#pam has adhd

[ghostoftheyear]

I don’t know if I was just too busy to feel anything while I was moving, or if I’m just on a downslope now that the move is basically done, but man.

(btw the move was successful, aside from a couple of broken items where I could see the movers just fucking gave up -- and the fact that I had to clear out my entire kitchen and both bathrooms by myself. SUPER glad I moved mid-month and had two extra weeks to get as much shit out as I could)

anyway, I’ve been getting a few drawins done and I was pretty pleased with them, but boy. after getting tons of hits on the dmmd bromides, I was starting to feel like all popular and shit, but of course it wasn’t because of me personally, it was the pretty boys and pictures. and rationally, I know that, and ALSO rationally I know that my art has never been hugely popular on here or even on twitter -- and don’t get me started on pillowfort or itaku.ee -- and yet.

it’s one of those goddamn things my brain likes to seize on and run around with. “only one person liked your art and no one reblogged it!” “only one person retweeted that post and NO ONE liked it!” “clearly no one likes your art! your art sucks and you should feel bad about it! hey guess what you’re gonna feel bad about it, dumbass! you keep telling yourself it’s good and you like it but ha ha you’re clearly the only one who does!”

obviously this is the worst sort of internal monologue... well, I’m sure there are worse but for me it’s pretty noxious. it all just sort of spirals until I start deleting posts, because if no one commented or RB’d or RT’d or even so much as tapped an emoji on it, OBVIOUSLY that means I’m a rotten artist and should give up on the one ambition and dream I have anymore. OBVIOUSLY it’s not due to the algorithm (fuck you twitter, fuck you new asshole owner for making it so much worse), or the fact that I’m terrible at self-promotion and really don’t even like reblogging myself bc it feels like attention whoring, or simple bad timing. or, you know, the fact that I’m drawing for a dead fandom (”but,” my brain whispers insidiously, “lots of people liked the bromide posts so it can’t be that dead, now can it?”).

fuck I hate my brain. I hate depression and executive dysfunction and ADHD. I hate that when I do manage to push through everything and draw or write or finish something, a combination of all the factors above just serves to reinforce the negative belief that my stuff is no good. I hate this spiral of thinking “but I liked it! I thought it was good!” and my brain going “what’s the point if you’re the only one, though?”

that might be the worst part though because I know I’m not the only one. so now I’m letting the numbers get to me, and that is absolutely the last thing I should be allowing. Fuck you, brain. Why are you like this?

I really need meds. Or a social life. Or both.

[ghostoftheyear]

It’s so painful to me when I see passages like “girls (and other afab people) to suffer through being told they’re so smart, they just don’t apply themselves enough, that it’s a personal failing they can’t regularly turn in homework, that they’re lazy for waiting until the last minute to work on an assignment… [...] Those girls doodled or wrote stories all through their school years, and functioned measurably worse when a teacher noticed they were doing that and tried to stop them“ because holy shit if that was not my EXACT EXPERIENCE. Almost to the letter.

My mom used to get so mad at me because I was so smart, why didn’t I just apply myself, the homework should be SO EASY for me to do. My sixth grade algebra teacher FAILED ME in the class because I would doodle in the margins of my notebook and she thought I wasn’t paying attention, and therefore thought I deserved to fail when I actually did get a passing grade on my final test.

But no, because I was in the gifted & talented program, I SHOULD be succeeding. Why wasn’t I? The fact that my brother, who supposedly was diagnosed with ADHD, not only successfully graduated college AND got his Master’s AND became a certified physical trainer... you would think that would have told them something. But no, Mom congratulated herself for cutting sugar out of his diet and decided that fixed everything.

...ngl, the fact that ADD and ADHD got condensed into ADHD when the hyperactivity specifically is part of the reason so many girls were simply not diagnosed drives me up the wall.

It's not that the whole name isn't bullshit, because it is. It describes the way people outside of our experience perceive us, as opposed to the difficulties that are part of our lived experience. Even from an outside standpoint, it's recognizable that "deficit" is not always the issue with our attention... but that's beside the point.

When psychiatrists noticed that ADD and ADHD were basically the same thing... they chose to favor the typical male presentation in the literal naming of the condition, and in doing so condemned a generation of girls (and other afab people) to suffer through being told they're so smart, they just don't apply themselves enough, that it's a personal failing they can't regularly turn in homework, that they're lazy for waiting until the last minute to work on an assignment... because those girls weren't hyperactive. Those girls just kind of drifted off and daydreamed in classes. Those girls doodled or wrote stories all through their school years, and functioned measurably worse when a teacher noticed they were doing that and tried to stop them. Those girls are now so many of my adult friends who are now being diagnosed with ADHD as adults, because the hyperactive part of the diagnosis almost solely applies to children (CHILDREN, when, I might note, this is a lifelong condition) who are socialized male.

We need a whole other name for the condition, because attention deficit is not our problem at all. But my god, the hyperactivity part actually ruined my life for so many years, because I had no way to explain to my dad why it physically hurt me to be bored, why I had to read or write or doodle in class in order to keep my focus, why I excelled in tests but failed at homework so my grades sucked because of that. No one even considered I might have ADHD, all through my childhood, but earlier this year I had the opportunity to go through all my grade school reports, and they could not be MORE CLEARLY talking about a child with ADHD. "Pleasure to have in class", "assignments not complete", "does not pay attention in class", "Birdie is a highly intelligent child with specific and unique needs" (I would LOVE more follow-up on that one, from third grade, do not have it). But I was a quiet and reserved child, so obviously I couldn't have ADHD.

I'm legitimately angry about it in retrospect. I went off my Adderall for a couple months recently, as an adult who only started taking Adderall as an adult, and it completely fucked up my ability to function. For years I was just out there as a teenager struggling through high school and college entirely unmedicated because as a child I was too withdrawn to be diagnosed. Fucking wild and also infuriating.

