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wlwsoccerfics · 3 hours ago

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My Restless Mind(LiaWältiXArsenalReader)

Warning: Life With ADHD(Personal experiences are all over this piece of Work),mental health, medication

Summary: ADHD often means your mind and Body are restless. Sometimes you ask yourself how you have gotten so lucky to have found the right Person for yourself that loves everything about you. Even when you sometimes can't love yourself.

It was 4am and you were awake again. Like every single morning. Didn't matter If you were still tired because your mind was racing already. So this was the end of your night. Thankfully your girlfriend Lia was still sleeping. Because you always would feel bad whenever you end up waking her this early in the day. But she always tells you that she wouldn't have moved in with you If she would mind getting woken up by you in the middle of the night.

You crawled out of bed to take a shower. First you always would take a cold shower. Before changing it up to hot water. Washing your hair and body. After that you stepped out of the shower and fried yourself off. Putting on a black sports bra, an Arsenal hoodie and some black shorts. You then went to brush your hair before walking into the kitchen. Originally you went in there to grab something to drink but then you noticed the Apples on your kitchen counter and suddenly remembered that you wanted to make an Apple Pie last night before you got distracted by the book you wanted to read. It was almost 5am now. You knew Lia wouldn't be awake for at least one more hour so you decided to bake that Apple Pie now.

You just got done with the Apple Pie and put it in the oven when someone walked up behind you.

"Schatzi?(Darling) Did you wake up in the middle of the night again?" She asked and hugged you from behind. You leaned into her. Closing your eyes for a moment.

"i did. no matter how much i try to get my mind to rest it won't work! I tried medication, therapy, breathing exercsies...nothing works for me and it is upsetting!"you admitted and sniffled softly. Lia turned you around gently. Kissing your forehead.

"we could talk to your doctor again. maybe sleeping pills are the answer? cause your adhd meds don't really help you to settle down right?" She stated. You looked at her. Biting down on your bottom lip.

"yeah maybe. i just hate taking meds in general cause they make me feel like i am an outside Person looking in!" You explained to her. Lia gently grabbed your face with her hands so you had to look at her.

"Schatzi, don't get mad when i ask this, but have you stopped taking your meds? cause you are a little more all over the place then usually." Lia was curious and a bit concerned If she was being honest. You stayed quiet for a moment. Which kind of said more than words could.

"i have. i somehow feel worse when i take them!" You explained to her and tears started streaming down your face. She pulled you close, kissing your head. You hide your face in her hair, your entire Body shaking from the sobs. Lia stroked your back gently.

"even if you can't love yourself right now and hate those parts about you that are different? I will be here to love all of you!" Lia whispered into your ear. Your sobs turned almost silent before fully stopping.

"how did i get so lucky to have you in my life and that you love me enough for the both of us!?!" You whisper out. Kissing her softly. She kissed you back gently.

You quickly realized that the Apple Pie was still in the oven and managed to get it Out in time. Not without burning your Hand though. Your girlfriend Sprung into action when you whimpered in pain. She made sure you held it under. some lukewarm water before putting some cream onto it and bandaged it up.

"does it feel better now Baby?" She asked you and kissed the side of your head gently. Wrapping her arms around you one the couch.

"yes it does." You mumbled out. "Thank you!" you added before your eyes closed and you fell asleep for a bit. Lia was quite thankful that you got a few minutes of Peace cause she always hated when you couldn't sleep. Knowing how hard it is for you when you wanted to sleep but couldn't cause your mind kept you awake.

She let you rest for two hours before waking you up because the two of you had to get ready for practice. It was always kind of funny to you how focused you were on the pitch. And how great your mind was working when it came to football. Your mind away from the pitch wasn't as collected cause you had so many things running through there. You could Focus on three Things at once If all of those things interested you. Like you could read a book, Talk with someone and watch a movie at the same time and you knew exactly what you read, saw and talked about. Not many people could do that! So that was Not too bad. Right?

Practice was great and you went to dinner with the Team afterwards. Enjoying the night with them and that night you actually managed to sleep better.

