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8.13.23
#its giving.... phoebe bridgers i know the end#actually sitting in the back of my friends busted minivan with the windows down driving to the sand dunes and back while incredibly high wa#overwhelmingly overwhelming#it suddenly became so intense how close ive become to these people in the past week#and we all felt this bizarre divine calling to move to the valley ???#i can't get stoned again bc it was Too Much#anyways ummm#the new job is pretty good
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How blessed are we to have a God who takes our burdens?
#how many years i have suffered under pathetically oversized burdens#many of which weren't even mine#and to know that my God not only took those#but continues to take every burden that is placed on me and will be there to receive every burden i will have in the future#am i always ready and willing to relinquish my burdens?#no for i am an idiot#and i will sit there crying under my overwhelmingly colossal burden insisting to everyone (and myself) that i can carry it on my own#but when i realize i'm being crushed to death by that burden and ask for his help he always takes it for me and exchanges it for his burden#which is light#i cannot be grateful enough#there are not words for how good he is or how much i owe to him#oh to be the friend#the sister#the daughter#of a God who has so much affection for me#i feel so overwhelmed by it today
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WHYS IT SO FUCKING YELLOW
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I’ve seen a lot of characters who fit into the ‘grumpy/closed off’ role associated with hating sweets by fandom
And i don’t get it cuz we have one canon character who hates sweets (Kakashi) but he’s also one of the biggest dorks
Nothing states Sasuke hates sweets
Or that Gaara hates sweets
In fact, i think we should headcanon them as loving sweets because they deserve some lil treats. Gaara going out for the first time with his siblings and getting a sweet little treat in Suna that he has never had before, and finding he loves it because it tastes good but also this is one of his first genuinely good memories
#i just find it weird#why?#grumpy characters can like sweets#they don’t need to hate them and it’s weird to see them always being portrayed by fandom as hating them#kakashi canonly has sensitive tastebuds#so it makes sense he doesn’t like overwhelmingly sweet things#dudes fav foods are grilled fish and eggplant#he likes simple foods#the same cannot be said for Sasuke and Gaara#we have no cannon proof they would hate sweets#let them enjoy sweets#choose a happy go lucky character to hate sweets#maybe naruto hates sweets because he never had a lot growing up and now it’s too overwhelming on his taste uds
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Listen, i don’t think Clark is Kons dad nor do I want him to be but I’m still delighted every time he acts paternally towards him
#this is because Clark is so overwhelmingly dad shaped by the way#there’s no set term for what Clark and Kon are to each other#Kon’s run would have been way funnier if every once in a while Clark flew down to Hawaii#to remind Kon to brush his teeth or some shit#it would also have been bad just so we’re clear#every once in a while the spirit of paternal instincts would overwhelm Clark and he’s black out#Kon would just be an innocent bystander#mine#I want Clark to have even more children#give him Chris back and that supergirl I know nothing about#and in fact let’s bring the other two supergirls I do know back also#Clark is definitely not a parent to all of them but by god is he gonna try#not me going off in the tags#clark kent#conner kent
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i dont like that nowadays the furry fandom is written off as being a neurodivergent thing. no. its a gay subculture like pups.
im not a furry because im too r-slured to socialize without pretending im a big fluffy animal. im a furry because im a counterculture queer who thinks furries are hot.
#op#its just annoying ''what is the appeal of furry?'' ''well a lot of furries are neurodivergent...''#close! the furry fandom is actually not that neurodiverse! only slightly more than real life! but it is OVERWHELMINGLY queer!#youd realize this if you looked around and realized how neurotypical the culture is with giant overwhelming conventions that require#good socializing to navigate and gain friendships!#and then also looked at the community surveys
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That feeling when the idea of replaying a game is more appealing than actually playing said game.
#My brain has been gradually fixating on Dragon Age over the last few months#and the idea of going back to Thedas is overwhelmingly great and wonderful cause I miss everyone#But re-downloading the games and trudging through certain sections is an equally overwhelming *uuuuugh*#Theory and actuality are at loggerheads#Lozz blah blah
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gorillaz have way too many good songs it's not fair
#like.. dont do this to me#its physically impossible for me to express all the feelings i get from aaaaalll of these songsss.... tone it dowwwnnnn pleaaaseeeeee#let me breaaaaaaaaaathhhhhhhheeeeee😮💨😮💨😮💨😮💨😮💨😮💨😮💨😮💨😮💨😮💨😮💨😤😤#overwhelming . this band is overwhelmingly good and i wnt to punch some ody rigb now#GHHHHHGGGGGNNNNNNBBHHGFFGHGHH
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The world has suddenly felt very scary and unsafe lately, and I’ve felt very vulnerable within it. Don’t know how to get my feet back on the ground- global rise of facism (sic) notwithstanding.