[rizwalda]

my piece for _pysics' Jukebox 20: An Album Redraw Zine - created as part of @d20zinejam 2024 get this zine and 67 others in a bundle and help support humanitarian aid for the people of Palestine

there is an wonderful, accompanied playlist 🎶 here

orignal art by @wishbow

[lace-coffin]

Slasher autism headcanons

Requests are open!

is this just me projecting onto other slashers? Absolutely! It’s like the spider man pointing at eachother meme but it’s just me and slashers both having autism 😌

Tw: slight mentions of meltdowns and self injuring stims

Billy Lenz

*slaps him like the hood of a car* “do you know how much autism you can fit in here?”

Billy struggles with loud noises especially repetitive ones. He often holds the phone far away from his ear when calling the sorority because he can’t stand the call tone. please get him some headphones or ear defenders

Despite this he enjoys making a lot of noise through vocal stimming/echolalia, picking up on words or phrases he hears from you or the others at the sorority. He usually has a record playing to keep him from getting under-stimulated, though this can be a delicate balance because sometimes it helps and sometimes it’s too much and annoys him.

Billy is hyper verbal (this may be more of an adhd thing I’m unsure) he has so many thoughts he needs to voice to the point where it feels like he’s going to explode if he doesn’t get them out audibly. He does struggle knowing when it’s his turn to talk though so he may accidentally talk over you.

Billy tends to get along with animals better, connecting to them just feels easier and more natural. He loves to hang out with Claude and rub his face against his fur.

Billy often throws and breaks things during meltdowns, doing it in the heat of the moment and regretting it later if it was something he cared about. Please reassure him it’s not his fault and help him clean it up/ fix it when he feels ready to be around people again.

May not be purely and autism thing but affection bites for sure

Bubba sawyer

Bubba stims in a lot of ways. Flapping his hands in excitement and doing little dances. I think She would play with the charms on her bracelet she took from Pam when they don’t feel safe to openly stim, say he’s in public somewhere he’s not familiar with or dealing with victims.

They have a habit of hitting their head with their fists during meltdowns and pacing (as seen in the og movie when she’s upset about the victims breaking in when no one’s home)

Bubba is also hyper empathetic, other peoples emotions have a big effect on them, sometimes making it hard to settle when their family is distraught.

Non verbal- speaking feels unnatural and straining for her, her family have never pushed him to talk since it’s clear it’s uncomfortable so she’s happy to communicate via noises and body language. Communication cards may be helpful for when more complex answers are needed.

Loud noises aren’t really a problem for her since he’s running around with a loud ass chainsaw all day but it can become grating after a long day if they’re overstimulated already, they’ll push through it and get the task done but he’ll need some time alone in his room to recuperate after.

Doesn’t leave the house super often, they’re much comfier to be home around people they know. She does occasionally go shopping with Drayton and their siblings but it’s very taxing on her because of all the stimuli so it’s not super often.

Michael Myers

I think he’d have a very specific pallet, not liking inconsistencies in its foods and preferring to stick to the stuff it knows it likes. he has such a sweet tooth and eats a bunch of candy. It likes the texture differences in different kinds of sweets, jelly is a particularly good one. Mikey eats a lot of grilled cheese to, it’s mum used to make it for him a lot as a kid and it’s a staple safe food for him. He likes his food bland and beige (me to mikey)

Very specific about his clothing, labels are an absolute no go and need to be cut out. He only likes to wear one brand of coveralls because they’re the only ones it feels sits right without making him want to crawl out of his skin. So basically its wardrobe is just a bunch of the same brand coveralls. (Like SpongeBob with his identical wardrobe lol)

Non verbal through choice, mikey can talk but finds it uncomfortable to do so it usually doesn’t. If he really needs to get something across that he can’t then it’ll use sign.

Low empathy, Michael feels empathy for people close to him like his mother or you but not for others. He doesn’t really understand why he should care about people unimportant to him.

It’s part of Michael’s routine for you to go to bed together at the same time, it gets gradually more antsy the longer you stay up over bedtime. Eventually if he deems what you’re doing not worthy of staying up for he’ll just pull you away from it and carry you to bed. It also sleeps in a specific position, he has the whole bed to sleep in but prefers to curl up in the same way he did back at smiths grove, apart from there he didn’t have a choice. If you’re asleep and splayed out Michael would rather sleep on the sofa so he can be in its comfy position. He also probably won’t touch you if your wearing pyjamas with a bad texture, brushed cotton is a no and he won’t be cuddling you unless you’re in a safe textured set.

Doesn’t like eye contact much, he feels more comfortable in looking at peoples face if it’s wearing a mask, it’s less intimate and awkward.

Brahms Heelshire

Brahms can go from very clingy to not wanting to be touched very quickly. He adores being attached to you anyway he can, like cuddling you from behind when cooking or wrapping himself around you in bed. Despite this Brahms can get overwhelmed with touch sometimes, the feeling of ‘to much’ buzzing under his skin. If this is the case then he’ll likely need time to himself back in the walls.

Brahms likes everything to be on schedule and to follow the rules. Like we see in the movies he gets upset when his rules are ignored since it throws of his routine and schedule. If you need to do anything extra or take something off the schedule please let him know in advance so he has time to process it.

Low empathy but only for people not super close to him. He understands how he’s expected to react socially to peoples problems/pain and can show it through masking but it’s purely because he thinks it’s what he has to do.

The walls are a safe space for him. His room was the place he felt calmest after what happened with his parents, its decorated to his taste and dimly lit as not to hurt his eyes. His room has everything he needs within close distance so if he’s feeling low on spoons then the fridge is only a few steps away. Plenty of blankets for pressure/burying himself into.

