Sasuke keeps Naruto much higher than Sakura, so early in the show (when there hasn't been so much development either, we were mostly shown how they keep fighting and arguing with each other)? If they are supposed to just be comrades or friends, why pinpoint this? Why use this trope at all if it's about friendship, especially in a show that can't include a gay relationship.

And this kept happening consistently. The writer made the interaction between Sasuke and Naruto to be major turning points in the plot. Vote 1 fight made it clear to me that there was something more going on, but I didn't want to be presumptuous, so I kept it on the side and kept watching.

After watching Shippuden, I was convinced that none of it, was accidental. The writer painstakingly wrote a gay love story and was even obvious about it in a very clever way. Like he fucking got away with writing a gay love story in shonen. I know Naruto is basically a kids' show meant for entertainment purposes, but it touched so many important, dark and adult themes. I knew that it would be difficult for the writer to actually give a proper conclusion to these themes because they really aren't that black and white or even appropriate for children. So I wasn't surprised that he couldn't actually show peace being achieved after the war arc or slavery abolished in Hyuuga clan.

But one thing I was sure of. He wanted to show a gay love story, maybe out of a twisted sense of humor, I don't know. But that's what he did. He could not have made it clearer. He flagrantly used all the related tropes, visuals, sound, dialogues, hell the story. The fucking story...

He was so shrewd about it too. He made it so that people can take away whatever they wanted to take away from it as long as there was some plausible deniability about things that weren't made clear in the show itself. That fucking minx! But he knew that anyone who watches shit carefully, will be able to see what he actually did. He knew that at least some of us will be able to connect the dots. He went out of his way to make sure we connect the dots. There is no other way to explain why Sasuke repeatedly kept asking Naruto why he cared for him so much. There's no other way to explain why he concluded everything with the dialogue where Naruto explains that he hurts when Sasuke does. There's no other way to explain why that affected Sasuke to such an extent. Kishimoto went out of his way, like seriously, to tell the audience that they are Not just 'friends'. He basically used this friend thing with so much saturation and intent in such a twisted way that he made it into something else entirely. In that sense, the concept of 'friend' changed its meaning. Like you can try, but you can't change my mind about it.

Whether I approve it or not, but my takeaway from content depends mostly on the content itself. I do believe that more often than not, the simplest explanation is the right one. And this applies to the phenomenon of Naruto as well. Of course, as a viewer, I can't ignore that my suspension of belief relies on my own understanding of the external world and how I perceive visual language. But that is something that happens anyway, in tandem with consuming the content, while I was pretty much consistently objective about it.

I believe I have a pretty good understanding of how cinematic language works, and I know every creative or narrative choice has a reason and meaning behind it. Absolutely None of it is random. Cinematic language may not be universal in terms of styles, but all the styles definitely have a common ground. And any creator worth his salt knows it, he knows how his content will be perceived and what it is exactly that he wants to show or say. Do not delude yourself that it was accidental or on a whim.

I know for a fact that Kishomoto wanted to show a gay love story. I know for a fact that he wanted to show that Sasuke has feelings for Naruto and he knows it. He also wanted to show that Sasuke not only had feelings for Naruto but also knew that he couldn't show them openly. He wanted to show that Naruto has feelings for Sasuke as well but is confused and naive, like he is about so many other things. He wanted to show us that Sasuke is not into Sakura, that he doesn't even respect her. Any enthusiast of visual/cinematic language and narrative can tell all the above things without going into headcanon or deluded explanations (like SS, NH stans), with just on the basis of content they consumed.

At the end of the day, I don't ship SNS because it's in my head. I was forced to see and believe SNS by the creator. Not forced literally but forced to notice and acknowledge the emphasis and meaning of the twisted/manipulative ways of the creator.

Kishimoto, hats off to you, you sly bastard. You succeeded in trolling people endlessly, you had a lot of fun pitting people against each other, didn't you? Hahahahaha. Well, I call your bluff/or non bluff in this case since you obviously knew what you were doing.

#narutomanga #narusasu #naruto #sasuke #sasunaru #sns #shippuden #shippudennaruto #naruto shippuden #sasunarusasu

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animeyanderelover · 4 years ago

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Let’s continue with my favorite Arc from all I watched so far. The Yorknew City Arc!!I sadly couldn’t do it with all of the Phantom Troupe members because I had with some huge problems, either because I didn’t know them well enough yet or I simply don’t know how to imagine them as Yanderes😕.