#I’ve been struggling with chronic fatigue (long Covid babyyyy) and unpacking recently resurfaced trauma#and suddenly feeling very unwelcome in a queer community I was beginning to mesh with#so idk. I’d like to not feel overwhelmingly… overwhelmed#this is Cassandra#just musing. I don’t have much autonomy at the moment
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I learned what a bullet journal was by watching a few YouTube artists set theirs up and my algorithm spiraled out of control from there so I guess I have all the bujo influencers to thank for getting into it because it has been a godsend so far on my third attempt, but damn if the over emphasis on aesthetic over the actual practical organizational aspect of it doesn't rankle me a bit
[thirty rambling tags later] huh. I didn't know there was a thirty tag limit in all the years I've been on tumblr. Whatevs I can't copy paste the tags onto the main body because I'm on mobile and I don't want to write it out again so I'll just summarize the last bit here:
If you are browsing the bujo tag because you feel bullet journaling will help you but you feel intimated because you don't think you can make it look pretty, or that the bullet journal method could never help you because it looks exhausting or the inspo you see doesn't cover what you need, I am pleading with you to ignore all the pretty inspiration, take the most common and even original Ryder Carroll formats and spreads with a grain of salt and eliminate or change them as needed, and talk to people who have similar needs than you even if they don't bujo and suss out what's important to keep track of. My bujo is eighty percent important medical bullshit, because that's what I need more than a book tracker. You prolly have your own unique needs. And hell, if you want a book tracker then add a booktracker. It's your bujo to format and plan out.
So like if you want to start bullet journaling, go to Michaels and get a seven dollar Artist's Loft dot grid journal. Or a binder you have left over from school years past and print out your own dot grid paper if you have enough ink and paper and printer that can do double sided (Kevin McLeod's site I forget the name of has free adjustable dot and other grids I've used), or buy a pack of 8.5x11 dot grid paper, and grab a crappy hole punch that just barely does the job. Get yourself a nice pen you think looks and feels nice in your hand and on the paper–or if that doesn't matter to you go get pack of Bics or even pencil if that's what you prefer (I use a pencil for things I can't have be permanent, like temporary meds or the dates of yearly vaccines). If you're twitchy about messing up then get the cheapest wite out they have (but don't worry about messing up especially if you're not even showing it off to anybody). A cheap yellow highlighter if you think it'll help. And a ruler if straight lines are important to you. I lost mine so I just wobble my lines now I don't care (and it's marginally easier to get a line adjacent to straight with a dot grid)
Anyway. If you want to bullet journal but don't know where to start or how to make it pretty or how to make it work for your needs, just try it in the cheapest way possible and rearrange the guts of the bujo as you see fit. And don't worry about the optics as long as you can make sense of your methods and writing.
(and for the love of God if you're bipolar don't make an hourly mood tracker yes our moods can and will fluctuate throughout the day but goddamn was that a bitch to log and abandoned a few weeks after inking it out)
#i see this with in regular journaling/diary circles too#people saying 'i want to start a bujo/diary but I'm not good enough at art ☹️'#like more power to you if you can make it pretty but it shouldn't be the primary emphasis especially with how useful it is#(it's especially depressing with just regular diaries and journals because like. you're under no obligation to share that shit with anybody)#I'm on my third bujo attempt because i got overwhelmed with my first two because i didn't know how to customize it with me and my needs#the most i got about symptom tracking was like a weekly layout checking off if the criteria was hit#and mood tracking was like daily smiley or frowny face in the corner#like my siblings in planning that is not enough for my chronically ill bipolar ass lol#i went way overboard my first attempt with just mood tracking. i planned it out HOURLY. every week#and that got overwhelmingly tedious and i use overwhelmingly deliberately. so i just stopped mood tracking#and then the whole thing got overwhelming so i stopped it entirely#gave it another shot because my method of scheduling things and symptom tracking was to write appointments and symptoms on post its#and pray they didn't fall off and i could remember where i even put them#and i see a lot of doctors so that was a LOT post its to keep track of#so i did another bujo but had the same problem as lack of resources and inspo and how to make it work for my needs#plus future logs were hard to parse AND i often felt too tired to lay out a new month or two every time#so like there were just whole months and the symptoms and appointments within just missing and i might as well not even have a bujo#so i stopped that one too#FINALLY after a little bit more watching Ryder Carroll and looking at prefab medical planners that were still woefully inadequate#AND MORE IMPORTANTLY talking to my fellow chronically ill. mentally ill. disabled. or all three. friends on what i should jot down#i finally got a system that worked for me thus far#i got rid of even staples like future logs and just laid out a monthly calendar format because that was easier FOR ME#and i laid out the year in advance so i could still have the scheduling part of i was too tired to do entire layouts at the beginning of the#month#my mood tracker was merged with my symptom tracker and turned into a symptoms *list*#with a section for every specialist i see. mood stuff just went under psych/therapist#also i switched to a binder format instead of a bound book for even more flexibility#i can easily remove things i no longer need. i can rearrange what goes in what section. i can easily add more to a section before the next#bujo#bullet journal
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I watched a training on career development; the premise was that project managers should treat their career like a project. And one really stupid comment stuck with me: "salary should not be in your goals. That's like choosing your software before knowing the project requirements."