Also we can’t ignore the fact he literally masks with his porcelain doll mask lol

I think Brahms would use too much eye contact as opposed to none, he was taught it was polite in his lessons as a boy and took it slightly to literally. He loves to stare at you affectionately < 3

Asa emory

Special interest in bugs and entomology! I headcanon that he mostly became a professor so he can info dump about his special interests all day to his hearts content. He can get frustrated quickly if he feels he’s not being listened to.

(Ignoring the shitty enclosures in the collector bc I say so) I think proper husbandry would be important to him, he researches for days before he feels comfortable setting up a home for his specimens. If he’s feeling overwhelmed he likes to sit with his bug enclosures, watching over them and rocking himself.

Asa connects to his bugs more, finding them easier to understand , bugs tend to have more readable body language so it’s easier to tell when they want to be left alone without pressing to far. A person may say they’re not upset but are only hiding it to be polite. A tarantula will bare its fangs and let you know when it’s had enough.

Asa is very precise in his traps, planning them thoroughly before assembling, however he can get overwhelmed and upset say if a wire snaps repeatedly or the trap won’t work as it’s supposed to. He can feel himself boiling over and will abruptly stand from him chair, taking himself over to his bug collection to distract himself and hopefully avoid a meltdown.

[crowdeerdire]

(for the sake of my brain I'm gonna yap about my OLBA MC in Step 1) Name: Kelsea "Kel" Last Age: 8 Birthday: August 29th Family: Pam Last (Mom), Noelani Last (Mommy) and Liz Last (Sister) Others: Cove Holden (Best Friend), Cliff Holden (Cove's Dad -> trusts later in Step 1), Shiloh Fields (Friend)

Confident at this age and fearless

Considered a "wild child" and often times a bit clumsey, thus the bandages and bruises

loves bugs; will see how man pill bugs she can collect on her hands at one time

thinks snails are super cool

bedhead 24/7 because she wants to be outside rather then take time to brush her hair

tends to wear oversized shirts from thrift stores because of her "wild child" ways. She climbs everything and tends to ruin clothes - so no fancy clothes like Liz unless they're going somewhere special

she loves her oversized shirts

always cold - touch her hands or arms and they're ice cold

just bad circulation and it usually doesn't bother her unless she has to handle something cold

thank goodness for hot weather california

protective and tries to stand up for others

has freckles at this age - although light. They fade as she gets older

Loves animals and wants a pet... anything! Upset that both moms say no

You would think at school she would be popular...

has 0 friends

becomes very shy around a lot of people and other kids think of her as the 'weird kid' since she's often alone drawing and playing with bugs or being too shy to talk

BUT ONCE SHE'S COMFORTABLE WITH YOU??

certified yapper

does not shut up

undiagonosed ADHD

loves the ocrean and is a strong swimmer because that's mostly what she does in there

shell & sea glass collector

UNFORTUNATELY she can't tan?? (genetics) and she tends to burn more often then not? So she learns early to apply sunscreen a lot

Scar on her leg is from falling out of a tree at age 7 and getting a branch skewered through her leg :)))

likes video games but are terrible at them - still plays them tho

Kel with Cove

Same height as Cove

first reaction upon seeing him on the hill: "I need to protect him"

says she wants to marry him to moms but doesn't understand really what marriage is. Just thinks it means hanging out with them a lot (which is sort of true??)

Plays as Fond (in game) but I would say she has a mild crush on him as well

grows attach to him quickly because Liz has Shiloh, so obviously Cove gets to be her friend

Somehow feels relaxed around him easier and quicker then others

She yaps, he listens... and then they yap together

offended he doesn't love snails as much as she does

Will be protective of him except...

When it comes to scary stuff (like ghosts) she'll hide behind him, claiming she's not scared

tries not to swim or suggest swimming when she hangs out with him during that summer - doesn't want him to feel left out since she knows what that feels like

ran away with him because she needed to protect him (not thinking of telling parents would protect him) and didn't want him to be alone

Kel with Liz

Tends to deffer to her and let her take the lead

Has a generally good relationship with her but it's starting to get a bit rocky

especially when she starts standing up for Cove more against Liz

wants to hang out with Liz more "like they use to", but Liz is starting to be more independent since she's double digits now <- mourns that loss of friendship

teases each other in a friendly way

Kel with Moms

Kel loves her moms dearly (very good relationship)

for the longest time doesn't even think about if it's 'weird' to have two moms and no dad

doesn't cross her mind until some kid at school mentions it

honestly believes at this age her moms are her birth parents - doesn't put two and two together for a while even tho they are open about it

cuddler, especially with Noelani/Mommy

loves Mom/Pam's puns and tries to joke like her

if moms are around she tends to follow their rules

if moms aren't around, the wild child becomes MORE wild

gets worse when she and Cove hang out and egg each other on

Kel with Cliff

After Cliff offers her the 20$, she becomes nervous around him for the first while

won't look up at him or really speak to him

eventually she warms up to him the more he hangs around and at some point thinks of him as someone she can really trusts

honestly thinks of him as family (maybe further down)

will draw him pictures when she's more comfortable with him and he puts them on his fridge along with Cove's work

[delphiniumarchangelmoon]

Oddly specific hobbies I think stardew valley characters would have

Sebastian- have you seen those custom doll videos? The ones where they like… rip the heads off Barbies and tear the hair out and re-build them? Scrub the faces off and repaint them? The intersection between artistic and morbid REALLY screams Seb to me I don’t know why.

I think Emily has a collection of succulents but she will only keep like, one category of them. She has every variety of a single type of succulent and that’s all she grows.

Look me dead in the eye and tell me Abigail doesn’t have the most baller isopod collection in the entire republic. I’m talking dairy cows, rubber duckies, the local native species, you name it. She has her own experimental crossbreeds. And this is no modifiedWalmart plastic container situation oh no, these guys live in massive glass terrariums with plants imported from each variety’s native location. She sells feet pics to buy isopod supplies. They live like kings.