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessiveness, obsessiveness, paranoia, delusions, manipulation, sabotage, sadism, mind breaking, gaslighting, kidnapping, killing

Yorknew City Arc Hc’s

Chrollo Lucilfer

📖Somehow I can imagine Chrollo as a similar bad Yandere as Kurapika. He’s obsessive, possessive and manipulative. He has probably 0.003% emotions and that’s the really bad part on this. If you give someone like him, who never experienced much emotions, a person who manages to make him feel something you can bet that he’ll never let this person go. It’s almost too easy for him to find anything out about his s/o, they’re like an open book to him which he can read over and over again and still doesn’t get boring of them. He’s incredibly charming to the darling and will feed them daily with his sweet lies, trapping them slowly and ensuring that they can’t escape him. Also the aware type, he hasn’t much experience with feelings, but he knows for sure that they aren’t supposed to be this strong and he doesn’t care in the least bit.

📖Also the removal and isolating type plus the really lovestruck one. He wants to be the only one in his s/o’s life, the only one who owns their heart and he isn’t planning on being only one of many in his darling’s heart. And if he has to kill every person his darling cherishes and isolate his darling from every human contact to reach his goal then he’ll do it without a single regret. This guy sees in his darling everything he always wished for when he was younger and they’re the only ones who hold the key to his emotions. That makes him a clingy one as well, he only leaves his darling if absolutely necessary and makes sure that at least two of the other members watch over the s/o.

📖His possessiveness comes to a similar bad level as Kurapika’s so I would give you the advice to not even think about someone else because this guy will find out. Even though he’ll never show his jealousy the s/o can sense it because there’s this barely audible dangerous undertone in his voice that tells the s/o they just added another threat that needs to be removed to his already long list.

📖Do I even need to tell? It’s obvious that he’ll eliminate everyone who stands in his way of getting his darling’s love. This guy will most likely wip out every person who has and had somehow a relationship with the s/o in the past and present. Persons who insulted you, your old friends, your old bullies, the nice persons at your workplace, your old crushes, persons who were and are interested in you...Everyone!

📖I think he would at first try to court his darling into relationship with him and if we’re completely honest there’s no chance that this won’t work. At first nothing will look wrong for his darling since Chrollo seems like the perfect boyfriend, but slowly and surely Chrollo starts setting his trap to keep his darling by his side for all time. If the darling however possesses nerves made of steel and somehow manages to not fall for him then he’ll immediately kidnap them.

📖Terrible! That’s all I have to say to this. He’s ready to do unspeakable crimes for you and shows no hesitation. I can definitely see him as someone who will try to use a nen ability on you to make you fall in love with him. No chance in hell you’ll ever be able to escape since he and the troupe are always watching over you. If you somehow manage to escape then don’t feel guilty for all the lifes he’s going to take just to find you. The worst is that you might even fall for this guy despite all the bad things he does.

Feitan Portor

☠️First of all I would like to congratulate you on messing your whole life up for making him a Yandere for you. Feitan knows for sure that his feelings aren’t normal and you can believe me when I tell you that he absolutely hates the s/o for making him feel that way. He hates that he loves them! I believe he wanted to kill the darling at first, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it what enraged him even more. He’s a stalker, choosing to watch only from the distance and trying to figure out what exactly makes him feel this way and also hoping that this is just a very strong crush that will eventually pass by. Sorry to disappoint you Feitan, it isn’t. Possessive as fuck, he never really had much in his life and now he wants something more than anything else, the s/o. He’ll make sure that they’re only his.

☠️A sadistic, cold, cruel and strict Yandere. He expects his s/o to behave and if they don’t do as he says he’ll punish them without showing mercy, no matter how much they beg him. He never shows any kind of affection towards them and will terrify them on a daily base, he wants to make sure that they know what’s their place, he wants to make sure that they know that he could just kill them. He would never admit that he couldn’t bring himself to kill them and he makes sure that they’ll never know.