It was ironic, because one of his goals was "work-life balance at a remote workplace." 🙄
It was a lot of fluff about making lists of what you like to do at work and what you don't, and that somehow translates to finding your dream job. He discouraged using luck-based strategies, in favor of...a luck based strategy of mentoring people who will hopefully inspire you. 🙃
And I'm just like. "Ok, project manager. You haven't accounted for your assumptions."
But also. Knowing your budget is important to being a project manager. There's a minimum budget needed to succeed. If you're not planning that out early, you didn't really plan your project.
And I'm sitting there thinking that next, for me, isn't a reassessment of the tasks I perform. I like the tasks well enough. Next is getting a $50k-70k wage increase, to be in line with the industry average for people with my skills, performing my tasks, at my level of experience in this region. It's a 32 hour work week. And more paid time off.
I don't care if I get a fancy new title. I don't care if it's a more prestigious company. I don't care if there are more interesting challenges. I've grown my skills. It's past time to grow my lifestyle. And that's not going to happen from a like and dislike list, and mentoring people.
#i don't know why i bother with these trainings honestly#they're so shallow. i kind of want to rant about the courses about AI#they're basically marketing brochures. and one involved a weird spin on data#like. it showed that project managers don't see the value. but it's the wave of the future because senior leaders overwhelmingly expect it#they had the same data ratio showing that workers want remote work and senior leaders only think they're effective if they're in person.#in that example. it was proof that senior leaders are out of touch. and they supported it with data showing no difference for remote quality#it was just a way to pretend there's some value behind AI. but the speakers overwhelming don't understand it#they listed a lot of abstract value. but nothing of substance. no suggestion of tools that can and should be trusted#and no acknowledgement that having someone continuously checking that it worked right. is an extra step. not a time savings#i tend to spend more time questioning the competence of trainers than getting anything from these courses
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#not to be romantic on main but my boyfriend is the sweetest person in the entire world#I've always been self conscious about sharing my writing in person because my family used to shut me down a lot#not in a mean way like I know they care about me and I can be obnoxious because I babble a LOT and it's a bit Much yknow#but I've trained myself to shut down the rambles before they stop even with my own best friends who I Know would listen#They all knew I wrote but I think I'd known them for like four years before I told them the *plot*#but my boyfriend is so so so patient and lets me ramble as much as I want and reads whatever I send him#and hes even coming to the conference with me this weekend#because he knows I get overwhelmed in big crowds and he wants to be there for me even though he doesn't write#hes just overwhelmingly supportive and it makes me so happy and I'm so blessed to have him#I'm here like you know its a really long drive and its going to be a busy day and i'm going to be networking#it won't really be fun for you are you sure you want to come you don't have to come if you dont want to come#but he's insisting he wants to go and ahh <3#etta rambles#etta rambles in the tags#delete later
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#im so tired of this lalalalalalalalaa#something is Wrong lol#i really need this therapy on wednesday but guess WHAT im not going. im going to a funeral instead 🤡#and ill be singing in that stupid fucking church because have to but i dont fucking wanna i hate doing it and i hate churches#all i feel rn is the overwhelming urge to selfdestruct and like obv im not gonna kms now#but im so fucking angry that im not even *allowed* to do that anymore. like it was such a comfort all this time to know that i can just Quit#and now i cant because guess what someone has to take care of my mother 🫠 and im so fucking tired of being someone people depend on#to handle THEIR feelings and THEIR emotions and just take it all with humility and acceptance and kindness and never snap and bite back#like i dont WANNA hear about your dead husband i dont wanna hear about your stupid fucking boyfriend#i dont wanna hear about the new guy/girl who's hitting on you because you're so hot and perfect#i dont wanna be responsible for how people feel. i should just shut up and take it and be humble and never ask or expect anything back#but when is it MY turn to call at 1 am crying about how im tired and want to kms#or to start expecting shit of people and allow myself to get properly angry at them for not meeting those expectations#or to braggingly 'complain' about something the other person clearly lacks without any consideration for their feelings#or to just openly cry and say deeply personal shit without any filter not caring if that other person is clearly uncomfortable af#because *i* need it right now and i need someone to listen and let them worry about how to even respond to that stuff#im just so tired of people expecting shit of me im tired of being made responsible even tho i clearly cannot handle that responsibility#i wanna be mean i wanna snap and get angry and openly say that i dont give a shit and am tired and cant listen to this rn#but i cant because i have to be a motherfucking mother theresa and never dare to demand something for myself#and idk where that comes from. idk if it's coming from the fanatic catholicism of my childhood or my mother or just from myself and idc#i just feel so horrible and guilty and wrong for wanting anything for myself#and it once again feels like im making myself the victim and the tortured martyr here when i should just shut up and take it#i just wanna lie down and die and not care about who'll get angry or judge or blame me for it im tired and i dont know what to do#i want someone to take care of ME and reassure ME and make ME feel like i matter and that they really will help me if i ever need it#and that they'd be kinda sad if i were gone not because i had a role to fulfill that i failed at by killing myself but because i am a person#<- math calculations flying around my head as i come to the terrible realisation#of just why exactly im so deeply obsessed with my voice teacher (aside from her being literally the most beautiful woman alive lol) 🤡#like babygirl stop being so utterly overwhelmingly kind to me my knees are weak i would do anything for you queen and I MEAN IT
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I feel like I want to go home but I don’t have one of those. I want to be near my best friend. I’m frightened by rampant and violent transphobia in our culture. I’m somewhere safe and secure but I feel vulnerable. I want to hide. I want to be left alone. I want to be near others. Everyone is so distracted and overwhelmed by life. I feel invisible. I want to be held.