#woso x reader #woso fanfics #woso fic #lia waltixreader #WallyXReader #arsenal women x reader

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cantfightmoonlight · 1 day ago

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"Fair, but what if they speak english real nice and slow?" She offered up in Friends defense. "Oh. I hope I'm not one of those people. I don't try to be. I guess I've just never been all that good at sugarcoating things. That's nice of you though. I guess for me, I don't really feel like I have much to lose by not telling the truth. But, I also don't really have many people or any people outside of Nico. So, that may be part of it too."

"You know you do look like someone who can read," She smiled. A bright and warm smile as she found herself beaming up at him. "You volunteer in the library? That's cool. What do you there? And thank you. It's probably the nose. I had it done when I was eighteen." Her uncle had always told her she would look better with her nose done and he must not have been wrong. "You're really easy on the eyes though too," She promised him. "Kinda. Yeah. I wonder why that is. Wait- did you say date? Oh, um, okay! Sure! We can go on a date," She nodded along happily. She couldn't remember the last time she had been asked on a date before. But, dates were supposed to be fun, weren't they? "Sort of? It's kind of a long story though."

"That would be fun! We can have the pups go on a date too. Luna's super friendly. Sometimes too friendly. She still thinks she's a puppy, but she's huge now and I'm pretty sure she'd plow down a burglar to give them love," She let out a small laugh at the thought. "They could try? You might tear the sleeves though. But, then again, that could be a look. Good for you. I've been told I'm not very good with manners or keeping my elbows off the table, but I try. You should talk to Jonah. I've heard he loves submarines and he seems like he reads too."

"Oh," Her face drooped as she thought back to the camp retreat. "I quit my job after that," She mumbled quietly under her breath. "That's sweet of you to say, but it doesn't change the fact that I was bad at therapy. I'm learning I'm not that great at most things."

"Huh?" Her brows creased at the mention of Nico. "What kind of rivalry? Like they didn't like each other?" She asked, already preparing herself to hate this unknown woman on the simple principle that she didn't get along with her best friend and nothing else. "You're not wrong there. I can bench a lot too! I might even be able to lift you," She assessed, if only because of super strength, but she could certainly try. "Do that again. The song? You're a really good singer."

Efe shook his head back and forth. "I mean, I like friends. I like having friends in real life. What I don't like is six rich friends who all look the same and have no real problems," he replied very seriously, giving a short nod of his head. "Hmm. Yeah, yeah. That makes sense," Efe smiled, cocking his head to one side. "Well, sometimes I think brutally honest people might like it more for the brutality than the honesty. I'm not saying you're one of those people, of course. But sure. I try to be honest. I tell people good things I admire about them because that's true too. I'm not always good at it." Efe wrinkled up his brow. "And yeah, sometimes people do things that hurt themselves, and they don't wanna hear it from me. So. I try to tell and give them what they need instead." He shrugged.

Efe smiled. "Can I? I read a lot. That's it. There's this program at the library where I volunteer to...but, well, never-mind. It's true. You're beautiful." He swayed back and forth with her, meeting her eye. "Ah, well, I'm just me. Thank you, though. I don't try to be a good guy because a lot of those kinds of guys are the worst, right? Which sounds like something one of those guys would say, so pretend I didn't. But, yeah, I'm asking you on a date. A real date. One that we keep in touch after maybe if it goes okay? What do you think? But, oh...uh, why? Did something happen? I left town for a while, and it was...well, I don't know what it was."

Efe smiled. "Luna should meet Badger. That's my dog. He's pretty well-trained except when he's not." Raising an eyebrow, Efe broke into a laugh. "Yeah, the car wash bod is why I end up as July and August. What, are they gonna put all this in a parka? Come on. I work out." He wrinkled up his nose. "Manners. Respect for your elders. Good citizenship. That kind of thing. Nerdy as hell. I read books about submarines." He grimaced before allowing the smile to grow more sincere. "I think you're great. You helped organize that whole camp, and...look, I know a lot of people were weird as shit about it. But how many of them try to do do things for the good of all their neighbors? That counts for something."

Efe gave a low sigh, shaking his head. "He had this, like, rivalry with my ex-wife. So...they were weird. And that made me weird because I was on the outside of it," he explained. "But he's cool." Efe broke into another laugh. "Maybe not buff the way I'm buff, nah, but...come on, we'd look pretty good on a beach, huh?" He rolled his eyes with this joke before beginning to sort of half-sing the song, forgetting some of the lyrics and mumbling along the way. "See, you're talking clubs. I'm talking middle school dances and other people's weddings, I think. You know what other song I don't get? 'Piano Man.' That dick's just singing about what a loser everyone else but him is."