Don’t ask me why but I feel like Shane was big into gravity falls while it was airing I feel like he was a big theory guy. He had a conspiracy board on his wall with red string and everything. He’s still chasing that high to this day (no one tell him about arg’s he would never recover)

The wizard is really good at Tetris. Like, ‘people you watch YouTube essays about’ good at Tetris, but he’s not a competitive person so he doesn’t go to events or anything.

Pam is a candy crush girlie buy my silence

I think Haley and Alex watched too many ghost hunting shows as kids and the moment they had their own money they bought like, a spirit box and an oujia board and whenever they’re bored and home alone they do like, seances n shit but they think it’s really silly so they giggle the entire time

Elliott collects shoes, like unwearable ass shoes. Huge platforms, glass heels, vintage boots, stuff that don’t match anything he owns. Just because he can.

Sam has the “adhd 10,000 hobbies curse” but the one that confuses people the most is his HUGE nail polish collection. He literally only ever paints his nails black for the ~rockstar vibes~ but he has this just BUCKET of polishes. He swatches them individually on those fake nails you see people use in nail art videos and he has a little notebook where he writes down how many coats it takes to be opaque, how long it took to dry, if the color matched how it looked in the bottle, etc. and then rates them on quality. it started as him trying to find a good set to gift Haley for her birthday but he ended up just becoming really hyper focused on it and now he has a literal catalogue of nail polish. It’s only a matter of time before he starts trying nail art to make use of them all but only time will tell if it sticks long enough for him to get good at it.

Harvey watches the most absurd soap operas. Even ones in languages he doesn’t know. Not even with subtitles he’s just here for the vibes

[e-adlirez]

You got any more hot takes for us?? :3c

It took me a loooonnnggg while to come up with any that I considered hot takes, but I'll try my best haha

(I may have said these before, but I forgor so)

Hot take: Pam is not supposed to be the group comedic relief; Nicky is. Now that Pam has taken that role in the group in the later books, Nicky is basically a non-character and it makes me sad :(

Cold take: Nicky deserves to have her cowboy hat back. It's where 60% of her power is in, we need our crazy Aussie gremlin to gremlin another day please

Hot take: Violet liking tea isn't a bad stereotype thing, especially with how they adapted it into later books and her non-English lore. It's not that she's Chinese and therefore she likes tea, she's a goddamn tea connoisseur who just so happens to be Chinese. (Yes the earlier books didn't handle it as gracefully but cut them some slack, it was the 2000s, after all)

Lukewarm/warm take: Colette has had more fashion fails than Violet, ironically.

Hot take: Paulina is the most generic/bland of the five. I'm sorry, but it's true. She is the blandest of the five, her alleged mom friend role doesn't get explored nearly enough, she's mostly in the background, and being an IT kid is not a personality trait. The only personality traits I can think of is that she is chronically online (in the workaholic kind of way, not the "has been scrolling on Twitter for 9 hours" way), and she and Nicky put their everything into what they're doing enough that sometimes they butt heads over it.

Hot take: Nicky is not stupid. She is a dumbass, but she's not stupid. She has that ADHD flavor of hyperfixating on something so hard that when she plans a trip, she plans out a whole-ass itinerary complete with little factoids about the places and where they're staying. She plans so thoroughly that even Violet doesn't have to add anything to her plans because they are just that rock solid. She hyperfixates so hard that when disruptions ruin her plans, she goes into ":[" mode-- god she's just like me fr

Hot take: We need more passive-aggressive Violet in the books. We just need it. It's funny. In fact, we need the girls all in all to be a little meaner, a little more shamelessly blunt, a little more unafraid of roasting the crap out of some people.

Hot take: The old profiles of the girls are crap. Like, actually crap. Sure they're thematic with the journalism profile thing and they're good at giving a general overview of their name, nationality, strengths and weaknesses passports/social security numbers, it is absolutely NOT a reliable method of getting a gist of what their personalities are like. Unfortunately as far as I'm aware, there's no real way of getting a good look at them and what they're like in a nutshell (besides maybe the occasional good fic and I guess I'll toss in the GS 101 slide here too), but even then it's like eeehhhhh, I feel like there's so much of them that can't be put into words but is also showcased really well in the Italian TS books mrrrrrr -m-

Hot take: Vissia/Vanilla/Vic de Vissen > Rebecca/Ruby/Ryder Flashyfur

These are the ones I have that can remember so far ^^

[augdawg888]

jim halpert headcanons

i love him and there's not enough about him sooo

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has adhd, without a doubt

collection of different video games

horrible morning person. literally will not get out of bed

smokes weed, idc what anyone says

he doesn't like rap or hip-hop

bisexual

bites his nails a lot

he doesn't like being cold

favorite season is summer fs, he just loves being outside and in the sun

wears cheap cologne

bro does not know how to cook. he will forever eat take-out and microwave meals

prefers beef ramen over chicken

refuses to admit he's messy

he's just 'organized in his own way'

loves doing laundry though, but doing the dishes is a whole other thing

has specific ringtones for everyone

pam's is the chris brown song from their wedding

coffee > tea

he doesn't realize that he's naturally flirty, he thinks he's too awkward

he is awkward too, but that's part of the rizz ig

every time he kisses someone it is the most passionate kiss ever. he has a lot of feelings

he has access to creeds 'blog'

in the 'last dundies' episode, michael jokes about jim listening to vinyls, but he's actually a huge cd guy. yeah, he has an mp3, but cd's have a special place in his heart

unironically listens to weezer

he kept in touch with michael after he left

puts pam's art on the fridge next to his kid's. she hates it (secretly loves it)

he watched the full documentary multiple times, he was hyperfixated on his own life

speaks multiple languages !! he speaks french and spanish in the show, but i love to think he knows more than that

he knows asl, and he even learned german to mess with dwight

he also knows pig latin and swears it was the biggest waste of time

anyways, thank you :)

i just love him.