☠️Possessive~ Don’t try to make him jealous, it won’t end well for you and the other person. The moment his darling feels his bloodlust seeping from his aura they know they have messed up big and everyone in a radius from at least 15 meters will start trembling with fear because of his aura. The fact that he doesn’t say a word during all of this is even more nerve wracking.

☠️Don’t try to make me laugh. This man will give them something much more worse than death. He’ll show them hell and the worst part is that you’ll witness all of it because either he’ll bring you along because you need to get punished as well or you’re able to hear the dreadfully screams of the poor souls.

☠️Feitan is a stalker and just watched the darling for a long time before deciding to kidnap them, realizing that his feelings for them aren’t just temporary. For the s/o it won’t be a pleasant experience because as soon as they wake up they’ll see Feitan sitting near the bed and watching them with an intense and scary look in his eyes.

☠️I don’t really have to tell, do I? This guy punishes you as soon as you do something wrong and will use fear to keep you in line. He makes sure that you’re scared of him the moment you first see him. You also need to find the right amount of affection to give him because if you give him too much he’ll hurt you, but if you don’t give him some form of affection at all he’ll punish you even worse. He’ll never tell you what you did wrong and tells you always it’s your fault for making him this way. But just like with Hisoka this all comes from the fact that he doesn’t know how to act on his feelings for you. But with a lot of patience and a lot of pain from your side he might warm up to his feelings and you and will start treating you better.

Shalnark

📱Shalnark is a stalker and the obsessive type of Yandere. He can’t be near his darling all the time, but he’s always watching. This guy has most likely put cameras everywhere in their house to always be able to watch them and has for sure a tracker put in their phones to always be able to locate them. This makes it almost too easy for him to quickly gain every little available information of the s/o. He takes notice of the things they do and like, making sure to remember it all. Talented in lying and convincing his darling to do as he says what makes him the manipulative type.

📱He also possesses the traits delusional, clingy and lovestruck. He believes that the s/o needs his protection or else they would die in this world and he’s more than happy to give them his protection. I can also imagine him as someone clingy, even though he watches most of the time from the distance if he actually has time to spend with the s/o he’ll clinge onto their side as if his life depends on it. He grew up under pretty shitty circumstances and his darling completes him somehow. They’re like the missing half of him he never knew he missed until he felt the incompleteness when he couldn’t watch them.

📱Most of the time he watches the s/o from the distance, hacking himself into every security camera he can find to watch them. He gets jealous easily and will have an annoyed pout on his face whenever he sees his darling talking to someone else. Why would they do something like this? They only need him. If he’s with them at such a time he’ll have his slightly forced looking grin on his face and makes sure to whisper something at the other person without his darling hearing, his dark words not matching his beaming smile. I can also see him as someone who will start blackmailing other people or spreading some nasty rumors about his darling on the internet so that everyone starts avoiding him and he can be the only person they have left.

📱He relies most of the time on his hacking skills to ruin everyone’s life who he thinks deserve it. He’ll find out their dirty secrets and will spread nasty rumors, making sure that their whole life will break apart. If that somehow doesn’t work then he’ll resort to killing that person.

📱I believe that it won’t take long for Shalnark to kidnap his s/o, given the fact that he believes that they need him in order to survive. He’ll plan everything perfectly so nothing can go wrong when he takes them.

📱Shalnark is like sweet poison. His innocent smile doesn’t match his dark and threatening words! Don’t get fooled by his fake innocence! Shalnark is a wolf in sheep’s clothing, you won’t be able to believe that this grinning man can manage to do such terrible things. It’s useless to try to escape because this guy will find you wherever you go, he most likely has planted a tracker somewhere inside you so he can always locate you. His delusions don’t help either whenever you start throwing a tantrum he’ll just tell you that you need him to survive and you can’t convince him otherwise. That’s the reason why he isn’t afraid to hurt you, he’ll break your legs in order to prevent you from running away. He just wants to keep you safe.

Phinks Magcub

👊Phinks is the possessive, clingy and touchy Yandere. He wants the s/o to stay by his side for all their lifes and would go to extreme lengths to ensure that this will happen. Extremely clingy and touchy he’ll always have an arm around his darling or touch them in some way. Overprotective, his position should make it obvious why.

👊He’s also the lovestruck and soft Yandere. He’s very keen on his darling’s happiness and that they feel comfortable with him and he would be honestly so heartbroken if they should feel scared of him.