#efe ft. elif #c: elif

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nerdygaymormon · 2 days ago

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I'm sorry, I'm out of the loop. I heard about the handbook changes a while back about trans people no longer being able to hold callings involving children. I'm sorry to ask this when I know I can probably look it up myself, but I'm not sure where to look and I know you can explain it in a way that won't have me upset again lol. are those changes still around? what other handbook guidelines are in place around the lgbtq+ community?

and I just want to add how much I value you and your knowledge. your blog has been an anchor for me even if I haven't interacted much.

Thank you for that compliment, that was very generous.

While little bits about queer people in the church can be found in different sections of the Handbook, mostly we are in the last section under Policies on Moral Issue. I don't love that being queer is seen as a "moral issue."

The church treats the T differently from the rest of the LGB, so we will have to talk about the Handbook guidelines in two parts. I will do my best to explain the policies in a neutral way, until the end of each section when I'll share my opinion.

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Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual

The church distinguishes between attraction and behavior. The attraction is fine, but breaking the law of chastity is not okay. LGB people can get baptized, go to the temple, hold callings, and males can have the priesthood. The restrictions and punishments come when the person has sex or enters a marriage/long-term relationship as both are forbidden between two people of the same sex. Basically LGB members can do anything that straight members can do before marriage (except at the BYU schools where a stricter standard exists, but that's not in the Handbook).

I notice that the church is fine using "heterosexual" but not "homosexual" or "bisexual." Here's one sentence as an example: God’s commandments forbid all unchaste behavior, either heterosexual or same-sex. I think that difference in terminology is telling, we are not equal.

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Transgender

If you're interested, I wrote a brief history of the LDS Church's trans teachings & policies and it ends with mention of the 2024 changes without going into what they were. So here's a list of the changes:

Handbook section 38.6.23 used to be called “Transgender Individuals” and now it says “Individuals Who Identify as Transgender.” The section also says “members who feel their inner sense of gender does not align with their biological sex at birth” instead of “transgender person.”

The Handbook used to say: “Most Church participation and some priesthood ordinances are gender neutral. Transgender persons may be baptized and confirmed as outlined in 38.2.3.14. They may also partake of the sacrament and receive priesthood blessings. However, priesthood ordination and temple ordinances are received according to birth sex.”

Now it says, “The ordinances of salvation and exaltation are received according to a person’s biological sex at birth.” It also suggests that the ways a trans person can participate in church is by doing family history and providing service to others.

The Handbook used to say “A transgender person may be baptized and confirmed if he or she is not pursuing elective medical or surgical intervention to attempt to transition to the opposite of his or her biological sex at birth (“sex reassignment”).”

Now it says, “Baptism and confirmation are received according to a person’s biological sex at birth. Worthy individuals who do not pursue surgical, medical, or social transition away from their biological sex at birth may be baptized and confirmed.”

It used to say, “Some children, youth, and adults are prescribed hormone therapy by a licensed medical professional to ease gender dysphoria or reduce suicidal thoughts. Before a person begins such therapy, it is important that he or she (and the parents of a minor) understands the potential risks and benefits. If these members are not attempting to transition to the opposite gender and are worthy, they may receive Church callings, temple recommends, and temple ordinances.

Now this carve out for someone to receive hormone therapy under medical supervision for their mental well being and still be considered worthy has been eliminated.

There is also a supplement to the Handbook, this is the first time such a “supplement” has been issued. It includes rules limiting a trans person to only attending meetings & activities which align with their gender assigned at birth, forbids trans youth and young single adults from overnight activities, restricts trans members from almost all callings, and has specific rules about under what circumstances a trans person may use the restroom.

The Handbook says "These individuals often face complex challenges. They—and their family and friends—should be treated with sensitivity, kindness, compassion, and Christlike love. All are children of God and have divine worth.” Do these changes seem like they’re sensitive, kind, compassionate and full of love?

What they’ve actually done is say there is no such thing as a transgender person and anyone who feels they are needs to repent. Basically, we don’t want you around our children, we don’t trust you to even go to the bathroom, if you feel like we don’t want you here, please know we’re telling you this “with love and respect.”