[unibeartoon]

Diane foxington redesign + some hcs

I tried to make her more book accurate (I found it very strange that they made her bald)

Hcs:

She/her/they/them

Transfem + bisexual

She actually has glasses on all the time (she doesn't have good vision)

She has adhd + autism

Her real name is ellen foxington (Diane is just a fake name she uses)

Also her and Pam are doomed toxic furry yuri

[fruit-salad-ship]

Could we hear about how each of the trio's pokemon interact with each other?

Grey: Gai (Lucario) - jolly and enthusiastic. Gets on with everyone but is especially fond of Minerva. Jo (Tangela) - Shy but sweet, a little timid with the bigger species. Best buds with the little house mons like Lump, Mocha and Chip, fond of Quintin for his jolly nature. Harley (Cubone) - Stroppy, enjoys Murder King, and Riot, stern with the rest. Jinseng (Garchomp) - Boa's dad, calm and good natured. Doesnt like Riot, good with the rest, fond of Val and her leadership. Marcellus (Blastoise) - Calm and grouded, loves the little ones, can get a little fed up with Boadicea and Missy, they're a lot sometimes. Saxon (Houndoom) - Super chilled out, gets along with almost all, bar Riot who is chaos. Chigby (Alolan Rattata) - The fanciest rat, he really likes Minerva, Wednesday and Champagne, the rest are indifferent/fine with his presence. Zeke (Darumaka) - a ball of love, most are good with him but he personally is drawn to Bob, Val, Saxon and Boa. Its a fire type thing, he likes the heat share.

Plum: Missy (Dragonair) - ADHD in dragon form, sweet. Though most are tolerant of her, a surprise acceptance comes from Val, who usually dislikes mons like missy. She loves everyone, EXCEPT Boa. They have a fierce rivalry. Minerva (Lopunny) - respected amongst them all, no one hates minerva, she is a very good pillar of strength for many, but loves to hang with Gai, Wednesday, Champagne, Chigby, Quintin and Booker a lot. They all gossip together. Boa is her sister in her eyes. Wednesday (Misdreavus) - Naughty and energetic, she's a new addition from the trios holidays to Paldea, gets on GREAT with Missy, Gai, Riot and Pam. They are chaos as a group. Don (Rockruff) - A new addition, young but fussy. Gets on well with Saxon, Minerva, Booker, Chigby and Valka, activley dislikes the smaller more hyper mons like Zeke and Scooter.

Peach: Bob (Torkoal) - Loves the youngsters. Has a distinct adoration for Val seeing as they have history. No one can hate him, he's a gentle old soul who cares for all. Even Riot shows respect. Valka (Vulpix) - Fussy by nature, she keeps distance from most. Fond of Minerva, Booker, Murder King, Jinseng, and Bob. Surprisingly patient with Missy and Boa. Wants to eat chigby. Booker (Teddiursa) - Tolerant though grouchy, enjoys Minerva, Pam and Gai, has a strong dislike for Wednesday. Riot (Lycanroc-mindnight) - Everyones problem, Riot is too unruly for most. He loves to brawl with anyone. likes Pam, Don, and Booker, a lot, dislikes Saxon heavily. Gentle with ED. Quintin (Scizor) - Airhead, most have no issue with him, he's too sunny to dilslike. Boadicea (CharizardXGarchomp) - usually very good with others, she has no issue with even other dragons. All bar Missy, who she doesnt care for one bit. Adores Bob and Jinseng, her two dads. Minerva loves her like family, Val protects her as a fellow fire type. Donut (stantler) - Does not tolerate Riot's tomfoolery. Otherwise calm and sturdy, doesnt spook even with the little energetic ones. Fond of Marcellus and Jo, taken a liking to Don. Murder King (Omanyte) - Enjoys the company of Harley those two are like peas in a pod. Has a crush on Minerva, is super fond of Pam for her spirit, very entertained by Chip's devious nature. Strongly dislikes Chigby for some reason, no one can work that one out.

HOUSE MONS (No official trainer, but alwasy there) Chip (Seedot) - A devious little seed, chops and changes a lot. best friends with lump and scooter. Enjoys ED for his naive nature, Hangs with MK a little too much. Enjoys Marcellus. Lump (Lotad) - everyone besides chip and scooter are indifferent to lump, he's so chilled out and often just sleeps a lot and waddles around. Scooter (Surskit) - Hyperactive, Chip and Lump adore them. likes to see what Quintins up to, avoids Riot, spooked by Saxon, distrusts Harley. Mocha (Milcery) - one braincell. Has no hate in her at all, though spooked easily, has no issue even if pokemon scare her, soon forgets she was nervous. New love for Wednesday, those two get on great. ED (Scrafty) - Everyone loves ED, I mean c'mon, he's just a little dude. Missy, Minerva and Marcellus all baby him a lot, Pam tries to toughen him up, even MK and Riot are cautious with the him. Pam (Pancham) - Quite likes Riot for his brutish nature, looks up to Booker, likes to stirr the lump-chip-scooter pot, gets them in trouble. Champagne (Trubbish) - a proper lady, likes things just so, gets on great with Minerva, good with Val, very friendly towards Chigby. Not overall any trouble, just quite particular. Dislikes Riot heavily, not fond of Harley.

Thats all the mons that hang around a lot, but theres plenty roaming around the island elsewhere.

[ghostoftheyear]

not looking for sympathy, just need to talk

so my living situation, which I thought was all right, is suddenly being ripped out from under me. I have lived in this apartment for 9 years, but my older cat (Aidan) has been pissing in a corner for far longer than I realized. Blame it on a combination of my lack of smell and inability to clean the litter boxes as often as they should be cleaned. Two years ago this caused the apartment office to start a recarpeting project in my apartment, because it was so bad neighbors were complaining. This was with my complete compliance. They did the main part of the apartment first (kitchen and hallways got new vinyl flooring, dining room/living room got new carpeting and all the floors were sealed as well), and then once I’d reset all that and cleared out the second bedroom, that was done too. The master bedroom has not been touched because this all requires a lot of physical effort on my part, but now it doesn’t matter anyway. I guess Aidan is still peeing in that same goddamn corner and the complaints are still coming in.