👊This guy’s jealousy is more than obvious. The moment someone even looks in his s/o’s direction is the moment he starts boiling with jealousy. He’s the only one who’s allowed to look at them! That’s the moment the other person is doomed.

👊He’ll snap everyone’s neck if he has to. No one can take the s/o away from him and everyone who he sees as a possible threat for his darling or their relationship will be dead very soon!

👊Phinks wants a normal relationship with his darling and also knows to some degree that kidnapping his s/o would make them hate him. But given his possessiveness and overprotectiveness there would have to happen only one small thing that might endanger his darling and then he would instantly take them. He’ll be really apologetic afterwards.

👊Phinks is just a gentleman for you and would never harm you. But to everyone else he’ll be a nightmare because he’s fiercely protective over his you and if someone upsets you he’ll be upset too.

Pakunoda

💘I was so mad when she died and I even hated Kurapika for a while after that. She’s such a sweetheart, just why?! However, let’s start. Pakunoda is the aware type of Yandere, she knows that the amount of love she holds for her darling isn’t normal. Also the obsessive Yandere. She has a huge interest in her darling’s hobbies, interests and favorite things and with her ability it honestly won’t be hard to find everything she desires to know out.

💘I can also imagine her as the manipulative and overprotective type. She doesn’t have the best past, she grew up in Meteor City and has seen some shit which makes her more protective when it comes to her darling. She’s also very talented in talking her darling into staying with her, always mentioning the fact that she’s just so worried about the s/o and always managing to convince her darling.

💘She understands the fact that her s/o has other people in their life as well, even though she doesn’t like it that much. But she wants to see her darling happy so for their sake she holds on for as long as the interaction goes on. She has an angel’s patience and can hold on for a really long time and even when she gets impatient she would never interrupt, just tapping her feet lightly. But of course she steps in when someone’s getting touchy with her s/o or she senses that her darling isn’t comfortable with the other person.

💘Pakunoda doesn’t care for everyone except the troupe and her darling. But she doesn’t just kill everyone who comes to close to her darling, she only kills if she has a reason too. With her ability it’s very easy for her to find out who is an actual threat to the s/o or not and when she knows for sure that someone plans to harm or try to take them away from her, she’ll get rid of them. If the enemy is someone strong who she probably won’t be able to handle alone she’ll ask the troupe members for help, most likely Uvogin who’s the most eager to fight.

💘Pakunoda isn’t the type to kidnap the s/o. She wants to avoid to do this under every costs possible. She really doesn’t want to let her darling find out how unhealthy her feelings are for them. She’s more the type to spend a few days in her darling’s house if she’s concerned about their safety and well-being, making it look like a normal overnight stay to spend some quality time together.

💘Paku is such a sweetheart!! She’s very gentle and calm with you and always respects your choices and gives you privacy if you need some. She might be a Yandere for you, but she’s very careful to not show it, you most likely won’t even notice that she’s one.

Machi Komacine

🪡Machi is a cold and harsh Yandere. She never displays much emotions and that counts for most of the time for her darling as well. She’s very harsh with her words, especially if her s/o did something stupid she’ll spit poisonous words at them whilst giving them a cold look. She is also aware of her feelings and was at first somewhat conflicted about it.

🪡Also the strict and overprotective one. She expects her darling to behave very well and will get very cruel with her words when they act up against her, but at the same time I can see her as someone overprotective over her darling. Because even though she’s pretty mean she deeply cares for the s/o and could never forgive herself if something would happen to them and she couldn’t protect them.

🪡She always has this annoyed look on her face so you’ll most likely won’t be able to tell exactly when she’s jealous. I can see her as someone who will react passive aggressive. She’ll be more hostile towards the other person who makes her jealous, slipping some pretty mean words here and there in about them and at some point this person will start to feel very intimidated by her harsh glare and also very self-cautious because of her cruel comments.

🪡She has sharp intuitions and is good at telling if someone could be dangerous for her darling or their relationship with her. So she’s willing to get rid of everyone who she sees as a possible threat. But of course she’s careful with it, not wanting the s/o finding out because this could scare them more away from her.