In the October 2020 General Conference, President Nelson delivered a talk titled “Let God Prevail” in which he said, “Today I call upon our members everywhere to lead out in abandoning attitudes and actions of prejudice. I plead with you to promote respect for all of God’s children.” I wish the church truly strove to follow this admonition.

#queerstake

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arolesbianism · 4 months ago

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*experiences potential ~symptoms~* Hm. Let's not think abt that too hard (<- guy who is always obsessing over everything that's ever happened to them ever (<- no one tell them))

#rat rambles #I shall now not elaborate despite desperately wanting to #part of me is telling me to get back into therapy #but the other part of me is considering the potential consequences of if I am right #not as in Ill be devastated if I am Id be fine with it (honestly maybe happy in a weird way?) but as in idk if getting dignosed is a smart #now what I actually should be doing is trying to get back on adhd meds because those are the symptoms that have actually been hell #the more and more I go on the more I realize that damn. it rly is just the adhd huh.#well except for potentially this stuff but it could also be adhd shit who knows #now I dont wanna jump the gun on this but Ive also been saying that for the past 4 years about the same fucking symptoms so.#idk Im worried Im just mistakening shit for other shit #which I shouldnt be saying because of ~reasons~ but like yknow.#itd just be so much easier if it was true and I could like finally put all these years of questioning to rest #plus then I could actually talk abt my experiences without worrying abt sounding stupid #the downside is that I might not rly be able to talk abt it as openly as some other things even though again I desperately want to #BUT! the realest pro would be being able to feel Way more confident writing a certain oc #who I shall not name because then itd be painfully obvious what Im talking abt #here have a pronoun hint ~he~#new fun ask game dignose me with every mental illness known to man <3

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ziracona · 4 days ago

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I’m finishing White Collar a decade later and it’s ruining my life

#every single part of season five is ripping me to shreds #Neal ruined his life. I mean he absolutely did what he had to and did the right thing but making that deal w Mark Sheppard is 100% going #to get him caught. AND HE KNOWS IT. he knew it was over when he did it!!! 😭😭😭😭😭#but he did it to save Peter bc he had literally no other way to get him free /and/ preserve his current life. so of course he did it #but it’s going to end with him #back in JAIL. I’m gnawing the walls. and Peter doesn’t trust him TuT. he still doesn’t. wtf. and he’s going to find out Neal did this and #Neal isn’t going to be able to tell him why bc Peter is so lawful good that if he realizes he was released on false evidence he’s going to #overturn that and fuck his own life over. so Neal can’t even say what happened. and THEN this psychiatrist who is drugging her patients and #getting them to commit crimes tells him he’s a sociopath and he just had his dad who abandoned him as a kid show up #long con him into believing he was a decent man. then abandon him steal shit ruin his life ruin Peter’s life AND threaten to kill him #and he’s always felt like knowing who his dad is could tell him who he is. and his fucking dad does that. then Peter doesn’t trust him so #much he gets a new handler. Mozzie loses everything and Neal is under maximum pressure to do illegal shit to help Moz #he gets friendly w his new handler just in time for him to be MURDERED. he’s being blackmailed into continued crimes by the Dutchman #and he absolutely knows it’s just a matter of time before that blows up. Peter told him who he really is is a criminal (sort of. it’s what #Neal heard 100% and kinda what he said). and then this psychiatrist tells him he’s a sociopath and always going to be a criminal while he’s #drugged out of his mind. and NOW Neal’s decided they’re all right and he’s going to never be able to change so he might as well be a #criminal—something he hasn’t been since SEASON 2 BEGAN. he’s going back to being bad 😭 and he’s having 18 mental crisis and he literally can #not talk to anyone but Mozzie and he won’t talk abo hot this #and Peter fumbled him so bad twice in a row and now they’re both going to have their lives ruined eventually by Neal getting caught and #their relationship exploding and if either Neal would just go to Elizabeth for therapy (she would be like ‘I also would have broken the law #for Peter actually it’s fine) OR Peter would get his shit together and leap of faith and words or affirmation Neal enough to make up for the #last 3 seasons—it would all work out #but it won’t so I’m dead #white collar

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hauntingblue · 10 months ago

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Inept 8 year old boy dragon tries to save floating island is such a concept