So my lease isn’t being renewed. I got a notice that I have to be out by May 31st. When I called (confused, as I hadn’t expected any of this), I was told about the continuing complaints. I honestly thought it would be better once the carpet was replaced and all the old marking smells were gone, but apparently cats are creatures of habit and Aidan just picked up where he left off.

I feel like this makes me out to be some kind of awful basement-dwelling gremlin who can’t keep anything clean. And in a way I suppose it does, since in our society, cleanliness is a mark of how “good” you are. And since I’m not “good” enough, I’m being kicked out. It doesn’t matter that I actually physically have almost no sense of smell and that I’m exhausted all the time and that even maintaining a regular job is something I have difficulty considering. As far as anyone else is concerned, I am not a capable human being. Because I’m not! I have a fucking disability.

Unfortunately, I have no documentation for said disability. I have no medication, no diagnosis, no doctor’s word. Not that anyone cares about mental disabilities anyway.

So all this means I have to find a new place to live -- which, at least is through the end of May, for some reason I thought I only had until the end of April and I’m glad I doublechecked. I want to find something more house like, if not an actual house, so that if Aidan starts this crap again I at least won’t have neighbors complaining about the smell. I’m finally looking for a job because it only literally just occurred to me to look for something simple like remote data entry. I’m not going to bother trying to take action against this place, because I just don’t have the energy. I’ve loved living here; it literally bettered my whole life to have a washer and dryer to myself and a dishwasher so all the dirty stuff wasn’t just piling up forever. I know now that I need those things to function. But it’s time to move on so I guess I’m moving on. I’m past panic mode and now I’m just trying to gather resources and find somewhere I can live.

This is why I revived my commissions post, btw, for all the good that did. Thanks to everyone who reblogged it. Wish me luck finding a new place.

[hibiscera]

🩹 🌴 🤔😞 for… DRUDY!!!

............. Moth Time. 😏

🩹 ADHESIVE BANDAGE — does your character have any physical and/or mental disabilities?

His autism adhd swag. 💖 as well as The Horrors.

🌴 PALM TREE — does your character have a green thumb? do they enjoy gardening?

YES to a degree!! He's not as knowledgeable as, say, Pammy. No one is, she's literally part plant.

But he knows what he needs to in order to grow the plants he needs to feed his darling caterpillars! 🥰 And I do think it really is something he enjoys!

I like to think in his yard he has a more casual garden that he maintains for Not Mutant moths and butterflies. A place he can admire them outside of the lab, and where Kitten can run around and play! Pam definitely helped him with it, she gave him a lot of good gardening tips once they became friends.

🤔 THINKING FACE — what are some of your character’s quirks/mannerisms?

Type of guy who needs to pace around when he’s thinking or infodumping for sure. I feel like when he emotes sometimes, he almost tends to come off as a bit exaggerated? When he’s higher energy at least.

Post-mothening is fun because then he got a bunch of mannerisms from being part moth. Occasionally stopping to clean his antennas, the way they shift and twitch when he’s inspecting someone or something. Vibrating to adjust his body temperature or even just agitated. His wings unfolding and being on full display as a threat display, even involuntarily, when he’s threatened or afraid. There’s so many good ones.

Though I just thought, it would be fun if he kind of had equivalent mannerisms pre-mothening. Running his fingers through his hair instead of grooming his antenna, intense leg bouncing when he’s annoyed…

😞 DISAPPOINTED FACE — does your character attract others, or do they tend to be left alone?

Hmm… I feel like he’s more of the kind who tends to be left alone, usually being the one to gravitate towards others.

As a kid of course, there was The Bullying and people trying to be around him to make him their pet freak and the like. 😭 The weird bug kid who’s easy to get on the nerves of and humiliate. 😞

Once he’s older, he’s always the one reaching out to others (ironically with the exceptions of Poison Ivy, Penguin, and Scarecrow. They all found him first!!), particularly as Killer Moth trying to get people to hire him. You know what they say about moths and flames. He’s the one who’s always gotta put himself out there and make himself known, which I think works for him, since he’s so about making a name for himself and making sure he has control over how others see him.

Then post-mothening. Things get interesting, since he can’t hide that he’s a giant fluffy mothman who is sometimes on the news for trying to flood Gotham City with mutant moths. You get tourists wanting to take pictures with him, you get people approaching him to ask him if he’s THAT Killer Moth. But also kids who are so wide eyed seeing a big fluffy mothman and wandering up to him to ask questions. 🥺 None of it super bothers him though… he’s finally being seen as how he wants to be seen.

[svturn-exe]

jonah has adhd and focuses intently on whatevers on his mind so much that itd def freak the villagers out at first-

harvey: whats is the farmer doing?

pam, drinking: hes been fishing for six hours

harvet: WHAT?!!?!

then later after they get used to him

jas: shane!!!! mr jonah's been cutting down trees for hours again!!!

shane: *sigh* ok ok, im getting up... every damn day i swear..

nmlkjHVKLUSHIOUDS H E'S ONLY GOT LIKE 7 ENERGY LEFT SOMEONE STOP HIM B4 A JOJA MART EMPLOYEE BREAKS INTO THE FAR M, TUCKS HIM IN2 BED, AND TAKES HIS MONEY (not counting shane shane is a good bean)

on the bright side. jonah can get rly far into skull cavern in a single day :]

[x-allu00]

mostani illat: bolognai, 20:51

a mai nap hazalátogattam és olyan élmény volt, mint mikor a nagymamámhoz jártam ünnepekkor Sarkadon. a közös a mai napban és a régiekben, hogy ritkán jártam le és mostmár ritkán járok haza. nosztalgiázni megyek a külkerületbe, pedig nemrég még ott éltem.