#this is goggles#that’s the crux that never quite goes away#I want to be held so very much it’s like the thread my sanity hangs onto#I miss my habibi#but I also feel like I’m starting to get overwhelmingly needy#I feel like I need to be more aloof as not to be demanding and bothersome#I get more obsessed with partners way more than they do me and it’s just like a recurring thing I know I have to dial back to be paletable#it would feel nice to receive the kind of obsession I dish out#I don’t quite understand why I’m so different I kinda hate it about myself quite a lot#I just want to be held everything melts away into quiet peace when I’m held but just laying around snuggling for hours is massively boring#my body hurts so much less it’s like signifigant I don’t understand why it’s so signifigant#my right shoulder and my lower ribs and my neck especially#I wish my body wasn’t like this it continues to feel like a character flaw that I need to overcome#I want to find a doctor I can trust again but I’m more than a little bit overwhelmed by the prospect and mistrustful and vulnerable#Find some kind of magical way that I can make my body quit hurting#mend where I broke my ribs a couple years ago and find the source of the mystery organ pain and whatever happened to my shoulder#I wish I were building a house right now with funky 70s interior design#I wish I could afford to build a house#I wish I could force myself to just shut up and work some shitass job doing nothing of use like trading stocks and make bank and build#I feel antsy like I want to run again but I don’t actually I am perfectly content vibing right here#I can’t just keep running espesh with the fucky paperwork on my van#I am so tired of driving it’s so stressful#the road trip out here was notably brutal on me in a way no other road trip has been before#I miss my best friend I’m trying so hard to be patient for their arrival here#but some gnawing anxiety in my brain worries that they’ll put it off indefinitely and eventually back out#my own insecurity screaming that I’m not worth the massive life altering changes that moving out here with me would bring#my insecurity screaming that I’m not good enough#screaming that I’m too difficult and needy and strange and clingy and demanding and ill put together and chaotic and messy#I feel like I’m barely keeping it together I feel like I’m always teetering on the edge of total and complete life shattering failure#Like everyone around me only barely tolerates my presence and will throw me away and chase me off on a whim
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The secret 10th circle of hell Dante was unaware of at the time is retail
#we have a lot of substitute pharmacists and all of them are like. this is impossible. you guys literally can't work like this#ive just. given up? i care about the patients but doing the work of 3 ppl to make a number go up? i physically cant do it#and it's universal!! we're all fighting!! my coworker started tearing up in front of me today!!#I'm just. every time i get overwhelmed i ask myself. is this mine? and overwhelmingly. the answer is no#i put in all the effort for what? a shoutout in the group chat? i wanna put my effort towards something i actually care about#whatever doesn't get done doesn't get done and it is not my fault. I'm getting fast food and going home to draw and do stuff#i actually care about. god. god. fucking hostile to life itself. anyways. how's everyone doing this evening#no work tomorrow so i get to map out what i wanna do. wanna finish art. maybe start a business if the stars align#glitters or glimmers is the question... leaning towards glimmers; ive grown fond of it#shai speaks#actually might come back to this not as a vent post but as a genuine ''this is what i think the retail circle of hell looks like''#working retail is not a sin but the very existence of retail is 😤
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i cant believe that theres only one fic about being pissed on by gortash from bg3. the man is gross and stinky and would absolutely have no problem pissing on someone as some fucked up way of claiming ownership of them.
#piss kink#also not to derail this into my scent kink but.#while he probably doesnt smell overwhelmingly bad i bet he still has an overwhelming scent#a heavy musk... mmmm
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