#momo just tell him!!! you've done this before!!! yeahhh #'this roof ain't big enough for the both of us'#luffy just telling momo to throw him something too akdhakaj this is back to how he was with koby but it worked so...#just grow some balls man!!! if he can spit something so can you!! BITE HIM!!! AHEKAHQK HE DID IT!!!! YEAHHH!!!!#he drew blood omg.... hell yes..... just be careful he doesn't bite back #luffy's exposure therapy is so effective. worlds greatest psychologist i have been saying this.#also nekomamushi and inuarashi better not die. i am also saying this.#talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1050 #me as baby chopper crying. actually and for real.#i don't have any points to prove for this but sanji and zoro look married in wano. idk man. i can just feel it.#i remember several episodes ago i was complaining about the missmatch of the colors on luffy.... i forgor why the band is purple.... qjwjaj #the music.... slay #i might be getting the luffy worms again i feel so insane..... what do you mean the sky parted.... omg neko and inu.... KICK THEIR ASSES!!!!#luffy fighting kaido and he still has time to boss momo and yamato around ajdbaks and roast him too lmao #momo thinking about kinemon and kiku....#PEROSPERO AND JACK FINALLY!!!!!!!!! carrot omg..... pedro avenged ✔️ now fucking orichi.... how many heads does he have left.....#why is luffy turning supersayian aldjaksn #episode 1051 #just saw trafalgay written on a comment and idk if its on purpose or a misspelling but thags so funny akshaksjaka #yamato and momo father-son bonding time <3 teaching him how to be a dragon... so sweet #also the race of people that could set themselves on fire on mariejoa??? kinda random dropping it in there but alas... ✍️✍️#zoro didn't want franky to help but there he goes.... out of onigashima... a good franky fart would have prevented that...#petition to rename coup de burst to franky fart. like why is it even in french. he is A YANKEE.#episode 1052 #boy dragon sounds like boy genius. who wants to join my band

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androidboy · 2 years ago

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the girl i went on a date with 100% wants to hook up next time we see each other and i want to but also like. ive got a feeling it’s gonna be a turn off for her that i haven’t done anything and i’m nervous that she’s gonna be uncomfortable and i’m nervous that she’s gonna ask why and if she does i’m just gonna be like “haven’t felt like it” which is somewhat the truth but idk! i feel bad since she’s into me and was really happy and she doesn’t know i’m all fucked up

#big part of therapy is not making peoples decisions for them so i’m just gonna like. say nothing #like im gonna tell her abt lack of experience but absolute zero breath as to why #but it’s so hard #it’s like ive got my little cptsd goblin all tied up in the back of my mind #and it’s screaming through the gag trying to warn anyone who tries to get at me romantically or sexually #you’re making!! a mistake!! run!! u deserve so much better than this!!!!!!!!#p

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antigerrymanderingspiderman · 4 months ago

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honestly. is it too much to ask that there would be a person in my life who could help me through a panic attack

#because i went to my mom becuase i felt like i was going insane alone but then i just had to both help myself and try not to hurt her #feeling or tell her to shut the fuck up #i want out of this house #i want a life where i can build a support system that isn’t my mom #she’s not a bad mom but she just doesn’t understand how to help me #and like how am i supposed to handle this mental health crisis a part time job and really fucking hard classes #and then the solution everyone offers is cut back on work but like that’s the only thing that gets me out of this house #i don’t know what else im suppose to do im in therapy im trying meds and just trying and what else is there

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skyclan-funny-name-squad · 1 year ago

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I could never make a rewrite because I could not make any major clan culture without immediately pulling down a powerpoint about every single way you could abuse it, and every single way it could be taken as a cult thing

#i love reading other peoples stuff but the amount of times i point at things and go 'thats part of the bite model' is ABSURD #or i see a punishment and immediately start scheming on how to turn it back against everyone else or use it as a form of defiance to societ #the psychology major in the back of my mind just goes 'i need to get the kitties into therapy and to explain how fucked up that is now'#and the little shit in me wants to take that worldbuilding and do crime with it #theres a reason my main warrior cat ocs are a bunch of rule breaking gay medicine cats in the dark forest #i am too loner coded #if was a kitty cat in this world id be the local gay loner that tells cats to bite their gods more

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anirudhpisharody · 9 months ago

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