hazafele menet leültem a buszon (nem volt jegyem)

kinéztem az ablakon és minden szembejövő házba, lakásba, odaképzeltem egy életet, amit nem ismerek és soha nem is fogok.

már értem miért szeretik a külföldiek Budapestet. mert emlékezteti őket valamire, aminek sosem voltak a részesei, de akarnák ha lehetne. minden épület egy emléket őriz. az hogy omladoznak az csak annyit jelent, hogy még a múlt próbál a jelenbe kapaszkodni szétmorzsolódott tégladarabokon keresztül. érted biztos miről beszélek. múlt, épület, romok, ami csak akkor van, ha valami régi és nem foglalkoznak vele ezért a jelenben rohad. stb stb stb.

szóval a buszon ült előttem egy kis fiú, aki edzésről jött. szólt anyukájának telefonon, hogy megy haza. örültem, hogy mennyire gondoskodnak egymásról egyesek.

busz, villamos, Margó Tivadar utca, majd haza, hello otthon! végre találkoztam a kiscicával, akit babaként is simogattam, ezért most is odabújt hozzám.

áttúrtam a házat. mindenütt képek, könyvek, festmények, rengeteg asztali lámpa, pedig van villanykörte a csillárokban, jók. penészes a fürdőszoba, amit az antik vázák, a fapolcok, műnövények és Tumblr-kék színű fürdőszoba függöny ellensúlyoznak. leültem vécézni, papírdarabokra ültem. óvatos voltam mindig is.

áttúrtam a házat, de nem találtam meg a kulcsot. a pilisszántói lakáshoz kellene. igazából csak azért megyek ki, hogy kitegyem a függőágyat és olvassak a hegyoldalban. van egy telkünk, de nincs ott semmi. semmi gazon, meg egy kisházon kívül. van ott egy bili is, teknős alakú. Gergő használta.

apukám tőlem kér segítséget. remélem találok neki munkát, bár egy adhd-s, melankóliamániás személyiségnek kicsit nehéz. szerinte azért nehéz, mert 58 éves. szomorúak a ráncai, sajnos nem az a nevetősfajta. ezért mondom, hogy az. ha elhalad melletted, mindig érzed a szagát. biztos megjegyeznéd magadban. sz. őt, az illata ellenére.

szeretném elmondani, hogy érzem magam. tudod, érdekes ez. mert sosem mondom ki. vagyis azt hiszem kimondom, mert azonosítom a helyzeteket. például tudom miért vagyok rosszkedvű ha az egyetemre megyek. mert nem tanulok. tudom miért vagyok stresszes napközben. mert nem dolgozok. sokat alszom. és neked azt mondanám, hogyha találkoznánk, hogy azért alszom, mert nyolc órát dolgoztam és késő estig egyetemig voltam. nézd, ilyenkor azért hazudok, mert hazudós vagyok. már nem emlékszem mikor mondtam utoljára igazat. nem hazudok nagy dolgokat, csupán annyit és azért, hogy az embereknek kellemes legyen. nem vagyok magamra büszke. néha fülön csípem magam. olyankor örülök, hogy végre őszinte vagyok. például a vécézésről őszintén szoktam beszélni, mert tudom az mindenkit megnevetett. én meg igazi mókamester is vagyok. az is, ez is.

biztos te se hallgatnád szívesen, hogy miért nem csinálok semmit. inkább beszéljünk rólad. tavasz van! sétálj, mozogj, menj a hegyekbe! én is odatartok!

épp főznek. örülök neki, hogy nem nekem kell. ezt például őszintén megmondom, ha kérdezed. nem tudok főzni. lehet arról fogok mondani valamit, hogy ezt és azt elkészítem, de nem jól. sosem túl jól, csak épp annyira, hogy én meg tudjam enni, mert enni kell és nincs sok pénzem. inkább csak időm. nem, egyik sem igaz, valójában kedvem nincs hozzá. és erőm.

Good morning Show me the place where he inserted the blade Or praise the Lord, burn my house I get lost, I freak out You come home and hold me tight As if it never happened at all Good morning Show me the fifth or the cadence you want me to play Good morning Show me where to tie the other end of this chain pam pam pam pam pam prom

[youngcroissantturkeyworribler]

Today is my B-Day. I'm 25 now. A whole quarter. A quarter of a century.

Honestly, I have nothing to show for it. I'm just a depressed layabout with nothing going. Not finance wise, not relationship wise, not even a real life friend.

I've always somehow cried during my birthday, never in a good way and I happened on this one too, when I thought I was getting over it; not looking forward or dreading it. Just accepting that it's going to happen. The day is almost over with 1 hour and 15 minutes left of it.

I did nothing like always, I didn't do the tasks I set up for myself. My parents are sweet, mom made me one of my favorite home-cooked meal and my dad got me a small chocolate cake with chocolate icing and Blue Bell ice cream. We planned to actually celebrate my birthday this upcoming weekend. My two older siblings called me, wishing me a happy birthday including my niece and younger cousin. It was going good.

I happened to come across a snippet of an episode of The Office right when I started to ask myself, "Why do I feel this way about myself? My parents, my family, my past friends, gifts and school? Why? I have their love. Why is that not enough for me? What is wrong with me? It not because I'm ungrateful. I know that the love is there, but why am I not feeling it. I feel like part of it has to do with imposter syndrome, but that not the only thing. That it not the main reason behind all of this even from a very young age when I was in elementary. What is it?"

Pam from The Office had a gallery and is very anxious about it and is her boss comes in and compliments her for it and even ask her about the pricing for her work.

"I'm really proud of you."

Pam hugs her boss and says, "Thank you."

It fucking had me crying. It fucking made sense. It all clicked into fucking place.

PRAISE. PRAISE. PRAISE. PRAISE. PRAISE.