🪡Machi will only kidnap her darling if they would find out who she really is or if they break for some other reason every contact up they had with her. Then she’ll take her darling without a second thought and locks them somewhere up where they can’t escape her.

🪡Machi might at first look like a really cold one, but I guess over time she’ll warm up to you and show you a more softer side she doesn’t show everyone. Of course she’ll curse at you when you hurt yourself and call you stupid and dumb, but she’s quick to stitch your wounds, very careful with not hurting you. And of course she often insults you when angry, but is always your shoulder to cry on when you need comfort.

Shizuku Murasaki

🧠Shizuku is the obsessive type, she’s normally very forgetful, but for some reason she doesn’t forget things like the s/o’s name, birthday, favorite color, hobbies and all this other stuff. Even if she forgets it she’ll always find it out again, showing a huge interest in everything her darling does. That makes her believe that her darling must be someone special to her.

🧠This leads us to the delusional type. She hears and sees only what she wants to see and hear and if they try to run away she’ll forget it. Nothing can change the ideal picture she has in her mind and if her darling does something to ruin this picture she’s quick to erase that memory. She also imagines things she and her darling did together that never really happened, but she’s convinced that it happened. Also the clingy type, give her all of your attention!

🧠Shizuku expects her darling to pour their whole attention towards her when she’s with them and gets jealous of whoever prevents the s/o of giving their whole attention to her. It won’t show on her face how she really feels about it and that’s the problem because the s/o won’t see how she feels. They just continue the conversation with the other person, making Shizuku more and more jealous without even realizing that they do.

🧠Shizuku might forget things fastly, but she won’t forget the person who took her darling’s attention away from her or this guy who got a bit too touchy with her s/o. Because of her more innocent look and air headed character most people underestimate her which is the biggest mistake they can ever do in their lifes. It’ll be also the last mistake they’ll ever make in their lifes.

🧠I don’t think Shizuku would kidnap the s/o because she believes that they love her just as much as she does and is very chill about letting the s/o meet their family and friends. But you need to repay that kindness later on to her in form of showing her affection or else she’ll start seeing your close ones as threats.

🧠Her delusions here are the worst and best thing at the same time. On the one hand she’ll never give up on the thought that you love her as well and she’ll always misinterpreted your words into what she wants to hear, but on the other hand she’ll always forget when you did something wrong and lets you wander around freely simply because she’s convinced that you would never leave her because you love her.

Uvogin

🫀Uvogin is the overprotective and lovestruck Yandere. He’s almost even more protective over his s/o than over his troupe, especially when they can’t use nen. Then this guy will be like their personal guard dog. I can also see him as a lovestruck one, he becomes such a softie when he’s near his darling.

🫀Also a touchy and clingy one. It might be surprising, but he lives for his s/o’s attention and stays always, when he doesn’t have some business in the group, with his darling which is also connected with his overprotectiveness. Also an absolute fan of physical affection, handholding, cuddling, anything!

🫀He looses patience very fast, but most people don’t even dare to come close enough to his darling since Uvogin is very intimidating. If someone actually possesses the guts to talk to them, which is most likely when Uvogin is for some reason not beside you, then this person will sense the next person something big towering over them. They don’t even turn around, they just run like a frightened bunny.

🫀As mentioned most people don’t even dare to glance wrongly into the s/o’s direction because Uvogin is always with you. The only time someone would have the chance to somehow do something to the darling when he’s away with the troupe. But the moment he gets back and finds out that someone dared to flirt with his s/o or even worse, harmed them in some way is the moment he’s ready to rip this person apart. It will be anything, but pleasant.

🫀He trusts his darling enough to not try anything behind his back or try to run away from him. The darling doesn’t have much contact anyways since basically anyone’s too scared to come even near them, being afraid of Uvogin. That allows him to have his darling nearly all for himself, but he’s okay with it when they want to visit their family. Overall he doesn’t really like the thought of kidnapping them, something really extreme would have to happen for him to take this extreme step. One example being if his s/o nearly got killed whilst he wasn’t there to protect them. Then he would take them from their home, wanting to assure that he can always protect them.

🫀He’s one of the more softer ones from this list. It’s funny that this dude here is willing to become your personal big teddy bear if you ask him to. Also a Yandere who would never hurt his darling, under no circumstances. He’ll totally spoil you, getting you everything you desire.

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