That's what it was. That is what it always has been. Nothing else. Down to even my subconscious mind. That is what it is.

I needed the good grade in elementary and to be a good friend to my friends, all for praises and inclusion. I'm a good kid with good friends. When we moved over 30 minutes away from school and friends. Transferring to two different middle schools and high schools. New sets of friends and teachers. I had to be on top of my grades even more no excuses and be an even better friend to my friends cause I was going to leave them whither I wanted that or not. But it was always for grades and praising by teachers, parents, even strangers.

I was so proud to find out I was going to the Early College Academy at South Ridge for my high school years. I was going to get an accociates degree before I get my high school diploma. I am smart. So why was I fucking it up. Why was I on academic suspension and left at the end of my sophomore to go to a regular high school with now two nervous breakdowns? Why?

The friends I did made in high school didn't stay for more than a school year much less being one outside of the classroom. New grade new friends. New grade new classmates. No school and no friends. For the longest time I had boxes of my stuff packed up ready for us to move again.

Nowhere feels like home. Not even my own skin and body. I lost it all. I lose. It's done and over with no satisfaction. No praise.

It's over my birthday has passed with me crying. 7 years I've been out of school with nothing to show for it but an average high school diploma, no friends to call, just another weirdo hermet looking for something that isn't there. Was never there to begin with.

Without praises I lose myself. I add facts into conversations, subconsciously looking for praise. That I am good. I'm a good student, child, sibling, aunt, cousin, patient. I knew I stayed away from relationships of the romantic kind for fear of my depression, ptsd, adhd, looks, trauma, and attachment issues. Who would want to date me. Why would I want anyone to go on and deal with the process of being in a relationship with me. I am a romantic because that's what gets the relationship going and that what keeps me to myself too. That's my escapism is fantasy, x reader, x s/I because there's is no one who in a sound mind would want me.

I will never be an option to anyone, not even I would choose me.

I'm tired of changing or hiding myself for praises.

I don't know who I am.

I don't know what I want.

I am tired of fixing shit people have done to me to find some type of healing.

I tired of being a fool to hope or of love.

I tired of being scared of others.

I am tired of myself.

And it was my birthday.

[e-adlirez]

I hoped you don't mind me asking, but what makes Violet your favorite from the other thea sisters? Would love to know some of your thoughts about her :]

Hahah, see it all started when I was a wee nine-year-old who just got into the series. When I first saw these cool mouse women on a book cover, I immediately gravitated towards the one wearing this half-saturated purple because her color palette was the easiest on the eyes (I wasn't very fond of everyone else's super-saturated clothes, especially Colette's since I was very anti-pink). Then I learned about said purpur mouse in the books and :0 she's Asian just like me, :0 she likes books just like me, :0 she's smort just like me, SHE'S JUST LIKE ME FOR RE--

Ye I kinned this silly, and the silly was my blorbo mainly for her aesthetic, color palette and her being the smort one (ego go brrr). I would say that I still kin her to a degree, but nowadays she's my blorbo because she's a socially awkward dork who is also capable of dishing some intense shade. A lot of this can be chalked up to the fact that she is probably the most fleshed-out from all the girls in terms of personality (in the English books anyway). To this day I'm not really sure how to characterize the other girls, because think about it: what are the other girls' canon personalities besides "nice"? Pam is the group comedian with a sassy streak (that doesn't get showcased enough) and also f o o d (she's got more stuff going for her in the Italian books tho, like she has this complex about not wanting to inconvenience other people with her discomfort or emotions); Nicky is athletic and super-passionate about nature (plus apparently a fear of disappointment both for herself and other people) and as much as she is my second fave most of what I know as her personality is headcanon (like haha Australian dumbass); Colette and Paulina are the worst offenders because I can't for the life of me pin down their personality besides their passions, which no, do not count as personality traits. The most I can gather is that Colette is the nice receptionist woman who is also very particular about appearances to the point of taking too long with doing her makeup or picking out clothes and is a romantic; and Paulina is... uh... She's the group smort, tactician and analyst (which is a shared trait with Violet), she's passionate about nature (which is shared with Nicky), she's into science (also shared with Nicky believe it or not), she an IT kid, she likes photography, she's nice, she loves her sister, uh... and she's the mom friend (but we don't see that enough), she's probably the healthiest chronically online person to ever exist, and that's about it. Violet's basically got everything about her fleshed out and kept in by Scholastic's story-trimming asses, and I love her for it. I would love to get to know the other girls more, but as of now, you will have to give me more meat on the bone because as it is, they've got very little to their personalities. Yes, I do have the Thea Sisters' official blog and bits and pieces of the Internet Archive to fill in some of the blanks, but there're still significant pieces missing.

Anyway uh Vi. She's socially awkward, she's a dork, she deals with stage fright and not wanting to embarrass herself, she's a perfectionist (which artist mood), she's an overthinker when it comes to her social insecurities, she's a roast lord as I talked about in my Geronimo x Thea Stilton crossover post yesterday, she's pragmatic and punctual (which clashes with Colette's chronic tardiness and leads to entertaining shenanigans), she's attentive and good at retaining information (god I wish that were my ADHD ass), she's that one quiet introvert that listens to everyone talk and then talks either when she needs to or when she's enjoying herself, her luck in DnD/the special edition books and beyond is crap at everything except staying alive, she is loyal to her friends which the later books used to make her the friendship prophet to which I say BULLCRAP SHE DOESN'T THINK OF IT LIKE THAT SHE IS LOYAL TO THEM BECAUSE SHE SEES THEM AS FRIENDS WORTH A LIFETIME AND SOMETHING TO BE PROTECTED AND SHE'S NOT THE TYPE TO SPOUT SENTIMENTAL UNSENTIMENTAL CRAP LIKE THAT--

She's adorable and I love her. My child, my baby, my blorbo. I love this silly purpur woman so much, and the more I learn about her the more I get to appreciate her.